/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.16050153]

Recommend fiction about having suicidal thoughts and/or the act of suicide itself.

[Anonymous No.16050160]

>>16050153
/Beans General/

[Anonymous No.16050292]

>>16050153
unironically rilke's poetry and letters.

suicide song

All right, just a moment.
That they always take the rope away from me
and cut it.
Lately I've been so prepared,
and there was already a little bit of eternity
in my guts.

Hold me the spoon here,
this spoon-fed life.
No, I want to and I don't want to anymore,
let me give in, throw up.

I know that life is whole and good,
and that the world is like a full dish,
but for me it doesn't get into my blood,
it just goes straight up to my head.

For others it's nourishment, me it just makes sick;
Understand, that one can despise it.
For at least a thousand years
I'll have to fast.

and a letter
>There is death in life, and it astonishes me that we pretend to ignore this: death, whose unforgiving presence we experience with each change we survive because we must learn to die slowly. We must learn to die: That is all of life. To prepare gradually the masterpiece of a proud and supreme death, of a death where chance plays no part, of a well-made, beatific and enthusiastic death of the kind the saints knew to shape. Of a long-ripened death that effaces its hateful name and is nothing but a gesture that returns those laws to the anonymous universe which have been recognized and rescued over the course of an intensely accomplished life. It is this idea of death, which has developed inside of me since childhood from one painful experience to the next and which compels me to humbly endure the small death so that I may become worthy of the one which wants us to be great.

[Anonymous No.16050364]

>>16050160
I'm always browsing the shitposts on this board for ol' /bg/. it's a speakeasy. you can't just find it in the catalog, you have to peer beneath the surface. I've been eating some pic related, but can't seem to get enough seasoning.

[Anonymous No.16050396]

>>16050153
"Feed the Pig" by Elias Witherow
https://creepypasta.fandom.com/wiki/Feed_the_Pig
- the place where souls that have committed suicide goes, gore

I think I remember Chilling Tales for Dark Nights produced it a while ago but they might have taken it down since.

read by The Dark Somnium
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PmKqBxgVS3o

[Anonymous No.16050538]

>>16050396
Dagon by H.P. Lovecraft: the last letter of a morphone addicted naval officer driven to suicide by horrors at sea he can't forget
I like the readings G.M. Danielson did, both the normie and the ASMR one (use headphones for that). Danielson's dayjob is a sound engineer or something the sound quality for his creepypastas is as good as ASMR PPOMO.

"Dagon" by H.P. Lovecraft |18:05
Mar 10, 2018 - Uploaded by HorrorCraft
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDbyS4oOCWo

"Dagon" by H.P. Lovecraft | ASMR binaural creepy reading 19:16
Oct 21, 2014 - Uploaded by HorrorCraft
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nVijKNFc-Gc

PS, if you are feeling down I recommend giving a listen to AMSR PPOMO's
ASMR Taking Care of Your Depression (Korean, EN SUB, Personal)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UFdIH1hTA04
- with headphones on. She's pretty good for setting the ads at the beginning, and not during or at the end.

[Anonymous No.16050546]

how about you stop spamming this thread and just off yourself the same way shown in your picture

[Anonymous No.16050564]

>>16050153
Curious how nobody mentioned the Stepper Wolf yet.
Clearly an influence on the concept of immolation and the surreal experience of death itself.
11/10 convinced me to hammer a nail to my chest.

[Anonymous No.16050567]

>>16050153
Dostoevsky's Demons has the only suicidal character I've ever found interesting in fiction or real life

[Anonymous No.16050569]

Yeah this is cringe

[Anonymous No.16050590]

>>16050538
Based PPOMO! I love her stuff, anon. Good taste.

[Anonymous No.16050596]

>>16050153
A good NON-fiction book about suicide and the statistics/history of such, is 'Night Falls Fast: Understanding Suicide'. Been a while since I read it, so I can't remember the name of the author (Kay Redfeld Jamison or something?). I recommend it for anyone fascinated by suicide/mental illness.

[Anonymous No.16050610]

>>16050153
Infinite Jest touches on this topic. Imagine you are trapped on the 24th floor of a burning building with no way out. Do you want to jump out of a building? Neither does the suicidal person want to commit suicide, but it will inevitably happen when the flames get too hot.

[Anonymous No.16050619]

>>16050596
I saw this recommended before. I'll have to read it soon.
Now someone post more suicidal anime girls

[Anonymous No.16050636]

>>16050590
I listen to, and watch, lot of ASMR artists, hatomugi ASMR, Frivolous Fox, , easy ASMR, Mamo ASMR, Dana ASMR, depending on what I'm in the mood for..when it comes to pure audio though (enjoyed through headphones), PPOMO does it best. She's got good visuals but it works with me doing other stuff while listening to. I get such tingles when she's scraping wooden blocks or blowing on the mic.

Note that PPOMO is wearing ear buds in her vids, she can hear what sounds she's making as she records. With the other artists I've missed, there's a lot of hit and miss rather something tingles or relax, easy ASMR has some really strong tingles in his vids, wood block scraping and slovak whispering, but there could be a 55 minute vids where it's mostly nothing. With PPOMO is consistent good stuff every video upload, there's a lot of editing.

[Anonymous No.16050642]

>>16050619
You should be able to get it on a book piracy website, like the one in the sticky on the first page of this board. I have it physically because I didn't use /lit/ back then and didn't realise you could pirate it, I always thought it was a really obscure work and no one would bother transferring it from physical to mobi/epub. (You can't get it on the Kindle store in my country of Australia, last I checked, either.)

[Anonymous No.16050666]

>>16050642
I hope so, since that's the only way I read books now. Besides when my family is kind enough to buy some for a holiday. I saw it recommended on r/pessimism recently which is one of the only subreddits I browse. That wouldn't have happened to have been you, would it?

[Anonymous No.16050670]

>>16050636
That's right, anon. PPOMO is one of the most consistently good ASMRtists I can think of.
I also like Dr T but he isn't as consistently good as her. I also really enjoy Ephemeral Rift, he's good too.

[Anonymous No.16050682]

>>16050666
No, anon. I don't use Reddit anymore. I used to only use r/schizoaffective (my disorder). I know I've recommended it on /lit/ to some anon before, though.

[Anonymous No.16050715]

>>16050153
do you have any more pictures of touhous committing suicide? i enjoy collecting them

[Anonymous No.16050737]

>>16050682
Yeah some of the mental health subreddits related to me I browse sometimes. They're pretty bad though. The site just gets worse and worse.

[Anonymous No.16050817]

>>16050364
Really, I think >>16050153, well, OP, wouldn't really bothering with any of this. Suicidal thoughts. Stuff. If he just had some beans. Squish the beans, the bulbous muggy beans. Why not? Just have some beans OP, that's my diagnosis. That's what the good doctor intends for you, OP, original poster, ostensibly obdurate poster, OOP. Just have some fuckin' beans, man. This is the /Beans General/ now, I guess, at least that's what the other guy said and I'm reclined to believe him. Sittin' back, having some beans.

[Anonymous No.16050866]

>>16050636
>>16050636
Oh wait, it's Marno ASMR not Ma r no not Mamo

Guys with deep voices ASMR, Marno or easy:
Pleasantly Unpredictable ASMR [No. 2]
33:05 •Aug 14, 2018
Marno ASMR 612,625 views
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QrRYMp7ckm0
- some UFO ish background noise

ASMR Binaural Wooden Tingles for Your Relaxation , Whispering - easyASMR
27:47 Jan 30, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-gN4w31C5Qc


Girl with pretty eyes and kind voice: Frivolous Fox, especially when I'm depressed it really helps. ASMR Advanced Coloring: Lesson 1 (Soft Spoken). FrivolousFox ASMR.
Aug 1, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bxRnxWJLDek

Kawaii Japanese stuff with relaxing sound: Hatomugi: [Japanese ASMR] Paper Sounds, Origami, Crinkling, Whispering
hatomugi ASMR•Jun 22, 2017
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hGUrTMS6B_o

Roleplay: Dana ASMR
Let Me Fix You Home Robot Annual Checkup RP
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F2wEf_alQzw

[Korean ASMR] Westside Witch's Dark Magic Lab ASMR
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGTAWg49150&index=2&list=PLxJWn64aq6QFCm_kGDW002K710EdllSKM&t=0s


>>16050610
>>>16050153 (OP)
>Infinite Jest touches on this topic. Imagine you are trapped on the 24th floor of a burning building with no way out. Do you want to jump out of a building? Neither does the suicidal person want to commit suicide, but it will inevitably happen when the flames get too hot.

I like to think that I will try to CLIMB, even if I will probably fall anyways, at least I would have tried.

[Anonymous No.16050878]

>>16050610
You did build your trampoline, right anon?

[Anonymous No.16050898]

>>16050636
i like the asmr videos where im a cyborg, android, or robot, or AI, im not sure what the lore is totally, but she's attempting to repair me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9aA_nX-OLoo

[Anonymous No.16050913]

>>16050817
>Really, I think >>16050153 (OP), well, OP, wouldn't really bothering with any of this. Suicidal thoughts. Stuff. If he just had some beans. Squish the beans, the bulbous muggy beans. Why not? Just have some beans OP,

OP should eat:
- bananas for the potassium
- potatoes for the potassium and magnesium, also I just find it hard to feel depressed after eating a sheppard pie
- dark chocolate (avoid sugar as there will be a sugar crash). Baker's chocolate is cheap and healthy

Trying to remember this Toronto library book I checked out a few years ago, eating or cooking for Depression. You really got to meal plan and prep when you are up and about so that when you barely feel like getting out of bed you still have food. Not eating properly makes your depression worse.

[Anonymous No.16050934]

>>16050898
For me, I liked the Robot vid because of the personal attention and that it's the right length, and she sends me to sleep afterwards. It wasn't really the robot or the repair thing, but getting me first relax enough, and then "now you sleep"' and I go to sleep instead of staying up reading the news about coronavirus locust plague drought rice shortage south china sea nuclear show down economic crash dust bowl II

[Anonymous No.16050982]

>>16050153
SANAE-CHAN NOOOOOOO MY WAIFUUUU

[Anonymous No.16051045]

>>16050670
Have you ever listen to Dr.Creepen read scary strories? He's got some rainy day asmr or campfire noise asmr. Even deep voice.

Wish he'll do some pure ASMR too, not just story reading. He's got a nice deep voice, though that's not his natural normal speaking voice.

I’m a Professional Rule Breaker by Mandahrk - Dr. Creepen
2:14:01 Jun 1, 2020
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f2blmVF9srg
- urban fantasy with a slight noir sci-fi flavour

Archilles IV by Ryan Kinkor, read by Dr. Creepen
''Didn’t the bigwigs back on Earth create a perfect system, one that can’t go wrong?''
51:50 Jun 10, 2020
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ak1K5ifFM3A

Reading One Life-Form by Ryan Brennaman - Dr. Creepen's Dungeon
18:41 Feb 13, 2020
''Reading One Life-Form'' | CREEPY SCI-FI STORY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eHVpXk5xTv4

I feel such a thrill on Friday nights, listening to that rich wine voice narrate stories with graphic gore and/or chilling cosmic horrors. It's scary and comforting at the same time.

[Anonymous No.16051046]

>>16050982
i wouldn't get too sad, she probably killed herself after contracting aids from any one of the other hundreds of people who call her their waifu

[Anonymous No.16051063]

>>16051046
Even more sad

[Anonymous No.16051069]

>>16050153
The Crimes of Love by De Sade.

[Anonymous No.16051186]

>>16050913
i made that post and i agree with all this. its good stuff. i dont even like beans i just like the spontaneously present appreciation of something. like beans. bananas are really great. some foods are just inherently depressing to eat, not bananas. therapist told me to eat better, and to sleep better. i said, you're right i haven't thought of that. it doesn't really matter if i had or hadn't, because it would be ridiculous to try to diagnose the maladies of a plant if you hadnt first checked its water intake. like if a computer starts malfunctioning, the easiest thing to replace is the power supply, or charger, if you're a laptop. moving a lot. your home has readily at hand an alternating current to supply things. alternating current is easy to produce because magnetic properties allow you to turn mechanical motion into electrical current. which oscillates back and forth. so what travels through the wires isnt so much the electrons as it is the motion it induces. the binary world likes steady currents, thats how your computer parts are designed. to take steady currents. your wall produces alternating currents. through a series of steps in the power supply you can make this conversion. first you use a step down transformer to decrease the ac voltage in the wall. a rectifier and input filter will turn the wiggly, back and forth wiggly, current, not really gaining or losing ground, but moving, into a straight - but speeding and slowing, same direction, current. then you use a regulator to make it as steady as possible, no longer speeding or slowing. some overvoltage protections. and that's how your computer gets its food