Write what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.18141279]

[Anonymous No.18141296]

>>18141279
I'm failing to understand why people are turning eldritch beings, creatures who are beyond our comprehension, into cute anime girls.

[Anonymous No.18141299]

>>18141296
Money.

[Anonymous No.18141300]

>>18141296
Because it's hot.

[Anonymous No.18141303]

tfw K-On was 12 years ago

[Anonymous No.18141316]

What is so profoundly sad about a happy little children, /lit/?
Echo of >>18141265 >>18141280
since it was at the very end of last thread

[Anonymous No.18141325]

Should I even go to my old friend’s wedding? It’s on the other side of the country and I have barely got any money at all. I’m also the only one of us who’s life hasn’t improved at all and is still single. Actually, all of them make a lot of money or are married now that I think about it...

[Anonymous No.18141327]

>>18141325
How big is your country?

[Anonymous No.18141348]

is it really worth it to get a masters in cognitive science ?

[Anonymous No.18141349]

>>18141316
They're destined to become us, and we no longer share any illusions about life. Their innocence is, unironically, a treasure steadily being eroded by time.

[Anonymous No.18141351]

>>18141327
It's Luxembourg.

[Anonymous No.18141356]

>>18141351
>make a lot of money in Luxembourg terms

Better give it a miss anon, they may mistake you for a palace servant

[Anonymous No.18141359]

>>18141303
Party Rock Anthem was 10 years ago.

[Anonymous No.18141363]

>>18141359
It was a better time

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>>18141325
Free food. Pick up some bridesmaids

[Anonymous No.18141368]

>>18141327
It’s the United States. I’m in Massachusetts. They’re in California.

[Anonymous No.18141369]

>>18141303
>>18141359
dude, holy shit ex-military dropped ten years ago, bro, what the fuck

[Anonymous No.18141374]

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[Anonymous No.18141376]

>>18141364
I doubt I even could and am not sure I even want to. You seem to have glossed over the part where I said I’m the only one who’s life hasn’t improved.

[Anonymous No.18141387]

I hate when fiction books have "A Novel" on the cover or under the title. I don't know if the publishers do it, or the author, but there is this irritating false modesty about it. Like what they are really saying is "A mere novel", brushing away and distancing themselves from the efforts, and the reception to them, you know they have their egos staked on.

[Anonymous No.18141388]

I'm not made for this world. I was made wrong.

[Anonymous No.18141392]

Small males and large females are the master race. /sci/ jannies banned me from the board for making the thread about it. Fuck jannies.

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>>18141376
It is far away (I was going on the assumption it was Luxembourg) I’d still go if they paid for a ticket and a room or whatever. If they’re not the kind of friends who can help you out of tough times, at least have a look around and enjoy yourself.

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>>18141392
No new breakthroughs, no new threads.

[Anonymous No.18141432]

There's a girl online that's fallen in love with me but she's also a little crazy

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18141437]

>>18141432
How many miles apart?

[Anonymous No.18141456]

>>18141437
11044 kilometers or 6862 miles

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18141491]

>>18141456
Does she seem the sort that would be a stalker?
Could you give more details?

[Anonymous No.18141500]

>>18141402
They didn’t. I haven’t even received my invitation in the mail yet. Maybe I’m not even invited after all. As for friends to help me out of tough times, I doubt it but it’s not like there’s “tough times”. It’s all one big “tough time”.

I hate myself desu. Thanks for reading my blog.

[Anonymous No.18141510]

>>18141279
Fuck everything it's so fucking fake and everyone pretends it isn't. If you try to make an offhand comment about it you're ignored, if you just flat out say it you lose all your friends.
All it takes to see how fake everything is is to spend 6 months at a job. You see all the lies that are paved over and function "Well enough" as truth. Then you just extrapolate that to every industry (including and especially the engineering industries.)
If you'd seen what I've seen you'd never drive on a bridge again.
Thank God I stopped giving a shit about all this. I just live my life and let everyone else live too afraid to try to force me to believe their lies. They're probably so thoroughly self-deceived that they think I believe in them.
Pic very related

[Anonymous No.18141519]

>>18141491
Just kinda obsessive I think
I met her on a japanese message board and now she won't stop blogging about me

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18141531]

>>18141500
*hugs*

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18141536]

>>18141519
Is she asian/Japanese? Now I’m getting the impression this is cute. Hmm

[Anonymous No.18141544]

I really do hate myself actually. I don’t know. I don’t really have anything else on my mind. I never do anymore. I’m just not happy and well, I don’t see a way to be happy. Maybe I can see one but I just don’t, or won’t. Or maybe I’m just fundamentally broken. I don’t really know but it doesn’t matter to me anymore. I don’t like who I am or who I’ve been and that’s all there is to it.

[Anonymous No.18141552]

>>18141536
Yeah, see pic related
Those are all results from her going into random threads just to talk about me

[Anonymous No.18141553]

Being a volcel is hard sometimes.

[Anonymous No.18141558]

What do you think about the concept of "Black Anality"?

>“Black Anality” argues that “black” and “anal” are rendered ideologically, discursively, and representationally synonymous, and that black female flesh becomes the material space on which this convergence occurs. Drawing on an archive of online, widely accessible black pornographies, I develop the term black anality to describe how black pleasures are represented as peculiarly and particularly oriented toward the anus, and thus as peculiarly and particularly attached to anal ideologies. In doing so, I depart from black feminist scholarship, which has long examined the buttocks as an imagined locus of racial-sexual difference and which has developed a set of analytics that now predominate in the study of black female sexualities: spectacularity, excess, grotesquerie, and display. “Black Anality” offers a new set of analytics for black feminist work on sexuality: spatiality, waste, toxicity, and filth. These analytics, I argue, allow black feminists to consider how black female sexuality is imagined to be rooted in (and perhaps generative of) certain kinds of filthy spaces, particularly the ghetto; how black sexuality is constructed as literally and metaphorically dirty; how black sexuality is posited as toxic, non-productive, and nonreproductive; and how black sexuality is imagined as wasteful. In turning attention to this understudied and overdetermining space — the black anus — “Black Anality” considers the racial meanings produced in pornographic texts that insistently return to the black female anus as a critical site of pleasure, peril, and curiosity.

[Anonymous No.18141564]

>>18141536
would it be cute if it was a guy? or just creepy and weird

[Anonymous No.18141565]

>>18141558
Black women are disgusting.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18141588]

>>18141544
You’re not on opioids are you?
Study some Epicureanism, Daoism and Zen. Let go of expectations and learn to embrace your self
https://youtu.be/hBWDIzHldPg

>>18141552
I think she’s worth at least a visit. Maybe a little off, but manageable
>>18141564
I do see your point. The only difference is her biological clock may be what’s making her this way. Do guys have biological clocks?

[Anonymous No.18141596]

>>18141588
It's not a clock, just a constant, unceasing, gnawing loneliness and urge to coom.

[Anonymous No.18141611]

Everyone has imaginary arguments, but I have them and get frustrated because the other person doesn't understand the point I'm trying to make. It's so meaningless.

[Anonymous No.18141612]

>>18141588
>I think she’s worth at least a visit. Maybe a little off, but manageable
She seems to have some self-esteem issues and overthinks stuff I say, the kind of person that will say some really self-hatred style stuff from time to time and you need to tell them to knock it off. But I guess that's the only flaw. I like her.

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>>18141612
You’re a white guy?
I hear East Asian girls can get obsessive about them sometimes

[Anonymous No.18141684]

>>18141667
she's literally calling him "master american" lol

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » No.18141697]

https://discord.gg/FBFdYbwJ

[Anonymous No.18141702]

>>18141667
Yeah, my japanese is pretty good which is kinda rare
I guess it's not a bad thing if girls act clingy. I wouldn't really mind too much
but if the interest is too fetishistic then it's kinda lame, I don't think anyone wants to just be viewed like a stereotype or something (not that that's the case here)

[Anonymous No.18141705]

>human's brains are designed to solve problems and thus there will always be dissatisfaction
>in other words, if we don't have any problems, our brains will create them
>therefore, there's no point on creating anything good and humans should seek out suffering instead
I know this sounds like babby's first nihilism, but this has always legitimately frightened me. I'm starting to think the reason i'm so mentally ill is because of my sheltered youth disconnected from all legitimate suffering or struggle and simply sidestepping or blissfully ignoring the closest i had to problems, and even trying to make up for it nowadays by being less of a bitch and trying to face adversity now, the damage is already done and i'm still affected by crippling chronic rare mental illness.
Do you guys believe passivity and a lack of suffering can cause mental illness, or other similar stuff? Is the only way to solve this going Brave New World and inventing real life Soma?

[Anonymous No.18141707]

>>18141702
What is that shit about turning into a cat about?

[Anonymous No.18141712]

new flying lotus album, too bad he hasn't had anything good since cosmogramma, this doesn't have too many assholish features, so there's a chance it'll be good

[Anonymous No.18141715]

>>18141279
What could be considered a neutral way of wording "and perhaps of more concern is..."? I feel no matter how I spin it I end up not sound neutral. interesting makes it sound almost positive, etc

[Anonymous No.18141718]

>>18141707
It's VIP, that's just a shitpost
Not like a transformation fetish thing

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>>18141684
>>18141702
Def worth a visit. Don’t you want to breed? I’ll bet she does. I may be romanticizing it of course.

[Anonymous No.18141736]

hell yeah new ed banger shit

[Anonymous No.18141739]

I feel like shotguns are underrated as absolutely terrifying weapons. At close range you can basically shoot someone anywhere and they'll die. Even an arm or a leg, the amount of damage ensures that shock and blood loss will do the job all by themselves.

[Anonymous No.18141752]

>>18141724
My sex drive is kinda low but I'd be down
Impossible for the time being though due to corona
It would be weird to fly halfway across the world just for a short trip for possible sex
I was thinking of doing a workaway/WWOOF type thing where I could maybe visit her during off-time but I dunno, it's a tricky scenario

[Anonymous No.18141822]

>>18141279
My two biggest fears are dying without having done anything worth remembering, and balding at a young age.

[Anonymous No.18141856]

>>18141822
Balding will give you the motivation do go beyond yourself. If you are not balding already I would recommend shaving the hair around your temples back, otherwise ngmi.

[Anonymous No.18141905]

Reposting, as promised. Please rate, tell me what you liked/disliked, maybe even score it out of a 10. Feedback is greatly appreciated. So are recommendations for study material.

I tried a different approach to writing this time (and I'm feeling really sick), so the first paragraph may be bad, and the second paragraph may be god awful.

[Anonymous No.18141927]

>>18141905
>It's light
Its light

[Anonymous No.18142026]

>>18141279
Two days ago, you crested the north side of the Grand Canyon. ~700 miles. I saw a photo: you with the tuppence scruff clinging to your face, cheap and none-too-flattering glasses posed left-most of the group, leaned back slightly as if by the wind. Thin, thin. The lines framing your mouth look to rival the canyon behind you--I wonder what you will look like in your 40s. Hair corte. Your smile reflects a peace I have not seen in you for as long as my weak memory extends.
You look utterly free, Nathanael. My chest swells for you, and I nearly break for it. Look at these weak cries above--they have been struck down.

Today, I read an anonymous elegy of a man to his brother. It was just a series of posts on 4chan--I don’t know if they were an original work, or taken from some external source. Perhaps I should say “extended obituary”; that’s more what it read like.
He was a suicide--cyanide, in his own father’s home--and his elder brother’s outpouring of what utterly unique, unnameable perspective this situation could force upon the bereaved seemed almost a psychiatric case report. (Only now, writing about it, am I brought back to Six Feet Under, your favorite show--or, at least, what used to be.) It listed (chronologically, as if an editing slip deleted the accompanying roman numerals) major points in this man’s life as pertaining to his “disease” (a he term repeated often), with corresponding interview selections from family members, co-workers, friends. You see where I am going with this: it was clinical in a way that I find impossible to imagine ever conveying in anything I might write about you. It ended up with a short and rather half-hearted (I can’t blame the man) polemic against mental illness, how it can be countered if acted upon quickly and efficiently enough. He neglects to reflect upon the fact that his parents (both of whom were clinical psychiatrists) were obviously completely impotent, that he was taking antidepressants regularly, that he was physically fit (to the point of obvious--and, obviously, unstated--narcissism), financially stable, well-traveled, reasonably well-experienced in the world, and with a successful and impactful career path. I understand that the man is suffering, but the fact that it takes this form leaves me feeling wrong. Unclean.
For specifics, I’m not sure what to tell you. It really doesn’t matter. It was a family of upper-middle class intellectuals, who all seemed achievement-oriented, who were all (at least tangentially) connected to the psychiatric profession, who all seemed to have a somewhat broken (usually unwittingly) connection to each other. Admittedly, they were New York Jews, perhaps fitting an uncomfortably Rothian stereotype; yet I could see a faint specter of our own little facticity superimposed over top of this pastiche like a specter.

[Anonymous No.18142030]

>>18142026

You are not mentally ill. You are not this man. I am not this author. But I see this cold reflection of what familial relations can be, and I worry. I worry about you, and I worry about us. I desperately hope this trip of yours is burnt like a scar into you, that people see it in your face whenever they look at you, and that you see it reflected in them.
If you died before me, before your own time, I cannot begin to think of what I’d do.

[Anonymous No.18142118]

I suddenly have a thing for chicken farmers in straw hats.
My dad's side were hunters that raised goats and rabbits and always had venison on the table and my moms side were farmers that had a tiny vineyard for grapes.
Oh my god.

[Anonymous No.18142121]

I just wanted to be there for her. Protect her from an abusive asshole that was physically violent.

Didn’t mean for things to get out of hand. Insulting the guy might’ve not been so bright (especially under the influence), but it’s not like I threw fists. Maybe it was an overreach and a mistake.

I miss you sometimes. That’s all.

[Anonymous No.18142147]

>>18141279
I yearn for death

[Anonymous No.18142155]

>>18141348
Depends what you want to do really. If you want to teach at the university level you will need to get your PhD. You may be able to land an instructor position at a community college with just a masters however. But don't bank on it.

[Anonymous No.18142199]

My happiness today is a lot more restrained versus the happiness I had when I was younger. But I'm not scared anymore, not of the future, nor the expectations that weighed on me.
I think I want to write a story about the dichotomy between those feelings in my childhood.

[Anonymous No.18142240]

How do you develop more empathy for others?

[Anonymous No.18142270]

>>18141279
Reminder that she isn't yours, it's just your turn.

[Anonymous No.18142392]

>>18142240
try to put yourself in other people shoes

[Anonymous No.18142437]

Anyone know any shows like Yes Minister?

[Anonymous No.18142440]

[Anonymous No.18142442]

>>18142437
inspector george gently

[Anonymous No.18142452]

im stupid teach me how to start reading my book backlog

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18142455]

>>18142437
Os that a Britcom, like Are You Being Served?

[Anonymous No.18142457]

>>18141279
For me it seems Fichte was in error when we worte of ego to not who to higher ego (the God head). The spirit of truth is with him, but rather it seems inverted. Ego dissolves in a social body, and reveal s the God head. This is where the Marxist seem to fail. Right in there rejection of Christianity. As Neitzche points out it is a resentful life denying ideology. Yet however still a peace of the dialectical puzzle is missing. The spirit. For me Marx's blunder is in the rejection of spirit all together, rather than replacing Christianit with a more inline and dialectic spiritual thought of Taoism. He a man of his time and place can not be blamed for this however. For in that age of the world and the geography, he may never even heard of a distant Chinese alchemy. Though that is not the Taoism I speak of either. Maex is right as a left Hegalian, and his theory of Historical Materialism. Such as when he says "The ruling ideas of the day are those of the ruling class." We can see Plato's canonization (although there are other justifications for his canonization as well) and defense of slavery and horror at the concept of land distribution and tax erasure. It is no accident that Plato is rediscovered in the early days of Romanticism. Where the bourgeois class begins it's accent to power.

[Anonymous No.18142465]

>>18142440
>Stop hiting yourself, stop hitting yourself

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.18142468]

>>18142437
Is that a Britcom, like Are You Being Served?

[Anonymous No.18142472]

>>18142392
That makes have less empathy though because I would deal with their problems very differently.

[Anonymous No.18142481]

>>18142392
I do not mean to be dismissive, but this >>18142472

[Anonymous No.18142482]

>>18142472
Give some grace. Not everyone is as methodical or efficient at problem-solving as you might be. I’m sure you have days where you feel off your game. Extend that same self-knowledge as a courtesy in good faith

[Anonymous No.18142486]

>>18141739
Very true, I wish they were more common in fiction.

[Anonymous No.18142496]

I feel like everything comes down on luck.

[Anonymous No.18142497]

>>18142270
Wrong

[Anonymous No.18142503]

>>18141739
Not to mention how anyone remotely savvy could make custom loads.
Flecchettes made from modified roofing nails, marbles, coinshot, powdered magnesium with a binding/jellying agent for dragonsbreath, cum, horseblood, mini chainshot. Many possibilities.

[Anonymous No.18142607]

>>18142442
Thanks i'll check it out. But i was wondering more about other political satires.
>>18142468
It's similar but set in a ministry and civil service instead of a store. A lot of it is based on testimony from bureaucrats and ministers. Highly recommend.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmOvEwtDycs

[Anonymous No.18142820]

>>18142465
Kek

[Anonymous No.18142918]

>>18142440
>18142440
Who won?

[Anonymous No.18143092]

>>18142918
I believe the angel? I don't know enough about the specific scene it depicts beyond what a Google search shows me.
If anyone does I am curious for the answer.

[Anonymous No.18143156]

https://youtu.be/C6yoprb3syM

Yukio Mishima's aesthetics of beauty are vaporwave as fuck. If anyone read Temple of the Golden Pavilion or Spring Snow, there's a theme of an ethereal kind of beauty that is beautiful precisely because of the impossibility of its attainability. But the origin of that aesthetic is not his alone. They come from the Noh theatre he frequented as a child.

[Anonymous No.18143191]

I love mystery as a sensation but absolutely hate the generic modern crime/mystery/thriller genre... how do i find good books aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

[Anonymous No.18143222]

warez-bb is down for good

[Anonymous No.18143230]

dunkus mcklonmpyi ist the luoongo of badenrtoot

[Anonymous No.18143303]

I find it increasingly frustrating to know there are retards out there who think that Patrick Bateman actually killed anyone in either the book or movie. Misunderstanding the movie is slightly more forgivable but when it's coming from producers it's worthy of condemnation. Knowing that American Psycho 2 was made, and that some Hollywood retard wants to make a TV sequel to the first movie about "Patrick Bateman training an apprentice" makes me sick to my stomach.
>>18142118
sneedpilled
>>18142121
If she hadn't left the guy already, she's already gone. People like that have no agency and refuse to fix the problems in their lives, they'd rather find comfort in their troubles than step into the unknown to be free of them. Don't try to be a hero, she wasn't looking for one.
>>18143191
read Umineko No Naku Koro Ni

[Anonymous No.18143330]

I wish I had someone to talk to. People who I know always tell me I'm a good listener and dump their life on me but I have no one who would offer me the same courtesy let alone have useful advice for my problems. Went to a therapist once and only heard platitudes.

[Anonymous No.18143392]

>>18143330
You have me, anon.

[Anonymous No.18143435]

>>18141279
I have embarked myself on the spiritual path with some success in the last 4 years. Now I am at a point where I can stop being sad and miserable if I want to, and have meaningful States of union with the source if I put some effort into it. But I can't really commit, it's like a part of me want to be miserable, or maybe I just want to share the experience of everybody else. I made an absolute point of doing only things I can understand (spiritually) and now I have a good understanding of it, that I can share with others. But nobody cares and I can't put the effort to make it entertaining/good/fruible for others to care too. I just wish I wasnt alone in all this, that we could end the misery of the world, but I guess samsara is more entertaining for others, and apparently for me too....

[Anonymous No.18143445]

I'm just another raincloud now, I gave up on love forever

[Anonymous No.18143450]

Im so afraid of putting effort into anything and then getting disappointed if i fail. I basically have this attitude where i think that it doesnt matter if you put your effort or not, you still arrive at the same point of destination.

[Anonymous No.18143528]

>>18143450
Same here except I have a crippling fear of failure, so I don't really try anything.

[Anonymous No.18143602]

>>18143450
Do it for the sake of doing it. Not for the result. Be like Arjuna on the field of battle, do what needs to be done and let the results take care of themselves.

[Anonymous No.18143814]

>>18143602
>Do it for the sake of doing it
I wish i could easily switch mindset. It seems similar to having faith that it will work out.

[Anonymous No.18143931]

>>18143814
The Master does his job
and then stops.
He understands that the universe
is forever out of control,
and that trying to dominate events
goes against the current of the Tao.

[Anonymous No.18144013]

>>18143931
So do everything i can and leave the rest to the luck?

[Anonymous No.18144549]

>>18141279
So close lads...

I wanted to get my first novel done before 25, even took a few days off work before my 26th birthday to get the current draft revised beginning to end (~64,000 words), but my ADHD-addled mind just couldn't handle it, and I fell short, which made me feel ashamed. All I have to my name writing-wise is a 5,000 word screed poem I wrote at 19 and self-published, I want this one to be special. I slept for a few days after my birthday. I've ignored it for almost a month to lift the fatigue, and I've been surprised at how much I actually finished from the first outline I made for it two years ago. I'll probably hit it again next month, revise it chapter by chapter in a slow way, complete the rest of the stanzas from the poetry I wrote in it, and commission the illustration, which will probably cost me half a grand for what I want.

Thanks for reading my blog ladds, had to get it out. Your gift for reading it is a sample of the poetry, in Saadi's metre:

> Sunset o’er great Araxes’ every canyon’s yonder chasm
> Lavished too its regal spectrum on a rooftop west Khwarazm:

> Hexafoliate daisy’d inlay, nacre ‘top a borrowed bureau,
> Glimmered sprays of gold and turquoise through fine musk in glassy limbo;

The 'glassy limbo' is the main character's eyeballs, a few other unfinished couplets will clear it up. For those who remember me here, thanks for the harsh input on my first chapter (and admittedly using the word 'lavished' instead of 'dolloped', still ashamed about that haha), I trimmed it down quite nicely because of you.

[Anonymous No.18144628]

i read through the easypeasymethod and i feel like a huge retard for reading all these scientific articles, yourbrainonporn, nofap and this willpower bullshit hahahaha

[Anonymous No.18144639]

>>18144628
What's the easy peasy method? Can you give a synopsis?

[Anonymous No.18144773]

>>18144639
https://easypeasymethod.org/

porn addiction, edging countless hours. you don't fap to porn because you enjoy it, you never did. you started because of curiosity or because other people told you, you ejaculated and felt that rush of dopamine and related watching porn, seeing the girls get f*cked or whatever with happiness/comfort.

Later on in life at some point you started spending countless hours hording porn (could be mentally remmebering scenes you 'loved' or torrenting) spending countless hours edging was letting you ride that dopamine roller coaster, and it was only increased by the novelty of online porn.

by doing all that edging you created an online harem, girls names you remember. It's what gives you fear about quitting and why you have to rely on willpower, you feel that you are losing your harem by not masturbating but that's just something in your brain telling you not to quit and go for the supernatural stimuli, you were brainwashed by yourself into believing you need to porn by those edge sessions that would comfort you when lonely or scared.

Reality is that by indulging in those sessions your the one that is telling yourself you need it in your life, it's a chain where you see porn as something you need so you're scared of quitting. You don't enjoy watching porn but you enjoy the feeling of comfort you created, and by relapsing or going at it again you only strengthen that feeling or as the book says 'grease the waterslide'. It's why people relapse when they try to do it on willpower, they haven't fixed the brainwashing that they don't actually need it, as it does absolutely nothing for them because they don't actually enjoy watching it.

when you see people say they aren't addicted, they will say 'i just fap once a week bro', no one brags like that. you see your friends bragging about going to the gym 5 days a week because they're buff so why don't people in public brag about fapping once a week? It's because they're trying to prove they don't see it as an addiction.

[Anonymous No.18144842]

My prose is lackluster and that makes my life lackluster.

[Anonymous No.18145478]

>>18141279
I've been thinking. Let us set aside for a moment the fact that this may not be an activity someone with my limited capacity should engage in. BLM is a potent destructive force driven by highly impressionable people. Rather than lamenting the mess it makes, why not try to harness it? I'd like to raise the question nobody is asking.

"How do we direct them towards the billionaires?"

4chan has engaged in some pretty successful acts of manipulation through the years. It doesn't feel that great a stretch to make them forget about Whitey, and turn their eyes to Massuh. Wealth inequality is already in the public conscious through the whole GME debacle. Second best case scenario the 1% gets spooked and try to do something more constructive about things than we've hitherto seen. But if they do, wouldn't that just pour fuel on the fire and make the horde strike back with a greater vengeance? I feel it could be worth a shot to make a dedicated effort. Worst case scenario nothing much happens.

[Anonymous No.18145558]

I feel like a racehorse in a barn.

[Anonymous No.18145585]

>writing a book with romance themes
>only been in love once
>write about wanting to be loved + take inspiration from the dozens of yaois i have read

Am i a genius or what bros?

[Anonymous No.18145619]

>>18143450
We live in hyper-competitive society that embeds fear of failure into our heads, despite all the Jewsney sugar-coated movies with "bee yourself" morals which always conveniently end in the success of the main characters. I know it's hard, I have the same problem and I just acknowledged it, but we all need to get rid of this mindset. So called "successful" people fails 50 times before making it.

[Anonymous No.18145631]

>>18143450
We live in hyper-competitive society that embeds fear of failure into our heads, despite all the sugar-coated movies with "bee yourself" morals which always conveniently end in the success of the main characters. I know it's hard, I have the same problem and I just acknowledged it, but we all need to get rid of this mindset. So called "successful" people fail 50 times before making it.

[Anonymous No.18145657]

>>18145585
You are a real human bean. Take inspiration from works of fiction but try to soberly assess their themes through the capabilities of your own experience, however poor you think it is.
Don't live in the world of ideas. The notion of originality is banal, but only the notion.

[Anonymous No.18146020]

>>18141279
I finished Mere Christianity recently and got it with the impression that it was meant to 'fill in the gaps' on alot of commonly held Christian philosophical bits.
It has done more and started some form of cascade with me looking at the egoism I have fallen into without even realizing it. It feels an awful lot like sudden anxiety, and at the same time I feel like some form of freedom is arising.

[Anonymous No.18146128]

>watching tips about job interviews
>never been in one despite sending +50 applications
it's funny when you think about it

[Anonymous No.18146145]

>>18146128
lmao i feel u, i used to do all these practice whiteboard problems for programming interviews, but i only applied to like two places and then when recruiters would contact me i would't reply. i realized i don't really want a "real" job. my current job is so god damn comfy.

[Anonymous No.18146166]

>>18146145
atleast you have a job. my last job ended back in 2018 september

[Anonymous No.18146282]

If christianity is so evidently correct why did it get so completely BTFO from the enlightenment onward? Really makes you think...

[Anonymous No.18146290]

>>18146282
Same reason why Communism doesn't work, it takes far too much theory to make proper sense and it's target demographic doesn't read.

[Anonymous No.18146398]

Blueprint reading assignments for class make me want to rope in anger.

[Anonymous No.18146402]

I have been mildly craving to regain a sense of the divine or transcendent for a number of years now. It's usually on the backburner as whatever else I'm dealing with seems, somehow, to take priority over the nature of the universe itself, or God, or whatever. Lately, that hasn't been the case. It has move forwards from the backburner. I feel a more tangible need to know intimately my soul, that it exists and that of my fellow human beings. I want some company of the eternal kind. Also a qtπgf wouldn't go amiss, I guess.

[Anonymous No.18146663]

I had an idea for a story the other day. What do you anons think?

>isekai
>MC is a music nerd who wants to be a rock star, but gets kicked out of his band
>broke. Homeless. Truck-kun takes him to another world
>generic fantasy world, generic races, generic quest to defeat the devil king
>MC has no weapons, only his guitar
>MC goes to adventurers guild and makes some friends
>all warriors, different races like elves, dwarves, orcs, all women because lmao
>MC learns to fight with a sword. Party soon fights first battle against demon soldiers
>they lose, MC is about to die after losing his sword
>reached for his guitar
>plays a sick riff
>demon soldiers die
>mfw
>MC tells party that rock music kills the demon army
>MC now has to train the girls in his party how to play instruments
>they form a rock band
>they now have to save the world with rock and roll
>travel the land playing rock shows in villages and small towns
>become celebrities
>devil king takes notice
>challenges MC to a battle of the bands
>mfw MC saves the world by beating the devil king with rock and roll

ROCK & ROLL IN ANOTHER WORLD

[Anonymous No.18146770]

>>18141279
picrel is meant as a mockery towards those who think this way. I somehow agree with the text unironically. Can someone with reasonable social skills explain to me why this attitude is so bad? I can only think of superiority complexes, of people who think they are smarter than they are, but I think it's better to challenge yourself intellectually instead of absorbing trash culture and immediate gratification. Please do not answer as a circlejerk, be as self-critical as possible

[Anonymous No.18146801]

> Write what's on your mind
inexplicable bliss

[Anonymous No.18146832]

>>18146801
how are you horse-anon?

[Anonymous No.18146897]

>>18146770
First of all, describing yourself as smart and intelligent is kind of haughty. It's great when you're actually smart, but everyone acts like a retard eventually. I used to describe myself as logical and even that got cringey and self indulgent.

Something like "perceptive" or "intuitive" might work better.

The other problem is that most people don't watch keeping up with the Kardashians. If they said anime, maybe it would work. Also, the character should explain *why* this is bad or why this makes them sluts. Even unsympathetic and ridiculous people usually actually have reasons they think this, at least in my experience. Maybe they think Kardashians promote indulgent materialism, idk

Also, he laments that people play on their phones, but I don't see the problem with this. You can do a diverse range of things with phones, including talking with others and playing games. I assume the critique here is that they're not doing something fulfilling,like interacting with others, but neither is he.

In my experience, the people who are always on their phones were generally more sociable than I was. Being more sociable is a generally good life skill, in a lot of cases I'd probably say they'd do better than an antisocial person who reads books.

The problem is the character is ranting, but they haven't given any reasons why these things are bad. They're bad just because. And don't get me wrong, there's a lot of things wrong with this generation, but he doesn't explain it well at all.

[Anonymous No.18146964]

>>18141279
i am the best writer alive

[Anonymous No.18147038]

>>18146770
>Can someone with reasonable social skills explain to me why this attitude is so bad?
It's a meme popularized by reddit (/r/lewronggeneration) making fun of people who think that way. Or at least that's what it was supposed to be, now it's basically
>if you don't like things the way they are and romanticize the past even the slightest bit you are a bitter boomer
>if you are under 18 and like obscure or old media from before you were born you are le pseudointellectual contrarian
It's pure crab mentality. Proof that reddit has forever killed basic discourse and replaced it with irony.

That said, describing yourself as smart and intelligent and calling people sluts is pretty assholish.

[Anonymous No.18147058]

>>18146663
I'd read it

[Anonymous No.18147137]

>>18146832
all fine. decided to groom this fat muddy fucker outdoors since it was the last sunny day before huge rains, and i shit you not a huge air balloon rose from behind the stables, spooking him
almost got stepped on so i just let him go still half-dirty

[Anonymous No.18147178]

>>18146663
Why copy terrible Japanese tropes? There are far better ways to mix medieval fantasy and rock music. What if the hero was an ordinary peasant whose life is forever changed when a rock band's tour bus crashes through an interdimensional portal and into his farm? What if the story was about a rogue band of heavy metal warriors fighting back against the tyranny of a prog rock wizard? What if the fantasy world already has magic based on the use of sound and the dimension-hopping hero has to learn how to use his electric guitar to harness its power? The concept has so much potential but you went out of your way to make it as boring as possible. Stop watching anime and get a clue.

[Anonymous No.18147275]

I feel overwhelmed. I discussed religious morality with a normie today, a sweet man though, he was very nice but I felt very much as though I was being measured in a way that ultimately made me a little uncomfortable. I reverted to meekdom, but that shouldn't be too bad all things considered. Other than that I had a pretty pleasant evening getting to know new people.

Hope you all are having a good night out there.

[Anonymous No.18147315]

>>18147178
Anon you might have a point. I like that first idea you had about a rock band’s tour bus crashing through an interdict soon so portal and landing on a peasant farm. Peasant could either find them still alive and nurse them back to health, where they teach him the ways of rock and roll to form that worlds first ever music band. They could then travel the kingdom playing their music through each village they go to. This could also spark something similar to America in the 1950’s and 1960’s where a whole new genre of music emerges and the government starts flipping shit because all the music does is teach people ideas like freedom and peace and love which go against the core philosophies of a feudal society. The king/church could then meet the band and ask them to change their music style to basically be propaganda for the king and/or make people hate a neighboring country to start a war, or hate a specific ethnic group that the king feels are undesirable. This would spark conflict within the band because they already have a large following, but if they do as the king says they would be wealthy beyond their wildest dreams. Or if they stay true to their ideals and continue to sing to the people in the ways of peace and love, they could then rally the citizens of the kingdom to revolt against the king.

Also maybe throw in a love triangle somewhere in case the reader gets bored. Or maybe someone gets a drug addiction? Or maybe the band says fuck everyone and works with some wizard they meet to try and find a way back to their world.

[Anonymous No.18147428]

>>18146770
The entire paragraph could be shortened to:
>I like reading; Catcher in the Rye is my favorite book at the moment.
And then the writer wouldn't come off as a smarmy psued teenager that thinks too highly of himself.

[Anonymous No.18147808]

>>18141279
Are relationships fundamentally disingenous or am I? Not asking, just thinkin'. It seems that either everyone unconsciously puts on a different persona for different groups of people and I'm just conscious of the personas I put on, or I'm just being disingenous and can quickly adapt to what people want to hear. Either way, it works: fake it till you make it they say, but what is making it with other people anyway

[Anonymous No.18147845]

>>18147275
I get off of work in 2 hours. Things are as pleasant as plums fren.
My mom and dad are going on vacation tomorrow which means I don't have to buy 200 bucks of groceries this week and I just have to change my cats litter box and play with him.
I kinda wanted to go but my dad just wants to visit grandpa and grandma's grave and say hello to his family, but he gets bored as quick as I do so they'll be back in like 5 days.
Can't tell anyone in person though because gossip and I work a lot so nobody can know the house is empty. Secrets!

[Anonymous No.18147864]

>>18147808
Long term romantic relationships are not compatible with human nature and really only serve to benefit your offspring and material security. That's about it. The sooner you accept that humans are not monogamous creatures the sooner you can free yourself from the chain of what society expects from you. Dating is fun but that's about as far as I am willing to extend myself.

[Anonymous No.18147881]

>>18147808
I see relationships as work. Sure I get heart bound to people and fall in love but the honeymoon doesn't last forever. Once the sweet nothings fade I have to put my foot down and say hey. Do you want this to be a serious relationship? Like. The one kind of serious? Do we have a plan financially/mentally etc? Can we fight and you still be willing to stick it out? No cheating or unnecessary drama, just working as a team? Do you understand that as an author I may try to impress people like the Author's Guild and they have yearly balls and you NEED to be presentable?
I ask a lot, but I'm trying to be someone. A married man is much more appealing but only if his better half backs him up, but that's just my two cents.

[Anonymous No.18147923]

After 8 years of multiple social media careers I can confirm that I'm probably the most creative online content creator that has ever existed and I'm sorry. This wasn't my purpose, it was the easiest route

[Anonymous No.18148023]

>>18146663
Isn't this similar to that one jack black videogame?

[Anonymous No.18148065]

>>18146770
>I, however stay inside and read books
As if that’s any better than sitting inside all day watching tv, you’re still not exercising or being social. Either way you’re going to end up fat and lonely.

[Anonymous No.18148133]

I hate jannies so much it's unreal.
Why won't you let my threads stay up?

[Anonymous No.18148163]

>>18148133
Feet again?

[Anonymous No.18148210]

If I have Mary in a room where she never sees Red OR Blue, then I go in there, crack open her skull, and electrically stimulate the exact portion of matter that lights up when a brain perceives Red, then, I take her out, show her a Red and Blue swatch, and ask her which one she saw during brain stimulation, and she points to the Red swatch, did I just blow Chalmers out of the fucking water?

[Anonymous No.18148268]

>>18148163
no amazon stuff

[Anonymous No.18148281]

>>18141279
I keep thinking about a relative who died a few years ago from cancer. I was alone with her when she was in hospice care and not many people came to visit her. She was afraid. Lonely. Her final words that I remember were "thank you for being with me." I miss her. She was a good, kind hearted woman who didn't deserve the treatment she received from her husband and son. I truly wish I had the courage to blow my brains out.

[Anonymous No.18148304]

>>18148281
live to find another mistreated woman and have a life you both deserve, anon.

[Anonymous No.18148467]

>>18148210
Why think she would be able to tell the difference? Maybe she just guessed.

[Anonymous No.18148478]

>>18148065
you're talking to a screencap of a fake comment that the poster explained was fake

[Anonymous No.18148698]

im angry about being alive and i dont know why.

[Anonymous No.18148727]

>>18147808
only for straights, who are all deranged

[Anonymous No.18148814]

If my voilent, horrific episodes of dread and anxiety are going from daily to weekly and I feel happy sometimes am I getting better or am I just becoming bipolar?

[Anonymous No.18148824]

>>18148814
*violent

[Anonymous No.18148878]

>>18148210
Chalmers never denied mental states supervene on brain states. You didn't refute him. What he is claiming is that mental states are irreducible to brain states.

[Anonymous No.18148882]

>>18147923
Unless you're Tom Harlock, this is bullshit.

[Anonymous No.18148910]

>>18141316
Every soul can at least dimly understand the nature of the struggle that took place on
the moonlit night in the Garden of Gethsemane. Every heart knows something about it.
No one has ever come to the twenties—let alone to the forties, or the fifties, or the
sixties, or the seventies of life—without reflecting with some degree of seriousness on
himself and the world round about him, and without knowing the terrible tension that has
been caused in his soul by sin. Faults and follies do not efface themselves from the
record of memory; sleeping tablets do not silence them; psychoanalysts cannot explain
them away. The brightness of youth may make them fade into some dim outline, but
there are times of silence—on a sick bed, sleepless nights, the open seas, a moment of
quiet, the innocence in the face of a child—when these sins, like spectres or phantoms,
blaze their unrelenting characters of fire upon our consciences. Their force might not
have been realized in a moment of passion, but conscience is biding its time and will bear
its stern uncompromising witness sometime, somewhere, and force a dread upon the soul
that ought to make it cast itself back again to God. Terrible though the agonies and
tortures of a single soul be, they were only a drop in the ocean of humanity’s guilt which
the Savior felt as His own in the Garden."
>Life of Christ by Bishop Fulton Sheen

[Anonymous No.18148958]

>>18141349
Innocence is based. You know what is more based? Regaining innocence after encountering the profundity of evil both inside and outside of you.

[Anonymous No.18149055]

>>18146897
>The problem is the character is ranting, but they haven't given any reasons why these things are bad. They're bad just because.

[Anonymous No.18149106]

omg the ads on youtube are totally unbearable now holy shit there's like two unskippable junk food ads on every single video

[Anonymous No.18149110]

>>18149055
Stop being a based feelingchad anon. Become a logicvirgin right now.

[Anonymous No.18149124]

I went down the twitter rabbit hole recently because the porn artist I'm subscribed to doesn't have the decency to retweet stupid shit on an alt account. Why is everyone on that site a caricature of a real human being? Are these real people? In 40 years, are these the people that will take the reins in society? This is all so fucked up and confusing.

[Anonymous No.18149149]

>>18149124
seeing twitter stock down 15% because user growth stalled was the feel good story of the day

[Anonymous No.18149215]

>>18148878
Yah but, but, if its the same cloud of activity producing the brain state of Red, isn't the mental state best understood as an artifact? What gives it special privilege?

[Anonymous No.18149444]

>>18149124
A good chunk of them are tumblr refugees so keep that in mind.

[Anonymous No.18149467]

>>18149215
Qualia is what gives it special privilege.
Chalmers point is the qualitative dimension of experience cannot be understood purely be looking at neural activity. The actual neural correlates of red color experience is not the same, so even if it is over and above physical facts even if it may be contingent.

[Anonymous No.18149473]

>>18149467
>so even if it is
so it is*

[Anonymous No.18149479]

>>18149124
Twitter is not at all a large segment of the population. Don’t worry about it. What is bad though is that tons of journalists and academics are totally absorbed by their circlejerk communities on twitter that it’s bleeding into reality due to their false sense of consensus-derived confidence.

[Anonymous No.18149490]

>>18149467
>>18149473
Also look at his argument for epistemic gap again. That's the main thing.

[Anonymous No.18149551]

I regret my college degree. Yeah, I know, welcome to the club.

[Anonymous No.18149640]

I feel like the nightmare version of Narcissus. Everyone around me wears a mirror mask. I cannot see their phase, only them reflecting me, my actions, and the shadows of disapproval that I jump at. But I know they are people, I recognize them as people, I just cant see their emotions, I cannot connect. I have no empathy and I despise my inability to love. I want to care and help, to be human. It all just feels so lonely and terrifying.
Is 22 too late to have a neurological breakthrough that rights my, diagnosed, personality disorder?

[Anonymous No.18149663]

>>18149640
I meant face, not phase

[Anonymous No.18149666]

>>18149551
What degree? I’m doing STEM because I’m not dumb

[Anonymous No.18149691]

>>18149666
Accounting. Kinda wish I had done Compsci instead. Engineering's cool too, but I probably would have been way too much a brainlet for that.

[Anonymous No.18149705]

>>18149691
I did CompSci, and let me tell you, it was not worth it.
I work as a forestry assistant while I study welding/machining now

[Anonymous No.18149789]

>>18149490
>epistemic gap
Okay, I'll look at it and defeat Chalmers tomorrow.

[Anonymous No.18149807]

>>18149691
>Accounting.
I heard that's a career even literal gorillas do. Do you regret picking the overly safe and risk-less option?

[Anonymous No.18149934]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CoM10A2gmnc

[Anonymous No.18149960]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GjCWmUt62YE

[Anonymous No.18149975]

Went to sleep at 5pm

[Anonymous No.18150009]

>>18149807
Public accountants work insane hours. People like software engineers work about half the hours and make about twice as much. So yes, I kinda regret it.

[Anonymous No.18150109]

Im a 30 year old kissless virgin. I dont see any way from this situation.

[Anonymous No.18150128]

>>18150109
Prostitutes. Greater men have resorted to it. Don't feel bad about it.

[Anonymous No.18150160]

>>18149705
Based

[Anonymous No.18150168]

>>18149807
It’s pretty hard to pass a CPA exam and most kids in the accounting program of my school washed out and switched to marketing.
A lot of people I work with in Finance switched from Accounting because it was too much work

[Anonymous No.18150218]

I wonder if there's a course or book that will teach me about electrical appliances like Air Conditioners and Fans so that I can fix these shit by myself rather than going through the hassle of calling an electrician.

[Anonymous No.18150231]

Spring is always sweet like rotting meat. The dread of my life advents in life overabundant. I do not like it.
Summer is a sticky Hell, where I can only walk under the eye of the Sun at dawn and dusk. I despise it.
Autumn is when the fever breaks, and I can feel like a living thing again. But it is a wonderful time, because it is the doorstep to
Winter, the time of rest and recovery. I can dress in leather and heavy cloth again and when the year is looked back upon. If it were any other season I would want to die. But not when the sky is steel gray and the air, rather than sunlight, burns. Then is when I am most happy.

[Anonymous No.18150263]

I had a girl tell me she wants to date me, but I had to say no because there's already a girl interested in me. Never thought this day would come.

[Anonymous No.18150268]

>>18150263
Do you not like the one you rejected

[Anonymous No.18150270]

>>18150128
I guess if you want the physical act of sex then its a good solution but what about emotional intimacy? Prostitutes care only about the money at the end of the day.

[Anonymous No.18150288]

I'm tired as hell. Took a 3-hour nap and now can't sleep.

[Anonymous No.18150293]

>>18150270
We suffer alone.

[Anonymous No.18150317]

>>18150268
>If you can go out with me then let me go out with you, but if it's hopeless then tell me so right now
That's what I was told. I didn't reject her but I said I'm not looking for a date and just talking would be fine. The above is kinda weird to say if you don't know a person well, so no point regretting it I guess

[Anonymous No.18150331]

>>18150317
>I said I'm not looking for a date and just talking would be fine

What if you end up with the other chick and she notices kek

[Anonymous No.18150366]

I work with this one Polish guy and he's such a fucking asshole it's unbelievable. No wonder Hitler wanted to kill them all.

[Anonymous No.18150396]

>>18150331
Well I've been talking to the other girl for a while and it didn't start out looking for romance, which is more normal to me. The one who asked to date me yesterday didn't really know me actually, it was an anonymous thing where I made a thread on 2ch answering questions as a foreigner and it blew up. That kind of thing is pretty rare so you draw a lot of attention. I wanted to use it to make friends off-site, but in the end I asked too late and only one person contacted me. But he said it was fun and told me to do it again sometime, so I probably will. I feel like I'm doing it too much (this was the 4th time), but I was told by multiple people they had fun, so I'll probably do it again even if it's kinda attention seeking. To most it's still crazy to them if a white guy can speak their language. I posted my passport, my room, and spoke English but a few still refused to believe I wasn't somehow Japanese or at least asian.

That was kinda tangential, but it is what's on my mind. It felt really good honestly

[Anonymous No.18150404]

Just listened to music at full volume before sleeping and my ears are crushed

[Anonymous No.18150534]

There are good things and there are bad things. Shouldn't we turn the bad things into good things? If someone needs help moving his stuff into his new home, we should help him and feel good about it. But if we cannot help him for some reason, we should feel good about not helping him. Do you know what I mean? Why feel bad when you can feel good? Let's say a war breaks out and we've to fight in it. There's no going around it. So we might as well enjoy it, the shooting and killing. Now, there is obiously stuff you probably can't enjoy, like getting shot in the leg or something. But you can feel joy shooting another fella in the leg. I guess there is a switch in the mind that tells us when to feel good about stuff and when to feel bad. What I'm saying is: why not put the switch to "feeling good" all the time? If a cat is going to get hit by a car, I'll try to save it. Saving things is enjoyable. But if the cat gets hit by the car, I'll weep for it. Weeping for a dying cat is enjoyable. And then I'll look at the dying cat and sniff at her open gut and watch her breath out her last breath. And that is also enjoyable. Or I might stomp on her angrily. Maybe that's enjoyable too – I don't know. You have to try things out, is what I'm saying. Try to be open about things. Maybe you'll enjoy things you never thought you'd enjoy. So what if some people think you are evil. People think all kinds of stuff. Some indian fella porbably thinks we're all devils. You can't say that he's wrong. He's just looking at things differently than you and I. So what I'm saying is: do things you enjoy, even if they are evil. If you enjoy doing good things, that's fine. Most people enjoy goods things more than evil things. But if you enjoy evil things more, than don't bother with good things.

[Anonymous No.18150544]

It's my 2nd year being a neet. Although I don't really think that I have wasted these years but I believe that I could've done better.
I have flushed out all the values and principles that my school had instilled on me for more than 12 years, I hold no connection towards any memory I have prior to being 19. In fact, I feel as if I was newly born nowadays. I think these two alone are the greatest that has happened in my life so far.
My only problem right now is to stave off the hundreds of plebs who are eager to pull me back unto the conveyor belt

[Anonymous No.18150561]

Cleaned like 80% of my house today. Threw a lot of unwanted shit. Feels good lad. I recommend it, living as a slob can be debilitating.

[Anonymous No.18150703]

[Anonymous No.18150731]

Just found out my gf has an onlyfans and am thinking about killing myself

[Anonymous No.18150736]

>>18150731
Ask your gfs husband about it

[Anonymous No.18150761]

>>18149975
4.30 for me
brother

[Anonymous No.18150778]

>>18150731
Ask her for a cut.

[Anonymous No.18150789]

>>18150703
Stop perspectivising porn, Thule

[Anonymous No.18150829]

>>18146128
>>18146128
I work as a recruiter, want me to take a look at your resume and give you some tips? Without a decent looking resume, you will never get past the initial screening. You can provide your email, remove your name from your resume, and I will look at it.

[Anonymous No.18150842]

>>18149666
how is the "study STEM" meme still around in 2021
as if the path to job security is doing something a billion chinese/indians can do

[Anonymous No.18151030]

Why are zoomers so obsessed with girl farts?

[Anonymous No.18151051]

>>18150842
>how is the "study STEM" meme still around in 2021
your alternatives are hyper-specialization or some kind of intellectual pursuit which is pointless in an era that has no real respect for intellectuals in the first place.

[Anonymous No.18151246]

>Americans and Canadians start waking up
>post quality immediately and dramatically drops
Every single time. It's almost tangible.

[Anonymous No.18151274]

>>18151246
any examples?

[Anonymous No.18151280]

I'm sarcastic, ironic, unlovable piece of shit whos not in the street eating from a container because of parents mercy. I wish i could kill myself out of shame but im too much of coward to do that. Im considering saying this to every person i meet but they wouldnt believe this.

[Anonymous No.18151411]

I'll kill myself after my parents die

[Anonymous No.18151442]

>>18141279
Life can be so good. Life can be so beautiful. Life can be so terrible. Life can be so shit. huh? were you talking to me? what, to me? no, to me. to me? no, me. Oh, me? no, me. Ok, you, but what about me? me? me. Me? no, not you, me. Yes, but what about me? No, me. huh? what? nothing, just, what about me? Who, you? yes, me. Me? no, me. Me? no, me. Me? oh shut up, me. Me? no, shut up, me. Oh, you, again. Don't you ever give up? who, me? yes, you. Who, you? no, me. I mean you. Me? no me. So me? yes, you. No, me. ohhhhhh. I get it. who does, you? yes. You get it? yes, I do. Do you? me? no, you? no? no, I don't. So you do or you don't? who, me? yes, you. Who, you? no, me. I mean you. Me? No, you. Me? yes you. ok.
There are many days like this. All the days of the dead, for one. For two, the weekends are days of the almost-dead. Then there are one or two times every other day or two, in between a the other days, where a few times in those days, say, twice or thrice a day, there are minutes that last longer than years, say, at least 1 year. And I always try to tell them, but I can never.. quite... just never explain it. For some reason I want to tell my father. Maybe in the car, on the way to the shop, I'll say; "Dad, there are some minutes in my life which are longer than years. You know how you always talk about the years going by and I just go mmmm yeah I know, and I never really got it, until the other night I was just thinking, and I got it. Who you? yes. I got it, I think. You did? yes, I think. OK, so tell me. Well, I just did. Who, you? what? were you listening? Yes, I did - I was, I mean - you mean what? Huh? what now? what do you mean what now? Who, me?

[Anonymous No.18151505]

>>18151411
This post made me realize, it's like a billion times more impactful for a celebrity to kill themselves than one of us. To think of that weighing on them when they decide to rope anyway is nuts

[Anonymous No.18151539]

I think the abolishen of the aristocracy has doomed this world. They were always the one who decided and tinkered with the ethos of society but now.... People who, in a world that respected nobility, would have never gone past selling pumpkin seeds become politicans and are allowed to propagate whatever noncence hauts their mind while not devoting their full attention on scratching their ass, which is always an idea centered around materialism. Gold is all the stupid know and will let even the wolf in if they hear him shake his bag of coins.

[Anonymous No.18151547]

>>18151539
abolition*

[Anonymous No.18151553]

>>18150703
ROLLING

[Anonymous No.18151562]

>>18151553
I don't watch TV or movieS

[Anonymous No.18151572]

>>18151562
I don't do drugs either fuckng hell

[Anonymous No.18152167]

being straight and honest is outdated, now the better you lie the more you go.

[Anonymous No.18152333]

>>18151547
plenty more to fix there, buddy.

[Anonymous No.18152359]

There is a continuous line from "you" to "reality" it's impossible to separate the two.
for example there is no one point in which looking at a color becomes an emotion, further there is no one point at which an emotion becomes a thought. Slowly the ability to immediately and precisely communicate "reality" with other people breaks down, this is where identity is formed!
You see "material" is just instantly and mostly accurately communicated between each other, if it wasn't then material would start becoming perceived as thoughts of our own and become part of our identity. You have the whole world inside your head.

It got me thinking too if ai and computers make it possible to directly communicate thoughts/feelings and such, we will all further become the same, individuals will stop existing in the way we do now, your sense of self will be reduced to whatever is still uncomunicatable.

[Anonymous No.18152433]

Why'd I have to get a fucking hemorrhoid? Now I'm probably going to have to go spread my asscheeks for some doctor. Really looking forward to it. God, I hope it's not a woman

[Anonymous No.18152451]

>>18152433
you dont have to do anything. Ive had hemorrhoids near all my life, never seen a doctor for them. But then again I rarely go to the doctor anyways

[Anonymous No.18152461]

Why does everything feel so impossible? Just the thought of going out there and doing something, achieving something, making something happen feels so hopeless and futile and life in general just feels so damn inert.

[Anonymous No.18152471]

My therapist said that I think like Marlow from Heart of Darkness

[Anonymous No.18152478]

>>18152433
It's not that unusual. I have them and it doesn't hurt, but I don't think you can get rid of them even with medical help.
I've never been a big fan of the whole digestive system. Eating and thereafter are so distracting when you're trying to do stuff. I just know when it wipes red to leave it be and you won't get any cleaner.

[Anonymous No.18152486]

>>18152461
Because skill/mastery/accomplishment in others we see as something that immediately manifested itself. Look at Tony Hawk, he can just do sick flips. Look at the Sidney Opera House, it just exists that beautifully, look at this monstrous philosophical volume by Hegel, he already had all those thoughts. Then, when we look at ourselves, we constantly see ourselves as ourselves and not as a changing creature every day. We cannot see the little changes that happen over time because we are us and not a third party perspective. A plant doth grow, but it takes time. It does not magically become a tree. Nor does your ability to accomplish things suddenly appear out of nowhere. It takes dedication and time and blood and sweat and active, painful engagement with the subject. And by the end of the day you see no progress. You sleep on it and do it all over again the next day. Eventually, those things that were once hard become easy and you will see an entirely different set of problems as you progress. But you won't realize these problems are any different than the first ones. By the time you master open chords on a guitar and can play for other people you already want to know how to play barred jazz chords. Mastery continues on because we constantly need to consume more and become better. Our goals always change as we progress and we cannot perceive this progress. In others that we compare ourselves to we can see the result but not the work that went into it.

Keep going anon.

[Anonymous No.18152488]

>>18152461
I've said I've been in the shadows for the last decade and I've never been proven wrong. No matter what I do or what I say it all seems to have minimal to no impact on the world. Still, I keep writing and fighting because what else are we supposed to do in this world?
Beats giving up. If we wander the shadows together even if we never see each other we know we're not alone and that's kind of sweet in its own way.

[Anonymous No.18152548]

>>18152471
is this a good or bad thing?

[Anonymous No.18152554]

>>18152486
But what to do when you've never had a direction in your life?

[Anonymous No.18152579]

>>18152486
>Keep going anon.
I need help starting...

[Anonymous No.18152590]

>>18152554
You pick one.
Do you already like a thing?
Was there a thing in your youth you liked but gave up?
Was there a thing you always wanted to do?
Does your family and social network provide opportunities in a given thing?
does your physical location provide opportunities for a given thing?


At a certain point, the thing doesn't really matter. Either you already know what it is, and you don't need to choose, or you are such an underdeveloped husk of a human being that literally picking anything is better than where you are right now. As far as limitations on what things to pick arbitrarily, you'd probably want to look at things like: how much money do you have? Are you genetically predisposed to physical labor? Are you able to mentally process things faster than the average bear? Are you creative or technical? All these questions will play out into narrowing the focus of someone who will arbitrarily be picking something. For example, woodworking is awesome, but it's fucking expensive and takes lots of physical labor and is about precision more than creativity (but it still has some creativity). As opposed to digital art, which basically all you need money wise is to buy a tablet, read loomis, and practice by yourself. And I don't want you to think this is just about hobbies as examples. This goes for doctoring or lawyering or researching or excavating or building or whatever. Why would I study the geographic archeological history of japan if I don't speak the language or will ever visit there or don't even know the culture. (sounds kinda fun to read about on a lazy sunday but not something to dedicate one's life to). So be smart in picking something, but it's far more important to pick something. Listen to the little voice in your head that says "oh that's neat" instead of the voice that says "ughh, really?" because the study and practice after you pick something gets hard, and you don't want to already hate the thing you are going to learn to love and hate.

[Anonymous No.18152629]

>>18152590
>Was there a thing in your youth you liked but gave up?
I tried everything what i wanted but nothing stuck for a longer time or atleast it never grew into a passion or anything stronger than "now that i tried it, i can see that it's not for me". Last such endeavor cost me 5 years and i ended up getting nowhere. I know that i sound whiny and bitchy and it's hard to believe in anything anymore.

[Anonymous No.18152652]

>>18148133
It's the only thing keeping this site from becoming a cp lurk spot.
They do it for free too.

[Anonymous No.18152658]

>>18152629
If you already put 5 years into something and just gave up and you can't see yourself doing anything else, you should probably go back to that thing you did for 5 years. You probably hit a skill hump that you didn't know how to get over and it caused you to resent the field. But, hey, I'm a dude on the internet and all I know about you is what you posted. Maybe there's an adjacent subject to the thing you spent 5 years on where some of the skills would transfer?

[Anonymous No.18152669]

>>18149106
Switch to Opera which has a built-in add blocker and takes less RAM in general

[Anonymous No.18152708]

>>18152486
Beautiful post

[Anonymous No.18152740]

>>18152658
I was forced to do this thing for 5 years (which was getting bachelors degree). I wanted to quit, questioned my decision and eventually give up and barely finished it because i couldnt answer the one simple question - what would do instead of this? i couldnt answer it.

[Anonymous No.18152742]

>>18150366
>vetoing for weeks hundreds of billions of euro in EU covid economic aid for all the EU countries just because they wanted to keep LGBT-free towns
>this after rebuilding their post-commie country with EU money and boosting unemployment because foreign industries relocated in Poland
>refuse to elaborate further
I despise them for this but I must admit they defended their interests well.
Good job fuckers.

[Anonymous No.18152756]

>>18141510
So you believe things are not done well enough? I want to know more

[Anonymous No.18152760]

>>18152451
>>18152478
Nah guys you don't get it, that shit can progress to worse stages. I had one for a while that was just like a little knot, no sense or anything, that's what you're talking about and that's fine, but now something happened and it's swollen and hurts. It's been a couple of days now. If it persists I'm gonna have to get it treated.

[Anonymous No.18152772]

>>18152760
I think I might have hemorrhoids, but how do I tell if I have them and not some other weird condition?

[Anonymous No.18152775]

> 28
> still like video games, anime, manga, light novels
> no job
> moving in with parents in a few months
> already hounding me about stuff
I should’ve just killed myself a few years ago.

[Anonymous No.18152790]

>>18152772
They're really common as you age. It's why supermarkets sell soft toilet paper. If you strain too much, you bleed. Sometimes they pop and you lose enough blood to make you worry but it's more of a relief than a danger.

[Anonymous No.18152807]

>>18152772
Read up on them and look at your ass in the mirror. If you think it's sketchy, better to go get it checked out. You don't want it to be cancer or something.
Speaking of which, I might have cancer too. Tumors in my balls, which have been there for years and I ignored because I'm retarded, and it only occurred to me relatively recently that that's why my testicle is all fucked up. Life's great. In case the only way to treat it turns out to be cutting my balls off, which is a possibility from what I've read, I'm just gonna die instead. Take care of your balls boys, don't be like me

[Anonymous No.18152835]

>>18152807
how does it feel? Ive always had a tiny hard ball near my left nut. Not always maybe, but for long as I can remember

[Anonymous No.18152865]

https://www.nytimes.com/2021/04/30/opinion/john-mcwhorter-n-word-unsayable.html

[Anonymous No.18152893]

>>18152579
See
>>18152590
And give me feedback. We can at least try to help you find some direction.
>>18152708
Thanks anon.
>>18152740
Skill acquisition during the period of getting a bachelors degree comes in many forms. It doesn't even have to particularly be the thing you majored in. The fact that you have all the soft skills (going to class on time, completing assignments, being able to read technical documents and books, knowing how to socialize, learning how to learn, etc) are all going to be useful. Even if your degree was some STEM thing or maybe you even went with literature and became angered at the modern development of it, skills can cross contaminate. you need to pick something and put all those peripheral skills to use. What THING interests you? Does the shape of a Tree's leaf make you question how the world evolved? Does the flow of water during a heavy storm fascinate you? Do you have strong opinions on the law? Do you like the way text is formatted on some things? What little things get you off? Does 2000 hours in DOTA 2 make you want to better understand how teamwork works? Maybe how it's graphics work? How it's networking systems work? Do you ever question anything around you? If not, start. Start asking the why behind the things you see and see if any of those questions resonate with you.

[Anonymous No.18152894]

>>18152775
In the grand scheme it means nothing. There's tons of men like this every year

[Anonymous No.18152903]

>>18152894
How can your own life mean nothing “in the grand scheme of things”? This grand scheme only even exists to me in the context of me and my life.

[Anonymous No.18152918]

>>18152893
I already have a thing I want to do but actually bringing myself to do it enough is what kills me. Why? I don’t know. If you ask me straight up do I really want to do it, my mind, heart, and gut say yes but the fact that I don’t and waste my time and effort on other nonsense makes me wonder if that’s really true and I can trust any of them. I guess I worry I’m not good at it, it will never go anywhere, I won’t feel like it’s worth it in the end. Most things I’ve really put effort into, I ended up coming to regret.

[Anonymous No.18152922]

>>18152903
I means that you're just going to have to accept it. The only other way is you know what. If all that makes you suffer that much, well, you know what to do.

[Anonymous No.18152950]

>>18152893
I want to think that i use introspection on why i do things the way i do. I want to say that i try to question and understand myself but one thing completely defeated me. That one simple thing was reading a random diary entry from 7-8 years ago. The content and style was identical to what i write right now. I didnt learn and single thing nor i improved in any meaningful fashion. I just kept patting on my back all this time for doing the effort which didnt matter in the long run. Then i realized - i just thought myself as a smart and insightful fellow when i was just a prideful idiot all this time. I completely fail at the most basic things like personal responsibility, knowing what you want even at this very moment and having dreams. I'm sorry anon for pouring all this verbal vomit on your screen but i couldnt help myself. If im being completely honest with you, i should just bash my head onto wall in the very slim hope that i'll end up being happy idiot.

[Anonymous No.18152951]

I don't care for the economy.

[Anonymous No.18152961]

>>18152922
What a non-answer

[Anonymous No.18152977]

>>18152918
Hey, we are all on 4chan right now, so the whole 'why aren't we doing the thing we thought we love' thing is a question for all of us. Modern tech has brought about such systematic distraction that only those that train themselves to do... DEEP WORK will really get anywhere. Setting up systems that allow you to more easily get to doing the thing while you have the motivation is a good start. Make things you want to do easier and make things you don't want to do harder. Even 50 years ago, distractions weren't nearly what they are now. People could dedicate themselves to a craft and all they had to avoid was maybe tv. The voice of distraction tech is stronger than the voice of what truly moves you. Build up your habits and systems first, and you will get over that hump.

The second point is that enjoyment and flow state come not from a 'passion' but from a mastery of the thing itself. Guitar is not fun when you can't make any pleasant sounds from it, guitar is fun when you can play through a whole song, sing it out loud, and get other people to join you around a campfire. You will not get joy from practicing the difficult parts of the thing until you get better at the thing. The better at the thing you get, the more enjoyment you will get from it. But you will never get joy from it unless you start. You can waste away your days shitposting or playing video games or GIVING ADVICE TO STRANGERS ON THE INTERNET GOD DAMN IT IM DOING IT AGAIN, but it doesn't get you where you want to be.

[Anonymous No.18152987]

>>18152835
Well, mine is pretty damn huge because as I said, I ignored it for years and now it's spread. My left testicle looks like scrambled eggs at this point.
I suggest you have it checked out if it fits the description of a tumor (google it), they're supposed to be easy to treat at an early stage.

[Anonymous No.18152995]

>>18152961
I never pretended that there was one. I guess you wanted consolation? Welp, sorry. I'm in the same position, too.

[Anonymous No.18152999]

>>18152951
the economy is GAY

[Anonymous No.18153010]

>>18152950
I actually, a few weeks ago, found a diary of myself while I was neck deep in law school from a few years ago. I had a similar epiphany. How, while the content of what I wrote was from a perspective of that time, the way I wrote it was inherently me. It greatly disappointed me that I hadn't 'changed' much. I still obsessed over past loves and not being good enough. I wrote only about the horrible things at the time. But I realized that the me from then was simply expressing himself, not writing for future me to read it. It mentioned nothing of my accomplishments or positive relationships, it never mentioned the good days or the happy moments or the delicious meals I made for friends. That diary was trapped in a first person perspective, never to be analyzed by a third party. Future me reading it is somewhere in between. I am a different person. My environment and the people I surround myself with are different. I have since learned many things, done many things, accomplished many things, but I am still the man that wrote that and I deeply empathize with the me of that time.

I think this all goes back to what I was saying earlier about how change is slow and can't be perceived by the self. It takes quite a lot of deep introspection to get over even one small element of a situation like that, let alone all the things one writes. I'd say I'm sorry that happened to you anon, but on the same hand, it's a gift in disguise. I believe in you bud.

[Anonymous No.18153021]

>>18152977
I struggle with motivation though. I think it’s because of the hangups I mentioned. It’s like I want to but I don’t want to, you know? Otherwise, everything you said makes perfect sense to me.

[Anonymous No.18153048]

>>18153021
Motivation is a spark, and sparks do not last. You have to make the most of that spark. I know people LOATHE self help books on here, but one of the best ideas from Atomic Habits is the idea of using that very temporary time of 'motivation' to set up systems that make your unmotivated self more likely to do the thing. Some dumb examples:
>I want to play guitar, so I get a small stand and set it next to my desk, instead of in it's case in the closet. That way I can quickly grab it
>I want to shitpost and watch youtube less so I download a website blocker and set it for particular times of day
>I want to read more, so I set books everywhere I can, my desk, my bed, my toilet, my kitchen, my patio that way there's somethign quick I can grab
>I want to use my phone less so I keep it plugged into it's charger so that I have to go out of my way to check it, I also set up dark mode, blue blocker, and bedtime modes so that it's more difficult to shitpost on my phone when I should be reading or sleeping
>I turn my TV around so it faces the wall and I hide the power cables to my video game systems so if I want to play them I have to undo the damage I just did
>if I want to eat less junk food I throw it away and stop buying it so I have to get in the car and drive to the store to get more cheetoes when the craving hits

It's not about 'motivation' it's about tricking your brain into thinking it has less options than it has because the brain is fucking lazy.

[Anonymous No.18153054]

>>18153010
Thanks anon for all the advice. I guess it's really hard to notice all the momentary change at the present without comparing it with the past. That's always been my problem - being too impatient. One could say that it's not that dissimilar to not having hope in myself.

[Anonymous No.18153090]

>>18153048
I see. I can’t really think of anything I can do like that specifically for my wants but I guess I’ll have to think about it.

[Anonymous No.18153109]

>>18153090
Well, how can we help if you don’t tell us your wants? If your goal is to become a master of riichi mahjong and travel to japan to win the championship, it’s kinda hard to gauge what to do without knowing that.

[Anonymous No.18153147]

>>18153109
Well, I wasn’t looking for advice that specific to be honest with you and I’d prefer to be a bit vague but since we’re on a literature board, let’s say it’s writing poetry just as an example.

[Anonymous No.18153169]

>>18153147
But there are particulars to writing poetry that are different from becoming a master plumber, regarding the systems one should set up. Why should I go through the process of thinking about how best to craft systems for a poetry writer when you aren't even going to be writing poetry? Though I suppose you are right, I've given enough examples to where, if you actually cared enough, you could create systems for yourself. Sorry for asking, anon.

[Anonymous No.18153188]

Life is great, it only gets better but I have fucking thin lines of blood on my shit and it frustrates me like hell, I have to make an appointment at the hospital on monday. I think it's because of hemorrhoids but I'm not fat or anything, just a normal dude. I will be so happy if they will get removed and I don't have to worry to shit blood again. u think u have problems? wait until u shit blood and it will get worse then u could imagine. I've already been through all phases, I've been through hell and my great depressions which lastet so many years and now I finally feel hope, that this shit is my last obstacle to happiness. I just know it, like I'm about to catch my fate. trust me, u don't know shit. be happy while u can. i'm disgusted with myself but i don't hate myself cause i'm human and not perfect. and no I'm not gay and was fucked in the ass or something, I don't know where it comes from lol. I want to curse but I'm strong enough to stay positive.

[Anonymous No.18153265]

This website has become really politicized from last 7-8 years. Before that this was mainly for lolz and shit. I think the poster have found the solution to their existential crisis in politics. The radical influence of 4chan is very apparent on the online far leftists/rightists/3rdpostionists/anprim zoomers. Most of these people use the same aesthetics and all of them share their hatred for woke idpol liberalism.

I really wonder how 4chan will be viewed in the future.

[Anonymous No.18153273]

I may have wrecked a friendship last night. Not sure how to feel. I'm not sure how to feel in part because I'm somewhat uncertain just how good this friend of mine is/was in the first place.

[Anonymous No.18153296]

>>18153169
>Sorry for asking, anon.
No, you’re fine. I just have a thing where I don’t like to divulge too much here and I actually believe doing so counterproductive. Either way, you’ve been helpful so thank you.

[Anonymous No.18153308]

>>18153296
I feel ya. I believe in u, bud. Hope you find the right path.

[Anonymous No.18153309]

>>18153265
Yeah, but that’s been the case with everything everywhere. 8 years ago, nobody really cared about politics or to the extent they did, it was kind of a resigned apathetic sort of caring about politics. Today, it’s all they care about.

[Anonymous No.18153350]

I'm not usually the pity type but the threads about to sink and I'm a smidge moody.
Five books out, enough money to retire in my 30s and I'm in okay shape. What's the bad news? I have severe hearing loss and can't see past six inches without my glasses and I'm overall a bit frail. The kind exercise can't fix. Fortunately if I ever get dealthy I'll the military will pay for my treatment but goddamn. I wonder how much more powerful I could have been if I wasn't nerfed.
Hanging out in the shadows where text is the main way to talk is fine but my voice is too soft and I always have to repeat myself.
What's going to happen 30 years from now? Are my vision and hearing going to go fully? Hm.

[Anonymous No.18153360]

I think I was 12 when I discovered hentai for the first time, and it was like heaven on earth to me. But idk it's kinda fucked up. I don't watch hentai anymore, but to say that I don't like it, would be a lie. I find theories like it's the revenge of Japan for Hiroshima hilarious. I mean it's really like a curse. But then I think the japanese people are also really fucked up. but I don't blame them.

[Anonymous No.18153406]

>>18153360
I don't watch anime anymore, but I still go to sad panda on occasion. Anime titties and an actual plot are sometimes a good change of pace from 3DPD.

[Anonymous No.18153432]

>>18152999
Checked

[Anonymous No.18153461]

who here watching the berkshire hathaway livestream? buffet and munger looking sharp for being in their 90s. the both talk faster than chomsky too.

[Anonymous No.18153481]

>>18141558
Why can't black people write anything without mentioning race? Every "major" black writer writes what is essentially the exact same thing and we're supposed to applaud them for it.

[Anonymous No.18153492]

>>18153461
I'm going to after I get home tonight and watch YouTube for a lil bit. I usually use the motley fool to be foolish but the Oracle of Omaha is always worth paying attention to.
I bought tdoc before it dived. Felt bad but I'm going long on it anyway so whatever.

[Anonymous No.18153497]

I can't fall asleep again. Should I just push through till night comes around again?

[Anonymous No.18153552]

Took a b12 supplement yesterday. It’s like my energy is vibrantly alive again but at the same time the need for sleep feels like I’m being drug down into a pit. My dreams are vivid and surreal. I felt that comfy soreness when waking up like the body spent the night repairing itself.

Anyone have any experience with b12 supplements? Am I going crazy? Has my life been shit in a Myriad of ways because I haven’t been getting enough b12 for years?

[Anonymous No.18153561]

>>18153492
i hope they start paying a dividend once they croak like how apple started paying dividends after jobs croaked. once there's no founder ego tied up with the stock growth, they can stop being stingy with their idle cash

[Anonymous No.18153594]

>>18153561
Yeah I'm hoping it's a growth stock. Dividend aristocrats are easy to pop a few thousand into and forget about but I was looking forward to it doing well. Then it dropped by like 40%. I'm heavy in space too and those spacs are heavy in virgin so when Branson sold a few million shares it gave me a lot of red ink. That's okay though. Diamond hands holding the line. I don't need the money for a few decades get that shuttle flying my dude.
>>18153497
I usually ask Dr. Pepper and he helps me tough it out.

[Anonymous No.18153600]

This fatass really needs to take 1,000 micrograms of LSD and get it over with. Like why do I need to sit here and read this boring-ass motherfucker shit on Perennialism when he clearly has no personal experience in what he is talking about. Boxer who never goes into the ring but thinks he knows shit.

[Anonymous No.18153731]

There's a Japanese femdom porn studio that puts "If I upload this I am about to commit mass murder" at the beginning of their videos to discourage people from sharing them

[Anonymous No.18153741]

>>18153497
No, eat something and then watch one film after the other with some snacks and water until u fall asleep. If u reach the morning then sleep in the morning, don't stress u over it. and always have some beers in your fridge, beer helps with the sleep

[Anonymous No.18153767]

>>18153731
I want to find this lil bitch and give him a high dose of DTM so he gonna regret his decision and will have the worst trip of his live, and it's gonna feel like an eternity. lil bitch

[Anonymous No.18153776]

>>18153767
DMT*

[Anonymous No.18154276]

>>18151051
You just described all of STEM too.

[Anonymous No.18154284]

Did any of you have a period of your life that you really regret or are you really embarrassed of but which you managed to move on from? If so, how did you do it.

[Anonymous No.18154460]

>>18154284
I had an ex "fiance" I had a two and a half year relationship from 18 to 21 with a girl that lived in Arizona while I lived in Georgia. Talked to her EVERY single night for hours just playing dungeons and dragons and talking dirty on the phone (this was when aol instant messenger was the big thing) I got to know her friends and I went down to visit once. Was fairly neutral. Just introductions from a long distance relationships etc etc.
Kay we spend a lot of time together, I want to start getting serious and I want her to back me up right? Teamwork etc but she still is talking to me about her woes instead of talking about the future with me (red flag) but I took the leap anyway and mailed her an engagement ring. Instead of getting excited she put it in her drawer. Then second visit it's lovey dovey right but she just doesnt commit and says I was too forceful that night and I'm annoyed since I spent like 2000 bucks and we planned everything out together and I'm trying REAL hard to make this work. So then she goes on a trip with her dad and I'm stuck in her house alone until my flight back home is scheduled. I was so mad I decided if she wanted to make this work she'd chase me but...she didn't. Owari the end etc.
Now as to how I got over it...well I still have her panties and picture professing eternal love (lol) and her mom took my boxers to wear around the house.
I tried to look her up a few years later but I can't find her at all. Absolutely no records. Not even an obituary. It's weird.
So I guess I got over it because you can only take so much.
I'm a lot more discerning now. I want the next one to be the one so I'm much more careful.

[Anonymous No.18154461]

How do you guys organize your thoughts? I've got too many threads going in my head and it's becoming a tangled fucking mess.
>>18154284
I'm still young (24) so take that into consideration
I've never had a point in my life I specifically regret. If I could do it over with all I've learned, I would in a heartbeat, but the past is the past and is what shaped me to where I am now. If I had any quarrels with the actions of my past, the worst insult to the lessons I've learned, would be falling into the trappings of regret.

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>>18154461
I keep a pretty consistent routine and know I need x done by y time. From there I mentally schedule errands and such and make writing time. That helps a lot.
When you're not worrying about the day to day it gives you time to worry about the long term.

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>>18154485
>Consistent routine
I know my autismo brain craves this, but I can't keep my life consistent even if it would save it.
Everytime I try and keep a schedule, the schedule itself becomes a worry or things grow so chaotic that a schedule does nothing besides remind me why I hate being alive. Any tips there, wisdom anon?
Aside from that, I was more referring to philosophical and metaphysics arguments and topics.

[Anonymous No.18154502]

satan was right about everything

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>>18154502
chill, satan is not good for u

[Anonymous No.18154516]

>>18154493
>>18154493
Lol believe me I'm a big dum dum that likes to write and trips over himself in the shadows he wanders very often. Sometimes to my benefit.
Honestly you get to a point where you realize just how much you don't know and you end up looking up at the cliffs. Read, read and read. Learn and learn. Just pick up things you don't know with no intent to master them. Medical books. Instruments. How things are made. History and what not. That works for me.

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>>18154516
That was the last three years, actually. One of my favorites is a 1950's book on surgery. Hardly practical by modern-medicine standards, but equally intriguing.

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>>18154536
That sounds pretty cool though! That's what I like about literature. Like I may not be popular now but what if someone dives deep and I entertain them for a month. Good feels.

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>>18154564
Right now, I'm looking to solidify my understandings of philosophy as it lies before seriously studying the old dogs. The last thing I would want is for my thoughts to lost in the flood that comes from starting with the greeks.

[Anonymous No.18154606]

Learning to be multiorgasmic

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>>18154578
I'm pretty sure that's all a meme anyway. I don't ever think I've posted it but my method for stuff like that is to come up with my own theories and stuff and then compare them to what other people have. Seems like the easiest way.
If I ever burn out on my series maybe I'll write a book like that. Seems like a jump in point into that subject might be an easy best seller.

[Anonymous No.18154637]

2D free edition
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[Anonymous No.18154657]

I'm going to die alone but I've learned to cope.

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>>18154612
>and then compare them to what other people have
People here rarely have anything constructive to say. It's either meme replies or literal retards from God knows where. Anywhere else on the internet though is somehow so devoid of original thought or common sense that it's painful to even read unrelated things. It might seem like I'm huffing my own farts, but I've spent far too long in bad company and it's starting to wear on me.
Starting with the Greeks for someone like me isn't a meme though. I want to understand how these trains of thought formed through the years, culminating in this shit show we have today. There are worse ways to start than at the beginning of western philosophy.
Good luck with your series, bro. As far as literature goes, there's this one book without a cover and no real identifiable names that I found on my bookshelf one day. It's a simple "mystery" book about a boy reading through his grandfather's (or someone's) journey's into Africa to understand an unfamiliar animal that lurks on the grounds. Only ever read it once but it certainly stuck with me and was the start of my curiosity. Here's to hoping you write a book like that.
>>18154637
The thread is already up, no need to start thread wars. Just report the vtuber shit next time they make a thread.

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>>18154667
I didn't set the new standard, but I'm following it.

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>>18141300
goddam look at how flat ina is

[Anonymous No.18154809]

I'm afraid and convinced that some of the really successful online musicians, indie game developers and content creators are secretly or unconsciously esoteric hitlerists. There is no way to have the intuition and precision like some of them do without perceiving european dharma at the same time. The underground marketing elite scares me

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>>18154637
Imagine making an early thread

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>>18141705
Yes it can. I’ve been depressed my entire life and only find joy in chasing new knowledge or completing long tasks that caused me suffering of some sort. Go into a trade. You’ll at least be kept busy and have some sort of skills to show for it. I get to blank out and totally forget about being lonely while working. Also get to listen to audiobooks if I’m working alone.

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>>18154809
Why would this make you afraid?

[Anonymous No.18156027]

I wrote 1100 words giving advice in this thread. Huh.