Literary lifestyle as despair

[Anonymous No.19444597]

I finally achieved the dream of dedicating all of my free time to reading. I got rid of the internet, haven't been on /lit/ for months (until now), moved to a city where I know absolutely no one, got rid of my cell phone — in short, I removed all distractions from my life to devote myself to reading books and pursuing knowledge. Fast forward a few months; now I live in utter and growing solitude, haunted by sexual thoughts and the desire for social interaction. I desperately await phone calls which never arrive. I'm losing the ability to communicate with human beings because I'm so used to talking to myself in an inarticulate manner — since I already know what I want to say. Granted, I still read, as I have literally nothing else to do given that I have no internet (expect at this moment). But I am becoming more and more distracted by the sexual urges and desire for friendship, which is impossible for me to forge for the reasons alluded to above.

Don't fall for the memes. Don't leave everything for books. Make sure that you either have a steady supply of social interaction, or at least something else to keep your mind off the crippling loneliness, as I suspect something like looking out for one's survival in the woods would accomplish.

And if anyone knows of any books that reflect on circumstances similar to mine, I beg you to name them.

[Anonymous No.19444648]

>>19444597
That isn't the literary lifestyle, you literally lived like a monk, what the hell did you think was going to happen?
Just know that some poeple are not made for that kind of monastic lifestyle.
Read The Temptation of Saint Anthony.

[Anonymous No.19444873]

>>19444597
Get a part time job and be sociable with co-workers. Spend your time at home reading and writing. If they invite you out for coffee or a drink, join them.

[Anonymous No.19444930]

You fool,
the /lit/ lifestyle is abandoning all books to truly live /lit/ itself.

[Anonymous No.19445319]

>>19444597
I feel ya, OP. Tho I am going in cycles of wanting to not communicate at all, and then feeling forced to communicate with people either way. Then communicating, realizing it's too painful, going back to not communicating, and instead only consuming literature, podcasts etc. And then the cycle repeats.

As social creatures we are forced to communicate because auto-effective sensory stimuli have dampened amplitude to our nervous system... hence you rely on others to "scratch your back", to follow an analogy here.

[Anonymous No.19445340]

Shoulda spent half the time writing books desu senpai.

[Anonymous No.19445358]

based

[Anonymous No.19445364]

Reading isn't even important. There should be a limit to how many books you can read in a life time, like 500. After you've read 500 good books the rest is just useless escapism.

[Anonymous No.19445377]

>>19444597
extremely based

[Anonymous No.19445423]

>>19445364
Escapism is such a weird term. Escape what? We're told we're escaping. Well, escaping from what? Is it experience? You cannot escape from that. Is it life? You can't escape, except for when killing yourself. You're escaping from what then? Society? You're gonna carry that with you, and you certainly won't escape society by consuming media created by members of society.

[Anonymous No.19445444]

>>19445340
Writing is for when you have grey hair

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>>19444597
>, haunted by sexual thoughts and the desire for social interaction
Well duh. Do that.
The hermit’s lifestyle isn’t necessarily the lit lifestyle

[Anonymous No.19447074]

>>19444597
This is stupid. I ended up 'all in on the books' because I have no friends, family, money or anything else in my life. 'Books' is the only media that you can dedicate your whole life to and still be just a beginner, so it was an easy pick. I basically got stranded on them, until I slit my throat in the kitchen of course.

[Anonymous No.19447100]

>>19446084
>Well duh. Do that.
That's like asking me to slay a Hyrda, Butters.

[Anonymous No.19447125]

I have a suicidal personality unfortunately. I am spiteful, relive the past to the point of paralysis, and refuse to follow a path of societal re-integration despite being fully-aware of my capabilities to crawl out of the hole I've dug myself here before I become too deficient to do so. I know I must overcome all by myself, perhaps with the assistance of God if I elect to accept it.

[Anonymous No.19447130]

>>19444597
>living in a city

big oof

[Anonymous No.19447138]

>>19447125
This except I can't crawl out of the hole.

Nice painting; I wish I could go and live in the unending forests somewhere. Pity we don't have any where I live.

[Anonymous No.19447140]

>>19444597
join a book club and visit a library you utter idiot

[Anonymous No.19447144]

>>19447140
Book clubs are all on Zoom nowadays and I suspect it will be all women

[Anonymous No.19447152]

>>19446084
He's about to break free from his vices and you encourage him to submit to them. You make me sick.

[Anonymous No.19447155]

Why do anons fantasize about becoming le epic homeless schizo soijak?

[Anonymous No.19447174]

>>19444597
i believe you are a pseud and, out of desperation, are trying to fix your pathetic, meagre life by copying other people. You will never be happy/ contented because you are a sub-human drone that is so ubiquitous in this day and age. Fettered by this world and its alluring temptations: you will never liberate yourself without self-discipline.
>gib me books to help me
lol you are stupid

[Anonymous No.19447182]

>>19447174
Based. OP is just a failed normalfag who can't even stick to his literary larp.

[Anonymous No.19447204]

>>19447174
so what do you propose?

[Anonymous No.19447210]

>>19447174
Stop being rude fag

[Anonymous No.19447295]

>>19447144
> I suspect it will be all women
yes? and?

[Anonymous No.19447575]

>>19444597
>or at least something else to keep your mind off the crippling loneliness, as I suspect something like looking out for one's survival in the woods would accomplish.

You'll never learn, will you?

[Anonymous No.19448100]

>>19446084
Good take Butt Flies

[Anonymous No.19448179]

>>19444597
Who would have guessed that a life devoted to only one thing would quickly grow dull?

[Anonymous No.19449462]

>>19447174
where is the picture from?

[Anonymous No.19449467]

>>19444597
>I desperately await phone calls which never arrive.
haha how the fuck is this even real like nigga just dial the number of the nigga you wanna call ahahahahaha

[Anonymous No.19449535]

>>19444597
https://youtu.be/6DJQu9RQYWs

[N E M O . !!GgBWHLRiayD No.19449697]

>>19444597

The only ones who "fall for memes" are delusional, confused, codependent individuals like you; telling them to immerse themselves in the opposite extreme will not rectify your/their deeprooted deficiency.

[N E M O . !!GgBWHLRiayD No.19449760]

>>19444597

The only ones who "fall for memes" are delusional, confused, codependant individuals like yourself; telling them to immerse themselves in the apposite extreme will not rectify your/their deeprooted deficiency.

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>>19447100
Quite like that. Best sharpen your dragonslayer

>>19447152
He did mention two things in that quote I lifted. Neither are vices imo. You imagine things.