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[Anonymous No.17077203]

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>>17055801

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e-X-U0bd4xs

[Anonymous No.17077259]

How did the Beatles know they were bigger than Jesus? Did they measure?

[Anonymous No.17077293]

>I used to think my life was a tragedy. Now I realize its a fucking comedy!
No, Joker. My life really is a tragedy.

[Anonymous No.17077307]

They made a career out of begging,they have their methods,the catch phrases they say,sob stories they tell,the way they approach you.
They have a target demographic,people,specially young,who look like they would be pleased to give their money away thinking theyre doing a good deed,people who look sheltered and with toomuch money for their own good.They have a time and place for their work,in front of restaurants,near subway stations,traffic lights,they come to this neighborhood in flocks during the weekends,and they start working at lunchtime up until noon.
I saw some people stopping by in cars, wearing christmas attire and distributing gifts and food.There were so many people living there,in tents on that traffic island.It smelt of shit as I cycled next to it.

[Anonymous No.17077352]

Have you taken the socialismpill yet?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=47cf-UgOrkM&feature=youtu.be

[Anonymous No.17077367]

Experience a new reality

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lL5QL9_IC8s

[Anonymous No.17077592]

I wish more people were capable of dispassionately discussing philosophy. So often, especially I guess with younger / undergrad types, they get their ego so invested in their opinions that talking to them becomes a pedantic chore. They fixate on specific interpretations, processes of "so and so refuted so and so," and hierarchies of understanding designed mostly to put themselves on top. They pick the thinker they want to hitch their ego to and they enshrine themselves as the expert on him. So tiresome. It all just gets in the way of what philosophy actually is. I guess people eventually snap out of it when they get older and read a much wider range of works

[Anonymous No.17078581]

Hoes on Tiktok got a brother acting up, arthoes, normal hoes, costhots, asian shawties, goth bitches, black kweens, even a few of them femme tranners. Shit got me feeling like a poor kid infront of the confectionary. This is the real holodomor.

[Anonymous No.17078917]

>>17078581
You have to go back

[Anonymous No.17078953]

Two of Liam Neesons recent films both appear to be trying to sell me Lord of the Flies. Did someone recently acquire the rights or something? This kind of thing is not good for my paranoia.

[Anonymous No.17079022]

I find myself wondering whether the world happens to me, or whether I happen to the world. The former view, these days at least, is depressing. The latter view is hopeful.

[Anonymous No.17079033]

>>17077259
Maybe they sold more albums than the bible? idk

[Anonymous No.17079075]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CryZCP6BpO4

[Anonymous No.17079089]

>reading some guy's 120 page thesis on obscure academic subject
>can't add it to goodreads to up my bookcount
>meanwhile faggots reading YA novellas get a +1
fuck the planet, this feel

[Anonymous No.17079168]

She didn’t love him, and never would, but she was uncertain enough of her own feelings that she occasionally lent the impression that she might, or might someday, share some small fraction of the longing he felt. But she wouldn’t, and maybe couldn’t. It’s hard to say, and not really relevant or interesting, although Buck certainly found the whole subject enthralling, tantalized by the prospect that one lucky day, her reluctant attraction would match his irrational passion.

[Anonymous No.17079171]

>>17077203
a tangerine

[Anonymous No.17079178]

>>17079075
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1PJkNZ30WV0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=17FhEUIwDww

[Anonymous No.17079184]

>>17077293
all life is a tragedy

[Anonymous No.17079198]

Tabula rasa
We are nothing but the structures around us
Constructed by state agenda and man
Free yourselves
Liberate yourselves
There is no human nature
There is nothing but our will

[Anonymous No.17079211]

>>17079198
The tabula rasa is probably the single most dangerous idea ever put forth by anyone.

[Anonymous No.17079219]

>>17079198
my will isn't healthy for you

[Anonymous No.17079226]

>>17079178
based Krauts. unfortunately bolshevism won in the end. at least some people tried to stop it. I wonder how the men in the video would react to Germany in 2020?

[Anonymous No.17079412]

>>17077592
This is my entire understanding of Hegel

[Anonymous No.17079417]

The real redpill is that there is no redpill. You already know everything there is to know, you're just confusing yourself with "philosophy" and "literature". Go sweep the floor.

[Anonymous No.17079477]

>>17077203
All I ask is to be left alone. All I ask is let me have my little piece of real estate on this bus. I paid for it—didn’t I?—this minuscule acreage. I have the human decency to stay out of yours. Have you noticed that? You have no concern for the comfort of others. You behind me sticking your nude feet through my leg rest. You beside me whose elbow and knee are well into my territory. The problems of the world can be boiled down to bus etiquette. My fellow man, can you not fathom that if you are uncomfortable in the ridiculously small space allotted to you on this bus that the person next to you might be uncomfortable as well? I don’t believe you can. I don’t believe you have the capacity to think of anything beyond your own animal needs. Or perhaps it’s even more terrible: You can fathom it and you take a certain sadistic pleasure in the subtle torture of others, of wielding your large penis sword, as it were, because, yes, you are almost always men. The women call it mansplaining—no, that’s something else—the women call it manspreading, and it makes me ashamed to count myself among this vile sex. My life is bad enough. I’ve lost the most important work of my career. And retrieving it has proved both painful and protracted. And it is even possible I am not remembering it at all, but making it up or even being unduly influenced by an evil hypnotist. Have you considered that, people? No, you haven’t thought to ask me why I am weeping here on this bus. Perhaps it doesn’t interest you. Perhaps you think me pathetic, a grown man weeping like a grown woman (thon). Perhaps you are repulsed by me. Well, perhaps you are the one with the problem, not I. Perhaps you are the repulsive one. Perhaps you have never cared enough about anything in your life to weep at its loss. If that is the case, it is I who pity you. You will go through your brutish existence experiencing the small pleasures of taking things that are not yours, going places you are not welcome, sticking your elbow into the legally purchased space of another. Then you will die. Congratulations: That is your life. I hope you are happy with it. I hope you don’t regret, on your deathbed, that you never felt love, or joy, or loss. Yes, loss. There is a profound sweet melancholy in the experience of loss. It is the most delectable and pungent spice on the spice rack of life. Too bad you won’t taste it, buddy. I guess it doesn’t go with burgers and beer.

[Anonymous No.17079544]

wow, i just saw an ad for joe rogan's podcast on youtube. uh oh, did all the viewers not follow him to spotify? looks like it could be a howard stern situation where making himself an excusive on some platform no one likes hobbles his ability to reach a wide audience. does anyone under 30 even know who howard stern is?

[Anonymous No.17079552]

>>17079544
I used to put Rogan on via youtube while working, and I actually have a spotify subscription, but I dont listen to him on Spotify. I think it would be funny if his viewership careened, mostly because, not ashamed to admit it, I resent a guy making 100 million and going corporate.

[Anonymous No.17079572]

>>17079552
i have apple music not spotify, but the only time i've ever listened to one of those interview shows they're always pushing is some electronic music show that was on late at night where the second hour they would interview some obscure electronic producers who weren't too rich, but then that got cancelled for whatever reason, i think the because the chick was arab and might have said something about palestine, she still has as show, but now its strictly a chart countdown no discussion allowed, anyways.. my point was, listening to interviews and shit on a music platform sucks ass. half of the joe rogan "experience" is seeing his expressions n shit which aren't gonna be on an actual podcast

[Anonymous No.17079587]

>>17079572
i liked that he would have edgy guests on, and would be open to ideas that were outside the corporate circle. the 100 million was a bad sign and when he made the apology video for saying antifa started a few of the wildfires (which was actually true) i knew it was over

[Anonymous No.17079605]

>>17077307
I saw a homeless man in my area walking down the street earlier today, I was a bit of a ways behind him. His gait was straight and normal he was actually walking faster than me despite being probably twice my age. A car started approaching in the distance and he immediately switched to this flowing stumbling gait almost like he was drunk and he held out his arm and gave the hitchhiker sign. The car actually stopped and he did this really casual slide and leaned against the window. He was in the car 10 seconds later. They really have it down to a science. It felt like something out of a movie.

[Anonymous No.17079614]

>>17079605
it might have been some kind of signal for scoring drugs or even gay hookups, i don't know, but i do know it's hard to get picked up hitch hiking so it sounds like something else was going on

[Anonymous No.17079838]

The most erotic part of a woman is her stomach.

[Anonymous No.17079916]

>>17079605
where you at, bro? I got so many hobos my way it's like a hostile invasion force. god damn they fucking stink. you can smell them 1/4 block away just walking, and that's if they haven't inhabited the place enough for it to get that piss/BO stench set in. they do all sorts of crap to solicit cash out of dopes. the fuckwads here virtue signal by giving them money and shit. one faggot lyft driver was regaling me with how he gave a hobo $10 the other day and i told him off that people like him are the reason there are so many fucking hobos and women are being raped and assaulted by them, and that he only went and bought more drugs with it. he shut up real fast and i don't think he'll do it again. the hobos here even get dogs, and even cats and ferrets, just to up the pity points and solicit more gibs from these virtue signalling leftist fuckface fagwads. and it amounts to animal cruelty in the end, plus dogshit all over the sidewalks (you know the hobos don't bag it.) and why does it happen? BECAUSE LEFTISTS GIVE THEM CASH ALL THE TIME so they can jack off over how good of a person they are. and then the hobo goes and rapes a woman or throws someone off an overpass.

i hate them so much. i bought a stab-proof hoodie just because the hobos are such a problem, and i figured a $1000 armored hoodie is cheaper than an ER bill. fuck virtue signalling s o y s, fuck hobos, and fuck the police.

[Anonymous No.17080004]

>>17079838
>moids actually
>meanwhile I'm on an intense diet to drop down to ~110 lbs from 125 and get that thigh gap

[Anonymous No.17080022]

fuck m e i n th e ass ibegu

[Anonymous No.17080040]

>>17079544
>>17079552
>>17079587
i was willing to cut rogan infinite slack for being a sentient toe and politically milquetoast dude as long as he had the basic masculine spirit of "i'll talk to anybody, why not" that made his podcast interesting originally, and somehow made him into a leading intellectual of anti-censorship by comparison to everything else these days. that was his entire appeal, he was a normal guy O&A style of normal guys talking about shit without being cucked pussies constantly frightened of corporate and their "image"

i already knew what would happen with the move to spotify, he would cool off and let corporate silicon valley HR types start telling him to tone it down, he would compromise in ways he tells himself aren't compromises but obviously are. what i didn't expect was for him to betray alex jones like he did. he was a total fucking faggot pussy when alex visited him on his show, but even that i was still willing to forgive because i know he's got behind the scenes drama with spotify.

the thing that made me finished with rogan forever was when he went on ALEX'S show and acted all weird when alex tried to be friendly and give him an expensive nice gun. you could see from his reaction that he was primarily focused on his brand/image, he was thinking "oh no think of all the tweets i'm gonna get after this...." and trying to do that doubletalk shit where you socially shame an autistic person because they're making you uncomfortable. what kills me is that alex is clearly perfectly aware of it, he's aware that everybody remotely mainstream who talks to him has to couch it in "Haha, WHooooaaAAa that's alex jones everybody lmao!! crazy freak!! he's totally beneath me, a normal cool guy!! hahaha he's a total novelty and circus act to me LMAO!" when they have jones on their show. coward pussy shit, typical of normies, but was not expecting it from rogan.

the whole thing is a warning. stern became a disgusting old pussy shilling for his embarrassing wife and banning people from his birthday party as he aged, he cucked to hollywood fags because he wanted to be part of them. O&A made fun of him for it, and then they all became hypersensitive old holes too, endlessly whining about social media. now rogan too. go figure.

should have known the second he pulled punches on amy schumer. what kills me is that they have more money than god, their brand would only increase more if they increased the controversy, they can't be cancelled, so WHY DO IT? WHY ACT LIKE SUCH A PUSSY? FOR 2.9% MORE SPOTIFY STOCK AND GETTING INVITED TO A DINNER PARTY WITH JIMMY KIMMEL?

[Anonymous No.17080043]

Fascism is vile and it must be destroyed at the root before it is allowed to fester

[Anonymous No.17080063]

>>17080043
n****a communism be worse. 100% of the authoritarianism, with none of the basedness and way more faggotry and pozz. hippity hoppity.

[Anonymous No.17080103]

>>17080040
Great point. The difference in his treatment of Jones—who I dont even care for, but who Rogan professes to be his "friend"—before & after the 100 million was truly vile.

[Anonymous No.17080422]

>>17080004
The thigh gap was literally a 4chan psyops we spread to Instagram to troll roasties into becoming anorexic.

[Anonymous No.17080473]

Goddamn the dumb bitch irks me to no end.

[Anonymous No.17080548]

>>17080040
Get a life, have sex, etc. I know a sperg who speaks like you irl and he's incredibly pathetic.

[Anonymous No.17080576]

>>17080422
>implying i got the idea from 3dpd
>implying i'm not trying to look like anime
i'm chubby as shit and already have a triangle gap. i'm going for the anime legs.

[Anonymous No.17080671]

>>17080103
it's sad, like i said you can see it in alex's eyes, he knows when he's being patronized but he's also big-hearted and seemingly forgives the person for doing it in real time. i think he knows

>>17080548
why are you saying "get a life" and "pathetic" on 4chan? also, how young do you think i am if i'm talking about howard stern and O&A? not all of us are zoomers who arrived on 4chan in 2017. i migrated from somethingawful in 2007 and have never "had a life," although i do have a wife who i fucking hate and don't want to have sex with. kill yourself zoomer.

[Anonymous No.17080687]

>>17080671
Sperg

[Nemo !!GgBWHLRiayD No.17080695]

Totality of one's created timespace is hyperrepresented in dance.

[Anonymous No.17080699]

>>17080687
downvoting phoneposter

[Anonymous No.17081357]

I'm tired

[Anonymous No.17081381]

>>17077592
My bigger issue with philosophy as an undergrad is being sure I'm on the same terms as the author. I know this was eventually Wittgenstein's big focus but I wonder if even in his early days he focused on systemic logic because he thought it might be a way around the pitfalls of normal language. Needless to say, I don't know much about Wittgenstein.

[Anonymous No.17081472]

a naval deep see diver is sent to the mariana trench to recover a military plane that crashed and sank with onboard secrets
he comes up possessed by a lovecraftian nightmare to usher in the end of the world

[Anonymous No.17081480]

>>17081381
wittgenstien is the ultimate cope
>bro like, it's all language and shit
no faggot this shit is real and the arguments are valid
kys

[Anonymous No.17081489]

wow everyone has been on their best behavior tonight, this is like how i remember 2011 /lit/ even if it wasn't quite like that

[Anonymous No.17081495]

>>17079544
>>17079552
hahahahaha has anyone seen that joe jogan ad where he goes "Uhh, so there's like infinity... and then there's an infinity beyond that, infinite infinity..." And he pronounces each word so slowly he sounds like a fucking child learning to talk. Fuckin hilarious

[Anonymous No.17081647]

I will never use discord.

[Anonymous No.17081680]

>>17077203
This Four Loko tastes like Swedish Fish

[Anonymous No.17081697]

>>17079477
Not sure if based or cringe

[Anonymous No.17081870]

>>17077203
There's porn in my brain.
I'm giving it up but I'm addicted to fapping so I thought I would rely on my memory of times I've been with the woman I love. Instead, my brain only shows me pictures of porn I remember getting off to and other depraved shit I've stumbled upon over the years.
The Internet is the only evidence one should need of objective metaphysical evil.
The people in charge deploy mind viruses to torture us and rape our minds until we do the things they make us do without us realizing it.

[Anonymous No.17081925]

I haven't done shit in so long, I haven't moved an inch, I can't do anything for myself, Im mad and cold

[Anonymous No.17081971]

Making my way through Dune Messiah. The part where Farok talks about having seen the sea for the first time, and the ecstatic but daunting impression it had on him, really got to me. It's amazing how water, the basis of life itself, is used to represent chaos in all the old myths.

[Anonymous No.17081974]

>go to cafe to enjoy coffee and be by myself
>people somehow still talk to me
What the fuck. I'm not even a girl, and yet I'm suddenly hearing some dude talk geo-politics while I'm just trying to chill.

[Anonymous No.17082236]

my erection gave out on me while i was inside of a girl. it didn't come back. i have trouble even getting hard to masturbate these days, but i am also such an addict i can't sleep without masturbating so i usually force it.
i thought erectile dysfunction happened to men in their 40s or 50s. I'm 24. is masturbating once a day too much and killing my libido? is it bad diet and alcohol and low exercise? has porn eroded my natural triggers? is it all mental?
i only recently learned how to HAVE SEX. if my penis stops working now i kill myself. simple as that

[Anonymous No.17082254]

>>17082236
>is masturbating once a day too much and killing my libido?
Yes. Your nerves are too used to regular stimulation and need more to respond. Force yourself to no masturbation for some time and the right feeling should return.

[Anonymous No.17082635]

I am such good friends with everyone here. When I do something wrong I cringe and hope that I didn't let the boys (you guys) down by making the cringe. It's so autistic but I've literally grown up here. It's almost like you guys are my parents that never age. My tech parents that I can't even see and have endless minds to utilise

[Anonymous No.17082641]

>>17082635
For example. I wrote something down. In my mind I read it and it sounded like something one of you guys would disagree with so I scrapped it. I didn't even post it or anything I just know you all so well but I've never met you before

[Anonymous No.17082643]

>>17081974
Cafes are open where you live? Lucky

[Anonymous No.17083005]

>>17081870
it gets better if you stick with it. there are for sure images that keep coming up but it matters less and less in my experience
>The Internet is the only evidence one should need of objective metaphysical evil.
might be taking it a bit far but you have a point

[Anonymous No.17083115]

A modern, violent revolution is neigh impossible in the West. Rebels will be fighting against government and big corpos. Any sort of disruption vs the neoliberal order will cause an immediate clamp down. The tech advantage, notwithstanding the sheer propaganda, would make such a revolt impossible

[Anonymous No.17083146]

>>17083115

nay*, frick.

[Anonymous No.17083207]

>>17083115
thank you for this nuanced and original insight

[Anonymous No.17083229]

>>17083207

Sir, I wanna buy these shoes for my mama please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry sir, daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes would make her smile
And I want her to look beautiful if mama meets Jesus tonight

[Anonymous No.17083439]

>>17082939
You even admit to coming here from /pol/ and the other guy to trolling us to get reactions we want you gone. Clear global rule violations.You are sub par posters bent on ruining otherwise decent discussion with your shitposting we need you to go back to >>>/pol/ fix your own board.

[Anonymous No.17083474]

>>17083115
>>17083207
Whites have been completely domesticated.
Only third world Chads have nay revolutionary potential.

[Anonymous No.17083487]

>>17083207

Post your wrist size faggot.

[Anonymous No.17083549]

The Python library for parsing Excel files that I had been using for work dropped support for Excel files. Then when the author was confronted about why he thought it was a good idea for a Python library for parsing Excel files to drop support for Excel files he just gave the typical open source deflection "How much have you contributed to this project? huh? well?" and then suddenly I realized why all the bankers and other corporate dickheads just use Excel and not open source bullshit. Live and a learn.

[Anonymous No.17084016]

I hate how horribly incomplete Lupin's story is, not only does it have two endings, but Lupin's daughter, like so many other things, just sinks into oblivion, Victoire returns to Lupin's side and we are never told why. Sounds silly, but no matter how many other books I read, my autism just keeps dragging me back to this.
Fuck you, Leblanc, did you base this on your own failed marriage and the daughter you had? Fuck my stupid brain.

[Anonymous No.17084431]

The double standard regarding anti-white racism is predicated on the fact that white people don't feel comfortable telling colored people what not to say.

[Anonymous No.17084653]

day wasted on the internet, randomly bursted into tears again; why am i so womanly. hate inward. need to: lift weights.

[Anonymous No.17084673]

bunggghooole

[Anonymous No.17084682]

>>17084653
crying is good anon. the idea that men don't cry is modern and gay

[Anonymous No.17084704]

>>17084682
i would agree but these spike of random emotions strike me as womanly. i want to be in control of myself.

[Anonymous No.17084752]

>>17084704
that's way out of my league. I bet it will become clear with time tho. or it'll just pass

[Anonymous No.17085036]

Everyone is self-deluded in some way or another. Their subjective reality falls apart under a microscope. Everyone is coping and "well-adjusted" just means you are very good at coping. What would someone who isn't deluded look like? I am not sure.

[Anonymous No.17085162]

>>17077203
Maybe I am simply not available to feel happy.

[Anonymous No.17085514]

>>17079916
>i told him off that people like him are the reason there are so many fucking hobos and women are being raped and assaulted by them
kek, this has to be b8. I drove for uber 4 years ago and I've never met anyone as autistic as you, not even the actual crazies

[Anonymous No.17085532]

>>17085514
it's real faget and i'm not autistic, i'm just smarter than you and not afraid to state harsh truths. the seagulls come because they get fed. the hobos come because they get fed. because the hobos are here, women are raped and assaulted by them. it's a huge issue in my city.

kill yourself. actually kys and do a flip.

[Anonymous No.17085565]

>>17085532
i should have realized it was b8 when you said you bought a lead-plated sweater or something. thanks for the laugh

[Anonymous No.17085595]

>>17085565
you're so retarded i don't understand how you operate a web browser.

[Anonymous No.17085708]

>>17085595
do u have any more stories? im collecting the best /lit/ memes and i think you have great potential to crack the top 50

[Anonymous No.17085740]

I can't even get a prostitute to fuck me. It's beyond over.

[Anonymous No.17085831]

>>17085740
God has saved you from a terrible mistake

[Anonymous No.17085841]

>>17085708
screencap your own retarded posts, shitposter monkey

[Anonymous No.17085925]

I'm not going anywhere, and I'm stubborn about it

[Anonymous No.17085952]

>>17085925
I'm not going anywhere so you can fuck off

[Anonymous No.17086030]

>a third of the country openly thinks the election was fraudulent and illegitimate
>"serious" people believe this is no big deal and something not worth addressing

I'm not the only one who thinks this is a much bigger deal than the news media is making it out to be, am I? It seems like a recipe for amplified political instability.

[Anonymous No.17086052]

>>17079033
They would have never reached that number even if they were still alive

[Anonymous No.17086078]

>>17086030
>It seems like a recipe for amplified political instability.
when was the last thing something happened that wasn't?

[Anonymous No.17086089]

>>17086078
Maybe Obama winning in 2008?

[Anonymous No.17086159]

>>17086030
it's higher than a third actually. and yes.

[Anonymous No.17086268]

>>17077203
I asked a girl out frens. I'm nervous.

[Anonymous No.17086288]

words are clouding the sky, words words words - signifier; repeat together with me: words x10 - no longer meaningful. this is your brain, yes. clouded.

[Anonymous No.17086295]

>>17086268
good luck my friend. stay positive is an overused suggestion, but nonetheless true. remember, it's not the end - everything is has a meaning when processed.

[Anonymous No.17086318]

I don't really like America. My experience of this country has been an unbroken sustained low intensity anxiety for my entire adult life.

[Anonymous No.17086341]

>>17086159
I'm just going by that one Quinnipac poll. So, at the least, a third of the country is willing to go *on record* as saying they think the election was illegitimate.

[Anonymous No.17086400]

i can't fall asleep without background noise anymore - but i also can't remember my dreams since i started. i remember how i used to think for hours in the dark while trying to fall asleep, my addiction to screens killed this habit. i'm now quite sad about it - seems like everything about me has been in a steady decline. i haven't written a single line in 4 years.

[Anonymous No.17086454]

>>17084431
desu I think it still just doesn't bother whites that much

[Anonymous No.17086462]

I wear socks 99.99% of the time

[Anonymous No.17086473]

>>17086462
same, i hate having my feet out in the open; i wear them in the summer, i wear them while sleeping.

[Anonymous No.17086504]

>>17086462
same. toes are always cold.

[Anonymous No.17086541]

>>17086295
thanks friend :) she hasn't answered yet but it's late here so she's probably asleep

[Anonymous No.17086567]

Do women like being told to shut the fuck up and sit down? Is that why they are bratty?

[Anonymous No.17086859]

>>17079477
A couple of good lines but its not an interesting passage because your mind is already too clearly made up about the other people on the bus. Try thinking about them in ways that are personally uncomfortable to you, it might bring something up for you to write.

[Anonymous No.17086888]

>>17081381
You have to a philosophy before you can read it. What you read has to interact with an already articulated view of the world. Wittengstein prefaces the tractatus with this fact and many others have made the same observation.

[Anonymous No.17086889]

People give too much of a shit about living and "being something" or "making a change". Its so fucking dumb. I fucking hate technology, I hate the invention of the internet, this fucking demon demiurge reality put forth on the screen. Why the fuck do I need to know whats going on in china, or america or anywhere fucking else. I want to just vanish into the fucking woodland and help the animals man.

[Anonymous No.17086900]

Are there any pros in sleeping naked?

[Anonymous No.17086902]

>>17081870
This was a good passage, the slight over-statement of 'objective metaphysical evil', which sounds grandiose the way you worded it, feels justified by the following line. Your opening line is punchy. I'd be interested to see if you can keep up this quality for a large chunk of text. Best fragment in the thread so far imho

[Anonymous No.17087039]

may i ask anons to pray for my family, please? my great-aunt is in her early 70s and is undergoing surgery for a brain tumor in the next few days. thank you.

[Anonymous No.17087184]

>>17087039
Good luck anon. My grandfather had a stroke over a year ago and dropped dead. I still struggle with it. Just remember that, no matter what happens with your grandmother, we carry a part of them with us for the rest of our lives, and we honor them by living our lives the best we can.

[Anonymous No.17087196]

>>17087184
>>17087039
Fuck i read grandmother instead of aunt, sorry.

[Anonymous No.17087223]

>>17087039
>>17087184
>>17087184
>>17087196
thank you so very much anon for your reply, and i’m deeply sorry for your loss. we do carry our loved ones in our hearts—i lost a sibling long ago and she lives in each member of my family, and has inspired me to try to be a more gracious person. your outlook makes your grandfather proud, i’m certain. i’ll pray for you too.

[Anonymous No.17087225]

I baked a pie the other day but the crust was too short. Next time, i think i'll use less butter.

[Anonymous No.17087256]

The left's goal is to turn you into a reductionist. Complex ideas are systematically diminished, because leftist ideas do not hold up to complex scrutiny. They will attack your person, your word choice, anything they can get their hands on to distract from your argument and diminish it into a single, easily packagable slur. "Bigot", "chud", "racist". They must ALWAYS reduce your argument to a query of whether or not racism is present, and have been trained to do so by instinct. Because again, leftists have no real counterargument to a well-articulated point, so they need to make sure that you can't articulate your ideas. Without these slurs, these crutches, they are nothing, and should all of that fail, they will simply make every effort to silence you because they fear the truth that they cannot disprove. And then they will, again, diminish the systematic delegitimization of ideas they don't like as a fallacious 'paradox' or some other invocation of academic terms to make them feel smart. Or maybe they'll justify it with the phrase "an independent corporation can host what it wants", but apparently this idea does not extend to a business's right to hire or serve who they want. And when you accuse this censorship and reduction of the English language to 1984, they will, again, reduce it. "There he goes comparing us to 1984 again". It doesn't matter that they are copying the exact tactics employed by IngSoc, for they have reduced it to a quip, and therefore it no longer matters. Ideas that are anything but glowingly positive are reduced to "mean", "hate speech", or simply "negativity". At some point half the spectrum of human emotion became a crime, and no one remembers it or knows why. It just is. It is easily to fall into that trap, where you're expected to say nothing. Think nothing but one-word triggers that set off chemicals in your brain like an trained dog that hears 'fetch'. And again, they need to do this. I cannot stress this enough. Leftist ideas do not stand on their own and can only ring loud if all others are silenced. THEY are the ones who started this game of tribalism, of division and suppression over compassion, THEY are the ones who developed tactics of information control , and THEY are the ones that cannot articulate their ideas openly when pressed. Because again, leftist ideas do not hold up when subject to fair debate. They need these reductions and circumventions because without them, they are unviable. The day a leftist directly acknowledges an idea, openly and fairly, should be considered a national holiday. All I can say is this: do not buy into it. Do not let them diminish you. Do not let them circumvent fair debate by allowing them to conflate being mean or being alone with being wrong. Don't let them reduce you to nothing. That is exactly what they want you to be. Don't give it to them. They will attempt to reduce this rant. "Oh he was banned from something". Don't let them reduce you. Don't give yourself to them.

[Anonymous No.17087269]

>>17087225
good idea, you should also try adding some ice-cold vodka to the crust if you’re looking for a more tender and flaky dough

[Anonymous No.17087293]

>>17087256
>right wing ideas
>complex scrutiny
Why do you type so many words, when saying you're a fucking retard could have been enough.

[Anonymous No.17087294]

>>17079168
I’m into it

[Anonymous No.17087303]

>>17087256
> I read 1984 and am very smart

[Anonymous No.17087316]

>>17079477
Checked and saved.

[Anonymous No.17087336]

>>17077203
indians smell bad
jews should be exterminated
whites are half retarded, probably from race mixing
niggers are niggers
chinks are literal bugmen
russians are devious motherfuckers, both government and civilian

[Anonymous No.17087348]

>>17081472
Steal this story

[Anonymous No.17087358]

>>17083115

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operation_Menu
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operation_Freedom_Deal

The consequences of a legitimate popular insurrection taking place in the US would simply entail mutual destruction. Which is pretty much the ideal outcome from every possible perspective except maaaaaybe that of Jeff Bezos.

[Anonymous No.17087361]

>>17078581
god i wish that were me

[Anonymous No.17087384]

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[Anonymous No.17087398]

>>17087225
Your waifu is shit. SHIT!!!!

[Anonymous No.17087447]

>>17081495
I am saddened by that ad. Some overpaid marketing employee at a certain music-dealing conglomerate was searching for just the right clips to use in their latest ad. And when this person saw Joe stuttering over some math, they thought: "Yes, that's so funny" with a small chuckle, and a coy, prideful, smile.
There's nothing in particular that should sadden me about it... But just the image of someone deciding to use Joe's moment of eureka as a selling point. Well, it brings a frown to me.

[Anonymous No.17087452]

Why do we cum?

So we can learn to get it back up again.

[Anonymous No.17088048]

>>17087269
Thanks for the tip, i'll give it a go
>>17087398
How rude. You won't be getting any pie.

[Anonymous No.17088387]

" Our teacher finally walks in. He’s grinning. He apologizes for being late and delicately brings his hands together so that only the tips of the fingers connect before the palms gradually close into each other and there’s a slight moment of tension before they finally touch like it’s a loose wire firing sparks into the air and he tells us that he wants to do something “a little bit different today.” He says we have a “special guest” he says “I hope you’ll give her the same attention you give me” and finally he rotates his neck toward the door and I follow his line of sight into the gap between the frame and the edge of it where the outside hall with the rows of lockers is visible and out of the frame steps this girl… she can’t be older than 11.. I think… she’s got a small figure and brown hair… a pastel blue t-shirt with a little teddy bear on it… and her eyes...something’s wrong…they kind of unfocus the background...you only realize it in retrospect but when she fixes her eyes on me everything else, everything… the chalkboard, the cabinet in the corner of the classroom, the clock on the wall with the second-hand that doesn’t tick but just glides around the clock, the tiles, the floor, the red sweater… everything kind of slurs together as if it’s painted on and the paint is melting under a heat lamp and I’m left with these two white almond-shaped things with black… absolutely black holes and a shimmering just-barely-there outline of cyan… time seems to slow down and I just barely notice that everyone else in the room is just as quiet as I am, nobody’s moving except for tiny expansions and contractions of their lips, some open mouths…"

[Anonymous No.17088464]

>>17086030
Democracy is a broken system even when it's "working".

[Anonymous No.17088515]

At what point is not caring about other people a mental illness? I don't really care about other people, their feeling or even my friends or families. I am not abusive though.

[Anonymous No.17088757]

No physical evidence, logical proof, observed event, eyewitness testimony, or written account could convince me that God exists.
I am convinced that God exists.
No physical evidence, logical proof, observed event, eyewitness testimony, or written account could convince me that God does not exist.

[Anonymous No.17088981]

>>17077203
save this

[Anonymous No.17088992]

>>17088971

[Anonymous No.17089030]

>>17086889
Everyone thinks they're some kind of self-appointed benefactor of the world these days when they're just delusional and histrionic faggots.

>welcome to the internet, it'll change everything!
>look at these smartphones, they'll change everything!
>imagine the power of social media on a global scale, it'll change everything!

Nothing ever changes retards.

[Anonymous No.17089055]

There are some people who support monarchy and aristocracy because they're quaint and nostalgic and love old paintings and classical music and think that if we had a king all of that would come back.

I support monarchy and aristocracy because striving after mass equality is an absolute waste of time. The revolution isn't coming. It's not fucking coming. Every single time there's been a revolution to make things better it always ends with some power-hungry asshole knifing his former allies in the back, seizing power, and killing a whole lot of people. And the people that survive live in a totalitarian shithole.

Meanwhile mass democracy leads to the empowerment of hucksters, frauds, and fuckups, and to a society where eventually nothing gets done. Look at the current United States. The national government is an absolute shitshow that cannot rule and can do nothing but lower taxes and give aid to Israel. Mass democracy has rendered this country inept. The United States stripped the non-democratic aspects of its government away and all it's done is make the country worse.

So fuck it. Communism can't fucking work and mass democracy can't fucking work either. Do I WISH they could work? Yeah, who wouldn't? Hell, a worker's paradise sounds pretty great. But I'm not naive and I'm not going to be a dumbfuck. All these stupid fucking lefty Millennials and Zoomers are fucking morons and if they actually got the revolution they wanted, it would end with every single one of them being murdered by the stormtroopers of whichever charismatic asshole connived his way into power in the aftermath of the revolution itself. Hell, those fucking morons would probably be the FIRST people murdered. The useful idiots always are.

I'm a reactionary because I'm a fucking pessimist and I think de jure aristocracy is the least fucked up system of government there is. We're always going to have a hierarchy in the world, a small amount of people holding most of the wealth and most of the power. We might as well officially codify it, give them rank and title and make it inheritable. And not only that, give them DUTIES and OBLIGATIONS, in addition to powers and privileges. Maybe when our elites are actually forced, compelled, to get off their asses and do things, it will improve their behavior. It worked pretty well for thousands of years. Was it perfect? Of course not. There were plenty of wicked kings, wicked emperors, wicked dukes, etc.. But our current system, and what people seek to try and replace it with, aren't any better, and it's very likely they're worse.

I'm a reactionary because I have no optimism at all about the human condition. It's not gonna get better. It never does.

[Anonymous No.17089099]

I wish I had a circle of intellectual friends. This place is sometimes okay but it's hard to find someone of like mine to bounce ideas off of. Sometimes people will start great conversations and just leave when things are getting good. I need someone to be my academic foil

[Anonymous No.17089135]

Is there a point in forcing myself to write? I have the desire to write, but lack the will to sit down and do it. If forcing myself is viable, how do you anons do it?

[Anonymous No.17089151]

>>17077203
Okay so I need advice here.
I have always wanted to learn French, and I have recently begun doing so. But now that I am actually putting effort into learning French, these thoughts keep popping into my head:
>French will die out eventually, English will replace it so there is no reason to learn it
>You live in America. In an disaster or if civilization collapses, knowledge of Spanish would be for more useful than French. Learn that instead
Is there any validity to these concerns or i s my brain just looking for ways to avoid having to put in the effort to learn a language?

[Anonymous No.17089153]

>>17089151
You can always move to France.
French isn't even close to dying out unless some global catastrophe were to happen, in which cases we all would be fucked.

[Anonymous No.17089164]

>>17089153
>You can always move to France.
I would rather stay here, lol. Ideally there would be some group of Francophones/philes that would be interested in speaking it at get-togethers (in person or in Zoom).

>French isn't even close to dying out unless some global catastrophe were to happen
I mean, English media's popularity and the influence of the USA/UK would be enough to do the job no

[Anonymous No.17089197]

>>17089164
For a major language to die off, you'd first expect to see new generations not learning French, which even among the immigrants there is not happening (their native tongue is French usually). More likely what we'll see is more countries like the Netherlands where you have a population fluent in both a native language plus English. Will more stuff be created in English over French? Sure. But the regional tradition still exists. Honestly French's literary tradition is one of the strongest on the planet, they have a literal bureau dedicated to preserving the beauty of their language. They'll be fine anon.

[Anonymous No.17089255]

>>17089055
close /pol/ and go outside. and open a history book.

[Anonymous No.17089268]

>>17089099
>I wish I had a circle of intellectual friends.
i have one, theyre some of the only people i can be honest with but they really suck (like i do)

[Anonymous No.17089326]

>>17089268
Suck as in shitty human beings? Or bad at intellectualizing? The latter might be bearable, I would hate to be stuck around pretentious assholes though

[Anonymous No.17089948]

i woke up this morning remembering my dream; i was trying to recatch it, just ten minutes later, while having coffee but it was already gone; i should really keep a diary - dreaming is when I feel most happy and now i'm left with longing for the shadow of a sweet illusion

[Anonymous No.17090005]

>>17086030
I think normie news people and politicians genuinely think they're still in the 90s and if they decide on a narrative and repeat it for a couple months people will accept it and move on with their lives.

[Anonymous No.17090008]

Void.

[Anonymous No.17090024]

How I get an A in every essay without even understanding the subject

>search book/article databases for keywords e.g. "Industrial revolution or "free will"
>load up 50 texts on the question topic
>25 of them I paraphrase and plagiarise as my own
>25 of them I cite to show I have done some research
>open a template essay I wrote in word (works for anything)
>skim all texts and fill in the template blanks
>at the end I edit the essay once to make it feel more unified

Literally takes me 3 hours on Adderall and I've never received a grade lower than an A

[Anonymous No.17090246]

>>17077203
Lads, should I date a girl who is a lot less intelligent than I am? She's nice, "trad" and cute but the conversation quickly turns sterile. She lacks the ability (and interest) for nuanced thought and proper intellectual engagement. She's isn't particularly well-read nor is she on par academically. Sometimes I feel I exist on a different plane of existence and have to dumb myself down. The other distant concern is whether potential children will turn out to be intelligent.

I'm fully aware how arrogant and "tfw too smart" this all sounds, but give me some rope - I don't want to beat around the bush with how I'm feeling.

[Anonymous No.17090260]

>>17077203
Lads, should I date a girl who is a lot less intelligent than I am? She's nice, "trad" and cute but the conversation often turns shallow and I leave feeling unfulfilled. She lacks the ability (and interest) for nuanced thought and proper intellectual engagement. She's isn't particularly well-read nor is she on par academically. Sometimes I feel I exist on a different plane of existence and have to dumb myself down. On the other hand, I can have these desired conversations with my close friends. Though, dating someone obviously means spending a lot of time with the person. The other distant (and perhaps stupid) concern is whether potential children will turn out to be intelligent.

I'm fully aware how arrogant and "tfw too smart" this all sounds, but give me some rope - I don't want to beat around the bush with how I'm feeling.

[Anonymous No.17090275]

>>17077203
When the world is full of queers, gone are all the seers

[Anonymous No.17090296]

my girlfriend left me like 3 months ago. I feel so empty. I don't know what it is that's keeping me going. she decided I should keep our dog, she said she didn't want me to be alone. she cried so much when she was saying goodbye to the dog.

[Anonymous No.17090338]

How many days? How many days must I suffer in this world?

It kinda revolves all around that question... how many days more?

[Anonymous No.17090378]

Every year there are two people, maybe father and son, dressed in a costume. One with a plastic recorder and the other with a guitar, they play these shitty Christmas songs. I crossed them while I was coming back home and they started playing. I unlocked the door without turning and I gave them the most hateful stare before slamming the door. I fucking hate them so much. They probably make a whole paycheck off the few days before Christmas, playing the same shitty songs once a year. They don't even practice, they just play like 5 year old children while pretending to give a fuck. I'm still simmering.

[Anonymous No.17090438]

>>17081870
>>17082236

I recommend a book:

>A Liberated Mind by Steven C. Hayes.

It's a book on ACT (Acceptance and Commitment Therapy). Although it has proven clinical benefits, anyone can do the techniques in the book and benefit from them. In fact, it's a book more suited to the lay-person than a clinician (although I'm sure clinicians would enjoy it as well). Many of the exercises can be done throughout the day whenever you should feel the need to do so, as most of them are just done in your head.

I've been using it to wean myself off of porn with great effect. My porn use was the worst in grad school when I was using it as a crutch for handling stress. Now life is a lot simpler, so I don't use it anywhere near as much as in grad school, but I'd like to cut it out more.

Another book I recommend if your porn use is linked to something more traumatic:
>Expressive Writing: Words that Heal by James Pennebaker

It's a book on expressive writing, which is a great exercise that helps you shed the negative affects that traumas have had on your life. I've also used this to great effect.

[Anonymous No.17090511]

>>17082641
Stop trying to look through the lens of someone else. You are anonymous. We are anonymous. You have a perspective that can be valuable. Just sayin.

[Anonymous No.17090535]

>>17086567
In short yes. But they want to hear it from a sound, respectable, trusted mind. You have to prove your rank in the dominance hierarchy before you can meaningfully tell a woman to shut the fuck up.

[Anonymous No.17090903]

>>17087225
what kind of pie?

[Anonymous No.17091157]

>buuhuu I'm a 30 years old suicidal khv my life is horrible women are all evil and bad
>I would never pay for sex as I think casual sex is degenerate

So you complain and whine about that you are a virgin yet you don't even try? You don't think it's degenerate you are just a whiny faggot. Either stop complaining about being a virgin then you are fine with me. I don't care if you're a virgin. BUT STOP WHINING ABOUT BEING A VIRGIN WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN WANT TO FUCK

[Anonymous No.17091229]

I wish I were better looking, I feel unlovable sometimes.

[Anonymous No.17092153]

I guess I don't really like Christmas
I really don't like it very much at all

[Anonymous No.17092875]

>Oedipa settled back, to await the crying of lot 49.

Oh my.

[Anonymous No.17093259]

Wow, man. The threads are so bad today. Which actually good because it makes it extremely obvious how shitty this site is which is to say the people who post on it.

[Anonymous No.17093486]

>>17077203
My old Arabic teacher is legitimately the most /lit/ person I know. He regularly signs off all of his emails with philosophical quotes (usually Deleuze), he speaks at least 4 languages. I mentioned Russia and he proceeds to start talking about Pushkin and his favorite Russian poets. He paints calligraphy in his spare time and carves wood into stylized Arabic words. I wish I wasn't so retarded when it comes to learning languages because I always feel like such a disappointment around him. He's totally wasted on the people I went to school with, and might be one of the nicest people I knew there. Pic is his painting of verses by an Iraqi poet he loves. Anyone else ever have an amazing teacher they didn't deserve?

[Anonymous No.17093526]

>>17090260
Give it a shot. I usually look for an emotional connection with women, not an intellectual one. I have male friends who I talk literature with. A /lit/ gf is the ideal, but the most important thing is finding someone you can trust.

[Anonymous No.17093626]

a couple months ago my friend took a shitload of LSD. it turned him into an enormous faggot. now he wants to become a mystic. nothing wrong with being more spiritual but his approach is retarded and has nothing to do with traditional mysticism. do people ever grow out of this? seems like they don't

[Anonymous No.17093885]

>>17093626
For many people drugs can be a gateway to portions of the mind they didn't know existed. Its not sustainable in the long run, but there's nothing inherently wrong with a single acid trip. What is your problem with his approach to spirituality? Please articulate your grievances.

[Anonymous No.17093964]

>>17093486
>Anyone else ever have an amazing teacher they didn't deserve?
Nope. Your teacher seems like a very rare and interesting person though. Cherish him lad.

[Anonymous No.17094092]

>>17093885
before he was an immature retard, which is fine. he still acts like an immature retard, but now he thinks he's 10x as wiser and believes in magic powers.

[Anonymous No.17094258]

>>17087256
Orwell was demsoc

[Anonymous No.17094358]

I don't want to die.

[Anonymous No.17094710]

I'm stuck between wanting friends and wanting to remain alone

[Anonymous No.17094891]

>>17077203
Im worried that one of my company’s clients is going to kill himself
>schizophrenic
>recently refusing medications
>just watches morbid shit on his phone like plane crashes
>has threatened self harm multiple times
>calls me his friend, gets mopey when I need to end the interaction to do other work.
>skips psychiatrist appointments
>details how he hears voices, has “friends in his head”
>distrusts doctors
I’m not a therapist. I’m not trained in dealing with this. I want the man to get help. I don’t want him to kill himself.

[Anonymous No.17094985]

Now that I'm fasting, I don't get sexual urges. Feelgsgoodman

[Anonymous No.17094994]

>>17094891
>>distrusts doctors
looks sane to me mr kikenberg

[Anonymous No.17095469]

Everyone is everybody and we all tell secrets.

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.17095492]

let me go off into some nocturnal flight
for I despise, I despise I despise thee
let me e’re dwell in this, the Erebic night
where the eye of my soul is lit by my me
and the ambers of my fantasy ignite
into an opulent flame of deepest sleep
my me shall turn to the cinders of delight
in that dear land where no man can ever weep
weariness shall depart me in that hour
then I shall be king-in-me, full of power.

[Anonymous No.17095504]

>>17090296
I got dumped this summer, so I know how you're feeling. Pretty much the shittiest time to get dumped ever. But it's probably for your own good. At least that's what I try to tell myself

[Anonymous No.17095561]

2020 isn't a bad year, it's a harbinger.
Things are bad, and they're going to get worse, and they will never, ever get better.
Christmas is in three days, and I don't know what to ask for. The only joy I get is from burning through masturbatory dopamine like matchsticks.
I am tired all the time.
I don't even know what I'd do if I wasn't.

[Anonymous No.17095634]

>>17095561
>meanwhile
>2020 has lterally been the best year of my life
>took me from the lowest low to the highest high, made me much more wealthy, and gave me a chill daily life that's totally stress-free
sucks to be a loser like you I guess. I look younger now than I did 3 years ago and am in better shape, healthier, better apartment, and have hope for the first time in my life. Very good feels. My mind is clear and my body is strong.
>>17093486
sounds very /lit/. the only cool professor I remember was from a biomed course (I switched out afterwards for unrelated reasons.) He worked at multiple regional universities and was an absolute bro. Ragged on lawyers as being parasitic pieces of shit and told bitches they were fat to their faces, and he did it so charmingly he looked like a gentleman the entire time. Men like that are 1 in 1000.

[Nemo !!GgBWHLRiayD No.17095760]

Beware the raving greeneyed ones.

[Anonymous No.17095769]

I want to learn how to shoplift books

[Anonymous No.17095861]

It's only like 20 after 9, but I think I might just go to bed.

[Anonymous No.17095902]

I don't know anything about me at all. I don't know my favorite food, what my political stances are, if I believe in god, what my favorite songs are, what parts of women I like, what I want to do in life, or give complicated awnsers when asked for why they want to do things with their life.

[Anonymous No.17096149]

Does anyone else gets very specific mood swings throughout the day? I wake up feeling great, rest of the day regular but always ALWAYS around 7:00 8:00 p.m I start feeling awful, anxious, with a sense of dread almost paranoic (all my worries turn very irrational and I feel cornered) and it doesn't go away until later in the night (if I stay up late) when I feel like my mind sort of gives in and I feel happy again until I go to sleep. Any thoughts on why this could be? The times for the mood swings are very , I don't know where or who else to ask

[Anonymous No.17096230]

I think if Trump legitimately tried to seize absolute power he could do it. There's so much weakness, corruption, and ineptitude at all levels of the federal government. I think if Trump just went for the jugular and took total control they'd be too weak to resist him. This is including the senior ranks of the military. There's a lot of faggots among the generals and the admirals these days.

[Anonymous No.17096339]

>>17086030
Google "legitimacy crisis habermas" and then read Schmitt's Concept of the Political and this
https://counter-currents.com/2018/05/conspiracy/

[Anonymous No.17096398]

>>17080576
pic?

[Anonymous No.17096402]

>>17086030
>be 4 years ago
>evidence of Russian collusion comes up
>MAGApedes dismiss it as Democrats being sore losers
>fastforward this year
>THE ELECTION WAS RIGGED! VOTER FRAUD!
Oh, so NOW you care about the election being legitimate. This is why no one takes you Republicans seriously, you are two-faced hypocrites, this is why you lost.

[Anonymous No.17096409]

>>17082254
seems like general health has to be a problem, too. I masturbate 2-3 times per day (27 y/o) and am still hard as a rock immediately if sex is on the table.

Maybe the woman just wasn't very attractive?

[Anonymous No.17096429]

>>17096402
those are different things. There's a difference between swaying voters to vote in a way you want, and actually faking votes. Obviously the election fraud this cycle was way overblown, but it's not hypocritical in any way to care about one but not the other.

[Anonymous No.17096493]

I feel the biggest thing holding me back is that I don't know what I want out of life. I'm confused and distracted, exposed to multiple third parties that want to lead me astray in every which direction, without the guidance of a father figure or mentor, swimming in a sea of uncertainty.
The simple solution is to pick a direction and swim, but which way? Therein lies the crux of the problem.

[Anonymous No.17096611]

[redacted]
the loveliest thing to do with these people are murder. if u punch and he falls to the ground, he will rise up again. if u kick his face on the ground, he will rise up again one day or another week. and he will remember you, its a hassle. he might tell other people and that creates more troubles. this sounds dumb. u see, when u play a video game, u kill an enemy bot, u move on and clear the game, and u dont face that exact enemy bot ever again. maybe his pals, twins or whatever but its not the same guy. when u watch an anime, most enemies defeated by protagonists are gone forever, rarely if ever coming back dozens of episodes later.
and there is always that part of how if u take out one shithead's life, u will be taken by the authorities, partly so u cant take another. now there are lots of shitheads that need to be taken out, forever, and its a pity that your one life can take out only one. i dont know if thats equality of whatever. its a pity, to get killed while your enemies are still many.
ah, anyway, punching seems nice, but kicking head or face on the ground over and over? that seems more delicious. and then youll count the minutes or hours before the head awakens, and when it does u whisper some words, wait till hes fully awake and then bash his face again with your foot.
those who play power games deserve to get ANYTHING thats of risk of the game. thats why u play.
to be honest it doesnt have to be murder, its only enough that one strikes fear, that the person fears even your presence, that he doesnt want anything to do with u at all. to not even hear your name. to regret even talking with you. to finally understand everything he misunderstood so far, which is, everything.
as someone says, its better to be feared than to be loved. and maybe, maybe u have to create so much fear first, before u can even begin to find the at least one real love.

[Anonymous No.17096800]

Wish I lived in a country where bashing queers was still allowed.

[Anonymous No.17097240]

>>17094891
Don't worry, anon, he won't kill himself. He's more likely to kill you.

[Anonymous No.17097250]

>>17096149
Maybe try establishing a habit that takes place around that time. If your attention is on reading a book in the evenings it may distract you enough to prevent the fall. It depends on your lifestyle but for a lot of people the evening is the most "empty" time which means it gives time for the bad feels to develop.

[Anonymous No.17097538]

>>17096493
I'll pick for you. Do a STEM degree, get a well paying STEM job, then start a family and buy a house.

[Anonymous No.17097609]

>>17091229
you honestly gotta be really fucking elephant man ugly to be unlovable. it's probably not your appearance but your status/personality making you unlovable

[Anonymous No.17097661]

I am not even sure if I am gay or straight anymore. I can jerk off to anything. Sexuality does not feel real but like a mechanic process. I am not engaging in arousal or experience but in a simulation of sexuality, a visual representation. You engage in a bodily function of release but you do not experience the full pleasurable, sensual or emotional aspects of the act itself that contribute to its significance. I am more used to this model of sexual action. I do not feel as a participant but as an observer. I do not feel like I am truly engaged or involved with the sexual stimuli. I am not experiencing love, connection, or true pleasure. I am merely experiencing physical sensation and bodily function, like taking a piss. If I have the urge to jerk off, I will slap something on without thinking about it or caring about it the rest of the day. Sex to me is like when you see a TV and have the urge to turn it on and watch it. You watch it, you do the act of watching tv, you engage in the process of watching tv, the mechanism, the function, but you may not be absorbing the content. You are not relating to it. It is simply there and you are a passive observer doing it out of compulsion. You are not engaging with the content or truly interacting with it. You are not gaining the full experience of watching the program, but just observing, lying down, flipping the remote, whatever. The action is compulsive. It is meaningless. It offers nothing. You feel nothing. You gain nothing, but lose nothing. You just are there. That is what porn has done to me. I am just there, I am not participating, I do not perceive it as real. Sexuality is virtual and not natural. I have disassociated from the mental portion of the act and compartmentalized my sexual persona from my real persona to the point where it no longer exists or is concrete.

[Anonymous No.17097688]

>>17079605
Reminds me of one of the observations I made about the homeless after moving to Albuquerque.

I was waiting for the bus and was just watching this woman go at it tripping like a fucking lunatic, talking to herself and yelling at imaginary people for a solid 10 minutes. Then the bus pulls up, I get on, she gets on and manages to compose herself the entire bus ride (or at least until I got off). She was even polite to the bus driver as she boarded. Absolutely bizarre, like someone just flipped a switch on her and she changed into a different person.

[Anonymous No.17097713]

>>17083115
The thing is, all major extremist groups are controlled and heavily monitored by the FBI. /pol/ jokes about glowniggers, but I highly doubt the Black Panthers, KKK, or organizations like them aren't completely infiltrated with government informants. The closest you get is the grassroot stuff like the Tea Party or the Occupy, and within months both of those organizations were co-opted. the Tea Party somehow culminated in the nomination of Mitt fucking Romney as the Republican nominee over Ron Paul, and the Occupy imploded on itself by identity politics that I think was slipped in by a three letter agency. We won't ever get into a state of revolution because the status quo has everything under control. Just look at the middle east- we made ISIS so it wouldn't happen organically. That way we could control and contain it (and maybe use it to take out Assad, that didn't work out though).

>>17086900
You can certainly become aware if you're properly wiping/washing your ass when your sheets smell like shit the next day.

[Anonymous No.17097731]

>>17086900
It's easier to fall asleep and get a better quality of sleep when your body doesn't feel too hot, which can definitely happen if you are clothed under the blanket and the room is not that cold.

[Anonymous No.17097791]

>>17086900
yes, here i am.

[Anonymous No.17097804]

I think the most eye-opening thing that ever happened to me was when I went to Washington DC for the first time. I went for a research presentation, but did some sightseeing while I was there. Another student on my project had a friend who was a staffer for Congressman Swalwell (especially ironic with the recent news with him banging a Chinese spy). It was in his office that I had the most shocking realization. It was the beginning of the impeachment shit, and Swalwell was all fucking in on it. I never got to meet him, but I met his staffer and secretary and like one or two assistants in his office. Now, I'll be real, I have libertarian leanings, and my parents are Republican. What my parents taught me was that there's more than one way to skin a cat- that there is more than one way to have a functioning government and society. So I always thought of differing political views as a "we let you try your ideas, then you let us try our ideas" kind of thing. But here, sitting in a congressman's office, it felt totally different. The way they talked about Trump, there was a deep, devout resolve in their voices. As if Swalwell was the hero, leading them on some righteous crusade against the forces of evil. I remember just sitting there thinking to myself- "Holy shit. They think they're the good guys, and that the Republicans are the bad guys."
I had never once thought of internal, national politics in such a morally black-and-white lens before. I really disliked it, and found it disheartening. Because when you paint the world as "us vs them" it only gets nastier. You don't try to understand your opposition, you only focus on trying to overcome or defeat it.
And then I started thinking about the advantages of a one-party state. Throwing away freedom for a system that fully commits one way or another seems better than having a half-baked amalgamation of two separate systems. That's why American healthcare is so bad. I question if the loss of freedom is worth it.

[Anonymous No.17097914]

>tfw you start thinking of all those people out there who will be spending this Christmas alone

take it easy out there bros

[Anonymous No.17097922]

What if this life is just a dream and the novels are people unknowingly writing down memories from their true lives to which we will return when we "die"?

[Anonymous No.17097936]

>>17097914
thank you

[Anonymous No.17097965]

Do /lit/ highlights their book?
I'm thinking of highlighting books for vocabulary purpose.
Orange for unfamiliar word and yellow for Important parts.
Current book: Meditations by Marcus Aurelius
I'm still new to reading.

[Anonymous No.17097978]

>>17097965
I hope you're talking about an ebook, cause no way I'd do something so permanent to a physical copy.

[Anonymous No.17097998]

>>17077293
Comedy is tragedy happening to someone else. From the audience's perspective your tragic life is hilarious.

[Anonymous No.17098001]

>>17077203
imagine hijacking a human mind using secretive methods to access their intimate thoughts and knowledge, penetrating their organic neural matrix consisting of billions of neural complexities which manifests their cognition and agency that suddenly receives subconscious malicious influence which now occupies its headspace without knowing why, secretly stripping it away from their societal and ancestral instincts to develop kinship and healthy behavioral growth. Worming your way through their life to inflict terror on said victim through obfuscated abuse, fulfilling an agenda which leads to a slow destruction of the victims health and sanity through a wild ruthless psychological assault on their innocent consciousness. Destroying their plans of personal growth ruining their life permanently. Just humoring myself with a fun idea for a sci-fi story.

[Anonymous No.17098010]

>>17097978
Thanks, it's a physical one. I should just write out the words.

[Anonymous No.17098014]

i forgot how to express myself. i have done so many drugs i cant remember what sobriety is like. long term clear headedness. what is that? im not entirely clear. the drunken world, the hallucinogenic world becomes the default, and the sober the illusory and absent. reality is perceived and shaped by the lens of the altered perception.

[Anonymous No.17098027]

>>17098010
Keeping a reading journal is always good. If you really want to make it even easier to get back to something get some of those small post-its to stick on the edge of the page.

[Anonymous No.17098060]

>>17098027
>Reading Journal
That's a great recommendation, thanks anon!

[Anonymous No.17098085]

>>17096230
yeah, but that would require him to be anything like the severely deluded american left's hysterical caricature of him

[Anonymous No.17098091]

>>17096149
It's sort of the opposite for me, I wake up in despair and typically feel progressively better as the day goes on, and particularly energized after nightfall

[Anonymous No.17098493]

>>17095634
how did you improve anon, can you guide me in your jurney so i can do it myself too?

[Anonymous No.17098497]

>>17096230
You are delusional if you actually think this is true.

[Anonymous No.17098510]

>>17090024
yes, but are you learning, anon?

[Anonymous No.17098511]

>>17097914
Merry Christmas or whatever else you celebrate to every anon who reads this

As Nietzsche once said, the beauty of Venice is that it is "a hundred profound solitudes" dwelling together.
>A hundred profound solitudes together constitute the city of Venice. That is its charm. A model for the men of the future.

Take care of yourself and don't lose hope. Your soul is never alone.

[Anonymous No.17098546]

Having a GF can be so tiresome. I want to break up or I want her to stop being so annoying? I don't know. But I guess I'll wait until this season of the year ends and then break up with her. The shitty thing is that I want a GF, because I'm tired of going for basic Tinder bitches and casual dates, but it's so hard to find the right one. Are girls ineherently crazy? Why cant they chill and enjoy things without complaining about every little thing every fucking time?

[Anonymous No.17098701]

>>17077203
>>>/lit/thread/S17092785#p17098567

I commend the jannies for deleting the right thread for once. Was answering to his last reply which did not get archived for some reason, but it amounted to something about "pressure to sensitive areas" NOT entailing damage.

>Pressure applied to sensitive areas IS damage you fucking retard! What the FUCK? If I press my thumbs into your eyes or step on your testicles, I WILL damage them. Stupid bitch. Fuck off.

In case you are reading this, eat shit.

[Anonymous No.17098820]

>>17098546
why is she annoying? what makes her so bad?

[Anonymous No.17098992]

>>17098820
She's too insecure and has profound trust issues. I can't do anything alone or with a friend without her sending me messages asking with who I am and about how she doens't trust me. Also, whenever I have something to do and we can't be together she thinks I'm making excuses to not see her. She's very impulsive too, anything can make her act like crazy. Last week and went to the bathroom and brought my phone with me and when I came back, she was gone. I called her and she was on her way home, because she "knew" I was talking to someone behind her back. Like, bitch wtf? We've been fighting about bullshit like this since the beggining (2 months ago) and I always say that I'm still with her is because I loce her and don't wanna be with nobody else, but she don't believe. I'm tired of this shit. I miss being alone and not having to deal with someones else bullshit. I tried to help her, she says she will change but we always ended up on the same place.

[Anonymous No.17099010]

>>17098992
I've known girls just like her all my life. I'm 38 years old now so I'll save you some time. You have two options. 1 you end the relationship and find yourself someone else (there are plenty of normal girls). 2 you waste years of your life trying to 'make it work' only you end up becoming bitter and disillusioned with women and by that time you'll be too unlikeable to find a nice girl. The choice is yourself.

[Anonymous No.17099093]

>>17099010
Yeah, my gut feeling tell me I should have ended this weeks ago. I actually tried a few times, but she always make a scene and cries, and begs for forgiven and all that shit. At some point I just wanted her to stop, so I said "yeah, we can try... again". But I'm getting sick of this and the only reason I will not break up with her now is because Xmas is right there and she's far away from her family. I know what I need to do and it's time to do it. I just gotta wai until this season ends and will be free again. Thanks for the advice, anon.

[Anonymous No.17099109]

I am tired of freaks and weaklings getting constant excuses and being praised for being freaks and weaklings. I am not even edgy. I like freaks and sympathize with weak people. But now it's everybody and they have twisted the whole society into a back patting ritual for themselves. I want to go back to the days where if you did something degenerate and retarded people would be angry at you for it. I will vote for the first party that can really restore order. I don't think this is healthy. We aren't meant to be lazy, sloppy freaks, always crying and whining about how the world isn't sympathetic enough, never giving anything back. People shouldn't spit on the sidewalk. People shouldn't be obsessed with sex and their right to be a sex obsessed hedonist. I will vote for the first party that really promises to restore order. I don't want to raise my kids around sidewalk spitting mouthbreathing selfish hedonistic degenerates who are constantly enabled and congratulated by the state for being fucking losers. I miss real humans. Bring back real humans. Antifa won't lose because of anything ideological, anything political. Antifa will lose because they look like they fucking stink and they're greasy and the average human being doesn't like stinky fucking greaseball losers. Get these fucking scrawny stinky greaseball assholes out of here already. No more of this shit, no more fucking hippies, no more losers celebrating laxity and weirdness for the sake of weirdness. I will vote for the first party that makes these fucking smelly freaks take a fucking bath. Communists would be fine if they didn't all look like stupid stinky fucking hippies.

[Anonymous No.17099117]

>>17099093
>the only reason I will not break up with her now is because Xmas is right there and she's far away from her family
Congratulate yourself for being a good person, but be careful you don't become a pushover. It's very easy to drag out this breakup over months and months to avoid bad timing.

[Anonymous No.17099122]

>>17099109
it seems you've been stuck in some internet leftist bubble

[Anonymous No.17100155]

I need to pick up my bed and walk

[Anonymous No.17100329]

>>17099122
more likely internet rightist

[Anonymous No.17100370]

I'M SO SICK OF STUPID JESUIT HIPPIES

[Anonymous No.17100695]

10 years ago I broke up with a friend. there were a lot of thing going on. I think us going our separate ways was correct. I don't think the way I did it was correct though, and it has kind of haunted me. Basically I told him I didn't need him, that he was useless to me and I didn't want him anymore. I texted him this basically out of the blue, so I imagine it must have been quite a blow to him since I was probably one of his few closest friends up until that point. I was so harsh because I thought he would argue with me, and I though it was the only way (I remmeber thinking "chop of the limb, let the wound heal"). But it never left me. I guess I was really afraid that I had genuinely hurt him, long-term. Genuinely hurt his confidence in mankind, you know. Someone he trusted basically told him he was a useless human being. The guilt of having done that to him never left.

So about 10 days ago I wrote him, out of the blue, to say sorry. I wanted to tell him that I was sorry, that I had acted like an asshole, but also to explain why, how it came to be. The thing is that a very real part of why I treated him that way was that I was devolving into massive mental illness. I wanted to say sorry while explaining that. I think what came out was something half-assed, basically me saying "I'm sorry this happened, but I don't take responsibility". I thought that by saying that I was ashamed at the way I had reasoned, and that I said that I had erred and that I was sorry, that I had expressed myself in a balanced way. He seems to have taken it as a cop-out, and as me trying to use him to settle my own bad conscience. It's possible he is right. I thought that what I was doing was I was trying to say "I treated you without humanity, and I fear it wounded you, and I would like to treat you like a human being now in the hopes that that can help the wound heal." He did not take it that way. I'm gonna have to reflect on what it really was I wanted to say and why. He was really not happy, and I think it's because I tried doing both, apologize and explain. I just thought it would be good for him to know how/why it came to pass. Maybe that isn't taking responsibility. But I did tell him that I was ashamed, that I had treated him wrong and that I was sorry.

I really can't tell what's happening or what I should do. In a way I knew that by writing him I was giving him the opportunity to tell me "fuck you" back, and in a way I feel like maybe that's what he did and that that's an ok endpoint. In another way I feel like maybe I never truly did apologize, but if I didn't then I should try again and be more direct or did I miss the shot with some kind half-assed bullshit? Was I sincere? It's hard for me to tell right now. I think there's a difference between an explanation and an excuse, but maybe it's best to be perfectly clear when you apologize.

He did not take it well.

[Anonymous No.17100731]

>>17100695
also, the reason I finally ended up contacting him was that I was inspired by Jesus. It was far from the first time I read about how you can't pray until you make peace, but this time it stuck. I told him that that was what had happened, and I think that was just another muddling factor to him. What I meant to tell him was to show that it was not because I had somehow become a good person over all these years. It was to show that it was not by my own strength, which to me seems important, but I can see how to a non-religious person that just comes off as... kind of fucked up. To me it's almost a metaphysical statement, but... I shouldn't have said it. I can see that now. The only thing that matters is my sincerity. I guess I.. to me it's a way to admit surrender. Humans fight for things, but a proper christian has given up the fight. That's what I wanted to express. "I'm at the end of the line, I've given up". I thought that was a good thing to say, but I should have jus been straight.

[Anonymous No.17100733]

>>17100695
Good to apologize for something like that, but you cant always fix everything. In a movie this kind of thing could work out, but in the real world it often does not. A lot changes in ten years, and traumatic experiences tend to become a permanent part of people's character which they dont like to revisit.

[Anonymous No.17100867]

>>17081381
there's a harsh distinction between early Wittgenstein (tractatus) and late Wittgenstein (philosophical investigations).

[Anonymous No.17100903]

>>17100733
yea I guess.. the intensity of his reaction implies that I was right, I did hurt him... as is, he has taken the high-ground morally, ending with wishing me well and so on, being a bigger man. I'll think about it but it's probably the best thing I can do to let him have that. And God knows best.

[Anonymous No.17101028]

>>17099117
I was on the phone with her earlier today and was on the verge of breaking up with her. I was sooo close I could feel it. But at same thing I kept remembering that Xmas was like tomorrow and I couldn't do that. But yeah, I'll be careful and when the oportunity come I won't waste.

[Anonymous No.17101130]

>>17100731
Christians also take responsibility for their actions and don't believe penance has been done unless they sincerely repent in their hearts, no matter how much external things they do.

You can't control how he acts or reacts but you can tell him how you really feel. It seems like you're trying to manipulate the outcome from above and outside the situation instead of just saying sorry. Sometimes saying sorry isn't a strategy thing in a long term game, it's just saying sorry. In every case you've described, you go into talking to him with an overarching explanatory framework about what you're doing and why, what is justified, etc, and it starts to look like an excuse for making excuses.

Even your Christianity seems like it's invoked as the ultimate excuse: I don't have to feel genuine regret or genuinely make myself vulnerable to this person by saying "I was wrong, and I don't know how to live with that, but somehow I want to tell you at least, that I know I was wrong," because blah blah blah Christianity means this and Christianity means that and therefore don't you understand that I am doing this because that and that's what Christians do ... (etc). The focus leaves YOU very quickly and becomes this framework within which your actions make sense, and you are "managing" the situation strategically again.

To be honest, it sounds like he is a strong person, maybe even closer to the Christian response to the situation than you are, if his first reaction is to rise above all the bullshit and just recognize that you are a complicated person who should be forgiven even though you are the one that wronged him. By all means let him have the last word if you want. But consider doing it for reasons other than moving him around as a pawn in a narrative you are writing, and consider just plain saying sorry, and explaining that you don't have closure. Maybe you will be embarrassed and vulnerable, maybe it will make the situation "messy" and not fit any narrative because now you have to go talk to him again and let him have the last word, but maybe that messiness and lack of strategy is the best form of penance you could do as a Christian, because it will take you outside your comfort zone for a change.

Maybe that would be a first step toward recognizing that life is messy, and little tragedies are lost in the details when you try to fit everything into a tidy framework like this, whether it's
>I'm chopping off the limb, that's the best way to do things..
or
>I was mentally ill so I do and don't take responsibility, for you see....
or
>I'm Christian, and you see, as Christians we....

Maybe your Christianity should be about moving beyond the rigidity of this style of thinking and not just another version of it.

[Anonymous No.17101315]

>>17079089
don't read because it makes a number go up on your goodreads. I fell into that trap a while back and all it does is make you rush through books and get less value out of reading.

read slowly and for comprehension. don't read for the sake of it

[Anonymous No.17101331]

>>17100695
>Was I sincere?

No.

What really seals it is that your entire post is a ploy seeking validation.

You don't deserve validation. You don't deserve forgiveness. You committed what any decent society would recognize as an unprovoked violent crime, and accordingly what you deserve is to be in prison.

[Anonymous No.17101394]

All you dudes that have spent years building massive complex ideologies to cope with the fact that you can't get laid or find a job that pays a living wage should read this. It's free on Audible, and the argument so far is that creating this massive grand copes just traps you in the cope and makes actually getting what you want impossible. Most copers will just seethe and shut it off, but for the one guy who might drop his life wasting political ideologies after listening, I'm posting it.

[Anonymous No.17101429]

>>17101394

I'll give it a whirl thanks

[Anonymous No.17101513]

I took a piss in the shower today and I thought of that Ulysses quote

>It flows purling, widely flowing, floating foampool, flower unfurling.

[Anonymous No.17101523]

>>17101394
thanks dude!

[Anonymous No.17101537]

ARGH, he screams. He has thrust his naked and bacon-clad body, kneeling on all fours, backwards, out of our view, probably against a rather turgid and greasy dildo.

[Anonymous No.17102069]

>>17101130
what's so hard about asking forgiveness is that ultimately there can't be any reasons. in my language saying "sorry" and asking forgiveness are technically two different things. I was trying to say I'm sorry. I was uncomfortable asking forgiveness, because say what you will I still did what I did. I feel like it can't be earned, but like what I can say is that I sorry if I hurt him. I didn't even know if I did hurt him, now I think I did although it is possible his way of responding was simply balanced given how I laid it all out to him. I appreciate your response. it's possible that there was a duplicity. in my defense I think what I wanted to do was open the situation up to getting messy, and now it is messy. I wrote out a response to him that I saved and I'm gonna send him later because I don't want to upset him at christmas.

[Anonymous No.17102088]

>>17090296
she cared more about the dog than you nigga. all modern women are whores

[Anonymous No.17102105]

>>17100695
eat a dick roastie, get over it you wanted to whore yourself out 10 years ago. and look where it got you wine aunt

[Anonymous No.17102818]

>>17101130
I can't really tell: is it fucked up to tell him that I do not think I have any guilt in the fact that I decided to not be his friend anymore, but that there is a great guilt in how I did it? is that a cop-out? I've really poured myself out, but I feel like it bears doing to demarcate *exactly* how I view the situation. I am glad that we are not friends. that's not really a reflection on who he is as a person, but rather that I had a pattern of creating bad relationships, and it was right for me, I'm pretty sure, to try and get out of that. it wasn't until I was over 20 that I got real friends that I actually spoke to about real things, and I have no contact with anyone I knew before then

[Anonymous No.17102837]

>>17097965
Write the word out when you encounter it with its definition, that way you will have a collection of new words in one place and not a disgustingly violated book

[Anonymous No.17102843]

For some strange reason I am hornier than ever. This despite the fact that I've gotten older. My desire to masturbate and have sex has INCREASED in the last year and a half. I'm over 30 but I feel hornier than I did in my 20s, at least in my late 20s.

I wonder why this is? Maybe it's my body telling me to hurry up and get married and have kids. Maybe it's like how most women feel the urge to have kids once they hit a certain age.

[Anonymous No.17103065]

This board provides evidence against mass immigration. Aka newfags make things gay

[Anonymous No.17103083]

>>17103065
actually it's the opposite, no matter how many waves of chuds and sois come through here, the same meme threads play on repeat day after day, and so it will be for america too

[Anonymous No.17103089]

>>17103083
Not true newfag. It's definitely changed

[Anonymous No.17103108]

Look at content pushed on Amazon and Snapchat if you want a definitive argument against American globohomo

[Anonymous No.17103227]

>>17103108
i was laying in bed the other day, and some dude in a massive suv with shiny ass rims parked in the street outside blasting a rap song that the hook was literally just "rags to riches, rags to riches" over and over, so i had to look it up on youtube and the video is just some fat guy in a mcmansion, lmao, i was like damn this so american

[Anonymous No.17103354]

I think I realize now that the hiccup is not that I don't want his forgiveness, the hiccup is that I do not forgive him, and therefore I don't actually want relations between us to normalize. In a confused moment I reached out and stirred the pot. I think the issue is not whether or not I think he deserves to know that I'm sorry, because I think I do, sort of, it's just that I do not want relations between us to normalize because there are things that I haven't forgiven him for. Ah what a fucking retard I was, to make this dumb and half-assed gesture way before I was actually ready to do the right thing.

[Anonymous No.17103571]

>>17099109
extremely based

[Anonymous No.17103719]

Chopin or Mozart? For reading purposes only.

[Anonymous No.17103731]

>>17103719
Chopin. For all purposes.

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.17103889]

Last night I saw a dream.

I was walking alone down some city streets and saw a bright open building with many glass windows, it was night time and I could see perfectly within the place, there were many chairs and tables. Each person in the room had funny looking and strange hats on; each table also had a foreign hat upon it, one an oversized glove, another a cowboy hat, another a sombrero, another a leather cap, many such hats, I saw a table there where all of my family were sitting and they all waved to me. They had a hat on their table also, I tried putting it on and laughed and we all laughed about the hat then I took it off. I then felt the urge to go back outside, I walked west of the building and saw under some scaffolding a lone woman who had no real defining features other than being a woman, I walked past her into a dead end then decided to walk back to the building.

I decided to run back, as I ran back I saw many dark figures, first fully formed like men jump out in front of me, but I ran through and past them, faster and faster I ran the less form they had, gradually the whole dream became a inky black-blue color, as were the men I went past, which I began to fly past in my great speed, and before me now was something like the outline of a door but its color was like ink but also upon the blackness that you see in your eyelids, it looked like the sun burns you see in your eyes when you close them except painted in a deep blue ink.

I then woke up but realized I was in a dream slightly prior, so I didn’t open my eyes and I willed myself back into the dream, which was now lucid as I had entered it by Will and knowledge, I tossed around the blue figured men a bit and played around in my dream-land just walking and enjoying the imagination/dreamscape. I then woke up and got on with my day.

It was a very enjoyable dream.

[Anonymous No.17104230]

>>17097998
yes

[Anonymous No.17104304]

>>17090260
I would not pick a partner that leaves you feeling unfulfilled after you spend time with them. I think what's important is for you to be able to understand each other. Most of my relationships have been strained when we don't have similar values. But idk.

I definitely think you shoudl be dating someone in your league, not batting lower than your value.

[Anonymous No.17104641]

I finally found a guy I work with that I can mentally spar with in any level and its all well and good seeing as we disagree on most things. But recently he's been really letting me down. Like today we were talking about the Seven Deadly Sins and what makes them "deadly". Then out of right field he says "well then shouldn't RELIGION be a deadly sin?" and it was like no fucking thought was even being put into it before he said it and as little as I care for being disagreed against, this simply offended me with how fucking stupid of a statement it was.
Its shit like this he keeps doing, derailing conversations with the most Reddit style interjections that have no real purpose only to be a "well OTHER things are awful too" level of pedantic conversation.
But at the same time, he's a cool guy to talk to. But when I find someone almost worth a damn to talk to, I can't help but be disappointed when they consistently let me down like this.

[Anonymous No.17104766]

This board deserves a dedicated thread where I just speak my mind with no reservations. These threads are inadequate vessels.

[Anonymous No.17104777]

>>17104766
what kind of things would you post in it?

[Anonymous No.17105247]

>>17102818
I don't know fren. It sounds like you are not neurotypical so maybe being honest about that is part of the process. If you don't feel guilt about making a difficult decision that was within your rights, because you are an oddball person with internal needs you don't expect others to understand, but you do feel guilty about how this affects others, that may be a perfectly valid way to live. I have similar regrets about how I interacted with people along my way to finding the right balance of being an autistic loner who doesn't want to be entangled with other people. Now I know how to protect people from it from the getgo, but I used to let things get close without realizing, or at least without realizing it was much more serious for the other person, and only then decide I had to disconnect.

I don't apologize for being an autism, that's part of who I am. But I do know that saying "fuck em they knew the risks" or "fuck em everybody is ultimately responsible for themselves I was just exercising my rights" would be a copout. Maybe similar situations although yours is more about finding the right sense of self and what kinds of friends corresponded to it.

I know people who are too nice for their own good and as a result they accumulated dozens of friends who became deeply dependent on them in a way that was exploitative and one sided. When that person then changed and decided they wanted a different balance of giving, still being a good person but not being everybody's personal therapist and savior, all those old friends perceived it as a huge "change" and some felt betrayed. Life's complicated, there is no perfect way to deal with all that but you do your best. Being sincere about remorse and taking responsibility for harm you caused even if technically "fuck you it was my right to leave whenever I want!!!" are the important things.

[Anonymous No.17105278]

>>17079477
Nice anon, you got dubs, you posted a picture of a funny looking frog, and received a couple compliments. I agree, in hindsight, perhaps you could have explored the others that you criticize in the text. Although, it made me smile and laugh, and I will save it. I especially like what you said about melancholy and you have been able to say well what I have been thinking. Today I looked at people I went to school with, who I once thought were attractive and desirable, and that at the time, I was the freak for not being involved with them. I look at them now, and I laugh as if I were watching a bad movie - I can't believe those attractive girls are now constantly bronzed and have done their hair in such a way that it pulls back their hairline and makes them look like greyhounds. I can't believe, all those pretty girls from school are now alcoholics in their 20s. Look at me, even in my despair, I am a healthier and better man than what I was then, and I am certainly better now, and finally I can be the one to feel better than them. But, it all quickly gives way and I see it for a big pathetic play. It is a melancholy thing to be in my position, and I pity them as you do, that they will never, see the things I see despite their overt beauty and conscientiousness. I am alone at the top in my mind.

[Anonymous No.17105279]

>>17097804
Interesting, thanks for sharing this. It really feels increasingly less like the two parties represent alternative ways of evaluating societal woes and proposing solutions, and more like these sort of fucked-up pseudo religions where people invest their entire selves into it because they lack nothing greater in life, whether that's religion or something else meaningful, and so government isn't a thing of carefully working out decisions to solve problems but treating it as a vehicle to manipulate so your ideology can dominate as much as possible. It's fucked up.

I wouldn't say I disbelieve in democracy but I'm not sure it's worth it either. Modern propaganda alone has thrown the central balance of the system horribly off, and the future's not looking bright.

[Anonymous No.17105286]

>>17104641
His only problem is that he is not as autistic as you, and has obviously gotten really tired of this mentally sparring thing. Poor soul just probably wants to have a relaxed conversation like normal humans for a change.

[Anonymous No.17105290]

>>17090296
read the faerie queene by spenser

[Anonymous No.17105293]

>>17081870
The internet is a mere tool.

[Anonymous No.17105295]

>>17103719
schubert

[Anonymous No.17105304]

>>17105286
We do have normal conversations and autism isn't part of the problem, especially when he's the one starting it. I believe part of it might be when any part of the conversation might scrape against his "identity". Like in one conversation he'll decry modern romance with me, but then defend promiscuity to the death the next. And when I say "defend" I mean "deflect the issue onto other issues just as bad so the issue at hand clearly doesn't seem bad".

[Anonymous No.17105310]

>>17105247
you are a nice person.

[Anonymous No.17105333]

ordered shitton of new books and I seriously doubt that any of them arrive to my shithole of a town, we'll see, at least I'm somewhat excited

[Anonymous No.17105340]

>>17105304
Well, that's not how you presented it. The way you said how people keep disappointing you implies you constantly hold them to higher standards, which is a death to friendship, given that there is no such thing as perfection and everyone will sooner or later get tired of presenting a certain image of themselves. Just ignore his imperfection, better to speak to someone that occasionally blabbers foolishness than to have no one to speak at all.

[Anonymous No.17105352]

If you tell your significant other, "You don't have to try to lose weight, I'll love you no matter what you look like," how big will she get over how long a period of time?

[Anonymous No.17105364]

>>17096429
yeah the difference is that one of those things occurred, and the other did not

[Anonymous No.17105367]

>>17086541
hey buddy, two days later. what's the skinny?

[Anonymous No.17105399]

>>17088992
It depends on what you want out of literature.
--Be popular and make money? Probably have a better shot marketing all your own shit.
--Be respected in the field? Traditional publishing for sure.
--Historical greatness? Don't publish at all, write a 30k page oeuvre and leave it in your garret upon death.

[Anonymous No.17105428]

>>17090296
Sorry to hear that bro. On the scale of human sadness, a breakup is truly monumentally depressing--like fourth on the list behind the death of a spouse, child, and parent. Don't rush into anything, and don't kill yourself. From my experience, you're gonna need at least 18 months to unfuck yourself. Talk to your friends about your feelings.

[Anonymous No.17105467]

>>17091157
Having had casual sex, I can say with certainty that it isn't my cup of tea. I don't think it's wrong for others to come to the same conclusion, even without dipping their toes.

[Anonymous No.17105479]

>>17094092
your powers of articulation are.........let us say, less than potent

[Anonymous No.17105489]

>>17096611
>most enemies defeated by protagonists are gone forever
did not watch narto

[Anonymous No.17105497]

About 3 years ago my girlfriend cheated on me with some guy on a summer trip, before breaking up. I'm pretty sure he knew about me and still convinced her to fuck. In the off-chance I ever run into him, should I kick his ass? I am not over it. In fact I had a dream last night where she was trying to seduce me. I woke up and felt deeply disturbed.

[Anonymous No.17105533]

>>17101394
I will NOT read anything written by a man named Dave.

[Anonymous No.17105619]

>>17105340
Well you aren't entirely wrong in your initial interpretation. This is the first time I've had a friend I've been able to hold to ANY standard. Even the most intelligent people I've met in the area can't talk their way past a chalk like they themselves drew and their brain's activity level peaked when they had to make the tough decision between McDonald's or Wendy's. This is the first time I've met someone who wasn't completely lost and thus the first time I've ever felt disappointed in someone. I'm just not really sure what to do with those kinds of feelings.
Also, after he made consecutively retarded statements last night, with the not so clever "Thank God I'm an atheist", he disappeared for the night only to wake up a few hours later and link 4 articles and papers for "How we fail black patients in pain", "Pediatricians implicit attitudes about race...", and "Racial bias in pain management..." among other tripe. Ill read them for the sake of the respect I have for him. But thats just the kinda shit I tolerate.

[Anonymous No.17105754]

There's so much astroturfing going on in politics and everyday life that (natives) of my country won't know what they lost eventually. No history and no cultural memory, just retarded repeatings of 'diversity is strength' and slavery warnings on anything related to historic figures.

[Anonymous No.17105763]

I bet the democratic party silently laugh at their white voters whilst they push more diversity training and the subversion of the history of historic figures. I bet they view them as useful idiots. Time for another Minneapolis guys!

[Anonymous No.17105799]

>>17105763
>Time for another Minneapolis
Ah fuck did something happen?

[Anonymous No.17105820]

I'm noticing a massive increase in faggotry here over the past few days, are all the gimps posting these threads not spending time with their families? All the decent posters seem to be afk

[Anonymous No.17105822]

>>17105799
No but I imagine the democratic party loves importing third world groups en mass, and now you've got Kamala Harris who probably has a hard on for doing that. E.g. find a big city that is nice, low crime, clean etc and import a foreign group to scrounge on welfare and commit crime

[Anonymous No.17106359]

>>17105799
It has become Little Somalia

[Anonymous No.17106383]

I want a GF so bad and I think this is finally my year. I lost my virginity in 2020 and finally feel confident talking to women. Now it's just a matter of finding the right girl to devote myself to. I met two girls this year I thought I could love. Neither worked out, but I think another will come along, and when she does I will be straight with her and tell her that I want to love her.

[Anonymous No.17106392]

WRAAAAAAAAA I CANNOT LEAVE THE INTERNET, I CANNOT LEAVE THIS PLACE, GET ME OUT OF THIS INFERNAL SKINNER BOX, THE ELECTRONIC JEW

[Anonymous No.17106602]

His manager was a large, boisterous Ukrainian man by the name of Oleg who carried himself in a lumbering, boisterous way and spoke in a deep, boisterous voice with a thick accent you are, I am sure, misimagining and a sing-song cadence that held the listener captive, not by its charm but by the intolerable leisure with which its owner set out to explain even the simplest idea, as if to bake each conceptual apple pie truly from scratch, so to speak.

brief description from the novel I'm trying to write. looking for feedback on prose so I don't end up with 200 pages of shit at the end of this that all needs to be rewritten entirely.

[Anonymous No.17106605]

>>17106383
Look man I was there and going to give you some advice. Watch the entire series, like 12 episodes. t. Married.
https://youtu.be/LPq7CyHqQ2I
Ignore cuck shit.

[Anonymous No.17106621]

there must be something beyond the reality presented to us by our senses and technology.

[Anonymous No.17106705]

>>17106602
same guy here, I don't really like the tone of the apple pie thing, does this work better?
>as if there were some beauty inherent to the explanation itself apart from the mere conveyance of information that he no doubt felt obligated to do justice.

[Anonymous No.17106716]

>>17106621

No there mustn't. That's your stupid monkey brain looking for patterns in the absence of pattern.

[Anonymous No.17106749]

>>17106602

Do we really need to be told that Oleg is Ukrainian? Is it relevant? Does the reader gain any information thereby, other than that you are too lazy to write characters?

[Anonymous No.17106767]

>>17106621
There is. The input you receive from each of your senses is just a projection of the physical world onto that individual sense. But I think what you're getting at is, there must be something /meaningfully/ more, and no, there is not. There are waves that you can't see or hear and particles you can't feel, but if you're looking for something that will make life seem less pointless, you're going to be disappointed.
>>17106749
it becomes relevant in sentences other than the single one that I posted here. Although fair point, it probably makes sense to introduce that detail later. Or leave as ambiguously eastern euro based on the name?

[Anonymous No.17106777]

>>17106767
>>17106749
also, lol at the idea that mentioning a nationality means you're too lazy to write characters. Using caricatures of other nationalities is pretty common even among great writers. Pretty much every Russian writer makes fun of Germans.

[Anonymous No.17106800]

>>17106777

serious hack cope

[Anonymous No.17106810]

2020 ended up being a good year for me, I started a hopeless neet who sat around in his pajamas watching anime all day and am ending it with a job, renewed social connections, new hobbies, and a spiritual practice. I'm honestly surprised this isn't a more common sentiment around professional-class normies (wagies are obviously not having a good time), they were essentially forced into a kind of retreat, but never seem to have got over the initial period of discomfort at their disrupted routines and social lives (which, to be fair, is easier when you're a loner shut-in to begin with).

[Anonymous No.17106818]

>>17106800
>calling an amateur writer on /lit/ a "hack"
lol yes, I am not a professional writer nor do I have much experience. Well observed. Your feedback is unnecessarily confrontational and doesn't really make any attempt to help.

[Anonymous No.17106823]

>>17106818
>it probably makes sense to introduce that detail later. Or leave as ambiguously eastern euro based on the name?

do this

[Anonymous No.17106828]

>>17106823
thanks, I'll do that.

[Anonymous No.17106862]

>>17106828

As a followup, I would suggest avoiding the use of adjectives entirely. Nobody should ever have to be told that your character is "boisterous"; they should be able to figure that out for themselves based on the actions of that character.

[Anonymous No.17107598]

Out of all of the shitty, wasteful, pointless boomer customs the one that enrages me most is wrapping gifts.

I don't even care about the physical waste; it is a waste of my godamn time. Why the fuck should I spend hours of my time and energy on totally superfluous packaging that will, in the end, be engaged with by the receivers for a handful of seconds?

Every year this shit gets me positively seething.