what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.18319665]

[Anonymous No.18319671]

>>18319665
What's on yours.

[Anonymous No.18319672]

>>18319665
Looking like a true Spaniard, don Carlos Estevez.

[Anonymous No.18319674]

sup

[Anonymous No.18319679]

>>18319665
I am the 10th of Avatar of Lord Vishnu

[Anonymous No.18319683]

[Anonymous No.18319704]

I am just NOT enjoying starting with the Greeks desu senpai

[Anonymous No.18319709]

NIGGER

[Anonymous No.18319726]

>>18319671
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2v1Z7GaPE5k

[Anonymous No.18319744]

>>18319709
u have the n-word pass?

[Anonymous No.18319767]

[Anonymous No.18319774]

>>18319767
this guy gets it

[Anonymous No.18319778]

>>18319665
kneeggers

[Anonymous No.18319783]

I dream of withdrawing from society and just read my books all day every day, only stopping to exercise for an hour or two each day.
How can I make this a reality without failing my parents?

[Anonymous No.18319796]

I'm somewhat surprised that among all the political shitposts on /lit/ there's little to no reference to Dominic Cummings - maybe he's not overtly based enough for your average /pol/tard. The recent attacks on him by the press and most every politician have highlighted to me that the UK is heading down the same path of anti-intellectualism as the US - to reject the ideologically influenced academics of the social sciences is perhaps not an entirely bad trend, but here's a smart man among imbeciles and he has become reviled. If you don't know about him, he was the chief advisor to Boris Johnson, a russophile, and a polymath that has some very interesting perspectives on reshaping education and government. Read through his blog and the essay on Odyssean education dominiccummings com , it's rather ironic that the Labour backing media (Tories as well, just the opposite reason) is turning on the man that wants to remove the PPE dolts from number 10 - mistaking him for one of them and labelling him a power hungry "white male", American influence on proud parade. Probably going to stop reading the news, bar NK specific sites, it's all getting a bit stupid for my tastes

[Anonymous No.18319854]

>>18319783
You will probably feel better about society and being a part of it once you get over the idea of failing your parents.

[Anonymous No.18319862]

>>18319783
But etherium, hbar, iota and avax now and wait a few years

[Anonymous No.18319870]

Long ago, in a place far from the realm of waking, a king ruled the Lucid Isle. He was a good king, whose love and kindness was reflected into his wondrous world.

[Anonymous No.18319874]

>>18319665
The man seeing me seeing him one day one hour stabbed me fourteen times all around.
His goal, I think, was to love, not kill, me.
Is it weird to say I still love him and that, recently, I have visited him in prison?
Between the glass partition he listened to me talk about food and weather and sex with his arms crossed and a sort-of smile on the wide red ham of his face.
"Do you miss me?" I said.
He squirmed in his seat. "Yeah."
"Do you wish," I said, my voice not unlike a child's, soft and fluttering, "I was dead?"
"Sometimes."

[Anonymous No.18319878]

Kinda hard to be active and get enough exercise when you’re a reader with an office job, huh?

[Anonymous No.18319882]

Ive been living an apathic life since puberty. I never rebelled against because there was no presence to rebel against (parents just allowed everything anyway). I never did anything strange or let myself go in any way (wouldnt even know how). I wasnt involved in a proper subculture or hobby either. Just spend my time on hoarding endless information and pictures from 4chan and some fringe fora making me desensitized and uninvolved. It seems like i can experience things only in an indirect controlled way.

[Anonymous No.18319888]

test

[Anonymous No.18319922]

>>18319665
is my roommate gay?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i6oPWh_gJoc

[Anonymous No.18319927]

Highly recommend dropping the internet except for things like hobby research and keeping in touch with friends. I've been trying this for a while and have recently been having some days where I'm just happy, as in that's my baseline emotional state for the day. I haven't felt like that since I was a child, it's really nice. I really think unchecked internet usage is bad for people with neurotic tendencies, it just makes it too easy to reinforce your worst habits and thought patterns.

Anyway, hope you have a good evening anons.

[Anonymous No.18319947]

>>18319862
I do have a pretty big portfolio already but this week is discouraging. I bought 100k HBAR for an average of $0.08, 1900 LINK at $4, 80k PNK at $0.02, and 300k RSR at $0.003
A few months ago I thought I would be retired in 5 years but now I am not so sure

[Anonymous No.18319950]

>>18319927
Thank you for your post. I need to leave here permanently. I'm not even close to a regular here but one visit every once in a while is still too much.
I quit many retarded pastimes before and I'll fucking do it again.

[Anonymous No.18319952]

>>18319947
If you believe in it long term you need to just forget about it and wait. What you're doing now is just going to encourage panic selling.

[Anonymous No.18319960]

>>18319854
Is it unhealthy that the only thing that motivates me to do anything I am “supposed” to do as an adult is a fear of letting my parents down?
They’re not even very controlling, I just feel guilty because they have set me up for a life of financial success and to not take advantage of that would, in my eyes, be an act of treachery

[Anonymous No.18319966]

>>18319952
Yeah I panic sold once before a year ago but I changed how I look at it now. I consider it a sunk cost. I am riding it all the way, whether it goes to zero or a million

[Anonymous No.18319968]

how do you even make a girl cum? i have this chick i need to impress

[Anonymous No.18319994]

[Anonymous No.18320009]

I’ve been fat my whole life and I think after 27 years, realistically, I’ll probably never be trim or even remotely attractive. I’ll probably never be anything worth being. It’s a tragedy I haven’t necked already.

[Anonymous No.18320023]

>>18320009
1: cut out grains from your diet
2: restrict your eating to the hours of 12PM to 8PM
3: don’t drink anything with any calories except for some milk and sweetener in your coffee if you desire
4: lift weights and do cardio each 3 days a week for 30-60 minutes
5: watch as the pounds melt off

[Anonymous No.18320031]

>>18320023
I’ve tried all of this. I have no interest in any of it anymore and more importantly, I just have no control over myself nor do I care. I’m fucking miserable, bud. When people give advice like this it goes in one ear and out of the other because I know it doesn’t matter.

[Anonymous No.18320039]

>>18319878
I work in an office 8 hours a day - but I go to the gym most days after work. It helps me get some blood flowing after sitting all day. I think it's a matter of will, not practicality anon.

[Anonymous No.18320043]

>>18319960
This is part of growing up for most, you can not be an adult until you leave you parents shadow. Most tend to get out of this through rebellion, purposefully fail their parents for a handful of years. Some just tell their parents to fuck off. Some have a talk with their parents. Some are perfectly happy and adjusted to it, you clearly are not. You sound like you would do best having a conversation with your parents about it all, you need to know where you stand in relation to them.

[Anonymous No.18320060]

>>18319968
Just be able to fuck for a while and respond to what she likes. If she likes it a bit faster, go faster, if she likes it a bit slower, go slower. Kiss her where she likes to be kissed, run her nails down her back and thighs etc. Pull very gently on her hair. The hardest part is having the fitness to maintain a consistent pace. Sometimes she wants you to maintain the speed you're at but lil papi's core is getting tired.

[Anonymous No.18320076]

>>18319960
Damn man I'm the same. Sometimes I imagine them dying in a freak accident so that I could do what I want and risk failure without guilt. Obviously I don't want that to happen, but it's something I've thought about. Likewise, mine aren't controlling in the slightest, but they want me to be secure and I don't think I could let them down.

[Anonymous No.18320081]

>>18320060
>run her nails
I meant your nails obviously

[Anonymous No.18320109]

What am I even doing with my life? All I'm doing is hoping for something to happen, for me to find something that interests me immensely, to make me want to do something.

But all I'm doing is that I'm stuck here on these boards and forums, wanting to die.

[Anonymous No.18320158]

>>18320039
I just really do not enjoy the gym these days. I used to sort of like, or at least I tricked myself into thinking I sort of liked the gym and weightlifting but honestly, it never really got me anywhere and after a while, I just didn’t want to do it anymore.

[Anonymous No.18320160]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wDe60CbIagg

[Anonymous No.18320171]

>>18320060
>The hardest part is having the fitness to maintain a consistent pace
This has been my problem so far. I get tired before I cum, probably from years of porn abuse.

[Anonymous No.18320172]

>>18319665
>pic related
Terrafly at 10 1/4

[Anonymous No.18320192]

>>18319282
2g. I also did a very small 0.17g with friends last weekend just to see how it felt

Didn't have any visuals but it was a lot more pronounced than the first time, though I didn't find it as "enlightening" an experience as I expected (which may be a good thing, since I can't imagine any enlightenment that relies totally on drugs to be entirely worthwhile and could open me up to making it a bad habit).

[Anonymous No.18320208]

I only read sci-fi, fantasy, romance, genre stuff. I haven't touched philosophy since college. I only care about being entertained/distracted from stresses of life.
Pic related is all the posters I have in my room.

[Anonymous No.18320297]

>>18320208
If you're being sincere, I unironically recommend books that are titled ____ and Philosophy. I've seen ones on Avengers, Star Wars, Zelda, and sports. They're collections of articles written by actual academic philosophers.

[Anonymous No.18320414]

I want to start being sincere but it'll only make me an unlikable cunt

[Anonymous No.18320469]

I had to buy a hundred dollar battery charger because the battery on the riding lawn mower was dead today.
At least I have a charger now.

[Anonymous No.18320482]

Tio Charlie
El sabio

[Anonymous No.18320515]

>>18320469
>

[Anonymous No.18320610]

>>18320031
I'm sorry youre too sunk to take people's advice. I did what that anon said and I'm down 60 lbs. There is a point when you're choosing misery.

[Anonymous No.18320627]

Covid + friendlessness + being on 4chan all day have pretty much successfully alienated me from society. I can't believe that as I'm writing this, people are having jobs, are meeting each other, hanging out and engaging in non-4chan activities

[Anonymous No.18320646]

>>18320160
great

[Anonymous No.18320670]

>pls don't give me that "explanation" bullshit

>Fair enough. But don't give me that 'listen to me' bullshit with no reason. You might have had a relevant story.

no offence. I actually have nothing against people who like to take psychodelics, I honestly admire it, because I believe in something like a soul. besides, I'm not an angel, I have already taken other hard drugs and to be honest that was enough "enlightenment" for me.

[Anonymous No.18320681]

Every fucking thing needs experience. Even being a god damn park ranger in a national park needs a degree. You have to pour so much fucking time and money to do anything remotely more than working at McDonalds - it sends me crazy.

[Anonymous No.18320690]

>>18320160
so that's what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.18320694]

>>18320681
Learn a trade homo

[Anonymous No.18320699]

>>18320694
Sure, but even the requires several years of training and tuition fees before you can start an apprenticeship - at least in my country.

[Anonymous No.18320718]

>>18320699
What country

[Anonymous No.18320730]

i don't know if covid made me softer or the city harder, but i'm just tired.

[Anonymous No.18320735]

>>18320699
Just illegal hop the border into my country and you'll have exclusive access to our trade industry

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18320781]

>>18318024
>>18316810 (You)
>not him, but
>”church and state”
>are you a time traveler from the past? your christian bogeyman isn't a thing in the current day and age. for better or worse
Of course I know religion doesn’t play as big a role in daily lives the way they used to. It was merely preemptive in case it was brought up

[Anonymous No.18320794]

>>18320781
Whore

[Anonymous No.18320800]

>>18320781
I'm confused. Are you the real butterfly or the imitator?

[Anonymous No.18320804]

i wish i didn't have to come here and read bad opinions every day but the only way to find good opinions is to dig through miles of garbage. would be different if i had any friends or anyone cared about me but that's not the hand i've been dealt.

[Anonymous No.18320824]

i hear screaming coming from this abandoned building on the end of the block that's been taken over by druggies but i can't tell if they're just fucking loudly or someones getting killed.

[Anonymous No.18320851]

My girlfriend's internet is rangebanned from 4chan so I have to come home to post

Every time I go back to see her it's like going back into a frozen wasteland alone. I just want to stay here and post but she gets suspicious that I'm cheating on her if I don't see her for a few days

[Anonymous No.18320856]

>>18320824
What power do you have over the situation anyway? They might as well be watching the NBA play offs and getting overly excited. The outcome to you would be the same.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18320862]

>>18320800
Real

[Anonymous No.18320868]

I’m thinking about Rene Guenon and the Crisis of the Modern World

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18320872]

>>18320851

[Anonymous No.18320877]

>>18320856
this might sound ghoulish but that lady always harasses me asking for money, so i don't care. i did hear them arguing earlier in the night, but since they smashed out the lights on that part of the street i didn't see what was going on. oh well, there are closer houses than me, and i don't hear any cop cars so fuck it.

[Anonymous No.18320889]

>>18320208
post dildos

[Anonymous No.18320897]

>>18319665
Reading the bible (NKJV) has weakened my faith. I am starting to feel drawn towards Paganism even though it’s cringe and gay. But even if I did, I know in time that I’ll return to Christianity, because the beliefs are too deeply entrenched in my psyche.

[Anonymous No.18320910]

>>18320851
imagine being such a fucking loser you'd rather post on /lit/ than getting pussy LMAO

[Anonymous No.18320925]

>>18320910
a god

[Anonymous No.18320943]

>>18320862
Oh I thought the !m trip was the real one. Man this is fucking with me.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !mxvabIoSIE No.18320994]

>>18320943
bGBGaUpA8kS is the new one. Anyone using this one just knows the PW

[Anonymous No.18321068]

>>18320897
Have you investigated esoteric Christianity, like Anthroposophy or others who draw on the Essenes?

Perennialists and most pagans miss the personalist and adventist dimensions of religion, because they draw a false dichotomy between revealed historical religions like Christianity and the "austerity" of an empty mysticism/nature worship. Usually this is because they are so traumatized by losing their original naive faith in the religion of their childhood that they flee in the opposite direction until they hit a wall. They suddenly see their original faith as an arbitrary and contingent product of human errors and fantasies, and they want to make their spirituality as featureless as possible. This usually winds up as a form of reductive materialism, like "mysticism is just the bliss u feel when u realize u dont even exist."

If they retain the mystery of the spiritual but no longer believe in any one religion, they also often lose the moral dimension, becoming demon worshipers (amoral pagans stupidly asking for petty favors from unfathomable spirits). Which is precisely what God chose the Hebrews to put a stop to in the degenerate Bronze Age.

I think God embedded his message and will in human cultures at levels accessible to those cultures, and the freedom he gave, not just to us but to the whole universe of his creation, meant that he couldn't over-determine the whole process from start to finish. He has to work with humans as they are and we have as much a role to play as he does. But he obviously also has access to tools we can't (yet) understand, like maybe the ability to embed certain symbols and revelations, like Christ, at a level "deeper" than conscious revelation so that they don't dissipate into general mythology. For example the agony in the garden is apocryphal and a later interpolation. But maybe it's "true" anyway, in higher and deeper ways, so true that its lack of inclusion in the original text was a greater error.

That's just one small example of the ways in which a benevolent God and his angels and messengers could operate. The fact that you feel drawn to it despite what you've learned is interesting in itself. Why default to a reductive explanation, about how you just don't want to give up your spiritual security blanket? What if it's a deeper calling?

[Anonymous No.18321084]

Has anyone ever tried to bring up their fetishes with their significant other?

I've sometimes wondered about how you'd go about it. How do you talk about your fetishes to your wife or girlfriend? Do you just cut to the chase and be open about it, or do you kind of build up to your fetishes slowly?

[Anonymous No.18321092]

>>18319665
I'm an universal genius, I will go down in history as one of the Great Men of this century.

[Anonymous No.18321114]

>>18321068
Bro I'm not OP but is there a way I can email you and talk about this further? I feel similar and I really like the way you think

[Anonymous No.18321116]

Watching baseball. Go Giants

[Anonymous No.18321123]

There's a lesbian possibly bisexual girl at work that I simp for. I wonder if she notices..

She's really cute and I want to be her friend but I'm nervous.

[Anonymous No.18321127]

>>18321092
Say something smart, smart guy

[Anonymous No.18321134]

>>18320681
Being a National Park park ranger would be so kino. Too bad I'm too much of a mentally ill fuck up to do that or anything other than barely skate by in life

[Anonymous No.18321137]

>>18321068
I suppose I've always felt a calling to a deeper spirituality. Any esotericism however I have a tendency to dismiss, based on the pagan types you mentioned.
You have my interest. Where do I start with Esoteric Christianity?

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !mxvabIoSIE No.18321145]

>>18321123
Be her friend.
>she’s really cute
Don’t even entertain thoughts of it.
Friendship at work is thin stuff usually. Some coworkers hang out after hours, but I doubt you’ll get that close to her. Don’t stress it.

[Anonymous No.18321154]

>>18321123
just talk to her, fag

[Anonymous No.18321266]

What is it with leftists and their extreme disdain for anything ordinary? They despise anything considered normal on principle. Are their books about this?

[Anonymous No.18321315]

>>18321266
I think it is some sort of chain reaction. The SJWs are attempting to change what "normal" is so they are making assumptions that everything that is currently status quo must be bound by some old "repressed" ways. So while there is a social adjustment to find the new "normal" there will be an over reaction to practically ever social construct.

[Anonymous No.18321316]

im turning 27 soon. sigh.

[Anonymous No.18321333]

>>18321316
perfect age to kill yourself

[Anonymous No.18321348]

>>18321333
i wouldnt do that, anon. i'm beyond that now.

[Anonymous No.18321350]

>>18321333
Nah, the night before you turn 30 is when people start panicking: Am I married? Is my career where I want it to be? Do I even have any friends now that they've all started families? You get the idea.

[Anonymous No.18321370]

>>18321068
>esoteric Christianity
Fuck off with that Gnostic garbage, Jesus Christ has no intention of you chasing hidden knowledge, he only asks you for your undiluted faith.

Frater is the worst thing to happen to Christian discussions on this board.

[Anonymous No.18321379]

>>18321370
Based Archon Propagandist

[Anonymous No.18321406]

A family of foxes has moved into the area, I have seen a few of them oft by the side of the road driving home in the morning. A nightjar has nested in a tree above my house.
I am surrounded by a beautiful land which has been my home for twenty two years now. I have learned it well, and may walk the forest and field effortlessly, to lodge there is an easy matter. I have honed strength, so that I may toil for as the day is long without issue, and have studied, am studying, will study trade upon trade to make my way. And yet for all of this, I am bereaved by the cold nature of my being.
How is it that people can witness you fail catastrophically, build up mistakes like lashes upon your back, and yet still love you even when those mistakes hurt them? WHY do they do this, even when they have seen that you are, for all of that skill and drive, a worthless, lowly creature. WHY do they want you around, even when you makes their lives worse for the illnesses of the mind you have accrued?
Does that make you something of value, to be so loved, or does the mark of quality lie with them for tolerating your insufferable, harmful presence?
Where the fuck is the line drawn?

[Anonymous No.18321414]

>>18321370
>Gnosticism
>Esotaric Christianity
Though, to be fair, I do respect where you are coming from. Gnostics are hilariously wrong.

[Anonymous No.18321420]

>>18321406
*A family of foxes HAVE

[Anonymous No.18321434]

>>18319665

[Anonymous No.18321445]

convinced at this point that women are straight-up better. sure, most exceptional people throughout history have been men - but the *average* woman is leagues ahead of the average man. the average woman's personal and educational attainment is skyrocketing, where the average man is static or even backsliding - no wonder so many straight people have trouble finding a good partner.

[Anonymous No.18321490]

>>18321379
>>18321414
Gnosticism, Theosophy, Rosicrucianism, all of these have more in common with "Esoteric Christianity" than legitimate Christianity. Christianity is purely Exoteric and suggesting otherwise is a grossly heretical misinterpretation of Matthew 13:11 and John 16:12

[Anonymous No.18321555]

I should really stop drinking such a ridiculous amounts of caffeine but its probably the only thing which makes me semi functional throughout the day.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !mxvabIoSIE No.18321577]

>>18321555
Is there ever any going backs?
I had four shots earlier and I don’t know how I’m getting to sleep on time

[Anonymous No.18321584]

2020 still feels new to me.

[Anonymous No.18321687]

>>18321445
It's because the average man is a blackpilled incel who can't concentrate on studying

[Anonymous No.18321697]

>>18319665
The spurious mental magnification of forewarned tragedy serves to peel open the garrulous garter-wearing behemoth of floundering vicissitudes. Even further when purported spleen worship ceremonies are extraneously navigated leerily by barbarian quotient analyzers cramped in vertical serpent trajectories that never elude the voluptuous parsimony of reticent night-watchmen. Quiet curse folding of the xenon murder wave complex continues a manifold purse-string hegemony that has infinitely nudged our tendril phase wipers inward. This purple sleeve weaponry always congeals the lark momentum of plutocratic anarcho-tribal nomenclature that meta-foams procedurally.

[Anonymous No.18321840]

>>18319665
I'm contemplating murder.

[Anonymous No.18321844]

>>18321840
Then you shouldn't have mentioned it online, because if you become a suspect, this comment won't do your defense any favors.

[Anonymous No.18321860]

>>18321445
Idiot. Men's brains are 11% bigger, with an IQ 5 points higher on average. You swallowed too much pomo propaganda.

[Anonymous No.18321899]

>>18319665
I thought i was suicidal, impulsive thought would run through my mind. I thought i wanted death, but then why do i feel this anxiety to life, anxiety can never be worse than death. If i wanted really to die, i would welcome it? So as long as i am scared, then these thoughts can't be right.

also i'm ugly and i can't get over it, i know it's absurd to judge myself in such vanity. But i can't get over it, that my right for existence depends on my looks..

[Anonymous No.18321912]

>>18319882
And are you happy with that?
I have that somewhat but when I have broken from the norm/rebelled I look back on it positively. Even when what I did was bad in most people's eyes.
I'd say rebel while you're still relatively young. Don't fuck up your life completely but you can throw a wrench in there without it ruining everything. Makes you feel more alive

[Anonymous No.18321919]

>>18321840
Lets not

[Anonymous No.18321924]

>>18321840
Lets not turn this murder into a rape.

[Anonymous No.18321931]

>>18320699
Really?
I started a trade last year and they pay me pretty good. I was basically a liability for the first 6 months but they are so in need of people they don't care

[Anonymous No.18321932]

>>18319679
Fuck off, you aren't. He is supposed to come at the end, its not time yet.

[Anonymous No.18321975]

GJ-bu has two banners that I've seen so far -- and there could be more. GJ-bros, when will we stop winning?

[Anonymous No.18321987]

How do I get into poetry? I want to write all the beautiful things that happen around me so I can share it with friends. I am so sick of journaling, but I don't know where to start. I always go through this phase when I try to learn something new - If i can't find a breakthrough I give up before wasting my time.

[Anonymous No.18322020]

>>18321987
>poetry
>remember your short cringy poem which i send to my crush on her birthday
thanks for the blast from the past

[Anonymous No.18322022]

>>18322020
post it or at least post what you remember it was about
How, regardless of you age, did you not realise that was extremely autismo

[Anonymous No.18322097]

>>18322022
I dont really remember what i wrote but it was something really cringy. Yeah, i was 21 and i thought it would be a gift with more personalized touch. I probably had a higher chance if i'd just whip out my dick.

[Anonymous No.18322152]

>>18321931
What trade anon?

[Anonymous No.18322165]

>>18322022
Not him but, I once wrote this in a card to a gf:

>I like you lots
>You're my favourite
>Muffin in the box

Because she worked at a bakery

[Anonymous No.18322178]

The common state of man is that of a pig, so how is it surprising they chose the one that can gobble up the most as their leader?

[Anonymous No.18322194]

my favorite instrument is the sitar.

[Anonymous No.18322254]

>>18319704
ngmi

[Anonymous No.18322259]

>>18322178
>The common state of man is that of a pig
It's not
> they chose the one that can gobble up the most as their leader?
They don't

But it's a good first sentence for a pseud novel

[Anonymous No.18322272]

>>18322152
Mechanic that works on big central heating installations, water pipes and a lot of other things that come with it.
Work and colleagues are better than at my old office slave job. I'm just lucky there's a huge shortage of people, everyone in my country (netherlands) forget the practical work and go for stuff like communicstion/managing etc.

[Anonymous No.18322279]

>>18319665
Wish there was more book like Life and Death
Male Protagonist surrounded thirsty bitches that want his cock

yes, this is me begging for more books like this

[Anonymous No.18322381]

>>18321434
soiboy faggot bullshit

[Anonymous No.18322405]

>>18321414
the thing is that while many gnostics may be very odd, I really am sure that the Gospel of Thomas speaks undeniable truth. I'm in the process of learning about orthodoxy and there is so much about it that sounds exactly right (I watched an ortho priest talk about heaven and hell yesterday and it sounded exactly right and beautiful) BUT they rejected Thomas. I see Thomas in the gospels but perhaps even more so in Paul. So if they don't think Thomas is in Paul then what is it that they see in Paul? I think I will have to visit my local ortho church this summer and ask the priest.

[Anonymous No.18322407]

>>18321490
>paul doesnt say outright that after the churches master the basics he will initiate them into the mysteries

[Anonymous No.18322416]

>>18321840
I'm really happy I didn't

[Anonymous No.18322461]

my degree is a joke (political science) but it is a joke that will get me a job for as long as my country is a strong welfare state which may very well not cover the remainder of my life, so... I could switch majors but I'm pretty far gone and already pretty old to be honest (30, long story how I ended up in this position). I chose it because for the foreseable future it is safe. But my country is rapidly deteriorating and no one here knows what to believe anymore and the oligarchs are growing fatter and so what kind of a strat is it to barely shit my way through a degree that I think is a joke and doesn't really teach me anything truly applicable, where I learn somthing for an exam and really, truly forget it a day later. Not just saying that but actually, I remember nothing. Just a paper that will qualify me for government work, a government that is in decline. To be fair though I think I could somewhat enjoy government work. Maybe that's good enough. Make money while the ship sinks, have an ok time working somewhaht real problems with a team.. maybe it's ok. It's just hard motivating myself to not learn for a couple semesters more.

[Anonymous No.18322492]

>>18320610
Anon, I’m already doing all of that.

[Anonymous No.18322524]

right or left? for me it's left

[Anonymous No.18322540]

>>18320023
Good advice except don’t drink anything with calories. At all. No milk no sweeteners. Compare 300 calories of soda to 300 calories of any vegetable.

If you have weak willpower then use artificial sweeteners but liquid calories are what make you fat.

[Anonymous No.18322545]

>>18322524
Neither. White women are disgusting.

[Anonymous No.18322570]

>>18320009
>It’s a tragedy I haven’t necked already.
you'd have to find your neck first ahahaha!!!

[Anonymous No.18322575]

Alex Jones was right about everything

[Anonymous No.18322578]

>>18322524
left

[Anonymous No.18322590]

>>18322545
I want to say you're wrong but I know in my heart what you say is true. They're all fucking pigs in swan's clothing, literally every time you look at them you have to be reminded of the fact they had a nigger jam his manhood inside of her frail petite frame and receive his seed.

[Anonymous No.18322624]

>>18322524
Its the same person anon

[Anonymous No.18322634]

>>18322624
their tattoos are in different places

[Anonymous No.18322641]

>>18319665
Thread reminder that if your wife/gf was fucking other men you would have little in suspecting it and would get fucked in court anyway.

[Anonymous No.18322644]

>>18322624
yeah no shit but in one she's in better shape and got a tan
>>18322634
mirror

[Anonymous No.18322653]

>>18322644
Fat ass with small tits is the most disgusting combination

[Anonymous No.18322658]

>>18322653
garbage take. fuck you.

[Anonymous No.18322662]

>>18322461
If the only thing you care about is a job, why don’t you get a trade or enroll in some sort of vocational school?

[Anonymous No.18322679]

>>18322662
If I'm being genuine with you, I think it's because I see myself as a kind of guy that has a degree. This is the kind of life I was raised for and always viewed as safe. I am not a practically minded person. The thought has struck me that having a trade might be the best move in the modern west but it's really not where my talents are at.. I never prepared for that kind of work, I always knew I was gonna be a pseud

[Anonymous No.18322683]

>>18320851
Based

[Anonymous No.18322684]

>>18322679
Then get a degree but you know what you’re buying then. In my mind, a modern degree from a Western school is essentially a stamp of approval. It’s not training. It’s not experience. It’s not a ticket to a job. It’s an admission ticket to a job fair. It allows you in the building to shop around and nothing more.

[Anonymous No.18322692]

>>18322653
pleb

[Anonymous No.18322735]

>>18322692
Mutt

[Anonymous No.18322743]

>>18322658
>>18322692
Big tits on a small girl = best
Small tits on a skinny waifish girl = ok
Big tits on a fat girl = ok
Small tits on a fat girl = what's even the point?

[Anonymous No.18322769]

>>18322743
the girl in the pic wasn't fat though just hefty, she might've looked better with bigger tits but it doesn't matter that much in the end because ass/hips/thighs is much more important than tits

[Anonymous No.18322806]

>>18322769
Answer this question honestly: are you gay?

[Anonymous No.18322819]

>>18322461
>no one here knows what to believe anymore and the oligarchs are growing fatter and so what kind of a strat is it to barely shit my way through a degree that I think is a joke and doesn't really teach me anything truly applicable
In most countries, certainly the US, the oligarchs are growing fatter, but not more powerful. Their will is diffused, as they have too many conflicting interests in their grasp to move effectively. They are money making specialists, and that is their only effective function. The middle management specialists of government will always favor them, as the economy is the primary concern for any government, but as the oligarchs only manifest interest is making money, they have no direct power. No particular social change is favored save for stability of the economy, what is optimal for the economic engine, as every party must keep that engine humming, and those that cause so much discord that the economy is disrupted, fail, whether the government in question is elected or not. The oligarchs merely turn honey into more honey, the worker bees collect and collate materials to that end and make more bees, the manager bees distribute orders to maintain the hive's systems. There is no great collective controller beyond a collective desire that the hive be the strongest with the most honey to avoid being taken by the interests of other hives. Individuals, families, friends, communities and other collectives always aim for the best for themselves, bottom to top and top to bottom, but the national collective is the highest order after that of the global collective it manipulates and competes in. Even the global collective has no real control, so much as it is a meeting point between the competing interests where the like minded have the most influence, who maintain its various systems.

So the oligarchs 'getting fatter' isn't something that needs to be fixed, so much as they need a unifying direction for the national interest. You can redistribute all their honey to the masses, but you get the same result, as the core survival motivation of the national unit does not change. You can make it easier for more optimized units better at certain specialties to move into their proper ranks, but that process can only be so fluid before you disrupt the machinery and risk having people specialized for other functions in the wrong positions. For instance, you can end up with an oligarch, whose only purpose is to make money, or a worker bee, who specializes in plumbing, in a high social management position they are ill trained and ill-prepared for, leading to massive disruption. Thus you need a meritocracy of specialization. Unfortunately, this often turns into nepotism, due the fact that families will always aim for the best for themselves before what is best for their society, but in a functioning nation, when a dynasty fails to serve its function, it finds itself replaced with as little disruption as possible.

[Anonymous No.18322868]

>>18322806
not in the least

[Anonymous No.18323040]

I think that astrology is something that has a lot of truth if you're willing to really go into it. And im not talking yellow pages horoscopes or sun signs but rather natal charts and planetary transits.

[Anonymous No.18323072]

Miss you

[Anonymous No.18323180]

Girls who do heroin are not good to talk to.

[Anonymous No.18323284]

>>18319665
Today is my birthday, I turn 24. I don’t particularly feel any different, not that I have on any birthday. But I guess it’s the continued passage of time, in that I know I’m a different person than when I turned 21, or 18.

I’d like to think a younger me would be proud of the person they turned into. In 5 years if things were the same, that wouldn’t be so bad either. Have a good Wednesday anons.

[Anonymous No.18323292]

happy birthday anon
growing older is fun imo, you get more sure of who you are and less bothered. also it's fun that the older you get the more people there are who are younger than you, and feeling wise relative to them and watching them flounder is.. well it is fun. also you unlock gradually the ability to relate to the people who really know how to live, the 40 and ups

[Anonymous No.18323297]

>>18323292
>>18323284

[Anonymous No.18323314]

>>18323040
The more details you pull out of a universal lie, the more truths you will find, such is their design.

[Anonymous No.18323315]

>>18323040
I really think it's easy to infer "a lot of truth" if there is no conceivable proof for or against any of your premises, no criteria for being correct or incorrect, and no idea what is meant by terms like "confirmation bias"

[Anonymous No.18323321]

>>18323180
You can have an interesting conversation with some, to be sure, but yes, it is not wise.

[Anonymous No.18323372]

I love the ocean. I want to die in it some day. Maybe I was a sailor in a past life. Maybe I should’ve become a sailor in this one.

[Anonymous No.18323378]

this is gonna be one I fuck up. I get to crash this time. I can't tell how bad it is but probably not very. I hate it though, hate failing. I need the authority figure to tell me I did good.

[Anonymous No.18323389]

>>18323292
>>18323297
Thank you for the birthday wishes anon. And I agree. I think in general I’m a much more confident person in who I am and that’s something I’m very thankful for. I also know what you mean when seeing younger people flounder around, something about being asked for advice on life stuff makes me feel good. I like thinking I may have some wisdom to give even if in the grand scheme I’m still quite young

Cheers

[Anonymous No.18323569]

>tfw I have a highly professional powerpoint presentation due tomorrow in front of people I've never met, over zoom
>tfw my laptop suffers from a dailymail pop-up box issue where 1/6th of the screen gets blocked by a dailymail headline such as "Woman (22) Gangraped in India" due to some computer virus or something
>tfw I can't deactivate the pop-up boxes in any way
>tfw I have to share my screen and this shit will be seen at the meeting

[Anonymous No.18323674]

>>18323569
Either run some Malwarebytes or wait for the comedy gold.

[Anonymous No.18323677]

>>18323569
Install Ubuntu 20.04 alongside your main OS. Use Ubuntu for work. It's easier than it sounds.

[Anonymous No.18323687]

>>18322279
read harem mangas, maybe the Japanese have similar stuff in their light novels as well

[Anonymous No.18323780]

I wanted to stop being insecure about oxbridge so badly I've unironically signed up to do a PHD in law at Cambridge - probably fucking my finances for life.

[Anonymous No.18323809]

>>18319665
Pbuh

[Anonymous No.18323817]

dude i'm so tired

[Anonymous No.18323851]

>>18323677
>haven't used Ubuntu since 10.04
What's it like now

[Anonymous No.18323881]

>>18320109
Been there many times
Go look for a problem; get a bottle of liquor and just go out drinking and walking until you pass out in a ditch and that will reset you a bit

[Anonymous No.18323912]

>>18322743
Print this post out and show it to an endocrinologist
Guaranteed TRT prescription, faggot

[Anonymous No.18324039]

I waste time here because I hate my job.

I have to keep my job because I waste time here.

The cycle continues.

[Anonymous No.18324084]

>>18324039
how does wasting time here make you keep your job?

[Anonymous No.18324212]

>>18324084
Because I could easily build up another way of making money if I didn’t waste my time here instead

[Anonymous No.18324221]

After 5 days, i have finally taken a shit today

[Anonymous No.18324232]

>>18324212
They say do what you love and you'll never work a day in your life. Therefore you must find a way to make money by browsing /lit/.

[Anonymous No.18324239]

>>18324232
>>18324212
write erotic novels

[Anonymous No.18324240]

Im quite stressed writing one of the first major assignments in Gymnasium (a mix highschool/college) and its is due friday. I am doing work and I arent late yet, but i keep procrastinating. ADD is a bitch. I also cant wait to get my drivers license. I only need to complete two test, then I have it.

[Anonymous No.18324252]

>>18324232
I hate browsing this board and this site. I’m simply addicted.

>>18324239
I’ve considered it. Don’t know how to get started with that though.

[Anonymous No.18324296]

>>18324212
Could you really?

[Anonymous No.18324299]

>>18324296
Yeah

[Anonymous No.18324306]

>>18320192
you shouldn't expect enlightenment, you won't find any. but there's a reason why these substances are called psychedelic, consciousness expanding.
>2g
in many ways that's not a "full" dose. of course you didn't have that powerful an experience on a baby dose. pretentious as it may sound, some would say you haven't experienced the substance yet.
if you want to know what psilocybin is really like, do 5 dried grams, in darkness, silence, all by yourself, no distractions. that is where you will have an experience, I promise. if you want.

[Anonymous No.18324329]

>>18320910
it's called being an absolute fucking Chad

[Anonymous No.18324337]

>>18324299
Bro you can't even stop going to a website you hate, I really doubt you have the initiative to start a business

[Anonymous No.18324345]

>>18321420
Why?

[Anonymous No.18324358]

>>18320081
Maybe you can grab her hand and rub it in her leg. Who knows, it might work.

[Anonymous No.18324362]

>>18323072
are you the midge? is your post addressed to Dale Cooper?

[Anonymous No.18324375]

>>18320482
Basado

[Anonymous No.18324380]

>>18320171
based

[Anonymous No.18324401]

>>18321860
17% actually qua weight

[Anonymous No.18324430]

>>18321445
'Education' is propaganda
I was in medicine (60% female here) (dropped out after my bachelor's, the first half, for engineering) and these 'educated' women are straight up retarded, they just regurgitate shit they don't understand. Women just no life because their brains are so small and average they can't be creative and don't have any imperative of their own. They just take society's imposed goals upon them uncritically and swallow shit for status. Women are retarded as fuck and women's suffrage is a consequence of ressentisement and esklavenmoral. Society is pandering to women's brains hard because men want pussy and esklavenmoral reigns. Do not be fooled, women's educational attainment has no real value, it's just useless information and useless exams they brainlessly studied for because they're too dumb to do anything on their own.

[Anonymous No.18324432]

I feel the feelings of others, but not my own.

[Anonymous No.18324436]

>>18321555
Same, but I should really stop smoking such a ridiculous amount of marijuana but its probably the only thing which makes me semi functional throughout the day.

[Anonymous No.18324452]

Can anyone else slowly feel themselves getting apolitical?

[Anonymous No.18324456]

>>18321840
Why? What's the story?

[Anonymous No.18324470]

I realized the universe is conscious and all conscious lifeforms are disassociations from the universal one, but we are meta-conscious because we can be aware of our awareness

[Anonymous No.18324505]

>>18324470
I used to think like this but recently I wondered why do we only see consciousness in creatures that need it. Like, what's the point of being conscious if you're a dead man?

I feel like the materialistic viewpoint is more appealing to me now but I'm just a stoner with no background in philosophy whatsoever

[Anonymous No.18324546]

>>18324452
I think there are a lot of us. it's a kind of fatigue. young people are not voting nearly as much as the old

[Anonymous No.18324567]

>>18324470
that's retarded

[Anonymous No.18324580]

>>18319665
Facundo was boring

[Anonymous No.18324629]

Just defended my dissertation. All went well, one of the members of the board said it was one of the best manuscripts he read in our program.
But I had the idea of sharing my screen during the defense to illustrate something with a figure that was not in the slideshow and I alt tabbed into Spotify, which was paused halfway through Songs About Fucking. I hope no one noticed it.

[Anonymous No.18324689]

a fork in the road
one side and tragedy is just a word
the other and you are part of it

[Anonymous No.18324711]

>>18324337
Well I don’t have to prove anything to you so that’s fine

[Anonymous No.18324716]

I wish I didn’t have much of a family. I know that’s horrible but it’s true.

[Anonymous No.18324818]

>>18324629
lmao

[Anonymous No.18324827]

>>18324430
>women can't think for themselves
>now watch as a rotely spout off misogynist talking points
Lick my shit lol

[Anonymous No.18324835]

>>18324452
Being "apolitical" is just resigning yourself to whatever shit they throw at you

[Anonymous No.18324895]

Gfs birthday is tomorrow, just finished writing in her card and i can't get over the fact that i don't love her as much as I used to. My birthday was last week and she didn't really try to make it special (though that isn't her job) so maybe she feels similarly. Cant bring myself to break it off with her thought

[Anonymous No.18325034]

>>18324895
you two are wasting your time

[Anonymous No.18325095]

Vollmann is better than any living author

[Anonymous No.18325111]

>>18322819
meds.. take them.

[Anonymous No.18325148]

>>18325111
dilate faggot

[Anonymous No.18325152]

>>18325148
retard

[Anonymous No.18325156]

>>18324895
you should talk to her about feeling less of a spark

[Anonymous No.18325163]

>>18325152
seethe

[Anonymous No.18325165]

>>18319796
The UK has been in decline for some time and won't make a comeback. Investing time in reading about daily news in the UK is a waste of time.

[Anonymous No.18325174]

>>18325163
you will never be a woman

[Anonymous No.18325181]

>>18325174
ok

[Anonymous No.18325189]

>>18319796
no one cares, he's saying things people don't care about (boris says edgy things) and things people know (matt hancock is useless)

[Anonymous No.18325193]

>>18325181
>>18325174
>>18325163
>>18325152
>>18325148
>>18325111
this was all me - dont trust anything you read on the interline kids

[Anonymous No.18325253]

>>18324895
Spice up the sex life

[Anonymous No.18325278]

>>18319665
Vagina.

[Anonymous No.18325333]

Im really worried about what AI might do in the future.
Right now you can still see what's fake and what isn't,( >>>/wsg/3930723 ) but a time will come where AI will be able to accurately make anything.

[Anonymous No.18325340]

I foretold/willed that a girl I met in college would message me today and she did
This happens very often to me, some Demian shit is going on

[Anonymous No.18325389]

>>18325340
Early stages of schizophrenia

[Anonymous No.18325578]

Whenever i see a beautiful girl have sex, i immediately think less of her, as if she's tainted and degraded now, reduced to an animal. I even feel this way when i have sex with a woman, i cant stand to look at them after that.
No im not a catholic.

[Anonymous No.18325739]

when I wake up tomorrow I have to get working on a paper and hten work at it a lot. I do not want to do this. that is all.

[Anonymous No.18325896]

>>18325340
I dreamt of an old friend two nights in a row and then the next morning she texted me. Telepathy is real anon.

[Anonymous No.18325925]

I'met a girl who loves me, but I'm not sure how I feel about her. So far she's treated me perfectly, even buying me gifts, but because I'm depressed, it doesn't make me as happy as it should and I think that kind of shows. But there's also an age gap. I'm 22 and she just turned 29. And when I write it now it feels pretty huge. If we truly love each other then it doesn't matter, but do I love her? I don't know. I feel shitty for thinking of it this way but a 6-7 year age gap isn't a trivial thing, especially not for someone my age. And I really want to feel like I'm spending my 20s with someone my age who I can relate to best, so it's hard. But I still feel part selfish and part stupid for feeling this way, because she's been nothing but perfect to me so far and so if anyone is to blame for making it that our relationship won't work it should be me.

[Anonymous No.18326079]

>>18324306
>that is where you will have an experience, I promise. if you want
I'll try it sometime since I have a friend who grows it, but I'm in no rush. Would rather "not get it" than go overboard and become a brain-fried hippie

[Anonymous No.18326114]

>>18325925
do you find it hard to relate to her? for me it's always been easier to relate to people who are 5+ years older

[Anonymous No.18326149]

>>18319665
I got one exam left this year, two weeks for prepping. The class teacher, who's just supposed to be a prepper at this point, is a passive-aggressive prick. I'm gunning for a near-perfect score, but he's doing as little as possible to help me achieve that. Fuck him.

This weekend, I'm heading to the birthday party of a longtime on-off practice gf. I was moving past her but lockdown really interrupted my advances in life. She's still a good friend though, and she's been gaining more based politics over the past few weeks.

[Anonymous No.18326192]

I'm kinda glad that I'm not Jewish. Not that I particularly hate Jews, but I can't personally stand the idea of the entire world hating my group regardless of personal culpability.

[Anonymous No.18326207]

>>18325925
I would suggest really considering if you truly like her and ending the relationship before it goes further IF you do not. It is better to end it sooner rather than drag it on if only one side is invested.

[Anonymous No.18326265]

>>18326192
No wonder they are so neurotic.

[Anonymous No.18326271]

>>18325925
Be wary of kids.

[Anonymous No.18326456]

>>18326192
yeah if you thought the lockdowns and shit sucked just imagine knowing that could happened to your group anytime the general population needs a scapegoat

[Anonymous No.18326483]

How do you convert someone from Marxist to human?
He hadn't been exposed to anything outside neocon finger wagging before me and I'm making progress but I need a stronger base for persuasion

[Anonymous No.18326485]

i'm hella tired

[Anonymous No.18326497]

I want to ask/lit/ or /his/ or some board if there are any good books on the history of bestiality but I'm afraid I'll get permabanned.

[Anonymous No.18326523]

>>18326483
the counter to marxism isn't rightwing super free market shit, but a nuanced understanding of economics and development. marxism has a really simplistic model of the world hidden under a bunch of impressive sounding jargon. show him a more mature understanding of how economic development works. the great courses class "foundations of economic prosperity" is a decent example of this kind of shit. i think yale open courses and mit opencourseware have some similar classes too if your friend is more likely to influenced by those brands.

[Anonymous No.18326534]

I want to punch my boss in the face

[Anonymous No.18326549]

>>18326483
this is a good non-ideological book about creating sustainable prosperous communities

[Anonymous No.18326569]

>>18326114
Nah it's easy to relate, I've always related well to older people since I was young.
>>18326207
I should like her. She has no real flaws, the kind of girl many lonely guys would kill to be with. She has a great body, she's patient, kind, generous (bought me several steam games), is open to sex, and is in love with me. In fact, I'm the first guy she's ever loved. From what I read from other guys, I'm extremely lucky to find a girl like this. The only issue is she's a bit older than me. Well, and she lives on another continent.

But even if she were younger, and everything was perfect, there's still one other thing. Since I have depression, my feelings don't work the way they should, and it's extremely hard to maintain a relationship in this way when I physically can't feel the same emotions for her than she does for me. She is basically flawless, so I should, but my brain is kind of fucked up and my emotions just aren't working right. But I like being around her still. That sounds like a "You see her as a friend and not a lover" kind of thing, but it's not like that. I want to love her, but I can't feel love in general - even toward my family - so it's extremely hard. All I want is to be healthy again and feel normal emotions, so I could be happy with her, but that looks impossible.

Maybe then you get why this is so tricky. If I break up for this reason then she will blame herself, when that's not the case at all. But if I don't it would be like lying in a way, concealing my true emotions a bit in the hopes everything goes well. I really don't know what to do

[Anonymous No.18326579]

>>18326523
>>18326549
Thanks, I've had success convincing him of private property and how shit the technology driven security state is in commie land but what I really can't stand is the leveling of everyone to the same subhuman existance that they're obsessed with. Economics is secondary to me

[Anonymous No.18326591]

>>18326569
I would suggest thinking some more on this and perhaps discuss your feelings with her. However, in doing so, it might end the relationship.

Mentioning your depression might help.

[Anonymous No.18326593]

I'm fully functional after 3.5 hours of sleep. How?

[Anonymous No.18326599]

>>18326591
Yeah I think I should admit I'm depressed. It would explain a lot, and I think she'd be understanding. If it turns out it's too much to bear, then that's that I guess.

[Anonymous No.18326601]

>>18324345
“A family of foxes” is singular, the person correcting you is, embarrassingly, wrong.

[Anonymous No.18326611]

>>18326593
manic energy, enjoy it while it lasts

[Anonymous No.18326629]

>>18326593
Do this for an entire week and see how you feel

[Anonymous No.18326673]

>>18326593
Something, something, cortisol.

[Anonymous No.18326840]

I'm drinking less and I think it's because I've begun to think of drinking as a situation rather than a problem. I've been in and out of rehabs and recovery groups for 15 years and the end result was always a bunch of bullshit. I'm drinking as much as I want to and it's less than it used to be and I'm pretty psyched. Also, fuck AA in the face.

[Anonymous No.18327033]

I aggressively pursued a girl that obviously didn't care for me but I never saw the signs before it was too late. I realize now that I chase women to prove my heterosexuality and virility to myself because I'm a sex-afraid virgin who was molested when I was six years old. I constantly fluctuate between avoidant fear and persistent aggression.

[Anonymous No.18327310]

>>18324452
>Can anyone else slowly feel themselves getting apolitical?
Can't really be political in the states. The only two parties don't give a damn about anything political, being practically identical on any subject that is actually related to politics, and instead are obsessed with making each other cry about a battle between the sexes to the edge of civil war, like a drunk collectivist mom and a drunk individualist dad constantly punishing their children for loving the other, in a household where divorce isn't an option.

It's no wonder that, in every state that allows them to vote in primaries, the unaffiliated are the majority. Those are the only actual political folks that aren't simply off on a mission from God to punish either racists or the gays or some shit, but they have no one to vote for. For everyone else it's not about politics or idealism, but blind allegiance to making the other color tie suffer in any way they can, which is totally not an ongoing formula for disaster.

[Anonymous No.18327346]

>>18325333
We've lived in a post-reality world for generations. Facts don't matter in regards to anything remotely controversial and collective solipsism reigns supreme. Deep fakes are the least of the threats from an AI.

[Anonymous No.18327362]

I need to stop drinking right this minute. But it is my only source of momentary blessed non-consciousness of past and future though I know the past will always chase me and the future will always bear down on me. It is no solution, but in some perverted way it at least gives me back the present which is so often divvied up between past and future. Yet the further I drink myself into this false freedom the more the horrors of the past and future converge on the petty pathetic moment and make the doom it flees real.

[Anonymous No.18327604]

How long do I have before my mind begins to degrade to create works of art that will outlive me? Have I already passed the point of no entry? I just want to create yet I am in the process of learning the technical skills of creative endeavors, art, writing, structuring thought. I'm 23, am I too old to ever be truly marvelous at these activities? Why must I torment myself like this.

Guess I'll just go back to writing fanfiction and practice the craft of writing itself. If I can't make an interesting story with characters already established in pop culture then what hope do I have of even weaving characters into a bland tapestry. A good soup is more than good ingredients.

[Anonymous No.18327643]

>>18325578
Madonna-whore complex?

[Anonymous No.18327648]

It’s not the Jews
It’s the Germans.

[Anonymous No.18327688]

Why didn't a join the military? I yearn for adventure, violence and emotion all day, yet when I got called to serve in the military I chickened out and had to find a way to escape from it. I dream about being Alexander, but when the doors opened to me I looked away. Instead, I went to study Law, a career which seemed much more suited for someone of my kind, but one that doesn't satisfy me, one where the glory and beauty I yearn for seems too far away.
All I have now are my books, my music and my dreams of a greatness that will probably never come.

[Anonymous No.18327725]

I found today that I am descended from an English knight who was a bodyguard of King Henry XIII. And some of my ancestors were among the few to arrive on US shores from Europe.
Where's my old money at then? When I am in fact the dauphin and rightful heir of half of Britain? II ought to press my claim.

[Anonymous No.18327752]

>>18327033
same

[Anonymous No.18327849]

Never trust a junkie

[Anonymous No.18327893]

The future is a disease. Tomorrow is a health risk.

[Anonymous No.18327976]

>>18321316
Cool. I just turned 27 today.

[Anonymous No.18327992]

>>18327604
just start doing it right the fuck now you bitch!!!!!

[Anonymous No.18328006]

>>18327688
You can join the army at literally any time anon

[Anonymous No.18328056]

>>18327033
>I realize now that I chase women to prove my heterosexuality and virility to myself because I'm a sex-afraid virgin who was molested when I was six years old.
just give in and take the gay pill
all men who were sexually abused as children end up being gay

[Anonymous No.18328073]

>>18328056
nah be bisexual and lord over others

[Anonymous No.18328126]

I met a girl a few nights ago who I instantly fell for, and she for me. The issue is I'm already sleeping with one girl, hopelessly in love with another, and met a girl a week before her that I've been spending time with. I didn't seek any of these situations out, they just happened. That might sound like bragging but it's honestly awful and I feel like shit about it. This newest girl feels like something special but I'm a weak-willed spiritual waste who doesn't have the balls to not monkey branch like a manwhore and have at least a couple girls as a backup at any given time. I told myself I wouldn't get into the same cycle with this new girl and here I am being a lunatic bastard hopelessly head over heels for her when I'm in no place to provide love to anyone.

A few years ago I wanted to be a monk. Even spent time living in a monastery. Now I'm a hedonistic manwhore breaking hearts and being dishonest because I get too much validation from being wanted. At the end of the day, I probably wouldn't want any girl. Even though on the surface I find myself infatuated with them, deep down it's practically ego masturbation and I'm merely unwittingly dragging these girls into my fetish. I feel insane, cowardly, degenerate. I want to escape but I'm trapped in my own vanity and lust. The idea of ending these relationships and taking refuge in God feels right but I know I'm absolutely unwilling to do so. I don't know what to do with myself anymore.

[Anonymous No.18328337]

She's on my mind.
I texted her today, after a prolonged period of months in which I texted her maybe twice, with zero responses.

The only difference was that, unlike the other couple of times, today she answered.

She responded with aridness; she was not as excited to hear from me, as I was hearing from her.

In the end, I texted:
"... have a good day, and rest of your life."

She replied:
"Okay bye".

...

[Anonymous No.18328382]

The cab drops me off more or less precisely according to the coordinates, written in a large and decidedly elegant, flowing script upon the corrugated business card with which I have supplied him. I present to him the standard gratuity of two thousand and fifty percent of the fare itself, with an extra seven atop for services satisfactorily rendered, and exit the vehicle. The cabbie shoots me a dirty look from beneath his prominently Cro-Magnon brow as he drives past. Out the window, I catch something muttered; it could have been in reference to his wage, which I make out to be three and a half cents per hour. I do feel poorly for the man, but I’ve no time to ruminate nor make redress, for I am arrived here with only three hours’ time to spare before an appointment with my prospective boss; a man I’ve never met. I will have to make a mental note for later of a conversation which might be broached with acquaintances, perhaps over cocktails, about the terrible conditions of the modern age, and what we might do to fix it. But there is no time for any of that precisely at this moment.

Before me rises a building of relatively incomparable immensity clad in gleaming steel alloy arabesque punctuating an otherwise unbroken wall of sheer glass of a decidedly superlative quality which extends up into the sky and breaches the cumulonimbuses which meander through crystalline skies like African porcines of the kind which you might find mounted faddishly--though somehow and often surprisingly always in pristine taste--upon the wall or even in taxidermy within the living spaces of men far greater than I. It is pertinent, for purposes of establishing my credibility, to note that I do from time to time find myself brushing briefly elbows with them. I can be confident in the statement that I do run in their circles, however tangentially.

In grand, arching Helvetica rise from two or three stories’ height some letters in statuesque composition of the name of the company at which I will begin shortly to work: Bill’s Shill and Fill (Formerly Art’s). Although my degree is in phrenology, I have been recruited--through rigorous references and at the glowing recommendation of the esteemable men and women with whom I studied at Shartford--to work for this titan of industry despite my admittedly tenuous hold upon the specifics of its day-to-day operation.

I have gathered through my research that the company’s history is one of struggle and triumph; trials and tribulation; and of rising above a murky past into prominence. Although under Art’s ownership the company had drawn some negative attention from the government and press, its transition to Bill’s leadership has seen it grow to frankly astonishing heights as the world’s leading combination advertising and landfill conglomerate. This was, of course, only the beginning.

[Anonymous No.18328429]

why do you write? fame, money? the self-indulging fulfilment of doing "art"?

[Anonymous No.18328453]

Everyday I say to myself that I should be more compassionate but everyday I keep callings anons subhuman and faggots.
One failure after another.

I am feeling sorry for being a rude cunt.

>>18328429
Search for beauty in an ugly world, a little act of courage in front of death, quest for self esteem and immortality.

[Anonymous No.18328692]

>>18328337
Pathetic

[Anonymous No.18328708]

just waiting for a miracle to happen

[Anonymous No.18328761]

>>18325340
>>18325896
Synchronicity. Doesn't mean you 'caused' it or even prophesied it but it's no less interesting.

[Anonymous No.18328787]

I caught feelings for him
He's texting me but we both suck at texting

[Anonymous No.18328800]

>>18328787
Faggot. Praying you die of AIDs (homosexuals have overwhelming amount of parasites in their stomachs from eating each others poop).

[Anonymous No.18328806]

>>18328056
POOP EATIN' FAGS
PROVING ITS JUST A CIRCULAR CULT OF SELF-ABUSE

[Anonymous No.18328810]

>>18326601
thought as much. it wasn't my writing, I was just wondering what that correction was about

[Anonymous No.18328811]

I'm at the airport right now. I got patted down at security. The guy brusquely asked me "What's in your pocket, man?" "Nothin," I said, and he pointed at a screen with a diagram of a human body and a yellow blob on its hip. There really was nothin.

[Anonymous No.18328814]

>>18328811
COuld be a tumor anon go get it checked out

[Anonymous No.18328819]

>>18328814
Maybe I got one from the Chinese flu vaccine.

[Anonymous No.18328821]

>>18328819
Possibly, can't believe you actually got a vaccine. It's not even cleared clinical trials yet, they don't even know where the virus originated from.

[Anonymous No.18328830]

I hate sex scenes in literature.

[Anonymous No.18328836]

>>18325333
I've seen stuff way more convincing than that, and I suspect the tech exists already, somewhere, to create almost seamless fakes. it's an interesting time

[Anonymous No.18328839]

>>18328830
Same. I've never read a really good one, one that feels worth being put to paper. The only appeal is when I'm horny.

[Anonymous No.18328840]

>>18328836
In the future everything will be fabricated. We're already headed on that road with cancel culture.

[Anonymous No.18328851]

>>18328840
well if it keeps going like this and keeps accelerating on the same route, it's not looking good. but who knows what will happen. does not take much to derail a government, a society, a civilization. imagine what would happen if instead of the kung flu, we got an actually really really deadly virus. a proper modern Plague. it would be the apocalypse, no two ways about it. just look at the chaos this thing caused. we're not any more equipped for dealing with this shit than medieval people were.

[Anonymous No.18328856]

>>18328800
Don't worry, I'm pretty heterosexual for a faggot

[Anonymous No.18328859]

>>18325333
lmao that one is fucking hilarious

[Anonymous No.18328872]

I have bene getting gangstalked for the last 4 1/2 weeks ever since I called a local politician a living Jewish ponzi scheme and told him I knew all about the Kitos War.

[Anonymous No.18328881]

>>18328872
They hire off duty cops to follow me,

[Anonymous No.18328882]

>>18328821
I had to for my job, otherwise I wouldn't have. Not because the virus or vaccine are suspect but because I hate getting shots.

[Anonymous No.18328886]

>>18328882
We live in a world where we are so at the mercy to fiat currency we have to inject ourselves with experimental medicine just to "prove" that we heckin love science and society.

[Anonymous No.18328896]

>>18328872
There's going to be a gang war between the Navy Seals and the CIA by 2032. 2036 is when the world ends.

[Anonymous No.18328910]

One time we had a Nature walk for a biology class. It was pretty nice, an autumn day that's just in the early "golden hour" of its peak. There's a real great time to go for a walk. I remember I was stuck with a partner (the assignment involved cataloging) who could barely speak English. She was from Moldova and at least 30 years old. She had a funny name I can't recall even if I tried now. I remember her breasts and flat face, she had brown hair that was put up in a tight bun. Her breasts were the perfect size and had a good firm grip to them. I touched them "on accident" when I feigned tying my shoe lace. I recall apologizing to her but she laughed, I think she was just confused. I notice most people are confused when they get sexually assaulted for the first time, I can understand that because it's not something they assume automatically.

Later on in the walk our group got a bit lost. There were a series of paths around the campus and our professor was one of those "hippie" types that never leaves their mansion. A real grassfed burger if you ask me. The Moldovan girl got sexually assaulted twice that day, because I gently rubbed my hand across her ass when she bent over to pick a rock up. She didn't know this was me because I hid behind several other students. I masturbated to this when I got home (It was around the time I was masturbating heavily and reading Vonnegut and James Joyce). It was an okay feeling.

I tried asking her out on a date the next class but her English was simply too poor. I realized I could tell her anything and she would barely understand. Sometimes I used to speak "pig latin" to her and tell her that I wanted to see her naked and urinate on her stomach. She used to laugh then. I wonder if she's laughing now.

[Anonymous No.18328913]

>>18328910
I am not a Bisexual but one time I did hold the door open for a man. He had a plain brown coat on and it was a little windy outside. He was perfectly capable of getting the door himself, and to be honest it was rather an instinctual move. I had just left and the wind hit me when I saw him from the corner of my eye. I held that door open and he walked past with a "Than'ye..." you know the sort of muffled "thanks" you get when someone is a little surprised and embarrassed.

I didn't stare at his body and didn't think about him getting into his car. But that was probably the first Homosexual experience in my life.

[Anonymous No.18328923]

i have to go and get my mother from the train station in an hour

[Anonymous No.18328931]

>>18328913
What was the second

[Anonymous No.18328937]

>>18328931
The second Homosexual Experience I had was when I got a hold of a camera I had stolen from a class mate on a field trip to a public park. It was at the end of the school year and we were all looking to blow a little steam. I saw his parents had let him borrow a digital camera for the trip, probably to take some lasting memories. I couldn't help myself and decided to steal the camera and look at the pictures in the toilet.

There wasn't anything too interesting. It was around the time of "MySpace" and "Xanga" and some other early iterations of social media and his pictures were mostly the proto-Selfie of that time period. I looked at them while I went to the toilet and decided to photograph the handle of the stall. I felt kind of strange doing this, because I was mostly naked and had just emptied my bowels into the toilet bowl which I proceeded to take a photograph of as well.

I found him later on in the day and was able to successfully sneak the digital camera back into his pack without him noticing. He was really upset because he thought he had lost it. I don't blame him, I think he would have gotten into a lot of trouble back home if his parents found out he didn't have the camera.

On the ride home he was somewhat pale and quieter. I watched him a lot during the ride, it was about 2 hours - maybe even a little less. He didn't speak much. I felt a little proud and a little messy about the whole thing.
My problem is my Sexuality is a bit of a scatter point graph. What I mean is, I have a lot of pleasure in the results of my actions. If I had written the story with the fact that my Homosexual Experience was having sex in the toilet with him, maybe this would have been a lot more clear. But I think defecating and taking a photo of the room of creation and then watching him on the bus ride home as he came to terms with what he had discovered on his temporarily missing camera as something meta-erotic. Is it Olympian? I can't think of a term that fits the glove.

[Anonymous No.18328965]

APOPHIS KILLED ARYANDOM

[Anonymous No.18328988]

Turn the table look at the moon and from there is a spot on the plate for us to devour... if you can't see the way of the oooooceeeean bllluuueee light! lamps on the starboard side of the port in the summertime

[Anonymous No.18329007]

he bougt the old stardbuster down the toast for a little wiggie while of the nile where he met a little niggie crocodile. there was a france in the pant that tried to survive on nothing but roots

but he couldnt grasp
what the knowledge of thep ast said
annd tahts get out of way of the jute jute jute

[Anonymous No.18329011]

Creepling down the moalley -ohh.
to find the great ohhh dallly -ohhhhhh

where in your heart
you 7 2 3
and the W, W, W. canter-eeeeeee
kroppy kom!!! com!!! DOT the way of the com com but a cargo sally--ohhh daaaaaaaay

[Anonymous No.18329026]

>>18328056
No thanks. I’ll stick to writing prose.

[Anonymous No.18329035]

Can you help the broken robots with words, or must they each be sentenced to finding their own way alone?

[Anonymous No.18329090]

>>18328937
I've read these before but they're funny as fuck, you should post them early in the thread next time

[Anonymous No.18329096]

>>18329035
words are not sufficient, words alone cannot help. they can't hear the words if they don't have ears to hear. sometimes there just is no communication

[Anonymous No.18329504]

>>18326192
Shut the fuck up you retarded goy. (((We))) don't care how much the world hates (((us))). (((We))) always will come out on top. Why are goys such retarded savages?

[Anonymous No.18329979]

>>18328382
please continue

[Anonymous No.18330492]

>>18319882
Have sex.

[Anonymous No.18330509]

I dated this girl. In my head she seems like the hottest chick ever but her photos aren't good and everyone said she's not all that. I broke up with her and now I miss her. Ah well on to the next.