Write what's on your mind: Bullish year edition

[Anonymous No.17435399]

QOTT: How in the hell is anyone supposed to make actual money nowadays?

[Anonymous No.17435437]

>>17435399
What do you mean by actual money?

[Anonymous No.17435443]

>got my first real job at 24. $40k a year working for a bank. No degree.
>Cheapest houses in the area $250k, unless you want to live next door to crack addicts
>Almost no jobs with higher pay, but without a degree
Options are: take a college loan, take a mortgage, sign away min 3 years to military for shit pay, stay where I am try to get promoted
Is this the rest of my life? Feel like I haven't done anything at all.
>never had a gf
>No community
>Not many irl friends
>Lost money on the GME/AMC thing
Don't know what I'm supposed to do at this point

[Anonymous No.17435448]

>>17435399
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sxLSAGAFPLI&ab_channel=LordBung

[Anonymous No.17435505]

>>17435443
>Lost money on the GME/AMC thing
Hello banking shill. Still holding btw.

[Anonymous No.17435632]

>>17435505
I'm still holding, I just bought in late and I'm about $200 in the red from last week

[Anonymous No.17435732]

just watched Boyz n the Hood for the first time. My friend, who believes in some chinese gobbeldigook, thinks that if you are born african american it is because you have bad karma from previous lives. I can't understand why shit has to be so bad for them all the time. I mean an obvious message, perhaps the obvious message, is that good fathers make the difference, but becoming a good father when you didn't have one must be almost impossible. Sad, sad movie, but it was good I thought. I don't know if the ghetto is that bad anymore. Just seeing how desensitised they get already as small children. Man the guys who kill Ricky at the end just go for a burger after the murder. Everybody just dies, people are just awful to one another and no one gives a shit. Ice Cubes monologue at the end was touching, about how he had seen a tv-special on how violent life can be in other countries the morning after he just executed two guys (which he feels bad about) and shortly before he is murdered himself. "Either they don't know, don't show or don't care about the hood".

[Anonymous No.17435789]

>>17435732
That's a good movie anon, I watched a bunch of times as a teenager

[Anonymous No.17435828]

>>17435399
Wait until the old one is done, new faggot

[Anonymous No.17435853]

>>17435443
You could definitely afford a mortgage for a house, if you had a partner to share it with

[Anonymous No.17435982]

>>17435399
I have a job

[Anonymous No.17436069]

My routine got all screwed up, by which I mean ceased to exist, these past few weeks and my mental health has taken a nosedive. I think people need routines at a very deep level, if you don’t have one your reward system gets all out of whack.

[Anonymous No.17436084]

this whey thing makesme dehydrated

[Anonymous No.17436203]

I want to run away I want to run away I want to run away I want to run away I want to run away I want to run away
I don't want a job, I want to live selfishly. I can't stand the 9-5 grind, I don't want to do it. It depresses me and sends me stir crazy like a monkey locked in far too small a cage. Am I alone? Am I weak? Am I selfish? I don't want to do it!

[Anonymous No.17436210]

My second cousin killed himself. Having only met him when we were both kids I didn't really know him. His dad was like a brother to mine growing up, and my Dad always said he was a quiet but nice kid. They found his body on the beach, he was a cadet at Galveston. I can't imagine how his brother or parents feel. I can't really even imagine how my parents feel about this. I don't know why he did it, how he did it, or when he did it. There's no external thing I can blame or investigate, and there's no desire in me to read about the causes of suicide or the underlying psychology. All the theology I've read about it is too horrible to consider or a cautious denial of previous opinions on the basis modern psychology. All I know is that this news has affected me in a way I hadn't considered before. There is an empathetic sadness in me that has been intentionally deadened. It feels like a toothache. What can I do in response to news like this?

[Anonymous No.17436222]

I just want to leave but I feel like I’m trapped here. When I read about my favorite authors going to this country or that country I think “what the fuck?”

[Anonymous No.17436224]

>>17435399
How to make money for retarded students in first world countries with mild risk tolerance
>do not leave home for uni unless you absolutely have to, this is to save as much as possible while you have no bills
>look into your countries student loan programmes, do the maths, and apply if good
>with minimal effort you can make 7% annual returns on a risk-free investment with US dollar stable coins
>therefore, look for student loans that have long repayment periods and max them out, interest is typically low and not of concern. it's all about monthly repayments
>eg: loan out 50k over bachelor and masters on 0% interest (feasible in somewhere like the netherlands), repay 119€ per month over 35 years, 1428€ payment per year. earn 3500€ from investment, net of a free 2k a year
>for better returns, invest all your student loans in bitcoin when it's in a slump, wait two years, take 4x profit, reinvest in stablecoins with 7% yield

[Anonymous No.17436226]

Sometimes I stand up to wipe my ass after shitting. I was doing this in a public toilet and accidentally missed the bowl when I went to put the toilet paper in and it bounced under the stall to the stall next to me where another guy was taking a shit. I just kinda froze and waited for him to leave the bathroom before finishing my business. I hope nobody recognises my shoes.

[Anonymous No.17436273]

before sex, girls always tell me that I come across as deep and mysterious because I don't talk as much as my friends and because I have intense, deep set eyes that appear as though in permanent contemplation - but really, truthfully, there's nothing go on in here.

[Anonymous No.17436293]

>>17436203
You must not run away. You must not run away.

[Anonymous No.17436298]

Eisenhower's farewell address was remarkably prescient.

[Anonymous No.17436349]

>>17436273
Wow.

[Anonymous No.17436364]

>>17436224
What are these 7% yielding stablecoins and where does the money come from?

[Anonymous No.17436454]

>go out picking trash
>go through what seems to be a big depot-area/a docking area for truckers where there's always a bunch of trash
>pick up a soda bottle I don't recognize from a spot where truckers often spend the night
>yellowy liquid inside
>read the label
>"Crystal Clear"
>the fucking way she goes
>litte way down the road there's some paper and what looks like a piece of black rubber or something on the sidewalk
>zoom in
>no that's definitely a frozen turd in the snow on the sidewalk
I feel a more experienced man because this happened. I didn't think there were areas where this would happen in my town. in a bush, maybe, but this guy must have been in plain view, on the sidewalk

[Anonymous No.17436499]

>>17436364
On Binance you can put USDT (commonly referred to as Tether) in their savings account. Binance uses the money you put in savings to offer margin to other traders, and in return you get a cut of the profits from margin interest. There's a lot of memes about binance and it's planned maintenances, but it's consistently proven to be the most secure crypto exchange and they have the funds to repay users if anything does go wrong

[Anonymous No.17436518]

I'm 24 years old and my GF is probably pregnant. This can't be real. I don't want to believe. It happened when we were having sex while on LSD. The condom got all fucked up, I don't know what happened. She took a "morning after" pill a month ago, when it happened, but her period still didn't came. I'm trying not to freak out, but it's getting harder. I'm going to give her a bunch of abortive teas and hope for the best. Pray for me, anons. I can't have a child now. I'm still on college and I don't have a job. I can't.

[Anonymous No.17436520]

>question of the thread
well now i don't remember what was on my mind because you prompted me you STUPID BITCH

[Anonymous No.17436548]

>>17436518
I had a pregnancy scare at the beginning of the year anon I know how terrifying it is. In fact, we broke up before I could get confirmation that she definitely wasn't pregnant and then she blocked me on everything so I can't contact her. I'm assuming she isn't pregnant though, I figure she would at least let me know if she was even if she hates me. Well, hopefully I don't find out in a few years that I have an illegitimate child.

[Anonymous No.17436566]

>>17436548
>>17436518
I cannot relate and I cannot forgive you two for having sex so I hope she's pregnant and that you're rekt

[Anonymous No.17436578]

>>17436566
>I cannot forgive you two for having sex
banner material

[Anonymous No.17436613]

>>17436210
>What can I do in response to news like this?
There’s nothing you really can do but keep on with your life. I had a pretty similar situation with a cousin when I was a teenager, and then again in college albeit that second one was someone much closer to me and that one was impetus for a transformation of sorts. The first just left me with a feeling like you describe for a time until I processed it. Faith helped me with both.

[Anonymous No.17436616]

>>17436518
Children are a blessing, Anon. God will provide what’s right for you, child or no child, and everything will work out.

[Anonymous No.17436731]

>>17436616
Its so easy to think like this until it happens to you lol
I'm not criticising, faith is strengthened through doubt

[Anonymous No.17436869]

Is playing strip poker with your parents at the age of 12 considered troublesome? I used to forget that but nowadays I kinda get the feeling that I could´ve been fucked up because of that

[Anonymous No.17436928]

>>17435399
Took the official Norwegian MENSA IQ test
>literally 100 IQ.
Not sure how to feel about this

[Anonymous No.17436979]

>>17435399
By realizing the ruling class has grown complacent and stupid, so if you sell them a new lever for control they'll pull it like all the others in their Skinner box of increasingly worthless money.
Greed will kill you long before death will. Just maintain whatever lifestyle you're comfortable at.

[Anonymous No.17437064]

A guy I know has recently come out as trans. He's 23 and wants be known as a woman now. However, I think it's transparently clear to everybody in his life that he is not in fact trans. He is just an incel-ish guy who doesn't know what path to take in life and has convinced himself that maybe the anxiety he feels is rooted in gender dysphoria, because that's an easier explanation than just the fact he himself is the reason his life kinda sucks. He's not actually an incel, because he's had sex a few times. He's not unattractive and he's quite confident, but he's a bit off putting and he has trouble getting laid. In truth, it's just because his game is weak and he's looking in the wrong places. I sympathise with him entirely, it's hard out there for single dudes especially if you're not a 9/10. But he's not trans. He really is just confused.

[Anonymous No.17437085]

>>17437064
>not boymoding for years
ngmi

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.17437160]

>>17437064
That’s the story of so many dudes on /r9k/ isn’t it? It’s real sad, the biggest problem I think is, even when these people get women that doesn’t really matter, a woman is just a person. She cannot fix your life, your sense of emptiness, your existential dread. Your sense of meaninglessness or the boredom which is the emblem of feeling empty and tedium which pervades the daily routine so many face. I don’t think there’s a mass solution though, I think some can be fine through religion, some through philosophy, some through metabolizing the suffering and emptiness into a source of power(Nietzsche) and so forth, but this isn’t something that is really applicable for the many. Not even basic religion any longer due to The personality and lack of belief that fills so many. The lack of identity and meaning will likely be filled for most by coomsooming and identifying with subcultures/fandoms and odd little movements. Is what it is.

[Anonymous No.17437437]

When confronted with the sight of a group of insects devouring a mushroom one is struck by the question "What is this all for"? Life looks like a bleak, mindless, repetitive struggle. It is only justified by the flies "contributing" to my ability to observe and experience them. They thus serve a higher purpose then themselves.

[Anonymous No.17437862]

"See, that's why, that's why, you know, in 2008, they should have just fuckin... you know?" I could barely hear him. I was probably saying something similar. We'd been pickling our organs all night and I was amusing myself at this point by trying to guess where my arm would end up if I swung it right now. Just the two of us, out in the woods, backs to the concrete barrier we'd dragged out here, bonfire behind us, big box of ammo between us. He trailed off again and tossed a few rounds over his shoulder. Pretty soon after, pop, pop. Poppop. Pop. Long pause. Pop again. We started giggling uncontrollably and put all our energy into concentrating on pouring out a shot each for every pop. One down the hatch. Two. Three, four. Five. Six. My head spun and--pop. I poured out another shot and got it all over my hand. He just grabbed the bottle and took a quick swing. Well, shit, why not? My lips pressed to the slippery glass and I threw my head back, right into the concrete. Shit. Grain alcohol all over my shirt. I tried again and did it right this time, head throbbing, him laughing. Shit. My turn, grab a handful, toss it into the fire. Consciousness fading. Better just drink my share ahead of the time while I'm still up.

[Anonymous No.17437886]

>>17435399
I barely feel conscious. Various smells illicit memories from my childhood, but was that really me? I have little intuition of any continuity between me and my past self. Around middle school I remember sitting up at bed, putting my hands in front of my race, reflecting on my memories, thought, on self, and for a couple seconds I’d feel alive....contract my fingers....I’d feel immense fear. Immense fear at realizing I’m conscious. Like OH SHOOT I EXIST NO. Then I’d bury my head in my pillow and daydream it away and mutter words over and over again to get back to my normal autopilot state. Well guess what, when I developed into an adult more or less, I lost that ability. Put my hands in front of my face, nope, nothing. Can’t feel my consciousness. Damnit I wish I dwelt more in that conscious state of fear, accepted the fear, overcame that fear, and perpetually lived in that state of self-consciousness. Well that’s gone now and I’m stuck in an autopilot mediocrity. I daydream frequently, have no idea of my place in reality.

[Anonymous No.17438062]

Goodbye, guys. In my own (worthless) opinion you're the only good board/internet space out there and I'm thankful for all the thoughtful, and often insightful posters that make up this community. I'll be taking a hiatus for now and I wish you all the best.

[Anonymous No.17438088]

>>17436203

Feel, man. 9-5 sucks even more than people make it seem, it's wild how many weeks have flown by since I got my first real job. Full time sucks and the only way out seems to be numbing agents or letting the friction wear me down to a nub.

[Anonymous No.17438094]

>>17436210
Sorry for your loss, Anon. I've never actually dealt with loss of that proximity, and I dread it.

[Anonymous No.17438101]

>like more and better science, we are more and better capitalism, to the point where the self may realize the monkey is the consumable

[Anonymous No.17438115]

>>17436210

Sorry for your loss anon. For simple, selfish catharsis, maybe write something for yourself about it? If you can afford it, maybe therapy? You seem like a thoughtful person.

[Anonymous No.17438472]

any good discords /lit/ apart of?

[Anonymous No.17438687]

I wish i could get rid of melancholia.

[Anonymous No.17438705]

>>17436869
It's pretty weird but if it doesn't bother you then don't worry about it

[Anonymous No.17438710]

Joost Lips is so cool. I wish her were more well known.

[Anonymous No.17438741]

Can you guys pray for me, please?
I've been really anxious and full of dread since about six months ago and have been having quasi-delusional intrusive thoughts. Everyday I feel like something horrible is about to happen and the only respite is every day that passes that it doesn't. I know my head's not right but I'm not being able to get ahead of it and leave it behind. Please pray to God for my protection and peace.

[Anonymous No.17438746]

>How in the hell is anyone supposed to make actual money nowadays?
Other than providing a service? Buy bitcoin.

[Anonymous No.17438757]

>>17435732
Menace II Society is good watch also.

[Anonymous No.17438908]

>>17438741
Is there something in particular that you're afraid of happening, or is it an overwhelming random sensation of fear?
There's nothing unchristian about taking medication. I suffer from chronic migraines and panic attacks, I take medication and it makes it possible to function. Intrusive thoughts are horrible too, but it's important to know that the thoughts have no power over you, and it's possible to let them roll over and off of you.

[Anonymous No.17439006]

>>17436613
>>17438094
>>17438115
Thanks anons. I've done therapy before but I don't put enough in to get enough out. In true Texas fashion I got drunk and talked about it with my roommate and brother and that's fine enough for now. There was always the feeling that him and his brother were like mirrors of me and mine, and that I'd see him years from now living his life. Like we lived parallel lives, slightly different but familiar in comforting ways. He was the kind of relative you'd see at a wedding and catch up with. It pains me to think about how his family must feel, and how my Dad must feel. If you can avoid watching your father cry I'd recommend it.

[Anonymous No.17439042]

>>17438908
A few things in particular. I don't want to be too specific, mostly because the content of my delusions stems from some very embarrassing and unreasonable subject matter. It isn't possible for it to be mediated by any rational thought and only seeks to make me sound more unhinged than I am. I'm afraid of where I live; stuff I see in the paper, things I hear outside my window, etc. It feels like a very different place now than the one that I knew growing up and it scares me.
It's a lot of the same anxieties I had as a kid that my parents eventually sought professional counseling for. I eventually learned how to manage it and I guess I slowly forgot just as well.
I worry about stuff that's in my head when I'm not paying attention and if what I'm thinking are my own thoughts.
It's hard to convey the subtleties of these airs without coming off completely insane. Most people can talk to me and never know that my mind is on fire with stuff like this. I suspect this it's coming to affront with the amount of pressure I'm under the next few months. My estranged father that I haven't spoken to in almost seven years called on my birthday and I didn't know what to say so now I'm thinking about that too. Anyways, please pray for me, anon. Pray for my deliverance from evil and the thoughts inside my head. God be with you.

[Anonymous No.17439208]

>>17435732
>I can't understand why shit has to be so bad for them all the time
it's not. they're incredibly well-off and coddled, from my perspective as a not american. i don't know what you're talking about. you seemed to be invested in some hollywood image as reality. all of the actors in that film were born well-off and had good lives, participating in the creation of a mythos for commercial and identity (commercial v2) purposes.

[Anonymous No.17439612]

>>17437064
You're right except for the incel part probably, the reason for his transvestism moreso rests on gender dysphoria being an easier explanation that can be dealt with more comfortably for suffering. I had the same thing myself for 2 years a couple years ago, I realised it was a load of bullshit when I stopped being depressed - my lack of sex never came into it, wasn't fucking then and I ain't fucking now that I'm a mentally healthy straight guy, personally I don't care much for sex. I'm willing to bet he only started having gender dysphoria after finding some tranny community, like the various reddit groups (r traa, gaysoundsshitposts), incredibly insidious places. I've written at length before about how these places manipulate a man into thinking himself a tranny, but in short it starts with relatable memes about depression and playing female video game characters, progresses to calling them an "egg" (someone that is a tranny but just doesn't know it yet), then provides memes on exactly how gender dysphoria feels so that the experience is created rather than discovered - yet to the sufferer it feels to be discovered from a deep repression. At the end of it all, these manipulative communities effectively position themselves as the only place where these young men will be understood and won't be questioned, and so they stay. See it happening to my old friends now and I can't help but feel somewhat responsible for introducing them to this concept they can blame all their problems on.

Best you can do is question your friend on where they hang out online, see if you can't guide him in the direction of concluding himself that there's been some degree of manipulation. Kek, now that I think of it, I think the end of my transvestism alligned with my reading of Ted K's manifesto, perhaps a coincidence. I pity transvestites, they all take part in the manipulation with absolute belief in what they're saying about eggs and "truscum", at least once in a blue moon the result is Ella Hollywood
t. enlightened former tranny

[Anonymous No.17439817]

>>17439612
I know we'll never meet, but this unironically means a lot to me in a very strange and personal way in how it relates to my struggles (I posted in this thread and am now very drunk). I hope you stay mentally healthy, bro. And good on the Teddy K., he's far from my favorite ecologist but as a guy who wants to get into ecological restoration I respect his hustle.

[Anonymous No.17439861]

If there was a world war now I wonder what would fill the role that poetry filled during and just after the first world war

[Anonymous No.17439937]

I knew taking a day off from masturbation would help me get stronger erections, I'm rock hard now.

[Nemo !!GgBWHLRiayD No.17439941]

In love one's body departs as one's soul rises; watching snow fall at a right angle is what it feels like to soar through the stars, similar to drifting asleep in the backseats of one's parents' car to the terrestrial kosmos of nightlights.

The song titled: "Simple and Clean", by: Utada Hikaru, heralded the end of te "Y2K" era for me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h3wQtGc4Vr8

[Anonymous No.17439951]

>>17439937
nice

[Anonymous No.17439993]

>>17435399
Im just cannot accept the current self. I know its beneficial to do so but i just cant.

[Anonymous No.17439999]

>>17435632
I am in a similar situation life-wise. I also held GME until yesterday and sold for a small profit.
You should do the same, I think this will only go down from here.
I will never listen to memes again

[Anonymous No.17440001]

I turn 25 this year. I know that's still relatively young, but it made the pressure to complete at least a draft of a manuscript more pertinent. I have been doing well so far - I'm at about 6000 words after a few weeks. My aim is at least 30,000 - enough to be considered a novella. I can feel myself reaching the first plateau as I run out of all my original ideas and now have to force myself to keep writing to fill in the blanks. Even if I finish a draft and decide its too god awful to ever publish I will feel satisfied.

[Anonymous No.17440052]

Are you a man of class?
Don't be a fool.
You placate her then fondle your limp tool.
On heaven's greenest grass
We'd all be pure
Yet men of sin must love their favoured whore.

[Anonymous No.17440055]

I can't stop fucking up. It's like I just have this innate all-or-nothing suicidal tendency, I can't stay put and think of the future implications of my actions in full, I just have to do utterly ridiculous things because I like the positive implications and ignore the negative. It's because I'm desperate for happiness, I chase every faintly flickering light that promises me relief from my lifelong malaise. Every time I start to feel good about myself and my life, I end up doing something that utterly fucks my shit up and forces me to confront the fact that I'm a weak loser with no skills who never fit in anywhere or knew how to be normal, and that I only felt so good about myself because I was in a state of delusional mania. Every time I start to do well and benefit others I fucking ruin it. And every time it happens it reveals to me that deep down, I really just want to die, or somehow leave society and live some fairytale existence where I don't have to work or participate in society. I'm not cut out for succeeding in this world but now I've done something that requires me to stick around and make life not-too-unbearable for someone else. But I have no skills to pass on, no true wisdom to impart, no example to set. I hate this world but not the people in it. I just want my son to be happy and free.

[Anonymous No.17440067]

>>17439817
To our good health and alleviation of woes brother, God willing my stinginess will pay off and I too can get piss drunk on Japanese whiskeys soon

[Anonymous No.17440199]

I know it's not a unique sentiment but I wish I could put life on pause for at least a fuckin second. A holiday isn't enough, I just need to stop existing for a bit.

[Anonymous No.17440215]

>>17435399
Its so hard for me to live in here and now. I constantly slip up into the regrets of the past or anxiety of the future. I know it would be beneficial for me to concentrate on present moment but i just cant do the leap.

[Anonymous No.17440233]

I miss when I was unemployed, and could lie in bed all day shit posting. Keeping discussion going in multiple threads across different boards simultaneously.

Occasionally getting up to clean the house while drinking coffee and listening to TaTu. I was so much happier then

[Anonymous No.17440242]

>>17440233
KEK is it that bad to have a job and get money? I used to enjoy having something to do.

[Anonymous No.17440268]

>>17440242
I'm much unhappier now that I'm working

[Anonymous No.17440344]

>>17440242
I've heard people on 4chan say when they were neets they spent all their time mindlessly browsing their internet, doing nothing, but when they got a job they actually became happier and started doing stuff.

In my case though, I'm now forced to spend 8+ hours doing something I don't like and that wastes all my energy, if you ask me that's a downgrade from lazily browsing the internet all day.

[Anonymous No.17440357]

Some anons are unironically unable to talk to a woman on tinder and make it so they get to meet her irl. This is pitiful.

[Anonymous No.17440370]

>>17440357
This is what being on /lit/ does to you, anon.

[Anonymous No.17440373]

>>17440357
Whats so pityful about it?

[Anonymous No.17440381]

>>17440373
That people get into this degree of retardation. They are unable to have a conversation with someone who is acting upon primal instincts and yet they manage to be repulsive. As in being less than an animal.

[Anonymous No.17440395]

>>17440381
This is your brain on /lit/.

[Anonymous No.17440634]

I'm seeing the connection between adlerian and humanistic psychology.

[Anonymous No.17440727]

What kind of idea is it to have the lovers day in winter? It's fucking cold and uncomfy outside, colorful flowers don't grow to be gifted... and right now, you can't even run away from the weather and get a hot coffee.

[Anonymous No.17440872]

>>17440727
how does it feel to love and be loved by the same person?

[Anonymous No.17440910]

>>17440727
Cuddle together to stay warm, duh.

[Anonymous No.17440963]

>>17440872
not sure, mate. thought there was something with my last gf, but she broke up with me pretty coldly (was in an affect, obviously when she had her period, I'm a bit of an idiot for not trying harder to save it)

anyway this relationship I'm talking about is very new and we only see each other like once a week so the connection isn't strong (yet, I hope)
>>17440910
good recc!

[Anonymous No.17441119]

>>17436518
just get an abortion

[Anonymous No.17441137]

>>17436928
what has changed?

[Anonymous No.17441153]

I cannot describe how much I loathe jews. I wish every last one of them was dead. Fucking exterminated

[Anonymous No.17441161]

>>17439999
Nah, it was a good plan. Literally just stabbed in the back and had it all stolen by kikes.

Literally the same situation as WW1 germany. I'm never going to forget this or forgive them

[Anonymous No.17441172]

I'm trying to eat walnuts but I'm having a hard time cracking them open, I wish I was stronger so I could just crush them with my hands.

[Anonymous No.17441176]

>>17436518
wtf man, I wish I had a child coming at 24. man up and go find a job, pussy

[Anonymous No.17441191]

One more thing relating to >>17440727, how is flower gifting done? you just give the girl flowers at the start of the date, you then go on a walk and she has to carry it for the rest of the day?

[Anonymous No.17441198]

>>17440199
Same. I want to drop out and go live in a remote cabin somewhere for a year.

[Anonymous No.17441213]

>>17437064
It’s actually very sad how common this story is becoming. It’s a known fact that these people are getting basically psyop’d into being trans and autistics as well as people like you described are much more susceptible to it. You can actually find this on other boards here. People lurk and communicate with other posters and eventually they all end up psyop-ing each other into thinking they’re trans and in fact, their issue is that they’re no longer inhabiting reality. I think it’s so tragic and really insidious. I want to save their souls but I don’t know what I can do.

[Anonymous No.17441223]

At dusk, a figure stole into the husk of a burned building, climbed up the blackened stairs and found the horizon already bleeding with night. The breeze licked at the cut from the razor wire. Far below, the traffic groaned and squealed like distant pigs. He hung his head. His toes were trembling on the precipice. Cars crawled like sugar ants. The dotted line flowed hypnotically, then gradually began to tilt and spin as everything else was washed away from existence. It twirled dizzyingly and the dots grew larger and larger. His snout felt heat but his cheeks were whipped by cold. The fingers of unconsciousness crept up from his neck.

Suddenly he woke with a start and in a single moment the breeze and honks and birdsong and sharp gravel made themselves more real to him than ever before. But under the sun’s dying warmth and shivering from sweat, everything seemed to be draped in a thin veil of dreams, ready to fade away at the faintest touch. It was then that he knew the world was ending.

[Anonymous No.17441224]

>>17441191
Yes, she has to carry them around if you meet for a date somewhere, which is why it's best to get a single rose and leave large bouquets for delivery at some point later. If you are picking her up at her place, then it doesn't really matter since she can just put them in a vase right away.

[Anonymous No.17441228]

>>17439612
>I'm willing to bet he only started having gender dysphoria after finding some tranny community, like the various reddit groups (r traa, gaysoundsshitposts), incredibly insidious places. I've written at length before about how these places manipulate a man into thinking himself a tranny, but in short it starts with relatable memes about depression and playing female video game characters, progresses to calling them an "egg" (someone that is a tranny but just doesn't know it yet), then provides memes on exactly how gender dysphoria feels so that the experience is created rather than discovered - yet to the sufferer it feels to be discovered from a deep repression.
Absolutely spot on. It’s never happened to me but I’ve seen exactly this happen to people on this site even. It’s a big psyop and they’re all psyop-ing each other. It’s one of the most tragic things. How do/did you recover from that period? What if you take it to far?

[Anonymous No.17441236]

>>17441213
I've detranser too, dead end job, lost a bunch in the stock market. No family or friends.

Stopped drinking, but there's literally point in being sober no. There's no future. I've tried playing the game and doing things like I'm supposed to, but you'll just get exploited, scammed and gyped.

There's literally no reason a white male shouldn't become a criminal anarch at this point. This whole fucking culture is rotted to it's core and needs to be burned down

[Anonymous No.17441249]

Dreamed that I was walking past my elementary school on the first day of a new year. Students packed in the yard, awful faces full of silent despair. Though I saw one of my former friends inside but it wasn't him. Parents leaving just as the students entered the school, some were very tall, uncanny shapes, not human. A couple with a baby in a stroller were staring at the main entrance, very excited that "it turned out great", something terribly obscene. The windows had very complex metal fixtures holding them open, the classrooms' ceiling was metallic too. Two giant dog-headed bats whose bodies looked and moved as if they were invertebrate, previously clinging upside-down to the wall, moved to a balcony and lied down like dogs. Very sad, I started slowly walking home. Decided to go down a street that I have never went down before, that was always there in the dream city but not in the real one. It was narrow. Inside a wall there was an impressionist statue of Jesus carrying a cube-cross, as the one pictured, on his shoulder. A man sitting down at a round table on the sidewalk, reading a book, saw me and said "he (as if I knew who he meant) said the worst thing in the world is that wall going up". I realized or recalled that a wall of wet concrete was erecting itself around the school every day of the new year.

[Anonymous No.17441258]

>>17438088
>>17436203
9-5s are unethical. i wanted to kill myself after a year of that in college.

[Anonymous No.17441266]

>>17441172
Get one of those funnel nutcracker tools, if that doesn't do the trick then you really need to work on those muscles.

[Anonymous No.17441284]

>>17441266
I think I have one of those in my house, I just don't know where the hell I've put it, right now I'm using a knife to open them.

[Anonymous No.17441294]

>>17441224
thanks mate

[Anonymous No.17441410]

What are good day jobs for aspiring writers? I am a financial analyst with an economics degree and this is not working for multiple reasons.

[Anonymous No.17441441]

>>17441236
>I've detranser too
?
> This whole fucking culture is rotted to it's core and needs to be burned down
I won’t say I disagree but I want to know what you would have differently? Is it a thing where you feel like you can’t get ahead economically, socially? I wonder if our conclusion is the same for different reasons.

[Anonymous No.17441474]

>>17441441
I'm a white guy now. And the culture is so hostile to people like me
>Can't get education
>Or a good job
>Can't vote
>Can't try to get ahead
>Tracked every second of every day
>Can't have a family
>Can't have a community
>Impossible to find a partner now
>Corona lockdowns
>market filled with cheap drugs and porn

This is the most oppressive society in human history

I can just imagine the grinning kike trying to goad us into actually revolting, so they can clap us down harder, and harder.

Clamped, tagged, marked.

A boot stomping on humanities face for the rest of eternity.

I have constant suicidal ideation for the past few months. Things seem utterly hopeless.

Really only reading Ezra Pound broadcasts gives me any hope now

[Anonymous No.17441479]

>>17441224
>If you are picking her up at her place, then it doesn't really matter since she can just put them in a vase right away.
this sounds so nice. she coes home after and is greeted by it

[Anonymous No.17441586]

>>17435399
>How in the hell is anyone supposed to make actual money nowadays?

HEAD LIKE A HOLE
https://youtu.be/cV2EUUF47Ms

[Anonymous No.17441703]

I have a phenibut addiction

[Anonymous No.17441712]

>>17441228
It's hard to pinpoint exactly how I recovered, but at some point I read enough views contrary to my own to provoke true introspection on my beliefs and emotions. Once I realised my gender dysphoria was an artifically constructed goal of great difficulty to fulfill, my depression along with my dysphoria disappeared. But that's all posthoc hypothesising really - my memories fucked from that period from some combination of drug abuse and repression, what I can say has helped me for sure in my post-transvestite years is emotional control and getting a different group of friends that don't know about that time (an obvious one, it helps to be known as a confident heterosexual among your peers rather than a former tranny/alcoholic). By emotional control I mean the realisation that fundamentally it's all a spook, emotions are just thought with directions and speeds, and can thus be easily guided towards contentment, I practically never get stressed anymore as I used to.

If you take it too far, as in genital surgery, then I suppose you're a bit fucked and would need a lot of time to come to accept it. HRT can somewhat be reveresed, I'm just glad I never got the chance to take it that far because of my countries archaic healthcare system. For me the only permanent step I took that's persisted was engaging in self-harm. That's another aspect of these transvestite communities beneath the surface. They often talk about hurting themselves to cope (for as edgy as it is, it does provide temporary relief), and so the manipulated individual becomes aware of that as an option to cope with their new found gender dysphoria. It's a memetic hazard: simply by these communities telling people that self-harm exists, people become more likely to engage it. Of course there's sizable communities for self-harm too, which are filled with "relatable" memes and are frequently linked to from the trans ones. Only real option to deal with the scars I got is to get surgery, and I aint got that money, so I simply accept them. One things for sure, and that's that I won't giving my children unrestricted internet access until they're 18
>>17441236
iktf anon. Sometimes I'm brutally reminded that this world is hopeless, but it's nothing a walk in the forest can't fix. There's few purer joys in this world than watching the birds flitting between the trees

[Anonymous No.17441727]

>>17441703
Better than a more dangerous chemical.
Did it start with an anti-anxiety prescription? Got worse because of the lockdown?
Anyway, wish you good luck tackling the addiction.

[Anonymous No.17441754]

I'm in trouble. The person who I was living with and who has basically been my sole human contact is leaving for a month and I'm going to be alone. Meanwhile I've been nursing an amphetamine addiction, basically becoming more of an angry machine with each day. I feel as if though if I am not just wildly productive at all times then I will become conscious of my isolation. The moment I step away from it is the moment the darkness creeps in.

I guess depending how you look at it this is a beneficial arrangement because if I am driven by necessity to be super-productive this will cut a path forward through the murk. Unless I drop dead.

[Anonymous No.17441779]

>she compares herself with the zoomie because of how much similar they're
Truth is I liked the dumb zoomie once I figured him out I've dealt with people like him in the past and that's why I didn't want him to get too attached.
Unrelated but since you told me yours I'm 26.

[Anonymous No.17441973]

>>17439861
I think something like the media and music that clings to the image of "Vietnam". Documental footage, amateur reporters and protest songs.

>>17440199
>>17441198
You fellas are taking the words from my mouth.

What's up with wanting to talk when you know you have nothing to say? Suspect. I guess I'll tell you that Pavement is my favourite band and that I am tired. Think I might get way into poetry and pot this year. It's the perfect time, I can feel it.

[Anonymous No.17442088]

My job is the single biggest source of depression in my life.

[Anonymous No.17442185]

>>17442088
Retail?

[Anonymous No.17442190]

>>17441712
>I won't giving my children unrestricted internet access until they're 18
the word is very rapidly becoming a place where this isn't even remotely viable. things are changing. and I mean that in a very sinister sense.

[Anonymous No.17442272]

>>17439612
I've often wondered that a lot of the men who come out as trans in later years do so because they identify that their feminine spirit is who they truly are, and choose not to grapple with two aspects of a "soul" i.e. one feminine and one masculine.

[Anonymous No.17442314]

>>17442272
That strangely reminds me of Anima possession.

[Anonymous No.17442318]

>>17442185
No. I’m a financial analyst.

[Anonymous No.17442329]

>>17441474
Are you religious?

[Anonymous No.17442337]

>>17441712
Do you ever have a hard time with people knowing how you were like back then or even you knowing what you were like back then? I’d think there would be at least a few people, family or something, who know you now and knew you then. What’s that like?

[Anonymous No.17442341]

>>17441754
>if I am driven by necessity to be super-productive this will cut a path forward through the murk
Correct but only if you choose to pick up the cross and bear it.

[Anonymous No.17442369]

>>17441474
>cant vote
are you a felon or something?

[Anonymous No.17442371]

>>17442272
>>17442314
Thats exactly what it is. Trannyism is just autogynephilia in a world where every major institution is tell you "yes you can become a woman!" An inability to grapple with and acknowledge your feminine anima doesn't make it not exist, on the contrary it pushes it beneath your liminality.

[Anonymous No.17442392]

>>17442329
No. I was raised calvinist, so never again

[Anonymous No.17442412]

>>17442371
in the same vein, those men who reject their femininity get increasingly masculine in an attempt to hide those feelings as they interpret it as an attack on their masculinity.

[Anonymous No.17442446]

>>17442369
The 2020 stolen election

[Anonymous No.17442457]

>>17442446
oh my apologies you are the most oppressed person in the history of the world

[Anonymous No.17442475]

>>17435443
>>17435505


>actually falling hook line and sinker for a basic pump and dump

[Anonymous No.17442510]

>>17442337
Yeah there's my family and friends that I mainly keep in contact with online. Past the awkward part of explaining that this incredible source of suffering I had previously described to them had just vanished, it's been alright. People I knew then are mainly just happy that I'm not on death's door every few months anymore, never faced any criticism or difficulty for detransitioning. It's still a bit uncomfortable when interacting with family (even extended family I didn't personally come out to back when I was a transvestite) due to the unstated fact that I know they know I used to be a depressed transvestite. Even if it's never explicitly referred to, it's a bother to have that vulnerability known to others. But really those are all minor concerns that only pop up rarely, 99% of the time I have a fine time

[Anonymous No.17442533]

Male culture is incredibly nihilistic and stifling

[Anonymous No.17442540]

>>17436518
>pray for abortion
I don’t think this works

[Anonymous No.17442558]

>apply for job wherein I meet all the qualifications
>get a rejection notice
>"your skillset is impressive anon but at this time we have chosen to go with another applicant
>two weeks later see that same job with same qualifications gets listed again

suicidal ideation goes UP UP UP!

[Anonymous No.17442588]

>>17438741
Done

[Anonymous No.17442591]

>>17442558
their loss

[Anonymous No.17442619]

>>17439612
I hate myself for knowing who Ella Hollywood is

[Anonymous No.17442635]

>>17439612
If you like Ted I think you should check out this guy
Also he’s trying to start a community of anti tech people
https://youtu.be/iy7STnBljrk

[Anonymous No.17442676]

>>17440001
you can do it just keep writing every day. you will reach your goal and have a fleeting moment of self-satisfaction and then you will read the manuscript and be overcome with self-loathing during the editing process. you will reach a point of fatalistic indifference and it will be done, your first manuscript

[Anonymous No.17442686]

>>17441441
Utopian worlds don’t work the way they should. I.e. communism Best just to burn down the whole system

[Anonymous No.17442763]

>>17442558
At least you got a rejection notice. All my applications get ignored completely.

[Anonymous No.17442814]

>>17442392
That’s a pretty typical response from someone coming from a Calvinist, Protestant, or other Evangelical background actually and given that context, it’s understandable. Still, I’d encourage you to look to spirituality and if I can recommend any one method in particular it would be Orthodoxy. The books of Fr. Seraphim Rose might interest you. Jay Dyer’s YouTube channel might also hold your interest. Even if you’re don’t take my advice here, I sympathize and wish you well.

[Anonymous No.17442823]

>>17442510
If you were my family, I would just be so happy that you’re “better” if you know what I mean. You should consider writing about your experiences, even if it never sees any eyes but your own.

[Anonymous No.17442841]

>>17442763
>tfw you become happy if you get rejection notice
peak absurdism

[Anonymous No.17442849]

>>17442814
That's all still kike shit

[Anonymous No.17442854]

>>17440001
Do it. I’m 27 and I wish I felt a bit of pressure when I was 25. I didn’t and here I am having written very little but wanting to honestly.

[Anonymous No.17442870]

>>17438741
Keep fighting the good fight and God bless you, anon.

[Anonymous No.17442871]

>>17442763
This is the only rejection letter after 100 applications

[Anonymous No.17442879]

https://www.youtube.com/c/Universit%C3%A9PopulairedeMarseille/playlists

[Anonymous No.17442885]

>>17442849
Ignorance isn’t a strength. Either way, good luck to you.

[Anonymous No.17442899]

>one chance at life
>born an ugly manlet to a divorced family
At least i can sit at home all day and play/watch/read. Don't know how i would have coped if i was born 100 years ago.

[Anonymous No.17442906]

>>17442899
Probably alcohol.

[Anonymous No.17442919]

>>17442899
A lot of us are born to divorced families these days so that’s one thing to consider. As for your ugly manlet-ness, I suspect it’s not so bad as you think.

[Anonymous No.17442936]

anyone here have a degree in polisci? what do yo do and do you feel your training applies to what you work with?

[Anonymous No.17442953]

>>17442371
>An inability to grapple with and acknowledge your feminine anima
how would... how does any of this work, basically? it's a recurring theme in mysticism I think, the idea that every person is an expression of masculine and feminine. I'm raised by progressives, and so without a real preconception of masculine and feminine. Thus the idea that they could exist as ideals somewhere in the subconscious is difficult to grapple with, although I do believe mankind is supposed to be this dualism of male and female, which do have some form of character associated with them (for instance action/passivity)

[Anonymous No.17443024]

Another day where I wake up feeling bad. It's a direct consequence of decisions I made last night, but will I learn from it? Probably not. I won't make the same mistake tonight, nor tomorrow, but soon enough I'll be back at it. Isn't that bad? I've tried to be healthy, to live a normal life, but something pulls me back every time. Like being a gambler or an alcoholic. That kinda feel

[Anonymous No.17443027]

Selfies harmed again today. Punching my thighs. They much more sore now than they usually do after. Really bad mental health day

[Anonymous No.17443033]

>>17442953
>how does any of this work, basically?
It doesn’t. It’s all Freudian/Lacanian/Jungian nonsense and the results speak to just how dangerous they are.

[Anonymous No.17443035]

>>17443027
sorry to hear that anon, hope things turn around for you soon

[Anonymous No.17443057]

>>17442588
>>17442870
Thank you, brothers. God bless you.

[Anonymous No.17443091]

I thought of a new fallacy:
appeal to logic

[Anonymous No.17443105]

I ordered a book on the 22nd of January.
It was dispatched on the 28th of January.
It still hasn't arrived.
I've almost finished the book I'm currently on.
I have a very specific reading order I'm trying to adhere to this year, and slow postage is throwing a fucking spanner in the works.
It better arrive tomorrow.
And they'd better dispatch the books I ordered on the 27th sharpish, so they arrive early next week.
Or I'll be really fucking annoyed.
I've finally mustered the motivation to commit myself to reading and I've had a good past couple of months, and now I'm being held up because of bullshit.

[Anonymous No.17443109]

it was a day. I meditated a little. it's going better, it is less and less about looking for rad, trippy experiences and more and more just about holding to simplicity. I can sit longer, although still not very long, whereas before I think I could not sit for so long because I concentrated too hard and it causes something to rebel or demand a rest or something. I read a fair amount, read religious texts, read a chapter from a really cool novel my sister gave me for christmas, read for uni. Not a lot but a fair amount. I need to read more for uni and focus less on religion. I don't want to, but I don't want to become a religious leader professionally, so it is what it is. I talked to a friend about emotional things. I hope I was able to support him with his job-struggles. He's a fine man. I was fairly physically active today. I did yoga. Yoga is tough man, really tough. I couldn't quite follow the whole video, I had to take breaks. The instructor is wayy too fucking preppy, she is quite annoying, but I'm continuing on with her as my instructor as I feel somewhat familiar now. I took a fairly long walk. It snowed a lot here lately, which is nice. Kids go on sleighs right under my window. Often I pray with childrens laughter as a chorus. I felt down when I walked. For a number of months now there haven't been more than 4 or 5 days in a row without some major personal development happening, a lot of it quite difficult. I feel as though I am being reintroduced to the world. Mostly it feels good but it has been a long string of demanding personal experiences. The one I'm currently in has me feeling quite sad. I wonder what a human being truly needs. One religious teaching says to take from this world only what one needs. I feel as though I need more than what I am getting, and so I feel sorrow and incomplete. Tomorrow I need to start setting up a better work-routine in order to safe-guard my work for uni. I don't... hate it. I'm somewhat indifferent to it. When I was walking I was considering switching majors. If I was to switch I'd get into biology. But I turn 30 soon and have gotten nowhere. I need to be something, I can not go on with indecision, I think, and the major I have chosen (>>17442936) seems like it could fit me in a number of ways. Ideally one can truly become a public servant, if so I think it could make for a fine enough life, but I worry that my lack of passion for the subject itself will show and that I will struggle to find employment.

[Anonymous No.17443117]

>>17443091
based

[Anonymous No.17443165]

>coomer book turns into existential dread agian

[Anonymous No.17443176]

>>17443105
Just change up the order of your reading a little, ez

[Anonymous No.17443188]

I really liked the Courage to be Disliked book.

[Anonymous No.17443221]

>>17443027
I hope you find another way to cope anon, been there too and I know how hard it is to find anything else that compares. It's best really to be nature, or at least to watch it wherever it comes, puts the mind at rest like nothing else
>>17442823
>consider writing about your experiences
That's a good idea, might do just that

[Anonymous No.17443226]

>>17443109
Even though I don’t think you meant to
Your prose is nice

[Anonymous No.17443274]

>>17443176
But that would fuck everything up, anon. The books I want to read after the ones that are yet to arrive, I want to read within the fullest framework of understanding I hope to glean from the books that are yet to arrive.
I almost exclusively read nonfiction fwiw.

[Anonymous No.17443285]

>>17443274
just slog on as it comes and if it goes over a year then it does. worry about that then, there's gonna be all kinds of shit happening before then

[Anonymous No.17443298]

>>17443285
It should be all smooth sailing after these 3 particular books arrive. Everything else planned out for this year I already have. Having said that, I'm always liable to discover other books cited in books I have as I read them.

[Anonymous No.17443315]

I have a goal I'm saving up for ($32k).

I live very frugally and can save about $1k a month from waging. What's the best way I can get returns or nterest on what I save?
Savings account? Stock funds? Crypto investment?

I already have 10k saved up

[Anonymous No.17443380]

>>17443315
odd question for /lit/.
A savings account is safe, but it will give you shit returns, especially given annual inflation will practically always exceed any interest paid into your savings account. I'd still keep about 50% of my savings in a savings account, or at least up to a cap of what I felt would be reasonable emergency funds.
As for the other 50%, it might be worth looking into private equity crowdfunding platforms like Seedrs. I've maintained a portfolio on Seedrs for the last 5 years and overall it's massively outperformed what the money would've done in a savings account. It does rely on a diverse portfolio though. Practically all the growth I have ever seen in my portfolio comes from two companies I invested in, and a solid 80% of that growth from a single company. But say if, every 2 months, you check on a platform like Seedrs (and I mean, Seedrs has been developing its internal secondary market which is why I'm recommending it as it will allow you to sell your equity and give you some cash solvency a bit more easily), every 2 months just check which pitches are currently raising money and judge for yourself which seem to be offering the most viable products or services, invest in that. So in a year you'd have a grand in half a dozen different companies, you'd only need one to take off to outperform a savings account, and you benefit from the due diligence Seedrs performs to minimise your risk of investing in lemons.

[Anonymous No.17443570]

all life happens in the space between water evaporating from the ocean, leaving salt behind, raining down as fresh water and then pouring back down into the ocean. All the water in your body is maintaining you on its way back to the ocean, and the same is true of all life.

dude

[Anonymous No.17443646]

>>17435443
Buy GRT if you are looking for a long term cozy hold. It's a decentralized API to index blockchains so other decentralized protocols don't have to use a centralized product like etherscan or waste 100s of hours writing their own indexer. If It's of any importance the guy who saved me from losing 200$ instead of 20$ by selling yesterday is also long on GRT.

[Anonymous No.17443668]

>>17436518
Get started in the trades and bust your ass to get through your apprenticeship and get into higher paying journeyman jobs so money won't be an issue. And stop taking drugs. If she actually is pregnant and you guys actually have a baby it's your duty to love the child. A neglectful father is one of the worst things you can be.

[Anonymous No.17443694]

>>17438741
Have you been drinking lots of caffine/energy drinks? I almost had a psychotic breakdown because I was drinking them all the time and I became hyper paranoid.

[Anonymous No.17443728]

>>17443694
not that anon, but I remember you posting about that a few weeks ago.

[Anonymous No.17443738]

>>17443728
I think this is my first ever post on /lit/ I'm just board touring. Must be a common problem. It was a great mindset to watch serial experiments Lain with and read about accelerationism.

[Anonymous No.17443745]

>>17439941
This is really good.

[Anonymous No.17443749]

>>17443738
I might have seen you on a different board. either that, or there's more than one anon who's experienced psychosis from high caffeine intake.

[Anonymous No.17443765]

>>17443694
None more than usual. Less coffee if anything.

[Anonymous No.17444621]

why do people on this board post so much christcuck shit.

sure you may feel emotionally fulfilled for your life, but your grandkids are just going to fall into the same jew worshipping trap xtianity has always had. seems very short sighted and narcissistic to me

[Anonymous No.17445020]

Just let me wander about in the sun, please. I am so full of contemplative thoughts, I am of no use in a office where I just stare at the wall all day thinking of 'out there'. I like to feel the sun on my skin and exercise always uncorks those knotty thoughts that paralyse my mind.

[Anonymous No.17445040]

Make a series of photographs of chance encountered people sharing a set of headphones to listen to music one of the earpieces in one person's ear the second in the other's

[Anonymous No.17445214]

Once upon a time there was a king seated on a sofa who said to his loved one tell me a story and the story began once upon a time there was king drive the tractor through muddy terrain in the autumn create tractor tires with relief carvings that tell circular stories

[Anonymous No.17445247]

>>17435399
I have pretty garbage social skills sometimes. I couldn't have mishandled a conversation today with an old flame worse. The pandemic doesn't help. There's no way to go to a party and brush up on thee old conversational skills with people you're not used to talking to.

[Anonymous No.17445381]

As Baudrillard predicted, nostalgia is all around us, in the form of simulacra and imagery which have come to replace true reality. It’s in the spiral-filament bulbs that light your local coffee shop, in high street clothes, typography, food. Fashions have always come back around again, but now we are living through a kind of Dadaist cut-up of eras, in which brands and companies borrow from, adapt and disrupt any and all time periods; it’s all up for grabs, provided it’s old. It's an aesthetic vintage fashion meant on recreating the 20th century, but a simulation of it. Fashion styles, aesthetics, pop culture artifact, images, it all becomes warped in the cyberspace and spectacle.

Politics, like fashion, is dependent on surface appearances. A great deal depends on the pre-cognitive prestige of technology which gives us understanding that humans master technology and not that technology has mastered us. Life has become a museum, it has become image, art to be manipulated and painted over like a canvas. The machines become one with the humans and off we go, we can immerse ourselves in any image we like that is packaged to us in an archetype we understand. Places like this site are an example, the line between real interaction and simulated interaction with anonymous entities becomes blurred and it is an easy place to sink time into due to the sort of low stakes socialization here lacking any hallmarks of socialization.

Of course it's a one-way street. We have no stakes in this action, our identity is detached from our post. You have no idea of this person who is posting or their history. You are just throwing ideas into the void. It is not socialization but a simulacra of it. The socializing makes the specific and social human interaction merely myopic and more or less unintentional and idiosyncratic. Of course there are analogies to apply to what I am writing, it's all a matter of taste and interpretation and meta-accretion, but it is also an attempt to make sense of this hyperreal zone in an era where we are one with it, how to appreciate and play with dead tech, dead media, dead sites, dead knowledge and ghosts to create something meaningful

[Anonymous No.17445512]

>>17441474
schizo

[Anonymous No.17445675]

My life is the single biggest source of depression in my job.

[Anonymous No.17445941]

>>17436869
covert incest

[Anonymous No.17445966]

>>17436928
Average. Feel average.

[Anonymous No.17445988]

>>17441153
That sucks, man. Hope it gets better.

[Anonymous No.17446641]

Im running away yet again

[Anonymous No.17446685]

>>17435399
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WEMCYBPUR00
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9KQJUhH_dUk
There's something about "pumped up" songs like the ones I linked above that makes me sad. It's like dancing in a nightclub while bleeding out. There's a sense of loss, I guess, of hollow joy and smiles that don't reach the eyes. They are pretty generic EDM/rap songs but to me, they'd fit right in in a death scene in a movie or something.

[Anonymous No.17446725]

I toasted this in another bread but I gave it more thought.

Okay, here's an interesting enquiry of mine that is currently a mystery that is related to philosophy.
It has to do with abductive reasoning and the validity of explanatory power.
Basically, why should a hypothesis which answers more questions as to why or how, or one that is considered a fuller and clearer depiction of reality, be superior or more plausible by default?

Here's what I came up with. Beliefs need support (that's what reason is, sufficient grounds for belief). If under scrutiny, there is no ostensible reason for a thing under one hypothesis, and there is a logical explanation for it under another, in the latter case it naturally finds greater support or is more reasonable.

[Anonymous No.17446756]

>>17436203
You are not alone. Maybe we will cross paths sometime

[Anonymous No.17446796]

>>17435399
Fear is the ultimate killer, the ultimate weapon and the ultimate punishment. It is pain coupled with fear that makes pain hurt even more. Physical pain goes so far, but when injected with fear, it becomes seemingly impossible to escape. The worst thing about death isn't the loss, but the collective fear. Its like a feedback loop, the sadness, depression, crying. Everyone wants to shake a warm hand and all they see is a broken mirror of themselves. Fear is the gluey malaise that keeps society running as it is. It is what keeps us normal and moral. It is negation, rather than affirmation. We live in a way to protect ourselves rather than to attack what is against us. We have no joy, only a comparison of our nicety against the disgust. We don't sing, but we say that talking loudly is better than talking softly, or vice versa. We don't make change, but we say one is less evil than the other. And when we act in-authentically, it is through fear. And it is in fear we say and do all those things.

[Anonymous No.17446829]

>>17446796
>fear of death
It's strange. IRL I've never really worried about it, and when the topic comes up I rely on what my faith has to say. But one night I had a dream where... well, I was a very evil person, and I was going to be hung. In my dream my colleague and I were arguing that we had the right to a trial. Of course, I had no expectation of being acquitted (in the dream), but the fear of death being so close, a painful one at that, was heavy on my mind. When I woke up I had a lot to think about.

[Anonymous No.17446869]

>>17445381
How to escape from simulation?

[Anonymous No.17446889]

What's the literary equivalent of denpa visual novels?

[Anonymous No.17447224]

>>17436928
This is gonna sound like a huge cope, but character is more important than intelligence.

[Anonymous No.17447249]

>>17441474
You spend too much time online

[Anonymous No.17447319]

I think I am going to be buying a boat finally, it will be my new home and I will travel about the world. I am not sure if this is a beginning or an end. When I first started down this path it was out of a desire to see the world and not have to live a life dictated by the paying of bills, but a great deal has happened since then. I have had many set backs and have had to completely start over more than once. I have lost everything including my direction, a great deal has happened and it is difficult to see this as anything but escape. In the next few months I will have to get rid of much of what has been my life for the past decade and this will be my life for the next few months, after that my life will become preparing for what my life will become, it is very difficult to see things as what will be instead of what is. What is, is all my life has been for as long as I can remember and it is difficult to let that go.

I find it alien to think of the future, but it feels good to see something beyond the status quo for a change. I do not know if this is me leaving people and society for good or just a change in my relation to people and society, I do know it feels good to see something else than the present for a change.

[Anonymous No.17447356]

>>17447319
>t. drunk

And what of it? Still going to be buying a boat if the next week or two.

[Anonymous No.17447448]

I cant seem to fully immerse into surroundings. Theres like an invisible barrier between me and objects.

[Anonymous No.17447456]

>>17447319
If it all works out for you make sure to spare some time to show us a few pictures

[Anonymous No.17447495]

(Google translate)

I do not understand where I went wrong, this is a recurring thought that I face numerous times during the days and one does not escape, sometimes it is a disease of the soul but other times if God wants a trifle, certain that although I am constantly growing I do I come to the head and I have noticed how certain childish thoughts are still totally valid, I let myself be transported as on a horse that despite being old and sickly runs like a young thoroughbred stallion, towards unknown lands that offer no answers. I consider myself a character in place with the head, well integrated into society for good or bad, but when that feeling of lack reappears then I get off my pedestal from which I stand on alcoholics, drug addicts and fools and become the last of the last, the clochard in the race that for some seems to be the reason for living and in which I apparently have severed legs, crawling in the dust laboriously making a meter while questionable elements make the kilometers and double or triple me, as if they even had some sort of doping inside the body. Feeling like a stranger, an alien, a misfit, all for that thing I've never had and I haven't the faintest idea how to get it, despite spinning the gears of my mind that sometimes seem so brilliant to me. yet he fails to come to the head of a question that seems very simple even for those whom I consider inferior in many respects but when it comes to that they trample me, two kicks from them and two from their consort to me on the ground while I gasp without legs in a state of perpetual misery my fine brain can't find an obviously obvious solution even to donkeys.

[Anonymous No.17447593]

>>17435399
you're not supposed to you will own nothing and you WILL be happy

[Anonymous No.17447660]

>>17447456
it will and will do.

[Anonymous No.17447798]

>>17447319
you don't just "buy a boat and travel", sailing is difficult you know

[Anonymous No.17447808]

>>17446829
>IRL I've never really worried about it
Perhaps that's because you've never felt its presence. When you find yourself on the doorstep to an abyss and know you're about to be pushed through, you may feel differently.

[Anonymous No.17447854]

I just want to get horribly drunk every night but feeling hungover is awful

[Anonymous No.17447856]

This guy is my friend's cousin. He told me that when cousin was growing up, he'd often hit himself, stand in a corner, stare at the wall for hours, and grumble and make strange noises. Now he's a personal trainer, or at least trying to be one. The man has a certified mental disability and yet he looks so happy. I don't have a mental disability, or at least not one so severe, yet I'm not happy

https://www.psb-academy.edu.sg/campus-life/student-stories/chia-wei-yao-terence

[Anonymous No.17447892]

>>17447856
You just need something to really focus your effort on, like that guy did. One of the things that I think screws up happiness for most people in contemporary times is that they have too many choices and poor guidance through childhood.
I don't have a magical solution, best I can tell you is to try out stuff till it hits you just right.

[Anonymous No.17447897]

>>17447856
You are happy, you're just too mentally disabled to realise it

[Anonymous No.17447904]

>>17435437
Cash Payments, fiat currency, you know what I mean?

[Anonymous No.17447970]

>>17447892
I'm currently undergoing training to be a manager. But I feel restless.

>>17447897
I wish I could be happy telling people how to exercise all day

[Anonymous No.17448043]

>>17443570
>what are fish

[Anonymous No.17448068]

>>17447970
It's just fear of screwing up, perfectly normal, once you actually start doing the job and get into the routine you will be laughing at yourself.

[Anonymous No.17448195]

It's the same shit over and over and over over and over and over and over and over over and over and over and over and over over and over and over and over and over over and over and over and over and over over and over and over and over and over over and over and over again.

[Anonymous No.17448420]

I have no more excuses. My bank account will soon drop to zero. My parents don't know what to do. I have to get a job. Any job. It doesn't matter. I have to at least try. If it doesn't work out then I'm fucked but at least I can say u tried. This is no longer acceptable. I have drawn this NEET phase out for too long. I'm not completely retarded and also I don't want to be dependent from the money and mercy of other people. Neither from the state nor from family. I have to do something. It doesn't matter what the result is. Doing nothing is the worst thing to do in any regard. I'm too old for that. The only morally correct thing to do otherwise would be suicide. But I'm not there yet. So I have to get busy living. Take the wageslave bullet.

[Anonymous No.17448515]

I'd rather gnaw my own leg off than keep working in an office. God this is a fate worse than death

[Anonymous No.17448697]

>>17448515
Same. I’m quitting. I just don’t know what for yet. If I have to hear “data-driven” or pretend I’m all about being “data-driven” one more time, I just might snap. This life is hell.

[Anonymous No.17448848]

>>17447448
just be yourself xD

[Anonymous No.17449384]

My body is irrevocably ruined by testosterone

[Anonymous No.17449549]

>>17448515
tell me about your troubles. my expected career-path involves offices

[Anonymous No.17449555]

>>17449384
what happen

[Anonymous No.17449583]

>>17441172
Cracking walnuts with your hands does not take much strength, you just need to know the trick, two nuts in your hand, squeeze them into each other instead of just trying to brute force it. Lining them up so they push against each others seam generally helps, but it varies, but eventually you will just do it automatically without thinking.

[Anonymous No.17449675]

>>17449549
>Deluge of pajeet vendors, none of whom can speak English
>Managers don't know the process
>Subject matter experts don't know anything
>Coworkers don't know anything
>You don't know anything
>No documentation for anything, you literally have to write down everything people say and date it because official sources haven't been updated in years
>Sales are absolute mouth breathers
>Procedures change by the week, but they don't update shit. Have to make your own guides for literally every aspect of your job
>Mathematically impossible to come back from a single error (you have to exceed "outstanding" productivity to even get enough work audits to average out a single error)
>Tom of different spreadsheets floating around.
>Different departments change their contact info without telling anyone
>Way too many forms and requirements to keep track of
>Constantly stressed out, cry a few times a week.
>Wfh, so you can't turn off at the end of the shift
All for 2% yearly raise. $19 an hour

I gave this job a solid year and I'm realizing it isn't ever getting better.
Actively looking for something new. Even a cashier job would be better at this point

[Anonymous No.17449740]

I’ve been looking for a way out of my job and today my parents asked me to come work for them. I don’t know if I should do it. I’m still going to hate it and it’s a job I know I’ll hate and have no interest in. I’m not sure if I’m even qualified and I’d hate to do it only to leave a few months later.

[Anonymous No.17449761]

>>17435399
So isn't Carnap's logical principle of verification kind of subjective? I mean, it just comes back to your own (metaphysical) framework.

[Anonymous No.17449782]

>>17449675
For me, it’s just the whole culture and way you have to be working in an office. It’s all the buzzwords, fake personalities, networking, feeling like you have to spending your life caring so much about things that are totally worthless and thus your life is basically worthless. There’s this mask I’m supposed to wear and I just struggle to wear it and not want to actually kill myself. My problem is I have no alternatives.

[Anonymous No.17449844]

>>17449782
Ngl, I've struggled with suicidal ideation pretty much my entire time here. But I don't have a degree cause homeschooled.

Might just OD on booze and phenibut tonight.

[Anonymous No.17449866]

>>17449844
Don’t do that. I think I might try to go teach English abroad or something since I have a degree and they don’t care what it’s in.

[Anonymous No.17449950]

>>17447798
>sailing is difficult you know
Let me tell you about what I do know, I know enough to not make assumptions about people and their experience, knowledge and skills.

Sailing is not difficult, you would not want to attempt a major passage on your first outing, but you can certainly go to the next town down the shore if the forecast suits. Repeat. You are now traveling the world in a boat and it won't be long before you are good enough to make some small one or two day open water crossings.

[Anonymous No.17450352]

>>17447448
anyone?

[Anonymous No.17450407]

What is essential to our experience is its communication with other bodies or other idea. Recognition of shared but separate consciousnesses creates communication, and communication drives human progression. This is what creates action, discourse, exchange of information, and group formation. Movement is made by active thinking, which is moved by concepts and communication of concept.

Individual beings and consciousness are recognized, understood and interplaying with one another. The concrete substance of reality and truth are results of our consciousnesses coming to common understandings through dynamic communication. The centrality is achieved by the union of sensuality, recognition of our being, and mutual recognition of others as separate but conscious beings.

[Anonymous No.17450518]

The concrete substance of reality and truth is a product of human consciousness coming to common knowledge through dynamic communication. Nevertheless, the material is important for the actual experience of connection through which there is a sense of agency. The sensation is what responds to the demand for connection in the life force. The response to this demand is action. Action is the response to the demand for the movement of the physical and physiological process, in the process of recognition is the action.

[Anonymous No.17450533]

Do any of you have a deep affinity for the literature of a country that’s not your own, perhaps even over that of your own?

[Anonymous No.17450539]

>>17450352
I’m not sure what you mean exactly.

[Anonymous No.17450649]

Been sitting at home since fucking March and have absolutely no idea what to do. I'm stuck in my own house, got an offer to teach English in Prague but wussed out because of money issues and unreliable teaching blocks. Remembered back to first year of college and how much fucking fun and free it felt and now I'm in depresso mode like a fag.

[Anonymous No.17450672]

>>17450649
read philosophy

[Anonymous No.17450683]

>>17450672
Read Nietzsche, just makes me want to escape more.

[Anonymous No.17450730]

>>17450649
What did you study at college?

[Anonymous No.17450739]

>>17450730
English, History and Philosophy; dropped Philosophy in second year like a retard and kept history which I lost interest in and it tanked my final degree mark which could fuck me over if I want to do my masters, I'm planning on being published before that means anything however.

[Anonymous No.17450777]

>>17450739
Should say that I kept English and History and was required to drop one, that being Philosophy.

[Anonymous No.17450788]

>>17435399
>drank one litre of oolong and lahihan tea today
So this is the feeling caffeine crippled junkies spend all their money obtaining each morning, not bad

[Anonymous No.17450833]

I have crippling seasonal depression (lost jobs because of it before), but I really don't want to move to a warmer climate because it would be more racially diverse.

What the fuck so I do? I'm just sitting here catatonic at work from home, only have enough energy to browse the board.

[Anonymous No.17450837]

>>17450649
Can you still go teach in Prague? That might be a good experience.

[Anonymous No.17450846]

I’ve thought about how strange it is when I read books or watch anime or whatever how the narrative is both relatable and totally unrelatable. The hero story seems so natural but so bizarre in a world where everyone actually only thinks about politics and economics. It was the Fate/stay night series that got me thinking about this. Have any of you seen it?

[Anonymous No.17450857]

>>17450833
Have you tried physical or outdoor jobs? Even in the dead of winter, it’s hard for me to be depressed when I’m always outside and/or working hard.

[Anonymous No.17450873]

>>17450837
I basically got told that I can do the teaching whenever I want so I may still go, I'll miss my friends a lot though that's the main thing, also the Berlitz school can leave you fairly close to the breadline and I only have about 3k saved up at the minute (while getting shafted by the social welfare, only getting 40 a week despite being 23 because I obviously can't go get a house in the middle of a pandemic so I got means tested)

[Anonymous No.17450880]

>>17450539
I cant fully feel surroundings, it feels like i put a filter in order not to absorb raw information. It's hard to explain when i'm an ESL.

[Anonymous No.17450918]

>>17450857
Did that
>Shoveling full time
>Light lamp
>Cutting out alcohol
>Melatonin for sleep
>Vitamin D
>Walks inside at the mall (before covid)
>Sauna
Nothing works. January/February I just get so tired and emotionally worn outs I just can't deal with stress, go to sleep or stay awake.

Actually had to drop out of middle school because my SAD was so bad that I tried to kms.

I don't know if I can afford to move, and all my family lives here in minnesota anyways. I just hate these long dark winters, I can barely cope with any stress during them without self harming or drinking. already punched my thigh today until it bruised.

Been to doctors and they all say the same shit, exercise more, take these zombie pills. Been like this my whole life and it's never gotten better

[Anonymous No.17450936]

>>17450833
Spain is cheap as fuck to live in, literally can buy yourself a big villa for 80k. Full of sexy Spanish women and there's a lot of TEFL jobs going there.

[Anonymous No.17451084]

näver gonna give you up
näver gonna let you down
näver gonna run around and björksav you

[Anonymous No.17451189]

Rights lads, I need to spend another £10.75 on Amazon to qualify for that good, good free shipping and that, and I'm not allowed to buy any more books. What's the next best thing I can buy for around that price?

[Anonymous No.17451206]

>17451084
låt protokollet visa att jag motsätter mig denna utveckling å det starkaste

[Anonymous No.17451213]

>>17451189
>I'm not allowed to buy any more books
lol why. Also buy a journal and write down funny greentexts and turn them into short stories

[Anonymous No.17451235]

there is no tone to my thought
nor is there rhythm or pattern
i feel neither pathos nor bathos
the combinations always equal naught
and my anger is also a lie
as is my care for the passing
life is monotone and repeats
but nothing is ever truly repeated
I am a foreigner in my own country
and I was born with a Barren home
so I roam and for a night call a temple My home
but I am happy alone
I only feel cold when others seek warmth

[Anonymous No.17451238]

>>17451206
näver säg näver

[Anonymous No.17451297]

>>17451213
because I bought far too many, and basically my new year's resolution was not to buy another book until I've read every single one I already have. Thanks for the journal idea though lad.

[Anonymous No.17451329]

don't really know where this day went. studied for maybe 2 hours. I didn't go out all day. talked on the phone with a friend for an hour and a half over the phone. that was really nice. cooked, turned out shitty, too much garlic. fine but it could have been great. thought about my family, how I wish I was closer to them and how I feel like it is probably my responsibility to make it so, but how by now we are so different that.. like if they were not my family, then I would not seek out their company. no, that's too harsh, but something of that nature. What can I do if I don't enjoy spending time with them? Again, that's going too far, but something of that nature is still true, though maybe to a lesser degree than it may sound like. I keep thinking that that's sad, but that there's nothing to do about it. Feeling sorry for myself, kind of. I keep feeling like I'm supposed to enjoy their company and like there's little I can do about the fact that I don't a lot of the time. The whole thing just feels sad as hell. God probably has some plan or other.
What did I do today? I read some, shitposted some. If I ha dgone out it would have been a pretty balanced day.

[Anonymous No.17451511]

comfy blanket, im still cold
Hold is to loose 1k, digital gold
surely things will be better

[Anonymous No.17451572]

I just need to walk about in nature for a bit and organise my head. That's what it feels like I need. Of course, I'm worried that I would take some time off to do just that and it wouldn't change a thing.

[Anonymous No.17451725]

I want to kill all the ticket inspectors on the trains. They wear these gay fucking uniforms looking like a down syndrome Stasi brigade no lie.

[Anonymous No.17451758]

>>17450880
I think I get it. I don’t think what you’re trying to describe is a bad thing. In my religion, it’s actually somewhat desired but you can maybe look at “being present” or “mindfulness”.

[Anonymous No.17451954]

>>17450739
I see, thank you. I'm stydying the equivalent of English of my country and I'd say I would like teach my language in a place like that, it could be an interesting experience.

[Anonymous No.17451977]

>>17450918
How much vitamin D? You can go up to like 5k to 10k IU daily. How’s your diet? If that sucks, you’ll feel bad. It’s pretty normal to be more tired and down than normal around this time too you know? I’m in PA so we get not harsh but not easy winters and it’s always the same for me. Are you sure it’s SAD and not a deeper issue?

[Anonymous No.17451988]

>>17450873
I’m probably going to teach in Japan. Don’t have much in the way of savings either. As for friends, yeah I guess you just have to decide the right move for you. You’re only 23. My advice is to go teach. If your friends are truly friends, you’ll stay in touch. If not, they were probably going to fade anyway.

[Anonymous No.17452089]

I'm starting to see things how I saw them when I was a kid. i hope it keeps up.

[Anonymous No.17452111]

>>17452089
How so?

[Anonymous No.17452130]

I feel like I'm de-coomering. When I was a teenager I'd see a girl and have an idea of who she was. Later I saw a woman and thought of fucking. I'm coming back to that previous mode I think.
But also less tangible things. I had a drug-induced psychosis in my upper teens, and after that it was mostly chaos and shit in my head. What prompted me to write was I watched something that moved me, had me sentimental and thinking in a way that felt like i felt before I got sick. I felt like I had good intentions, and like things were unfolding in an innocent way.

[Anonymous No.17452135]

>>17452130
>>17452111

[Anonymous No.17452246]

>>17452130
What was the something that moved you if you don't mind me asking. I'm interested.

[Anonymous No.17452276]

>>17452246
I was watchng Derek, Ricky Gervais' show about a sweet man working at an old folks home. right when Derek meets and eventually goes back to his dad

[Anonymous No.17452345]

>>17452276
Why did it impact you the way it did?

[Anonymous No.17452359]

The difference between good and bad days for me is 99% reliant on the condition of my mind and body. On bad days my stomach feels upset, I've got a headache from oversleeping, or I feel exhausted due to lack of sleep. But on good days nothing is wrong. All the time I think, "I should buy _____" or "I should eat _____" to be happy, but happiness is free in a lot of ways, you just have to avoid simple mistakes in your daily routine to keep your mind and body satisfied. This is hard though. I'm still trying to fix it

[Anonymous No.17453135]

should I read or watch tv
and should I get high or not

[Anonymous No.17453144]

>>17452359
>I feel exhausted due to lack of sleep
I’m the same way but I can’t remember the last time I got enough sleep. My fucking neighbors smoke inside until my apartment reeks and scream at each other until 4 am some nights. I’ve tried everything to get them to stop short of killing them.

[Anonymous No.17453149]

work a shitty job so you can save money to go to college to get a slightly less shitty but still low paying job that also makes you want to kill yourself only now you feel guilty about it
thats the American dream baybeh

[Anonymous No.17454044]

I just want, no I need, life to sloooow down.

[Anonymous No.17454081]

Some meaningful relationships, a sense of purpose, the feeling that none of this is in vain, a life worth living...is that too much to ask for? I’m desperate here.

[Anonymous No.17454115]

Before my ban I would like to say
FUCK NIGGERS
FUCK KIKES
FUCK LIBERALS
FUCK REDDIT
FUCK ANTIFA
FUCK THE JANNIES

[Anonymous No.17454509]

I want to read but i cant concentrate on it once i start.

[Anonymous No.17454761]

>>17447904
no

[Anonymous No.17455160]

"They would be conscious and aware – yet not fully awake; they would sit motionless and speechless all day in their chairs, totally lacking energy, impetus, initiative, motive, appetite, affect or desire; they registered what went on about them without active attention, and with profound indifference. They neither conveyed nor felt the feeling of life; they were as insubstantial as ghosts, and as passive as zombies."

literally me

[she No.17455171]

totally understand you honestly is like you read my mind.....

[Anonymous No.17455182]

What is the difference between reality and dream reality?

[Anonymous No.17455477]

>>17455182
none

[Anonymous No.17455558]

Affirmative action is such bullshit. I know I'm preaching to choir here by posting on 4channel dot org but really, I try to apply to government jobs in my country and without exaggeration 9/10 job listings available at the moment have some sort of identity requirement. The assumption here is that as a white guy I won't otherwise have any trouble finding a job, so they have to create opportunities for those who would otherwise struggle. Maybe that made sense in the 60s, but the job market is so shit these days that my gender and skin colour don't give me any advantage in the slightest. Realistically they need to do affirmative action but for nepotism. Sorry I couldn't get those juicy unpaid internships with a company where my dad is senior management, I was working because I need money to survive. Anyhow...

[Nemo !!GgBWHLRiayD No.17455570]

>>17455182
Point, or distance, of reference.

[Anonymous No.17455593]

>>17455182
One is piece-meal derived from the other

[Anonymous No.17455597]

>>17455558
By the way I'm not suggesting that I deserve the job but I'm being denied it. The problem is I'm not even allowed to apply in the first place.

[Anonymous No.17455637]

>>17455558
>government job
>identity requirement
I thought government jobs were not allowed to discriminate based on race, sex, etc. Also can't you lie about being a minority? gay, jew, etc

[Anonymous No.17455639]

>>17450739
College literally doesn’t matter. It’s about what you get out of it.

[Anonymous No.17455740]

How do I stop comparing my life with people IRL and on 4chan? Help me, this thing deteriorates me, even thought I live an easy life

[Anonymous No.17455780]

>>17455740
Ideally you should compare only to the past you.

[Anonymous No.17455785]

>>17455740
How do you compare your life with people on 4chan?

[Anonymous No.17456096]

>>17455637
identity politics is a mistake

[Anonymous No.17456135]

>>17455740
You stop doing it. Done.

[Anonymous No.17456147]

>>17456135
That's hot how any of this works anon

[Anonymous No.17456208]

I have a very deep affinity for a place and culture that I have no blood ties to. Is that bizarre?

[Anonymous No.17456238]

>>17443105
My book still hasn't arrived.

[Anonymous No.17456252]

>>17456208
The archeologist who dug out Troy for the first time was an American and said he felt very deep ties with Mycenean Greece

[Anonymous No.17456260]

>>17443105
>a very specific reading order
What books are you reading?

[Anonymous No.17456294]

>>17456260
the current bloc of books I've been reading have been on Social Threefolding.
I've read all the books I was already in possession of on the subject, but during that process, was introduced to other authors and their books that I have ordered in the last couple of weeks.
After I've finished my Social Threefolding stack (once the last 3 books actually arrive), my next book stack will be:
>Mike Martin - Why We Fight
>Falguni Sheth - Toward a Political Philosophy of Race
>John Coakley et al - Non-territorial Autonomy in Divided Societies
>Prince Hans-Adam II - The State in the Third Millennium

[Anonymous No.17456456]

>>17456294
>Social Threefolding.
Never heard of this before. Sounds interesting.

[Anonymous No.17456471]

>>17456456
It's Rudolf Steiner's social theory. I've always been a bit wary of his anthroposophy and spiritual views, which seem to me as incoherent and new-age as the theosophy he broke away from, but Social Threefolding seems to propose some very promising ideas.

[Anonymous No.17456603]

>>17456238
My book finally arrived!
The other two were dispatched yesterday and today, and it took a week for this one to arrive, so I guess I'll just plan to read this one over the next 6 days or something.

[Anonymous No.17456635]

>>17456252
That’s interesting. I’m sure people have felt similar with Greece, Rome, and even Medieval Europe. It’s not a historical place though. It’s a place that exists here and now.

[Anonymous No.17456671]

>>17456147
It is though.

[Anonymous No.17456686]

'Asabiyyah or 'asabiyya (Arabic: عصبيّة, 'group feeling' or 'social cohesion') is a concept of social solidarity with an emphasis on unity, group consciousness, and a sense of shared purpose and social cohesion, originally used in the context of tribalism and clanism.[1]

Asabiyya is neither necessarily nomadic nor based on blood relations; rather, it resembles a philosophy of classical republicanism. In the modern period, it is generally analogous to solidarity. However, it is often negatively associated because it can sometimes suggest nationalism or partisanship, i.e., loyalty to one's group regardless of circumstances.[2]

The concept was familiar in the pre-Islamic era, but became popularized in Ibn Khaldun's Muqaddimah, in which it is described as the fundamental bond of human society and the basic motive force of history, pure only in its nomadic form.[3] Ibn Khaldun argued that asabiyya is cyclical and directly related to the rise and fall of civilizations: it is strongest at the start of a civilization, declines as the civilization advances, and then another more compelling asabiyyah eventually takes its place to help establish a different civilization.