What's on your mind?

[Anonymous No.18399681]

Write what's on your mind please.

[Anonymous No.18399691]

I'm an apex predator.

[Anonymous No.18399693]

>>18399681
I honestly dont know what i'm doing with my life. I feel like i'm just gathering experience and one day i'll make the sense out of it.

[Anonymous No.18399695]

>>18399681

[Anonymous No.18399704]

>>18399691
>>18399693
stop making the first posts so trivial u pussy niggas, I wanted to post my ducks first

[Anonymous No.18399710]

>>18399704
Fuck your gay ass ducks

[Anonymous No.18399720]

I'm obsessed with my death and I have no idea why anyone shouldn't be with theirs. Death is both permanent and inevitable, which means that having a stance on death should be pretty much the #1 thing on your to-do list.

A life lived on the principle that death leads to oblivion is very different from one lived on the principle that death leads to judgment, for example.

[Anonymous No.18399724]

>>18399681
When is the end coming?

[Anonymous No.18399735]

My head hurts so bad.

[Anonymous No.18399748]

>>18399720
Is the death truly an end?

[Anonymous No.18399761]

Classical liberal types who worship the Enlightenment hate Marxism and say that it is evil because it destroys the instititions of society and creates conflict.
Here we are in agreement! I, too, hate Marxism!
However, why do these classical liberals not understand that their own ideology is exactly the same and did the same things??? They destroyed the traditional structures of civilization and decided to """liberate""" the individual from the so-called oppression of traditional hierarchies. And it caused a lot of death just like Marxism did!
I hate this stupid dialectic most of all because simpletons think that if you are anti-Marxist then you must be a liberal, or vice versa. No! They are hardly any different!

[Anonymous No.18399763]

>>18399720
Blah blah. I'll live my life in glory and die happy. I don't give a shit about your nihilistic crisis,

[Anonymous No.18399774]

>>18399761
Because liberals understand that things change so they adapt to the times. Marxists try to force a change they think is good and reactionaries try to force going back to a time they think it's good. Liberals simply reconcile with the changes and try to keep things stable.

[Anonymous No.18399777]

eep quills 'em cease scwawed :(

[Anonymous No.18399781]

I wish i knew what the most profound paragraph in existence was fr fr.

[Anonymous No.18399784]

>>18399774
The French Revolution and American Revolution did the same things. They were a bunch of proto-Bolsheviks.

[Anonymous No.18399802]

>>18399784
Nah, read Burke on the differences between the two.

[Anonymous No.18399817]

I'm almost finished reading the platonic corpus. I started the laws yesterday and I'm upset that none of you faggots read it

[Anonymous No.18399818]

>>18399817
I'll read them later I promise

[Anonymous No.18399821]

I'm thinking Chinese knees.

[Anonymous No.18399825]

>>18399774
>Because liberals understand that things change so they adapt to the times.
This is the problem. Change shouldn't be allowed. Tradition should be enforced.
Otherwise you get this.

[Anonymous No.18399847]

>Lucifer means bringer of light, and he rebelled against God
>"Enlightenment" was promoted by Freemasons who rebelled against the church and the traditional order
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

[Anonymous No.18399851]

>>18399825
You can't really enforce things. The church tried it, the communists tried it, it doesn't work. But you fight for whatever you think is right anon.

[Anonymous No.18399887]

i've downloaded about 1200+ books in the past two years. how long would it take you to get through at least half of that library ?

[Anonymous No.18399897]

Dear guys,

Words cannot express how much I hate you guys. As we fight our way northward into the great unknown, only that one thing remains certain; that I hate you guys with every tired muscle in my Confederate body. We have taken Topeka, and now I must rally the men onward to Missouri.

Signed,
General (Cartman) Lee

[Anonymous No.18399898]

>>18399887
About ten minutes because I have superhuman intelligence desu!

[Anonymous No.18399900]

>>18399887
30 years

[Anonymous No.18399955]

I'm gonna repost this because

I failed to protect a baby bunny today. I was just shitting around, reading, walrking around in the woods, came upon a soccer game between youths, stopped and watched. They were very talented many of them to be honest, I was never that good when I played. As I'm standing there this dumb little baby bunny hops over the road next to me. They hop pretty high but not very efficiently. We're talking nose-to-tail maybe 12 cms. So it hops over into the bushes by the football field. And then after it, in a leisurely, truly unhurried way strolls a cat. And spontaneously I yell at it and I get between them. I turn to the bunny and tell it (I hope always hope animals understand) that it needs to stay put, but it doesn't really listen. the cat looks at the bunny, then at me, still sort of listlessly if I'm honest. It looked like it didn't understand what possible value I could see in behaving like this. We stood like this for a moment, but then I moved forward and chased it out of the bushes. It stopped outside. I don't know why, but for some reason I thought it would leave. I turned to check the bunny but it had disappeared into the undergrowth. then I turned to check the cat but it was gone. I hoped it had left but it stung in my heart that it had probably figured out that the undergrowth was thick enough that I wouldn't be able to keep track of it. I hoped the bunny would have slipped away and hid, but suspected that this is what cats have noses for. So I hoped, and I went out of the bushes and kept watching the game. About 30 seconds later the cat came out the same way I had just come out, licking its teeth.

I should have picked it up. If I was gonna save its life that was the only way. I thought it would bite me if I did. It probably would have. But if it was to have any chance that was it. So I failed you, baby bunny. Perhaps mama bunny failed you too, she was not in sight.

[Anonymous No.18399964]

>>18399720
I don't know if you're religious, but I believe that, more than judgement, we will face the infinite goodness, the infinite holiness. And our actions will tell if we can withstand this Supreme Presence to all eternity.

[Anonymous No.18399967]

maybe I should take things a little slower with Butterfly. She even seems like she really likes me, and I think she knows she's into me, but for me to be asking her to suck my dick is a little disrespectful... still :3

[Anonymous No.18399993]

I came here from /biz/. I started a thread there discussing the fantasy novel I'm writing, but someone linked to this thread.
Is this thread for giving feedback on people's writings?

[Anonymous No.18400018]

[Anonymous No.18400023]

>>18399993
No. Also fantasy is not /lit/. There's a containment thread for it if you search sf or something.

[Anonymous No.18400027]

>>18399847
>>18399847
>>18399847

[Anonymous No.18400148]

Should I play Shadowlands or TBC lads?

[Anonymous No.18400152]

>>18399955
you did your best anon. you'll find other animals to protect next time. if you live in a relatively hot area, try to offer water to them. your compassion & mercy are virtues. if anything, it proves that you're more alive than most of us here.

[Anonymous No.18400156]

I think in some ways people, including children, are controlled by entities much larger than any of us for the purposes of furthering the purposes of the state. I think all public education should cease until people understand that social darwinism is an inferior philisophy

[Anonymous No.18400169]

>>18400148
Take the ESO pill. It's far superior to current day WoW.

[Anonymous No.18400302]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A_SkgOUQlbM

[Anonymous No.18400316]

So cold

[Anonymous No.18400384]

>>18399681
been thinking about the parallels between garfield and adolph hitler

[Anonymous No.18400388]

>>18399817
you can skip platon, platonism is ambivalent

[Anonymous No.18400393]

>>18400018
omfg based

[Anonymous No.18400429]

Do you think there are certain hobbies, activities, or just modes of living which are not conducive to writing?

For example, I’ve always wanted to learn to surf but I was thinking about that and I have a hard time imagining any sort of really notable author also having been a surfer. Murakami is a runner, which is something I don’t really see authors doing either but I don’t think Murakami is all that good if an author. Mishima lifted weights but he’s kind of a special case if you ask me. It seems most other authors had very delicate, sort of cultured hobbies and interests and those would be the ones most conducive to writing.

[Anonymous No.18400433]

>>18399955
If the cat managed to catch the bunny you would have heard it. Cats play with their prey, and rabbits in pain/fear make horrible, loud, gut-wrenching screaming noises.
T. Anon who used to have a cat that would mangle any rabbit on the property and knows very well what bunny death screams sound like.

[Anonymous No.18400437]

>>18400429
Sounds like you're a pseud who never writes and is trying to find excuses as to why you don't write. Why don't you be like an animefag in /wg/ and actually write?

[Anonymous No.18400442]

>>18400384
how are they similar?

[Anonymous No.18400478]

>>18400442
Nermal is the Jews. Garfield keeps trying to send him to Abu Dhabi, just as Hitler kept offering to send the Jews to America and elsewhere, but nobody wanted them, just like the post office / people of Abu Dhabi always send Nermal back.

Jon is the government of the Weimar Republic. He is a humiliated pitiful man.

Odie is the follower who can be led, but who cannot lead; Odie can serve a purpose but cannot be relied upon to act in his own best interest.

[Anonymous No.18400497]

>>18400152
if true then we are in dire straights indeed

[Anonymous No.18400500]

>>18400433
thank you very much anon

[Anonymous No.18400506]

>>18400437
If you don’t have any interest to the question or a response then please refrain and just move along.

[Anonymous No.18400511]

>>18400437
Make sure you share your writing before you do love along though.

[Anonymous No.18400515]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRRbCzZH_HY

[Anonymous No.18400519]

I want neck, I want my DK sucked

[Anonymous No.18400547]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ozr4MJ7C1Yw

what books feel like this

[Anonymous No.18400589]

>>18400547
woody woodpecker

[Anonymous No.18400605]

>>18400156
>the purposes of the state
Which are? imo public education is a (failing, inadequate) check against social darwinism. Without it, only the wealthy would be educated, even moreso than today.

[Anonymous No.18400616]

Someone recommend me a (worthwhile) philosopher who deals with the pursuit of knowledge as a way to deal with the futility of life.

[Anonymous No.18400624]

She played with my heart....

[Anonymous No.18400636]

I already posted this in another thread but I will post it here too

>pick the book closest to you
>open at the page corresponding to your age

Page 28, C. G. Jung - "...the masses, and the lie has thus become the operative principle of political action. The State has drawn the logical conclusions from this, as the existence of many millions of State slaves completely deprived of all rights mutely testifies. Both the dictator State and denominational religion lay quite particular emphasis on the idea of community. This is the basic ideal of "communism," and it is thrust down the throats of the people so much that it has the exact opposite of the desired effect: it inspires divisive mistrust. The Church, which is no less emphasized, ap-pears on the other side as a communal ideal, and where the Church is notoriously weak, as in Protestantism, the hope of or belief in a "communal experience" makes up for the painful lack of cohesion. As can easily be seen, "community" is an indispensable aid in the organization of masses and is therefore a two-edged weapon. Just as the addition of however many zeroes will never make a unit, so the value of a community depends on the spiri-tual and moral stature of the individuals composing it. For this reason one cannot expect from the community any effect that would outweigh the suggestive influence of the environment—that is, a real and fundamental change in individuals, whether for good or for bad. Such changes can come only from the personal encounter be-tween man and man, but not from communistic or Christian baptisms en masse, which do not touch the inner man. How superficial the effect of communal Pro..."

cheers

[Anonymous No.18400641]

>>18400605
Social Darwinism literally doesn't even exist. Its a fairy tale propagated by people like Herbert Spencer and Nietzsche to create dangerous ideologies.

To expand on the private education point, Sweden does it via state funding with vouchers. What would be the problem of having isolated schools with a particularly strong emphasis on results for collective tests still?

[Anonymous No.18400647]

>>18400636
In German: "...Massen, und die Lüge ist damit zum operativen Prinzip des politischen Handelns geworden. Der Staat hat daraus die logischen Schlussfolgerungen gezogen, wie die Existenz vieler Millionen völlig entrechteter Staatssklaven stumm bezeugt. Sowohl der Diktatorstaat als auch die konfessionelle Religion legen ganz besonderen Wert auf den Gemeinschaftsgedanken. Dies ist das Grundideal des "Kommunismus", und es wird den Menschen so sehr in den Rachen gedrängt, dass es genau das Gegenteil der gewünschten Wirkung hat: Es weckt spaltendes Misstrauen. Die nicht minder betonte Kirche erscheint auf der anderen Seite als gemeinschaftliches Ideal, und wo die Kirche notorisch schwach ist, wie im Protestantismus, kompensiert die Hoffnung oder der Glaube an eine „gemeinschaftliche Erfahrung“ den schmerzlichen Mangel des Zusammenhalts. Wie man leicht erkennen kann, ist "Gemeinschaft" ein unverzichtbares Hilfsmittel bei der Organisation von Massen und daher eine zweischneidige Waffe. So wie die Addition beliebig vieler Nullen niemals eine Einheit ergibt, so hängt der Wert einer Gemeinschaft von der spirituellen und moralischen Statur der Individuen ab, aus denen sie besteht. Aus diesem Grund kann man von der Gemeinschaft keine Wirkung erwarten, die den suggestiven Einfluss der Umwelt überwiegen würde, dh eine wirkliche und grundlegende Veränderung des Einzelnen, sei es zum Guten oder zum Schlechten. Solche Veränderungen können nur aus der persönlichen Begegnung zwischen Mensch und Mensch entstehen, nicht aber aus kommunistischen oder christlichen Massentaufen, die den inneren Menschen nicht berühren. Wie oberflächlich die Wirkung von kommunalem Pro..."

[Anonymous No.18400674]

>>18400636
>>18400647
So yeah, I read and I hear good music too

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I8ci2qi-Iys

WE'RE ALL GONNA MAKE IT BITCH

[Anonymous No.18400771]

>>18400641
babby take on nietzsche.

[Anonymous No.18400798]

>>18400641
I think it's quite naive to assume that private schools on a voucher system aren't also tools of the state

[Anonymous No.18400933]

I'm tempted to download SFM and make porn.

[Anonymous No.18400976]

I think German sounds really nice and calm desu. I don't know why lots of people say that it's harsh and unpleasant.

[Anonymous No.18400984]

I have several novels' worth of material floating around in my head, but every time I try to sit and write I get overly critical of everything I put down and wind up shaming myself into deleting everything within a few days.
How do I just fuckin' write, bros?

[Anonymous No.18401029]

>Catholics will defend this
This is blatant Satanism.
https://youtu.be/ul1OmFub9jY

[Anonymous No.18401053]

Sad.

[Anonymous No.18401062]

>>18400984
Be honest with yourself, think about what the core of your writing is, what you're getting at, and what you'll get along with along the way? Write down a list of bullet points to see if any of the topics you wrote down in relation to your goal are worth considering. With this method, which I just came up with because I would do this myself, you can avoid writing anything down that you would then delete afterwards.

So take a sheet of paper, write a word (several novels) in the middle and make a circle around it. And then there are other words that you connect with a dash. But only use words that you are absolutely sure you really want to write about.

[Anonymous No.18401073]

>>18401053
Bitch

[Anonymous No.18401075]

>>18401053

[Anonymous No.18401083]

>>18400616
Platon

[Anonymous No.18401086]

>>18400616
Giordano Bruno

[Anonymous No.18401113]

>>18400616
Buddha
>>18401083
this is also an excellent answer, Plato is based and redpilled

[Anonymous No.18401139]

>>18401062
Is that easy for you? Thinking about what sort of thing I want to write about, a type of story, a specific sort of message ties my brain in knots. There’s simply too much variation to pin it down.

[Anonymous No.18401148]

>>18400616
name one that doesn't

[Anonymous No.18401149]

>>18401029
But it looks like Orthos participating?

[Anonymous No.18401159]

>>18401113
Outside of the Orthodox Church, Plato is just about as based and redpilled as it gets.

[Anonymous No.18401160]

I wish I had a beautiful mind, the kind of ideas I could market.

[Anonymous No.18401172]

Caravaggio is the most based painter.

[Anonymous No.18401191]

Every blues song is the same.

twing deedle deedle doo
*old southern black guy voice*
>OOOOOH MY BABY LEFT ME
twing deedle deedle doo
>OOOOOH MY BABY LEFT ME
twing deedle deedle doo
>GONNA HAVE TO GO IT ALONE
twing deedle deedle doo
>CAUSE MY BABY HAD A HEART OF STONE

[Anonymous No.18401197]

>>18401159
What do you recommend from the Orthodox Church?

[Anonymous No.18401204]

>>18401172
Based

[Anonymous No.18401207]

>>18401197
On The Cosmic Mystery Of Jesus Christ by Saint Maximus The Confessor!

[Anonymous No.18401212]

>>18401160
Steal from the minds of others.

[Anonymous No.18401244]

>>18400616
>>18401083
>>18401113

I'm still sticking with Giordano Bruno, that is an unusual recommendation, but I can tell you, Plato is not the answer, Platonism is ambivalent. You can still get good impulses from Platonism too, I don't want to deny that, but it's not the answer. "Impulses" is the keyword, you can't take a lesson/no school of thought or an era for the word, it's always about impulses. Don't limit yourself by any institutions and their categories nor by modern science. Think for yourself, that's recommendable these days, this is the secret. So don't let the fact that he was a priest unsettle you. Every thinker had his quirks.

About Giordano Bruno: He was an Italian priest, poet, philosopher and astronomer. Found guilty of heresy and magic by the Inquisition, he was sentenced to death at the stake by the Governor of Rome.

He was recommended to me by the best German top-tier philosopher there is, Jochen Kirchhoff

[Anonymous No.18401250]

>>18401191

https://youtu.be/xCoSiT57c0E

[Anonymous No.18401302]

>>18401244
Sure, that's a good choice too

[Anonymous No.18401315]

>>18401139
Only write if you know what you want to write about.

Don't stress yourself, it won't help.

[Anonymous No.18401326]

>>18401139
It doesn't sound to me like this is the right time to write something, let it sink in, distract yourself with other things.

Don't force it.

[Anonymous No.18401344]

>>18401139
Another option, if you really want to write something, would be to find out what you want to write about. That means sorting your thoughts.

Do you notice something? We go in circles all the time.

[Anonymous No.18401461]

>>18401315
>>18401326

That doesn’t sound to me like good advice.

[Anonymous No.18401473]

which one are you /lit/?

[Anonymous No.18401480]

Here's the beginning of a short story inspired by Hemingway's life. I don't think I'm exceptional but I'm just trying to continue writing and reading and improving. Any feedback would be good, but it would be nice to hear one thing I'm doing well or that doesn't suck.

[Anonymous No.18401489]

how do I break up with someone when they don't want the relationship to end?

[Anonymous No.18401495]

>>18401461
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FJYpSRsyUU4

BANG BANG

[Anonymous No.18401497]

>>18401473
Neither. I laugh at fart jokes.

[Anonymous No.18401498]

>>18401473
I admit I am the self-deprecating virgin. I'll try and do better.

[Anonymous No.18401517]

>>18401489
You just say it, she cries and asks you to give it one more chance, you say sorry, you hug her, and then you say good bye. That's how I did it 3 times now.

[Anonymous No.18401555]

Anyone else have a job that makes them want to kill themselves but not see a realistic way out?

[Nemo !!GgBWHLRiayD No.18401560]

Seasonal saturation gradually transcurs from earth to sky, and vice versa, winter, and summer, being the transversive median points; the luscious green of May reminds me of why it is one of my favourite colours, and makes me nostalgic for the pureplay of the emerald meadow.

Although I prefer to fall asleep to purple auroral skies, and to wake up to purple vesperal skies, I am always enamoured by the saturated daytime clouds of summer, which make me want to run to the cities glowing in their folds.

There is always at least a part of the sky that fulfills one's ambient request.

[Anonymous No.18401643]

>>18401517
and that worked all three times? how long were those relationships?

[Anonymous No.18401651]

>>18401473
the person who made this never talked to people
people hate overtly self confident people, especially the ones who dont live up to what they brag about

[Anonymous No.18401682]

>>18401461
Ok, I've been thinking. My final suggestion would be to take an ice cold shower until you know what to write about and only then get out of the shower. And you can't start with warm water, you have to go straight to the coldest setting.

You wanted it, now you have it.

[Anonymous No.18401694]

>>18401651
>puts people at ease
>doesn't require others to be unpaid therapists
>obviously is just having fun
sure... people are gonna hate this guy and go for the dude that hates himself...

[Anonymous No.18401714]

>>18399681
Yooooo I wrote my final essay of my art history class on this painting

[Anonymous No.18401718]

Man she's colder than the weather

[Anonymous No.18401721]

>>18401643
How can it possibly not work? They were between several months and a few years.

[Anonymous No.18401730]

>>18401480
Bretty good anon, I’d be interested to read more. Prose is kinda Hemingway, which makes dollars as he is the subject matter and obviously a great influence to you.
I enjoyed the telling of his wounding.

[Anonymous No.18401755]

Some people are real gutsy. It's so cool.

[Anonymous No.18401764]

>>18401755
It's all love senpai

[Anonymous No.18401782]

this thread is family, no front, all love

[Anonymous No.18401801]

>>18401764
Where?

[Anonymous No.18401829]

>>18401801
you have to be ready and free from fear to feel it

[Anonymous No.18401831]

>>18401721
I don't know man I've never done this before. I've already said it a couple times but here I am still getting flooded with text messages about how much she misses and loves me and I'm still responding.

[Anonymous No.18401852]

>>18401831
Block her number, fuckface, you don’t need to get her messages anymore. It’s over, let it be over.

[Anonymous No.18401857]

Guessing that Americlapistani derailed the previous thread huh

[Anonymous No.18401872]

>>18401852
based

[Anonymous No.18401873]

>>18401480
I think that's really good anon. I'm just a reader so I wouldn't be able to say why exactly but I liked it a lot more than what I usually read on /lit/.

[Anonymous No.18401894]

>>18401852
This man is a genius and here's the right song to block this bitch

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=te4W8SicKzg

taskforce reporting in

STAY STRAPPED

[Anonymous No.18401919]

>>18401694
>go for the dude that hates himself
i never said that

[Anonymous No.18401926]

>>18401497
Bet you're ugly

[Anonymous No.18401936]

I dreamt of my ex-gf last night, and I thought it was going to be a cool badass revenge thing, but everyone was hanging out at Chuck-e-Cheese and I never even got to confront her.

[Anonymous No.18401983]

>>18401852
>>18401872
>>18401894
you niggers
fine

[Anonymous No.18402024]

>>18401651
>>18401497
>>18401498
>>18401473

Toilet humour and joking about being hungry and on the piss-up lords over both.

Everyone loves the guy who will fart and let everyone rip into him because he is humble and down to earth. Everyone can relate to wanting a nice scran.

[Anonymous No.18402048]

>>18401829
>have to be ready and free from fear to feel it
I hate this about my anxiety.
It weakens all other emotions and one loses some kind of "realness".

[Anonymous No.18402057]

>>18401936
sounds like the brain vomit type of dream

[Anonymous No.18402062]

>>18401926
I'm attractive. Stay mad.

[Anonymous No.18402082]

>>18402024
Based stinky toilet humor bro.

[Anonymous No.18402098]

i dont care whats real or not. but beautiful pretty pretty is perfect and would have been perfectly possible if you could dream of smells. but its mostly just visions in dreams, no smells. i wish i was a flower

[Anonymous No.18402107]

I actually don’t know how you’re supposed to cope.

[Anonymous No.18402111]

>>18402082

It's a type of humour that's very endearing because everyone's aware that pretentious twats don't like it. Even most lassies will roll their eyes and sarcastically protest, but it's all in good fun.

[Anonymous No.18402129]

>>18402062
>>18402082

Longest and best relationship I've been in after one year we would fart to annoy each other and break into fits of hysteric laughter. It was stinky love and I'm sick of pretending to be a pseud and an ambitious wanker to get matches on tinder.

[Anonymous No.18402151]

I don't think I'm gonna "make it"

[Anonymous No.18402165]

All philosophy ultimately is epistemology. No matter what you affirm, what matters is how you know it.

[Anonymous No.18402199]

>>18402048
I wish everyone who has anxiety that it will go away at some point and he can live in peace. Of course, it's not that easy and requires an individual treatment method, which in my opinion you have to find out for yourself. I know what it's like when you are anxious and therefore no longer yourself. You only notice this in retrospect through certain "flashbacks". It used to be the same for me. But one must never forget that the "ordinary" person also has anxiety states, and that can be useful too. You just have to learn to control it. But sometimes it can take a few years to notice a difference. It can also be due to bad habits that this anxiety is triggered again and again, for example when one has fallen into some kind of madness. I would recommend doing sport, because the body needs exercise so that the right happiness hormones are released. Sun isn't bad either, and lots of sleep. Nothing works when you are tired, I am absolutely convinced of that. When you are tired, you are no longer yourself, but many people tell you that you shouldn't sleep much if you want to be successful. I'm suggesting the opposite.

[Anonymous No.18402207]

I just have too many things I want to do and not enough time to do them.

[Anonymous No.18402232]

>>18402199

At the risk of sounding like Reddit, I think that advancements in neuroscience will eventually get rid of anxiety.

People think anxiety disorder is some kind of philosophical problem or inability to cultivate the right mind, but it is an indiscriminate and random predator. Psychotherapy can't get rid of it, the pharmacological resources we have to deal with it are not very useful.

[Anonymous No.18402236]

>>18402151
I don’t think I will either.

[Anonymous No.18402245]

>>18402151
wym by 'make it'???

[Anonymous No.18402275]

>>18401936

Only until this cigarette is ended,
A little moment at the end of all,
While on the floor the quiet ashes fall,
And in the firelight to a lance extended,
Bizarrely with the jazzing music blended,
The broken shadow dances on the wall,
I will permit my memory to recall
The vision of you, by all my dreams attended.
And then adieu,--farewell!--the dream is done.
Yours is a face of which I can forget
The colour and the features, every one,
The words not ever, and the smiles not yet;
But in your day this moment is the sun
Upon a hill, after the sun has set.

[Anonymous No.18402283]

>>18402199
I would like to add that it has to be a sporting activity that is fun and that you want to improve on. Feelings of happiness take different lengths of time to be triggered by an improvement and it's always fun when you notice that you are getting better and better. So don't give up immediately if it doesn't work right after week 2 or something, sometimes it takes half a year.

>>18402232
I know it's complicated, but it's always better to trust yourself than someone else. Love yourself first.

[Anonymous No.18402287]

Why is /lit/ so full of christfag?

[Anonymous No.18402299]

>>18402199
>can live in peace
Not necessarily my endgame. I actually know plenty of genuine people who experience plenty stress, but it's always stress about their actual passion, I'm just anxious for fucking virtual reasons and it puts normal fun anxiety away. My phobia are the effects of anxiety themselves, specifically, showing them in front of other people.
Like before I have something important to do the next day, I'm anxious during the night that I won't sleep well and seem anxious to others all next day (and you bet I don't sleep well that night). Also, sometimes when I eat with other people, I panic, because I know that kills my appetite and not being able to eat makes me look weird - how dumb is that?

I really don't make the fear any better by often avoiding meals with others, that only makes the fear stronger. But it's hard not to do, since I have thrown up from the stress before and you just don't want that to happen, especially in front of people.
It's so funny that there wouldn't be anything to be scared of if I wasn't scared, but also being scared creates the scary object, if you know'I mean.

I recently realized the fear started with two instances in my childhood where my parents were really not nice to me for acting like a pussy. They really spoke bad of me and I then felt that their love wasn't unconditional (also, they really seemed to love my sister then, but not me). I started to be very scared to show fear to other people.
Any time I go for a medical check, I panic because the doctors can measure my high blood pressure and heart rate, and therefore the symptoms of my fear. Also, when I had a gf, I'd get nervous from holding hands, where sweat reveals fear. Sometimes, having to sit calmly for some time with people around makes me nervous, like theaters or train rides, because the panic may make me start twitching and I think people will start noticing.

It's absurd this shit is what's ruining my life.. and it's not really, I'm actually quite happy and do plenty of sports, which you mentioned, but this is quite uncomfy and the worst part is losing the realness of actual emotions which aren't behind a curtain of the fear of fear.

[Anonymous No.18402304]

>>18402287
why is the world so full of christ

[Anonymous No.18402309]

All I want when I'm in a relationship is for everyone to leave me alone, but then when I'm single again and successfully alone I end up laying in bed depressed all day and wishing I had someone else to live for.
I think some people were just destined to never be able to feel happiness, like everyone else was born with gills and can use them effortlessly, and I've spent my entire life struggling for breath.

[Anonymous No.18402321]

>>18399720

Do you ever just become consumed in a brief fantasy of seeing an asteroid hit or a nuclear bomb go off? In such a short span of time there would be no opportunity to come to terms with it, just shock and overwhelming panic as your mind retreats into primal lizard mode.

[Anonymous No.18402334]

>>18402321
sometimes I think about what it would be like

[Anonymous No.18402349]

>>18402283

The problem is that I trust myself too much. OCD is basically being a control freak and afraid of not being in control. The people in my life consistently fuck up and harm themselves and others.

And loving others just makes me fear hurting them, because that's all I've ever done.

Then there's the fact of the overwhelming panic attacks and psychosis that comes on suddenly and out of nowhere, irrespective of what's going on in my life.

[Anonymous No.18402385]

>>18402349
I hope it gets better and that you find a solution. The struggle is real, I feel you.
I'm sending a positive thought in the air.

stay positive senpai

[Anonymous No.18402391]

>>18402334

Terrifying, brief and not in the least bit poetic. Like a deer being hit by a truck. Sometimes my fantasies get more painful, involving my kids or friends being there.

[Anonymous No.18402503]

>>18402349
Pay attention to your breathing and trust yourself. Free yourself from your self-image and just be. When you look at things, try not to classify them straight away, but simply to register. It's like thinking about things quietly when no one can see you. And even if you still panic about something in such situations. There is no need to be ashamed of anything. Never forget that. Nobody judges you, people are all too preoccupied with themselves, they really are. And when someone does, it's only superficial and trivial. If you provide the projection screen for something like that, it's no wonder that something like that happens. But then try to remember that it is only the projection and not yourself. You are part of the universe, nobody knows what life really is, you are special. An extraordinary being. Don't make yourself smaller than you are. Each of us has a deep abyss. Accept this abyss.

stay positive

[Anonymous No.18402527]

>>18402299
>>18402349
Pay attention to your breathing. Get rid of your self-image and just be. When you look at things, try not to classify them right away, just to register them. It's like thinking about things calmly when you can't see anyone. Even if you still panic in situations like this. You don't have to be ashamed of anything. Never forget that. Nobody judges you, people are too busy with themselves, they really are. And when someone does, it's only superficial and trivial. If you provide the projection screen for something like that, it's no wonder that something like this happens. But then try to remind yourself that it is only the projection and not yourself. You are part of the universe, nobody knows what life really is, you are special. An extraordinary being. Don't make yourself smaller than you are. Each of us has a deep abyss. Accept this abyss.

stay positive

[Anonymous No.18402544]

It was getting dark, but little Thomas continued to roll his large hoop down the gravel trail that ran through Whitby Heath. His mum already called him for dinner twice, but he knew that he could stay out for two more calls before he got in trouble. Besides, he liked the park at night. The tall grass blades, bright luminescent fireflies, and chilly air was soothing.

“What up, baby?” said a low, feminine voice.

Thomas stopped trundling his hoop and looked at the street in front of and behind him. Nothing.

“What’s good with you?” the voice asked again.

A thin, beautiful Black woman in a long, loose dress stepped out from amongst the trees. In the moonlight, her dark skin contrasted even more with the dress’ white fabric. She raised her arms wide with her elbows close to her torso, a gesture of exaggerated openness and sincerity. Thomas didn’t understand the woman’s words, but he felt drawn to her all the same.

“H… hello,” said the boy.

Now I’m going to research how black people invite strangers to hang out with them.

[Anonymous No.18402558]

id like to quit my job and take a month off my work. i dont want to work in financial services anymore. my interests now are closer to literature and nature. maybe i could take a low-stress job as a government employee in those areas.

[Anonymous No.18402564]

>>18399695
this is good
next time

[Anonymous No.18402580]

>>18402299

"I recently realized the fear started with two instances in my childhood where my parents were really not nice to me for acting like a pussy. They really spoke bad of me and I then felt that their love wasn't unconditional (also, they really seemed to love my sister then, but not me). I started to be very scared to show fear to other people."

[Anonymous No.18402591]

I'm just waiting for Butterflys next post. The next post she makes is going to be sexual towards me :3

[Anonymous No.18402592]

after seeing this post, pissed there are barely any Caravaggio paintings in the US

[Anonymous No.18402606]

>>18399681

Keep thinking about how the pandemic and lockdown is going to shape fiction and culture more broadly, as audiences will be able to relate to it. Like how Brits who lived through the war are completely obsessed with wartime fiction and actually think back positively about things like rationing and eating sheep's tongues, or Americans who lived through the depression have similar experiences.

[Anonymous No.18402623]

nick mullen adulthood rant

[Anonymous No.18402647]

Tell me why are we so blind to see, that the ones we hurt are you and me?

[Anonymous No.18402672]

Every time I have a dream where I'm gonna have sex the dream stops before the sex or my mind pulls some reason out of its ass to stop the erotic story lines in my dreams. Am I secretly a cuck?

[Anonymous No.18402682]

>>18402558
I’m quitting my finance job pretty soon, not financial services but financial analyst for a place. Don’t know how long I’m going to take off. Hopefully eternity. I hate this fucking job. Only downside is I have nowhere to go and nothing else to do.

[Anonymous No.18402710]

>>18402672
I think this is just incredibly common in dreams, anon. Nearing sex and death, flirting with both, but the dream ends just as either one is about to happen.

[Anonymous No.18402713]

Every morning during the week, I always see this vehicle that delivers baked goods. I could also imagine it as a job ... Delivering bread rolls in the morning when everything is still closed, the thought is somehow comfy. And then you finish early when others have just started to work. But I don't have a driver's license, I have to get one.

[Anonymous No.18402716]

>>18400976
it's a very pleasant language, at least the way most Germans speak it.

[Anonymous No.18402732]

>>18402682
seems we're in similar situations, anon. i'm no newbie, been working for 5 years now after college. i kept holding out, thinking i would "break in" so to say, but it just hasnt happened. i know that having fulfilling job is a just a shitty meme, but i cant help but think i went wrong somewhere. my job pays well and has decent career prospects, but i feel its killing me early. maybe i'm just a baby, i don't know.

[Anonymous No.18402735]

>>18402710
Such is life, the call of our better days just ahead, only to be such a sensation felt at the darkest days near the end of things. How happy are the dreams of a man who dies in his sleep. The orgasm of man's condition, forever reaching fingers into birdcages.

[Anonymous No.18402761]

>>18399681
it's very easy to get to heaven

[Anonymous No.18402772]

>>18402735
>forever reaching fingers into birdcages
This is a perfect image, anon

[Anonymous No.18402872]

>get naked for shower
>pass by computer

If you are reading this, you have interacted with a naked man.

[Anonymous No.18402882]

>>18402872
I'm calling the police.

[Anonymous No.18402912]

>>18402872
Jokes on you. I'm also naked as well and I'm also about to take a shower.

[Anonymous No.18402943]

Been looking for a certain edition of Wind in the Willows my grandfather read to me as a child. I can only remember it from the art from pic related.

[Anonymous No.18403048]

>>18402761
Fuck off forever bitch, nobody wants you here. What are people like you doing here anyway? You just want to annoy people, right? Better go to church, the internet is not a place for you, bitch. You can't argue or give good advice, u can't do shit. You think you are holy and enlightened, but you're just insane. Others take their time to put themselves in other people's shoes and give them tips while all of you damn Christcucks are just spamming your shit.

Wake up. You think you can help others with your Christian bullshit, but you're the one who needs the greatest help. You're the one who's blind. Life is not a walk in a flower garden, you have to think a lot, it's hard af. Jesus won't save you, you make it too easy for yourself. It's nothing but laziness.

Finally be honest with yourself and face your problems. Make an effort. Develop yourself further. Not always just JESUS, JESUS, JESUS. THINK FOR A FUCKING SECOND!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0auwpvAU2YA

[Anonymous No.18403095]

>>18403048
He fucking freaked out in front of SUBTITLES OF CREW? What a psycho

[Anonymous No.18403145]

>>18399681
Guys i've written a self-Insert and i wanted too know is that bad?

I'm trying too protray the flawed me, not the best me

I'm trying too protray my disabitys and flaws

is that bad? because their a self insert

[Anonymous No.18403172]

In the title to an academic paper I write: "bla bla bla Indian-registered bla bla bla". Is that correct or should it be: "bla bla bla Indian-Registered bla bla bla"??!!!

PLEASE HELP. I am needful.

[Anonymous No.18403188]

>>18403172
idk

[Anonymous No.18403223]

Here's an idea for something I have. I'm not sure what the point of it is, but it makes me sad. I have the first and last lines written out, but the rest is malleable

My Grandfather shit himself the other day.
I woke in my piss yellow room to see the light shining through my blinds casting a shadow like a columnated ruin upon me. I was unclean and stubble picked my fingers as I felt my face. No youth.
I dressed and was ready for a full day of nothing. I went outside and sat in the grass by my favorite tree to look up at the sky. I began to gaze up at the great deep blue but my eyes were inevitably drawn to the leaves which shone so magnificently in the day. I looked upon it as a stranger in the cold winter night may see a neighborhood home, lit with the warmest of lights and betraying no sense of discomfort or ruin. On the street would be cars pulling up and friends and family being greeted at the door to be let in from the bitter chill. A sense of reprieve. And here I am in this grass by this tree floating in a whole different world.
My pajama clad legs. Perhaps a quick go to the coffeeshop? But for what - to see civilization locked in place with phone and mask and pandemic. My grandfather is the greatest man I will ever know. I’d rather not see them. And I’ve no job, so no money, so no coffee.
I graduated not long ago. Still no job, yet I am desperate to find one.
In my former life I was Aesclepius.

[Anonymous No.18403245]

>>18400429
William Finnegan is a surfer

[Anonymous No.18403253]

>>18399681
I think my sister is fucking my uncle. What do, what do???? I had a dream where she told me she was raped, I can’t stop thinking about it now

[Anonymous No.18403268]

>>18400984
No great work was ever written. Great work was revised.

Your first draft is just tearing the raw clay from the earth. In the revisions you mold it.

[Anonymous No.18403288]

>>18401480
This was good, anon, I'd read more

[Anonymous No.18403291]

>>18403048
I shouldn't have been so mean, I was just angry. it simply cannot be that these people do not even notice that it is just spam. if you want to believe in something then please, i just hate it if you spam the same thing every time, about jesus and all that, no new insights, the absolute self-assurance, as if you knew the absolute truth. as if these were all bots and had no opinion of their own or the ability to think for themselves. that these people don't notice it themselves is a mystery to me. but everyone can believe what they want and I don't hate anyone for it. I only got excited about it for a moment, nothing more. pz

[Anonymous No.18403304]

> tfw no diver gf

[Anonymous No.18403313]

In my mid twenties, I went through a period of severe alcoholism after a brutal break up. I was a train wreck, and never before or since did I get so much interest from women. Once I sobered up, started exercising more, ate well, got my head straight, the women lost interest. I never understood what it was that attracted them while I was a mess

[Anonymous No.18403315]

>>18399720
Death's pointless to worry about, it's obviously just as absurd as living. Telling yourself it goes one way or the other with certainty is just idiotically brave. Detaching from your wants and needs, from who you are, who you love and hate, essentially everything that makes you not want to die makes the entire premise of dying and living that much easier. It makes life feel ethereal, temporary, like a shimmering dream. Sure in the end you might be panicking, having a fight or flight response accompanied by adrenaline, or might be in complete pain, but it's just a temporary shimmer. Sure you might slowly lose consciousness and your brain might slowly decay, but it's just like going to sleep just more painful. If there's nothing after death then ok that's that who cares it's honestly comforting, if there is something after death I'd wager it's not like anything you'd think. Assuming god is anything like a human is kind of ridiculous to me just like assuming there's some magical afterlife built for humans, but maybe if we do have some identifying essence like a soul it goes through some system after we die. After you think about death and realize this you can pay attention to things that nature pushes you toward to do until you die like a domino. Depressed nihilists are goddamn idiots that can't get over the ambiguity of whether or not everything is rigorously structured and reasonable. Who fucking cares, being human isn't supposed to be clear. That's made evident from day fucking one. Control your emotions and values, get a grip, and if you can't then give up and let nature pull the trigger for you (even if you're pulling the trigger it's still nature). If there was a theme to life it'd be: nothing fucking makes sense but we emerged to stay existent so that's what we do.

[Anonymous No.18403340]

I’ve come to realize that I have no real hobbies and my only interests aren’t exactly realistic.

[Anonymous No.18403395]

>>18403315
would you mind reading something I wrote? it probably isn't very good but it's related to some of what you said

[Anonymous No.18403399]

>>18403340
Try some shit out then. The world is your oyster.

[Anonymous No.18403419]

>>18403399
Wouldn’t even know what to try or where to start or why I should bother.

[Anonymous No.18403431]

>>18403395
sure

[Anonymous No.18403444]

My best night of sleep always occur when i fantasize about love before falling asleep

[Anonymous No.18403449]

god I wish Porsche still produced air-cooled models of the 911

[Anonymous No.18403454]

>>18403444
Complete opposite for me, I end up obsessing and go into strings of maladaptive daydreams. Suddenly it's 5am and I've given up.

[Anonymous No.18403498]

I experience extreme frustration at not being able to determine from whence that spark, pushing you over the edge from apprehension and fear to action, comes in exact terms(and the ambiguity of this forces me, in a way, to "suspect" the whole system...). And so I'm frustrated at the ridiculousness and impossibility of intellectually conquering the "fulcrum" of my actions. I imagine the existence of some fundamentally different mind whose lines of inquiry, internalizations, so on and so forth would not only not occur to me, but would perhaps be quite impossible given my current psychology, and so on...and so I am suspicious and spiteful of the range of possible...stances?....which I myself will adopt, a bit like a select few strings from a tapestry, and so on. So I'm really quite fearful and weak willed at my core...but I'm not sure exactly whether my "arresting" of my will and all of this is a "justified" reaction to some vague external reality, and what the interplay is...it's all become totally illusive to me and I struggle to bear the burden of responsibility given this condition, because my neuroses I fear have become integral components of myself which endlessly insist on themselves and arrest any action which would act in defiance to them, because the neurotic elements of myself immediately insist on a full analysis of the conditions which have led to the development of myself up to the current moment(and, of course, such a conscious analyses is impossible given certain metaphysical restrictions on "that which you cannot step back from" etc), and so failing this, my neuroses will arrest any serious action on the grounds that the conditions which have caused my predicament remain illusive, and so any corrective action will remain illusive and dependent upon some vague will and "first mover", which remains consciously illusive, and thus we delve by necessity into the realm of unconscious and lofty vagueries, and I of course strike a dead end...so that component of myself which bears all the burden of responsibility remain illusive, and so the neurotic cycle insists on itself endlessly and arrests any serious divergent action, and anytime a divergent course is presented, and whenever my weaknesses are pointed out by practically minded people(and good on them, these people have every right to be critical and condemning, because no system can sustain itself with an abundance of men like me) I recoil in shame and horror because I suspect that I have merely invented a whole metaphysics for the purpose of alleviating myself of my duties as a citizen of the world, and I again suspect the whole of myself...so on and so forth.

[Anonymous No.18403513]

>>18403431
Ok, this is also me btw:>>18403498

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1jTI27qVK_vWBaSVEeJ0wqDP2AXiHulq3398hEHr-fM8/edit?usp=sharing

[Anonymous No.18403521]

I graduated college in spring of 2020 and havent gotten a job since. I have no idea what I want to do with my life and I feel like I'm drowning in a sea of nothingness. I want desperately to move out of my city but I don't feel like I can without getting a job first and I just feel so bad about myself. Can anyone give advice? I feel so lost.

[Anonymous No.18403524]

>>18403521
what did you study fren?

[Anonymous No.18403526]

>>18403524
Political science. It was a mistake.

[Anonymous No.18403528]

>>18403521
same boat as you btw

[Anonymous No.18403536]

>>18403526
maybe look at local government jobs on your areas website? you could probably sell yourself as someone qualified for something

[Anonymous No.18403557]

>>18403536
I want desperately to work for the federal government and do something like the Foreign Service but that takes years to get done. I can settle for local stuff for now tho. Thanks for the advice.
I believe in you too anon.

[Anonymous No.18403564]

Butterfly wants to cuddle with me :3

[Anonymous No.18403566]

>>18403557
:)

[Anonymous No.18403570]

I'm sorry butterfly I can't control myself anymore *rubs it between your buttcheeks* :3

[Anonymous No.18403675]

>>18403513
I read most of it and I agree with a lot of your perspective, however I'm rather desensitized to that realization of metaphysical disparity and fundamental understanding. Nowadays I just grayly look at humanity as just another balancing act of entropy symbolized by religious deities and general mythology. Although I have a perspective on what I find beautiful, I don't really see the need to make the effort to facilitate the incubation of that beauty or order so I guess I take a neutral position in nature. It's understandable to be sent into disarray after realizing these kind of crises, but eventually (well hopefully) you'll take on a more stoic attitude and move on. I get the whole idea of wanting to have your understanding/perspective mean something for the sake of it and not be reducible by shrinks, but what's the point of going through the hoops to create a mental structure that others can't dissect? You don't need to validate yourself or think yourself better than other people as it's utterly pointless (at least to me). However, I'm all for trying to piece together your own philosophies and understanding of everything. My only suggestion is that you stop caring about your ambiguous magnitude relative to others. Nature disposed you to think more than you need to and I'm disposed to tell you that you care too much about other people and not enough about nature and your ultimate direction. If you see that the way you value things is inefficient and leads to distress take a step back, analyze the way you're valuing things, and come up with a more optimal configuration. Also mental illness that's purely ideological is just a commonality among people that think for themselves an excessive amount. However, usually some obsessive habit, depressive phase, or whatever disorder you're experiencing has emerged from some inefficient way of choosing behavior. Try to notice this and figure out what the fuck you're doing wrong.

[Anonymous No.18403692]

I can't stand leftists.

[Anonymous No.18403748]

>>18403675
Then again maybe distress is what you're going for.

[Anonymous No.18403767]

>>18403498
Is this is an extremely verbose way of saying you have a porn addiction?

[Anonymous No.18403819]

>>18403767
...

[Anonymous No.18404059]

Another day, another dollar

[Anonymous No.18404077]

Caravaggio was truly one of a kind. Too bad he was too autistic to avoid fights. Imagine if he had lived to like 70 or 80?

[Anonymous No.18404087]

>>18399681
My mind has no embodied substance, and thus no direction or extension. Nothing can be on my mind.

[Anonymous No.18404098]

I would have been a Great Man had I been born in other conditions. I could have taken the world in my hands, instead of being here, studying something I hate, with no friends and lonely.
I could have been Napoleon, and not Raskolnikov or the Underground Man. I have the qualities, but life has crushed my will, it has opened the doors just to shut them in my face. Goddamn.

[Anonymous No.18404115]

>>18399938
if it makes you feel any better, the cat most likely didn't kill the bunny.
came out of the bushes 30 sec later? cats take a long time to play with/torture their prey. and you probably would've heard the bunny scream. sounds like the cat wasn't that interested.

[Anonymous No.18404118]

I have no passion, i have no goals i have no ambition i have no reason I have no will to live

[Anonymous No.18404258]

Finally shared some of my favorite quotes from The Elementary Particles with my gf since she incessantly asks what I read and wants to know what it's all about. Her favorite series are Harry Potter and Twilight so I knew it wouldn't be her cup of tea but I couldn't help it.
Her reaction to reading them was not pleasant and the mood of our texts seems more cold. My 'tism got the better of me lads.

[Anonymous No.18404323]

>> 18401009
Damn. Might've been the last post before the thread archived but still deserves a (You)

[Anonymous No.18404333]

>>18403419
I swear I don't get people like you. Both here and IRL. What do even do with your day, besides sleep, eat and browse social media? Do you not watch something and be like 'hey that looks pretty neat'?

[Anonymous No.18404335]

>>18399817
I've read the Laws. Boring stuff. Late Plato's thought is more centered on politics rather than philosophy.

[Anonymous No.18404347]

I legitimately think Neon Genesis Evangelion is a great work of art, on the level of a work like Faust or Ulysses. I am deeply intrigued, and deeply moved, by how intimately we grow to know the characters. Especially our four main characters: Misato, Shinji, Asuka, and Rei. It feels like, by the time we get to the final episode of the series, we know them all inside and out. Their greatness and their smallness. Their good, noble qualities, and also their bad, terrible qualities. This is a level of intimacy with characters that I don't get all the time, even from great works of literature, and I think it is a mark of how great a work of art Eva is.

Not to mention the series is visually gorgeous, and its music is great, too. And when the Eva and Angel action kicks into high gear it's very thrilling, better than most action movies.

It's such an interesting series, and it's very great, too. It rises above most anime, for so many reasons, and I think of it on the same level as I think of something like the Iliad, or Keats' poems. I know a lot of people easily dismiss it, especially for all the merchandising around it. But I find it very compelling, for my own part, and very grand, too.

[Anonymous No.18404350]

>>18399681
Hairy legs.

[Anonymous No.18404356]

>>18401009
Damn. Might've been the last post before the thread archived but still deserves a (You)

[Anonymous No.18404361]

hope i die soon

[Anonymous No.18404384]

>>18404361
what's going on anon?

[Anonymous No.18404407]

>>18404347
It's hard to ever compare something like that to the heights of Romantic or Modernist literature. I would sincerely say that it as good if not better than any postmodern literature though. Which makes sense, because film (or in this case animation) is the archetypal postmodern art form.

[Anonymous No.18404434]

Pitiful little thing. I feel sorry for you.

[Anonymous No.18404436]

Got invited to live music by a qt, feels like I'm a retarded teenager again

[Anonymous No.18404536]

>>18404384
nothing
thats the problem

[Anonymous No.18404544]

>>18403172
In the UK you don't capitalise every word in the title but in America you do. So the first one is correct using British standards and the latter one meets American standards.

[Anonymous No.18404579]

>>18399720
Recognise that your fear of death is irrational and simply caused by the fact that every animal that also feared death was more likely to survive and reproduce. You were fine before you were born.

[Anonymous No.18404672]

>>18404579
>>18403315
thank you, that was very helpful
any books for more of this?

[Anonymous No.18404837]

>>18404436
Nice! Hopefully you are not talking about a social media bot that aims to get people to a paid party.

[Anonymous No.18404904]

>>18403526
what country?
t. polisci major

[Anonymous No.18404938]

I cannot trust any philosopher who wrote before the advent of gore videos.

[Anonymous No.18404961]

>>18404938
Anon they didn’t really need gore videos before modernity….

[Anonymous No.18404983]

>>18404961
Yes they did.

I don't care if you saw a plague, then a beheading, then another. I am speaking of the specific case of a conglomeration of video representation of all horrors. It must include the directly natural, like a tsunami, and the indirect, like a cartel assassination.

Any system that does not incorporate the existence of aggregate websites for videos of human carnage is entirely useless to us.

The medium is what counts here.

[Anonymous No.18405047]

I think my hair is falling out from stress

[Anonymous No.18405092]

I CAN'T TAKE ANYMORE AAAAAAAAAH
FUCK LATIN, FUCK VERGIL, FUCK UNIVERSITY
MY LIFE IS GETTING RUINED BY THE FUCKING LATIN

[Anonymous No.18405103]

>>18399681
>order book
>book comes all bent

[Anonymous No.18405108]

If the most popular streaming media in the West is a Chinese real-time deep illusion, isn't it ridiculous?

[Anonymous No.18405124]

>spend all they browsing 4chan and Youtube on Pc
>decide to take a break
>proceed to do the same thing on phone
Why am I like this

[Anonymous No.18405135]

I think I may be going into hypomania desu. I do still sleep at night, although I sleep less, and I get hyper when I go to bed so falling asleep takes really long. But I have this signature feeling in my head where on some level I am aware that my brain is completely exhausted, but at the same time and more prominently there's like a pull, a semi-voluntary chain of thoughts, actions and events that keeps me going and going. Thinking and thinking. I'm gonna try to meditate but I don't think it will work, I think I will be stuck in completely winding thoughts, that may well be interesting and insightful, but which will also be uncomfortable and forced, and I will not be able to look away.

[Anonymous No.18405142]

>>18405108
>If the most popular streaming media in the West is a Chinese real-time deep illusion, isn't it ridiculous?

What did he mean by this

[Anonymous No.18405227]

>>18404938
>>18404983
While reading a philosophical book from antiquity I always wonder how these people would react if you brought them back from the dead and showed them the vast quantity of image and information we're the recipients of every single day. I think most of them would advise to never pick up a TV controller or even listen to the radio, never mind about the internet.

[Anonymous No.18405231]

>>18404333
Work, read, write and other sorts of activities. Just not the sort of activities that would constitute a hobby or passion. Of course we do, but that doesn’t mean you can always just do it. I’m infatuated by the ocean. I’m interested in everything from marine biology to deep sea diving to sailing. But I live in a landlocked US state. I’m like a 7 hour drive from the nearest beach even. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do with that...

[Anonymous No.18405234]

>>18404347
>I legitimately think Neon Genesis Evangelion is a great work of art
Agree
>on the level of a work like Faust or Ulysses
Disagree

[Anonymous No.18405253]

>>18404347
Failed the three episode test for me.
K-On! on the other hand set the bar about as high as its gonna go.

[Anonymous No.18405294]

Every fucking morning, at 8 am sharp there’s a note waiting from the boss.

[Anonymous No.18405381]

>I was going to write this down on my notebook but I wrote it here first, and in english nonetheless
"Smile!Why don't you smile!"
Why would you say that? Don't you know me? We barely talk, but can't you remember?
We share the same spaces in this house but have you forgotten?
I poured my heart out to you on that table, it wasn't even 3 years ago, I cried like a child, like I never had before, with words slurring as I held back tears because I didn't want to let you see them.I told you how I felt, about how I couldn't create relationships with other people, how I felt there was no depth in the few I had, I felt alone and incapable, inadequate, alienated.
You asked me if it hurt and I nodded as I couldn't speak without choking.
And then you sent me links to corporate courses on how to talk and influence people.I never talked to you about anything like that anymore, and I never will.Now, as I pour my coffee you ask me to smile, as if this were an office and you, my boss.Put on an act?
In my home?Or better yet, yours.
Why would you do this, mom?

[Anonymous No.18405392]

Is the Faustian spirit essentially your willingness to make a Faustian bargain?

[Anonymous No.18405399]

>>18405253
>>18404347
there is nothing worth achieving that is not achieved in Azumanga Daioh

[Anonymous No.18405417]

>>18405381
she doesn't know what to do, she suffers with you but she doesn't know how to help. She will not be happy until you are happy, or at least happier, but she doesn't know what to do. Don't be too harsh on her. I could be wrong but there's about a 99,99999999999% chance that I'm not.

On some level I can relate to your problem, though perhaps not entirely. Do you enjoy your own company? I travelled alone and at least realized I enjoy my own company.

[Anonymous No.18405595]

>>18402672
>>18402710
I don't have them a lot but lately sex dreams have more gone to completion

Nice and legal

[Anonymous No.18405607]

>>18405417
>Do you enjoy your own company? I travelled alone and at least realized I enjoy my own company.
I do, fortunately.
I usually go biking on sundays to clear my mind and I take it slow to just enjoy myself, but yesterday my entire family went to the park and I decided to stay home to get that alone time.
And I know she wants what's best for me, I just can't ignore this disconnection, as if there's no way for us to truly understand each other and that's the problem, I feel like I'm incapable of forming relationships with people, and as such, it feeds my insecurity.I was supposed to have a date last week but I overthought things and projected so much stuff onto this girl I hadn't even met yet that I cancelled it. that's my problem, I feel inadequate.
>thanks for reading my blog

[Anonymous No.18405630]

>>18399695
those are some nice ducks

[Anonymous No.18405636]

>>18399887
About 150 years in my current condition or about 5 years if I were in jail and in solitary confinement.

[Anonymous No.18405655]

Should I order a borgor /lit/?

[Anonymous No.18405659]

>>18405607
you should work hard with your body imo. get so tired you can't care about all of this, get some rest from thinking so much

[Anonymous No.18405685]

>>18402713
my dad is a truck driver, Im in college.I worked with him in my summer vacations, waking up at 3:30 am, we'd wash our faces with ice cold water, drive to load the truck, drink some coffee as we waited for our turn, inhaling some of that truck smoke, we'd get to the place to deliver, usually a supermarket, sometimes factories, usually in ghettos or some poorer neighborhoods in a third world country, sometimes places with litter on the ground, dead rats on the supermarket, no asphalt, sketchy people walking around, but sometimes nice places, calm, in smaller towns around the metropolitan area, with tree shades to rest under, rivers, lakes, neat public spaces and nice, polite people to receive whatever we were delivering.Sometimes we'd wait hours to unload, other times we'd arrive and be prompted to unload it right away and get home before lunch time.It's tough and demanding on the body, but those were the most intimate and heartfelt moments I had with my dad, and sometimes I would think that I'd like to work like that instead of being an architect.You don't take work home, after you take a shower you can sleep completely free of worries about your job, something you don't get in "intellectual" careers I suppose.And driving around the country seems very nice despite the well know grievances of the job, like using drugs to drive as much as you can in one day

[Anonymous No.18405688]

>>18399681
I finally have solved reading bros. Turns out reading shitty “classics” because I should is awful, and reading books I’m interested in is actually fun.

[Anonymous No.18405747]

>>18405392
Would you take the offer?

[Anonymous No.18405870]

I read too many books, now I'm mentally alienated from essentially everyone around me. Who else even reads classical literature and philosophy outside of a classroom and retains it? Constantly hiding my powerlevel and acting dumb whenever someone brings up a topic I have researched in autistic detail, pretending to be ignorant about every political or philosophical detail, performative retardation. All for what? I don't even know why I do it. Maybe I crave acceptance. The only one who came close to understanding me is an exiled tranny and I still have no one to discuss Nathaniel Hawthorne with.
How do you deal with this

[Anonymous No.18405872]

>>18405655
based on my cock retard

[Anonymous No.18405905]

>>18405870
>topic comes to something anon researched extensively
>pretends to know nothing about it
>"why does nobody understand me?!"

[Anonymous No.18405930]

The more I hang out with normies and hear about their relationship and dating troubles the less I care about being a virgin.

[Anonymous No.18405940]

>>18405905
I don't know why I do it anymore but my external personality has become completely fake

[Anonymous No.18406000]

>>18405930
you must be 18 to post here

[Anonymous No.18406039]

>>18406000
I'm 22

[Anonymous No.18406061]

Why is the myth of sissyphus so goddamn hard. I dont read expecting to understand every reference and idea but this shit is actually hard to even read. Anyone who says this is 10th grade level reading is a bastard liar

[Anonymous No.18406090]

>>18399681
Today after sun bathing in my underwear ina public part i was thinking about the nature of democracy and the revolt of the phalanx in contemporary western society. i thought about trump and who trump was; the call for some accountability from a leader as opposed to the faceless lesbian-war guard of the abysses of bureaucracy and the HRT-hybiad stalkers that infest public life today and prevent all conceptions of leadership from the standpoint of a democracy. i thought about how the faceless machine yeast men who run congress today are the epitome of great evil, the infestation of a mass of nothing that blobs into devouring humanity and culture art and science and so forth. like when they call trump anti-science, yet trump was praising scientists for looking for solutions and giving them free reign to explore options as onset of Chinese manufactured covid false flag designed only to bolster financesof global pharma corps and chinese propagandist machine. for every day he was in office there was a news story of trump to talk about, and in that way we saw some accountabiltiy for first time in dmeocracy in a very long time. and now that is gone and we revert back to the mass yeast of infestation of non-life, of abysmal non-creation and worthlessness that is run by fanatically genocidal womyn like hillary clinton and alexia cortez, we see end point of civilization through the desire of snuff films made of guys who eat steaks being mass executed by ellen degeneres in big FEMA mass graves.

[Anonymous No.18406110]

>>18405870
look for new friends. what this requires is for you to reveal these parts of you initially such that those who can pick up on them respond to them (that is if you are doing this in a general environment). Or if you really care about meeting people with your interests specifically there's apps for people who get together around a topic, Meetup being one.

[Anonymous No.18406133]

>>18399681
by the time i deleted social media, i was already on 4chan and slowly i replaced the former with the latter, now i can't possibly say this isn't any better albeit it does feel like it more often than not, and i wouldn't deny that there are benefits to joining a board full of people with whom i share similar interests. my question is how long until this site becomes as much a liability as other parasitic forms social media?

[Anonymous No.18406146]

>>18406039
lol very sad

[Anonymous No.18406147]

>>18406061
it's because it doesn't make sense

[Anonymous No.18406151]

>>18406090
i think about beauty returnign to neolithic cuckshed types when lanklet skinnyfats cuckolds worship fat obese trannies and womyn "liberated" as "yass queen slays" who twerk eternally on civilization. in pic related we see this for a fact. neolithic europe worshipped left side image as goddess , fat very unslightly, ugly, many wooden dildos crafted probably for cucks and eunuchs to finger the fat boese living goddesses. after the indo-europeans purged them from existence they were so disgusted and revolted by them they destroyed the civilization into dust and ash and barely even bred with them. on right side image of pic rel we see how beauty became more affirmative, healthy, great bodies beautiful tits and faces very aristocratic wouldnt you say? itwas also the high time of the republics phalanx warriors etc, whereas picleft soceity were all communard cucksheds of 20-30 morons living on floors eating off dirtt and shiiting in their own homes while fat womyn smothered them etc.

[Anonymous No.18406162]

>>18406133
>a board full of people with whom i share similar interests
this whole post is such a newfag post it’s cringe honestly, also nobody here shares similar interests, people are constantly bitching and arguing.

[Anonymous No.18406163]

>>18405092
any advice? as i intend to learn it on my own; anything, really, what to do, what not etc

[Anonymous No.18406172]

>>18406151
can you stop posting this shit everywhere, i recognize you instantly by your typing style and vocabulary you fucking schizo,

[Anonymous No.18406182]

>>18406151
can you stop spamming this shit everywhere you fucking retard, i recognize you instantly by your spastic typing style and your redundant vocabulary and the fact that you spam this picture and talk about “communards” all the time, it’s embarrassing, we know it’s your autistic special interest, stop sperging

[Anonymous No.18406185]

>>18406151
i think of those modern feminist and HRT-soldaty today who worship pic REL and want to see "a return to tradition" via the liberation of obesity and destruction of good health and propserity. i think of their "cult of science worship" vs. the aristocratic meritocracy ideal that trump tried to usher in but we saw most people are reverting to long shed want to be controlled by fat women and lesbians and other narcos. the fact remains that there is no future for the PIC REL because it was already violently destroyed once. i think we are perhaps beginning a new cycle probably why the "elites" are calling it THE GREAT RESET because they understand the cyclical nature of existence and probably because they want to rule as lesbo-gestapo-goddess with tranny sturmtruppen . they probably want to try and break the cycle mind you, as all do but i think they will fail.

[Anonymous No.18406186]

>>18406162
>this whole post is such a newfag post
I am.
>people are constantly bitching and arguing.
a few good posts now and then, even great posts on a random day but they tend to die off fast

[Anonymous No.18406198]

>>18399681
not sure if i should get my 3d printer repaired or get an oculus.
dont really care about getting faceberged

[Anonymous No.18406211]

>>18406185
bald fat ugly obese womyn returnign to seats of authority is happening today we saw hillary clinton tried to derail using "the russian conspiracy" what was most people just asking for accountability. they changed the narrative after the "russian conspiracy" failed and it is now aobut the "evils of the far right terror organization known as PEPE" and other such nonsense that they flood constant 24/7 on their media channels. the journalists in america act as operatives for the FEDS and if you notice, every single time the way americans react to debate? they always appeal to authority "okay well you wrote something i dont like so its getting reported, im contacting the police, your employer, harassing your family, and writing to the ADL" etc etc. they are just Prebysterian schoolmarms attempting to usher in the re-birth of the CYCLE and return of the "cult of the fat cunt" that existed in neolithic europe. again, this cult was destroyed mostly by indo-europeans. i think you see it best through beautiful works of Ancient Greek art. Wonderful statues of muscular men, and beautiful women often embracing each other. when we talk about "Hyper-sexualization" we dont mean this. the "hyper-sexualization" of today is rooted in 3 things:
1. cuckold fetish
2. fat asses
3. lesbo-domination
the triad of yeast life like oriental insectkin who live in trash, poop, and filth stacked on top of one another in rickery apartments that often collapse on each other and thousands died in one building collapse but nobody cares because theres a billion more of the insects to replace them. ask any chinaman "perhaps we should exterminate half of chinese?" he will agree with you quite happily. the historical narrative of those civilizations that worship womyn etc are all the same mudhurt, stink pits of cultureless waste of pointless depravity of coomers and eunuchs and other such non-entities. the great revolt we saw in 2016 is that most people aren't interested in revert back to 25,000 BC life.
the clean wonderful streets of athens with music good wine, beautiful people. just imagine the beautiful bodies of men and women wearing no underwear in thin cloaks some of silk, linen and other materials drinking good wine in half-intoxicated state lifting weights and fucking and producing such wonderful artworks, and timeless literary pieces. then tell me today wat those fat obese lesbian cults produced in 25k BC? what tey produce today? they call for CIA and other alphabet agencies to round up the men and castrate them (for now only metaphorically but in the future for real) subjecting men to all kinds of horrors and submissive behaviors and forced HRT injections of minors, etc.

[Anonymous No.18406222]

>>18401083
>>18401086
>>18401113
>>18401244
Thanks lads, I'll give Plato and Giordano a go.

>>18401148
I haven't read any yet, so I wouldn't know.

[Anonymous No.18406223]

>>18406185
>>18406211
Meds now

[Anonymous No.18406234]

>>18405659
I've been postponing going back to boxing for some months now since it reopened, I'm a bit anxious about going back because of the virus and also as I should be looking for internships, but maybe exercising will help my state of mind.I can barely remember now but it gave me a high, and made my entire day and sleep much better.

[Anonymous No.18406237]

>>18406211
i conclude my stream of conscious dialogue with the final point of the dismantling of beauty in replacement of the yeast infection. smell the crotch of these women and you will gag, its enough to make even famous porn stars like richard dawkins and other nerds gag because even those insectoids wont want to touch them. when i see men talking "fat asses" i reach for my sword. here is where i end the dialogue though, because i need to think of other things. but all of this was pondered on by me today while i was sun bathing in public park in my off-brand underwear on a thin towel, the air was cool with a nice breeze but the sun was nice. i use coconut oil to lotion my skin and create a glistening account of myself. i think about walking in to some feminist literary circlejerk like this with an erection and having contemplative moment about my indo-european ancestors tearing int osome mudcuck village on chariots slaughtering these fat womyn and bputting them to work as chattel slaves on the factory farms they had thecucked men slaving away on. must have been a great moment, a pinnacle of humans overcoming the YEAST infection that only happens once every few thousand years.....

[Anonymous No.18406242]

>>18406186
i’ve been here for 8 years, trust me it’s more toxic and addictive than social media. it’s bad for your mental health. you don’t want to be here

[Anonymous No.18406252]

>>18406237
>>18406151
for reference on death of beauty and health look at the PIC rel from the post i n1840151... i stnad in museums sometimes and want to make love to the statues of the Greeks they are of perfective quality and bodies that we can only fantasize over imagine the streets then in the city-state of phalanx bulked men with shields in thin linen cloths while women with breasts and wonderful legs with acute faces of aristocratic integrity sharing wine together and poetry and making love. vs the fat obese womyn feminist activo-HRT soldaty we have today of screaming obscenities calling for tighten security statte apparatuses and more surveilliance over peoples lives..... could youeven imagine an aphrodite or artemis among us today...??

[Anonymous No.18406260]

>>18406151
>>18406185
>>18406211
>>18406237

[Anonymous No.18406261]

>>18406234
Will or Will Not. That's all there. anxiety is due to feminity and timidity that is alien to you look beyond yourself for a moment and dont evne look in the mirror when you wake up. go and fight, your soul will cry out with such rejoicing you will undoutbedly become a very good boxer.

[Anonymous No.18406263]

>>18406260

[Anonymous No.18406268]

>>18406252
sir, I'm going to have to ask you to take your meds

[Anonymous No.18406271]

>>18406268
I know I have struck a nerve when some alien israeli-bugcuck begins to post about meds etc for active derail of writing.

[Anonymous No.18406283]

>>18406271
meds

[Anonymous No.18406288]

day and night
the lonely slaver seems to break his buck at night

[Anonymous No.18406364]

>>18406283
yeast
>>18406090
>>18406151
>>18406185
>>18406211
>>18406237
>>18406252
based

[Anonymous No.18406492]

There is nothing of value on this board; it just hit me while I was looking through the catalog. Nothing of value. It's always the same pedantic, trivial, sardonic discussion (if you can even call it that–no actual discussion happens most of the time), data-mining threads ("What are you reading?"), or pointless drivel ("Post stacks/shelf"), day in, day out. All the threads that attempt actual discussion are derailed into political shitflinging or are drowned in unfunny memes. I spend the majority of my day here, refreshing the page and clicking and scrolling through threads that I'm only half-interested in, looking for something, anything. I have never been served a good recommendation or read something here that is interesting. This place has been a disaster for my mental health and well-being since I have spent the majority of my crucial, formative years here; it has made me narcissistic, elitist, anxious, and contributed greatly to my social-ineptness. Whenever I have tried to contribute something of value ("Be the change you want to see!") I either get ignored, or am flooded with memes as a response. Whenever I am having a good day, a visit to this place sours my mood; whenever I am having a bad day, this place deepens my sense of depression and anxiety; simply existing, simply being there when nothing else is–that is the only positive thing this place can be praised for.

Yet whenever I try to leave, I only manage to stay away for a day or two; I always get that thought of, "Maybe something worthwhile will happen today, maybe I'll see a good post, or be recommended something great, or will participate in some kind of meaningful discussion," so I come back and proceed to lose several hours refreshing the catalog and responding pointless to pointless posts. When I am isolated from this place, I realize that I have no actual hobbies that are in some way tied to this place; I want to write something? Part of the reason is because of this place; I want to read something/pursue something? Part of the reason is because of this place. This place has infected almost every part of my waking life; the only reason I got back into reading (something that has been good actually) is because I wanted a sense of superiority to others, and this place (specifically, this board), seemed actually intelligent; to an outsider, some of the things mentioned here seem cryptic and erudite; when you become an insider, that all goes away. Why can't I just leave? I can see the problems with staying here, but I just can't tear myself away. I have some kind of twisted Stockholm Syndrome.

[Anonymous No.18406515]

>>18406492
me too...

[Anonymous No.18406525]

>>18406492
I feel you anon. This whole site takes too much and gives little in return, yet I cannot leave. I think it is because this place makes up for my lack of socialization, and makes me feel less lonely, despite making me feel worse at the same time.

[Anonymous No.18406544]

>>18406492
nice meme, like you don't want to be here, haha.

>I have never been served a good recommendation or read something here that is interesting.

haha, nice meme

I like to be here and after a successful day, when I feel good, then I can also help others with good intentions and I always find it interesting what others write.

That you feel bad has nothing to do with /lit/ but with your own attitude.

[Anonymous No.18406584]

>>18406242
this

[Anonymous No.18406601]

>>18406492
Your text just gives the impression that you've put a lot of effort into writing something negative and decorating it with all facets. But as I said, it's just a matter of your own way of looking at things. You could have written it in a positive way. I also don't know why some people think that it's "intellectual" to see everything negatively. You should be glad that there is something like /lit/. Otherwise you can still browse Reddit if you don't like it here.

But I can understand if you haven't done anything else for 10 years, that it gets boring at some point lol.

[Anonymous No.18406606]

>>18406492
one of these days, 4chan-meta-posting will eventually have diminishing returns

[Anonymous No.18406613]

>>18406525
The more people I meet in real life the less time I spend on here. I consider my reliance on image boards as a symptom of my loneliness rather than the cause; in that sense I don't feel guilty about using them because I want things to be different, but I cannot achieve it.

[Anonymous No.18406652]

>>18406492
where else are you gonna go faggot? The most soul crushing realization is that no matter how shitty it is here, no other site/forum will bring you joy either. In fact, they will be far worse in terms of quality or opinions or tolerance or dissent.

[Anonymous No.18406662]

>>18406525
>lack of socialization

Do you even know what you are talking about?
Who do you want to get to know?

>>18406613

I live in the middle of a city, when I leave the house or look out the window, I see 100 people. And I don't feel the need to get to know anyone, why should I? And why should that be my goal? It happens when it happens. Maybe it's because I have friends, but I don't see them every day either. I just do what I enjoy, maybe you should try that too. I'm a skater btw.

Or maybe it's because a lot of people don't live in the city, I have no idea.

I think you're just telling yourselves that you want to get to know people. But in truth you are actually satisfied.

And if you really want to gain experience, then, my God, just go to a club, do drugs (if there is no other way), live your life. Just try something new. What do I know. Who cares?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kYfNvmF0Bqw

[Anonymous No.18406775]

I figured the first time I came to this board it was doomed as such. the idea that you can summon anons to discuss books, is not like the idea that you can summon them to discuss video games or movies. Books take a long time to read. Very, very few people will have read the same book for this reason. So obviously the discussion is shit. This board is good for two things: theology and shitposting

[Anonymous No.18406793]

it's ridiculous that we live in the conscious world, controlled by the subconscious

[Anonymous No.18406872]

>>18406775
your mom is a shitpost

[Anonymous No.18406898]

If the next thread doesn't have 'Write' on the subject field I'm gonna slit my wrists.

[Anonymous No.18407093]

>>18406263
Cuack! You got me there

[Anonymous No.18407103]

>>18406492
dial 8

[Anonymous No.18407253]

>>18406898
babe no...

[Anonymous No.18407265]

>>18406775
i have observed (for better or for worse) that the only books we can always discuss here that everyone on the board has read are by dostoevsky

[Anonymous No.18407314]

they're coming

[Anonymous No.18407460]

>>18402321
When I have nightmares, it's this scenario.

[Anonymous No.18407582]

I have only read 20 books in my life(last year. This year 0)
idk if I liked them or not
I normally don't know if I like anything or it's an mirage of liking something
Idk how to feel liking towards something
should I go outside
will it make me start liking things

[Anonymous No.18407701]

>>18407690

[Anonymous No.18408430]

>>18399681
I think the human condition is irreconcilable. The reason I don't engage with politics and find both sides to be incorrect, is because I believe they propose answers for dilemmas for which there is no possible, acceptable answer.
I don't think there is even a theoretically possible human society that would be, in my opinion, acceptable. We can't live in order under authority because we have an impulse to break free of it, but we can't handle to responsibility of freedom either. We want to live in a just, fair and equal society but we are motivated by incentives that can only exist in an unequal system. We want to live in peace, but constantly seek conflict, competition and often violence in our free time. We simultaneously want excitement but stability. Danger, yet safety.
If there is no worthwhile end goal, why should I engage with our species beyond securing the wellbeing of myself and my immediate loved ones? There is absolutely no evidence for God, afterlife, karma or rebirth, or any other fictional concept designed to control our behaviour. The available evidence suggests we are here by accident. Simulation theory is the only plausible alternative and that's a stretch.

[Anonymous No.18408492]

>>18408430
(continued)
This is all rationalisation. The only reason I attempt to engage with philosophy, or think about bigger ideas is to justify my own unhappiness. I am unhappy for purely personal, practical and frankly mundane reasons. I am sexually unsuccessful and always will be. I cannot excel at things, even when I make efforts to. I have never been able to hold onto friends. I am ugly, weak, with no talent, and I make a fool of myself constantly.
The uncertainty of to what extent I am responsible for my own unhappiness cripples me. If it's not my fault, I am basically a rape victim to life. If it is my fault, that only further solidifies my ineptitude and weakness. I am unhappy because I don't do things, and I don't do things because I am unhappy.
Maybe I need to stop thinking there is a solution or a way out, just a less bad option. Maybe doing something, anything, with my day, is better than browsing 4chan or sleeping. It won't make me happy, it won't make my life better, it won't repair the damage that's done, but it's better than what i've been doing so far.
I am trapped by a fallacy, that one day I will come up with an idea, a thought or a sequence of words that will magically vanquish the futility of making efforts in life despite my knowledge that it won't make me happier. Perhaps this is the best one i'll get. That it's better than doing nothing.

[Anonymous No.18408622]

>>18408492
(continued)
What is it that really upsets me. The fact that i'm missing out on things I know to be incredible. That i've missed out on young romance, friends, a social life. That I haven't developed skills I can be proud of and i'm too old to start now. There is tangible damage that has been done, some memories still haunt me, some i've realised are probably deeply repressed.
Even if I ignore the FOMO and take my life for what it is, I still disappoint people constantly. I can't give people what they want, and I can't get what I want out of people. I don't have reasons to want to do anything, and I don't understand why other people bother to do things.
Is the only reason to work for a living to appear functional enough to secure a woman? What about having children, or travelling, meeting people, self-improving. What is the end goal? It doesn't make sense to me. If i'm going to do things I feel I want to do, while somehow getting over the fact that it won't make me happy and that there's no endgame, I can't even look to others for guidance because I don't understand them and they don't understand me.
I guess I just have to picture myself doing the thing, and decide if that's better than what i'm doing now. And then ignore my feelings if i'm not enjoying it, or not doing well in it. Just focus on the idea of what i'm doing.
There are things I want. A beautiful girlfriend, a nice house, an admiring audience for my work. If I can take baby steps towards them without wavering, maybe I can be content when I fail that at least I tried. Forget survival and focus on what you actually want, that will motivate you.

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