Write what's on your mind

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Write what's on your mind Anonymous Tue Apr 27 13:55:21 2021 No.18123800 [Reply] [Original]

I just saw this vid on /gif/ of a cute goth girl sucking some huge dick and I thought "she probably has a twitter saying George Floyds death was horrible and other shit in support of underdogs and then she goes to her bf and sucks a dick she cant even put in her mouth" does she not realize her bias, which is a bias that goes against feminism at its core, a natural bias in them that harms people and thus they oppress people. Its the same as watching a black nationalist go home to her white husban in their LA mansion in a 99% white community.8

These people are morally bankrupt.

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 14:01:32 2021 No.18123839

>Reading star wars ya romance about rebel and imperial soldiers falling in love
>get attached to main characters
>get about 40% into it before i realize I won't be able to deal with a tragic ending
>read the plot on wikipedia
>decise to drop it because I dislike any romance that ends in anything but an unambiguous happy ending
I realized I'm an extremely sentimental person. I wasn't like this when I was younger.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 14:02:32 2021 No.18123847 >>18123839 I also know this feeling. It's very sad

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 14:22:13 2021 No.18123942 >>18123839 All romance either ends in tragedy or death. There is no happy ending.

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 14:31:38 2021 No.18123990
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>What goes around comes around
WRONG. That's the just world fallacy. The universe is under no obligation to correct for mortal infractions.
>Karma is a bitch
Incorrect. Karma is not a moral system. It is a metaphysical principle and cause and effect. Individual actions ripple throughout the cosmos and effect future lives and rebirths.

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>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 14:42:06 2021 No.18124047 >>18124040 I got something published. I'm very proud! https://www.amazon.com/dp/B092VBPC65

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 14:43:14 2021 No.18124054 >>18123800 Yeah can you link that?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 14:43:36 2021 No.18124057 File: 97 KB, 695x1000, orp cover.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18124040 >>18124047

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 14:44:03 2021 No.18124061
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rained the whole day, as sour as i am the feeling of getting wet and cold is actually nice. affirming in a way, and entering a dry warm room feels better than ever.

old anons may remember a pony from a year ago that got very sick. today somehow we didnt close her stall door, and after waiting for everyone to leave and shut the lights off, she went out to binge on grain from a specially tightly-closed box. if it was full, she'd be dead by now, but luckily there wasnt much and she seemingly only ate a bit. i freaked the fuck out at first though. as of now she's okay, but i'll ask for prayers again, bros
ponies are smart bitter fuckers that will utilize all their wit to be jackasses or hurt themselves

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 14:44:59 2021 No.18124067 >>18123800 What? Was the dick black? This post makes no sense.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 14:45:35 2021 No.18124070 >>18123839 based.. i may be a soulless edglord sometimes but when i read or watch a truly tragic peace, i go full cope and spend that evening constructing a happy alternative universe for the characters

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 14:46:23 2021 No.18124075 >>18123800 Link it

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 14:49:31 2021 No.18124085

AAAAAAAAAAAH!!!! I'M SO TIRED!!!
I've been writing for two years now but every time I read or watch anything I like I end up feeling like shit because I know what I'm doing can't compare. Writing it fucking hard!!! I want to write something fun and exciting!!!

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 14:50:14 2021 No.18124089 >>18124057 I can't read it, so I'm just going to ask, did you steal the idea of surreal emails and instructions from my burgerpunk?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 14:55:19 2021 No.18124105 >>18124089 Why can't you read it?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:01:27 2021 No.18124135 Why are trannies always radical marxists when they rely on the hormones produced by the trillion dollar capitalist corporations and when its this same corporations pushing their ideology?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:03:47 2021 No.18124154 >>18124105 I don’t have a kindle.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:07:50 2021 No.18124173 >>18124154 I don't either. I just read it straight off the Word document as soon as it was done being written.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:08:12 2021 No.18124176 >>18124135 this is just the iphone/starbucks argument

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:08:52 2021 No.18124179 >>18124154 get a boyfriend who does.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:09:15 2021 No.18124181 >>18122312 sounds reasonable, though I'm actually counting on being forever alone and it's going to be hard to change my mind on that, have literal autism and the statistics are too depressing

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:14:21 2021 No.18124203 Is it possible for covert narcissists to become real people before the age of 25? I am the narcissist, and being unable to care about or bond with others reflexively, or even consciously, is Hell.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:17:57 2021 No.18124224 >>18124176 And?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:23:58 2021 No.18124260 >>18124135 Starbucks gives you free surgery

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:27:02 2021 No.18124273

>>18124203
narcissism is a product of adolescence. you can keep your teenage mindset well into life, the fact you recognize it is half the solution
you may be simply clinically unempathetic (same case with me, extremely seldom i feel empathy to anyone and pretty shallowly too, but i care way too much about animals and thats one of the signs)
you learn to bond in other ways, through respect, enjoyment of others' company, the positives it gives you
just find your own detour and arrive at the same place - of being at ease with people

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:30:38 2021 No.18124280 >>18124135 they're not really marxists at all. they're just progressive liberals using a radical aesthetic. this is 90% of leftists in america

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:36:26 2021 No.18124308 >>18124203 So you don't care about anyone at all? You only care about irl (you)s?

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:39:37 2021 No.18124327

>>18124273
I am 22 and got my diagnosis yesterday. I try to stick hard to morality, and nonconscious empathy towards anything but animals is practicaly nonexistant for me, yeah. I want to be as close to normal as possible, but I am sortve freaked out by whether I can swing that by the time I am 25. I want to have a family, wife, etc someday, and dont want to be incapable of caring for and reciprocating those who love me due to how my very warped childhood/adolescence has left me.

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:45:03 2021 No.18124345
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>hurrr durrr I'm a a transexual "marxist" which also makes me one of the biggest consoomers of the capitalist system, I pay 200k for doctors to chop my dick and balls off and I also have to pay for medicine and hormones to big pharma for the rest of my life just so I can pretend to be a female.
Fuck capitalism and fuck marxism.

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:46:57 2021 No.18124355

>>18124308
Emotionaly? No, the subconscious systems in my brain are thown out of absolute whack. Gunning for irl (you)s is a good way to put it. Anything I have with other people is detachted, I have no reflexes for empathising with them, and anything has to be conscious. In the basest sense, I reflexively only want admiration and the sort from others. My inner voice is a goad that I must be better than others.
I do not want to be this way, and try my best to overcome what is nothing less that a sickness. Going off my other post, in my current state I could not be in a romantic relationship and still consider myself moral.

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:50:17 2021 No.18124374

Annie saw an off-white shelf tainted by years of misuse. The top shelf reached her shoulders. It remained steady, even under the pressure of the many classics works it had been holding for decades. She kneeled, running her fingers over the rough, leathery spine of 'The Illiad', dragging it forward, tracing it down to the works of Faulkner, which were bound by worn-out, green felt.

At the end, below a dog-eared copy of 'Lolita', she found a rusted nail. She peered into the corners and found the three misshapen nails that were holding the shelf together.

The library hadn't been open in several years. The squatter, though well read, must have been dirty and careless. Slamming heavy books, with weights measuring in years, as if he owned the stories because he found a copy. This busted shelf was no place to keep books either.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:52:05 2021 No.18124385 >>18123990 cause and effect is the only moral system

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:53:01 2021 No.18124389

>>18124327
you cant reay gain that empathy, but your choice of a path is wise. i also chose a strict moral axis to adhere to
if you aren't against it, you could try shrooms sometime, they didn't make me fully empathetic but i definitely see palpable improvement and in the trip i occasionaly feel true hearttrembling empathy, although to imaginary people
the bad side is actually notice my shortcomings now and feel guilty about stuff i wouldnt even give a second thought normally

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:56:12 2021 No.18124409 File: 648 KB, 1600x1200, a88ebbfaddc68af4b44c20acbf6119405bea9fb08a011c21ad53ef83c82235f2.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] The jannies deleted my chemistry thread.

>>	daisytdent Tue Apr 27 15:57:55 2021 No.18124419 >>18124355 apparlently thats whats hes on aboyut byut well learnt that when the float became a scratch.

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 15:58:26 2021 No.18124420

>>18124389
I have heard psylocibin mushrooms can help rewire the brain for empathy, and have strongly considered it. I do not want the pride I have grown to carry with me in life, eating humble pie will be painful but neccesary.
What dose would you reccomend for a first time dose? How long does it typicaly last?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 16:06:11 2021 No.18124457 >>18124420 read terence mccena if you want to come fully prepared 3-4g is good for a first-timer, dont buy off suspicious people or clearnet sites though

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 16:08:41 2021 No.18124468 >>18124457 Sounds about right, thanks.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 16:50:40 2021 No.18124695 I just can’t do this job anymore. I’m not cut out for this type of work, to any type of work probably...I don’t know where, if anywhere, I go from here...

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 16:59:33 2021 No.18124745 My mum called me weird for taking a night time walk two nights in a row. Honestly it is weird but it shouldn’t be...why are people so boring?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 17:02:12 2021 No.18124758 It's amazing how someone who planned to put a gun to your head suddenly starts touting the virtues of reciprocity when you get the drop on them.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 17:06:10 2021 No.18124780 I have detachable dumbbels with max of 16 lbs on each. I ought to use them but dont know any good exercises.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 17:07:20 2021 No.18124787 >>18123800 >can't watch porn without thinking about politics and getting upset about it Cucked in 5 dimensions. Hypercucked.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 17:48:55 2021 No.18124991 pretty girls make graves is probably in my top 5 smiths songs because of how it describes the anxiety of not being able to perform your male duties

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 17:59:21 2021 No.18125056

Every thread I posted in 10 hours ago is still up, and a good chunk of the catalog is stuff that was here 10 hours ago. /lit/ is going back to pre covid pace which at the time seemed to fast for /lit/ but feels a snail pace after what it was for the past year.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 18:26:06 2021 No.18125255 >>18124780 good thing you have access to the entire breadth of human knowledge at your finger tips, but if you genuinely gave a shit you'd have already tried that method. no shame either way

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 18:26:32 2021 No.18125256 When will americans pay for what they did to the world?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 18:33:26 2021 No.18125291 >>18125256 I didn't do shit

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 18:40:19 2021 No.18125340 >>18125256 Based Putin will save us

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 18:42:08 2021 No.18125350 >>18124780 Curls, tricep extensions, farmers walks, shrugs, cleans, squats, flys, reverse flies, presses, wrist curls, reverse wrist curls. Are you dumb or something?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 18:52:23 2021 No.18125418 Let’s be honest. If you haven’t made it or shown at least a serious talent by the time you’re an adult in your mid-twenties, you’re probably not going to amount to much are you?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 19:15:05 2021 No.18125552 >>18125418 are you looking for some sort of affirmation for your own sake?

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 19:31:41 2021 No.18125675

I'm sick of being disrespected all the time. I don't know what's wrong with people, or maybe it's my face. Last time I went to see orthodentists and asked to get a brace to straigthen my teeth, they just looked at me like I was retarded and asked me to come back later, just why? It's not the first time this has happened, females hairdressers mocked me when I was a kid, people didn't want to shift of one place at the cinema so that I could sit with my friend, literally saying no with poison like I was a beast.
Do I look retarded? Do I speak like a retard? Do you disrespect someone if that person manner of speech is retarded but still perfectly understandable? Why?

Being a decent person, asking nicely and being polite just don't make it towards some people, that for some reason have it against me.

I really wish I was born tall, at least people don't overtly disrespect you if you're as buff as a bull. Fuck this shit.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 19:34:29 2021 No.18125687 >>18125552 No. This is a write what’s on your mind thread and that’s what’s on my mind.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 20:10:54 2021 No.18125902 Lovecraft meeting that girl at the freelance journalist conference is the real life equivalent to best girl falling out of the sky for our anime protagonist. She might as well have been Misaki-chan. Life’s honestly not fair.

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 20:37:00 2021 No.18126063

>>18125418
Talent is just a multiplicative modifier. Unless you are a cripple or braindamaged then a lack of talent can be made up for.
What really gets you far is nepotism, likeability, and sometimes blind luck.
In the end, even the greatest of men who have worked to edify themselves are not even motes of dust in the eyes of God, and the positive impact you make on others shouldnt be discounted

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 20:38:26 2021 No.18126070 how do I stop hating myself?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 20:54:40 2021 No.18126164 I’m pretty sure I’m going to kill myself. This is a last ditch cry for help in case anyone has any reading that would convince me I shouldn’t.

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:03:43 2021 No.18126196

>>18126070
I am the narcissist above.
From what I can gather, even though you think you dont deserve it, you must be able to speak well and be merciful to yourself for failure. You have to force this because your inner critical voice is too unapposed by a sense of self worth.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:06:21 2021 No.18126206 I like short brown women Simple as.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:08:49 2021 No.18126218 >>18126164 Inevitably, its only your choice, but I pray that you change your mind and that the circumstances surrounding your life change to where you want to live.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:11:31 2021 No.18126229 >>18126164 Unironically read the Qu'ran.

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:12:41 2021 No.18126237
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I can't tell my girlfriend that i don't trust her. I know for a fact that she won't take it well at all. I didn't have a lot of trust in her to start with, but over time and over many bad signs i ended up trusting her less and less. Yet i always said that i did whenever i was asked, because i was trying to convince myself along with it.
Did i dig myself into a grave with this? What do i do?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:22:15 2021 No.18126288 >>18126206 I enjoy colonizing their wombs

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:28:08 2021 No.18126319 >>18123800 >60 posts >no link Op I hate you so much it’s incredible.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:31:15 2021 No.18126336 >>18125675 I sincerely doubt they were trying to offend, 90% of people simply don’t care this much about anybody, let alone a random stranger. Sounds like you grew up a chip on your shoulder and your perceptions are being warped by it, anon.

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:48:48 2021 No.18126438 [DELETED]

i hate motherfuckers who wont add u on linkedin even tho u work with them. u think ur too good to add me? we work at the same fucking place dude. then again one time i added some intern from work, and she started dming and texting me all this shit. i'm like bruh i just want to reach more recruiters when i'm looking to switch jobs, not actually have a conversation with u, jesus.

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:54:00 2021 No.18126473

>>18126237
You shouldn't trust anyone and no one should expect trust from someone else.
You didn't dig anything. What you need to do is agree to whatever you said before and shut the fuck up about this matter and keep the truth to yourself if not asked by the relevant people.

Trust is retarded, most people clearly state in the first steps of a new relationship that they don't trust anyone completely and won't, ever. You only have to cope with this one lie, and your girlfriend is retarded if she really expects you to trust her 100% on everything.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:54:08 2021 No.18126476 >>18125675 >I really wish I was born tall, at least people don't overtly disrespect you if you're as buff as a bull Are you fat?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:54:15 2021 No.18126477 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uqFqQC_lkGc in this age of social surveillance hell vaporwave is so calming to the soul

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:56:10 2021 No.18126490

>>18125675
I used to have a lot of insecurity over my height too (I'm 5'8" ~173cm so not extremely short), especially when i noticed the differences in how people treated me/other short people vs tall people. it's subsided a bit just through me adopting a more stoic mindset and stuff, but does anyone have any advice for actually getting over this sort of insecurity?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:56:22 2021 No.18126491 >>18126476 I'm slender.

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:57:43 2021 No.18126497
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>>18123800
I think mugging Chinese international students can be a profitable business in Canada. Only the rich ones, of course, seeing a 100-pound ying-yang hop into an Audi A7 does convince me this might provide a better return than investing in the stock market/crypto as a white man, chao!

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 21:58:45 2021 No.18126501 i can't wait to retire, fuck this world.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 22:02:08 2021 No.18126528 >>18126497 lmao there used to be a chinese kid with a bmw i8 in my city that i'd always see down by the million dollars condos on the waterfront. haven't seen him in a while tho, maybe he switched cars.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 22:05:08 2021 No.18126545 >>18126528 If you do catch him again, you might just have a business opportunity compadre

Anonymous Tue Apr 27 22:05:26 2021 No.18126547

>>18126473
That's the problem. I'm fine with the lack of trust but she's definitely not. We've had numerous arguments about me not being on her side, and even though i stated many times that i was just being careful so i'd gather as much information as possible before taking a stance, she kept going about how i don't believe her despite her best efforts when i never said that i thought she was making things up.
It's one retarded series of back and forth and quite frankly i'm starting to get tired of it. I love her but it gets real tricky at times.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 22:07:01 2021 No.18126556 >>18123800 what do you think of writing prompts? are they a good starting point?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 22:07:08 2021 No.18126560 >>18123800 Back to gbfg tranny

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Anonymous Tue Apr 27 22:25:13 2021 No.18126657
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She said i make her happy to be alive and am the best person she ever met. I don't think she's lying about the way she feels.
But i don't love her that much. Not to the extent of wanting to spend my life with her. It's a horrible situation and every single path seems to be leading to a very dark end. I don't know what to do.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 23:14:19 2021 No.18126899 For the first time in my life I’m actively seeking to get involved with people. I like to make people smile and laugh, as gay as that sounds.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 23:27:39 2021 No.18126959 >>18124355 That you're able to acknowledge this is a good sign anon. Always keep improving, you can make it.

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 23:28:34 2021 No.18126965 >>18126556 Starting point for what?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 23:33:20 2021 No.18126981 >>18123800 Are you fucking proud of yourselves?

>>	Anonymous Tue Apr 27 23:49:21 2021 No.18127038 >>18126899 That’s not gay at all anon. We’re supposed to be sociable. It’s only gay if you suck dick

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 00:18:45 2021 No.18127156 >>18126981 absolutely not. i am full of shame.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 00:29:22 2021 No.18127204

>>18126657
im in a similar situation. I even told my girlfriend as much and shes okay with it. she basically told me we should stay together and see if my feelings change. i wish i felt more strongly about her so i wouldn't have to deal with what feels like an inevitable and crushing breakup.
i wish i could just be content with her, but i always have this vague feeling of wanting to be with other people. and yet i look down on people like myself who are looking for the next new experience instead of building a good relationship over time.
not much advice for you anon. but i can relate

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 00:30:24 2021 No.18127208 >>18126981 No. Im 30 next year and i have nothing to show.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 00:36:51 2021 No.18127243 [DELETED]

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>>18123800
I hate African Americans, and I would rather people hunt them than innocent animals. I felt very sad for Cecil the Lion, but when George Floyd was killed, I was salivating at the thought of choking a nigger. I unintentionally ended a ten year "literary" friendship when the first thing I told my friend is that the nigger deserved to die.
What's funny is a nigger broke into my house recently, and I shot the detestable thing. It felt so good. I also had a nightmare two days before this happened of niggers raiding my house, raping my wife, killing my cats, and setting the place on fire. It's as if Ohrmazd is giving me a message that anywhere niggers move to becomes cursed.
I tried querying literary agents with my picture book, but it was rejected because it has no niggers. Just go to SCBWI page. A nigger in every illustration! Right before that nigger broke into my house, I was watching a video advertising a TV show of niggers reading picture books to kids about how "oppressed" and "accomplished" they are. Niggers are some kind of darkly apparition, they exist to mock me and make my life hard, so I must be strong and fight against the forces of evil. After the incident, I am living with my dad after that nigger broke in. Too afraid to go back to my old house given my nightmare before the event happened. It used to be a largely white neighborhood, safe before demonic niggers brought forth their impurities. Then these niggers gradually flowed in as if from the tenebrous flow of Ahriman. Look at the recent Caldecott award winner! It's written in ebonics and worships niggers! America is becoming a nigger-worshiping country! Even during BLM shenanigans, niggers tortured a poor raccoon!
I want to crush the skulls of niggers, mutilate their bodies, and decorate my room with their carcasses. I want to walk in dark laboratories watching nigger children scream and slice their brains for the purposes of neurobiological research. I had to sacrifice rats for my Neuroscience lab. It traumatized me. Then let it be niggers underneath the blade! That is the answer! Fuck niggers! Instead of hunting, devouring, or experimenting on innocent animals, go abduct nigger trash and hunt them instead. Purify this world of defilement. Niggers are a representation of evil and the light from the Aryan exists to banish it. SEND NIGGERS TO WHENCE THEY CAME FROM, WHICH IS AHRIMAN'S HOUSE OF LIES. Rid this world of the evil and darkness, for to be a nigger is to be damned.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 00:52:31 2021 No.18127305 >>18126164 love you bro dont do it. we didnt ask to be born but there is happiness out there. it may seem far away but live a true life and you’ll get closer to it.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 01:03:04 2021 No.18127348 Why wont this bitch leave me alone. I treat her like shit, but she keeps sleeping with me.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 01:03:28 2021 No.18127350 >>18123942 This is the beginning of a CS Lewis quote. But you didn't add the love of God there

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 01:04:31 2021 No.18127354 >>18123839 My reason for not watching 5cm/sec

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 01:09:35 2021 No.18127376 >>18127348 >bro, just be nice and treat her well. she'll realize what a great person you are

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 01:25:47 2021 No.18127417
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>>18126063
This is why I'm always nice to people wherever I can be. I don't mean tithing or giving donations or whatever. I know how hard it is to get up on stage and present something. I hope my cheering helps.
>>18127376
This is why I'm a bit shy. Girls that are interested in me will follow me into the shadows and say hello and it's not like I don't have a presence/my own (small) group of fans. If we connect I want her interested in me and not wanting to leave.
Still not married and turning 35 soon so hopefully the next one that pops up is interested in marriage. I'm not getting any younger.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 01:34:23 2021 No.18127450 File: 133 KB, 1215x658, BAA55EFE-8E8C-4366-ADAA-FC3BB6C761C4.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] in the last 1500 days the longest I have managed to go without fapping is 6 days. I have tried everything and fail.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 01:37:54 2021 No.18127462 >>18127450 Have you tried not caring about it?

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 01:48:59 2021 No.18127497 >>18127462 I don’t really but I waste around 3-6 hours a day on it, it’s irritating that I don’t have a heuristic to kill horny thoughts

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 01:53:33 2021 No.18127501 >>18127497 Maybe finding a way to shorten the time would be more effective than trying to stop entirely

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 02:03:36 2021 No.18127526
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>>18123800
Modern people don't have morals. You only look down on her because it's a way to scrape up some 'identity'. At best you have some feelings but that's not the same thing as scruples. If you had any standards you wouldn't be on this website let alone browsing /gif/.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 02:06:49 2021 No.18127536

A thought about thoughts came to me as I was eating lunch today.

Could you define a thought as a thing which is about another thing? Both a thought in my head and a billboard would fall under this definition. But then we could define a conscious being as a being which can create thoughts, or things about things. This would base consciousness in symbols and symbolism.

Is this a reasonable definition at all? I feel like I'm onto something. Hopefully I'll be able to take this further.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 03:25:58 2021 No.18127816
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Whenever I try to write something I can't seem to put words on the page, and even if I'm able to finally do that, I get too embarrassed by how "cringe" it is (even if it's not really all that cringey) and it makes it even harder to finish the story.

Despite that, I have at least 5 different stories in my head I want to write, but I'm stuck in this loop of procrastination and barely living day to day in my parent's house.

I genuinely don't know where to get motivation from.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 03:28:48 2021 No.18127831 >>18126164 I want to help anon, but I don't know anything about your situation. What's going on fren?

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 03:28:53 2021 No.18127834

...the same animefag creating every wg and sffg thread...i don’t know why i come here...people are always regurgitating the same shit, very rarely does someone post anything that is even mildly interesting...and even if i’d engage in discussion it would turn into a shit throwing competition like it always does... ...the occasional actual good link... does this even beat working? Not really but it’s a change from the monotony...back to work i guess...

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 03:48:16 2021 No.18127924
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>>18127834
Honestly I was surprised people got excited over query tracker. I'd help you guys out more if I knew what you needed. I like to say we're all gonna make it, but if I can help then I will.
I dunno. I like the anime stuff. I'm a workaholic and it's nice to see cute things. I want those girls to succeed but I also have to succeed in my own world too. I'll watch from the shadows until a spotlight finally cast itself on me and I don't disappear with the darkness.
To me this place is a campfire. A place where I cast my thoughts to fellow shades as we pass by. A quaint respite away from the hustle and bustle. I hope the best for all of us really.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 03:53:46 2021 No.18127963

>>18127834
>>18127924
Yeah, can't stand the anime pictures. Reminds me of mindless escapism and consumerism. At least post interesting images for the generals. But it is an uphill battle, the people posting anime are more obsessed and have more time on their hands. Why not keep the anime to the shittier boards.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 03:56:36 2021 No.18127977

>>18123800
>THEN I SAW THE CONGO, CREEPING THROUGH THE BLACK
>CUTTING THROUGH THE FOREST WITH A GOLDEN TRACK
Speak to me of romance and mystery, of the unknown and undiscovered. For this I yearn, yet what have I to discover in a world like ours? There are no frontiers on the Earth's surface, no blanks on the maps. Too soon was I born to soar into space, too late to chart the lands. What remains?
The sea, the heartless cruel sea, the crushing depth, the long cold dark. There, there is my frontier.
Once dove Alexander the Great into the sea in a diving bell. Returning said the great king, "The world is damned and lost, and the big fish eat the little fish".
There the name then, the name of my book. A World Damned and Lost, even as my heart was lost to that world long gone.
Dive. Dive, damn you! Here's to impel down, to an undiscovered country this side of the Styx.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 03:59:22 2021 No.18127998

>>18127924
>>18127963
...the chans are the animefags’ domains... i guess it’s the opposite of OUTSIDE where normies reign supreme... maybe this is how they feel... ...”please stop posting living people on the covers of vogue and elle magazines”... ...i guess it’s good to have things turned on ya for a change... back to work i guess...

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 04:03:26 2021 No.18128027

>>18123800
>THEN I SAW THE CONGO, CREEPING THROUGH THE BLACK
>CUTTING THROUGH THE FOREST WITH A GOLDEN TRACK
Speak to me of romance and mystery, of the unknown and undiscovered. For this I yearn, yet what have I to discover in a world like ours? There are no frontiers on the Earth's surface, no blanks on the maps. Too soon was I born to soar into space, too late to chart the lands. What remains?
The sea, the heartless cruel sea, the crushing depth, the long cold dark. There, there is my frontier.
Once dove Alexander the Great into the sea in a diving bell. Returning said the great king, "The world is damned and lost, and the big fish eat the little fish".
There the name then, the name of my book. A World Damned and Lost, even as my heart was lost to that world long gone.
Dive. Dive, damn you! Here's to impel down, to an undiscovered country this side of the Styx.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 04:04:27 2021 No.18128033
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>>18127924
I appreciate what you do, Anon. I like anime too, even though I am more of an oldfag and I have deeper, broader tastes in literature and reading than perhaps might be expected of a weeb.

I will say that I am drawn to anime, and to animation in general, because I find that so many Japanese cartoons display great craft, and also great aesthetic sense. Even today, in this age of digital animation, so many anime have a sense of drama, of passion, of great feeling, which seems lacking to me in a lot of Western media. Anime and manga have their own problems but they do a lot of things well that aren't done well any more in the West. A lot of anime seem closer to beauty, truth, and goodness than a lot of Western animation.

But the West still has its charms. Primal, from Genndy Tartakovsky, is already one of my favorite animated series of all time, from any country. It is as great as the best anime I have ever seen, a masterpiece of storytelling in animation.

I am drawn to animation in both the East and the West because it can make the fantastic and the unreal into reality, in a way no live action movie or show ever could, even with the best special effects. The unreal becomes real in animation in ways it can never do in live action. This is one of the reasons I love it so much.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 04:06:58 2021 No.18128041 >>18123839 The ending was very ambiguous and we still haven’t gotten any closer

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 04:08:19 2021 No.18128045 File: 77 KB, 700x525, 1619529953582.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I like it when there’s an anime pic in the op. Makes the pseuds and normies seethe.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 04:09:16 2021 No.18128048 >>18128045 Me too, and I especially like it when they cope by saying its just one person.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 04:13:26 2021 No.18128061
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>>18128033
Thank you friend. If it makes any difference iirc (simplifying by a LOT I know) anime is just Disney art that branched off and became its own thing when artists started using computers to draw.
Brain for is forcing me to sleep. Chin up lads. The sun will rise tomorrow.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 04:15:22 2021 No.18128066 >>18128061 Mm. Misspelled fog and my old picture from the aquarium is sideways. Yep. Bedtime.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 04:15:31 2021 No.18128068 I heard myself on a recording. It was dreadful. How to improve voice without vocal cord operation?

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 04:32:28 2021 No.18128135 >>18128068 Keep listening to yourself until you get used to it.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 04:37:37 2021 No.18128150 >>18128135 Yeah but i sound like 15 year old despite being 28. I try to breath from the belly but voice doesnt drop.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 04:53:21 2021 No.18128210 >>18123800 I'm going to submit my story, wish me luck. https://cairdefestival.com/cairde-word/

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 05:15:57 2021 No.18128275 >>18128210 Good luck!

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 05:30:01 2021 No.18128309 Where's the best place to self publish? I take a day a week to work on serialized work and have yet to publish any of it.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 05:59:51 2021 No.18128416 >>18127204 >>18126657 you guys probably just feel that way because you haven't had your love challenged yet. I was like that before and panicked when my girlfriend almost left me because I fucked up.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 06:38:39 2021 No.18128545

i'm very vain.
i judge people severely, and usually not on any moral basis (though I do that too), but rather on an esthetic basis. If someone does something or says something ugly, or which shows followership in a meek and sad way, I discard the person. not completely, but I look down upon them.

I used to think that this was something that a character on Seinfeld would do, and therefore that it was normal. But Seinfeld is a show about a bunch of cunts.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 07:07:54 2021 No.18128629 >>18124203 I think I'm a covert narcissist too.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 07:11:16 2021 No.18128633
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People have told me many times in the past to go visit a mental health professional but I honestly don't see the point when deep inside I truly do not want to make any changes. All the therapy and meds in the world aren't gonna do anything if I don't want to get better.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 07:20:25 2021 No.18128664 I agree

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 07:31:13 2021 No.18128692 I hate freedom of speech. Why the FUCK would I want any of you to have the freedom to speak?

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 07:33:49 2021 No.18128698 >>18124273 >(same case with me, extremely seldom i feel empathy to anyone and pretty shallowly too, but i care way too much about animals and thats one of the signs) i don't feel any real empathy for animals. am I fucked?

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 07:36:54 2021 No.18128707 >>18128633 Therapy could help you want to get better. I'm not saying you need it, I am very suspicious of psychiatry in general, but you're desire to not-get-better is not necessarily fixed.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 08:05:00 2021 No.18128783 >>18128633 you either adapt to society or you go full schizo and go on a quest to right whatever wrongs you feel there are in the world. conform or bee yourself, there are NO in-betweens and your apathy is not an excuse.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 08:10:34 2021 No.18128802 File: 44 KB, 496x400, judge-e1547421320885-496x400.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18128633 >People tell me to see a mental health professional >threaten to beat them to death if they talk to me ever again

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 08:29:42 2021 No.18128866 >>18128802 based

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 09:03:44 2021 No.18129017 >>18128150 >being so insecure that you want an operation to deepen your voice Lol wow

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 09:08:26 2021 No.18129037 >>18123800 I don't understand what OP means. What does goth have to witrh feminism at all? Stupid coom brains.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 09:15:58 2021 No.18129064 can anybody out there hear me?

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 09:16:45 2021 No.18129065 I wake up with severe anxiety in my chest and throat every single morning.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 10:06:14 2021 No.18129354 I’m actually embarrassed at my past job attempts and volunteering.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 10:17:34 2021 No.18129411 >>18126490 >but does anyone have any advice for actually getting over this sort of insecurity? don´t think about it

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 10:24:31 2021 No.18129437 >>18129354 Why

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 10:35:45 2021 No.18129507 I want to press a hot iron into an attractive young man's belly.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 10:39:56 2021 No.18129538

>>18129437
They were stupid. I’m basically a bookish nerd but for a long time I tried desperately not to be so I could look cool and I ended up taking jobs that I wasn’t cut out for and quitting pretty much immediately. It’s so cringe looking back on it. I regret most of my life to be honest.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 10:44:01 2021 No.18129563 >>18128150 And yet there is Mike Tyson, whose voice never stopped him from anything. Not even rape...

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 10:48:34 2021 No.18129583 >>18125256 They are already paying, but only the innocent ones

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 11:07:06 2021 No.18129705 >>18129064 yes retard stop being pretentious

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 11:10:03 2021 No.18129715
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>>18123800
What's on my mind?
Why the fuck would you fire a bow with three arrows? By doing that you divide the energy you put into the string among 3 projectiles. So instead of 1 deadly projectile that has all the kinetic energy from the string you have 3 limp dick projectiles that won't do jack shit. I swear I hate retarded weebs and their "cool shit".

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 11:13:47 2021 No.18129730 What’s on my mind at all times is “Yeah, I’m thinking I’m based.”

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 11:15:18 2021 No.18129745 I want to move to New York but I’m about to be a NEET.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 11:29:00 2021 No.18129817
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I live with three women (family) and I hate living here one of them got a dog and doesn’t take care of it. Always noisy and I get pissed off at the slightest noise. I hate women so much it’s unreal.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 11:38:18 2021 No.18129872 >>18129730 based

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 11:52:30 2021 No.18129955

Honestly, I’m such an idiot. What was I thinking living in this tiny little town? As if I didn’t get enough of nowhere living when I was in Uni, I had to go and waste several more years of my life in another little boondock town where people stare at you for walking on the sidewalk.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 11:53:36 2021 No.18129966 >>18129817 They've probably turned you into a pseudo woman

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 11:58:44 2021 No.18129998 >>18129966 i will never be a woman

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 12:10:25 2021 No.18130064

At 28, I’m finally waking up to the fact that I’ve resigned my life to mundane mediocrity, being basically inadequate to even have a career or raise a family, as if that would be at all preferable anyway. I’ve fucked this whole thing up and I think I’d rather just opt out to be honest. This life is not worth living.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 12:23:54 2021 No.18130152 >>18130064 >mundane mediocrity >no career or family Bro you're not even mediocre

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 12:33:29 2021 No.18130233 I hate niggers

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 12:36:55 2021 No.18130258 >>18129817 so go get a boyfriend

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 12:43:37 2021 No.18130319 File: 203 KB, 620x465, EyQpmPfWgAUhd3-.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I wanna fuck a girl like Audrey from huniepop, but I don't have the guts to talk to girls like that

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 12:43:38 2021 No.18130320 >>18130152 Mundane mediocrity is the ambitious outcome is what I mean. That’s precisely what’s so depressing. I’m pretty sure I’m done anyway. At least to me, it will be like I never even existed.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 12:51:15 2021 No.18130364

Emile Zola captured the essence of modern ennui.

“Boredom was at the root of Lazare's unhappiness, an oppressive, unremitting boredom, exuding from everything like the muddy water of a poisoned spring. He was bored with leisure, with work, with himself even more than with others. Meanwhile he blamed his own idleness for it, he ended by being ashamed of it.”

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 13:11:00 2021 No.18130489

>>18126070
Understand why you hate yourself and tackle it at the root. I hated myself for a short period because of my retarded mistakes, then I understood that other people do the same amount of mistakes but they don't tell you and keep it hidden to look better. But as Donnie Darko's dad said, other people are full of shit.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 13:17:26 2021 No.18130517

>>18126164
That's exactly what the assholes who hurt you want you to do, to humiliate you, to make you depressed until you remove yourself from the breeding pool at once without bothering them. The most revolutionary act against modern normies is to keep living.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 13:26:30 2021 No.18130577 >>18126657 Love builds up with time, years. It's not a 0/1 number. If only I learned it sooner.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 13:30:24 2021 No.18130602 File: 881 KB, 935x585, 1618316320270.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18126981 Yes but I still have a lot of shit to get together and problems to work on and the pandemic has been a huge set back.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 13:31:03 2021 No.18130605 >>18126657 Love isn't just attraction, if you can find a solid gal who you can enjoy spending time with, that's a better deal than just a hot chick, trust me

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 13:31:46 2021 No.18130611 >>18130517 The problem is I’m the one that hates myself. I just don’t think I can live in a way that will make living worth it and so I don’t want to anymore.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 13:36:39 2021 No.18130638 >>18126965 starting point for this dick in ur mouth

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 13:46:15 2021 No.18130695 >>18130611 What does your life consist of right now?

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 13:50:25 2021 No.18130711 Is it really the most dangerous person who has nothing to lose?

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 13:54:12 2021 No.18130744 >>18127354 I felt like a fragile little baby with baby emotions after crying to that movie

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 13:59:20 2021 No.18130783

>>18130695
What do you mean? I work, but I hate my job. I’ll probably be quitting soon. I spend my free time reading and practicing foreign language. I would like to write but I don’t think I’m any good nor will I be. I live in a small college town but my lease is ending shortly and I don’t have particular plans to go elsewhere. That sums it up I think.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:00:59 2021 No.18130800 Is this whole thread a meme? What's happening?

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:04:05 2021 No.18130816 >>18130783 There seem to be a lot of anons living in college towns that they dislike

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:09:07 2021 No.18130849 >>18130816 How do you know that?

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:09:54 2021 No.18130856 >>18124745 retards who walked out form home at night were at risk of being killed by nocturnal predators

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:12:08 2021 No.18130873 >>18130849 Just from reading posts about it.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:13:24 2021 No.18130885

Finally starting to understand that my friends really are my friends. I always had one or two, but it was always me waiting for them to invite me to something and always thinking that they only do so out of pity. Lately I've been taking the initiative more, inviting them over for coffee or drinks in the evening and such. They are always happy to come and we have a great time. It's kinda nice.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:15:29 2021 No.18130898

>>18130873
They’re probably me desu. I’ve been basically suicidal for like a year so I come here and just vent all the time trying to get help or something. I don’t know. There’s probably something wrong with me and that’s probably annoying in retrospect but I figured I was anonymous. Well, maybe I’m not as anonymous as I thought.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:16:46 2021 No.18130913 >>18130898 There's at least one other guy who desperately wants to move to New York.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:20:21 2021 No.18130938 >>18130913 post-2020 nyc is corny as hell, i can't wait to gtfo of here for the most obscure town i can find

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:21:20 2021 No.18130944 >>18130938 What's wrong with it?

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:22:02 2021 No.18130947 >>18130913 Nope. That was almost certainly me. I suppose I’ve been a lot more pathetic than I realized but that’s status quo I guess...sorry.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:27:32 2021 No.18130984 >>18130947 It's all good. Maybe spend less time feeling sorry for yourself, you will undoubtedly end up feeling better

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:30:06 2021 No.18131008 [DELETED]

>>18130944
covid as accelerated all of the most obnoxious concern karening of the bloomberg years, but with all the of the insane homeless and gun fights of the pre-guilliani era, and rents have only come down single digit percent. basically you get to pay a premium for the worst of both worlds. i literally have not gone into manhattan for over a year. there's no point.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:36:36 2021 No.18131051 >>18126164 I use books I haven't yet read as an excuse to not commit suicide >No way I'm dying without having read Faulkner or Maclean

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:38:44 2021 No.18131070

I was talking to some of my co-workers and I told them that I wouldn't let my future children have smartphones or use social media until they were 15/16, and that I would heavily limit their screen time. To my surprise they shocked at this and they told me it would be 'cruel', I asked why and they said that 'they wouldn't fit in with other kids'. I suppose that's true, but does that mean I have to expose my children to every sickness of contemporary society just so they 'fit in'? I hate that we just have to accept whatever technology gets foisted upon us because it becomes so entangled into society that it's impossible to integrate without it.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:38:49 2021 No.18131071 >>18130944 what do you plan to do in the city that you couldn't do anywhere else? there's no reason to be here.

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Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:42:01 2021 No.18131088

>>18131070
The way that usually goes is that your kids will find other ways outside your home to access phones etc. A tale as old as time.
But it is definitely sensible to not give the toddlers access. I believe the constant dopamine dose you get surely has a lasting impact on a young brain.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:43:04 2021 No.18131096 >>18130938 Dunno. Currently live in the east village and it is pretty chill. Everyone is out and about.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:46:00 2021 No.18131117

>>18131096
idk i just feel like the only reason to live in the city is if you are gay and want a big pool of partners. if you're straight or not promiscuous, i just don't see any reason to be there. well, i guess if you work for some stodgy bank that's uptight about remote work or something.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 14:49:06 2021 No.18131147

>>18130984
I don’t really feel sorry for myself I don’t think. Yeah, I hold some resentments but I don’t see myself as a victim of the world or anything. It’s not the world that’s all wrong, it’s me. Or at least that’s how I see it. Is that feeling sorry for yourself? I don’t know. I guess I’m just at a pretty deep point of self loathing and I’m not really coming out nor do I see a way out. Hence why I come talk to people here about the same shit all the time I guess.

Anyway, I see that I’m being that obnoxious guy again so I’ll digress but thanks for talking to me and not being nasty about it.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 15:39:01 2021 No.18131454
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I unironically want to start smoking just because it looks cool. Like, just occasionally in social settings when it's about presenting yourself in front of /lit/ pussies. Idc about the relaxing effect, I don't believe in that shit anyway

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 15:39:44 2021 No.18131458 >>18131454 oh god I’m sharing the board with 13 year olds

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 15:51:04 2021 No.18131532 >>18131458 you're saying that as if it's weird to do stuff just to impress others. welcome to the 21st century btw

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 15:57:30 2021 No.18131572 >>18131454 this but opiods

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 15:59:54 2021 No.18131589

> Do you like writing or do you like the idea of being a writer?
Both? When I write, I like it. It’s not even like I love it. It’s more like I feel like I’m doing something that I need to do, but I struggle to bring myself to do it often. Does that mean I don’t like it?

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 16:05:08 2021 No.18131632

I don't believe in ghosts (the spectral, floating kind), but I reckon that, somewhere beyond the visible world, there are some things pretty close to ghosts. So in a way, I do believe in ghosts. Not believing in ghost stuff at all is more wrong than what I'm doing, I think. The same with the soul and most things supernatural. I think that, believing in this stuff, you're probably closer to the truth than a scientist.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 16:06:22 2021 No.18131644

Anyway, I watched a few of that R.C. Waldun kid’s videos after seeing him here and in my feed. Those videos are bad. I navigated to his most popular videos and watch first a video on Dark Academia followed by one about “finding your passion”. In the former, he talked about this thing which apparently just the aesthetics of literature or something. I’m the latter, he talked about how basically you can’t fetishize the image of being or doing something without actually loving the thing. Kind of pathetic. The advice was of schoolgirl quality and pretty naive, basic actually. Don’t these two things completely juxtapose with each other anyway? What a waste.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 16:12:17 2021 No.18131689

Red pill me on fantasy. My perception of it currently is that it’s basically immature and low brow, but I’m open to having my mind changed and I can admit that when I was younger, I very much enjoyed reading fantasy and especially light novels. I just don’t now.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 16:16:22 2021 No.18131725 >>18131689 What's wrong with low brow? That's where the fun is, innit? If I wanted to work, I'd go to work.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 16:20:04 2021 No.18131763 >>18131725 Nothing objectively I suppose but it’s like I said, I just perceive it as immature and kind of easy. However, I’m open to having my mind changed. I don’t understand your last sentence I’m afraid.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 16:29:02 2021 No.18131832 >>18131763 I can't be bothered to read anything difficult, is what I meant. I'm basically you, but in reverse.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 16:29:06 2021 No.18131834 hope i die soon

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 17:30:08 2021 No.18132245
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>>18131589
Nah. Remember those games/activities you loved when you were younger and how you pulled all nighters doing them etc?
Do you still do them?
Writing's the same. It's a lifelong commitment to create something more permanent than most things. Burnout and writer's block exist for a reason.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 17:41:35 2021 No.18132312 >>18126164 You know you're gonna die anyway, what's the rush man

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 17:42:40 2021 No.18132316 >>18126237 >I can't tell her I don't trust her because I don't trust her to take it well Pottery. Why are you with someone you can't trust? You can always pull the fucking ripcord, man.

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 17:49:49 2021 No.18132361

>>18125675
People treat you well when you're attractive or intimidating. That said, you sometimes need to demand the treatment you want. If someone says or does something you don't like, call it out. If that doesn't work, fuck with them if you can get away with it, take your licks and move on if you can't.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 17:58:05 2021 No.18132414 To think that she will be mine... Feels good anons.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 18:00:37 2021 No.18132429 >>18132361 I never thought of myself as particularly attractive but strangers are usually very respectful to me. Could it be?

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 18:01:44 2021 No.18132436 >>18123800 >morals

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 18:34:09 2021 No.18132665
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>>18132316
I trusted her more than anyone in my life. And now i'm starting to slightly regret it. I can't shake the feeling that if things turn more sour than usual in the future, she will jump at the opportunity of exposing all of my intimate vulnerabilities and secrets. There was one instance where she attempted to hurt me by trying to ruin things with a good friend of mine, and she did it after an argument. I don't know what she would do once we have an inevitably bigger fight, and it terrifies me at times.
I want to trust her, but i don't know if i can at this point.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 18:35:13 2021 No.18132675 I have a friend who has liked me for years. I fucked a few hours ago.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 18:47:29 2021 No.18132751 File: 138 KB, 949x474, 1583798746298.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TbYmZSOnyuk I love this song

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 19:04:03 2021 No.18132832 >>18127450 Go to a rekt thread on /b/ everytime you want to jack off. Kills the boner.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 19:06:31 2021 No.18132840 >>18131454 Smoke menthol cigarettes, they don't have nicotine in them

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 19:08:56 2021 No.18132858 "enlightenment" is just a meme. We're too dumb to understand the universe.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 19:26:28 2021 No.18132945 You're not going to make it as an author. There's no point in you even trying.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 20:10:01 2021 No.18133201 >>18132858 understanding yourself is good enough

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 21:26:02 2021 No.18133573 >>18132832 >tfw sadist This won't work on me.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 21:45:32 2021 No.18133672 >>18131454 Don't listen to any of the other anons. Avoid nicotine at all costs — are you stupid enough to ask this? You'd be deteriorating your lungs and are highly prone to develop cancer. Do you want that?

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 21:51:49 2021 No.18133712 >>18125675 By any chance, are you super thin?

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 21:53:39 2021 No.18133721

>>18123800
Yes, I'm done now. I was never going to become the next Faulkner, the next Nabokov or the next Joyce, but I hid behind the language barrier to avoid criticism for months, maintaining an illusion that was fun to live in while it lasted. I had thought my country's education system was topmost in the world, but this turned out to be utter bollocks. A child of 18, a person ten years my junior, has a greater vocabulary than I, who had to look up the word “topiary”, and no one likes the expression theory of art anymore, I am likened to a long lost dinosaur.
This will be my final post on /lit/. I've been humiliated and exposed as a fraud. My writing is pretentious, infantile, banal drivel. My observations are dull, my language grade school level. My tenses are mixed up; I use colloquialisms, ellipses and onomatopoeia. I mix tired and trite idioms together to obfuscate their unoriginality with a veneer of irony; I have continued to recite ornate Jewish chimpanzee parables with diminishing returns. The parable seemed very clearly to me to be asking me whether or not the now-grown-adult can choose. I say yes, of course, but that's not my issue.
I was never cut out for writing. I began writing my "book" on January 6th. Since then I've produced 82 thousand words for it. These words are a tide of garbage without value, without insight, without form. The themes of time, space, infinity, memory and pointless duelling are not present in my work. It was never real writing, it was anime and weebshit. Look how many words I wrote, because apparently literature is bodybuilding and just aimlessly typing will somehow improve my writing. I don't even know what genre it is that I'm writing. Is it autofiction? A comedy? A picaresque?
Regardless, I have failed. I have put down my pen. Never again will my fingers click-clack across the keyboard. No more outlines, no more characters. Goodbye

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 22:01:01 2021 No.18133752 You guys ever feel like you just don’t have the prerequisite background to actually make it, whether as a writer or whatever?

Anonymous Wed Apr 28 22:04:07 2021 No.18133771

>>18123800

Most people adopt popular ideas for status. And safety from social aggression. This goes for the media they consume, art and music, and also morality. And equivalently, they usually are insensitive to all of these things otherwise they would be conflicted and conformity may be more difficult. Exclusion is why being an individual / a real human bean is so dangerous and uncommon. But I guess what I'm saying is very obvious and nothing new

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 22:14:45 2021 No.18133825 >>18123800 I'm not sure if this is the right thread to ask but does anyone know where I can publish my book online anonymously?

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 22:18:50 2021 No.18133849 >>18123800 Link to the gif?

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 22:27:41 2021 No.18133902 Don't even know

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 23:37:22 2021 No.18134253 I should’ve just done the copywriting job after University, but no, I had to try to pursue a job in degree field like a complete idiot. What a waste.

>>	Anonymous Wed Apr 28 23:43:20 2021 No.18134278 >>18123800 I was stupid enough to look up an altchan someone mentioned on /x/ (which I never even browse) and some sites came up that cited it as a cp type place. I feel gross and now I think I'm probably on a list. Not fun.

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 00:10:34 2021 No.18134379

>>18134278
>cp sites
there are thousands in the clear web but no one does anything about them because they don’t get reported.
You won’t get in trouble for it unless you’re the one actively supplying it or making it, you would be surprised by the amount of traffic those sites get and are still up too.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 00:33:07 2021 No.18134487 >>18134379 Jesus Christ. Well thanks for the assurance anyway.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 00:56:27 2021 No.18134607 I kind of wish I had gotten that big city, big corporate cubicle farm experience at least for a year or two. I might’ve actually met some people or something.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 01:06:24 2021 No.18134649 >>18133752 Kinda. I mean i could probably become decent in some area but being great? Probably not as it requires a great amount of talent and if it doesnt show up from relatively young age like teens or early 20s then theres no talents whatsoever.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 01:58:29 2021 No.18134872 >>18134649 But how would you even know? Talent doesn’t just show itself for no reason. You have to actually try things and most young people don’t today.

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 02:06:57 2021 No.18134904

>>18134872
Im not telling that one gets a refined talent at the start but rather a strong impulse to do something. Its like with very talented people - they literally cant stop doing it, the only way to express it. Can you ignore talent? Sure, but im talking about wanting to find a talent when you have none.

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 02:15:44 2021 No.18134935

Why do a bunch of leftist philosophy youtubers become trans and/or dress up like fucking weirdos. Just be fucking normal for a second and talk about the point you are trying to make instead of being a pervert or drag queen. Even the non trans ones act way too fucking weird

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 02:30:15 2021 No.18135002 my life is a joke, a mostly unfunny one but occasionally i'm able to laugh at the stupid shit i do and find myself in, it's just annoying to know i'm going to be the butt of all situations i come across because i'm simply too stupid to deal with them

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 02:59:18 2021 No.18135123

I strongly believe that the United States government, and especially the CIA, have attempted to meddle in the affairs of the Catholic Church. I also believe they will be very viciously punished by God for this, a punishment that may have already begun but will only intensify.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 03:47:30 2021 No.18135316 There is a ditch full of palmetta bugs, the larger relative to the common cockroach, in the parking lot of the plant I work at. They teem like a moving carpet of dark amber. I am disgusted and fascinated in equal measure.

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 04:27:35 2021 No.18135453
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I put my thoughts here so as to get them one step closer to something tangible. As recently, my head has been inundated with the vague sense of an inner unreality. I need my thoughts to be read, so as to confirm the existence of my deepest self, which has been forever been hidden and unexpressed in favor of the facade of normieness. Certain insecurities can compel a person to look obsessively in the mirror, but this isn't out of narcissism than for the very same reason we write our own thoughts down somewhere -- to convince ourselves that we exist.

https://youtu.be/voV7wrr-GHs

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 04:47:41 2021 No.18135516 >>18134935 Because they're leftists

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 05:32:30 2021 No.18135632 >>18131454 Smoking is pleasant and the taste is premium but it doesn't look cool. It only looks cool if you are cool, but everything would look cool on you at that point.

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 05:36:47 2021 No.18135640

>>18123800
what a snoozefest. it's such a shame to see this place in the state it is but maybe it's just the process of growing older and hitting that point where one day you can rationalize your dislike and the next you don't know why everything the younger generation does makes you feel complete despair. But, I think the behaviors of each generation are coded into them from a young age. The mass movements are not those of an autonomous collective but of a programmed cipher slowly decoding the cash prize until the end when they realize they were 'sold a lie'. The same thing goes for every generation, and the next, the next, next, next.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 06:38:16 2021 No.18135835 >>18134379 >>18134487 FBI often know they exist but leave them up as honeypots to ensnare the suppliers. Not conspiracy btw just how it works.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 07:52:44 2021 No.18136071 It's always people who menstruate, but never people who ejaculate. Wonder why is that.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 07:54:02 2021 No.18136077 >>18134935 Leftism is strongly associated with mental illness. This is not a meme, but a well established fact.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 07:56:53 2021 No.18136094 >>18136077 yeah and you're subject A

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 08:03:22 2021 No.18136127 >>18133752 Whenever I do I involuntarily trigger a mental mechanism that stops me from liking that thing and I move on.

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 08:10:56 2021 No.18136155

>>18134904
It’s the same issue though. You say there would be a strong impulse to do something but the only impulses the large, large majority of young men have today are video games and pornography. The number of people who just kind of drift through life until they’re at least 25 is almost inconceivable so what about that? Almost no one escapes that now. Are you telling me that if they didn’t have the impulse to right a novel at say, 16, they’ll never be like their favorite authors? It’s a different time.

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 08:17:37 2021 No.18136185
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Extroverts are the personality equivalent of USA exporting McDemocracy. They feel morally superior like they had the duty to "help" introverts because they are "wrong", "lonely" to the point they become annoyingly pushy and unbearable. It looks like they are not able to understand that there are people who don't need to swim in a crowd of strangers to be content, that a few good friends are enough for me, they need to export their hyper-socialized way of life to other "poor lost souls" to feel like they did a good deed.
I just want to be myself and grill but whenever I try to say it they just deny it and keep doing it.
It's all so tiresome.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 08:37:30 2021 No.18136273 I been looking to get into photography as a hobby but it's way too hard for a noob without much knowledge and gear.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 09:21:27 2021 No.18136442 Fell in love with the ice cream shop girl.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 09:23:08 2021 No.18136451 >>18136273 Just get a used dslr and start shooting, you'll learn the technical stuff as you go

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 09:26:56 2021 No.18136463 >>18136451 i have an old cheap kodak one. I guess it's just an attitude kind of thing where i think that without sufficient gear, i'll be getting crappy photos.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 09:40:04 2021 No.18136510 >>18136463 You're not wrong. But even with the gear, you'd probably still be getting crappy photos. Like those rich boomers who spends thousands on a guitar and amp and only play shitty blues noodling on it. It's more important to practice.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 09:51:27 2021 No.18136561 >>18136510 I'd like to say some excuse but you're right, i need to practice a lot and to see if it's even a thing i'm good at or just another mediocre schmuck.

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 09:55:10 2021 No.18136575

>>18136561
I understand the desire to be good at art but if it's something you enjoy, who cares if you're mediocre? I think too often we approach even our hobbies with a career mindset. There is nothing wrong with doing something you love and sucking at it.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 10:11:25 2021 No.18136676 i just put a few gees in my roth, suggest me some hot memes to cop

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 10:34:19 2021 No.18136806

>>18123800
Been reading Proust and his description of Swann's love for Ornette and the start of their affair greatly resonated with my experiences. I could only exasperate while reading some of the passages. He was a gay man so I wonder how he was able to have such trenchant insight into heterosexual love. Could I resonated with it because love is universal or that I've experienced a love for a woman as a gay man? Am I gay because I like Proust?

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 10:42:00 2021 No.18136857 File: 54 KB, 290x225, 6270ee541dd5a38389f998d099c71553032.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I wonder if I should get vaccinated.

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 11:48:31 2021 No.18137286

>>18123800
My mother is tearing into my younger sister for not getting into the school she wanted her to get into. She is belittling her and has been for a few days now, and keeps calling her stupid and lazy and not worth her time or money anymore. It's giving me anxiety and flashbacks to when my mother did the same to me, even though I did get into the school she wanted me to get into. On the other hand, my sister puts little to no effort to her studies and spends more time and patience on the internet and YouTube than she does into reading or even just doing chores. My sister always moans and complains about doing housework, and has to be argued with to do what she is asked. Oh, and she's 12.

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 11:57:22 2021 No.18137330

Getting to the point where younger men look up at me or come to me for advice. I'm only sucessful at what I do because my entire life revolves around it, I've cut family, friends and women from my life almost completely, living like this would only make them miserable. What should I tell them?

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:00:09 2021 No.18137347
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I have moneis and a unedited short-story collection. My plan is to hire an editor, pay a designer to prepare everything, buy 100 prints and use the rest of the money to advertise on youtube channels. I'll also send copies to publishers meanwhile. My reasoning is that a "finished product" has more chances to get the publisher's attention than a bunch of clipped paper - and it also shows how motivated I am. Is that a good plan? I've spent the whole last year raising the money.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:02:33 2021 No.18137357 >>18137347 Your reasoning is entirely wrong, publishers want you to follow their manuscript guidelines. A book that you've already formatted will likely go straight in the trash.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:05:45 2021 No.18137367 >>18137357 That's good information, kek.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:09:17 2021 No.18137388 >>18137330 Tell them that living like that would make them miserable. What do you do?

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:20:55 2021 No.18137453

>>18136575
>I think too often we approach even our hobbies with a career mindset. There is nothing wrong with doing something you love and sucking at it.
Well said. The recent “hustle and grind”, “side hustle” culture has really over blown into making people feel insecure if they aren’t good at and can monetize something they enjoy. If you like doing something for the sake of doing it, skill does not matter. Do not let the current zeitgeist around hobbies prevent you from enjoying something because no one would pay you to do it.

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:26:57 2021 No.18137477

>>18131689
I read it because it’s fun, and often I find that the most realistic portrayal of the human condition comes from people experiencing fantastical situations and how they choose to overcome or succumb the challenge. Fantasy when written well, has very realistic characters in a very made up world.

I do straight up find it way more entertaining and enjoyable to read then any other kind of book, so I’m a bit biased towards fantasy.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:29:05 2021 No.18137484 >>18124070 INCREDIBLY based

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:29:50 2021 No.18137488 It’s unironically over

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:30:07 2021 No.18137489 finally embracing my femboi nature. make fun of me if you wish, this boy is going to be cute or die trying

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:36:01 2021 No.18137515

>>18136806
I read the first volume and I loved it, I should get the others.
>I wonder how he was able to have such trenchant insight into heterosexual love
I don't know his biography but many gay man have multiple girlfriends and wives before discovering they like men, see Freddy Mercury. Maybe Proust is one of them
>I resonated with it because love is universal
Maybe
>Am I gay because I like Proust?
Nah but you might get into traps

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:36:46 2021 No.18137520 >>18130885 Don't know why but this made me feel a bit upset, that's really nice anon

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:37:44 2021 No.18137525 >>18137515 Proust was a chronic masturbator who was made to go to a whorehouse, and when he was there all he did was kill rats and jerk off

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:38:47 2021 No.18137528 >>18131689 Read LoR. If you don't like it there's no way we can convince you that fantasy is good

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:40:05 2021 No.18137535 My whole life I’ve tried to do the good thing, the safe thing and it’s just been one setback, one disappointment after another. It’s gotten me nowhere and I have nothing to show for it. I should’ve just given in to depravity from the beginning.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 12:40:22 2021 No.18137538 File: 147 KB, 1080x1340, 70957350_958056124539484_8707079501996957095_n.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18137488 HH digits tell the opposite

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 13:05:05 2021 No.18137732 >>18137538 Hitler would want him to suicide though

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 14:20:14 2021 No.18138191 I have nothing yet im afraid to risk imagining that i have something to lose. Its eating me away.

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 14:20:54 2021 No.18138195

About 2-3 weeks ago I started sending my dick pics to people on /soc/ through kik and the positive feedback has really gotten to me. I have always been emotionally stable, not seeking quick pleasures and thinking long term, but the response to getting a 9/10 from a (pretend) qt is having an effect on me.
I wake up in the morning and send my pics to about 5 people (some bi people if they look somewhat feminine) while still in bed, and throughout the day i harvest my praise in return when the responses arrive. It is bizarre to me, and i'm not sure that i like how much of my thought-process through the day it occupies. It steals the attention from the work that i'd like to do.
I felt it stronger a week or so ago, so I guess it wears off soon

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 14:31:09 2021 No.18138260 >>18138195 welcome to the women world

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 14:39:10 2021 No.18138306

>>18138260
I suspect this is pretty accurate. I grave the attention and i turned into a whore in no time. But then again, I also care who I'm receiving the rating from, similarly as a woman would care a great deal if a handsome or ugly guy hit on her. At least it has opened my perspective i suppose.
I'm more open to what feeling desired means to a person, and I should perhaps do more to entice that feeling in future partners. Also feel a bit more insecure in a strange way, as if my dick is all that i am now

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 14:40:12 2021 No.18138316 >>18138306 crave*

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 15:04:59 2021 No.18138491 >>18125675 If you post a picture of your face and one a full body with clothing that you normally wear I can tell you why you are disrespected, most won't tell you the truth even here but I will

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 15:18:26 2021 No.18138578 Dancing. Dancing is on my mind or rather inability to do so. Fuck. I guess i'll resort to some youtube vids.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 15:26:46 2021 No.18138632 One more essay and it's another summer of NEETdom.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 16:00:19 2021 No.18138847 File: 1.54 MB, 230x230, 7AA0850B-6724-4B5F-94A0-7B8F1D8D029C.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I napped in the evening for 30 mins and now I can't fall asleep. What the fuck is this bullshit?

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 16:09:19 2021 No.18138902 File: 3.89 MB, 3307x2657, Marià_Fortuny_-_Miss_Del_Castillo_on_her_Deathbed_-_Google_Art_Project.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I need a subject to paint

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>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 16:33:06 2021 No.18139076 >>18138966 not interesting enough

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 16:45:05 2021 No.18139144 >>18136077 Can you link me a paper on that please

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 16:48:21 2021 No.18139157 >>18137489 Whatever makes you happy anon

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 17:15:40 2021 No.18139324 >>18123839 Took me 3 months to finally watch Violet Evergarden. I heard and believed it would be a tearjerker but fuck.... were they right. Best anime I've ever seen inb4 not just the animation

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 17:18:55 2021 No.18139347
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>>18136442
Sounds like a rocky road

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 17:21:15 2021 No.18139362 >>18135640 >uses metaphor Your point is invalid

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 17:22:33 2021 No.18139372

>>18138195
In late 2019 and early 2020 I went through a period where I posted tons of dick pics on deviantart of all places, I was just really horny all the time and the rush of exhibitionism was really satisfying. Most of the comments and messages I got were from middle-aged gay men who, judging by their English, were South American. But I was surprised by the number of women who would message me as well, just to roleplay or whatever. I didn't like talking to any of these people who I would never meet let alone fuck, so I eventually stopped posting anything. But there is an obvious allure to posting dick pics that strangers will see and compliment and possibly masturbate to, I agree.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 17:53:47 2021 No.18139542 Called my mom autistic and she didn't say anything back. Might not have heard me.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 17:54:22 2021 No.18139549 My work gave out 2 pepperoni pizzas, 2 two liter sodas and a bag of chips as thank you to all employees today. I'm writing on a full stomach tonight boys!

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 17:56:23 2021 No.18139571 >>18139542 Maybe you're autistic

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 17:58:13 2021 No.18139588 >>18139571 Definitely but that's not relevant

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 18:01:02 2021 No.18139616 >>18139588 You're right, I'm sorry

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 18:05:15 2021 No.18139658
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I don't even remember the ending of Brothers Karamazov. If the book had finished right before the trial, when we get to correlate everything, it would be the best ending in all of literature. No, but we have to endure 100 more pages of a boring trial. The idiot's ending is better.

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>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 19:59:37 2021 No.18140519 There's nothing to lose... when no one knows your name

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 19:59:59 2021 No.18140524 >>18140505 bladee live in some dingy apartments meanwhile lean lives on a farm lol and thaiboy in a bangkok penthouse

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 20:35:36 2021 No.18140692

I'm losing sight. Literally and figuratively. My nearsightedness worsened lately. I can't even see people's face correctly if they're not less than a meter in front of me. Also, I've been a shut-in for a year now. I've been thinking about writing an online diary about this. The whole avoiding social encounters and problems and still failing at everything else mentality.

The problem with having less than average intelligence and spending so much time with yourself is that you become more and more aware of your limits, limits you would not even have thought of before. For instance, it's nearly been a year since I've last talked to my father. I can't bring myself to answer the phone, nor see him in any ways. Why, you ask? Well, he literally tried to fuck a woman 7 years my senior in front of me even though I'm his last kid, and failed miserably. You see, that woman knew what he wanted, but had enough self respect not to sleep with a man twenty years older than her, even though he gave her shelter and tried to make use of her vulnerabilities after she flew her abusive ex-husband with her young son. What he doesn't know is that she came at my apartment to smoke her weed - because yes, she's an addict, and his actions probably didn't help with that - and complain about how he made her life difficult now that I wasn't around (thanks to college) to act as a buffer between the two of them.
I can't bring myself to speak to him, because I wouldn't even know how to look at him in the face after that. I'm also highly depressive, I've gained levels of social anxiety I've never had before, and am about to lose my mind because I barely left my apartment since last year. So what's left to say?

"Sorry dad, I know you're about to die from lupus, but I am depressive, also, I wanted to be far from the social drama you two idiots have been generating, and I really pity that poor kid that was caught been you two's insane actions. I hope he grows well."

Looks better written than said. IRL, I probably would've gotten punched into oblivion by my near-dead father before I got to the second part of the sentence. So I shut up, and I wait. I wait for everything to get resolved on their own. I wait for a happy ending. I wait for my slowly decaying mind to see something past the darkness, so that I can muster the courage to talk to my dad.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 21:50:07 2021 No.18141077 fellas, is it gay to want a muscular woman to slam you against a wall and demand you go out with her?

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 22:22:00 2021 No.18141222 File: 238 KB, 1400x1050, DSCN8209-vi.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fN2rm6lLQNg

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 22:25:38 2021 No.18141234 I wonder how different my life would be if I had never started reading regularly. Where would I be shitposting right now?

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 22:26:04 2021 No.18141237 I don’t want to work anymore. So I think I won’t.

Anonymous Thu Apr 29 22:35:18 2021 No.18141265
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What is it about happy little children that is profoundly sad?
I'm always caught in a moment when I walk by one, waving towards them or imitating their goofy gestures, and they smile back and wave back then continue waddling along to rest of their day with their parents. And then I just feel the urge to cry for some reason... It feels like some kind of fragile little memory from long ago in a little snowglobe, so beautifully pure yet so melancholic behind its little delicate glass. What is so tragic about a happy look on a child's face /lit/?

Maybe this piece of music can make it easier to convey.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yPr2ciHunWQ

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 22:37:46 2021 No.18141280 >>18141265 I should've just asked why happy children feel so sad to us. I don't know what all of that rambling is after the initial question.

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 22:38:17 2021 No.18141283 New thread >>18141279

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 22:44:54 2021 No.18141314 Got invited to my old friend’s wedding across the country. I’m the only one of us whose life has not improved and who is still single...

>>	Anonymous Thu Apr 29 22:46:09 2021 No.18141324 >>18139362 can you show me where it is?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 30 01:35:52 2021 No.18142122 File: 190 KB, 2287x1373, litcel.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I miss this guy.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 30 02:43:45 2021 No.18142404 >>18139372 how do i find somewhere on deviant art to share my dick, all i can see are gay faggy cartoons everywhere

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 30 06:28:43 2021 No.18143075 >>18140505 he lives in Germany? Damn how tf did you find his location

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