Write what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.18448717]

[Anonymous No.18448730]

>>18448717
"Do something worth writing about, or write something worth reading"
I will do both, I must do both

[Anonymous No.18448731]

This past week gave me a fetish I didn't know I had, and definitely knew I didn't want

[Anonymous No.18448734]

I'm deeply sexually repressed so I find rule 34 horrifying as most of it is bizzare/nonconsensual/violent. It's especially bad when it's of characters I know/like. The only people who will read my writing are my therapist and a few friends, so I never have to worry about people making rule 34 of my characters.

[Anonymous No.18448791]

The single most interesting thing, to me, is how the masses of people find ways to cope. This life is so profoundly uninteresting and disappointing that it’s hard to believe these people aren’t aware of it the way anyone would be aware of a stabbing pain in the gut. The question I keep coming back to is “How do I relieve the pain?” but they don’t seem to ask this question at all. They must know something that I don’t.

[Anonymous No.18448794]

>>18448717
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[Anonymous No.18448893]

I dropped out of college again, I'll pursue whatever I want until my next birthday and if I think it won't be possible, if no matter what my dreams won't happen, I'll simply kill myself, we already know the end, why not skip to it?

[Anonymous No.18448920]

>>18448717
My parents think that I am mentally ill and a failure because I haven't had a gf, haven't been able to find a stable job, and do not have any friends at all considering my age. I don't know what to do anymore, my options are limited and I barely get any time to do other things.

[Anonymous No.18448934]

Dont know if I should move in with a friend in another state with a restaurant job lined up and my rent paid while working there or stay in nyc get a job then move out to a non shit city (have a friend upstate I can live with if I want) which is more expensive but im more free and dont have to move down south. College is a non option because I can only major is lib arts wasting my time, only goal I have is owning my own store selling something like books which doesn’t need a degree. Probably going to go sit by the water tomorrow and think about it, this city sucks but I dont know if its that bad ill up and leave to be a waiter or cook at a asian restaurant in the boonies

[Anonymous No.18448942]

>>18448934
why do you hate nyc so much? I like it here

[Anonymous No.18448948]

just realized the six pack of Stella I bought on sale expired a month ago

[Anonymous No.18448951]

Reading the Iliad currently and Alexandros is pissing me off. He should’ve just given her back desu

[Anonymous No.18448952]

>>18448948
alcohol has no expiration date

[Anonymous No.18448954]

>>18448942
This. Out of the North American cities, it is still the best.

[Anonymous No.18448964]

Why are we back to animus. We had such a nice streak without them. I even remember this one from the last time. At least be more creative.

[Anonymous No.18448967]

>>18448952
then what is the "best by" date there for? I'm drinking all six before bed regardless.

[Anonymous No.18448979]

>>18448954
It’s still shit objectively and we all know it

[Anonymous No.18448984]

horny and tired

[Anonymous No.18448998]

>>18448942
>>18448954
I dont hate it, was born here after all and I like not needing a car but I wouldnt stay here for good especially if I want to live on my own and start a business in the future, its expensive even for a shit apartment. Plus if Im not getting a degree I can’t stay where there’s so much competition for work

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18449014]

>>18448717
You already used this off topic picture, OP.

[Anonymous No.18449038]

I keep writing fan fiction. I don’t feel like writing anything else. I will never be an author.

[Anonymous No.18449043]

I wish I lived alone. I'm fucking sick of sharing my spaces with other people.

[Anonymous No.18449048]

Life with depression is just 100% finding ways to cope until you can get cured

[Anonymous No.18449055]

>>18448717
Dissociated hard from a weed trip a few weeks ago to the point where I permanently saw myself as a video game character, and ended up seeing a lot of improvements in my life as a result- I was kinder to my family, exercised daily, fixed my posture, and went to bed at a regular hour. The world was interesting and I never felt bored or a need for distraction. I saw through the shards of my shattered ego, felt no pain, no regrets over my past, no anxiety over my future, no desire to procrastinate or waste time- why should I, if all of it was this big illusion? In short I was less human but also unafflicted.

That said, the spectre of solipsism hung heavily over my head, and I also felt that the world was giving me sublte hints to kill myself. I had thoughts of becoming like another /lit/ poster who drowned himself. So in fear I reverted back to my old ways, fapping and playing video games till the wee hours. This, along with starting a part time job, plunged me back into 'real life'. But I am regretting it now, and wish that I had not tossed away the previous state of mind in panic. I'm thinking of meditating daily to try to get back into this state of mind, or maybe trying psychedelics in a few years after I've worked on my physical/mental health. But overall I'm feeling a bit in the dumps for having returned to what is- compared to what I had before- a myopic state.

[Anonymous No.18449076]

Not having a mentor makes things really hard, I dont mind fucking up I do mind losing my mind over being indecisive.

[Anonymous No.18449084]

They're not sending their best.

[Anonymous No.18449095]

>>18449043
Same, I have the unfortunate curse of living with family. I dont mind being with friends but I think I have to just get my own space, no matter how similar my friends are to me

[Anonymous No.18449104]

Come on, anon. Grab your book and let's comfortably spend time.

https://youtu.be/3sL0omwElxw

[Anonymous No.18449121]

>>18449095
I have lived with friends for a bit over 3 years and I don't have any real complaints, but I am just the kind of guy that likes his solitude. I know I would get lonely if I were completely alone, but I just need a break from seeing another person in my house all the god damn time.

[Anonymous No.18449139]

I would do anything to not have to work tomorrow. Sacrifice a puppy, beat up an old lady, suck a thousand black dicks.

[Anonymous No.18449141]

>>18449121
Yeah I think we’re similar in that sense, Im not even I’m sure if we would get lonely we can get our needs for going around were we live but like you said we need spaces to ourselves we just operate better without people yapping. Hope you get it soon anon

[Anonymous No.18449169]

>>18448717
She's leaving in nine days, I'll probably nevere see her again, it hurts

[Anonymous No.18449175]

>>18448920
And I bet you can't even 1cc EoSD you loser.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18449179]

>>18448730
Not till you delete the damn blowjacks you won’t

[Anonymous No.18449183]

>>18448717
We must be ready for a profound event in the divine order, toward which we are marching with an accelerated speed that must strike all observers. Terrible oracles already announce that the time has come.

[Nemo !!GgBWHLRiayD No.18449192]

The closer that the clouds are to the sunlight the more they are concretized as its thronetecture; the closer that the phantasmal is to the soulight the realer it becomes.

[Anonymous No.18449193]

>>18449175
What is eosd?

[Anonymous No.18449232]

Why do I get sad instead of embarrassed when I look at my baby photos of myself

[Anonymous No.18449297]

>>18449232
Why would you get embarrassed?

[Anonymous No.18449301]

>>18448893
Maybe you should kill yourself then.

[Anonymous No.18449330]

>>18449193
Yikes.

[Anonymous No.18449370]

A green banana has very high starch content – as the fruit yellows, this starch turns into sugars.

[Anonymous No.18449392]

>>18448717
the tranny zoomer janny who moved the /lang/ thread to /int/

[Anonymous No.18449407]

>>18449392
There's no reason for mods to move threads. Just get rid of that feature, it makes no sense.

[Anonymous No.18449410]

>>18449330
What do you mean by yikes?

[Anonymous No.18449429]

>>18449370
banan

[Anonymous No.18449434]

>the answer was to love myself all along

[Anonymous No.18449440]

>>18449104
based ambient anon. I'd love to have a nice sound system one day that can make it really feel like it's raining outside my room.

[Anonymous No.18449530]

Being a writer sucks.

I feel like I'm the last of a dying breed speaking to an audience of phantoms that exist only in my head. For one thing liberals have helped drive the stake in, supplementing the brutality technology has inflicted on literature with its censoriousness and thin skin. Liberalism today is actually anything but: true liberalism is all about allowing people to express themselves.

Everything that needs to be said will get you in trouble. I full on nihilistically embrace the position that literature is a fading medium and that we are seeing its twilight years. It may continue on in some shape but it will be adulterated, divvied up and processed into modular units consumed by the godless machine.

[Anonymous No.18449547]

>>18448717
I can't do it anymore. My quota is up to 25,000 words per month and 500 custom graphics, not accounting for meetings, reporting, and scheduling.

I have so much anxiety about writing content the clients will like that I am paralyzed. Most days I sit and stare at my keyboard, waiting for the right words. And while I wait for them, I fall farther behind every day.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18449556]

>>18449434
Unironically.

Now throw out the damn blowjacks

[Anonymous No.18449589]

Sometimes I think to myself, for no particular reason, "I want to kill myself". I'm not sure why I think this, even when I feel like I'm having a good time. I would consider myself generally in tune with my emotions but this just pops up for some reason. I feel like I generally enjoy life, but I'm also severely out of touch with many aspects of the modern world. I can never see myself in a 9-5 career for my entire life, spending all my time making money for someone else. I also can't see myself spending the amount of time and money on a modern woman that a modern woman demands, but I also feel lonely without a woman and spend too much time watching porn, which leaves me feeling disgusting. I feel like I was just born in the wrong era, and I know that sounds stupid, but I genuinely hate what the internet and information has done to us. It's like I've burned out all my braincells and can't attach to anything without a huge amount of skepticism. Despite all this, I do find peace sometimes, mainly when I am in nature, or in a flow state in one of the many activities I enjoy such as sports or music. I do enjoy a lot in life, but I'm not entirely well-adjusted yet. I hope to make some money soon so I can travel and let my mind rest. I'm hoping to spend some time living in an eastern monastery, which sounds like a larp, but the idea sounds nice to me.

[Anonymous No.18449789]

>>18448920
My Ma kicked me out for the same gf reason. Just know that its totally normal not to have a partner if you dont want one right now. Stable jobs are hard to come by these days indeed but have a dream and youll have a path. If friends are what you need ya got me anon. Nah but seriously just get a hobby or start going to a martial arts dojo. Friends in no time.

[Anonymous No.18449873]

>>18449076
Same. I think not having mentor/teacher figure really crippled my life and potential. My father is a good guy but not an example i'd like to emulate.

[Anonymous No.18450017]

French toast is a good way to start the day. pain perdu, for confused frenchies

[Anonymous No.18450154]

>>18448717
What do you guys think I look like?

[Anonymous No.18450162]

I am gonna teach philosophy and somehow get famous for it so that university of toronto give me a professorship job without a degree and then I'll rule the world

[Anonymous No.18450178]

Going nowhere's the only clear shot at being somewhere the fates think you're not.

[Anonymous No.18450208]

>>18450178
Its all in your destiny

[Anonymous No.18450217]

>>18450154
White

[Anonymous No.18450221]

Should I get the Pfizer vaccine or wait for the novavax? My hair is below my shoulders, my teeth are rotting out and I need a checkup with my doctor. Going to either place is going to be a COVID sentence so my options are


1. Get sick
2. Get MRNA experimental vaccine
3. Wait for traditional vaccine and worry about potential damage from spike protein.

Not getting JNJ shit or moderna (5x the amount of MRNA than in pfizer which degrades more easily at its higher temps).

If getting sick is the best approach, I'll just infect myself before I go with people I know who get the virus. I want to be prepared more than anything.

[Anonymous No.18450262]

Currently writing a fictional story of how the Global Government unleashes a flu-like pandemic upon the world, then releases a vaccine to 'cure' the population. Unbeknownst to the common people, the vaccine was designed to cause irreversible infertility.
However, a group of renegade and reactionary pariahs who frequent shady interweb congregations refuse to get the vaccine, making them humanity's only hope to repopulate the planet.

[Anonymous No.18450265]

>tfw writer and poet
>started seriously writing and sending my stuff out a few years ago
>gotten a few short stories published
>started to return to seriously writing poetry in 2018
>gotten several poems published
>even placed one poem in a major journal and got paid for it
>now working on a major story that I'm actively trying to get published
>have a decent following on social media, so if I fail at traditional publishing I can self-publish it
>everyone I've shown the first book to really likes it

I'm going to make in, Anons. I'm going to be a big deal. I'm going to be one of the great writers of our time.

[Anonymous No.18450360]

Can an intense anger eventually become depression and apathy?

[Anonymous No.18450367]

>>18450221
Just go to the fucking doctor, dude. I've been going to my friends places, restaurants, gas stations, doctors appointments, dentist appointments, vet appointments for my animals, libraries, school, everything for the entirety of COVID and I'm perfectly fine. Stop being so fucking paranoid.

[Anonymous No.18450383]

>>18450265
>have a decent following on social media

You don't have to tell us your account but can I ask more about this? What social media are you on and what do you post about? Do you post about literature related stuff or just random thoughts? Did you do intentionally as self-promotion or did it happen organically? How do you think you got most of your followers? I know that self-promotion is pretty much a requirement for most authors these days, but I wonder if I have the constitution for it. Despite all my time in 4chan, I'm not a natural 'poster'.

[Anonymous No.18450389]

>>18450360
And worse than that.
t. former seether

[Anonymous No.18450408]

>>18449139
Assuming you live in an actual developed country, call in sick

[Anonymous No.18450410]

>>18450389
What was your experience? how did you manage to harmonize it?

[Anonymous No.18450412]

>>18450367
I'd rather just get sick or get the vaccine so I don't need to worry about it any more.

[Anonymous No.18450461]

>>18450410
Alright, I might just save you a few years of pain.
The first revelation was when I first read Aurelius and Seneca, who both said that only the small man concerns himself with the transgressions of others. The great man does not let the infirmities of others get a hold of him. He focuses on himself.
Confucius was also perfectly aware of this truth, as did many others.
You should have very little expectations from others and rarely allow yourself to be disappointed by their failure to meet your standards.
Just focus on the betterment of yourself and remember that all injustice and lack of rectitude you see around you eventually harms themselves only, not you.
That's a small part of what constitutes anger towards others. Anger against yourself is a tougher subject and I don't know how to get over it myself.

[Anonymous No.18450489]

>>18450461
>You should have very little expectations from others and rarely allow yourself to be disappointed by their failure to meet your standards.
I seem to expect less and less the more i get older.
>Anger against yourself is a tougher subject and I don't know how to get over it myself.
Shit, theres no easy and clear way out this, isnt it?

[Anonymous No.18450549]

>>18448717
something is coming and my molars hurt

[Anonymous No.18450585]

>>18448717
Some odd weeks ago I started thinking about how I was not as kind, caring, or present for grandmother as I should have been despite living in her house. I still deeply regret how I was not as patient or loving to her, and how I did not spend time with her. This made me realize that I need to be there more for my father, the only other family member I have, so I will not make the same mistake twice. This was also tinged with the premonitionary feeling that was is going to die soon.
Now, he is becoming ill and we will find out whether or not he needs to be hospitalized Monday morning. I hope, and pray, that it is nothing. But if it is, and this is it, then I thank God for the thought to go to him.

[Anonymous No.18450593]

>>18450585
>That he was going to die soon

[Anonymous No.18450611]

I feel kind of frustrated, nervous and jumpy for no real reason.
Haven't nutted in a week and wasn't planning to, but that might fix it.

[Anonymous No.18450616]

I can't even think of a story to write
so I am thinking either I can read more or go outside more to get more creative
but I have watched a lot of films and I can't even write one it's so frustuating
maybe I should write about shit personal to me and make a story out of that rather than writing for the sake of what will be considered the next masterpiece

[Anonymous No.18450632]

>>18450221
Don't waste your time.
>If getting sick is the best approach, I'll just infect myself before I go with people I know who get the virus.
And you think you won't be a carrier by that point either way? Lmao

[Anonymous No.18450642]

>>18450360
No.

[Anonymous No.18450654]

>>18450642
Why not?

[Anonymous No.18450675]

>try
>fail
>feel like shit
>try again
>fail again
>feel like shit again

is this really what life is all about

[Anonymous No.18450685]

Being 10 years behind the curve on life is horrible. Everyone I know is too busy raising their small kids and I just got my shit together enough to land a stable job.

[Anonymous No.18450715]

>>18449370
bamamo

[Anonymous No.18450724]

>>18449055
>weed trip
???

[Anonymous No.18450785]

All you can do is be kind, generous and forgiving with due diligence, and hope that everyone one day "gets it".

[Anonymous No.18450813]

>>18448717
>tranime
HUGE YIKES

[Anonymous No.18450821]

I fucking hate children. You can't expect them to behave rationally or according to any predictable logic. Granted, you can't really expect that of the vast majority of adults either, but at least when an adult behaves irrationally you can justifiably treat them with a certain degree of scorn that is inherently defensible. You can't look down on a child for behaving irrationally because it's just the nature of being young.

[Anonymous No.18450825]

>>18450685
Im even beyond you... i cant get my shit together to even get a job..

[Anonymous No.18450846]

Every last person who uses Twitter is a FAGGOT

[Anonymous No.18451010]

Is it weird to be attached enough to ones first 1cc to bother saving it on a usb stick in case your old pc finally died?

[Anonymous No.18451020]

>>18451010
I mean, it's an accomplishment.

[Anonymous No.18451032]

>>18451010
Not at all. Sentiment is important
I swear to God typing all of this has triggered some powerful deja vu. Same capcha pictures, same Bomberman image 9 posts above. If it's a portent then some anon is going to start complaining about his very forward incest-driving sister.
This is probably a sign I need to go to bed..

[Anonymous No.18451036]

>>18450632
I don't care if I spread it.

[Anonymous No.18451040]

cold hands
shrunk glans
sweaty ass
out of sress

[Anonymous No.18451047]

>>18451040
Cold hands, warm heart
Cold hands, warm heart
Cold hands, warm heart
Cold hands, warm heart

[Anonymous No.18451061]

>>18450821
maybe one day you will understand that behaving rationally is the stupidest way to live and behaving irrationally is absolutely based

[Anonymous No.18451072]

The Masqu of the Red Death, the 1960s iteration with Vincent Price, is probably my favorite horror movie by virtue of how well it does surrealist imagery for a slightly mainstream 1960s movie.
Even inspired me to do a painting about it.

[Anonymous No.18451096]

>>18451061
wtf? women are based?

[Anonymous No.18451106]

Hwaet!

[Anonymous No.18451129]

>>18448717

Whenever I feel suicidal I'm at my most productive and I'm conflicted by it. We're constantly reminded that no matter what we produce or how relatively successful we become, whether we have a family or a good support network, the feelings of worthlessness and suicidal ideation will never go away.
I am not close to anyone because of past mental breakdowns. No desire to reach out to anyone because the attention won't do anything to help me. I constantly destroy my art and only want feedback anonymously, never recognition, nothing is ever good enough.

[Anonymous No.18451139]

i should be reading

[Anonymous No.18451142]

>>18450675

>Some pseud on reddit tells you to imagine sisyphus happy

I don't think anyone knows what life is all about.

[Anonymous No.18451144]

>>18450616
are you ESL?

[Anonymous No.18451189]

>>18450724
probably edibles. it's a different drug.

[Anonymous No.18451206]

>>18449434
Thats literally it anon. No matter what just do that and you’ll be fine

[Anonymous No.18451223]

>>18451096
no, because women still try to operate on the logical plane, which for most of them (excluding high iq women and exceptions) makes their logic even more twisted and inaccurate than that of men, yet women still persist in aspiring to be rational, which is a mistake. the chaotic dimension of life is more powerful than the rational. if women were able to embrace chaos fully, i'd say yes that would be based.

[Anonymous No.18451234]

>>18451206

It isn't true. There's always a balance between loving yourself, loving others and sacrificing to society. I would change it to don't feed your negative emotions. Don't hate yourself.

[Anonymous No.18451248]

>>18449434
HOW DO YOU LOVE YOURSELF? HOW

[Anonymous No.18451257]

>>18451234
>There's always a balance between loving yourself, loving others and sacrificing to society
He cant do any of those if he doesnt truly love himself first, nobody’s telling him to be a narcissist but if you’re useless to yourself you’re useful to nobody its why depressed people stay depressed

[Anonymous No.18451260]

>>18451248
to truly love yourself you first have to experience what it's like to love without resistance what is outside of yourself, not everything at once, but at least something, someone

[Anonymous No.18451265]

>>18448967

It'll be fine. I've drank a bottle of port wine that had been open for weeks and I didn't get any more fucked up than otherwise. By drinking the opened wine I was risking botulism (rare but sometimes happens from moonshine and toilet wine). Your beer is "canned", it will be completely safe. It just means the flavour will probably deteriorate slowly after the expiry date.

[Anonymous No.18451275]

I'm dating a tranny and now I'm very confused

[Anonymous No.18451277]

>>18448717
I think my gf has been dishonest, But I have no way of ever knowing. What do I do?

[Anonymous No.18451280]

>>18451257

What does "loving yourself" mean to you, anon? I took a lot of acid and DMT in my early 20s and it blinded me to how toxic and bad at listening I became, but I definitely loved myself.
The boomers tried that and look how it turned out for us.

[Anonymous No.18451281]

>>18451277
Fuck her until she confesses

[Anonymous No.18451291]

>>18450846
holy based

[Anonymous No.18451293]

>>18451281
Tried that. She's still adamant Im being stupid.

[Anonymous No.18451298]

>>18451293
Unrelated, but try reading pic related to take your mind off it.

[Anonymous No.18451303]

>>18451010
>>18451020
>>18451032
Hahhahaha these guys play video games.

[Anonymous No.18451310]

>>18451260
Isnt it the opposite - love yourself first to truly love the others?

[Anonymous No.18451311]

>>18448717
finally bought a switchblade.
Flick HAHA
Flick HAHA
Flick HAHA
yeeeeeeeeeesssss

[Anonymous No.18451314]

>>18451298
I'll take a look. Thanks, bro.

[Anonymous No.18451323]

>>18451280
Depends on the person, for some loving yourself can mean seeing yourself as human being and for some can mean caring about nobody but themselves.

[Anonymous No.18451326]

>>18451311
i hope i have the same feeling when I buy a .357 revolver for the first time.

[Anonymous No.18451367]

>>18451047
Meant actual physically cold hands, which I have when I'm stressed out.

[Anonymous No.18451391]

>>18451323

They're not mutually exclusive. The worst type of egomaniac is one who thinks they understand and know what's best for others. I fell into that category for a while.

[Anonymous No.18451401]

>>18451310
no. that is a platitude. if you don't know how to love the world, you can't love yourself because anyway, there is no "yourself" in essence. "you" are a bunch of thoughts and experiences and consequences of actions and memories of the past, by trying to "love yourself" you are turning inward to stare into the inconsequential things that comprise your lame excuse for a "personality". if start turning outward to see the true grandiose nature of the reality around you then you will know to experience love.

[Anonymous No.18451408]

>>18451401
*if you start

[Anonymous No.18451430]

>>18451293
Without more context we can't give you any useful advice. Though you probably are being stupid.

[Anonymous No.18451444]

I.... feel.... so.... SHIT

[Anonymous No.18451453]

Fuckin hold me! I'M SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED!!!

[Anonymous No.18451500]

I really need to stop drinking - it's so bad for my brain chemistry. I don't drink during weekdays anymore, but I still binge drink on weekends and my mental health is getting worse and worse. I think I need to go completely sober because I can't moderate myself. I was at friends this weekend and I told myself I would leave at 9 but I stayed until 3am and drank an insane amount even by my standards. Nothing else is going well in my life and this is only making things worse mentally wise.

[Anonymous No.18451507]

>>18451500
When you binge, how many drinks are we talking?

[Anonymous No.18451513]

>>18451500
BITCH
GO
SOBER

[Anonymous No.18451524]

>>18451513
Sobriety is for squares and pussies

[Anonymous No.18451527]

>>18451500
I had four beers and half a bottle of some 18% bullshit this Friday and still couldn't function on Saturday.

[Anonymous No.18451542]

I have been pushed over the edge. I will murder my old self and rise. I am going to live with reckless abandon and claim everything I want.

[Anonymous No.18451553]

>>18451500

Stopping won't help either, but they never tell you that part. The best reason I've found to curb my alcohol intake is to limit the damaging social aspects of my drinking.

[Anonymous No.18451567]

>>18451500
Eh go the distance. Drink till you gag at even the smell of liquor.

[Anonymous No.18451572]

life is meaningless in itself but we try to give it meaning which is why we suffer and the only thing that allows us to do things meaninglessly is love

[Anonymous No.18451576]

>>18451524
i'm not sober. it's a matter of personal choice. he said he wants to go sober. if he wants it, he should do it, and not sit here like a bitch and hesitate. that's all.

[Anonymous No.18451585]

>>18451527
That doesn't sound like too much to me, but everyone's limits are different and obviously if you feel like it's a problem then it is. One of my old roommates went to rehab because she would have a couple beers after work every day, but when she got there almost everyone else had been getting blackout drunk daily. What I'm trying to say is that shouldn't make this into a bigger problem than it is, approach it realistically, pace yourself better at parties.

[Anonymous No.18451592]

>>18451401
that raises a question - how to love the world? is it something similar to amor fati or more in tolstoy's fashion?

[Anonymous No.18451610]

>>18451592
>how to love the world?
However you can. You guys always want to be told what to do.

[Anonymous No.18451614]

>>18451610
I cant speak for others but i'm full of anger.

[Anonymous No.18451618]

>>18451592
i think it depends on your own psychological structure and each person has their own way of tapping into the experience of love, be it through simply existing in the world or through dedicating themselves to something or somebody in particular. i think dante found love in his life through his admiration for the ideal of beatrice, whom he had not even known personally, but just the experience of that love gave him enormous capabilities and allowed him to change history itself.

[Anonymous No.18451621]

>>18451401
Explain doomers then

[Anonymous No.18451634]

>>18451507
Around about a dozen 4.5% beers sometimes more, or when there is spirits and wine in the mix I lose count

[Anonymous No.18451638]

>>18451621
there is not much to "explain". doomers are people who don't understand life, and they suffer the consequences of it. very simple.

[Anonymous No.18451640]

>>18451553
>Stopping won't help either, but they never tell you that part

What do you mean

>>18451567
I don't want to quit entirely I just want to take a break for a couple of months. The idea of never drinking again to me is unthinkable.

[Anonymous No.18451648]

>>18451640

Most people who have a drinking problem are using it for self-medication. Drinking won't get rid of your issues, so once you stop you'll still have the same problems that lead you to drink in the first place.

[Anonymous No.18451661]

>>18451648
Oh right I understand. But surely you are at least better equipped to deal with those problems if you are not suffering the consequences of regular alcohol intake.

I'm not trying to pass myself off as an alcoholic by the way. I don't drink much, only on weekends. But I made the decision to keep alcohol out of my house last year because if it's there and available to me I will drink it. I just have zero self control or ability to moderate once that first drink is in my system - so even mild social events turn into complete blow outs.

[Anonymous No.18451672]

>>18451640
What do you usually drink anon?

[Anonymous No.18451678]

>>18451661

If all your friends drink as well, you will just end up feeling alienated.

I'm not offering you advice, by the way. I used to call myself an alcoholic, but I can go without a drink as well. If you want some inspiration for an eventual goal of going teetotal, you should check out the comedian Limmy. He's the perfect example of how not drinking won't fix anything, but he stands by the decision lol. I still drink so I can't say shit.

[Anonymous No.18451710]

>>18451672
beer is my main poison, but I'll drink anything

[Anonymous No.18451718]

>>18451618
>everyone has a different way
>have no idea which one is for you
maybe i'll find it one day

[Anonymous No.18451756]

>>18451718
i wish it for you anon

[Anonymous No.18451780]

reading all this philosophy and realizing working on your potential and making good friends and family are good reasons to live life

[Anonymous No.18451792]

I'm feeling like it's one of those times in life when it all comes back and you remember how people failed you and hurt you and you're really angry.. Most of the time I don't think about any of this stuff, but not it's on th esurface. I'm going for a group workout thing tonight and I'm wondering if I'm gonna break down crying desu.

[Anonymous No.18451804]

>>18451678
>He's the perfect example of how not drinking won't fix anything, but he stands by the decision lol.
kek I didn't expect this turn. his old show was pretty good the bits of it I understood through the scottish

[Anonymous No.18451808]

>>18451780
whatever you think is the reason is the reason. there is no reason

[Anonymous No.18451838]

Post peaking on acid, from about 2 thirds of the trip my mind is especially sharp. I was not able to get to that point with microdosing - Is there a way?

[Anonymous No.18451870]

>>18451804

https://youtu.be/GgpaOrgjfeY

[Anonymous No.18451873]

>>18451838
>Is there a way?
Gradually increase your microdoses until you reach the effects of a full dose

[Anonymous No.18451878]

damn every time i am given something in this life i gotta give back as a sign of gratitude!

[Anonymous No.18451902]

>>18451873
Solid advice, thanks.

[Anonymous No.18451926]

there should be a fat fetish website called amor fattie

[Anonymous No.18451943]

>>18451926
made me KEK
thanks

[Anonymous No.18451984]

i'm tired of sex

[Anonymous No.18452089]

Are we smart or are just a bunch of conceited sophomaniacs?

[Anonymous No.18452106]

"Bellum omnium contra omnes" has to be the most metal latin phrase.

[Anonymous No.18452110]

>>18452089
both at the same time. like schrödinger's cat.

[Anonymous No.18452114]

>>18452089
I'm too smart to know how smart I am because its extent is infinite.

[Anonymous No.18452117]

i am a seeker of truth and i will restore the truth with my art :3c

[Anonymous No.18452125]

>>18452114
>t.sophomaniac

[Anonymous No.18452264]

There’s just no market for literature anymore. Is there?

[Anonymous No.18452278]

My professors say I'm talented. I can write a good sentence. I can write up two three pages of great prose. But idk how to keep going, so now I have like 50 different 1-3 page excerpts that sound great but don't relate any story. HOW TO I FINISH MY BOOK

[Anonymous No.18452287]

>>18452264
there is if it's good

[Anonymous No.18452350]

I heard people say the ending is terrible but so far, Attack on Titan is a masterpiece. This could’ve been an amazing novel and I think that’s the only anime or manga I would ever say that about.

[Anonymous No.18452354]

>>18452287
You must've meant "there is if it's bad"

[Anonymous No.18452360]

>>18452287
It sure doesn’t seem that way. From where I’m sitting it looks like a lot of crap or stuff that appeals to a very specific crowd and gets published. There has to be good literature being written but I’m not seeing it.

[Anonymous No.18452386]

>>18452264
there isn't. come up with new narrative forms

[Anonymous No.18452436]

>>18451780
Yeah, it’s kind of nice

[Anonymous No.18452445]

feeling pretty conflicted on modernity. sometimes i think its godawful and sometimes i think its pretty ok.

[Anonymous No.18452470]

I fucking hate reading poetry and reading about poets/poetry. Why the fuck are almost every single one of them, especially modern ones, so fucking obtuse? Is it self-masturbatory?

[Anonymous No.18452556]

>>18452264
Do what Im doing and just open a bookstore or something similar like stationary

[Anonymous No.18452608]

I completely destroy my own attempts at creativity every time by thinking about and refuting my own ideas. How do i stop this?

[Anonymous No.18452649]

Bros... you won't believe this. I was in a thread, diligently writing my reply like a good /lit/izen and then BOOM thread was pruned and I was left with the reply box hanging... This is revolting behavior.

[Anonymous No.18452701]

>>18452649
Nothing is worse than investing time on a thread reading all the replies and writing a lengthy post just to see the thread is pruned. I really dislike jannies.

[Anonymous No.18452711]

>>18452445
What do you like about it? I wish I could find a silver lining in it but I can't see any.

[Anonymous No.18452713]

>>18452470
you just don't have feelings bitch

[Anonymous No.18452729]

>>18452711
What great change occurred during Modernity that you dislike?
This question is not meant as a challenge btw. Wondering what went on before modernism that made life simpler and more care-free and how its advent changed everything.

[Anonymous No.18452732]

>>18452711
you can chat with your frens on 4channel and read the entire western canon at your leisure

[Anonymous No.18452773]

>>18452649
>>18452701
nothing will train you to never bother with an effort post again like having the thread deleted out from under you

[Anonymous No.18452793]

Queefing, obtuse
Bear the labour of my fruits,
A gust of wind, A concrete stipend,
Uncomfortable realities,
Shadow of reliabilities

I'm not gonna make am I, bros?

[Anonymous No.18452815]

i don't like my mom. cringe isn't the right word to describe her, but it's cringe adjacent. it's like that feeling you get on lsd where your back and shoulders are tense and your face has a permanent wince/grin. she has very little life experience since she spent her whole life as a stay at home mom in a small town, but she did get a scholarship to an expensive school, but she is most definitely not a "life-long learner" and has no learned a single thing since graduation i think. i just don't like her, but she moved to my neighborhood just to smother me more. get the fuck away from me!

[Anonymous No.18452818]

>>18452649
>poster talks about how /biz/ memes invade thread and jannies should do something about it
>joke to poster that jannies are the ones who are crashing the thread's market
>get warning posting offtopic images
>my reply had no image attached
Jannies work in mysterious ways.

[Anonymous No.18452822]

>>18449193
>Post Touhou fanart
>Don't know what Touhou is
I hate ironic weebs

[Anonymous No.18452858]

i like contiguous. it's adjacent adjacent but not overused.

[Anonymous No.18452945]

How do I live the most virtuous and based life I can as a homosexual who just can't find it in him to believe in any religion despite trying?

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18452951]

>>18452945
Epicureanism

[Anonymous No.18452958]

>>18452445
I’m miserable but I never really try to pinpoint modernity as the cause. It’s useless to talk about such things.

But I’d be lying if I said I didn’t fantasize about a different sort of life.

[Anonymous No.18452961]

>>18452951
Don't act like you wouldn't want to give me a buttjob butterfly :3

[Anonymous No.18452965]

>>18452945
Stoicism

[Anonymous No.18452974]

I might buy another pack of cigarettes its been a month and a half anyway im not worried about addiction Im just in the mood again and I dont feel like buying another pipe

[anonymous No.18452980]

>>18448893
sounds like punpun

[Anonymous No.18452981]

Life is so unbelievably boring and pointless. This is torture.

[Anonymous No.18452984]

>>18452951
Answer in the affirmative instead of ignoring, sweetie. Its okay :3

[Anonymous No.18453003]

>>18452951
>>18452965
Fuck how do I choose
I like the modest living thing either way tho

[Anonymous No.18453066]

>>18452729
In my country until less than a century ago religious scholars including philosophers were treated with highest respect and reverence in society. I can't help but think I could have lived there and then, but now I have to hear my mom nag at me for "wasting time on outdated books" instead of being completely focused on my engineering coursework. Before modernity we would have had a high social position just by our following passion (literature, philosophy, etc.). Now we are just seen as weird autists stuck in the past. It feels like being robbed of something great.
>>18452732
This place is one of the things preventing me from going insane, but is it really fulfilling? I used to have a friend who would exchange messages with me about books everyday. It was like participating in a /lit/ thread but with one person who you personally knew. It was much more fulfilling than any /lit/ discussion, and during that time I didn't get the urge to visit /lit/ at all. Now that I lost the friend, I spend hours on /lit/, but it's nowhere near fulfilling as those messages.

[Anonymous No.18453111]

I’m sorry to sad boy post but really, I know you guys can sympathize. At least some of you can.

What are you supposed to do when the ambition runs out? When you don’t really feel like you have any options left, what are you supposed to do? Nothing is satisfying and no matter what you do, or where you go, you’re going to feel that feeling deep inside your gut which comes from a place of profound disappointment, apathy, and hopelessness?

[Anonymous No.18453121]

should I ever bother with college, im american and if I continue college the only things I can major is english or chemistry and in the rare chance I get ideal jobs in those majors I still wasted my time because even if its a field I enjoy all the fun will be sucked out of it. If I dont go to college I'll suffer but be fulfilled. Im in community college so I can back out without regret and much debt thankfully
>>18452981
Im two steps away from being a drifter I literally just fuck around

[Anonymous No.18453136]

>>18453111
I am in the same boat as you are anon. Only reason I haven't given up yet because i'd feel like all the effort was gone to waste otherwise. But then my brain reminds me of sunk cost fallacy and it fries itself.

[Anonymous No.18453145]

>>18452608
You don't stop. You go beyond. You synthesize.

[Anonymous No.18453147]

I think its painfully clear that Butterfly is interested in me, because she called me an ass today and she never even denies owning a collar.

So. What I THINK is going on is since she is older she is manipulating me somewhat to be this sex driven bull, which is what turns her on anyway (which makes sense because I am the exception for her lesbianism).

I am losing my mind because of her :3

[Anonymous No.18453160]

>>18453136
I mean, I’ve pretty much given up hope. I’ve felt for a really long time that life was simply too boring, too uninteresting, too disappointing, and profoundly disenchanting but I always managed to distract myself somehow. I’d chase this thing or that thing, which I knew was ultimately pointless and once achieved that was confirmed. But now, it’s like I’ve run out of options. There’s no more ambitions to be had, no more dreams to dream, and the only thing that makes me feel even a little bit better is total escape into fiction, only to be dragged back kicking and screaming into reality thanks to that indulgence. Is it a childish view? I don’t know. Maybe. I just can’t help it. I’m not hungry. I’m not cold. I’m not tired. I’m not thirsty, I’m not even vengeful. I’m not anything and in all the world, there’s simply nothing left to do.

[Anonymous No.18453161]

>>18453111
I just live with it and avoid things that like the other anon said, make you remember sunk cost fallacy and frying yourself. To me its fine to deal with that if I know I can bounce back and haven’t permanently fucked myself over. Makes me a but indecisive ill admit but I rather deal with that than what the average man deals with which sends him almost to suicide

[Anonymous No.18453168]

>>18448942
Same here. I'm a foreigner who is in NYC for a few months now, it's nice. Manhattan became a bore really quickly, but parts of Brooklyn and Queens can be very cozy.

[Anonymous No.18453172]

>>18452793
Has the cadence of death metal lyrics desu

>>18452608
You have to realize that it doesn't matter in the slightest. Why waste your time arguing with yourself? No matter what you write or how good it is, there will be people who hate it, sometimes without even reading it. Better to just make something without trying to make it ironclad.

>>18453066
>Before modernity we would have had a high social position just by our following passion
Wishful thinking at best.

>>18453111
>that feeling deep inside your gut which comes from a place of profound disappointment, apathy, and hopelessness
You're describing depression. If you don't want to go to therapy or get on meds, maybe try shaking your life up a bit. Quit your job or school and go do something completely different.

>>18453121
There is no such thing as a job that's fun all the time. Pick something you can stand to do and do it.

[Anonymous No.18453175]

>>18448954
If we're including all of North America, I'd argue that Montreal and Quebec City present some stiff competition. Boston and Chicago are also very nice imo..

[Anonymous No.18453207]

>>18453161
How? Why? People say things along these lines. “Just live with it”. “Just keep moving”. How? It’s like waking up every morning to have your nails slowly peeled off your fingers. No. That would even be preferable. Something is happening then. Why? If this is all it is, all it will be, what’s the point of it all? What if you’re not made for this? There’s to many questions to simply accept this idea of gritting your teeth and bearing it. There’s a point where you are aware every waking moment that you’re not only not the person you want to be living the life you want to, but you’re not the person you need to be or living the life you need to be, and never will. It’s just today. Repeated. Forever. And for what? There’s no ride off in the sunset or watch the kids play in the wheat field scene in this story you know.

[Anonymous No.18453214]

>>18450221
Mate I travelled from São Paulo to NYC twice last year and went through Penn station multiple states, never contracted Corona. Just go the doctor and don't sweat it.

[Anonymous No.18453215]

i miss how God would bring people together. i don't trust people.

[Anonymous No.18453222]

>>>/lit/thread/18450730#p18451646
This is basically my philosophy. Deep down I know this is not a way to live, but I was hurt too many times to reform. I used to be so full of hope when I was young.
Now I know that if I let my guard down, people will take advantage of me. Being virtuous in a corrupt society amounts to doing an injustice upon yourself.

[Anonymous No.18453223]

>>18450360
Yes, it often does

[Anonymous No.18453232]

>>18453172
i guess I worded it poorly, I dont want to live in wonderland and have a job thats super duper fun all the time, I just dont want to be like the average person who has thousands in debt that'll be paid back and they're miserable because their job feels like a cage. I like hardship and I want that, but what I value is freedom and if I had to have a normie job I'd shoot my head off. But yeah Im just going to go my own route and do something I can stand, already have a friend who will give me a place to bunk for free if I work with him. I just ask because I see everyone do the same exact route and wonder why they're miserable and at the point where I cant tell if im mad or everyone else is even madder for blindly following

[Anonymous No.18453267]

>>18451527
That's pretty standard college weekend drinking
>t. Square who didn't even smoke weed until he was 20

[Anonymous No.18453268]

>>18448717
I am nauseated by how much my and others' minds are occupied by retarded, unimportant thoughts. 90% of my waking hours are occupied by video games, women, laundry, work or some worthless shit and it feels like a sheer waste of consciousness. This feeling is especially accentuated when I see my friends talk and laugh their heads off about some meaningless bullshit just for the sake of it. I want to find people who want to discuss ideas, things that are permanent and important and not just stupid passing trends. Fuck that, I want to be able to raise myself from out of this imperfect mire and gaze at something beautiful and lasting for once.

[Anonymous No.18453269]

>>18453147
Sounds like it was already lost

>>18453160
This nigga is probably 24, talking about how his life is over and shit

[Anonymous No.18453281]

>>18453269
>This nigga is probably 24, talking about how his life is over and shit
thats most of the people here yeah

[Anonymous No.18453295]

>>18453268
Serious question, is the pursuit of women truly useless? I feel like the want for a true life partner is something worth pursuing and discussing. The more crass part of talking about women (i.e sex) still feels refreshing, since it's one of our most natural behaviors and brings heterosexual men together in a primal bond.

[Anonymous No.18453302]

Thinking of becoming a tripfag any good name suggestions?

[Anonymous No.18453323]

>>18453268
Why is talking about "ideas" a better use of time than just shooting the shit? Either way the outcome is the same: we die and nobody remembers or cares how we passed our time.

>>18453207
Bro I'm gonna be honest, all I see here is directionless, generalized angst. You obviously aren't doing what you want in life. Maybe start by changing that.

[Anonymous No.18453330]

>>18453295
Primally bonding with another guy? Sounds pretty gay man

[Anonymous No.18453338]

>fall in love
>she is taken
>still wish I could be her platonic friend because they're still an interesting and cool person to be around
Is this at all possible bros? Or will I simply suffer around her, as I can never express my inner desires and know they'll never be attainable?
Admittedly I already made my decision by not interacting with them as much and letting them drift away as we moved to different places, but I still wonder if the alternative path could have been an option. I value platonic friendships as much as romantic ones, so it still hurts to lose out on one.

[Anonymous No.18453356]

>>18453269
>>18453281
No no she will continue to flirt with me :3

I think one of the biggest continual enemies of life is pessimism and depression. If I am pessimistic with butterfly even ONE PERCENT of the time, then she doesn't flirt with me like she does, she doesn't wear a collar, nothing. I get nothing. But this way, if I'm positive and hopeful she will.

It seems like far too much philosophy these days embrace hopelessness and despair

Me and Butterfly have a mutual respect for Nietzsche because I have conquered her soul in a way. She will not do anything with anyone because of me and is wearing a collar right now. She let's me call her a bitch but you CANNOT do that to any girl. You have to work your way into that situation. She knows it, I know it, you all should get the picture. :3

[Anonymous No.18453373]

>>18453323
>Bro I'm gonna be honest, all I see here is directionless, generalized angst. You obviously aren't doing what you want in life. Maybe start by changing that.
I’m not sure you even read what I wrote? If you did, then this would be obvious but your conclusion would make no sense at all.

[Anonymous No.18453375]

>>18453338
Anon you should read The Sorrows of Young Werther.

[Anonymous No.18453381]

>>18453338
"Love" makes some of you guys retarded, I swear

[Anonymous No.18453389]

>>18453381
Well, that is one of the oldest tropes in human literature lmao
>boy falls for girl
>becomes retarded and autistic

[Anonymous No.18453390]

>>18453373
>I’m not sure you even read what I wrote?
I did and it's just vague, sad garbage. A boring life is worse than having your fingernails torn off you stupid little bitch.

[Anonymous No.18453392]

>>18453381
Why is that retarded?

[Anonymous No.18453393]

>>18448717
I'm so fucking depressed and pissed off but I have no emotion or passion or drive. I wish to stop existing. I'm stuck in this fucking body and I don't want to be. I want to be free.

[Anonymous No.18453402]

>>18453375
That would actually be pretty neat since I am learning German at the moment and I'll be in Germany for the remainder of the year.
How advanced is it, in terms of vocabulary and such? I expect it will be difficult of course, but hey maybe I can take it.

[Anonymous No.18453409]

>>18453393
hell yea dude

[Anonymous No.18453415]

>>18451275

You better fucking stand up for her, faggot. You found a woman who needs support more than ever, don't you dare back down from anyone, even your grandparents.

[Anonymous No.18453416]

>>18453381
What's retarded about it.
No really, I'm on the fucking spectrum and I don't know what's what

[Anonymous No.18453423]

>>18453392
>GUYS CAN I BE FRIENDS WITH A GIRL THAT I HAVE A CRUSH ON?
The answer is yes. You will get over it. It is not love, just strong desire. Having a crush is not torture, and it's all in your head anyway.

[Anonymous No.18453424]

I think butterfly has made everyone sad once she wore collar

[Anonymous No.18453435]

>>18453402
I read it as my first German book but it was very difficult for me. I would guess if you are around B2 then it's doable. Though I should warn you, if you are not in a stable state of mind, you should probably not read it.

[Anonymous No.18453437]

>>18453409
did... are the Stavros to my Nick?

[Anonymous No.18453445]

>>18453435
only book I ever read in german was "a clockwork orange" and I only did that because my brother bought it in german by mistake.

[Anonymous No.18453454]

I want a good reason to not kill myself. I'm held in check by my mentally volatile parents who already lost a kid before me. I have a cat I have a very strong bond with. These are the only things keeping me bound to the earth. I lose all my friends every 2-3 years when I go through a massive breakdown. I have a really boring life. I was also doomed from the start with autism, ADHD and bipolar disorder. There are more philosophers on /lit/ than the rest of 4chan, how about some good advice? Even Christfags have wisdom, but skip the dogma, please.

[Anonymous No.18453463]

>>18453423
Maybe. But I'm curious how you distinguish between what is love and what isn't.

[Anonymous No.18453470]

>>18453302

Tell me a bit more about yourself, then. I will try think of some names for you, anon.

[Anonymous No.18453497]

>>18453463
I mean I don't really know if anon loves that girl or not. But he obviously didn't know her that well when he fell for her if he didn't know she had a boyfriend. To me, that's the baseline. How can you love somebody if you know so little about their life?

[Anonymous No.18453501]

>>18453454
If you believe in God, the shortest explanation is that we are possessions of God and taking our lives is equal to taking away from God's possessions, which he does not allow. If you think further, this life and this world is merely a test, to see which most souls gravitate towards God, so that after their life and this world ends, those pure souls join him. By committing suicide you are taking away your chance to, so to speak, enter the Kingdom of God.

[Anonymous No.18453506]

>>18453501
He said no dogma you giant fag

[Anonymous No.18453511]

>>18453506
I am not being dogmatic. Plato makes good arguments for both of those claims in Phaedo.

[Anonymous No.18453520]

>>18453511
>this pre-christian philosopher made christian arguments
STOP

[Anonymous No.18453524]

>>18453520
I am not Christian.

[Anonymous No.18453548]

>>18453423
How do you distinguish a childish crush from love?

[Anonymous No.18453561]

>>18453435
>Though I should warn you, if you are not in a stable state of mind, you should probably not read it.
Don'tworry, I'm not suicidal over this lmao, it just feels kinda sucky but I'm sane and stable enough to understand that these feelings pass and that the world is still a fine place to be in.

[Anonymous No.18453581]

>>18453497
I always knew she was taken, but I got the lame feelings anyhow. It's quite annoying too, because the boyfriend is a swell guy and always was friendly and welcoming with me, so I feel quite evil and dirty for desiring his partner.

[Anonymous No.18453582]

>>18453501

that doesn't convince me, anon. I have given up the past 4-5 years of my life to living a better life, as hard as it can be to figure out. It is undeniable the poorest wretches on the planet find it easier to believe in God. I would just thank him that they've earned a place in paradise, but at the moment I don't believe in any such being.

[Anonymous No.18453602]

No offence, but I'd say 80-90% of you would get rekt 1v1 in a fist fight with me.

[Anonymous No.18453604]

>>18452713
Look I may be autistic but reading poetry is like going straight to fucking before any foreplay.

[Anonymous No.18453608]

>>18453223
Is there a way to break the apathy?

[Anonymous No.18453627]

>>18453454
Therapy. You may think it doesn't help, but it does. You won't come out of there as the happiest person in the world, but at least you can find someone to share the weight of your pain.

A good diet, a good night's sleep, physical exercises and sunbathing also help to improve your mental health.

[Anonymous No.18453633]

>>18453602
I don't doubt it anon.

[Anonymous No.18453637]

>>18453582
Maybe I'm one of those poor wretches then, since I only shared with you what kept me away from it. But you do realize that, if what I shared with you is true, you would have gambled away your whole being by taking your life. Maybe you should spend your time then to see if you can find God. If you like philosophy, read more metaphysics, or if you like poetry read some mystical poetry. Regardless, I don't believe there is any convincing argument not to take away one's life if one wishes to and if what I shared with you isn't true.

[Anonymous No.18453665]

Is it normal for balls to start legit hurting after a while of not releasing?

[Anonymous No.18453678]

she's gonna tell me she feels sorry for me. she's gonna be right, but it's gonna be very difficult to handle pride-wise.

[Anonymous No.18453682]

>>18453665
If you are getting stimulated frequently, yeah that's normal. If you don't want to end up like that, try to avoid anything sexual, even pictures and sexual thoughts. Also taking a hot shower might help taking away the pain.

[Anonymous No.18453690]

>>18453665
Yes, it's called Blue Balls. IIRC your body has overproduced sperm and needs to let it out, that's why Wet Dreams happen sometimes.

[Anonymous No.18453699]

>>18451223
Either extreme is useless, there is a hybrid between, a pinnacle of balance of controlled opposition, that makes for a truly whole human being.

...and she designs AI's.

[Anonymous No.18453745]

>>18453454
You have nothing better to do than live.

No guarantee things will get better, they may in fact, get worse.

All the guarantee in the world it'll make things worse for others.

Survival and the advancement of your tribe is the one purpose and meaning life gave you by default.

[Anonymous No.18453764]

>>18453295
No, I think it's fine- finding a good life partner is definitely meaningful. But it just so happens that at its core the sexual impulse is a distraction imposed by our biology like eating or excreting, and can have you pining after someone who isn't a great match for you in the long term.

>>18453323
Ideas are greater than myself or anyone else because they are intangible, incorruptible, and will often still be true after we are gone. In the case of something like mathematics or physics, it will be true till the end of time.

It's like Spinoza said, much of human motivation stems from three sources: the desire for esteem, wealth, and sensual pleasure. These are ephemeral- the only lasting good is the pursuit of knowledge.

[Anonymous No.18453774]

>>18453454
there will come a time when you will see things differently. I guarantee it. given that this is the case it is very unlikely that it will be good mathematically to die. Did you ever try to get in touch again with your friends after you came back from a breakdown?

[Anonymous No.18453793]

>>18453295
>Serious question, is the pursuit of women truly useless?
I think we're capable of loving great things in women, and they're capable of loving great things in us. We can see things in them they don't see in themselves and vice-versa. I think this love can take us closer to God, because Gods greatness and beauty are revealed even in the mundane acts of the one you love.

[Anonymous No.18453841]

>>18453774
same anon
while I think this is true I think it was a really retarded way of phrasing things. ignore this post anon, please.

[Anonymous No.18453879]

>>18453454
This is for you --> <3

[Anonymous No.18454033]

Thanks guys I feel better

[Anonymous No.18454092]

>>18454033
Shut the fuck up fag

[Anonymous No.18454154]

>>18454092
You shut the fuck up, you dolt.

[Anonymous No.18454163]

>>18454092

[Anonymous No.18454193]

>>18453356
Are you the anon that used write poetry to her or did you best him by sheer determination?

[Anonymous No.18454194]

Anarchy thread was pulled down. Maybe because Ƹ̵̡Ƹ̵̡Ƹ̵̡itƷƷƷ didn't approve.

[Anonymous No.18454206]

whats the point of living when you have no skills or inherit worth
how to accept the scum that you are so you can finally see where you're at and work towards a realistic status
there are more people in the world than we can understand entirely. yet I know OF a select few that make media that millions of people watch & consume. the power of this sort of public platform is something i can't calculate, yet am sort of jealous about. why do i feel inferior to people I don't even know?
i really hate the internet. i've spent most of my life on it and its on the same tier as reality (F), only more irrational and generous with short-term rewards.

[Anonymous No.18454215]

I have to pee

[Anonymous No.18454230]

>>18454215
I no longer have to pee

[Anonymous No.18454237]

>>18454206
you do have inherent worth anon

[Anonymous No.18454303]

>>18454237
i hear this through the woundedness of my ego which says I should be better. i think I tell myself i have no inherit worth intending to reverse psychology myself into going ubermench but it actually distances myself from becoming who i really am.

[Anonymous No.18454337]

what are some quick and painless ways to an hero? was thinking that hanging by either breaking my neck or having my carotid sinus pressed on would do the trick; any better ideas?

[Anonymous No.18454343]

Kinda jealous of all the people wrapped up in E3 right now. A lot of them sound retarded to me, complaining about things like how attractive video game characters are, but if I were like them I sure would be happier.

[Anonymous No.18454347]

>>18448717
I hate that gif. I would destroy her dumb annoying face with a chainsaw.

[Anonymous No.18454393]

>>18454303
I think the things worth doing are not these grandiose things. every time you are kind to another person everything worth achieving is achieved.

[Anonymous No.18454396]

>>18454347
She's not real anon

[Anonymous No.18454479]

Dracula contains the line “[...]a Hebrew of rather the Adelphi Theatre type[...]"
I can't find any documentation as to what's meant here. What does an "Adelphi Theatre type" connote? All I can find are discussions of the anti-semitism of the character description, but they don't discuss what this reference means.

[Anonymous No.18454502]

You recon yellow fever can be cured? I need some real treatment.

[Anonymous No.18454520]

>>18454337
Read cioran you imbécile. Otherwise I will try to swim across the atlantic ocean with no help, I don't know if that helps you

[Anonymous No.18454568]

>>18453338
>>still wish I could be her platonic friend because they're still an interesting and cool person to be around
>platonic friend
>female
pick one

[Anonymous No.18454584]

>>18454502
Yes, wife an asian girl and contribute to the next white-asian master race. If you're not white don't reproduce.

[Anonymous No.18454586]

Ted Kacyznski's philosophy essentially boils down to radical libertarianism. What a childish incorrigible twat.

[Anonymous No.18454596]

nigger nigger nigger fuck kike mother fuckers jew fuck nigger kike nigger fuck.

I've started saying things in my car that I'm not proud of beyond the usual "I'm going to kill myself"

[Anonymous No.18454614]

I think my testosterone is low. I haven't been getting a good nights' sleep lately, I'm not burning off extra fat the way I have in the past, and I just feel kind of low in general. All of these are supposedly symptoms of low testosterone.

[Anonymous No.18454616]

Sucked myself off again.

[Anonymous No.18454622]

Sometimes, I dream about cheese.

[Anonymous No.18454647]

>>18448717
everyone hanging out in the street is a mere phenomenical accident deprived of essence and I'm the only constant in this empirical flow

[Anonymous No.18454655]

>>18454616
Pathetic.

[Anonymous No.18454658]

>>18454647
Sounds like cope since you were excluded.

[Anonymous No.18454665]

>>18454622
Why?

[Anonymous No.18454671]

New thread
>>18454668

[Anonymous No.18454672]

What's gonna be the new op for the next thread...

[Anonymous No.18454679]

>>18453423
>Having a crush is not torture
this may or may not be true

[Anonymous No.18454709]

>>18453581
I suspect this is why in Islam they try to separate the genders. it's just bound to happen.

[Anonymous No.18454746]

>>18454479
It's comedy and musicals. They're low type acts, looking for popular enthusiasm. If it were in the US, he'd be a Catskills comedy circuit act.
The theatre's known for a famous murder of one of the lead actors at the stage door, and Stoker is throwing some shade because he was working for the Lyceum theatre, which had some overlap in its market. Basically Stoker is telling readers "Come see our adaptations of Dickens, not their version which is nowhere near as classy".

[Anonymous No.18454749]

Ok I got a book idea.
I call it "The Browning". And in this story a brown noise is emitted periodically every day across the world in the 2050s. Nobody knows how or why but it cannot be prevented without soundproof rooms. A sound so intense it makes whoever hears it keel over and evacuate their bowels. And society has become obsessed with it.
A few riots, and a bit of political discord over decades ensue with people boarding their homes up with sound dampening materials that astronomically rose up in value overnight. But these days the brown noise is hyped up by celebrity cults as a great "purge" of ones evils. Exquisite sites dedicated to pooping with cult-like followings come up out of seemingly nowhere and recruit like wildfire. Many each day join the Brotherhood of Brown, the worlds biggest scat network. Some really gross people just like, ignore it and go about their daily business smelling of shit and just like let it happen. A lot of people group together and scat together in safety. It became as regular and ingrained into art and culture as covid did in the 20s.
But some prey on it, capitalise it. They lure people out or they bring the sound in, and whilst incapacitated they loot their homes and their possessions whilst they are powerless to do anything other than shit. The raiders protect themselves with stolen ear plugs and other horrific ways they've developed to block the sound. Often amputating their own ears and communicating with sign language.
The story would follow such a gang of raiders in 2108. Getting caught up stealing from the wrong guy. A man of significant power on a business trip doing something naughty and fetishy and the shock of their little raid pushes his bowels a little too far and he shits himself so hard he dies.

[Anonymous No.18454765]

>>18454655
If you masturbate, you are no better.

[Anonymous No.18454850]

>>18453415
He's the female to male type and they don't know I'm bisexual

[Anonymous No.18454958]

>>18454746
Thank you!

[Anonymous No.18455243]

I want to learn old English. Where can I learn such a thing

[Anonymous No.18455317]

>>18454586
Imagine not knowing the difference between Anarcho-Primitivism and Libertarianism.

[Anonymous No.18455351]

>>18455317
Imagine being a pedantic sperg while missing the point entirely.

[Anonymous No.18455435]

>>18455351
Dude we're on /lit/, the fuck did you expect?
>>18455243
There's a fuck ton online. Like fifteen years ago I remember there was a dictionary of old English works, so you could work through a text translating word by word, and pick up endings naturally. In the interim there have been plenty of other resources for those that don't want to do the old school grind.

[Anonymous No.18455598]

>>18455351
>Says something false
>Gets called out
>"Y-y-you're missing the point!"
Retard