Write What's On Your Mind

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Write What's On Your Mind Anonymous Fri Apr 23 04:30:54 2021 No.18092239 [Reply] [Original]

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 04:31:13 2021 No.18092240 >>18092239 No.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 04:34:54 2021 No.18092255 File: 169 KB, 515x342, 2Girls1Thread.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18092239

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 04:35:00 2021 No.18092256 I hope they make artificial wombs in my lifetime. I'll have one installed, and then impregnate myself, creating a super pure Aryan bloodline of self impregnating uber-hermaphrodites.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 04:36:15 2021 No.18092263 /lit/ is pretty nice at the moment

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 04:40:45 2021 No.18092278 >>18092239 I still can't understand if Schopenhauer is right about everything, i want him not to be, but i can't refute him

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 04:56:40 2021 No.18092320 >>18092148 I might sound naive but why would anyone mock other for being optimistic and sincere?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:07:26 2021 No.18092365 >>18092320 misery loves company

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:12:03 2021 No.18092389

Reposting on the new thread because I want to thank the anons who took their time to answer me.

>>18092147 #
>>18092197 #

Thank you both for the answers. None of them sounded arbitrary or unhelpful, and I see the wisdom in them. My happiest period during these past few years was when I divided my time between boxing, drawing and photography. I like learning new things; even the bad experiences were more due to the reactions and comments others made about what I was pursuing rather than the thing itself.
Endlessly ruminating in my head just kills any action before it even begins, so it’s really just time to choose something and focus on it.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. I hope you are doing well.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:18:47 2021 No.18092416 File: 381 KB, 2961x2160, picss1979nov26bjpgmed.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJwt2dxx9yg

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:21:03 2021 No.18092428 >>18092389 >photography What did you do? I been trying to get into it but it seems like all my pics just suck and the whole picture taking process just too demanding.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:21:38 2021 No.18092430 I want to get into poetry....

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:30:16 2021 No.18092456
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Something about the Chinese myth of the dragon gate stirs deep feelings within me. The soul of a lone fish struggling with all it's might and autism to overcome a challenge deemed impossible. Whenever I'm dealing with some shit thinking of it gives me the motivation to continue through.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:38:36 2021 No.18092495 >>18092278 Hey there fellow sufferer, unfortunately he is absolutely right.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:39:37 2021 No.18092498 Gonna keep the old thread open till the end whatever happens, it doesn't matter if it will eventually archived. >>18092384 (Cross-thread) Thanks anon, godspeed

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:43:13 2021 No.18092507 Motherfucker. Another stupid anime pic

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:43:33 2021 No.18092508 Gonna keep the old thread open till the end whatever happens, it doesn't matter if it will eventually archived. >>18092384 Thanks anon, godspeed

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:43:41 2021 No.18092510

>>18092138
I was in your place a few years ago, give it time. Muddy water, left still, becomes clear. The best thing you can do is just let things settle out, take some time away from everyone/everything thing that influences your behavior. Then you will be able to hear your inner voice.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:48:42 2021 No.18092524 >>18092239 I want to be loved

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:52:02 2021 No.18092535 >>18092239 why do you keep using vtubers as ops?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:53:05 2021 No.18092540 >>18092239 Life is suffering.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:55:20 2021 No.18092549 >>18092524 I love you as a person.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:56:38 2021 No.18092558 File: 618 KB, 1200x1698, yes everyone pic related is male.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Which trap should the shota have sex with?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:57:09 2021 No.18092561 >>18092549 :)

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 05:57:35 2021 No.18092562 >>18092524 I love you too anon never surrender

>>	Jesus Fri Apr 23 05:59:43 2021 No.18092569 >>18092239 shills again entertain idiots, set narrative. useless thread, anime pedo loli to get attention of virgin coomers.

>>	Jesus Fri Apr 23 06:00:46 2021 No.18092572 >>18092562 you don't love him. you virtue signal. clown world, showing off.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 06:02:59 2021 No.18092583 >>18092524 Jesus loves you.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 06:09:44 2021 No.18092611 >>18092239 It will be two years next Thursday. Sometimes I feel like I should have lost my leg that day, most of the time I cannot feel anything at all. Drinking helps.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 06:15:35 2021 No.18092629 i have met this girl and I feel amazing. it's been so long since I met someone like her...

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 06:32:45 2021 No.18092698 >everyone is talking about love >never been in a relationship >getting 30 next year i guess it wasnt meant to be after all.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 06:46:08 2021 No.18092737

>>18092428
Do you mind sharing some details so I know what you’re having difficulty with?
>Are you photographing with a cellphone, film or dslr?
>do you know the basics of operating a camera, such as properly setting up shutter speed and aperture, and how these two elements affect your photos?
>what kind of things do you photograph?
>how familiar are you with the technical side of photography?
>do you study the work of other photographers?
>are you familiar with composition?

Sorry if these questions seem overwhelming, I just want to understand your background. One thing I can say is that - while photography has great depths - anyone can produce nice photos after getting a little familiarized with it, so don’t lose your heart.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 06:48:06 2021 No.18092743 anime is a cancer

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 07:19:40 2021 No.18092825 >>18092239 Trying to read crime and punishment but it's boring. Should I read it at all? Are there any particular passages that are really worth it?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 07:39:00 2021 No.18092886 >>18092825 None.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 08:06:34 2021 No.18092977

>>18092737
>Are you photographing with a cellphone, film or dslr?
Mainly on phone but i do have cheap kodak
>do you know the basics of operating a camera, such as properly setting up shutter speed and aperture, and how these two elements affect your photos?
I probably dont. Any recs on that?
>what kind of things do you photograph?
Mostly inanimate objects or nature, sometimes my brother but i dont really take a photos of people.
>how familiar are you with the technical side of photography?
Not that much, i do consider myself a noob.
>do you study the work of other photographers?
I did look at photos of local semi-famous photographers but not at worldwide ones.
>are you familiar with composition?
I think i know what it means but i dont really take a pictures like portraits where composition is required.
All in all, i'm a noob.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 08:13:53 2021 No.18092999 Japanese culture is bizarre. How could it come to this?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 08:15:13 2021 No.18093006 >>18092999 forgot to link to >>18092558 but the post also stands on its own

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 08:20:05 2021 No.18093027 >>18092999 Isolation

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 08:22:21 2021 No.18093041 >>18092698 Did you ever try?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 08:29:46 2021 No.18093075 Boobs Always in my mind

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 08:31:21 2021 No.18093086 >>18092255 Based

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 08:41:17 2021 No.18093150 >>18093041 there were some girls interested in me but i didnt feel anything to them also there were girls i was interested in but they didnt like me. i have way too many things which could deem me undesirable.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 08:45:37 2021 No.18093182 Probably about to finally break up with my gf. I hope it helps me self-actualize better and eventually gives me the energy to finish my PhD proposal.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 08:56:08 2021 No.18093231 Things are changing. The darkness that consumed humanity is being revealed. People will deny it and go through all the copes they have. The vaccine will divide the population; the wheat from the chaff, the goats and sheep from the humans.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 09:10:53 2021 No.18093298 >>18093231 Great, this statement is so vague that either side can use it!

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 09:25:04 2021 No.18093380

HELP. Yesterday I fucked up work out pretty bad it seems and now I broke my back, have extreme pain for every movement and can't leave the bed. What even do. Is this how it's gonna end? I still live with my parents and I should tell them but it's not easy literally. Oh fuck

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 09:43:36 2021 No.18093492 Always find it amusing at how extremely culture war pilled 4chan is, given what you'd expect from it's nature and relative isolation from the pseudo-anonymous platforms.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 09:51:21 2021 No.18093524 >>18093492 >how extremely culture war pilled 4chan What does this mean.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 10:21:06 2021 No.18093692 I’m embarrassed about some of the things I’ve done in the past to the point that I’m suicidal over it.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 10:26:24 2021 No.18093718 >>18093692 What did you do?

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 10:30:38 2021 No.18093750

>>18092239
so i thought i had a micropenis but then learned i have a buried penis and searched up surgery pics and then cringed for the next 10 minutes as i couldn't get them out of my head, I will just stay like this.
Also went to sleep at 12am and got out of bed at 5am. I think I got like 2 hours of sleep and the rest was just me laying in bed forcefully dreaming to which I didn't actually sleep at all.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 10:39:13 2021 No.18093800 >>18093718 It’s not that I did any one super horrible thing like kill someone or something. I just basically regret every decision I’ve made to this point, you know, work choices, education choices, social choices, living choices, and so on.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 10:40:15 2021 No.18093807 >>18093692 >>18093800 The work choices and the way I was in Uni are particularly embarrassing and regretful. It was all just a big LARP.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 11:22:00 2021 No.18094037 People who try to rationalise that language is a product of culture or some other shit and that it's not a biological impulse are retards.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 11:25:42 2021 No.18094056 >>18093524 It's a clumsy way of saying we're obsessed with "culture war" stuff

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 11:27:44 2021 No.18094069 >>18093380 You probably didn't break your back. Take some ibuprofen and tell your parents you hurt yourself working out. If you don't start to feel better in a few days then you should worry

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 11:32:54 2021 No.18094109 >>18093492 I agree with your point, but culture war pilled? Really?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 11:40:58 2021 No.18094162 Rank these cities: > New York > Chicago > Philadelphia Philadelphia is obviously the worst city but it’s in the best state of the three. Chicago and New York are basically mirror images of each other just with opposite pros and cons.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 11:50:22 2021 No.18094237

Fuck this board, man. I genuinely try to improve the quality of discussions here by contributing and effortposting but either I don't get replies and nobody actually wants to discuss it, or all I get is memes in response. I don't contribute to arguments (if I see something I disagree with, I ignore it) and I try to seek out good threads but its not fuckin worth it. I'm tired of putting in all this effort and getting nothing in return. The board is still shit, no actual discussion goes on, there's no point to any of this at all

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 11:52:41 2021 No.18094262 >>18094237 sneed

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 11:55:43 2021 No.18094284 >>18094237 Yeah I've taken a break from /lit/ for a while because of this, everything is surface level here most of the time.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:01:04 2021 No.18094325 Sometimes women flirt with me, but only when I am wearing headwear that obscures my balding. In the last 2 years I have only ever had a woman chat with me while wearing something on my head, this isn't a coincidence.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:01:32 2021 No.18094331

>>18094237
>be me
>Rec anons books and anyone read them and meme them
>See young anons showing up in book/face threads now and then thanking me for turning them on
>Effortpost even if the other guy's a pseud
>use anon as a foil to infodump in case anon is interested
>Sometimes anon turns out not to be a pseud but just ignorant and thanks me nicely for giving new info
>sometimes anons pipe up to expand their knowledge
>make funny meme posts which only work if you get the book
>Rarely get to joke about with fellow anons who also read book
>Most often gets anons hooked on memes asking for info to understand joke and thank me nicely for turning them on
>Giving more recs than I get but getting absolutely gold recs in return when they happen
>thank you nicely, good anons
Have you considered you're shit?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:03:21 2021 No.18094344 >>18094237 tranny

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:04:29 2021 No.18094351 >>18094237 I used to read, then I found /lit/.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:07:17 2021 No.18094370

>>18094331
I used to think the same way but it doesn't happen like that. And you can say that I can go away knowing I'm the better man or something since I've actually read the shit I post about but no, I just want to get the last word in like a fucking autist.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:16:25 2021 No.18094426 >>18094237 I disagree. Many threads are shitposting, but I do enjoy bouncing ideas off of these write what’s on your mind threads.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:20:29 2021 No.18094460 I dont feel any connection with surrounding world, nature and people. It feels so flat and colorless despite the colors. I can somewhat appreciate it logically but my heart is silent. Is the a way to let it speak?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:21:58 2021 No.18094470 >>18094162 NYC > Chicago > Philadelphia State as in status or state as in U.S. State?

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:25:51 2021 No.18094499

I've been spending the last couple months putting together a professional portfolio and I have an idea for a short story to put on there but I'm not sure it would be a good idea to. The basic plot I have is a lost crusader knight in the Middle East has to take refuge in an oasis state in the desert where he becomes enchanted with Islamic society and eventually even converts before having a crisis of conscious and runs away back to Christian lands.

I want there to be a subtext to it of how the west has been more or less flirting with the Islamic world for the past few decades without making judgement on whether or not it's a good or bad thing. On the surface it's not really radical at all but I'm worried that showcasing anything with even a hint of anti-progressive sentiment is grounds to get me cancelled by any potential employers.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:25:59 2021 No.18094501

I had a dream once where I was wandering the shadows, briefly surfacing for fresh air to try and shine a light that would always get swallowed by the darkness almost immediately.
Long have I done this, as I give others what I desire...but in this realm of shadows I have a foreboding suspicion mythical creatures also lurk.
I thought perhaps I was going insane, and maybe I am, so I went to a detective agency to either confirm or deny my suspicions.
I didn't get a good look at her, nor was I able to really tell her what I wished to hire her for but she threatened to ground pound my mom at one point. What an odd truth seeker.
It is nice to sit at our metaphorical campfire here and form our bonds as we do. A parasocial relationship in the truest sense. Yet I wonder. If one day I reach my hand out and feel the warmth of anothers greeting mine, will my world change forever?
I dare not drag others into the shadows of my self doubt. They don't even exist. Ha. So there.
Smile.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:28:09 2021 No.18094516 >>18094237 the vtuberposters have driven away a lot of the core board members, i'm probably going to leave soon as well

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:29:27 2021 No.18094528 I really feel like the pandemic erased all my social skills. I hope the fuckers I saved by staying home will not waste their lives.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:34:42 2021 No.18094564 >>18092239 I've been writing a Visual Novel and it's been tough to keep quiet about while I'm still changing stuff around since its still at the point where some changes might ruin its initial impact on a first reading.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:35:18 2021 No.18094569 >>18094470 US state. Can you explain your ranking?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:36:07 2021 No.18094577 >>18094564 Do you make the drawings too?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:37:43 2021 No.18094591 >>18094577 Just for some of the main characters, the other members of my team will be handling the backgrounds and coding the gameplay elements

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:38:42 2021 No.18094596 >>18094370 It doesn't happen for _you_ like that.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:41:34 2021 No.18094614 why not be utterly changed into fire?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:56:06 2021 No.18094729 >>18094237 Chuck

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 12:59:12 2021 No.18094750 >>18094237 /lit/ was Chuck but now is Sneed

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 13:01:13 2021 No.18094766

I had a dream last night where I was sent to the 100th layer of hell, which was a local shopping mall, to find a great many seemingly normal people wandering about. When I asked why they are here, a great detached, booming voice answered that they're all Spinozeans.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 13:01:48 2021 No.18094771 Can we fire whoever’s making these vtuber op’s?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 13:03:28 2021 No.18094786 File: 833 KB, 891x715, 40efb553m1f51.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18094766 Based

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 13:04:19 2021 No.18094792

>>18094516
Weirdly enough I wasn't the only author during more foray there (which was interesting) and they have a writing general. I think a few of us got consumed.
You know while I'm thinking about it maybe all boards should have a writing general. Thats all we do in these text boxes anyway.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 13:06:37 2021 No.18094808
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>>18092999
Japanese pop culture is western pop culture, but without the normalizing effect of Hollywood and the "nerd culture" business. Japanese otaku today are exactly the same way American nerds were before shit like Star Wars and "new wave" sci-fi came along and the powers that be started to sell science fiction and fantasy to the masses. It's only recently that "nerds" have been seen as anything other that deranged autists with an unhealthy obsession with softcore pornography. Japan's mainstream culture is too conservative for the mass-marketing of nerd shit that took over the US, and their "nerd culture" surrounding anime, manga, games, etc. is essentially still stuck in the 60s. The biggest example of this is the contrast between the Japanese otaku's utter shamelessness and the American nerd's burning desire to be taken seriously. Japan is like an island where extinct animal species have managed to survive thanks to geographical isolation. All the weirdness and perversion in their pop culture is just the expression of latent "nerd traits" that have been suppressed elsewhere.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 13:09:17 2021 No.18094828

>>18094569
NYC has pretty much everything in terms of culture and opportunities. It is an exciting city while also being very liveable. Downside is the cost.
Chicago is a smaller version of that. It has the benefit of really nice summers and a great beach close to the city, but the winters are miserable. Contrary to that NYC summers are too humid but the winters are more bearable.
Idk why you would want to live in Philadelphia. Might be more comfy and cheaper. I have not lived there yet.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 13:15:38 2021 No.18094873 What's a greater tragedy than being born in the wrong place at the wrong time?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 13:21:57 2021 No.18094913 >>18094873 Being born in the right place at the wrong time. If only you knew how much better it all could be.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 13:24:32 2021 No.18094936 >>18094828 >Idk why you would want to live in Philadelphia. I’m from there but the reasoning is basically that if you look at a list of the 10 largest cities in the US, these are the only ones which are actually high density cities.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 14:05:47 2021 No.18095194

>>18094460
You need to 'come to contact' and interact with nature. Not just stare from a distance. Take a walk through the woods, sit in a tree stump for a while, climb a hill or mountain and breath the fresh air.
People are worthless so I'm not gonna encourage you to bother. Keep a close tie with your immediate family and appreciate your friends though

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 14:09:14 2021 No.18095215 >>18094766 Less /lit/ related than that, but I had a dream last night that I was lost in a forest filled with road signs.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 14:20:06 2021 No.18095274

>>18095194
I do try to interact with nature more by just stopping in the middle of the road, appreciating the view, trying to find the chirping bird in a tree or touching the freshly sprouting leafs or even sitting in the sun for 10 minutes or so. I feel like there's something which doesnt let me fully immerse in senses. I been thinking about various explanations like my subconsciousness limiting the input as it could tear the current cold, grumpy and distant me, not being visual person enough in the first place to feel all this subtlety or just too dumb in the first place.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 14:31:25 2021 No.18095342

>>18092999
It's because of America. To stop them going off after WWII, the US decided to astroturf their culture with the three S's - sex, screens, and sport.
It's why they have pink films (porn made specifically to get occupied Japan busy with something other than being a warrior culture), baseball, and why they have short skirts, why they made most of the entertainment tech that the US imported back, and why they don't have conscription despite being a hypercapitalist society right next to all the communist powers. The funny thing is that by the 80s, Japan was so good at being Americanized that the Americans were beginning to fear they might take over the whole culture they'd had forced on them.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 14:42:53 2021 No.18095416

If only I succeeded oh my god what is this a spider oh uhuh a five years old chair standing in the shop how much its value the Irish defense against liberalism I love vultures so god damn much I wonder if my English is good that friend told me he is in bad shape also psychologically speaking he is not good at living with those parents he would because he taught me and insipired in self-improvement no it's not a religion no it's normal it's the only way to go through the challenges I like chicken chicken is good but salmon is better I'm going to Australia as soon I get my degree I wonder Where will be my first job oh here's the bus stop oh wait no do not worry I have the ticket I'm tired It's all so tiresome

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 14:57:27 2021 No.18095527

>>18095342
Do you have real sources for this? Like declassified government documents or something. I just have a hard time imagining the American powers that be not only coming up with an idea like this but successfully pulling it off without a leak somewhere along the line

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 14:58:48 2021 No.18095536 >>18095416 >vultures Badhb?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 15:04:13 2021 No.18095569 File: 253 KB, 1034x529, roadtripvulture-style.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18095536 https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/badhbh#Irish

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 15:11:16 2021 No.18095616

it looks like I'm getting a lot of money from insurance. it is enough that I can reasonably switch my living from making a living to pursuing a passion. I'm not a writer, so that's not the goal here, I'm not gonna write the great Yuro novel. I think I will study a language, become an expert in a language. I was studying another subject because I needed to make money. It could still be wise to study the same thing. I can get fucked over fast if I get passive I think, life requires action. I had reasonable goals before. I think I should take time to find a way to live religiously, which was what I was doing but what I can now focus on wholeheartedly. That is unless I am destroyed by money. An option is becoming a latin/arabic/sanskrit-fag. Living for making translations or something. I really don't know, I only just got the news. I didn't expect to get anything, not that it is entirely unwarranted (though it seems a bit much) I just got fucked over before.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 15:16:34 2021 No.18095648

>>18095527
It was a pretty open policy. Sorry for the shitty English link but this proves it's not coming out of my ass and that people use it as shorthand for the policy
https://m.koreatimes.co.kr/pages/article.asp?newsIdx=242269
Basically any history of the occupation of Japan will give you more depth on the cultural changes imposed by the US. Japanese wiki article on the policy https://ja.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/3S%E6%94%BF%E7%AD%96
Pink film should also throw up results (if not search "pinku eiga"). It's really really soft core porn because Japanese censorship til the 50s wouldn't let you show a kiss.
In the 60s the focus changed to socio-economic development and you got the 3 Cs- colour TV, cooler (a fridge), and cars.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 15:39:42 2021 No.18095800 >>18095527 The Marshall plan was basically the same thing in Europe. Planed reeducation was a pretty known policy for the loser nations.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 15:50:32 2021 No.18095872

>>18095800
The Marshall plan was a bit different. The plan the Japanese three S's came from is the US's three R's for Japan: revenge, reform, revive. The Marshall plan aimed to reform and revive countries to make them not prone to the Cominform and cominecon plans of the Russians, but the Japanese-US relations were different to that because of the revenge step. The Marshall plan was much less oppressive, which is why a lot of countries turned commie anyway after taking the money.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 15:53:17 2021 No.18095887 It's Friday, so no meat today. Trying to decide if I want Indian food or Thai food. Shrimp curry or Malai Kofta?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 15:53:59 2021 No.18095895 >>18095872 *Comecon

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:00:41 2021 No.18095940 >>18095887 >curry Like kaeng som? I want a laksa so I'd get that.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:01:41 2021 No.18095951 >>18095940 Something like that. There are several pretty good Thai restaurants in my city. I'm a sucker for a delicious Thai curry paired with jasmine rice.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:05:25 2021 No.18095970 >>18095887 Shrimp is meat

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:06:17 2021 No.18095980 >>18095970 Not according to the One True Church of Jesus Christ.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:07:42 2021 No.18095986 >>18095980 That was a workaround to keep peasants happy 1000 years ago, hate to break it to you

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:10:20 2021 No.18096009 >>18095872 >revenge, reform, revive >colour, cooler, cars >sex, screens, sport What kind of tard comes up with this.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:10:57 2021 No.18096014

>>18095951
Anything with tamarind makes me fall in love with the cook. We have lots of Malay/Peranakan who run "Thai" restaurants, but I think only one actually Thai one which is expensive af. You might have broader options if you have real Thai places and don't like sour.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:11:45 2021 No.18096020 >DURRRRR >DURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR >tv static

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:11:59 2021 No.18096022 >>18096009 Someone living under American occupation.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:17:49 2021 No.18096067 >>18095986 it still keeps peasants happy apparently so what's your point?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:18:59 2021 No.18096082 >>18096067 That shrimp and other fish are meat, regardless of what the church says

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:20:22 2021 No.18096091 >>18096082 What about what the Greeks said?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:21:26 2021 No.18096099 >>18096091 Don't know, don't care. Flesh of an animal is flesh of animal, simple as

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:30:51 2021 No.18096163 People are impressed and regard me highly for all the literature classics, philosophy, and poetry I've read, but if I shared my sincere thoughts on any social/political issue, they'd be horrified.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:32:12 2021 No.18096171 File: 1.18 MB, 1920x1080, 6Epio6sCALIFY5yc8ynSuP-YXFbrOqR_IR62jLZnoIQ.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] How can I make my ancestors proud?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 16:59:40 2021 No.18096417 >>18096099 >no it's fine I'm misusing words without even historical support So, the meat or fish option at weddings must trigger you no end?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 17:00:42 2021 No.18096423 >>18096171 Depends who they are.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 17:32:51 2021 No.18096645

>>18095616
same anon
I think they're giving me too much. they're assumptions about my prospects are too pessimistic. they're based on a letter I wrote them in which I did not lie, but this was half a year ago and I wrote it at a low-point. Apparently this letter was so convincing as to be worth a lot of money. we're gonna find out if I am noble or not.. I think anyway, maybe they're right, it's hard to say, but I can tell you I aim higher than they think I should be able to.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 17:36:03 2021 No.18096662

I think I get the principle behind shankaras radical monotheism. I could be completely wrong but what I think is that it comes down to applying mutual arising-type thinking to God, where multiplicity is an illusion because the parts define one another.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 17:39:36 2021 No.18096682 >>18096662 if so then the multiplicity results from desire, if the analogy is to hold all the way. the question remains then where desire comes from.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 17:39:45 2021 No.18096683

I'm enjoying Mason&Dixon a lot. Perhaps more than Gravity's Rainbow or The Crying of Lot 49. I think it may be that M&D lacks the sort of suffocating paranoia of the other two while maintaining the 'soft' whimsy that Pynchon likes to use making it a more comfortable read. Although I'm not sure if it makes it a better book overall.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 17:51:58 2021 No.18096762

>>18094499
>the west has been more or less flirting with the Islamic world for the past few decades
i'm not really sure i would call it "flirting" - the response has typically been to either engage with islam on its own terms and then reject it on the grounds that it is completely incompatible with liberalism, or to assume that islam is nothing more than wearing a hijab and visiting a mosque every now and then and thus is completely compatible with liberalism. i see very little engagement with actual devout islam that doesn't involve violently rejecting it

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 18:00:28 2021 No.18096814 >>18094237 My ass, groin, balls, all a host of great moistness. Greater still are the interesting smells which project thusly from such an arena of private mysteries, and should I live a thousand lives I shall not regret knowing their circumference.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 18:03:07 2021 No.18096828 >>18092558 >when you think you're about to lay 2 hot chicks but end up molested by 2 men

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 18:09:20 2021 No.18096860
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studying for my ODE exam and I feel so tired can’t even go longer than 2 hours without just kicking back in my chair and sitting there.

Fuck this quarantine, don’t think there is anything worse than sitting in my room for 8 hours a day scribbling in a notebook. I have so much stuff to do and behind on a lot of shit and just thinking about it makes me want to lay down and sleep.

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>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 18:19:30 2021 No.18096939 I can't feel my brain!

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 18:28:22 2021 No.18096991 As a kid I would constantly imagine two things while falling asleep. 1. A large knight slowly (slowly!) spinning my bed 2. A group of nutcracker soldiers marching inside my pillow.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 18:32:27 2021 No.18097016 >>18096991 Weird, when I was a kid I imagined a demon spinning my bed and a group of Native Americans dancing around a fire inside my pillow.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 18:34:45 2021 No.18097028 I’m going to be out of my lease sometime within the next 3 months and I have no idea where I’m going then.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 18:38:51 2021 No.18097057 /tv/ is my main board but I feel right at home here on /lit/. Just browsing the catalog feels very comforting.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 18:39:45 2021 No.18097065

>>18092239
For now we must retreat, our forces failed. I don't know what went wrong the Lionheart is just too strong, will this war ever end? Kingdom of the brave, far beyond the sea. Men from England, Spain, and France take the cross deliverance. For the master, not the slave. King's we'll always be. Seek redemption for your sins and the war of glory just begins.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 18:41:07 2021 No.18097075
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Im 21 and moving to moldova next month.
I hate everyone and everything, im learning Russian but only know enough to get by and I want the complete isolation that being in a place no one speaks english provides.
My only goal in life is a kids and family and here in the USA im treated like a fucking toddler, with food delivered to me at request, laundry always done, I have no privacy. I just jack off and play games all day.

The reason Im going is because its cheap(can live on 1k a month), isolation, and when I am there I will be independent on my online job and can finally try to be a real fucking man.

I believe in a family unit the man has to be real, and strong, and right now im not even close to that. I believe this because other members of the family rely and depend on the man, and if he is weak a d stupid then it will fail. He needs to be a good leader and is in charge, making all decisions.

Ive been talking to a girl i met online there, yes she is real and not a indian man, we voice and video chat. We talk for several hours each day, and shes extremely trad and perfect (also a virgin like me) we have a cringe online relationship until I arrive. And all her values are exactly like mine. The problem is she doesn't want kids until after 25 maybe even later. This angers me alot. I want them younger because of the youthful energy in the souls of young people making sleepless nights easier to handle, and much more. For a long time i thought she wanted a live on a farm in the countryside like me, but today I found out she only wants if she has kids, or is 40 and above its fucking strange these specific age goals people do but whatever. I want something like this far earlier.

Despite how good she is all my head is filled with are thoughts of leaving her for someone far more stupid who will also probably only like me for my money but is at least willing to have kids before 25. Such a person would be easier to control to where as with her its more difficult because shes actually smart.

Anyways if it doesnt work out I will go to belarus or ukraine after my 3 months stay in moldova, maybe russia if it is open. Having an online job means i can go fucking anywhere so options are endless. Was thinking of maybe even serbia or bulgaria, posisbly mexico as well.
Pic related is another possible plan

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 18:45:22 2021 No.18097109
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>>18094237
I still think you can have decent discussions about your favorite book if you post in good faith. I had a pretty comfy discussion about the sound and the fury with 12 other faulkner chads about a week ago. It was nice.

It'd be cool if we could have legitimate discussions on political theory. It just always turns into accusations of not having read book xyz from both sides or contemporary burger politics. Now that I think more about it... Maybe burgers are the problem?

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 18:54:31 2021 No.18097159

>>18096662
> I could be completely wrong but what I think is that it comes down to applying mutual arising-type thinking to God, where multiplicity is an illusion because the parts define one another.
Advaita thinkers wrote many refutations of the attempts by followers of Nyaya and Dvaita to prove the full reality of multiplicity and difference and as part of that Advaitins also wrote refutations of their epistemology. A classic example would be Sriharsa’s ‘The Sweets of Refutation’ in which he pointed out that the methods of reasoning that the Nyaya use ultimately undermines itself, in that text he was the first thinker in history to lay out the Gettier problem and the issue that it poses. However, it would be wrong to assume that in Advaita this is a central way of communicating or attaining knowledge of Brahman. It is nothing like Madhyamaka where one reads through a dry scholastic-like text that uses discursive reasoning to rule out other alternatives until one arrives at sunyata. Advaita is much more explicitly spiritual than this and it concerns itself with a suprarational higher or metaphysical knowledge that is obtained through closely studying the scriptures and commentaries under the supervision of one’s teacher; they don’t teach that you can reach it by applying reason to the contradictions contained in our assumptions about multiplicity. The logical refutations of the arguments of those who uphold the reality of multiplicity are at best supplementary to this main focus insofar as they can help remove doubts and strengthen one’s faith in the truth of what the scriptures say. Shankara’s Katha Upanishad commentary is only about a 100 pages, or even less since it includes the Sanskrit text of the whole Upanishad, I would read through it if you want to get a TLDR of what he is talking about, in his own words.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 18:54:55 2021 No.18097163 >>18097075 I can't quite put my finger on it but there's definitely something wrong with you. I feel sorry for that girl

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 19:17:26 2021 No.18097337

>>18097109
Egads! I thought. As an American I am at a loss for words! Burgers! The problem!? I should think of a witty retort!
Then I remembered I'm going to get off work in 2 hours and I'm going to microwave a wal mart spicy chicken sandwich and get a soda before I sit down at my desk and do my evening brainstorm and what not.
I am powered by burger.
Actually real talk though I imagine we're the sort if anyone that could toss off the red team or blue team moniker it would be us. Like. You never hear about the politics from Greenland or Estonia and so on. From sea to shining sea, let me see the world on my phone. Let me be free and know the world I call home.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 19:17:41 2021 No.18097339 >>18092239 Hating myself for being a failure. Trying to think of reasons not to kill myself.

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>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 19:22:46 2021 No.18097366 >>18096828 God I wish ;-;

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 19:26:41 2021 No.18097392 >>18096991 Nice, I used to imagine female chimpanzees wearing floral dresses doing ballet or sometimes they would be riding on a merry-go-round and there would be other monkeys and apes in the background watching and smoking pipes.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 19:31:12 2021 No.18097417

The high likelihood that covid accidentally leaked from the Wuhan lab due to a small incident of incompetence from a worker is probably the biggest black swan event in modern history. The fact this is considered a conspiracy theory and we will never know exactly how it happened drives me crazy, best not to keep thinking about such things

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 19:41:20 2021 No.18097490 >>18096991 >>18097016 >>18097392 This is based

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 19:44:47 2021 No.18097517 >>18096991 >2. A group of nutcracker soldiers marching inside my pillow. Wonder if these are related to the machine elves people see on DMT.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 19:46:22 2021 No.18097535

Surely by now someone's come up with the conspiracy theory that artificial general intelligence exists, but it's just hidden away like ARPANET. I was thinking by now it's more like BlackRock has advanced tech in it's basement than DARPA
>>18097163
It's the running away from responsibilities - trying to shift the blame for him not "being a man" from himself to the vague concept of the US coddling him. A fairytale naïvety that Eastern Europe is a tranquil land of isolation rather than a depressed land of concrete blocks. Basing such a large decision on a girl being "trad" and a virgin - all indicating this obsession with sex and gender dynamics in which he feels insecure of his place
>>18097075
Sorry to rip into you like that bud, but you just don't have the right attitude about moving countries, especially for such a dramatic culture shift. You're young and rash so take some time to reconsider why you really want to move and what the consequences will be. I've done a lot of moving in my life between totally different areas of the globe, and believe you me - it matters where you are, it isn't just cost of living. It's about how much there is to do, how easy it is to make expat friends (and local), how you feel walking the streets, how you'd feel seeing your children grow up there. Accept that you do not have the temperment of a buddhist monk or orthodox priest, you will likely not fare well with an austere life in eastern europe. By all means, get out of the US, go travelling for a year, anything else that will provoke some deeper introspection without throwing away everything

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 20:03:18 2021 No.18097659

>>18092239

I have high standards for myself. When i fuck up, it feels horrible. That feeling stays with me for days. Next time i have the chance to fuck up, that memory comes to haunt me. Being a turd is unnacceptable. Why then, oh why, does the average person seems to not only find it fine to be a waste of breath, but also come to worship these shitstains? Oh, this guy is an absolute pain to be around, he brings nothing but misery for those around him, but he plays sports/sings well/is a candidate my party/is going to give me a promotion or god know what else, so i will worship him with my every being! Bunch of fucking hypocrites! They claim to want peace, equality or whatever, but you turn your back on them and they're right back to exploiting and abuse someone under themselves. But abuse them? Oh, what a victim i am!

When i was a kid, i used to look back to some of humanity's greatest atrocities and think that it was completely unwarranted and the work of some inhuman monster. Now i see them for what it is: Humans passing the brunt of their suffering onto someone else, usually the weaker in no position to resist. Fixing the world is hard, so why not just punish indiscriminately on the hopes of hitting someone who deserves? Atrocities aren't a failure of character, they are a failure of judgment. If they were done to the "right" person, we would sing our praises and call it justice. After all, isn't it as necessary to reward the good as to punish the rotten?

Just finished my law degree. Back then, i wanted to join a charity foundation my distant cousin works on. Fuck that, i'm joining the police force now. Investigation department. I will make my living over screwing up immoral assholes. Can i bring down that guy? Good. If i cannot? Get some blackmail in, cut my share of the profits and i'm moving on. I am not casting pearls to the pigs here. My kindness is reserved for my nuclear family and friends, the world can burn outside and if it gets too hot for comfort i'm packing my shit and moving away.

Yes, i know i am spouting some incel rhetoric here, but OP asked, and i delivered.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 20:03:43 2021 No.18097660

Life has gone fast
But at the same time it goes so slowly
50 more years of this shit
But I have already experienced seperation from the body
There has to be meaning
There is clearly a purpose, or else we wouldn't be here
Finding the meaning is now the purpose of being here
Finding the value of this experience
Patience itself is now a great task
Lifes true intent needs patience
Karma starts the signal
Spirit is what lies beyond
Remaining unattached to matter is not so simple
Understanding Karma
These things were easy at first
But distraction and aimlessness can slowly bring you back in on the tide of material trivialities

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 20:05:40 2021 No.18097672 Do family members move on from the suicide of a loved one?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 20:15:39 2021 No.18097751 Never underestimate your ability to lose yourself. I was more sophisticated years ago than I am right now. Reject trash culture as soon as you notice it, Anons

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 20:21:14 2021 No.18097784 >>18092507 Blame the fucking mods and jannies. They got a thing for the v tubers

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 20:26:33 2021 No.18097816 >>18097075 she'll use you to get USA citizenship then leave you.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 20:31:45 2021 No.18097858 File: 60 KB, 609x676, 1618193543613.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] My shrink told me to read before bed to sleep better, but reading energizes me and makes me want to do shit.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 20:34:34 2021 No.18097875 >>18092239 If I say I want to kill myself then to vindicate my thoughts, I should kill myself. There are lots of reasons not too though however at the end of the day, I want to kill myself.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 20:50:39 2021 No.18097975 >>18096171 Why would you want to?

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 21:04:26 2021 No.18098066

My world is asunder. Black layers of darkness drape over me, thick enough to blot out the brightest of stars. Tears steadily fill my prison, as I try not to drown like a rat in a barrel. Giving in to allow the inevitable seems bittersweet, but this is the most alive I've felt in ages.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 21:33:59 2021 No.18098259 heh finally did 24 hours in nofap, first time in a week i think.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 21:35:14 2021 No.18098268 >>18097356 i absolutely love this, thank you

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 21:36:56 2021 No.18098280

>>18092239
Had to call in sick to work earlier this week. Was scheduled off the last couple of days and refused to answer phone for any work communication. Dreading the petty bullshit I am going to walk into tomorrow about why I decided my time away from work was more important than anything they needed me for. Trying to remind myself to stay calm and not be too defensive. After all, it's just a job.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 21:41:34 2021 No.18098308 >>18098280 they'd replace you within a week. your health and how you feel is infinitely more important then any task at a job.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 21:46:32 2021 No.18098333 >>18094237 most effortposts are just pretentious cringe by pseuds, i scroll right by those pieces of shit without a second thought

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 21:53:00 2021 No.18098361 >>18098280 The underlying social dynamic here is that sickness = sicklyness = weak = bad. This is what your coworkers perceive

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 21:58:43 2021 No.18098386 >>18097858 Normies are not energized by ideas, but by social contact and sexual suggestion. Basically niggerbeastmode mindset

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 22:03:30 2021 No.18098418 >>18098386 >there are people who don't need a power nap after every friend gathering >there are people who don't fall asleep immediately after cooming That's really weird, man.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 22:29:52 2021 No.18098583 Upon reading Mere Christianity, I have come to realize I am sick with vanity, and flit upon the precipice of black pride. How does a person who has never grasped the concept of humility become humble?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 22:32:21 2021 No.18098598 I had the death squad dream again.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 22:37:29 2021 No.18098625 >>18098418 Some of us don't nap at all. My sleep schedule is actually absolutely fucked these days, and not napping is only part of it.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 23:35:46 2021 No.18098917
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>>18092239
Since Miss Adler got seriously ill they got me a new piano tutor. They placed me with a young woman: younger than me by one year from my own 21. It has been the third time I went to the loisir lounge of her dorms in the women quarter dormitory to get taught piano; for my family have been great musicians for many generations and they want me to master an instrument and by doing so my college tuition is being paid.

This afternoon, after math class, I went to play the piano; and today's piece to study was : Larghetto in A minor, by Gaetano Donizetti and some more from him.I never heard of it but she apparently really loves it.
>Song related
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x2uE-GdoSy8

I need to know what I should've done. First she complemented me on my new haircut. She notice right away. How quick-witted this young woman is. From the start while practicing I felt how close she was from me. More than usual. I would accidentally bump my right elbow to her crotch area without any force or wrong will from my end. She would then explain to me some short techniques to learn and memorize for the composition at hand. I honestly could not focus on what she was saying when her crotch was softly and warmly leaning on the edge of my elbow during her explanation. I lost entire phrases to the void and did not register anything while she would explain what and how to do it. After I played and foolishly I did not do the little exercises she wanted from me. She was getting stricter and after a while she would discreetly smile at my demise. She was smelling so good and her music seemed to enchant me and turn me on. Today I was awful. My hand and fingers didn't cross properly,my tempo and posture was off. What have I done? How could a woman have so much power while doing barely nothing? My passions were unmatched. In ended with her showing me what she made today during her zoom class: half a dozen cabbage rolls.

In conclusion, I felt afterwards that I missed something. She asked me if I wanted to stay and try what she prepared during the day; a recipe her mom excelled at apparently. I told her I was awaited at my family house and could not dine this late afternoon with her. Every Friday, after class I go back home to mom and pop and my brothers and their girlfriends to passed the weekend.
I feel like a fool to have been so blind in front of a pairing dinner, but am I in a good position since I played a bit distanced and next time she will try harder with me or will she take it as a no and play cold with me afterwards? I get that she might feel lonely with the lock-down and the covid and I too feel lonely, but I am very dumb and inexperienced with these things guys and I do not know how to proceed: any advice. I will pray the Holy virgin Mary for some help and pair me with her if she wills it and sees her as virtuous.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 23:39:25 2021 No.18098936

>>18092239
Vices

Dear Reader,
Sometimes, you hear stories about people with serious addictions. Some people love alcohol, cocaine, heroin, or whatever other drugs are available to them. By love, I mean that these people have a physical and psychological obligation to ingest these substances almost constantly.
Now, as a relatively healthy person, I never understood the nature of addiction. I don’t smoke, I only drink socially. I’ve only smoked pot three times at parties in high school, but I didn’t like it enough to make it a habit. I spent the past 21 years of my life free from the clutches of believing I have a constant need, and then I met a boy.
I know what you’re thinking: wow, are you really comparing addiction to your shitty relationship? No, I’m not. This boy was different because he opened my eyes to a world I had no idea existed. Music, movies, cycling, food…everything. He taught me how to be a more interesting version of myself, but the turn that took was one I never could have anticipated.
Of everything he showed me, none of them would affect my life in comparison to this one very specific, very beautiful thing: Ranch dressing.
I live for Ranch dressing. I truly feel like I’ve become Ranch dressing. I feel it coursing through my veins. Everyone has their vices, but I have found my passion. I spend most of my time with Ranch, in some form, right beside me, waiting…
Instead of coffee in the morning, when I go to class or to work, I just bring a travel mug filled with Ranch. I don’t eat much, but whenever I do, everything on my plate drowns in Ranch. Every day, for lunch, I fill a large salad bowl with sliced mushrooms and Ranch (the mushrooms are for texture). Every night, for dinner, I do the same, but I stop at McDonald’s beforehand, buy three Hot ‘n Spicy McChicken sandwiches, and then I grind them up in a blender and pour all of that in with the mushrooms. I usually end my night with a bowl of ice cream (I know, I’m a glutton), and that’s almost always Mint Chocolate Chip flavored Blue Bell, in a regular bowl, equal parts ice cream and my delicious Ranch dressing.
People often ask me how I do it. “Don’t you get sick?” they ask. “Don’t you ever vomit?” I usually just shake my head and laugh at their foolishness. Do I get sick? I’ve been shitting liquid for seven years now, my heart hurts when it beats about 85% of the time. I am sick. I hold a job at Walgreens for Ranch. I stay in my same apartment, single, alone (though never truly alone, as I’ve usually got a bottle of Hidden Valley somewhere nearby…), and I’ve never had sex with anything but an Asa Akira Fleshlight filled with Ranch dressing. Why? Well, because I love it, and life is about sacrifices.
Fortunately for me, this habit has basically led me to sacrifice my life itself, and it’s been worth every second I spent experiencing my sweet, lovely Ranch. My perfect Ranch.

Yours truly,
XXXXXXX XXXXX

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 23:40:28 2021 No.18098942

>>18092239
1/2

Basil

I think socialization comes with the responsibility of respecting other people. Not everyone feels the same.
I grew up without siblings, but I was always very close with one of my cousins. Robert was so funny when we were kids. To this day, some of my best memories are staying up all night playing Baldur's Gate and eating pizza rolls with him. He introduced me to a lot of who I am currently, and I didn't fully realize it at the time.
As we grew up, I think we both grew bitter as well – bitter at our financial circumstances, our family, and the world around us as a whole. Robert and I always shared that we never felt fully comfortable. I'm still not sure why.
When I was 20, Robert 19, we got an apartment in the city, having grown tired of the monotony of suburbia, working a shitty pizza job and essentially doing the same as when we were kids but with drugs, a lot of fucking drugs. All of our extra money went to bags of weed, pills, beer, and video games. What's unbelievable is that we still failed to realize that we had fully embodied the environment we grew up in, the world we were so bitter at, the parents we never forgave for mistakes they made when they were fucked up too.
Both of us dealt with a lot of anxiety and a lot of serious depression. Arrogant pricks as we were, of course, we thought we were somehow above the notion of 'medication,' instead opting to poison ourselves with anything else we could find. There's a special irony in someone who refuses to take prescription medications they desperately need only to abuse ones they don't. Our apartment was disgusting. It wasn't “oh, they're just young guys!” disgusting; it was “oh, they're really going through something dark” fucking filthy, grimy, and absolutely disgusting. I swear to god we were living like animals. The flush on our toilet broke, but we never fixed it. Eventually, it was so clogged that we just kept shitting on top of the previous shit. You could smell it from the living room. We were pissing in the sink and tub to save space for the next defecation.
Robert got the idea when he was on acid to turn the plunger inside out and start packing the shit down, as deep as he could force it. It honestly did help, but he just threw the poo-smeared tool into the tub and turned the water on, so then there was shit in the tub too.
I knew Robert wasn't brushing his teeth, which was a bad habit he had since childhood, and I have an image permanently embedded in my mind of him smiling at me. I asked him if he wanted to go to the store to get some Draino, thinking maybe it would help break up the poo for when we had to pack it down again. “Yeah,” he muttered, then louder, “but first I gotta floss my fuckin' teeth!” He let out a guttural, coughing laugh and proudly revealed a set of obviously long-rotting, blackened stubs of former teeth.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 23:41:30 2021 No.18098948

>>18098942
2/3*** (i fucked up)

When we first moved in, Robert had two bottles of this basil hand soap. He barely used it, so it took him forever to get through the first bottle. I distinctly remember him putting the second bottle in the cabinet, and so did he, but when the first bottle was finally empty, he couldn't find it. It didn't make any sense.
It wasn't in the hall closet. It wasn't in the kitchen. It wasn't anywhere. How could a fucking bottle of hand soap disappear? It had to disappear. Unless someone took it. Robert couldn't stop talking about it. He couldn't stop thinking about it. I saw that he was losing sleep, and he quit going to work. Who took it? Who had been there? We never had anyone in our apartment for the obvious, that it was a fucking pigsty, so who came in and took it? He was positive that he knew someone did.
“Bottles don't disappear. Nothing disappears.” Robert wouldn't stop. He quit doing the shit packing to our toilet, so I had to...so I didn't, and he didn't even care. He spent a lot of his time in the bathroom these days, trying to calculate exactly what happened to his soap.
One night, I came home from work around 8 pm. I was tired, sweaty, and so ready to bust a nut. I immediately went to the kitchen and pounded a beer because the one I drank on my way home didn't even affect me. I saw a half crushed up pill on the counter that I guess one of us had forgotten about when we were already fucked up. A couple of cockroaches scurried away as I approached the sweet release I didn't even realize I lived for.
I snorted what was crushed and swallowed the rest right before I pounded another beer. I hummed the can at the wall, watching it smack, blatantly miss the garbage can, and tumble down onto a pile of trash that had started to collect after the can was never emptied.
I made my way to the bathroom to check on Robert. I figured he would still be there from this morning. I wasn't wrong. I had to force the door open. I think Robert's foot was up against it, and I immediately realized what had happened.
There was so much shit on and around the toilet that some of it started to get tracked in and out of the bathroom. There was some shit and piss on the floor, basically, enough that I could see the print of Robert's foot, a smear probably a foot long where he must have slipped. His neck was broken against the side of the tub, his back flat on the ground but his head completely sideways, twisted upward. I know it seems grim, but I hadn't seen him look happier since those days we were playing Baldur's Gate. He was free.

Anonymous Fri Apr 23 23:42:30 2021 No.18098957

>>18098948
3/3

As I packed my belongings into boxes and plastic milk crates, I had the moment of clarity I needed. It took the majority of a weekend to empty the apartment out. It was very difficult to explain the circumstances of Robert's death, as well as the miserable conditions we were living in. I did try my best to clean out the toilet before I moved, but I'm pretty sure that thing was far beyond repair.
I made one last pass through the apartment before I was gone for good. There were massive black stains on the carpet, trails of old dried blood and semen throughout the hallways, even after vacuuming as thoroughly as I could. I took one final look in my bedroom, staring up into the closet at the only item I decided not to take with me: an unopened bottle of basil hand soap.

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 23:51:05 2021 No.18099005 You ever feel like you just don’t have the prerequisite background or life story or a certain characteristic whatever to actually make it?

>>	Anonymous Fri Apr 23 23:55:09 2021 No.18099030 >>18092558 Can you please provide sauce? iqdb is dead ;_;

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 00:02:44 2021 No.18099075 >>18092278 fuck him, i will pursue immortality via reincarnation forever!

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 00:11:37 2021 No.18099128 File: 3.77 MB, 3835x4724, 00042758.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nYVDN27CrOo

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 01:07:07 2021 No.18099433 >>18094808 >>18095342 how the hell does one get away from this shit and live well

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 01:10:18 2021 No.18099448 >>18094913 you mean like being born in india today lol

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 01:12:18 2021 No.18099456 what's the literary term for misery porn

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 01:12:56 2021 No.18099462
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>>18092239
I was very perturbed and somewhat offended seeing how small of a load that other guy on /lit/ gave to Waldun as a tribute, so i decided to correct his mistake.

It seems like a computer screen does make cum look clearer, but I believe my emissions have adequately honored Dark Academia and /lit/

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 01:16:01 2021 No.18099474 File: 470 KB, 523x636, HotWaldun.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18099462 hot damn

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 01:27:58 2021 No.18099548 >>18094528 You mean all those old people and fatties whose lives are so inactive they might as well be dead?

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 01:42:11 2021 No.18099605 File: 154 KB, 698x900, crucifixion-gabriel-metsu.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18098583 Read the Gospels. Jesus Himself is an excellent teacher in what it means to be humble. "Be like Me, for I am meek and humble of heart."

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 01:50:00 2021 No.18099631

>>18099605
I have, but going over it again with fresh eyes sounds right. Thank you
I think I have developed an ego or sense of covert narcissism as defense against a life ladent with truama in volume that almost becomes absurd. The idea that I must make of myself an edifice, testamental to my survival and will, for in the end I will have only myself seems to have sunken deep into me, and it is dawning upon me how wrong I am. I will pray that a state of peeling off such an exoskeleton persists.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 01:50:36 2021 No.18099638 >>18095215 Sounds kino

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 01:55:21 2021 No.18099649
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>>18099631
Lowliness is the key to clarity of sight, I have found. I legitimately think that one of the reasons the saints can write so piercingly about so many issues, and speak so clearly to even those of us who live centuries after their deaths, is because they were humble. They were meek of heart, and knew their own flaws and failures very acutely. They knew that their own strength was nothing compared to their great weaknesses, and it was only through the power of God that they could accomplish great things.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:08:07 2021 No.18099697

>>18099649
Amen to that.
It is, potentialy, a terrifying and dizzying thought that the greatest of men in quality are not even motes of dust compared to God. And, at the same time, it feels exciting to consider, like finding something you were looking for in plain sight. Who are some Saints you recommend reading, Anon?

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:09:56 2021 No.18099699
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>>18099697
Augustine's Confessions is an easy recommendation.

One saint I have been kind of obsessed with lately is Saint Teresa of Avila. I find her very extraordinary and she is not a joke when it comes to considering one's insignificance compared to the Almighty. Her two big texts are "The Way of Perfection" and "The Interior Castle." Both are worth reading.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:14:49 2021 No.18099710 >>18099699 I have heard of St Teresa of Avila! Is the Interior Castle as good as its reputation purports?

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:16:54 2021 No.18099718 >>18099710 Yes. It's serious shit, Teresa doesn't fuck around and she will whip you into shape. She very pointedly reached out to me recently and I think she is trying to make me become a mystic. We'll see how that goes.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:20:51 2021 No.18099728 File: 2.10 MB, 3000x4000, IMG_20210416_123521.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] dreamy cops and cadets... bros, i...

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:21:51 2021 No.18099732 >>18099462 holy academic kek. you deserve that (You)

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:22:55 2021 No.18099738

>>18099718
I have felt what I hope, and fear, is a similar calling, though for me it was the writings of a Catholic Martinist named Tomberg and not as intense, but if you do pursue it I wish you the best of luck, and will pray you recieve the strength neccesary for such a thing. I will have to put those books on my to order list.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:25:59 2021 No.18099746 I feel like sleep is the only place where i can escape from life.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:27:30 2021 No.18099750

>>18099738
Thanks, Anon.

I don't always bring this up but I have had several unprompted mystical experiences in my life. I didn't summon them, but they came upon me, and they were striking. All of them took place in 2017. It was very marvelous. So maybe I am going to wind up a mystic.

This despite the fact that I am a horrible sinner myself, guilty of mortal sins a thousand times over.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:33:17 2021 No.18099774

>>18099750
Was Saul not similar before he was met with his calling? My experiences are mere glimpses from prayer and some odd occurences, personaly. If they are that strong and coming to you, then it must be in the cards somewhere. The sheer awe of that kind of situation is amazing, isnt it?

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:41:23 2021 No.18099791
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>>18099774
I haven't had them in a few years but they were indeed very striking.

There was one night when I was asleep and heard what I am pretty sure was the voice of God Himself speak to me and wake me up. I didn't sleep for the rest of the night.

And you know what God said? It was because I was contemplating deliberately sinning, and He said, "That seems like a really stupid idea." God yelled at me to tell me that I need to stop sinning. And I still can't get it done. It makes me fear that maybe I am just doomed never to be rid of sin. If the Almighty Himself thundering at me on the edge of a dream can't get me to quit sin forever, what will?

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:48:33 2021 No.18099811 >>18099728 where is this

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:50:52 2021 No.18099817

>>18099791
God, make me virtious, but not, eh?
We are fundamentaly doomed to fail, for we are mortal men by virtue of physical existence and the Fall. The crux of things comes when you have expended all effort in trying to resist the temptation of sin, and have solely the option of letting yourself be washed in the blood of Christ and to relinquish the driving yoke of effort unto God, if you will forgive that coming from someone who has not reached that point yet. It sounds like you have.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:54:28 2021 No.18099827 File: 2.12 MB, 3000x4000, IMG_20210416_123523.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18099811 moscow metro. > mfw it is Over

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 02:56:11 2021 No.18099832

>>18099817
I sometimes feel more than a little like Saint Augustine, with the temptations toward sin with which he struggled his entire life. I sometimes think I am doomed to a similar state, and if I get to Heaven it will be because I went to Confession and then died before I could sin yet again.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 03:02:44 2021 No.18099849

Life seems so utterly absurd and asinine, in benign indifference, and it frustrates me to no end. Despite recognizing how ludicrous my being and its interaction with other beings is, I have never once been able to internalize any of such reasoning, and instead perpetuate the cycle of absurdity and frustration. If I cannot be certain of anything, do I exist?

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 03:05:21 2021 No.18099859 File: 66 KB, 441x650, qf34ij.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18098917 >>18098936 >>18098942 >>18098948 >>18098957 This was entertaining. Thanks, Anon.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 03:09:03 2021 No.18099870 >>18099832 I am sorry that I am not theologian enough to help you as much as I wish. I believe you should certainly speak to a priest.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 03:19:35 2021 No.18099895
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My addictions are leaving. No more alcohol and drug binges, no more regrettable sex, no more pornography or masturbation. No new shameful memories to haunt me. I'm coming back to normalcy. Why did I abandon it to begin with?

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 03:29:30 2021 No.18099929
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i deleted all my porn. i cant say how long i will last porn free. i hope it stays long enough for me to begin taking my life back.

cutting under 1400 kcal is actually really hard for me. i think i just need to have more coffee during the day to curb my appetite and to stop drinking milk so much, it make up a third of my caloric intake.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 03:29:37 2021 No.18099930

It's a bit shameful, but one of my most powerful fetishes is gluttony. In a woman, I mean. The idea of a woman surrendering herself to an overpowering greed for food. It should come as no surprise that I am attracted to fat women, but I feel this particular erotic impulse is more malicious, and darker. I think it taps into my tendency sometimes to see women as objects of erotic fulfillment, rather than as persons with whom an intelligible relationship is possible. Some of my most powerful erotic fantasies involve fat women essentially behaving as livestock, being fed more and more, fattened further and further, and them not only not offering any resistance but deriving primal pleasure in it, because at the core of their beings they are driven purely by the guttural animal instinct to sate their hunger. I have powerful fantasies of women possessing a bottomless well of greed for food that strips away all their humanity and leaves them as creatures or objects. To have their core desires so satiated and so inflated that it overwhelms their rational faculties and leaves them mindless slaves to their basest appetites, all the while I take satisfaction in essentially stripping them of their humanity by giving them more of what they wanted than they could possibly have imagined.

Needless to say, this is not a healthy fetish, and it is one I try not to nurture too heavily.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 03:44:26 2021 No.18099976 >>18099930 >fat women fetish These times are for you Mr. Architect.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 03:44:31 2021 No.18099978 >>18099930 I love these threads

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 03:52:30 2021 No.18099994
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>>18099930
based, based fellow architect. i don't like obese or out of shape people, but lighting strike me if a woman with an appetite of a wolf isn't fierily sexual.
a peasant girl stuffing herself after hard work.
an ample housecook, bulging out of her apron, tasting heaping spoons of her cooking before the actual dinner just to claim the leftovers as well.
smoking weed with a chubby tomboy to indulge her in stoner cooking over a dudebro movie, three helpings and no less than that.

i am even turned off by women who are overly picky eaters, with childlike narrow palettes and restricted appetite.
a woman who eats with delight, she herself a part of the deliciousness, unashamed and proud of her generous taste, is feastly and dyonisian in nature.

btw anon, whats your own body type? i find it's almost always skinny or buff men that go architect mode

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 04:04:13 2021 No.18100034 Every few days I am struck by the intense dread that I will die childless, or that I will miss a window in time. However, I am 22 so I imagine I am just being paranoid, for now.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 04:08:21 2021 No.18100050
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>>18099994
>an ample housecook, bulging out of her apron, tasting heaping spoons of her cooking before the actual dinner just to claim the leftovers as well.

Yes, exactly, a woman who can't help but let the pig inside her keep coming out. A woman who takes a primal satisfaction in eating.

>btw anon, whats your own body type? i find it's almost always skinny or buff men that go architect mode

I'm pretty buff, I lift weights three times a week. Currently trying to cut body fat right now so that I can get more shredded. Fasting some, taking supplements.

I dream of being as /fit/ as I can possibly be, while also having a wife of absolutely enormous size. Of being muscular and buff while having a wife more than three times my own weight. That's a life goal, that I myself would achieve the height of physical fitness while the woman in my life indulges in gluttony and sloth, as I make her quite literally as happy as a pig in mud.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 04:46:32 2021 No.18100189 >>18100034 What makes you think that?

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 04:51:59 2021 No.18100216

>>18097535
>A fairytale naïvety that Eastern Europe is a tranquil land of isolation rather than a depressed land of concrete blocks.
Eastern Europe sustained a lot of psychological and spiritual damage from Communism, a movement of the baby torture tribe (trademark; Judaism).
The forms reflect that. However, they are healing. Unlike the other places that are affected by the plague of baby torture, where people take guidance, influence and advice from the wicked baby torture tribe.

It is depressed, yes - as was I until I started healing. Or rather, it was a portion of my healing. It halted the repetition of self-harm. You should get depressed and survive it.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:04:14 2021 No.18100262

>>18097417
If China was to fall (which many people deem as impossible but they thought the same about the USSR in the 50s) they will probably declassify the dossiers and we will know the truth.
But after all does it matter? What could we do if it was an artificial virus? Invade China? Sanction the shit out of them?
The world still depends on China and the impossibility of punishing them if it was true would make them look even stronger.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:06:04 2021 No.18100270 >>18100050 holy fucking based. godspeed in your architectural way, king

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:07:49 2021 No.18100276 >>18100262 Truth has healing properties. The Chinese have suffered so much, and they make others suffer in their interactions. Same is true for all trauma. We don't need it anymore. We deserve to heal, we deserve the truth.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:08:37 2021 No.18100280 >>18097659 >some incel rhetoric here No such thing in your post, makes perfectly sense. Godspeed anon

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:10:56 2021 No.18100287

>>18100262
>The world still depends on China and the impossibility of punishing them if it was true would make them look even stronger.

We need them as cheap industrial labor. Their government and their nation-state don't have to be strong for that to take place. Indeed, it would be to the BENEFIT of the rest of the world if China were to be seriously crippled as a nation, and set back significantly. If the CCP were taken out and China were undone as a global power, labor there would get EVEN cheaper.

They could even enter a new Warring States period and it would be to our benefit, we could just make the pathetic successor states of modern China jockey for favor to get a factory built.

Modern China has basically reached the limits of its usefulness for the West. The Chinese are betting that they have grown strong enough as a power that they no longer need the West, and that it will now be the West that needs them. The easy relationship is over and now the hard times are upon us.

I happen to think this is a gambit China loses, because they have not done a very good job building up soft power and projecting favorable relations with the neighbors they need. They've badly bungled relations with Vietnam, South Korea, and Australia, three nations that they should have been much more careful with. The Philippines are on the verge of turning on them too, due to their bullshit in the South China Sea.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:17:33 2021 No.18100300

>>18100262
If you look at history, wars have been started over less. But you're right I guess, nothing will happen. China's leverage over us is too great. Sanctions would be economic suicide for many Western countries. Many already know the lab leak hypothesis is probably true and the WHO/news at best ignores it, at worst deems it a conspiracy theory. Even if we found out the truth today, we'd still be treating Russia and Iran as the greatest threats to the world. Oh, and if you're too hawkish on China you'll be promoting *shudders* anti-Asian racism.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:20:53 2021 No.18100313 I shook a billionaire’s hand once and the whole time he was looking at my coworkers boobs.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:25:04 2021 No.18100320 File: 197 KB, 1920x772, natural_progression_by_better_with_salt_dehap1d-fullview.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18100270 Thanks, friend. I really am trying hard. We'll be sure to have plenty of kids, too.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:25:07 2021 No.18100321 >>18100313 you cannot buy a nice rack and he knows it

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:30:15 2021 No.18100346
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>>18099548
I don't want people to die but damn it's upsetting how humanity seems to not having learned anything from it. The world looks even crazier than before like the pandemic exposed the worst of humanity.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:33:03 2021 No.18100355 >>18100346 >The world looks even crazier than before like the pandemic exposed the worst of humanity. That's what plagues do. Plagues bring social upheaval. I expect the order of things to change, just as they changed in Europe after the Black Death.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:40:54 2021 No.18100381 File: 371 KB, 640x569, 1613965142039.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18100355

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:42:42 2021 No.18100386 File: 868 KB, 2400x3200, ennKhPH.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18100381 Pray for a mutation.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:47:12 2021 No.18100398

>>18100381
Small businesses are closing while corporations are getting stronger, which means more contractual power for them to force the mass of unemployed to accept lower wages. Lower wages mean less social well-being, more crime, more radicalism, more drugs and the works.
I think we are going to live in interesting times.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 05:56:53 2021 No.18100420 >>18100398 I am immensely happy I somehow had the foresight to get a battle rifle known for its durability before things started really getting whacky.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 06:02:21 2021 No.18100436 what are the implications of this fucking incest mommy porn trend?

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 06:04:40 2021 No.18100440 >>18100436 Horror. Wailing and a great gnashing of teeth.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 06:05:10 2021 No.18100443 >>18100381 >Thankfully Those fucking pieces of shit

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 06:06:13 2021 No.18100446 >>18100436 I consider myself to be lucky since I have an incest fetish and this is giving me new mountains of content to masturbate to.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 06:08:45 2021 No.18100453

i still don't have a direction in my life, and it's getting really unbearable. just a minute ago while i was pissing i considered the idea of raising kids as my purpose or meaning. i wish i could just move on with this fucking cringe phase of my life. i should start a diary, this doesn't go on 4chan.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 06:10:00 2021 No.18100459

>>18100446
retard. it isn't luck. there are mountains of content to feed the huge number of you sick fuckers. and why do you think you have that fetish ? why is it on the rise? that is the quesition. has this idea not been implanted in you? and now made worse by all this pornography? i think yes

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 06:12:24 2021 No.18100465 >>18100459 See the difference between you and me is that you think having this fetish is a problem, while I don't.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 06:13:27 2021 No.18100472 On the fetish scale incest isn't really that fucked up, honestly it's kinda vanilla actually. t. anon who likes cannibalism

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 06:14:40 2021 No.18100478 >>18100465 not him, but it's isn't it undeniably kinda gross to get turned on by family members fucking

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 06:19:18 2021 No.18100492

>>18100478
I personally don't see it, I actually think it's kid of sweet too, depending on the context. That being said I keep my fetishes to fantasies, I don't really seek them out in real life, if for example, say, a friend of mine just went and told me he's been having sexual relationships with his mother, I'd probably be atleast a bit weirded out.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 06:29:15 2021 No.18100527

>>18100492
in the same boat pretty much. i do think it's pretty strange that fetishes are suddenly becoming a lot more extreme and also normalized. i mean look at this post >>18100472 lmao
we're normal 95% of the time, but then for 5% we're jacking off to the most bizzare, outlandish shit and we don't even know why. the internet truly did break our brains, RIP

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 07:04:52 2021 No.18100635 >>18100459 don't call people retard

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 07:10:04 2021 No.18100648

My mind is wrestling with the idea of ego and whether it's good or not.
Pretty much all religion points to ego death as transcendence. But why?
Why is it seemingly uncommon to embrace humanity, ego, self?
The individual struggle seems so pointless to rejoin the mind soup in the end. Why was I have to be born in the first place if the end goal was to shed everything I've built?

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 07:14:30 2021 No.18100661

>>18100459
>and why do you think you have that fetish ?
Because I had a mean stepmother who gave me my first taste of rejection. She rejected me when I wanted emotional closeness and motherhood. When I was twelve or so, her bathrobe slipped and revealed her breast. With things like this there isn't really a way to concretely nail down any causality, but this is my understanding of the origins of my mommy fetish. It has literally, absolutely nothing to do with pornography.
>why is it on the rise? that is the quesition. has this idea not been implanted in you?
What are you insinuating? That the evil globohomo jews have inceptioned a mommy fetish into my brain? Get over yourself. The puerile idea that fetishes have been """"implanted"""" as if you have some arcane methodology by which you've deduced this groundbreaking realization is just that: puerile. You and I both know you have absolutely nothing behind that statement except an intuition.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 07:15:07 2021 No.18100662 >>18092239 Paulette please, for the love of fuck, please just come back to me. I promise you won't ever have to deal with a life of shit again. Lets just be together and be happy. I miss you and I love you.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 07:15:28 2021 No.18100664

>>18100648
Ego-Death is a western meme. Most eastern religions/philosophies when discussing the problem of ego is mostly letting it get in the way and mistaking it as something eternal. The goal is not some super epic obliteration of the ego but becoming disentangled from it, for want of a better word. The ego doesn't go away, but it ceases to be an obstacle when you are no longer clinging to it. Its just there.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 07:19:15 2021 No.18100683

>>18100664
>Most eastern religions/philosophies when discussing the problem of ego is mostly letting it get in the way and mistaking it as something eternal
What? Have you even read the Vedas? I'm going to circumvent the whole dualistic debate, but both schools of thought hold that Atman IS eternal, and that inside each of us is the same Atman. If ego is that quality which provides the illusion of self vs. other, then killing the ego is embracing the truth of Atman. It absolutely has a long and rigorous history in Eastern philosophy.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 07:21:32 2021 No.18100693 How does one acquire charisma?

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 07:27:47 2021 No.18100713

>>18097075
Transnistrian fag here, don't, all 3 countries are more or less on the brink of war (Ukraine is at war already) there are plenty good options like the 1 euro houses in italy, france or swissland that are actual fresh starts. Living here everybody is just going to be fake around you because of the money and chance of getting in the US.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 07:35:20 2021 No.18100731

>>18100683
>Have you even read the Vedas?
Parts. Have you read all 4 (black and white Yajuraveda), including all the parts on the rituals and all the hymns unabridged? Cool if you have, few do. So I can assume you only want to talk about Vedic philosophy now and not anything else?

>If ego is that quality which provides the illusion of self vs. other, then killing the ego is embracing the truth of Atman
You should actually look up the practices that used to achieve knowledge of Atman. It is an apophatic process through which all that is not Atman is negated. This doesn't mean these things stop within perception, but you reinforce their ontological status in your search of knowledge of Brahman. It is within this sense that they are "killed".

I can explain other schools too, Buddhist and otherwise if you like, but you are mostly concerned with Vedanta I think?

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 07:42:12 2021 No.18100755 >>18100731 You seem a little defensive. Glad you were able to step back from yourself and concede the point though.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 07:43:59 2021 No.18100762 Just a few hours more before I can become one with beer again.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 07:48:12 2021 No.18100776

Consider the following: three world religions as characterized in the trimurti
Hinduism: Concerned with the unchanging self. Concerned with the bearer of Knowledge, empty in itself. Vishnu.
Christianity: The Knowledge. Christ as the perfect expression of Gods will. Brahma.
Islam: The Actualiser of Knowledge. The way. The bridge between Knower and Knowledge. The temporal method. Change. Shiva.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 07:52:04 2021 No.18100792

>>18100776
same anon:
it struck me that this is what they are to me. I got mercy through christ, I got metaphysical knowledge framing that mercy from hinduism and I got the method of acutalizing that mercy from islam. I'm considering which of these I should give myself to, maybe the answer is all 3. The question really is which can be of use to people around me, if I wanted to save souls as it were which of them would be most helpful. I know it started with christ for me, but then I'm a yuro, it follows naturally that I'd look ther efirst.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 07:52:32 2021 No.18100793 >>18097075 >also a virgin like me Yeah, sure.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 08:19:33 2021 No.18100891

Anyone ever notice how dozens of users on most boards especially ones like /pol/ respond en masse to the "your X will die if you don't reply to this post" BS?

Like they ACTUALLY believe some retarded image will lead to the death of their mom or something and that its contingent on a reply. I don't even see how an educated Christian would fall for that nonsense, maybe underage and spiritual types? It makes me think 4chan types are even bigger midwits than normies. Just boggles my mind.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 08:41:32 2021 No.18100978 >>18100891 I didn't respond to it once and now my mother is hellbent on taking the vaxx.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 08:45:58 2021 No.18100999 >>18100891 it's an artform

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 09:18:10 2021 No.18101124 >>18100891 wow, very funny post anon. i mean isn't that just super

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 09:27:43 2021 No.18101175 Maybe I would’ve been happy if I just picked a different career track or something and had normal development as a young adult

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 09:32:38 2021 No.18101195 File: 590 KB, 942x1278, j9bnie8pgyb21 (1).jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18100891 It's like checking your cupboard before going to sleep, you just gotta do what you gotta do

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 09:36:42 2021 No.18101214 >18101195 now there's gonna be a bunch of live links to a picture of an undressed woman in this thread. you have defiled my safe space anon.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 09:41:49 2021 No.18101235 >>18101195 Such a cute face. The hair is amazing color. The butt is beautiful. The only thing that isn't good is the color scheme on her skate board.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 09:42:51 2021 No.18101239

The human mind is incapable of fully grasping reality. The nature of a singular, fallible, limited physical existence keeps me from even having half of the pieces needed to construct that which would be close to an ultimate truth, lest me being capable of piecing such a complex construct with the mental capacity of a mere human.
I am thus incapable of knowing the truth due to limitations inherent to my physical existence, but I am capable of pointing out that which is untrue because of the same means: my physical existence however limited, instills through such limitations a perceivable ceiling to that which can be made real, making it so that lies contradict lived experiences and find no ground in experienced reality. In a sense, striving towards sincerity is thus not the same as knowing (or claiming to know) the abstract metaphysical concept of an unreachable truth, but rather not shooting oneself in the foot by not partaking in the continuous climb for comprehension, which inevitably leads to stagnation of the mental faculties and the corruption of one's self-perception. A sense of loss may this derive.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 09:45:16 2021 No.18101246 i want a harem of nip virgin girls

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 09:55:49 2021 No.18101294

Those happy under the state's rule are characterized by unfortunately not seeking a wide range of knowledge, that is their prerogative; those routinely seeking knowledge will eventualy seek what the state expends some efforts to suppress, the effort scaled to what they can get away with without sufficient organized uproar: pulling an unpopular problematic book from their libraries, allowing or encouraging media smear campaigns, etc. It is at that moment the disenchantment begins, and those masses not feeling such disenchantment in such a moment can not comprehend how there could be a problem.

Most snobby midwits take pleasure in calling normies stupid, but it truly pains me to do so. The stupidity is a truth and thus shouldn't be ignored lest you cater to supression in your own life.. yet ignorance of an injustice doesn't mean the injustice doesn't occur or that they will not eventually make the discovery themselvesand curse your ambivalence. In short, I don't want to just give up on joe six-pack and compete for a vapid spot in the tower of elephant-tusk

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 10:13:52 2021 No.18101362 >>18094460 Try LSD. I don't care for your opinion about drugs by the way. But that's my only advice. Taking 'walks' through nature will never magically make you appreciate the beauty of it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 10:14:51 2021 No.18101367 >>18101362 This is horrible fucking advice and a terrible attitude. You shouldnt need drugs to appreciate nature jesus

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 10:28:30 2021 No.18101440

>>18099930
You do realise she will be more than just a fat pig that shovels slop into her mouth right? That she'll most likely have a shitty bitchy personality? Does this not bother you or are you purely trying to relive sexual fantasies.
I don't mean to have a dig at you I just have no sexual fetishes of my own, infact I rarely think about having sex in general. So when I see a post like this it makes life that little bit more exciting and understandable.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 10:38:46 2021 No.18101487

>>18101367
Some people can't and I once couldn't. Nature used to make me sick to the stomach, I would much rather be playing video games.
Then I took LSD once, 6 years ago and now I appreciate nature like no one else I know. When I begun to enjoy nature it was a slow but rewarding process of breaking free from video games, then tv shows and movies to taking up outdoor sports and hiking 8 hour long trails to the peak of a mountain.

Also you shouldn't get your tits in a knot if someone needs X to enjoy y. You don't need video games or MP3 players to enjoy life but to many people, they do make life enjoyable, it's up to them wether they want to change that or not.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 10:42:40 2021 No.18101506 >>18092239 I will burn forever after I die because I haven't repented of my sins after probably getting way more evidence for God than most saints or people.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 10:44:54 2021 No.18101511 >>18101506 did you come to the conclusion that the real you is above it all?

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 11:04:33 2021 No.18101616 >>18101511 No. I just realised the ontological and intelligent design argument makes sense, among other wisdom randomly granted in my mind that apparently all apologetics are made of, making me think I couldn't make that stuff up.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 11:25:41 2021 No.18101702 >>18101616 well, that's a start. you'd enjoy the Quran, it speaks to your situation.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 11:46:56 2021 No.18101799 I’ve got to design two business cards, a poster, fill out a budget plan, reformat my resume and send three emails this weekend. Not a lot when I type it all out.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 11:47:35 2021 No.18101803 it's a little odd that Se7en was a real shocker just 20-something years ago

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 11:59:31 2021 No.18101867 "No work today lads, maybe tomorrow."

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 12:06:05 2021 No.18101899 I just don’t really see any sort of life worth living for

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 12:09:44 2021 No.18101923
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Reading made me retarded. I intuitively knew and acted out so many ideas without consciously thinking about them. Reading and learning them years later has left me retarded. It's like I am now centered into my overthinking / overanalyzing self. I want my automatic self back instead of this manual nonsense

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 12:13:59 2021 No.18101943 >>18101195 it should say something like "reply to this or your mother with die under my bubble butt tonight"

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 12:18:36 2021 No.18101961 >try reading >head starts hurting and cant concentrate at all >try a bit later >same shit happens I cant seem to do it anymore.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 12:18:58 2021 No.18101962 >>18092239 y^2 = x^3 + 7 mod P

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 13:31:46 2021 No.18102316 I want to leave the house but don't know where to go

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 14:33:36 2021 No.18102710 >>18102316 Go around the block.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 14:43:26 2021 No.18102765 File: 217 KB, 936x1147, 1619271158997.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>18101195 fixed

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 14:45:31 2021 No.18102780 Lol you faggot nerds I would smash your faces IRL

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 14:54:23 2021 No.18102840 >>18102710 Not him but I can only walk the same route around my suburb so many times. The old people look at me with eyes of suspicion and the soccer moms in mini-vans tail me to catch a glimpse of my face.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 14:56:27 2021 No.18102851 File: 62 KB, 932x514, Et1KH7OY.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] non-vegans on suicide-watch

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 14:56:55 2021 No.18102855 >>18199999

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 14:59:35 2021 No.18102870 >>18102851 Way to ensure a republican victory.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 14:59:54 2021 No.18102872 Before this thread I had some thoughts stirring, but now the only thing on my mind is my skull and associated buffer tissue

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:00:20 2021 No.18102874 >>18099462 someone want to make a third of this?

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:15:24 2021 No.18102970 Why can’t I find any hobbies besides literature?

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:16:10 2021 No.18102974 >>18102970 short attention span and everything feeling arbitrary and boring easily.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:17:43 2021 No.18102984

>>18102710
I will go and take the usual walk in the woods but was trying to be around other humans. Unfortunately, in my part of the world, there are bars and churches. Neither particularly interest me.
>>18102840
I moved away from the city long ago. I guess it's considered not natural to just go for a walk these days.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:19:28 2021 No.18102994 >>18102974 I would think literature needs a fairly decent attention span. >>18102970 Maybe you're physically out of shape. Try easing into some sort of physical activity. I want to learn how to play tennis

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:20:01 2021 No.18102997 >>18102970 I been looking into photography but that's a bit too much for a noob like me.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:20:38 2021 No.18103001 >>18102970 because you're in a loveless marriage, and only bookas feel big enough to hide in

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:20:44 2021 No.18103002 >>18102970 Because you’re boring.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:24:23 2021 No.18103019 >>18102870 What did he delete?

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:25:49 2021 No.18103026

>>18102994
I’m definitely out of shape but there’s no real sport of physical activity that interests me right now. I played football when I was younger and I liked stuff like hiking, camping, hunting but I just don’t like that stuff anymore. It’s not fun. I question if I ever really liked it or if I was trying to present a certain way.

>>18102997
Why?

>>18103001
I’m single.

>>18103002
That’s probably true.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:25:55 2021 No.18103027 >>18103019 Meat being restricted.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:26:45 2021 No.18103034 >>18103026 Just take walks around the neighborhood

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:28:41 2021 No.18103046 >>18103027 America really has fallen down.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:29:39 2021 No.18103056 >>18103034 Lol. I’m the guy above who said soccer moms stare at me. Not sure that counts as a hobby anyway.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:30:30 2021 No.18103062 >>18103056 Stop doing things that make you being stared at.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:30:53 2021 No.18103064 >>18103062 I’m just walking, guy. It’s where I live that has them stare at me.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:31:10 2021 No.18103067

>>18103026
> hiking, camping, hunting
I genuinely like these three but they are solitary activities for the most part. It's nice to take your thoughts into a quiet forest. You can also read while you hunt. There is something about the way that tennis is structured that appeals to me. Physical activity helps balance my mind.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:31:12 2021 No.18103068 >>18103064 Stop lying.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:32:13 2021 No.18103073 >>18103064 Okay, anon.

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:32:49 2021 No.18103084 New thread. >>18103078

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:33:10 2021 No.18103086 >>18103068 I believe him, especially if he's in the US. Anyone that walks these days is looked upon in suspect because of NPC culture

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:34:35 2021 No.18103100

>>18103067
I usually went with family. I wouldn’t recommend reading while hunting though unless you’re on a kindle or something. Anyway, I don’t know why but I just don’t like it anymore. I never did honestly. I just used to pretend like I did because I didn’t have anything of my own and wanted the people I hunted with to like me.

>>18103068
I’m not lying. I live in a stereotypical American suburb. It’s strange to see walkers, especially lone walkers, especially especially lone young male walkers.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:39:48 2021 No.18103145

>>18103100
>I usually went with family.
Do you think part of our problem is social withdrawal?

>I’m not lying. I live in a stereotypical American suburb. It’s strange to see walkers, especially lone walkers, especially especially lone young male walkers.
Grew up in exactly the same type of suburb and can confirm. Car culture is prevalent in America to the point that anyone walking is considered suspect. Even worse in small cities.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:44:01 2021 No.18103164

>>18103145
>Do you think part of our problem is social withdrawal?
No. I do spend almost all of my time alone now and when I do see my family, they just want to do those things I mentioned but I sincerely am not interested, and really never was. I’ll spare you the details but I tried to a project an image of my likes and dislikes for a long time so they’d like me and I don’t want to do that anymore.

> Even worse in small cities.
It’s probably worse than you imagine. I am in a suburb smack dab in farm country. There’s no city anywhere. It’s just farms around suburban core.

Anonymous Sat Apr 24 15:49:56 2021 No.18103202

>>18103164
>image of my likes and dislikes for a long time so they’d like me and I don’t want to do that anymore.
I can understand that. Assuming it has to do with acceptance. Sometimes, I fear that I can't be around others, because I am not strongly anything. I read a lot, I program, but all of that feels removed. I do nothing in my life to contribute to some layer of personality.

>It’s probably worse than you imagine. I am in a suburb smack dab in farm country. There’s no city anywhere. It’s just farms around suburban core.
I grew up in a suburb of a large city and now live in a suburb surrounded by farm country. There aren't even sidewalks here so walking gets you an automatic glare

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 16:25:50 2021 No.18103380 >>18101195 Thought this was going to be Yolandi https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q77YBmtd2Rw

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 16:26:39 2021 No.18103382 >>18103202 We at least have sidewalks. That’s pretty extreme. You planning on moving?

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 19:27:07 2021 No.18104581 >>18103382 No, I prefer to live in a less densely populated area. Peace of mind

>>	Anonymous Sat Apr 24 20:02:45 2021 No.18104786 >>18102780 same.

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