/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.15765419]

What books should I read if I'm suicidal?

[Anonymous No.15765428]

>>15765419
Go to therapy if you have money

[Anonymous No.15765429]

>>15765419
Read Marx comrade.

[Anonymous No.15765430]

You should talk to your friends and family.

[Anonymous No.15765431]

The Holy Quran

[Anonymous No.15765432]

>>15765419
Epictetus's discourses.

[Anonymous No.15765440]

>>15765419
well a lot of times you just gotta start doing a hobby that makes it worth cumming in your pants again. try not showing up for work or stalk a girl for fun.

[Anonymous No.15765441]

>>15765419
The Book of Disquiet

[Anonymous No.15765445]

Are you eating a whole food diet and doing at least 1 hour of cardio a day?
Eating right and daily exercise LITERALLY cured my suicidal depression. I was in a catatonic depression for 6 months, and running an hour a day and eating a low-carb clean keto diet fixed me. I'm not even joking.

Also reading will only compound your depression. Happy people don't think excessively, so reading is not the right avenue for betterment.

[Anonymous No.15765446]

i stalk on average 11-20 girls per year. but in varying degrees and no im not a rapist. i just enjoy the prowl. I also love 'just bumping' into them sometimes but i hardly reveal it to them. lots of great times spent that way.

[Anonymous No.15765451]

>>15765419
Unironically pic related. He died so you don’t have to

[Anonymous No.15765459]

>>15765446
Elaborate you glorious creep. Greentext it.

[Anonymous No.15765460]

>>15765446
You’re a freak

[Anonymous No.15765465]

>>15765460
Stop shaming him.

[jesus No.15765467]

>>15765419
none. just do it.

[Anonymous No.15765469]

>>15765419
Don't read, just kys already and stop making shit threads.
Sage

[Anonymous No.15765473]

>>15765445
>Are you eating a whole food diet and doing at least 1 hour of cardio a day?
Yea, but...that requires actual effort and commitment =[
I don't want to not be depressed THAT bad.

[Anonymous No.15765487]

>>15765446
I'm dying to know about anon's story as well. Are there books about people like this?

[Anonymous No.15765488]

>>15765459
I'm lucky to still be in college but I will need to change up my game soon once I graduate. Although campuses are such open places you can get around anywhere. I love colleges because its the "Big Transition" for girls at this age isn't so much about moving out or even being away from old friends and family - it's about being around unfamiliar women. I used to stalk several girls on my campus during my Freshmen year of college. It wasn't anything too creepy or even strange and most of the time it was fairly accidental. For example, one girl simply had a similar route to class that I did. I'd just go a bit more out of my way to follow her. I liked to listen to their gossip and always tried to find out their favorite places on campus or nearby to catch up on their lives.

Girls pressure each other into strange scenario's, particularly when it comes to showing off their bodies. I think most women are slightly Lesbian and enjoy looking at each other's breasts. I used to masturbate to this a lot when I was younger and thinking about it now is still a great pleasure, but I think that this is only partly true in the end. A Cock for a woman is a kind of violent insertion into their body, you know? That's why I think for women with new women it's a kind of "fight or flight" mechanic where they can try each others breasts without repercussion. A lot of guys think in terms of their own Cocks and this is probably because they like to look at mine, but really girls are really only thinking about themselves and the bodies of their girl friends. Guys have nice cocks if they can make them forget their friends breasts. I know this because I masturbated near the window of one of the girls I used to stalk. She lived in a small apartment on the ground floor. I pressed my cock against the window. It was cold as the season was settling into winter. Steam could be seen from the ejaculation I put onto her window. She must have saw my shadow in the window through the folded curtains because she screamed. I ran as fast as I could and escaped without any penalty.

Later on I heard her talking to her friends about my Cock. I knew I had a nice one because she was talking about it the next day and not thinking about her friends breasts so much. Being with new women is always an exciting prospect.

[Anonymous No.15765515]

>>15765488
What the fuck?

[Anonymous No.15765527]

>>15765488
I think of a few others from time to time. Another gem was a Moldovan girl who I got a little too close with. She used to work both volunteering at the library on campus for student hours and also she was interested in Communication studies. She was easy to follow around because she was lost all the time. Her English wasn't great but she was surviving university so not terrible. I managed to get into one of her classes after seeing her schedule, I don't know why I was so intrigued. She had an okay ass, a little on the saggy side and her breasts were a bit tightly pressed together if you understand my meaning. She didn't have a lot of girl friends, and if you understand my prior theory she miight not have been a LEsbian. Maybe a bisexual, its hard to tell with women. So I got maybe a little cocky here. This was Freshmen year as well, really the best year of my life.

One time we had a Nature walk for a biology class. It was pretty nice, an autumn day that's just in the early "golden hour" of its peak. There's a real great time to go for a walk. I remember I was stuck with a partner (the assignment involved cataloging) who could barely speak English. She was from Moldova and at least 30 years old. She had a funny name I can't recall even if I tried now. I remember her breasts and flat face, she had brown hair that was put up in a tight bun. Her breasts were the perfect size and had a good firm grip to them. I touched them "on accident" when I feigned tying my shoe lace. I recall apologizing to her but she laughed, I think she was just confused. I notice most people are confused when they get sexually assaulted for the first time, I can understand that because it's not something they assume automatically.

Later on in the walk our group got a bit lost. There were a series of paths around the campus and our professor was one of those "hippie" types that never leaves their mansion. A real grassfed burger if you ask me. The Moldovan girl got sexually assaulted twice that day, because I gently rubbed my hand across her ass when she bent over to pick a rock up. She didn't know this was me because I hid behind several other students. I masturbated to this when I got home (It was around the time I was masturbating heavily and reading Vonnegut and James Joyce). It was an okay feeling.

I tried asking her out on a date the next class but her English was simply too poor. I realized I could tell her anything and she would barely understand. Sometimes I used to speak "pig latin" to her and tell her that I wanted to see her naked and urinate on her stomach. She used to laugh then. I wonder if she's laughing now.

[Anonymous No.15765542]

>>15765419
Seriously, anon. Look for help, talk to someone, even some random person on the street might help you. Books are ok, but the main problem is that depressed people are sick, they can't see things clearly. So it is not like you can trust them to read books.

[Anonymous No.15765554]

>>15765527
I don't always try to be so involved. Last year I had a network of most of the girls in my year. I knew their places of work, their boyfriends, what bars they liked, how often they went out. I'd follow a couple of them, usually the ring leaders. Women love following a leader, especially another woman. It gives them confidence, they can feel sexy as a woman and they can also hide behind their lead woman if things get a little out of hand. But everytime I noticed that with some pressure ,you can single out the weak one of the pack with some careful observation skills. I used to leave pseudo notes from time to time from the various boys they'd date. I didn't even bother with learning their hadnwriting, the ones without confidence never had the courage to confront anybody on any of this. They'd range from perverse to outlandish, sometimes in between. A little Herculean action on my part I like to think. To top it all off, I use to wipe my ass with some of them before sneaking it into places I'd know they find out. Women are more predictable than men and even easier to play with. I love playing the games with them. Imagine getting a sick love letter smeared with dried feces from the boyfriend of your ring leader but you're kind of the outlier of the social group, and women have a much more intense hierarchy than men do. Now that caused a lot of laughs for me.

[Anonymous No.15765556]

>>15765488
>I pressed my cock against the window. It was cold as the season was settling into winter.

[Anonymous No.15765562]

>>15765556
In Middle School when me and this kid named Jason used to exchange pornographic pictures we'd print out at home from the internet. He had a "big boob" fetish, pretty common for a 13-14 year old but I was more interested in women wearing overalls and working on a farm. But this isn't really relevant, I just wanted to paint a better picture.

One time Jason and I decided it would be funny to lock the wheels on this girls wheelchair. She had some kind of mental disorder that gave her a low cognitive awareness, but she was capable enough of getting around the school. We'd lock her wheel chair and watch her struggle to figure out why she couldn't move. Often, this ended with her "aide" coming and unlocking the wheels and scolding her for not remembering. Jason started to feel bad but I got interested. If she was so unaware and incapable of telling the "aide" we were doing this to her, what else could I get away with.

I started combing her hair and she would respond by making some clapping noises. I'd have to retreat in these cases because it drew attention. Of course I kept locking her wheels which only led the aide to get really frustrated with her and start ignoring her. It was around mid-year when I finally sexually assaulted her by twisting both her nipples. She was so shocked she couldn't form a clear response (she could never form a clear response, but this was exceptional even for her). They were hard and I was excited, I think she was too. I got scared though, I was young and having a hard time at home because my dad had me doing some "home improvement projects".

I concluded that being with a girl that isn't really consciously aware isn't worth it. There is fun for awhile but ultimately it's just frustrating.

[Anonymous No.15765578]

am not a Bisexual but one time I did hold the door open for a man. He had a plain brown coat on and it was a little windy outside. He was perfectly capable of getting the door himself, and to be honest it was rather an instinctual move. I had just left and the wind hit me when I saw him from the corner of my eye. I held that door open and he walked past with a "Than'ye..." you know the sort of muffled "thanks" you get when someone is a little surprised and embarrassed.

I didn't stare at his body and didn't think about him getting into his car. But that was probably the first Homosexual experience in my life.

[Anonymous No.15765596]

>>15765578

[Anonymous No.15765605]

>>15765515
The worst part about your post is I can't even remember my first blow job. I know I've had at least two but for my first one I just don't remember it. I was in High School at the time with a serious bed wetting problem, I also had been taking some prescription medication to help with some "bacne" problems that had sprouted up due to a surge of unstable hormones. I went to a party where some kids had a small bonfire in the back yard, they were okay but it wasn't anything special. We had Bud Light and some Amstel's, I think there was Rolling Rocks too.

I remember drinking a "Jack and Coke" and thinking how bad it tasted. I wanted to go home about an hour into the gathering but decided to stick around. There was a girl there who I had a couple of classes with, we made jokes about the teachers and home work. I told her she looked nice and she said thanks, we talked for about an hour and she was drunk. You can tell a girl is drunk because she starts becoming more physically animated with light flushing around the cheeks and glossy eyes. I knew I'd scored a winner, the problem was it was late and I knew I needed to sleep.

We went inside and started making out. I remember running my tongue along the front of her teeth to see what it felt like. She was so drunk she didn't even care. Sometime after that I fell asleep, but I woke up with my pants undone and my dick was lightly wet. She had vomited at some point, because her breath smelt bad and she had some stains on her shirt. We didn't talk much after that night, I think she is studying in a community college but hasn't declared any real major yet. I can understand that, life is a challenge. >>15765596
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>>15765562

[Anonymous No.15766313]

>>15765605
tell me more i enjoyed reading your memories

[Anonymous No.15766356]

>>15765445
Please don’t be advocating fad diets to people suffering with mental illness. They can have extremely bad psychological blowbacks, depending on the person.

The cardio is a good suggestion though, for a number of reasons.

[Anonymous No.15766371]

>>15766356
I'm just stating what worked for me. Keto cures depression. Period.
Sorry if you don;t like it, vegan pussy =[

[Anonymous No.15766374]

>>15766313
me too this is amusing

[Anonymous No.15766409]

>>15766371
>what worked for me

Bingo. Not that I expect you to care, we’re clearly on different wavelengths here. You’re just gloating.

I would similarly discourage people from cutting meat out of their diet if they were depressed, for the record.

[Anonymous No.15766428]

>>15766409
Keto cures depression. I see you are resistant to this declaration. Don't be. Try it for yourself, and you will know within 2 weeks that I am correct.

[Anonymous No.15766448]

>>15766428
t. Your malnourished little ass

Cite a study or I don’t give a fuck. You could start eating exclusively bananas and convince yourself that it’s a miracle cure too.

[Anonymous No.15766450]

>>15766313
>>15766374
its a pasta

[Anonymous No.15766464]

>>15766448
>t. Your malnourished little ass
Coming from a vegan, that is hilarious.

[Anonymous No.15766492]

You could read The Myth of Sisyphus, by Albert Camus. It helped me in the past, I'm still miserable but I'm alive after all.

[Anonymous No.15766511]

>>15766356
You're right man, instead of fixing his diet and exercising, he should visit the (((psychologist))) and shove artificial serotonin down his gullet until he doesn't know whether he is happy OR sad. Haha, yay modern medicine!

[Anonymous No.15766533]

>>15765446
Holy shit, are you me?

[Anonymous No.15766554]

>>15766492
I second this, Camus and meme stoicism helped 15 yo me.

[Anonymous No.15766633]

>>15766450
can i have seconds or is the kittchen closed?

[Anonymous No.15766708]

>>15765488
>>15765527
>>15765554
Great short story anon.
This should get published.

[Anonymous No.15767108]

try to think slowly and less and your existance will be less miserable

[Anonymous No.15767177]

>>15765430
I haven't got any friends

[Anonymous No.15767187]

>>15765419
The Conspiracy Against the Human Race is a must for curing depression

[Anonymous No.15767197]

>>15765419
Start with the Greeks, you rampant fucking faggot. And this is not literature. I am sick and tired of stealth e-celeb faggotry. Every single fucking board. It's unbearable. Go back to plebbit.

[Anonymous No.15767206]

>>15765419
Jacques Ellul and Jean Baudrillard

[Anonymous No.15767222]

>>15767197
Nobody has even been talking about ourboy reckful like I was hoping

[Anonymous No.15767229]

>>15767222
They didn't said anything about what happened.

[Anonymous No.15767487]

Tolstoy - A Confession

[Anonymous No.15768363]

The Stranger - Camus

[Anonymous No.15768886]

>>15765445
>Keto
Would've been better off kys.

[Anonymous No.15768904]

>>15768886
Does the most natural human diet offend your feelings, vegan pussy?

[Anonymous No.15768915]

>>15765419
Fuck I miss reckful. The HS reckful that I watched religiously

[Anonymous No.15769107]

>>15768904
The 4everskinnyfat life is not worth living, anon.

[Anonymous No.15769120]

>>15765429
Any specific book on Marx and his ideology or just the book he wrote?

[Anonymous No.15769134]

>>15769120
Read Epicurus, anon.

[Anonymous No.15769145]

>>15765419
>>15765441
This, it’ll show you how banal and petty your qualms are and out of pride you’ll get make yourself get better after having been foully eviscerated by Pessoa’s SOLIPSISM and DREAMS (nightmares) you’ll realise you’re a bitch, after the self desecration gets boring you’ll be in tip top shape for improvement.

[Anonymous No.15769172]

>>15769134
Any specific book to start on?

[Anonymous No.15769482]

>>15765445
I eat well and excercise regularly but still want to die, please rec books

[Anonymous No.15769487]

Demons by Dosto

[Anonymous No.15769500]

>>15766464
fucking idiot holy shit shut the fuck up nigger faggot

[Anonymous No.15769527]

>>15769172
http://blogs.ubc.ca/phil102/files/2018/02/Epicurus-LtrMenoeceus-epicurusinfo.pdf this seems great, anon. And don't fall into the Stoic trap KEK

[Anonymous No.15769552]

>>15769527
I'm the quoted anon, and I was just kidding to trigger the anons who shill Stoicism in here, but life matters are too serious. Don't turn into some philosophy bigot, anon. Read the Stoics too if you feel like it.

[Anonymous No.15769634]

>>15765419
What exactly are you trying to get out of books?
Are you looking for some books that will change your worldview or overall mindset so that you won't be suicidal? Or are you looking for depressing books to relate to? There are good reading charts for either.
Is there anything specific that is making you suicidal? If there isn't anything that you can specifically name, you should seek professional help since that's more likely mental illness.
What keeps me from being depressed is that I have extremely low expectations for the world around me, while having modest expectations for myself.

[Anonymous No.15769687]

>>15765419
oh the places you'll go

[Anonymous No.15769851]

>>15765446
Me I do the same but with cats and my neighbors. I threw fire object at people's land. And then I try to catch their cat. Those cats are slimy bastards and I like fire ball and fire on houses.

[Anonymous No.15769862]

>>15769851
What he just wrote what I wanted to say. Ooh I hate coming here, it bewildered my whole existence FUG YOU MAN. I going to leave. I a dont feel good talking WHEN people STILL MY THINGS

[Anonymous No.15770357]

>legit been crying for two days over the deah of a man i never even met
books only help for a specific type of suicidal, try and surround yourself with people you enjoy the company of

[Anonymous No.15770464]

>>15767108
tfw that pic is me but i'm 25

[Anonymous No.15770538]

>>15765446

[Anonymous No.15770642]

>>15766356
You are such a bitch

[Anonymous No.15770859]

[Anonymous No.15770905]

You should watch anime

[Anonymous No.15770986]

>>15765542
>random person on street can help against suicidal tendencies

[Anonymous No.15771450]

>>15765419
Kierkegaard

[Anonymous No.15771704]

>>15765445
I eat healthy and do cardio, I also meditate, and all that typical bullshit, but still regret waking up every morning because I hate living.

[Anonymous No.15771723]

[Anonymous No.15772197]

Is this a good read if you're depressed and suicidal?

[Anonymous No.15772235]

>>15772197
That depends. You might dismiss the message once you start knowing the main character.

[Anonymous No.15772360]

>>15765446
Based

[Anonymous No.15772380]

>>15765446
kek
thanks for the chuckle

what's your MO

[Anonymous No.15772409]

>>15765419
This really helped me when I was in a very low point. Basically showcases the weird interconnectedness of everything and what pushes people forward and how history unfurls around them, made me feel less alone if that makes any sense

[Anonymous No.15772424]

>>15766356
This, there’s no consensus on what the best diet is, people are different. Most people would do a lot better if they just cut complete junk like fast food, soda, doritos etc. and added a minimum of fresh veggies to their diet, and that’s a big enough step for some.

[Anonymous No.15772468]

>>15765445
>>15766371
>>15766428

Keto is an unhealthy diet, you only saw benefits because you stopped eating twinkies and frozen pizzas every day. In addition to your cardio routine.

Just eat a well balanced diet and do not try keto unless you're highly committed (no more than 50g of carbs a day) and have literal diabetes or epilepsy. There will be a health trade off and its value is your decision to make

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=al3XL7eZyc0

[Anonymous No.15772529]

>>15772468
I'm not that guy but I did keto for 9 months, lost 50 kgs (under 20 carbs a day). Didn't feel any difference at all despite whatever fearmongering about muh keto brain fog and whatever else. Nor did I feel any better though. My dick is as hard as always and don't feel any decrease in sexual needs. No exercise whatsoever.

[Anonymous No.15772550]

>>15770986
They unironically can.

[Anonymous No.15773330]

>>15767108
why is this so fucking me. do i just kms what the fuck

[Anonymous No.15773332]

>>15772550
Yeah? How?

[Anonymous No.15773401]

>>15765445
JUST EAT GREEN VEG BRO

[Anonymous No.15773411]

>>15765488
>It was cold as the season was settling into winter. Steam could be seen from the ejaculation I put onto her window. She must have saw my shadow in the window through the folded curtains because she screamed. I ran as fast as I could and escaped without any penalty.

[Anonymous No.15773434]

>>15772529
You can lose 50 kgs on literally any diet you retard, that doesn't make it good.

[Anonymous No.15773500]

>>15769145
Yes!

I went through this but unfortunately never read book of disquiet to help me along! Maybe if I had I would have gotten through it faster. What a tedious stage of development.

[Anonymous No.15773594]

>>15766428
Keto is for retards. Fasting is the patrician diet. One meal a day. with one 5 day fast every other month.
It's the only patrician way to live.
Again, I can't stress enough how keto is for retards and will actually cause you to be dumber.

[Anonymous No.15773617]

>>15765488
Anon please write an autobiography.

[Anonymous No.15773792]

>>15765419
the claus and lucas trilogy

[Anonymous No.15773874]

>>15765419
read the bible
the thought of hell will keep you away from suicide until you realise what gift life is

[Anonymous No.15774097]

>>15765419

[Anonymous No.15774151]

>>15765419
the stranger
metamorphosis

[Anonymous No.15774196]

>>15771704
Get in touch with your spiritual side. Keep up the lifestyle and i guarantee things will get better anon

[Anonymous No.15774212]

>>15765446
You're a horrible man. Sad

[Anonymous No.15775788]

>>15765445
Low-carb helped with my depression too. I hate how it's unpopular on imageboards just because keto became a fad.

[Anonymous No.15776170]

>>15767108
This is not a fucking "thinker". This is someone drowning in his own delusional, childish fantasies.

[Anonymous No.15776223]

12 Rules for Life

[Anonymous No.15776266]

>>15774196
not this guy but i don't understand how people find a solid foundation for a spiritual life.

i knew this guy who was seriously and intelligently christian (shelve rows full of philosophy and theological works) and i found that quite beautiful, yet his foundation for his christian faith was an experience of a "calling", where he "felt a presence" that he "said yes to", and i can't relate to that.

neither have i had such an experience nor do i believe that if i had it, i could trust it; it would seem to me just some quirk of my subjective experience similar to depressive episodes just inverted, a moment of inspiration that is enjoyable in itself but ultimately just that, not a pointer to anything else, unable to provide further guidance.

[Anonymous No.15776818]

>>15769145
That only works for neurotypicals though.

[Anonymous No.15776821]

if you're a closeted homo like reckful
you deserve to kill yourself
you were and always will be a coward who projected an image of success and money to 12 year olds
i hope you go to Hell for putting on a fake persona

[Anonymous No.15777005]

>>15765596
is that Pittsburgh?

[Anonymous No.15777078]

>>15765446
>>15765488
>>15765527
Are you Muslim by any chance or an Asian?

[Anonymous No.15777100]

>>15765446
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[Anonymous No.15777204]

>>15765419
none

[Anonymous No.15777257]

>>15765562
>I was young and having a hard time at home because my dad had me doing some "home improvement projects".
fucking kek

>>15765578
good stuff

[Anonymous No.15777294]

>>15776821
seek help

[Anonymous No.15777367]

>>15773434
It's way easier to do on keto because your body starts burning mainly fat for energy. Not to mention that keto suppresses your appetite.

[Anonymous No.15777378]

>>15765419
BRONZE
AGE
MINDSET

[Anonymous No.15777435]

>>15765445
This doesn't work unless your depression was so surface level that you as a person would improve the world by killing yourself because you're a shallow faggot.

[Anonymous No.15777442]

>>15765419
Persuasion and Rhetoric by Carlo Michelstaedter

[Anonymous No.15777583]

>>15765527
>I was masturbating heavily and reading Vonnegut and James Joyce
MY SIDES

[Anonymous No.15777596]

Dianetics The Modern Science of Mental Health

[Anonymous No.15777615]

>>15765446
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>>15765527
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>>15765562
>>15765578
>>15765605
ANON MORE STORIES PLEASE

[Anonymous No.15778281]

>>15765488
Dude, this is top tier prose. Not like the shit that gets posted on critique general or else.

[Anonymous No.15778933]

>>15765419
the gate by natsume soseki

[Anonymous No.15778970]

>>15765419
short ones, probably

[Anonymous No.15779032]

Best thread in years

[Anonymous No.15779052]

>>15765419
The Bibble

[Anonymous No.15779559]

>>15765488
>>15765527
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>>15765605
Recommend me /lit/ similar to this. This is hilarious.

[Anonymous No.15779576]

>>15765419
Pic related

https://www.scribd.com/document/380820017/The-Peaceful-Pill-Handbook-pdf-2018-October-edition-free-download

[Anonymous No.15779622]

>>15767108
UGHHH IM GOOOOONAA THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINKKKK

[Anonymous No.15779625]

Anarchist's Cookbook