How do I find my reason to move forward?

[Anonymous No.18428907]

I have a problem that is probably pretty common. And i'd ask this on /adv/ but everything on there is just romantic and sex related and so I don't think they'd be of much help. But anyway I am just a very unproductive person and I get into a cycle of being productive for a while and then failing. I want to possibly become an artist or a programmer, and so I work at these things for a little while, but I'm never consistent enough with something to ever actually be good. I think the problem might be that I don't have enough of a strong conviction in any of these things to stick at it, I only have a vague and far off notion of what I want my future to be. I don't know truly what I want to do and that is why I believe I fail. How do I find this reason for being? How do I find a conviction that will be fulfilling and make me happy, something I will tire away it even when things are hard? I think most of my reasons to be productive is so I can get into position or job that would (in my head) heal my fractured and wounded ego, and satisfy my need for validation due to my deep rooted childhood obsession that I am special, when truly I have no extra ordinary merit. And so the idea of living an average life is an astronomical existential threat to my psyche. Sorry if I seemed to derail, but the essential question is the same. How do get over this need to feed my ego and find a stable reason to work and spend my time in a more wise manner?

[Anonymous No.18428929]

>>18428907
Sleep 8 hours
Eat healthy
Exercise
Seek medical help
Be self sustainable
Do something that makes you happy

Its literally that easy

[Anonymous No.18428937]

>>18428929
This+start with the greeks, but also start with random books that interest you.

[Anonymous No.18428946]

>>18428907

[Anonymous No.18428948]

depression such a tutorial-tier mental disorder

let me know when you have genuine sleep-related anxiety and every day is a struggle not to have a nervous breakdown or panic attack over a mundane fucking aspect of life

faggot

[Anonymous No.18428958]

>>18428948
You sound like an insufferable faggot that uses a made belief problem as a crutch for his mediocrity. You have no place belittling other people.

[Anonymous No.18428959]

>>18428937
I read a few of Plato's dialogues, the stuff never interested me I guess haha.
>>18428929
Thank you this is some solid advice, but what does it mean to be "self sustainable?" I would be happy if you elaborated.

Also I want to go to therapy and did for a bit, but my mom would always stay in the room during the session and so I couldn't be genuine with the therapist and my mom ended up turning it into this thing where she wanted to know if I had ADHD, and so then I just got tested for that and never went back. Such a waste of time....

[Anonymous No.18428973]

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