Write What's On Your Mind

[Anonymous No.19543092]

[Anonymous No.19543101]

yup

[Anonymous No.19543116]

i’m socially stunted from being too shy my entire life and not engaging in healthy relationships with non family members and while i approach 30, i’m beyond the possibility of ever living a normal life because of it. it’s over

[Anonymous No.19543124]

>>19543116
Same. I'm only 21 though so I still hold out hope that I can get my act together. Either that or descend deeper... I have the feeling soon I must go deeper into a hole. That it is inescapable.

[Anonymous No.19543136]

>>19543092
Bad pic choice. Very bland

[Anonymous No.19543137]

i hate computers

[Anonymous No.19543155]

>/sffg/
>three threads
>ALL of them are full of spam
What attracts these niggers? Do they just gradually get banned off of all the faster boards until they finally retreat to obscure generals with zero moderation?

[Anonymous No.19543162]

>>19543136
I don't like these weeb/shallow cyberpunk ones, I think variety is better and keeping it /lit/ related is good.

[Anonymous No.19543164]

>/sffg/
>last three threads
>ALL of them are full of spam
What attracts these niggers? Do they just gradually get banned off of all the faster boards until they finally retreat to obscure generals with zero moderation?

[Anonymous No.19543179]

>>19543164
one is the old one over bump limit, one is the normal one, the other is the anime spam one made by the tranny obsessed with visual novels and "vtubers." there has been a mild civil war on /lit/ with some weeb trying to make all the generals and losing his shit when people ask him to stop or try to make them before he does.

[Anonymous No.19543182]

lest thread:
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[Anonymous No.19543185]

>>19543164
Bakkerfags just spamming their shit over a year now. They’ve gotten even more obnoxious and insisting they’re victims. They should just fuck off to their discord and reddit.

[Anonymous No.19543190]

>>19543162
Cyberpunk is fine if only they'd post something more interesting or abstract. Like pic related.

[Anonymous No.19543206]

>>19543092
Hopefully my date goes well...

Otherwise:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yhbe3ueCLPw

[Anonymous No.19543215]

Music for the thread

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7qqHksQFaNo

[Anonymous No.19543229]

>>19543215
>>19543206
See above actually.

[Anonymous No.19543230]

I've been pondering about wether the death of a many people close to me has contributed to my current state of wellbeing. And I found out that it has. Now, that may be fairly obvious and not really insightful, but it made it clear to me of what I must do. So, I bid you farewell, fellow anons.

[Anonymous No.19543233]

>>19543185
>Bakkerfags
I don't think I've ever seen a group of schizos seethe that people read different stories. They made /sffg/ unusable.

[Anonymous No.19543251]

I have no forums to hang out in where I feel like I belong. I lost my female friend and I'm 25 and I have too much in my heart that I can't articulate or share with anyone. I'm in agony from the shrinking feeling that the world will pass me by and I will miss out on everything this side of Jerusalem. I ask God to talk to me everyday so I can have a friend who understands me but he won't. I can't find anyone. I can't find anyone. I can't find anyone.

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19543253]

>>19543215
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zFf8oOO7NmQ

[Anonymous No.19543284]

My neighbour's cat has started sneaking into my house through a window that doesn't close properly. I wake up each morning with him sleeping on my bed, purring like a tractor. He looks like the cat in the webm I'm posting.
He cute.

[Anonymous No.19543315]

I'm shitting liquid

[Anonymous No.19543374]

I’m so bored and it can’t be ignored,
Shit’s so bad that I almost snored,
aint nothing I can afford, no praying to the lord, that will make my time adored

No taking a tour, no going door to door,
Nothing in store but to stare at the floor because :
I’m bored, I’m mothafucking bored, and that’s my word

( black female soul singer chorus: Bored bored bored, I’m mothaaafucking bored, fuck me I’m bored, bored bored borreeed)

Tedium is my medium, it’s not funny, I aint no comedian, I’m pleading man, for something interesting to do, but I’m stuck on my ass like glue
cuz I haven’t a damn clue who, or what, to hit up or go to, because I’ve had enough with all my stuff, you could say I’m in a rut

Cuz I’m bored, I’m mothafucking bored, that’s my word.

( Chorus: Bored bored bored, I’m mothaaafucking bored, fuck me I’m bored, he’s bored bored bored oooooh yeah baby baby come on)

Nothing’s doing the trick, like the flu I’m sick, of all the same old activities, it’s a tragedy,
in fact a calamity, that I only live once but of fun I’m having none, there aint shit under the sun that appeals to me, seriously, maybe it’s destiny, and there’s nothing left for me because I’m bored…

(Outro)

I’m fucking bored bro

(Outro Chorus : black female soul singer trio)
(Just give me something to dooooo)
(Oh lord I’m begging ya please!)
(Anything to dooooooooo)
(Help me, I said help me baybay)
(Anything to dooooooooo)
(Give me something , just something, I said something to do now! ooooh ooh oh yay-e-yay-e yeah yeah)
(I need something to do! Anything! Somebody please give me anything) AaaaaaAAAAAAaaaAAAAanything! Ohhhhhhhhh woah oh a )

(fade out : anything to doooo …. anything to doooooo, anything to dooooo)

https://youtu.be/cG_E_NsMoMc

[Anonymous No.19543380]

I feel like I have to expend all of my concentration and will power just to have a normal body fat level.

[Anonymous No.19543397]

I just made this image. What do you think about it?

[Anonymous No.19543414]

>>19543092
Procrastinating hard. I have 4 hours to write a 6 page paper. FUCK. Why do I do this? I've spent the entire day reloading pages on /lit/ I hate myself.

[Anonymous No.19543450]

>>19543092
Is it possible - that we are in Hell?

[Anonymous No.19543457]

>>19543397
I think the Christian idea of fellowship has never existed in reality. We are innate materialists, unfortunately. We are in hell.

[Anonymous No.19543459]

I am so fucking ready for Christmas.

[Anonymous No.19543486]

>>19543459
hell ya dude there's like one week of the semester left and then it is time to fucking loaf. i'm not giving myself any bullshit goals like read this, or write that code, i'm just going to do whatever the fuck comes naturally, might be productive, probably won't, don't care. christmas to new years is 100 percent guilt free slacking time.

[Anonymous No.19543489]

In my opinion, if we wanna fight the war on terror, we should start with this country's haunted houses!

[Anonymous No.19543492]

>>19543457
Materialism only properly developed with capitalism which developed with Anglo liberalism. Even if there's always been an element of materialism in humans, it accelerated a lot in the last century and even harder in the past decades

[Anonymous No.19543499]

>>19543459
My buddy's company gave away a bunch of gift cards, meals, gifts, umbrellas, bonuses, etc, for Christmas. The company I work for is Jewish, so they don't like Christmas, and instead they've been asking us for donations. I'm not kidding.

[Anonymous No.19543530]

>>19543499
That is incredibly gay and embarassing. Imagine having to ask your employees for free money. My company is giving everyone a $75 dollar bonus, and anytime my boss gets sent a holiday gift basket by another company he lets me pillage it before giving the rest away to other people. I got 2 bottles of wine and a bunch of cheese and crackers so far lol.

[Anonymous No.19543537]

Big purple wasps. 6 feet long with a 6 inch stinger. They live deep underground in pits and are intensely aggressive. They like to be scratched on the back though

[Anonymous No.19543543]

>>19543092
I have this reoccurring dark lump on my ass. It develops for a few days, reaching its apex in about 3 days, and then recedes for some months. It makes sitting on my left butt cheek quite painful when it is present.

[Anonymous No.19543545]

>>19543543
Sounds like some sort of burrowing creature

[Anonymous No.19543591]

>>19543499
Fucks sake.

[Anonymous No.19543605]

>>19543545
Its me. I'm burrowing into anons ass

[Anonymous No.19543607]

I wonder how I can interact with the spirits in my head

[Anonymous No.19543666]

>>19543607
I did this over three years during what I called the descensus ad inferos. I was given many messages, all of which I kept in a notebook which I still have in my closet. I don't utter them to anyone. They're basically cryptic messages regarding history, teleology, the purpose of thinking, etc. Nightly dreams of playful archetypes started turning into visions of tunneling into the earth, and eventually of falling through voids and being terrorized by giant spirits in outer space. Finally I produced a nine-step guide to invoking voices, after which suddenly the voices stopped. Then I received my first and last waking vision, which involved Christ. I converted and never heard from the spirits again. I will not elaborate.

[Anonymous No.19543723]

>>19543545
Please don’t. I choose to believe it is a cancerous tumor, and my days are numbered. My hair is falling out, I have had very little energy the past year, I feel my passions dwindling, I don’t care to cum or leave my apartment or make eyes at pretty girls. I want this tumor to spread so my entire ass is one pulsating, tender dark blotch, and then my legs, up the chest, only my eyes remaining untouched by this “burrowing creature” as you put it. But really I don’t want to die. I want to live as a sore, dark blotch, unable to move without discomfort, always in the standing position. To me this is more preferable than my miserable existence as a mediocre wagie with a sore ass cheek.

[Anonymous No.19543785]

>>19543459
I was conditioned to not like Christmas.

[Anonymous No.19543787]

>>19543137
I do too. I want to ditch my phone but I just hesitate for some reason.

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19543801]

quietly hacking away
never gonna be able to find or start a business for my ideas

[Anonymous No.19543812]

recommend me a kettlebell exercise that can blast my triceps. i just did kettlebells and my biceps are feeling it, but my triceps never get any. i do overhead shoulder presses close to failure on the last set, and my total arms and shoulders feel it, but it's not like doing curls where you biceps are on fire. i'd ask on /fit/ but those guys are mostly closeted dudes trying to lift the gay away, so i'd rather get advice from a greek appreciator here.

[Anonymous No.19543822]

>>19543812
Pic related are pretty good. I find dips and pushups are sufficient though really

[Anonymous No.19543837]

>>19543822
i'll try those, my lightest kettbell is 35lb tho i hope i can at least get in like 5, shit that's gonna be tough, i'm not that strong lol

[Anonymous No.19543845]

>>19543822
>>19543837
oh fuck i got halfway through one and it felt like my shoulder was going to pop out of the socket lmao fuck

[Anonymous No.19543847]

>>19543489
Existentialism is my main source of terror so maybe we need to fire a few nukes at existence

[Anonymous No.19543853]

>>19543845
It's an isolation exercise so you really dont need that much weight

[Anonymous No.19543860]

>>19543092
What are your ideas

>>19543801
Biden announced that the USA will aim to achieve zero emissions by 2050. China aims for 2060, the European states a little earlier than both of those. We may actually survive global warming, assuming this actually gets pulled off.

[Anonymous No.19543866]

>>19543860
>We may actually survive global warming, assuming this actually gets pulled off.
It won’t.

[Anonymous No.19543878]

>>19543860
There is literally zero chance China achieves that

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19543879]

>>19543860
hardware synthesizer stuff, miscellaneous electronics, stuff like that

[Anonymous No.19543895]

>>19543866
Probably right but one can hope.

>>19543878
Well, at the end of the day sea levels are going to rise on the Chinese coast, and there's a billion Indians who will be heading north as climate refugees. (China might try to shoot them all but it's never that easy). Not to mention food supply issues. In this one thing, the USA and China are in the same sinking boat.

[Anonymous No.19543904]

>>19543860
global warming is fake tho anon

[Anonymous No.19543905]

>>19543895
There are plenty of examples where societies found themselves in a sinking boat and just let the water keep pouring in.

[Anonymous No.19543906]

>>19543878
global warming hysteria is an anti-china psyop bro but that's not necessarily a bad thing

[Anonymous No.19543918]

>>19543905
Not at this level. Every single civilization on Earth will collapse, billions will die.

[Anonymous No.19543921]

>>19543860
>"Biden announced that the USA will aim to achieve zero emissions by 2050. China aims for 2060, the European states a little earlier than both of those. We may actually survive global warming, assuming this actually gets pulled off."
>He actually takes this shit at face value
ngmi

[Anonymous No.19543927]

>>19543918
you think the sea level rising 10 inches in a 100 years is going to kill billions of people? get a grip, kid.

[Anonymous No.19543937]

>>19543927
I think the sea rising a meter+ by 2100, coupled with droughts in the most food-stressed regions of the world, alongside all the other ecological issues we face, will indeed kill billions.

[Anonymous No.19543940]

>>19543937
How much has the sea level risen so far?

[Anonymous No.19543948]

>>19543918
>Not at this level

It's only been possible at this level for a very short period of time.

[Anonymous No.19543949]

>>19543940
This. Mind that it's 2021. 2021, and these clowns have been harping about rising sea levels for 20+ years. Twenty-twenty one, and nothing.

[Anonymous No.19543953]

My life feels deeply unimportant but to be honest, I’m not sure what I could or should be doing that would be important. I want to be an important person, a man of ambition, someone who had a fate and destiny and meets it. That seems almost impossible to achieve these days without deceiving yourself.

[Anonymous No.19543956]

>>19543940
Global average sea level has risen by about 8 inches (about 21 cm) since 1900, with about 3 of those inches (about 7.5 cm) occurring since 1993.

(From https://www.globalchange.gov/browse/indicators/global-sea-level-rise))

[Anonymous No.19543963]

>>19543956
sound the mfing alarms

[Anonymous No.19543964]

>>19543949
The glaciers must be taking a vacation somewhere then

[Anonymous No.19543965]

>>19543956
so how did the sea level rise 8 inches in the 20th century without causing civilization to collapse? what makes the next 8 inches so much more crucial than the last 8 inches?

[paul mcfardney No.19543967]

>>19543965
sneed

[Anonymous No.19543969]

>>19543965
wypipo

[Anonymous No.19543971]

>>19543233
Why haven’t mods done their jobs in /sffg/? The last couple threads have been nothing but spam? Shit, just looking at the picture makes me wonder if we even have mods.

[Anonymous No.19543977]

>mfw detaching from my own body
>mfw detaching from my own thoughts and experiences
>mfw seeing sensory input, pain, pleasure, etc as if they're objects I can reach out and touch or push away
>mfw reading this because I sound like a schizo
>mfw watching my fingers type the words on the keyboard as they move by themselves

[Anonymous No.19543979]

>>19543965
It's not the next 8 inches, it's the next 2+ feet. How will civilization survive when many of the coastal regions where the majority of people live are underwater?

And even if we build a ton of seawalls or whatnot, that doesn't solve the water and food scarcity issues. Hell, it was only the 2010s and climate change arguably caused the Syrian Civil War.

[Anonymous No.19543984]

>>19543971
isn't bakker on topic for those kind of threads tho? i mean the samples of his prose i've seen posted are just god awful, but isn't that what sffg types go for?

[Anonymous No.19543986]

>>19543979
They'll just... move?
You know most of the world's grains aren't grown on the coast, right?

[Anonymous No.19543988]

>>19543965
Climate change in the 20th century was responsible for a large increase in natural disasters and severe ecological damage all over the world.

[Anonymous No.19543996]

An adrenaline rush begins in the brain. When you perceive a dangerous or stressful situation, that information is sent to a part of the brain called the amygdala. This area of the brain plays a role in emotional processing.

If danger is perceived by the amygdala, it sends a signal to another region of the brain called the hypothalamus. The hypothalamus is the command center of the brain. It communicates with the rest of the body through the sympathetic nervous system.

The hypothalamus transmits a signal through autonomic nerves to the adrenal medulla. When the adrenal glands receive the signal, they respond by releasing adrenaline into the bloodstream.

[Anonymous No.19543997]

>>19543988
[citation needed]

[Anonymous No.19543998]

>>19543988
[Doubt]

[Anonymous No.19544001]

>>19543986
>They'll just... move?
And what happens to global stability when hundreds of millions of Arabs/Africans move to Europe and the same number of Southeast Asians try to make their way to China and Australia?

>You know most of the world's grains aren't grown on the coast, right?
Of course, but the droughts and water shortages caused by climate change will ravage them.

[Anonymous No.19544002]

>>19543996
did you mean to paste that into your bio homework not 4channel.org?

[Anonymous No.19544005]

>>19543984
Honestly, the entire Bakker spam has been killing /sffg/ since it kills other discussion of books. Not really help is that they keep on repeating the same shit over and over again.

[Anonymous No.19544009]

>>19544001
so global warming only seems to effect developing regions? how come it's never rich people fleeing europe taking over land in africa or south asia? which would be a lot more likely if this fantasy scenario ever came to pass.

[Anonymous No.19544024]

>>19544009
Africa will become a hellhole worse than it is now because of global warming. Same with Asia. The rich are buying up land in New Zealand though. Lots of investments in bunkers and the like.

[Anonymous No.19544028]

>>19544009
look my wifes boyfriend said climate change is real and thats why i have to leave vancouver, its just tru OKAY?

[Anonymous No.19544035]

>>19544002
Once in the bloodstream, adrenaline:
>binds to receptors on liver cells to break down larger sugar molecules, called glycogen, into a smaller, more readily usable sugar called glucose; this gives your muscles a boost of energy
>binds to receptors on muscle cells in the lungs, causing you to breath faster
>stimulates cells of the heart to beat faster
>triggers the blood vessels to contract and direct blood toward major muscle groups
>contracts muscle cells below the surface of the skin to stimulate perspiration
>binds to receptors on the pancreas to inhibit the production of insulin

[Anonymous No.19544040]

>>19543666
based schizo

[Anonymous No.19544049]

Recently, I’ve been wondering if politics, philosophy, and even religion might be harmful to an author of fiction or poet.

[Anonymous No.19544054]

>>19543666
Satanic trips interesting

[Anonymous No.19544055]

Once you are properly fat adapted, intermittent fasting is actually easy, fun, enjoyable, and liberating—while
making you leaner and healthier in the process! Let’s say you are following the Leangains protocol. Breakfast
every day during the work week is now JUST BLACK COFFEE, how easy is that? No more worrying about
what you are going to grab for breakfast as you rush around in the morning and struggle to get to work on
time. This saves you a ton of time and work and effort and is literally a form of metabolic exercise in the
meantime, improving your insulin sensitivity and strengthening your fat adaptation. This is a win in many
ways. It also frees you to eat very large and satisfying meals in the evening, without feeling the deprivation of
watching calories or restricting yourself. And on days where you skip breakfast and lunch, you will be
amazed at how much extra time you will have when you don’t have to worry about what to eat, where to get
it, and when to find time to eat it. Your productivity will be higher as concentration and focus is higher in the
fasted state (thanks to the sympathetic nervous system activation and catecholamines), and you will have
more free time.

[Anonymous No.19544058]

>>19544024
where are you getting this unscientific doomsday scienarios from? was it in a video game or a hollywood movie or something? even "the science" funded by grants to look for dire global warming aren't this alarmists. again, get a grip.

[Anonymous No.19544077]

>>19544058
its just real ok, reddit said

[Anonymous No.19544102]

dill with it

[Anonymous No.19544148]

Okay what if had vacuums but they didnt make noise.

[Anonymous No.19544150]

barry harris died

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v2kL56osPfk

[Anonymous No.19544170]

>>19544148
my inlaws but opposite

[Anonymous No.19544178]

>>19543251
Get a dog

[Anonymous No.19544198]

quit my job to become jobless and to take a break for a little while. kinda have mixed feelings about the whole thing desu

[Anonymous No.19544202]

I want to write a story but can only write poems. I barely read at all or commit to anything that requires sustained effort like reading a book. I prefer writing to reading.

[Anonymous No.19544216]

>>19544202
Funny. I have a hard time reading poetry but not fiction.

[Anonymous No.19544233]

Writing a story, call sature, spake zarathustra and mark's mistress, called the genealogy, splitting the opening four ways called the mague, the agua-marghus, the beginning of minstrels of christen

[Anonymous No.19544238]

Bumped up to 20 mg adderall, now I'm on three days going on the old school runescape wiki for 5 hours eating donuts and masturbating. There's a war raging in my heart and I still know how to fight.

[Anonymous No.19544242]

Wayne Proudfoot traces the roots of the notion of "religious experience" further back to the German theologian Friedrich Schleiermacher (1768–1834), who argued that religion is based on a feeling of the infinite. The notion of "religious experience" was used by Schleiermacher to defend religion against the growing scientific and secular critique. It was adopted by many scholars of religion, of which William James was the most influential.

[Anonymous No.19544246]

>>19543984
>isn't bakker on topic for those kind of threads tho?
Not him, but they kill any and all discussion involving other books and authors. Not to mentioned they've begun to spam

[Anonymous No.19544247]

>>19544238
bro chill, youre gonna blow a gasket

[Anonymous No.19544249]

>>19544216
Reading hurts. I think there must be some psychological complexes I have that make it painful and distracted whenever I try. It's like I'm overwhelmed by the feeling that what I'm doing is futile, or too slow, or I should be doing something else. If I imagine I'm in a spacepod with no hope of contacting the human race again before I die, and can only read and never "post", it might help with the distress.

[Anonymous No.19544259]

>>19544249
That’s how I feel when I write.

[Anonymous No.19544267]

>>19544247
I am a mere initiate, a neophyte. I don't ask God for much. Humbling myself before a feedback loop of my own design, I'll be able to ride out the next 3 years sin free. I'll tell you more about it in person.

[Anonymous No.19544285]

>>19544249
You've probably read more than me, and I'm riding nice and high on dunning kreuger.

Listen anon, there came a point where it became easier to continue reading than to stop entirely. Its too late for you, and you have no choice now but to continue.

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19544439]

https://youtu.be/GKPQfKv4PsA

[Anonymous No.19544443]

Arguing with mom once again

[Anonymous No.19544458]

My brain! My brain hurts. No dopamine. No serotonin. No endorphins. I'm burned out. Listening to https://youtu.be/ncHvhF2yCG4 for dopamine drip. I wish I had a girl to lie down with so bad. So so bad.

[Anonymous No.19544484]

>>19544267
fuck

[Anonymous No.19544488]

i cant stop saying keep crying bitch nigga

[Anonymous No.19544494]

>>19544267
>I'll be able to ride out the next 3 years sin free. I'll tell you more about it in person.
tell me more this could be useful

[Anonymous No.19544556]

I am so utterly lost and confused. I wish fate would set me straight.

[Anonymous No.19544566]

>>19543092
What will socialist art look like? Bourgeois art is there to keep the status quo (pic related). From Trotsky:
>WHEN one speaks of revolutionary art, two kinds of artistic phenomena are meant: the works whose themes reflect the Revolution, and the works which are not connected with the Revolution in theme, but are thoroughly imbued with it, and are Colored by the new consciousness arising out of the Revolution. These are phenomena which quite evidently belong, or could belong, in entirely different planes. Alexey Tolstoi, in his The Road to Calvary, describes the period of the War and the Revolution. He belongs to the peaceful Yasnaya Polyana school, only his scale is infinitely smaller and his point of view narrower. And when he applies it to events of the greatest magnitude, it serves only as a cruel reminder that Yasnaya Polyana has been and is no more. But when the young poet, Tikhonov, without writing about the Revolution, writes about a little grocery store (he seems to be shy about writing of the Revolution), he perceives and reproduces its inertia and immobility with such fresh and passionate power as only a poet created by the dynamics of a new epoch can do. Thus if works about the Revolution and works of revolutionary art are not one and the same thing, they still have a point in common. The artists that are created by the Revolution cannot but want to speak of the Revolution. And, on the other hand, the art which will be filled with a great desire to speak of the Revolution, will inevitably reject the Yasnaya Polyana point of view, whether it be the point of view of the Count or of the peasant.

[Anonymous No.19544590]

I am terrified about going back to school for the "wrong" degree. I am dependent on other peoples' opinions for validation of my life choices. I feel like I have limited ability to predict future outcomes of my choices and I need advice at every turn but it seems no one is qualified to give it.

[Anonymous No.19544592]

>>19544566
Mao, from what I have read of him, suggests that communist art should be folk art with a communist political spin. In sort, to a leftist art is nothing but propaganda. I would not look to them for good art.

[Anonymous No.19544611]

>>19544590
i basically let /sci/ pick my degree years ago and it worked out

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19544638]

documentary footage https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TFM2xZ7dytk

[Anonymous No.19544676]

>>19544494
Just be yourself. It'll all be over sooner or later.

[Anonymous No.19544683]

>>19544592
>Mao
I don't like him very much so opinion discarded.

[Anonymous No.19544772]

Mods just deleted a shit ton of threads; page ten is completely desolated.

[Anonymous No.19544843]

>>19543092
I believe in our Lord Jesus Christ

[Anonymous No.19544849]

https://www.bitchute.com/video/cROx52o79eOW/

Maria Farmer, girl trafficked by Epstein:
>I lost 20 pounds, because I wasn't allowed to go get food. And when I called Ghislaine and asked her, she said "it's a Jewish country club. You're not Jewish, they're not going to serve you." This is how this woman spoke to me. Yeah, this is how Maxwell and her friends think, Whitney. They honest to god think their DNA is better than everybody else's. It was a very, I swear to you, it was a theme, all the time with them. If I'm in Guggenheim, with Jeffrey Epstein, and Ghislaine, it was a theme.
>I mean they could cut you down and it was so morally devastating, you know it was like you felt useless as a human being. Because you were told, "you're nothing because you're not Jewish, you're stupid. You're useless, a useless white girl. A poor little peasant." The things I was told, I believed it, because it was like a cult, was the problem.
>Anybody who was not jewish, the way they spoke about them, it was really horrifying. And it showed me a great deal about how these people truly believe that they're chosen to do something here. I don't know. It's unbelievable to me. And it was every one of them, in how they spoke.
>And one time I heard Isabel say to her mother Eileen, "mommy, why do you call Maria a 'nobody?'" and she said, "Honey, Maria is not a Jew. She is a nobody."

[Anonymous No.19544874]

>>19544849
I don’t get it, are Jews superior or not, I don’t care what it is I just want an agreement

[Anonymous No.19544888]

>>19544874
they certainly think they are

[Anonymous No.19544892]

>>19544772
Surprised they even let /sffg/ have two threads.

[Anonymous No.19545001]

>>19544874
You know, if they were half as intelligent as the stereotype is, Israel would not exist in the place it does, surrounded by people which want to kill them. If the Jews were smart they would have made a part of Germany into Israel. Whites literally worship the ground Jews walk on, they would have had a much less stressful time in Europe than they do in MENA.

[Anonymous No.19545083]

>>19543284
Awwwww

[Anonymous No.19545098]

>>19544024
>THA RICH

[Anonymous No.19545115]

At this time last year I was wearing three clothing layers but now I am the lurking street in my t shirt in the day. I just want my comfy fogs back.

Climate change is real bros.

[Anonymous No.19545132]

>>19544849
Thanks for the reminder of how these people, who live among us and want us to submit to their de facto cultural and political control through de jure "equality," really see us.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sqbUqW_V70Y

[Anonymous No.19545144]

>>19545115
No this doesn't mean cLimAtE ChANge is le rEaL or nOt Le ReAL whatever the precise implications of that statement are for you personally. It means the microclimate where you are is behaving in a certain manner because meteorology is a chaotic system. It is fucking cold as shit right now where I am by the way and I want to die

[Anonymous No.19545149]

If I had a time machine I'd just time travel back to Kievan Rus and fuck medieval twinks

[Anonymous No.19545167]

>>19543164
Bakker causes terminal brain cancer.
Not much of a wonder if you delve into how rotten his philosophy is. Especially in contrast to high fantasy, which is culturally mostly Christian

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19545170]

this is beautiful. long live the workers of china:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bMd9u4y3Vn4

[Anonymous No.19545174]

>>19545170

[Anonymous No.19545203]

>>19543116
>>19543124
I saw a man on the train the other day reading a book (12 rules for life, I know), so I asked him about it and then talked for an hour about various topic: the Bible, race, politics, etc. I can do that with anyone like if they are a tradesman with a hi-vis vest or if there's a pretty girl.
I was also the weird kid in school; total sperg.

[Anonymous No.19545208]

https://youtu.be/MwQX1-MZlhM

[Anonymous No.19545220]

>>19543058
>reactionary
Communist much?
>I think racial determinism is still stupid since exceptions/outliers always exist.
The exception does not disprove the rule
>simplified racial models
Yes, the American system is horrible: Spaniards from Spain aren't white yet, Mongolians and Somalis are. Also, there is much more than just Black like Bantus, Khoisan, Nilotes, etc. and much more in Asia.
> There can be individual chihuahuas smarter or wiser than the average border collie, even though that is rare.
That is the bell curve. You look at which Africans went to Oxford and what not, they all ended up in postions of power naturally so, like Mugabe or Idi Amin; morality does not corelate with intelligence.
>Consider for example some humans decide to have no children due to various philosophical reasons. This already indicates some people simply transcend or step outside the evolutionary fold, which I would argue fosters delusions when clung to.
agreed

[Anonymous No.19545256]

>>19545167
>rotten his philosophy
What even is his philosophy? People posted excerpts from his blogs and shit, and all I got is some dude rambling about stupid shit from decades ago.

[Anonymous No.19545306]

>>19544242
It's also related to Otto's "holy" or "numinous" and Eliade's "sacred" but it is more complicated than that. Schleiermacher was a proponent of science (Wissenschaft, truth-seeking rational inquiry in the highest sense) and its spirit of critique. He fits into the romantic movement and all the romantics loved knowledge and the truth, they just defined it variously, sometimes being the radical Enlightenment spirit of free inquiry, sometimes involving mystical or inspired insight, usually some mix of both.

Read pages 383-386 in the article "Quiet War in Germany: Friedrich Schelling and Friedrich Schleiermacher" for an overview of his Gelegentliche Gedanken über Universitäten in deutschem Sinn, and 390-391:
>Schleiermacher allowed that theology must redefine its methods along wissenschaftliche and historical lines to find a place in the modern university, but nevertheless preserved a modified form of the ‘‘traditional’’ focus on the church.
>These concerns would lead to the legitimation—and historicization—of theology as a rigorous, critical discipline on par with the other sciences of the modern university.
>Both speculative and historical concerns received sustained attention, if conceived somewhat differently, in Hegel, Baur, and Ritschl, among others, who found in Schelling’s and Schleiermacher’s summation the fuel for an ambitious program of historical theology that persisted deep into the nineteenth century

Schleiermacher is often seen as the father of liberal theology because he tried to find a balance between wissenschaftlich (rational, philosophical, non-dogmatic) approaches to theology, and approaches that subordinated it completely to the state church and made university theology into dogmatics. In the 19th century, wissenschaftlich in this context meant historical studies and source criticism. It's not fair to say that Left Hegelians like Bruno Bauer and David Friedrich Strauss were "students" of Schleiermacher but they were leaning more heavily into the wissenschaftlich form of theology (by radicalizing Hegelianism) that Schleiermacher and his generation of university-founding philosophy enthusiasts had made room for. By the time of even later liberal theologians like Ritschl and Harnack, the historical approach had morphed into comparative religions study, increasingly secular and ecumenical and overlapping with the rising disciplines of non-Christian religious/cultural study, and today the study of religions is totally secular and you could even say cultural reductionist.

The Proudfoot thesis about Schleiermacher is questionable but it gets repeated a lot because it's a convenient way of summarizing a standard or archetypal position in the study of religion, the position McCutcheon calls "sui generis religion" (in Manufacturing Religion). There are some good articles examining it critically. But just be mindful that it's a convenient way of simplifying, not the full story.

[Anonymous No.19545327]

>>19545306
>It was adopted by many scholars of religion, of which William James was the most influential.
Also if you do follow the Proudfoot/McCutcheon thesis I would think that Eliade would be considered the culmination of the "sui generis religion" approach, not James, since Eliade was so directly influential institutionally. James is idiosyncratic and while his Varieties lectures were very popular (including in Germany, where Otto and Troeltsch and many others read them), still popular today actually, it's harder to say without some proof or examples that he was "the most influential."

Probably don't listen to anything I've said if you're just filling in a two line answer to an exam question in which case it might be more strategic to just repeat back to the professor what he said was the case.

[Anonymous No.19545361]

>>19544849
https://www.bitchute.com/video/3nwpWP6aj9PS/

Thought maybe it was a fake interview, but it's real holy molly

[Anonymous No.19545364]

>>19544849
THEY CANT KEEP GETTING AWAY WITH IT

[Anonymous No.19545373]

Doing a Master's degree in PoliSci and I honestly think I'm too retarded/unmotivated to complete it. The bachelor's degree felt like a breeze compared to it, the coursework on the Master's however is like 900+ pages of text and multiple essays, I don't get how people get through this without an heroing.

[Anonymous No.19545382]

>>19545361
>FBI knew all this stuff in 1996.

>MSM knew it all too by the late 2000's

>Girls were kept in an apartment building owned by Epsteins' brother, among other places. There were many properties, buildings - it was/is a global operation

>There were 1000's of girls. For example there were 500 girls/children (a victim's lawyers has a list of all the names) in just Florida alone. They can't be found anywhere.

>5 different girls a day went upstairs (to Epstein's office) back in the 90's. There were constantly little girls in Epstein's office - incredible numbers.

>Farmer was an "artist-in-residence" for the Wexners, organised by Guggenheim. While there she was monitored at all times. She was brought to a country club that would not serve her because she was not Jewish. Ghislaine and everyone were really supremacist. Farmer was basically trapped and starved/very limited food at the Wexner residence for 3 months. Towards the end Epstein and Ghislaine came and tried to rape Farmer. She called the police, but they said to stop calling, no help was coming since they work on Wexner's gate IE for Wexner.

>They kidnapped Farmer's 15 year old sister.

>FBI was just as abusive to Farmer as Epstein and Maxwell. Offered no witness-protection. They already knew everything she told them. They are in on it. Farmer names Alan Dershowitz, Trump, definitely the Clintons, as co-conspirators. There were about 5-12 new/different girls going upstairs (to Epstein's office) everyday.

>Les Wexner is not the only billionaire involved in this.

>Maria saw Baphomet statues and stuff in Epstein's and Maxwell's places

https://www.reddit.com/r/Epstein/comments/g80ovd/maria_farmer_is_one_of_jeffery_epsteins_victims/

[Anonymous No.19545415]

>>19543723
Undeniably based

[Anonymous No.19545544]

when the imposter is sus

[Anonymous No.19545622]

>>19545364
what about the Judge?

[Anonymous No.19545643]

>>19544009
Let's hope the Dutch go full Boer and become based again.

[Anonymous No.19545667]

>>19543092
Is reading not for me? Throughout this year I've tried to get into reading a lot, I tried fiction, fantasy, non-fiction, starting with the greeks, hell I unironically tried Light Novels but still I couldn't get into it. Is it the internet that's killed my brain or is it just me being a midwit?

[Anonymous No.19545732]

>>19545667
maybe it's your environment? the amount i read is very influenced by where i'm living. i also used to read a lot at work, but now i have too many distractions.

[Anonymous No.19545749]

>>19545373
thought u were just going to write a bunch of low effort marxist papers bitching about trump?

[Anonymous No.19545756]

>>19545373
You seem honestly surprised that a Masters is harder to accomplish and has a more demanding curriculum than a Bachelors.

[Anonymous No.19545762]

>>19545756
not him but desu all the people at my work who do masters are really stupid careerists without an academic bone in their body. it definitely feels like as long as the check clears you can't fail.

[Anonymous No.19545772]

>>19545732
It could be but I haven't given audiobooks a try though. I will try audiobooks and strive to read a little bit every day. I hope I can read a lot next year

[Anonymous No.19545778]

>>19545382
>5 different girls a day went upstairs (to Epstein's office) back in the 90's.
>There were about 5-12 new/different girls going upstairs (to Epstein's office) everyday.

This doesn't even sound believable.

[Anonymous No.19545781]

>>19545772
the best thing to do if you're into audiobooks is get "the great courses" classes on literature which will hype you up to then go and read the novels from the lectures.

[Anonymous No.19545819]

I noticed some posts here get deleted. Even when they're mundane replies.

[Anonymous No.19545966]

I want to destroy the Frankfurt school jews. I want to free the world from their satanic ideals that are oppressing the human spirit and whats morally good according to the christian tradition. They are erasing western culture by implementing ugliness as the new norm.

But I feel weak and impotent faced with this herculean task.Also alone. I'm afraid my attempts to debunk them will not be heard and fall into deaf hears. I'm from an insignificant western European country which does not help.
I hope this movement that rejects modernity and post modernity grows but there's still so much to be done. On a positive not, zoomers my age, 25-27 are waking up to this,we are all faced with the same issues.
My work might be a drop in the ocean, but I hope this drop leads to heavy fucking rains by more people like me.

[Anonymous No.19545980]

>just remembered i once shat my pants during a virtual job fair

[Anonymous No.19546219]

>>19545980
HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

[Anonymous No.19546221]

>>19545980
Thats okay anon. I have severe diarrhea. Probably some kind of stomach flu. Its literally just brown water that sprays out of my anus. It squirted out of my ass hole while I was sleeping last night. Ruined a pair of underwear

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19546271]

The board is little more than /r9k2/ at this point

[Anonymous No.19546277]

>>19546271
Are you a social person butterfly? Do you go out with friends at all?

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19546294]

>>19546277
No enough.
Have a nice day.

[Anonymous No.19546327]

>>19546294
oh. ok :(
have a nice day too

[Anonymous No.19546352]

On my way to my therapist and no idea what I'm going to say to her, I just hate myself so much I don't even want to improve, I hate everything.

[Anonymous No.19546367]

>>19546352
throw her off guard. profess your love for her and make a move.

[Anonymous No.19546720]

>>19545256
People listen to this idiot? Guy seems he never read Bandura.

[Anonymous No.19546834]

>>19543136
i like it

[Anonymous No.19546839]

>>19543190
i don't like it

[Anonymous No.19546845]

>>19543251
i wanted to recommend traveling abroad but then i remembered the cough

[Anonymous No.19546853]

>>19546352
Thinking of seeing a therapist but I can't find a single male one in my area. Does it help to speak man to man? I guess I need a father figure to shock me into taking action.

[Anonymous No.19546887]

>>19545373
Nobody is too stupid for pol-sci, the only reason you'd be struggling is that it's a horrible, soul-sucking subject and you're one of the few normal people who didn't get filtered from the untermensch dross that can stomache it.

[Anonymous No.19546888]

>>19543906
i'm tempted to believe you but also i'd like some source or at least the thought process behind this

[Anonymous No.19546891]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j-RsJVVsxXM

[Anonymous No.19546911]

These are a few of my favourite things.

[Anonymous No.19546942]

>>19544566
there is no socialist art
art is bourgeois by definition

[Anonymous No.19546957]

>>19543906
Not as simple as that.
It’s real, but the US doesn’t want them prospering in industrial capitalism (which is very polluting). They want them on the dollar standard. Which is never going to happen.

[Anonymous No.19546961]

>>19545132
just the same as you see niggers and chinks
it's pretty coherent

[Anonymous No.19546966]

Building a time machine back to 2019 if you guys wanna join

[Anonymous No.19546985]

>>19546942
You haven’t been looking very hard.
And just because a prole can sell a piece of art to eat doesn’t make him a bourgeois. It makes him susceptible to the corruption of fortune, but it’s a small dose still. Wait till the million dollar contract is waved in his face and see what happens.

[Anonymous No.19547016]

>>19545778
In the 90s 5 different girls later on 5-12 different girls

[Anonymous No.19547051]

>>19544874
i'd say yes?

>jesus
>marx
>freud
>einstein
>heisenberg
>bohr
>page & brin
>zuckerberg
>more than half of nobel laureates
>one-third of the professors at prestigious universities in the us
>one quarter of the nation’s lawyers
>60 percent of the nation’s leading writers of literature, drama, and music
>one half of the world’s richest entrepreneurs
>48% of us billionaires are jewish
>with an estimated 7.4 billion people on earth, jews comprise a mere 0.2 percent

‘the world’s money is in the pocket of americans while the americans’ money is in the pocket of jews’

[Anonymous No.19547061]

>>19545001
they already have france and new-york
what would they need germany for?
the country is ugly

[Anonymous No.19547065]

>>19543092
Twink thighs.

[Anonymous No.19547088]

>>19545170
>ywn lovingly stick your penis in her rectum just right there in the train station in front of all the workers while she tries to keep singing
why live

[Anonymous No.19547092]

I guess maybe I'm finally trying to adjust to what appears to be the fact, namely that I am so ravaged by previous mental illness as to be considered quite gravely disabled. It is expected that, for life, I will be able to take at most half a regular mans workload, and this only due to mental factors. All fingers and toes intact. I have my damn hair still. A chipped tooth. Glasses I guess. But no, it's in the ol brain we got a problem, and it doesn't look like it will get fixed. God decides though, we'll see, things are happening, sort of, but it's about time to accept that.. well this is what we're looking at. I'm mostly just not really sure what to do with the rest of my time alive. I want children but I don't think it's realistic. The dream, I guess, would be to be a house-husband. Possible, I guess, God decides. Or I could take my money and move to a poor country and marry and take it from there, without actually having to work. I have a fair amount of money, we had a private insurance that paid out pretty big on all of this. Other than that- my living expenses are really, really low. I'm not really in any rush- I haven't had a proper job for 10 years, so what's the difference between 12 and 14 years off the market on a CV? I don't think I'll starve to death. I can probably just be mentally disabled until I die. I have a decent enough time, I'm curious and I'd say somewhat passionate. It's not even bad, really, it's just uncertain and I don't expect to be married. And I'm not sure what to do.

[Anonymous No.19547097]

>>19547051
one standard deviation higher average IQ is one hell of a drug

you also forgot von Neumann and Ed Witten


interestingly however, many people considered the greatest writers (shakespeare, goethe, tolstoy, joyce, etc) were not, however, jewish

one might make the argument that something inherent in the jewish soul, the dispositional core, is not conducive to Truly Great literature as certain other peoples

[Anonymous No.19547113]

>>19547016
>six millions little girls!

[Anonymous No.19547120]

>>19546985
a prole sells a piece of art and stays a prole
but a prole who buys a piece of art does it to emulate the bourgeoisie

[Anonymous No.19547128]

>>19547097
whatever helps you sleep at night

[Anonymous No.19547132]

>>19547120
>Buying a sports star poster makes a kid a prole
You dumb. Just stop.

[Anonymous No.19547176]

>>19547113
Are you one of the long nose people?

[Anonymous No.19547218]

I think I told her the following:
"You will look back on this in old age and you will see that it was the greatest mistake of your life. There will be other men, they will love you. You are very, very lovable. They will not love you the way I have. You lost me. You love me, and I love you, and you burned all of that."
"Do I love you though?"
"Yes, you do. Why else are we here? You met me, I didn't meet you. [my back was turned and she didn't have to see me that day at all, and I have hurt her very severely so the fact that she not only decided to meet but that she was happy to see me was a great tell] You were happy to see me, in spite of everything I did to you, you were happy to see me. Why? Do you even know? What do you want from me? Don't try shit."
She said nothing to this. I am not sure if she loves me or not. This was many years ago, an... eventful day. I had a lot that needed saying and it all just finally poured out. We had been split up for years then already. Our relationship broke down because I couldn't communicate and she failed to see that I had developed mental illness (she probably should have seen it). I could maybe have done so, but things happened that precluded me from doing so, and at the same time I couldn't leave because she was all the security I had, and I was not safe. The above is in reference to something she did later. It was always a shitty thing to do, cruel I'd say and self-absorbed, but given my condition I took it as outright hostility. Arguably this decided the fate of our relationship. I've been slowly remembering a lot of old things lately- this was 6 years ago I think, things ended 10 years ago. Yesterday and today I thought about this a lot. It was a hell of a thing to say. It just poured out. It could very well be true, all of it, just as easily as the opposite could be true.

[Anonymous No.19547224]

Providence, will, fate, and destiny.

[Anonymous No.19547245]

>>19547128
to which part

[Anonymous No.19547263]

>>19547176
no i'm just a midwit who likes stirring shit

[Anonymous No.19547273]

>>19547245
the Truly Great literature

[Anonymous No.19547284]

>>19547132
wtf does that greentext have to do with anything anon?

[Anonymous No.19547361]

>>19547284
One decorates their walls with such things. Their art, which they purchase, makes them “emulators of the bourgeoisie” according to the above anon.
His is a dumb take and he should abandon it.

[Anonymous No.19547379]

>>19546839
Well sorry to say you have no taste.

[Anonymous No.19547382]

What are some pre-requisite readings before diving into Nick Land? I watched some videos on him and was thinking about buying Fanged Noumena.

[Anonymous No.19547464]

>>19546853
It's helped me desu. I always end up resenting my female psychologists, because women pretending to care about me is extra painful for me.

[Anonymous No.19547502]

>>19547132
>>19547361
I hope for your sake you're ESL

[Anonymous No.19547539]

>>19547092
It'll be okay anon. Just take it one day at a time. I sense a kind of acceptance in your post and that's good, do not beat yourself up over your situation. We do not decide our circumstances, even if they are mental ones. All we can do is have faith in God and do what we can each day. I have a lot of mental problems myself, mainly crippling anxiety that makes it impossible for me to form meaningful relationships with other people, even though I am a very social person and I do really want to be liked by others. It's a specific kind of torture to love people, yet to be ignored/rejected by them. Regardless, God is always here and I have found solace in that.

[Anonymous No.19547579]

>>19547539
agmi bb

[Anonymous No.19547614]

>>19547502
>Doesn’t understand plain English
>”You better be a ESL”

[Anonymous No.19547620]

>>19543092
I feel the need for enlightenment and self-education of philosophy and arts. I want to understand everything as much as I can. Read every book. Watch every documentary. I want to speak to everyone. Learn every language. I want to go to the gym, gain some weight. But I am too busy and also lazy.

[Anonymous No.19547690]

you can write about ANYTHING

including things on the internet

videos you've watched, comments you've read, etc.

[Anonymous No.19547712]

>>19546277
you're delusional if you think butterfly hasn't been alone for years because of her terrible life choices. she fits right in in /r9k/

[Anonymous No.19547714]

>>19547690
it is odd that it is well attested that the prophet Muhammad, peace and blessings be upon him, asked that no one say that he is superior to any other prophet, and yet this is done a Lot in the tradition. I'll grant it's possible that the record is conflicting, I don't really know, but I know it is pretty much as certain as anything can be that he said he is not to be called better than Jonah.

[Anonymous No.19547716]

>>19547502
are you seeing ESLs in the room with you right now?

[Anonymous No.19547756]

>>19547218
"I stayed because I thought you might kill yourself."
"It's very possible I would have."
"Yea I know. I probably know even better than you. Do you remember me telling "You can't!" over and over again for maybe an hour? Do you have a memory of that?"
she shook her head
"Then I probably know better than you. I hope you never remember that... It would be nice for me if this all meant I could think of myself as a good person, but I can't imagine it counts.."
I believe she was dying of sorrow. This was 10 years ago. Her eyes were dead, she was in a form of catatonia. I desperately tried to get eye contact with her, held my face pressed against hers just trying to get a response, mechanically stroking her haid with one hand and telling her over and over "You can't! You can't! You can't!" After maybe an hour she began to come back. I had put her in this state, with a callous cruelty. In spite of that, honestly, I don't know what else I could have done.

[Anonymous No.19547881]

>>19547756
I remember trying to begin to tell my parents about this shit and their only response being "everybody does dumb shit when they're young". that was the extent of it. wonder why I have a hard time communicating about problems

[Anonymous No.19547889]

>>19547881
(mind you, at this stage they, also, have failed to notice my mental illness, which I have spoken to them about, unlike my then gf. I talked to them. they didn't give a fuck. I wonder.)

[Anonymous No.19547895]

>>19547889
it's funny to me now when I read a diary from that year and it says that "I know that they love me". Fuck are you on about boy

[Anonymous No.19547900]

>>19547895
I'm this anon btw >>19547092

[Anonymous No.19547906]

Books on being a man with low (but not none) sex drive in a world where that's widely understood as a bad trait?

[Anonymous No.19547936]

>>19547900
when I finally told her about all that had gone down unbeknownst to her with my health, eventually she asked me why I didn't say anything and spontaneously I kind of roared "I DON'T KNOW! I DON'T KNOW!"
a lot of other shit had happened by then, she got to take the brunt of really unrelated and even yet more absurd pain.. on that one day, years after it ended. everything wrong about our time together times 2, about which she had really known nothing.

[Anonymous No.19547961]

I'm a journalist. Really got started on a huge new piece I'm writing today. It's going to be scandalous and has potential to ruin some careers when published. For now I have ~3000 pages of documents to go through before I schedule more interviews. This is the kind of story that makes journalism careers.

[Anonymous No.19547986]

>>19547936
I believe after I betrayed her she turned to drugs and cock. this did not help much, she was clearly clinically depressed when we met and I yelled at her, but I was pretty tired of dealing with her problems, while she didn't even know mine. What caused me to erupt (I mostly yelled at her for about an hour, I think.. not only, but mostly) was that she started more or less asking me to help carry the load of her depression. And I just remember going "Are you asking me to help you carry this?" she nodded silently, a bit surprised. And I leaned back and went "JESUS FUCKING CHRIST! ALRIGHT DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT ACTUALLY FUCKING WENT DOWN BETWEEN YOU AND ME?! DO YOU WANT TO KNOW YOUR OWN HISTORY?!" she nodded and I went "GUESS WHEN I ACTUALLY GOT MENTALLY ILL?" and she began to answer but I cut her off "BECAUSE IT SURE AS SHIT WASN'T IN 2013" She was, as they say, much taken aback. "IT WAS IN 2009" she was further yet taken- "YEA, THAT WOULD BE ROUGHLY THE MIDDLE OF OUR RELATIONSHIP" and then off I went. I didn't even know I had all this shit to say.

I believe after tirade... eventually I calmed down. I don't think she loves me anymore, but she may well pity me. I was pitiable. It was.. it is a horribly sad tale. It's possible she does on some level, but I wouldn't bet on it. I calmed down because I remembered that in 2013 it had been her turn to save me from suicide, and she had and she did, IN SPITE of how I had crushed her. For this reason, I will forever view her as better than all other people, though she will, of course, never want me back.

The last words spoken between us were good. Very, very good. It's a long time ago. She moved back to my city recently. I dread seeing her.

[Anonymous No.19547992]

My farts smell really bad tonight, fellas.

[Anonymous No.19547995]

>>19543092
I hate communists :)

[Anonymous No.19548010]

>>19547986
I think after I exploded she turned back to drugs and cock, and that she was basically a whore for a while. You see- the one thing she did notice about my illness was that I didn't fuck as good any more. It had become clear that unless I got back on it, she'd leave (this sounds worse than it is- I started this protracted fight in a not unsimilar vein (I think I had been testing her loyalty (I was 17 and from a broken home))). So I made clear to her that she had basically let me die while literally only giving a fuck about how I fucked her, and she hadn't even noticed except for the change in my cock. I think she became a whore for one of two reasons: 1. she accepted that that was what she was (which isn't exactly wrong, but surely an exaggeration, and she has.. she is fucking phenomenal in so many ways, so it's a damn shame if that was her conclusion); or 2. she just needed to rinse herself of everything whatsoever to do with me. She kind of disappeared from social media in 2019, so idk what's happening now. I googled her, my best guess is she's self employed and in what could be a decent relationship. Let's hope so.

[Anonymous No.19548036]

>>19548010
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l4w6q0cxdpU

[Anonymous No.19548056]

>>19548036
mind you, my mental health has been such that I had... basically forgotten about this until 5-6 weeks ago. All I've remembered is thinking I had finally "said what needed saying". that's all. now I've been remembering new details for.. yea, about 5-6 days. diary is peppered with quotes, things I remmber saying, things she said. I forgot about it. That's the state of affairs.

[Anonymous No.19548061]

>>19548056
>5-6 days
weeks*
fiery quote:
she begins to retort that she has problems to and I basically scream (which as true)
"THE WALLS WERE SWEATING BLOOD! DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!"
she shakes her head sadly, quietly
"NO?! ALRIGHT THEN!"

at one point I asked what my name was. I kind of meant it. it's not "my cock". we dated 4 years.

[Anonymous No.19548095]

i want to cook the lamb in my fridge but father might not want me to.

[Anonymous No.19548099]

>>19548061
another theory is she became a whore because she knows I'm jealous, and she wants to be sure I never want her again. I cheated on her in order to be sure she'd never want me again, and I told her that time. it was the only way to get out. I tried and I couldn't do it straight. Being the only person that has any idea of what I went through (I talked to no one about any blood in any walls)- I think I can accept this. I don't expect anyone else to.

[Anonymous No.19548150]

>>19548099
just skimmed everything you wrote.
you are deranged.
good luck buddy.

[Anonymous No.19548180]

TWINKS.

[Anonymous No.19548200]

>>19548095
Is it your fridge or your dad's?

[Anonymous No.19548239]

>>19548150
Not dead yet ;)

[Anonymous No.19548417]

>>19548180
<3 <3
!!!

[Anonymous No.19548432]

I LOVE PAD THAI!

I LOVE PAD THAI!

[Anonymous No.19548459]

>>19548417
Hi <3 replier.
I'm drunk listening to Crystal Castles and sexting an 18yo twink. You?

[Anonymous No.19548549]

>>19548459
which song

[Anonymous No.19548560]

>>19548432
My ex girlfriend's pussy kinda smelled like pad thai on some occasions.

[Anonymous No.19548575]

>>19548459
Kek I'm drunk as well, had some champagne/white wine and now I'm studying the visual history of XVIIth century Russia. Spent all day rereading Derrida. Not texting any twinks though, I have one waiting for me at home.

[Anonymous No.19548580]

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

[Anonymous No.19548613]

>>19548549
Transgender when I posted, now I'm listening to Intimate.
>>19548575
>Not texting any twinks though, I have one waiting for me at home.
Totally not jelly! Enjoy.

[Anonymous No.19548632]

>>19548180

[Anonymous No.19548700]

I've never been happier in my life. I don't want to forget this moment.

[Anonymous No.19548760]

>>19548700
write about it

[Anonymous No.19548938]

anti-vaxxer ≃ anti-authoritarian?

[Anonymous No.19548947]

I just discovered I am a feminist. But not the feminism you know about. I believe the definition is a lot similar to the word: to be feminine. I think woman should be valued for their natural beauty and should be held to higher standards then men. They can not be equal, equality means mediocrity, only the smartest man can ever be equal to the dumbest, and never the other way around. If we treat women with respect that should also mean they do not degenerate into whores, instead they should only be meant to attract the strongest males. Not all women are equal and capable of this however. It is a lot in the visage of King and Queen.

[Anonymous No.19548971]

>>19548760
No more boring subject can be imagined than one's happiness.

[Anonymous No.19549003]

>>19548971
you write about it to remember it fool

[Anonymous No.19549069]

I don't want to be alone, but I feel that every day I drift further into the expanse of the empty sea. It's been so long since I've seen the shore that I drifted away from. My legs only know water. My stomach only knows the bobbing of the waves that used to make me sick.
I hallucinate and dream of land. I've grown to know land better than those that spent their entire lives on it because I have been deprived of it. At the same time, I barely remember it.

I remember the first time I could no longer see the shore. The absolute dread of that moment, the engulfing deep fear. However, I have adapted to this, and there is only a muted forlorn daily aimless drift now. There are no longer any reference points. It's almost as if living in death in a way. A lot of literature explores hell as a setting. The only definition of hell I can subscribe to is a void filled with nothing where one is forced to suffer as something. However, the human mind adapts, even to hell.

[Anonymous No.19549086]

>>19548700
what happens when the happiness wears off and you need another shot, another dose? But you know that whatever shot you pursue in the future will never be like the first one? You really do chase happiness. Is this a mental illness or a state of the world we live in?

[Anonymous No.19549095]

>>19547961
YOU"RE AN INTERN AT WL

[Anonymous No.19549097]

>>19547690
Funny, I usually write about nothing
Is that part of anything?

[Anonymous No.19549101]

>>19546966
I just wanna go back one second. Because the last second is always better than the next.

[Anonymous No.19549120]

>sign up for a gym where I don't have to wear a mask
>state wide indoor mask mandate for every place that doesn't demand you show your vaccine card
I fucking hate New York. I had to get the fucking vaccine for work, masks are a Goddamn placebo for pearl-clutching ninnies

[Anonymous No.19549132]

>>19543092
I am horny

[Anonymous No.19549153]

>>19549120
move to a non-shithole state

[Anonymous No.19549202]

>>19543092
I'm trying to figure out what the primary goal of fiction is more or less, beyond just telling a story. Anyone have thoughts? After telling a story, I'm sitting at "to entertain, be enjoyed, and inspire emotion."
Can it be said with certainty that trying to meet a secondary goal (making sales, delivering a commentary, etc.) at the expense of meeting the primary goal will worsen a fictional story?

[Anonymous No.19549208]

>>19549202
it just empowers you with different viewpoints on how to learn about the world

[Anonymous No.19549216]

Pic rel is my ass hole right now

[Anonymous No.19549219]

>>19549202
For propaganda mostly. You write to introduce your ideology in everyone else's worldview and make the world a bit more in your image. There's not a single fiction book that doesn't covertly advance an ideology, there are just naive people who don't realise it.

[Anonymous No.19549265]

>>19549095
What's WL? I'm not an intern anywhere.

[Anonymous No.19549269]

>>19549095
MOST LOVED THERFORE MOST HATED

[Anonymous No.19549299]

>>19547961
I hate journalists. You deserve to be beaten in the street for even aspiring to be a journalist

[Anonymous No.19549351]

My ass hole is raw from shitting water all day

[Anonymous No.19549359]

>>19549299
Based

[Anonymous No.19549379]

>>19549219
>to introduce your ideology in everyone else's worldview
I feel like that's what will always end up happening as opposed to a desired result. Doing it in a well-crafted way, perhaps.

[Anonymous No.19549454]

>>19549351
Silly bumhole. The peepee is for water leakage. You need a Plummer

[Anοnymous No.19549458]

What can I say? Today marks 27 years since I stopped being a physical parasite on my mother and instead became an emotional one.
In that time I've touched a girl exactly twice, the last time over eight years ago now. That was Kara and she never responded to my text telling her that I was dropping out of Yale.
After that I, what? Graduated from the local state college with a degree I didn't want, worked in a barely tangential field until I got fired, then ended up here a few months ago.
You guys barely know me and now I've got to act thankful for the $5 pizza and sheet cake in the breakroom. I've got to act thankful for a lot of things.
Apologies if this all seems a bit crude and over the top. Its not your fault that I'm emotionally dead. Its not my parents' fault either, they did their best to protect me from an apathetic world while teaching me not to blame others for my own shortcomings.
That's the real kicker. There's no one to blame for the way I feel. I really have no regrets, every choice was my own and under the same circumstances, I'd probably end up in the same place.
I guess if you want to blame anyone, blame that voice in my head that makes me feel guilty for not being thankful for this mortal coil, for not being thankful to have a chance to not be an apathetic piece of shit. And while you're at it, blame him for making me believe this rambling confession would mean anything, except the end of this birthday party.

[Anonymous No.19549463]

>>19549202
Building a theme, expressing the themes and philosophy through prose like the theme of being bound to your fate in "Blood Meridian" or like themes of loneliness and baseness of human nature in "Of Mice and Men".

[Anonymous No.19549477]

>>19547961
sounds like a great way to commit suicide by two gunshots to the back of the head by announcing this online

[Anonymous No.19549516]

It’s still not clear to me what we (I) are (am) supposed to do if he’s right.

[Anonymous No.19549523]

>>19549516
Read Man and Technics

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19549546]

A live degenerate and a dead degenerate contain the same number of particles. Structurally, there's no discernible difference

[Anonymous No.19549551]

>>19549523
I will once I finish Decline shortly. But I may as well ask why you suggest I do so.

[Anonymous No.19549563]

>>19549551
He says exactly what we should do given that he's right he says we cant do anything and just have to go with where history directs us

[Anonymous No.19549571]

>>19549546
>theres no difference between living and dead cells

[Anonymous No.19549636]

I have been getting into fascism and nazism as of lately, still I feel ashamed of my fetish for interracial cuckoldry, internet propaganda fucked my brain, what do?

[Anonymous No.19549641]

>>19549636
Consider painful suicide as an option

[Anonymous No.19549645]

>>19549563
Right, but the individual still has a free will, not to change the course of history but to devote his or herself to this or that. That’s partially what Decline is about.

[Anonymous No.19549656]

>>19549641
I do plan on killing myself later.

[Anonymous No.19549678]

>>19549546
Go back to weed

[Anοnymous No.19549769]

I finally managed to write another sentence in my horror short fiction about some '90s punk groupies

[Anonymous No.19549773]

>>19549769
>'90s punk groupies

Sounds horrific.

[Anonymous No.19549807]

>>19549636
>Fascism
Just embrace Italian fascism and you can watch interracial porn, guilt-free.

>>19543092
I consider myself a pragmatist, when it comes to politics. I will be whatever I think will benefit me. In particular, I've concluded that a Marxist-Leninist-Maoist revolution is inevitable within the next 4 years in the United States, and so I've been reading Marx and Mao and Lenin to understand what I will need to say to survive and thrive. I even have a Reddit account where I constantly spam communist stuff. When it happens, I will be ready to climb into the Politburo.

[Anonymous No.19549836]

>>19549299
You should take a shower and go outside, friend.
>>19549477
Risk I'm willing to take.

[Anonymous No.19549972]

I'm lazy and people hate me for it but I just wanna lay around and nap what's so bad about that

[Anonymous No.19549987]

I would like to read something on the topic of having conviction that you’re destined for something great.

[Anonymous No.19550008]

>>19549972
Christian-liberal work ethic is slave morality.
At least read theory on how we subvert them

[Anonymous No.19550175]

>>19543092
I think about Husserl-anon (Pharaoh (1999)) at least every other day.
Did you know Husserl studied mathematics? under Weierstrass? is what I ask girls at parties.
Did you know there exist functions continuous nowhere-differentiable functions \R\to\R?
And so on and so forth ad infinitum ad nauseum
If only i had studied color theory in college and not whatever computer science mathematics convex optimization fuckery I actually did study in my past life.
Phenomenology is a synonym for color theory, right?

[Anonymous No.19550192]

>>19550008
complaining that other people work harder than you is slave morality. it's not fair everyone should be the same, you can't just go out and produce more stuff than me that's not fair

[Anonymous No.19550208]

just impulse bought a bible (thomas nelson kjv, thought it was leatherbound but actually made out of some cardboard stock, sewn binding at least)

[Anonymous No.19550296]

>>19543092
i have to drink in order to function

[Anonymous No.19550313]

I have to function to drink.

[Anonymous No.19550321]

I drink but don't function

[Anonymous No.19550331]

I don't drink but function

[Anonymous No.19550344]

I neither drink nor function

[Anonymous No.19550349]

What is the meaning of function?

[Anonymous No.19550371]

I hate how normies and supposedly iluminated inclusive people always throw shit at shut-ins, otaku culture and guys with virtual girlfriends. They say with a straight face that a lot of young people are commiting suicide and then they shittalk about incels. I feel they can't understand the /r9k/ mindset nor shed a tear for those people whose entire world and share of experiences reside in a computer, why can't they see where do we coming from? we the scum of the earth want to create connection somehow, life is meaningless, therefore I will experience myth by watching chinese cartoons. But no. Normies just laugh at us. Look at those furries. Yeah sure man, furries are disgusting, look a those guys they are dressed like dogs! lol so stupid! HEY that dude has a anime wife! haha what a loser! fortune is a bitch, some people happen to grow up in a farm surrounded by mother earth, born from good parents, they fuck up for 40 years, get through three divorces, get a wife, and then preach about how good they are, others survive in a concrete shithole, fap to a cartoon fox while mon and dad attend to gruesome jobs, and then there is no turning back, I am the 24 y/o foxman dude, being an anthropomorphic fox gives me meaning, fuck your eco-communist bullshit dude. Man I hate this shit world. No wonder why so many people radicalize when even the so called good guys are so despicable.

[Anonymous No.19550382]

>>19550371
Touch grass

[Anonymous No.19550414]

>>19550382
Yeah, thanks bro. I realized until it was too late, fourteen years spent in the digital world. I would wish everyone could touch grass, modernity makes life horrible, I feel like they nuked the outdoors last year, actively making interaction between people even more soulless, nature is the true radicalization at this point. Probably I will die defending a forest from a mine company, I want to get out of this hellhole.

[Anonymous No.19550416]

>>19550371
shut up bitch

[Anonymous No.19550429]

>>19550371
good post

[Anonymous No.19550434]

>>19550371
You're overly focused on societal labels and the actions of others. Literally nothing you said matters, turn inward.

[Anonymous No.19550457]

>>19550434
not that anon but what you said matters even less. reflexivity is the start and end of everything, just turning inward is suicide, unless that's what you meant, unless you were just telling that anon to kill himself

[Anonymous No.19550467]

>>19543092
hall of this board is off-topic

[Anonymous No.19550496]

>>19550457
You can turn inward, and rely upon yourself while still engaging the world in actually meaningful and non vapid ways.
Ultimately you decide what matters, as cliche as it sounds and it is important to resist nihilistic urges, so I certainly don't want anon to off himself. Just to stop assigning an over abundance of value to the opinions of the average human.

[Anonymous No.19550509]

>>19550192
You’re confused, little one.

[Anonymous No.19550511]

new thread
>>19550508
>>19550508
>>19550508

[Anonymous No.19550516]

>>19550467
What's the other half?

[Anonymous No.19550526]

>>19550511
this one isn't even at bump limit faggot

[Anonymous No.19550529]

>>19550526
Yes it is

[Anonymous No.19550544]

>>19550529
Not till now

[Anonymous No.19550545]

>>19550529
no, it's not. the reply number is italicized when a thread hits bump limit

[Anonymous No.19550555]

>>19543092
So for context, I'm a 22 year old with pretty advanced hair loss. Currently I've been keeping my hair super short as when it's grown out, It looks really bad.

A couple days ago I was in class which was meeting via zoom. Everyone in the class was working separately on individual projects and our cameras were all on.

While I was working, my Professor picked up his baby. The baby started looking at his computer screen and my Prof started playing with him and said "Look! That's Anon! You have more hair than Anon!"

Now. His comments made me feel like shit but i didn't say anything. I've gotta ask, am I right to be offended? I've asked my friends and parents and they were all in disbelief that he would say something like that in front of me.

Personally I would never comment on someone's physical appearance like that. I'm constantly obsessing over my lack of hair and I hate being bald. Can you imagine if I had said "Look! That's Tim! You're almost as chubby as Tim!" That would be totally unacceptable.

I'd appreciate suggestions of what I should do in this case. I've been considering emailing him because he might just be clueless as to how upsetting hair loss can be to someone. I hope that I can inform him so that he doesn't say that kind of stuff to future bald students.

Also, I'd like to take a moment to just express how bizarre it is that this insanely progressive professor is the one to make fun of my appearance. This guy's about as socially left-leaning as you can get. He was honestly the last person I'd expect to do this.

[Anonymous No.19550573]

>>19550555
nobody cares about the plight of the bald because it's a male-specific issue

[Anonymous No.19550783]

>>19543092
Im bored and scared of my fragild existance. I wish i hade super powers so I can be less bored but I will still be bored

[Anonymous No.19550902]

>>19550783
>Charles II

[Anonymous No.19551145]

>>19543953
Ask yourself, what is right? Then, go do it.

[Anonymous No.19551229]

>>19549516
I assume you are American like 50% or 4chan? America isn’t part of the West he is talking about. When he wrote this book America as we know it today wasn’t even a thing.

[Anonymous No.19551232]

>>19550371
No one gives a fuck man up bitch

[Anonymous No.19551585]

Women are unironically demons. Yes, even your mother anon

[Anonymous No.19551588]

>>19544249
>It's like I'm overwhelmed by the feeling that what I'm doing is futile, or too slow, or I should be doing something else

i feel this way about reading fiction but not non-fiction