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[Anonymous No.18650847]

[Anonymous No.18650883]

>>18650847
I had to go to Brownsville, Texas with my Mom to keep an eye on my grandmother and every time I step out there are at least 3-4 mosquitoes eating me alive.

[Anonymous No.18650896]

weeeeed ahahaha.
i smoke weeeed

[Anonymous No.18650904]

>>18650896
Holy fucking BASED

[POETRY ANON !!DvOOpyWgfMl No.18650913]

WHEN CARTHAGE HAD FALLEN TO ROMANIC PESTS
HER ELEPHANTS BLEEDED AND TUMBLED
«MAKE SHUT THE GATES, LEST WE GIVE THEM REST!»
HAD SHOUTED HASDRUBAL DOWN FROM HIS TOWER

BUT LATE WAS THE HOUR, AND CARTHAGE DIMINISHED
AND THUS SET THE ROMAN HIS FOOT ON ITS SOIL
IN VIOLENCE IT HAD BEGUN, AND THEN FINISHED
AND SO HAD TURNED MOST FERTILE EARTH INTO DUST

THE ROMAN GAVE IN TO HIS LUST FOR THE KILLING,
HIS PASSION TO WOMEN AND CHILDREN ALIKE
MURDER'D A BROTHER, AND ALSO HIS SIBLING
STOLE THUS THE MONUMENTS OUT OF THE PALACE

PONDER THIS, ROME! SEE THINE OWN FAULTS!
FOR THOU POISON'D CARTHAGE, WITH THINE EVIL SALTS!

FUCK ROMANS

[Anonymous No.18650915]

Yesterday, for the first time since I can remember, I shat my pants.

[Anonymous No.18651072]

>>18650896
ahhhaaaaa fuck memorý, ikr
my flowers be doing a little sumin

[Anonymous No.18651079]

I feel so isolated at work because I'm an ugly autist. HR is treating me like shit.

I feel like managers see me as an ugly bug that they'll give shit performance reviews to without much thought.

Being an ugly male is depressing. I've stopped taking on as much work because it barely manages to be worthwhile ("You do the work well, Anon, you just aren't good at engaging with others! Me and Jessica talk about our shared interest in travelling the world. Why can't you be like that?")

Working from home is a consolation.

I have the option of complaining about unfair treatment but it's a nuke level option.

[Anonymous No.18651091]

>>18651079
what do you do brother?
do you really believe you are that ugly?

[Anonymous No.18651113]

>>18651091

Generic officeshit in a large company.

Yes, I'm that ugly, no gf ever, no flirting anything

[Anonymous No.18651127]

4chan has long since fallen to normie filth. We must purge these interlopers. For the glory of the Fatherland.

[Anonymous No.18651147]

If someone's a dicklet, how are they supposed to do sports like swimming or triathlon where everyone sees? Do they just have to have that big dick energy not to care about people seeing their small dick?

[Anonymous No.18651218]

I always let others to influence me too much. Now that im free to do anything, i realize that i have no dreams, goals or interests. I have no idea how "to feel" where one might be good at.

[Anonymous No.18651355]

>>18651113
Have you tried aggressively lifting for more than two years?
>>18651147
you do realize, don't you, that most athletics are performed while flaccid? all the spare blood is being used by the muscles and lungs. you don't have any left for your tool.
>>18651218
you sound like a classic 20 year old. Pick something you enjoy and work at it. Purpose comes later.

[Anonymous No.18651388]

I'm sick of stories where the good guy comes to the conclusion that he can't kill the bad guy, especially if he says something like "if I kill him, I'll be just like him!"
I want to write a story where the good guy defeats and kills his enemies, even as though they are humanized. In fact, I want his attempts at dehumanizing them in his mind to fail. I want him to realize that these are two uncompromising forces that the only possible option for coexistence is one where his people are the slaves of the enemy. I am thinking of making it a conflict between humans and vampires. The vampires need humans to live, but the humans do not need them, nor do they want to serve them or give them their children as livestock.

[Anonymous No.18651409]

>>18651388
sounds like you only read children's books. go back to /sffg/ fagget

[Anonymous No.18651758]

What's the latin word for first person (grammar). There is a single word for it, right?

[Anonymous No.18651769]

>>18651355
>most athletics are performed while flaccid
not the point.. you are getting exposed at some point

[Anonymous No.18651781]

>>18651409
I dunno, I feel like it's not just in children's stories, and that it seems like millennials are being fed this message of "you can't kill your enemies" around the clock. There's a reason that Trudeau quote is memed on this website all the time.

[Anonymous No.18652040]

My mom had two more kids with a drug addict and her marriage with him has already collapsed following the discovery of his heroin addiction on the wedding day of all days. Every child she has had has grown up to be a dropout and stunted in life and poor. They are two beautiful blue eyed girls and I feel terrified but angry that they have been brought into this world to be raised by her, and they going to surrounded by the untrustworthy bad people she hangs out with. Their dad can’t really raise children, he’s a burnout addict. I am so fucking angry at this world for bringing so much life into it like this. The compulsion to have children to soothe your own heart. They are undoubtably going to be surrounded by a deteriorating world of cheap plastic, toxic television, a mom who is too preoccupied by her trauma and drug use to properly raise children, and I don’t know how to reconcile this anger. They are so pure. It stirs me so as to believe that children are really the only people worth caring about in this world and they are brought into this world without choice to be raised by people like this. I don’t want them to grow up like this, but I can’t do anything about it. They already brought up *my* mental problems as a scapegoat for why their marriage fell in the divorce proceedings. No, it is not *THEIR* fault, it’s external things, like ME, a person with no history of violence raised by people like them WITH a history of violence and sadism that causes *THEIR* pain. God. Is there no good soul left on earth? What is the point to slog through this undignified mediocrity seeing things like this unfold like a slow motion car crash? It makes me want to watch it all burn.

[Anonymous No.18652081]

>>18652040
i was just thinking about how much i can't stand my mom, but your post made me feel a little better. my parents are extremely lame, but they didn't do hard drugs or get violent, so that's good, but they have this nasty subtle toxicity. i want to have kids, but i live in the city and everyone wants a rich dude or they are a single mom already. where can i find these working class white people that don't require you work on wall street and own a townhouse to start a family?

[Anonymous No.18652529]

Holy shit
what compels a man to be able to do this?

[Anonymous No.18652621]

Best books on the crusades?

[Anonymous No.18652672]

>>18651079
I want more details, can you elaborate?
They explicitly called you out for poor social skills? Are you on thin ice at the company?
I relate to that feeling. I'm not that ugly and I can sort of fake a normal personality in the structured setting of the (virtual) workplace, but I hate the feminized corporate environment. All this kindergarten shit.

[Anonymous No.18652739]

I've written a bit over the last day but it's so fragmented I'm gonna have to clean some things up before I move on to the next page. Yes I know write now edit later but...I did it on five hours sleep and it's about time to sit down and do it again.
I'm writing lovey dovey stuff and have no muse tonight. I can't get one in real life either. I've tried absolutely nothing and it hasn't worked.
That's okay though. I'll manage.
I'm listening to this tonight. Give it a listen if you need some motivation; I know I'm not the only one here chasing off shadows all the time.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lq9eqHDKJPE
Also in unrelated news it was raining last night and today and a toad was on my porch and I decided to pet it. They really do actually scream if you touch them for some reason. Reeee is not a joke.

[Anonymous No.18652763]

I hate the corners of this white walled room. I want to go into the desert.

[Anonymous No.18652967]

A boat floated and drifted over the sea of life aimlessly and with engines off. The boat wants to drown, to have its worries and failures extinguised to the darkness of the depths, but it is too scared to make a whole in itself.

[Anonymous No.18653211]

Does anyone else here have a problem where their mind drifts off on a tangent for half a minute while your eyes continue to scan the page, forcing you to refocus your mind on the text and having to reread what you just read? I joined a local book club and had the chance to read alongside other folks 'in real time' and had to excuse myself from the meeting because everyone was reading at twice or thrice the speed I was and I felt ashamed, stupid.

[Anonymous No.18653234]

there are thousands of women who want to fuck a fat loser. just be yourself and find the woman who fetishizes whatever faults you have

[Anonymous No.18653254]

civil war 2 incoming

[Anonymous No.18653269]

>>18652763
would you ride a camel in the desert or go barefooted walking in the sand

[Anonymous No.18653276]

I write shitty little poems
highlights witty until nonsense
Cant rhyme for shit anons
spent times worshipping canon
Blah blah blah dilly dally
duh duh duh silly Sally

*coomits sudoku*

[Anonymous No.18653529]

>>18651355
>Pick something you enjoy and work at it
Thats the thing - theres not a single thing that i enjoy.

[Anonymous No.18653724]

>>18651079
Not standing up for yourself, being more assertive, and taking shit from female HR/bosses who treat you like a child is the problem. Not bad looks, which doesn't do you any favors but is an excuse for the weakness that is inside.

[Anonymous No.18653768]

saudades da paola no mchef

[Anonymous No.18653803]

I'm getting closer to what I think is the truth at a glacial rate. I understand so little it's laughable.
I'm slightly unbound in my own body, just enough to notice going on autopilot or to watch my movements happen on their own without my input. I've become both more aware of things and less connected with things since this began.
My perception and understanding of time is largely incoherent but it doesn't matter. Enclosed eternity allows supratemporal assent to participation in the process of emanation-reduction-union by means of tracing the Will across the individual instants which crystallized following the shock of the eternal moment's self-contraction.

[Anonymous No.18653821]

So you've reached nirvana.
An extremely blissful state the sages spoke highly of.
Not too shabby. Now what once was dim is now bright. Now what once was dull is now vivid.
A perpetual psychedelic journey.
But is all void? No, everything is clear light.
Love is in the air...
Drama comes and goes...Problems vanish into a thin haze. Don't worry man, be happy. What really matters is that you are alive.
Sentience is the truly the rarest occurrence of all. Try to take it all in. Oh yeah and don't get too distracted by the periphery.
Good things are on the way. Life just gets better. Everything is actually leading you to one epic climax.
(The End)

[Anonymous No.18653837]

My lust for fat women seems to increase proportionately to how much more muscle I put on. I guess the high test meme is real.

[Anonymous No.18654031]

Jojo's bizarre adventure is Homeric. The stand is the externalisation of Thymos and all heroes had one. It is also achievable in real life, I can talk to my ghost

[Anonymous No.18654074]

I could go full Grendel on banquet hall worth of cheap Mexican food just about now.

Late night hungers are particularly insidious in their raw insistence, because at night one has nothing but emptiness and what is left in that emptiness, the pointless lusts and hungers, which roar up with an exaggerated flame as if in contrast with the darkness of night. We've all indulged in that orgiastic carnal sin of late night fast food, gorging on the gristle and fat, lapping in the grease, fully released from any obligation to be civil. Midnight muchines, sublunary snacking, is when Man shows his true nature as a beast no more dignified than a blood-mottled wolf.

[Anonymous No.18654089]

>>18652739
I was reading this magical grimoire that claimed the toad hates and despises humanity most out of all animals

[Anonymous No.18654207]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DWnc-ZlIo5s&ab_channel=CR%27sVideoVaults

This interview is fascinating, but the part I can't get over is just how sharp this 93 year old man is. Goddamn.

[Anonymous No.18654375]

Loaded is the best Velvet Underground album and I'm tired of pretending that it's not.

[Anonymous No.18654409]

I have read but 6 books in 2 months and 3 of those were in 1 week

[Anonymous No.18654538]

>>18650847
I want to fight
I want to know the pain
I want to know the struggle
I want to know the turmoil
I want to know all this and learn from it
So I can be a better soldier for God
I want to serve him better
I want to know how to help people find God
I want to find out, what my purpose is in this world
Why am I still alive to this very day
What's the missing piece that God needs me to move in place?

[Anonymous No.18654820]

>>18653211
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cx13a2-unjE

[Anonymous No.18654824]

I don't like myself nor comprehend why she does. Maybe she's confusing appearance for character. I would like to say that I love her as well but honestly I feel nothing in general, like I'm in a dream. She is an angel

[Anonymous No.18654903]

>girl explicitly friendzones me
>fast forward one week
>I jokingly lament over tfw no gf
>''wtf I thought you were interested in me, how can you talk about other women?''
wish I was born gay

[Anonymous No.18655251]

>>18654903
Does that mean she was also interested in you, but playing hard to get? Why would she care otherwise?

[Anonymous No.18655259]

cooming and spiritual/metaphysical concerns in equal measure

[Anonymous No.18655268]

I hate the fact that I live in a society that is winding down and on the decline. I may even become so unlucky as to not even see its downfall within my lifetime.

I'm a builder, a creator. More than anything else, I wish to do these things. My artistic qualities are being stifled by scum who are suppressing my right to express myself, simply because I do not fit into their ideological mold.

All we seem to be doing now is cultivating hate - on all sides. That hatred can only lead to collapse, surely, but it's a sad state of being regardless.

[Anonymous No.18655379]

Help an ESL out.
How do I thank someone formally in a research publication, in English?
Is "I would like to thank ... for ......" ok?

[Anonymous No.18655423]

i feel sick

[Anonymous No.18655552]

Shin Sry logos pony when i echo tech power egg center mini ice abscess been pooch wish even sixth cent unhygienic thug ugh added orb low so your bunk is sad.

[Anonymous No.18655567]

I now make $12k per month after taxes

[Anonymous No.18655582]

I've bug the egg, so kid, he outfit at pond this bull pot cup webby. Gas DVD will one win light weed. Pick the few DM and he OMG off leg war. By push the eggs of an NFL polite.

[Anonymous No.18655587]

>>18655567
Not bad. What do you do?

[Anonymous No.18655612]

I'm unironically just watching family guy right now, completely lost at sea in life, while >>18655567 floats by me. Is it over? Is this the true expressionless face of death?

[Anonymous No.18655619]

How do I accept that I am mediocre and don't really have any a unique viewpoint or use in the world, and that I'm just another guy? I take things too seriously.

[Anonymous No.18655637]

>>18655619
Typo correction (*have a unique viewpoint) but also I don't mean to sound depressed or nihilistic by saying "use in the world", I mean some kind of unique talent that serves society or whatever.

[Anonymous No.18655643]

I just vant ger over the fact that a “friend” of mine called me oedipal due to a relationship I had that was a “Devil’s Triangle” meanwhile he was making moves to steal my current girlfriend, and that he subsequently goes around my back calling me a narcissist.

At the same time, another friend, common to the other of mine, has really tried to assert dominance over me since he went into a relationship with a woman I had sex with ONCE years ago. Funny that he was obsessed with Eyes Wide Shut at the time though.

[Anonymous No.18655649]

>>18650847
Why is the west so obsessed with trannies and fags?

[Anonymous No.18655653]

>>18655643
You’ve got some weird fucking friends.

[Anonymous No.18655664]

>>18655653
Years of hard drugs, clubbing and social media really does nothing for the growth of men. We are all in our early thirties, but I abandoned ship years ago.

[Anonymous No.18655725]

>>18650847
I wish I was Asian or had an Asian wife to so I could lecture on Western Philosophy from Plato to Kant and be lectured on every Swami and Confucian scholar of repute. But no I have to hear about Bud Lite Jesus being the way every day. Ugh.
Tfw no German Zoroastrian GF

[Anonymous No.18655732]

>>18655649
Gradually you began to hate them

[Anonymous No.18655733]

I just want to stop everything and read and write.

[Anonymous No.18655756]

>>18653211
Yes but it can be a good problem to have since it means you have a lot on your mind but you don't have the practiced paradigm of filtering priority. I have way more on my mind than most people and it becomes readily obvious in conversation. I am daunting for people to talk to. However in tasks it took me heroic journey to program my mind to clarity. In my Data Analysis class we went over control charts and proved why the chart must monitor one process alone to be effective. When I read I jot down tangents in a notebook aside because often those tangents are insights more valuable than the volume itself. However most of the time if I didn't brain dump and hold holy my inner control chart of constant onionskin data analysis I would be pic related.

[Anonymous No.18655830]

>>18655379
Please, brehs. Do I say "I would like to thank Anon", or "I would like to thank to Anon"? Or do I say something completely different to make it sound formal?

[Anonymous No.18655879]

>>18650847
Can men and women be purely platonic friends? I'm genuinely interested in this question. Whenever I'm 100% honest with myself, I find that I want to pursue friendship with certain people because I find them attractive.

[Anonymous No.18655881]

I have done nothing but smoke cigarettes and listen to the smiths for the past two weeks. This is God's plan for me

[Anonymous No.18655891]

>>18654903
You dodged a bullet there senpai, imagine dating a crazy bitch

[Anonymous No.18655912]

I've gone out drinking with my friends twice this week and now I'm just sort of burnt out and I want to avoid people until I recover. The only remarkable thing that happened was me messaging a girl that I had a crush on before ignoring her messages. Like, she's fucking weird and I don't know why I started talking to her lol.

If it wasn't for work, I'd probably spend the next 48 hours in complete silence and I'd love every second of it.

[Anonymous No.18655933]

>>18655879
You just answered your own question
Subconsciously you're always gonna want to fuck them

[Anonymous No.18655943]

>>18655879
Can women be purely platonic friends with men? Yes.

Can men be purely platonic friends with women? Only if she is exceptionally fugly.

[Anonymous No.18655944]

>>18655587
Basically programming the next version of cat ears insta filters for thots. I'm not proud working in social media, even if it's high tech.
Two years ago the company rolled out a $100k stock plan for 4 years, but then the stock did a 3x in a month, so overall it's $600k now.
(Nasdaq did 2x since Covid start, for reference, pic related)

[Anonymous No.18655957]

>>18655933
>think about examples of women friends I don't find attractive
>realize I became friends with them because they're friends with the ones I do find attractive
>my subconscious probably just drove me to befriend them to secure my "access" to the attractive ones
Damn bros, being really honest with yourself makes you realize you're kind of a dick sometimes

[Anonymous No.18655960]

>>18655944
Should I apply for your company as a cs student in Bay Area?

[Anonymous No.18656000]

>>18655830
I would like to thank anon

[Anonymous No.18656009]

you ever had a deja vu when reading a book like I feel like I've read this before but no factually

[Anonymous No.18656026]

>>18655830
"to" is incorrect, your first example was good

[Anonymous No.18656035]

>>18655960
Err, donno. I would quit if there was a similarly paying job. For moral reasons and to avoid American influence.

But it's cool since the topics are cool, e.g.
https://youtu.be/LblxKvbfEoo
and I can always say "hey I'm not gonna be available for the next 3 hours" and then not actually work. At least in covid times now.
If there's any sort of fair way of working for another person is gain, those sort of jobs where there's too few qualified people, is probably it. So it's a reluctant yet.

[Anonymous No.18656039]

>>18655379
Yes, that's perfectly fine

[Anonymous No.18656046]

>>18650847
No.

[Anonymous No.18656061]

>>18652040
You *can* do something about it and you don't need anyone's permission to do so. There is no reason why these children can't have a good life, especially if someone is there to teach them right and wrong, and how to express themselves.

Just because their parents are useless doesn't mean they are condemned to a life of hardship and torment; YOU are aware of it, YOU can do something about it, and YOU can change their lives.

YOU can be their hero, the one they will dedicate their lives to; YOU can be the one who saves them from the world as it burns; YOU can cradle their tired heads as they grow weary from the weights placed unfairly upon their shoulders.

Make yourself involved in their lives because perhaps they will inspire you in ways you could never have imagined before.

[Anonymous No.18656071]

>>18655879
I don't think i have ever seen the world "platonic" be used properly.

[Anonymous No.18656073]

>>18656000
>>18656026
cool, thanks

[Anonymous No.18656126]

Many of the views in last night's dreams were extremely beautiful. It's sad that they fade, and that I can never properly render them. My dream wove together politics, flight and architecture. I want to have it again, and I never will, I can't. Autocorrect is great for finding interesting word combinations, such as wife and weave. To wife is to weave, in a few senses. If I can't be a painter, maybe I could be a wordsmith, by which I mean writer. But it's enough to do anything, if you can do anything, especially because starting doing anything can make you realise that you quickly got tired of that thing and never really liked it enough to offset that great and terrible human laziness. How many great men didn't have any specific affinity for what they did, but rather just that spirit that allows one (compels one) to work, to act?

[Anonymous No.18656273]

>>18650847
having sex is probably really cool i bet

[Anonymous No.18656294]

I wish there was a romance general...

[Anonymous No.18656319]

>>18656273
Yeah, it's mostly nice.
Can smell weird and take too long, tho.

[Anonymous No.18656485]

>>18656319
>Can smell weird and take too long, tho.
like going to the hospital?

[Anonymous No.18656497]

Wondering if I should abandon my literary ambitions to do something which is more playful and which I’m better at.

[Anonymous No.18656519]

>>18656497
Couldn’t you make your literary ambitions more playful m, for your sake?

[Anonymous No.18656528]

>>18656485
Yeah or a funeral.

[Anonymous No.18656533]

>>18655612
same here
i alternate between family guy and american dad

[Anonymous No.18656549]

I sometimes wonder what she was thinking about when she rejected me. The thought is eating me up from the inside.

[Anonymous No.18656608]

we basically have 10-15 more years of party rockin until resource depletion and climate change make things not so good anymore

[Anonymous No.18656645]

When the shadow powers conspire to entangle the human race in quarrels - for quarrelsome people are easier to deceive - the most revolutionary stance one can take is unbounded brotherly love. Put away your Plutarch, your Nietzsche! Out of the isolation!

[Anonymous No.18656648]

anyone else get visuals of people when restarting doing something that you quit sort of because of people's personality around that thing
this is related to career ofc and i always start imagining people saying something that puts me off it's either deliberately borderline discouraging shit or something from the past that has actually happened
how to start back on something with a clean mind

[Anonymous No.18656700]

>>18655619
>>18655637
Most factors that influence being "special" are outside of your control.
The big issue is humility, it is hard to be humble, we all want glory and it is hard to accept we are in the majority that will never have such importance.
If it helps, being an average guy isn't so bad, you can still enjoy a lot of thing life has to offer without any pressure from yourself or others and you still make a difference for those around you. For example, when I worked as a teacher, I didn't make any revolution in teaching or in society, but I improved and did my best to help my students and seeing the positive effect I had in some of them made me very happy and fullfilled.

[Anonymous No.18656717]

>>18656700
>but I did my best to help my students
fixed

[Anonymous No.18657219]

>>18655879
Certainly you can.

[Anonymous No.18657263]

>>18650847
I despise academia. I despise myself for not functioning in academia. I despise academia for renting free inside my head. I despise them so fucking much. I loathe them. I may never publish that paper out of spite. I hate the navel gazing of experts. I hate myself for not being able to put aside my absolute apathy and disinterest to get shit done for a recommendation letter and leaving with good terms with people who are absolutely dirt. They never ever cared. I can't get rid of my slave mentality, feeling nausea, eternal suffering. Today I will make the world a worse place. I just want to go away. Probably I will end up a hero wageslaving or make my way up through hell and beyond. I hate myself. I can't decide if I hate myself more or the big lie I want to believe. This can't go on. I am wasting my life over child games.

[Anonymous No.18657339]

>>18656519
Yeah, and I probably should but that doesn’t really solve my issue still. I don’t think I can really do both. Even if I could, it would be better if I focused on just one.

[Anonymous No.18657351]

>>18652529
how does anyone do this while managing to retain any information? I can barely read 30 pages of nonfiction a day

[Anonymous No.18657627]

>>18657263
Jesus, this sucks. You wanna go into detail?

[Anonymous No.18657631]

I hope mariah carey has a good day

[Anonymous No.18657882]

WHY WONT GABRIEL JUST BLOW THE FUCKING TRUMPETS ALREADY I WANT OUT I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE

[Anonymous No.18657892]

>>18657351
>how does anyone do this while managing to retain any information?
They don't, they just skim shit to make number go up, in all likelihood

[Anonymous No.18657898]

>>18657882
just surf the kali yuga bro

[Anonymous No.18657902]

>>18651388
Sounds like a good premise. I'd read it.

[Anonymous No.18657923]

>>18657351
I know someone that does this but they listen to audible on x2 speed. They retain barely anything.

[Anonymous No.18657940]

>>18657898
God, please let samsara be real. I don't think it is. But I'm tempted to find out right about now.

[Anonymous No.18658031]

It's crazy how much better I feel when I get 8 hours of sleep, go for a run, don't get high, read a little, call my dad, and eat clean.

[Anonymous No.18658040]

>>18650847
Penus

[Anonymous No.18658056]

>>18655879
Yeah, you can. It's ok to occasionally think about fucking your friend. There's a difference between fantasising and acting on it.

I'm friends with a lesbian couple, but fat lefty dykes, not pornhub lesbians, and I've never wanted to fuck either of them.

[Anonymous No.18658062]

>>18655881
LAST NIGHT I FELT

REAL ARMS AROUND ME

[Anonymous No.18658063]

>>18650847
I just had sext with a dude. We exchanged nudes, he said I was hot, I told him he was too, even if it was a lie and he was fat. He said I had nice legs, and a beautiful tongue, and instead of feeling aroused, it just creeped me out.
I thought it was going to be fun, I thought it would as fun as I had fantasized before, but it was disgusting. I feel disgusting. I'm vicious faggot. I'm a sinner. I didn't even cum because I just started crying at some point. I'm mentally ill.

[Anonymous No.18658077]

>>18657263
I got out mate, it's better just having a fucking job and making nice coin. I couldn't play the "publish or perish" game

[Anonymous No.18658089]

>>18657940
My friend, the ride never ends, but this suffering will be rewarded. Stay the course.

[Anοnymous No.18658100]

life itself is only a vision, a dream
nothing exist save empty space and you
and you are but a thought

[Anonymous No.18658137]

>>18657940
>samsara
you are already living in it fool, and still will be if you an hero.

[Anonymous No.18658144]

>>18658089
>suffering will be rewarded.
you're deluding yourself.

[Anonymous No.18658185]

Jesus loves me—this I know,
For the Bible tells me so;
Little ones to him belong,—
They are weak, but he is strong.

Jesus loves me—loves me still,
Though I'm very weak and ill;
From his shining throne on high,
Comes to watch me where I lie.

Jesus loves me—he will stay,
Close beside me all the way.
Then his little child will take,
Up to heaven for his dear sake.

[Anonymous No.18658392]

I'm feeling real angry for no apparent reason. But right now the thing I most solely want is to pick up some random passerby and bash their face in until my arms give out from exhaustion. I don't want to be angry like this. It's barbaric.

[Anonymous No.18658410]

>>18650847
been noticing a lot more neets on this board recently.

[Anonymous No.18658423]

Eating pussy seems pretty fun, It's getting a gf worth it for that only?

[Anonymous No.18658448]

>>18658410
what gives them away?

[Anonymous No.18658451]

I would do anything to become initiated but I don't even really know what it means. Just to look at what's around me and think "yeah, I have a handle on this" seems like the only thing worth anything. What good could anything else possibly be without it? I don't know.

[Anonymous No.18658455]

>>18658448
the fact that they're always posting about how they don't work or go to school lol. there are two neet threads up right now even.

[Anonymous No.18658472]

>>18655643
you know they're not your friends just because you voluntarily associate with each other

[Anonymous No.18658476]

>>18655643
you need new friends lol

[Anonymous No.18658479]

I was raised Catholic through most of my life. Regular Catholic, I mean, novus ordu, liberal catholicism, not the larp stuff you see on the internet. And I eventually met Traditional Catholicism and that actually really shattered my faith more than all atheist propaganda I could meet. I'm on the verge of apostatizing. And here's why:

The trads are RIGHT. They are right in the sense that Vatican 2 is indeed full of things that are either unacceptably ambiguous at best, and blatantly contradictory with previous teaching at worst. Their critique of Paul VI's mass is correct. From a purely objective point of view, you can see enormous differences in doctrine and in approach of doctrine before and after V2. I don't think I've seen any consistent response to the claims of trads, larper or otherwise.

And the issue with this is that the church SHOULDN'T be able, as an institution, to fall in error so severely and prolongedly as trads point out. It defeats the purpose of magisterium. Because the faithful will no longer be able to rely on the current hierarchy to convey the magisterium, so he will have to appeal to older texts and documents. But who will interpret those texts and documents? He can't appeal to the hierarchy. So he's alone. It's a fundamentally protestant approach to the faith.

So either one adopts a very self-evidently wrong doctrinaire revolution within the hierarchy, or one adopts a protestant method of hermeneutics.

[Anonymous No.18658481]

>>18655612
Wait until you find out there is even more than one guy who makes more money than you. What kind of existential crises will you have then?

[Anonymous No.18658545]

>>18653529
similar thing for me. i've found that i find linguistics fun but so far that's about it.

[Anonymous No.18658568]

>>18650847
I went to the dentist today. I was a bit nervous. I am not use to go there. I felt something strange. Towards the end a cute mid 40 woman comes in to finish up. She would rest my head on her or she would rest her abdomen and torso (belly and boobs) on my head. It was not like I was leaning on her. It was her who was pushing for my head to be rested on her belly and boobs. It felt so good and comfy. I really felt something uncanny and ancient wake up in me. I felt the maternal spirit or the loving wife that takes care of you on the battlefield. I really had some weird thoughts and flashback as if some memory in my genes were activated. Coming back from a viking raid and enjoying the coast next to a tree while my head rest on the belly of a loving young women.

[Anonymous No.18658587]

>>18658568
I know it probably sounds eery but it felt like a powerful memory. As if I was getting some rest and some care from a tender woman from a distant world that I probably lived.

[Anonymous No.18658593]

One of my friends from Elementary school is severely addicted to meth and too stubborn to seek help (or doesn't realize he needs it).
It's sad to see; he posts at least 10 instagram pictures a day of random gibberish captions and has apparently been putting shit from his meth pipe on his face in the shape of a cross.
Trying to tell him he's killing himself and he needs to quit got me nowhere, so I'll probably just cut him off at some point soon. He's also been sending raunchy shit to our straight friends from school, he's fucking fried.

[Anonymous No.18658614]

I've been having a lot of talks with my friend as of late about most things a zoomer on here would. Because I don't have much to my name in value or hope for my future, I want to try and write something to say I tried.

“Jim, women just don't develop like us. They just don't. How many of them had to have their personalities and interests molded and cast by obscure websites and forums? Only a handful of them truly exist, its not any meaningful capacity. If they get inundated with this stuff as a kid like we did, there will be other women to drag them back into the social fold. Men are allowed to drop out of society, there aren't any cables holding us up, for women there are. They just don't think like us because they never had to. We, as in the guys who spent a little too much time online, are completely foreign elements to them. The more and more you dream of her, the more you'll hurt yourself. She'll always be what you can't find.”

[Anonymous No.18658634]

About 6 months ago i told my father i made fun of f gardner by mocking his writing style on a message board and we never spoke about it again until today. He hates talking about the internet and he brought it up to me accusingly when we spoke about his vpn he has to use for work.
He always tells me every way the american political system is so bad and how we're so great. We live in canada and corruption is more veiled here. When i disagree with him he accuses me of bullying and intentionally sabotaging his night. Literally. He's 59 and i'm 23.
I'm waiting on a new job at a mine so i can move out this house.
How do i live with shit people?

[Anonymous No.18658800]

I'm nothing, but I must be everything

[Anonymous No.18658858]

anyone else have trouble integrating the cringeworthy things they've said/done in the past?

[Anonymous No.18658882]

I increased my weightlifting sessions from 30 minutes to 35 minutes and it's visibly having an effect. My pectorals are now actually larger and all my muscles in general are becoming more prominent. It's actually extremely cool. Also sometimes when I see myself naked in the mirror I find myself getting aroused. It's like I'm physically attracted to my own success.

[Anonymous No.18658886]

>>18658858
No, I've problems integrating my emotions with my self-image. As in I imagine myself in some way, then, facing some adversity, I react in a way that's completely opposite to that self-image I built up and upon which I base my self-worth. I feel like a huge hypocrite all the time.

[Anonymous No.18658921]

>>18658858
Don't integrate, supercede

[Anonymous No.18658970]

>>18658800
the road up is the road down

[Anonymous No.18658989]

Asked out a girl for the first time myself and she said yes. She fell for me through the texts alone, never even seen me before. How can someone fall for someone with just texts? What does even love mean and where does the excitement come from? Is love and happiness just lack of knowledge or is the perception of identity in interactions inherently skewed and weird to begin with? When she imagines that she loves me, what does she imagine, does she think I'm some sort of good looking prince or is it just the void of image? Does she think about it in a preconceived way, maybe I have said something that even subtextually implied the way I might look or act or function in the real world? Can love between strangers through texts even be considered some twisted form of relationship, platonic or not? In just two days I have to confront with the reality, I know how she looks but she doesn't know how I look, but I liked her before I knew how she looked. In a sense I was bit disappointed when I found out how insanely attractive she really was compared to me, but I don't know, it doesn't really matter.
Always kind of felt a strange sense of deattachment from the real world and the other. Sometimes I don't know which one is more real. If I count up all the hours of my life, I have probably spent more time spelling and watching and reading foreign media than I have interacted with my real world. At that point I kinda don't know which one is the REAL world. What even is my real world? I'm even starting to forget my native language even though I have been here. I have always considered internet to be trash, but I have been nowhere but on the internet, does that mean my entire essence of being is a trash itself?
As terrible as the date might be, I still hope the tiniest bit of relationship we might have wont be like the past only relationship I had, where I couldn't even talk to her and all we did was sex and hug. I want to live, I just don't know how.

[Anonymous No.18659024]

>>18658858
Asked forgiveness from God and pray for you are a sinner.

[Anonymous No.18659052]

All this reading.
but for what purpose.
i want to be a friar somewhere far away from the industrial revolution

[Anonymous No.18659074]

>>18658479
Take the lib pill. The modernists are right. The globalist elite are right. Deepstate and deepchurch is right. Accelerate the evolution of the noosphere. Begin human instrumentality. immanentize the eschaton.

[Anonymous No.18659092]

Once the fog clears from my head it’s back to gloominess. Well, not immediately, but soot gathers each day until my thoughts are buried. If I’m smart I can keep distracted with art and books and friends. But there’ll still be nights where nothing interests me, even if the stars fell like acorns in my lap. On those nights I just cloister myself in smoke and music. Neither of which are resolutions but I can dance and that’s nice for awhile. Then I get bored, and guilty from being bored knowing there’s things to do. The moon rises and nothing’s in my hands. Tomorrow comes but not really. I snack on fruit to avoid cooking, or worse, sharing the kitchen with family. I look online for films and videogames that I’ll never touch. I’m not going anywhere with this, venting is obsolete, decapitate me, and blow my head into a hot air balloon.

[Anonymous No.18659095]

I was laid up in bed one summer night and had been nursing an erection for quite some time. My devotion to no-fap
was growing thin and felt I could bust at any minute. Shining through the darkness of my small Giggleswick flat was a doc on the iron lady
playing on the BBC(BRITISH BROADCASTING CORPORATION). The wrinkles in her face looked like the inside of my mother's yorkshire puddings she'd serve with sunday roast. One fateful sunday evening, I had seen my cousins breasts as she was entering the shower after our meal.
Twas an accident but from that moment on yorkshire puddings would give me uncontrallable boners, ones that would give me terrible headaches
and blur my vision. As they talked about Thatcher's policies on the tele, i heard a ghostly wail, coming from
the corner of my room. "OH GHOSTLY APPARITION FREE ME FROM MY ESSENCE. I YEARN FOR STIMULATION. THE COGNITIVE INCREASE HAS BROUGHT ME NOTHING BUT WOE. I AM A GENIUS AMONG
SNIVELING TROGLYDYTES." I shouted at the peak of my burning ecstasy.
"If you want something said, ask a man; if you want something done, ask a woman." replied the ghost.
The dummy thick apparition of Maragret Thatcher threw it back as she faded into reality. The sound of her clapping cheeks sounded like the marching
boots of protesters, strengthening my erection. All those liberal cucks being smited by Maragaret's based and redpilled policies.
Maragret Thatcher was the first female prime minister, she's also the first ghost I've ever fucked. She may have been a conservative
in parliament but in the afterlife she was not conservative with that mouth. Thatcher throated my veiny cock all the way to the base. I could see my cock gliding in and
out of her moist throat through her transluscent neck. The ghostly apparition of Dennis Thatcher looked on as his wife gobbled my balls stroking my cock
with a lively vigour that no live woman could ever achieve. Margaret proceeded to arch that back and let out a pungent brap. Her background in chemistry helped her to produce a formula for
the most intoxicating of winds.

[Anonymous No.18659101]

>>18650847
My ex and I love each other but aren’t dating. She’s a ten, very hot, good job, good taste. But she’s fleeting and always wants to live somewhere else and do something else. She’s 28 and I’m 27, we both want kids. I’ve got this idea to rekindle what we had and impregnate her, praying that it nips those capricious urges in the bud, but it seems like a retarded calculation.

What’s a man to do?

[Anonymous No.18659103]

>>18659095
"Save some for me, my dear." meakishly interjected Dennis.
"Quiet you ill-mannered cuckold." barked her excelency.
As I inhaled those magnificent fumes, my pulsating genitlia was summoned to her throbing, and visibly course, pussy. Before I could grace her fanny with my penis, i busted the fattest nut
all over her hungry kitty, getting it wetter than a day spent with the lads pounding pints and doing bingers down in Lankshire.
"I am extraordinarily patient, provided I get my own way in the end," said Mrs. Thatcher, " but in this moment
I am vexed at your impotentcy."
Margarets eyes proceeded to glow a horrifying red, red like the end of my bursted bell end. She opened her mouth wide and let out a terrifying shriek.
"You will now receive my curse! One hundred years of being an incel and a cuckold!"
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"
Margaret and Dennis's ghostly apparaitions vanished from my flat. I stood there, sitting up in bed with my cock out covered in my own cum.
I had never felt a realy pussy before, but this has to be what it feels like. I can't imagine a real one
could ever feel that heavenly.

[Anonymous No.18659110]

>>18658614
>How many of them had to have their personalities and interests molded and cast by obscure websites and forums?

I think quite a fair bit. It is just forums/websites you do not frequent. How many times have you stumbled across weird woman-dominated sub communities? I have quite a bit, that is where they end up. It is just stuff we think little off or care about.

[Anonymous No.18659115]

>>18658882
>30 minutes
Do you just do two exercises?

[Anonymous No.18659117]

WHY I AS A BLACK MAN ATTEND KKK MEETINGS

[Anonymous No.18659167]

>>18655879
Difficult question. I have a friend who's very attractive: short, cute brown hair, massive tits, the whole lot. She also has a down to earth, fun personality. I can talk to her the way I would one of my guy friends; I don't have to censor myself or soften what it is I'm saying for fear of melting her female brain, which is a rare characteristic for a woman to have. We're very close and I've told her multiple times she's like a sister to me and meant it. Is she a real friend? I'd say so. I've had deep conversations with her and we both make each other laugh and enjoy each others company. Now do I want to fuck her? On a physical level yes. She's very fuckable. But on a psychological level my mind really does classify her as "sister" not "fuck toy" (there is a difference, Alabama bros!) I am not romantically attracted to her at all and would never want to date or marry her. Part of this is because, although she's a good friend, she is a turbo whore. I'm talking like 30+ body count. Also she currently does have a bf which always makes women less attractive to me.

I don't really know where I'm going with this. She is a woman and she is my friend. I think she is a rare exception, based on experience. Most women don't "fit in" with male social circles and can't converse with men in a masculine way. I don't have a gf currently but if I did I probably wouldn't be comfortable with her hanging out with a guy friend without me. Call me jealous but I am too keenly aware of the fact that men are usually trying to fuck every hole they see.

[Anonymous No.18659176]

The more I read the stupider I become. I can barely interact socially anymore. I can't look at anyone in the face for my shame. I can't stand in the daylight for shame. I can barely do simple math because I question 2+2=4. Everything is overthought. I can hardly read because the more I read the slower I become because I start analyzing every word and every etymology. I never thought I would be a NEET, it's been two years already. I am becoming more conscious of the limitations of my knowledge, thereby becoming more unconscious. The some kid asked me if a coral was a plant, animal, or rock--Aristotle's categories flashed across my mind and I could not give an answer. My iniquity and shame compounds. I have thrown off most my vices in exchange for the archdemon of literacy, and now all I do is read. All I have done is read. And I read without understanding. I have no good works. I am neither hot nor cold. I am a tepid. puddle. of. vomit. I can no longer study nature without being ashamed of my mediocrity, and the complexity of the simplest plant confounds me. So I shut myself into my cement room and cover my windows so the forest doesn't look at me and I don't look at it. My major vice was my imagination and living in the shallow fantasies of my head. Now that I've thrown it off, my head is empty. At this rate I will become mentally retarded after a couple years.

[Anonymous No.18659219]

>>18650847
Sweet Jesus in Heaven, please forgive me, for I'm a sinner. Possibly the worst of all sinner, and even if not, I feel like that. I'm miserable without you my Lord.

[Anonymous No.18659224]

>>18659219
Do what you want, no one is watching you. And no, I am totally not a Satan trying to tempt you into going to hell.

[Anonymous No.18659321]

>>18654089
You know I've always liked old myths and legends like that because you know they came from SOMEWHERE.
Like one day I was looking at dungeons and dragons magic and stuff and you know the word 'spell' is simple and innocuous enough, right?
I think that word comes from Muspelheim, (Or Muspell) is a realm of fire. What's synonymous with magic in those games? Ye ol' trusty fireball.
Then again I also think what we call technology today is just magic by another name. There are thousands of years of civilization I haven't unearthed yet and I'm constantly wracking my brain on this stuff. I don't find it hard to believe an old man in a floppy hat and robes carried sulfur and ignited a ball of it and tossed it at someone somewhere thousands of years ago.
Now it might not be word for word nor step by step, but somewhere down the line I guarantee you a toad ruined someone's day.

[Anonymous No.18659382]

I have a question. I have never worked a job before and I don't want to work, should I become a librarian? also I've never read a book before.

[Anonymous No.18659397]

Missed the readmission date for college. I'm already super late as it is. I'm working, but it's not sustainable in the long term, and I'm scared I'm spiraling downward. Everything stems from repressed anxiety and disassociated shit from my past that I can't/won't deal with.

[Anonymous No.18659458]

Why does nothing ever go my way? Why can't I say what I want to say? Why can't I do what I want to do? Why can't I be myself? Why do things that I enjoyed give me no pleasure anymore? Why does everyone always think that I'm either joking or that I'm crazy when I say what I'm actually thinking and feeling?

[Anonymous No.18659466]

ESL here
can someone explain to me the recent hate towards the usage of though?
Been seeing a lot of >though posts and I have no fucking clue what they're implying

[Anonymous No.18659471]

>>18659466
It's just a Mexican schizo from /int/ and bunch of copycats

[Anonymous No.18659486]

>>18659471
Is that all there is to it, it's not rooted in some asinine grammatic obsession?

[Anonymous No.18659497]

I had a dream the other night wherein I had a pet cat, even though I've never owned a cat before. For some reason the thought has just been in my head, and I'm not really sure what to do about it.

I mean, the only experience I've had with cats is that a former roommate of mine briefly watched over his friend's cat in our apartment, and I suppose that was quite an enjoyable experience playing with the cat.

As obvious the solution may be to some, frankly I'm just not sure if my lifestyle is exactly compatible with taking care of a cat, as I can be quite negligent to others at times which is why I haven't mated yet despite my older age.

On a practical level, I am aware of the various risks and responsibilities of cat ownership - vet visits, grooming, food, water, and then putting up with the thing leaving fur everywhere, scratching, jumping, rubbing itself, etc. That things on a logical level are good arguments against this idea of per ownership, and yet, I still find myself drawn towards the idea.

It is a strange feeling. Oh well, I'm sure these thoughts will come to pass.

[Anonymous No.18659572]

>>18659110
You could be right, but these communities are infinitely smaller than ours. How many of those are even amicable to men? You have these enclaves like femaledatingstrategy where its clear that men aren't welcome. Regarding females on the internet, what is the ratio 5:1 men? 10:1? 20:1? It's lonely out there. It's been getting to my close friends. Though we have a good friendship, it doesn't cover love and sex. We're only getting older. Times running out and soon we'll be those who didn't just "miss out" but miss important social development for relationships.

[Anonymous No.18659599]

>>18659176
Reading is a form of consumption. Quite possibly the most interesting form (next to film) but nonetheless, consumption. Your hind brain is sending you signals to go out and forage nectar to make honey in the hive and you've been pondering the significance of how each 5th column of each row within the hive has a slight bend. You are doing something ultimately pointless and your hind brain knows. Go ans produce something no matter how shitty and inept it is it will calm down the queens telepathic transmission.

[Anonymous No.18659614]

>>18650847
Along with 10 other terrible things going on in my life right now i fear my friendship with one of my favorite people ever is rapidly deteriorating and i have no idea how to prevent this.

[Anonymous No.18659617]

>>18659614
Therapy, anon. Try that out.

[Anonymous No.18659732]

>>18659617
how do you initiate therapy? Especially with the kind of fucked up that doesn't exactly make a show of it.

[Anonymous No.18659820]

>>18659732
No idea, I started it once, but it was a temporary covid thing a psychology uni course was making. I had a video call with a psychology student every week. I think you just contact some clinical psychologist and make a schedule. I might get back to it, but I'm waiting the one who did that covid shit with me graduate. It is probably going to be late this year, then I'm getting back to it next year or something.

[Anonymous No.18659904]

>>18657263
I wouldn’t know where to start, I am in stem and research articles are utterly soulless to me, to think that a lot of resources and time goes into a piece of technical jargon for this idea of progress and endless cross-citation, I just see through this paradigm of science equals nature*! and it makes me want to off myself. I am in oceanography, whales get completely digitalized, what you have left isn’t a fish or a mammal, it is just data, and this data will somehow guide us to the future because well that's what science does. Regarding the paper, I blame myself, as I worked for free for two years just doing grunt lab work and analyzing fossil samples at neck speed because I thought I wasn't good enough and had to work even harder, fishing for credentials and gaining experience for this whole quest for glory and an international career. Then I developed a medical condition in my sight due burnout. And decided to quit because it was not going to work out in the long term. I got promised my name would be in a paper as a co-author. I thought it was a collaborative effort among the whole geosciences lab, turns out it wasn't. My advisor just had to shit articles else he was going to be fired. He got fired. I tried to move on with my life, believing the geosciences lab was writing a research paper with my data, yet I had the intuition this advisor was in a bad terms with the lab due to being kicked out. It turned out the rest of the lab didn't know what the heck I had done. Went to confront the advisor, told me he thought we had left in good terms and I wasn't supposed to be angry at him, his whole plan was to find someone else to analyze the data and that the worst thing that could happen would be that the research would never be published. This happened three months ago, I am a dumbass, I should have just gone the hell out of there when I could, I didn't exactly compromise to write the paper and appear as a first author, just that I would think about it, play with the raw data. Fast forward I haven't done shit. And honestly abandoning that project in silence seems more appealing to me than further engagement. It seems as sunk cost fallacy to me, saving face due to the fact I cannot face the weight of my own choices. I cannot just shut up and calculate. I may be a brainlet, I find this whole thing so boring and disheartening. I don’t want fuckers having power over my reputation. I would wish everything had worked out and people thought well of me, got a graduate degree and all that good shit, yet I don’t find myself functioning in this meritocracy stuff. As >>18658077 said, I find far more interesting park ranger jobs and earning bucks than trying to always be right and lower my head under authority figures. I don't find confident over my ability to turn around my life finding a job I actually like outdoors yet it is the only thing I have going on if I wish to find hope in life, else I am going to be stuck in this shit forever.

[Anonymous No.18659927]

"Merrily merrily merrily, life is but a nightmare." Truthfully, I heard this being sung at low volume by an older man who works at the same casino as me and it struck me in some odd way that I do not have the words for but knew there was something so I wrote it down for memory's sake. To what, I still have no answer for, and like most things its transient nature lends oneself to conclude without doubt that it indeed had just as much value in it as its nature implies: that of ever fleeting nothingness.

I wonder what that man who is just employed to clean things, take care of trash, and all those sorts of things thinks about me. We have never once spoken and are not likely to ever. His gaze darts away from mine if our attentions ever near, always head down and going on along as he does. My place at the casino is one of higher social worth—a dealer of every game, a former pitboss, handsome and congenial. Yet still, in this small gap there is between us what makes there any difference in the world at large? Why should two humans be so far apart and for so many years in such close proximity to each other when in reality our places are not too different and our ending place the same? I do not even know his name, I wonder if he even knows mine?

[Anonymous No.18659959]

>>18657627
>>18659904
Meant for (You). Sorry for the blogpost.

[Anonymous No.18660125]

>>18651127
New captcha isn't effective to filter the normies. Bleak.

[Anonymous No.18660158]

>>18652040
sounds like the story of Hannah Hays

[Anonymous No.18660208]

Choose a life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television. Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers... Choose DSY and wondering who the fuck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit crushing game shows, stucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away in the end of it all, pishing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourself, choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that?

[Anonymous No.18660211]

>>18660208
Hey, anon. You get fucking libgen, it is not like we can compain about that. This deal is way better than what my parents had.

[Anonymous No.18660218]

>>18660211
Libgen has literally saved my life multiple times. Thanks, Alexandra Elbakyan.

[Anonymous No.18660224]

>>18660211
your parents had physical libraries

[Anonymous No.18660241]

I’ve been in an existential vacuum for the better part of 5 years and today something clicked and I figured out and envision a future for myself. It may not be easy or pretty but it’s something that I know I must at least try to accomplish.

I’m so excited that I can’t sleep. I am no longer despairing. I am no longer lost.

[Anonymous No.18660242]

>>18660224
Not everyone is a first world middle class man desu

[Anonymous No.18660243]

>>18660224
No, they didn't. At least not after we moved to the countryside. And even considering that, you can literally download a scientific article in less than 5 minutes. I remember my father copying scientific articles that some university professor borrorowed to him. Nowadays, I just download the pdf.

[Anonymous No.18660262]

I do not want to be a normal person. Being an average folk scares me, knowing that my life will be just like that of any other person in this Earth, that when I die no one will remember my name, to get old, see my youth vanish, get weak and sick, while the world keeps getting worse, and I do nothing but conform to it, it is legitimaly scary.
I don't want to care about the opinions and the morals of other people. I want to be great, die young, beautiful, and leave a legacy that can still be talked about after my death. I want some people to worship me and others to curse my name. But I'm here on a Thursday, listening to neofolk music and posting on some taiwanese cartoon forum.

[Anonymous No.18660272]

>>18660262
You sound like every other normal person wishing to be greater then they are. But what the fuck are you or them doing about it to change that?

[Anonymous No.18660273]

>>18660262
>I want to be great, die young, beautiful, and leave a legacy that can still be talked about after my death. I want some people to worship me and others to curse my name. But I'm here on a Thursday, listening to neofolk music and posting on some taiwanese cartoon forum.

Definitely weird. Why are you in an anonymous forum? This is literally the worst possible place to start something like that, anon. You should be learning the ropes of youtube, tiktok, facebook and that kind of shit.

[Anonymous No.18660277]

>>18660262
this is the most normal thing i've ever read

[Anonymous No.18660278]

>>18660262
the 17 years old feel

[Anonymous No.18660308]

>returned my item to amazon and requested a refund
>a week goes by and no refund
>ask them where the fuck is my money
>they say then say they've initiated a refund and will take another 3-5 days
FUCK SAKE

[Anonymous No.18660347]

chuck and sneed

[Anonymous No.18660356]

>>18658614
That's false kek there are plenty of women on 4chan

[Anonymous No.18660358]

>>18659074
>Accelerate the evolution of the noosphere
Elaborate

[Anonymous No.18660406]

I'm so horny I really wanna fuck
Everything makes me horny
I feel like my entire reason for living is my sexual drive which is ridiculous but true if I am honest with myself
But I don't really feel like it's a mechanical desire
The things that turn me on are so situational and specific I think it's some kind of erotic location error mechanism
I'm so turned on by shoes and certain psychological archetypes or certain little details
Certain body types and certain eye shapes and certain very specific gestures and mannerisms or something in somebody's tone of voice
This can trigger a long fantasy trip in the insane nsfw spectacle of my mind
All the art I make boils down to this ultimately, trying to outline the archetypes of what turns me on and everything I think about "conceptually", even all these abstract ideas I have about systems and language can be reduced to a "sensualist" fancy it's just me jerking myself off mentally in my mind
But in the end it's really simplistic I wanna fuck
I wish life was just nasty fetishistic sex all the time I'm so fucking horny

[Anonymous No.18660416]

>>18660406
my gf is also a coomer and almost kills me every night like that episode of futurama with the amazons I wish I was celibate

[Anonymous No.18660434]

Good poem is under one wager. The set on bunny nude obfuscation wedged thy oven. Lock the asks if you screen that cell pics. If bunny sweet then cracks on access and kind nuns.

[Anonymous No.18660521]

jacking off is a profound personal experience that cannot be replicated or replaced by intimacy with a partner

[Anonymous No.18660561]

I decided to finally indulge and entertain this recent cat ownership fantasy of mine, having never owned a pet before.

From what I understand watching several YouTube videos today, the most cost-efficient feline acquisition process itself is fairly straightforward, just visit a shelter for adoption and learn more about the cat's history, if neutered/spayed, declawed (which is bad), microchipped, vaccinated, etc.

Then comes the task of pet-proofing the home with baby locks and removing the legs on the couch to limit hiding spaces. Afterwards, ordering a stainless steel pet feeding bowl, water fountain, carrier/cage, and cat tree with scratching posts. Oh and two litter boxes from what I read, to change daily and with strictly unscented litter.

Then in regards to food, a mix of wet and dry to be safe, although wet is preferable. A fishing pole toy also seems to be necessary as a means of regular play while I'm at home, also to be done daily.

Pet insurance seems to be a necessity as well. Perhaps a kind of GPS collar too, although that doesn't quite make a lot of sense for an indoor cat.

Maybe this is all overkill, I do see how I am already spoiling a cat I don't have. During my travels in the third world, I saw stray cats everywhere that can only dream of the potential luxuries journaled here.

But this is if I even proceed with this silly little notion.

[Anonymous No.18660580]

Started working out again
also I think I'm actually bipolar, shit

[Anonymous No.18660597]

>>18660561
If you have any aspiration of ever getting laid in the future, don't get a cat. Every girl I talked to say guys who own cats come off as feminine and gay

[Anonymous No.18660615]

Why is the Thai language so fucking impenetrable?
>The lion roared in front of a big crowd at the zoo.
>S̄ingto khảrām t̀xh̄n̂ā f̄ūng chn cảnwn māk thī̀ s̄wn s̄ạtw̒
Most languages I can kind of see the reasoning behind but fucking Thai man. This does not feel like a system invented by humans.

[Anonymous No.18660621]

>>18660597
Anon, I...

[Anonymous No.18660638]

>>18660597
Noooo that's completely false and I don't know who the fuck you are talking to. Bitches love cats.
They come to your house and start playing with your cats and losing their minds. When a cat is around girls are much more relaxed and giggly and fun

[Anonymous No.18660661]

>>18660621
I said IF

>>18660638
>teehee anon. I love your cat
>you're so sweet, just like one of the girls
>hold on my boyfriend is texting me

[Anonymous No.18660671]

>think positively
>shit goes wrong and negatively
>think negatively
>shit goes right and positively
Why is my life like this? It's like if I double-think my life somehow will work out.

[Anonymous No.18660673]

To my edit I jevery the bed and wen this nubby ass or my act is invites before wasted in link. Fun is woodchuck. Oh by object big long dick.

[Anonymous No.18660674]

Death

[Anonymous No.18660679]

>>18660661
You are fucking stupid and an effeminate bitch in the first place if you think that cats make you "effeminate and not masculine enough". Do you think a masculine male will look less masculine suddenly because he has a fucking cat? Fucking faggot

[Anonymous No.18660682]

>>18660671
Just don't think

[Anonymous No.18660685]

>>18660682
>don't think
>nothing happens

[Anonymous No.18660691]

>>18660685
embrace mediocrity

[Anonymous No.18660692]

>>18660685
Think both positively and negatively in superposition

[Anonymous No.18660697]

>>18660691

[Anonymous No.18660702]

>>18660692
How? Gimme an example.

[Anonymous No.18660705]

>>18660697
too bad, mediocrity shall embrace you anyway

[Anonymous No.18660729]

>>18650883
>3-4 mosquitoes
Poor baby. Up here in northern Minnesota you get swarmed. On a quiet night at this time of year there is a quite and constant hum that is a chorus of thousands of mosquitoes, you go outside and you are swarmed by them.

[Anonymous No.18660744]

>>18660679
t. seething parasite ridden cat owner

[Anonymous No.18660758]

>>18660702
Just widen your perspective to see both the positive and the negative sides of situations at the same time. What's so complicated?

[Anonymous No.18660760]

“The painter Kramskoy has a remarkable painting entitled The Contemplator: it depicts a forest in winter, and in the forest, standing all by himself on the road, in deepest solitude, a stray little peasant in a ragged caftan and bast shoes; he stands as if he were lost in thought, but he is not thinking, he is "contemplating" something. If you nudged him, he would give a start and look at you as if he had just woken up, but without understanding anything. It's true that he would come to himself at once, and yet, if he were asked what he had been thinking about while standing there, he would most likely not remember, but would most likely keep hidden away in himself the impression he had been under while contemplating. These impressions are dear to him, and he is most likely storing them up imperceptibly and even without realizing it--why and what for, he does not know either; perhaps suddenly, having stored up his impressions over many years, he will drop everything and wander off to Jerusalem to save his soul, or perhaps he will suddenly burn down his native village, or perhaps he will do both.
There are a good many "contemplatives" among our peasants. And Smerdyakov was probably one of them. And he was probably greedily hoarding up his impressions, hardly knowing why."

[Anonymous No.18660965]

How to sell a soul in order to attain the genius like talent?

[Anonymous No.18660993]

>>18660262
peak normalfag feels

[Anonymous No.18661010]

>>18660965
just write a letter to Satan

[Anonymous No.18661202]

Why do I like Salsa but not Tomatos

[Anonymous No.18661374]

I'm at a point in my career where if I worked hard, I have like an 80% chance at landing a job at NASA after I graduate college, since my college has a link to NASA and most people who really want to work there can do it via this link. However, space isn't really one of my natural interests. Really, the reason it sounds appealing to me is because I don't want to work for a soulless corporation, and if I had a boring normalfag job at some top 500 company it would be hard to stay motivated. So even if I'm not automatically drawn to it, maybe it's worth pursuing. After all, even if I don't get the job, my resume will look a lot better from trying and I should be able to get something good anyway.

What do you think? Should I go for it?

[Anonymous No.18661436]

>>18661374
bitch don't ask the faggots and retards on here listen to your FUCKING heart

[Anonymous No.18661487]

One more roll
https://youtu.be/NIqm73xsias

[Anonymous No.18661504]

>>18661436
Honestly my heart is torn between two dreams. One is working for NASA, the other is working in Japan. I've always wanted to work for Japan, and I'm already semi-fluent in the language, but doing this obviously excludes the other dream, and I'm not even sure it would be that great. Working for a major, famous company (like a video game studio) probably wouldn't be all that fun, with lots of overtime and stuff, but I want to try living there for the experience. It's probably an inferior dream to the NASA one though so I should probably chase that one instead.

[Anonymous No.18661606]

I can't understand how society works, how people work. It is all a mystery and a source of overwhelming anxiety for me.
I'm socially a cripple, handicapped loser.

[Anonymous No.18661637]

>>18661606
"modern" society hinges on techniques, on technologies. Ellul has a great two pieces, Propaganda & Technological Society to better understand society as a whole. Although some take to it that his use of "means and ends" undermines the actuality that technics are capable of; I believe it to be semantics. Good reads, the both of them.

[Anonymous No.18661679]

>>18661606
Everyone is clueless about bigger purposes.
Most peolpe are (intellectually) retarded.
The majority settles with whatever falls on their lap.
Genetics and hormones determine a very large portion of everyone's lives.
Luck is real.
The quality of one's upbringing is very important.

[Anonymous No.18661688]

>work all of 2020 and 2021 to transfer to university from my cc
>get into my top school for the fall
>zero excitement, regret doing it, want to drop out and move across the country

[Anonymous No.18661759]

Wellcome to my fart zone, I said to a stranger girl in elevator.

[Anonymous No.18661809]

>>18661759
I envy your courage

[Anonymous No.18662074]

I did not get the job.

[Anonymous No.18662176]

>>18662074
Sorry to hear that.
They knock you down 7 times, get up 8 times.

[Anonymous No.18662189]

>>18650847
All high end stuff revolves around health.
The biggest achievment of art&literature is mental health.

[Anonymous No.18662601]

>>18650847
I was infatuated with this girl and she liked me as well. It was going swimmingly but I decided to leave her. There were a lot of minor reasons like how she felt an aversion to books and didn't like the nice jazz bar we visited together. She really like anime which I do not. That was minor though. I think once we got serious backward stuff like family and cultural differences would begin to matter. In short she wasn't compatible in the long term. I probably misjudged all of this but I left her without shagging her either because I would feel too guilty. Maybe she wanted it. Probably. I'm still a virgin but by choice and I know I was beloved. I just want to see her once more.

[Anonymous No.18663026]

It's weird how Ayn Rand, a Jewish atheist feminist liberal became an icon and the foundation of the modern """conservative""" party in America.
It makes you think.

[Anonymous No.18663071]

Retards like Ben Shapiro and Jordan Peterson are placed in the limelight on purpose in a deliberate attempt to make all right wingers and dissenters against progressivism, marxism, CRT, etc., look like morons.
There are lots of highly intelligent right wing intellectuals but they get no attention in mainstream media.

[Anonymous No.18663219]

>>18662601
based

[Anonymous No.18663227]

>>18660729
>Poor baby
Okay internet tough guy

[Anonymous No.18663401]

>>18663071
>There are lots of highly intelligent right wing intellectuals but they get no attention in mainstream media.
Could you give us some names?

[Anonymous No.18663417]

Ben Shapiro is proof that not all Jews are smart.

[Anonymous No.18663434]

Socially acceptable, milquetoast conservatives are trapped in the left's paradigm. They allow the left to make the rules and they can only debate within those rules.
They argue that trannies are bad because it undermines womens' sports and feminism.
They argue against CRT by saying that it's actually bad for black people and the left are the real racists.
They argue that China is bad because they are oppressive to minorities.
They argue that Muslims are bad because they oppress women and faggots.
These spineless "conservatives" are a joke and it is no wonder the left dominates them.

[Anonymous No.18663465]

>>18663434
What do you mean "trapped in"??
Conservatives ARE the left's paradigm.
Their job is to conserve the gains of progressivism. They're the rear guard on the defensive front, while the woke are the avant-garde. Their jobs are different, but they play for the same team.

[Anonymous No.18663484]

I never read Homer in school and last Christmas I bought myself The Iliad, The Odyssey, and The Aeneid kind of on a whim.

I recently started The Iliad but by Book 20 I was finding it a chore to read and I decided to stop and read summaries of the final chapters. I enjoyed it quite a bit up until then, especially the rhythmic and powerful language, but the endless descriptions of battle became so tedious.

Is The Odyssey a bit more enthralling? I'm hoping since it has a wider scope than a few days of battle I'll find it more engaging but I'm thinking of reading something else first like Swann's Way or East of Eden.

[Anonymous No.18663577]

>>18663465
Well yeah. We are kind of saying the same thing. It depends if you mean the intentional puppets like Jordan Peterson, or the average conservative who is sincere in his beliefs but doesn't understand he is misguided.

[Anonymous No.18663597]

>>18663434
>>18663465
yeah desu

[Anonymous No.18663629]

Autist here, when people say they are / were "horny" what does that actually mean? Do they mean they saw / thought of something sexual and were feeling like they wanted to jerk of or do some other sexual act, or do they mean they were so aroused that their body was hot, their pulse was racing, etc?

Asking because the later only very rarely happens to me (like a handful of times a year) and I don't know if that's unusual or not.

[Anonymous No.18663674]

>>18663629
Don't be gross.

[Anonymous No.18663707]

>>18663629
Both

[Anonymous No.18663826]

Should I get the covid vaccine if I'm just 20 yo?

[Anonymous No.18663845]

Just learned about "gooning", funniest shit I've ever seen.
>o, oh god, I'm, I'm gonna GOOOOOOON

[Anonymous No.18663927]

>>18650847
Linux is dead and we have killed him
How shall we wagecuck ourselves to pay rent and keep the lights on, slaves of slaves?

[Anonymous No.18663933]

>>18663927
What are you talking about? Even windows runs linux now, anon.

[Anonymous No.18663964]

>>18663933
Linux is being phased out by Fuchsia, which is Gay Linux: Globohomo OS

Torvalds and Stallman are barely holding on to leadership. Redhat sold out to IBM. SUSE gets sold and sold and sold. SystemD cucked the AUR to commit Sneedacity, the purpose of the AUR being free software version control now is oy vey CoC control. "Did you lose your Linux under your bed?", they asked the madman.

[Anonymous No.18663975]

I start my senior year of university on campus in the fall, it will be nearly 16 months since I was in school in-person.

I'm feeling increasingly demoralized and stressed about graduate school. I want to pursue a degree in political science however I have yet to have register or even study for the GRE's which I believe I will do poorly on.

how do i cope with the feel bros. i feel like shit

[Anonymous No.18663977]

I just swallowed a piece of gum; something I haven't done in almost a decade. will I be okay?
I also managed to read 20 pages of nonfiction today haha.

[Anonymous No.18663989]

>>18663975
The earliest time away in isolation away from others is certainly the hardest. Overtime, you adjust into antisocial behaviors and become comfortable going out because of the lack of attention you give to other people. The negation is that you will fail at interacting with others in a genuine way haha. Good luck dummy.
>t. HikiNEET for an entire decade

[Anonymous No.18664085]

I’m really torn between two pursuits and I just don’t know what to do about it. I don’t have the ability to really focus on both and I think about my stretching myself thin night and day. I’ve got to pick one but how am I supposed to choose?

[Anonymous No.18664094]

>>18663484
>Is The Odyssey a bit more enthralling?
I think so. The Odyssey reads more like the sort of adventure story so each scene is kind of fresh.

[Anonymous No.18664145]

>>18663975
I remember being there. Probably the worst year of my life, though the competition is growing. Honestly though, if you did well your first few years of undergrad then even in this bad spot you don't have much to worry about in practical terms. Pick out some grad school programs you like based on what your profs tell you about them and apply to four or five: you'll probably get at least one. And I'm not saying to just wing it, try to study some, but the GRE is not that hard. It's like ACT/SAT but a tiny bit tougher ie has pre-cal on it, iirc.
Don't sweat it anon. Try to enjoy and appreciate your last year.

[Anonymous No.18664154]

Life as a woman is truly life on easy mode.

[Anonymous No.18664159]

I'm making some tea and there is nothing none of you can do about it.

[Anonymous No.18664233]

>>18663845
>gooning
Is that you again, Goonan?

[Anonymous No.18664241]

We need some action, some war, some fear, and some energy.

[Anonymous No.18664284]

What's the point of this fag's shitty debates with random SJWs? Neither side is saying anything profound or interesting. Neither side is interested in truth at all.
One person says "You're a big meanie if you don't use tranny pronouns" and then Jordan Peterson says "B-b-but it is my right as an individual to not use your pronouns if I don't want to. Personally I will use your pronouns because I am not a hateful Nazi bigot, but you can't force someone to use your pronouns if they don't want to."
Wow amazing. What an insightful debate. Neither of them are actually making real, solid claims about anything true, they're are just bickering about some gay pronouns.
Who the fuck thinks this is high-brow, intelligent discussion
Why does anyone think he is a great intellectual

[Anonymous No.18664294]

>>18664284
Have you been living under a rock? Who the fuck expects quality from any mainstream media in 2021?

[Anonymous No.18664331]

>>18664284
Because the audience is brown the debate is low brow

[Anonymous No.18664337]

>>18663975
Get a job loser
Forget studying How To Make Schlomo Super Rich And Myself Super Poor but Politically Intriguing 101

[Anonymous No.18664397]

>>18659904
Dang dude, the park ranger deal sounds really sweet though. The open fields, contemplation. Something worthwhile. Your instinct seems on point in that sense, or perhaps academia can lead you to even better opportunities if you stick it out?

[Anonymous No.18664413]

I ate an entire pack of oreos and now i feel disgusting

[Anonymous No.18664418]

My life is incredibly good but I still bitch about small things.

[Anonymous No.18664430]

>>18664284
>What's the point of this fag's shitty debates with random SJWs?
Partly for money, and partly for framing the discussion in a way that is safe and kosher on both sides.

[Anonymous No.18664439]

>>18663975
>I have yet to have register or even study for the GRE's which I believe I will do poorly on.
So why the fuck haven't you? Either study and work your ass off or give up your dreams of getting a political science degree.

>>18663977
yes
t. used to eat gum

[Anonymous No.18664442]

>>18664413
i regularly eat several packs of sweets / red bull after coming home from work which puts me right to sleep. sweet hypoglycemic calm of mind

[Anonymous No.18664448]

>>18664442
>Hypoglycemic
>After eating a shitload of sugar
you mean hyperglycemic

[Anonymous No.18664538]

My mom constantly reads about awful stuff happening in the news and political crap that makes her angry, and then she wonders why she is stressed out and anxious and tired all the time.
It is like she is addicted to being miserable.
I tell her to stop reading that crap and put down her stupid phone but she won't listen.

[Anonymous No.18664545]

>>18664538
>It is like she is addicted to being miserable.
Many people have this, including me. In fact it's one of the most prevalent ailments of the information age.
When i want to be angry, i go to a dating subreddit and i get mad at the women giving stupid advice.

[Anonymous No.18664565]

I feel like I'm speedrunning life and only reaching lobbies of different levels, checking them out and moving on. Any time I try to play a level, I feel rather as if I hit the pause button to distract myself with the drama of actually playing the game. As if my life only feels real when playing the metagame; the actual game is trivial and performative.

I think this means that I will be done playing sooner, either by physical or ego death. In any case, it will be a good death, and I will have left a full life behind, even if from the outside it seemed rushed.

[Anonymous No.18664589]

>>18660760
I actually looked the painting up after reading this passage. I was mildly disappointed by the painting. It did not nearly have the same depth as Dosto describes.

[Anonymous No.18664598]

>>18655268
What have you ever produced? You want the world to exit its decline, then fucking act.

[Anonymous No.18664601]

>>18664538
People do this, it makes them feel alive despite the stress. Just take a look at the catalogs of the all boards to the see the difference in popularity of threads with screencaps from twitter and reddit and the rest.

[Anonymous No.18664604]

>>18664545
I'm sorry for you friend. Console in the reality that we are stardust and nothing matters. Then realize you have the power to feel love, and only do that forever because nothing matters anyway

[Anonymous No.18664605]

>>18659572
>>18658614
I am sometimes wonder what the female equivalent of philosophical discussions is. Whenever I start to philosophize about life with friends, the women leave the room because they are bored. But I am sure they have an equivalent. It is impenetrable to me.

[Anonymous No.18664621]

>>18664538
>>18664545
It is part of why I enjoyed Meditations so much. It is clear that Marcus has the same viewpoint and is exasperated with his peers caring about petty, pointless shit. But at the same time he is frustrated with himself that he cares so much about other not seeing the "right path". I guess it is the Stoic vicious cycle, which demands a lot of continuous praxis.

[Anonymous No.18664625]

>>18664605
Really? I think some women are into it. I remember talking with a friend and some random girl about what is the moral thing to do when fighting religious fanatics.

[Anonymous No.18664655]

>>18661374
I'm in a god grad school program and doing well. I can easily imagine a good career in science. My topic is interesting, and, while I am no genius, I could likely play my part.

The prospect of academia once seemed a great alternative to 'real life' or a 'real job'. Now that I'm in it, most of the time I am bored and conversations are mostly small talk and complaining. It's all productivity, mental health, and code or spreadsheets.

My rambling point is, it's probably a crapshoot. If going for it seems fun or at least not miserable, you have little to lose, and if at worst you end up with increased mobility, that's not a bad deal.
If it just seems like a drag, then what's the point anyway?

[Anonymous No.18664681]

>>18664605
maybe you're just fixated on the women in the room and want their attention enough that it's just slightly disappointing when they leave. Or maybe guys feel that they'd lose iq cred if they left the conversation.

[Anonymous No.18664683]

>>18663484
The Aeneid is actually good and stands on its own in my eyes. I’d read it again because it was fun and enjoyable to read. Hope you give it a go!

[Anonymous No.18664699]

>>18664625
How did the discussion turn out?

>>18664681
Nah this has been a constant in my life for decades. I guess many women just do not enjoy drunken pontificating. It is pretty pointless after all.

[Anonymous No.18664705]

>>18664699
My friend was too stressed out because of something. I was too into it to pay too much attention to them, so it was not like I was aware of their reactions, but they didn't walked out instantly or anything, so they probably thought it was worth examining that.

[Anonymous No.18664712]

>>18664699
But I think my friend got into a conflict. Maybe he was a pacifist or something, I'm not exactly sure of it. Never really asked what were his personal convictions, he might got into a conflict considering the kind of things I was asking him and what would he do.

[Anonymous No.18664715]

>>18664712
Because it was not like either of us was studying philosophy either. I was on physics and he and probably her were on chemistry

[Anonymous No.18664778]

>>18661374
Want to go to Japan anon?

[Anonymous No.18665079]

>>18658568
>boobs) on my head
Had this from a very buxom dentist once. She was obsessed with my teeth too. I had enough space in my jaw for wisdom teeth to come through and she was telling her assistant the whole time how she loved my jaw shape and how my teeth had come in while getting her boobs wedged against my forehead, like she needed boob leverage to get into my mouth. Genuinely felt like being sexually assaulted by an anime dentist. I think she did this to enough people that the practice fired her.

[Anonymous No.18665097]

>>18651079
Ugliness is lack of confidence. Act as if you are handsome, and you will be treated as such.

[Anonymous No.18665135]

>>18658479
>And the issue with this is that the church SHOULDN'T be able, as an institution, to fall in error so severely and prolongedly as trads point out. It
Anon, if any trads cared about this then Pius X would not have accepted their return, and wouldn't have let them approve their ordinations. Either your ordinations outside the See were pure and uncorrupted by the See and can only stay that way outside the Church, or the papal authority means something to you. They were hanging out for their invite back in with extra buddies and you know that's more fucked than not taking your hat off.
>fundamentally protestant
There is no requirement to leave the See to practise traditionally. Priests will not tell you to fuck off if you don't put your hands out to receive. You're fundamentally misunderstanding both mainline and apostate traditionalism, and the Church.

[Anonymous No.18665226]

>>18664397
I won't deny the possibility of that happening, as another anon said it might help to gain some extra mobility in the job market. At the moment I don't feel like I deserve it, being such a whiny bitch while I rage agaisnt the system, I won't know what to offer with such comtempt and controversial opinions. That said, it might change, I must focus in my mental health and actually get a job, then work towards getting certifications and licenses, as an off-shore observer or whatever I can find.

[Anonymous No.18665240]

I remembered this one incident back from 2019 I had. I'm a poorfag student from a lower middle class home so I stay at an off-campus dorm, and I'm the poorest here. My clothes
have holes in them, my shirt, jeans, socks, etc. I look and feel raggedy. A couple of friends I have here awkwardly look away from me when the matter of money and expenses comes up in our discussion, and it is terribly painful to sit through such things, and so on blah blah. Now one morning, during a particularly cold winter and a particularly rough stretch where I had very little money and very little energy to work, I found myself starving and delirious. I barely managed to scrape together some coins I had laying about in my dorm room's cupboard, so I got me a chocolate bar from a vending machine. It hurt my teeth because I couldn't afford toothpaste at the time but it really hit the spot despite the pain. So with that chocolate and my raggedy felt coat and hand-me-down beanie sent to me from my dad, I walked to campus. On my way there, amidst a crowd of people, all better dressed than me, a beggar walked by and started harassing me for my chocolate, screaming at me to "ignore the others and their stares and to help your fellow man out". I was, and still am, very physically weak, so I couldn't fight this guy without risking getting an arm or something broken, but there was something cosmically unfair in the entire situation when I think back to it. There I am, in my clothes barely better than this guy bothering me, looking absolutely exhausted, amidst an entire crowd of fair better dressed and seemingly better off people, having used the last money I could find to get something to eat, being harassed to give my food over. Everyone else looked at me and this guy, and I looked around as if wondering if I was in a dream. I was very surprised to see everyone else was looking at me, almost ashamed to even acknowledge my existence (I am not delusional! I even looked into the eyes of a guy who stood right next to me, who looked at me and not at the guy shouting standing right next to me). I still think about this moment, because I ended up giving the beggar my chocolate. I ended up not eating for the week thereafter, and not seeing this beggar again ever again, and I remember how angry I felt back then. I felt I wanted to actually kill every single person standing there, since they all ended up going back to whatever they were doing after I did that, without a care in the world. I remember that feeling especially now since it's winter again here, and I am feeling very cold.

[Anonymous No.18665342]

>>18658479
Orthodox have an answer to this

[Anonymous No.18665375]

>>18665079
I didnt hate it. On the contrary I loved it and it was really comfy. I really love boobs. One of the best thing in the world after French architecture and literature.

[Anonymous No.18665629]

>>18664778
Yeah, why do you ask?

[Anonymous No.18665647]

My simple plastic chair surprisingly more comfortable than my office chair. I've been sitting on my office chair when I study, draw, read, etc. and in the end I've been getting sore muscles and aches. Sitting on this plastic chair suddenly gives me the sense of relief.

[Anonymous No.18665711]

I think I should get veneers, I see very few cons

[Anonymous No.18665818]

>>18664605
It's not about philosophy anymore, its just about talking to a woman who gets me.
A greasy, hairy freak said to stop looking for a woman who understands you because the only one who will is a man with aspergers.

[Anonymous No.18665845]

>>18665711
they look like dentures to me

[Anonymous No.18665902]

>>18664699
no one wants to hear you rant about introductory philosophy and how we should help the POOR!!! kys faggot, that's why they leave

[Anonymous No.18666129]

I don't know how to talk to people anymore

[Anonymous No.18666420]

>>18666129
Start with a lofty "hi" and finish with a sound "nigger". It is basics basic.

[Anonymous No.18666887]

>>18665375
Boobs are great, but I'm fairly certain that lady got fired because of them. I think most people would be like, 'If your boobs are comfy there, or this is the new head restraint for dentists, cool'. But some people are going to be like, 'The fuck are you doing a hentai scene with my fifteen year old kid?'.

[Anonymous No.18667538]

>>18666887
Put them to some use. It should be mandatory procedure to rest the booba on top and the belly on the side of the patient's head to assure and maintain him square thight in his seat. Safety and comfyness with intelligent boob action.