Write what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.18374904]

[Anonymous No.18374914]

This general needs to be retired.

[Anonymous No.18374945]

I can't stop buying books and I don't read quickly enough to justify it. I read the preface to Leaves of Grass (20 pages or so) over the course of a few days.

[Anonymous No.18374951]

>>18374904
I find comfort in my own misery, maybe I'm a masochist. Maybe that's why I constantly sabotage myself.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » No.18374957]

>>18374945
Slow down.

>>18374951
That’s not comfort. Throw out the damn blowjacks. Stop reading junk. Do less computer time. Go for a walk

[Anonymous No.18375031]

Had a good day, read a few chapters of the Odyssey, played volleyball for 3 hours and watched the habs win game 1 of the series.

[Anonymous No.18375106]

Good morning. I’m beyond depressed. I hate that I post on this website most of of all.

[Anonymous No.18375114]

>>18374904
>>18375106
This, and my physics exam is in 4 days and I've been doing nothing all year.
I don't know, maybe I didn't want to study it as much as I thought.

[Anonymous No.18375116]

I come here to plant the flag of my new colony we shall henceforth refer to as and only as The People's Democratic Republic of the Bongo.
Autists and women are NOT ALLOWED (refugees welcome) in this our grand illustration of the intended implementation of the american Con-stitution.
If you join my colony you will be allotted 2 acres of irrigated land.
You should also consider there is a reason you have found yourself in this very situation, and are now reacting to it the way you are. Let's be honest here, you don't have much of choice. SO GET THE FUCK ON THE BOAT Блядь.
»these were the first words to rain upon my ears from the sharply dressed soviet officer. Everyone gathered on the dock in the Ostyak settlement that night knew they wouldn't hear from this officer until they would be told to get off on Nazino Island.

[Anonymous No.18375137]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fp4Hrvr2OMQ

[Anonymous No.18375147]

>>18375116
>Autists not allowed
Anon...

[Anonymous No.18375176]

>>18374904
I think I'm the laziest person on the planet. I literally don't do anything. The day goes by and by the time its over I can't even figure out what I did to past the time. I have a task of things to do, skills I want to learn, books I want to read for years I haven't gotten started on. I have a couple plates in my sink that have been there for six months. I feel like I'm falling apart

[Anonymous No.18375186]

>>18375176
pick the shortest book, read it and then the next shortest and so on

[Anonymous No.18375214]

How come there's nothing equal to kerouac's on the road in this age of self proclaimed digital nomads ? There's a bunch of interesting youtube channels that bring their experiences to the light in an interesting manner, but nothing feels really substantial.
Maybe it's on me for being too obsessed with ideas about "the death of authenticity". Maybe i'm still stuck in teenage ideals concerning life on the road.
At least the milton nascimento tapes are good here.

[Anonymous No.18375221]

>>18375176
I am lazier than you.

[Anonymous No.18375227]

>>18375214
There's a sense of new frontier exploration in ON THE ROAD, being America's mid-20th century bohemian underbelly so at odds with the nation at large. Our present lacks a real equivalent.

[Anonymous No.18375234]

I'm somewhat exited to start learning german after learning french for about two years. I think german will be a good change especially because I'm a bit more disciplined in my time management.

also i need a good fiction book to read. One with a good story. And Reccs?

[Anonymous No.18375239]

Elephant

[Anonymous No.18375250]

>>18375176
I've urinated my pants because I didn't feel like going to the toilet.

[Anonymous No.18375263]

The current political situation in America is akin to an elephant crushing us while we all worry about the wolf around the corner.

[Anonymous No.18375269]

>>18375263
>elephant
Jews? Faggots? Beaners? Negroes?
>wolf
China?

[Anonymous No.18375273]

>>18374945
Read Song of Myself all the way through. It's so undeniably great it'll propel you to finishing the book. Don't rush it. Read it like the American Holy text that it is.

[Anonymous No.18375278]

>>18375176
Get some positive momentum wherever you can get it. You're only stuck in a rut. Once you deny your most base instincts in favor of something you know is good for you, it'll make it easier to do it again, and again.

[Anonymous No.18375280]

>ywn lose your virginity to a beboobed bebutted behipped tall African goddess who will denigrate your white peepee size and your poor performance

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » No.18375286]

It was Cucumber the first; summer was over.
I had just spinached a long day and I was busheled.
I'm the kinda guy that works hard for his celery and I don't mind telling you I was feeling a bit wilted.
But I didn't carrot all. 'Cause, otherwise, things were vine.
I try never to disparagus and I don't sweat the truffles.
I'm outstanding in my field and I know something good will turnip eventually.
A bunch of things were going grape, and soon, I'd be top banana.
At least, that's my peeling.
But that's enough corn; lend me your ear and lettuce continue:
After dressing, I stalked on over to the grain station.
I got there just in lime to catch the nine-elemon as it plowed toward the core of Appleton,
a lentil more than a melon-and-a-half Yeast of Cloveland.

No one got off at Zucchini, so we continued on a rutaBaga.
Passing my usual stop, I got avoCado.
I hailed a passing Yellow Cabbage and told the driver to cart me off to Broccolyn.
I was going to meet my brother across from the eggplant where he had a job at the Saffron station pumpkin gas.
As soon as I saw his face, I knew he was in a yam.
He told me his wife had been raisin cane. Her name was Peaches:
a soiled but radishing beauty with HUGE goards.
My brother had always been a chestnut, but I could neve figured out why she picked him.
He was a skinny little string bean who had always suffered from cerebral parsley.
It was in our roots.
Sure, we had tried to weed it out, but the problem still romained.
He was used to having a tough row to how, but it irrigated me to see Artichoke,
and it bothered my brother to see his marriage going to seed.

Like most mapled couples, they had a lot of grilling to do.
Sure, they'd sown their wild oats, but just barley if you peas.
Finally, Peaches had given him an ultomato. She said, "I'm hip to your chive,
and you don't stop smoking that herb, I'm gonna leaf ya for Basil, ya fruit!"
He said he didn't realize it had kumquat so far.
Onion other hand, even though Peaches could be the pits, I knew she'd never call the fuzz

So I said, "Hay, we're not farm from the Mushroom! Let's walk over."
He said, "That's a very rice place. That's the same little bar where alfalfa my wife!"
When we got there, I pulled up a cherry and tried to produce small talk.
I told him I haven't seen Olive; not since I shelled off for a trip to Macadamia when I told her, "We cantaloupe."
The time just wasn't ripe.
She knew what I mint.
When we left the Mushroom, we were pretty well-juiced.
I told Arti to say hello to the boysenBerry and that I'd orange to see him another thyme.
Well, it all came out in the morning peppers:
Arti caught Peaches that night with Basil, and Arti beat Basil bad, leaving him with two beautiful acres.
Peaches? She was found in the garden; she'd been pruned.

[Anonymous No.18375292]

>>18375263
The elephant is your fat mom

[Anonymous No.18375305]

I can't believe I'm going to say this

[Anonymous No.18375336]

Thought going back to the Catholic church would cure my misanthropy. Worked for few weeks but eventually became worse. Stopped going.

[Anonymous No.18375371]

>>18375305
Say it anon.

[Anonymous No.18375407]

Does anyone here have family members that are heavily invested in their work?
I'm about to write a part where the protagonist shares a trait with me (staying up to ungodly hours of the night) and I get all bashful because I know they're gonna laugh at me for it

[Anonymous No.18375415]

>>18375336
Man is wicked and sinful, Anon. Catholicism doesn't remove that from you, it brings it even more starkly into focus. The world is fallen and humanity is totally depraved, and the only way any of us can be truly good is through salvation in Jesus Christ. Read Augustine, and start going back to Mass.

[Anonymous No.18375449]

>>18375371
I don't like memes.

[Anonymous No.18375456]

How do you cope after accepting that free will doesn't exist? I don't know why I do anything, most of the time something just pops into my head and I do it. I feel like an observer of my own life, I have no ambitions and make no actions.

[Anonymous No.18375462]

>>18374904
I’ve been falling further and further this past year. I’m disgusted and ashamed of what I’m becoming. I’ve been abusing speed pills, benzos, drinking regularly, and ghosting people that care about me. I’ve been killing myself slowly because I’m not capable of actually doing it. I wouldn’t be able to do it only because of how it’d effect my family.

I’ve been working a shitty job for the past two years and I’ve got plans of going back to school in the fall but I have no motivation to go. Nothing seems worth pursuing and I don’t think moving away is going to change anything.

It feels like my minds been rotting slowly for years.

[Anonymous No.18375467]

>>18375456
Why would you accept a lie?

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>>18375449

[Anonymous No.18375471]

>inner voice won't stop telling me to write
shut up

[Anonymous No.18375488]

>>18375467
>humans only ever do something because they want to or are forced to
>can't control what you want or even what you think about
I wonder

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » No.18375494]

>>18375456
I’m berated as a “reductionist” sometimes, but I honestly think the hard determinism is just as faulty as free will. I think there is that little wiggle space at the level of a chaotic mind.
But at any rate, it’s a bad way to go about life. So reject it. Just try not to judge too harshly people who’ve come from poor circumstances as inferiors.

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>>18375471
Do they speak in English, comprehensive words?

[Anonymous No.18375566]

>>18375498
Do you not have an inner dialogue, butterfly?
I don't know how to describe it adequately at all, but since learning other languages I don't think I can say it is in English (at least not all of the time), nor comprehensive words. It is more like your brain is focusing on an idea, or a specific thought.
I am not a schizo

[Anonymous No.18375568]

An animal cannot consent to being eaten therefore the people who eat animals forfeit their own right to consent thus eating an animal justifies your own rape and murder if you disagree you are a brainlet.

[Anonymous No.18375574]

based

[Anonymous No.18375630]

Despite RC Waldun writing the most cringe material, don't know if it's because of his poor English or poor writing skills, he and 3 other people have formed their own writing group. They sit in a restaurant and write novels together. ngl I'm jelly

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tzAqf00sFII

[Anonymous No.18375699]

>>18375494
I guess that is the only way to live

[Anonymous No.18375733]

>>18375568
Vegetarian nerd

[Anonymous No.18375805]

This is the law for every and all persons of the human race:
If one has XX chromosomes then one is of the homogametic sex and is called a female;
If one has XY chromosomes then one is of the heterogametic sex and is called a male;
If one has any other chromosomal arrangement then one is a freak of nature and is called a monster;
And, it is clear that no contradictions can arise as a monster is thus always a monster and a man may not become a woman, and nor shall a woman become a man for it cannot be otherwise as it is against nature.
Praise be to God! for he is the source of all nature; and, so it is and so it shall be.

[Anonymous No.18375821]

>>18375805
lmao look this faggot is so mad

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » No.18375827]

>>18375566
Oh yes, of course. This isn’t schizophrenia. My inner dialogue will think out in recognizable words, but what answers back is an much quicker and silent knowing. I believe it’s the memory side of the brain communicating to the speech side.

But that aside. I enjoy the projects, or little worlds that come to mind. Characters stories that form. If you have the time for them, go ahead and write. It doesn’t have to be serious intentions to publish.

>>18375699
People live an array of differing ways to see the world. Don’t pick the one that leaves you a listless catatonic

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » No.18375835]

>>18375805
Don’t call them monsters. They didn’t choose this.
This is sophomoric garbage. Not what a “monster” is at all.

[Anonymous No.18375849]

>>18374904
The clock keeps moving
and I get older
and I get older
and I get

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » No.18375857]

>>18375849
https://vimeo.com/483238072

[Anonymous No.18375863]

I don't see a way out from this current path of life. Everything I consume, from literature to movies, are riddled with characters of asocial traits and bitter atmospheres. I don't personally enjoy facing this side of the human spirit: it fills me with dismay to see the sheer vastness of each and every person's displeasure. In this sense, as well as many others (including physical), I loosely practice mortification of the flesh, although I am not yet a believing man. It certainly doesn't help that everyone in my childhood had penchants for melancholy and hatred of others, either --- just made all these sentiments more entrenched in my mind, to the point where there is no other way of perceiving reality. I am stuck wrestling with the angel for as long as I live, and I do not know what to do other than continue doing this.

[Anonymous No.18375886]

>>18375857
Some days make you feel the old songs in your bones
The ones you used to sing in the shower
Belt it
Nowadays the apartment walls are thin
And the neighbors keep knocking when you sing
Makes you mute
Takes the skip away from your step
So instead of Zeppelin you listen to chillstep or vaporwave
Or whatever the new faux instrumental genre is
But you don't hum it, can't sing it, won't strum it, nor pluck it
And you sometimes ask yourself "Where has the music gone?
What happened to my song?
I forgot how to sing it, it's been so long."
And you're hungry inside and you know what you need
But the neighbors keep knocking
And you stay quiet
And wash up

[Anonymous No.18375910]

I have only dated bitches who complained about me doing gay shit like taking them for walks in the woods and taking them to cafes instead of netflix fucking them
Does anyone have a good /lit/ dating strategy?

[Anonymous No.18375911]

When I imagine myself throwing a die in my head I find the first roll is a random number, but any subsequent rolls have some bias to pick a number I already didn't think of, and it's impossible for me to remove this bias.

[Anonymous No.18375932]

I can't stop spending money, How do I become a penny pinching bastard?

[Anonymous No.18376070]

>>18375910
there's a lot of factors that go into it like what social circle you are in, how selective you are with dating, etc. but one thing i spontaneously want to mention is it also depends on the girl's culture a lot. girls from more traditional cultures (eastern european or korean for example, from my personal experience but i'm sure it stands for other trad cultures) love walks, cafés, little surprises/rituals and all that romantic gay shit.

[Anonymous No.18376242]

Rain clouds rolled in front of the sun, throwing menacing shadows on the little town. In the marketplace, the merchants began to take down their stalls, for it looked like a bad thunderstorm was brewing. A long sausage vendor with a moustache called out in surprise, "Look, by the bell tower," but through the commotion hardly anyone had heard him. Only two fish sellers, mother and daughter, turned their thick necks to look.

The bell tower stood right next to the market, casting its broad shadow over the square when the weather was sunny. At the top, on the very peak of the roof, sat a golden weathercock - but not one made of metal, as on church roofs, but a real, live weathercock with golden feathers. It had just landed when the sausage vendor called out. " Lord, if this isn't a bad omen," said Mother Fish Vendor, packing up her fish stall twice as fast as before. "What's wrong, Mom," asked the daughter with wide, anxious eyes. "When the weathercock comes, no stone is left unturned," said the mother, throwing a dripping sack of fish over her shoulder. "Come now, before it hails tombstones."

The sausage seller had listened to the mother's words and turned as pale as the belly of a flounder. He looked at his sausage stand, at the sausages jumbled on the wooden table, and then he held up his hands, looking at them and turning them back and forth as if assessing what was more important to him: the stand or his hands and what was attached to them.

[Anonymous No.18376272]

Dad put hot food in the refrigerator right on top of my chocolate. Now my chocolate is melted. Chocolate is in the freezer now but it will never be the same.

[Anonymous No.18376324]

Got a concept for a short story or novel, tell me if it's been done because I haven't seen it. Medieval setting, wizards, dragons, all that good stuff. About half way through we find out it's actually a hyper-futuristic world, magic explained through nanotech, dragons are genetic experiments etc. just a different take on sci-fi I'm sure it's been done

[Anonymous No.18376354]

Hi

[Anonymous No.18376357]

Everybody believes in things that are not physical and cannot be explained empirically or rationally. It is a natural human tendency. This is why atheists who reject God make up new things to believe in, such as their social forces spooks, systemic racism, toxic patriarchy, etc. If they actually followed the purely empirical and rational worldview that they pretend to have then they would not believe any of that shit. The new systems of today are not entirely new inventions, but more like a change in the order of things. Instead of starting with the metaphysical and God, modern secular people start with the material and extrapolate vague wishy washy, pseudo-metaphysical ideas from that. They see the world through a wrong lens that gives them a backwards paradigm. When you get things out of their proper order, it all falls apart.

[Anonymous No.18376386]

the performance of status gives meaning to human life

thank you for coming to my TED-talk.

[Anonymous No.18376387]

>>18376357
>"wow everything is like religion guys!!!!1 people believe in politics like they believe in god lol am i right :)"
i had this take when i was twelve years old

[Anonymous No.18376393]

>>18375932
well, what do you like to do? I find the key to penny pinching is literally just shitposting all the time.

[Anonymous No.18376394]

>>18376357
god is the only access to truth because i said so. bro, dude, just trust me. atheists btfo

[Anonymous No.18376396]

When you lack God in your worldview, everything imevitably falls into dialectical tension and conflict because you do not see the Logos that holds everything together in its proper order and context and transcends the "problem" of multiplicity vs unity.

[Anonymous No.18376403]

>>18376357
I've always wondered if Marxists consider class groups like proles and bourgies to be reifications or not. If they do, then class warfare is unreal, and if they don't, then why should some things be considered reified and others not? Where is the guiding thread?

[Anonymous No.18376411]

>>18376394
>atheists btfo
Yes. Absolutely.
https://youtu.be/rBG2pPFshVQ

[Anonymous No.18376415]

>>18376393
Most of my output (minus rent) goes usually on drinking, it's literally the only thing to do because everything is locked down still, with that my housemates leave no room for me to keep anything frozen so it ends up ordering in is less expensive than buying meat fresh from the butchers and eating it. My daily output is around 15-30 euro give or take depending on what's happening.

[Anonymous No.18376417]

>>18376403
im gonna use this this is a good response

[Anonymous No.18376423]

>>18374904
I moved to a new country and left all my old bros behind, and everyday is new pain. My girlfriend now is OK but her sister is an insufferable lesbian and my gf has no other friends except her sister. So I spend all of my time now with neurotic lesbians and faggots and every single stereotype about them turned out to be true. I miss my bros, I miss going for adventures. I'm thinking about breaking up with my gf just to escape. I'll try to convince her to come back home with me, but this is not the life I wanted when I moved here.

[Anonymous No.18376426]

>>18376415
mans gotta live I guess. I don't drink at all so that saves a lot but i can understand how "laying in bed shitposting and watching netflix 6-16 hours a day" doesn't cut it for some

[Anonymous No.18376431]

>>18376396
you yourself are in dialectical tension, conflict, and multiplicity/duality with the people you disagree with, although you do hold god in your worldview. so you do not truly experience unity with god's world and his creation. why do you wholeheartedly believe that only you and those who think like you have truth on your side and the others do not have truth on their side? you are also part of the multiplicity and duality. you do not transcend multiplicity just by virtue of being religious.

[Anonymous No.18376434]

>>18376396
i cant really remember what not believing in God was like. I keep thinking youre right in this but honestly i dont remember if i was stuck in dualism or what before. the difference is, i guess, that questions have real right answers when you believe. thats a hell of a relief (and the truth desu)

[Anonymous No.18376436]

>>18376431
>you yourself
who is this?

[Anonymous No.18376437]

>>18376411
>youtube larper discusses his schizophrenic delusions
That'll really convince them.

[Anonymous No.18376442]

>>18376426
Honestly I'm half autismo so I can easily spend days and days on my own but the allure of getting tipsy and talking shit with friends is just too much, espeically in good weather. I'd love to be one of those guys who live off coffee, cigarettes and one meal a day while writing.

[Anonymous No.18376456]

>>18376431
NO! You are wrong about everything. You see, once again, you have fallen into a false dialectic.
You assume that to transcend the problem of multiplicity vs unity, we have to believe in monism, that all is one, we are all the same, and all distinctions are illusion.
That is absolutely incorrect, however. We are not all one. Monism is a lie. God created different types of objects. Distinctions are real and good. Distinction does not necessitate conclict, but YOU assume that there must be conflict because you do not have God in your worldview. God created different things to exist together in harmony.

[Anonymous No.18376465]

the thing with dnb is not to follow the drums. dnb is actually very slow music with a soft rain of drums on top

[Anonymous No.18376483]

>>18376456
what do you think about the view that each man is the cosmos, and so on different levels he relates differently and differently to God? I think the lower self is the one that should worship God, but to whom the question of whether or not he will is posed. If he does, this conditions fulfilled, attention can rise from the earth into the heaven. The highest self is the one that is in union in bliss. But the point is that they all always exist, they all always existed. Man is the entire cosmos, all of creation, possibly even God, simultaneously. All just revealing. Distinction exists for that for which it exists (primarily the earth, I reckon, since it is the earth that is put to a test of faith).

[Anonymous No.18376508]

>>18376437
Not schizo at all. You are just willfully blind.

[Anonymous No.18376511]

>>18376465
Nice
https://youtu.be/x3VIv7b9WMc

[Anonymous No.18376525]

>>18376508
>only i see the truth and everyone else is blind, they just don't get it
Sounds like a schizophrenic thing to say, my retarded friend.

[Anonymous No.18376531]

>>18376525
Truth is objective, no matter what your namby pamby wishy washy new age gurus say. Some people are right and you are wrong.

[Anonymous No.18376532]

>>18376456
Based and Taopilled

[Anonymous No.18376535]

I wish i could talk about my work here but i can’t. I don’t wanna be associated with the reputation of this site and i also wanna avoid the attention of potential retards that may see me as one of ”them”. I guess i belong to the group of people that used to be majority here but have moved on to plebbit or just been drowned out by the massive influx of kids born... well zoomers. Fuck them. And fuck most of you. Some of you are still cool though and make me laugh. I guess that’s why i still bother coming here. Oh well...

[Anonymous No.18376537]

>>18375932
In my case i became broke. Now i am more carefull with my spendings.

[Anonymous No.18376550]

>>18376456
if god created different things to exist together in harmony, then how come you are in this thread fucking seething about people's superficial political stances and opinions? unclench your anus and feel the harmony

[Anonymous No.18376565]

>>18376531
>Truth is objective, no matter what your namby pamby wishy washy new age gurus say. Some people are right and you are wrong.
yes bitch, i am right and you are wrong, because i said so. that's right, whore.

[Anonymous No.18376585]

>>18376550
Because lies create the conflict in the first place. People who know the truth must stand up and correct people. You are trying to turn Christianity into some sort of "just let live and let live, man" hippy dippy cult that it was never supposed to be.
>>18376565
No, you are wrong!
Relativism is self-defeating. If there is no objective truth and we all have our own truth, then that isn't true.

[Anonymous No.18376601]

I just made my last performance on zoom for the semester. the meeting goes on but I have done my part. summer is in. i got a lot of plans and if i do them it's good and if i don't it's all good. i'm just thankful i get to shit around

[Anonymous No.18376609]

>>18376585
>>18376565
I think you guys are confusing reality with truth.

[Anonymous No.18376619]

>>18376601
>shitting around for a summer
Man that was so many years ago. Cheers, i hope your summer is great!

[Anonymous No.18376634]

>>18376619
Don't feel down! You too can be a summershitter!

[Anonymous No.18376638]

>>18374945
Lmao

[Anonymous No.18376641]

>>18376465
>>18376511
https://youtu.be/Eaqxo1R7raA

[Anonymous No.18376674]

>>18376634
Thanks but i’m 38. Well you’re right, in 25-30 years or so, i’ll be shitting around as much as i want. And give it another 10 and i’ll be shitting even if i don’t want to...

[Anonymous No.18376686]

A man who fought modern degeneracy by spamming /r/gooncaves with pics from /lit/ bookshelf threads.

[Anonymous No.18376697]

>>18376394
Empiricism has lead to wonderful things and amazing truths, but so far it’s a closed system. It has potential to explain everything, but not promise. We simply do not have an empirical explanation for consciousness, or even matter’s ability to sustain itself as a cause in itself. God is an explanation for all things that seems a better answer than “we’ll figure it out.”

[Anonymous No.18376698]

>>18376585
ok. i'm a vajrayana buddhist practitioner. i believe i have come in contact "objective truth" many a times, thanks to my sadhana. what if i'm the one who knows truth and must correct you? correct yourself, nonbeliever. you know not what you do.

[Anonymous No.18376705]

>>18376698
come in contact with *

[Anonymous No.18376708]

>>18376698
>buddhist
What? Did you say something? It's hard to hear you because you don't exist.

[Anonymous No.18376709]

>>18376697
>let's believe some fucking bullshit we have imagined because it's psychologically easier than admitting there are things about this universe and about this life that we do not yet understand, that are still beyond our grasp
what a transparent cope. just admit you don't get it and go. it's okay.

[Anonymous No.18376712]

>>18376709
Ohoho.
If you are an atheist materialist then you have no basis on which to ground anything that you say because something like logic CANNOT exist in your paradigm. Logic is a metaphyical idea with no material substance. As an atheist
materialist, you are a hypocritical fool to use logic. Your post is meaningless and worthless. And in fact, everything that you said is wrong anyway, but even that is a secondary matter because the first issue here is that you fail to realize that YOU HAVE NO JUSTIFICATION FOR ANYTHING THAT YOU SAY. NONE WHATSOEVER.

[Anonymous No.18376717]

>>18376709
You seem to have an irrational faith that everything will be explained with empiricism. Why? Do you think because proximate causes have been explained through empiricism we can explain the first cause? That seems like magical thinking. Why are you so angry about it? You only don’t believe in God because you’ve been told not to.

[Anonymous No.18376720]

>>18376708
lmao, sure, you close-minded brainlet. it's endearing to see you take pride in your delusions of grandeur and tunnel vision view of reality. of course you won't ever admit to the possibility of being wrong, that would emotionally break you. it's always more comforting to think god is by your side, supporting you in your holy crusade. you'll grow out of it eventually.

[Anonymous No.18376721]

>>18376717
Anything that an atheist says is inherently, by admission of his own worldview, totally meaningless, arbitrary, and worthless. It's just blah blah blah, words words words, cope cope cope, seethe seethe seethe.

[Anonymous No.18376725]

Finding a job is a full time job on its own, unless you want a minimal wage one.

[Anonymous No.18376727]

>>18376720
According to your own religion, you aren't even real. Don't try to lecture me when you don't even exist, fag.

[Anonymous No.18376755]

>>18376727
crude misinterpretation of buddhist doctrine

[Anonymous No.18376891]

there's a short apocryphal text about Jesus as a child. I read it now because there's a story in it that is referenced in the Quran, and I think this is the only reference to that story in christian literature. Anyway there was pretty baller exchange: Joseph has sent Jesus to a teacher, Zacchaeus, who is going to teach him scripture

>Now Zacchaeus wrote the alphabet in Hebrew, and saith unto him: Alpha. And the young child said: Alpha. And again the master said: Alpha, and the young child likewise. Then again the third time the master said: Alpha. Then Jesus looked upon the teacher and said: Thou that knowest not the Alpha, how canst thou teach another the Beta?

in other words: you who do not know the Beginning (symbolized by the first letter: alpha), how can you teach me religion? pretty baller yo

[Anonymous No.18377007]

>>18376721
>meaning and worth can only come from a god
Maybe if you're a spineless baby

[Anonymous No.18377013]

>>18376465
Without the drums it's just mediocre ambient music

[Anonymous No.18377026]

Why are you angry? If you're gonna ignore this then I'm going to ignore you as well.

[Anonymous No.18377051]

Truth is a subjective experience.

[Anonymous No.18377065]

I sincerely hope Biden fails in passing his tax proposals. I got one big break in a hard life and if he has it his way the government will rob me blind of it. I thought this government was run by the rich? Where are all those billionaire lobbyists who write half the legislation? Where are my heroes? Get to work!

[Anonymous No.18377066]

I dont know what im supposed to do. When ask people around me, they usually tell about their goals, dreams or other wishes. They seem to cope rather normally but i cant see to do anything as i dont really have anything to look forward to.

[Anonymous No.18377103]

Swallow so that's me. Non-stop Love song!

[Anonymous No.18377125]

Born as dirt unaware of existence and grown up into something that can't be sure anything exists except itself and now can't be sure itself exists, but it must know it exists to utilize its existence and it must believe in what it knows and it does know but it doesn't accept it because then it would have to utilize its existence. It knows and it won't believe. I was sent here to kill Demons and Demons I kill, the only way to lose to a Demon is to become a Demon and so even if the Demon has taken control of you for a short time you still are not the Demon and you still have an opportunity to kill it, and even if you never kill the Demon as long as you are still trying to kill it you are victorious over it because the Demon thinks it can win against you but you know you can't win against it but have resolved to act as if you can anyway. Demons are lies and lies are Demons and that's what I mean when I say Demon. A Demon is a lie we tell ourselves about ourselves and about what we must do and killing the Demon brings freedom, but first you must recognize that it is a Demon, and a Demon can come from anywhere, it doesn't always come from yourself, and yourself is the opposite of a Demon because yourself is the only thing that is true and that you can know is true for a certain and the truth is the opposite of lies.

[Anonymous No.18377142]

>>18375805
Thats not very loving of you, it seems the Devil has made his way into your heart. I’m praying for Jesus to enlighten with you with love instead.

God bless

[Anonymous No.18377144]

>>18375932
I started tracking literally every cent that I spent, found I was spending on some really stupid shit that didn’t make me happy, so I stopped.

[Anonymous No.18377160]

>>18377066
What do you spend your time on? When your time is your own and there is nothing to consume it what do you spend it on? I mean what do you seem to drift towards when you don't want to do anything else, when you're not on 4chan or killing time with something mindless or working. You're here, so you must like reading, right?

[Anonymous No.18377162]

>>18377142
well this is kind of the question. it is clear from Paul that the church gets to apply some standards. Though God will judge the heathens, John the Baptist is killed essentially for having testified to Herod about his immoral sexual practices, so John saw fit to let the heathen know what was what. While it is clear that it is the right of the heathen to do what he wills, as far as I gather, still it is possible that it is good to let them know. I don't know if strict belief in man-woman is necessarily christian, I think it is but I haven't given it that much thought. If it is then it does not seem entirely unfair to say that one can testify to it in front of the heathens and not be doing evil but rather be following Johns example.

[Anonymous No.18377200]

>>18374904
I feel like an illuminati sacrafice for my families interests but In fukt it up and now have to deal with their psychic bullshit from their friends. I feel bad, but it wasnt me who knew better and still did slop for craft work. I dont want to realize that the bible was right but Ill see if this pervert/ scizo hat will fit nicer than an oppresive energy to the collective. jk And I miss being free.

[Anonymous No.18377217]

>>18377160
Im a neet and i do spend an hour per day to look for a job (frankly i have no chance but i still try).
>what do you seem to drift towards when you don't want to do anything else, when you're not on 4chan or killing time with something mindless or working.
Is it like what would i do if i wouldnt distract myself? I just end up looking at some point in the ceiling or the wall and talk with myself loudly. Honestly, i never had a natural leaning towards anything which involve creating and not consuming. I do like to read books but i probably expect way too much out of them.

[Anonymous No.18377283]

>>18377162
the most fascinating and complex facet of christianity to me is that of its underlying metaphysical implications, not the superficial and subjective "what one should and should not do" shit, it's so entry-level. in any case, just wanted to say that my bf is a bisexual christian who fucks me (an agnostic faggot) in the ass every weekend, it's so good.

[Anonymous No.18377332]

>>18375932
Can't spend money if you don't have any.

[Anonymous No.18377341]

>>18375227
I would argue places like 4chan have become the new frontier/underbelly in exactly the way the Beats were in Kerouac's generation.

[Anonymous No.18377348]

>>18375456
Your passivity is not proof that free will does not exist, anon. At any moment you could choose to exert it. And -- surprise surprise -- making choices is the first step toward exercising your will and finding purpose.

Go read Man's Search for Meaning and the question why you've given up

[Anonymous No.18377353]

>>18377341
no

[Anonymous No.18377362]

>>18377353
No? A despised counterculture of flakes, burnouts, and overbright people seeking forbidden knowledge at their own expense while indulging in hedonistic degeneracy? That doesn't sound like anyone you know, anon?

[Anonymous No.18377412]

>>18377362
i see why you would think this, but i disagree. i believe you overestimate this place. it's not particularly special or brilliant in any capacity. the only thing that makes it worthwhile is the possibility to express opinion anonymously. this gives people a place to talk about their politics and convictions in a non-politically correct manner, so you get the impression that people here are different. but if there was anonymity anywhere else, it'd be exactly the same. nobody here is particularly "overbright" or "seeking forbidden knowledge", nor "indulging in hedonistic degeneracy". unless hedonistic degeneracy to you like, watching some tranny porn and "forbidden knowledge" equates to reading "schopenhauer - on women". kek.

[Anonymous No.18377415]

>>18377412
typo. *to you is like

[Anonymous No.18377440]

Daddy lamp said I was to be published in the next issue but won't update the website, now I'm gay for spaghetti

[Anonymous No.18377474]

Atheist materialists are such simpletons and liars with a babby tier level of philosophical depth.
Over and over again I have shown you why you are wrong and pointed you towards the truth, and still you continue with the same old dumb arguments that I have already refuted many times.

[Anonymous No.18377502]

>>18377412
Maybe my phrasing is a little over the top, but Kerouac fucking his way across the country was as shocking to normies in the 50s as, say, sissy porn would be to normies now.

By forbidden knowledge, I'm mostly referring to open discussion of the things you're not "supposed to" discuss. For the Beats that was a lot of sex and drug use. Here it's usually shit like questioning the Holocaust. The point, though, is that part of what defines these countercultures is a willingness to engage in thought and behavior that would make you an outcast in mainstream society.

People have said this before, but I think it's true that 4chan ends up functioning as a containment zone for groups of people who historically would have had to form in-person communities of outcasts (think Hughes's Harlem or 60s Haight Ashbury). So I agree with you to a degree about the effect of anonymity. But I do think we now see regular IRL eruptions of communities that originally formed online. What's really missing is the artistic/philosophical thought. Most of these groups right now are political

[Anonymous No.18377518]

does anyone have that chart a /lit/ anon made for the western canon of literature? it was fairly autistic and had so many lines and connections it looked like a metropolitan subway map
eventually it cleaned up to be more legible. did it ever get finished?

[Anonymous No.18377570]

I find my college years and immediate post-college years so fucking embarrassing. I made so many dumb decisions and was such an embarrassing faggot. I honestly feel like killing myself purely because I have to cope with having been the fraud faggot that I was at that time.

[Anonymous No.18377571]

>>18377474
Everyone hates you catfag

[Anonymous No.18377586]

>>18377570
Oh, i know that feel all too well. Was there a single biggest dumbest decision?

[Anonymous No.18377617]

So apparently besides meaning rape, ravish also means giving great plesure to someone.lmao, no wonder it's fallen into disuse

[Anonymous No.18377620]

>>18375449
you’re not alone. I look down on people who seem to love them, share them incessantly, or actively follow sources for memes. It’s like looking at an injured or degraded animal, it’s repugnant

[Anonymous No.18377624]

>>18377570
every year of mine from 2 until 22

[Anonymous No.18377683]

>>18377571
I could beat you in a fight.

[Anonymous No.18377914]

I came up with a trick, we'll see how it plays out:
you only eat salted, plain rice.
what is the trick?
it's perfectly edible when you're hungry, but the moment you get full you realize it's really not that good. You will literally only eat when you are very hungry. Portion control baby.

[Anonymous No.18377933]

>>18377914
look up stephan guyenet

[Anonymous No.18377941]

>>18377914
>asceticism builds discipline
everyone already knew

[Anonymous No.18378010]

>>18376465
A few years ago melodic DnB was my jam. It made me either feel relaxed or energic, depending if I focused on the drums or the other part of the song

[Anonymous No.18378054]

>>18374904
dis something else

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pBCOv8g1pP0

[Anonymous No.18378082]

>>18378054
soulja boy will never die

[Anonymous No.18378143]

https://youtu.be/v3OzptqCDvw

[Anonymous No.18378306]

Nah lads I actually hate people so fucking much its unreal. I'm spending the next few years of my life working solely towards being able to comfortably live as a hermit in a shack somewhere where no one comes even near to and then I'll be the happiest man to have ever lived.

[Anonymous No.18378323]

>>18376386
in contemporary culture yes. But that is not per se human condition.

[Anonymous No.18378330]

No anime protagonist would ever post on a site like this. No hero of any story would’ve posted on a site like this. You cannot be the hero if you post on a site like this.

[Anonymous No.18378344]

>>18378306
I feel the same way. People are starting to disgust me. In the span of three years I have become extremely hateful of humans in general. Its strange how fast I have become this bitter.

[Anonymous No.18378359]

I (I: so jarring not to be able to omit the subject in English) have been so confused as of lately. And I genuinely believe there is something neurological, concrete, a sort of deficit or misplacement, in my spawn of thoughts and feelings. All of the (allegedly) exciting visions that I have strived to put into paper time and time again suffer from the same setback, i. g. a mind that is too loose, too incontinent.
I wish I had been smarter as a youngster. My disavowal of schematics, of everything to do with systematic ''performance'' has proven my undoing in a way. I can't seem to be able to commit to anything remotely constructive: even though my creative drive is still staggering.
I reckon I've been all too cocky with my infatuation with Nietzsche and... variegated schools of belief and thought. Beware, boys. Subversion is oh-so-pleasant, but self-structure (or a proper structuralization of the self) is more than necessary, in, order to, do stuff. Beautiful stuff. Through contradiction, through repetition, through violence and pathos...

This might sound a tad melodramatic, but Mysticism has fucked up my entire, fateless life.
And I can't even summon any regrets.
An accomplished vegetable I would be. And, to be brutally honest, I enjoy it. I get my kicks from it.

(But I want children.)

[Anonymous No.18378394]

>>18378330
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=corY-FZAZog

u will never be an anime character and that makes me a little bit sad, I almost cried a tear... but I will always love u *blush* :I

[Anonymous No.18378409]

>>18378330
>he forgot that the greatest artists were unwell and poorly socialized

[Anonymous No.18378471]

>>18378409
The funny thing is that’s not even true.

[Anonymous No.18378478]

>>18378471
Quite the opposite.

[Anonymous No.18378489]

Why yes I am endeavoring to return to a state of childlike innocence and bliss, care to join me?

[Anonymous No.18378491]

ching chang chong

[Anonymous No.18378503]

test 123

[Anonymous No.18378513]

I work for a very big food and beverage company and today I was invited to a meeting where the tech nerds explained to lead management how they (and google) target ads to people and all the methods to be more aggressive about it etc.
I've never been a commie or anything but western society needs to burn to the ground. Nothing is remotely human about any of this.

[Anonymous No.18378534]

I fear I'm doomed to fail in life. I must take action and overcome my fear, but I'm worried I'm too lazy and neurotic to do that. Despite all this I do feel like I'm improving. Maybe too slow to notice day by day improvement, or even month by month improvement, but I'm doing far better than I was a year ago. If I only continue on this path of improvement it will not be my failure that's inevitable, but my success.

[Anonymous No.18378551]

>>18378489
I would like to. Is there anything I could do to help you?

[Anonymous No.18378553]

>>18377518
I beg

[Anonymous No.18378557]

How old are you folks? I feel the chinz have come a long way.

[Anonymous No.18378566]

I hate our media, I hate our culture, I hate our corporation, I hate our politics and I hate the masses.

But in what way do they wrong me? I live in my own beautiful property. I live in one of the cleanest, most beautiful and walkable cities on earth. I am healthy and don't have any additictions. And have had a great education, which has given me a good craft to make a good living off of.

In the end it seems that I dislike that there is nothing I can find that is greater than myself in this age. Which I am also starting to hate.

[Anonymous No.18378576]

>>18378513
Conservatives have been conned into conserving the liberal global homo system instead of conserving traditional social values. It is a tricky sleight of hand and language game that the merchant race played on them.

[Anonymous No.18378620]

Milton fucking sucks. Like, he's not average, he's not mediocre, he fucking sucks.
Lycidas is the only marginally good thing he wrote and it's like a Keats B side.

[Anonymous No.18378633]

>>18378576
This is the political paradigm now.

[Anonymous No.18378687]

>final year of phd
>paralysis-level anxiety on the daily

[Anonymous No.18378761]

>>18378687
Once you're a doctor you can cure yourself

[Anonymous No.18378766]

Why does it feel overwhelming to “just start writing”?

[Anonymous No.18378851]

>>18374904
I have not watched porn or masturbated in 3 days.

[hungryman !!5BI0oSV9uvS No.18378866]

>>18378851
Just junk porn altogether man. It’s easy when you can it and just masturbate to your thoughts.

[Anonymous No.18378905]

ÐÏࡱá

[Anonymous No.18378937]

>>18378851
Good job. Keep it up and maybe you'll try to have sex instead of getting off the easy way

[Anonymous No.18378949]

>>18378633
can you stop posting this picture everywhere we get it

[Anonymous No.18379025]

Rank countries by their literature.

[Anonymous No.18379031]

I am tired of only being able to read for like 45 minutes. I am going to sit down with a book and not let myself get up for at least 2 hours.

[Anonymous No.18379037]

>>18374904
I love my wife, Chino.

[Anonymous No.18379045]

I have an intense level of self-hatred buried beneath me at all times only choosing to reveal itself in rare moments. So much so that in these moments I have an extreme desire to no longer exist, to no longer have to suffer myself. Sometimes this hatred extends towards others again so much so that my fucked up head wants to kill myself so I don't have to bear them anymore; probably because I know we will never share anything intimate together because of my own incapacity to do so.

Yet sometimes I hear the birds, think of love, or feel God and am so blissfully happy.

[Anonymous No.18379046]

>>18379025
1. Mine
...
50. Yours

[Anonymous No.18379071]

I think I developed some sort of "waifuism" towards this girl. I don't even watch anime. I just like... looking at pictures of her. I think I've gone mental lads.

[Anonymous No.18379114]

>>18379071
they all look the same

[Anonymous No.18379175]

>>18379025
1. France
2. England
3. Russia
4. Italy
5. Greece

[Anonymous No.18379197]

>>18379175
Frog detected

[Anonymous No.18379198]

>>18379025
1. America
2. England
3. Ireland
Englishlets need not apply

[Anonymous No.18379241]

>>18379071
That was me at one point, except I did watch the shitty anime she's from. I still want a gf like her bros... Aint gonna happen.

[Anonymous No.18379249]

>>18379025
1. Ancient Greece
2. Rome
3. UK

[Anonymous No.18379278]

>>18379025
One. Italy.
Two. France.
Three. Russia.
Four. Germany.
Six. England.
Seven. Spain.
Eight. USA.
Nine. Ireland.
Ten. Mexico.

[Anonymous No.18379279]

>>18378687
you made it this far anon, think of everything you overcame to get here. you got this

[Anonymous No.18379310]

>>18379241
Bro, we are gonna make it. You just have to belive.

[Anonymous No.18379317]

>>18374904
So here is my coursework for the upcoming semester:

1 Math Reasoning
2 Foundations of Quantum Mechanics
3 Intro to Logic
4 Spinoza
5 Philosophy of Mind
6 Philosophy of Science

I have the option of additionally auditing either a course in Mathematical Probability, or Philosophy of Mathematics, and I’m unsure of which to choose. I’m assuming that the former would supplement the math behind QM, while the latter would synergize well with math reasoning. What do you think, anons?

[Anonymous No.18379364]

I wonder if she’ll give me a foot job

[Anonymous No.18379366]

>>18379317
>Mathematical Probability,
This one. Probability is very important and it can serve as a good foundation for statistics/AI if you ever go down that math.

[Anonymous No.18379370]

No matter what you say or what opinions you have, there will always be someone who thinks you have a cringe take

[Anonymous No.18379386]

Nobody will care about this anyway, so I am free to say it.

A short time after I was born, my dad started calling my mother a piece of shit. He didn't even want to look at me. I had an alright first 2 years of my life and then my parents started acting like assholes. Nothing I did was ever good enough for them.

One day, when I was 3 years old I went to sleep and when I woke up - I was never the same again. From a good little child, I became a little bastard. I would never do what my parents asked me to do and I started to slowly notice how much they hated me. 15 years have passed since that day and I am still wondering what happened that night that I was never the same again?

I then went to kindergarten. I think I liked playing by myself at the time, so it was fine at first. Everybody there hated me and at the age of 4 I knew that I would never be loved or accepted by anyone. Being a stupid kindergartener, I said many times that I want to kill myself.
Another kid even tried to choke me, the teacher didn't even bat an eye. I wish he killed me, then and there - I wouldn't have to suffer anymore.

1/?

[Anonymous No.18379416]

>>18379370
Not true, there are universally based things such as self-confidence.

[Anonymous No.18379424]

>>18379386
I went to school in hopes of having friends and being happy for once.
Nope.
I was bullied because I said how sad I am. I guess it's all my fault, but I was stupid back then - I thought people were good. Nobody ever wanted me, except 1 girl who was my best friend in the whole world. Soon, she started to hate me too, but she was just better at hiding it than others.

Her parents moved across the country and I never saw her again. She was a cunt, but I still missed her.
Meanwhile, other kids would beat me and destroy my things. Insult me every day and sometimes they tried to push me down the stairs. Fights became more common and I was sent to the school's guidance counselor in 4th grade.

[Anonymous No.18379436]

I’m looking for novelists who spent time abroad and either had it influence their writing or wrote about their experiences directly.

[Anonymous No.18379450]

>>18379071
For me, it’s Mai-san.

[Anonymous No.18379459]

>>18379317
I think this guy would interest you
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seyyed_Hossein_Nasr
he did physics until he realized physics can't teach you about God
here are some lectures
https://archive.org/details/SHNasrLectures/Lecture_2_The_Reality_To_Serve_Love_and_Know.mp3

[Anonymous No.18379490]

Sometimes I go into retard mode and I say really dumb, embarrassing things and I regret it like ten seconds later. I don't know why I do this but I can't help it.

[Anonymous No.18379493]

>>18379424 was 2/?
This is where I probably got my trust issues from. I told the bitch how I really felt and then she called my parents. They were not happy and I was yelled at for days because of this. This bitch also wanted to send me to a psych ward - I got an incomplete diagnosis that strongly alluded to depression at the age of 10. Woo fucking hoo...
Another time my dad also destroyed some of my toys, that hurt me very much and I cannot forgive them that. I was a little shit, yes, but was it really necessary to destroy the only things I loved?

Anyways, I understood that people are all shit that deserve destruction. I started to isolate myself in 5th grade and I lost the chance of ever making any friends again. The bullying got worse, but I barely spoke about it(I only spoke when I was threatened with my parents talking to my teachers). I didn't want to go through that again.

[Anonymous No.18379500]

you cannot understand modern world if you don't consider the big issue of literacy among women

[Anonymous No.18379527]

I emerged from the nightmare, frightened, looked around, and when I didn't recognize anything, neither the room nor the furniture, I started to scream - and haven't stopped since. My brain must have suffered terrible damage that night. The memories of my previous life, my life before the illness, are fragmentary - an image from childhood here and there, mostly smells, but nothing coherent, only particulars emerging from the fog and disappearing again. Write a poem about it, compare my memory to clouds and open graves. But hush now. There is a knock on my hospital room - not behind the door - behind the window.

The later it got, the more people were on drugs. In that respect, the party seemed to be going well. If I'd had a girlfriend on my arm, it would have been even better, of course, but I made do with a passing joint. We sat on the balcony, outside the city at night, the starless sky - I wanted to think of something poetic, but found my head as so often without suitable content...

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[Anonymous No.18379555]

>>18374914
fuck you this is my favorite thread. please explain your position with primary references

[Anonymous No.18379561]

>>18379493
High school was next. I lived in great fear of having elementary school repeat itself.
Thankfully, I was sorta fine.
I could barely talk to my classmates at first, but I got sorta comfortable with them. I already knew what I had to do, just lay low and hopefully nobody would notice.

I was teased a bit sometimes, but the rest of high school was pretty uneventful for me. I didn't go to parties, birthdays or anything else because I was too scared.
I somebow had a crush at the time, but I never acted on it. We would constantly stare at each other and I wanted to meet them a bit more, but as I said, I was too scared so I never acted on it.
Now uni is next and I don't know what the fuck should I expect.

I am now stuck with hating my parents for ever giving birth to me, hating every person who lives and with a lot of repressed memories and feelings with no way out(at least I don't see one).

This is the story of my worthless little life and I am probably meant to kill myself very soon. I was not meant to be loved, I was meant to die in despair. If there is ANY way out, I would probably be happy to know it(I forgot what happiness feels like, it has been a long time).

[Anonymous No.18379566]

>>18379493
all people are not horrible people anon. I can understand that it can seem that way, but it's wrong. don't give up on us.

[Anonymous No.18379588]

>>18379500
fuck women, literally. who cares if your breakfast can read a book
>>18379527
ok kafka jr
>>18379561
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g3ENX3aHlqU
stop being a sad bitch and stand up straight. do some drugs before you fail at killing yourself

[Anonymous No.18379605]

>>18379490
same. is there a word for this

[Anonymous No.18379616]

>>18379490
Does anyone else relate to this? Am I just a big dummy?

[Anonymous No.18379618]

>>18379566
Then where are all the good people? I definetly never saw one.

>>18379588
>stop being a sad bitch
It's not that easy anon.

[Anonymous No.18379621]

>>18379561
>>18379588
>any way out
the way out, and take it from me as a former suicide-fag, is to improve your living situation and be exactly who you are. you sound kind of young (i'm 32) so hang in there and pave a path through it. i recommend alcohol and art.

It's not over. Get strong and then kill yourself if you still want to. The glory of Rome is forever

[Anonymous No.18379625]

>>18374904
Why do stupid people always think they're not stupid and proceed and call other people stupid? How do you achieve such ignorance? Why do they believe they're always right but provide no argument on why they're right?

[Anonymous No.18379631]

>>18375269
The elephant is the neoliberal economic systems that are currently strangling the American people and our culture. The wolf is "fascism in the republican party", all the things that scare liberals. It's a problem, but we should deal with the elephant first.

[Anonymous No.18379638]

>>18379490
>>18379616
>increasingly saying more and more fucked up things to get a rise out of people until I pass a line and have to apologize
>play devils advocate too well when discussing things and end up offending friends who don't think I am arguing in good faith
>talk about religion, politics, money, sexuality despite half the conversations crashing and burning
Am I self sabotaging or just being stupid?

[Anonymous No.18379660]

“Are you familiar with Nosferatu?” asked Van Hassain.

Jamarcus and Moesha Harker shook their heads.

Abrafo Van Hassain explained, “Count Blackula is a member of the Nosferatu race. They are similar to what you call vampires. Immortal beings, undead, and very powerful. They possess superhuman strength, superhuman speed, can climb up buildings, cast no reflection, and can transform into bats and dogs.”

By this time, all the African cassava biscuits were eaten, and the rooibos herbal teapot had been refilled twice.

“I am convinced that Lupita is not dead,” continued Van Hassain. “Count Blackula has bitten her, and she has become a vampiress.”

“You can’t be serious,” said Jamarcus.

Moesha said, “Count Blackula did purchase real estate in Whitby. The timeline for Lupita’s sudden decline in health and the count’s move to Yorkshire match up.”

“That’s so sad for poor Lupita,” said Jamarcus. “Well, thank you for telling us, Dr. Van Hassain. I’ll see you out.”

“Jamarcus!” said Moesha. “Lupita is my best friend. We have to help her. Doctor, what should we pack for our trip to Whitby?”

“No, I will return to Whitby by myself,” said the doctor. “It is too dangerous for you to hunt vampires.”

“See, Moesha?” said Jamarcus. “It’s too dangerous and the doctor can handle it himself.”

But Moesha would not be swayed.

“If Count Blackula is as dangerous as you say he is, you’ll need help. I may not be as strong as a man, but I can be useful in other ways. And I know that Jamarcus is more courageous than he let’s on. Let us come with you.”

“You’re right. The more people who fight Count Blackula, the more likely we’ll succeed,” said Van Hassain. “I’ll also telegram Dr. Seward, so he knows of our plan.”

The three new friends stood up. Moesha gathered notes and documents, Jamarcus packed clothes and supplies, and Dr. Van Hassain waited by the window.

“Our journey will end in death if we are unprepared,” said Van Hassain. “We must go to my home in the Netherlands, where I have all my vampire hunting supplies. Pack, quickly!”

[Anonymous No.18379663]

>>18379638
Literally me desu. Both around normies and here on 4chan. I go full autismo and I just can't stop. Half of my posts are probably in some anon's cringe folder.

[Anonymous No.18379668]

>>18379618
>Then where are all the good people? I definetly never saw one.
you'll find them eventually. this may sound strange but I and both of my closest friends, we were all on the verge of suicide at around 22-23 (we weren't that close then, weren't really able to get into it, were all trying to stay afloat individually). now we're around 30-32 and I think we're all more or less happy people. a lot can happen and will happen. I didn't have anything resembling a real friendship until I was in my 20s

[Anonymous No.18379678]

>>18379618
You've seen plenty of good people,, you just didn't know it. You said yourself, in more or less words, that you took to isolating and cutting yourself off, ostensibly as protection from being hurt. All that means is that you never had the opportunity to sift through the wheat and the chaffe to find any nice people from the belligerents.

I try to be nice to everyone. I'll talk to anyone. I get along with anyone who wants to talk. I want to see people succeed. Your story is very concerning and at a certain level it leaves an awe in the listener for not knowing what to say in response, in part because its hard to believe people would be so cruel in such a pointed way to a singular source in some weird collective enterprise. I say that because I don't see the cruelty myself. I don't see people acting like that to anyone ever. Whereas I know it happens, from stories like yours, to hear about it absolutely floors me because I've never been a witness to such horrible behavior.

I don't know man. I know its hard, things are hard for me too, I'm not the most social guy, but we each have to employ our own initiative to begin finding people who will feel kindred to us. They don't just appear, we have to find them. And it is hard. Harder than it should be. I feel sorry for you but I can't really help.

[Anonymous No.18379694]

>>18379660

what happened to having the dialogue be in ebonics? I thought this whole project was for the sake of worshipping the 'nobility' of blacks or some shit
gutted and soulless

[Anonymous No.18379712]

>>18379638
No you just enjoy pissing off people

[Anonymous No.18379726]

>>18379663
Thats the beauty of 4chan, but honestly I wrote a sticky note that hangs on my monitor to never talk about sex money politics or religion unless its brought up first. When limited by those parameters its honestly a challenge to find things everyone can enjoy talking about.
>>18379712
You are probably right, I love getting people riled up but I hate actually hurting their feelings or making them feel unwelcome :(

[Anonymous No.18379728]

>>18379618
>>18379621
same faggin it. You get to choose whether you live or not. Be blessed

[Anonymous No.18379736]

>>18379618
They are extremely rare. You are who you hang around, bad people attract each other, validate each other, vouch for each other, and tell you that their pals are good dudes (no bias at all) so that means there are good people out there somewhere for you. When the probability of finding a good person, let alone becoming friends with them is even somehow less than that of finding a kind-hearted, non-conceited girlfriend.

[Anonymous No.18379751]

>>18379621
>improve your living situation
That is very hard to do. I barely have any control over my life. All the things I wanted to do are impossible because as a very demotivated student, you don't really have much time to enjoy things in life(if you have any).
I would be at peace if I could go and live in a forest for some time(and yes, I know that it would require a lot of physical work. I would probably get used to it after a while). Many people also say how nice it is to feel loved, it's probably an experience that is worth the effort(but I don't know where to begin).

[Anonymous No.18379757]

>>18379527
don't forget to comment, like, and hit that bell! Make sure to check out my mech store where I have t shirts, mugs, and phone covers for all my best readers

[Anonymous No.18379775]

>>18379736
Those good people are only good in fear of punishment, humans are inherently evil

[Anonymous No.18379820]

>>18379618
>where are all the good people

[Anonymous No.18379847]

>>18379775
Please stop believing this if you're not being ironic. Doing intentionally mean things to people hurts my insides and I find it hard to face myself knowing I did something inconsiderate by someone. Goodness for fear of the lord is not the same as goodness for love of the lord. Some people do need to be disciplined by the rod because, yes, they can be cruel if not given proper guidance. But other people really do have a sense of conscience and will that is aligned to goodness and who didn't need the threat of scourging in order to be conditioned so. It's not all-or-nothing.

[Anonymous No.18379869]

>>18379678
>your story is very concerning
I guess. I don't talk about these things, but they have been bothering me for a while, so I had to get them out.

>in part because its hard to believe that people can be so cruel
That's how people are, at least in my experience.

This guy >>18379736 also says that I have to talk to people.
Makes sense, as hard as it is. Now when I think about it, uni gives me a fresh start.
Maybe I can still turn things around for myself. Oh well, I've done dumber things in the past, why not try again?

[Anonymous No.18379870]

When you are an autist with an obsession for the truth, it can be baffling and maybe even frightening when you realize that the vast majority of normies, including the smart and educated ones, really don't care.

[Anonymous No.18379905]

>>18374904
None of the instruments have any depth and thus the fingers look like garbage. Also NONE OF THEM ARE FORMING ANY FUCKING CHORD SHAPE. GOD DAMN IT. NOTHING HAS ANY STRAPS. HOW ARE THEY HOLDING ONTO THE GUITARS. NOTHING IS PLUGGED IN. I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT. WHAT A FUCKING AWFUL SIMULATION OF A SIMULATION. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK.

[Anonymous No.18379915]

>>18379869
You really do have to take a chance. You've already borne the worst that anyone has to offer you, by the sounds of it. At this point it seems a small wager to fear whether they may or may not like you by at least giving it a fair effort, rather than not trying at all and remaining how you are and having 100% odds of being unliked.

By all measures, you really have nothing to lose. Please utilize it. Uni is only going to be harder if you don't have anyone else you can depend on in a time of struggle, whether its loneliness, workload, anger; anything.

[Anonymous No.18379938]

>>18379915
>you've already borne the worst of it
I hope so. Well then, I will try. Now there is nowhere to go but up. Thank you for helping me see it.

[Anonymous No.18379965]

I always thought that I was really smart but maybe I am just a stupid idiot, anons.
I also seem to have a reckless, compulsive side that makes me do retarded things and not realize how retarded it is until after I did it.
Any dumb things that you've done that you are embarrassed about, I have probably done something dumber.

[Anonymous No.18379988]

I started up an antidepressant that I quit recently because I forgot why I stopped taking it, and after a few days now I can't sleep to the extent that I feel like a methhead. I want to sleep but I just can't do it. It would be easy to blame the pharmaceutical companies, etc. for this, but I believe one of these drugs has to work eventually, even if I have to deal with shit like this in the meantime.

[Anonymous No.18380002]

>>18379965
>Frogposter
>is retarded
Checks out.

[Anonymous No.18380009]

hope i die soon

[Anonymous No.18380012]

>>18380002
Frogposters are based

[Anonymous No.18380019]

I feel like life is just madness that others see as rationality.

[Anonymous No.18380027]

Can trataka help me with crippling life problems?

[Anonymous No.18380054]

>>18376465
i fucking love dnb. ive been listening to this mix all week at work:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FAEGz5U0o1I&t

[Anonymous No.18380061]

Why am i such a fucking loser? All my friends are either working, modeling and even becoming famous. What do i do? I am in college studying for a "bright future" which i am, i am not the worst nor the best but it feels all like a waste of time when i could be doing what i like! But what i like sucks ass, its nothing for the money.
The girl i maybe went on 10 dates got swooped by a guy in only 2. I feel like such a cuck holy shit. Not because i lost the girl but because i failed as a man. I dont know what im missing: personality? Looks? Body language? My way of speech? Am i not aggressive enough? I dont know anymore, i wish the earth swallowed me, to be one with the trees and the grass, moving only when hugged by the wind. Im writing like a ten year old, not even putting ' where necessary because im a lazy prick. I know all the trees in the park, when i walk around it i am the king of the land and all its visitors are my guests.

[Anonymous No.18380072]

>>18375176
Get angry and reject your comfort for pain

[Anonymous No.18380074]

>>18380072
your first

[Anonymous No.18380081]

Working on my novel, I've come to realize that I enjoy the process of editing more fun than actually writing. Anyone else?

[Anonymous No.18380083]

>>18380061
To be completely honest with you sir, don't worry about it. :3

Do not worry about one or two women who spurn you, later on in life you can become something greater than what you start with by exposing yourself to life experiences.

Why do you think Butterfly actually is attracted to me? It's not because I'm a loser. I KNOW how people, and women, work.

Life also takes persistence. You've shown that in your post, but maybe sometimes cutting your losses in certain directions is okay. Persistence in things that are proving successful is what you should be focused on :3

[Anonymous No.18380087]

>>18380061
>I know all the trees in the park, when i walk around it i am the king of the land and all its visitors are my guests.
The rest of your post was really gay but I know this feeling that you talk about here very well. In college there was a little forest trail behind the campus and it was my domain. I hung out there by myself all the time. I was almost always the only one there even though it was a big university with lots of people.

[Anonymous No.18380098]

Time time time! I dont have enough time! I have to see all the posts, all the replies, check the catalogues, check the generals, play my video games, study, be interrupted anyway and fall deeper into this circle of hell made by myself

[Anonymous No.18380103]

>>18380061
>Not because i lost the girl but because i failed as a man.
that doesn't make any sense at all. it sounds corny but you really weren't meant to be. you shot your shot and this is what happened, but if anything you should view yourself as a success of a man for having tried and then respected her wishes when she backed off. there'll be other women anon, just hang in there

[Anonymous No.18380108]

>>18375462
You have to fight it anon. Fight the urges with all your might. You and i are the same, no one to help us. We must fight on, you are you and only you can save the soul

[Anonymous No.18380123]

>>18375886
>I forgot how to sing it, it's been so long
I... Cant remember how my favorite song goes anymore

[Anonymous No.18380130]

I'm afraid that I read for the sake of impressing others and not for the sake of acquiring knowledge and this discourage me from reading since I don't know why I'm reading, I'm not entertained or enjoying it and I'm not looking for salvation or answers or anything, I don't know what I'm looking for I just feel a sort of void that I think I can figure it or find someone describing it I think that's why I'm reading shit but I don't know what to read

[Anonymous No.18380131]

Productivity and "grind" culture would make a lot more sense in a communist economy, why tf are you grinding under capitalism lol the whole game is to get other people to grind for you.

[Anonymous No.18380137]

>>18376324
Heroes of might and magic is close. All the magic is actually just incredibly high tech

[Anonymous No.18380139]

>>18380131
>"grind" culture
What is this zoomer shit? Talk like a normal human adult.

[Anonymous No.18380148]

>>18380139
have you never heard of "working hard" referred to as "the grind"? its not even a new expression Im pretty sure it predates boomers

[Anonymous No.18380166]

>>18380139
So like zoomers / young millennials?

[Anonymous No.18380194]

>>18377570
>this time for sure i will be smarter in college!
I was a fool

[Anonymous No.18380202]

123 TEST 123 TEST OMG I'M GOING CRAZZY AHHHHHHH KISS MEE

[Anonymous No.18380203]

I'm so tired all the time. I have no energy.
When I was young I felt like I had unlimited reserves of energy. And then I remember when I was about 17 or 18, my last year of high school, I noticed that I was starting to feel tired more and I didn't quite have that same spark in me anymore.
It all went downhill from there.

[Anonymous No.18380211]

>>18380202
I will always love you

[Anonymous No.18380221]

>>18378471
Most infamous is van gogh
Goya was troubled with nightmares and made that hellish drawing of Saturn on his wall
Mozart was left poor and thrown in a ditch with the rest of the dead
Einstein was a simple man outside his studies, even watched cartoons
Tesla never loved a woman nor did Newton. But Tesla did fall in love with a white dove which died in his hands
Kafka was weird and suffered from tuberculosis
Andric was a political prisoner and spent almost a year in complete darkness, only writing in sand to stay sane
Just a few from the top of my head

[Anonymous No.18380232]

>>18379031
Stop thinking about time and try thinking in chapters

[Anonymous No.18380233]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kvxCU_lQwKM

mlem

[Anonymous No.18380240]

>>18380131
communists be like Rise and grind let's get this bread(line)

[Anonymous No.18380245]

I want to drive into a crowd of people while listening to les rallizes denudes as loud as possible, scream and cry, get out of my vehicle whilst stabbing everyone I come across. And perhaps do a silly dance while I'm at it.

[Anonymous No.18380274]

>>18379561
Rage against the dying of the light. You are not bound by your parents nor your elementary "friends". These new people are nice, they do not hate you.
There is an anon on /co/ who quotes Saint Augustine (i think) a lot
>where there is no love, put love and you will draw out love
Do not be frightened anon, you will do just fine

[Anonymous No.18380292]

>>18379870
How do i stop caring

[Anonymous No.18380293]

>>18378330
>No anime protagonist would ever post on a site like this.
What kind of weeb hasn't seen "Durarara!"?

[Anonymous No.18380303]

>>18380074
I am. Ive been lifting a lot and im seeing progress. The metal slab ive been lifting is getting lighter

[Anonymous No.18380321]

>>18380303
>The metal slab ive been lifting is getting lighter
You are supposed to increase the weight over time. Why would you decrease it? That makes no sense.

[Anonymous No.18380327]

>>18380103
But she didn't back off. She sends me cute cat videos like im something close to her. On college she even pokes me playfully or some shit. Do women do that? I dont understand at all, dont show me attention if youre taken woman, i will fall in love.

[Anonymous No.18380337]

I hope the next thread will have a nice classic painting as op

[Anonymous No.18380342]

>>18380130
Read something easier. Read something that catches your eye. We all joke about high school literature but you should try it out if it interests you. I recommend tom sawyer or paul street boys

[Anonymous No.18380349]

>>18380203
I felt like this. Walking in the park really helped me, i feel like its due to the sun. Being bathed in it really refreshed me in the mornings

[Anonymous No.18380356]

>>18380139
Found the zoomer. No other generation would think that terminology was new.

[Anonymous No.18380357]

>>18380245
I feel the same, but my urge is to stab my whole family, make a little family gathering at the table and invite my friends for a movie night

[Anonymous No.18380364]

>>18380321
Well i can't increase weight. I literally lift a metal cylinder around 3kgs heavy. To compensate im doing more sets

[Anonymous No.18380384]

>>18380103
I want to retract from my previous reply, after reading your post again. I appreciate the positive words, ive been feeling down ever since and my heart even started hurting. If i was on the final edge i probably would have cried from your post. I really have no one to talk to.

[Anonymous No.18380450]

>starting with the greeks
>finish the symposium
>it's a contemporary social shit post on the common characters and attitudes of discussion goers
yeah alright. atleast it has a universality to it. socrates aside, I could see any one of the speakers being a modern man arguing at a house party

[Anonymous No.18380459]

>>18374904

[Anonymous No.18380577]

>>18380384
>I really have no one to talk to.
well, I'll be here, shitposting

[Anonymous No.18380596]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vFHRsbXEuRQ

cooming

[Anonymous No.18380604]

I’m about on the verge of just giving up.

[Anonymous No.18380608]

>>18380596

[Anonymous No.18380611]

>>18380604
don't worry, this song will hype u up

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c0_K00ZSMVg

[Anonymous No.18380667]

[Anonymous No.18380687]

[Anonymous No.18380706]

https://www.instagram.com/p/CPGx7bnlthm/

watch this cool dance

[Anonymous No.18380724]

donuts

[Anonymous No.18380729]

[Anonymous No.18380746]

ponuts

[Anonymous No.18380759]

zonuts

[Anonymous No.18380763]

>>18378534
keep at it anon

[Anonymous No.18380778]

[Anonymous No.18380781]

I have started getting irrationally angry at food packaging. I want to go to a super market and just fucking punch everything in it. I have had this urge for weeks now. Not sure how I am supposed to get rid of it.

[Anonymous No.18380782]

>>18380202
*muah*

[Anonymous No.18380792]

>>18380789

[Anonymous No.18380793]

>>18374904
That pic is giving me deja vu, I think I've seen that place before.

[Anonymous No.18380799]

>>18380781
sounds like you're revolting against the modern world

[Anonymous No.18381031]

>>18377051
Though you are not entitled to your own facts.

>>18379555
It’s full of off boarder, off topic, bitching and schizophrenia and it doesn’t make the extra threads with that exact same shit stop.

[Anonymous No.18381070]

>>18380611
It didn’t

[Anonymous No.18381134]

>>18381070
and all the donut pics and the other stuff? :/

[Anonymous No.18381472]

>>18380799
Well, when you see that diet mayo has half the calories of the regular, because the serving size is 1tbsp instead of 2tbsp, or see cranberry juice that is "100% Juice", and the first four ingredients are water, apple juice, pear juice, and white grape juice... Then you realize potato chips have five times the listen carbs because fried starch turns to sugar on contact with saliva, and the 0 carb sour cream does much the same once the lactose digests... "Modern world" doesn't seem to be WAI.

[Anonymous No.18381846]

[Anonymous No.18381914]

I have this dream with Butterfly, she's in one of her horny moods so we spend all day with my something in her something and we just read all types of books and post on 4chan while I'm inside her :3

We'll do all sorts of things like that.

[Anonymous No.18381925]

>>18381914
Alright I can guarantee Butterfly is laughing her ass off at you

[Anonymous No.18381940]

>>18381925
Eh it probably would turn her on a little

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » No.18382104]

>>18381940
Not at all.

[Anonymous No.18382873]

Got a job interview in 2 hours
lest I fuck dis up

[Anonymous No.18383390]

>>18374957
fuck off you mentally ill gay person

[Anonymous No.18383435]

>>18382873
I will say a short prayer for you anony