write whats on your mind

[Anonymous No.17985726]

[Anonymous No.17985732]

Tac lights are weird.

[Anonymous No.17985744]

>>17985726
I wan't picrel so bad

[Anonymous No.17985748]

i hope my chink shitcoin does a 40x and i can retire

[Anonymous No.17985754]

>>17985744
very weird.

[Anonymous No.17985757]

>>17985726
It wasn't supposed to be a documentary.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ICRCmFVeShs

[Anonymous No.17985819]

was bpdgod actually a groundbreaking online entity? or just an annoying schizo tran? What's the difference?

>>17985754
people feel different things than you do

[Anonymous No.17985820]

>>17985726
I think it’s time for me to concede and finally say that vtubers are here to stay and will be the next step in anime and entertainment. Perhaps, hopefully, we will have /lit/ vtubers so the next generation will have a reason to read books. As well as religious vtubers so our faith of god will remain with us.

[Anonymous No.17985834]

>>17985754
https://youtu.be/OMzWwlMqY0c?t=28 sooo cute

[Anonymous No.17985851]

>>17985819
>bpdgod
Are there any news or new accounts by this person?
>annoying schizo tran
I mean many things were downright pseudointellectual and wrong. The hardcore lookism was also kind of weird. But it was very interesting like a precursor to a cult or something. I was immediately fascinated by the fact that she put her alleged neanderthal dna percentage in the twitter bio.

[Anonymous No.17985864]

>>17985820
Dude nobody cares about vtubers. You guys and zoomers just inhabit this online reality where nothing else exists. Pokimane has 6.5M subscribers and has been around for 7 years. Almost no one IRL knows who she is. Yeah, they’re probably here to stay but simply put, “who tf cares?” As for the /lit/ vtubers, well that’s doubtful but look, /lit/ was competing with all kinds of other media long before vtubers.

[Anonymous No.17985888]

>>17985864
>Pokimane has 6.5M subscribers and has been around for 7 years.
And she went and got herself a vtuber rig or whatever, because she was being decimated by other female vtubers.

>>17985864
>As for the /lit/ vtubers, well that’s doubtful but look, /lit/ was competing with all kinds of other media long before vtubers.
There's actually, already some /lit/ vtubers out there. So literature is safe for now.

[Anonymous No.17985891]

>>17985820
>religious vtubers
I've never thought that this concept would enter my mind but now I really want to see it.

[Anonymous No.17985925]

>>17985851
i believe miya moved on to another twitter account but it's like a trad christian larp account or something.
i don't agree with most of what they were on about, but the execution of bpdgod's presence really drew me in.

[Anonymous No.17986014]

>>17985891
There's one I can think of, Prayers From Abigail. She's a Lutheran, and a real sweetheart. She almost has a thousand subs.

[Anonymous No.17986023]

>>17985888
It would be interesting to hear about things from their perspective, like how it is to inhabit a virtual identity for a living, how much time and effort it really takes, what it’s like completely hiding your work from your real life. I wonder if they get attached to their virtual selves like the fans do or like how certain people get attached to anime characters.

[Anonymous No.17986101]

>>17985748
LTO? I've given up on shitcoin swinging myself, now I just hold LTO, farm CAKE, and do leveraged trading on Binance from a signals group. Gets tiring keeping track of what is and isn't a pajeet scam on /biz/, I hope you make it anon, soon enough we'll both have the freedom to read all day and drink fine whiskeys
>>17985819
Link to this bpdgod? Sounds mildly interesting if only to laugh at VWankers

[Anonymous No.17986133]

>spent life p[laying videogames and eating too much junk food not developing any skills or physical ability, then later doing drugs until my anxiety issues were exacerbated until i couldn't do most drugs anymore and was a wreck, then spent my 9 years as an adult mostly NEETing
>mfw the economy is almost certainly going to collapse here soon and I am already physically and mentally broken and completely useless as a human being and have no assets or savings

[Anonymous No.17986144]

I need to get a job but i dont want to.

[Anonymous No.17986147]

>>17986133
and yet all of that exists within the same realm as a little hike in the woods

[Anonymous No.17986260]

>>17986144
I want to quit my job, or at the very least go to part time.

[Anonymous No.17986353]

Some girls in uni submitted half-done works and have got nearly perfect grades. My work is still awaiting reviews. I don't know how I'll react if I have the same grade as them, I've put twice or thrice the efforts they put in my scientific writing, I literally did my best.

[Anonymous No.17986357]

>>17986133
Are you german?

[Anonymous No.17986397]

>>17986357
Canadian

[Anonymous No.17986452]

>>17986133
What kind of drugs were you into anon?

[Anonymous No.17986465]

>>17986260
Atleast you're able to get a job.

[Anonymous No.17986580]

>>17986452
PCP, Viagra, and internet pornography.

[Anonymous No.17986587]

>>17985726
Hentai used to be good. I'm convinced everything past-2010 is absolute shit, it isn't the lower production value, but just how everything is structured.

Modern hentai has no tone or characters, it is boring. With tone I mean, I just look at any hentai from 90-05 these hentais have a tone. Most of them don't take themselves too seriously as many of them have wacky tone shift during the middle of something horrible happening (La Blue Girl), while others focus on the horror (Kurohime), or experiment with something things (Bizarro Cage).

More importantly, they used to have a beginning, middle, and end. Half the modern hentais begin mid-rape and by the end, nothing has changed.
>"why complain? it just porn, don't think about, fucking retard"
It is a huge disservice to call hentai just porn. Porn is just people fucking, there is no fucking hentai because it isn't real, it is drawn, it has more common with regular anime than porn, it just a special type of anime. So, if you are going to waste manpower in animating it, I expect it to offer something that porn doesn't and post-2010 doesn't.
So, why do I prefer Ikusame Otome Valkyrie over any Blacked video? Because it has structure, characters, and setting.

Then there are characters of post-2010 anime, who all have no personality, "oh, no, no don't rape, nooooo!" and then they make ahegao face.
>"But you can't have personality within 15 minute shorts"
You can, but it actually requires effort, in Dragon Rider Lydia demonstrates more personality within the first 2 minutes of her screentime than most post-2010 hentai heroines do in 15 min.

That is all without mentioning the animation, hentai used to be really expressive was composed of small details that composed the complete picture of the gravity of the scene, but why do that, when you can just a slap a ahegao face.

[Anonymous No.17986637]

I am fond of Melissa McCarthy. I wonder if it was a decisively good career move to stay fat. it probably was, she may not have been pretty enough to play skinny roles but as a niche goofy fatty she kept finding work. And I like her, I think she's a good comedic performer.

[Anonymous No.17986667]

The recluse doomer incels of 4chan are really obsessed with e-thots and pop culture. Just let it go for fuck's sake.

[Anonymous No.17986679]

>>17986353
Complain to the higher-ups and fuck your professor's shit up

[Anonymous No.17986724]

>>17986452
nothing hardcore, just a shitload of weed and psychedelics, as well as alchohol and tobacco of course

[Anonymous No.17986856]

>>17986724
>thinking you fucked yourself up with the most standard drugs
Bruh

[Anonymous No.17986868]

>>17986465
That’s true but there’s something torturous about outwardly appearing normal enough to function in normieville but inwardly being such a dysfunctional husk that waking life is like a square peg being jammed into a round hole.

[Anonymous No.17986887]

>>17986856
you can fuck yourself up with weed alone if you got the genes for it

[Anonymous No.17986915]

>>17986133
that's why adults to tell you doing drugs all day is bad.

[Anonymous No.17986988]

Jimmy Dore is making me happy lately, fuck these fucking sellout politicos, our entire culture has forgotten how to put pressure on politicians and the average person thinks "politics" is some enclosed domain where you just hope the big Government Daddies will get you what you want from the Society store

Career politicians are LIVING GARBAGE, worthless fucking bottom of the garbage pile scum in EVERY ERA, they are pieces of shit and need to be constantly pressured and terrorized by their constituency to keep them honest and force them to represent their real interests. God bless this rabble rousing angry man

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_HZZ-oRoWjQ

[Anonymous No.17987070]

Watching the UK slowly falling down to burger level is so funny. Doesn’t feel so good does it you smug assholes? If they actually do significant cuts to the NHS Britain will have nothing left. Scotland and or Northern Ireland leaving would be the cherry on top.

[Anonymous No.17987100]

>>17987070
less than 100 years after being the biggest empire in history

[Anonymous No.17987114]

>>17987100
>>17987070
>Here is a decent, ordinary fellow Englishman, who in broad daylight in my own town says to me, his Member of Parliament, that the country will not be worth living in for his children. I simply do not have the right to shrug my shoulders and think about something else. What he is saying, thousands and hundreds of thousands are saying and thinking – not throughout Great Britain, perhaps, but in the areas that are already undergoing the total transformation to which there is no parallel in a thousand years of English history. We must be mad, literally mad, as a nation to be permitting the annual inflow of some 50,000 dependents, who are for the most part the material of the future growth of the immigrant descended population. It is like watching a nation busily engaged in heaping up its own funeral pyre. So insane are we that we actually permit unmarried persons to immigrate for the purpose of founding a family with spouses and fiancées whom they have never seen.

[Anonymous No.17987128]

>>17987114
>now the polish caused brexit
cmon bruh

[Anonymous No.17987130]

>>17986353
why do you care about what they got or the quality of their papers? mind your business. if your grade isn't what you think you personally deserve (without judging it by any other metric) then talk to your prof about it. in the long run, you're just going to create unnecessary stress and drama for yourself by involving yourself in things that don't affect you

[Anonymous No.17987132]

>>17987114
>Here is a decent, ordinary fellow Englishman, who in broad daylight in my own town says to me, his Member of Parliament, that the country will not be worth living in for his children. I simply do not have the right to shrug my shoulders and think about something else. What he is saying, thousands and hundreds of thousands are saying and thinking – not throughout Great Britain, perhaps, but in the areas that are already undergoing the total transformation to which there is no parallel in a thousand years of English history. We must be mad, literally mad, as a nation to be permitting the annual inflow of some 50,000 dependents, who are for the most part the material of the future growth of the immigrant descended population. It is like watching a nation busily engaged in heaping up its own funeral pyre. So insane are we that we actually permit unmarried persons to immigrate for the purpose of founding a family with spouses and fiancées whom they have never seen.
Who said that?

[Anonymous No.17987153]

>>17987132
Powell's rivers of blood speech. Ruined his career.

[Anonymous No.17987205]

>>17987153
I remember Peter Hitchens echoing a similar sentiment. Basically telling young people to leave. He doesn't put it in the same terms but one can read between the lines a little.

[Anonymous No.17987217]

>>17987205
I wonder if he'll ever go off the rails. Pic related certainly didn't.

[Anonymous No.17987381]

>>17986868
You could change your mind at any time but love feeling like a husk because you think it makes you a man against the world

[Anonymous No.17987434]

>>17985820
It's not all that bad. The one I favor is an esl and doesn't seem too keen on reading...but reads social media all day. I think if someone just tossed her a kindle and taped a Twitter logo on top of it she'd get into reading.
In the end it's just a streamer with a face rig. They're fun to listen to.

[Anonymous No.17987658]

>>17987434
>In the end it's just a streamer with a face rig. They're fun to listen to.
this. I had trouble enjoying the whole thing until I realized they were basically normal (if often surprisingly talented) entertainers with some gimmicks

[Anonymous No.17987679]

>>17987434
>>17987658
vtube faggots are back

[Anonymous No.17987712]

Gonna kinda tangent while its on my mind now but a streaming vtuber rig on the high end only cost like 5k which is pocket change and the return on investment is pretty high but my current week is 40+ hours full time work, days off writing/promoting with my nights slight goof off watch YouTube time with multitasking mixed in.
It would be cool to promote my books after a livestream but if i went corporate I don't think they're keen on that but if I went indie I wouldn't have the managerial support. (I should probably hire an agent for my books too...) Good thing stocks are hands off, because I feel like I'm hitting a wall with how hard i can work.
I need more hours in a day.

[Anonymous No.17987871]

tired of my thoughts. no forest, only trees.

[Anonymous No.17987888]

>It's an another "main character's brother is extremely drunk and brings another random whore in his room while the main character and his parents are still in the house and all three are exasperated for various reasons" chapter of My Diary, desu

[Anonymous No.17987896]

>>17986667
Provide some meaningful alternatives and I'll use your advice

[Anonymous No.17987933]

>>17986133
>mfw the economy is almost certainly going to collapse here soon
Things seem to have gotten better since March and the vaccine is rolling out, things are opening up, etc. Why do you think things will get worse

[Anonymous No.17987970]

>>17987933
Not him but the entire economy is fake. Real growth stopped 50 years ago and the entire financial sector is just making shit up. Capitalism has to invade new territories constantly to make up for its constant state of crisis, so the western capitalist economies turned themselves into invasive regimes that go and financially terrorize small countries until they capitulate, then suck the capital out of them in a vassal relationship. This can only go on so long, and on top of that it has hit a bunch of walls. A depression really should have happened in the 90s if anyone was paying attention but the fact that it didn't happen in 2008 is a testament to how little anything makes sense or matters, there is no tangible relation to real production or consumption anymore, the whole thing is smoke and mirrors. But even the smoke and mirrors game is about to run out. A truly massive depression is coming and the elites are scared so they are doing everything they can to shift into some kind of controlled situation where they can absorb the shocks of the lower classes freaking the fuck out and starving to death while taking minimal damage themselves.

[Anonymous No.17987995]

>>17985726
This culture isn't just sick, it's honestly unsalvageable. There's nowhere and no niche i or anyone else can carve out that isn't hell and all the work i can try to do to fix it will be overwritten by a tyrannical state and institution, who will subject me to whatever pathological marketing propaganda they want. There is no home. There is no community. There are no people. This world is a desert. Love was never real, and i am alone, and my pain is unimportant. There is no way for a decent human to live amongst this world. The bible was right. Jesus failed. And in his absence we pretend to care. But now even that we feel we do not care anymore. Now people are simply monsters to eachother. That meaningless abyss, and in perceiving it, i feel encouraged to be the same and inflict my selfish cruelty on the world like all these parasitic types as well. In some sense it feels like a justice, fair. A fair game where we're all awful. A consolation since i cannot demand decency from other people. I guess i'm really starting to get it. The words. In a way i didn't realize. I thought i realized it. But i didn't. Until now. Who knows. Maybe i still don't.

[Anonymous No.17987998]

>>17987381
I don’t really know what else to say other than I just profoundly disagree.

[Anonymous No.17988007]

>>17987070
And which European country are from, friend? French? I’m sure you’re quite proud of Paris. German? Italian? Swedish? These countries have faded into irrelevancy. They’re not burger tier because they’re basically overdeveloped retirement homes and museums.

[Anonymous No.17988030]

>>17987995
>There's nowhere and no niche i or anyone else can carve out that isn't hell
Same as it ever was

>>17987998
You would

[Anonymous No.17988092]

I'm gonna keep it vague for obvious reasons, but I've adjusted my investments with the mindset I hold and done pretty well on it.
We all know how things are now. Uprooted people are going to seek new grounds to fly to. I believe in the end it's going to be space which will need a lot of intelligent and wealthy settlers to pull off.

[Anonymous No.17988173]

(1/2)
I am first awakened by a knock on the door. All while hearing what seems to be a call between a relative and my father. Afternoon weather, grey sky, not much sunlight in my room. I stood up but I remained indifferent towards the commotion happening outside of my room, or maybe I pretend to do so. What seems to be a supposedly serene afternoon is disturbed by these knocks on my door, which—by now—has grown relatively louder than what I have heard when I first woke up. Each instance—as I have observed—is a set of three knocks before a short pause followed by another set of knocks. These knocks makes me anxious, hearing it from my bed brings me displeasure and makes me ask that whoever is behind these knocks has an ill-intent.
By now, I could've jumped from my window, escaping whatever is that that awaits me following these knocks, or I could just answer the door since they have been knocking for so long that it gives me an impression that it is something of urgency, something that needs me.
All of a sudden, a knock so strong that I've thought that it shook my whole room diverted my attention from my thoughts. Followed by a period of silence, my door is then kicked down. What guesswork I had done previously about the motives for these knocks are further narrowed down—they are out to get me.
Stood on my doorway are two burly men whose heads are leveled with the uppermost hinges of the doorframe. Both of them wearing shades, a cap, a chaleco, and both of them possess a neutral expression. "Are they here to sexually violate me?". Arms crossed, they broke their stance and proceeded to approach me. Both of them taking a hold of either one of my foot, then they quickly pulled me from my bed.
"Have I had any unpaid debts?" I asked myself. Then finally, seeing my aunt in front of the doorway, it has dawned upon me that all this was to make me pay for what I did last evening—melting the corningware lid

[Anonymous No.17988184]

>>17988173
(2/2)
The men dragged me from my room and towards my dyke of an aunt. It is only then that I have noticed that I cannot feel both of my legs, if anything, they are heavy! I have also noticed that there is this sharp pain around my lower back. "Have I hit my lower back!?". It looks like I did and it looks like the men intended to do so when they pinned down both of my arms not a care about my legs. My aunt then nodded to the bearded man on my right. Noticing a bulge in one of his pockets he pulled out a smartphone. On it is a call voice call from my father. The man knelt while maintaining one of his foot on my forearm, making a quick swipe on his phone he then placed his phone a few centimeters from my face. I was then blown away by the barrage of slurs coming from my father, somewhat indecipherable, I could still recognize what slurs is he using by how crisp he pronounces it. From where I am lying, he seems rather angry about my destructive misdemeanor. Telling me how it was expensive, how it was bought after years of hard work, how it was...yada yada.
Pissed him off, told him that he values material objects more than his kinsmen. I must've closed my eyes out of anger since when I was finished about quarreling with my father, the call had already ended. The bearded man stood up and my aunt pulled something behind her back. It's the porcelainware with the melted lid. The men, further pushing their feet agaisnt my arms is enough for me to realize that I am up for a beating.

I closed my eyes

I braced my whole body

Then, I clenched my teeth

Aches of varying degree, sharp pangs of pain, numbness here and there
I had intended to count how many times was I hit with the porcelainware before it breaks but I had lost count after twenty-one. To my surprise, the porcelainware was still intact when my aunt was finished. Nonetheless, it left me as a wreck. My whole body was pumped, bruised all over. Tightness in my calf, burning pain in all of my joints. It made me wondered why my aunt didn't hit my head for once, why didn't she finished me? Only I had realized what was to come next when I had noticed that there are no longer any pressure on any of my arms. What feet was standing on my arms was replaced by loosened belts, by worn, crumpled pants—both men are in their underwear. This is too much.
All this could've been prevented if I had only read the warnings under the rubber lid. If I had not decided to bake some eggs last night. If I only had overcame the hunger the night before

[Anonymous No.17988230]

>>17988030
>You would
Correct. I would and I do.

[Anonymous No.17988262]

I think I made a mistake reconnecting with my dad. Now, all he does is call me and tell me to come over so he can give me advice or else he calls me to tell me “It’s not good to be home alone all the time”. Like gee thanks Dad. I’m not sure what else you think life is like for a single guy with a shit job out in the country. Maybe if you had been there to give me advice when I was 16, I wouldn’t have ended up a socially awkward retard and deviant and maybe I’d be in a city somewhere with a half decent job. It’s awfully convenient you want to tell me how to live now jusr 10 years too late.

[Anonymous No.17988320]

>>17988262
He's happy to be able to be a dad. At a certain point in your life you realize your parents are just as fucked up as you, probably more, and you have to make a decision whether to keep blaming them forever or to forgive them (even if it's not "fair" and they "objectively" owe you more than you owe them and so on and so forth) and try to make it work. If you don't do the latter, some day you'll probably regret it. Those little moments of your mom or dad giving a shit about you, in the tiniest things, if they're at least half-decent and it's not some kind of secret evil mindfuck anyway (obviously some parents are truly beyond the pale), are important.

[Anonymous No.17988401]

>>17988320
>He's happy to be able to be a dad
The thing is, I don’t think he is. I think he just feels either guilty or lonely. To be honest, yeah, I do feel a little bit of resentment but I don’t really feel like it’s ultimately their fault or anything. I made the choices I made and that’s that. It’s more like I’m just at a point where I don’t know if I want a relationship with these people. You know? Like how much of my life do I want to spend getting lectured (bad advice) by someone who wanted nothing to do with me for over a decade?

[Anonymous No.17988437]

What will happen if I take all 30 of these 1 mg Ativan tablets?

[Anonymous No.17988462]

I feel so disconnected from my past. As if there was an inhibitant in this body before me

[Anonymous No.17988472]

What kind of faggot retard moves back to his rural little college town at the age of 26 as a single man and thinks that’s a good idea. No wonder my life has been such a boring, lonely failure and now with coronavirus, Ill he 30 before I can even leave.

[Anonymous No.17988569]

>>17988472
lol

[Anonymous No.17988584]

>>17988569
Yeah, it’s funny isn’t it. Well, it’s not so funny to me anymore. This shit is retarded. Why am I such a fucking retard?

[Anonymous No.17988592]

>>17988584
lol

[Anonymous No.17988622]

>>17988584
Eh. With tech it's not like you're that isolated. I'm turning 35 at the end of May and I'm single but I could retire right now if i wanted to live off of a thousand a month. Am I better than you? Nah. You can't judge the ending of a story while you're still writing it.

[Anonymous No.17988650]

>>17988622
Well, I’m broke and I don’t even like tech. I have no social media or anything.

[Anonymous No.17988681]

>>17987434
>The one I favor is an esl and doesn't seem too keen on reading...but reads social media all day. I think if someone just tossed her a kindle and taped a Twitter logo on top of it she'd get into reading.
What's her name? I want to see her, myself. Also, nice Kiara pic.

[Anonymous No.17988693]

I thought about testing my weight on the bar in my wardrobe to see if I could hang myself.
I'm a perfect world I could get a drop high enough to just snap my neck...

[Anonymous No.17988705]

>>17988650
I just use this site and snapchat or my phones messenger. I haven't found a practical use for social media so you're probably in better shape than you think.
You know when I went to trade school in my early 20s tuition for the year was 11,000. I thought I'd never pay it off at 10 bucks an hour. Start investing. Keep writing. Keep improving. Find work. Now I see an amount like 11,000 and think nothing of it.
Of course, I have money because I don't spend it BUT the freedom is nice. Then again I'm 35 and single and outside of my books I have no living legacy. So despite all that we are not that different you and I.
I'm just a passing shadow in the end.

[Anonymous No.17988739]

>>17988705
I just want to check out dude. Today is my 28th birthday. I’m just sick of all this stupid shit and my stupid self and I’m fucking tired. Thanks for trying to help me.

[Anonymous No.17988767]

>>17988681
LOL it is Kiara. Her mother tongue is German and she's an English/Japanese secondary. I used to be really active trying to promote her work. She's a hard worker...but she puts out so much content I can't keep up. I think to get current I would need to watch about 40 hours of content and I only have max 20 hours of free time a week. I can't keep up.
But okay listen so I watch the first hour of her Q and A right? Right out the gate she's like I DON'T READ DON'T WRITE A STORY FOR ME (N-Not that..the idea...I mean...) I was like first off, you read the brothers Grimm fairytales in German and your debut was a fucking storybook. Second off you read social media, then read your past diaries, and you learned three languages...to read.
I think it might be that she's just not confident using English for heavy novel type reading but you just need to practice with it.
Just sit her down and make her watch that old PBS Reading Rainbow TV show that used to come on...end tangent.

[Anonymous No.17988775]

i just woke up. i will spend the day reading. i wont check lit untill the end of the day.

[Anonymous No.17988808]

>>17985726
I'm going to become a translator a couple years down the line so I figured I might as well translate one of pic related's short stories for practice and post it here. Keep an eye out, and I'm sorry in advance if it sounds wooden or awkward.

[Anonymous No.17988839]

>>17988808
I respect it. I've wanted to translate my own works into other languages but even if I did I would still be unable to localize the works. It's a very valuable skill.

[Anonymous No.17988857]

i don't have anything to lose so i can punch a woman in the stomach if i feel like it

[Anonymous No.17988862]

>>17985726
I hate my life
I hate my life
I hate my life
I hate my life
I hate my life
I hate my life

[Anonymous No.17988876]

>>17988472
Kek. I did the same thing when I was 22 and still here. Gonna be 25 years old a month from now. But it's not all bad. What other choice did I had? Suicide?

[Anonymous No.17988880]

>>17988839
Thanks. The story I've chosen is pretty short but there's a lot of hard choices to make because of the terseness and the ways the grammar needs to be adapted. Even the title, "Fürdés", is a bit of a challenge, because it is used in the sense of taking a dip in a lake, but "The Dip" sounds like some sort of tobacco brand, and "Bathing" evokes the image of an indoors bathtub. I'll need to consider what sounds good and also makes sense.

[Anonymous No.17988890]

gonna create something called "Assault Tourism" where i fly people to jurisdictions where simple assault is not a felony so they can punch one stranger on the street pay their fine and fly home

[Anonymous No.17988986]

>>17988876
25 is still young enough. Leave as soon as possible.

[Anonymous No.17988997]

>>17987896
Uhh, books and literature maybe?

[Anonymous No.17989023]

>>17988997
I like to think I'm not the only author here, and though often we're built on the spines of those that came before us, it really isn't that bad for us to have a muse.

[Anonymous No.17989039]

I'm 20 and begining to bald. I won't shave my head though, I plan to either use a wig, or embrace it and pull the Baudelaire cut.

[Anonymous No.17989061]

>>17989039
Get on finasteride/dutasteridea, minoxidil, and ketoconazole.

[Anonymous No.17989155]

>>17989023
Your muses are twitch streamers and pop stars?

[Anonymous No.17989164]

>>17989155
yours aren't?

[Anonymous No.17989183]

>>17988767
Oh sorry for my misunderstanding. Kiara is good. I wish all of EN did read alongs like Ina did with Spice and Wolf.

[Anonymous No.17989185]

>>17989155
Ey it's slim pickings these days. Gotta find inspiration where you can get it.

[Anonymous No.17989213]

>>17989183
It's okay. The holy grail would be getting a few chapters of my books read on stream but my books springboard heavily off of religion and I want to write about 700 more pages to complete my current works before I really splurge on advertising. If I was randomly asked...now...(not gonna happen but it's a dream).

[Anonymous No.17989236]

>>17986667
but i think ethots deserve death

[Anonymous No.17989263]

>>17989236
obsessed

[Anonymous No.17989268]

I want my fiancee back.

[Anonymous No.17989284]

>>17987130
shut the fuck up you sniveling woman-worshipper. what kind of absolutely pathetic faggot decides to write apologetics for sexual favoritism on the internet, for free?
>inb4 have sex
no thanks, i would rather read much more interesting papers than a pair of diversity bimbos could ever hope to write

[Anonymous No.17989319]

>>17989061
I have been on minoxidil for 6 months, haven't seen much result yet, but hopefully it will help.
It might be genetic though.

[Anonymous No.17989340]

>>17989284
Have fun stirring the shitpot and getting everyone involved to hate you, it'll be great for your education I'm sure

[Anonymous No.17989341]

>>17989319
Minoxidil alone doesn’t work. It can stimulate growth but if you don’t stop what’s causing the loss, it’s a temporary fix at best. Finasteride/dutasteride is the staple for hair loss.

[Anonymous No.17989351]

>>17989340
if you don't hate bad things then you yourself are bad

[Anonymous No.17989360]

I think it’s over for me. Thank you for giving me a place to spend my time and vent and people who understand me to talk to over these past few years when I’ve been at my loneliest and most confused. Some of you really did like books as much as I did. I wish you all the best.

[Anonymous No.17989361]

I want stimulants. Someone give me speed. I'm only better with it, and the crash just feel like how I normally do, depressed and tired without a noticeable difference.

[Anonymous No.17989362]

[Anonymous No.17989382]

>>17989360
Just take your meds.

[Anonymous No.17989405]

>>17985726
thinkign about Ame's feet

[Anonymous No.17989438]

>>17989382
Don’t have any meds. Don’t need them. I’m totally lucid. I’m just thinking I’m finished is all.

[Anonymous No.17989445]

>>17989438
Then just do it, instead of posting it.

[Anonymous No.17989469]

>>17989360
i hope you find happiness and a reason to live. but failing that, i hope you find peace

[Anonymous No.17989554]

>>17989438
Someone else can begin where you finished. Let yourself become that person.

[Anonymous No.17989600]

>>17989351
Honestly I don't care what you do, but if you go down this path it's just gonna cause problems for you

[Anonymous No.17989850]

The tree is growing. I like the tree. Is time to go to Asia and reap the seeds, for I am the Captain Morganson and I'll conquer them.

[Anonymous No.17990157]

>>17988890
is everyone just here for themselves? no one's even gonna react to this fantastic idea? i'm not mad i'm just surprised. maybe anyone who saw it is stealing it right now.

[Anonymous No.17990280]

>First person action story with respawns
>if MC (or a couple other people) die, they get revived as they were at certain save points
>From MC's perspective, the time between the save point and waking up post death doesn't exist
>He just steps out of the save point machine a week later than intended
>Has to detective his own murder

This isn't actually complicted, right? People coming back from the dead seems confusing at a glance but this is actually really straightforward for a reader... right?

[Anonymous No.17990289]

>>17990280
isn't there already a movie of that

[Anonymous No.17990331]

i have about two months to study for the most important exam in my entire life. if i don't succeed in it i will have no opportunity to enter university again (non-american). the problem is i've never studied seriously in my entire life, nor have i ever made a schedule and stuck to it. what the fuck do i do ? i feel like i'm running straight towards a brick wall and i don't know how to press the brakes

[Anonymous No.17990337]

>>17990331
S. Korean?

[Anonymous No.17990366]

In a few minutes it will be 5 in the morning and maybe I'll be able to sleep, maybe not. Ultimately it does not matter if I sleep at 5 am or 5 pm as I'm trapped inside a recurring series of events, unable to break free and pursue an unrealised goal or find a woman to call my own. Tomorrow will be no different nor the day after.
I am trapped.

[Anonymous No.17990393]

Through the blind I see
Another day welcomes me
Hopefully my last

[Anonymous No.17990504]

My girlfriend loves me deeply and I don't know why I can't feel the same. I care about her very much but if I love her I feel no satisfaction in that love. Some distant part of me is glad to hear her and see her and can feel her warmth and be at ease. I'm dry.

And I really hope I don't have Crohn's disease.

[Anonymous No.17990583]

>>17989554
I would but I don’t think I can. Thanks anyway, anon. I always appreciate talking to you guys, well...some of you guys.

[Anonymous No.17990870]

Im losing my mind. Im losing my mind. Im losing my mind and Ill have it no other way.

[Anonymous No.17990925]

Im so afraid of moving out of parents place and facing the world that i remain neet. If i dont have 100% bulletproof plan then im not doing anything.

[Anonymous No.17990932]

I somehow contracted the coof. I don't feel anything, though. No coughing, no fever, no aches. I guess I kind of have the sniffles, but not really any worse than I usually get in early spring.

[Anonymous No.17991050]

Been really wrestling with the thought of just becoming an hero

[Anonymous No.17991102]

Anyone else into vaporwave here?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7EvILu6GAbk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vSiNijLmbxo

Nigger, I know it's just a bunch of editing of music someone already did and whatever, but it totally subverts the original material and brings out a mysterious and uncanny valley feeling. The style is more than a "criticism of capitalism" bullshit that soulless materialist Marxists who appropriate art for their pathetic political cult will tell you.

As for the feelings it brings out, it's the musical equivalent of low poly resolution, or more generally the feeling of an "unreachableness" or "incompleteness", like a distant landscape in the horizon that you can never reach no matter how far you run toward it. 'low poly resolution' has this feeling as well, doesn't it? An incompleteness of a "true" form. We are also often told that the aesthetic of vaporwave brings out nostalgia, but what more is nostalgia than the brain trying to reconstruct a severely faded memory? There in also lies an incompleteness and unreachableness. Anyways, I really like this stuff. It communicates something profound to me.

[Anonymous No.17991258]

I don't even feel horny anymore. Just empty.

[Anonymous No.17991265]

>>17991050
Same, except I'm less wrestling over whether to do so and more about when.

[Anonymous No.17991681]

You ever noticed black people repeat themselves a lot? I'm listening to an argument outside of some black guy yelling to a girl "Always calling me niggers and shit bro" for 20 minutes straight.

[Anonymous No.17991686]

I have significantly improved my life but I'm still sad all the time

[Anonymous No.17991692]

The thing is
is that I
I love you
love you so
so very much

[Anonymous No.17991768]

>>17991102
Love vapor, been listening to it almost exclusively last 5 years.

[Anonymous No.17991793]

>>17991258
Welcome to seven years ago, my brother. I'm suffering a sort of plague that prevents me from enjoying anyone else's company, so not only is it difficult to feel horny, but I can hardly tolerate platonic friendships. I think something fucked up during my pubescent development, blocking my potential ability to give a shit about any sort of relationship. I can masturbate without much issue, but I am pretty sure I always jostle my cock first to get the blood flowing before I start watching porn, so I think I might not actually be too into a lot of porn as much as I'm just forcing myself to go through the motions. I wish desperately that I could tolerate other people, so that I might adequately feign a romantic relationship. At the very least, I've recently discovered I'm really into chubby girls, so my standards may have lowered themselves, relatively speaking, so maybe I can pretend I'm more sufficiently capable of enjoying easily accessible sex.
Sorry to hijack your post with my own tirade; I'm terribly drunk.

[Anonymous No.17991888]

Im completely ignorant about the real issues regarding my life.

[Anonymous No.17991918]

>heh I like being alone it doesn't bother me
>spend my entire 20s with this mindset building no relationships at all
>almost 30 and most of my family is dead so my life consists of talking to no one except small talk at work
Bros I didn't think being alone would be this bad...

[Anonymous No.17991942]

>>17990280
heaven sent on doctor who

[Anonymous No.17991967]

>>17985744
you will never be a woman

[Anonymous No.17991981]

>>17985726
I used random.org to generate six numbers for lottery
If I don't win I'm probably going to an hero

[Anonymous No.17991994]

>>17991981
>tfw won 20k on the lottery once
Still felt cucked because even though its more than most people will ever win it wasn't a 'life changing' sum

[Anonymous No.17992001]

>>17991994
the most I've ever won was 27 PLN on a scratch card

[Anonymous No.17992128]

I love girls, they're so cute and loveable.

[Anonymous No.17992312]

I was outside today and maybe 5% of people were wearing masks. Why are americans so cucked on this point?

[Anonymous No.17992348]

>>17991967
But I would always pass in a animegao kigumuri suit
That said I love being a man, its just a hobby

[Anonymous No.17992355]

>>17992348
a gay hobby

[Anonymous No.17992384]

>>17992128
cringe and bluepilled

[Anonymous No.17992405]

>>17991981
sounds like my plan desu

[Anonymous No.17992545]

Cock, if not also balls and gooch.

[Anonymous No.17992583]

butt butt butt butt butt butt butt

holiooooooooooooooo

[Anonymous No.17992597]

I feel like all my decisions were influenced by others and i sort of gave in because i didnt know what i want at that moment. Now that i have all the freedom to choose a path, i dont know what to do. Im just waiting for something and i have no idea what it is except "i'll what it is once i see it". Complete disconnection from myself.

[Anonymous No.17992656]

i drank one of those energy drinks with 300mg of caffeine and then foolishly browsed a political website, now i have chest pain lol that's what i get.

[Anonymous No.17992660]

How does this board get worse every week? The free falling is astonishing.

[Anonymous No.17992662]

>>17992660
it's all the religion guys that showed up here for whatever reason

[Anonymous No.17992775]

>>17988739
Happy Birthday anon! Don't get too stressed I'm sure things aren't all bad... and if they truly are well I hope they start to get at least a little better soon. But today is your day so go do something you like, perhaps read something you're fond of? Even if it all feels terrible right now you owe it to yourself to go try and get some enjoyment out of the day. So go! Right now please!
I truly hope you do get up and do something you're fond of and even more so I hope you enjoy it. That's all I really got to say....

And to anyone else who is reading this and thinking of shit-posting about it well EAT SHIT YOU MILQUE-TOAST MID-WIT FAGGOT!!!

Happy Birthday again anon, hope you enjoy it! :)

[Anonymous No.17992817]

alice glass and ritual death
the usual

[Anonymous No.17993087]

Western women are beyond salvation, how are you even supposed to fall in love with one?

[Anonymous No.17993203]

>>17993087
I know that chick lol

[Anonymous No.17993213]

>>17986988
>Jimmy Dore
how does the grift feel

[Anonymous No.17993224]

>>17991994
>20k not life changing
i think you're just shit with money

[Anonymous No.17993232]

>>17993203
name?

[Anonymous No.17993251]

>>17993087
Maybe she was on her knees cleaning the bathroom or at her boyfriend’s place

[Anonymous No.17993315]

Jihad against processed foods.
Much to learn.

[Anonymous No.17993595]

>>17985726
I will in all likelihood be getting an offer for med school this year. I'm going to willingly squander everything to be a top surgeon. There's nothing that mediocrity has to offer. I'll only find consolation in my work, the Blues and the Lord.

[Anonymous No.17993670]

>>17993595
If you feel like that's what you want, then good for you!

[Anonymous No.17993906]

>>17986679
I won't. Already went through that shit before and it bore no fruits, 'I can't change the grades since people will be disappointed and there's no perfect works so I can't give you more' and yadda yadda but thanks mang
>>17987130
I don't really care about what they got but well-placed efforts should be rewarded, the system shouldn't fail anyone. If you meet expectations, it's normal to expect as much. About the quality of the papers of everyone, I care because it's how you become better. There are tips and tricks you can gain from observing other people that did well, that are worth much more than a few words of advice.

It'll hurt them in the long run, too. If you miscalculate something and your reasoning is wrong, you shouldn't have the points. If you do, you're tricked into believing you did great. Try to work with someone that has never been proved wrong and tell that person she's wrong, most of the times they're a pain in the ass to work with.

[Anonymous No.17993917]

I reallly REALLY hate /leftypol/

[Anonymous No.17993976]

>>17990280
It's the exact plot of Altered Carbon, except it's not the MC that does that. It's not confusing.
>>17993906
> there are*
> tell that person they're wrong*
Getting tired.

[Anonymous No.17993989]

>>17993917
it's actually worse than /pol/

[Anonymous No.17994007]

>>17993989
God, I hate /pol/

[Anonymous No.17994029]

I don't know why, but I just have too much energy today. I can't focus properly on reading, but at least I got housework and other stuff done.

[Anonymous No.17994030]

>>17994007
>>17993917
What's with all this complaining? If you hate it just don't browse it and ignore /pol/ posts on other boards. I have never browsed /pol/ and simply ignore all /pol/ posts and threads that I come across everywhere else.

[Anonymous No.17994032]

>>17994030
They keep making shit threads on /lit/ so its hard to ignore.

[Anonymous No.17994091]

>>17992817
wow blast from like 2011

[Anonymous No.17994101]

>>17994032
There are people deliberately using bots to degrade the quality of the board. A few earnest /pol/ users is nothing compared to the damage these bots are doing, /pol/ itself is filled with these same bots if you were unaware. Here is a malfunctioning bot post from the last Write Whats on Your Mind thread that is seemingly linking to other posts it made.


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Anonymous 04/09/21(Fri)20:33:32 No.17983253▶>>17983258 (Cross-thread) (Dead) >>17983263 (Cross-thread) >>17983328 (Cross-thread)
What are some books?
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Anonymous 04/09/21(Fri)20:34:57 No.17983256▶>>17983304 (Cross-thread) (Dead) >>17983328 (Cross-thread)
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I breathe thru my mouth. Muhammad is a paedophile
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PERSEY UBOMPA, THE UNVANQUISHABLE OUTLAW 04/09/21(Fri)20:35:38 No.17983258▶>>17983323 (Cross-thread) >>17983328 (Cross-thread)
>>17983253 (Cross-thread) (OP)
BOOKS? I SHAT ON BOOKS. YOU"RE GAY? I SHAT EVERYWHERE IN YOUR MOUTH BECAUSE I AM PERSEY UBOMPA, LORD OF THE NIGGERS, EMPEROR OF THE JEWS
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Anonymous 04/09/21(Fri)20:37:13 No.17983263▶>>17983328 (Cross-thread)
>>17983253 (Cross-thread) (OP)
Big Sneed and the Yang Gang Do Datona
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PERSEY UBOMPA, THE INFAMOUS OUTLAW 04/09/21(Fri)20:48:44 No.17983304▶>>17983328 (Cross-thread)
>>17983256 (Cross-thread)
BASED CRABNIGGER POSTER
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Anonymous 04/09/21(Fri)20:53:35 No.17983323▶
>>17983258 (Cross-thread) (Dead) (You)
take your meds schizo
>>
PERSEY UBOMPA, THE INFAMOUS OUTLAW 04/09/21(Fri)20:53:50 No.17983326▶
JANNIES ARE TRANNIES PASS IT ON
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Anonymous 04/09/21(Fri)20:54:40 No.17983328▶>>17983332 (Cross-thread) (Dead) >>17983506 (Cross-thread) (Dead)
>>17983256 (Cross-thread)
>>17983253 (Cross-thread) (OP)
>>17983258 (Cross-thread) (Dead) (You)
>>17983304 (Cross-thread) (Dead) (You)
>>17983263 (Cross-thread)
samefag fag
>>
PERSEY UBOMPA, THE INFAMOUS OUTLAW 04/09/21(Fri)20:55:49 No.17983332▶>>17983396 (Cross-thread) (Dead) >>17983506 (Cross-thread) (Dead)
>>17983328 (Cross-thread)
DO YOUR PARENTS KNOW YOU ARE GAY? OH, OKAY; OPINION DISREGARDED, FEMOID NIGGER JEW
>>
Anonymous 04/09/21(Fri)21:12:44 No.17983396▶>>17983506 (Cross-thread) (Dead)
>>17983332 (Cross-thread) (Dead) (You)
what the fuck is your problem you fucking schizo faggot???
>>
Anonymous 04/09/21(Fri)21:36:32 No.17983506▶
>>17983396 (Cross-thread) (Dead) (You)
>>17983332 (Cross-thread) (Dead) (You)
>>17983328 (Cross-thread)
samefag same fag fag nigger fag
>>
Anonymous 04/09/21(Fri)21:40:54 No.17983520▶
I JUST SHAT MYSELF

[Anonymous No.17994148]

>>17994032
You are fighting ghosts. This website is massively astroturfed with bots.

Heres the archive of the post.

>>/lit/thread/S17967228#p17985249

[Anonymous No.17994179]

>>17994032
They could even be behind you right now!

[Anonymous No.17994225]

>>17985726
why do big companies support leftism? there's the immediate tactical angle of wanting to become more attractive to leftist consumers and employees. this isn't politically balanced because obviously leftists control all media and education making leftism the "cool" thing to think, and second of all because leftists are the most politicized people of all. thus far more likely to support gillette for taking a stand against "toxic masculinity", meanwhile rightists can't be bothered to switch razors over such a trifle.

another concern is simply general exposure and image formation. if a company were to not take a leftist stance they could be promoted less in media and they could quickly end up becoming uncool. say they don't come out in favor of BLM while everyone of their competitors do. some journalist calls attention to this, he gets clicks because people love to rage, tv writers see this, form bad will towards the company and thus may refrain from mentioning it in their shows or feature it in a negative way.

yet another motivation arises from the interplay between government and private business. big companies in the west often receiving government funding, government contracts, government grants etc. these are interactions that are extremely important for them. this of course varies by industry but it certainly applies to a number of them. here we have yet another potent valve through which leftism may seep into corporations driven by rational but hidden incentives.

[Anonymous No.17994254]

>>17994225
capitalists control leftists.

[Anonymous No.17994546]

>>17985820
I have been thinking about becoming a vtuber myself. My writings do have some "young adult" appeal and I love videa but my taste in games is way off formthe typical zoomer. I also have a "to hot for Youtube" sense of humor and /g/ autism, so I would be streaming form a PeerTube instance.
If I go through with this, I would probably resemble a male version of Ina and Pekora.

[Anonymous No.17994594]

the new Doom games are the collective unconscious of men trying to manifest a champion to destroy the kali yuga

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TiFsl7CEJ9s

[Anonymous No.17994727]

>>17994546
Drop a link so we can support you.

[Anonymous No.17994988]

I just need more time, I say, all I need is some more time. I'm sobbing into the phone.

12 hours a day for three years. Didn't feel like so much at the start, but now every minute scrapes by.

I can't do it, I can't do this anymore. Everything has been taken from me. My physical health, my mental health, and now my relationship.

Every day, is it worth it? Until it isn't. But it has never been worth it. Not a single day, it turns out, has been worth it.

I have nothing.

[Anonymous No.17995072]

fear.
fear is on my mind for the last 20 years.

[Anonymous No.17995107]

a girl offhandedly mentioned to me that she doesn't orgasm loudly. how am I supposed to respond to that? with flirting? am I even supposed to respond to that? it's too late now anyway since the topic changed quickly after but I need to know

[Anonymous No.17995114]

>>17995107
>"No way, prove it!"

[Anonymous No.17995125]

>>17995107
>uhh, thanks for medical diagnosis.

[Anonymous No.17995126]

>>17995107
or what are you supposed to say when they say mention they have no gag reflex or whatever? that shit just makes me cringe and want to go home

[Anonymous No.17995132]

>>17995126
the same girl said that to me before

[Anonymous No.17995199]

>>17995132
that shit is why i just fap it with no regrets, an orgasm lasts a few seconds but cringe memories last a lifetime

[Anonymous No.17995210]

>>17994225
>obviously leftists control all media and education
Most college professors are centrist normies and all the people who run the media are capitalist dogs who pay lip-service to social issues to distract people

[Anonymous No.17995262]

I used to want to be a great artist, but now my highest ambition is to go viral with a tweet like "that they/them pussy be hittin" or something

[Anonymous No.17995371]

>>17995262
Damn what happened chief

[Anonymous No.17995586]

Some young, attractive lady said I was the embodiment of masculinity. What does that mean?

[Anonymous No.17995590]

>>17995586
what did you do?
was it sarcastic or honest?

[Anonymous No.17995613]

>>17995590
All I did was chug a beer, shot a deer, then flexed my muscles while screaming.

[Anonymous No.17995630]

>>17995371
The world is a vampire

[Anonymous No.17995679]

>>17995613
Lol she was definitely being sarcastic

[Anonymous No.17995693]

>>17985726
I think I'm going to give up writing, lads.
I'm so discouraged. Nothing I write goes anywhere. I have so many stories that I want to write, but I have no idea how to do it. I get maybe 20 pages in, and then I can't get any further no matter how hard I try. I'm about to cry. I don't know what to do.

[Anonymous No.17995766]

>>17994727
I'm not very active on social media right now but here are some accounts I actually use.

https://odysee.com/@mcdillinger
^ I use this in place of Twitter.
https://odysee.com/@mcdillinger
^ Only video I have thare is shit. I may try a lets play to see how I like making gayming content.
https://odysee.com/@mcdillinger
^ I wish Newgrounds had blogging but I was going to get my own website anyway.

[Anonymous No.17995843]

I'll never amount to anything. Nothing makes me want to go on living. Too depressed to do the few things I like. That kind of shit

[Anonymous No.17995853]

>>17995693
Push it out, like a hard shit

[Anonymous No.17995914]

Wet fishes come out on top
of the dry rocks and boulders,
And they are scared to see with agony
The cruel darts of the bright day.

[Anonymous No.17995920]

>>17995843
Iktfb. i wish that i could feel my talents in anyway.

[Anonymous No.17995943]

I just want everyone to leave me alone, but there's always annoyances in life. At least by deleting social media my contacts have been narrowed down to 8 people. Once mom and stepdad die I'll probably shadow everyone else.
I do not care about politics nor the news, so why shove letters on my letterbox and ask me to vote and wear a mask everywhere I go?

[Anonymous No.17996023]

If narcissism means being aware of one's strengths and taking joy in them, then narcissism is a wonderful thing indeed.

[Anonymous No.17996035]

mmmmmmmmmmmmbutt butt butt butt Butt butt butt

holiOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[Anonymous No.17996133]

>>17985726
i unironicaly think i might be dying of lonliness

[Anonymous No.17996211]

I don't know why I became a legalist exactly. Or maybe I do know: when I was free-form believing i felt I wasn't having enough God in my life. I felt I needed ways of weaving God into my living, and legalism can do that. But I think Jesus would think of me as someone lost in red tape, someone who has lost the spirit of the law.

[Anonymous No.17996212]

>>17996133
What does being lonely actually feel like? I'm honestly asking.

[Anonymous No.17996221]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y7dvUHIxvEE
This is unironically what a BASED woman looks like

[Anonymous No.17996236]

Wow. I am shockingly bored and lonely for a guy in his 20s. My weekends are spent in isolation doing basically nothing.

[Anonymous No.17996247]

It actually does bother me that I’m not East Asian, or at least half East Asian.

[Anonymous No.17996260]

>>17996247
Why?

[Anonymous No.17996286]

im really really boring but hey at least i do drugs

[Anonymous No.17996306]

>>17996236
Get different material! Everyone has the same story ; express this in a different voice

[Anonymous No.17996328]

>>17996286
Do drugs pull out those hidden threads of personality one is too meek to let out? I'm a teetotaler and very boring. At least you must be wild or interesting to watch or be with, right?

[Anonymous No.17996336]

>>17994594
Shut up white boy. Kali is going nowhere and he's going to make it worse for you barbarians. And .. everyone.

[Anonymous No.17996378]

I wish we could exterminate cluster b's. So much suffering is caused by them.

[Anonymous No.17996419]

>>17996260
I live in East Asia. I like it here and I want to feel like I belong.

[Anonymous No.17996511]

>>17996336
>he
At least learn the basics of the mythology if you're gonna use it as the basis for your retarded doomsaying

[Anonymous No.17996656]

I really have no idea how I’m supposed to meet women to date.

[Anonymous No.17996820]

I wonder if lunatic and lunar share the same etymology.

[Anonymous No.17996941]

"The education system failed me." No you failed the education system, dumbass.

[Anonymous No.17996995]

Can crime ever be moral?

[Anonymous No.17997035]

>finish LOTR
>decide 1000 page books are too much for me to enjoy getting through
>buy Tom Clancy's Rainbow Six online on a whim
>forgot to check how many pages it is
>740

whoops.

[Anonymous No.17997039]

>>17993087
avoid any hag that falls under the following:

>goes to a university
>uses any form of social media
>plays video games/watches anime/other such manchild hobbies
>has a tattoo
>mentions they had a falling out in a relationship
>is older than you

[Anonymous No.17997053]

>>17996820
They do. Or rather lunatic is derived from lunar, because it was thought that the full moon caused insanity.

>posting on /lit/ without already knowing this

[Anonymous No.17997059]

>>17996995
yes, always.

[Anonymous No.17997069]

>>17997059
I'm what moral system is crime always moral?

[Anonymous No.17997073]

>>17997069
illegalism

[Anonymous No.17997103]

>>17997053
Oh I did know that. It slipped out my mind.

[Anonymous No.17997117]

>>17997039
Okay so avoid literally every woman under 40. Got it.

[Anonymous No.17997123]

>>17997117
What are you doing on /lit/ old man?

[Anonymous No.17997184]

>tfw I am seriously considering going to graduate school for catholic theology and getting a teaching certificate so I can teach secondary school level theology

how stupid am I? give it to me straight? yes I am treating like a vocation and increasingly I have been discerning towards 1) theological studies at a higher level 2) working in a service capacity 3) teaching or "helping". I hate academia and research, I have a background in political theory and philosophy from one of the top public universities in the USA but I simply can't go on to academia or law or business or something. I have considered many fields including manual labor and healthcare and I keep coming back to theology and teaching. Please someone tell me there's hope. I never thought I would be working with youth but someone I relate very well to teenagers and I feel called to teach/preach. I have also been seriously considering taking the next step to begin a vocation with the Order of Preachers (Dominicans) as a lay member. Can someone, preferably other Catholic/Christians, give me advice? my parents/friends/family will think I am crazy, they dreamed of me earning big $$

[Anonymous No.17997219]

>>17997184
think of it this way, if no one else taught it, who will? those old men? they'll fade away soon enough.

[Anonymous No.17997238]

>>17997184
becoming a doctor of theology sounds cool and all but have you considered living alone in the woods?

[Anonymous No.17997262]

>>17997219
yes but will I be dirt poor? eventually I want to raise a family

>>17997238
ordinarily we are sanctified thru living with other people. the ermetic vocation is actually very rare. all the desert fathers lived as cenobites first. read Sayings of the Fathers.

[Anonymous No.17997348]

>>17989360
Why is it over my man?

[Anonymous No.17997358]

>>17990331
Sit down and study

[Anonymous No.17997397]

I can't stop stop laughing halfing raffing haffing ing stop ha halfing ing ah ought haffing laughing stop can't stop I laughing ing ha calfing ha slapping hing time I'm stop time I'm watch ing clock time I'm hime stop laugh ing halfing crack ing ing crack sing ing

[Anonymous No.17997447]

fuck yeah saturday night

[Anonymous No.17997458]

>>17985726
I hate the antichrist.

[Anonymous No.17997465]

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XHNHq1mC0VQ

oh shit all the cercle mixes just got added to apple music

[Anonymous No.17997879]

>>17997184
Stop breathing?

I don't know! I want to kill myself too! You should just declare your love to your crush and end it. Sin like a motherfucker. Sin for your soul sake. Holy shit! don't make your live more sufferable fucking just stop breathing already. It isn't gonna get better, if your wish is to dig an even deeper grave for you, then do it. Die in the dirt, talk with the maggots, become holy shit.

[Anonymous No.17997885]

>>17997397
did the honk finally catch up to you

[Anonymous No.17997887]

I read over 250 pages yesterday for the first time in a while, it felt good

[Anonymous No.17998202]

>>17985726
I've discovered that I cannot stand the people I've met irl that try to be based and trad and shit.

[Anonymous No.17998204]

>>17985726
I really do not think that dostoevsky is that good. people praise his stuff like it's the most insightful and amazing thing they've ever read and it isn't bad, but it's really not that special, and the themes are very basic. I find it extremely uninteresting idk maybe it's just me.

[Anonymous No.17998229]

>>17997885
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pVqU3mAlu1A

[Anonymous No.17998254]

>>17997879
there's no girl im pining after at all. I have had problems with sin like the rest of us and i have felt the call of the vocation even when I wanted to get the fuck away and live a normal hedonic life. there are things I have said in confession that made the priest shocked - that is not bragging, im not holy roller. God has pursued me in some sense, I have tried to get away.

[Anonymous No.17998260]

>>17998254
and sin is far more than sexual sin. sin is pride, sin is wallowing in hopelessness, sin is resisting known truth. I may be a hypocrite but pissing your life away in a soulless position is not for me. Read merton's "The time of the end is the time of no room"

[Anonymous No.17998418]

>>17997887
I’ve just not felt like reading at all the last 2 days. I’ve done basically nothing but lay in bed and eat. I don’t know why.

[Anonymous No.17999034]

>>17985726
Little faggot anime shit on my board, heh? Gonna have to invoke the power of DFW to smite you.

[Anonymous No.17999046]

>>17999034
Why are you trying to stir up shit?

[Anonymous No.17999062]

>>17998418
I sometimes do that too. It's okay to just do nothing sometimes though, you can always read later.

[Anonymous No.17999082]

Should I learn to code?

[Anonymous No.17999091]

>>17999046
I’m a fighter and a lover and a passionate mate

[Anonymous No.17999106]

>>17985726
>yellow folds, sneeding

[Anonymous No.17999117]

There is no way I will be able to overcome my sins. I can't even be sure I've really given it my all in trying to attain virtue. I am in a state of unease, my being forgiven seems uncertain to me. I cannot know peace, I weep.

[Anonymous No.17999164]

I just want to unblock my heart but im not letting myself to do it. There were some short moments where i peaked through the keyhole but that was the most i was able to do it. I feel like even if i want to spread positivity and love, i just cant seem to do it once i actually meet people.

[Anonymous No.17999189]

I tried visiting /pol/ and it's like bots, boomers, feds, and schizos all talking past eachother. Can someone on /lit/ who actually uses /pol/ tell me how you stand it? IS there anyone left who uses /pol/?

It seriously seemed like lorem ipsum, like a bot simulating twitter/youtube comments. Weird engrish mixed with people not really engaging with eachother's posts, seriously fake seeming.

[Anonymous No.17999195]

Massive schizo thread as always

[Anonymous No.17999593]

>>17999189
I go there when there's a happening and it's great. I don't browse it regularly because I'm not interested in politics and I find it boring. Maybe you just went there during a boring period or you're a newfag.

[Anonymous No.17999596]

I need a democracy thinking detox.

[Anonymous No.17999628]

Metcalf sniper attack

[Anonymous No.17999911]

>>17998254
Sin the sin. Follow your soul. Sin for your soul. Sin agaisnt the lifeless. Become life. Engulf this death world by your sin. Sin the sin. You agaisnt you. Your you. It is all about love.

[Anonymous No.17999946]

>>17985726
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[Anonymous No.18000026]

let's see what it was
>>18000000

[Anonymous No.18000062]

Proud of myself for avoiding drinking alone at home recently. It is kind of daunting spending time on your own without being intoxicated, but it had got to the point that I didn't even enjoy being drunk and it just made me feel like total shit in the morning. I'm having to retrain myself to enjoy movies and things while sober, which sounds ridiculous, but it is what it is.

[Anonymous No.18000070]

>>18000062
Good shit anon. I also been trying to less indulge in drinking.

[Anonymous No.18000212]

I wish this predetermined mind-body story of mine could continue on without me being a conscious observer.

[Anonymous No.18000415]

>>17985726
I'm no expert on transgender subjectivities, far from it, but I do wonder about the possibility of correlations between Western imperialism/colonialism and the continued undermining of indigenous, Black, and mixed race (e.g. mestizo) communities and identities in former or ongoing (neo)colonized lands: especially in Latin America, Asia, even Eastern Europe. When countries are invaded and colonized, especially in cases where there are strong racial differences between colonizer and colonized, race and sex are dually and inextricably, almost invariably, exoticized, even fetishized, within a context of severe power differentials that fundamentally also involve class and its institutionally defined fossilization: caste.

Indeed, this latter concept may be key in, at least, a partial understanding of the etiologies of the transgender phenomena. To wit, are transgender identities, at least in the short and median terms (before the concept becomes potentially exploded and superceded by transhumanism outright), at risque of becoming a sort of neo-caste?

In other words, a "castal" identity that would as such, or in the main, be defined by an identity-structuring dependence on an axiomatically capitalistic pharmaceutical industry (as it currently exists and conceives of its future utility), in a manner that is not only reminiscent, but indeed, in no negligible way, genuinely "intersectionally" imbricated and implicated in the community of HIV sufferers dependent on antiretrovirals and related HIV-combatting pharmacopeia (including medical prophylactic agents which are prescribed as a daily vademecum to sexually active homosexual males, etc), in light of the undeniable reality that occurrences of HIV infections are exceedingly high within the LGBTQ+ community, and may approach infection rates of 25% in the case of sexually active transfemale-identifying people of color.

So that perhaps one might even begin to speak, without exaggeration, of pharmaceutical hormone-dependent and demarcated castes, of people, for whom the synthetic sustainment of genderal and sexual identities are not only the basis around which their lives fundamentally revolve, but in some form or another (beginning with, but far from limited to, the psychological) the basis upon which said lives ostensibly and actually quite literally depend (this being most acutely exemplified by the intersecting cases of transgender persons doubly dependent on lifelong hormone therapy and anti-HIV therapies).

[Anonymous No.18000437]

>>18000415
Moreover, what of the seeming (though, to be sure, I do not say empirical) correlation between transgender identity, a preponderance of which are transfemale identities, and certain previously heavily colonized areas of the so-called Third World that have becoming notably linked to the transexual female sex trade; namely, Asia and Latin America?

Is the latter principally a case of a statistically demographically "normal" manifestation of transgender occurrences within a context of highly endemic economic underdevelopment that consequently results in more transpeople, albeit preponderantly more transfemales, having to rely on sex work in order to maintain a parallel psycho-physiomatic "necessary" transition and transidentity? Or rather, to the contrary, is the extreme precarity and poverty (within a capitalist, specifically postcolonial framework) and subsequent complex of idio-social comorbidities contributing to an increase of occurrences of transgenderism in communities which have, in many cases, for centuries faced every imaginable form of transgenerational oppression, including, as a matter of course, castal, colonial, and thereby the inevitable intertwined racial-sexual oppressions?

One concrete, but perhaps highly exemplary manifestation of which, in the specific case of Asia and Latin America, being the potential conduction or orchestration of bisexual, homosexual, and indeed pederastic prostitution by the colonial and postcolonial exploiters of such poverty-induced phenomena into forms designed to mimetically prolong pederasty and/or female-mimicking homosexuality within a specifically and quite consciously fetishizing Western colonial subjectivity and contextualization of the "Oriental", Asiatic, Amerindian, or indeed mixed-race "Other," that simultaneously fetishizes, aggresses, transgresses, and otherwise emasculatingly subordinates, feminizes, even infantilizes the a priori multifariously oppressed racialized, proletarized, castalized, colonial/postcolonial subject even further by sexo-biologically neutering, marking, and staticizing them into some of the most recrudesced "castal" (the Indo-Chinese "ladyboy", the Latinx "shemale," etc.) forms imaginable; thereby medico-scientifico-capitalistically reifying them in extremis into living iconographic products-cum-metonymies of colonial, postcolonial late capitalist Orientalizing consumptions, obsessions, and neuroses (in the "best" Houellebecqian fashion avant la lettre).

[Anonymous No.18000447]

>>18000437
Furthermore, are the manifestations of transgender occurrences in metropolitan First World "communities of color" potentially, in many cases, constitutive and recapitulative of an itself transhistorically reverberative matrix of anterior experiences, existences, psycho-physiologically echoic phenomena which are determinatively tethered to what might be termed the phantasmatic somaticized trauma of a historically indefinite and indeed ongoing concatenation of racialized, colonialized, sexualized violations-cum-dominations? To wit, and in no particular order: desecration, brutalization, humiliation, destabilization, demasculinization, mutilation, etc, all within the inevitable framework of the aforementioned racialized alienative Western coloniality and imperialism? So that intersectionally, transgenerationally, and trans-geographically what is, in no small part, being seen in cases such as Bell's are the non-aleatory echos and reflects of the aforementioned ongoing development and--now eugenico-technocratically through Tavistock--reification, if not quasi-industrial fabrication, of an ante--but in no way necessarily a priori--transgenderal existential phenomena and phenomenology within a late postcolonial First World metropolitan framework, with a legacy of in itself (i.e. imbricated) racialized classist eugenicist experimentation.

One that, whether accidentally or not, is in classic Western colonialist fashion finding new industrial "productive" uses for its most marginalized, disprotected, uninformed, frequently postcolonialized, racialized proletariat subjects who are, if anything (and surely quite evidently so for the likes of Tavistock) suffering from the inherited, still poisonously slow-burning legacy of sexual shame-based trauma, dysthymia, and related deep-seated "neuroses;" in turn the products of a centuries-long uninterrupted legacy of an acutely racialized and racist gamut of dehumanizing imperialist extractive capitalist practices. Practices that continue to fashion, shape, warp, and determine both the subjective and materially objective patterns and parameters of most of the world today.

[Anonymous No.18000511]

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[Anonymous No.18000526]

>>18000511
whats going on big guy?

[Anonymous No.18000608]

>>18000526
None of your damn business

[Anonymous No.18000647]

>>18000608
fine >_<

[Anonymous No.18000770]

It’s getting warm and beautiful out and reminds me of the wind down to summer break, and all the things I should have been enjoying back in high school if I hadn’t hated myself too much to ever make real friends.
Last week I suddenly remembered this cute lesbian from robotics club who had a crush on me and wanted me to break up with my boyfriend. I keep thinking about her and the carefree beach days and midnight McDonald’s runs we might have had if I hadn’t chickened out and stayed with my douchey crutch bf. I can’t find her anywhere online and it’s really bothering me. Not that I would have the guts to reach out even if she was.
I feel bad that I missed out on fun in high school, that I was so uptight, and now I’m in my 20s and live alone and haven’t made any friends. I know in another 10 years I’ll look back and see the obvious fun I was missing out on now and be even sadder about it.
I might drive and take a walk down by the river. I always go out with the vague hope that someone will notice and talk to me and I’ll make friends, but I’ve realized that after high school people don’t care to do the work of pulling you out of your shell just because you’re cute, and why should they? But I’m completely inept I don’t know how to be proactive about meeting people. I know it’s all pathetic excuses.

[Anonymous No.18000825]

>>17987933
Not him, but it's unsustainable. We live in a system where the ruling elite drive growth for the sole purpose of growth at the expense of everything else. They masquerade behind noble causes but ultimately everything is reduced down to numbers. On top of that, the US is poised to collapse during this century and cause a massive power vacuum, leaving China's growth and expansion unchecked. The game ended decades ago but nobody noticed, we're just going through the motions.

[Anonymous No.18000849]

>>18000770
I can relate to this. Though I'm "only" 22, I already feel like I've thrown away a lot of my youth. Seems like this sentiment is not at all uncommon.

I feel like I've got to do SOMETHING, but I don't really know what or how at the moment.

[Anonymous No.18000919]

I come back home one month later after leaving it under my friend's care and I find everything literally in the same place as I left them. The jam I had left in the dining table has not moved an inch and it's all dusted.

[Anonymous No.18001006]

>>17985726
i want to die

[Anonymous No.18001014]

>>18001006
have you considered dying in pussy

[Anonymous No.18001017]

>>18001006
What is up my friend? Spill it out for us.

[Anonymous No.18001053]

>>18001017
early death, a fuck-up throughout my teenage years where i ran away from every duty i ever had, now trying to assimilate and get a normal life, but failing in whatever i try to do, something like that
anyways, thanks

[Anonymous No.18001227]

>>17999117
You can, salvation is in Christ.

[Anonymous No.18001242]

>>18000526
There are bees in my head and the world is a waking Hell. My life is actually very good but conceptualizing everything beyond it is terror.

[Anonymous No.18001269]

>>17996511
You idiot. Kali is a male. It's not Kāli the Goddess who brought on Kali Yuga.

[Anonymous No.18001423]

Bhuddism is just romanticising schizoid personality disorder.
No ambition, no desire, no feelings. Just pure stagnation.

Why strive toward ego death? How is being an empty vessel any better than being dead. Expedite the process and kill yourself.

[Anonymous No.18001449]

>>18001053
and what are the consequences if you keep failing? do you risk homelessness?

[Anonymous No.18001609]

>>17999117
You're not saved through works but by your trust in Jesus Christ. We all fall short of the glory of god. No matter if you lied as a child or murdered someone. We all deserve hell. There is no way you can work yourself clean so God starts liking you. Furthermore, you shouldn't even try to do that, God likes humility more than that. Don't promise him that you will never sin again. Make him clear, that you need Jesus to pay for you.

The only thing that cleanses you is Jesus Christ. Thats why salvation is called a gift. Make God clear that you believe that Jesus was crucified and then resurrected in order to pay for your sins

[Anonymous No.18001702]

>>17994225
>because obviously leftists control all media
imagine unironically believing this

[Anonymous No.18001810]

>>18000919
your friend sounds lovely, what's the issue?

[Anonymous No.18002233]

>>18001810
Honestly thought he'd at least clean up somewhat. He literally stayed in my room the entire time. Not that I have a problem, I'm just a little apalled.

[Anonymous No.18002248]

>>17999164
i wish i could say something profound about it but im out of words.

[Anonymous No.18002403]

>>18002233
that's how I interpreted your post, that he dusted but left everything sitting in the same spot and that's what creeped you out

[Anonymous No.18002598]

>someone made another early thread of this General.
Fucking why?

[Anonymous No.18002718]

>>17985726
this board is a toxic vortex that captures your desire to read books and, and gives it release through endless hours of purposeless browsing. instead of reading to get rid of the uneasy feeling of carrying an unfulfilled desire, you waste the energy in a task vaguely related to /lit/erature, namely retarded discussions in here. this is not to say that it isn't to check in once in a while, but I think most people here don't read for a purpose.
all acts that are not reading, but vaguely related, obstruct the establishment of a succesful routine that would allow us to read just enough.
personally around 50 pages of philosophy a day is my goal, and even that I mostly don't reach.
any thoughts on this?

[Anonymous No.18002721]

I want to write but I don't feel confident in my abilites. I've read like 3 books in the last 5 years, never wrote somethign andthe only creative content I consume is fucking anime.
I feel like if I give it a shot I would be wasting my time, and I'm just trying to cope with the fact that I will never make something substanstial

[Anonymous No.18002784]

>>18002721
the only way to cope is action. read a book you like that is a little difficult to be proud of yourself, and other than that, the only true way is action. (start by reading everyday for 30 minutes or smth)

[Anonymous No.18003012]

>>18002721
Try writing a light novel or a similar sort of YA fiction. It’s true that good writers tend to read a lot already but it’s not some hard and fast universal law. There are narratives built into anime as well so just use what you know.

[Anonymous No.18003091]

>>18002784
>>18003012
These are good advice, thanks anons

[Anonymous No.18003958]

sometimes I think about standing on my shoulders, bending my legs up over my head so my butt is aimed straight up, kind of like tubgirl, then pouring yoghurt on my anus and farting. So the fart would be a yoghut-mist. that is all.

[Anonymous No.18003998]

>>17987217
That's because Enoch Powell was not completely sold out to neoliberal interests whereas Scruton most certainly was.
Anyways, I do sympathize with your situation, but there's nothing I can do and I prefer not endlessly fixating on politics considering we live in an age of growing IoT and data mining capabilities. They are always one step ahead of us now, and they can easily subvert any movement you come up with the resist their NWO, which I agree is kind of trashy.

[Anonymous No.18004479]

it is not too bad to bomb a semester, right fellas?

[Anonymous No.18004614]

>>18004479
Depends on what you're doing

[Anonymous No.18004643]

>>17985726
I've been depressed with thoughts of suicide for around 5 years now i have terrible social anxiety it's been so bad I didn't leave my bedroom because i didn't want to interact with my family recently i just felt so lost and sad. I thought it would be so cool to see a roman emperor's inner thoughts and feelings it must be so cool to step into his diary and life so i cracked open marcus aurelius's diary but it's written in like old english and he just keeps repeating that I'm only here for just a fleeting moment and then I'm going to die he says it like 10 times man it just feels like i have this heavy feeling in my solar plexus i find no genuine pleasure in anything and i am so anxious i don't even have a job or leave the house at all really

[Anonymous No.18004799]

>>17991793
you want some of my blood? just inject that shit 20-30 minutes pre-fap

[Anonymous No.18004809]

>>18004643
Did tranny porn do this to you?

[Anonymous No.18004939]

>>18004809
no man

[Anonymous No.18004944]

>>18004809
that's just the icing on the cake mate

[Anonymous No.18005141]

>>18004643
1. Stop
2. Focus
It's not written in Old English, it's written in Koine Greek and is translated to English. Don't merely read Meditations to read, read it to comprehend. Consider how you can apply stuff in your life. "Concentrate every minute like a Roman."

Take comfort in knowing that you're reading the inner thoughts of a man who was, for a time, among the most powerful in the world and was responsible for the lives of an entire Empire worth of people. Then challenges he faced daily are likely greater than those we will ever know. He managed, and you can too. Don't shut yourself off from the world and don't waste time on pointless things. You were put on this earth to live a life and be a part of something: be excited!

Do you have an education?
If yes, try to get an internship or entry level job somewhere.
If no, any job is fine. Just get out and do it. You'll socialize and develop some skills, even if it's just working at a grocery store and learning how to interact with others.

Try and go to school if you can, but don't put yourself into massive debt on something that won't go anywhere. Alternatively, try to rise in the job you find and seek promotions. The biggest thing is taking the first step and moving forward. Do what you were born to do and live a life beyond warm blankets.

[Anonymous No.18005323]

>>18001423
Read Sterner based egoist

[Anonymous No.18005327]

>>18000511
same desu