Write What's On Your Mind

[Anonymous No.15751183]

[Anonymous No.15751311]

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3VvoPxoLyfc

chuds are going to fucking HATE this!

[Anonymous No.15751315]

I am dog. A needy dog that always needs attention. Wide-eyed. Slightly anxious. A dog which makes you think it might have been abused in its early years. But the dog hasn't been abused. It is jjust a very lazy and very pathetic dog. Pure and simple. But, when all is said and done, it's not a hard dog to like, because it responds so well to positive approval. But it's also not exactly an easy dog to like, because it is so desperate for approval, and it walks around with the air of dog who does not really know who it is. Who thinks he is a much bigger dog than he actually is. Who thinks he is a helpful and useful dog. Who thinks he is an attractive dog. When he is in fact none of these things. But he thinks he is. And this give him a very distinct air of arrogance. But this is why people like him. Because he is a very human dog. And he is not a dog but he is a dog but he is not a dog but he is a dog, and so, and so forth

[Anonymous No.15751325]

>>15751311
>chuds

[Anonymous No.15751327]

>>15751183
Fart...poop? pee poo pee rhythm skirt beep okay oats fart shit poop.

[Anonymous No.15751331]

>>15751183
More internet latrinse

[Anonymous No.15751361]

Why does everyone keep looking at me? I can't tell if they find me attractive or ridiculous, in short I need to cut my hair.

[Anonymous No.15751404]

You are the most pathetic piece of shit that there ever was. See how powerless and weak you are. Why do you think you are so alone? A freak of nature, a beast among men. And you dare think your deformity is your merit? You deceive yourself with your pathetic fantasies, but the fact of the matter is you are nothing short of a pile of shit. You try to hide it behind your charming smile and think nobody is going to notice, but you and I both have. And the single talent that you had, what did you use it for? Something useful? No, you tried to shove yourself alongside father and mother. Fool! They don't want you. If they wanted to be seen, they wouldn't have hid themselves from you. They wouldn't have left you. You wonder why some people seem to like you, but you very well know nobody does. If anyone has been kind to you it's because of pure pity of your weaknesses, don't fool yourself. You cry you want to help others, oh how compassionate you are to the savior of the world. How big is your vanity? Such a small person with such a big vanity. How hilarious, a caricature of the world. Go cry in loneliness and pretend you are not the weakest piece of shit you have ever seen.

[Anonymous No.15751432]

>>15751315
‘Mario, what do you get when you cross an insomniac, an unwilling agnostic, and a dyslexic.’
‘I give.’
‘You get somebody who stays up all night torturing himself mentally over the question of whether or not there’s a dog.’

[Anonymous No.15751458]

>>15751183
A problem solved is a problem made - Professor Karl Dilkington.

[Anonymous No.15751475]

i once posted over one third of all replies in a Write What's On Your Mind thread. it was ART

[Anonymous No.15751476]

Am actually lost , and nothing in this universe can justify this suffering , whatever the reason is cannot in this reality..cuz the moment an idea appears to exist,it will fall in the why loop :a set of our world. Anyway that's why I wanna kms

[Anonymous No.15751494]

>>15751475

it was also a lie

[Anonymous No.15751503]

It's time for your doki, doki. Waku, waku, pills... white man.

[Anonymous No.15751510]

White man.

It is time to obey.

[Anonymous No.15751553]

I’m seriously out of the loop with this thread

[Anonymous No.15751554]

>just got back from work
>"tadaima"
>no buttercunt waiting for me
the days sure are getting longer

[Anonymous No.15751568]

No.

We don't like cartoon Japanese men or women around here. Tch, slick. Get 'em out.

[Anonymous No.15751590]

>10-20-20
What?

[Anonymous No.15751609]

Yeah, we're a semitic fetishistic force of absolute psychological control.

We even betrayed the united states...

So what?

[Anonymous No.15751611]

>>15751183

I'm reading Infinite Jest. I've already read Infinite Jest. Guess the joke's on me

[Anonymous No.15751618]

I guess you're just jealous of our superior might.

[Anonymous No.15751625]

'IS CALL

BIG OBAMA GUVERNMENT

GOOGLE IT, DORK.

[Anonymous No.15751628]

I wanna philosophy book that even kid could understand. Any recommendations?

[Anonymous No.15751636]

>>15751628
Musclin' my way in here.

Do you have any Big government money for me to feed on? I'm a big government money sort of guy. Haha!

[Anonymous No.15751686]

Is this the worst time to be alive in the history of humanity? Our material conditions are improved but the current levels of social isolation and alienation are just unbearable for the majority of people, and they're only getting worse. I look at people living in close-knit traditional communities and even in abject poverty they seem happy. I'm struggling to cope with this, the thought that I might be born into the shittiest time period imaginable is driving me insane.

[Anonymous No.15751696]

Why should I write whats on my mind when it serves no purpose other than to be something psueds on lit probe and superimpose thier own notions and ideals on which always make them seem like the "hyper intelligent enlightened sage" that "figured the world out by the time theyre 20" but are somehow about as deep as a joe rogan podcast about the hegel. What a joke.

[Anonymous No.15751701]

Muh materials an'... like information machine...

You just don't understand spiritualism. Moran. ((google it))

[Anonymous No.15751714]

>>15751701
stop going on 4chan when you drink

[Anonymous No.15751720]

>>15751714
I'm here to discuss japanese anime babes, moran How about you get off MY channel (4chan, 2channel was like a japanese thing)

[Anonymous No.15751723]

Leave me alone man. Fuck you. Is fake tan racist? I don’t see how. Do you?

[Anonymous No.15751736]

>>15751723
Appeal to the market place (free market) And allow true human reality to realize itself (some weird jewish indoctrination and subversion of nations) moran.

[Anonymous No.15751749]

>>15751736
Filibuster

[Anonymous No.15751760]

>>15751749
Can't hear you over my robotic like enslavement over fiat currency issued by weird ancient judaic forces, moran.

Is' called integrity.

[Anonymous No.15751781]

>>15751760
You are scaring the kids, Stefanie. How about a nice cold glass of root beer?. Anyhow, it’s time to sleep.

[Anonymous No.15751807]

If I go a day without going on 4chan, what will happen?

[Anonymous No.15751809]

For the overmind.

I am wretched but I AM STRONG

I am the future.

[Anonymous No.15751840]

>>15751807
Try and find out

[Anonymous No.15751970]

>>15751183
I am tired, and confused. I always seem to have disproportionate battles, everywhere I go, and in everything I do: as a small child, I was beaten by gangs of youths multiple times because of my siblings, throttled by teachers and adults. I grew rebellious, but reigned it back in - told myself to build a life. I was ostracised and outcast on the precipice of adulthood, when in seeking some form of acceptance, I found only rejection for admitting to being a homosexual.

After much loathing, I once more convinced myself to build a life. I tried to rebuild the rubble around me into something, I went to a different school to repair the damage a poor mindset had done to my education previously. I had lecturers, on the back of just one of them, target me, accuse me of cheating, attempting to sabotage everything I was working toward because they'd taken petty spite to new levels on the back of their divorce. Worse yet, I found my health failing me tremendously. In spite of adversity, I succeeded, and made it to university.

My failing health became more and more of a barrier. I had severe vitamin deficiencies and a sleep disorder, both of which were failed to be diagnosed by doctors for literal years. I was weak and emaciated from a lack of sleep; food did not satisfy me. The last people around me, my family, found reasons for illness to be my fault in the absence of rational reason; they accused me of being a drug addict. Insisted it was my behaviours that led to this ill-health, and had I done this, that, or some other thing, I would have been well again. Still, I persevered, and after eventually getting the correct diagnosis, I was also faced with an incorrect one: an improperly diagnosed brain tumour.

With this in mind, I still set about finishing. I had to make the choice to freeze in fear of the unknown, or keep moving forward, so I kept moving. I signed up to train as a teacher. I sought to repair myself through helping others; where I did not believe I could be loved, that I did not matter, I could change the course for someone else. And still, I found nothing but hostility; people around me finding any way to sabotage what I was doing, both peers and professionals alike. And of course, I'll be told it was my fault; that lecturers inventing reasons to increase my workload beyond that of other students was fair, that the people sabotaging me were doing it with best intentions.

I keep finding myself in this circle, of being faced with ludicrous odds; where I defy it, things only seem to grow worse. When I acquiesce, I seem to find only barriers to taking my own life. In this latest instance, I wanted nothing more than to jump from a nice, tall cliff - but the glories of lockdown waned that desire. When I want nothing more than a god damn end to this parade of bullshit, I find myself trapped until I accept and choose to suffer once more. I bargain myself out of death, every time, and I'm tired of it.

[Anonymous No.15752174]

People don’t realize the amount of work it has taken to build all the things that enable their day to day lives, whether in direct labor or accumulated work and experimentation that have produced technology. I mean think about what exists in nature. Trees. Rocks. Various kinds of animals. Sand. These are the things that have had to been transformed into useable items. I’m trying to be more thankful for all these things people have built, be it the computer I post on or the humble culvert that prevents my neighborhood from flooding.

[Anonymous No.15752187]

>>15751686
You should try to build community then, you’re certainly not alone in your views. Or being a larping commie / fascist online who whines that the people haven’t revolted yet.

[Anonymous No.15752192]

Geriatric niggers with their dangling ebony stones dip their baby powder balls into spitting bacon grease.

[Anonymous No.15752263]

I went through the drive through like I usually do, but this time picking up food for two. I was gonna have 2 McDoubles and a large order of fries like usual, and Cameron was gonna try a McChicken, a McDouble, and a cheeseburger. Unfortunately we only got 2 McDoubles, leaving us in a precarious situation, because I surely intended on eating 2 McDoubles yet I was not eager to go back to the store to ask for another McDouble. Fortunately (for me) Cameron ceded the up-in-the-air McDouble, citing a small appetite. The food was great, and maybe I shouldn't have been as stressed about the up-in-the-air McDouble as I was.

[Anonymous No.15752272]

Wrestling with the gods is tiresome. That's the reason why I find myself continually disavowing and seeing the limitation in what I wrote before. It's because I am intelligent enough to recognize the source of the mystery, but most of my attempts to vanquish it fall short. The conundrums that enthuse me are the ones which have governed countless millions of human lives before me. What sort of audacious hubris is it to think that I can be the terminus which makes this cataclysmic mystery decipherable?

I don't even need a second opinion. All I need to do is reread what I had wrote a few months prior in a state of self-assured certainty only to discover systematic inadequacies in my entire project. We love lies because lies are easy; everyone can know and see through their own lie. The truth is destructive.

[Anonymous No.15752283]

How to tell if a book full of shit without reading it?

[Anonymous No.15752288]

>>15752283
Reviews, anon. They aren't worthless.

[Anonymous No.15752294]

>>15751503
Bet you thought nobody would notice you quoting Touhou remixes on /lit/. Quite the blunder.

[Anonymous No.15752295]

>>15752288
Sane people wouldn't waste their time on writing a review.

[Anonymous No.15752301]

>>15752283
Ask yourself what would your favorite artist or philosopher would think of the book. Better yet see if they have already commented on the book.

[Anonymous No.15752307]

>>15752294
Sorry small fry (plebeian) but we're playing with the big boys.

It's a game beyond your understanding.

[Anonymous No.15752369]

>>15752272

[Anonymous No.15752521]

I talked about my cosmology view with a guy in a mental asylum and he called me insane
Truth is actually the ultimate scam

[Anonymous No.15752566]

>>15752307
I believe you, do what needs be done.

[Anonymous No.15752587]

>>15751361
how long is it anon?

[Anonymous No.15752592]

>>15751503
why does he have a pinhead and ayy lmao neck

[Anonymous No.15752615]

>>15751183
I can't fucking sleep!

[Anonymous No.15752631]

>>15752615
WHAT THE FUCK I WAS ABOUT TO POST THIS XACT FUCIKIN GHTING

[Anonymous No.15752638]

>>15751183
Procrastinating writing an 8-10 page paper. Every time I wait until the last second unable to summon an ounce of willpower. The deadline looms closer and closer yet when I open the directions/prompt I just sit there overwhelmed unable to think of a single thing. At one point half-heartedly jot down maybe a page or two of notes that say nothing. I try to break the task down into easy parts but it does nothing to help, and the knowledge of the deadline nearing ever closer hovers above making any coherent thought impossible. After hours and hours of staring at a blank page I go over the deadline, give up, and decide that next paper I'll try harder.

I can already predict this is what will happen tomorrow it's what I always do.

[Anonymous No.15752679]

>>15752638
>what you always do
What does this mean?

[Anonymous No.15752691]

>>15752679
I always procrastinate to the last minute, give up, and then decide I'll try harder next time.

[Anonymous No.15752718]

Why am I posting here? I should be reading or watching movies.

[Anonymous No.15752724]

Today is Canada day
Yes
YES

[Anonymous No.15752749]

>>15751628
Kant fur Kinder -Friedlander

[Anonymous No.15752760]

I popped a magic balloon. I was saved by a magic balloon.
No.

[Anonymous No.15752796]

>>15752760
I wasn’t saved fuck no, and I still don’t feel saved, and I think it might be because I’m slow of thought and thinking with words.

[Anonymous No.15752812]

i saw an old friend of mine today. she was working at a local fast food place. i got mad at her for no reason a few months ago and did that depression push people away thing. she was one of my only friends, she would buy stuff for me, she sent me a christmas gift, the first christmas gift i've ever received from a friend, nearly made me cry when i got it. i shouldn't have gotten mad at her it was so stupid. she's a sweet girl. i walked into the place with my little sister to buy her a cold drink and it was very clearly her behind the counter. i squinted at her for a good twenty or so seconds and she did a camp smile back thru her face mask. i ordered and she didn't say a thing, got us our drinks and we left. :'(

happy canada day fellas

[Anonymous No.15752863]

one day i was sitting in a creek in the amazonian resvoir and appearing out of nowhere was this very pale young girl. if i had to make an approximation of her age she was probably between 6-8. she looked sick and slowly grew closer to my fishing spot.
"are you okay?" i asked
"no" she said. there was no energy in her voice
"you look ill..are you with someone?"
right at that moment, my rod pulled itself into the water.
"of all the times..."

[Anonymous No.15752897]

>>15752812
:( try to get back in touch

[Anonymous No.15753083]

>>15752812
Don't make a big self-pitying 'issue' out of what happened. Cheerfully ask her over, give a brief or jokey explanation if she asks directly about it, then simply rohypnol her drink so you can get to work stitching her stinking whore holes shut without any screaming alerting the neighbours.

No big deal.

[Anonymous No.15753212]

I didnt deserve this

[Anonymous No.15753760]

>>15751183

I was told once that we remember with our feelings, and over the years I've been inclined to agree.

I think about the people that I've experienced, that I've known and cherished. It's been years since I've seen them, and as the separation remains and is prolonged, that feeling, their feeling, fades. Time kills and remakes us slowly. Our present becomes our past, and then our past becomes someone else's. When their feeling is gone, I may still remember but I feel I'm looking through another person's eyes, in another person's mind.
They were my experience, once.

A man falls in love with a girl, and the girl rejects him. But the girl cannot control what her meme does to him. He experiences vivid dreams with her, not of a sexual nature, but simply of being. These dreams are like memories. His mind accepts the falsity, but to his heart, it is all too real.
In the immediate aftermath he is haunted by her. Feels great pain that only subsides slowly. His projection of her in the dreams speaks with him, but slowly fades with her feeling. A conversation becomes a walk, a walk becomes a hello, a hello becomes a glance. Soon the glancing stops, the girl is a stranger to him. She fades away.

She appears again in a diner to him, and shrugs him off. He's lucid and takes control of his dream, and kisses the girl, seduced by her image.

The lips and tongue are felt as fingers. He recoils and wakes up in haze. He feels deep regret and pain. The illusion is broken. It is proven irrecoverably to him that she can never be made to him in dream again, all there is left is a puppet, a fantasy now shattered.

This man continues to live and work and succeed, and soon upon memory of the girl, he feels no pain, no regret. He doesn't feel anything. The feeling is gone. The image of her is dusty and decomposed. It was a love of a lifetime ago, of a self he once was.

[Anonymous No.15753948]

>started going for jogs and doing other exercises lately
>just want to get in shape
>runn'an
>pass by group of people
>black girl exclaims, "he's jogging FAAAAST"
feels good man. i cough after i jog sometimes though, but that was also the case for several years so it isn't the dreaded bat soup coof. i'm gonna get /fit//lit/.

[Anonymous No.15754023]

>>15751686
>Is this the worst time to be alive in the history of humanity?
Surely you meant best time?
>access to any kind of food i want, whenever i want it
>access to every book ever written, free and instantly
>access to every song ever made, every anime/manga, free and instant
>can travel anywhere on the planet i want for a few day's worth of pay
>can find any information i want free and instantly/within a day of searching, from medicine to languages to repair work
>medicine available for anything that ails me, relatively affordably
>never been easier to move to a new city or a new country if you don't like where you were born
>relatively easy access to education, can do whatever profession you want
>classes available locally or online for anything you want to learn. good luck learning aikido if you were born in 1400s London
>jobs have never been easier -- just clack some buttons on a computer (although it may be boring and tedious)
>free, clean water access everywhere
>can make friends even without leaving your house
>can find a date on your phone in 5 minutes

[Anonymous No.15754036]

>>15752174
my nigger. humans took a pile of sand and turned it into a globally connected laptop that can perform thousands of mathematical calculations per second (or however much). it's literally magic.

[Anonymous No.15754048]

>>15752615
>>15752631
i've been insomniatic lately, for the first time in my life. i maybe slept 2 hours last night. went to bed at 10, laid awake until at least 5-5:30 am, was up sometime before 8. second time in a week, fifth time in a month.

[Anonymous No.15754090]

>>15751183
Cyberpunk cauzed a funk,
police batons go clunk,
My armpits smell like a skunk,
it is time to shower.

[Anonymous No.15754103]

>>15752897
>>15753083
it was scummy on my part. she has issues, she was raped last year and i was one of the first people she told. she then proceeded to get into a relationship with her rapist. she had a lot of other issues with her mom who didn't give a fuck about her and made her raise her little brother and from the way she talked it didn't seem like she had very many friends. eventually i just got tired of her wining and the fact that she'd literally do the opposite of my advice and then still complain. so i just told her to get help and gtfo of my life.

she's annoying but a sweetheart. it's still never okay to kick someone when they're down like that. i see a lot of myself in her. i should've been a better friend. there's a lot i could've done.

:'(

[Anonymous No.15754146]

I WANT HIS DIRTY FILTHY DISGUSTING BIG STRONG VIRIL HANDS TO CHOKE ME RAM HIMSELF AGAINST ME LIKE A SLEDGEHAMMER AT DRUM AND BASS SPEEDS AAAAAAAAA!!!!

[Anonymous No.15754156]

>>15754023
But if you lived a hundred and fifty years ago you could have all that except the phone but with three maids, a cook, opium and hookers on tap and get to wear a top hat without looking like a complete wanker. You can even go shoot Arabs and Russians in Afghanistan then too if that's your thing.

[Anonymous No.15754176]

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zO7E-D4yTS4

Imagine instead of obsessing about art, technology, money, god, you could just be normal and do normal things

[Anonymous No.15754203]

>>15754176
I’m so close to getting a flip phone and going back to 1996

[Anonymous No.15754243]

>>15754203
>Microsoft misses the social media wave
>Hires washed up "technologist" to write books telling you to stop using their competitors products

Fuck social media, but Lanier is basically just writes books dissing whatever tech area MS is weak in

[Anonymous No.15754296]

>>15753760
That was beautiful and quite relatable. I'm 27 and it made me think of the fading pain of remembering my ex, even when I am with my current girlfriend. Sometimes though, I miss the way she loved me. She loved me more fully and attentively than my current.

[Anonymous No.15754332]

I feel like a 4-day work week would greatly improve people's general wellbeing (at the sacrifice of being paid less). But I am not sure if this is a cope with not wanting to work though. I just think it's dumb that 40 hour work weeks are so standard.

[Anonymous No.15754596]

>>15752272
GET ME OUT OF THIS STUPID MONKEY RITUAL AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[Anonymous No.15754652]

BUT SERIOUSLY WHO THE FUCK USES ALL OF THIS REVOLUTIONARY TECHNOLOGY AND CYBERNETIC HIVEMIND GROUP-THINK PROJECTS AND INFRASTRUCTURE

HUNDREDS AND THOUSANDS OF MAN-HOURS AND COLLECTIVE CREATIVE ARTWORK

SOCIETAL CHANGING TRENDS AND FADS

JUST TO HARASS

A

FUCKING

BASEMENT NERD

HOLY FACK

[Anonymous No.15754668]

YEAH BUT IT'S LIKE TRYING TO STAGE A RITUALISTIC SACRIFICE FOR A GUY WHO DOESN'T EVEN SHOW UP

I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW ANY OF THE LYRICS AND I MUMBLED MY WAY THROUGH

LIKE, HOW CAN YOU RITUALISTICALLY SACRIFICE A MAN WHO ISN'T EVEN HALF-WAY TRYING TO CARE

[Anonymous No.15754686]

I hate this.

I just want to get wrapped inside a cosmic hug box

I want unconditional love pulsating through my being

I want to feel their skin and warmth

without all the gross sinful fate of mankind stuff.

[Anonymous No.15754695]

It's so weird I wonder what the hell they're thinking.

[Anonymous No.15754698]

it sucks now we have to deal with hateful semites ruining everything.

All the powerful beautiful exchange of mankinds passion and intelligence under the heels of evil.

Fuck everything.

[Anonymous No.15754701]

I had a dream in which somebody told me: 'cocaine breaks your cock-line'.
Be careful, fellas, and don't do drugs.

[Anonymous No.15754709]

I'll never be able to fully realize their existence or do all the kissy fun stuff. This is so dumb.

[Anonymous No.15754710]

I have secret knowledge on how the world works that I'm not allowed to write down. Sorry guys.

[Anonymous No.15754723]

>>15754710
Oh yeah, and ignore the hateful evil rapist and murderer in the room that uses secret mind control technology to hurt and destroy everything in its wake.

[Anonymous No.15754794]

>>15754203
Who the fuck buys and reads these types of books. I don't understand why people continue to use it if they don't derive joy out of it, even if only ironically. Are people too idiotic to exercise their own judgement to determine if an activity is a waste of time or not? Are people not analyzing what course of action to take in order to best improve their lives? They have to know these arguments, like I know I am wasting time replying to random shit on this board, but the reason why I don't stop must be that I am lazy and lacking in self-control. There's no 10 reasons why you should stop heroin right now, I don't understand why this shit?

[Anonymous No.15754859]

>>15754794
>Who the fuck buys and reads these types of books?
Facebook boomers, people who want to give an annoying present to someone they hate, the I'm-not-like-the-other-girls-type-of-girls. Half of them won't quit though.
>There's no 10 reasons why you should stop heroin right now
well, there's Trainspotting
>I am lazy and lacking in self-control
get a jooooooooooooob

[Anonymous No.15754882]

>>15754859
Mhm true, and the film we children of bahnhof zoo, though both are at least entertaining lol. I would except I'm in a couple summer classes so that's keeping me busy meanwhile. Been sending resumes everywhere too but no one respoooooonds.

[Anonymous No.15754913]

>>15751183
ITT:
Free rent

Hope it was worth it

[Anonymous No.15754928]

>>15751404
Why do you talk about yourself like that?

[Anonymous No.15754977]

>>15751404
This is the absolute worst piece of writing I have ever read. Congrats

[Anonymous No.15755453]

Interesting observation I've made: whenever someone talks about taking some idea to its logical conclusion the conclusion is never a good thing.

[Anonymous No.15755540]

>>15755453
It's always a neutral thing
Humans are what give things a human element

[Anonymous No.15755557]

>>15752272
>The conundrums that enthuse me are the ones which have governed countless millions of human lives before me. What sort of audacious hubris is it to think that I can be the terminus which makes this cataclysmic mystery decipherable?
I, on the other hand, did successfully solve the greatest question of the universe
and I only spent 2 days on the verge of suicide

[Anonymous No.15755586]

>>15755540
Tell my wife I said hello

[Anonymous No.15755619]

I'm like stuck in purgatory, I wander around aimlessly like a ghost. Lunacy is the only way out of this.

[Anonymous No.15755705]

>>15751696
based Diogenian

[Anonymous No.15755747]

>>15751696
Imagine Nietzsche refused to write his ideas down because he didn't want to be labeled a pseud
You are the antithesis of based

[Anonymous No.15755790]

I'm considering going to church and ask question about faith. Since an event that happened recently I can't put it on luck only, I'm grateful that I didn't slept in that day.

[Anonymous No.15755921]

>>15751183
tiddies

[Anonymous No.15755925]

>>15751503
Is this a scene from the next James Bond movie?

[Anonymous No.15756143]

>>15755925
Next gen Men In Black

[Anonymous No.15756487]

>>15755925
At this point, it would seriously not surprise me at all if the next James Bond was a black woman.

[Anonymous No.15756693]

I don't know if I want to have sex, I find people attractive but I wonder do I want to do it or is my brain telling me I do, don't get me wrong I don't believe in a separation between mind and self but I also do think there's something more to me than just animalistic instinct, I mean how do I separate my desire from an evolutionary drive, I masturbated the other day and realized in hindsight I didn't want to do it, previous I knew it wouldn't make me happy or bring any meaning to my life but I was tricked by chemicals into thinking it was something I desired - but maybe that's all I am? maybe theres nothing more and everything on top of animalistic urges is just rationalization to convince myself I'm more than just an animal last week a friend invited me to a houseparty and I went, a girl was pretty into me and we made out a bit, I live on my own and don't have any family so I wasn't concerned about corona since if I caught it I wouldn't pass it on to anyone, I'd be inside my flat for the next few weeks alone anyway, I could have had sex with her but I'd lose respect for myself if I fucked a drunk 6/10 in a bathroom especially considering I'm now sober and have been for about half a year - but if I accepted I'm just an animal that experiences enough empathy to compel him to act morally but beyond that I just give in to everything if I have the opportunity to fuck I do so no need for analysis or worries about how it['ll effect my self image, she's tried to get onto me in the past when sober so it wouldn't have been immoral, it would have been weird but I doubt I'd have had any consequences

[Anonymous No.15756833]

>>15756693
>chase enlightenment for a decade
>practice asceticism
>grow as a person and as a soul
>genuinely catch glimpses of truth, and have near-religious epiphanies about the platonic unity of the True, the Good, the Beautiful
>jot down hundreds of notes for a lifelong spiritual quest after the seat of my own soul and the key to the logos
>walking around somberly contemplating dianoia one afternoon
>see one pretty girl
>unconscious mind: "I WOULD LIKE TO SMELL AND LICK HER ASS HOLE AFTER IT'S KIND OF SWEATY NOT TOO SWEATY BUT YOU KNOW LIKE A NORMAL DAY'S WORTH OF WALKING AROUND, PRETTY SURE I'D CUT OFF 2, MAYBE 3 OF MY FINGERS JUST TO LICK HER BREASTS FOR 30 SECONDS I WONDER IF SHE'D SIT ON MY PENIS IF I LITERALLY BEGGED HER??"

[Anonymous No.15757045]

Imagine reading the news lmao, imagine letting some dipshit sitting in a NYC office tell you what to believe.

[Anonymous No.15757065]

>>15756833
used to be me

[Anonymous No.15757078]

>>15757045
>Imagine reading /lit/ lmao, imagine letting some dipshit sitting in a basement tell you what to believe
See the flaws with that sentence? The same flaws apply to yours
Yes, including the one you're tempted to point out

[Anonymous No.15757156]

>>15757078
> Imagine reading /lit/ lmao, imagine letting some dipshit sitting in a basement tell you what to believe
Yes.

[Anonymous No.15757175]

>>15757078
>basement dwelling incel
High IQ, independent thinker, does not conform to common societal norms and platitudes, genuine interest in topics he discusses.
>dipshit sitting in a NYC office
Midwit bugman, cares more about his social status and appearance than actual knowledge, no regard for beauty and truth, worldview completely determined by his social conditioning.

I think it's clear who the winner is.

[Anonymous No.15757177]

Capitalist AI has taken over the human sexual repdroction system and created unsustainable feedback loops. (Tinder etc) This has led to the true end of abrahamic monogamy. As a society we are reverting to precivilizational polygamy, and God knows what demons this movement will unlock.

I like getting my dick wet in some dumb whores though.

[Anonymous No.15757200]

Halifax explosion
Tuna Fish
Gardens
Robots cannot kill without a program in their hand.
Wanda from Harry Potter.
Neville
Keyboard Tyler plays Tetris competitively
Asians will not be Corona virus Truthers
When will I write a book?
Savagery is war, and war makes people money
We all die
Fuck I’m gonna die
Is control an illusion, or is my life one as well?
Fuck all this shit
4chan lit

[Anonymous No.15757282]

I just saw some tech bro asshole use "career grow" as a noun like "ad spend". Gross.

[Anonymous No.15757343]

>>15751183
This is one hell of an unraveling

[Anonymous No.15757347]

>>15751183
The internet is a shit stained latrine. Books for this feel?

[Anonymous No.15757374]

>>15751183
Fuck can anyone tell me what did Descartes attribute to the imagination when discussing the wax? It seems like he is saying that the imagination does not give the wax any property at all, except that it is something that is capable of changing, and it is the intellect that actually understands it as something flexible/mutable/extended. Or is it that the imagination actually attributes these properties to the wax, and that the intellect gives it the property of constancy (that the wax was the same wax from the beginning) ?

[Anonymous No.15757464]

>>15757374
You waited until the last day of the summer semester to do your Descartes essay, huh? Shame on you.

[Anonymous No.15757494]

I wish for different

[Anonymous No.15757518]

>>15757464
Hahaha fuck me I have like half an hour lmao

[Anonymous No.15757540]

I'm trying to taper off of caffeine, but it's just making me feel like how Joe Biden must feel. How long will it take to feel normal?

[Anonymous No.15757617]

>>15751183
Yes, I've considered the possibility. No, I don't think it's come to it yet. Yes it's possible, anything is possible. Yes, you spend most of your time alone and you wish you had more opportunities to interact with people like you USED to. I don't know, maybe that is what kissing people means. Yes, I understand it's not your fault. Yes, I've heard it a hundred times: success, school, academia. No, it's not silly. Yes he did call them principles, I like to call them thinking for yourself. No I'm not just saying that. Yes, I've considered he lies to you. No, I'm not lying. No, it's not being paranoid, and before you even bring it up, no. Yes, you've been alone for some time now. Yes. I miss her too.

[Anonymous No.15757800]

Why should't i kill myself?

[Anonymous No.15757879]

>>15757800
No reason not to, stay balling

[Anonymous No.15757887]

>>15757800
Because that is usually the coward way out.

[Anonymous No.15758080]

I did a lot of uphill sprints in the last couple of months. While standing, my body language says "I'm ready to run a race against you." I can't change it. It's how I stand. I have competitive aura now, but all I know is sprinting 120m uphill.

It helps with intimidating girls, because they think that they don't have a chance with me. They're right. They don't, if they're unable to sprint 120m uphill.

[Anonymous No.15758095]

>>15757617
Holy shit can you stop?

[Anonymous No.15758799]

I just don't know anymore guys.

[Anonymous No.15758816]

>>15758799
You and me both bro

[Anonymous No.15758891]

Passage 39 from the book of disquiet, is probably my favorite. This passage articulated what I felt in myself for so long, I feel the same resonance reading it again as I did the first time.

[Anonymous No.15759272]

I wish I could express how I feel and what causes these feelings but I struggle to articulate it even internally it's more of a vague feeling of sickness, the closest I've come would be the disappointment I have in people because they don't seem to care about the right things, they're so appearance focused that they seem incapable of action that would actually make the world a better place but yet they constantly yell about how unfair it all is, how these huge companies are ruining the world but yet they continue to support them

[Anonymous No.15759313]

>>15756833
Surely after a while you can kill your instinctive drive? It will fight back stronger and stronger as you fight it, but eventually if you don't give up I'm sure you could kill it. Take a look at the diaries of the saints for example.

[Anonymous No.15759385]

>>15759313
there's entire sections of your brain dedicated to instinct and primal desires/drives, killing it would be impossible since some parts of it like fight or flight are embedded in the same part as automatic breathing, I'd imagine it's harder now than ever before to suppress it and killing it is impossible I mean if I lived in a time were outside women just showed ankles vs now suppression of the "i want to fuck" desire would be easy etc etc

[Anonymous No.15759391]

What am I in for?
Is it worth reading?
Thoughts?
Rec?
Books for this vague, mediocre feel?
Check out this T*****r screenshot. Oh, uh, books to cope with this feel?
etc., etc., etc.
Seriously, are all of you shitposters just a bunch of bots? Fuck.

[Anonymous No.15759392]

The highest intensity of negative emotions in a romantic relationship is still better than messing around with the bullshit male friends have to offer.

I don't even know how I get dragged in so much drama.


I was joking with a friend for 20 minutes, throwing insults left and right, until I realized that he wasn't joking, the entire time.

I told a friend I didn't want to work with him. He got mad, started psychoanalyzing me and telling me what my problems are.

Just, fuck off, holy fuck. Give me the biggest whore from Mexico City, I'll take that to the shit I'm going through with males.

[Anonymous No.15759434]

>>15759385
I don't know about the physiology, but I'm sure you could deactivate the parts of your mind that are dedicated to volition (at least for the most part). If it does happen, then it doesn't even matter if fully nude women walk around you. You'd feel no instinctive drive (unless you purposefully try to reawaken your will, which is retarded).

[Anonymous No.15759449]

>>15759434
but because of where certain "instinctive drives" come from physically you'd have to shut off parts of your brain that do things like temperature regulation and breathing, so you could only ever limit drives because shutting them off kills you

[Anonymous No.15759469]

>>15751183
My head spins from all the consooming. There's too much cheap dopamine available here. Music. Porn. Media. Cheap carbs. Sugar. Information. Books. Words. Ideas. Thoughts. Addiction. Listening.

As I write this now, my eyes soak all the pretty colors from the monitor. My eardrums rattle with bass-heavy headphones. My taste buds sip the cheap sugar and cheap caffeine from a quick cup of pre-workout. My fingers glide across the keyboard, my back leans against cheap furniture, my neck clinches with headphones. Pasta made with simple starches and sauce made with simple carbs fills my nose with a single breath.

It's another day of consooming instead of producing. Tomorrow will be the same. And I can predict tomorrow with precision. And if I can predict tomorrow, am I really living?

Yes, I'm alive. Young, too. But I can't help but think that this era's curse is a prolonged living of consooming.

There is no grandeur in my life, only the consooming of others' grandeur.

I have no fascinating stories to tell others. Except the kind of music I consoom, the kind of anime I consoom, the cheap carbs I consoom, the books I consoom—it's all consoom stories, no stories of grandeur.

I now find it horrifying that all these self-help articles, self-help books, and self-help infographics aim for consoomption:
>consoom more books
>consoom healthier food
>consoom nootropics
>consoom your time doing X

I don't deny that some of these do actually help—but why is it always CONSOOM THIS?

I think the best advice would be the removal of things, not the consoomption of things. Remove shit books, not consoom books. Remove shit foods, not consoom healthier foods. Remove brain-devolving drugs, not consoom nootropics. Remove time-wasters, not consoom time with X.

It's always consoom, consoom, consoom.

I'll be doing the opposite of consooming now.

[Anonymous No.15759498]

>>15759449
Sure, but subduing the fire is still worth it, even if a glimmer of it remains alive.

[Anonymous No.15759518]

wat should i read after thomas ligotti? i don't want anything wiser i want to go down the dumber rabbit hole until i lose myself in my own drug induced scenarios

[Anonymous No.15759548]

And he was lost, collapsing before his sageness. His own conscience---a lynchpin. In light of all his undoing, his fortitude grew.
He was lost and he shook. For the first time in his life, he became a seer. He saw it all. But, he didn't ascend. Before the mountain of God, his sageness had died.

[Anonymous No.15759557]

>>15759469
What do you even mean by "grandeur?" Some of you people talk about wanting to "live life" but it sounds so alien, like you have this idea that life is out there somewhere, happening, but you're not a part of it. But in reality, you are a part of it, you always have been and always will be. It is a simple matter to break your routine, to find some small thrill among the ordinary.

[Anonymous No.15759764]

well, i give up. it looks like unless i get either a certificate or a master's i'll never get a job that pays reasonably decent and i'll always be the disposeable company kicking boy making McWages. fine, all in, hit me with the student debt family, just kill me already.

i suppose i'm recovered enough from my depression and PTSD from my bachelors to throw myself into the hurtbox again. during undergrad i was so bad i was walking into the street without looking because i wanted to get hit by a car and die. so here we go again. thanks to degree inflation now i have to take on another 15k-60k of debt just to get a job that pays me enough to live. what a planet. what a country. fine, here i am, come kill me.

[Anonymous No.15759789]

>>15759764
What the fuck was so bad about undergrad that you wanted to actually die?

[Anonymous No.15759813]

Few days ago I realized I can’t complain about not having what I want when I’m not even doing the bare minimum for myself to be healthier happier fitter etc. ok computer. Just a few days of work on myself I really don’t have any issues and am grateful for everything I do have and don’t feel lacking. I do realize I did create a sort of hell for myself, but knowing that makes me realize I can change it and I will. If you’re reading this and it resonates then this wasn’t in vain

[Anonymous No.15759820]

>>15759813
Yes, the just do the fucking thing approach might work. Unironically.

[Anonymous No.15759883]

>>15759789
>went to school in suburban area with crappy economy
>only jobs/internships were a 2 hour drive through heavy traffic, too much driving anxiety to drive in the city
>extremely poor background, didn't have $10 to waste
>living on rice n beenz, eggz and potatoes all day every day
>hated my program, hated my school, hated my housemates, hated my family, hated the state i lived in and just wanted to graduate so i could move the fuck out
>had no hope i could ever get a job even with the degree because until then i only had one shitty min wage job that someone handed to me, everything else turned me down
>recovering from an abusive background that resulted in severe social anxiety (I'm fine now, but I was a mess then)
>nowhere to go and nothing to do, just a horrible soulless suburban hellscape with a bunch of traffic
>got into a few bad car accidents, shattered my ability to drive, and no public transit so essentially couldn't go anywhere if it wasn't the backroads
>mounting health problems, abusive family, anhedonia, no friends, no prospects, no future
>poorfaggot background, never learned how to get a job or even what a non-blue-collar job entailed
>crippling depression meant i didn't want to do anything but lay on the floor and stare at a wall, thinking about my future was too overwhelming to even approach
>tried to do the bare minimum to scrape by, was living day-to-day trying not to think about anything

mental health is a damned animal. even now i'm only barely functional.

[Anonymous No.15760011]

anons are creeps and weirdos.

[Anonymous No.15760135]

>>15757800
>that pic
>animals looking at sunset, etc
dude i'm sorry for being an ass, but i kind of miss the guy who posted horses in these threads. i suppose the russian mafia got hold of him for posting too many sunsets/sunrises
;_;

[Anonymous No.15760189]

>>15759557
>What do you even mean by "grandeur?"
financial freedom to do things I want to do simply because I want to, because it made me curious, because I enjoy it, because I think I would enjoy it—whatever that "things" or "it" may be.

>you have this idea that life is out there somewhere, happening, but you're not a part of it. But in reality, you are a part of it, you always have been and always will be.

I understand that this era of life is the best era of all of human life. I understand that where I am now and what I am doing is far better than what my great great grandparents had to suffer. And I understand that as my years increase, human life on this earth will be better than it was before.

But the problem is that I am at the tail-end of the bull, not the head. Or in other words, I'm sitting back, letting others do the earth-changing, human-changing actions. Or in another way, I want to do something praiseworthy in this world. Perhaps it's my ego that makes me think that way.

I want to do something that will be spoken of when I die. It's funny how many people today fear just death or dying alone. From many generations back, people feared having an empty death or a death without meaning—I am the same way. I won't lie, I don't read philosophy, so my views on death are limited. But it remains in my heart and my head, that I would rather have a meaningful death than just death.

But my issue extends further than death. It includes life. I just find it incredibly sad that video games replaced real achievements, porn replaced women, face-time replaced face-to-face, consoomirst books replaced adventure, and cheap dopamine replaced creation.

The curse of consoomption is that it has infinite variations to fulfill an addicts addiction over and over and over again.

I want to be at the frontier of humanity, not the tail-end, consoomirest bullshit of it.

I will change, no need to remind me.

[Anonymous No.15760308]

>>15751183
Jul 2

Woke up late. Who cares. The parents do. I could be on crack, out every night suckin an' fuckin, painting the town black, and they wouldn't mind provided I was up and at it next morn. Fiends and rogues don't rise at 7. Anyway, up at lunch, milky strong coffee, banana porridge with the consistency of strong glue, glass of water. Breathe in; exhale. The caffeine feels good because you are lowkey addicted, and then bad because you are hypersensitive and feel blackly depressed and empty when it slips away. Not really because of the coffee, but just like a good thing on a bad day can make you feel worse; you become aware of how bad you feel. Human beings are adaptable, and the happiness you were born with is the one you magnetise towards.

Searching for a job. Inadequate terminology. More like pleading, casting, sliming, supplicating. WHAT ASPECTS OF WORK AS A CUSTOMER ASSISTANT MOST INSPIRE YOU? It's been said before better, you get me. Parents want me to know what I want, but if not to play it safe, get an internship and work your way up; get in the game, there's always marketing. Parents never want you to keep to your ideals and principles. They like to make you think everything you feel is naiive, when it's just the natural reaction to the vacuum they shat you out into, naked and alone: you can do whatever you set your mind to, just don't fuck it up OK. Well, so what. You start applying for jobs at random. Why does a job as a door to door salesmen seem more appealing than sales assistant's assistant account ledgers assistant? Tap tap tap, shoot off your homogenised low sightset CV to maximum receptacles, do this to feel better, not because you want the jobs. If you do this you will be able to take some pleasure in the rest of the day, having simulated purpose and gumption. That joke about all 50s men having got their lifelong job in insurance through sheer pulsating force of forest GUMPTION, Haranguing (always) the (top dog) manager and winning them over with straight talking leathery vowels and unshakeable sincerity. GUMP--TION. They were the last. We know now (we don't know). Every job is a task of a task of a task of ... Fat cats in elephant tusk fitted buggattis, raking feathery plump green while big alsatian dogs suck their tiny fat cocks. We are lift safety coordinators, secondary executive fund risk assessors, data-driven solutions operators. We do thing which don't matter but for the money we are paid and the people we touch. But the people we touch know the games is up, too. So it's just the empty game, and everyone sees it. Get what you can while alive, hit the jackpot or not, and die.

[Anonymous No.15760542]

>>15751628
All of Plato.

[Anonymous No.15760552]

>>15751686
>It ws the bst of tims it wus the wrost of tims.
Maybe we have it a bit better than some of post-indus soc. But yh, PISssss succc.

[Anonymous No.15760735]

what does et nihil humanum mean and why doesnt google know. also where did I get to do with it.

[Anonymous No.15760793]

>>15760735
You may be thinking of the quote '"Homo sum, humani nihil a me alienum puto,' which means 'I am a man, nothing human is alien to me, from Terence.

et nihil humanum is 'and nothing human'

[Anonymous No.15760806]

>>15760793
thanks! ive been mauling it over for llike 20 minutes

[Anonymous No.15760924]

Just spent $30 on audiobooks, already regret it, lol. Couldn't help it, had to consoome.

[Anonymous No.15760951]

>>15760924
Piracy is a thing, you know.

[Anonymous No.15760956]

>>15751315
This made me tear up.

[Anonymous No.15761001]

>>15760951
Yeah, I know, but some time I want shit that's not plebeian enough to be on pirate sites.

[Anonymous No.15761017]

>>15760924
Could have bought one share of a bond fund that would pay me 18 cents a month for the rest of my life. Doesn't seem like much, but 30 bucks here, 30 bucks there, before you know it you can afford a cup of coffee.

[Anonymous No.15761143]

>>15760011
rude

[Anonymous No.15761148]

>>15761143
I want to break my house and die.

[Anonymous No.15761151]

>>15761148
you mean like take a hammer and make a hole in the drywall?

[Anonymous No.15761155]

>>15761143
Dunno why people just don't give me cigarettes so I can continue with my life, instead of living a long and miserable existence.

[Anonymous No.15761164]

>>15761151
No, more like throwing something at the window to break it, pick a glass shard and sticking it in my throat. I used to function, anon.

[Anonymous No.15761176]

>>15761151
I can't read a fucking physics book.

[Anonymous No.15762060]

>>15751183
I think if you accept someone’s affirmation or negative response as being true, you submit to their interpretation of what is right or wrong, good and bad. Therefore if you continue to live according to the yardstick of other’s measure of what is good and bad, you lose an amount of freedom, becoming more like a politician. Now that isn’t to say people are no better or worse than others, since it’s natural to feel better or worse every now and then. But the drive to depart from those feelings depends on how you can make yourself useful to a wider community. How you can give to others and give thanks for what they give back. But value does not exist in what one “does” either. A person’s presence can “do” plenty of things, but it is unintuitive to think simply being is the same as doing. But it is that potentiality to “do” something which serves as “doing “ something for those who have a series of expectations they have confidence in of them.
There’s no love in philosophy, it seems like only power. There are things I take upon myself I know I cannot surmount, a Serenity’s Prayer may help me to know the difference. The days are not so loud now thankfully. Someday my subjective days will hopefully end as well.

[Anonymous No.15762437]

>>15751183
is love a path to truth, a mirror of truth or an orbit of truth?

[Anonymous No.15762502]

>>15751183
I want to learn electronics to the point of meeting the ability of an electrical engineer. I want to fix semi-trucks in Alaska. I want to be able to speak Spanish and seduce any woman. I can paint but I also want to hack computers and dress wounds and be a Leader of men. There's so much life and I want to live live live.

I want to gulp from the cup of existence and let it run down my chin. I want to climb mountains and hunt game. I want to start businesses and go to art galleries in Mexico City, in New York, in Buenos Aires. I want five children and they will be a nation.

[Anonymous No.15762577]

>>15751183
I wonder, examining me as a person, how unique am I, truly? I would like to think I'm at least 1 in a 100, although I'm sure everyone feels that way. What makes a person 1 in 1000, or 1 in 10,000? I'm not referring only to IQ, mind you. I mean in terms of idiosyncrasies, in talents and life experiences. In how much gravitas the person brings. What about the 1 in a billion?

>A billion to one
>Don't the odds make you sick?
>To be one in a billion's a terrible trick
>You're the wretched one

It would be interesting to classify people in ranks like the superheros in One Punch Man. Like I might be a low B tier. My friend with a 155 IQ might be a high B tier, maybe low A. Someone like Bill Gates would be an S+.

[Anonymous No.15762632]

>>15762502
you are already doing all that anon, dont worry. Just go with the flow and let life show you what shes got too offer :)

[Anonymous No.15762640]

>>15762577
Yeah you could invent a rank like that but it would not be really usefull because it would just say how much sosmeone corresponds to a metric of success or skill or talent that was made up by society and indoctrined you to think that its an intrinsic value measure.
Nothing has meaning and there are no ranks, and thats all right

[Anonymous No.15762660]

>>15760308
Honestly this was pretty good.

[Anonymous No.15762710]

there's just so many cool games to play on my xbox one and I don't even know which one to get

[Anonymous No.15762730]

>>15751183
I don’t worry about y’all sometimes

[Anonymous No.15762771]

The work that needs be done remains undone
As that one returns home, the prodigal son
His presence brings me home from home
how do I legally commit fratricide, anon?

[Anonymous No.15763107]

>>15760308
Post more. You’re a good writer.

[Anonymous No.15763137]

>>15762660
>>15763107
Appreciate it anons.

[Anonymous No.15763140]

>>15751183
I wish to write horror, but I have no clue what I am doing.

[Anonymous No.15763255]

I have some really interesting ideas for short stories but lack the writing ability to make it seem anything more than masturbatory psued cringe. I wonder if I should hire a ghost writer when I have enough spare cash. Not to get published or sell but just for myself. What if they get discovered and published when I die though.

No I wont tell you what they are

[Anonymous No.15763277]

Is it gonna be all over or what come onnnnnnnnn

[Anonymous No.15763303]

>>15760308
mmm yes-- shit and cum

[Anonymous No.15763605]

>>15751183
Tfw no gf is ramping up again

[Anonymous No.15763628]

>>15762502
It's a good thing that you're only 17 then, you still have the time for all of that.

>i want to be able to speak spanish and seduce any woman
Do you consider the Spanish speaking and women seducing to be linked?

[Anonymous No.15763711]

>>15763605
mine too anon....I have not had it so bad since before my last

[Anonymous No.15763772]

>>15763711
How long has it been since fren?

Mine has probably intensified during quarantine (now things are getting back to normal) and the fact that a lot of people around me are entering new relationships. I just find myself looking a the ceiling every night before I fall asleep wanting someone to hold. Fuck I'm pathetic.

[Anonymous No.15763797]

>>15763772
four years. for two years I do not think of it at all really. and even tonight it is not so bad. but the past some days it was brutal and I think it will return.

how long for you?

[Anonymous No.15763955]

>>15763797
Four years is rough bro. Have you sought anyone else out in the meantime?

Haven't had a gf so maybe I don't fully conceptualise what I'm missing out on. Had the odd hook up but that's ultimately unfulfilling. Haven't done anything in a while. The first girl I had proper feelings for I pursued for too long even though it should have been clear it was unrequited. Most likely influenced by that, I managed to convince myself this much more recent girl, where in retrospect there was likely mutual and deeper attraction, was not actually interested. Been kicking myself since. So my situation is partly my fault which isn't something I've forgiven myself for.

[Anonymous No.15763996]

>>15763955
well for maybe one year I tried some dating apps, but I learned it only makes me more miserable, even though it is nice to talk with pretty girls even if only short. but for the last three years there have been some girls who have shown interest, for the night, or for some weeks, but nothing ever happens and nothing ever lasts.

truthfully, I do not miss the girlfriend so much. only someone to hold. and I know which you mean, I have ruined more chances than I can remember.

is all lost with this much more recent girl? or do you only tell yourself this?

[Anonymous No.15764005]

>>15751361
Same

[Anonymous No.15764020]

Promiscuous women are women with large vagina

[Anonymous No.15764046]

>>15763996
I think part of the failure that comes from dating apps is the sheer volume of options people have. It introduces this mentality of always wanting to trade up - being attracted to the next shiny thing. Sad to hear thing's didn't go well for you. Are there any other avenues you can try? Hobbies? Your own social circles? Even work?

As for myself, I am of the belief that there is an expiry date on attraction. In her mind, I'm probably a little bitch who didn't take the leap so it's expected for her to lose attraction. If presented with any further opportunity with her, I'd take it in a heartbeat but deep down I know it probably won't happen. The world was never built for getting what you want.

Can I also say thank you for having a chat. There are actually some very nice anons on this board, and you're one of them.

[Anonymous No.15764118]

>>15764046
well I do not give up all hope yet. but I know there are things of me which must be fixed first before I can find what I am looking for.

and who is she to you? a friend? from work? what do you risk to try?

and of course, it is nice to talk with you also

[Anonymous No.15764185]

Upside-down red on my upside-down hand
sky might be all the way above me but its bottom is still the ground below my feet
imagination might be all the way around me but its limits still start with what i see
which way would the ideas flow if we had holes in our heads?
let's say the universe is a mirror and the back of your mind is another, then what does that make you between the two?
thoughts come easy but what kind of ass do you have to be to share any but the hardest?
being offensive isn't the opposite of being defensive, sadly
put yourself right-side up again and you might be disappointed by how little sticks
you need metaphorical time to make metaphorical blood dry
SOS

[Anonymous No.15764196]

I'm very demoralized by the fact that the government in pretty much every western country is run by very corrupt evil people, likely satanists and pedos as well. I have no idea how to cope with this fact... Anyone got advice?

[Anonymous No.15764197]

>>15764118
What sort of things do need to work on if you don't mind me asking? It's very good of you to be honest with yourself in that way.

She's from university, which is done for the semester so unless there is some happy coincidence, I won't see her until later in the year. I don't think messaging her out of the blue will do me any good based on not only my assessment but what people close to me have said so it's not as if I'm shooting myself in the foot. There's more context which I won't go into.

[Anonymous No.15764206]

>>15764196
Leave the west, it's done for.

[Anonymous No.15764220]

>>15751183
I always make them fall in love with me first, Just to dump them soon after. I perceive that I should think of myself as selfish and all the other bad things but being there again I feel I might stay at her Side a liitle longer just to see how far she takes me away.

[Anonymous No.15764221]

>>15764206
And go where?

[Anonymous No.15764258]

>>15764221
I've been considering Southeast Asia personally.

[Anonymous No.15764275]

i don't think jokes are serious literature

i am including Joyce and Pynchon and any other author who's ever cracked a joke in their work

shame on all those authors

a book should be as humorless as possible ...

[Anonymous No.15764308]

>>15764197
I have written a list but it is only in the backup of a drive I do not have here....I am not so good with my memory and even to put them into words, but I think I have troubles with anxiety and with depression although I do not see the doctor, I am very bad with building walls and I am so rarely open with my feelings, even to those I am close with. I am easily jealous, and I am also so lazy and not so much fun to be with. truthfully I am not so ugly, but I dislike so much of my appearance. things like this, and others I do not remember now. and even to be honest of them does not help me to repair it, kek

but you ignore my question....what do you risk to try? are you friends also? or only embarrassment? how many more years of class is there? would you let it all pass and never try? I do not mean to push, but I think they are important questions to think of

[Anonymous No.15764371]

>>15764308
Being aware of all those issues is a start. Work through them one by one so you don’t get overwhelmed.

I’m in a situation where the next interaction should be in person. I’ve never said that I’ve completely given up. The risk is the same risk as any other time you ask someone out so there’s nothing overly risky about it. I’d say we’re acquaintances.

[Anonymous No.15764378]

Goddamn it Spengler, just give us an American Caesar already. We need one

[Anonymous No.15764435]

>>15764371
this is fine of course. I only mean do not look for so many reasons to give up without trying. now I have nothing else to say so I will ask you to write how wonderful she is, if you will. she is pretty? interesting?

[Anonymous No.15764539]

Whenever I take interest in some new skill I always feel like a fraud who is desperately trying to become better at something that he will never even be decent at in a futile attempt to find some new connection to people. The skills I developed as a teenager did little to prepare me for any challenges that I would meet in adult life. I realize I'm still young (early twenties), but I still have no direction or ambition to base the rest of my life on.

I know many people on this website can relate to some or all of this. How did you escape these feelings? Can it be escaped? Is my own acknowledgement of my self-awareness actually a form of unself-awareness? What am I missing?

I sometimes joke with people that I only managed to graduate high school by writing good essays. I did write well when I was younger but I'm afraid now that my ability hasn't developed beyond a 12th grade level. Maybe I can go back to school and try to master what I was once considered good at. I'm just trying to salvage some piece of me from within that I can form a living, breathing man with.

[Anonymous No.15764546]

>>15764275
for me, its when odysseus pretends to be called nobody, and poke the cyclops eye and then hahah he says nobody is trying to kill me haha

[Anonymous No.15764584]

may God help us all

[Anonymous No.15764605]

>>15764539

I think you're one of those people for whom action precedes motivation. That ambition isn't going to come from nowhere for an adult anymore. You need to have perseverance in something, once you get better, it'll start to have some meaning, too.

[Anonymous No.15764700]

>>15764539
>a fraud who is desperately trying to become better at something that he will never even be decent at in a futile attempt to find some new connection to people. Th
Anon here is right >>15764605 you're missing a step.
That's your low self esteem talking. The cure for that is to become good so you can live knowing you put your efforts into things that make you like you. Once you like yourself it's easier to envisage other people being okay with you too.
If you think about it, depending on where you went to high school, you spent 5-15 hours a day on average using skills to develop those essay skills. Expecting improvement to come from an hour a day at the same rate is obviously foolhardy. Expecting it to come at all with less than an hour a day is grandiose. You have to put in the hours to get good.

[Anonymous No.15764707]

I have so much anger and hate in me the only way to deal with it is alcohol.

[Anonymous No.15764709]

>>15764707
>the only way.
You could try screaming at rabbits. Or heroin.

[Anonymous No.15764714]

>>15764258
They're not really renowned for their lack of corruption, anon.

[Anonymous No.15764724]

>>15764709
>Or heroin.
I'd take anything but alcohol is the only thing available to me.

[Anonymous No.15764734]

>>15764724
Are you sure? Rabbits are sneaky nocturnal creatures, you have to wait out in a dark field to scream at them usually. I'd imagine heroin is much easier to find.

[Anonymous No.15764774]

>>15764714
They're not actively destroying their society, I'll take that over Western elites.

[Anonymous No.15764775]

>>15757800
If you are not committing honourable ritual harikiri at the acme of your ascendancy.

[Anonymous No.15765050]

>>15764774
You should look at some newspapers from the region.

[Anonymous No.15765116]

>>15764605
>>15764700
Thank you for the input anons.

[Anonymous No.15765136]

I see in years to come
Three goddesses rising up
They will divide your men
Brothers against brothers
They will burn the villages and rape the women
All cursed by turning from the guardians of fate and fortune
They will reduce the green dome to ashes
They will destroy the black cube
They will humble you and your flawless doctrines
Their names are Allat, al-Uzza and Manat

[Anonymous No.15765227]

>>15763628
I'm 25 :(

[Anonymous No.15765249]

>>15764539
99% of people I meet are incompetent idiots, even highly successful people. Just blag your way through like everyone else.

[Anonymous No.15765447]

I'm tired of living, wagecucking my shitty office job everyday and returning to an empty apartment to shitpost or indulge in forms of escapism.
the cycle is killing me, I have no family, no close friends, and at this point no will to live either, why is modern life so soul crushing

[Anonymous No.15765567]

>>15765447
do something with your life. nobody has a gun pointed at your head telling you to keep wagecucking. there are literally hippie communities everywhere.

[Anonymous No.15765690]

>>15765567
>just go live in the woods bro

[Anonymous No.15765729]

>>15765690
not what I said. not the same path. living in the woods means surviving on your own which means 90% working and 10% reading. living with other commutards can be 40% work and 50% reading and 10% discussing how to manage the community.

[Anonymous No.15765755]

>>15765447
You might want to join a cult

[Anonymous No.15765788]

Been wanting to be a filmmaker for years, just been looking at the footage from my latest project, it's all shit, just like everything else I've shot. I have now come to terms with the fact that I'm a hack with neither the talent nor the drive to make it. Feels really liberating desu. I'm done deluding myself. I'm done.

[Anonymous No.15765801]

>>15765447
get married

[Anonymous No.15765813]

>>15765729
Living on a commune will also mean being resentful of the hippy chad who fucks all the chicks while you masturbate in an outhouse with ants on the floor

[Anonymous No.15765879]

>>15765813
sorry for triggering you, hippy virgin

[Anonymous No.15765887]

I wish I knew how to not care about what others think. I am too socially sensitive. Almost daily I get these "flashbacks" where I remember some moment or other during which I acted embarrassingly, and it causes a sort of sharp cramping sensation in my brain. After almost every social situation I'm in I torture myself with thoughts about how people must think I acted poorly, that I'm an awkward piece of shit, etc..
For example: today I drove my mother to the shop to buy her a folding bike. Everything went alright, until she asked the shop assistant if he would fold it for her so that we could take it to the car. The shop assistant misheard, thinking that she had said 'Can you fold it for us and take it to the car?' so he called for a coworker to do that. This might seem innocuous, but the whole drive home my mind was in tumult thinking about how arrogant and supercilious we must have seemed to have the bike carried for us, as if we were lords or something.
This is just an example, but the sensitivity in general is ruining my life. I have not had a friend for over 5 years because I'm not confident enough to open up to anyone. I keep having self-harming thoughts about my right hand because one time, years ago, I failed a handshake with it. I really don't know how I'll survive in the world like this.

[Anonymous No.15765889]

>>15765788
post a webm here

[Anonymous No.15765902]

>>15765889
The very last shred of dignity I have left is telling me, no.

[Anonymous No.15765908]

>>15765879
I'm not triggered, I'm just letting that sad sack guy know, hippy communities are like high school, but everyone smells and has bad hair

[Anonymous No.15766519]

>>15765813
>tfw there is no escape

[Anonymous No.15766719]

>>15765887
How often do you socialise with people? The key to desensitising yourself is repeated exposure to these situations. Easier said than done, I know, but that's what you have to do.

[Anonymous No.15766872]

>>15751315
nu/lit/ is so pathetic. zoomers think this is "deep"
what a simp world

[Anonymous No.15766878]

>>15751183
I predict that in twenty years the biggest sluts now will become the strongest proponents of abstinence.

[Anonymous No.15766888]

>>15766878
is that the reason that I got the best advice about sex from a conservative women?

[Anonymous No.15766943]

>>15766878
Sort of like Augustine and the Buddha?

[Anonymous No.15766954]

I wanna practice my writing, but I can’t write characters because I know nothing about how people behave. Can I write a story with no characters?

[Anonymous No.15766976]

>>15766954
it's called fiction for a reason

[Anonymous No.15767034]

This new Pop Smoke album is too cringey. These are clearly throw away tracks that were never meant to be released.

[Anonymous No.15767105]

>>15766888
More like bitchy middle aged Catholic nuns

[Anonymous No.15767120]

>>15766888
What was the advice? And yes, I guarantee every hard conservative woman at one point was getting her pussy grabbed and enjoying it

[Anonymous No.15767132]

I wish I were as articulate in speech and writing as I am in thought.

[Anonymous No.15767157]

>>15767034
>listens to ghetto trash
What did you expect?

[Anonymous No.15767635]

En el Norte del país desde los 80 y finales de los 70's ya se consumía el whisky con agua mineral porque era refrescante para el calor.A finales de los 70's y principios de los 80's era el Old Parr, a finales de los 80's chivas era más popular y a finales de los 90's Buchanan's tomo más relevancia. Desde los 80's en el norte de México era más común ver en las fiestas, bodas, primeras comuniones y quinceañera whisky con agua mineral que cerveza.
La moda del movimiento alterado salió hasta el 2010, así que ello no impusieron nada.

Me imagino que usan más Buchanan's para sus canciones por ser más fácil de rimar, como los raperos en USA qué usan la marca de mostaza grey poupon para rimar y rapear.

La explicación de Chalino no es porque el lo impuso sino porque esa moda ya estaba en el norte de México porque en el sur de USA esa moda Country era lo que pegaba.

[Anonymous No.15767671]

>>15751183
I was frying a steak and the oil in the pan straight up caught on fire. Like it was a little puddle of flame for about 3 minutes even after I took it off the heat. Why did this happen, it's the first time

[Anonymous No.15767795]

>>15767671
Because oil is flammable, anon. People used to use lamps with whale fat or some bs like that.

[Anonymous No.15767860]

>>15767635
Que es tu punto?

[Anonymous No.15767881]

>>15767795
I had never before had my pan of oil catch fire, I was mildly perturbed. I still ate the charred steak.

[Anonymous No.15767944]

>>15767881
I hope it tasted like failure.

[Anonymous No.15767958]

>>15767944
It tasted fine you cockroach

[Anonymous No.15767963]

>>15767881
You should never leave frying pans with oil like that. You can cause a fire or some other bs. Always leave a lid nearby too. If that happens you can just put it over and extinguish the fire.

[Anonymous No.15768466]

>>15767671
Really glad you posted this because I had no idea this could happen and if it had happened to me I would have panicked and chucked water on it like a retard. Your post prompted me to research.

[Anonymous No.15768488]

>>15765788
Nothing more freeing that giving up.

[Anonymous No.15768669]

>tfw need to learn how to advertise my stuff but I've stuck to anonymous shitposting for 14 years so everything I should do seems like an insane thing to do

[Anonymous No.15768695]

>>15765902
Aw come on.

[Anonymous No.15768704]

>>15766954
Have you read One Hundred Years of Solitude?

[Anonymous No.15768712]

>>15767671
Damn how munch oil did you have in that pan?

[Anonymous No.15768774]

>>15751970
Deep feel

[Anonymous No.15768996]

I admitted to someone that I was a virgin some months ago and now I have the ideas that that person laughs at my back about it. The thought kinda came out of nothing though. Pure insecurity. It's hard to admit you are a virgin that thinks a lot about sex.

[Anonymous No.15769014]

I was thinking that philosophy tries to show you the world for what it is but the most you refine your idea of what it is that is the more you separate yourself from reality.

[Anonymous No.15769067]

>>15768996
To be frank, they probably are laughing behind your back. I'm not saying that as a means to insult you, it's simply the truth. Male sexual inexperience is the butt of a lot of jokes and things are funny because they're true. Doubly so if you admit it to a girl you're seeing. They'll say it's fine and they don't care, but words are meaningless. What starts running through her mind is why you're inexperienced. It's often put down to some underlying issue with you. Not taking opportunities, not being decisive etc. Essentially, things that are an anathema for female attraction.

For what it's worth though, I truly empathise with your feelings.

[Anonymous No.15769074]

>>15769014
That is because all true philosophy is idealist in nature. Kant and Schopenhauer taught us this.

[Anonymous No.15769141]

Why do women have such shit taste in art?

[Anonymous No.15769271]

Alright fellas, I'm craving the nicotine. It's been almost a month. Should I just grab me a pack of cigarettes or try cigars?

[Anonymous No.15769281]

>>15769271
You should try smoking some fresh summer air instead

[Anonymous No.15769317]

I feel so hurt but I can't express it, like theres an army of tears that aren't strong enough to break the Baily of my eyes. She just wants a different person than who I am and it hurts so much to know that no matter how hard I try, I can't change to be what she says she needs.

[Anonymous No.15769320]

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2T9rTHZhOzI

Trump takin' the stage for his 4th of July speech. Peep it while it's live!

[Anonymous No.15769325]

>>15751183
niggers ruin everything

[Anonymous No.15769329]

>>15769281
Good advice. I'll smoke it together with cigarettes, win win.

[Anonymous No.15769333]

>>15769320
lol he was waiting for the band to stop, but the banding was waiting for him to start talking to stop, infinite loop

[Anonymous No.15769340]

>>15769271
See if you can hold off another day, week, month...

[Anonymous No.15769355]

>>15769329
kek. something about the warm humid air makes them more enjoyable imo

[Anonymous No.15769414]

>>15769320
This speech is weird.

[Anonymous No.15769428]

>>15769320
Can't wait until he wins again in 2020

[Anonymous No.15769440]

>>15769320
This man's barely aged in the 5+ years since he started running for President

[Anonymous No.15769458]

I think I'm going schizo. I see lights in the dark, and have developed a very vivid imagination sometimes I think I'm hallucinating

[Anonymous No.15769544]

>>15769320
>I'm establishing The Garden of National Heroes

wut

[Anonymous No.15769610]

>>15751183
I was supposed to write today
and write I did, I sat down and wrote a long essay about historical conservatism for an imageboard, even though I'm trying to ignore politics as a lost cause and work on my creative writing. thousands of words, essentially down the drain.

[Anonymous No.15769658]

Time for rainy times
The music, it pools around
Messages in airwave lights
I see we have been here before

I'm not far away
My words are falling all around
My body is not in this place

You don't understand
Sometimes, and sometimes you do
We will step regardless forward

It is time to sleep
But my eyes remain still open
Someone has to see the moonlight

Images alone are vivid
The body seems to be unworthy
Words persist and pull you forward

Something shines in ways unclear
Checking up upon my person
I no longer steer so tightly

There is something I must do
Although it seems I'd like to pass it
Patience takes intent to focus
I must find and be reminded

[Anonymous No.15769712]

>>15769610
post it

[Anonymous No.15769746]

>>15769458
Go into more detail. I see small blips of light often.

[Anonymous No.15771078]

>>15769458
I had shcizo after epileptic seizures last month, it happened kinda out of nowhere, it was hell of a fun. Don't hold yourself and let all demons dance with you.

[Anonymous No.15771106]

Lately I've had a realization about myself, it seems I get enjoyment out of helping people, but not because I think helping them is the morally good thing to do
I just like the feeling of being needed by someone

[Anonymous No.15771182]

I genuinely believe myself to be a reincarnation of an aristocrat. It makes too much sense.

[Hans Bermuden No.15771896]

>>15751183
PAYNE, SUFFERING, ENDLESS NIHILISM NIGHTMARE, REBORN

[Anonymous No.15771945]

>>15751183
my girlfriend has started domming me recently after pretending to be submissive, I don't know how to feel about it

[Anonymous No.15771977]

>>15771945
based gf
i hope she is taller than you too

[Anonymous No.15772187]

>>15771945
post pics of her feet plx

[Anonymous No.15772212]

>>15765887

It really sucks doesn't it? I have these recurring flashbacks too, lately accompanied with an involuntary verbal tic and a sharp head twitch. Even on the streets. Makes me look like a real schizo. I can't even relax in my home because I happened to catch my upstairs neighbor gossiping about me a few months back and I have been self-conscious about even my slightest movements ever since. Luckily noise-cancelling headphones have brought me some peace and respite, although it is ridiculous that I have ended up in this situation in the first place. I am the proverbial ostrich sticking its head into the sand. All this is beyond irrational.

Hope things take a turn for the better for you in the future.

[Anonymous No.15772221]

I've been eating antipsychotics for insomnia and they're making me feel suspiciously comfortable. Mind you, I'm not psychotic, if I happened to be, my doses would be way too small to help at all. Nevertheless I'm afraid that I'm accepting mental tranquility for the exorbitant price of not being able to do too much. I'm growing dull and fat. Benzos would be better but I have a history of dependancy so they don't help me at all except in massive doses maybe.

[Anonymous No.15772247]

>>15772212
>I have these recurring flashbacks too, lately accompanied with an involuntary verbal tic and a sharp head twitch.

This hits so close to home. I might remember some stupid (misinterpreted) thing I said, shout out a random word and jerk violently. Having said that it's rarely this bad, I have been quite isolated ever since the pandemic. So I know that living in the world would help a lot.

[Anonymous No.15772272]

i had a dream

i was walking in an endless pasture of boring grass. it stretched as far as the eye could see. i almost felt like i was drowning. i was hungry. i needed food, but there were no precious fruits to pick, or wild beasts to slay. nothing but grass.
a tiny little insect with the most magnificent pair of wings appeared before me. it danced around me, almost like it was taunting me, flaunting its beautiful wings. i looked down at my hands, all i had was a pair of ugly opposable thumbs. and then it spoke.
>follow me, and i will show you the way
i chased the little bugger, but godamn was it fast. i called out to it. i asked it questions. i begged it to slow down. the little creature only flapped its wings ever harder. i must have ran after it for what felt like an eternity.
bucking under the weight of my starvation and dehydration, i eventually collapsed. the sea of green still extended to the horizon. i knew my time was up. there wasnt much else to do but let it happen.
with what energy i had left, i looked for signs of the little bug. it was no where to be seen. as i drifted into my eternal slumber, an image flashed before my eyes
>« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ »

[Anonymous No.15772943]

>>15772247
I was living relatively normally for years, but now the pandemic is making my autism come back.

[Anonymous No.15773056]

>>15771106
Can be a draining pit to fall into.
Often people don't deserve to be helped.
Charity can become interference.
Also people can expect things from you, and then do that instead of bothering themselves.

[Anonymous No.15773064]

>>15772221
>Benzos would be better
Hold your horses bucko

[Anonymous No.15773126]

I’m reading a book!

[Anonymous No.15773127]

I wish it were the fifth already. I live near the beach and each house on the street has a big party every fourth of July. My house, my dad's house actually, is the worst house on the street. Everything about it is rundown, the roof, the trim, the lawn, everything. We never have people over for the holiday because we never have people over ever. The inside of the house is as bad as the outside. I try to keep my own room clean but I sometimes can't even muster the self-respect for that. When the old man dies, maybe I'll move, or maybe I'll do renovations. But why stay? I have no family and I'll never have one. No need for a big house.

[Anonymous No.15773157]

>>15751183
Woke Capitalism only exists because cops are an impediment to the phase of capitalism we are currently in. Abolishing the police would be the best thing to happen to the financial and tech sectors.

[Anonymous No.15773497]

Why did nobody tell me uno was basically just crazy eights, like wtf

[Anonymous No.15773812]

我很起因。

[Anonymous No.15773928]

I genuinely wish you just kept your money and didn't buy me anything. We would both be much happier. I don't think you get how much your gifts suck. Your gifts gargle chodes quite frankly. If I say "don't buy me anything" then just say "okay." I meant it genuinely. I don't want Doyle or Sitcoms or any of that. You are a terrible gifter who buys crap YOU want not what others want. I don't expect you to buy Buddha or whatever, just don't get anything- period. I don't think I have made even a single thread on any of that crap. I do not care in the slightest. Pushing it down my throat just ticks me the fuck off. "I gotta get you something. I gotta get you something." No, dumbass. You don't. You really fucking don't. If you didn't try to get me shit I wouldn't even feel as bad telling you that I do not enjoy your company or think highly of you.

[Anonymous No.15773965]

>>15773928

Just communicate clearly or play the game ffs

[Anonymous No.15773999]

>>15773965
I told that guy and his kike nosed wife "I don't want anything. I don't want anything." What do you think that fucking means? I do not enjoy bazinger or any of that sitcom crap at all. I concede I have done and said some terrible shit but telling people their gifts suck is not one of them. Your gifts suck. Get me nothing and leave me alone.

[Anonymous No.15774024]

>>15773965
And people think trannies are fucking freaks. I am sorry, dude. It's the truth. If LiPuma and her children knew you they would think you are a walking freakshow and would make many derogatory comments. In fact, I actually wish everyone did so they would know why I get so irritated and set off. They would all think even less of them than I would.

[Anonymous No.15774037]

One never appreciates sanity or mental strength when they have it. I lived half my life with an inflated sense of self worth but it has not lasted in the rest of the race. The unreal seems now all too plausible and I have nothing to fight against it. I can remember when feelings of worthlessness were this abstract thing and I had an inexplicable certitude of hope in the future, I never entertained misery in earnest, I couldn't if I wanted to. None of that remains, suicidal ideations feel so near it's like I'm planning the itinerary for the shopping center a few blocks away. The only amazement I feel now is how convincing is what was unthinkable. I still reject this on some level but it's sort of...perfunctory. Being alive is just a habit, one I'm slowly growing tired of.

[Anonymous No.15774280]

If I gave you books or dvds of the stuff I discuss here you would be very annoyed too and don't even pretend you wouldn't. Then you have the guts to whine to me that I don't like your manbaby crap.

[Anonymous No.15774453]

>>15774280
You love me