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[Anonymous No.17264554]

[Anonymous No.17264586]

>>17264554
Fuck the fucking new year. I'm already failing at my resolutions. 12 days in and I'm already telling myself "I'll start at that next week." I have no discipline. There's a hell of an Asian babe on my train, she's got a backpack like she's a tourist even though my country hasn't let tourists in since March 2020. She has a kind of rough weathered look that makes it clear she's a seasoned traveller. I wonder where she's from.

Every generation thinks they are experiencing a doomsday. But something feels very uniquely rotten and tik tok and only fans. That's the shit that really makes it feel like we're in a dystopia. I thought Vine was stupid but it was still a fun, relatively innocent kind of stupid. Tik tok actually feels evil. Seeing this endless stream of dancing teenagers on my little glowing box makes me feel like I'm a background character in Blade Runner.

I like my girlfriend when I'm with her, but after a few days I find myself not missing her. But then when we're back together I'm crazy about her. Oh well it's not a problem, just a thought.

[Anonymous No.17264591]

>>17264554
Anger. Anger towards myself.

[Anonymous No.17264604]

It's 4 am and I still can't sleep. What's worse? Hearing a crying baby in your house when you know you don't have one, or remembering you have a baby and realizing that it hasn't made a sound all day?

[Anonymous No.17264616]

>>17264586
Same except I don't have a girlfriend.

[Anonymous No.17264625]

wish we had a politics board for non-retards

[Anonymous No.17264697]

>>17264625
Closest thing we have is /his/... Not-quite politics for not-quite non-retards

[Anonymous No.17264708]

I feel like shit graduating cum laude when my mother graduated magna cum laude. Although desu she never had to take stem courses.

[Anonymous No.17264794]

Been thinking about how, in America, you find sentiment and rhetoric for "right of revolution" running in tandem with an attitude that the masses are dumb, unable to govern themselves or pursue their best interests, and so need to be subjected and ruled lest they hurt themselves. And I don't think this is a party, or a left-right, issue. I see both sentiments coming simultaneously from all sides. People will employ one when convenient, then pivot to the other when necessary.

I don't think this is new either, and arguably it has been there since the beginning, but I think it is clear that the tension is becoming unbearable, and I wonder how it is going to possibly be if not resolved then reigned in and stabilized again, or what will happen if it can't.

[Anonymous No.17264800]

>>17264604
>remembering you have a baby and realizing that it hasn't made a sound all day?
this one

[Anonymous No.17264801]

>>17264708
Do not indulge in dreams of having what you have not, but reckon up the chief of the blessings you do possess, and then thankfully remember how you would crave for them if they were not yours.

[Anonymous No.17264802]

>>17264554
the girl is reading "excavator repair" technical instruction manual

[Anonymous No.17264805]

I don't know if people will look down on me or not. I got a degree at a fancy university and now I want nothing to do with the subject.

I'm gonna get a certificate in aged care and help people instead. Finance is too cut throat. it makes me sick. I dont care if I'm cleaning old people all day I Cant take the corporate environment.

Plus from aged care I can study whatever I want. If I want to go in to child care I could or go to uni and become a pediatrician. But will people look down on me for working in aged care while I'm young, Should i even care?

[Anonymous No.17264816]

>>17264794
>there's a right to revolution in the USA if tyranny endangers democracy
>people storm the capitol saying they have said right
>other party says there's no tyranny
>there can't be a proof of tyranny
>people who stormed will be prosecuted
can somebody explain this to non-muricans?

[Anonymous No.17264827]

>>17264805
Sell out in finance while you are young. You'll never have access to that world again and will kick yourself in a decade or two if you dont

[Anonymous No.17264838]

>>17264554
MCR just came up on autoplay, and I feel fucking gutted. I was 15 fifteen years ago...

[Anonymous No.17264844]

I'm not a competitive guy but I kinda wish I was one. It must feel amazing to have that burning desire to win and finally do it. Like better than sex at times

[Anonymous No.17264849]

>>17264816
The left is seizing control of the country and explicitly rejects several of the founding values. Nobody really has the power to stop them

[Anonymous No.17264853]

>>17264816
it's what happens when your country is founded by well-off guys pretending they're oppressed and larping as romans, and then 250 years later harmless chumps get anywhere near to insinuating a threat against the obviously corrupt thieves in power

[Anonymous No.17264854]

>>17264844
I did succeed in some shit and dunno. It is quite boring. Depends more on the process than the winning or losing. I would rather lose than win against an 'unworthy opponent.'

[Anonymous No.17264858]

>>17264816
>>there's a right to revolution in the USA
I mean someone would have to be retarded to think this would be granted to citizens in literally any country

[Anonymous No.17264859]

>>17264816
It's just "might makes right". You're not allowed to say that, though, so you pretend to appeal to Locke instead of basic human biology.
When applied to the current situation, by the way, the obvious conclusion is that Trump et al. didn't and don't have the right to revolution. If they did, we'd already be living in the United States of Trumpistan. If you want to put a precise date on when they lost that right, consider the date that it was agreed that mail-in voting would be acceptable.
>>17264849
>The left is seizing control of the country
>is seizing
How naive are you? The present progressive has no place here.

[Anonymous No.17264876]

>>17264816
>>there's a right to revolution in the USA if tyranny endangers democracy
1. They wanted to impose trump as dictator (or whatever the fuck they wanted to do). They were chanting about stopping the count and ignoring the vote.
2. It wasn't a revolution, it was a temper-tantrum.
3. There is so much anti-democratic shit in America, the idea of revolt is a fucking joke. Oh, you're gonna revolt NOW?
4. Voting doesn't matter, because the fucking Electoral Collage exists.

Besides, it's like they say: "it's only treason if you lose"

[Anonymous No.17264891]

>>17264858
>what is China during the cultural revolution

[Anonymous No.17264896]

>>17264876
>>17264859
so, the right to revolution is a contradiction in itself, because the right doesn't exist and the outcome makes the act either a lawful revolution or an illegal rebellion? under tyranny a tyranny cannot be called a tyranny. well, I'm glad Biden won fair and square.

[Anonymous No.17264942]

>>17264891
You dumb nigger. The Cultural Revolution was done in service of the system in power. It wasn't an actual revolution. Do you believe it was a revolution just because it called itself a revolution? Do you respond sincerely to those scam calls claiming to be the IRS, demanding that you pay them money?.
>>17264896
No one person has the right to revolution. The "people", collective, have it. If 75% of Americans, for instance, wanted to institute Trumpistan to the degree that they'd be willing to sacrifice their lives for a revolution, they could, and doing so would demonstrate their right to revolution. But the vast majority of people are apathetic, and around half of the remainder are very much opposed to this particular revolution.
In other words, for the few thousand people down at the Capitol (most of whom were probably there for fun rather than any grand ideal, the same thing that drives your average rioter to a BLM "protest"), the right to revolution did not exist. But that doesn't mean that no such thing exists, for any group of people, ever.

[Anonymous No.17264948]

>>17264896
At this point, we have to accept that America isn't a democracy, and it hasn't been since fuck, Nixon at least. At least Biden can pretend not to be retarded for 30 minutes at a time.

[Anonymous No.17264985]

>>17264942
>>17264942
During the cultural revolution Mao gave license to the Red Guards to violently purge their own superiors within the Communist Party in order to facilitate Mao's vision of perpetual revolution. If not technically a revolution, it was still a decade long series of nationwide, ideologically driven violent insurrections against government officials. What did you think it was?

[Anonymous No.17265011]

>>17264896
You're reading too much into it. The constitution is just a piece of paper and always has been, selectively ignored or enforced when convenient . The country is run by the S&P 500, not the government, and this has been the case for some time.

[Anonymous No.17265013]

Capitalism wont end. We have two paths. More neo-liberalism or authoritarian capitalism like china. There is absolutely no way out.

I'm starting to think capitalism is a force of nature in the absolute worst way. The politicians at best can slightly control it. In the west we gave up on controlling it. both major parties want to de-regulate. Then on the other hand china has iron grip that is slipping, the market forces are liking riding a tiger. you can only kill so many bankers before Xi realises the bankers are the powerful.

I think the new normal is real, but not in the way /pol/ tards think. We were shown have insanely fragile the system is. The pandemic only showed the house of cards.

[Anonymous No.17265015]

>>17264625
/int/

[Anonymous No.17265018]

>>17265015
they're retarded anon

[Anonymous No.17265019]

>>17265015
/int/ is filled with retards. I'm Brazilian and I unironically hate most of other Brazilians in there.

[Anonymous No.17265021]

>>17264942
>The Cultural Revolution was done in service of the system in power
So they just killed wealthy landlords as a meme or something? lmao

[Anonymous No.17265030]

>>17265019
The worst part of it is that they are among the educated people. This place is fucking disgusting sometimes, I love my country, but whoever rules this shit makes me fucking sick.

[Anonymous No.17265035]

>>17265021
The wealthy landlords weren't the system in power. They were the residue left behind by the Old Boss. >>17264985 makes a much more reasoned argument.

[Anonymous No.17265036]

>>17265019
And to be fair it is not like I'm fond of Brazilian redditors either. There are some exceptions, but most just get on my nerves too.

[Anonymous No.17265038]

>>17265036
People say that Brazilians are cool. They are a fucking authoritarian bunch. They are ok to talk and be around, but Jesus what a fucking hell to live by their rules.

[Anonymous No.17265049]

>>17265038
Those fuckers managed to split the fucking official sub in two. They manage to be unable to share a fucking virtual space.

[Anonymous No.17265087]

life is but a dream in static

[Anonymous No.17265096]

>>17264854
Why the process? I think a lot of people just love that feeling of winning. These people will say they wish they didn't have it, since it makes it very hard to play a game casually, but on the reverse side non-competitive people don't get that same rush that comes with winning since they don't care as much. It's a double-edged sword basically

[Anonymous No.17265113]

>>17265096
Because that is where the fun is at. And being against someone worthy feels amazing, anon. You say that because, you probably never had a worthy rival in anything. I would rather have some epic struggle of anything and lose than 100 easy wins.

[Anonymous No.17265118]

When I was a kid I wanted to marry a woman like Arwen and now I want to marry a woman more like Eowyn (personality wise)

IDK exactly why

[Anonymous No.17265123]

>>17265113
I think it is because that is how you get to Valhala, anon. KEK

[Anonymous No.17265155]

>>17264554
she wanna meet carti....that bitch is a barbie uh

[Anonymous No.17265174]

I only have a few friends, but I feel as if I don't deserve them. Their presence helped me in realising how enjoyable it is having a friend, but I feel like I haven't done anything to deserve it or return it. I didn't mind being alone before, but after befriending them I couldn't go back to it. Now I often feel crippling loneliness and this guilt isn't helping, in fact I often think how we'd all be better off if we had never met.

Since the relationship is asymmetrical like that, I feel bad about continuing it because it feels wrong, it feels like I am using them to feel better and that I have a disproportonate friendship to offer. I can be their friend, but I can't help them the way they helped me.

I also feel bad about initiating hang-outs for that reason - I haven't got anyone else to do it with and I enjoy our time together. It benefits me disproportionately and limits them into hanging out with a third or fourth person of choice.

Sometimes I feel a bit of jealous sadness when they talk about their other friends. Partly because I'd love to have more friends like they do and partly because it reinforces my loneliness and the fact that I am not quite understood by them (or by myself for that matter). Our hangouts are often the highlight of my month even though they aren't anything special. Everything between them passes like a blur and I can't wait for the next one. They don't understand that, I am just one of many to them. And that's fine, I wouldn't want them to be worse, to be like me, but I would like to be understood. I don't feel understood.

[Anonymous No.17265214]

>>17265118
funny. i was Arwen and now Galadriel. i guess Arwen is a classical magic pixie that boys can put all their fantasies into. Eowyn is instead the mature and very real girl, who has her own needs and wants and struggles the same struggle as everyone else. Galadriel is the wisened queen of the feminine, who has power and wants, but also wisdom. But I also relate to Gandalf as the hero of the story.

[Anonymous No.17265300]

>>17265087
Why if you dream other persons life and the only thing you remember is the most memorable even?

[Anonymous No.17265315]

>>17265021
there were none left by that point you absolute brainlet

[Anonymous No.17265400]

my superpower is making any woman dry as a desert by simply existing

[Anonymous No.17265528]

I'm 22 and experiencing a 'late puberty' or sth.
My beard is just starting to grow slowly and I newly got some hair on my chest. Shouldn't this have come earlier?

[Anonymous No.17265553]

>>17264616
I hate this .webm; It's so obvious the girl isn't enjoying herself.

[Anonymous No.17265594]

>>17265553
Probably because Asians are soulless.

[Anonymous No.17265607]

Pretty sure my penis is almost completely numbed by circumcision. Tried a few different orgasm types, and I can barely feel anything in my dick

[Anonymous No.17265613]

>>17265528
That's normal, second puberty is definitely a thing

[Anonymous No.17266091]

Need to stop trying to redpill my psychologist, nearly talked to her about libido dominandi.

[Anonymous No.17266116]

exhaustion... withdrawal to a nihilistic vegetative state like i haven't encountered or desired in years... the cold womb of sleep, disengagement, negative thinking, and - in a projected surrogate sense, death

my health and habits have hit a rock bottom. i'm unemployed, the world is in a sad state, and i feel weak and spent up. worse because i was doing well for a while, for a few years even, maybe.

i will come out of this, but it seems hard to see the way out now. any exit feels inconcievable now, and the world i wish to return to nonexistent.

[Anonymous No.17266141]

Another heated conflict with mom. I wish i'd be dead so i wouldnt be burden to everyone.

[Anonymous No.17266151]

>>17266141
Sometimes I also feel that I could get shot in the face.

[Anonymous No.17266215]

A flash fiction story about these girls.

Anons five daughters would be the death of him. Raised by instathots, groomed by a liberal education, their minds were a buzzfeed of fairy lights of oral techniques to pleasure their man read diligently from Seventeen magazine. So when the time came for their first family excursion since their mother's untimely death, Becky, Olivia, Ophilia, Beverly, and Stacy had prepared for a Hawaiian outing their despondent father would not soon forget. At dinner they said, "Daddy, we love you and promise to never have sex or marry, just as Jesus intended. We will forever be your little girls." And they hugged in a completely platonic way so that none of their boobies touched. The end.

[Anonymous No.17266346]

>>17266215
Anon, you've convinced me suicide is the only option. Thankyou.

[Anonymous No.17266414]

>>17266215
Yes, anon, they look very much like the tradwive meme which is so beloved around here and not at all like the Stacy epidemic growing elsewhere.

[Anonymous No.17266445]

>>17266414

[Anonymous No.17266717]

I recently spit in a vial and mailed it to China. Or rather, at least, I mailed it to a DNA genotyping center somewhere in Illinois, servers in Shanghai, Beijing, Guangzhou. The release forms I was presented with included giving them permission to hold my DNA for 20 years (opted out), permission to re-analyze my DNA without notifying me (opted out), and using my DNA in health trials for the common good of man (opted out). Curiously, there was no option to opt out of them grouping my DNA into a sub-prime package, with 50 thousand other colorblind 26 year olds, and selling to the CCP. I had to agree to that one. I wanted to know where I came from.

[Numen !!GgBWHLRiayD No.17266762]

I wish that musical artists who make "Witchouse" music would drop the trend of associating themselves, their music, and the genre itself, with Satanism.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HyDW8ZnEpS0

[Anonymous No.17266991]

>>17266215
>Becky
>Olivia
>Ophelia
>Beverly
>Stacy

[Anonymous No.17267064]

>>17264554
When I realised depression is permanent there was a slight relief like a veil was lifted away from myself by a strong gust of wind, except the veil just swirled around our shitty environment collecting debris and came right back to my bonce

[Anonymous No.17267110]

>>17264554
Fuck you 4chan. Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you. I can't believe that I became addicted to this shithole. I was just a 15 year old. So many missed opportunities, so many dreams crushed, just because I wanted the lolz. ahahah. Ano n-kun said nigger. ahahahah get it? based basd based! Cringe cringe cringe!!!! Holy shit. what a colossal waste. All this useless information rotting my brain. It's all my fault. I thought i was superior to it all, but I'm such a useless faggot. I'm no better then the retards I used to mock silently at school. Fuck this place, it represents everything I hate about me. But something will have to change. I don't care if I have to dig a hole and make it my home for a month to reset my brain. I will conquer my life. I'm going to conquer everything back. You will all see me on the news, history books. I will be the man who will shape humanity according to his will, mark my fucking words. See you all tomorrow.

[Anonymous No.17267155]

>>17264554
that's a pretty funny picture

[Anonymous No.17267241]

>>17265214
so long story short, you wanna fuck Gandalf?

[Anonymous No.17267250]

>>17264554
I’m sitting here shitting. Shitting here, sitting. Sitting here, shitting. Sit, shit, here. Shit her sit here. Here is air. Here I shit. I’ve shit.

[Anonymous No.17267280]

>>17264554
I'm pretty sure I have some major unresolved trauma stemming from my adolescence and I think I need to deal with it sooner rather than later.
I'm in my early 20s and still flinch without fail when someone touches me. I literally wasn't able to have sex when offered, and I didn't stop shaking for the half hour afterwards. I wouldn't even let her touch me. There are days were I go through the motions of what society expects very well. I'm materially well of in a field I don't really care about. I'm not unattractive. I maintain hygiene. I have no real hobbies except for reading, and I've never really been interested in anything. I don't have much of an imagination.
I have friends which is nice I guess. I don't particularly care about them, they seem to care about me. Teachers, parent seemed to care as well, for some reason. I don't think I have what most people would consider empathy, and never once have I looked in someone's eyes and really felt a connection in any way, I've been told I have the same stare as a serial killer lmao.
I have ambition, but not for anything in particular. I've had dreams my whole life where I come into the possession of great power, enough so nothing can hurt me, but there's never any conclusion, no higher goal, no active part in anything.
The worst part is I don't even know what caused this, and I don't think there is any reason. I just came out the womb early, at 25 weeks, and small, at 2.5 pounds. That's it (I think), just a delayed development. There is no catharsis possible to resolve this it at all I don't think. At least people who were molested can hate the people who did it to them, or the insitutions who facilitated it. I don't understand what I'm supposed to hate or latch onto or get over this with. I probably never will
:(

[Anonymous No.17267285]

>>17267064
I honestly think that if you're actually depressed (not meme one) it's impossible to cure it, only manage it a bit.

[Anonymous No.17267307]

workday comes to an end. I've been somewhat productive. I'm rehabilitating, so it's not technically work, but it's the part of the day dedicated to activity. Aiming to go for a late night walk in a couple of hours, but apart from that it's mostly laying in bed and shitposting. Maybe playing TF2. Meant to cook but really felt like eating cereal so it's cereal for dinner.

I'm in a good place, I think. Getting more active. Reading, activating myself physically, getting out to get sunlight pretty much every day... I'm probably gonna be ok.

I warmly recommend readin the Tao Te Ching. A really fine book.

[Anonymous No.17267308]

>>17267110
You're only a useless faggot because you're shitting on this place, one of if not the most special places left on the internet. Keep coping.

[Anonymous No.17267354]

life is boring as fuck
i wish i were free to go on a bender for a few years and then kill myself, but my family prevents me from doing so (i don't want to hurt them)
truly a prison
and what's funny is that i've pretty much felt this way for the past 10 years, i thought i'd have grown out of it by 30, but here we are

[Anonymous No.17267376]

Attention all quasi-ironic 4chan girlboys, time to commit to your desires and take action.

Time to split it open all up and give your nihilistic spirit its true freedom, get the cut, split it up, dish it up, mix it up.

Then when your ready, swish it up, don't let it self-repair, dig down deeper into that hole and know your right and the world FUCKING SUCKS man and FUCK PEOPLE for being fucking idiots man.

walk the walk and get it done!

[Anonymous No.17267390]

>>17267308
>one of if not the most special places left on the internet
And I'm the one coping? it used to be. I would argue /lit/ still has that spark, but it's also decaying like anything else.

[Anonymous No.17267418]

Am I correct in thinking that with buddhism it's better unless you plan to go literal monk mode to just chill the fuck out and go about your life while trying to follow the teachings? I feel like buddha would have hit me over the head if he saw me worrying about the accuracy of sutra transmission and trying to decode what exactly he meant when he made an offhand remark to dead monk who may not have existed.

[Anonymous No.17267433]

SPLIT IT UP

MIX IT UP

DROWN IN YOUR SORROWS

DIG IT DOWN

SERVE IT UP

LET US TASTE YOUR "OPPRESSION"

YEAH IM FUCKING LISTENING

[Anonymous No.17267442]

Why am I feeling empty and exhausted all the time? I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't do drugs, I go outside every day, I don't masturbate, more than once a week, I don't eat junk food. Yet I feel like human garbage constantly. Someone make it stop.

[Anonymous No.17267485]

No money will be given with your hole so deep and wasting your precious time in a site that crawls with lice and ticks maybe you'll shake them all off if you try hard enough on here.

[Anonymous No.17267492]

>>17267485
ok doggo.

[Anonymous No.17267513]

>>17267492
Bitch write my poems.

[Anonymous No.17267521]

>>17267442
>>17267442
I think there are basically two approaches. Either you use your intelect and try to establish what is causing your feelings, so you can change that, or you come to the conclusion that the bigger part of your problem is relying on the intelect, in which case you just say "ok, this is happening, I'm not gonna fight it, not gonna ignore it, but just trust that these processes will work themselves out". The former is basically trust in your ability, the latter basically trust in God.

Hope I'm not being a faggot here, it's hard to guage in oneself, but this is basically how I view it. I've been trying to rely less on intelect lately, I do think it is a major part of the problem for me because the solutions it comes up with just create more problems (attachments).

[Anonymous No.17267547]

>>17267442
Tell yourself that you are fine, anon. And that most shit is mainly inside your head. You might not be 100% ok, but I bet a good part of it is mainly your fucked up psychological.

[Anonymous No.17267550]

Yeah, so another thing, I'm not on here to humor you. I don't need to prove anything! I have become something more than you ever will. Again, if you wish to write some poetry about it, please, by all means.

Do so.

[Anonymous No.17267708]

Murmur under your breath like a little sneak

[Anonymous No.17267789]

sex sex sex sex sex
sex sex sex sex sex sex sex
sex sex sex sex sex

[Anonymous No.17267861]

>>17265553
>>17265594
It's porn, you fucking retards.

[Anonymous No.17267873]

>>17266215
I'm just sad that his wife died.

[Anonymous No.17267962]

>>17267390
>And I'm the one coping?
Yes. I have absolutely no qualms about being here.
>I would argue /lit/ still has that spark
In other words, you know I'm right, so why argue?

[Anonymous No.17267979]

he doesn't talk, this guy that i am. i sit in the kitchen at my workplace surrounded by women colleagues. their talk seems inane. so does this observation. i attempt light conversation. there are rifts to be bridged. i mumble into the ether. somewhere, a face, looking at me, not understanding. i repeat. breaker breaker can you hear me. did this message transmit. in comes a reply. tangentially related to what i said, tried to say. we have established communications. the topic swerves back to, something else. i stare into my coffee. thinking the other one is cute. i like her. face. her voice annoys me, at the same time i enjoy hearing it. a guilty pleasure. she's chubby. she has mild acne which gives the appearence of a certain of youth. i can not talk to her: it's not just my awkwardness i don't think: other people make me awkward all the same, yet i find avenues towards them. somewhere in their person a refraction of my own. a thing to cling to. we are the same.

this person, i can't manage. each chat a hot potato passed back and forth. it makes no sense. she seems alike me enough, somewhere -- she's timid, awkward, young but not as young as she wishes. carries her dreams with her dumped somewhere in the backyard of her soul a thing forgotten. talks different though. hangs with fourty year olds. why. ancient tradition. communion of the hags. between the guys there's comraderie but a sense of adequate distance. chicks, not so much. schmooze till you hate each other. all good so long as we sink together. it's fair, it's fair. share a resentment, make it a shared commitment.

i'm bitter though. they're chitchat is joyful enough. there is a relief therein that is denied me. because of my stubbornness. me and this world mutually unintelligible. why? i am not above this silliness. i watch dumb shit on youtube. i talk nonsense with mates. it seems out of place in the workplace. to me. why?

i have become a pet. i am the company lapdog. the autistic wunderkind. sit there. smile occasionally. look aloof, we're used to it. boxed into this nylon suit. hair going every which way at once.

if i came here again, anew, a second first time, to try my very best, would things be different? could they? and why do i care so much? i like the chubby one. i think what i desire is to be in this world, but not part of it. an outsider to it, i feel lonely. drawing closer, i fear it'll suck me in. this pettiness.

i just want to fuck the chubby one.

sorry i'm a filthy ESL i know this is littered with errors

[Anonymous No.17268089]

>>17267110
Based

[Anonymous No.17268204]

I can't breathe. It's not just my lungs struggling to draw air. But a disinclination, festering in the back of my mind. A disinclination surrounding my chest and heart , like a condensed fog.

The fog is ever persistent. Uncluttering it feels contradictory, as if i remove monsters of old in exchange for the existential terrors of the new.

It's the unwillingness to face this world I live in. It's being fearful of modern society, of their way of life. It's being afraid of their norms and rules they dominate.

I fear appropriating others spaces. I dread Their cultural strength I fear my reasoning may drive me
into a nomansland caught in a perpetual state of being harassed by an artillery of ideas.

I yearn for progress, but my setting has driven me catatonic. No matter how much I try to remove the chains, unsuspecting shackles cling like cheap gum.

Baby steps don't work. It's become paradoxical. The stairs splits like atoms. I move one forward, it grows 7 more.

Dread, death and doom.

My fate

Inevitable

[Anonymous No.17268310]

>>17264849
By the great power of grief and regret. Ta-daa, it is done!

[Anonymous No.17268439]

>>17264554
I just came from /fa/ they might be onto something

[Anonymous No.17268466]

I want her. But she won't let me have her. It's all or nothing.

[Anonymous No.17268497]

>>17267521
I have done everything I could over the span of the last years with my intellect and nothing worked. I don't have the abilities nor the resources to do anything now. I thought of an ascetic life style as a last solution but the boredom and emptiness that comes with it seems even worse than a more hedonistic approach. In the past I could read or learn something to fill the void but now my mind isn't nearly satisfied from that. It barely makes a difference, it's just like mindlessly doing a backlog with no aim. God is my last resort now. Maybe we are similar. I thought of God more than ever these last months. I'm becoming religious as an almost 30 year old man because I don't see hope otherwise. The intellect failed me. Everything else too. Guess it's never too late to turn to God.

[Anonymous No.17268500]

I don’t wanna be enslaved and possibly genocided by radical pseudo-Marxist techno-feudalists

[Anonymous No.17268510]

>>17268466
Why wont she let you

[Anonymous No.17268938]

I've come to realize when it comes to my beliefs I am at my core a vacuous black hole. I suppose if I had to categorize myself it would be that I am unironically an anarcho-egoist. While I occasionally agree with various points regardless of where they are on the "political spectrum" (spook alert) there is no correlation or coherence to these. My politics primarily relies on mockery of hypocrisy and satire of any and all political allegiances. I am just at home making fun of liberals as I am deriding trumptards. The next minute I will be praising the astounding productive forces of capitalism and then soon after leaping into a full fledged marxist critique of the same. I have no problem pointing out the backwardness and self-inflicted brokenness of the black community, and then turning around and acknowledging the enduring malign influence of racism and its impacts. The final word is that politics is mostly the refuge for those who are unable to advance their life from the power of their own actions, it's a game and a wank that people delude themselves into believing really matters and has real stakes. Power operates independently of all these controversies and headlines.

In this incredibly polarized time I feel that I belong nowhere. I have to pick a side but both sides are shit flinging monkeys. I find it to be reprehensible that I am expected to make a decision within the confines of criteria I reject. Yet politics is heating up, and in times of collective mania, there is little choice but to pick a side or be swept aside. Nobody thinks, everyone believes. Perhaps in some places and times politics could be viewed as a constructive instrument for advancing aims for the "common good" (spooky) but now it is purely a mind cancer, a counterproductive yeast-like infection that that asserts itself unbidden at the most inopportune and rudest of times and I must do what I can to keep its taint off me.

[Anonymous No.17268990]

Im a disappointment

[Anonymous No.17268997]

>>17264586
>tiktok slowly re-normalizing jailbait on the internet
Brilliant

[Anonymous No.17269038]

>cheated on a woman 10 years ago
>really crushed her
>felt extremely bad about it
>really, really, really bad
>like how do I go on living being such a bastard bad
>begin to overcompensate
>have to do everything to be good now, have to prove I'm good
>become really contrived
>end up causing more pain out of confused efforts to "help"
>tfw realize I have become pic related
taste the pain

[Anonymous No.17269045]

>>17268990
that's not what matters anon

[Anonymous No.17269062]

>>17268997
Kill yourself subhuman nigger.

[Anonymous No.17269074]

>>17269045
so what matters? i certainly dont

[Anonymous No.17269078]

>>17267110
>Fuck you 4chan. Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you. I can't believe that I became addicted to this shithole. I was just a 15 year old.
fucking lmao get rekt son

[Anonymous No.17269159]

Im quite sure i've lose my work within this week frame, i so wanna take the risk and simply fuck everything, and just write my book. I've the money to fuck off for awhile. But uh, life & other people never see the same view as oneself

[Anonymous No.17269166]

>>17263216
As the cost of living decreases as production becomes more automated the cost of escorts will decrease.

[Anonymous No.17269195]

>>17269074
that is impossible anon, by being alive you matter. you have to realize that the life in you does not hinge on any of these things, no matter what it is that has made you feel this way. If you properly understood what you are, then you would understand that you do matter, and that you are only defined by how you use your spirit. What passes through your life is beyond your direct control- you can try to influence it, but your influence is limited. You can however decide on what to believe in. And this may sound crazy to you anon, but I know that deep down inside you there is a heart worth believing in. Because God made that heart, and God is good. It may be covered in shit as a result of things happening, and hard to find, and hard to feel, and hard to believe in, but it is there and it will not go away as long as you live. Tending to that heart is the purpose of life, and no one can take that purpose away from anyone else, no matter what they do that light will not be stolen away or put out.

You matter because all life matters anon, and all life matters because all life is, at the heart, an expression of the creators will, and the creator is good. Tending to that goodness, trying to cultivate it, this is meaningful, and this is your task, and how you perform it does matter.

[Anonymous No.17269200]

>>17264554
I have never had a real friend in my life. I really don't know much longer I can take it. I love life, but the suffering is all too much to bear. I can waste away and continue my suffering, but facing my issues and trying to change them really seems like an impossibility. Perhaps I am meant to live a life of solitude and maybe I should retreat and become a hermit. The thign that worries me the most is the possibility of being completely wrong. Maybe I don't notice that people actually want to be friends or in a relationship, but I feel that if I keep holding out for this miraculous event that won't happen it will make my demise that much more bitter.

[Anonymous No.17269250]

>>17269195
Thank you for the kind words anon but i fail at the first step which you describe as "properly understood what you are". If you dont mind, i'm going to let some steam off. I had a very difficult conversation with mom regarding my neet situation. She basically agreed (i think it's because the frustration) that she wants for me to finally move out of their place because she feels like a grown up man like me (28) should give parents some rest. I just outright ignored all the other words because it's just smoke and i know the bottom end of the situation (in the end she only cares about her own being and what benefits herself). Sometimes i think that it should be right time to move out but i cant. i just cant, this fear is too strong, i dont have any inner resources to fight against loneliness, isolation and constant stress without having a strong sense of identity. im not a strong person and what comes naturally to others like sense of responsibility and not doubting the most simple things, doesnt come to me.

[Anonymous No.17269292]

>>17268500
Same bro. But remember it's always darkest before the dawn. We are living in shitty times, arguably the worst in human history, but remember, it's only a few thousand of them versus billions of us. In the end, truth and good win. No matter how much propaganda they spread, how much brainwashing they do, it will never be enough to kill the human spirit to live. It's literally hardwired into our DNA to fight back. The more they push up against the wall, the more resistance they will see. It is a losing battle for them, and we will all be heroes.

[Anonymous No.17269339]

>>17269250
before you say you're not a strong person you have to consider that you're carrying a lot. you living with all of this requires strength. maybe it would be easier for someone else, but that's only because they don't feel it the way you do, and what can you do about how you feel? you sound like you are taking responsibility the best way you can.

what do you think you would need in order to feel that you had a strong sense of identity? if you don't mind me asking, I'll fuck off if it's too personal

[Anonymous No.17269436]

honestly kind of butthurt my thread got deleted

[Anonymous No.17269473]

>>17269339
This is strange to hear because it feels like im running away from responsibility for my life. Thats a very difficult question to answer but i guess that would be believing in myself but i cant do it because i dont know what kind of person i am. I could say that i have this or that trait but it doesnt mean much to me. It doesnt make the doubting go away. Maybe its fear of making a permanent choice as you lose the benefits of the other choice.

[Anonymous No.17269479]

>>17269436
You spoke the truth anon you worded my thoughts that I never bothered to address unless just go "fuck this world"

[Anonymous No.17269504]

I'm pretty sure the editor for Lit Quarterly and Lamp both live in my city and so i'm going to try to hang out with them this weekend.

[Anonymous No.17269525]

>on tinder
>talking to a German philology grad
>'so will you read me Faust in original?'
>'Hahaha noooo, wasn't too eager to read him. Glad I don't have to read it anymore, do you like him?'

[Anonymous No.17269625]

>>17269525
Learn German yourself retard

[Anonymous No.17269630]

>>17269473
>This is strange to hear because it feels like im running away from responsibility for my life
what I mean is it sounds like you care about making your situation better, but that you can't for some reason. I think living like that takes strength. as I was coming out of depression that was a thing I could realize. when you're in it you think you're pathetic. once you get perspective you realize you were up against steep odds and you kept going, and the reason most people seem to be breezing by is because they don't have those same odds. I don't know, I could be wrong but that's the association I got.

Making permanent choices freaked the fuck out of me too. I felt absolutely horribe when I graduated high school, because I felt like now it was up to me to decide what to do, and I could think of no reason why I would prefer anything over anything else, and the clock was ticking. In the end I just moved out without a plan because I had to do something. But no matter what you do it is a choice, even no choice is a choice.
>Thats a very difficult question to answer but i guess that would be believing in myself but i cant do it because i dont know what kind of person i am. I could say that i have this or that trait but it doesnt mean much to me. It doesnt make the doubting go away.
I think fundamentally a lot of shit in life can't be solved or understood. Why we do things is somewhat of a mysery to me at least. I think a person is basically just a tangle of desires crashing through time. The question is just how to manage that. That's what I meant by choosing what to believe- really I think you mostly make some macro-decisions to try and steer your body, by choosing what you put hope in. Then your body will follow that hope. I think free will is rather limited, and mostly comes down to the choice of what to believe.

[Anonymous No.17269660]

>>17269630
Thanks again anon for talking. I hope that i'll believe in myself one day.

[Anonymous No.17269688]

>>17269436
what thread

[Anonymous No.17269699]

I'm so depressed at biden winning anons.

America is basically over at this point, it's just a long slide into bioleninist, brazilified, hypercapitalist, neo khazarian, dystopian techno-oligarchy

[Anonymous No.17269735]

>>17269525
Just added her on Facebook and of course her fucking fattest photo is her most recent one so I'm just gonna slowly stop replying or might actually just fucking ghost her right away
>>17269625
You really think it was about actually reading it you fucking retard motherfucker?

[Anonymous No.17269741]

>>17269699
Like Trump would have changed anything

[Anonymous No.17269777]

>>17269688
>>/lit/thread/17266039

[Anonymous No.17269879]

>>17264802
знaю лмao

[Anonymous No.17269962]

>>17269699
Biden is a good thing. He is the accelerationist candidate. Trump would have just been 4 more years of neocon, let's give $100 billion a year to Israel, "we're all Americans, just get along guys" nonsense.
Biden will do more than Trump could ever imagined towards getting us closer to a civil war/revolution/breaking point. The system is collapsing in real time, the elites are getting more brazen and hubristic as their power slowly slips away, and we will only have to deal with these treasonous octogenarian scum for about 5-10 more years only.

[Anonymous No.17270009]

>>17269962
you people really are insane lol

[Anonymous No.17270017]

why do burgers bring their politics everywhere
just die
all of you

[Anonymous No.17270029]

The world does exist. It has been the result of a long history of history. History of ideas. Its value is real. But its value does not consist in a true value. It is an ideal world, not the world of the real. The real is suppressed by the ideal. A world which is only a mere expression of the real world is in fact false and in the world of the real a false world. The world is not an ideal world; the value of the world is not the negation of idealism but the synthesis with it of its negation, the synthesis of its ideal and its negation, the real replaced with a mere expression of an ideal world.

[Anonymous No.17270219]

>>17265013
agreed. I hope you accept your destiny.

[Anonymous No.17270326]

>>17264554
For every book I read, I seem to acquire two more.
I have so many books to read, but they aren't literary fiction. They're not the sort of books to take pleasure in poetic prose, where the artfulness of what has been penned is as much if not even more of the purpose than the meaning they convey.
They're dry, crunchy boring books, on economics, on politics, on philosophy of history among other things. The task of reading them bores me half to death, just so I can reach a point where I am struck with an understanding of the conceptual framework of the subject matter, when it all falls into place and I have a eureka moment that makes it all worth it, for just a while.
But it's such a fucking slog. Perhaps 80% of the page count, maybe even more, of the last book I read was nothing but elementary handholding and semantic pedantry. It pained me to read, only for the last few chapters to bring it all together and reward me for the task...
and then it's back to square one with the next.
Another foreword. Another editor's introduction. Another sequence of introductory chapters aimed at bringing people up to speed on the basics, in case they hadn't become familiar with it from reading half a dozen books before - but which I cannot compel myself to skip without being hounded by the question of "what if I've just passed by another succinct nugget of knowledge without realising?"
I don't read for the pleasure of reading, I read for the pleasure of having read, having understood, having catalogued another idea or two within my scrambled headspace.
I wish I didn't have to.

[Numen !!GgBWHLRiayD No.17270438]

>>17267442
You are tired of the mundanity of your existence, not exhausted, because, indeed, of what is there to be exhausted when your life is not highlighted by anything beside the internet & "home" exercises?

[Anonymous No.17270464]

Another night with Zusie at the flat. Sitting over my studies in my cute christmas pullover as she’s watching some dating reality show. It’s about dismissing unattractive men until one winner is left who can then in turn select his favourite female out of those who’ve voted out the unattractive males before. It’s nice for feeling more attractive but also on a deeper level to reflect and consider how attraction works, what we see in others that draws us closer to them. The reasons are unromantically banal, but that’s life. I have watched a few episodes myself. The concept is so outlandishly in-your-face that I feel nothing but confusion. She’s watching mating rituals being played out again and again on television. I don’t judge, I do a dozen things which, if broken down, are the same kind of ritualistic celebration of primordial self-hood. Sports.
She’s lost her job at the theatre due to the pandemic, and so she’s home all the time, watching TV shows or reading, or talking with me. We’ve already been through the fuckbunnies-phase a few months ago. It became gross, slimy, sore to be with each other. After weeks of three times a day it felt like our body was one big pus-filled wound. We both lost our libido, we both felt the same. I came to hate my dick. I’m jerking it off in the bathroom before taking my daily shower. I get the job done quickly to clear my mind of desiring her for the rest of the day. It works very well. I’m studying. I’m reading and analyzing poets, I’m improving my already decent latin, and my awful ancient greek. I have adopted my old technique, from the time I had worked at a grocery store counter,of self-disassociation. Otherwise I wouldn't be able to bear this shit. I install a new ego floating above myself.
My former ego reads, recites, writes and learns, while the new ego plays distracting games by systematizing and judging my actions. I have a competition for the most beautiful “W” I've written. Each “W” i write gets ranked. Of course I have lost track of any kind of exact placing, but you can intuitively feel if a letter is average, bad, or maybe even top ten material. There’s some real excitement if i get a “W” just so right, that i know it’s among my top 3. I am also a fair judge. To keep things entertaining I don't overrate. I’m really good at this.
Aside from judging letters (It’s not just the “W” of course) I also experiment with new writing techniques, new learning techniques, I try different writing speeds, I observe my tongue movements while speaking in foreign tongues, trying to consciously grasp the mechanical movements I combine to create a word-sound. All of this has been much more relevant to me than anything I've learned from my studies.

[Anonymous No.17270471]

It makes me feel very close to my childhood, sitting alone in my bedroom and making up new games with Yu-Gi-Oh cards that i could play with myself. I’m perhaps not learning as much as i could, but i have to accept and affirm this state of being, as i was falling for weeks into passivity and laziness during the last year, threatening to ruin my aspiring non-career in academia by not keeping the bad thoughts out of my head. Yes… Tacitus… Yes.
More please. Tell me more, Tacitus. Yes…
I manage around six hours each day. Add to that taking a walk with Zusie each day, and I'd say I’m managing the pandemic relatively well. Youtube helps a lot of course. I’ve grown obsessed with Limmy’s Show. I feel like Limmy’s Show. Me and my girlfriend reenact Limmy’s Show skits on a daily basis. Yes or No, Feathers, Kill Jester, She’s turned the Weans against me. We do this all the time. It’s nice. We both show each other new music a lot. We listen to a lot of new music. We listen to The Adults Are Talking and dance. We still do this every other day. Listening to the song and dancing is what we call our five freak out minutes. The song is kickass. But we listen to much more. I’ve gotten very familiar with hip hop from the last 40 years. She’s shown me a lot of latin stuff. We have both started listening to Cumbia.
It is February 2021. Things will soon revert back to normal. I’m not sure if i want to.
This current emptiness of daily life seems like a more honest version of our old empty lives. I don’t feel like I'm taking measures to help protect the world from this deadly virus. I feel rather like I've dropped all pretensions I was covered in and can finally live in the awkward disorientation and state of constant distraction that has characterized my time in this world so far, without having to hide it under an active social life, out-door activities and sitting in lectures. Here, I'm with my lovely girlfriend Zusie, wasting my life over nothing, dipping into simple and vain pleasures, living with systematic distraction to keep the existencial pangs at bay. There’s something horrifying about this but this is what we have entertainment for, but not only that, this is what i have my relationship for. And while she’d disagree i know it is the same for her. We are so happy to have each other, because we are both the missing link to keep our little protective bubble perfectly safe. It is true now, it was true before and it will remain true after the pandemic is gone. I think this is the foundation for all our social relationships. This is why people get together, when they are not used as means to get or achieve something. They are there to fill the openings in our defenses against the great nothingness of life. I believe that this has always been the case, I believe this is what love is about. “I love you, because you keep the darkness away.”

[Anonymous No.17270480]

If I was writing a fantasy novel, would using words like "gramercy" and other antiquated words be acceptable, even if I wasn't writing in the style of middle english?

[Anonymous No.17270490]

>>17270471
What’s bad about that? It’s very significant. And aside from that, what’s so bad about entertainment? Everything is entertainment. Our religion is Limmy’s Show. How is Limmy’s Show inferior to christianity or buddhism? They are not closing down towards any truth now, are they? They are handing out handbooks that teach techniques to make the darkness and suffering bearable, but so does the Television, so does Youtube, so does our Spotify subscription. My new god is the Internet. If i have grown defensive in my argumentation, it is because in each religion always remains a shadow of doubt. The bubble does not make the outside seize to exist and so doubt is a constant companion of my reflections. By affirming this new philosophy of our consumerist age, I cast my eyes away from the shadows. Nothing wrong with that, if it allows you to avoid misery, right? It is what I have always felt deep inside. The pandemic has only helped me to come closer to my true nature. I am fine. And it will get better. I will finish my stories, I mean studies, and get a job. I will refine my ego-dissociation technique. I will plant my semen in Zusies belly, or if things don’t work out in some other womens belly. I will raise a family. I will listen to Damon Albarn's music, to make it all feel really important. I will watch movies, i will watch Naked Survival, or Dating Show #300. I will watch movies that touch me deeply, and let the abyss touch my soul in the safe environment of our/my living room. I’m feeling perfectly equipped for what is to come in the future.

All my life was filled with the feeling of pretension, the pretension of asking for more than a mundane existence within this bubble, and then came Corona along and made me know that everything is alright. That things are good here, in our apartment. That entertainment is enough. Rosalia is enough. She’s giving me enough excitement. I don’t need to travel around the world, but more importantly travelling around the world is no different from listening to Rosalia. Perhaps I will do it in the future, but no longer with any pretensions. That’s fine by me. I will dance the dance with a girl of my liking, I will do the shuffle, but I won't pretend that it will lead me beyond what I have lived and affirmed during the pandemic. I think that’s a fine outlook on a life filled with ease and little, safe satisfactions. It is a humane outlook on life. It is the way almost all people have lived throughout human history.

I’ve been sitting at my desk silently for fifteen minutes straight, coming up with these arguments. Feeling quite exhausted and a bit overwhelmed i lay down next to my #1 Girl on the couch. “Arms” I say, and stretch out my bare arms. Suzie starts petting them. I’m alright.


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Nothing ambitious, just writing a bit, feeling depressed

[Anonymous No.17270546]

>>17270326
I sold 80% of my books last month. I have done the exact same thing for the last 5 years until it just started to weigh too heavily on my mind. It was like the über-ich mocking my lack of commitment towards my personal studies by making the stack bigger and bigger.

[Anonymous No.17270559]

>>17270546
I just keep some in storage at my mum's and switch out a pile of books each time I visit.

[Anonymous No.17270570]

>>17270490
Man, don't fuck me up.

I read your whole thing through and I realised why people go on /lit/ to look at people's thoughts.

There is a horrid anxiety at the root of some activities. A torment in existence,and it's not the "meaninglessness", per se.

The idea of accepting temporality coincides with mass consumption where servitude and creation die, because what is destroyed can only ever be temporary; and so the subjective reality has been treated as dead, not worth slaving for.

Knowing that there is little beyond experiencing differently valuable temporal realities, and subjective experiences - it fucks with a man.It makes him wonder; "if we are here, together, what are we doing?"

A duality exists - infinite access to all the knowledge and means to become a refined person, and a sick poison that weakens you with the fuckbunny phases of interior life. Passion becomes little if you get it for free.

Kierkegaard's polemics about regret come to mind. You should have faith in your God, and you should love, even if it seems love will kill you both. However, there is something else. An indescribable sense of dread and helplessness. Doing things because if you push willfully in a certain direction you will lose what you've carefully navigated into, this house and love and life, and get torn apart and ego death and who even will you be then?

I used to fantasise about running away with my best friend into dangerous places to see what would happen.And now i feel at constant danger. what the fuck is going on

[Anonymous No.17270662]

>>17269962
This, good post. All these globalist fucks have been planning on doing shit like this for years. The fact that they're as desperate as they've been this past year, and the fact that they are failing to wrangle their own psyops and those psyops are turning back on their own masters in unpredictable ways (Black Lives Matter, antifa), is a good sign. They wouldn't let you see them this much if they didn't have to. That's one thing you can count on.

This latest big tech censorship push is a paper tiger, and it already backfired. A good deal of the center's thought leaders doesn't agree with it, and a good deal of the real left either doesn't believe in it, or hates its perpetrators (corporate assholes and crony politicians) so much that it doesn't matter because they will never be useful allies or stooges. Doesn't mean they aren't stooges, but at least not useful stooges for the corpos and cronies.

All this shit, the Great Reset, the waiting for a pandemic to justify authoritarian governance, the tech censorship and state-media-corporate partnership conspiring to act like a form of social credit (consciously modeled on state-run ones in China and India), all of it was intentional and in the cards for a long time.

>Just before Americans headed to the polls in last year's presidential election, WikiLeaks delivered a well-timed steaming dump, revealing that Google CEO Eric Schmidt had been working with the Democratic National Committee (DNC) as early as April 2014. In a leaked email from John Podesta, former chairman of the Hillary Clinton presidential campaign: "I met with Eric Schmidt tonight. As David reported, he's ready to fund, advise recruit talent, etc. He was more deferential on structure than I expected. Wasn't pushing to run through one of his existing firms. Clearly wants to be head outside advisor, but didn't seem like he wanted to push others out. Clearly wants to get going..."
https://www.rt.com/op-ed/402588-google-eric-schmidt-republicans/
https://www.breitbart.com/tech/2018/09/12/the-google-tape-google-global-affairs-vp-kent-walker-history-is-on-our-side/

They were always going to try to do what they're doing right now. But I think they planned for it to "fit" the trigger phenomena (an inevitable pandemic, inevitable unrest as western economy continues to die and favor plutocrats) far better, I think they fucked up throwing the Great Reset propaganda shit and authoritarian gov both in response to a relatively piddly pandemic AND they weren't expecting a Trump type to be in office but a total accomplice AND on top of that they are triggering it too early. Something about all this stinks of them being forced to decide whether to trigger things now or wait another 20 years, and they got itchy trigger fingers.

Another thing to cheer up about. Every one of their administrations is made up of lazy entitled minorities and "staffer" women, who may be loyal, but also totally incompetent. Their diversity psyop fucked them too.

[Anonymous No.17270697]

>>17270662
It's really just to keep on stable footing with the other superpowers, I think. Same reason every nation jammed propaganda down their citizens' throats during WWII, it's either do that or get defeated. Not justifying it but it's clear why this movement is happening.

[Anonymous No.17270709]

>>17270662
Everyone's high on their own supply in the globalist thing. Remember that. You keep thinking they're in control. They aren't, the propaganda systems they designed to manipulate rubes have slowly crept up the pyramid of power so that even the top echelons are made of rubes now. There are probably a handful of real spooky bankers in Europe larping that they pull all the strings, but imagine how frustrated they must be trying to manipulate everything through the broken game of telephone that is their 500 consecutive tiers of "woke" underlings.

Did you watch Tucker recently? The Biden admin just hired a lady who thinks black people are genetic supermen because they have "melanated brains." That's funny enough and a statement on the principles (read: none) of the Biden-Harris lobbyist cabinet, but then consider where she went for university. She went to Harvard. They can't even recruit good evil guys anymore. Everyone's a fucking nutbar race fetishist and grievance studies major, they're all drinking their own koolaid.

The key thing now is grass roots. Organize organize organize. Get involved in local government. Run over the Democrat party as it collapses in infighting, win local elections and swamp the system in populists who are tied to their own communities.

>>17270697
I agree to an extent but I think it's ultimately a class of internationalists at the top, what Burnham calls the managerial class. It's Huntington's "Davos man" at the very top, smug rich pricks who think they're cognitive elites because they microdose LSD, very typical bourgeois pathetically attempting to be aristocrats thing. Beneath them are the useful idiots, the one Lebedoff calls the "new elite," what people usually mean by coastal elites. They also think they are cognitive elites, they are desperate to be seen as the upper class bourgeois whose daughters all attended Ivy League schools etc., but they don't have any of the actual power of the Davos man tier.

They're all morons through and through.

[Anonymous No.17270799]

>>17270490
Good shit bro

[Anonymous No.17270903]

>>17270709
Conservatism is dead. Democrats are communists now and republicans are just democrats.
The solution of the system will not come from playing by the rules of the system itself. It will have to be an outside force. Magically voting for red parties is futile. We will never have another Republican president, and if we do, the Republican party will be so far removed from conservatism by that point as to be almost indistinguishable. The dude will probably be some mixed race mutt from Texas who larps as a conservative but hates America just as much as the rest of them.
People should be in bipartisan agreement that the Capitol storming was a good thing. If politicians are not in a constant state of fear, then we are doing a bad job as citizens. Things like that should basically happen every year or two.

[Anonymous No.17270915]

>>17270903
>Things like that should basically happen every year or two.
sounds a bit too French for my liking.

[Anonymous No.17270919]

>>17270903
They're just going to get more authoritarian unless storming the capital actually does something

[Anonymous No.17270920]

>>17270903
Dude, just accept your "iq" is below 90 and focus on more practical hobbies.

[Anonymous No.17270925]

I just want to hold someone when I'm in bed

[Anonymous No.17270932]

>>17270925
I hold myself when I'm in bed.

If you know what I mean.

[Anonymous No.17270949]

>>17270925
this
and to kiss on the cheek
maybe lips when i'm in the mood

[Anonymous No.17270953]

>>17270919
Good. Let them get more authoritarian. We aren't quite ready yet. Some people have woken up to how bad things really are, but the average normie is still in denial. They think it's just a matter of merely incompetent politicians, rather than people who are trying to do a soft genocide on the middle class. The more they ramp up their shit and the more freedoms they take away, the more people will slowly wake up to what is really happening.

[Anonymous No.17270956]

>>17270932
i actually do this, unironically. and not the "wink wink" type, i mean literally trying to convince my mammal brain that i'm not utterly alone in my bed.
..haha.. i mean, in minecraft.

[Anonymous No.17270969]

Fuck, my liver hurts and my fucking head hurts, I've been drinking for almost a year straight and I don't see a reason to stop anymore. I lost my girlfriend but that wasn't the drink, that was me getting my hopes up that I could have a normal relationship with a girl who was abused, and couldn't make out for more than 30 seconds without getting uncomfortable. I thought I had the patience of a saint, I don't, it took 5 months for my balls to get that right hue of blue. I thought that for a virgin gf who liked to play video games I could change, I couldn't. New years eve was the last time i saw her, I tried to put a hand up her shirt and she freaked. She called me a few days ago to tell me she didn't see me romantically any more, then she started crying because she didn't want to lose a 'friend'. I don't want to lose a friend either but if I stay in contact I'll never get over her, and we'll be such good friends that one day she'll feel comfortable to tell me about her new boyfriend and break my heart a second time. Add to that the fucked politics, a fucking plague with measures in place that may end up killing more people then the virus ever hoped to, and '21 seems like it might be a real fucking doozy. I mean what does a guy of my age even have to look forward to? work? Trust me I've got one of those jobs that people tell you is a vocation, you'd be surprised I was on here if I told you, but it still doesn't make me happy. If I save and I'm lucky I'll have a house in 3 years, just in time for the economy to collapse and my house to be worth the bricks its made of. But then what? wife and kids? Wife material isn't exactly common where I live, unless they're 38, and how the fuck could I justify bringing my kids into this stuff. You know at a local school they're teaching kids about fisting as a healthy expression of love. I remember when I was a kid the greatest day of my life was when I came home from church, the wrestling was on and I was playing with my brothers practicing choke slams on pillow cushions, then my dad called us all out to the garden to show us a frog that he found in the reeds of the pond we had. I remember thinking so clearly that this was the greatest thing to ever happen when he let me hold it. If I'd been born today, I'd probably have thought 'this frogs great, wonder if I'm meant to fuck it'

[Anonymous No.17270975]

>>17270956
I always hug a pillow in fetal position.
it's more to do with supporting my head so my shoulder doesn't ache.

[Anonymous No.17270985]

>when the porn leaves the blooper in
>when you see the real human women behind the porno facade they present
>when you decide to create a better world without porn

[Anonymous No.17270996]

>>17270985
Based

[Anonymous No.17271012]

>>17270969
Embrace death

[Anonymous No.17271023]

How do I become less pedestrian when it comes to my ideas? How to become complex and creative? Complexity not for the sake of it but real, honest and meaningful.

[Anonymous No.17271029]

>>17271012
wish I could but I got more to do

[Anonymous No.17271109]

If only I were the kind of man this world is designed for, how happy I would be

[Anonymous No.17271121]

Amidst all of this talk of revolution insurrection oppression and suppression the only conclusion I’ve reached is that this is what we’re stuck with. There will be no turning point.
Each person alive today wastes more time in a year than the laziest man of yesterday wasted in a lifetime. Our glowing rectangles of high bandwidth sin have hijacked our reward system and unbalanced the delicate scales on which prosperous society was built.
If you’ve managed to avoid the trap of social media, of vidya, of television, of tiktok, of pornography, the news, the bottle, the pipe, the needle, cards, dice, vanity, lust, envy, pride... you just haven’t found the right trap yet.

We truly are niggercattle and we deserve what we get.

[Anonymous No.17271123]

>have bad anxiety attack last summer
>oh god oh no oh fuck why do I feel like this
>recover, have a kind of spiritual awakening
>start down the spiritual path
>really feeling it, aww yeah
>be today
>barely anything to do at work, sitting around pondering my spiritual insights
>suddenly get terrified of them and start having another anxiety attack
>oh god oh no oh fuck why do I feel like this
>considering dropping the path and labeling all my experiences thus far as a prolonged delusional LARP
what goes around comes around I guess

[Anonymous No.17271204]

There are actually people on hn rn calling Glenn Greenwald a "bootlicker" because he criticized a company run by the richest on man on Earth. Tech bros are terrible people. Full stop.

[Anonymous No.17271227]

Anyone else notice how badly we've trained capcha? It thinks rumble strips and parking lots are crosswalks. It thinks mailboxes are parking meters.

[Anonymous No.17271235]

>>17271227
Because retards prepare bots to do that

[Anonymous No.17271275]

>>17271204
HN is one of the worst places on the internet.
5+ years ago (though it was already getting bad by 2015) it was full of serious tech professionals who didn’t comment unless they had relevant knowledge or experience on the subject at hand. This established the site’s reputation as a place for no-bs discussion by people who knew their shit.
Slowly but surely college students and third-world climbers caught on to this and started to view HN as a proxy for industry approval. Low-self-esteem wannabes viewing upvotes as a sign that their imposter syndrome wasn’t warranted. Problem is, there are more climbers and kids and wannabes than there are knowledgeable professionals and this balance is further skewed by members of the latter group commenting only when they have something meaningful to say and members of the former group commenting whenever they think they have something to say that will be met with approval.
Now it’s kept the form of the comment section of yore—people posturing like they have expertise and writing with a definitive tone of voice—with none of the substance.

[Anonymous No.17271298]

>>17271275
They're using it to network?

[Anonymous No.17271322]

>>17271298
Not to network per se but to practice writing like a member of the in-group, test acceptable opinions, etc.
At this point it’s like a training course to pass the big tech shibboleth.

[Anonymous No.17271331]

>>17271275
I miss the days when Slashdot was the spot for geeks to discuss relevant stuff. Now geeks are cancelled and tech bro careerist climbers are in.

[Anonymous No.17271336]

I think I'm balding at 20

[Anonymous No.17271367]

>>17271336
happened to a couple of my cousins
sucks to be you

[Anonymous No.17271399]

>>17271331
>Now geeks are cancelled and tech bro careerist climbers are in.
Feels bad man. It’s hard for me to decouple my own coming of age from this overall story ark but to me this describes both the internet itself as well as the companies behind it.
Kid me would be pissed if he learned how disillusioned adult me is with the tech industry and with tech itself. Every day I become more and more tedpilled...

[Anonymous No.17271411]

>>17264554
Gonna kill myself soon. I've had enough

[Anonymous No.17271422]

>>17271411
>inb4 don’t do it, it’s not worth it, think of your friends/family/gf etc.
Thought at all about method bro?

[Anonymous No.17271425]

Haven't seen the tripfag schizo who would always post in all caps

Where did he go

[Anonymous No.17271444]

>>17271425
dunno, hope he's gone
worst trip on the board

[Anonymous No.17271445]

>>17271422
Live near a huge cliff so I'll either jump off that or use an exit bag, probably the exit bag.

[Anonymous No.17271454]

>>17271425
i thought that was a spanish chick, but idk prob got banned for sth stupid

[Anonymous No.17271462]

>>17271411
I hope you make it. I thought of suicide for a decade but am too much of a pussy.

[Anonymous No.17271472]

>>17264708
In 10 generations your progeny will graduate with a 2.5.... chilling.

[Anonymous No.17271481]

>>17264794
The right doesn’t bitch and moan all that much, once Biden is in all you'll have to do to escape the reeeeeee’ing is not listen to talk radio.

[Anonymous No.17271482]

>>17271411
>>17271445
why are you gonna do it?

[Anonymous No.17271485]

>>17271411
>>17271422
checked
long drop hanging is the way to do it. get proper rope too.
don't get climbing rope. climbing rope has a bit of stretch in it so if you fall, it absorbs some of the impact. but you can get this stuff called rigging - or lowering - rope, used by tree surgeons, and it's rope used to lower the limbs of trees while being dismantled. since nobody cares about giving a branch whiplash, there's no give in lowering rope.
whether you want to calculate the proper length of rope for a long drop hanging based on your body weight, or whether you just want to go ham, always order more rope than you think, because a surprising amount is needed to tie a proper hangman's noose, as well as the anchor point. the manner in which you tie the anchor point can be helpful in getting the length of the drop more precise. you want to be snapping your neck regardless, but you have options here. either calculate it exactly, or go overboard to guarantee death, but risk decapitation, which is immaterial to you, but obviously affects the corpse you leave behind.
if you decide to tie the anchor point to something like a bridge and jump off, then the risk of decapitation means your body and head will fall into whatever the bridge is spanning and possibly get lost. if you're anchoring off a different structure, or a tree, you've got to ensure it's sturdy enough and won't either break, or bend enough to absorb the shock.
I've never attempted suicide. I'll only need to attempt it once.

[Anonymous No.17271500]

>>17264708
my mom graduated summa but it was from a chick school

[Anonymous No.17271507]

>>17271445
There’s a definite romance to jumping. I have some vivid memories from my wilder years perched on the edge of thirty story buildings looking straight down to the sidewalk that still give me the creeps whenever they surface. Made me realize how much of a pussy I am, to tell you the truth.
If you bag’d it who do you think would find you? Neighbors call the cops when it starts to smell like rot?

[Anonymous No.17271549]

>>17271507
i read this interview with a dude who jumped off the golden gate bridge and lived, he said he regretted it the instant he stepped off and wanted to live. he was a manlet and a strong swimmer, so somehow he managed to not get knocked out when he hit and not too fucked up to get to land. a coworker of mine jumped off the gwb and i wonder if she regretted it on the way down. she was a strong swimmer so i hope she didn't think she was going to live and get a bunch of attention for surviving, she might be a great swimmer, but she was also built like an amazon with too much mass to survive a drop that big.

[Anonymous No.17271572]

>>17271482
Brain is broken from years of childhood abuse, failure, loneliness, depression so I can no longer feel any positive emotions. Been through countless medications, tried therapy, nothing works. There's really no point in me being here. There never was.
>>17271507
>who do you think would find you?
Most likely my parents.

[Anonymous No.17271579]

>>17271572
why not just stick around and enjoy the many dopamine drips available today?

[Anonymous No.17271587]

>>17271572
are you religious? do you believe in hell?

[Anonymous No.17271601]

>>17271549
How much of the "regret" jump survivors feel do you reckon is just your body's atavistic reaction to the immediate threat of death?
Like I don't think anyone who jumps, in the ensuing seconds, suddenly rationally reappraises their life and realises it wasn't so bad.
In other words, how likely is it that you could make the whole thing easier by drugging yourself up on beta blockers, benzos and booze?

[Anonymous No.17271630]

>>17271572
i have the same thing dude. not really suicidal but it might get that way one day

[Anonymous No.17271672]

>>17271601
If you’ve ever felt that atavistic reaction you probably wouldn’t be so quick to discount its significance.
Experiencing it helps put the rest of your life into perspective particularly if you’re a poorly adjusted young adult who hasn’t come to terms with basic facts like our world being a fallen world and you being utterly alone and unvalued as a man living in it.

[Anonymous No.17271739]

>>17271672
This one time I went hiking. I'd descended one peak and was ascending the second, but every feasible route up seemed way too steep.
With some effort I worked up the slope, near exhausting myself, at which point the fact that I was alone sunk in. I checked to see if my phone had signal, none. I realised how isolated and exposed I was. I had a panic attack. That drained me even further. I clung to the side of the slope that probably wasn't even 45 degrees but it felt like 60.
I had to edge my way back down the way I'd come, almost slipping on scree, force myself to eat, throw up, eat again, and reascend up a different route.
It's the closest I've come to that feeling. I'd made peace with the idea of death, but it didn't make the immediate experience at the time any less uncomfortable.
Another time I was in an airliner, sat in a window seat behind one of the wings, watching fuel gushing out of it, hearing other passengers panic. The steward alerted the pilot who had to circle about dumping fuel before returning to the airport we left. So we were kinda just strapped in for the ride while we were up there, not really knowing how serious it was and considering worst case scenarios.
Again, I made peace with the idea of dying, and just wanted the guy behind me to shut the fuck up.

[Anonymous No.17271752]

My cat's shit comes out her asshole like A full size human arm. I can feel its heat from here.

[Anonymous No.17271855]

realizing that I conflate a lot of my own experiences with abstract fields with a particular aesthetic prototype in my mind:

That Writing is what's breathed out by your hands during a particular period of time you remember back on, instead of a very conscious and deliberate labor,

Or, that music is something novel, and not an amalgamation of everything you've heard before.

Or, even that philosophy is something performed by conjuring ghosts of the past and including them in some transcendental and ever ongoing conversation

I don't know if this is immediately obvious to others, but there really isn't any reason why any of those fields (or any field of work in particular) would be limited to my prior aesthetic experience. This realization is something I may have faintly understood before, but only fully felt now, and makes me feel free in a way I haven't before.

[Anonymous No.17271882]

>>17271855
(2/2)
I'm certain that I haven't gotten my point across. However, this has been the closest I've isolated a feeling this obscure before, and only because I'm slightly tipsy and in a very contemplative mood.

Perhaps, I am trying to emulate Pessoa, a fellow schizoid

[Anonymous No.17271955]

also, thinking of a previous WWOYM general more than a year and a half ago, where the only advice an anon gave to me, when asked of how to deal with my gender issues, was to study Profokiev's Piano Concerto No. 3 in C Major.

I've had this piece in my short list ever since then. I'm sad to say that I haven't felt like I've understood why they recommended this particular work to me. I thought at first that maybe it represented repressed artistic impulses under the Soviet system, but this work was mainly written before the Revolution. Now I'm thinking that it has something to do with the form of the piece.

Narratively? Does this work tell a story? or describe a feeling? If so, which feeling?

Order from tumult?
Beauty from pain?
Regaining something from loss?

maybe I'm not aesthetically sensitive enough to understood what they meant, the feeling too obscure to put to words. This piece does mean a lot to me now, but I can scarcely put to words why it's personally significant, besides reminding me of a specific time.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fhS5RTZvUXg

[Anonymous No.17271968]

>>17271955
damn imagine getting into someone's head that much with a shitpost lmao

[Anonymous No.17272025]

>>17271968
this is the story of life anon, the small insignificant bits are the ones that stick and end up defining us

[Anonymous No.17272036]

>>17272025
oh yeah for sure, i have little bits of overheard conversation from when i was in college that still bubble up to my consciousness regularly

[Anonymous No.17272043]

>>17267280
See a shrink asap, my nigga

[Anonymous No.17272052]

>>17267442
But dyel

[Anonymous No.17272068]

>>17271336
I was once in your position. Once you accept it then it's not so bad, being bald is worse than having Chadly hair but it's not bad enough to spend your life worrying about.

[Anonymous No.17272086]

My country is a shithole. A 3rd world Latin American shithole. Every day I read the news and every day something bad happens. Every day. Every day. Again and again. And it doesn't stop. It never stops. Sometimes I forget about everything for a bit. When I remember, am oppressive atmosphere falls on me, I can't breathe. And it just keeps getting worse. You wonder, what's the limit, when will it all blow up? Never? Some of the stories you read are ridiculous. Over a ton of rotten chicken is buried; people nearby dig it up because they have no food. A 10 year old girl gets detained by the police for not wearing a mask; meanwhile a million people attend the public funeral of a sports idol organized by the government. I don't understand. Everything is so expensive. I wonder sometimes, what do people in 1st world countries complain about? What do they see on the news? I just want to leave. I just want to live with dignity.

[Anonymous No.17272129]

>>17272086
Because we're headed in your country's direction

[Anonymous No.17272156]

>>17270969
>just in time for the economy to collapse and my house to be worth the bricks its made of
Good. Fucking good. I'm tired of people treating commodities as "investments." A house is a commodity. Let it be worth the cost of its production. Don't artificially drive up the price and create another fucking bubble. Every time that shit happens, the rich siphon yet more money from the poor. I'm tired. So tired.

[Anonymous No.17272178]

>>17272156
>A house is a commodity.
a house in san francisco is not the same as a house in vallejo, they are most definitely not commodities

[Anonymous No.17272191]

>>17271023
Hard to say. The first obstacle is vocabulary. How can you say exactly what you mean if you haven't the words? Every time you see a word you can't define, look it up and write it down.

[Anonymous No.17272224]

>>17272086
Fellow Argentinian anon.
Me too. I feel the same. We haven't got a single bit of good news for decades now.
But I think we're gonna make it. No matter how bad it looks to you.
Losing hope, no matter how hard it is to keep it, is why this country is in the shitter.
Also because it's kind of designed to keep being poor.
The politicians have no incentive to actually make the country work, so they don't do it.
It's all just a game to them of who can keep the most power.

[Anonymous No.17272238]

The feeling of an empty bowel after a nice shit is fantastic, it's so freeing.

[Anonymous No.17272248]

>>17272086
These sound like interesting news anecdotes. Have you got any more? I feel like you could put them into some kinda dystopic literary piece

[Anonymous No.17272261]

>>17272248
100 Years of Solitude already exists though

[Anonymous No.17272296]

>>17272178
Youre talking about real estate
Why does a 1000 sq foot, 2 bedroom house in SF cost $1 million? The cost of the house itself is not $1million. It's the land, and the fact that so many rich people want to move into SF for work or culture or school or whatever. Whoever owns that land is making a small fortune. I think this is obscene. Landownership should be abolished, it should all be rented from the government at a fixed rate and in regulated terms.

[Anonymous No.17272315]

>>17272261
Yes but its over 50 years old. It is dated.. We need literature for our times, as we always have.

[Anonymous No.17272389]

>>17272086
>what do people in 1st world countries complain about?
Not enough diversity in the casts of multi-million dollar blockbuster films. Or, conversely, too much diversity in the casts of multi-million dollar blockbusters.

[Anonymous No.17272447]

>>17272224
The only hope I have is of leaving, and even that sometimes wanes.. And yeah, I might be always an immigrant and get looked down upon, but at least I'll have peace of mind I guess.

>>17272248
Yeah, I wish I could remember more though. Some just feel like your soul just got punched. A father had to walk 5 km. carrying his daughter who suffers from cancer under the scorching sun to their home. They had to visit another province since that's the only place nearby where the daughter can get treated and, when they were returning to their province, the police stopped them and didn't let them through due to some bullshit covid restrictions. Less than 400 km. from there, the first lady arrived to the inauguration of some water plant in a fucking helicopter and wearing a dress that made her look like Elsa from Frozen. I'll try to remember some more.

[Anonymous No.17272494]

A homosexual told me I had a nice face

[Anonymous No.17272595]

>>17268510
She tends to hide herself.

[Anonymous No.17272596]

I had a roommate from Vietnam and over the years, she has given me more information that I'd ever need if I wanted to date an Asian. She explained how romantic relationships differ from the way they do in the west, why asian women are more willing to date western men than the other way around, why everyone hates the Chinese (including the Chinese), especially their women, and that rural Japanese women make the best wives. This information would be useful if I actually were in a university with a lot of Asians studying abroad.
Meanwhile my mother (who is Black) keeps telling me if I haven't found a wife by the time I've finished my PhD, I can just go to a black church. She continues by explaining that if I go to the church at least three times, church women will be lining up to set me up with their daughters or granddaughters. I wouldn't be surprised if it were true.

Anyway, back to my now ex-roommate, she was pretty weird herself. She wants to be a breadwinner/head of the household, preferably with a househusband, but would settle for a housewife. She's a self-proclaimed 'fujoshi' and during the first week of living together I walked in on her watching BDSM gay porn. Over dinner she once nonchalantly told me how she's a dom and asked me if she could fuck me with a strap-on. I declined, but that wouldn't stop her continual sexual harassment, grabbing my ass, talking about how fuckable it is, or jokingly trying to "ship" me with any of my male friends.

[Anonymous No.17272636]

>>17272447
>The only hope I have is of leaving, and even that sometimes wanes.. And yeah, I might be always an immigrant and get looked down upon, but at least I'll have peace of mind I guess.
You see, that is also one of our big problems. The smart guys (you) are leaving because here you can't do anything as a smart guy. We have to create an environment where smart people can really reach their full potential and are rewarded.
But that's not the case so everyone is migrating to other countries, leaving this country full of idiots.
I still have hope that one day our country will be good though.

[Anonymous No.17272650]

>>17272595
..Heraclitus?

[Anonymous No.17272657]

>>17272596
Oh, and the worst part of all. Whenever I'd tell her to cut her bdsm larp shit out, she would ask me teasingly, "Who would they believe, Anon? The small Asian girl? Or the Black man?"

It's weird how we've grown closer now that we're further away from each other. I still talk to her regularly, but it's honestly better this way.

[Anonymous No.17272663]

>>17272086
>I wonder sometimes, what do people in 1st world countries complain about?
white people

[Anonymous No.17272775]

>>17272657
Kek
Why didn't u embrace yellow fever

[Anonymous No.17272778]

I feel like reading but I cant stop browsing

[Anonymous No.17272915]

>>17272775
Well frankly, she's a butterface.

I went home for thanksgiving break and when I got back she acted like she missed me so much and slept in my bed that night. Touched some tiddy but she wouldn't let it escalate any further.

Her main point about Asian relationships is that they're way more nonverbal. They have a common expression, "read the air," which is an important skill a guy needs if he wants to maintain a good relationship with his girl. Because Asian girls won't tell you when they're unhappy, they'll just wait for you to notice and if you don't they'll start making your life hell. It all derives from the concubine era, which is what most literature geared towards Asian women centers around, where women had to scheme and connive their way to putting their sons onto the throne against the other concubines and an uncaring father/prince/lord/emperor.

I think the best way she explained it to me was, "Expressing your love or affection for someone is not common in Asia. While in the west, you even close your phone calls with 'I love you.' My parents have never once told me that they love me. It's just implied. Asian girls like those constant affirmations of affection because they are not the norm, and that's one reason they'll date westerners."

[Anonymous No.17272944]

>>17272596
She sounds a little crazy, kinda degenerate. You should be glad for the advice though. Dunno if I'd go for an Asian girl myself, not that I would be rejected but I feel like it would be hard enough relating to my future kid as is, don't need to make it harder by having a son of a different/mixed race. Even if I did do it, I wouldn't want to raise them in Asia (due to bullying) or in America (place is collapsing), I'd feel guilty not doing it in europe or something. I'm a white guy with a degree who has decent Japanese, so it's probably attainable, but I dunno. You have to think about the kid after all.

[Anonymous No.17273043]

>>17272944
>Even if I did do it, I wouldn't want to raise them in Asia (due to bullying)
This is a meme, hafus actually do tremendously well in Japan. look up on Youtube what hafus say themselves, or what Japanese people actually say themselves eg search ハーフどう思う.
Basically they are viewed as a more attractive Japanese person who comes from a rich family, plays violin etc. Obv that is never true but that's how hafus are portrayed as in YA manga.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Dy7nFivVFII

[Anonymous No.17273047]

>>17272915
I lived in Vietnam for a year. It was probably the best year of my life. I loved the chaos of the cities there. I’ve always been an outsider but this was the only time it was a positive experience. It was definitely just shallowness on the Vietnamese’s part but it didn’t matter. Anyway to contrast your roommates observations, most of the girls that talked to me were really into post modern western literature and were autistically blunt. (In a good way.) They were absolutely not the typical Vietnamese girls though.

>>17272447
It’s totally fucked up that, as an American, I have had a much better time in third world countries.

[Anonymous No.17273109]

>>17273043
I guess that makes sense. That's unintuitive though since they otherwise want to limit immigration and preserve their national identity, which I understand. It doesn't make sense to me how they'd reconcile that, the idea the kid will be pretty but otherwise it's no big deal. Even leaving aside cases like Naomi Osaka, being an otherwise normal kid who's a hafu must be a bit upsetting somehow. I'm sure people are nice to you generally, but you would probably lack that sense of being fully Japanese. So long as you're not like Naomi, I bet no one would dislike you, but it raises some interesting questions.

[Anonymous No.17273120]

>>17272086
Sounds like USA except the food situation is inverted.

[Anonymous No.17273209]

>>17273120
Rotten chickens dig up people?

[Anonymous No.17273534]

>>17264554

From an old dream journal of mine verbatim, feel free to steal.

A dream I had
(editorializing was done during and after the dream.)

in a war with the Britons and giants of old the great Vortigern stood against a wall.
He then made a pact with the magician Merlin to preserve his kingdom against the forces of darkness.
The wizard and his two accomplices helped him destroy the forces of the two kings, Aurelius and Uther Pendragon
After this point the heathen kingdom stood strong against invaders, the wizards manipulated the monarchs from behind the scenes
in the 17th century the English civil war allowed the wizards to abolish the forces of the old order and replace them with a council of magicks

today I am a minor intelligence agent in service of the government's secret police.
Hogwarts exists, but I go to a government run school, a gigantic edifice of concrete and steel situated on a small island in the center of a harbor.
I work in what is ostensibly London, but its actually a large golden brown city with ancient structures and walls. It resembles Salamanca.
I may in fact be serving in some of our European possessions in Spain.
My father was also a wizard who died fighting in the Falkland Islands.


One day I am drugged me along with my colleagues and we find ourselves unable to distinguish reality from fantasy.
I mistake the woman who takes care of me for a large dog. I have been drugged, but I am unsure of by who or in service of what goals.
This was the first part of the dream in which I was trying to wake up and found myself constantly falling into new dreams.
I couldn't tell if i was awake or asleep.

We believe that we are pursuing nonmagical insurgents but soon realize that the peoples revolt is connected to a far larger conspiracy.
High ranking government officials are using the proletarian revolt which has already seized portions of the capital in order to install a new government.
We are being picked off by assassins one by one because of our loyalty to the old regime. As members of the secret police we must be eliminated
I believe that I may have some role in interrogation of prisoners.
Right before waking up I escape from rival agents and the hotel where me and my colleagues are holed up. I am unsure of their fate.


There stands a magical embassy in a small plot of land in the royal gardens. It may or may not be connected to heaven. (I intend to write a separate story about this)

[Anonymous No.17273550]

Why do women fantasize about gay sex so much?

[Anonymous No.17273575]

>>17264554
>grey folds seething

[Anonymous No.17273640]

>>17273550
There's been discussions on it in fandoms, most people would say it's because gay sex is not tied to procreation, making it more an expression of true love on surface level.
Then there is possibility that it's the way they tie together desire to explore sex and romance, but also not having to deal with subconscious hatred of female competition. This might be the reason why fujos would often hate the canon female love interest and write her as worse than Satan, so the male character could dump her for a supportive guy.

[Anonymous No.17273743]

>>17272086
>what do people in 1st world countries complain about?

Gender pronouns. Not enough gay people or non-white people in superhero movies. Random police shootings that hardly matter. And all of these are more important than your country as a whole just by virtue of coming from 1st world countries

[Anonymous No.17273757]

Most of these threads are filled with posts about wanting to die and the pointlessness of life, but this one somehow has managed to be more depressing than those.

[Anonymous No.17273796]

>>17273757
I don’t know anyone who isn’t in a shitty place right now. If the pandemic wasn’t bad enough the events of the past week in America have effectively ensured a future of technocratic enslavement and utter social isolation under the guise of preventing authoritarianism and upholding “progress.”

On the bright side however the status quo of neoliberal totalitarianism and woke individualism are going to miserably fail and cripple what remains of society so that will give a lot of opportunities for creating alternatives or finding strength in a world where everyone is weak. Hard times create good men, I don’t see the point in wallowing about how bad life is when we should be working to making the most stable foundations possible for ourselves

[Anonymous No.17273868]

>>17273796
Would have been more effective if you could have said it without your ideology getting in the way.

[Anonymous No.17273879]

>>17273868
I have no ideology. This system does have an ideology and it’s currently making everyone miserable and lifeless.

[Anonymous No.17273886]

>>17264625
you love niggers and faggots? you like to fuck niggers and fuck faggots?

[Anonymous No.17273896]

>>17273879
It is difficult to not see someone who uses neoliberal, authoritarianism, and progress all in the same sentence as not having an ideology, It very well could be my own cynicism. These terms are just too loaded, with so little context as you gave it is very difficult to see them as anything but a republican trying to sound unbiased and rational. I would like to be able to see them as unbiased, but society has made that pretty much impossible to me.

[Anonymous No.17273958]

>>17266717
was it 23 and me?

[Anonymous No.17274036]

>>17264554
cum. ain't even horny. don't even wanna masturbate. it's just constantly on my mind.

[Anonymous No.17274044]

>>17264586
>I have no discipline.
yeah same, how fix?

[Anonymous No.17274190]

>>17264586
>I like my girlfriend when I'm with her, but after a few days I find myself not missing her.
This. I had my first real relationship a few years ago when I was still in university, it was a very short-lived thing but it felt fucking amazing because I finally "did it" after all those years of being a wizard's apprentice. Now I have kind of figured out how to get gfs, but it always feels like something is missing

[Anonymous No.17274263]

>>17273757
Things are depressing anon. My mom came in my room yesterday and told me one of her friends died of corona. Not to say the world's ending but I feel we're entering a low point, a dim tunnel of sorts. It makes me curious how people alive during the Black Death felt, as if the world's going dark around them. Things aren't bad that yet, but perhaps that feeling is in the air. You know?

[Anonymous No.17274287]

>>17273896
Maybe I am using ideological terms because I think about how this system works a lot but you seem too cynical about it. We still all feel the misery in the air these days disregarding all the semantics. I’ve never seen normies so casual and open about being depressed and mentally ill, and people in my community are dropping like flies because of COVID. The boomers I used to talk to in the local flea markets are gone. Things aren’t as bad as they could be but the general feeling of hopelessness is really strong, I hope we all find our way

[Anonymous No.17274326]

>>17274263
>>17274287
I am not sure I can view death as depressing, In my life time the population of the world has increased by 3 billion, in my parents lifetime it increased by 5 billion. That horrifies me. It can not be sustained and we do everything we can to avoid death, even locking ourselves away and submitting to depression. The long term fallout of corona is going to be a generation of addicts and depression, both of which are on a massive increase and don't just go away with vaccine. We are living in short sighted fear and I find that so much scary than corona. I think back on just walking about and having beautiful woman smile at me and it just hurts, we don't see smiles anymore. Meeting someone and having them touch you, gone. We are giving up so many things which are vital to us out of fear and that fear is likely to make things so much worse in the long run.

I think of what the future is going to be like and really hurts.

[Anonymous No.17274349]

>>17274326
Yeah man, I had issues before this but corona is just a depressing kick in the groin for everyone. I don't want to get too bleak but if this is the new normal I'm not too enthusiastic about living to old age.

[Anonymous No.17274390]

It's a weird feeling when you're lying in bed and stuck in some sort of "cant fully wake up but neither go to sleep" phase

[Anonymous No.17274395]

>>17274390
That is pretty much the only part of life I really enjoy anymore.

[Anonymous No.17274412]

I feel irrational disgust around teenagers. Like even on a train. Sometimes I almost want to strangle them especially when I hear them talk about stuff like politics or religion. IDK exactly why

[Anonymous No.17274417]

>>17274412
Because you miss life being so simple and straight forward.

[Anonymous No.17274482]

>>17274390
Doing nothing, and I mean literally nothing, just lying down and maybe listening to sounds around you, sometimes just feels so fucking good. Not even in a depressing kind of sense, I legitimately enjoy it

[Anonymous No.17274533]

I am irresistible

[Anonymous No.17274545]

>>17274412
Its pretty simple right? Because they're cringe... and we remember when we were loudly talking cringe on the train as teenagers and it hits us in the form of resentment

[Anonymous No.17274557]

Wish I knew some folks who were into reading and discussing literature and listening to jazz and classical music. Maybe if I visit a retirement home I can make a frend there.

[Anonymous No.17274579]

>>17274557
You know me

[Anonymous No.17274595]

I need to get my mojo back

[Anonymous No.17274714]

>>17274595
ha, i never had it in the first place

[Anonymous No.17274791]

We were driving past the night
Big apple graveyard, five miles wide
There must be millions there

Solemn wailings in my head
I felt the rain, I went back to bed
I don't know what to say
I must have slipped away

[Anonymous No.17274921]

>>17274579
But you don't read and I don't want to tell you what you thought of ____ book

[Anonymous No.17274941]

I have Plato Complete Works and I honestly bought it because I feel shallow and I try to convince my ideas that with philosophy I will be fulfilled to a degree that I will know what to do next. Because I have no idea what to do next.

Also, do you think a person would change if he read Plato?

I don't hate myself but I hate my sense of self, I hate who I am and I want to change who I am, I am trying to form a new identity a whole new character that I will wear on and "pretend" to be and I hope I won't hate myself then because I am not me, I am someone I made and I can change that someone. Do I make any sense? Do I sound infantile?

[Anonymous No.17275014]

>>17274482
This. I don't know why nobody ever mentions this. Instead it has to be meditation, a power nap, resting to be more concentrated at work, or depression, burn out, mental illness. No. Laying down and doing nothing is just that and it's a good thing in itself. There's nothing more to it. An enjoyable part of human experience.

[Anonymous No.17275022]

>>17274941
You sound like you should just read Plato and stop being such a faggot about it.

[Anonymous No.17275084]

I believe that I have written down a philosophical idea that would save all the depressed and confused people out there but I'm afraid as soon as I'd made it public someone would write a criticism that would deconstruct my idea so I will keep it to myself so that at least I can gain from it.

[Anonymous No.17275115]

>have feeling
>start thinking about why
>come up with some mental strategy to minimize the bad in the feeling
>use words to mold raw feeling into a shape that will "work for me"
is there another way to relate to/have feelings?

[Anonymous No.17275207]

>not a furfag
>haven't seen furshit in 10 years
>takes 0.2 sec to recognize pic related

[Anonymous No.17275231]

>>17275084
Just write it here. It's good to receive constructive criticism.

[Anonymous No.17275266]

I'm afraid I might have OCD. For years and I've been concerned with tiny things that had led to more stress than they deserve, such as very intrusive earworms and right now having to regulate my breathing instead of it fading back into automatic mode. It hasn't kept me from still going through my day, but it's slowly chipping away at me and I fear it will get worse with time, which is a thought that in itself is causing me anxiety.

[Anonymous No.17275272]

do you feel bad that you hurt someone, or do you feel bad that you are a person who hurts people?

[Anonymous No.17275291]

>>17275272
the first.

[Anonymous No.17275408]

Is selecting a philosophy to use as your "life philosophy" itself a cope and sign of deep neuroticism? I feel like a well-adjusted person would calmly integrate new thoughts and perspectives into his outlook instead of reading some books and deciding something was going to be /his thing/. To be clear I'm including myself in the neurotic category, but recognizing a problem is the first step to correcting it.

[Anonymous No.17275442]

>>17275408
are you going to follow it as a dogmatic or just bring the most vital elements?

[Anonymous No.17275469]

>>17275408
yes, and it should apply just as much to "philosophies" like anarchism and marxism as to stoicism or whatever shit rich greek guys lived by

[Anonymous No.17275480]

>>17275266
>ocd like ... having to regulate my breathing
this is why i always consider "mindfulness" just self-induced ocd

[Anonymous No.17275498]

>>17270017
because they're the capital of the world

[Anonymous No.17275590]

>>17270490
I enjoyed your posts. Did you know Limmy is a twitch streamer now? He streams every day, playing games with a bunch of friends, doing comedy improv, making electronic music and so on. He's much better than 99.9 percent of streamers because he's got actual comedic talent. Of course he's a leftie and holds completely normie political opinions, so I bet there's not a whole lot of 4channers watching him. Anyway, he's the cream of the crop when it comes to game streamers because of his comedic abilities.

[Anonymous No.17275596]

I am 23 and feeling like my life is moving so fast and when I look at how some did more than me at my age and I did nothing, I only have a shity car on my name,the last couple of years were a bad for me and my family, i don't know what keep me going further, maybe will of living or something else.

[Anonymous No.17275620]

>>17275596
usually the kids who got their masters by 23 just did one of those programs where senior year you take grad classes that apply to both your bachelors and your masters, so really it's just a one year masters, nothing to get depressed about, so you'll get your masters at 24 instead, no one cares really

[Anonymous No.17275682]

>>17275480
I don't even know what that is.

[Anonymous No.17275846]

my feet are really cold. my mom texted me and told me to open a window because the fresh air will help my bronchitis. i live in the south so its not freezing outside. but the cold air blows in and moves into the little nook under my desk and makes my feet cold.

[Anonymous No.17275864]

>>17264554
Well OP one of the first lessons I took when i started college was to stop wearing so many sweat pants - use to be a big timer in this field. I stopped wearing sweat pants and suddenly I started noticing girls again, before this I was questioning if maybe I'd become asexual. The first time I wore jeans was in my sophmore year, I was masturbating heavily around that time and reading James Joyce and Vonnegut (alternating per day). I got to that passage in Angelas Ashes where he ejaculates over a hill top and decided to wipe my cum in the book binding and throw it away. Never finished it, but that's when I stopped masturbating. I also threw away almost every book I owned and then bought a couple new ones mostly about Number Theory (these were not interesting).

So maybe she should just try to find out whats wrong with her approach to making friends. The first time I asked a girl out who was probably like your sister a lot (young ,excited, hoping for a good time in college) I took her to Applebee's and didn't pay for her bill. I could tell she was really let down by that fact, I knew I could have paid for it but I thought maybe it would be more fun to see how she paid for the bill. She did it and we met a couple times after that. I slipped a small book of poems by Yeats in her purse when she went to the toilet and she never called me again. The joke is on her because I rubbed my cock on the first page which she probably touched. I saw her in school some times but I didn't even make eye contact because it was so funny.

I didn't really meet a true girl until I was in Junior year and then we dated for about 5 days before I knew I'd met the one. Needless to say we're now on day 22 and things can't be better for me.

[Anonymous No.17275865]

>>17273047
what brought you to Vietnam?

[Anonymous No.17275876]

>>17273757
The worst part about your post is I can't even remember my first blow job. I know I've had at least two but for my first one I just don't remember it. I was in High School at the time with a serious bed wetting problem, I also had been taking some prescription medication to help with some "bacne" problems that had sprouted up due to a surge of unstable hormones. I went to a party where some kids had a small bonfire in the back yard, they were okay but it wasn't anything special. We had Bud Light and some Amstel's, I think there was Rolling Rocks too.

I remember drinking a "Jack and Coke" and thinking how bad it tasted. I wanted to go home about an hour into the gathering but decided to stick around. There was a girl there who I had a couple of classes with, we made jokes about the teachers and home work. I told her she looked nice and she said thanks, we talked for about an hour and she was drunk. You can tell a girl is drunk because she starts becoming more physically animated with light flushing around the cheeks and glossy eyes. I knew I'd scored a winner, the problem was it was late and I knew I needed to sleep.

We went inside and started making out. I remember running my tongue along the front of her teeth to see what it felt like. She was so drunk she didn't even care. Sometime after that I fell asleep, but I woke up with my pants undone and my dick was lightly wet. She had vomited at some point, because her breath smelt bad and she had some stains on her shirt. We didn't talk much after that night, I think she is studying in a community college but hasn't declared any real major yet. I can understand that, life is a challenge.

[Anonymous No.17275890]

>>17275272

One time we had a Nature walk for a biology class. It was pretty nice, an autumn day that's just in the early "golden hour" of its peak. There's a real great time to go for a walk. I remember I was stuck with a partner (the assignment involved cataloging) who could barely speak English. She was from Moldova and at least 30 years old. She had a funny name I can't recall even if I tried now. I remember her breasts and flat face, she had brown hair that was put up in a tight bun. Her breasts were the perfect size and had a good firm grip to them. I touched them "on accident" when I feigned tying my shoe lace. I recall apologizing to her but she laughed, I think she was just confused. I notice most people are confused when they get sexually assaulted for the first time, I can understand that because it's not something they assume automatically.

Later on in the walk our group got a bit lost. There were a series of paths around the campus and our professor was one of those "hippie" types that never leaves their mansion. A real grassfed burger if you ask me. The Moldovan girl got sexually assaulted twice that day, because I gently rubbed my hand across her ass when she bent over to pick a rock up. She didn't know this was me because I hid behind several other students. I masturbated to this when I got home (It was around the time I was masturbating heavily and reading Vonnegut and James Joyce). It was an okay feeling.

I tried asking her out on a date the next class but her English was simply too poor. I realized I could tell her anything and she would barely understand. Sometimes I used to speak "pig latin" to her and tell her that I wanted to see her naked and urinate on her stomach. She used to laugh then. I wonder if she's laughing now.

[Anonymous No.17275961]

The "Big Transition" for girls at this age isn't so much about moving out or even being away from old friends and family - it's about being around unfamiliar women. I used to stalk several girls on my campus during my Freshmen year of college. It wasn't anything too creepy or even strange and most of the time it was fairly accidental. For example, one girl simply had a similar route to class that I did. I'd just go a bit more out of my way to follow her. I liked to listen to their gossip and always tried to find out their favorite places on campus or nearby to catch up on their lives.

Girls pressure each other into strange scenario's, particularly when it comes to showing off their bodies. I think most women are slightly Lesbian and enjoy looking at each other's breasts. I used to masturbate to this a lot when I was younger and thinking about it now is still a great pleasure, but I think that this is only partly true in the end. A Cock for a woman is a kind of violent insertion into their body, you know? That's why I think for women with new women it's a kind of "fight or flight" mechanic where they can try each others breasts without repercussion. A lot of guys think in terms of their own Cocks and this is probably because they like to look at mine, but really girls are really only thinking about themselves and the bodies of their girl friends. Guys have nice cocks if they can make them forget their friends breasts. I know this because I masturbated near the window of one of the girls I used to stalk. She lived in a small apartment on the ground floor. I pressed my cock against the window. It was cold as the season was settling into winter. Steam could be seen from the ejaculation I put onto her window. She must have saw my shadow in the window through the folded curtains because she screamed. I ran as fast as I could and escaped without any penalty.

Later on I heard her talking to her friends about my Cock. I knew I had a nice one because she was talking about it the next day and not thinking about her friends breasts so much. Being with new women is always an exciting prospect.

[Anonymous No.17276007]

After Middle School one my first experiments was also with a minority. She was a Tatar / Mongolian girl who looked like the kind of horse her ancestors would have rode. In Chemistry class we were making salt water. It was one of those early experiments they teach you to get the general feeling for how the rest of the year will look like, a kind of soft introduction before getting into heavier theory.

We were lab partners with another girl and a guy with thick rimmed glasses and a large over bite. He was also a real mouther and liked to explain to us what he would be doing after school. He was a member of the wrestling team and had a decent record. This was fine because he was dull enough to distract the Tatar girl. I remember how I pretended to accidentally spill the water all over her dress, I could tell she was shocked because her nipples stood suddenly erect - it's a distress beacon for women who were ready to mate.

I apologized and the teacher told her to go to the nurse to wait for her shirt to dry because she was not wearing a bra. You know how young Asian girls simply don't have breasts? She was something similar, but they were perked enough to cause a real distraction even from the perspective of our teacher. I remember telling myself, "Well that was pretty easy." and used to leave little notes in her locker calling her, "Wet Wong" and "Slippery Sino". I trained myself to have girly handwriting - you know the kind of "bubbly, pink gel pen" type of handwriting girls in high school had I'm talking about. I worked for a long time on this style, spending a lot of hours perfecting it.

She thought it was some of the other girls in the class and quickly alienated herself that year. I think I personally ruined a lot of chances for her to have a normal social life because she really estranged herself after that.

[Anonymous No.17276015]

I tried writing, chess, basketball, drawing, dancing, chorus (solo and in group) but nothing resonated with me. Maybe i am good for nothing.

[Anonymous No.17276026]

I am not a Bisexual but one time I did hold the door open for a man. He had a plain brown coat on and it was a little windy outside. He was perfectly capable of getting the door himself, and to be honest it was rather an instinctual move. I had just left and the wind hit me when I saw him from the corner of my eye. I held that door open and he walked past with a "Than'ye..." you know the sort of muffled "thanks" you get when someone is a little surprised and embarrassed.

I didn't stare at his body and didn't think about him getting into his car. But that was probably the first Homosexual experience in my life.

[Anonymous No.17276040]

>>17276026
The second Homosexual Experience I had was when I got a hold of a camera I had stolen from a class mate on a field trip to a public park. It was at the end of the school year and we were all looking to blow a little steam. I saw his parents had let him borrow a digital camera for the trip, probably to take some lasting memories. I couldn't help myself and decided to steal the camera and look at the pictures in the toilet.

There wasn't anything too interesting. It was around the time of "MySpace" and "Xanga" and some other early iterations of social media and his pictures were mostly the proto-Selfie of that time period. I looked at them while I went to the toilet and decided to photograph the handle of the stall. I felt kind of strange doing this, because I was mostly naked and had just emptied my bowels into the toilet bowl which I proceeded to take a photograph of as well.

I found him later on in the day and was able to successfully sneak the digital camera back into his pack without him noticing. He was really upset because he thought he had lost it. I don't blame him, I think he would have gotten into a lot of trouble back home if his parents found out he didn't have the camera.

On the ride home he was somewhat pale and quieter. I watched him a lot during the ride, it was about 2 hours - maybe even a little less. He didn't speak much. I felt a little proud and a little messy about the whole thing. >>17276026

[Anonymous No.17276053]

>>17274287
>I’ve never seen normies so casual and open about being depressed and mentally ill
No kidding, it's bizarre how zoomer college students will bond with each other over what antidepressants they're taking, and a whole slew of them have BPD. I've seen it so much as a grad student. But I wonder where we changed where people are so open about how close they are to being crazy?

[Anonymous No.17276064]

>>17267110
>see you all tomorrow
kek
you made yourself this way. 4chan didn't. i just started getting myself together really well and im a veteran on this site

[Anonymous No.17276075]

>>17276053
over half the fucking posts in this thread are by schizos dude

[Anonymous No.17276097]

>>17276075
I'm not talking about on /lit/, I'm talking about in real life, out in the open, where every passerby can hear you talk about what meds you take and what's wrong with your brain.

[Anonymous No.17276217]

>>17276075
If everyone's a schizos no one is. Either that or you should consider if you are the schizo.

[Anonymous No.17276247]

>>17276053
>"I wonder where we changed where people are so open"
>Implying a good chunk of this isn't just a mental illness renaissance combined with shitty parenting leading to poorly-adjusted kids thinking Xanax and not CBT or chilling tf out is the cure for anxiety

[Anonymous No.17276286]

Everything in my life goes well except for my own mental health. Why do I have to be like this?

[Anonymous No.17276357]

>>17267155
If you know Russian, then yes :)

[Anonymous No.17276394]

>>17275961
A delightful descent into madness by the end of the second paragraph so unsure whether I should praise your writing or say hey maybe reach out to someone

[Anonymous No.17276402]

>>17276394
Ohh it's part of a dump of crazy posts, I only read that one. That makes me less worried.

[Anonymous No.17276520]

I really like trying to write down how aesthetic experiences feel. Being drunk is a huge help in isolating the sensation.

[Anonymous No.17276538]

>>17276520
KEK I don't drink anymore. But it was booze who got me into van Gogh.

[Anonymous No.17276555]

I have the fear of losing my ability to read. I am constantly proving it unfounded, but it keeps accosting me.

[Anonymous No.17276556]

>>17276538
*what

[Anonymous No.17276627]

>>17272296
>Landownership should be abolished, it should all be rented from the government at a fixed rate and in regulated terms.
And you should be hung from a bridge

[Anonymous No.17276634]

>>17276357
I can read cyrillic and understand just enough, so yeah.

[Anonymous No.17276664]

>>17272636
What you just described is a problem in a lot of countries. What interests me is, how can it be stopped? How do you cut the vicious cycle of everyone with a brain leaving the country because it's shit, and that in turn making the situation even worse because everyone with a brain has left? What can be done?

[Anonymous No.17276806]

>>17276402
These are great, what are you talking about?

>>17276040
Honestly fucking comedy gold, please post more in the next thread.

[Anonymous No.17276879]

>>17272296
The housing market in SF should be deregulated so developers are allowed to build more housing instead of having a bunch of old single family homes from the 1950s in the middle of the city. Not to mention California has an idiotic property tax system that makes it so people will never sell their homes unless you pry it from their hands with millions of dollars.

[Anonymous No.17277347]

This has been a really good thread. The catalog today is pretty good too. It's interesting how sometimes the board seems so trash, with not a single high quality thread in sight, and then sometimes it's flooded with interesting content. It's also interesting how posting just ceases in this thread when it hits bump limit. Are there still dozens and dozens of people reading this post? Or is there like five, and all the others have already closed the tab?

[Anonymous No.17277591]

>>17275865
I visited with some friends 6 years ago and fell in love. After a trip to China in 2018, I didn’t want to go home so I went back to Vietnam. I found a job as an English tutor and had a pretty good life going until COVID forced me out. I’ll never have that income with that cost of living and that amount of free time again and it kills me.

[Anonymous No.17277683]

>>17272657
Are you really black irl? That's unsettling

[Anonymous No.17277902]

>>17277683
kek

[Anonymous No.17277925]

>>17275846
if thats a problem, maybe try to make it a project to get the circulation going: a bowel with cold water will get them really cold and over time circulation will adapt.