Write What's On Your Mind

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Write What's On Your Mind Anonymous Thu Jul 29 12:40:18 2021 No.18743416 [Reply] [Original]

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 12:42:41 2021 No.18743428 >>18743416 Im almost 30 and still neet with a lot of regrets.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 12:42:48 2021 No.18743430 Some people really do get their kicks stomping on a dream. I know I do. Terror Management Theory is irrefutable

>>	soursore !!5HEGfvI0zIR Thu Jul 29 12:43:26 2021 No.18743432 I am Vegeta-esque in my dreams.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 12:44:10 2021 No.18743441 >>18743416 I love beauty but I'm ugly. Can a beautiful person make an ugly person beautiful, or will I make them ugly? No, I'll reject love and companionship and live alone.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 12:44:42 2021 No.18743445 >>18743416 I stopped feeling lonely when i bought 3 sex dolls

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 12:47:06 2021 No.18743462 >>18743441 You can make yourself beautiful.

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 12:53:39 2021 No.18743504

I used to be the kind of autist who could spend a month alone without speaking a word. I would get so much done on my own - reading books, working out, watching television, all of it. Well, a couple of years ago I did a large dose of LSD and I think it rewired me completely, and not for the better. After the trip, I had no trouble communicating with others. I could finally join my friends in conversation and not be the one in the corner who pipes in with the occasional one-liner. I even started talking to strangers in public. All of that sounds nice and all, but it became addictive, and I'm still the same person I was before the trip. The things I love and get meaning out of are all things that involve sitting in a room in silence. Now I have this unshakable anxiety whenever I'm not around other people, and it's driving me crazy. Things were manageable in the year before covid when I could be a social weekend warrior after a week of seclusion, but quarantine has me locked up with all the things I love but none of the energy to appreciate them.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 12:54:58 2021 No.18743513 File: 1.52 MB, 1031x731, 1529584512036.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18743362 >Could have sworn there was another one with black people in it. I'm guessing you meant this

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 12:56:21 2021 No.18743521

>>18743462
I know, anon. But I am also a human, and beauty won't last forever. If I have the joy of resurrection, I doubt the joy of intimacy that really draws out beauty will still exist.

Beauty shouldn't be something unnatural, that needs to be maintained. Perhaps in another world, it will be a fact of life. As for now, we have to find beauty in ugliness so that we are prepared for beauty and being beautiful in the hereafter

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 12:57:47 2021 No.18743530 >>18743445 What kind of sex dolls, anons? Those cheap ones, or are they made of good quality?

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 12:59:31 2021 No.18743540

>trying to get representation from my writing
>get solicitation from agent
>send agent my shit
>look into agent further
>outside of his agent work he's a pseudointellectual retard who has written multiple books/articles shitting on Christianity
>email him again and say I'm know longer interested

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 12:59:45 2021 No.18743543 >>18743504 This but with crack heroin substitute meth pain killers and weed, really connected me with people

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:03:42 2021 No.18743571 >>18743530 Cheap TPE ones but from a reliable source.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:07:13 2021 No.18743599 >>18743513 ironically more diverse than the average reddit userbase

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:08:53 2021 No.18743609 Day off tomorrow so gonna eat takeout and jerk off to twinks all night, life's good

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:12:40 2021 No.18743637 >>18743428 Same but have no regrets.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:14:49 2021 No.18743647 Sometimes I just want to write some genre fiction.

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:16:18 2021 No.18743655

i wished i watch DBZ when i was ak id but i always thought it was kinda gay. I onyl saw one epidose where the black hair main guy was wearing ankle weights that weighed like 10000lbs each. when he took them off during a fight he started moving at like lightspeed, it was pretty cool.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:23:03 2021 No.18743698 >>18743655 i remember watching DBZ when 9/11 happened

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:31:00 2021 No.18743763 >>18743504 sounds like it made you normal, not in a normalfag sense but in a healthy human being sense. enviable, really

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:33:49 2021 No.18743781 >>18743655 almost all the things people are nostalgic about from their childhoods, I thought were gay and dull as a kid

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:36:41 2021 No.18743803 >>18743609 Mmmmm yeah I've done that many a time

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:36:58 2021 No.18743805 Despite autistic OPs starting this way early every time, please don't be hesitant to continue conversing in the previous thread during the many hours it'll still be alive.

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:38:10 2021 No.18743814

>>18743781
I never watched Sailor Moon as a kid but as an adult I find its aesthetic strangely nostalgic and comforting. Something about a modern urban setting that has this dreamlike fantasy aesthetic that's layered on top but never insists upon itself is quite attractive for some reason.

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:43:19 2021 No.18743844

>>18743763
Maybe? Sometimes I think that, but if it really made me "normal" I don't think I'd still only desire my non-normal lifestyle. It's like having to eat, but my mouth is filled with so many cavities that every bite hurts. Maybe it's just drug-seeking behavior that had been dormant my whole life up to that point.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:55:42 2021 No.18743940 I wonder what the internet would be like if we, its denizens, didn't just regurgitate memetics like a bunch of aggregate retards.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 13:57:41 2021 No.18743952 >>18743940 We judge and insult each other far too much for there to be any candor or depth. There's little love

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:07:44 2021 No.18744011 >>18743940 what would the world be like if we, its denizens, didn't just regurgitate memetics like a bunch of aggregate retards?

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:10:38 2021 No.18744027

>>18743425
>Russians don't care about Tolstoy and Dosto
so what? Russians are uberplebs, the vast majority of them. remember that it's a nation that systematically eradicated their intelligentsia less than a century ago. fuck whatever "the Russians" think.
besides, a prophet in his own country yadda yadda

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:11:49 2021 No.18744034 >>18744027 You sound like a huge pseud.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:20:29 2021 No.18744094 >>18744034 thanks. it's a small boost of confidence whenever someone here calls me a pseud. much love, anon

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:23:52 2021 No.18744115 >>18743504 >I would get so much done >reading books, working out, watching television This isn't what I would call "getting stuff done"

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:27:14 2021 No.18744139 Gene Wolfe is a highly underrated author.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:32:23 2021 No.18744167 >>18744139 Is Shadow of the Torturer a good entry point?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:34:06 2021 No.18744176 >>18743952 You cant love someone without knowing which insult would hurt them the most

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:35:18 2021 No.18744183 >>18744167 it is the only point of entry

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:35:49 2021 No.18744191

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>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:36:51 2021 No.18744198 i just fucken swallowed like 6 d vitamin pills is that dangerous

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:39:55 2021 No.18744226 >>18744167 Yes >>18744183 Or the Wizard Knight

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:41:47 2021 No.18744245 >>18744198 >nausea and vomiting, weakness, and frequent urination. not really

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:42:39 2021 No.18744250 >>18744191 anon is screaming into the void again...

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:55:20 2021 No.18744355

>>18744139
I think he's overrated on /lit/. I found him far less subtle than anons made his writing out to be, and far more generic than I was hoping, or at least what I think is generic - since I'm not a reader of genre fiction, I guess I don't have all kinds of trash to compare this favourably against. Not that he's bad or anything, but somewhat disappointing after all the praise I've seen here.

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 14:58:25 2021 No.18744373

>>18744191
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>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 15:14:53 2021 No.18744495 >>18744355 >since I'm not a reader of genre fiction, I guess I don't have all kinds of trash to compare Oh, spare us, you pretentious nitwit.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 15:15:58 2021 No.18744502 >>18743428 Seek help.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 15:19:52 2021 No.18744539 >>18744502 Can anything help to him? Seems like his life is already over.

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 15:33:41 2021 No.18744636

>>18744176
Of course, because they, through natural living with you, expose their vulnerabilities. You begin to know them and what makes them tick. However, the loving thing to do would be to never exploit that and to help them get over it, if it's within your power.

But I'm just pissing into the void. No one will ever love me, and I've never loved someone in a lifelong, profound manner. So it's hard to know whether this assessment is true

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 15:49:07 2021 No.18744756

>>18743416
What's in them holes in he head? Why do he got a purple skull? Is this really the power of the white man? What does 9000 even mean? Why is Goku always saying oh jeez this guy is real strong, then kickin it into to Super Saying n+1 to stomp the nigga out? Drangonballs don't make no sense to me.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:05:27 2021 No.18744851 >>18743513 depressing

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:07:30 2021 No.18744865
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I feel nostalgic for the World Trade Center, even though I was born the following month of 9/11.
I regret the sight of the towers.
I feel there is something really personal between the buildings and I.
It’s been a few months that I keep searching on the net for new WTC pictures. Made a folder for them. I even dreamt one day after getting shitfaced of sitting on the pole of the North Tower.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:08:16 2021 No.18744867 File: 62 KB, 500x528, 43724282482.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] some book to cöpe when everything is falling apart in your life and around you ?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:12:28 2021 No.18744894 >>18744867 This is It by Alan Watts is a comfy read. Also Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy has a delightful nihilism to it that's really cozy when you feel like a fuck up. Godspeed anon.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:12:38 2021 No.18744898 cock balls sex sex sex

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:13:26 2021 No.18744903

>>18744867
Glamorama is a good one.
The Corrections is another obvious recommendation.
24/7 by Jonathan Crary is peak doomcore.

For the music side, the 1996 and 2006 Japanese CD re-issues of Miles Davis’ Agharta/Pangaea. It sounds like a lost Atlantis-like lost city that is discovered by a group of archaeologists, before their souls rejoin heaven after the death of said lost city.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:13:52 2021 No.18744907 I don't know if I'd actually want to hangout with a booktuber ngl.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:16:15 2021 No.18744922 File: 151 KB, 1600x1067, B92E8A65-48CF-49EA-8955-34141CFF26A1.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18744907 Deep down, you know you wouldn’t. >>18744865 Same, I feel some kind of inner peace with these towers. >>18744903 Based Electric Miles.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:18:15 2021 No.18744933 >>18744495 cry more

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:19:40 2021 No.18744946 I'm always crushing on the wrong girl. Last one is called Charlotte: too beautiful, too young and too engaged for me, but anyway, I can't stop thinking about her. And the fact that she seems to enjoy talking with me doesn't help.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:30:04 2021 No.18745018 >>18744922 Stockhausen called 9/11 the single greatest work of art ever. I guess he was right in some way.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:32:36 2021 No.18745033 I wish I could talk to her.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:41:10 2021 No.18745087 The neoliberal fascination with war astounds me to the point where it makes me question what it means to be a human and just want peace and the ability to prosper for everyone.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:41:28 2021 No.18745090 >the ex gf dreams are happening again Make it stop. I don't want to remember any more.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:42:07 2021 No.18745096 >>18745090 iktf

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:46:40 2021 No.18745110

>>18745087
Being human is being an animal. Being an animal is fighting for finite resources to survive. The redpill of politics is that any of the systems could work if people could play nice. The blackpill is that none of the systems will work because people are stupid animals.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:54:45 2021 No.18745158 This is a very good rainstorm. Very even, little sideways motion avoiding window panes, good use of mist. You could package it and sell it to noise machine companies. Pleasant use of light too; I think it will only improve with night.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 16:59:23 2021 No.18745183 >>18745158 I enjoyed reading this, thank you.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:02:47 2021 No.18745201 >>18745110 Capitalism makes a lot of resources finite. We produce more food than we need. We produce more homes than there are homeless. We produce everything at such excess and just get rid of it because it's not profitable.

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:04:26 2021 No.18745208

I'm sick of rotting. I unironically have a lot of potential and have objectively done well in life so far, but I have no hobbies or talents beyond maybe writing academic essays and having sex (inb4 bragging; why would I try and impress anonymous strangers online?), and don't have the motivation or willpower to pick any up. I want to be a renaissance man and know how to play an instrument, draw and paint, and to pray more and write more. I fear I'll go through my whole life without living in fullness.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:05:03 2021 No.18745213 >>18745208 you're not even alive try being aware

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:05:19 2021 No.18745214 >>18745208 Starting is half the battle.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:06:13 2021 No.18745219 >>18745213 That seems a little harsh.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:07:21 2021 No.18745226 >>18743416 sighs Twinks. Again.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:09:59 2021 No.18745244 >>18745219 you have no hobbies, and you think having sex is something ever worth talking about. your lizard brain is living your life, not you

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:11:39 2021 No.18745259 >>18745244 Even at my lowest, I reckon I'm better than you

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:12:56 2021 No.18745271 >>18745259 and now you're acting defensive despite lamenting your lack of action holding on to worldly achievements as if they'll somehow prove your worth are you alive?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:17:35 2021 No.18745309 >>18745271 Jesus, leave the dude alone, anon. He just wanted to vent a little, no need to fucking annihilate his existence like that.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:18:55 2021 No.18745321 >>18745271 What do you base your worth on, anon?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:20:44 2021 No.18745340 The Bible Catechism of the Catholic Church Summa Theologica These are all the books you need.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:20:55 2021 No.18745341 File: 29 KB, 600x483, 1621281951012.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I want to be sixteen again, bros. My youth went by way too quickly, and I wasted most of it. Literally crying right now, btw. I hate being alive.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:22:38 2021 No.18745351 My neck is so fucking stiff, but I'm too much of a pussy to really try and crack it myself and see if that helps

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:23:00 2021 No.18745353 >>18745309 Water off a duck's back.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:24:01 2021 No.18745358 >>18745351 massage it

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:24:07 2021 No.18745359 >>18745351 I crack my neck all the time, it never helps what helped me ironically was working out, tiring out the neck muscles will force them to relax.

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:26:03 2021 No.18745370

Had a dream about my ex last night. The breakup hadn't really affected me at all up to this point but I've felt drained all day. Just been surfing the web for 8 hours to numb myself from the feeling.

A couple of hours ago I read the chapter in Infinite Jest describing the Boston AA meeting. It was a lot of fun and DFW is tolerable in 20-odd page doses. But eventually the book got around to describing the AA members forming real camaraderie and some eventually finding lovers and I came full circle.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:32:38 2021 No.18745397 I respect men with big dicks.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:35:48 2021 No.18745416 >>18745341 Let it all out anon; things are going to be okay

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:37:05 2021 No.18745422 >>18745341 better start acting, anon otherwise another decade will pass and you'll wish you had what you have now

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:39:14 2021 No.18745436 >>18745397 I don't know about respect but I love men with big dicks I want a big dick inside me right now Maybe two...

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:40:15 2021 No.18745448 >>18745341 t. 18 years old

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:49:32 2021 No.18745500 I'm going to be with her in a week.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:56:23 2021 No.18745551 >>18745500 are you going to kill yourself

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:58:11 2021 No.18745560

I've used my innate intelligence to go to great lengths to ensure I secure a quiet, peaceful existence for myself, working as little as I need, doing what I like, spending time with the people I love, while the world collapses all around me.
I am the good man doing nothing. This thought haunts me more and more.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 17:58:54 2021 No.18745568 >>18745560 First world problems

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 18:00:47 2021 No.18745581 >>18745560 The world isn't "collapsing" more so than it was even a hundred years ago. Historically speaking you could even argue it's collapsing less. Maybe it's time to think for yourself?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 18:01:52 2021 No.18745590 Every time someone says about themselves that they have "innate intelligence" I just know they're dumb as fuck I just know it

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 18:02:53 2021 No.18745602

>>18743416
really don’t know what to do with myself anymore. contentment seems impossible and undeserved. might go back to a job i left after they reached out wanting me back. 17/hr is better than nothing but jesus i’m almost 30, should be making more! but i’m too lazy and indecisive to take any steps toward achieving more. hopes of a functioning romantic relationship dwindle, there’s hardly any point in even beginning, it’s been so long and i don’t know how to really be with or there for somebody in that way so why bother? maybe hermetic cabin life is the answer, fend off the skin walkers for a living
just basic shit really
anybody tried ketamine? may need a fuckin....brain reset

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 18:04:56 2021 No.18745625 >>18745590 If you want to get literal about it, everyone has "innate intelligence", by definition. Unless you're suggesting that intelligence is only acquired? In which case, you're obviously wrong.

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 18:11:55 2021 No.18745674

>>18745581
Does the degree of collapse truly matter, when the world as you've always known it is disappearing? Once it becomes unrecognizable, you end up finding yourself in a new place, and as the process unfolds, you can see whether that place will be something you feel you could live in. If you sense that it won't, shouldn't you fight back against it?
If you define things this way, I suppose you could argue that the world is constantly collapsing, constantly being broken and remade, and that we're free to choose whether to embrace this process or resist it. But is "not choosing" a choice in itself? And most importantly, is it a choice one can live with?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 18:19:46 2021 No.18745726 >>18743513 white boy summer

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 18:25:57 2021 No.18745761 File: 1.07 MB, 1992x1992, 1579993481693.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I've always wanted to be a serious writer, but now I just want to write erotica about my degenerate sexual desires

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 18:29:17 2021 No.18745780 >>18745761 based, me too

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 18:31:24 2021 No.18745795 >>18745761 >not starting as /elit/ for practice and then becoming /lit/ afterwards

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 18:34:04 2021 No.18745813 Should I give up drawing?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 18:39:40 2021 No.18745838 >>18745813 can i see one of your drawings

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 18:41:15 2021 No.18745845 >>18745813 As a job or as a hobby?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 18:52:00 2021 No.18745910 >>18745674 First world problems

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 19:26:59 2021 No.18746069 >>18743513 any /lit/ meetup pic

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 19:34:23 2021 No.18746106 File: 49 KB, 640x491, happy.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18745551 For once, Anon, things are going to be okay.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 19:47:13 2021 No.18746194 >>18743513 I want to mass shoot them

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 19:47:38 2021 No.18746197 File: 393 KB, 150x298, Cat_fall_150x300_6fps.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Animals are so fascinating...

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 19:47:39 2021 No.18746198 >>18745602 >>18745602 im 27 making 16.60/hr.... how much should someone be making at 30?

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 19:51:26 2021 No.18746233

>>18746198
>how much should someone be making at 30
At least 30% more than whatever you end up making at 30, so that the prophecy of the hedonic treadmill may be fulfilled. Notice that the only way to not come up short is to earn 0 dollars at 30.

I hope this exchange has served a little to right your course.

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 19:59:06 2021 No.18746260

How can you know if your mother loves you? Is love tangible? because I don't feel anything. I am almost certain my mom has been taking medication for some kind of depression for a considerable amount of time. Does her brain work like mine? Is this lack of love-feeling hereditary? I don't blame her. She might be the only one who could empathize with me, but there is no comfort in that. I wish I cared enough to get to know you better Mom.

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 20:02:30 2021 No.18746282

>>18746260
I like to believe there is something more profound to love, some subtle attraction or emotion, some pheromone or magnetic/electrical signal given off by the heart.

But you can tell just from behavior; sometimes people are cemented in their old behaviors, and hurt you. But aside from those moments, if there are moments where she kindly approaches you, hugs you, calls you her son, acknowledges her bad behavior (if any), apologizes (after a wrongdoing), how can she not love you?

Is it that you do not feel anything, or that she does not give out anything? But if medications are at play here, I can't speak. You must still love her, however.

And at least we can love each other, here, anon.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 20:06:35 2021 No.18746306 >>18745341 Best time to plant a tree may have been ten years ago but the second best time is right now anon

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 20:07:12 2021 No.18746310 >>18746260 Love is objectively kinda fake and undefinable (though I fucking love my mum and she loves me back but you know what I mean)

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 20:08:15 2021 No.18746316 >>18746260 >Is love tangible? because I don't feel anything. You might be autistic or have ASPD/trauma/schizoid pd

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 20:13:54 2021 No.18746350

>>18746260
Your mother loves you. But the ways she has loved you throughout your life has shaped your own capacity and experience of what loving and being loved is. That's mostly nurture and some nature. It sounds like you identify with her in her distance and coldness; but it also sounds like you can question whether there's any love between you and within you and recognize that something is off. Some people are so blinkered by their upbringing that they cannot see that.

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 20:31:53 2021 No.18746453

Faust is possibly the single most overrated piece of classical literature that I’ve ever encountered. It’s message is fundamentally absurd and it’s actually bewildering that this is an exalted piece of canonical literature, written by, what is supposed to be, one of the most profound minds in history. Ridiculous.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 20:41:45 2021 No.18746506 >>18745761 https://www.amazon.ca/City-Singles-Jason-Bryan/dp/0991825705 Been there, done that

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 20:45:06 2021 No.18746529 >>18746506 hi jason

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 20:45:29 2021 No.18746532

>>18746198
no idea. obviously it depends on where you live, but it feels like at 30 you should be making enough to (mostly) afford a kid or something, or at the least to not live paycheck to paycheck (as i'm about to be doing; if 16/hr works for you then it works for you)
maybe that's totally baseless? who knows!
>>18746233
perhaps, anon. i don't mean it in terms of pure hedonism, i'm thinking of the future, and savings, and investments, inflation etc. e.g. 17/hr for the next decade+ isn't really feasible, you're gonna get left behind and lose purchasing power. money isn't the most crucial facet of life of course, but it's pretty important innit

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 21:35:30 2021 No.18746884 >>18743441 Women orbited Cyrano de Bergerac with his wit alone and he was ugly

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 21:51:02 2021 No.18746987 Someone I haven't spoken to in 3 years recently contacted me. Nice guy but I don't know how I feel about it.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 21:53:31 2021 No.18747007 >>18743428 Shouldn't feel too bad. There are plenty of 40+ year olds still working minimum wage jobs, there's always time to fix your life.

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 22:00:11 2021 No.18747049
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>>18743416
The company I work for has been "temporarily" closed because of covid for a goddamn year. Every month they tell us that they're about to open back up, only to push it back another a month. I have another job but it doesn't pay half as well and it doesn't offer insurance for my medical expenses. I'm running out of money and debts are just piling up. It's so goddamn stressful.
On the brightside, a girl who works at a tobacco store I go for cigarettes said I was cute today.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 22:00:55 2021 No.18747053 By 20, you should be doing X. By 30, you should have Y. By 40, you should blah blah. I can’t even imagine living my life this way, let alone wanting to live my life this way.

Anonymous Thu Jul 29 22:06:26 2021 No.18747083

>>18745096
I dreamed we were in this bungalow by the sea, and all the windows were open but the shades pulled down and we could feel the breeze from the coast. The light was low and golden, but dark and shadowed inside the house. It must have been morning or dusk. We were older, but still young - 30s, I think. We were naked, but it wasn't exactly a sex dream. We kept embracing and touching each other in familiar ways after our long separation, and talked about how our lives had drifted but had been brought together here in this place by the sea. We loved each other again. The dream ended when I pulled a shirt on to walk out and join her on the porch looking at the sun over the waves.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 22:14:19 2021 No.18747131 >>18747053 it’s comforting to have and meet goals, even if they’re arbitrary and ultimately harmful

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 22:54:12 2021 No.18747332 >>18746453 u did read it in german, right anon? i needed to read with a dictionary but it's amazing how the verse flows also the tropes from classics are in ur tap water anon, u dont even notice they're everywhere now

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 23:16:47 2021 No.18747433 File: 550 KB, 329x400, 1584202043500.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] When will the exam nightmares go away. I graduated four years ago for gods sake.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 29 23:51:02 2021 No.18747583 >>18747433 I have horrible exam anxiety. I shake and pour with sweat

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 00:13:51 2021 No.18747653 File: 315 KB, 350x350, 1613708756811.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >finally recovered from UTI >now abdomen and sides constantly ache Can my body not have a problem for ONCE?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 00:26:07 2021 No.18747694 >>18745370 I have been there myself

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 00:39:38 2021 No.18747740 I just cant take up a min wage job while having a physics degree. It just mean that all my efforts were for nothing.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 00:55:47 2021 No.18747775 >>18745208 immediately purchase a guitar and just the presence of it in room will force you to train because youll feel waste if u dont. do it.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 01:30:16 2021 No.18747909 >>18747049 just pull yourself up by your bootstraps bro

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 01:31:36 2021 No.18747912 >>18747909 Just invent your own vaccine bro

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 01:34:40 2021 No.18747923 >>18747740 Unironically make a physics Youtube channel or react to psychics in movies or some shit. It's all the rage these days

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 01:40:37 2021 No.18747947 [DELETED]

i was at work and this chick made a kind of bad joke so i laughed awkwardly and now i'm stuck refreshing 4channel until the cringe recedes. what the fuck, i did nothing wrong. she's the one who told it, why am i stuck with the cringe in this situation? that's why i almost never laugh at people's jokes or make jokes.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 01:46:18 2021 No.18747970 >>18747947 The situation you're describing doesn't even sound cringe so stfu

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 01:54:24 2021 No.18748006

>>18743416
My job is to either sit or walk for 12 hours a day 3 days/week. I work "security." This series of buildings is corporate, and as I work the night shift, there are typically a maximum of 5, minimum of 1 persons in each building. I get paid ~$1,000/paycheck and live well within my means. I suffer from major depression, and thoughts of suicide and homicide battle each other to try living rent free in my mind. I often see no way out other than death, but if I am to follow the golden rule (do unto others as you would like to be treated) perhaps then I could free others from the same problems I face in my day to day life; offer them a treasure I cannot possess, and perhaps one day be freed myself by a judiciary. I have lots of real, honest, non-superficial friends whom I keep at just a far enough distance that they would be wary of me, but not so scared that they would stop hanging out with me. The closer I get to any one of them, the more I reveal to them the facade I live - though at this point, they enjoy my casual company so much that they simply live in blissful ignorance that one day I might snap. Or, that's how I think of it anyway. I try to avoid thinking as much as I can.
>inb4 edgy teen
>inb4 you'll never do anything
>inb4 livestream it
Oh well.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:00:33 2021 No.18748026

>>18743416
I like my job, I could support a wife and kids comfortably while doing it. I have no idea how to find a woman though, and consider just buying the appropriate supplies, cashing out into gold, and living in the woods. I'm definitely going to try a few weeks during winter, just to see if I am idolizing the idea.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:01:37 2021 No.18748030 >>18748006 How old are you?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:02:47 2021 No.18748037 I think I'm too crazy for a stable relationship but I still want to have kids and I want them to be raised in a loving house, so alas my only option is to cuck another man. or become a sperm doner, but that's kinda cringe

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:03:08 2021 No.18748039 >>18748026 The best way to find a woman is to boldly fuck as many as you can while bragging about it. That braggadocious behavior will actually attract hot chicks who are sick of geeks getting oneitis over them.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:04:26 2021 No.18748045
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>>18748037
Bullshit.

I literally knocked up my waifu 2 weeks after I met her, one of my kids is now 5 and literally they both just left my place about an hour ago after I cooked them both dinner.

You do not need a traditional path. YOU NEED TO BLAZE YOUR OWN TRAIL!

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:06:43 2021 No.18748049
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Haven't gone to a party in years. Went to one the other day and people kept telling me I look bored so I attempted to make myself appear busy by studying the furniture and knick knacks of the house. Someone asked me a question, I just said "no" and stared outside the window until he walked away. In the marajuana filled air and over the din of pop music I found it difficult to have conversations with people that I otherwise talk to on a daily basis. After leaving the party I walked around at 3AM and my place in the world appeared clearer than ever

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:07:22 2021 No.18748051

You know how in youtube all of these uber videos have been popularized in which passengers act drunk or like dicks and get exposed and get kicked out. Intrinsically, I feel I am drawn to them because there is a sadistic pleasured gained from watching a fellow human being being embarassed, even though I might have been in similar positions not related to uber thankfully. With cameras being so easily accessible and usable in any given moment, imagine if this became a thing in the future where people would just fetishize over someone getting embarassed or even degraded. It happens now of course, but its kinda fucked how we get joy out of if

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:11:19 2021 No.18748070

>>18748030
19. I've worked a lot of jobs, had a fiancé who dumped me, parents divorced after dad came out as gay, tried the military but I got kicked out after another recruit in the medical platoon told the drill instructor I wanted to kill myself. While walking the halls of this concrete prison, I often fantasize about getting on a buss late at night, paying in cash, and riding it to another city with nothing but jeans, a hoodie, a face mask, and a knife, finding a homeless person, and ripping him to pieces. If I were careful enough, I could ditch the knife in a river after cleaning it off, get right back on that buss, and go home without any leads on me. It wouldn't be hard. The only thing I honestly have to live for is my cat, who I love dearly, but is staying with a friend while I try to move to a place that accepts pets. I was supposed to move yesterday, but the guy I was moving in with got his new bed sent to a different state, so it will be at least two more weeks. I would love to love again, but everything is just hopelessly numb, and I don't see how any girl in my life could like me. I feel like I've been through so much, but I have so much longer to live and just don't know how long I can last at this rate. Luckily, I don't have any addictions like alcohol, drugs, video games, etc. I hang out with friends nearly daily, but it never feels like enough.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:14:09 2021 No.18748086

>>18748070
Your father is a weak man and you should mock him.

Don't hurt anyone else dude. If you want to adventure and live your life, you're going to have to do something drastic like sell everything, move to a foreign country, and take dangerous / daring jobs to find your heart. I moved to a 3rd world country with only 5k in my pocket and after 6 months I was starving and fucked, but I had $50 in my bank account and went to the bar. That night I met these dutch guys who taught me how to sell porn on the internet, and that was my ticket to major income to fund my life...

If you're in a rut, do something drastic. That is good advice. Obviously you have intelligence and are capable, but most likely your environment is hurting your ability to grow.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:15:43 2021 No.18748090

>>18748006
Security is a great job, night shift, don't have to do anything, no work stress
You have real friends and live well within your means (I quote you), but you are "depressed" and have "thoughts of homicide", it's funny and fucking pathetic of you to say, I don't take it seriously, thank god we are in an anonymous setting because it would have been a total embarrassment otherwise
See this once again is first world problems to me, I'm disgusted reading this to be honest with you
You have no idea what life is and you are spoiled, you are like a little girl, I can only wish it upon you to know real suffering so that you could shut the fuck up
Kill yourself by the way

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:27:19 2021 No.18748131

>>18748086
I just don't see myself becoming happy from anything material. That said, I have considered moving up north without telling anyone. Somewhere like northern Michigan or Montana in some small town where I could know everyone.
>>18748090
>you are spoiled
>a total embarrassment
>first world problems
>I can only wish it upon you to know real suffering
You act as if I'm not fully and completely aware of my condition, when I very well am. I could be living the hedonistic American dream until I died of an overdose if I wanted. My grades in (albeit community) college could show incredible promise for a future in almost any field of my choosing, and despite this, I simply cannot seem to find joy or purpose outside of my clearly twisted perception of reality. I understand that my world view and psychological tendencies are warped, unreasonable, and /really/ fucking edgy, but it doesn't stop the fact that I exist in this state - which I am NOT proud of.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:28:59 2021 No.18748136 >>18748131 >outside of my clearly twisted perception of reality. Because* not outside

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:29:23 2021 No.18748140 >>18748131 Do it! Stop considering and DO the things that nag at you. I believe in you, anon.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:30:25 2021 No.18748143 >>18748131 You sound like a vulnerable narcissist and I want to break your bussy

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:34:55 2021 No.18748156 >>18748143 I am a far bigger narcissist and homos like you should be thrown off the nearest tall building

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:37:03 2021 No.18748161 >>18748156 >homo Not. I wouldn't enjoy it and I'd make sure the balls don't touch

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:37:06 2021 No.18748162 >>18748045 the stable relationship and loving house part tends to be less easy than knocking someone up

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:44:09 2021 No.18748190

>>18748131
Then stop whining like a bitch, just kill yourself if you hate your fucking life so much man, JUST. DO. IT. What the fuck are you waiting for? Oh wait you won't because your little psychological melodrama isn't as painful or intolerable as you like to think when you romanticize it. Fodder.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:45:23 2021 No.18748193 >>18748156 I'd rape you in the ass

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:46:04 2021 No.18748197

>>18748140
When I left for the military, I was the closest I've ever been to suicide. If that other recruit hadn't "ratted me out," I would certainly be dead. I decided for sure that I would throw myself off the three story building that day. Returning home after the experience has left me shell-shocked. I think the only thing I really want in life is go not be alone, but I keep people at a distance constantly so I don't get hurt like I did with my ex-fiancé. If I could bring someone with me, I would leave tomorrow. I would go anywhere in the world if someone would just come with me. But if I left now, alone, I know I would crash my car on the way there.
>>18748143
I have a friend in the National Guard (he's mildly autistic) who tells me he has a hard time respecting me fully because of my lack of drive and severe lack of any social pride. I find no joy in social conflict, and I always do my absolute best to quickly remedy any bad blood between friends; I frequently act as a mediator between two parties. I sometimes let people superficially walk on me if it makes them feel better, because I know at the end of the day that whatever feeling of pride they get out of it is meaningless to me.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:47:09 2021 No.18748204 This motherfucker works three days a week, has friends but "wants to kill himself because he can't seem to find meaning in life" lol get the fuck out of my thread

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:55:41 2021 No.18748233 I always imagine that whenever I'm sick I will lay in bed and just read all day but it never actually turns out that way

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 02:58:12 2021 No.18748242

>>18748190
The consideration has gotten stronger and stronger since I came home, to the point where it's almost the only thing I can think about at work (case in point: these posts), to the point where I don't know what I want anymore. I will say, though, I do agree with you.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 03:01:24 2021 No.18748248 >>18748197 Watch this https://youtu.be/mKfGP4CQYBo

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 03:02:44 2021 No.18748255 >>18748248 Gave me a chuckle >tfw failed prostate exam because of this video

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 03:05:20 2021 No.18748264
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im a 30 year old virgin hikkimori who only goes outside to refill his schizo prescriptions. I have no future and pray every day for ww3.

My delusional plan is to become a painter in the vein of francis bacon, basically a horror painter because art is the only skill i kind of have

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 03:21:15 2021 No.18748307 >>18745208 >I have no hobbies or talents beyond maybe writing academic essays and having sex Have you read the Confessions of Augustine?

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 03:28:01 2021 No.18748335

I don't know what to do. I'm so unhappy these days. I just feel overwhelmed by everything.

Exactly one year ago, I was broke, unemployed, living with roommates without even a car. I was so free. Now I have my own apartment, a nice car, and even got a promotion for a new role I start next week. And yet I feel like killing myself now more than ever. I've acquired so much more responsibilities, and I don't know if the trade-off is worth it. I mean, materially, sure, if I told my past self how much I would accomplish in one year I wouldn't believe myself.

But now it is all just too much. I wish I can just sleep and not wake up. Or, maybe I will wake up tomorrow and find myself back in that dingy little room, to my unironic janitor graveyard shift instead of the white collar office job. I spent so much time at that old job watching movies and listening to podcasts on the clock, now I can't even open an extra tab without someone else knowing.

I am just so unhappy and its all my fault. A lot of people and now depending on me and I don't want to disappointment them, but at the same time, I'm dying inside. I can't relax at all.

God I fucking hate myself so much.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 03:32:55 2021 No.18748349

>>18747007
>there's always time to fix your life.
the only fix for my life is suicide
I've failed at everything, every single thing. My future is that, a dead end job and coming back home to drink
I can't take it. All while crooks and whores dominate the world. Fuck this. If I have to be a servant at least let me be one to people who are worthy, not a bunch of whoremongering frauds

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 03:34:07 2021 No.18748355 after the CDC's new mask guidelines and vaccine policies I've realized the schizos were right all along. all this shit makes me want to head butt a pick axe.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 03:36:34 2021 No.18748362
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>>18748197
Hey man, you're a great writer! That fucking shit is gold. I think you should really take your feelings and externalize them in a novel. Start writing the darkest shit. Like, man, you have power, harness it!
You still have a lot of time to change things around and find inner peace. Have you heard of Wes Watson?

>pic related
Use your bleak shit to step on a staircase you make of your most dark thoughts, venting these emotions and taking control of your life again.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 03:38:03 2021 No.18748365 is it possible to feel genuine guilt over doing something when you would make the same choice if you could go back in time? the obvious answer should be no, right? but I've found myself in a paradoxical situation that's making me question this

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 03:43:45 2021 No.18748383 >>18748362 Thank you. Catharsis is something I struggle with, but I think I'll try.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 03:43:53 2021 No.18748385 >>18748365 Guilt and remorse/regret could be separated; guilt is a sense of culpability, but regret happens without any culpability sometimes too.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 03:48:16 2021 No.18748407

I get more and more convinced that my prime problem is anxiety. Not about something. But just a general uneasiness. A tension, ever-present in my body.

And that the book on the user-friendliness of software is titled Don't Make Me Think. People are using more and more of their pacifiers and in turn, thinking less and less.

What else?

Oh, a slimy sociopathic attention whore in my class sickens me. No exaggerations. Like in the short story The Silence by Murakami.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 04:18:02 2021 No.18748466 >>18745183 You're welcome. I rate most rainstorms. It's a 9.2/10 hobby.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 04:28:37 2021 No.18748477

>>18748385
in my case, there isn't culpability in the sense of "blame' since my actions didn't affect or hurt others. many people did the same thing and would say it's the right thing to do. to be slightly less cryptic, I suppose I mean to say I knowingly chose a path that forced me to betray a strong conviction of mine. life is full of value compromises to get ahead personally/professionally so perhaps I'm overthinking but this was something I told myself I'd never do under any circumstances until it was a roadblock to my success

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 04:43:49 2021 No.18748509

>>18748477
>life is full of value compromises to get ahead personally/professionally so perhaps I'm overthinking but this was something I told myself I'd never do under any circumstances until it was a roadblock to my success
So... Who did you fuck for a career opportunity?

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 04:47:35 2021 No.18748517

>>18748477
That happens to a lot of people. During jury selection for the Pentagon Papers case, the defence attorney Weinglass consulted with psychiatrists who told him that nobody over 30 would believe that the 35+ year old defendants had released the papers as a matter of principle, and had risked their careers and freedom and safety to do so, because everyone over 30 believes that comprising your principles is necessary and people who don't think that way are very young and naive or lying.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 04:47:58 2021 No.18748518 I feel a great affinity for Tibetan Vajrayana but without the language and culture it's probably just affectation

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 05:07:54 2021 No.18748580 >>18748517 >everyone over 30 believes that comprising your principles is necessary and people who don't think that way are very young and naive or lying. History would say otherwise. Or there's just an awful lot of naive people over 30...

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 05:11:24 2021 No.18748591

>>18748580
I am close to 30 and i believe in the exact opposite. As a matter of fact i have stopped hanging out with most of my childhood friends simply because they have no principles. There are just a lot of people anon, naive or not doesn't matter, the only thing i hear when i read your post is "i can't understand anyone". You should respect them one way or the other, it is their choice how they will live their lives. If they chose to compromise themselves and lose any chance they had to excell then that only means your chances are getting better to finally make it. Stay based.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 05:17:40 2021 No.18748608 >pRiNcIpLeS Principles are a giant cope

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 05:19:09 2021 No.18748615 >>18748518 More Vajrayana for me then huh!

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 05:19:46 2021 No.18748617

>>18748608
Just got home from the gym, there was a zoomer there barely lifting weight and sipping his energy monster drink, tell me that wasnt you, or that this zoomer couldnt be you. fucking disgusting, how do you go on with lfie knowing that you are only recognized by accident? When lets say for example a random stranger steps on you trying to get off the bus?

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 05:35:40 2021 No.18748660
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>>18748509
no anon, like I said my decision didn't affect anyone for good or ill. I wanted to avoid controversial social/political context to elicit sincere answers but that's doing me no favors at this point. my "conviction" was not to get the vaccine under any circumstances, until I was accepted into my dream school. I had various other good offers from unis which didn't have a mandatory vaccine policy (unlike the one in picrel) yet couldn't resist the allure of UChicago.
in short I traded my personal resolve when it came to my bodily autonomy and resistance to outside pressure... solely for prestige. I know I'm sounding dramatic, but that's exactly what it comes down to.
>>18748517
interesting anecdote, nothing like my situation obviously but it reminds me of an interview with Edward Snowden. one thing he said (I'm paraphrasing) stuck with me that seems pretty relevant to the state of mind you describe:
>I think this is a struggle a lot of people deal with, in institutions large and small. They've got a job, bills to pay, a family, and they're just struggling to get by. They know they're not doing good things, and they know what they're doing is actively wrong. But they know what happens to people who rock the boat, and that they have nothing to gain but everything to lose if they do."

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 05:40:34 2021 No.18748675

>>18748617
>there was a zoomer there barely lifting weight and sipping his energy monster drink, tell me that wasnt you, or that this zoomer couldnt be you. fucking disgusting
Ok? How is this about "principles". This has literally nothing to do with moral principles my guy

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 05:42:21 2021 No.18748682 >>18748660 HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA He thinks he has bodily autonomy or resistance to outside pressure because he is antivax HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 05:45:10 2021 No.18748693

>>18748675
Okay i will pretend you are of equal status so i can reply to you with the minimum amount of irony. But principles as a term has a bigger reach and they extend outside morality. Morality has no principles is just a behavioural code that midwits thought of, yet that doesn't mean a being that acknowledges is unethical. Deep down you know what is good and what not, and no matter what ethical principles you claim to follow, all you care about is having a clean consciousness. So let's get rid of your pseud shit and get to the actual stuff that does matter. Principles are a set of rules according to which you chose to live your life. For example a perfect principle to have, which that zoomer didn't, is this, if you do something then make sure you do the best you can. No half ass jobs are appreciated.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 05:51:47 2021 No.18748710

>>18748693
I have a set of rules according to which I choose to live my life whether I am conscious of it or not because it inevitably comes with being human and having a discerning mind but I really don't give a fuck what someone else's principles are as long as they do not intersect with my personal freedom. So to that extent I do not believe my principles to be superior or applicable in the same manner to the lives of everyone. Why should I be seething because a zoomer at the gym is not lifting? I don't give a fuck because I have integrity within myself.

>Okay i will pretend you are of equal status so i can reply to you with the minimum amount of irony.

What a pseud thing to say.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 05:58:58 2021 No.18748728

>>18748710
>Seething
You make me laugh anon but i will give you a piece of my mind. The only way for me to stay on route and live according to my own principles is to look at the people around me. The moment i realise what disgusts me in them, thats when i know exactly what i have to do. I am not seething, i am just using the means that were passed on me. We can argue if that's the best way to go on life but it would be pointless because as you said the same principles don't work for everyone. So as long as it works for me it has to be the best. Instead of motivation i seek the exact opposite. Therefor in the few aspects of life that i want to thrive my goals are set by despising the mediocracy that surrounds me. And yes it was a pseud thing to say but i wanted to piss you off, anyway it was just words dont take them personally.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 06:06:48 2021 No.18748759 >>18748751 No you said i am seething and thats why i greentexted it. Words make things so much more complicated. Wanna solve it in a proper fight?

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 06:08:29 2021 No.18748763

>>18748682
>he is antivax
choosing to stay unvaccinated isn't being "anti-vax." I don't care what others do and this isn't a political stance, stop thinking people's personal choices are subservient to one tribe in the culture wars. ideas don't obey a political party, if they're seen as "political" it's because then that's where you're automatically wired to associate them. you're just projecting because you're living in the same world of tribalistic thinking as the people you're criticizing.
>He thinks he has bodily autonomy or resistance to outside pressure
yes I do, or at least I did

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 06:14:56 2021 No.18748786 >>18748580 >History would say otherwise. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXgkuM2NhYI

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 06:15:33 2021 No.18748788

>>18748763
>yes I do, or at least I did
But that's factually wrong. You factually do not have bodily autonomy in contemporary society because of law enforcement, government surveillance and other factors. The belief that you have bodily autonomy is an illusion. It's a cope. And you do not have resistance to outside pressure due to the inherent qualities of yourhuman psychology. You are like a child. Stop being delusional and naive.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 06:18:33 2021 No.18748797 >>18748728 why did you delete your post like a pussy? go fight the other anon

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 06:23:36 2021 No.18748812 >>18748797 I didn't delete it, did i? I see there is something wrong with it but i have no clue why it happened. What do you mean the other anon, i thought you were the same person. You might be twats but i cant find two anons in the same day.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 07:13:53 2021 No.18748950

>>18748797
>>18748812
No no, it was I who deleted the post. The reason I deleted it was because right after I posted I realized that I misread what the other anon meant, so basically I was replying to something he didn't mean at all, which is dumb and counterproductive so I didn't want to leave the post in the thread. As he mentions here >>18748759 kek.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 08:26:57 2021 No.18749141 >>18748086 >met these dutch guys who taught me how to sell porn on the internet like onlyfans or some shit?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 08:56:25 2021 No.18749255 File: 19 KB, 358x443, 1603261653425.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I had another dream about her last night. I miss her.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 09:22:21 2021 No.18749343 I made a social media account and like 6 girls messaged me first surprisingly, 3 of them are pretty hot. The issue is I can't carry on a conversation at all so I've really given up talking to them, I think I'm going to delete the account

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 09:27:35 2021 No.18749365
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>>18749255
Once in a while I used to dream about my ex as well. But one night, I had a dream where we were together again. It felt happy for a moment. However, near the end of said dream, she confessed that she still loves me. For some reason, that made me lucid. It all came back to me why we broke up, why I don't want to have anything to do with her. At that moment, I stopped and said, "You know what you've done and yet you say that. I was a fool to believe you, I won't play that part again. Don't ever show yourself in front of me again". As she walked away, I woke up from my slumber with my eyes on the ceiling, almost refreshed.
Ever since that dream, I haven't seen her in my dreams nor can I even think about her anymore. Sorry to latch on to your post but I just wanted to let it out.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 10:17:21 2021 No.18749572 I actually love him. When I'm not with him on a night we are usually together I want to be. Never happened before. I'm turning into a normal person with feelings and I don't like it

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 10:22:03 2021 No.18749604

>>18745602
ketamine is nice but only for its active duration. there is a bit of an afterglow, meaning that if you are suicidal during the high you will not comprehend why you would be, then for a few days you're indifferent to the idea, but after that it usually comes back. i only use it recreationally however.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 10:26:04 2021 No.18749626 >>18747053 I don't think anybody wants to live their life this way anon. They simply succumb to cultural conditioning. Consider yourself lucky if you're not affected by it.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 10:27:38 2021 No.18749633

>>18743441
>Can a beautiful person make an ugly person beautiful, or will I make them ugly?
you can become a flatterer and get doomed to the malebolge. telling people what they want to hear about themselves is almost as good as being what they want in someone else

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 10:30:40 2021 No.18749651

>>18749255
>>18749365
I recently broke up with my second girlfriend and I'm starting to have more dreams about the first one. Had one last night where we met through a mutual friend in my new city and at first it was cold and awkward but then on a bus ride across town we started talking and she put her legs across my lap.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 10:33:00 2021 No.18749667 >>18749651 humans (mammals) pair bond so you will always love her most! shouldn't have broken up lol

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 10:37:05 2021 No.18749683
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I just wanted to have you folks know that the quote to my left is not actually anti-natalist in the sense that you think it is. In this gentleman's shrill view, every act one does is sinful. He thought death was preferable to live (can you believe that?), although he never did kill himself – knowing his sinful nature was enough to keep him going. Good for him. To say that his way of bluntly stating: I don't have a kid.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 10:39:29 2021 No.18749696 >>18749683 the quote seems regretful to me, that he did every atrocious thing in the world except his biological purpose

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 10:43:38 2021 No.18749713

God I wish I never came in contact with fucking internet commies and went back to when I was totally ignorant of politics. If I could go back in time, and change that moment I first came into contact through this shit from social media I'd be so much off

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 10:51:10 2021 No.18749743 File: 106 KB, 641x928, 1565763367063.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I'm bored at work right now with an old laptop that has Ubuntu on it Any recommendations for ways to kill time?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 10:54:59 2021 No.18749767 >>18749696 Yeah, good quote

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 11:05:50 2021 No.18749816 >>18749343 how does that even happen? The girls knew you irl right? also keep talking to them even if you don't like them, have sex and hang out with them just for fun, you're only young once in life so make sure you use your youth

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 11:14:30 2021 No.18749863 >>18749743 dwarf fortress

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 11:20:18 2021 No.18749899

>>18749816
It's this site interpals which is like an international chatting thing but you can also use it to meet girls, the thing is they live in different countries so meeting up is impossible. That's why I'm probably going to abandon it.

If I knew them irl though I would keep talking, maybe I should try again with Tinder or something here. I really suck at talking to women though, my life isn't that interesting and I think they can tell.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 11:43:09 2021 No.18750023

>>18749604
thanks for the rundown. yeah i think there's a difference between the two, re: the effects of how you take it. what you describe is basically what i've read, but longer lasting and slightly more potent.
where i am, they do hour-long IV infusions (i'm unsure of the dose; on the low end, presumably), with the recommended number of sessions being 6ish within 2-4 weeks. it supposedly promotes synaptogenesis, so it should effectively hardwire out one's major depression/addictive tendencies. won't work for everyone obviously, but that's the idea. i'm very tempted, cause fuck SSRIs, but i don't know

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 11:46:16 2021 No.18750043

>>18749863
I set it up but it boots with sound and I've realized I have no idea how to mute the sound on this thing, there's no sound option in the system preferences, and the manual buttons on my PC don't do anything

I'm wondering if my installation is screwed up or if Linux is normally this unintuitive. I also had a software manager installed on here and it just vanished one day, and I can't get it back. Feels like even Windows 95's interface would be more efficient than this

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 12:01:23 2021 No.18750142 today's the first day in a month or two where i've gone more than 24hrs without fapping and i feel excellent. probably also due to the fact that i was actually able to sleep and not spend hours edging all night.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 12:09:51 2021 No.18750203

Sometimes I wonder if my cock is even a part of me. These days it feels like a foreign object, stuck to me, but not me. It uses to feel a part of me, but now I feel my the ridges of my glands between my forefinger and my thumb and it feels like an entirely foreign entity. It's seen a lot, the only challenge left is to bring forth life. I wonder if that'll ever happen? I'm reminded of walking down inner west streets, to private school parties. Getting drunk off the cheapest wine they sold, the stuff they only sold to kids that were under age. I remember throwing up and waking up with stiff jaws, vomit stained pants, blinding headaches. It's all gone now. I miss you girls.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 12:11:03 2021 No.18750220

I revealed a little something about my inner self in a casual conversation with strangers and now I have this feeling of dread and shame. I keep reviewing this thing I said to find out if it was awkward or weird or creepy or if I said it in a weird tone or whatever the fuck. As soon as my faceless, talk-about-the-weather public persona slips a little bit I feel like this and I go in this weird panic mode, my body language changes. I used to be the opposite and wear my inner self on my sleeve and I felt so much better. I guess because I'm such a loser now I am ashamed of every aspect of my being.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 12:12:35 2021 No.18750234

>>18750142
Be careful. They say that going cold turkey can shock the system, killing you in an instant.. At least the death will be swift and relatively painless. Less fortunate, your parents will have to excavate your body from beneath the mounds of hardened cum. I wish you the best of luck on your journey anon. I'll think of as I watch two lesbians fist each other tonight.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 12:15:53 2021 No.18750268 >>18750234 >. I'll think of as I watch two lesbians fist each other tonight. Million Dollar Baby (2004)?

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 12:18:14 2021 No.18750289

>>18750220
This is one of those situations where it is genuinely worth reminding yourself that other people do not think about you as much as you think about yourself. If they are strangers - who cares? Even if they were people that you knew, they probably would not care. But especially since they are strangers, they have probably already forgotten you. This kind of self-obsession is a type of narcissism. I don't mean that in a harsh way, I am guilty of it myself. But it is narcissism nonetheless.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 12:33:24 2021 No.18750366

>>18750289
>This kind of self-obsession is a type of narcissism.
I agree but it kicked in because I live in a small world and people did in fact bring up my past embarrasments. I've just been really unlucky with coincidences that hurt my self-esteem in weird ways

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 12:44:48 2021 No.18750467 What does it feel to be in love with a person who love you back?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 12:46:21 2021 No.18750479 >>18750467 I don't remember anymore

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 12:46:31 2021 No.18750481 File: 2.47 MB, 1920x1080, 1627246066890.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google]

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 12:52:00 2021 No.18750511 >>18750467 It burns off after awhile and you will get bored. >that's why HAVING CHILDREN forges a real bond.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 12:59:59 2021 No.18750553

>exfriend had been ripping off my socials because he likes that clout so I changed socials
>exfriend hasn't realized we're exfriends because of his bullshit (told him straight up that shit is fucked in the head)
>keeps trying to get info about me from mutuals
>keeps telling people we're friends, even though everyone in my circle knows he's weird as fuck and a stalker
*Sigh*. I'm not even that interesting, I'm just not a fucking psychopath. Try not being a psychopath, dude.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 13:00:50 2021 No.18750560 >>18750553 you both sound deranged

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 13:02:11 2021 No.18750569 Throw away your books, rally in the streets

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 13:04:24 2021 No.18750586 >>18750560 >both How, dude? I'm a boring normie.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 13:20:50 2021 No.18750696

>>18750467
I am more familiar with agape (or perhaps philia--brotherly love) than eros, romantic love. One major point about it is that this feeling transcends its object and extends to the whole world as a kind of benign acceptance of everything and an understanding that all is well. It dissolves a certain existential loneliness and besides perhaps the detached aesthetic contemplation of nature seems to be the only experience that can do so in a manner that feels fully healthy and untainted.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 13:21:51 2021 No.18750708 >>18750696 >I am more familiar with agape (or perhaps philia--brotherly love) than eros, romantic love. inb4 have sex incel . I've had plenty sex. Just not a meaningful long term relationship.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 13:47:47 2021 No.18750866

Listening to metal religiously probably isn't the best for my emotional development. I should be vibing with music that makes me feel more connected rather than excites and exacerbates misanthropy, wroth, scorn, and brutal contempt of the other.
Ah well, it speaks to me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BDTL7zofWks

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:00:33 2021 No.18750948 >>18750553 >ripping off my socials what does this mean?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:02:08 2021 No.18750958 >>18750866 I've been getting into metal lately, or should I say I've been getting into Melvins. only metal band I could currently say I like

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:03:48 2021 No.18750965 >>18750289 so people who are overly self-conscious are narcissists?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:04:33 2021 No.18750971 >>18750948 Copying pictures and captions?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:04:59 2021 No.18750973 >>18748070 the easiest crime to get away with is murder

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:05:48 2021 No.18750978 Nancy Pelosi is a raggedy old whore and should die choking on a 300 pound rapist's BBC

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:05:55 2021 No.18750979 >>18750481 blade and soul?

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:08:50 2021 No.18750995

>>18750958
It's an acquired taste. Conventionally people believe music should be melodious and beautiful, and some metal is. Gaining an ear for heaviness maybe requires certain things to happen to you in life to be able to relate with it. It's aesthetic affect to get you pumped up, aggro and emboldened. Gets you in this "take no shits" mind state. It's the musical equivalent of a battleaxe. Sometimes the situation calls for a battleaxe.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:13:54 2021 No.18751033 >>18750995 >Sometimes the situation calls for a battleaxe. And that situation is called life on earth. As far as I'm concerned.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:16:15 2021 No.18751044 >>18750965 it's a form of narcissism, yes

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:18:52 2021 No.18751059 File: 298 KB, 900x900, 21.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I want to turn myself into a new man, I'm tired of being me

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:33:11 2021 No.18751155 >>18751044 that doesnt sound like narcissism in any way. where's the overconfidence?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:37:07 2021 No.18751185 >>18751155 narcissism is now a catch-all for everything where you have a shred of identity left

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:39:11 2021 No.18751194 File: 64 KB, 1024x654, 1625575940384m.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18751185 2021 >being fat is healthy >quitting during the olympics is brave >putting on a dress and you're 100% a woman

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:40:10 2021 No.18751202

>>18743416
I sit in between walls wicked with wither. Tethered sandman strands that I know will never ultimately be. I watch the walls warp around me like brittle blades edging closer, ever closer, to my skin hair. Microslices pile to many. Slices that entice vultures to tend to me. God doesn’t make decisions nor does the nature it created. Its creation simply acts without regard for life, ethics, or fairness. My misfortune manifests as a test of psychological endurance. Why endure? Why fall for novel flavored lures? Why not just fall, fin loose, into that final deep? Into that final sleep? There’s nothing ahead of me except ashen hills. A reflection of my ashen will. Turn me into that static life that’s simply still. Cover my mind with plastic, with the unbreathable. Watch me peacefully drift. A path I’m fine with. The only romance I’ll find is that final coalescence of entropy and order. The only romance I’m a part of. So I’ll let entropy rip me apart. I’ll watch them waltz over my withering corpse. I’ll watch them elope and be together over my evaporating blood. As a hopeless romantic that’s a sacrifice I’m willing to make. The ultimate sacrifice.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:40:37 2021 No.18751205 File: 133 KB, 640x853, 2rssj9ryted71.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18751044 Narcissist = anyone living a more fun like than me

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:44:45 2021 No.18751223 >>18751194 Is that real? It's practically lovecraftian

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:45:06 2021 No.18751227

>>18751194
>I don't think this person's work is better than mine... I think people are being hired on the grounds of politic-
>narcissist you are a narcissist you think everything is owed to you narcissist

>I think people are treating me like shit for no justifiable reason and I don't feel comfortable
>narcissist you are a narcissist you think the world revolves around yourself narcissist

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:45:28 2021 No.18751228

>>18751155
Not him but narcissism is insecure because it's overconfident. If it were secure, then it would just be confident. Narcissism often involves grandiosity ("I could do that, I would be awesome, but I'm not going to do that, because being awesome at the thing I haven't tried is beneath me") where narcissists avoid things that will give them a concrete measure of ability. If you stay at home watching sports on TV, it's very easy to tell yourself you would do better; it's very hard to tell yourself that when facing a real life professional team. Narcissists are painfully insecure and they're over self conscious. The reason why they care about you knowing they are better than you is because if they don't tell you, you might think they are normal and the thought of that kills them.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:47:39 2021 No.18751243 >>18751228 being insecure doesn't make someone a narcissist this thing where certain types of personality issues are being cast under a demonizing light has been creeping all over male issues

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:49:40 2021 No.18751254 >>18747007 I was a neet for 20y

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:51:53 2021 No.18751265 >>18751227 I've had a lot of fun as a narcissist while so many on /lit/ are depressed and want to kill themselves

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:52:36 2021 No.18751268 >>18751254 How did you turn around your life?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:52:54 2021 No.18751271 >>18751228 You act like some people aren't better than others?

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 14:58:48 2021 No.18751309

>>18751243
Being cripplingly insecure might make you a narcissist. It requires self focus to the exclusion of external perspectives. There is a bias against males in labels, with males more likely to be called narcissists for this while females are more likely to be called BPD, but both are coping methods for people who are deeply insecure and incapable of taking external review well. They are overly self conscious because they have a deep need to influence other people's perspectives of themselves. I'm not trying to demonize it.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 15:00:40 2021 No.18751321 >>18751271 Is that a question?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 15:21:13 2021 No.18751419 >>18751309 so insecurity acts as some sort of attention attraction mechanism?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 15:24:47 2021 No.18751444 >>18751419 It's the cause for the mechanism. The attention attraction is to soothe the insecurity.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 15:26:10 2021 No.18751453 >>18751444 that somehow sounds even worse than the regular narcissism. is there a way to fix it or you're just born this way?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 15:26:58 2021 No.18751460 File: 22 KB, 399x400, 1521430257904.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I watched the youtube vid of chris chan admitting to fucking his mom and i have never felt more unclean in my entire life.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 15:34:12 2021 No.18751511

>>18751453
It's usually a deeply ingrained coping skill. You can replace it with better coping skills, which might make it easier, but whether they start to feel secure isn't guaranteed and depends on why they feel insecure. Kids who don't have good models of attachment when they're growing up often feel really uncomfortable with normal, because they can't deal with the lack of emotional stimulation. They have coping skills for shit being fucked up, but things going smoothly is like giving them acid and dropping them off in downtown LA would be like for a normie.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 15:44:07 2021 No.18751584 >>18751511 >things going smoothly is like giving them acid and dropping them off in downtown LA would be like for a normie i dont get this part.

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>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:03:33 2021 No.18751712 >>18751309 >There is a bias against males in labels, with males more likely to be called narcissists for this while females are more likely to be called BPD gee I wonder why

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:06:23 2021 No.18751731 >>18751693 kek

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:07:44 2021 No.18751747 File: 848 KB, 2070x1940, IMG_20200331_180744.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18751693 This a picture of me. Please have faith and get in touch!! I am an honest person

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:08:46 2021 No.18751755 >>18751731 Please bro. I am down on my knees. Have faith in humans. Get in touch

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:09:06 2021 No.18751757
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>>18751309
When those who would "externally review" you haven't even done 1/10th the living you have, while trying to criticize you, all you can do is laugh at them.

Kind of like when I was at the medical clinic getting my foot stitched up, the fat gross Karen nurse with short hair and about 5 fat rolls sticking out, she's about 5'1 and she begins lecturing me on why I need the vaccine. I just looked at her and laughed in her face. I told her she's obese and I'm not taking advice from some fat boomer.

That's how you deal with those lesser than you trying to dictate what's up. Laugh at them. Being a narcissist is awesome.
>pic related is something a narcissist would never do because he would be out dancing with the fine bitches at the club

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:12:29 2021 No.18751776

>>18751309
>>18751511
I was violently bullied and occasionally molested throughout childhood. Everything I said or did was used against me because I was sick and freshly moved in and I couldn't fight back. People turn wicked when they are confident that there will be no consequence. I don't know if I'm a narcissist for bottling myself up and showing a blank persona to everyone. I had a period where I was coming out of the cocoon so to speak and I was punished for it badly so I've retreated completely and I'm deathly afraid of showing myself. I panic if I have to interact with more than a couple people at a time. That's the jist of it.
I sincerely detest how everything defaults to something like narcissism when you're a guy.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:27:10 2021 No.18751863

>>18751584
Things need to be very good or very bad, because "meh" to them makes them feel like they are falling apart. Events that anyone else would forget about entirely within two hours in their view become life altering and consume them for days. In some cases, they escalate until it becomes an actual life crisis, because they need to feel an extreme reaction in response to feel real.
>>18751776
Yeah, if you were a girl that would be BPD. That's not a better label to get stuck with.
>>18751757
(You)

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:29:05 2021 No.18751871

>>18751863
Working a 9-5 and consooming mindlessly IS a living hell though. You can't argue that a "normal" life is something to aspire to, unless, of course, you are an NPC that is designed as more of an antenna for society to program than someone running their own broadcast.(self-expression)

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:30:10 2021 No.18751881 >>18751871 Are you the (You) anon? I'm thinking you're the (You) anon.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:30:25 2021 No.18751882 >>18751863 routine is a death sentence? uh oh, this sounds like me.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:33:06 2021 No.18751895 >>18751882 It's not routine. It's lack of emotional reactions from others to validate their emotional state.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:37:45 2021 No.18751915 >>18743416 I haven't been in this threads for weeks because I instinctively skip threads with anime OPs

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:38:05 2021 No.18751918 >>18751882 Everything about life in 2021 and beyond is about conforming as hard as possible.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:38:53 2021 No.18751922 >>18751863 >if you were a girl that would be BPD. That's not a better label to get stuck with. I know cases of girls with BPD and people bend themselves backwards for them although they act like complete psychopaths. This is bullshit.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:40:43 2021 No.18751935 >>18751915 Why are you on an anime website then?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:42:22 2021 No.18751945 >>18751895 would they keep digging even deeper to get the attention or become cured if no one paid any attention?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:43:14 2021 No.18751948 >>18751922 Yeah. Girls will never get an antisocial disorder diagnosis. BPD just means female/gay/tranny, while males get narcissism and antisocial. It is bullshit.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:56:17 2021 No.18752024 You people talk too much.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 16:56:20 2021 No.18752025 Everything's is a coming's an up an a sunshine for a me's an what.HTATW

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:08:49 2021 No.18752102 I can't stop watching this japanese man play with sentai toys

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:10:35 2021 No.18752111

>>18751945
Depends. Extreme cases look like Sunset Boulevard, where they wait for anyone to arrive. Most people are not that removed from society they cannot find any enabler. Holding up a hotline or starting a fight in Walmart or making a Craigslist ad can become an obsessive time sink for years for them, where they embellish the story to soothe themselves, long after the other people involved have mostly forgotten about it. Check out anon's description of the nurse here >>18751757
I got vaxxed and I can't remember what the nurse looked like except maybe blonde? Don't even remember if I thought about her tits. My nurse probably doesn't remember me either because why the fuck would she? But anon both remembers the nurse like he might be asked in court, and tried to make her remember him, because without that, and telling us, he wouldn't feel real.
It can be anything from the spectrum of a full recovery to murder-suicide. Most are somewhere in the middle and either mellow or get more desperate as they get older.

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>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:19:26 2021 No.18752163 >>18746987 Run like hell

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:19:43 2021 No.18752165 >>18751268 I consider wageslaving as a degrade, and a hobby of sorts. Basically I got bored. I did what I liked, not like there's anything more to life anyway.

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:25:17 2021 No.18752191

>>18748162
>the stable relationship and loving house part tends to be less easy than knocking someone up

Do the work to stop being unstable and unloving, or don't reproduce. Don't fuck up a child's life by being too lazy to improve yourself and too selfish not to remove yourself from the gene pool.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:26:37 2021 No.18752197 >>18751460 You can't post this without linking it, anon.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:28:00 2021 No.18752206 >>18752165 What job do you have? Do you regret being a wagie?

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:32:04 2021 No.18752229

>>18752191
Guarantee this idiot doesn't have any kids. There are far, far better fathers out there that don't live with their kids than there are 9-5 depressed wagie cagies with a fat wife, his life leeching out of him, zero time for himself, paying all his money to his wife, leaving him with enough for a cuckshed in the backyard. Meanwhile, the wife wants the newest Prius so she makes him trade in his Mustang so they have an electric minivan and a new Prius. Then she tells him that he'll have to pull some OT because she wants a cleaner to come every weekend. He hasn't fucked her in months and the stress has this guy doing fucked up shit like hooking up with other men from Grindr in his garage at night. This is how men become downlow faggots, because they become so trapped by what others expect of them that gayness is their only way out.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:33:19 2021 No.18752240 >>18752229 get the fuck out of here retard and take the books with you

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:34:08 2021 No.18752248 >>18752206 warehouse work. it's complicated; it's not like I have anything better to do, as I would just procrastinate endlessly.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:35:39 2021 No.18752265 I will never understand what my fellow hispanicbros see in Artaud by Pescado Rabioso.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:36:28 2021 No.18752271 >>18752265 We don't.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:36:46 2021 No.18752273 File: 1.02 MB, 400x226, 1571764473439.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18752197 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urV7h_pT4kI

Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:38:17 2021 No.18752284
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>>18752273
>Update: My current understanding is Chris has been removed from the home & is not allowed near Barb (his mother). An emergency protective order has been placed until August 5th.

>Barb is currently in the hospital.
What the fuck

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:43:35 2021 No.18752305 >>18752273 The modern Greek tragedy, much like Oedipus.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:44:30 2021 No.18752307 >>18752248 I might end up taking low paying dead end job and live with regret.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:44:51 2021 No.18752308 >>18752307 Why?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:46:22 2021 No.18752321 >>18752273 I didn’t one to hear this shit.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:46:57 2021 No.18752326 >>18752273 Jesus, this guy is still alive?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:47:27 2021 No.18752331 >>18752326 >guy anon...

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:47:48 2021 No.18752333 New thread >>18752328

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:50:58 2021 No.18752347 >>18752307 depend where you live; is education free etc. but I would never do that in my 20's.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 17:53:12 2021 No.18752361 >>18752307 At least you didn't try, only to get embarrassed when you failed the first time

>>	Anonymous Fri Jul 30 18:15:05 2021 No.18752486 >>18750995 are you trying to say Melvins aren't heavy?

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