Write What’s On Your Mind.

[Anonymous No.19675870]

Write What’s On Your Mind.

Old >>19666900

Theme https://youtu.be/RVBepOVScVg

[Anonymous No.19675880]

If it were within
Within our power,
Beyond the reach
of slavish pride.
To no longer
harbour grievances,
Behind the masked
opportunist’s façade.

We could welcome responsibility
Like a long lost friend,
And re-establish laughter
In the dolls house once again.
For time has imprisoned us
In the autumn of our years,
In the discipline of our ways
And in the passing of momentary stillness
We can see our chaos in motion
Our chaos in motion
We can see our chaos in motion
View our chaos in motion

[Anonymous No.19675893]

Will I understand women if I regularly read r/AskWomen?

[Anonymous No.19675896]

>>19675893
If you regularly communicate with women. Make them your friends.

[Anonymous No.19675917]

Why are all of you so afraid of sex?

[Anonymous No.19675948]

>>19675917
-live at home
-ugly
-poor
-dirty bed
-other guys she likes better
-stds
-cum quick
-having to entertain keep conversation
-afraid she see I'm ugly
-accidental pregnancy
-gross smelly pussy
-she wants to hang out tommorow and talk
-penis too small

[Anonymous No.19675955]

>>19675917
God

[Anonymous No.19675964]

>>19675870
i've bought around 20 books because of /lit/ but i don't ever read books

[Anonymous No.19675974]

>>19675893
The threads about women's issues are rather spot on, but I don't think the user base really represents the women you meet offline

[Anonymous No.19675983]

>>19675917
If anything I use it as an unhealthy coping mechanism to avoid responsibility

[Anonymous No.19675999]

>retard tier
Ben Shapiro
>middlebrow tier
Jordan Peterson
>smart tier
Roger Scruton
>based tier
Alex Jones
>highbrow tier
Aleksandr Dugin
>genius tier
Jay Dyer
>ascended tier
Father Seraphim Rose

[Anonymous No.19676011]

>>19675917
Im terribly afraid of her find out that I'm just a fraud and everything I do is just a facade for an empty person.

[Anonymous No.19676060]

>>19675999
Roger scruton is kinda superficial and ignorant when it comes to modern art, kinda like Paul Joseph Watson Level of Analysis. Yes, the can of shit is actually a creative piece of art

[Anonymous No.19676087]

[Anonymous No.19676098]

Tocqueville is so good, holy shit. Only other book that was as satisfying to read was Stirner.

[Anonymous No.19676130]

I suffer because I want to suffer.
I am lonely because I choose to be alone.
I am joyless because I avoid pleasure.

Because I prefer the fiction, the reality of things dies.
Because I avoid troubles, I cannot grow any further.
Because I don't listen to my heart, my mind steers me into chaos.

[Anonymous No.19676147]

It's been years that I have had this kind of "proud loner" mindset; I do indeed enjoy solitude and other people usually bother me a lot. But lately I have been feeling extremely lonely. I have no one to talk to, and the people I could talk to bother me to death.

[Anonymous No.19676162]

Two things keep popping in my mind, and I've already wrote about them in these thread but anyway.

1) I posted on Instagram a poem I made recently, the first ever piece of writing I've ever made public. It's a Canto wrote in hendecasyllables with rhymes about a peculiar place in my city. Like I've already said, something innovative and with so much effort that nobody has never done before. But still, it had a very little success, except for a very few guys that kinda understood the complexity behind that work. Today I had the hope that a page with a lot of reach would have shared it, but nothing. Expectations: once again broken.

2)I really like a girl whom I feel a great chemistry and makes, for many aspects, pale 90% of girls I've ever met. But she has a bf, 'nuff said. I don't know if she understood I like her but ignores this fact or something. Not even the first time this happens, and the last time, with another girl, went horribly

[Anonymous No.19676178]

>>19676162
Why would you submit a poem to Instagram. That is pearls before swine.

[Anonymous No.19676186]

>>19674393
let her know you're afraid you'll fuck up. she'll be nice, she'll feel prescious and you'll feel reassured. it's gonna be alright anon. you'll do fine.

[Anonymous No.19676201]

my niggas
I threw it all away

here's to throwing it all away.

[Anonymous No.19676213]

Jeff Bezos is the physical manifestation of our collective greed.

[Anonymous No.19676220]

Population pressure and technological progress bring ceteris paribus the career of the human species nearer to its end only because both factors cause a speedier decumulation of its dowry [of mineral resources]. ... [W]e must not doubt that, man's nature being what it is, the destiny of the human species is to choose a truly great but brief, not a long and dull, career

[Anonymous No.19676231]

>>19676213
I really do not understand why I should hate the man. He achieved greatness by executing incredibly well. Admirable in my opinion.

[Anonymous No.19676237]

watchu doing God?

whatchu got cookin?

fuck.

[Anonymous No.19676242]

>>19676098
Which one

[Anonymous No.19676258]

>>19676231
I've read through a comment section of a news article that was about rising the minimal wage and the wages in general, most of the comments were in favour of it, citing statistics about living standards and so on. The thought that struck me was, even if all of them became the double their wage tomorrow, it still wouldn't be enough.

[Anonymous No.19676267]

I hate that I am American.

[Anonymous No.19676269]

>>19676178
I know, many said the same thing. But still, I had various reasons to do so

[Anonymous No.19676277]

>>19676242
Democracy in America.

[Anonymous No.19676294]

>>19676258
They'd still demand more those greedy bastards. Bezos knows this, that's why he enslaved Amazon workers.

[Anonymous No.19676305]

getting the 3rd jab tomorrow

[Anonymous No.19676308]

I would like to be shot in the sternum with a high calibre revolver, point blank. one that goes "boom" rather than "bang". I want it to shatter completely the entire slab of bone. I fantasize about this many times a day.

[Anonymous No.19676316]

>>19676258
Wages for whom? Amazon white collar are paid incredibly well. Warehouse workers are paid around $15 now, right? But it is not like jobs anywhere else are better at that tier.

[Anonymous No.19676321]

>>19676294
>that's why he enslaved Amazon workers.
Amazon jobs pays far better than similar positions in other companies do. Complaining about Amazon jobs being slavery is incredibly out of touch.

[Anonymous No.19676324]

Realized I went through child to child sexual abuse (6 and 12/14 respectively) and now I'm blaming that for everything wrong with me. How to cope?

[Anonymous No.19676326]

>>19676267
I'm German.

[Anonymous No.19676331]

>>19676087
My niece got a bunch of these for Halloween and I stole every single one of them.

[Anonymous No.19676333]

>>19676267
Why? We are pretty awesome.

>>19676326
I'm sorry.

[Anonymous No.19676334]

>>19676326
I am Bavarian.

[Anonymous No.19676337]

>>19676326
Same. My condolences.

[Anonymous No.19676347]

Arguments against suicide?

[Anonymous No.19676350]

>>19676347
You can go to hell or you can get bad karma points and have an even worse life next time.

[Anonymous No.19676356]

I just bought a gallon tub of underwear sauce. That should last me for 2022.

[Anonymous No.19676359]

>>19676347
no barriers entertainment for your fellow humanoids.

[Anonymous No.19676360]

>>19676347
Honestly, the main things that kept me going is the fact that I am not a quitter. There is always time to remake yourself and it turned out well for me.

[Anonymous No.19676361]

>>19676359
>barrier entertainment
What?

[Anonymous No.19676400]

There will come a day where Humanity will be the bride, where she will wed herself to her husband-son, AI. Then we will be both of flesh and of something more. The lines between human and AI will blur and fade away, and we will be one.

[Anonymous No.19676430]

>>19676400
Transhumanists are a scourge

[Anonymous No.19676447]

>>19676430
We will either exhaust the Earth's resources and collapse into permanent feudalism, or continue technological development and create true, strong AI. If the latter is what happens, we will either merge with AI or AI will replace us. It is inevitable.

[Anonymous No.19676455]

>>19675870
>DCD
I already like you OP

[Anonymous No.19676461]

>>19676447
Those are by no means the only options

[Anonymous No.19676475]

I have no idea who I am and what my interests and goals are and I don't know how to figure it out. A lot of stuff is interesting, but none at the same time and I don't know what I should focus on or why.
I just lived directionless for all my life, trying to figure things out but never sure of what I was doing and now everything is going to hell and I know I'm not prepared for anything. I don't know what I should do.

[Anonymous No.19676477]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=karRE54LCCA

[Anonymous No.19676482]

>>19676333
I don’t hate America, or Americans. I just feel unsatisfied here for many reasons.

[Anonymous No.19676490]

>>19676360
Do you believe that? History, it seems to me, is written in stone. Try as you might, you cannot change the past.

[Anonymous No.19676495]

>>19675870

This quote reminds me of H.G. Wells's The Country of the Blind, it was a pretty good read. Anyone here ever read some of his other short stories? If so, what was your favorite

[Anonymous No.19676500]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JRDWHkoPajs

[Anonymous No.19676512]

>>19676490
Who cares about the past? Especially the insignificant past of one person. Move on.

[Anonymous No.19676531]

>>19676461
I cannot think of any other options.

[Anonymous No.19676537]

>>19676531
Not my problem gaylord

[Anonymous No.19676545]

desu being gay looks pretty chilled

[Anonymous No.19676568]

Poetry is hard to write
Words and ideas and visions and meter
It's hard to think and see and say
I have a feeling about something, an idea
In life I speak, I discuss, I prance, I humor

A great poem exists out there in the astral mists unmade
A poem is nothing but the aiming of many spiritual microscopes and telescopes
There is a great poem out there, monumental, elaborate, crafted supremely well full of nature and mystery and sparks
But I cannot at all make it out

It's shapes and features and curves, the polish on its brass bells and whistles,
It is magnificent how it is hoisted up there in the heavens draped in unfathomable light
But all I have are a few paltry words
And a daunting climb it seems to be to approach the base, and what order even should these words go in
And where to beginn and when to whiddle,

Poetry can be beautiful, sensual, physical, strings of words can be dripping and soaking
Reading can be boring
We have all many times heard words before
How can poetry be fun
Exciting
What can be worthy about creative expression with language
What can a valuable experience entail
What is the limit of spiritual and physiological extasy that can be gained from an organizing of how many words

When Is the end of learning
When is with the act of wanting something new
What could I want from poetry

A lifetime of wisdom for 5 minutes, I will forget 5 minutes later , but it will be there
We are jaded by the success of civilization, so far from the agony of when the words were first made
I could go on and on and it would please me to do so and be rewarding maybe for a few minutes but it would be hard
I want to keep writing because it is placing me in a hypnotic state, inside my head I am concentratedly active and have dissapeared from the world
In this moment I have in common with all poets in history,
To posses a writing implement, and etch thoughts and feelings into, to physicalize points of views, to encapsulate a mental picture of the times

Poetries have made me experience sublimities most prime
But the effort it takes is a if lack of multi tasking, boredom,
Rare rare a poem harnesses the sun
Rare rare a poem tastes like mango

Rare rare a poem nouishes
The most ever present core
Of the through line that you knew as a child
The realest truest you
Or at your days of grandest self discovery, with all the things one can do and be the you you swore was for all time truest
How sharp the laws of thought could be on a second by second basis
And how simply they are melted away with one or a million unconscionable scenarios

No a great poem must posses in them the vigor and polish of great statues in Rome,
See I'm not even sure of that line
And imagine the patient disciplined saint who tends with chisel and polish to their shards and webs and liters and mockquttes of poetry
Who unimaginably unbearably may in complete silence rub away at their manuscript
The ribbons of curly inkblots, adjusting each ones pitch and timbre

[Anonymous No.19676585]

>>19676490
>Do you believe that?
I know it.

[Anonymous No.19676612]

>>19675948
-Love
-Bathe
-Be genial, friendly, kind.

[Anonymous No.19676631]

>>19675999
Yes.
Okay.
No, scrut is middling as well.
Sure. Rightwing Rogan+Andy Kaufman.
Whatever.
Who?
Fuck that.

[Anonymous No.19676658]

I love women. I do not wish to infantilize them. This is a need to control the feminine, what is outside myself, and was likely conceived out of some silly defense mechanism learned in early childhood experiences.

I am tired of the dreams. They mean nothing, and I do not actually suffer in them. This is not true suffering, but rather some insularity propagating inner confusion, searching and resolving again and again. If I know this, why does it continue?

[Anonymous No.19676692]

buckbreaking the black swan -
a white nationalist critique on the asianic mode of production

[Anonymous No.19676693]

>>19675870
I wish to throw myself into the sea and drown, but oh will I miss the things & emotions that I enjoy!
Regret is stopping me and I hope it’ll keep me safe when my mood is low.

[Anonymous No.19676701]

>>19676693
>I wish to throw myself into the sea and drown
Do you live in a sea area?

[Anonymous No.19676734]

>>19676701
Yes a 15 minute bike ride.

[Anonymous No.19676737]

>>19676734
what country/region

[Anonymous No.19676750]

>>19676737
Stop being so nosey

[Anonymous No.19676755]

Mods hate philosophy, careful they might ban you. It’s fan faction.

[Anonymous No.19676764]

>>19676750
C'mon give me a hint

[Anonymous No.19676904]

Pretty much every day I want to drop out of society but I force myself to keep going. I spoke to my 51 year old uncle over Christmas and he warned me in no uncertain terms not to waste my life. He had to spend his Christmas alone because he has no friends or family and lives in a different country. He told me not to drift and take life seriously.

[Anonymous No.19676953]

>>19676755
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4dRdZ1Xcsbg

[Anonymous No.19677037]

sleep all day
in my room
sleep all day
sleeps till noon
like a corpse
covered in flowers
comes the smell of death
and babies breath
like the rain
that devours
all that's sweet and dour

[Anonymous No.19677123]

>>19677037
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iJvcN41H3Is

ear byþ egle eorla gehwylcun,
ðonne fæstlice flæsc onginneþ, hraw colian, hrusan ceosan
blac to gebeddan;
bleda gedreosaþ,
wynna gewitaþ, wera geswicaþ."

>Grave is horrible to every knight
>when the corpse quickly begins to cool and is laid in the bosom of the dark earth
>Prosperity declines, happiness passes away and covenants are broken

[Seine !ztj.TFX.eU No.19677150]

>>19675880
I liked that a lot, so much so that I translated it into Brazilian Portuguese, hope you're okay with that, anon, and hope that another lusoanon can feedback it.

Se estivesse dentro
Do nosso poder,
Além do alcance
Do orgulho escravo.
Para não mais
Nutrir mágoas,
Detrás da fachada
Do oportunista mascarado.

Nós poderíamos receber a responsabilidade
Como uma velha amiga perdida,
E reestabelecer o riso
Nas casas de bonecas outra vez.
Pois o tempo nos aprisionou
No outono de nossos anos,
Na disciplina de nossos caminhos
E na passagem da quietude momentânea
Podemos ver nosso caos em movimento
Nosso caos em movimento
Podemos ver nosso caos em movimento
Enxergar nosso caos em movimento

>>19676130
Unironically suffering more is great. There's a contemporary book about that and dopamine fasting (yes, and with a scientific background), it's Dopamine Nation: Finding Balance in an Age of Indulgence. Maybe you won't read it for the dopamine fasting but there's a lot of good insight on the benefits of suffering.
>>19676147
Find'em. Make friends wherever you routinely go. For me, it's the small market in my neighbourhood. Most of my friends are normies to who I wouldn't show my writing, but they're frens and you can have fun with anyone.
>>19676347
If you're in the suicidal mindset, you should realize that this feeling of not caring what happens with your life anymore (so much so that you are willing to kill yourself) gives you the power to do whatever you want. If you're unmotivated then read more and make more frens, unironically.

[Anonymous No.19677152]

Everything is fine forever and from where comes my urge to speak

What are the things I could realistically do right now

Tv is passive, I want to be interactive

What interactivity could I do now

I could speak

To who and about what

I could do something

What is there to do

What could I do

What could be fun to do

What could be interesting to do

What could interesting mean

What could fun be

Why is now not perfect

Why is being now not perfect

Thinking about what

Experiencing about what

If now we're perfect in a few now's from now it wouldn't be

And I then I may desire or do

What is there to do

What is there to desire

How do I choose which times with each

What could I possibly do right now

If I were to stop speaking I don't know what I'd do

If I were to stop speaking I might want something else to do

And Im not sure what that might be

I'm not sure of all the things that can be done

All the things I could want to do and how to choose when to do them

I am right now a being in a room, an entity in a world unsure what to do, with the strongest feeling of having the need to do something

I will cease thought
And see what comes to me


Nothing came to me, I closed my eyes in serenity and listened to 20 seconds of tranquil music

But I know I could not listen to 20 million seconds of tranquil music

For I will want to do something else, and what it is that could be done, I have no clue

Something must be done,
and the who how why of me chooses

Relatively unwisely and with always an amount of love

[Anonymous No.19677174]

>>19677150
>I liked that a lot, so much so that I translated it into Brazilian Portuguese
very cool

[Anonymous No.19677206]

>>19676631
what's your problem

[Anonymous No.19677231]

My parents are yelling and bitching downstairs about some gay political crap.
Who the fuck cares
Yeah liberals are retarded but I'm sick of hearing this shit.
The only thing more pathetic than stupid liberals is conservatives letting liberals dominate their minds 24/7
Find something more interesting to think about for crying out loud

[Anonymous No.19677233]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cJvXtdFwh4g

[Anonymous No.19677244]

>>19677231
Politics is theatre fren

[Anonymous No.19677253]

>>19677244
Yeah but it's boring and annoying

[Anonymous No.19677254]

i accidentally left a jar of pickles open in my room and now my room smells like someone smoked 10 packs of cigarettes in it. its weird how similar the smells are

[Anonymous No.19677263]

I am a once in a century avatar yet also fell prey to social media algorithms

[Anonymous No.19677274]

>>19677233
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_sVjm9AL46o

[Anonymous No.19677294]

>>19677244
My dad was just yelling and complaining about how the liberal media covers up dangers of the vaccine and deletes people on social media who speak out against it.
And yet he STILL intends to get the booster shot.
I don't know what his deal is. There is simply no reasoning with boomers. They yell and complain but when the time comes they obey whatever the media tells them.

[Anonymous No.19677425]

> Actress and comedy legend Betty White has died at the age of 99. She would have turned 100 years old on January 17.
Damn.

[Anonymous No.19677432]

Lads, I am feeling well droopy. Like mega wobbly. For reals, laddies.

Any thoughts to fix this, sirs?

[Anonymous No.19677439]

>>19677432
Have a sit down and order something meaty from a pizzeria?

[Anonymous No.19677507]

>move in with aunt and grandma to help take care of grandma
>figure I'll get some part time job for when my aunt isn't working and maybe have some spare time to read and write
>tfw I'm literally busy doing any and all kind of small bullshit all the time
I feel like I'm throwing away any potential future I might have to take care of someone who doesn't really appreciate it, but I don't know how to get out of it without blowing everything up.

[Anonymous No.19677517]

>>19675917
I would like to marry.

[Anonymous No.19677536]

Interview concerning a new book
https://rumble.com/vr9t7m-uncensored-rfk-jr.-tells-shocking-truth-about-anthony-fauci.html

[Anonymous No.19677542]

I have now completed Londonfrog's collected works, volume 1. I suspect the anon from yesterday saying it is all fake was probably trolling me.

[Anonymous No.19677565]

>>19677542
Fake, embellished, what’s the diff?

[Anonymous No.19677600]

>>19677565
He was saying that literally nothing described actually happened. Like if I would describe my life as a pirate in the 18th century. Embellished? Probably. But very likely autobiographical and rooted in actual lived experience.

[Anonymous No.19677607]

patience is hard but very rewarding. it turns out that when you let the pain churn, you end up with insights. like, processing emotions takes a toll but it really pays off. so it seems, so it seems. I'm blessed with time though, if I had more pressure on me I don't think I'd do the work.

[Anonymous No.19677637]

>>19677150
I realize that I have the freedom to do anything with my life from here on out, but what about life up to this point? I’m no longer a young man. If I were older, then I would suffer life until it’s inevitable end, but being not so old to suffer life without question and being yet too old to conclude that nothing as of yet has come together for me, why should I go on? It’s not as though I don’t want things. Of course I do, but one gets to a point where in must ask what’s really in store for them from here on out.

[Anonymous No.19677652]

most likely she has not gotten over me. although, to be fair, I've thought of little else for a long time now, and the perspective shifts over and over again. but it seems to be the case right now. our relationship was a complete disaster and probably the best either of us has ever felt, though it ended... a long time ago. I'm probably not over it either, shit it's likely I'm the only one not over it, but this night I feel over it and from this vantage point I can admit to myself (which I didn't want to do before as I didn't want hope) that she probably is not over me. I don't really care right now, although I could want her back.

[Anonymous No.19677658]

>>19677600
If you can call that lived.

>>19677536
Test
https://rumble.com/embed/vonn3q/?pub=4

[Anonymous No.19677666]

>>19677637
>one gets to a point where in must ask what’s really in store for them from here on out.
once you get better, and you will, you'll realize this doesn't really make any sense as a question. how you feel isn't down to these kinds of things, really. you can feel passionate about eating an orange, it isn't the orange that's the thing. unless you're an indentured servant (which I suppose is more or less possible) things are gonna mean something to you again in ways you can't really see now. I heard somewhere and I've felt it been true of depressions I had long ago, that it won't be that you will suddenly discover this great meaning you've been lacking, but rather that the question will seem inane.

[Anonymous No.19677677]

>>19677432
get hard

[Anonymous No.19677686]

>>19677432
sleep my nigga. can't sleep too much.

[Anonymous No.19677694]

>>19675999
> Fr. Florovsky next step after Fr. Rose
> Lossky after him
> Fr. Dumitru Staniloae after him
> Abby Shapiro final level

[Anonymous No.19677724]

>>19677666
I appreciate you offering reassuring words, but I can’t agree with them. This has been with me for some time. To put it bluntly, I’m doing well enough on paper, successful even, but inwardly, I’m beyond disappointed with how my life, and not just my life but life in general, has turned out. Every year, this feeling seems to grow stronger and I’m on quite a few years now. I like to think and hope there’s a place for me the big scheme of things, but the way in which nothing prospers for me leads me to believe there isn’t. I am simply too overcome with melancholy, and a certain degree of hindsight and regret to feel otherwise.

[Anonymous No.19677844]

>>19675999
>Father Seraphim Rose
Where start with this guy? His Life and Works biography?

[Anonymous No.19677891]

i think i'm gnna kill myself

[Anonymous No.19677905]

>>19677844
Yes it is very interesting and he is literally our guy.
His life before he discovered Orthodoxy is very similar to lots of disaffected young men today searching for truth and disgusted with modern culture.

[Anonymous No.19677909]

I feel completely useless. I'm a smart guy and I've always done well in exams from high school to college. I graduated first in my class at a prestigious university, but I just feel completely incapable of participating in society. I know I don't sound very sympathetic and there are much worse positions that one could find themselves in but just every single fibre of my being tells me to lie down and do nothing. I wouldn't say that I am 'burned out' because I have never felt very enthusiastic about life to begin with. I just want to do nothing but I also know that if I waste my 20s then my life will be exponentially harder in my 30s onward. I just don't know.

[Anonymous No.19677918]

>>19677150
>I liked that a lot, so much so that I translated it into Brazilian Portuguese
I’m fine with that. But does it go with the music now? (Dead Can Dance in the OP)

[Anonymous No.19677925]

>>19677891
Cringe. Yikes

[Anonymous No.19677935]

>>19677274
>capitalism is leftism
Everyone's so confused

[Anonymous No.19677946]

the new ariel pink compilation is pretty good

[Anonymous No.19677953]

>>19675917
look at it this way, the edgy cool thing in the 60/70s was promiscuity as a direct rebellion for the society of the 1950s. promiscuity is society now, everything is hypersexualized. abstinence, or even the dishonest claim to abstinence, is punk.

[Anonymous No.19677997]

>>19677935
Society must move through the capitalist stage to achieve the socialist one. Any thoughts to the contrary are revisionist and should be treated as such.

[Anonymous No.19678035]

>>19677953
>everything is hypersexualized
Apparently not. Otherwise you all’d have had sex by now.
Gosh. Imagine a nice hypersexualized world?
Like de Sade but without all that murder porn and shit.

[Anonymous No.19678040]

>>19678035
It'd be fun to visit but I wouldn't want to live there

[Anonymous No.19678058]

>>19675880
Dead Can Dance - In The Kingdom Of The Blind The One-Eyed Are Kings

[Anonymous No.19678114]

>>19677953
>abstinence is punk
lmao

[Anonymous No.19678230]

Sinking into restlessness happens so insidiously for me. Just waiting for things to happen before I can feel better, and I don't know how long that will take. This kind of situation is arguably the worst thing in my life right now, happens every month or two. I should be happy to relax, but I never can be.

[Anonymous No.19678266]

Everybody dies

[Anonymous No.19678296]

Rapidly approaching 30 and everything I've tried to improve my interior world has failed. Even as things in external life have improved I, myself, have not. I worry that I'm going to just stop trying altogether soon and let the agony kill me. I worry also that I will not and that it will just go on and on.

[Anonymous No.19678299]

>>19678266
Not yet.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19678304]

>>19678296
What agony?

[Anonymous No.19678352]

I recieved positive attention from a cute girl today

[Anonymous No.19678363]

I got asked out by a girl today. the problem is she's kinda of a fatty. Should I still go for it?

[Anonymous No.19678368]

>>19678304
Bipolarfag. It's like a cycle where every trip around takes a bit of something out of me. War of attrition.

[Anonymous No.19678371]

>>19675917
Small peepee

[Anonymous No.19678385]

>>19678266
>>19678299
I feel I will die soon. Not soon as in next week or anything (God willing), but in the grand scheme of things, soon. I spent my childhood reading about dinosaurs, animals who existed for 200 million years. I read about the 4.6 billion year old Earth and the 13 billion year old universe. I know of these truly ancient things, and yet I will only live for at most eight decades more. I do not have much time left. And yet on a human scale, I am young.

I don't really know what I'm trying to say. I guess the idea of death weighs more heavily on me than I would like. I just hope the Greeks were right and Elysium awaits.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19678432]

>>19678368
I went through terrible mood-swings in my twenties and at about 30 started to calm down. I doubt I was bipolar, but hopefully something will click for you too. Hang in there

>>19678363
On the one hand it’s just one date, do it, enjoy it.
On the other, if you’re not attracted, there’s nothing that can be done. (I mean maybe you’ll find her personality irresistible. I donno). But still, no reason to be rude. Enjoy. Be nice. I don’t see a problem.

[Anonymous No.19678447]

l am in a romantic/sexual relationship with my American cousin who is staying with me for 6 months

[Anonymous No.19678472]

>>19678447
Desu I admit that while I find the idea of incest with the people in my family gross, the idea of incestual relationships is really a turn-on.

Anyway, I don't consider cousins to be incestual anyway, they're fair game. Hope it works out for you two.

[Anonymous No.19678481]

>>19678472
We're actually 2nd cousins, and our parents are cool with it. l am conflicted emotionally.

[Anonymous No.19678486]

>>19678481
>l am conflicted emotionally.
Why? Seems like you have it made.

[Anonymous No.19678511]

I sit alone typing this up. My eyes stare into a lonely dot of light in the dark. My grin becomes crooked, pushing up my cheekbones, pushing up my eyes to stare at the dot. I let my face relax then, but my solom eyes keep their focus on that dot. In a sea of darkness, this single semblance of light could mean something. I could reach out and act like I could pick it up with my index and thumb. It is futile to imagine I could tangibly go to it. It is a dying species of sorts in the context of the room I sit in. The lamp right next to me could provide anything, but the warmth of the light and the softness of it just isn’t the same. It practically blends in with the darkness of the room before me. I wish I could crawl through that dot as if it were a tunnel. My mind races, thinking of a better world it could take me to. A world that will impose on me a new state of mind not bound by weights, my brain dragging them with strain. The weights of the social formations erected from the roots of the grass upwards, the material history developed over the course of two-hundred years made me stare. But at last, I am at peace expressing myself in type. The white star before me keeps me calm, makes me mellow, keeps me yellow.

[Anonymous No.19678520]

>>19678447
>>19678481
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ye5BuYf8q4o

[Anonymous No.19678852]

Whisky is the only hobby i have now and it’s already starting to fade.
I’m getting seriously depressed again.

[Anonymous No.19678915]

I feel as though my identity fluctuates based on my representation of women. If I think of them as capable of love and strength, I am my regular genuine 'ideallic' self. If I see them only as solely creatures concerned with the material and comfort, I feel myself narrow in scope and begin to hate myself for my inadequacy and failure to be concerned with such things. I flip between the two regularly sometimes rapidly.

[Anonymous No.19678962]

CREATOR/DESTROYER: One who actively seeks to destroy. One who deliberately creates situations where they can feed off the misery and exploitation of others, or themselves. These people often enjoy being in positions of authority. They are quite insidious. They love passing laws, making rules, restrictions, limitations and definitions. Creator/destroyers are often found in high positions in universities, publishing, main stream science, and academia. They are the worst kind of people because they acknowledge their status as creator beings to impose limitations on others. They often think of themselves as ‘leaders’.

DESTROYER/SLAVE: This is the largest portion of humanity. They live only to satisfy their hunger and sexual appetites. They are consumers. Advertising and main stream media seeks to create as many destroyer/slaves as possible. Destroyer/slaves create absolutely nothing. They are often motivated by fear. They are hardly above animals of the primate sort. They walk the earth believing that they are human because they can speak and walk upright and regurgitate facts. (These facts are usually defined by Creator/Destroyers.) They tend to speak more than any other type of human.

CREATOR/SLAVE: These are perfectly well meaning people who genuinely love their families and one and other. They have no ambition to be like creator/destroyers, but they are usually exploited by creator/destroyers. Creator/slaves are often persecuted and made to be the scape goats to harvest destroyer/slave’s fear and mistrust. Left on their own, they would not conceive of doing wrong, but they are usually exploited by creator/destroyers and religious institutions. They cannot conceive of the evil that enslaves them. Many Creator/slaves are actually sleeping Creator/Creators.

[Anonymous No.19678969]

>>19678962
CREATOR/CREATOR: This is the smallest demographic of the human race. They seek to bring forth beauty and universal truth. They are the priests in the ‘High Order of Melchizedek’. They have no desire to lead, but only to uplift others. They do not follow the precepts of any ‘social construct’. They are fully self aware and self referential. They have no political affiliations and seek to belong to no club or group. They are generally alone because their world view alienates them from any slave or destroyer (this is subject to change). Creator/Creators generally have empathy for others, especially creator/slaves. Great effort is made by creator/destroyers to thwart Creator/Creators. They are often marginalized and made to be thought of as insane derelicts who have no respect for ‘values and tradition’. As above, so below is the general credo of Creator/Creators. Theirs is the boundless generative power of stars. Creator/Creators are innocent in all they do, though they are always accountable. They do not fear physical death, for they know that all matter is a manifestation of higher dimensional forces and virtues which transcend time and space.
In a world run by CREATOR/DESTROYERS and filled predominately with DESTROYER/SLAVES, the path of the CREATOR/CREATOR is lonely and difficult, but infinitely rewarding. All destroyer people fear and envy creator types. They see them as a threat to their way of life and all that they believe to be real. CREATOR/CREATORS are above conflict and polarity. They are and always will BE. They are the oldest type of human.

[Anonymous No.19678972]

>>19678447
sounds like it will go nowhere but good luck

[Anonymous No.19679157]

>listen to https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0jXTBAGv9ZQ
>can remember exact feeling of opening Halo:CE for the first time as a kid on PC
>it's beyond "memory," beyond a "remembered mental image" or even a "feeling"
>it's like i'm remembering whole levels and dimensions of significance that i don't have anymore
>can only just barely touch it with my mind, can't fully relive or recapture it
>not even a big halo fan, it was just one random game i played back then

What IS this? Why does consciousness change in this way? Is this universal? Do some people still feel the way about new experiences, into their adulthood, the way I apparently felt about any random shit as a child? It's like I went from having four-dimensional consciousness to two-dimensional.

[Anonymous No.19679213]

There’s this absolutely CUTE and beautiful girl from the south that i can easily tell is into me. She’s literally waiting for me to make the first move and i’m so fucking depressed and down i can’t. A southern belle of my dreams and i can’t even fucking fake it.

[Anonymous No.19679228]

>>19675870
I strongly feel like writing but I have a plethora of stories to choose from. I feel like writing about making love and I feel like writing and enriching characters that mean so much to me and I feel like writing a good story filled with terror but I always feel so God damned drained afterwards and I don't want to write shit for months at a time. I hate that, I truly do and I wish to defeat that lethargy this year.

[Anonymous No.19679232]

It seems to be a basic truth that the gears of history are lubricated with blood. No movement of history, no moving forward from one epoch to another, seems to happen without great bloodshed.

[Anonymous No.19679240]

Summer and I'm sleeping like shit. So tired throughout the day.

[Anonymous No.19679273]

>>19675880
gay

>>19676130
gay

>>19676568
holy shit super gay

>>19677037
wow... profoundly honest. too bad it’s gay.

>>19677152
gay

>>19678511
gay

>>19678915
lol wtf

>>19679228
gay

[Anonymous No.19679283]

>>19676305
Proud of you, anon :)

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19679298]

>>19679273
>19675880
>gay
That’s Dead Can Dance. Finest lyricist alive

[Anonymous No.19679320]

I flash this at the book shop
What do you do?

[Anonymous No.19679357]

>>19679320
Scream

[Anonymous No.19679377]

more and more I'm becoming aware of the fact that I never stopped wanting a romantic relationship, I just gave up on it because I couldn't see a way it could possibly work out. I hate living with people, people hate living with me, my beauty standards are impossible but I paradoxically am grossed out by sex. The fact that I'm not even attracted to women my own age alone pretty much kills any possibility, and if I had that possibility I wouldn't take it because it just seems so abhorrent to do so. I feel like my dreams are the only real place I can have that aspect of my life, but unless I learn to lucid dream, I don't think I'm going to have that

[Anonymous No.19679385]

>>19679213
DO IT

[Anonymous No.19679412]

I have Mars in Cancer square Moon in Aries. No wonder Im so erratic and all over the place when it comes to emotions.

[Anonymous No.19679458]

To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks

[Anonymous No.19679542]

Large corporations, particularly those ensconced in technological advancement, have gotten on board with the project of societal destabilization -- but once in a while, one of these companies thrusts its own weapons into the hands of its would-be victims. Google Trends combined geographic density statistics with its search volume data. I not only know how many people are searching for 4chan, /pol/, or any number of dogwhistles, but from where those searches are coming. I don't even need to limit this to explicitly right-wing subjects, I could move to the place people are most searching for /lit/, or church. Anything works, as long as there is no confusion about why people are searching for the term.

[Anonymous No.19679561]

>>19676764
What does it matter to you?

[Anonymous No.19679638]

>>19679542
wat

[Anonymous No.19679708]

I cant seem to laugh in full voice. Its a chuckle or wheeze at most. What the fuck is wrong with me?

[Anonymous No.19679721]

>>19679385
But I’m gonna have to fake being happy and outgoing. She’s so bubbly and sweet my heart breaks. This is torture.

[Anonymous No.19679783]

>>19676531
Other planets exist retard

[Anonymous No.19679791]

I am thinking about the fact that everyone is good at something while I have nothing special to be proud of

[Anonymous No.19679804]

Does anyone else type a reply then delete it half way through because you realize you don't actually care?

[Anonymous No.19679808]

Can people make me a solid and go over there? >>19677668

Anon is asking for some book suggestions for 2022. Thanks

[Anonymous No.19679845]

>>19679791
>I am thinking about the fact that everyone is good at something while I have nothing special to be proud of
I think the very same but Im mentally ill.

[Anonymous No.19679866]

>>19679791
Most people aren't particularly good at anything

[OP No.19680286]

It is virulent to be mediocre

[OP No.19680328]

>>19679273
Gay

[Anonymous No.19680802]

bump

[Anonymous No.19680815]

>>19676347
Read the mohists.

[Anonymous No.19680843]

>>19675917
Because I am inexperienced and I know I will disappoint. I really should get my shit together because a lot of girls are flirting me but I lack confidence and self-esteem. And I am wasting my facking life here FAAAAAAACK. What do anons ?

[Anonymous No.19680858]

>>19680843
>I know I will disappoint
Others might not mind it that much.

[Anonymous No.19680862]

i want games 2 be synecdoche realized.
games do not have to be hauntological,
they can be actuators of equifinality
i just know, im sure they exist

[Anonymous No.19680878]

This year I'm gonna draw and learn guitar.

[Anonymous No.19681144]

cum omelette

[Anonymous No.19681184]

how do I get a bf like this?

[Anonymous No.19681200]

Did you go to camps as a child?
Did any story or game ever stand out to you? I'm thinking of memories from the camps I've been to and I mostly just remember doing some activities with my friends and not caring about anything other than the DND we played independently from the camps.

[Anonymous No.19681209]

>>19680878
are you me?

[Anonymous No.19681250]

>>19681209
C-Could it bee that you... are my soulmate...

[Anonymous No.19681280]

>>19681250
Don't know about that, but we can share inspiration. I'm learning Capricho Arabe with the help of this great tutorial https://youtu.be/muhg8aCLQzU (I've had some formal training on classical a few years back if it seems too advanced for a beginner). And getting drawing tips from Alphonso Dunn on YT.

[Anonymous No.19681284]

>>19676130
You suffer, but why?
https://youtu.be/ybGOT4d2Hs8

[Anonymous No.19681329]

>>19681280
Cool. I intend to learn the notes of the guitar first so I can move on to learn the chords, songs and so on.
For drawing, I've been reading Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain. They say it's good for beginners, I'm still on the first chapters, though.

[Anonymous No.19681352]

Im depressed as shit, i suck at everything i do and dont know what i want so i cant even suck at things i want to do or learn.

[Anonymous No.19681382]

>>19681352
read a good book

[Anonymous No.19681441]

>Woke up in the middle of the night fantasizing about BWC
I need to have sex good lord

[Anonymous No.19681447]

>>19681441
pretty gay of you

[Anonymous No.19681463]

>>19681382
Reading books is stressful.

[Anonymous No.19681678]

In my opinion intelligence is mostly measured through mathematical ability and logic. I have way more respect for people in STEM than anyone else, they are the elite in our society. The thing is that I am fucking horrendous at math and can’t help but see myself as a pathetic brainlet in comparison although I’m much better than my friends at things like English and history

[Anonymous No.19681690]

>>19679213
You’re a faggot, any guy would kill to be in your position but alas you’re a pathetic dreg

[Anonymous No.19681710]

>>19681463

You should try some Betrix Potter...
.... or you could just sleep on it.

[Anonymous No.19681765]

>>19677254
What use are pickles in your bedroom?

[Anonymous No.19681780]

>>19681678
>having respect for bugmen

[Anonymous No.19681790]

>>19681780
Math, science, engineering, medical etc are the most difficult fields to be in. It requires way more intelligence than being a good writer or a good orator. Everyone else are the real bugmen compared to surgeons, computer programmers and engineers

[Anonymous No.19681802]

>>19681790
I disagree.

[Anonymous No.19681809]

I hate to say "I'm not depressed, but..."

However

I'm depressed, but I can't justify taking any course of action. I don't want a gf, a wife, a family, a car, a large house, artistic success, pleasure, expertise, strength, knowledge or anything else anymore. I still get out of bed and do my cosy little job but I don't really enjoy it or engage with anything. What on earth is wrong with me, and can it ever be fixed?

[Anonymous No.19681812]

>>19681780
This.

>>19681790
Man, I am a CS PhD working at top US institutions. I can not emphasize how wrong your sentiment is. I hate STEMcels so much. Absolute weak-willed bugmen.

[Anonymous No.19681813]

>>19681809
*I'm not depressed

Fucked that one up

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19681818]

>>19681813
You can delete posts in a window of about five minutes.
Click post’s box
Lower right delete button

[Anonymous No.19681823]

I want to become a death cultist, wishing for the end of all earthly life, especially human. Like one of those Lovecraft characters that aid The Great Old Ones.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19681830]

>>19681823
Catholic Church is just the place for you.

[Anonymous No.19681833]

>>19681818
Cheers, will remember for next time

[Anonymous No.19681834]

There is nothing more awful than another person content. The sight of such a thing only ever serves to me as a mirror of my own dread. Even for those closest to me, I can never seem to "feel happy for them". Such a thing doesn't even in exist in my egocentric worldview
I wish I wasn't this pathetic vermin. I wish I could not feel these things, stroll around with no need to compare myself with others

[Anonymous No.19681897]

In general, I think that racial determinist thinking is wrong. "Import the third world, become the third world" is not true when it comes to science, technology, culture, etc. There is nothing innate in an African nation which makes becoming a hi-tech utopia impossible.

The one exception is politics. I do believe that a strong, healthy democracy free of corruption is only possible in a nation with a (by a large margin) white majority. It's not in the cultural history of other parts of the world to be democratic. Look at the Middle East for instance. They went from the Caliphates to their kingdoms to the Ottoman Empire to the colonial empires to autocrat states. Or how about China, which has been an authoritarian state for thousands of years? How can you expect such a people to be democratic? When they come to the West, their mindset does not change. Perhaps it is deeper than mindset, it is cultural.

I think the United States serves as a good example of this. Over time, as the white majority has shrunk, the country has grown more and more unstable. The January 6th riot may have been done by mostly white people, but they are merely vessels for this new American culture, born out of a shrinking white populace and a rising non-white one.

The only counterexamples to this are Japan, South Korea, and Taiwan. But those are temporary situations. I predict that all three will turn communist sooner or later; communism is uniquely suited for East Asian culture. As for the United States? We will follow the Latin American cycle of left-wing autocrat, military coup, right-wing autocrat, etc.

[Anonymous No.19682028]

>at grocery store this morning, self checkout
>wagie greeter on way out: you stay safe out there
what did they mean by this

[Anonymous No.19682048]

>>19682028
If you're American he's worried you'll get shot

[Anonymous No.19682054]

>>19682048
>try to walk in
>a screaming meth hobo was blocking the doors looking like he was sizing up who he wanted to assault that day
>inch around him and ran into the store
maybe the wagie saw that
god i love the left coast

[Anonymous No.19682058]

/lit/ has been on fire (in a good way) last couple of weeks. Wot happened?

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19682059]

>>19681897
"majority white" countries only had (imperfect) democratic governments after violent drawn-out revolutions, after centuries of despotic absolute monarchies. it wasn't the result of some popular racial spirit

[Anonymous No.19682061]

>>19681897
Interesting read. I am curious as to why you think there is only a single exception to racial determinism. It seems to me that if one exception is exists it is highly likely that others exist as well.

[Anonymous No.19682086]

>>19681897
I highly doubt Japan would adopt a communist government, I just don't see it happening.

[Anonymous No.19682091]

>>19675893
Women wear makeup to hide what they really look like. We're all so used to this that we actually think that when a woman puts her makeup on, this is more representative of the "real her" than what she looks like without it on.
Bear this in mind when listening to and reading what women say about themselves.
Men = reality
Women = appearance

[Anonymous No.19682093]

>5'1" turbomanlet
Tell me why I shouldn't blow my brains out

[Anonymous No.19682097]

I spoke in a previous thread about a friend who had experienced violence from his girlfriend. He was initially receptive of it, and now he's dug into denial.

I let him know that I was here for him, but I can't be around them. Out of my life just like that.

Having principles is painful.

[Anonymous No.19682098]

>>19682093
There isn't a reason. Do it if you want.

[Anonymous No.19682113]

>>19682097
Can you point me to your initial post? Then I will judge you.

[Anonymous No.19682115]

>>19682059
Superficially, maybe. But I think it's deeper than that. Whites see ancient Athenian society as their "source", and that was a (granted, imperfect) democracy. The idea of democracy was always there, in the same way that the idea of a meritocracy has always been there in Chinese culture.

>>19682061
Science and technology skills are transferrable. Cultural forms such as art styles and the like can be adopted. But government structures are not so flexibile.

>>19682086
China is communist. In history, Japan has always been somewhat beholden to China (the Japanese Empire notwithstanding). I expect Japan to follow China, as that is what they normally do.

[Anonymous No.19682120]

>>19682098
Thanks anon. I just need to gather the courage to do it. There is a part of me that wants to remain alive but I need to eliminate that part if of me

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19682134]

>>19682093
Cute short girls. Lots of them.

[Anonymous No.19682135]

>credit score dropped 50 points for literally no reason at all
okay. and we base our lives around this jewish kabbalah magic.

[Anonymous No.19682137]

>>19682134
All of then want taller guys

[Anonymous No.19682171]

>>19682093
God decides if you get married or not, not your height

[Anonymous No.19682180]

>>19681200
I went to one of those camps that's supposed to help with your attention. I think they called it a concentration camp. What a terrible name! Reminds me of all those tragedies.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19682189]

>>19682137
I’m talking shorter than you short.
Be a good catch. Confident, pleasant, has a direction. You can do it man.

[Anonymous No.19682201]

>>19682189
Not him but those also want taller guys. Honestly if anything the guy would actually have an easier time finding a gf taller than him than one shorter than him, from my experience short girls tend to go for tall guys even more than regular girls.

[Anonymous No.19682220]

The gray sky of snowfall is the most fascinating aspect of the winter to me. How can a sky that was once brimming with life and color, dancing along in a scenic opera of our very being, be reduced to the dull gleam of an unimaginable soul, yet still look as beautiful when looked at in the accompaniment of its blues and oranges? Filling my lungs with the crisp chill of the air and having my hair act as an almost airfield for snowflakes to land on, I look up at the sky and see the tranquility of its dance. It was a beautiful sight, with only the crunch of my boots and the shiver of trees in reaction to the wind acting as the soundtrack. Personally, it offered a nice relief, as the holiday season has been nothing but a mass frenzy for me. The prospect of getting a bit comfy and reading a book or two while sitting at the side of my window, looking out at the falling snow, is one that I will take any day.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19682235]

>>19682201
It takes all kinds really. Never be discouraged.

[Anonymous No.19682305]

>11k in the bank and 14k in stock portfolio
>too cheap to turn on the heat, sitting here being miserable and tensed up freezing to death
>just went grocery shopping and bought hardly anything that wasn't on sale, just a bunch of shitty poverty food
why am i like this

[Anonymous No.19682315]

>>19681765
i was eating them while gaming and then i went to do something else and forgot about them so the jar sat open for like 3 hours. the smell is gone now but holy shit it really smelt like someone smoked darts in my room. it was strange

[Anonymous No.19682329]

>>19682305
poor mans habit never die

[Anonymous No.19682374]

the worried purveyor of goats milk. this is what occupies me. the dream of the worried purveyor of goats milk, her fear and the caliphs nailbeds.

[Anonymous No.19682381]

I just got my booster shot :)

[Anonymous No.19682416]

4chan is poison for lonely people like me. And yet here I am.

[Anonymous No.19682430]

>>19682381

shill

[Anonymous No.19682433]

>>19682305
>tfw my foundation shifted from a year of intense rain and now i cant close my doors and windows all the way and its been -30 or worse for like two or 3 weeks straight so i have no choice but the run the furnace pretty much 24/7
the gas bill is going to be a nightmare

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19682463]

>>19681200
getting poured with rain because of poorly built tents

[Anonymous No.19682499]

>>19682381
same. got it today. so far it just hurts the muscle around the injection point.

[Anonymous No.19682516]

There was this girl I liked a long time ago and she came into my life out of the blue last year in again. She really showed interest in me and I was infatuated with her. I think I was never so tumescent with desire. Still, I ended up saying no because maybe I have anxiety about commitment, family disapproval but most of all she hated a lot of things I respected and so I don't think I could've admired her, loved her as a person and not a lover. I still think about her which has never happened. If I still think about her next year, I'll fight for her once more.

[Anonymous No.19682522]

run

[Anonymous No.19682588]

I want to play ff8 but the junction system is intimidating

[Anonymous No.19682949]

>>19682588
I agree, but you should know that ff games are never truly difficult

[Anonymous No.19682988]

>>19680286
I speak to a grand, etiolated nation

[Anonymous No.19683005]

>>19682516
You are without a doubt a big fucking juicy pussy

[Anonymous No.19683006]

I've sent you a jar of my nail clippings, as per your request. I couldn't afford the expedited shipping so it'll arrive in a week or two.
HEARTIEST REGARDS, anon

[Anonymous No.19683016]

>>19683006
Kys

[Anonymous No.19683026]

I am debating a self-identified jew in a YouTube comment section on Hegel and anarchy. This is a low

[Anonymous No.19683097]

>>19682522
Yo this was dope

[Anonymous No.19683111]

>>19683026
Stop

[Anonymous No.19683119]

I mean, Stephen King did it and look how far he got

[Anonymous No.19683191]

My horoscope says "love is possible".

[Anonymous No.19683213]

I've been sick but now my desire to drink alcohol is coming back. This is a sure sign that my health is returning.

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19683276]

https://youtu.be/xzs8w3fs-gI

[Anonymous No.19683286]

Ive just, for hours, edged to some of the most degenerate porn available and now that the deed is done im nauseous, my hands tingle, my right ear is ringing and im light headed. I feel sick.

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19683300]

>>19683286

[Anonymous No.19683307]

>>19683286
>I feel sick.
Probably a good thing. I don't get "post-nut clarity" or whatnot, I just perk back up. It's why I can go on and on masturbating for weeks on end, only stopping for necessities (food, showers, work, school, etc). Feeling guilt for it probably makes you stop.

[Anonymous No.19683340]

Self-portrait of myself

[Anonymous No.19683342]

https://youtu.be/mzk326gADUQ this got my bussy tingling

[Anonymous No.19683351]

>>19675870
I was born thousands of years too early

[Anonymous No.19683380]

>>19675999
>icoooner joel osteen
>anything other than election tourist tier

[Anonymous No.19683650]

alchemically this intention is the mixing in of the blood. as the blood is diffused into the mixture, so the mixture enters by way of light into my: blood.

[Anonymous No.19683655]

>>19683650
Nah

[Anonymous No.19683667]

>>19683655
thus becomes the blood a flashing image of a crystalline castle. the abdomen is sanctified, the cheek gains its rose. alchemically, this is the intention. The castle is held together with rope of twine. Trees grow on balconies, impossible to make out. The gulls make a home. Alchemically: this enters the blood by light.

[Anonymous No.19683688]

>"Comics' answer to Finnegan's Wake, an inspired work of obsessive genius that will take a long time to untangle." - Rob Salkowitz, Senior Contributor, FORBES

[Anonymous No.19683721]

I have been reassured by God again. He is certainly Forgiving, Merciful.

[Anonymous No.19683802]

>>19677294
Its just that your father probably sees that corporations and goverment repressing dissent and speech with a people's savior facade is the start of the end although in this particular case he thinks that the possible benefits of the shot outweight the risks.
He is not a dumb boomer and under you. Thats why he owns a big pristine backyard while you live in his basement and get woken up at 8 am on Saturdays to the sound of ACDC, a big riding lawn mower and Monster chuggin

[Anonymous No.19683807]

I really need to stop binge drinking and doing drugs. I'm serious this time.

[Anonymous No.19683823]

My anxiety makes it a total bitch to read. I have difficulty concentrating on words, my eyes keep wandering around, and reading a long paragraph is akin to torture.
Basically I'm confined to reading on my phone because the smaller screen helps me focus a bit more instead of lines of text sprawling on a huge monitor.

[Anonymous No.19683827]

>>19683823
read a smaller book

[Anonymous No.19683865]

>might be interested in book but want to know if it's junky
>look at the reviews on goodreads
>EVERY SINGLE ONE STARTS WITH A PARAPHRASE OF THE SAME SUMMARY I JUST FUCKING READ AT THE TOP INFO

WHY THE FUCK DO FUCKING NORMALFAGGOT FUCKSTAINS DO THIS FUCKING SHIT
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[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19683883]

>>19683865
Why are you complaining about social media again? Go read a legit review

[Anonymous No.19683891]

>>19675896
not OP but what if they annoy me? not in an incel way but genuinely

[Anonymous No.19683906]

>>19675870
I've never been able to make anyone happy. I wonder why I was even born.

[Anonymous No.19683912]

>>19683906
This post made me chuckle. Thanks, anon.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19683926]

>>19683891
You’re either too thin skinned or know only the most annoying women. Find good one to befriend and be nice.
I know many and don’t see eye to eye with many, but they’re always complementing and pleasant with me.

[Anonymous No.19683943]

>>19675917
I'm actually waiting for marriage. Not really religious, just seems to make sense to me. I only want a girl who would have 1 man and vice versa. Go ahead and laugh at how sad this is that it's exceedingly rare and maybe even delusional in today's society to hold this belief.

[Anonymous No.19683952]

>>19681812
Why? What's wrong with them?

[Anonymous No.19683967]

>>19675917
I'm afraid of intimacy in general.
Looking at it one way, I feel I have nothing positive to offer anyone through intimacy that would balance out the emotional and mental baggage I would bring to a hypothetical relationship, which gives me a convenient excuse for not trying very hard in social situations - "if I get close to someone I'll end up bothering or burdening them in some way so they're better off if I push them away preemptively" - and an excellent coping mechanism for being an unlikable sperg.
From a more internal perspective, I am afraid of opening myself up to other people because I feel that if someone came to know me deeply they would reject me for who I am, and for this reason I rarely voice my deeply-held beliefs or express my opinions on non-trivial subjects.
And from a third perspective, I am a guilty person by nature and feel that due to my immoral deeds and thoughts, I do not deserve intimacy, which I desire dearly despite my fear of it, leading me to reject others' advances out of hand, because I feel that if I allow myself to enjoy a close relationship with another, I will in some way be committing an act of injustice.
When it comes to sex specifically, I fear it as I fear all forms of intimacy, promising myself that I will reject any sexual advances I may receive - though of course I have received none and probably won't receive any as long as I continue to see my relationship with others in this way.

[Anonymous No.19683977]

>>19683340
Yes, you should.

[Anonymous No.19684423]

>>19683883
from who, you dyke, a (((critic)))? a paid journalist? a booktuber? fuck off

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19684437]

>>19684423
Shop around.
I would read film reviews from guys I hated and a halfway decent review came through and I could tell if I’d like the film or not regardless of what the reviewer said.
Just stop whining about people and their social media blurbs. It’s so unimportant.

[Anonymous No.19684458]

i swear to god butters is experiencing eternal PMS.
its not even a theory anymore

[Anonymous No.19684459]

>>19675893
No one understands women, especially women.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19684482]

>>19684459
As I’ve tried to inform you all. Women are multifaceted. It’s not really all that mysterious.

>>19684458
Do you have a problem?

[Anonymous No.19684511]

>>19684482
>As I’ve tried to inform you all. Women are multifaceted
jej you've done virtually everything you can to prove otherwise. you are right that its not all that mysterious though

[Anonymous No.19684520]

I love butters. I wish I could hug her.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19684527]

>>19684520

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19684551]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o1-KhODAwQs Marx to Kriege in his Circular Against Kriege

[Anonymous No.19684582]

I want to kidnap Eva Green and impregnate her.

[Anonymous No.19684595]

>>19683667
Edgy gayness permits this board to no gain

[Anonymous No.19684602]

>>19684595
*permutes

[Anonymous No.19684617]

>>19684437
you stupid cunt the point of reading the review was to know if i ought to waste my time on the book and if it wouldn't be lousy or not. rooting through the net for 10 hours to find reviews from this and that fucking outlet is against the point.

[Anonymous No.19684623]

>>19675917
I'm afraid of embarrassing myself infront of a cute girl.

[Anonymous No.19684626]

>>19684582
>blonde Eva
Heresy

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19684631]

>>19684617
Are you just being rude on purpose or are you really that thick headed?
Find your Ebert of books. And/or shuddup.
Enjoy.

[Anonymous No.19684642]

All I want to accomplish, writing wise, is a Harry Potter inspired book series with magic and Hogwarts-like setting but with cute aliens and space stuff too.

[Anonymous No.19684658]

>>19684642
Ur shooting low imo

[Anonymous No.19684726]

>>19684658
AI will automate writing anyway. I might as well write something I'd enjoy reading.

[Anonymous No.19684732]

>>19684726
And therein lies the rub

[Anonymous No.19684735]

A mystery about trying to figure out who farted in an elevator.

That will be my entry to a short story

[Anonymous No.19684758]

>>19684626
She's naturally blonde

[Anonymous No.19684760]

>>19684758
With those eyebrows? Cap

[Anonymous No.19684771]

>>19684732
wdym

[Anonymous No.19684772]

>>19684760
https://wap.business-standard.com/article/pti-stories/ditching-natural-hair-colour-was-fun-eva-green-115052300274_1.html

[Anonymous No.19684776]

>>19675870
I'm so tired, /lit/. Everything is hard.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19684792]

>>19684776
>>19675880

Leave it with me.

[Anonymous No.19684794]

>>19684726
>AI will automate writing
Do people really believe things like this? A dismal worldview to say the least. Pretty stupid too.

[Anonymous No.19684811]

>>19684794
Why do you think this isn't the case? I've always assumed it will be so.

[Anonymous No.19684816]

I hate touching people and I hate being touched.
I wish I could find someone who was comfortable with me touching her and comfortable touching me in turn.

[Anonymous No.19684817]

someone make a new thread before butterfly does

we cant keep feeding her ego

[Anonymous No.19684833]

>>19684817
Okay

New thread
>>19684830
>>19684830
>>19684830

[Anonymous No.19684919]

>>19675870
Is there a nice edition of Erasmus’ ‘Adagia’ ?
Something like Everyman’s Library.

[Anonymous No.19684951]

To borrow a stead is to lie to one's father. No words to tall to make the sailor fall. Great where the men of babel, greater will be the men of the near abyss. Thise who dare the darkness face themselves. The darkness stares with the same indifference. I have seen the bosom of the universe, and I was not afraid. For I drowned in my own shit. Blessed is he who in the name of the lord, shepherds the weak through the valley of the shadow darkness for he is truly his brothers keeper and finder of lost children. And you will know my name is the lord when I lay my vengeance upon you. Abraham, Noah, Cyrus, the just shall not enherit but shall be blessed.

[Anonymous No.19685193]

>>19675999

Don't tell me you follow these losers, anon

[Anonymous No.19685395]

I love my cats.

[Anonymous No.19685395,1]

>>19683967
Hey, I just wanted to say that I really relate to everything that you’ve written here, and I feel a lot of empathy for your situation. I want you to know that you’re not alone. I’m also guilty by nature, and because I judge myself so harshly for all of my many shortcomings, I sometimes struggle with negativity and can be judgemental of others. I spent many years thinking that I was a uniquely immoral and disturbed person, and that I didn’t deserve love or kindness or forgiveness from anyone. I still feel that way a lot, but I try to remind myself that those sort of self-hating thoughts are irrational and distorted. Here are some things I’ve learned that have helped me a little bit:

Please remember that every single person alive has had immoral thoughts or done immoral things at some point. You’re not a uniquely bad person: it’s just that you’re judging yourself based on firsthand knowledge of all of your worst thoughts and actions. When you judge others, you judge them on the small fraction of themselves that they expose to the outside world— you don’t actually know what’s going on in their heads, or the thing that they do in private. You’d probably be shocked if you knew the complete reality behind the public lives of people that you might perceive as better and more worthy than you. Everyone has the capacity to be selfish and act in a way that’s harmful.

Does this mean that nobody is deserving of intimacy, because all of us are flawed and imperfect beings? Of course not. Having done bad things doesn’t mean that you’re an inherently bad person. The bad choices that we make and the bad habits that we develop are generally in response to suffering: we develop negative coping mechanisms in order to deal with personal or emotional difficulties that we have experienced in the past. When you act in ways that you later come to regret, the very fact that you regret your actions shows that you have a functioning moral compass and have grown and matured as a person. If you were truly a selfish, wicked, immoral person, you would just do whatever you wanted without caring whether it was wrong or how it affected others.

Even though guilt is uncomfortable, you should try to channel it into productive action. Try not to allow guilt to cause you to unproductively ruminate, because no amount of self-castigation will ever change the past— it’s set in stone. It’s easy to shame yourself as a form of self-punishment, but if you allow yourself to do so, then you’ll just remain stagnant and suffer indefinitely. Guilt is a messenger: it reminds you to do what you can to make things right with people that you may have wronged, and to make a concerted effort to do better in the future. At the risk of sounding trite: “Who you are is what you have done. Who you will be is what you do now.” But also, please keep in mind that aiming for perfection is unrealistic. You’ll continue to make mistakes throughout your life— all that you can do extend yourself grace, and aim to persevere and keep on learning.

In relation to your emotional/mental baggage, please try to think about it this way: if someone that you cared about and were interested in had the same baggage, would you believe that they were
undeserving of your love? Or would you want to empathize with them and help them work through the difficulties they were facing? I know it’s easier said than done, but try to grant yourself the same measure of compassion that you would grant to others.

I feel sure that, whatever you’ve been through or whatever you’ve done, you’re not an inherently undeserving or unlikeable person. You deserve love, compassion, and understanding. Based on what you’ve written, you seem articulate, self-aware, and concerned about the ethical implications of your behaviour, all of which tells me that you have many positive qualities. I strongly believe that you’re a good person at heart, and that you probably judge yourself too harshly. Even though we’re strangers, I really care about your well-being, and I wish you all the best.