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[Anonymous No.18518709]

[Anonymous No.18518773]

How do you guys unwind after a long day? Sometimes I wish I was into video games because they seem like a good way to let your mind relax, but I've never in my life been able to enjoy them.

[Anonymous No.18518794]

>>18518709
got lazy the last three weeks of the quarter, figured I would finish my missed assignments before the quarter ended. Well the prof closed the assignments and now I can't access it. I will get a D+ in the class. If I get below a C my admission to transfer to a university this fall might be rescinded. I emailed the professor and I'm waiting on a response
I am so fucking retarded and lazy. If I don't go to uni I'm going to be stuck in retail hell and my dream of being an architect would be crushed
I want to kill myself right now

[Anonymous No.18518812]

I have been considering reading books to be one of my hobbies from before but sometimes feel like I have no energy or lose motivation to read. I have that feeling recently.

[Anonymous No.18518818]

>regularly shop at one bookstore
>clerks all know me but don’t particularly give a shit about my presence
>new girl joins them
>she seems more friendly and talks to me past the “may I help you?” usual stuff, remembers what books I buy and authors I like, asks for recommendations etc.
>all of the clerks suddenly get very friendly with me too, but they always direct me to the new girl if it is her turn
>start thinking thar I did it
>find out that she basically only reads YA
>interest lost
I wish I was not like this

[Anonymous No.18518823]

>>18518773
>How do you guys unwind after a long day?
dare i say it, coom

[Anonymous No.18518826]

>>18518773
I get out the bong with my husband and roommate and we all take a huge rip and then have rough gay sex

Not even lying, I’m living the dream

[Anonymous No.18518831]

>>18518826
you are living the life i wish i was living

[Anonymous No.18518858]

>>18518826
Lol, keep it up anon

[Anonymous No.18518866]

>>18518826
Faggot

[Anonymous No.18518886]

>>18518709
I have an image in my head of the person I want to become and I’m slowly making it a reality.

[Anonymous No.18518990]

>>18518709
Never trust women.

[Anonymous No.18519114]

>>18518886
what is the image and in what way are you making it a reality?

[Anonymous No.18519298]

>>18518709
I AIN'T EVEN PLAYIN'

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AHBZD_fobKc

[Anonymous No.18519303]

>>18519298
/thread

[Anonymous No.18519311]

Why is this board so full of,white beta males

[Anonymous No.18519319]

>>18519311
you've been here too long when you start asking such questions, I only come here sometimes to post good music, nothing more. fucking fagot

[Anonymous No.18519321]

>>18519311
faget

[Anonymous No.18519333]

>>18519311
Did the mean Nazis make fun of you again sweaty

[Anonymous No.18519339]

>>18518773
Meditation

[Anonymous No.18519343]

>>18518709
i realized that this song existed after hearing a christmas version of it in the background of one of those "walk around japan" videos and now i have it on loop
https://youtu.be/bZCsaVOtTHI

[Anonymous No.18519357]

I just want to die in my sleep.

[Anonymous No.18519366]

>>18519357
that sounds very peaceful

[Anonymous No.18519371]

>>18519357
>he still thinks he can die
sorry anon

[Anonymous No.18519375]

>>18519371

[Anonymous No.18519383]

>>18519311
Needs more arab bvlls

[Anonymous No.18519393]

I think I got the corona kek

[Anonymous No.18519407]

>>18519393
what makes you think so anon?

[Anonymous No.18519436]

>>18518709
I've started burning incense, smells nice. Planning on making my own censer, one for the sticks and a burner.
Found out about Nick Yarris recently and was blown away by his story, the dude is an actual saint.
Besides those two I've had the general feelings of negativity subside and such, though I see now that there's people I just cannot get along with.

[Anonymous No.18519471]

I'm going to grad school in September and have to get a job to pay rent. I feel really embarrassed that I'm in my mid-20s (went to uni late) and still doing menial hourly labor, while others in my cohort are getting grad jobs and my high school friends are already settled in their career. This also makes me slightly ashamed to think I'm "too good" for something like that - all my family are working class and my mom is a cleaner.

Aside from that, life is good

>>18518886
I'm proud of you for being proactive and striving to flourish, anon

[Anonymous No.18519484]

>>18519471
I went to a school where the majority of my class went to ivy league tier schools and now im 24 and most are in shit basic jobs barely above menial labor or just entering the grad school grind. The only "successful ones" was a guy who started a mobile house maintenance business and another who is at a big 4 investment bank because his dad also works there

[Anonymous No.18519495]

I’m struggling to rein in my stories to one concise thing. I have so many influences and things I want to say but I need to KISS (keep it simple, stupid). I’m all over the place.

[Anonymous No.18519503]

>>18519471
I’m about to quit my high falutin’ professional job to work menial labor and I’m 28. The shit is a carrot on a stick.

[Anonymous No.18519517]

>>18519298
Forty million salary, just like the NBA
All white everything like I’m in the KKK

Wtf you retards are still sleeping on soulja

Somehow I have to think back to the time, 2011, when everyone discovered Facebook and acted like disabled people, like really stupid idiots, and somehow nothing has changed about that, everything just got much more veiled, the propaganda and so on, but the people are still fooled by the internet. I have a golden intuition, I already knew back then that people didn't understand the internet and today it's just more veiled than it was then. brilliant ... after so many years.

God there are so many people I hate but I still try to stay positive. I'm always positive bitch.

The fact that the internet has become commercial has ruined everything.

In the beginning it was still something for smart foxes but now everyone pretends to understand the internet.

But the saddest thing is that some people let themselves be fucked by the internet because they are too addicted to it and cannot leave 4chan, for example.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UcAMBvs6jH8

[Anonymous No.18519520]

>>18519484
iktf anon. the place I'm going to grad school is a top 5ish uni in the UK and I think it will definitely pay off in the end, will just suck for the time being. I'm engaged and her parents are bougie/upper middle class so I guess I'm a little afraid of them judging me as well

>>18519503
that's honorable anon. I'm not the kind of person that's chasing six figure paychecks or wants to transform my job into my lifestyle, just want to be comfortable enough to think about starting a family in the medium future

[Anonymous No.18519525]

why is it that love is painful even when it is reciprocated

[Anonymous No.18519539]

>>18519319
>>18519321
>>18519333
>>18519383
I pity you guys, no pussy or gf at all just by seeing your replies.

[Anonymous No.18519545]

>>18519539
& I pity u

[Anonymous No.18519587]

>>18518866
Midwit

[Anonymous No.18519605]

CS could probably be less cringe if normal people did it.
Kinda regret going for a CS degree, but it's the only marketable thing I'm currently good at, so idk what else I should be doing.

[Anonymous No.18519631]

>>18519539
have sex, sweetie

[Anonymous No.18519637]

>>18519311
It's a clamfest, Susan

[Anonymous No.18519639]

>>18519605
a counter strike degree might've seemed a good idea when I was 13

[Anonymous No.18519725]

>>18519525
Because you're emotionally damaged and afraid of vulnerability

[Anonymous No.18519729]

>>18519495
what are your influences

[Anonymous No.18519778]

The galavanting is over now. The charging-forward of foolhardy youth has been wrung out of me. I stare less now; I fantasize less now. Quick glances are enough, since life is less new, and the "human magic" dampens into repetitions and cliches. This is a mark of healthy maturation, I'm led to believe. This is symptomatic of thorough frames of analysis, of a working predictive system - this is vision, this is the wisdom of age.

I don't wish to go back. I was plenty accused of morose pretension for this in my early twenties, but I'd always said youth was mainly something to get over. Those relentlessly intense days, boiled down nostalgically to an era of Yesteryear, were merely the unholy compliments of grandiosity and ignorance. The performance was performed. That which was loveable was loved. But I'll be damned if I smell another house party, or hear another desperate plea for praise and attention.

Too damn bad that I was had in the end. The memories stick too much. They all infuse into an oversaturation of experience. I want to vomit as one does after being on a ship or an airplane or a long car ride. I want to vomit and consecrate it's being-over. I want to find a place to stay still, to live in modest habit, to not catch the sickness of Worldly Extravaganza. Enough of that - I want to be old.

[Anonymous No.18519784]

>>18519545
>>18519637
You guys will never be a woman. Remember that you guys are mentally ill and the only cure for that is a bullet in the head.

[Anonymous No.18519786]

>>18519784
stop shitting up the thread

[Anonymous No.18519871]

>>18519784
STOP, u will never be an anime character!

[Anonymous No.18519925]

>>18519520
>I'm not the kind of person that's chasing six figure paychecks or wants to transform my job into my lifestyle, just want to be comfortable enough to think about starting a family in the medium future
Then I would avoid office jobs like the plague. When you enter the working world you’re entering a social collisueum where the only goal and battle is to linguistically undercut everyone else so that you can look like the person who embodies the company the most. Going white collar is unironically the single biggest regret of my life and I’ve done some depraved things.

[Anonymous No.18519934]

>>18519786
Then tell these trannies to fuck off
>>18519871
B-baka!

[Anonymous No.18519938]

>>18518709
I keep putting my head under a pillow, like a tooth, hoping the non-existence fairy will come and hold it down, but she like most of my dates, never shows.

[Anonymous No.18519942]

>>18518709
>>18518709
i want to write a story about a guy who gives gifts to random strangers and goes about adventures every day of the year except christmas because santa is his lazy younger brother that gives all his gifts out in one day but is more famous because he does it all at once rather than over the course of the year. he goal is to do enough big things every day throughout the year that he'll cast a shadow over his bravado brimmed brother so large it will show santa the error of his ways.

[Anonymous No.18520148]

>>18518831
>>18518858
I will think of both of you next time I am suckling on their hairy balls

[Anonymous No.18520193]

>>18518709
>started explaining Descartes to the barber when he briefly mentioned him

[Anonymous No.18520194]

>>18520148
think of me too :3

>>18518709
I have a lot of regrets in life, but the rate of me gaining new regrets is decreasing. Maybe that's progress.

[Anonymous No.18520199]

guys, I'm heading to the forest to read a book

cya

[Anonymous No.18520234]

The only thing I want to do with my life is write good fiction and yet I feel as though I simply don’t have the talent.

[Anonymous No.18520413]

>>18520199
bye

[Anonymous No.18520772]

>>18520199
I found a comfy place u fags, yes I made it

[Anonymous No.18520779]

>>18520772
I'm reading Nietzsche btw

[Anonymous No.18520790]

>>18518709
have to find a new place to live. It's fucking miserable. anybody renting can't seem to get rid of me fast enough. this fucking sucks.

[Anonymous No.18520955]

>>18518709
Fuck off cunt face yes it is vacuous god I fucking hate you.

[Anonymous No.18520974]

>>18518818
C'mon mate, she's obviously into you. Everyone on the staff seems to be aware and to be rooting for the two of you. She may read only ya shit now, but that doesn't mean she isn't able to expand her taste (with help from you, perhaps?)

Just try it, a girl is more than the shit she reads.

[Anonymous No.18520975]

Should I be worried if the book recommends me a playlist of music?
is this a redflag?

[Anonymous No.18520976]

I have a PhD in astronomy, left after defending and got a data science job to make a bunch of money. I know hate my job and dread waking up every morning to do shit I don't care about. I have no idea what to do with my life now, and I feel as though I wasted everything.

[Anonymous No.18520979]

>>18520976
dubs and you get trips

[Anonymous No.18521005]

>>18519587
Faggot.

[Anonymous No.18521020]

>>18518794
Update: prof let me finish the assignments. I will be an architect

[Anonymous No.18521058]

I'm writing a summary of sufficient grounds for belief to dictate once and for all what is rational.
Topics : Types of reason, (Deductive, Inductive, Abductive), Evidence (Observation, Correspondence theory of truth), Evidential Support (Expectation Hypothesis, Coincidence), Simplicity (Occam's Razor), Skepticism, Explanatory Power, and Grand Synthesis of Reason (weighing out all the options)

[Anonymous No.18521163]

>>18521020
Too bad, a lazy bastard who can't even do school work shouldn't be designing buildings

[Anonymous No.18521165]

I shouldn't have talked to her in that state.

[Anonymous No.18521178]

jerking it to the sound of my female neighbor having sex, even the guy was moaning this time must've been a good fuck

[Anonymous No.18521201]

>>18521165
based thought

[Anonymous No.18521202]

>>18521163
lmfao you would be terrified if you learned about the mental state and academic history of the people who designed the majority of your infrastructure and systems
t. civ engineer who did the same shit

[Anonymous No.18521205]

>>18521178
reminds me of Kylee Strutt

[Anonymous No.18521210]

>>18521201
But I wanted to.

[Earl Turner No.18521278]

>>18518709
............................................

[Anonymous No.18521298]

Now the LORD had said unto Abram, Get thee out of thy country, and from thy kindred, and from thy father's house, unto a land that I will shew thee

[Anonymous No.18521316]

>>18520772
Nice pants, cutie.

[Anonymous No.18521327]

I wasted too much time in my life indecisive about what I wanted to do.

[Anonymous No.18521377]

I can never fully dry my hair
the end of it always seems to be wet no matter how long I blow on it with a hair drying

[Anonymous No.18521423]

I've been trying to put into words why 4chan is a superior medium for conversation than Reddit (though it may seem self-evident to many here). For centuries and even to this day in many parts of the world, cafes, bars, and other "casual" locations (like bathhouses in Rome) acted as the primary medium of organic information transmission and discussion. There is generally no pretense of hierarchy (ie of rank, social status, wealth, etc) there, and any that forms is predicated not on those factors mentioned but decency, eloquence, ethos/pathos/logos, etc. It is a collection not of like-minded or even friendly individuals, but a collection of equals wherein participation is not voluntary or chosen but involuntary, organic, and spontaneous. This is important. Pre-defined rules or hierarchy in the realm of conversation cannot help but inhibit the breadth and depth of that conversation.

4chan, while voluntary, and not decent, is very much like this, with perhaps an added benefit of anonymity; 4chan is not susceptible to the formation of a hierarchy of individuals dominating discussion. By the very nature of each thread you will hear perspectives that you have not considered or thought of before, or at the very least that you do not agree with. There will not be protection against this. Discussions are organized by topics but that is the extent of the organization.

Organization of discussions in Reddit, on the other hand, are not topical but rather serve predefined groups with no semblance of mutual exclusion: A political event may be discussed in Group A's discussion forum as well as Group B's. There is no pretense of equality between posters. There is no pretense of having to deal with a perspective different from your own; to label something as heretical or orthodox is enough to condemn it to disappear.

hehe I'm attempting to get better at translating thoughts into words.

[Anonymous No.18521442]

>>18521202
I'm sure I would be

>>18521201
Regrets are for pussies

>>18520976
Take your "bunch of money," invest it and live off interest for the rest of your life while doing what you actually want to do.

[Anonymous No.18521457]

>>18521423
It's really not that deep bro

[Anonymous No.18521474]

>>18521423
It's precisely as deep as you just stated it, anon

[Anonymous No.18521489]

Nothing bothers me more than the look of disgust and derision i see in my family’s face anytime I express interest or ambition in something.

Only my mother is wholly supportive and she is mentally unwell in other ways.

[Anonymous No.18521499]

>>18520976
I’m glad I didn’t get a graduate degree for this reason. If it makes you feel better I got lazy and spent an extra 2 years in undergrad just because so I probably realized it at the same time as you anyway.

[Anonymous No.18521532]

there has been something on my mind, and regarding it, I'd like to reach out to the leftists of this board with a question, since I would assume in the modern context leftists would be the only people to ask about this

lets say hypothetically you wanted to form a popular working class centered movement with the initial goal of essentially forming what could be said to be an all encompassing labor union with the goal of growing in size and being able to apply pressure against the current interests of capital and within politics regarding various issues pertinent to this working class population

what would something like that look like? what would the logistics of getting something like that off the ground look like, how would one go about organizing and structuring such a thing so people who are interested can actually form a cohesive unit that can exert its influence?

or, at the very leas i guess, what is some literature that might enlighten me regarding how such an organization might viably function

[Anonymous No.18521748]

>>18520772
cute outfit <3

[Anonymous No.18521756]

>>18521489
hahaha look at this fag *looks at you with derision and disgust*

[Anonymous No.18522016]

>drinking alone at the bar
>like 7 deinks in
>cute cashier from the little market next to my house walks in with her friends
I fucked up bros

[Anonymous No.18522040]

I have come to the conclusion that I need to have sex. It has been far too long.

[El Arcón No.18522044]

Rape dick.

[Anonymous No.18522064]

>>18522016
Wait a second, it isn’t her lmao

[Anonymous No.18522201]

>>18518826
KYS

[Anonymous No.18522222]

>>18518709
I hate going out in public and seeing all the cute asian women I can't bed.

[Anonymous No.18522295]

>>18522201
don't bully him

[Anonymous No.18522329]

I’ll probably kill my self if I keep spending my life in jobs like this. I’m going to quit soon but I worry I don’t have enough cash savings to even live with family for a while just yet.

[Anonymous No.18522551]

Guys, recommend me a book/writers best on my favorites.
My 5 favorite novels are:

Madame Bovary (Gustave Flaubert)
The Picture of Dorian Gray (Oscar Wilde)
Buddenbrooks (Thomas Mann)
Tender is the Night (F Scott Fitzgerald)
Austerlitz (WG Sebald)

Basically I like novels where the plot takes a back seat and paragraphs go on forever.

[Anonymous No.18522656]

>>18518709
It's a shame that anime sucks. The girls are so cute but they can't really carry the whole thing.

[Anonymous No.18522729]

>>18521423
Being able to downvote someone's opinion into hiding it is incredibly gay. I can't take seriously anyone who agrees with such a discussion rule.

[Anonymous No.18522738]

>>18521423
i just like being able to say nigger

[Anonymous No.18522744]

Today I learned that I can kind of function socially when drunk.
But destiny is a harsh fiend: it was all fruitless because I don't have a cellphone or a fucking Instagram.
"Yeah, I don't use social media, but we may bump into each other one day, who knows haha". Who knows.

[Anonymous No.18522798]

dubs and I do it

[Anonymous No.18522804]

>>18522798
off by one, same result I got yesterday
whatever, if evens I choose to live and I'll try treating myself

[Anonymous No.18522824]

The more people there are in my life, the more alone I feel and the more I think none of them can console and satisfy me.

[Anonymous No.18522988]

>dad talking to me about visiting me or grandpa
>tells me he won't really have anything to do if he comes to me anyway
>even if I'm way past the age limit for drinking I obviously can't drink in front of him
>try to tell him subtly maybe its better to just visit gramps since he's frail now
>he kind of agrees with my statement since it seems logical too
>four days later today he tells me he's gonna come visit me for a week
Man, I should have just been straight forward with it. I wanted to celebrate my birthday with my close friends and now I'll be doing with my dad. And nothing happens with my family around, sometimes not even cake is bought.

[Anonymous No.18523008]

Sometimes I wonder: is it morally wrong to plagiarize obscure poetry to impress arthoes?

[Anonymous No.18523010]

I have a somewhat obscure question that I'm hoping someone here can answer. I was reading a summary of Giacomo Casanova's life and came upon this:
>Giacomo Casanova began writing his memoirs in approximately 1791, in the relative isolation of the Castle of Dux in Bohemia, where he served as the librarian for Josef Karl Emmanuel, Count Waldstein.
My question is this: in the 18th century could you really get a job as a full time librarian working for a single aristocrat? What would that job even be like? Would Casanova literally have maintained an entire library's worth of books just for one rich guy?

[Anonymous No.18523203]

Need to vent this somewhere. I just don’t fucking get it, maybe I’m legitimately crazy. The least she can do is fucking text. I know she’s on vacation but that’s the Least she can do. With been with each other for 6 months and I thought we were through with the fucking games, why does everything feel like it’s a fucking game. I don’t think you understand just how much this pisses me off. I mean like I sent you 5 text in a 5 hour time span and you don’t fucking respond to one. We literally call each two times a day and you pull this shit for no reason. Just text me “ I can call you later” don’t fucking completely ignore me and end each time I try and call you. Do you do it for fun I don’t fucking get. It just feels so cruel. How can I be with someone who the other day said they wanted babies with me and to spend the rest of their life with me and then do this the next. Like... I just can’t fucking take it. I love this women beyond belief and if anything happened I would have to kill myself, yet I honestly want to break up with her just so I have no other option but to do just that. At this point I feel too weak to live and too weak to take my one life. I just fucking wish so fucking much, that god smites me where I stand and just takes me off the face of the earth. I’m a sensitive pussy and everything feels so cruel I just can’t take it anymore... I just don’t want to be hurt anymore.. AND at this very moment she has called me and explained in perfect detail how it was a coincidence and that she never did hang up on me she was just away from her phone. Now I’m at peace but the fact I’m at peace is even more unsettling. I was just on the verge of blowing my brains out and then as soon as she called and said “I love you babe” I felt like the happiest man on earth. In one minute this change occurred. I just feel so subhuman, like I don’t have any control of this husk of skin. What I do and how I feel is practically in the palm of someone else’s hands. I am a sheep to the highest degree and like a sheep I should be slaughtered

[Anonymous No.18523257]

>>18523203
You’re in an unhealthy co-dependent relationship sweetie, learn to be an emotionally self reliant creature

[Anonymous No.18523390]

hell ya thursday night time to slack off better be some new good shit on apple music tonight

[Anonymous No.18523396]

>>18523008
morrissey already address this issue in "cemetery gates"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dfXqxjMkyQ4

[Anonymous No.18523408]

>>18523008
it is, but whatever rocks your boat.

[Anonymous No.18523416]

>>18522988
>I obviously can't drink in front of him
Why not?

>>18521532
Look into the history of the IWW

[Anonymous No.18523488]

I have this maladaptive behavior where I get very frustrated if this specific friend I have ends up reading the same thing as me. It's bad enough that I will stop reading something If I find that they have began to read it. I don't make the conscious effort, I just drift away from it. It kills my enthusiasm for it.

This is immature, unnecessary, and unhealthy. I can't pinpoint where the emotion comes from so can process and hopefully be rid of it.

[Anonymous No.18523513]

i don't like my mom. she's toxic in a very subtle way. she's finally moving away to a retirement community. thank god.

[Anonymous No.18523550]

>>18523416
A few things. My parents have a stigma against drinking, especially the ones where you have a party, because of their past experiences. My dad especially since he lost his brother to liver failure and alcoholism, and his other brother is an outright alcoholic who constantly relapse.
I'm the youngest in the family. I have been under my parents wing for 20+ years now and I'm still seen as a child. They still expect me to be 'innocent' and 'clean' because of this perception. Having a few of my friend's come over to drink would just be a one way ticket for my parents to have an excuse to butt themselves into my life and try to be more controlling, which I do not want. Doesn't matter if I'm already way past the age limit for drinking.

[Anonymous No.18523590]

My dad started smoking and taking painkillers again. He quit both for years. Has no chronic health issues or health issues in general. I noticed a month ago he started acting differently, and now I know why. Ever since he's retired from work, he's become a resentful television watcher, bored and aimless. I love him. But I've been here before with him, I got him off painkillers twice before over 12 years and our things are always different after. Its like I sacrifice our relationship to save his life and he doesn't understand I only did it because I love him so much. But this time, im not going to stop him. This time I'm going to let him make his own decisions to the very end. I love my father, but some part of me has already accepted his death. Am I a bad son?

[Anonymous No.18523602]

>>18523550
>I'm still seen as a child. They still expect me to be 'innocent' and 'clean'
One way or another you're going to have to confront this at some point. Let them try to be controlling. Will you be controlled?

[Anonymous No.18523608]

>>18523550
>I'm still seen as a child
well u do use pokemon avatars so...

[Anonymous No.18523658]

>>18523602
I know I have to confront them about this sooner or later but I'm trying to make sure I got my bases covered. I'm on my way to getting a job too now that I've finished my masters, so I'm hoping at least that would give me a leverage. But the whole stigma against even having a drink among friends or self probably won't go away.

[Anonymous No.18523695]

>>18518709
I live a vacuous asocial life. There's nothing for me but the internet and even that fails to satisfy. Reading too seems pointless as I'm only reading about experiences I've never head. Socializing feels like a game to me, like a distraction we're all compelled to play out of a desire for recognition from another and even when we get said recognition it is not enough. So why bother playing?

[Anonymous No.18523766]

>>18523590
You are not a bad son. America must be a nightmare. I wish you the best in life.

[Anonymous No.18523769]

>>18523695
life is not a game.

[Anonymous No.18523780]

>>18523769
Seems like it is. People just want status, comfort, all the rest. To see a little meter go up just like in a videogame. Or to see the one you rate highly laugh in a way that pleases you. Either way just like a videogame we're stuck seeking affirmation, recognition, validation, etc. that will necessarily only lead to more seeking.

[Anonymous No.18523847]

Help me recall the word I'm thinking of. Begins with a V, uncommonly used, definition of "a desire not strong enough to act upon" or something along those lines.

[Anonymous No.18523858]

>>18518709
Presupposing a materialist universe:

The universe is conscious of itself, and our conception of individual consciousness is an illusion created by our faculties of perception.

As the man is made up of the same matter as his surrounding universe, the only possible distinction that could be made between them by himself is through his consciousness. But as it is perception which gives him the title of consciousness, so to is it perception (through the limited human senses) that obscure his vision of the world which he is a part.

hopefully this makes sense

[Anonymous No.18523880]

Ah the weekend benders are near. Who will I offend? How many genuine laughs will I have? Will I meet (yet another) love of my next two weeks? Will the effect of alcohol wear off too quickly?

We'll see.

[Anonymous No.18523884]

you want to know what's on my mind? i'll tell you what's on my mind
the NIGGER mods just deleted my thread
and I didn't even do anything wrong
i made a thread asking people to share their philosophical writings so we could critique and discuss each other's work, and the NIGGER mods thought it was, oh i don't know, "too on topic"
fucking NIGGER mods
i hate this shithole board
i am legitimately being targeted by them
they delete all of my threads
i am a targeted individual

[Anonymous No.18523887]

I don't know what to say when I want to approach women, my brain just freeze and not a single thought comes up

[Anonymous No.18523893]

>>18523884
bummer but this isn't a philosophy board

[Anonymous No.18523900]

God.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18523901]

>>18523887
Just say hi.
You’re probably freezing up because your id wants to say “fuckmefuckmefuckme”. Or something like that.

[Anonymous No.18523906]

>>18523893
i'll give you a philosophical question
what is literature?
i think other anons here are very smart and i would like to read the literature that they write
are their writings not literature because they aren't published?
also, what is this thread? is this literature?
i don't think so
the mods are gang stalking me
admit it
you're in on it too, aren't you?
i really am a targeted individual man fuck

[Anonymous No.18523916]

>>18523906
>i really am a targeted individual man fuck
You're just a shitposter. If all your threads get deleted, consider the possibility that you are an uncommonly poor poster.

[Anonymous No.18523920]

>>18523916
i was having nice philosophical discussions with other anons and the mods decided to ruin it because they are agents of satan
i am not by any means a shitposter
other anons were actually participating in the thread as well
mods are just power tripping
if the mods on this board were cops irl they would each have 10+ dead dogs to their names

[Anonymous No.18523923]

>>18521202
>tfw architecture fraud only a page on Japanese Wikipedia
>and then only because they caught one guy forging earthquake certs and he blabbed to everyone who would listen
>they still don't know how many are as earthquake proof as porcelain because nobody else blabbing

[Anonymous No.18523929]

>>18523010
>: in the 18th century could you really get a job as a full time librarian working for a single aristocrat? What would that job even be like? Would Casanova literally have maintained an entire library's worth of books just for one rich guy?
There are still private librarians. The US still has some libraries where the librarian has to live in the library to keep their job.

[Anonymous No.18523938]

>>18523916
It was a legitimate thread

[Anonymous No.18524070]

>>18522551
>Basically I like novels where the plot takes a back seat and paragraphs go on forever.
MARCEL PROUST

[Anonymous No.18524079]

>>18523847
I'd be thinking yen but that starts with a y and usually means jonesing for something like an opium fiend.

[Anonymous No.18524099]

I'm drinking some whiskey and listeing to Manly Palmer Halls lectures

[Anonymous No.18524102]

>>18524099

[Anonymous No.18524113]

>>18524102
whats the issue?

[Anonymous No.18524117]

>>18524113
oh nothing, the face was from cig smoke in my eye

[Anonymous No.18524129]

>>18524117
fuck of pseud

[Anonymous No.18524153]

Everyone's a fucking coward. On the left and the right. Everyone's a coward or a grifter or both. Everyone talks such a big-ass game about changing the system, about upending things, about righting wrongs and fixing problems, about creating a better world. But all they ever wind up doing is using this talk to sell books or launch podcasts or run for office, and if they actually get elected they just grift and sell out to corporations.

Nobody has any fucking spirit for revolution, REAL revolution. And I know why: because they're all cowards. They're cowards but they're smart cowards, and they realize that to truly change things would create immense destruction, immense bloodshed, and the end of the world as we know it. And none of them have the balls to go through with that. So they'd rather just talk, but not do anything, and rake in money from the gullible Boomers who actually think revolution is right around the corner.

I'm very right-wing but more and more I admire men like Lenin, because at least Lenin wasn't a fucking coward. Lenin wanted to create another world and he fucking did it. He sacked up, took the risk, and altered the course of history. And he's a great man for that reason. Great men don't grift. Great men aren't afraid of upheaval, destruction, and chaos.

[Anonymous No.18524157]

Places I remember from my childhood are being demolished. Places I remember are now only a memory, a scant memory.
For example, I used to visit a distinctly red library from the 2000s. By the early 2010s it's closed, but I remember it. There was no ceiling, but exposed industrial-style wiring and air con.
My old school building got demolished and was replaced by a new chic one in the late 2010s, while the old one was built in the late 1960s. I guess throw some new brick at some old shit and it'll totally improve.
Things that didn't matter to then really matter now. But it's too late.

[Anonymous No.18524165]

>>18524153
>everyone's so craven
says the guy whinging on 4chan

[Anonymous No.18524332]

>>18524153
then get off your ass and go contribute to the creation a better world instead of fucking posting here you stupid bitch

[Anonymous No.18524346]

>>18524332
Well, Mr. Fed, I'll throw you a bone by saying that you don't need to worry about that.

That post took me three minutes to write. I have plenty of other minutes to spare, doing various things.

[Anonymous No.18524378]

>>18521423
Well written anon. Changed my views on the chans. I had held the belief that productive discussion cannot be had here due to the constant trolling which invoked zero consequences. Nevertheless I suppose there is a value in the anon culture for the reason that we aren't inhibited in disclosing our thoughts when interacting with reputable and distinguished members of the forum

[Anonymous No.18524385]

>>18521202
>>18521020
>>18523923
>anon in 10 years

[Anonymous No.18524540]

I want to fucking kill myself

Not really of course, but that is just the feeling. Life is so fucking stagnant and tedious. And yet at the same time the days and nights seem to be slipping away faster and faster every week. I feel too weak to approach my real goals in life and at the same time too strong and developed to remain in my current small position. Nothing is wrong materially, in fact I live a happier life externally than ever nowadays with absolutely no worries. But I am aware enough to realize that however idyllic things may look, I still am unable to live up to my own ideals, and therefore at the bottom of everything my every day is a slow torture. I know what I have to do, a radical change is needed, but I shudder at the thought of actually going that far, actually abandoning my comfortable, tedious condition and striking out again into the unknown. Every day I burn up knowing deep down that my time is being wasted but I don't understand what else to do but to simply wait. That's why everything is so heavy, this summer air.

[Anonymous No.18524556]

>>18522744
Same anon

>oh... I can give you my email!

[Anonymous No.18524568]

>>18518709
Turns out sleep apnea was the cause of depression and everything wrong with my life
Do a sleep study, sad anons

[Anonymous No.18524608]

>>18523893
Well why isn't there a philosophy board? Or even better (for me), a philology board. They split up the gaming boards into a million different ones, why can't us INTELLECTUALS get the same treatment.

[Anonymous No.18524627]

>>18524608
There is /his / which is the official philosophy discussion board but it's about 20 iq points lower than /lit / and therefore useless

[Anonymous No.18524630]

>>18524608
Philosophy is one of the humanities.
>/his/ - History and Humanities

[Anonymous No.18524641]

>>18524630
Like >>18524627 said, I went there but it's full of retards

[Anonymous No.18524646]

>>18524630
An intellectual like myself would never share a board with lonely teenagers who just reads wikipedia articles (actually not even that, just the few first paragraphs ) and masturbates to paradox and total war games.

[Anonymous No.18524727]

>>18524346
so outside of the three minutes that you spend on 4chan the rest of your day is dedicated to real revolution, changing the system, righting wrongs, fixing problems and being a great man? lol what a stupid cunt, stop lying. it's okay to be honest with yourself.

[Anonymous No.18524737]

>>18524727
Whatever you say, Anon.

[Anonymous No.18524743]

>>18524540
you want to "fucking kill yourself" because you have no worries and live a happier life than ever but you're just too weak to approach your real goals? the summer air is too heavy for you matey? i hope you get cancer and get raped in the ass

[Anonymous No.18524835]

>>18518709
thinking of writing a short story about a Ukrainian ultra-nationalist who gets into conlangs because he thinks Ukrainian should be less mutually intelligible with Russian. As he constructs his new language he develops these pseudo-scientific ideas that a well constructed language can make you think faster. These theories become more and more outlandish as he believes he is now capable of communicating with wild birds and that he can purify contaminated water by speaking to it. The story ends with his suicide after he realizes that he inadvertently recreated Modern Hebrew.

[Anonymous No.18524888]

>>18521316
>>18521748
ty <3

[Anonymous No.18524893]

>>18518818
Don't be a fag and date her.
You can easily convince her to read more than YA, it's not that difficult anon

[Anonymous No.18524968]

I don't like humans
I know what you're thinking oh anon you've just had bad experiences in your life
NO
I haven't had bad experiences
Everybody loves me
They say anon you're so cute, anon you're so smart, anon you're so nice
But I don't like them
I don't like looking at them
I don't like being around them
I don't like interacting with them
I want them off of this planet

[Anonymous No.18524986]

>>18522040
AAAHHHH AAAHHH I WANT A GF SO BAD SO BAD SO BAD FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU GODDAMMIT I AM SO LONELY AND HORNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

[Anonymous No.18524987]

>>18524968
autism

[Anonymous No.18524992]

>>18524968
t. me lashing out at my hate diary when i was 13 years old

[Anonymous No.18525003]

>>18521423
There really are two big differences:
1. You dont have jannies that worm their way into every board to enforce the posts and subs that they and they alone like, which is the case on subreddits.
2. If you post a very controversial opinion, you actually become more visible on 4chan than if you post a very average opinion. Your post gets more (you)s and the thread gets bumped. On reddit, you instead get downvoted and your post/thread becomes less visible, it gets removed or you get banned, and you get a 15 minute timer to your posts if your karma is too low. The platform is made to enforce conformity.

[Anonymous No.18525159]

Hunger

[Anonymous No.18525169]

>>18518709
Hitler read more books than all of you combined.

[Anonymous No.18525294]

>>18522744
This happened just happened to me lmao
I was talking to a girl at the bookstore and she asked my Instagram I said “sorry, I deleted all my social media a few months ago” (never had one in the first place, I just did not want to look like a complete loser).
I was going to give her my phone, but I chickened out because she was with a friend and I thought it would be awkward.

[Anonymous No.18525321]

>>18524568
Call me crazy but I don’t think I’ll enjoy getting back into the wage cage one bit more just because I got better sleep.

[Anonymous No.18525335]

She's so cute and sensitive.

[Anonymous No.18525341]

>>18525294
are you a tourist?

should you catch yourself starting to think like a teenager, just remember what an action figure would do.

>but I chickened out because she was with a friend and I thought it would be awkward.

an action figure would definitely not do that.

he would put up with the fact that the situation is the way it is and try to make the best of it. work on yourself. don't be a simp, pull yourself together man! life is not "high school musical".

be so great that the bitch has to spam you to get your attention.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dvdFukVka78

[Anonymous No.18525368]

I want to write about crows as guardians of consciousness

Ravens as mindless hunger and the eternal struggle of the hive mind governing humanity

The eternal conflict of pain and peace and what a single life means

That struggle in itself is meaningless and the goal is unironically a hedonistic life at an affordable expense, in a finite world

Crows seeking to birth the egg and ravens wishing to eat it

But I’m not a good writer

[Anonymous No.18525407]

>>18525368
Give it a shot

[Anonymous No.18525414]

>>18525407
But I feel it would work better as a short comic/manga

[Anonymous No.18525619]

I struggle to just flesh out an idea that I think is a winner.

[Anonymous No.18525625]

>>18525414
It wouldn’t. Your idea is sincerely interesting. Write it however you want, but I think it could be a good novel or at least a novella. Try writing a short story and see what you come up with.

[Anonymous No.18525636]

>>18525625
The idea would work better without words

[Anonymous No.18525639]

>>18525636
I disagree but it’s your story

[Anonymous No.18525644]

>>18525639
Give me what's in your mind that's better

[Anonymous No.18525650]

Today's goal: do not drink.

[Anonymous No.18525800]

I've been using the term nonce a lot lately as a substitution for clown, spaz, fool etc. Only just found out that nonce actually means kiddy diddler. Sorry to all those people.

[Anonymous No.18525878]

>>18518709
It really feels like mental bloat to learn duplicate words for small talk. Really, what is the point of there being more than one language - specifically from an intellectual approach - if no language offers a difference in raw comprehension? It is sadly robotic to learn a language without any love for the mere feel of it. Even at this point I scarcely see any value in pre-ordained interactions. It's more worthwhile simply using various inflections of 'mmm' and 'mm mm.' Can't stand the sonic litter of etiquette, especially when it isn't genuine. Language is just a cope for people who have forgotten how to seriously smile, or frown. Just get on the wavelength bro, you know? fuck!

[Anonymous No.18525923]

Hello everyone I'm doing a research project for my degree and I was wondering if you could all kys

[Anonymous No.18526093]

>>18518709
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_WCCVqkTI9Q

I left alone, my mind was blank
I needed time to think
To get the memories from my mind
What did I see? Can I believe?
That what I saw that night was real and not just fantasy?
Just what I saw in my old dreams
Were they reflections of my warped mind staring back at me?
'Cause in my dreams it's always there
The evil face that twists my mind and brings me to despair
Night was black, was no use holding back
'Cause I just had to see, was someone watching me?
In the mist, dark figures move and twist
Was all this for real or just some kind of Hell?
Six six six, the number of the beast
Hell and fire was spawned to be released
Torches blazed and sacred chants were praised
As they start to cry, hands held to the sky
In the night, the fires are burning bright
The ritual has begun, Satan's work is done
Six six six, the number of the beast
Sacrifice is going on tonight
This can't go on, I must inform the law
Can this still be real, or just some crazy dream?
But I feel drawn towards the chanting hordes
Seem to mesmerize, can't avoid their eyes
Six six six, the number of the beast
Six six six, the one for you and me
I'm coming back, I will return
And I'll possess your body and I'll make you burn
I have the fire, I have the force
I have the power to make my evil take its course

[Anonymous No.18526174]

Man I think the internet and videogames have melted my brain. I'm reading a little too fast. I understand part of what I read, but I feel like I'm missing those little details of prose. I think about reading that Harold Bloom book, How to read and why, but Idk.

[Anonymous No.18526334]

after 6 months of being obsessed with this i just can't fight it anymore. i have to make it happen. maybe in 5 years i will have finished the written work necessary on my part for this project to come to fruition. then there will be so many people i will have to contact and work with. it's like making magic happen. there is so little chance. but i will do everything i can and i just hope i will be able to collect all the necessary information about this topic. in a way the stars have to align. i have to find the right individuals who can partner with me on this. so much to do... i have to say this is the first and only idea of mine that doesn't depend entirely on me. but i see precisely in my mind how it has to be. the picture is already there, just not in detail, but it's so vivid and clear. i have to fucking make this happen because the last time i have experienced the genesis of an idea as intense as this was in 2016, and now in 2021 that last idea has changed my life completely, so i trust my intuition. i really really really feel like i'm onto something here. i feel like all the false narratives cannot be propagated anymore and i have to show the truth about this story. after all i am one of the rare people qualified for this job because there is almost no one who understands this whole thing as intimately as i do. in context. i share the exact fucked up psychological makeup of the individual(s) whose stories i intend to clarify. so maybe in 10-15 years this project will see the light of day. anyway, here is another thing that i intend to dedicate myself to entirely. okay, i accept it. i am ready, bring it on.

[Anonymous No.18526335]

There's been a fruit fly in my apartment since yesterday and even though I open the windows it doesn't seem to want to leave. Today it's been sitting at the top of my computer screen from time to time and right now it's chilling on the end of my leg (I'm laying), almost motionless.
I'm leaving this evening for a few days so I don't know if it'll just die off or lay eggs or something. At any rate it doesn't seem sanitary to leave it as is but I don't really feel like killing it. Shit reminds me of the movie Phenomena.

[Anonymous No.18526342]

>>18526335
remove food
they'll die off

[Anonymous No.18526371]

>>18526342
The only food that would be on sight is some crumbs on my table. I'll clean it anyway. Thanks for the tip, I guess.

[Anonymous No.18526377]

>>18523887
Get some chloroform

[Anonymous No.18526378]

>>18525923
cuckademic

[Anonymous No.18526384]

>>18526371
also think in terms of waste
so like food scraps or scraps down the disposal, stuff like banana peel or even simply sugary drinks with one last sip in them

[Anonymous No.18526398]

There is an unbreakable and insurmountable wall between me and all other people

[Anonymous No.18526399]

my life's a pagan ritual

[Anonymous No.18526413]

>>18526399
Correct, and at the end we get the routine human sacrifice.

[Anonymous No.18526426]

>>18526413
i'm okay with that

[Anonymous No.18526436]

>>18526426
Life is coming to terms with all aspects of the ritual, including the sacrifice. We cannot have generation without dissolution.

[Anonymous No.18526455]

>>18525644
What? I’m saying you have a good story idea but it would be better as a written story than a comic.

[Anonymous No.18526586]

>>18526378
cope

[Anonymous No.18526598]

wardine be cry

[Anonymous No.18526609]

I hate talking to my family

[Anonymous No.18526735]

[Anonymous No.18526739]

>>18526735
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W4VTq0sa9yg

[Anonymous No.18526751]

>>18526735
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RoYGKrkNWLg

[Anonymous No.18526770]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adLfiKuYJxQ

[Anonymous No.18526995]

trying to justify suffering feels evil to me. especially with things like slyvia likens in mind. and flowers being beautiful doesnt justify anything. youre just insulting others in pain. even yourself in the past or future. you dont even know what YOU went through or will go through, because time has past and you've forgotten, so you think beautiful flowers are justification. all is vain and grasping for the wind. I WANNA DAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIII

[Anonymous No.18527004]

>>18526770
>>18526735
what a dyel lmao

[Anonymous No.18527114]

>>18526335
>one bug in your house is a big deal
Hypochondriac cuck

[Anonymous No.18527238]

Relationship issues fuckin suck.
My ex girlfriend is visiting and, being the retard I am, we hooked up and now I'm debating if I would want to temporarily move in with her after I finish school in a year. The reason we broke up was because I was initially very hesitant to move across the country for her, but now I'm debating it.
I've always been bad at making big changes/decisions, and anytime I begin thinking about it I just get anxious as shit. Maybe that'd be more reason to go and do it, since that would get me out of my comfort zone somewhat.

[Anonymous No.18527296]

with the things i have done today im not going to horny jail, but horny prison

>typing this with my left hand

[Anonymous No.18527325]

"It sharpens the mind," he said.

We entered the elevator, and John let the guns rest on a metal railing in the interior. I glanced at them, "What's that for?"

He hit the button.

The elevator ascended. John's face was inscrutable, which should have been concerning given that I still didn't know what I was doing in there, but the slow, sporadic humming the elevator let out gave me a sense of ease and I decided to enjoy the moment. Finally, the doors opened and he stepped out. He left the guns in there and I followed his lead, keeping my head down and staring at the cracks on the white marble floor.

The first thing I noticed was the dried-out brown spots. The more there were, the more something seemed to tug at the back of my mind as if to keep me alert, and yet, I couldn't understand why I felt that way. There was no danger.

The second was the various plant pots that littered the place and made it seem less old than it probably was. Seeing how lush they were, I supposed they were well cared for, despite the general state of the building. I guessed we were in some sort of hospital, perhaps an asylum, and the janitor manifestly didn't come to clean very often.

My fingers fumbled inside of my pockets, looking for something that wasn't there.

"So, we've arrived," he told me, leading me in front of a wide room full of wood furniture. What threw me was how the walls were devoid of decorations. I expected a patient room to be less depressing. I couldn't imagine what it felt like to be a patient here. Locked, waiting for the symptoms to alleviate, as you stared at nothing but white walls and oak shelves.

"So? What do we do, now?" I asked.

He pointed at the other side of the room. There was a shelf a bit smaller than the others here. "Try searching into this shelf."

I hesitantly walked inside of the room, sometimes looking over my shoulder, to make sure of something I didn't know. John was smiling as he looked at my back. I stopped in front of the shelf, which was quite plain, except for the drawer on top of it, which looked quite inviting.

To tell the truth, I wasn't sure why I was standing in that room at this very moment, and the closer I got to the shelf, the bigger the buzzing was at the back of my mind. "What are you waiting for?" he called out. I froze like a deer in the headlights, realizing it was indeed unlike me to be so worried about trivial matters, and put my hand on the handle.

I opened the drawer, and there was nothing inside. The buzzing intensified, congregating into a headache. A dreadful thought creeped out from the confines of my head--- I had missed something. Something that didn't make sense and should have put me off immediately. It finally came to form. I was never supposed to enter the room, not alone.

My shoulders trembled as I slowly turned to face the entrance. The door was closed.

[Anonymous No.18527336]

>>18518773
I've taken up pipe smoking (tobacco) in the past year. It is incredibly relaxing, almost meditative. After smoking a nice bowl I have that calm feeling that I get from actual meditation. Good tobacco tastes incredible too. I don't drink or do any others drugs but needed something to relax. I heard pipe smoking was relaxing and just assumed it had something to do with the nicotine and was hesitant since I'm sensitive to nicotine.
You barely get any nicotine smoking a pipe. It is really the process that is relaxing. And it goes hand in hand with reading. There is nothing better than a book and a pipe at the end of the day.

[Anonymous No.18527338]

>>18518990
Based

I was more so gonna say why believe in a god when this selfish kike cannot even manifest unto us tangible long lasting love and bonding? Let alone all the other things god would be at fault for. Our ignorance, our pain, or death. We struggle constantly but somehow god is the authority? No. MY word is law, because I'm the one enduring, he just floats around being a coomer Jew and if anyone is thrown into a lake of fire it's the Holy spirit

But yes, women aren't shit

[Anonymous No.18527388]

>>18518773
I like going on runs after work. Nothing strenuous, but enough to get my blood pumping, muscles tired. It feels fantastic, unfortunately I fucked up my ankle earlier this week and I havnt run in 5 days so that blows.

[Anonymous No.18527461]

>>18519114
>what is the image and in what way are you making it a reality?
The image is of someone who is comfortable in his own skin, isn’t afraid to try new things, and sees the good in everything about life.

I’m not taking any big steps to do this, just small daily habits like eating healthy, trying to love myself and all my quirks, accepting my limitations and asking for help when I need it, and pushing myself in where I know I can be better.

Some of those are very abstract, in reality it transforms to things like positive self talk, keeping my discipline up in habits like exercising daily, and not letting anxiety or fear control my decision making.

>>18519471
> I'm proud of you for being proactive and striving to flourish, anon
Thank you anon, best of luck to you

[Anonymous No.18527680]

the same normies and npcs we loathe on the outside are all around us on 4chan. people who let emotions get in the way of arguments and thinking they know everything and what the opponent is wrong. people who don't learn anything but spew something you can tell has some logic behind it but is not even trying to understand anything but wanting to feel right. those who call someone dumb and if given the opportunity of saying why they think something else just look equally as foolish if not more for calling someone else dumb. its just all emotion isn't it

[Anonymous No.18527683]

>>18518709
It's a grim scene that I see before me

[Anonymous No.18527693]

>>18527388
You could do some casual shadow boxing as a replacement while your ankle heals. You really dont need to know what you're doing, merely punching the air in various ways will tire you out very quickly plus get blood flowing

[Anonymous No.18527724]

You guys are my only friends....

[Anonymous No.18527730]

>>18527388
I also run long distances very frequently and find it great for both exercise and stress relief (as it's quite easy compared to weight lifting imo). I would advise taking a couple spoonfuls of BCAA's after a strenuous run. Helps me personally as my ankle used to be overstrained far more often before I did

[Anonymous No.18527735]

>>18518709
Any advice to someone going to college for the first time at 21?

As of now I want to take advantage of my remaining neuroplasticity and really focus on my studies, but at the same time I feel like I might regret not dating and socializing. I guess I'll always regret something, but right now I'm leaning toward studying.

[Anonymous No.18527742]

>>18518818
It's surprising she reads books at all (even for working in a bookstore). Attempting to read literature and succeeding to progress fall along the same path imo. But it's up to you, of course

[Anonymous No.18527777]

>>18521423
I hate Reddit because people don't need to articulate their arguments, they can simply downvote your entire posit in a split second and move on. It disgusts me. At least on here, with you assholes, you have to express yourself. You have to make a case. You have to say. something.

to attempt to make a point.

[Anonymous No.18527784]

>>18527777
I say this lovingly

[Anonymous No.18527792]

>>18521532
Declare your $3000/month Seattle block autonomous and start a community garden

[Anonymous No.18527835]

>>18523257
Different anon here. Are not all relationships co-dependent by their very nature? And so it follows that we seek what we cannot provide for ourselves (physical intimacy, companionship, etc.) by more or less make unspoken contracts with spouses, friends, acquaintances, etc. for these things?

A kind word for some warm eye contact. Acknowledging one another in a mutual friend group with tacit and endearing approvals of each other's character. Etc.

And hence aren't all relationships given to dependency? That the greatest relationships are the ones where both sides actively need both 1. A lot of from the other participant 2. an equal amount from each party? ex. 10 large emotional reciprocation a day from both parties?

[Anonymous No.18527840]

Cletus was a used up old hag, and although her womanly features were dry and decrepit, her back was as strong as an ox, and her shoulders could contest even the strongest gorillas in the wild. She was nearing 57 now, her legs bulging like a desert mule. She's been working the streets since young woman. Used to flip tricks and rob elites for fun. She grew up in South Africa, city of Peoria. It’s the capital of executives or something like that.
Growing up in the streets was hard. Whole lotta late nights with the bottle. She’d smoke cigarettes like a chimney on a cold wet night. Used to suck them down like the penises in the back allies. And all she knew was efficiency, even the way she held her cigarette was brutish. She held the butt in between her thumb, pointer, and middle finger. The african way. How she longed to be able to smoke with just the fag in between the pointer and the middle finger like the pretty girls. She’d watch them longingly inhale sucking delicately for more, nursing ever so softly for the smoke.

[Anonymous No.18527850]

>>18527835
*reciprocations

And so >>18523203 anon is simply (I use "simply" very relatively) in a lack of equilibrium? That what he needs from his girlfriend/so is simply, for the most part, greater than what she typically requires from him?

[Anonymous No.18527858]

>>18524378
trolling or humor can be a form of intellectual thought itself

[Anonymous No.18527872]

>>18524627
/his/ is a 24/7 "I want to argue about God" hotline

[Anonymous No.18527893]

>>18518709
Twinks. Again.

[Anonymous No.18527911]

>>18527724
You could do a lot worse, anon. Glad we at least have this. Cheers

[Anonymous No.18527942]

>>18527735
Pussy is always the answer.

Understanding is always the answer.

You have to make the choice fren. No one can make it for you.

[Anonymous No.18527943]

>>18527840
Cringe

>>18527835
Codependent has a very specific meaning and it's not "you both need eachother"

>>18527238
My initial reaction is to say don't do it. But maybe you need a big shake-up.

[Anonymous No.18527951]

Ya muy mayor, Newton dijo lo siguiente: «No sé qué pensará el mundo de mí, pero yo tengo la impresión de ser un niño que juega en la playa, que se entretiene encontrando un guijarro más pulido que los demás o una concha más bonita de lo normal, mientras el gran océano de la verdad se extiende misterioso ante él.» Hágase un comentario de unas 250 palabras.

En tal comentario existe una expresión implícita de decepción con respecto al conocimiento propio, una claudicación ante aquello que se yergue incomprensible frente a nosotros. Newton reconocía el carácter indescifrable de los problemas más elementales del Universo, y de la propia incapacidad de aproximarse a la verdad más allá de cierto límite. Esto quizás pueda ser dicho de la inmensa mayoría de la humanidad: lo incognoscible se muestra como una bestia abrumadora que desafía eternamente a nuestro intelecto, en una batalla que el hombre está destinado a perder. Sólo nos queda aceptar la incapacidad de nuestra mente en comprender estas verdades que la trasceinden; el Océano que Newton, humildemente, reconoce que le excede.
Nosotros, como Newton, nos encontramos frente a un misterio que por naturaleza es ininteligible. Escapa al lenguaje, a la razón, y a la imaginación humanas. Nosotros, en nuestra pequeñez, sólo podemos aprehender matices de la verdad. Frente a lo indescifrable sólo podemos tener una actitud de humildad: reconocer que lo que sabemos es infinitamente minúsculo en comparación a aquello que nunca seremos capaces de descubrir.
Quizás, el hecho de que Newton fuese un hombre naturalmente atraído hacia el mundo natural, nos pueda hacer creer que se refería únicamente a los misterios de carácter material. Todo lo contrario: el Océano de Newton es de carácter suprasensible, inmaterial; un Océano que es imposible de aprehender mediante la facultad racional. Newton encontró su límite no sólo en los enigmas del mundo natural, sino, sobre todo, en los misterios del mundo intangible. De ahí estriba su fascinación por las profecías bíblicas y el estudio de la Cristología, como un intento casi vano de sumergirse en el Océano de la verdad inescrutable.
Finalmente, es de admirar su increíble modestia frente a los halagos del mundo: en su incomparable sabiduría, comprendió también lo limitado de su conocimiento.

[Anonymous No.18528045]

>>18527951
I have a really shitty prose.

[Anonymous No.18528055]

>>18523203
You may have an unusual need to "confirm" commitment and connection with your partner. This can be a symptom of conditions like BPD, and when you have an episode you can become outright delusional and obsessive, and not know you are. You have to do some soul searching to find out if you are just a very sensitive person (look up HSP, nothing wrong with fruity self help shit like that) or if you are perhaps BPD or something similar, and then go from there.

If it's just that you are extremely sensitive and have trust issues, those can be worked on, and you can learn to find an equilibrium with your partner.

It sounds to me like a classic case of something like that though, especially your rubber banding between feelings of total worthlessness and then total validation and security. And your construction of black and white, all or nothing, ultimatum-like scenarios to "test" her and yourself, because the uncertainty is more painful for you than even a painful certainty.

You should be warned, this kind of clingy behavior is going to drive most women (and men) away eventually. Not just the tediousness of having to talk you down, and come back after one day of forgetting to text to find that you are freaking the fuck out, but clinginess in general is unattractive. People, especially women though, want a self-reliant equal in a partner. You are getting into a dangerous spiral with the whole "we call two fucking times a day so where the fuck were you bitch" thing. That will drive her away.

I would look into BPD. No matter what you need to de-couple your self-worth from hers, and you need to develop a more mature (no offense meant) sense of how much freedom she has when she's not around you to detach from you. The real trick in situations like this is that your own delusions, about her abandoning her or neglecting you for instance, may be one thing, and then she may also genuinely be being inconsiderate. But to be able to confront the possibility of her being actually inconsiderate, you need to be able to see clearly first.

Above all no matter what, your self-worth and happiness should not depend on her. Partnerships only work between two people who don't "need" eachother, not in the way you are describing needing her. Why is she was determines whether you are at peace or suicidal? That's very dangerous, for you and for her, and for the relationship.

[Anonymous No.18528063]

>>18521005
You say that like it’s a bad thing and not the best kind of sex

[Anonymous No.18528100]

I'm still unable to get the appeal of vtubers and similar type of stuff. And I say this as someone who likes to read moege from time to time. I like both, the completely moe-engineered 2D girl (need the voice actress of course) or the natural 3D girl (which in many ways can be fake, but is still very real).
But this middle of the road vtuber shit feels strangely more fake than the 2D girl that it disgusts me a lot.

[Anonymous No.18528101]

>>18527943
People who say cringe are cringe

[Anonymous No.18528106]

I want to learn a new language but my memory is completely shot

[Anonymous No.18528110]

>>18528100
there's nothing to get, it's like trying to get furfags. vtubers and furfags are on the same level of socially broken retard.

[Anonymous No.18528129]

>>18527238
hard to say as things sometimes change. years ago i was presented with a potential idea of moving into the country, and being a young lad fresh out of high school I had pretty big reservations regarding the idea, but now, time has passed and all these years later many friends have all moved away or just drifted apart and I dont have much anchoring me in the city and I quite like the idea

[Anonymous No.18528152]

>>18527893
oh cmon man, you're the biggest twink.
pls leave this board u pedo gay ass twink nazi pseud simp cringe fail ass bitch

don't give me this bullshit

[Anonymous No.18528153]

>>18523203
>We literally call each two times a day
What the fuck? Anyway man she's on vacation, get it together

[Anonymous No.18528199]

>>18518709
This
https://youtube.com/watch?v=4y3EfMbR4VI

[Anonymous No.18528207]

Well I've just had my weekend berating from family. I keep sort of hoping they have life insurance, so if they die, it won't really effect me too much.

[Anonymous No.18528208]

>>18528106
What language anon? I'm in the same position but cannot decide on a language.

[Anonymous No.18528246]

Do you love me?

[Anonymous No.18528247]

>>18518709
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IOYfmDbiKBQ

BLACK GIRL THINKS SHES WHITE

[Anonymous No.18528283]

>>18528208
Ive been looking in to some basic Latin, mostly because I just like the way it sounds but also I figure it might lay a nice foundation for learning other romantic stuff, then with whatever skills I might develop doing that, plus my native understanding of English, I figure I can branch out into German.

I think I have it in me, I'm just being an idiot with my methodology so I have a few ideas to change my approach. plus I should probably gain a more intimate understanding of my own native English grammar first lol

[Anonymous No.18528293]

>>18528247
>my nose is not giant
>my lips are not too big, not to small!
geez

[Anonymous No.18528294]

>>18527893
twinks <3

>>18528152
ok shut the fuck up

[Anonymous No.18528299]

test

[Anonymous No.18528356]

>>18528294
>ok shut the fuck up

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3zHezbo8Gs0

[Anonymous No.18528361]

Somebody I love is struggling with exactly the kind of soul crushing depression with which I am intimately familiar. I've had people tell me my whole life that I am the smartest person they know. I had an IQ test at college, administered by a professional educational psychologist, which verified that my verbal IQ is literally genius level. There is nothing I can say to help her. None of this means anything and it is killing me. The only thing worse than watching somebody you care about suffer is precisely this kind of soul crushing depression.

[Anonymous No.18528364]

>>18528283
Just keep going no matter what. Even if you try other methods make sure you do 30 minutes of Latin a day. Pin a declension print-out to your wall for the verb amo/amare or something and spend some time every day familiarizing yourself with it. Anything.

All the changeup in the world will not mean anything if you don't just expose yourself to the language at least a little every day. Trying to find the perfect or simplest method is how people spend years "intending to learn" a language and never learning it.

[Anonymous No.18528411]

>>18528106
Repetition. Anki. You can do this, this is a solvable problem. I believe in u.

[Anonymous No.18528645]

Has anyone here read Salammbo by Flaubert?

It's almost universally considered a lesser work by him, but I'm intrigued to read it because the plot seems cool and apparently it was one of Borges' favorite books.

[Anonymous No.18528754]

Friday night, time for drunk poetry hermeneutical analysis

[Anonymous No.18528791]

I am proud of the progress I am seeing in myself. I am the most physically in shape I have ever been, and my mental/emotional state is stable for the most part. I want to g out and see new things, meet new people... I desire to go and explore, and make this world my own. It is time I allow my hard work to be put to use. Yet, I hesitate... I pause like a hand to a lit match, knowing that the flame is hot, yet if I simply clasp my hand around it, the heat will not last for more than a moment. This caution has helped me in the past, yet I fear it is harming me in the present. Sometimes one needs to leap into the unknowns of life, to put themselves in situations unsure, to see who they really are. Why do I not want to know who I really am? What reasoning is there for this faulting at the starting line? Perhaps, ultimately, the thought behind the action is what prevents it...

[Anonymous No.18528807]

>writing some poetry on Sublime Text after a long day of work
>CTRL + B
>"what the fuck, why isn't this shit building"
I need some rest lmao

[Anonymous No.18528826]

>>18528791
This reads like my journal when I was 11 or 12 and first started reading Camus and Sartre.

[Anonymous No.18528846]

>>18524153
> to truly change things would create immense destruction, immense bloodshed, and the end of the world as we know it
...and lead you right back where you were in ten years.

The only way to improve the system, is to improve the system. It arises out of natural tendencies and necessities. Scrapping it and starting over just repeats the process with blood crying out for blood.

The reason things are so broken is because too many previous "revolutions" failed to realize the simple fact that the reset button just starts the game over.

[Anonymous No.18528859]

>>18528826
Honestly if I could reconnect with myself as I was at 11/12 at this point I would consider it a baby Jesus miracle.

[Anonymous No.18528866]

I'm laughing.

[Anonymous No.18528878]

>>18524153
>Great men aren't afraid of upheaval, destruction, and chaos.
Which is why their visions never outlast them.

More civilizations fall due to "great men" than ever fall due to the mediocre. It's the milquetoast that build and maintain civilizations that last, while "great men" are merely passing storms that destroy the progress of hundreds of generations. If not for your great men, mankind would be among the stars by now.

[Anonymous No.18528920]

Are our r-words warding off lords of warring?

[Anonymous No.18528935]

>>18523203
>Now I’m at peace but the fact I’m at peace is even more unsettling.
kek yeah I've felt this way very recently with a long distance relationship. We broke up in May. I think men like us feel too strongly. Here's a Yeats poem that hit a raw nerve with me the other day:
Down by the salley gardens my love and I did meet
She passed the salley gardens with little snow-white feet
She bid me take love easy, as the leaves grow on the tree
But I, being young and foolish, with her would not agree

In a field by the river my love and I did stand,
And on my leaning shoulder she laid her snow-white hand.
She bid me take life easy, as the grass grows on the weirs;
But I was young and foolish, and now am full of tears.

It's good to vent here rather than express these extreme emotions to her. Love easy, anon.

[Anonymous No.18528960]

>>18528920
>More civilizations fall due to "great men" than ever fall due to the mediocre.
Yes, mediocrities make civilizations fail in groups of millions or more.....

[Anonymous No.18528986]

8 miles from home
Random bar
Jagermeister
No car
Hot beers in the sack
New pack of cigarettes
Met a couple friends today
Not bad

[Anonymous No.18529329]

i tried some of that polish grain coffee because it doesn't have caffeine but it gave me explosive flatulence. still recovering. cannot recommend.

[Anonymous No.18529339]

>>18522738
Kek

[Anonymous No.18529377]

I feel like shit. I can't believe I did the things I did.

[Anonymous No.18529390]

This is kind of a long shot but I remember a few threads ago I was talking to another anon about hemorrhoids and how to manage them.
So I started taking probiotics (OTC) for a month and it cleared everything up. I'm not in pain anymore and feel a lot better. As far as I can tell the hemorrhoids are gone.
If you're still out here, try them. They work.

[Anonymous No.18529415]

>>18529377
What did you do ?

I smoked crack from a coke can picked up from the trash, in the backyard of a random home

[Anonymous No.18529419]

I feel like the device of broken rhymes holds an untapped potential

[Anonymous No.18529425]

How come all the "Pride" color schemes are so ugly? I thought gay people were supposed to be aesthetes.

[Anonymous No.18529430]

>>18529425
>How come all the "Pride" color schemes are so ugly?
?
Literal made by g*d, read genesis

[Anonymous No.18529435]

>>18529430
I mean the ones that they're currently using. Now they use dark teal > light teal > yellow > orange > red > black > brown > lighter teal > pink > white

[Anonymous No.18529467]

>>18529435
>dark teal > light teal > yellow > orange > red > black > brown > lighter teal > pink > white
Never saw such a thing, but I'm also not exactly the most "LGBTAHUIAOSFJAPéPRIDE" - person

[Anonymous No.18529487]

Have to write an essay and i know it will be cringe and shit.

[Anonymous No.18529525]

I am getting drunk at work. Generally i wait until everyone leaves and at most have a drink just for enjoyment, tonight i started an hour after clocking in and am not really hiding it. Think it is time to quit.

[Anonymous No.18529536]

I haven't finished a story in an entire year. I literally have 20 documents on my laptop of stories I never started, some that are fucking painful to think about, 15000 words of something I got excited for and just dropped for whatever reason, now I can't get back into it. I used to be able to complete stories in a weekend that were very fulfilling and fueled my writing, now I'm just floating in limbo.

Can someone please help me? Have you had this happen to you? What do I do?

[Anonymous No.18529565]

>>18529536
I'm not a writer. The few things I wrote were probably under... I don't know, I didn't even count. A paragraph.

Experienced writers say that you shouldn't overthink old projects. Just move on to something else.

[Anonymous No.18529713]

Oh, god. Here we go. Yet another relative that I’ve met before, but was too young to possibly remember. You’d think I’d have run out of people I could meet this way by now, but yet again, I am greeted as if I’m a cat that was a kitten just a few months ago. It’s like these people have never understood that the passage of time changes people. That has to be what it is. Every time they say they haven’t seen me since I was this tall, they talk to me like I’m still that tall, even though I grew out my beard so that maybe, just maybe, they’d talk to me as if I don’t still regularly drink from a sippy-cup. Silly me, I forgot that this isn’t a game you can win.

At least you aren’t one of my aunts that I see at least thrice a year. You know, eight months always seems like such a long time when I just hear the words. Maybe that’s why the month of September sneaks up on me the way it does every year. By October, life feels like it’s moving as fast as a car getting sideswiped by an oncoming train. This probably wouldn’t be as much as a problem if I didn’t always appreciate the time before September as respite instead of the calm before the storm. That said, the storm is things like societal obligation, having to explain why I still don’t have a girlfriend, or why my life still hasn’t gotten off the ground at my age. Maybe if you weren’t phoning it in harder than I am, you’d understand why. Maybe you’d have understood years ago, after the fifth eight months after Christmas. Does September sneak up on you, too? I can’t bring myself to talk to any of you long enough to figure that out.

Am I an ugly person for not being able to stomach the sight of you, even though you’re family? I clearly think I am, but I want to hear it from you. No, I don’t want to hear it from you, come to think of it. That would require watching you explain things poorly that I could explain much better, but more importantly, it’d rock the boat. I can’t just tell you that I can’t stand you, because that would make interacting with everyone an even bigger chore than it is. Maybe I should, though, on the off chance that I never get asked about what I want to do with my life again.

[Anonymous No.18529795]

Why THE FUCK did I have the stupid idea of searching her name? She is so different, so beautiful, moving on with her life while I'm stuck.

[Anonymous No.18530116]

i'm tryna thinking of different themes for the stages of my game but it's hard to come up with sth that's not cliche. of course there are certain archetypal things people expect in certain types of games, so it's not such a sin to revisit some old ground, but i wonder how i can make a little different.

[Anonymous No.18530195]

I saw the Rocky Marciano biopic yesterday, and I realized how not Italian I am. They move, speak, and act differently than I do, than most people I know do. I noticed this since I also see a lot of Sopranos clips. It's fascinating.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18530210]

>>18526735
Exactly as I pictured you

[Anonymous No.18530240]

>>18530195
italian culture is so different from the tradcath larps on here that pretend to be catholic. italian culture is very sensual in every regard whether its food, clothing, music, and they aren't scared to fuck unlike the flyover prots who pretend to be catholic.

[Anonymous No.18530415]

Ezra Pound's approach to poetry is essentially "sola scriptura"

[Anonymous No.18530429]

>>18518709
asked a girl to go to do something, she said go to movies, we made plans but then she canceled, wat mean

[Anonymous No.18530465]

thinking about making a grindr account
i just want to fuck i dont care whether woman or man anymore

[Anonymous No.18530467]

>>18530210
https://voca.ro/1nIm2oOLqer3

This is finally me :3

[Anonymous No.18530473]

>>18530465
>AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH AAAAAAAAAAH GODDAMMIT I AM SO LONELY AND HORNYYYYYYYYY AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18530477]

>>18530429
Ask her. Don’t be crushed.

>>18530465
Not into lasting bonds?

[Anonymous No.18530482]

>>18530477
I posted a vocaroo, thank you :3
>>18530467

[Anonymous No.18530487]

>>18530465
No kidding, I knew a guy who did exactly that after he had a bad relationship. I don't believe for a second he was gay, but he would hook up with guys and drink heavily, do drugs, and completely changed his appearance. It was part of the mental illness that he developed after such an amazingly bad breakup.
>I heard about him a few years ago
Guy is now married to a woman and works a normal job, looks normal again. Apparently, through a mutual friend, he met a guy who told him after he was HIV+ and it scared the dude so much about gays that he went back to dating women only.
>Homosexuality was listed as a mental illness previously

[Anonymous No.18530490]

>>18530477
this was like two days ago though

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18530507]

>>18530490
You should have asked sooner. But now just ask “When did you want to see that movie? Or we could do something else”. Now of it is a brush off, don’t get mad, just say oh, and find another

[Anonymous No.18530509]

>>18530507
Seriously, the next step is you need to not be a complete asshole to me when you respond. :3

You know what I said was true, and you will follow it to the T next time. Please stop being an asshole to me.

[Anonymous No.18530510]

>>18529536
I know how you could fix your writing.
Use Livingwriter.
>I have a method that works, using some of their templates(modified)
I have this scheme I use to "sift" through my half-written works and choose the best parts, moving forward to complete a book. I have my 2nd finished, just waiting for the hot glue perfect binding machine I ordered!
>If you want some free help, email me, pic related

[Anonymous No.18530518]

"The beauty of children is said to be in their innocence... innocence- Ken, do you really understand the meaning of that word? Innocence is in the belief of absolutes. You can be absolutely sure of your happiness when you see a purple dinosaur as a child- and absolutely sure of the horror of the skeleton lurking under one's bed. Remember Ken, the first time you swim in a ball pit? How about a zip line? A slide? The euphoria of a playground is something we forget."

[Anonymous No.18530546]

>>18530518
You will never be a wrier.

[Anonymous No.18530560]

Next thread. When you’re ready
>>18530542

[Anonymous No.18530573]

>>18530546
Wow really? Wanna read the act 1 of my book and tear it apart?

[Anonymous No.18530577]

>>18530573
No, because you never finish it. You're just posturing like the rest of the idiots here.

[Anonymous No.18530592]

>>18530577
I already finished a book 8 years ago, and this 2nd book IS finished... I just needed to order shit to make the paperback book look more professional. The pages and cover were fucked and crooked!

[Anonymous No.18530596]

I needed to get a paper chopper first, then get the blade sharpened, then when I finally got it back, I figured out fast that if... IF... if I hit a legendary target of 10 books a day... there is no way I could make 10 books a day without spending allllll day doing it to get the craftsmanship high enough.

Using a perfect book binding machine will, hopefully, make things soooo simple.

[Anonymous No.18531422]

test

[Anonymous No.18531427]

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[Anonymous No.18532281]

Is western literature actually going to be dead and buried after how many decades of woke calls to arms for “representation”? I wonder if historians down the line are going to be in shock and awe about the wholesale disregard for thousands of years of human development and storytelling. Imagine drawing a line from Sumerian to Greek to Roman to Middle Ages to Chaucer to Dante to Ariosto to Shakespeare and Marlowe and Spenser to…, etc. until it drops off into a pile of shit like Rankine and Angela Davis. I’m not even right wing but this shit is very alarming for literature and barely anyone speaks out about it in public anymore.