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[Anonymous No.15550185]

[Anonymous No.15550194]

I wish people didn't post lewd images on /lit/

[Anonymous No.15550212]

need to take a shower then go buy some food, but i'm too fucking lazy.

[Anonymous No.15550227]

My pecs hurt from lifting yesterday but reading Persiles and Sigismunda is mind blowingly comfy

[Anonymous No.15550273]

>>15550185
Seeing immigrants and white libs shitting up Western Europe with their "blm" protests has made me a tad bit racist. Not ideal, but these tards disturbed my morning facecare routine with their screeching, and that's very important.

[Anonymous No.15550297]

>>15550185
I wanna take a shit

[Anonymous No.15550304]

>>15550185
She exists so effortlessly! How lightly she carries herself in the world! This is what I admire most in women. Ceaselessly men labor only to pay the price of their being. What commotion! What tumult is the life of man? Is it not the painless being, the peaceful cessation of willing, the equanimous aboveness of worldly affairs, that the wise of all ages have prescribed to us? And yet this comes naturally to women, to her! To gently exist, not to labor too strongly for their desires, but to await them to come (for nature allows it) is the most admirable feminine trait! One might generalize not too hastily to say the life of man is strife and woman harmony. How much would I not drop at the blink of the eye, what price would I not pay, what would I not renounce, were it possible I take part in that harmonious existence! Yet as one wills stronger, the farther the object eludes. Life is but a mirage; empty are all delights! How I yearn for peace, and how my yearning bars my peace...

[Anonymous No.15550320]

OCD really really sucks and it has taken so much from my life. in relation to this board it has stolen hours if not days upon days of reading time - largely due to a feeling that i'm not 'in the right state of mind' to read yet; i must be in the perfect state of mind

and then there's the obsessions with reading books in the correct order, and reading certain books because i have to for some reason
i miss those early days when i read a book with little thought around it
but i am improving my ocd :)

[Anonymous No.15550321]

I can never just be myself
I can never just go about my day without thinking about "who I am"
I always adopt an identity and put it on like a costume
mostly based on celebrities I admire or mere archetypes
currently I pretend to be a Houellebecq-like protagonist
and then I constantly think about how I need to behave in that role
I've done this ever since I hit puperty
is this a disorder
I can't even go to sleep without thinking about my chosen identity

[Anonymous No.15550330]

>>15550304
what the fuck
cringe
who are you larping as?

[Anonymous No.15550347]

My reading comprehension sucks and I read really slowly. I've been looking up stuff to read faster, but the idea of having my inner voice stay silent for any period of time while I'm conscious freaks me out.

[Anonymous No.15550352]

>>15550273
>my morning facecare routine
Hugely gay

[Anonymous No.15550364]

>>15550227
lol stop benching and start ohp'ing every single day you fucking dyel.

[Anonymous No.15550424]

>>15550321
just fucking embrace it you pussy.

[Anonymous No.15550444]

Kyrill blew her onto ground
Salvors and looters will prosper
Container ship
5 miles of oil
Washed upon these shores
Grandmother cleans up
As if it was her fault
or duty

[Anonymous No.15550558]

>>15550352
Is skincare a less faggy phrase? Skincare is highly important, first impressions and self-love are very important to maintain a confident image.

[Anonymous No.15550577]

Today, the captain was killed in action. I had thought I reached for him in time but I was wrong and while his mangled face was palid, it looked like his lips were slightly arched. What surprised me the most wasn't that smile - he was perhaps content because I, the weakling of the squad, finally did my work as a soldier - but his last words as he drew his last breath in my arms.

He said "Do your best, kid." and died. It stopped me in my tracks as I was calculating for an escape route. I couldn't understand what led him to pronounce those words as he probably knew they were his lasts.

I know it seems stupid : Nobody should take the time to ponder on some war hero's last lines in the middle of a losing battle but I couldn't help it. In the spurt of the moment, I thought about how I had always longed for someone to encourage me and about how an old fodgey I barely knew at all was the first man to ever do so.

The shooting was still happening and I could hear the croaked voice of the second-in-command ordering the troops to reassemble. This soul of mine that I always imagined as some foul liquid unworthy to even be stepped in was boiling.

[Anonymous No.15550617]

>>15550558
don't listen to that nigga who has dead skin flakes covering his entire face

[Anonymous No.15550650]

Don't wear a choker,
Bitch; that shit looks hella gay.
I'm not much a smoker
But, I'll drown on Chardonnay

[Anonymous No.15550693]

>>15550185
I wish I was the son of a rich nobleman in the antiquity or late medieval period, who gave me the resources to study whatever I wanted, without the distractions of the modern world to hinder my attention

[Anonymous No.15550703]

>>15550321
based autist

[Anonymous No.15550704]

>>15550693
The survey shows you'd be the son of a plebeian dying in the front lines of war created by aristocratic beef.

[Anonymous No.15550755]

>>15550558
Equally gay phrasing and an even gayer mindset desu

[Anonymous No.15550773]

>>15550755
I got to admit this is unironically gay.

[Anonymous No.15550888]

I'm currently working through Sloterdjiks spheres trilogy.
And as I progress while reading about immunologies and all that jazz and simultaneously witnessing the current political turmoil, I'm starting to feel some real pressure. The pressing and tearing of all these events seems a lot more nearer now on the walls of my usual life.
Social media is such a fucking cancer on the world I can hardly wrap around my head around it the more I think about it.
I'm actually afraid of what it will do with the world where I and all my loved ones live in.

[Anonymous No.15550925]

i think i'd rather be fascinated by death than afraid of it

[Anonymous No.15551006]

>>15550321
I do this too and it's unbearable. Do you spend a lot of time fantasizing?

[Anonymous No.15551013]

Every day I die a little bit more. Every minute I spend laying in bed allows me to forget this moment. I can hear the bells of time dwindling down. The echos of a hollow room in which we may never escape. Empty picture frames line my thoughts, each containing a small reflection of my hopes and dreams, diminishing once I almost understand what I am witnessing.

[Anonymous No.15551019]

>>15550347
Don't worry about it. You're still better off taking your time to understand the material than some autist speeding through the passage to satisfy his ego

[Anonymous No.15551041]

>>15550321
All of us wear a mask and play a role, I think you are just more conscious of it

[Anonymous No.15551046]

I wish I could stretch hours. It doesn't make sense that every time I feel at peace with myself it's already late in the night.

[Anonymous No.15551158]

About a month ago I broke up with my gf of 5 years. Wasn't a messy break up, and as far a s break ups go it was as clean as you can get. Still, five years down the toilet fucking hurts. The hardest part is getting used to going through life alone. All these plans, like graduating from a shitty collage I don't even care about, all those small and not so small goals are now double the burden.
Won't say that life is shit, but it sure is a fucking senseless struggle for the most part.

[Anonymous No.15551205]

>>15550650
I like it anon

[Anonymous No.15551209]

have any of you thought about writing about something other than yourself? fuck me...

[Anonymous No.15551373]

>>15550185
If my life were to just continue on like this, well I guess things might just be alright.

[Anonymous No.15551388]

>>15550321
I’m like that, and I would be more like that except it’s like I’m a victim to the situation I find myself in, I just always default to a passive state. I agree to things I don’t agree with. I don’t even mean to I just do. I gave up on doing what you describe I don’t know how long ago. Every time I ever did this I just sucked at the practice of it, made things so much worse. Maybe I’d be better now but I don’t much know it’s even worth it now.
Probably some kind of disorder, though it depends on how well you thrive with it, whether it makes functioning a no-go or if you just have big time imposter syndrome. Depends what you do with it, and the people you’re able to surround yourself with. If you can find people that are able to understand this or people that expect only one of your characters and only have that one slice of themselves to give to you, to have only that with each of the people you know could definitely become empty. And it depends on what your connections are based off of, like whether a shared interest or position at a place/institution or drinking friend or more. Each of them have different levels of how much room there is for the “game”, of course it’s not supposed to be a game but this sounds like it’s past that point.
But ultimately whether you do or don’t follow the pattern you describe yourself as having, it’s most important to know yourself and not believe your domino, know that it’s just that. Be able to have the ability to act without it, or at least able to imagine it when you’re not pressed in the moment to use your game. And have the things you look for in life be bigger than just this way you try to frame yourself, the things you look for should be more than just yourself, seeing yourself in things or people may be unavoidable (this is true largely for anyone) but the substance you go after should be about something other than how you want to build your prepared identity. That’s my opinion on it, anyway.

[Anonymous No.15551397]

better to preserve the mountain in its inapproachable form rather than grind the summit down into mundaneness

[Anonymous No.15551531]

How to cope with the fact that in the end,strength and power are more important than reason?
One can be absolutely correct and be completely won over through brute force

[Anonymous No.15551569]

>>15550194
Bro fuck same

[Anonymous No.15551638]

>>15550321
I do this too, obsessively. I think we might have Narcissistic Personality Disorder.

[Anonymous No.15551698]

the queen of the black coast by Robert E. Howard is one of the crowning stylistic achievements of the last century

[Anonymous No.15551864]

>>15550650
sounds like an englishman wrote this.

[Anonymous No.15551871]

>>15550704
still better than being a corporate goyim slave.

[Anonymous No.15551884]

Why am I still alive? There's really no reason

[Anonymous No.15551887]

>>15551531
just hit the gym and get ripped, bro.

[Anonymous No.15551891]

>something I said in a deleted thread was left ambiguous
by "he's a big shitbag," I meant "anon is"

[Anonymous No.15551893]

>>15551209
found the roastie

[Anonymous No.15551905]

>>15551209
"The best thing about thin skinned women is how when you hold their arm, you can feel the heat move through their body, in pulses, and the heartbeat on their chest, can be seen, even when your hand is to the side."

Michella's therapist looked at her. "And you're worried this was a race thing?"

Michella sat in a chair, fully clothed. "I'm not, I just know it's on purpose."

The therapist--in fact, just a friend--peeled the glasses off her face and cleaned them. "Like when he said he would like to stick his wand in your sorting hat?"

"Exactly!" she said. "I mean just imagine us talking now. This would require a very well written end to not be inappropriate."

[Anonymous No.15551915]

If I call, you have to talk first. If I were to be wrong doing this, that would be something I couldn’t come back from

[Anonymous No.15551921]

Her perfume stinks. Is it an oil? Powder? Some olfactory assault of an Asian origin. Whatever it was meant for, I'm certain it's supposed to be applied with a light touch. It's so strong, so sweet, that it suggests notes I've only had the misfortune to find in baby vomit.

[Anonymous No.15551930]

>>15551921
its been like 10 ears since i've even seen a baby.

[Anonymous No.15551939]

>>15551930
put those ears back anon it's not the end of the world just yet

[Anonymous No.15551966]

>>15551939
if i collect enough ears, the machine elves will giv me a child of my own to do whatever i want with. they promised.

[Anonymous No.15551970]

My job is starting to get really boring but there isn't really much else to do and it pays well.

[Anonymous No.15551991]

>>15550558
>self-love
You are digging yourself deeper into the gay hole.

[Anonymous No.15552020]

>>15551970
what do you do

[Anonymous No.15552032]

>>15552020
why? so you can pretend like you're interested?

[Anonymous No.15552042]

>>15552032
Hey go easy on the guy, he just wants to know what your job is, the place you work, the way you make money and the people you go around everyday

[Anonymous No.15552045]

>>15552032
yeah

[Anonymous No.15552049]

>>15552032

[Anonymous No.15552058]

>>15552032
lol

[Anonymous No.15552069]

I wish I could life a simpler life.

[Anonymous No.15552095]

>>15552020
Actual op here, I'm a doorman

[Anonymous No.15552126]

>>15552095
never knew doormen get paid well

[Anonymous No.15552198]

>>15552126
did you know if you mix equal parts frozen orange juice concentrate and gasoline, you can make napalm?

[Anonymous No.15552214]

>>15552198
not him but I know how to kill myself with beach and ammonia

[Anonymous No.15552281]

>>15552032
Don't be so rude and toxic anon

[Anonymous No.15552290]

>>15552281
Yeah, I know. I need to work on that.

[Anonymous No.15552305]

>>15552290
It's fine, it's easy to feel jaded and lash out towards others sometimes, especially over an anonymous board. But this should be one of the few kinds of threads where people can share anything without being personally attacked. Anyways, best wishes to you :)

[Anonymous No.15552474]

>>15550321
I knocked this shit off when I was 16 or 17 and experienced ego death on LSD. It wasn’t exactly profound, but I realized how much time and passion people (normies) spend trying to conform to the norm and how easy it is to never be remembered.
It’d be different, anon, if you said you had no personality. But you said you can’t be yourself. You have to like yourself, first, I guess. If you’re a free thinker, there’s no legitimate reason to act like somebody you’re not. Why live in a lie? Words without thoughts never to heaven go. I openly discuss eugenics with strangers and friends, I’ve stopped giving a fuck at this point. The sooner you realize we live in a clown world, the sooner you’ll be free.

[Anonymous No.15552489]

>>15552474
i started talking about the holocoaster being fake but that it should be real next time to my friends and they stopped talking to me.

[Anonymous No.15552498]

im very suicidal. Im 25, no job, no girlfriend ever, still a virgin, no prospects for the future. my mom abused me, sheltered me, and forced me into a recluse type lifestyle. I just want to be a normal guy but im so fucked up now ill never be able to live the life i wanted to live. its too late for everything for me and the rage and depression i feel is incredible.

[Anonymous No.15552519]

>>15552498
just join the Boston Bro-Men.

[Anonymous No.15552523]

People are so fucking repressed. Jeez, and I thought I had a bad time KEK no wonder they follow any wacko saying some cool shit.

[Anonymous No.15552538]

>>15552489
You win some, you lose some. If you really, really want to stick to your guns, if people can’t take the redpills you have to leave them behind. I’m still a schizoid; friends to me are basically just extra brains. But I drop redpills nonstop and nobody cares, because I’m still an authentic and friendly guy. I’m pretty unaproachable to strangers, though, I think I’m just more charismatic than I give myself credit for.

[Anonymous No.15552549]

I can't stop watching these protest livestreams on twitch.tv/woke. It's mostly boring, but every so often you see a star like Ilhan Omar or the cops go off and start a riot. That's what makes it so addictive. You get conditioned to expect something to happen. And if you watch all damn night, probably something will.

[Anonymous No.15552550]

Went out to a cafe to read my pessoa today but only for like ten pages in, way too many non relaxed drivers who felt the need to lay on the horn in a sleepy residential neighborhood.

Beginning to come to grips with bring asexual, or having a schizoid sexuality. Probably going to be a virgin my whole life and that's okay. Just not interested. Testosterone blockers are a godsend

[Anonymous No.15552559]

>>15550273
lol you sound like such a bitch

[Anonymous No.15552593]

>>15552519
what is that even

[Anonymous No.15552594]

>>15552550
Testosterone is very important for your health, you fucking tranny. Just practice semen retention.
Why would you even take them if you’re asexual?

[Anonymous No.15552599]

>>15552498
You do a good job writing me, I need you to tell me verbatim that I’ve got the right number

[Anonymous No.15552603]

>>15552594
Because I have dysphoria regardless

[Anonymous No.15552607]

>>15552603
dysphoria isn't real, you're just being a faggot. stop that.

[Anonymous No.15552627]

>>15550330
>tfw you genuinely write what's on your mind and get this reply
Thanks man.

[Anonymous No.15552628]

>>15552550
>Went out to a cafe to read my pessoa today

Sounds comfy anon. Don't worry about the horns or any sort of distractions, they are inevitable. As a reader one must be aware of such implications.

[Anonymous No.15552750]

I want to drop this for some reason. I enjoy the book so far but the whole intro of being in battle (WW1) is not appealing to me. Maybe I should just continue and see what happens to the Germans, I know it gets better.

[Anonymous No.15552761]

>>15552593
a group of bros made by and for retards
(memes aside i love you and hope your life improves: it’s never too late to turn things around and i relate to what you’re going through)

[Anonymous No.15552799]

I was just thinking 言者不如知者默

[Anonymous No.15552829]

>>15550185
I have BPD, I fell in love with this girl I met last year almost as soon as I met her, and I hate it because she doesn't feel the same way and it's killing me. I'm completely emotionally dependent on her. We're really close friends, but I can't stand not being with her, but at the same time her presence is the only thing that makes me happy anymore.

[Anonymous No.15552848]

>>15550194
report for NSFW or off-topic and if one of the good jannys is in the pilot's seat he'll take it down
t. the guy who got the sci fi titty and the hairy leg girl thread nuked

[Anonymous No.15552850]

>>15552829
I’m going through the same thing right now. I think I need some time away from her and a therapist, idk what you’re doing to fix things for yourself.

[Anonymous No.15552865]

>>15552850
I don't want to like cut her off because it's close to her birthday, and also because she's always sort of been there for me. We're almost like each others' therapists in that we talk to each other about like really deep emotional stuff and mental health a lot, but I don't know how to tell her that she's the cause of a lot of my mental health problems, because it's not her fault and she would definitely be hurt by it.

[Anonymous No.15552888]

Holy shit, did you guys see the Mayor of Minneapolis confessing and repenting for white privilege and then being ejected from the protest in a walk of shame? This shit is literally out of the Chinese Cultural Revolution! The last voice going "Boo! Shame on youuu!" has me laughin' man.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gMz4r5RLvKs

[Anonymous No.15552892]

>>15552761
idk if things will ever turn around for me. how am I supposed to rebuild shit at my age? it would be easier to hang myself

[Anonymous No.15552896]

>>15552848
i just hide those threads as soon as i see them, lest i succumb to temptation.

[Anonymous No.15552912]

>>15552892
the Boston Bro-Men will stand by your side and help you rebuild. and besides, just think of all the zoomers who are just as fucked as you and never even had a chance at not being fucked. we're all fucked together, bro. you aren't alone.

[Anonymous No.15552925]

>>15552865
Nobody said anything about cutting her off, but if you’re dependent to the point where she’s the only happy part of your life, that’s a serious problem and you need to resolve it at some point if you want your relationship with her to last. At the very least I think talking to a professional would be a good idea, and at some point you’ll probably want to explore those uncomfortable feelings (maybe not the romantic ones, just the broader sense of attachment) with her. It might be painful, but this kind of openness and discussion usually makes friendships stronger since it leads to understanding. Just think about it for a little and talk to some other people that you know to get their input

[Anonymous No.15552941]

>>15552607
Not having a male sex drive is such a relief. I hate feeling the way it made me feel, animalistic. Human.

I just want to be done with life

[Anonymous No.15552950]

>>15552941
why don't you try overcoming your perverse desires like a normal person instead of taking sissy pills?

[Anonymous No.15552957]

>>15552892
you’re 25. i know a lot was supposed to happen by now, but just because you had a rough time doesn’t mean it’s all pointless or impossible now. like i am 22, had an abusive mom that turned me into a deeply pessimistic shut-in, have been depressed for many years now, spend most nights alone, have very few friends, and never ever had a romantic partner or anything in that realm. i can’t rewrite the past for a lot of these things, but i have a lot of life to live and the few moments where i am happy tell me that it’s worth pursuing, even if it feels like an uphill battle it’s still worth trying

[Anonymous No.15552959]

>>15552888
asians used to be such chads, what went wrong?

[Anonymous No.15552961]

>>15552950
Have you seen what a horribly disgusting thing a normal person is? Imagine wanting to be like that

[Anonymous No.15552965]

>>15552925
We have talked about it before and what she’s said is that she has considered a relationship with me and she finds me attractive, but that she just can’t picture herself loving me long-term.

[Anonymous No.15552978]

>>15552961
yeah, being a pillhead tranny is so much better.

[Anonymous No.15552996]

>>15552965
Have you tried finding someone else to love? I’m also interested in how she became this central part of your life.
Really sorry to hear that’s what she said, by the way.

[Anonymous No.15553022]

"How am i even supposed to normalize my sleep regimen when nothing forces me to wake up early. I need a job. I need a society i will be compelled to be part of. My hand hurts. Would be pretty bad if my sinew would wear out. Damn, to have my hand even weaker than now... I will never going to feel joy again. How come i find myself so deprived from good things in life. Need to sleep. But i know i will just lie in bed for an hour being tormented by the remembrance of things past. Weary with toil, I haste me to bed, the dear repose for limbs with travail tired, but then begins a journey in my head, to work my mind when body's work expired."

And so on, and so on... Ever unreeling the threads of negativity, ever tirelessly speeding them. Half an hour ago i was ritually thinking of suicide. Hour ago: Foucault's mind makes his shrekness almost unnoticeable. "I need a fucking help, a psychiatric help. But in this shithole of a country it's almost impossible... Am i placed in some kind of a schizoid recursive simulation of life out of which i am incapable of quitting due to the restrictions of my mind".

What to do, anon?

[Anonymous No.15553045]

>>15553022
>My hand hurts. Would be pretty bad if my sinew would wear out. Damn, to have my hand even weaker than now...

[Anonymous No.15553053]

bro, fuck it. I'm listening to stephen fucking king. Going to write a shit book.

[Anonymous No.15553067]

>>15553022
I think you were created just for me

[Anonymous No.15553071]

>>15553045
laughingPepe.jpg

[Anonymous No.15553084]

>>15552627
There's nothing genuine about that artificial roleplay language.

[Anonymous No.15553093]

>>15552549
>https://twitter.com/i/status/1269841468903964673

This is why it's impossible to stop watching!

[Anonymous No.15553098]

>>15553084
how doth ye knowest what cometh rom a man's heart?
art thou a witch, shall we burnest thee?

[Anonymous No.15553138]

>>15553067
I often think of the idea that somewhere on earth there is the one that was created just for me. I try to rationalize it but it ends inevitably in that subtle feeling of complexity one may feel while looking at "Les Meninas".

[Anonymous No.15553151]

Why aren't there any anti-technology terrorist movements?

[Anonymous No.15553162]

>>15553151
There were, literally more than 200 years ago.

[Anonymous No.15553167]

>>15553151
Do you know where the word "Luddite" originates from?

[Anonymous No.15553172]

>>15553167
KEK wtf are they teaching in the US?

[Anonymous No.15553199]

>>15553162
>>15553167
But why aren't there any now?

[Anonymous No.15553217]

>>15553199
Why would anyone want that? Back in the day people thought that technology and machine were monsters. Nowadays everyone realizes that technology is harmless, people who use that determine whether is it going to be used for good or evil.

[Anonymous No.15553226]

>>15553217
>technology is harmless
[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[citation needed]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

[Anonymous No.15553232]

>>15553226
Guns and other shit don't operate themselves, bro.

[Anonymous No.15553236]

>>15553232
>he isn't counting on a grey goo scenario

[Anonymous No.15553239]

>>15553084
And how is it artificial? Do americans really see anything other than simple three words sentences as artificial?

[Anonymous No.15553252]

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[Anonymous No.15553259]

>>15553239
Don't pretend like you don't know what he means.

[Anonymous No.15553262]

>>15553259
I don't know what he means and I have no pretensions. There is nothing artificial about that text.

[Anonymous No.15553272]

>>15553252
found the robot

[Anonymous No.15553285]

Wouldn't it make more sense to say all text is artificial?

[Anonymous No.15553302]

>>15550185
not enough diversity in that pic

[Anonymous No.15553326]

>>15550185
I feel myself dying inside more and more each day. I was right about to go out and get a gym membership in March, but then this gay lockdown happened. My long distance girlfriend broke up with me about two weeks ago because we kept arguing (she pretty much always started the arguement). I've moved back with my parents until summer, and can feel my life force draining day by day. I don't think I can make it until September.

[Anonymous No.15553342]

>>15553285
WHY would ANYONE say THAT?

[Anonymous No.15553344]

>>15553326
fuck yes you can. easily. just top being a bitch.

[Anonymous No.15553645]

I just found a really excellent channel full of ASMR videos. This stuff is so comfy to listen to late at night, I've hit the jackpot.

[Anonymous No.15553660]

>>15553645
Link

[Anonymous No.15553663]

>>15553645
Is it glow? I love her videos.

[Anonymous No.15553691]

I feel the walls of mortality closing in on me. The possibilities of life one by one collapsing like dominoes. Frailty and tiredness seeping into my blood. Everything slowly becomes tinted darker more dingy. I'm still young by most anyone's standards, but I have a distinct feeling that I won't be living so much longer, one way or another.

I get panicked by the grave now. I haven't felt that since I was a child. But it's like I can feel the sensation of dying sometimes when my consciousness slips. I feel the adrenaline, the cold violent shock of nerves firing chaotically, the animal panic. The fear of the unknown, some reality unfathomable and eternal, spent alone.

I am not suicidal, but I somehow just know that I don't have much longer. I've felt it for the better part of a decade now, vague and indecipherable in the back of my head and only in the past year or two becoming distinct. Maybe it's just an awareness of how fast life begins to accelerate once you get older, and although I'll find myself dying at some standard old age, it will have felt all too momentary. I'm not sure the difference matters much.

[Anonymous No.15553704]

>>15553660
>>15553663
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCftD_LCuDAwlPipnM6Uikqw

Knock yourselves out, bros.

[Anonymous No.15554091]

I’ve never been quick minded or diligent. And I’ve failed all the career attempts. Better not to pick the pen up, and ruin the one thing I find pleasurable.

[Anonymous No.15554115]

I've gotten to that point in my life where I need to find a meaning. I don't hate myself because I don't have a meaning yet, I hate myself because of my massive ego. I automatically assume I'm special all the time for no reason. When I fail I always just sit there baffled.

[Anonymous No.15554176]

>>15553691
huh, sounds weird

[Anonymous No.15554192]

Anyone else write outlines for their life? If yes, post em

Thesis 2
Dionysian cult of empowerment, similar to Andrew W.K., that spreads as memetic virus capable of dislodging consciouses from lizard beamed infinite growth programming through what is casually called ego death which then allows interpolation of occulted morphological semiotics. I practice my poetry as well as leadership in this fertile creative environment through social media forms. Poetry remains a vitality administering practice throughout my life. I write knowing the tipping point I’m on. Once that formative craziness concludes I embark on Man of Action pursuits with accrued capital. Talking to likeminded peers I’ve gained about plans to leave dying modernity to found history’s next unfolding. Including a sifting through then preservation of the Western canon and other cross cultural items modernity has brought. I will do what I can with my lifespan and it’s overlap with history’s current particularities. Subsequent interfacing with these particularities will reveal more about what can be done. It will likely be the formation of a small group who will be thought of as insane and the guiding of this group in its removal and defense from vampiric industrial technology in which geographic relocation is necessary as well as possibly embedding itself in a less developed but roughly soluble culture. In this vision society cosmic chaos and order will be brought to balance to the best of my ability. Seeding a beautiful future in the falling shadow of the state it was birthed from.

[Anonymous No.15554225]

It seems that just because you find "the one," or one that you have a better and deeper connection with than anyone else, doesn't mean that you two will actually end up together

[Anonymous No.15554244]

>>15554225
I don't think there is any """the one""" at all. I rather hold a sort of platonist/kantian view that there is an archetype of perfect woman (or man) in your mind and that whenever you fall in love, you are seeing them through this archetype. Even if they aren't completely compatible with your archetype, you try to downplay the differences and emphasize the similarities (and this is how lovers ignore the flaws of their beloved). From this it follows that there isn't really a "one". Each person could be a "one" as any other, so long as your mind decides to project the image unto them.

[Anonymous No.15554278]

>>15554244
Ehh, I don't know if I agree.
Sure, I don't really believe in the concept of a soulmate or "The one"
But there is definitely a small group of people that you are able to connect with on a deeper level than anyone else, sometimes you get lucky and meet one of them, maybe you never do
I've been with girls and known even while dating them that we don't have a super deep connection, I didn't project anything onto them. I had one girl that I connected with better than anyone else before and since, and she stands up to the test of time and retrospect
My current gf doesn't fit the "archetype," we don't have that deep of a connection in all honesty. I like her, but it's not the same

[Anonymous No.15554296]

>>15554278
The one that you have a connection with isn't the girl herself, it is the image of the girl you hold of her.
>My current gf doesn't fit the "archetype," we don't have that deep of a connection in all honesty. I like her, but it's not the same
Of couorse, I meant to describe how love happens, not how all relationship happens.

[Anonymous No.15554300]

Going to take a shower at almost 3 AM. Lurking sure makes time go fast.

[Anonymous No.15554345]

>>15554296
Isn't that solipsistic? Why can't I then just project that image onto any girl I want, downplay the differences and emphasize the similarities?

[Anonymous No.15554371]

>>15553045
fuckdamnit what the hell that paint image is not even exaggerating AAAHHH

[Anonymous No.15554813]

take the chungus pill

[Anonymous No.15554823]

>>15550185
Insensitivity to nuance may or may not be a sign of idiocy, though it usually strikes me as too mean for the difference in question to matter: It is to rhetoric what casual murder on the grand scale is to acts, which is why even the slightest modulations in limerick silliness massively mog the gods of unreflecting bugs, mindless as the mechanical whirlwinds they project, buzzing about histories written by its real winners who could do that sort of thing. There is nothing to be done about it except tune it out entirely, and issue magnificent images without attending to replies, as a florid tree makes a monarchy of innumerable shades, or an astonished visitor to it recommends the scene with equal spontaneity of the impulse to describe.

[Anonymous No.15554932]

Why are all my erotic and romantic dreams (that I remember) about/with women if I'm gay?

[Anonymous No.15555045]

>>15554932
You’re probably just bi. Or in denial that you’re straight

[Anonymous No.15555242]

>>15554300
sounds spooky but kinda comfy - enjoy anon

[Anonymous No.15555258]

I miss internet chat rooms. I miss innocent conversations with complete strangers. I miss the calm feeling of playing an easy video game or listening to chill music late at night, occasionally stopping to respond to a stranger on the other side of the globe. These threads emulate that feeling to some degree. I'm glad they don't get deleted even though they are realistically off topic - I think every online space needs an area for people to just talk.

[Anonymous No.15555262]

internet has been better since i decided to only post positive things

[Anonymous No.15555272]

I miss internet chat rooms. I miss innocent conversations with complete strangers. I miss the calm feeling of playing an easy video game or listening to chill music late at night, occasionally stopping to respond to a stranger on the other side of the globe. These threads emulate that feeling to some degree. I'm glad they don't get deleted even though they are realistically off topic - I think every online space needs an area for people to just talk. I realise discords exist, guess I never got into it.

[Anonymous No.15555274]

stay up all night
quit your job
flee the country

[Anonymous No.15555427]

>>15555272
>I miss internet chat rooms. I miss innocent conversations with complete strangers. I miss the calm feeling of playing an easy video game or listening to chill music late at night, occasionally stopping to respond to a stranger on the other side of the globe.
I got groomed as a young teenager so while I can somewhat relate I also don't feel nostalgic for it
>These threads emulate that feeling to some degree.
That's the whole reason I use 4chin desu acn only be tracked by glowniggers instead of regular retards like myself
>I'm glad they don't get deleted even though they are realistically off topic - I think every online space needs an area for people to just talk. I realise discords exist, guess I never got into it.
Discord fucking sucks unless you're raiding one in which case it's fun, especially if they leave tts enabled

[Anonymous No.15555466]

its the itch that can't be scratched
the thunder under the sea
Hecate calls to me
and my cock is the voice that answers

[Anonymous No.15555512]

i’ve gotten really into gardening lately and it feels so good. i love nurturing plants. i found a discarded cactus on the sidewalk and brought him in for intensive care, and i revived a dying bulb plant too. now i have an alocasia polly, a birdsnest fern, a calathea zebrina, and a trailing begonia in addition to my bulb and my cactus. i hope to become very good at plant care this summer. i don’t know if i’ll be in the same apartment much longer because the global social environment is nuts rn so i cannot go overboard on plant quantity for now but one day i’d like to have 100+ plants.

[Anonymous No.15555546]

>>15550304
>Artificial
More like, "I think this is what Artistic sounds like."

>She exists so effortlessly!
For example, this is the kind of line that makes people grind their teeth, and yet is ended on "effortlessly." I can already tell you're here to give me your thesis on womanology despite inevitably scoffing at said field's mention. And of course the thesis is that women have such an easy time being told-how-it-is by sad, yearning coomers.

[Anonymous No.15555571]

>>15550273
Don’t get any ideas Bateman.

[Anonymous No.15555773]

>>15555427
>Discord fucking sucks
Agreed, being anonymous is best. Every server has the oldfags that never fuck off out of general

[Anonymous No.15555793]

>>15550304
>>15553239
An hero

[Anonymous No.15555870]

>>15552750
You will not like it, the plot changes its course often but this book isn't about the plot.

[Anonymous No.15555936]

how do you think it is to starve yourself to death? of course it takes so long, but does it hurt? or does the body numb?

[Anonymous No.15555984]

>>15555427
>>15555773
You guys got it, I'd rather spend an eternity on here shitposting than go into a discord server again. That said I still use it to occasionally exchange messages with two guys

[Anonymous No.15556033]

>>15555045
No, brother. I never vibe with girls irl.
Can't say I'm too horny for guys either though.

[Anonymous No.15556038]

>>15555936
It starts to want to not move. It is like atrophizing, because it is.

[Anonymous No.15556047]

Escaping reality again, how long has it been? Almost 3 years? No that's just the time I've been neeting. I've probably been escaping my lack of purpose for at least a decade. I don't need much to exist, life's simple pleasures are enough. But now my inaction is leading me to a point of where I cannot sustain my situation. I'll act last minute as usual, probably having to wageslave but there's no reason I should escape most of humanity's situation. It's all so tiresome.

[Anonymous No.15556055]

I wish i wouldnt be a neurotic and fight against myself as it drains all my energy and desire to do something productive. I also feel angry towards world because i've been brought up here and expected to feel happy but i dont and other people are angry at me for not being able to do so.

[Anonymous No.15556079]

>>15555274
Okay

[Anonymous No.15556111]

>>15550185
Growing up I wasn't violent or prejudiced and my parents and grandparents taught me to be respectful and kind to everyone I meet, but events in the past 8 years or so have made me fantasize about going outside and spilling the first person I find's brains on the sidewalk. I also fantasize about pulling out a tommy gun and spraying in the crowd or committing vehicular manslaughter before I shoot myself in the head. Sometimes I just briefly hallucinate my own death.

[Anonymous No.15556117]

>>15556079
>>15555274
Now what?

[Anonymous No.15556121]

>>15556038
I remember now, that I read before, that you will get seizures and such....perhaps not so gentle as closing your eyes and fading away

[Anonymous No.15556135]

>>15556079
>>15556117
well have you escaped from that which you run from?

[Anonymous No.15556147]

>>15556121
Yes but it's like seizures with muscles made of wood

[Anonymous No.15556178]

>>15556147
you mean to say the seizures are weak and do not hurt?

[Anonymous No.15556203]

>>15556111
Are you convinced this is hateful of you or is it more a call of the void type thing? My mother would ask me things like "what if I drove into that tree" as a kid (especially if she were at the front of an busy intersection or something), but this was just a convoluted form of overprotectiveness or fear and not something I would consider a hope or aspiration. Although, where you look is where you crash.

[Anonymous No.15556216]

>>15556178
No I mean you're jutting around despite the stiffness, which makes it all the worse

[Anonymous No.15556239]

>>15556216
humm....well I think of another way

[Anonymous No.15556265]

>>15556111
I think you should look for professional help if you aren't trolling.

[Anonymous No.15556274]

>>15556239
If you're trying to kill yourself by starvation that's a horrible idea for reasons even beyond it being suicide. You can't even hold a glass of water steady.

[Anonymous No.15556285]

>>15556274
kek....well it is only to fantasize of....I am too too much the coward to ever do such

[Anonymous No.15556564]

It must have been roughly one year since Lucifer converted me. An inverted cross made out of birthmarks unironically formed on my arm. My circadian rhythm insists I go to sleep at 6 am, so as to avoid the household. It's a collection of unspoken disputes, all petty and resentful. The worse it gets, the more we descend into what can only be described as an alcoholic family. My diet has been reduced to two meals, plus shitty sugar foods at night so I don't disturb anyone with cooking noise.
I feel my eye sockets drying, and my will to return to society is none, despite financial freedom being my only way out of this. I have already missed the deadline for exam registry, so it seems my procrastination brought another year without university.
It's been so long since I've last had vitamin D that it feels as if I will get insta-skin-cancer the next time I'm exposed to sunlight.

[Anonymous No.15556699]

I think it’s less about being suicidal and more about feeling drained by most people and situations I deal with. Don’t know how I’ll be able to keep doing this for at least another three years without giving up on myself again

[Anonymous No.15556708]

>>15556117
>>15556135
I’m learning to chase after being chased. Maybe it never ends, maybe that’s good. Still daunting and not unlikely to crash somewhere but it’s still awesome. I need to call an airport.

[Anonymous No.15556756]

Pseudointellectuals make me unfathomably angry. I sometimes want to curb stomp people like that.

[Anonymous No.15556758]

>>15556699
I see digits of good fortune and strong will

[Anonymous No.15556773]

>>15556756
a wise person isn't a puppet to emotions, especially the basest of them all, anger.

[Anonymous No.15556890]

i did not attend university but i am intellectually superior to all my peers with a more rounded worldview and far more creative than them all.

[Anonymous No.15556911]

>>15556890
you remind me of rappers who believe they have superior knowledge and intellect and shit on nerds.
It's mostly based but also very retarded and untrue.
maybe with many humanities majors you are right

[Anonymous No.15557050]

>>15552996
>(You)
I have, I actually dated someone, but it couldn't get her out of my mind either way, so I stopped because I felt it was emotionally dishonest of me to be dating someone while being closer to someone else.

Basically, I am extremely socially isolated (I have autism and avoidant personality disorder), and I met this girl at an event where she was giving a lecture on something that happened to be my autistic interest. I attended for the lecture, but sort of fell for her at first sight, and so I approached her after it was over to talk to her about it, the conversation shifted to more personal matters, and she gave me her number. We've gotten very emotionally close since then because we sort of tell each other everything, but for me that's problematic because I feel this intimacy in a more romantic sense towards her, whereas she doesn't. She said that sometimes it feels romantic (and that she enjoys these moments), but that these moments are brief.

[Anonymous No.15557089]

>>15556890
You are probably too retarded to see how retarded you are. And I'm not the one who invented this.

> I am a retard 100% legit
> - Socrates

[Anonymous No.15557225]

>>15557089
maybe i am retarded but what does that make my peers whom i consider to be as thick as shit?

[Anonymous No.15557300]

>>15557225
Then you can't see things objectively.

[Anonymous No.15557305]

>>15550321
It's called identification, and it means you cannot differentiate between the contents of the unconscious and their interactions with objective reality, and your own ego-self-consciousness.

The part of the psyche you're confusing yourself for is your persona; Originally the word persona meant a mask worn by actors to indicate the role they played. On this level, it is both a protective covering and an asset in mixing with other people. Civilized society depends on interactions between people through the persona.

"There are indeed people who lack a developed persona . . . blundering from one social solecism to the next, perfectly harmless and innocent, soulful bores or appealing children, or, if they are women, spectral Cassandras dreaded for their tactlessness, eternally misunderstood, never knowing what they are about, always taking forgiveness for granted, blind to the world, hopeless dreamers. From them we can see how a neglected persona works".[“Anima and Animus,”CW7, par. 318.]

Before the persona has been differentiated from the ego, the persona is experienced as individuality. In fact, as a social identity on the one hand and an ideal image on the other, there is little individual about it.

"It is, as its name implies, only a mask of the collective psyche, a mask that feigns individuality, making others and oneself believe that one is individual, whereas one is simply acting a role through which the collective psyche speaks.
When we analyse the persona we strip off the mask, and discover that what seemed to be individual is at bottom collective; in other words, that the persona was only a mask of the collective psyche. Fundamentally the persona is nothing real: it is a compromise between individual and society as to what a man should appear to be. He takes a name, earns a title, exercises a function, he is this or that. In a certain sense all this is real, yet in relation to the essential individuality of the person concerned it is only a secondary reality, a compromise formation, in making which others often have a greater share than he." [“The Persona as a Segment of the Collective Psyche,” Ibid, pars. 245f.]

A psychological understanding of the persona as a function of relationship to the outside world makes it possible to assume and drop one at will. But by rewarding a particular persona, the outside world invites identification with it. Money, respect and power come to those who can perform single-mindedly and competently in a social role. From being a useful convenience, therefore, the persona may become a trap and a source of neurosis.

pt.1

[Anonymous No.15557316]

>>15550321
>>15557305
"A man cannot get rid of himself in favour of an artificial personality without punishment. Even the attempt to do so brings on, in all ordinary cases, unconscious reactions in the form of bad moods, affects, phobias, obsessive ideas, backsliding vices, etc. The social “strong man” is in his private life often a mere child where his own states of feeling are concerned."[“Anima and Animus,” Ibid, par. 307. ]

"The demands of propriety and good manners are an added inducement to assume a becoming mask. What goes on behind the mask is then called “private life.” This painfully familiar division of consciousness into two figures, often preposterously different, is an incisive psychological operation that is bound to have repercussions on the unconscious."[Ibid, par. 305.]

Among the consequences of identifying with a persona are: we lose sight of who we are without a protective covering; our reactions are predetermined by collective expectations (we do and think and feel what our persona “should” do, think and feel); those close to us complain of our emotional distance; and we cannot imagine life without it.

To the extent that ego-consciousness is identified with the persona, the neglected inner life (personified in the shadow and anima or animus) is activated in compensation. The consequences, experienced in symptoms characteristic of neurosis, can stimulate the process of individuation.

"There is, after all, something individual in the peculiar choice and delineation of the persona, and . . . despite the exclusive identity of the ego-consciousness with the persona the unconscious self, one’s real individuality, is always present and makes itself felt indirectly if not directly. Although the ego-consciousness is at first identical with the persona-that compromise role in which we parade before the community-yet the unconscious self can never be repressed to the point of extinction. Its influence is chiefly manifest in the special nature of the contrasting and compensating contents of the unconscious. The purely personal attitude of the conscious mind evokes reactions on the part of the unconscious, and these, together with personal repressions, contain the seeds of individual development.[The Persona as a Segment of the Collective Psyche,” Ibid, par. 247.]

There you go, dog. Now fix yourself.

[Anonymous No.15557350]

>>15556758
Thanks, anon. Brought a smile to my face.

[Anonymous No.15557351]

when I type quickly, I imagine myself as the jazz pianist

[Anonymous No.15557361]

>>15556890
You only believe that partly, and for the purposes of rationalizing away any feelings of inferiority that erupt from the unconscious.

[Anonymous No.15557420]

>>15557351
Which one?

[Anonymous No.15557438]

Everything is so fast, I can not keep up. Maybe I should slow this world down...

[Anonymous No.15557468]

I don't deserve God's mercy.

[Anonymous No.15557473]

[Anonymous No.15557493]

tits

[Anonymous No.15557496]

I'm stuck at home due to the virus and am forced to try and make money on the internet. I want to go back to my carefree traveling materialistic lifestyle. Just stuck at home and feeling lonely and weird. My dreams are rapidly becoming more vivid than my waking life. There's a girl out there I wish I could see, but it all feels impossible. I hate sounding like a whiner but its hard to not wish for a different lot in life. I've always felt detached from everyone else somehow, never really a part of anything else wholeheartedly. I'd give almost anything to really shake things up again.
Maybe I'm just an impatient faggot.

[Anonymous No.15557510]

>>15556564
Perhaps you could show us an image of the birthmark? At least we could help validate whether or not you've been touched by satan. That might be a good place to start; discerning if you're schizophrenic or not.

[Anonymous No.15557529]

>>15557050
The whore is playing with you

[Anonymous No.15557650]

Concept executed means "executed" concept

[Anonymous No.15557745]

>>15557510
dead serious

[Anonymous No.15557796]

I regret always escaping from my problems, I regret escaping and taking refuge in dumb shit like videogames and anime instead of facing life when it was easy and simple.
I need to be a fucking man now and I can feel like if a huge part of me that I've been trying for years to kill has finally died. This is it.
I am finally a different person.

[Anonymous No.15557821]

>>15557468
do not despair brother, no one does! but he gives it because he is kind and loving

[Anonymous No.15557827]

>>15557420
bill evans

[Anonymous No.15557835]

>>15557745
the cross inverted is not a symbol of satan alone, and to who is it inverted, you? or the other?

[Anonymous No.15557844]

>>15557835
it's on my arm, so it's inverted for whoever is looking at it, but it's a normal cross from my pov.

[Anonymous No.15557845]

>>15550704
a few weeks or years of military service is better than giving your whole life for capitalism, even if you factor in the risk of death

[Anonymous No.15557855]

>>15557844
and you think more of the view of the other than of the view of yourself?

[Anonymous No.15557856]

>>15557745
EXORCABITUR!
VADE RETRO SATANAS!
THE POWER OF CHRIST COMPELS YOU!
LEAVE THIS ANON ALONE, SATAN!
THE POWER OF CHRIST COMPELS YOU!
THE POWER OF CHRIST COMPELS YOU!

CRUX SACRA SIT MIHI LUX
NON DRACO SIT MIHI DUX
VADE RETRO SATANA
NUNQUAM SUADE MIHI VANA
SUNT MALA QUAE LIBAS
IPSE VENENA BIBAS

[Anonymous No.15557857]

>>15557745
That doesn't look like anything to me. Are you certain you may not simply be projecting onto yourself an association with evil?

Because, for all men, that's a perfectly normal thing to do; all of the major religions of the world incorporate teachings, and structures of thought, which deal with the individuals personal relationship to the concept of evil.

When exactly did you discover this birth mark, or these "markings" on your body? And when did you make the connection between them and lucifer?

[Anonymous No.15557862]

>>15554932
Is it theoretically possible to only be straight while dormant, or in some other specific state?
Are there maybe cases of multiple personality disorder where some characters in a single brain have different orientation than others?

[Anonymous No.15557864]

>>15550185
my inability to play an instrument makes me seethe like nothing else.
it would cause me no trouble to write a character who is an architect, despite the fact i can't so much as tell the basic architectural styles apart, to write a character who can program, who can perform athletic feats, who is from another country or time-period, indeed who is another species entirely. but i cannot write a musician, even in the background. i am immobilized by my jealousy. why, why was he given the gift of music and not me? why, almost inevitably, was his childhood blessed with the opportunity to learn? why can i escape anything else i lack by taking solace in fiction, only to consistently crash up against reality when it comes to this one talent? why can i embrace that i will never be an Olympian, an astronaut, a mathematician, a lion or an arab, but at every point refuse to embrace that financial and social circumstances have to this point denied me musical skills and that - however unfair my own circumstance - those circumstances don't render illegitimate the musical talents of those who have them?

strangely, this jealousy rarely manifests while listening to music. there is no song i could name off the top of my head where i could say "i'm jealous of the person who composed this" in the small, fleeting way that often comes when encountering an impressive work.
in any case, jealousy is a disgusting vice. when lockdown ends i will have to double down on finding some way of learning at least the fundamentals of some instrument or another, if only to try and expunge it.

[Anonymous No.15557876]

>>15557845
unless you live in north korea, military service is service to capitalism

[Anonymous No.15557897]

>>15557864
I get what you're saying, my parents made me think that since they had no musical gift I don't have one either since I was born that way. I can't perform very well and don't have the time to learn, but perhaps that's a good thing because I can completely focus on composing music. It's pretty much the hardest thing for me though, nothing about it comes easy to me.

[Anonymous No.15557911]

>>15557876
but it is not required, whereas slaving away for your entire adult life is required
i would rather be conscripted over "aristocratic beef" for some time and then largely left alone than spend (65 - 18) * (7 - 2) * (52 - 2) * (17 - 9) = 94000 hours of my time making zany web apps for some kike. even if the former involves risking my life, the latter precludes the possibility of even having one in the first place

[Anonymous No.15557920]

>>15557855
maybe I shouldn't, huh.

>>15557857
well, the birth marks grew on me 1 year ago, when I started looking into the musical "deal with the devil", which, in my eyes, represents succumbing to negative emotions to make music with a genuine source of sorrow/anger.
despite being a big fan of devilish music, I've always been spiritual and a big proponent of religious thought, the study of morals/ethics, etc.
I see the inverted-to-others cross as a metaphor for me displaying the devil to the listener and being moral myself, at least that's how I romanticize it.
Some months after its growth, I experienced contact with what I believe was Saturn, and it gave me chills. It's quite weird now that I'm telling this to someone.

[Anonymous No.15557946]

>>15557920
Are you retarded? Moles appear as you age, and four of them aligned in some vague patter is nothing. What you should be looking at is your delusions.
Or maybe grow up, you fucking chuuni (as they say in japan).

[Anonymous No.15557964]

I can’t figure out my place, and I don’t relate to or trust anyone. I’m torn between being accepting of this and wanting to be on the other side. I also can’t figure out how much of my thoughts are related to manic delusions, or if they are a part of my own rational thoughts

[Anonymous No.15557974]

>>15557920
>Grew on you.
Firstly, they're freckles. People develop them arbitrarily throughout their lives. You said you've been isolated for some time, and mentioned specifically from sunshine. This will cause changes in your skins appearance.

Secondly, it took me about 35 seconds of staring at the picture to even realize to what marks you were referring to; and I study semiotics, and have done so for a long time. That doesn't bode well for the claim it patently resembles, or is an impression of, a cross.

Thirdly, you've mentioned an element of esoteric hermetical philosophy. You should be extremely careful when delving into the esoteric and the symbolic. Symbols are articulated feelings. They require a finely honed intuition, which is to say an emotional compass, to navigate ones personal relationship to the concepts and archetypes encased within the signs and symbols themselves.

Which is more likely, at this point in your life; you know too much, or you understand too little?

[Anonymous No.15558003]

>>15557974
understand too little.

[Anonymous No.15558009]

>>15557911
truthfully I only read the post I replied to, I did not know you were talking about medieval times. people of course romanticize the past to much too often, but it is not so embarrassing as the ones who say the poorest today are better than the kings of then. but of course this anon is also correct >>15550704, you will be born in poverty and sent to fight and put among the men who will not live, and if you live you will return to poverty and you will care for your ailing parents and you will take a wife and you will never leave the region of your birth. but you will not be subject to the ahuman miseries we have created in the past thirty years

[Anonymous No.15558036]

>>15557529
I mean, she's not a whore, and she tells me enough about her life that I'm pretty confident she's not toying with me. She actually spent 4 nights at my place alone a couple weeks ago, so it's not like she doesn't like hanging out with me.

[Anonymous No.15558041]

>>15558003
That seems most likely, yes.

First question I would ask you is do you have any friends? A job? You mentioned alcohol in your home, and as an aspect of the family dynamic. Do you yourself drink?

If you're depressed, or your mind is unraveling, or you're compelled to believe things you do not fully comprehend the origins of within your own mind, then a useful place to start is where the rubber hits the road; what does your life actually look like compared to a typical person your age? Perhaps you're at a legitimate disadvantage?

[Anonymous No.15558050]

>>15557897
Who are you?

[Anonymous No.15558064]

>>15558050
JB BlocBoy

[Anonymous No.15558087]

>>15558050
It doesn't matter who I am, what matters is my plan.

[Anonymous No.15558100]

FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK I DON'T WANT TO BE TIRED AND OVERWHELMED ANYMORE. I DON'T FEEL CLOSE TO PEOPLE. I DON'T TRUST PEOPLE. ALL SOCIAL INTERACTION IS TAXING. WHY CAN'T PEOPLE JUST ADMIT THE REASON THEY DO ANYTHING AND THEN POST IT ONLINE IS NOT BECAUSE THEY LOVE WHAT THEY DO, BUT BECAUSE THEY LOVE THE IDEA OF SEEING THEMSELVES DOING IT OR BEING IT OR WHATEVER. ANONYMITY IS THE ONLY SALVATION AND CHANNEL OF TRUTH.

JUST ADMIT IT'S ABOUT YOU. IT'S ALWAYS ABOUT YOU.

THERE'S ANNOYING VAPID WHORES AND STUPID MANIPULATIVE ASSHOLES AND VIRTUE SLINGING HYPOCRITES AND JUDGEMENTAL GOSSIPY TWATS AND INTENTIONALLY IGNORANT MOUTHERS AND SNEAKY MORALLY VOID SNAKES AND GLOBS OF PROGRAMMABLE MATTER DESPERATE TO BE TOLD WHAT TO DO AND HOW TO BE AND SO ON AND SO ON.

I JUST WANT SOLITUDE. I JUST WANT SOME TIME TO BE ALONE AND FREE AND PRODUCTIVE. PLEASE. I CAN'T HANDLE EVERYONE AND THEIR NOISE. PLEASE. I DON'T WANT THEM TO HAVE TO HEAR MINE EITHER. THIS IS ALL A TWO WAY STREET. LET'S LIVE IN PEACE WITH OURSELVES. PLEASE.

NO MORE STRESS. NO MORE FEAR. NO MORE IRRITABILITY. NO MORE DREAD.

[Anonymous No.15558101]

bros, is it gay to be overcome with emotion when you think about the prospect of becoming a parent someday? i'm running low on sleep and i started to sob just imagining how it must feel to create life. children are god's love in human form—the closest things to heaven here on earth. i really hope i will one day have the privilege of meeting, loving, and raising a child of my own. there's something really special about the parent-child bond. babies have such charming smiles and laughs and i want to know what unconditional love feels like. i want my heart to swell with pride. i hope that there is hope for me.

[Anonymous No.15558105]

[Anonymous No.15558120]

>>15558100
>NO MORE STRESS. NO MORE FEAR. NO MORE IRRITABILITY. NO MORE DREAD.
Why? Hold on to those. They're what make you beautiful. The more overwhelmed you are, the better. Fuck happiness. What I want is feeling like I want to die everyday. That's how I know I'm living properly.

[Anonymous No.15558138]

I have friends, and I quit my job precisely 1 year ago, because I couldn't see myself working full time away from my city for much longer. After that, I went on "a journey to find meaning in life", which in retrospect turned into a mere excuse for being a neet. I wanted to find a way to make money without having to spend 2/3 of my life doing something I hate, but after some time with no answers, I fell into a routine of going out with my friends every day (no exaggeration) to smoke weed. I have yet to find this perfect career but making music with my friends is something I love.
I actually drank a few times this week but I don't do so usually.
The only legitimate disadvantage I can see in my life, when compared to others my age, is a weird, cold relationship with my parents. There was never much love, only a strong effort to maintain a status-quo between the passive father and the "imposing" mother. Otherwise, I feel like I'm on equal footing.

[Anonymous No.15558150]

>>15558138
meant to reply to: >>15558041

[Anonymous No.15558174]

>>15558138
> I wanted to find a way to make money without having to spend 2/3 of my life doing something I hate.

How old are you? Roughly, it's 4chan so be as vague as you feel.

[Anonymous No.15558180]

>>15558174
22

[Anonymous No.15558212]

>>15557964
I see this plan, I think it constructs itself as it goes and deconstructs from behind in a trail that leaves a path. You might need to approach infinity yourself to move it.

[Anonymous No.15558252]

>>15558180
So, obviously you don't want to be living with your parents. If the relationship is strained, or underdeveloped, or undeveloped entirely, then depending on them is opening yourself up to two things; abuse, and personal weakness.

How much of human psychology do you understand? Do you understand the distinction between the unconscious, and the ego-self-consciousness? Are you aware of how your cognitive behaviors are governed and by what neuropsychological modes govern your emotional systems? Do you know about Freud and Jungs models of the psyche?

>After that, I went on "a journey to find meaning in life".
That much is obvious.

>I have yet to find this perfect career but making music with my friends is something I love.
Well, there's good news. There are several ways to successfully seek out your fortune through development of the cognitive and emotional faculties that are primarily responsible for the perception of meaning.

Shit, do you know who Jordan Peterson is?

[Anonymous No.15558267]

>>15557864
Here’s the thing, musicians don’t exist, it’s just people pretending to be musicians.

[Anonymous No.15558271]

>>15558120
You sound like the kind of person that tries to ruin everything interesting in your life by trying to exert your superiority over it, and failing that simply attack it until it is out of your existence in some shape or form due to some sort of maligned personal insecurity

[Anonymous No.15558306]

>>15558271
Eh? Interesting things never happen to me; I make them happen. That's some very out there projection on your part though.

[Anonymous No.15558334]

>>15558306
Of course Socrates, it could not be otherwise

People like you are the devil

[Anonymous No.15558356]

>>15558252
I've read 12 rules, and I'm interested in reading Freud/Jung. I've dabbled lightly and know that Freud talks about ego, id, and superego, but I never went deep into it.
I've meditated for the past 3 years -- although not routinely -- so I think I'm aware of the ego, and of unconscious thought that's ever present.
Is there any human psychology book you would recommend?

[Anonymous No.15558365]

>>15558212
Each time I find my rhythm and reach a feeling of balance, I go over the edge and into complete delusion and grandiosity. In the end I wind up embarrassed of whatever ego I constructed, and I tear it down to nothing. I build myself from that nothingness to what I believe is the correct way to live and behave then the cycle repeats itself. Confronting the problem head on seems impossible, and medications dull my mind. I’m afraid it’s something I’ll be stuck with.

[Anonymous No.15558366]

>>15558334
You don't know people like me. Nobody knows people like me. I keep to myself, I think that's for the best.

[Anonymous No.15558393]

>>15558356
Carl Jungs work is so far above every contemporary, and frankly, modern, psychoanalysts and psychologists work inside the arena of investigation of the contents of the unconscious, and extrapolation of memetic structures of interpersonal and intrapsychic significance, that you could spend the rest of your life studying his collected works with little hope of fully articulating a full half of what he put to paper.

Man and His Symbols is an excellent starting position if you are wholly unfamiliar with his works.

There are several dozen books I could recommend; what are some books you've read fully through?

[Anonymous No.15558406]

>>15558212
Ohhhh I see, were you really just that good at that? Dang well this description is probably more projection then

[Anonymous No.15558461]

>>15558393
so far I've only fully read some normie-tier stuff. Think body language, 12 rules, 48 laws, "man's search for meaning", "rich dad poor dad" and a few japanese fiction works. Currently reading The Republic and I have an interest in hermeticism and all of esoteric stuff.
Definitely will read Man and His Symbols.

[Anonymous No.15558479]

>>15558356
For Freud just read introductory lecture to psychoanalytic. It's not really lectures, it's basically summaries of his main ideas in easy to digest form for new readers. If you read it with a critical eye you will also understand why Freud is both a genius and a fool at times.

[Anonymous No.15558493]

>>15558461
How attached are you to marijuana?

[Anonymous No.15558495]

The past makes me want to die out of regret, the future makes me want to die out of anxiety, so by the process of elimination the present is most likely the happiest time.

[Anonymous No.15558517]

>>15558461
oh, and also Faust and the plays of euripedes, sofocles and Aeschylus.

>>15558493
I smoke it daily. I can comfortably go without smoking, but me and my circle routinely go smoking at night.

[Anonymous No.15558520]

>>15558100
Are you in highschool still? You can choose how much to interact with people. If you are in school, plug in your earphones and zone out. If you truly prefer being alone then set barriers around you and don't be nervous of pulling them up.

I have a mask for public. When I started, it was a completely emotionless robot mask, like a Russian tough guy. Then you can just hide behind it.

[Anonymous No.15558532]

>>15558366
CRAWLING IN MY SKIN

[Anonymous No.15558549]

>>15558517
What are some of the consequences you can identify of you smoking a substance that distorts your perception of reality; positive or negative. I'm not being flippant or rhetorical.

[Anonymous No.15558550]

>>15558517
You need to stop. Your day to day mentality is not sober and it's affecting your thoughts. The mind is powerful, and if you believe you've been marked by Satan you will soon find other things to afferm that. And the weed makes forming connections like that much easier.

[Anonymous No.15558563]

>>15558520
What’s the best thing about the Russians then

[Anonymous No.15558568]

>>15550185
I made a video about what's weighing on my mind:

https://youtu.be/OkiqFBH2Qoo

[Anonymous No.15558601]

>>15558563
Russian culture hates smiling in public or in general any 'weakness' shown in public. Any part of you that is centric should stay hidden in their views. You sometimes see young Russian males grow colder next to women they like because they don't want to show weakness, like smiling or laughing.

If you just do your job or learning and leave without seeking interactions or showing weaknesses to be exploited you'll be left alone. It's a very lonely existence, see how long you like it.

[Anonymous No.15558611]

>>15558120
What better way to hold onto suffering than to so desperately wish it gone? I have a lust for life and all of the anguish it fosters within us. Upon first realizing pleasure is fleeting, one is subject to an endless cycle of pain and peace, always restless for the next phase. There is joy, or more specifically amusement, to be found in awareness of our folly; of our unrealistic, restricted values, needs, and concerns; as well as the inefficient means we use to fulfill them. Divine irony is in the fact your claims against happiness and desire to actively suffer is the only way for you to achieve any semblance of happiness or contentment, for recognizing what we lack by yearning for it amplifies our sense of what's missing, be it pleasure or pain. Those whose most treasured feelings and highest values are of happiness and harmony are often the most dissatisfied. A pure love of despair and suffering would proclude a regular desire for happiness, so that you might experience more agony, while instead craving misery and believing yourself to love it most, is one of many means to harvest joy, or at least some sort of morbid satisfaction with your choices and existence. Your statements imply facade, but at the same time profound truth. Thanks for the reminder, anon. I hope your life is full.

[Anonymous No.15558618]

>>15558549
In the beginning, I felt a hit on my short term memory, but I feel like that has stopped with the steep increase in tolerance.
One thing that I feel 100% happened was, at some point, I just stopped giving a fuck about anything. Consequences no longer feel like a big deal most of the time. Maybe that's how I managed to procrastinate on my university. Maybe that's how I've kept a clear consciousness despite all of my procrastination. Damn, anon.

[Anonymous No.15558622]

>>15558495
I like this. I'll remember this one.

[Anonymous No.15558630]

>>15558568
lol what I love this stupid shit

[Anonymous No.15558642]

Being on antidepressants from 2nd grade until 23 and a half really fucks a person up

[Anonymous No.15558643]

>>15558630
>stupid shit
You're a fucking idiot. I actually have one short story published in a reputable literary journal. I know what I am talking about. Many literary agents are pushing to emasculate white men and undermine literary traditions in favor for leftist agendas.

[Anonymous No.15558655]

>>15558520
Not everyone is in a place where they can choose how often they have to interact with people. Beyond school, there's the workplace and various living situations, which can make it so that a person is forced to be around and work with people that cause them immense anxiety, among other issues. A dependency on a job or being stuck living somewhere they can't achieve solitude are reasons someone can't just put in earbuds and drown out the world.

Advising them to be unafraid of maintaining barriers is helpful though.

[Anonymous No.15558656]

>>15558550
>>15558549
Damn. That's it. Daily smoking has been a completely normal thing for me, so I never thought of looking for blame in weed, but it HAS made me inconsequential.

[Anonymous No.15558659]

>>15558618
I'm the one that told you to stop smoking. If you do you'll have the additional fun of understanding more subtle effects of weed when you smoke occasionally and therefore know how you think normally. Because you lack contrast now you only see the big changes (amnesia, caring only about the present).

Smoking daily is not contrast. You have thc in your blood all the time.

[Anonymous No.15558671]

>>15558655
Raise your barriers and interactions will melt away. People will keep their conversations on business, no one will approach you without need. When you do get approached, you'll deal with them on track, according to your protocol or the job's. No effort and no presence of self needed.

[Anonymous No.15558676]

>>15558493
Not him but having had loose addictions to other things, marijuana doesn't do shit in comparison. Had zero access to it for a while in quarantine, and zero withdrawal effects. I'm sure some people benefit from giving it up but only to the same extent they would videogames (less if we're talking about games with gambling).

[Anonymous No.15558688]

>>15558676
Yeah weed doesn't do much compared to hard drugs but it has effects and they are very subtle. Most of the bad effects is compliance and it turns most people socially dumb. Every tried to scam a pothead? It's so easy.

Losing touch with soberiety is always bad, no matter the drug. You need contrast.

[Anonymous No.15558705]

>>15558366
>it’s the liberal snowflake that can’t handle criticism person again

[Anonymous No.15558738]

>>15558643
What would you say is the best answer for the question of the seashell gamblers

[Anonymous No.15558740]

>>15558688
>socially dumb
I'm notably less motivated to speak while sober (since before having ever not been sober), so I don't really relate, but at least as writing advice I agree with the conclusion. As for outwitting potheads, I've only done this while mutually baked so can't say:

>"Did you know most people lost half their memory of 9/11 by now?"
>"Well I certainly remember both planes."
>"There were three planes bro."

[Anonymous No.15558749]

I spent the guts of a year in a toxic relationship that I’ve put behind me, but I feel like I’m still haunted by it. I used to have nightmares about him and once had a flashback to the worst point in our relationship, right before we broke up. Most of my friends are tired of hearing me talk about it given the time that’s elapsed since we were together and I’m tired too of still needing to talk about it when I “should” have moved on. But I think I’m still affected by the sheer power he held over me. I sometimes think I see him on the street and panic. Intellectually I’ve moved past him and am aware of the dysfunction of that relationship, but emotionally I think I’m still disturbed.

Side note, any recs on how to /cope/ with the trauma?

[Anonymous No.15558750]

I drove through an almost all-white neighborhood the other day and saw droves of black-clad white suburbanites genuflecting and raising their fist in protest. Not far away these was an elderly black woman, just trying to go about her day and about to be met with all these protesters.

My chest tightened at the thought of the impending awkwardness of that was about to ensue. What would she think of the scene? Would she wave at them and say thank you, graciously daubing the tears from her eyes with a handkerchief ? I felt bad for the woman, not because she had to live in a racist society, but because she had to live around people like them. She can't even go about her business without being sanctified by a bunch of guilt ridden whites. It occurred to me that what those protestors were doing was a sham. The most dyed in the wool bleeding heart liberals tend, ironically enough, to live in predominantly white, nice neighborhoods. The minorities that they worship instead reside in decidedly more dystopian surrounds, areas they would never deign to visit. It dawned on me that those protestors were doing it not for them, but for each other. To show each other that they are more morally evolved. In a world where the absolute worst thing you can be is a racist, where even an ambiguous, lazy gesture is confused as racist it is enough to destroy you, where nearly everything is perceived as racist, you have made being non-racist a prize and a distinction that comes with its own status and rituals. It's not about the mere negation of harmful biases, it's about the promotion of positive biases, and the patronizing attitude that follows.

[Anonymous No.15558764]

>different lit forum where someone asks for books on current race relations obviously expecting the same drivel as always
> Suggest white fragility together with some James Mason Siege and actual racial hygiene books written by Nazi officials
>get upvotes because people only recognize white fragility and don't bother with the other stuff they don't know about.
Absolutely devilish

[Anonymous No.15558775]

>>15558740
Oh it turns you into a social whiz. But it's because you're far more empathic and slightly better at reading situations and willing to let social awkwardness go. But if you act like you're a stoner's friend hell trust you till he gets robbed blind. They lack caution.

[Anonymous No.15558782]

>>15558775
Yeah. Edit while sober.

[Anonymous No.15558799]

>>15558775
>it will turn you into a social whiz
Is this seriously a thing? I can’t imagine that at all, I become so much worse

[Anonymous No.15558800]

I genuinely loved my grandma with all my heart and I feel bad for any bad things I have done in life to others but I really, really dislike you all. I am sorry but you irritate the shit out of me. Every last one of you. Have a great life and have fun and no harsh feelings but holy fuck, dude. Take a hint.

[Anonymous No.15558808]

>>15558782
I like weed because it lets me examine my emotions on slow mo. I was watching some show and my penis ever so slightly reacted to a shift in a woman's voice. And I was like, damn I thought I was above this monkey brain shit.
But when you smoke and smoke and smoke it just becomes your reality.i smoke once or twice a week and planning to lower it again, and here and there I take a week break. Never smoke if you feel like you have to, or to escape a bad mood.

[Anonymous No.15558825]

>>15558799
I mean if you're not smoked out of your mind giggling like a retard.
Mad men has a shirt scene where a high writer talks with a normal cleaner dude. It's clear that the cleaner is finding the conversation weird, but not unpleasant. Like an interesting chat with a weirdo that has a good heart. Google it it's a really good scene shows you how it looks from the side.

[Anonymous No.15558828]

When should reason give way to rage, if ever?

[Anonymous No.15558829]

>>15556111
nice digits

[Anonymous No.15558835]

>>15550185
This year there will be my 22nd birthday. I study at the univeristy one of these completely unremarkable, and that is if you call doing all you can to pass semester with minimum effort and without actually learning a thing studying. I have a hobby that I really like and I'm invested in. At least I like to believe it's a hobby and not just act of consumption. nothing particularily remarkable, but I've been into it ever since I remember. Other than taht I'm largely unremarkable guy.
At age of twenty one years old I don't know what I want. What I want to do in life, what I believe in, what's my stance in life on particular issues, where I want to go, nothing really. Neither did I know that at age of eighteen, fifteen, twelve... I always thought that I have time and I'd figure things out at some point maybe. But I'm nearly certain I won't know any more than I do now at age of twenty five, or twenty eight. That is assuming I have luxury of having time to think of that then.
At this point I can't tell if I never really thought of these whats, or if I did all this time, but would just end up thinking in circles.
The only two meaningful desires in life that I can really articulate is to have some piece and quiet, and to be able to relive some very distant past I have foggy memories of. There just isn't a place I could think of realistically getting to without remorse of leaving the place I was brought up in.

[Anonymous No.15558847]

And dress like normal fucking people. Do you genuinely believe Mendicino or Doherty would dress like your idiot niece? Do you believe they would put on those clothes and go outside and be like "yeah, I look good." NO, you're not color blind autistics from shithead dorkistan. Dress like someone who isn't a complete and total loser.

[Anonymous No.15558907]

>>15558835
It's time to wake up.

[Anonymous No.15558949]

>>15558750
It's fucking cringe. 'i can tolerate anything but the outgroup' by state star codex really puts the finger on why all this white 'im woke and against racism' is bs.

God I hate Americans. No other western culture expects you to proclaim how in tune with the correct ideals you are.

[Anonymous No.15559032]

I dread my job, or moreso the people at my job. The job itself is great, it’s fortunate that I get to do something I love for my work, but it’s always such an edge I feel with all the people I have to stay on top of, not to mention all the legal potholes that can never leave the back of my mind. Instructional control isn’t as difficult as I once thought it would be, but it’s so invasive, being on the spot as much as I am, even if I am doing something good it just is such a tiring thing to have to deal with all of it. Can’t begin to imagine how this will be once I go back and things are “normal“ again, normal doesn’t exist anymore, if there’s a second wave I’ll be toast. I had some favorites this year and I know I’ll have some new faces that will be great, but if some shithead snort gives me the virus I’ll feel more trapped then I’ve ever felt.

[Anonymous No.15559137]

>>15559032
what is the job?

[Anonymous No.15559150]

I don't want to watch bazinger and slapstick with some fat idiot and even as a 14 yr old I didn't. Seriously just how stupid are you?

[Anonymous No.15559151]

far too much time is wasted trying to find ways to feel superior to others

[Anonymous No.15559218]

>>15559151
I hate your entire fucking family and you are too stupid to even see it. That is what gets me. Someone who's rolling theur eyes doesn't like you. I feel terrible for all the nonsense against Mendicino and Abordo and the rest because I would take them 1,000 X over you losers.

[Anonymous No.15559227]

>>15559218
go on

[Anonymous No.15559272]

>>15557862
anyone knows?

[Anonymous No.15559294]

>>15558568
why are you scrolling through the slides?
isn't it better to enjoy them in full screen one at a time?

[Anonymous No.15559343]

>>15559218
What did you mean by this?

[Anonymous No.15559355]

>>15559227
I should not be so evil and pathetic to others because of my own problems. I also can't fucking stand those people at all. Imagine the funko-pop Redditor guys but 30 years older. That is what that family is like.

[Anonymous No.15559372]

>>15555870
It just changed. Now the American girl named Lola left Bardamu, and he's with a pianist now, who's more interested in being alongside wealthy Argentines.

[Anonymous No.15559377]

>>15559355
Well in contrast, few people hate the Ted Bundy's of the world because our opinion of them is pretty settled

[Anonymous No.15559444]

out of this disgusting shit hole

[Anonymous No.15559525]

>>15559137
I work at a preteen post office, it’s tiring but rewarding, the post officing that is. Everything else is fine enough but it’s gonna be a long time there I sure, day in and out.

[Anonymous No.15559554]

>>15558618
I'm the dude you were talking with. I was a bit busy, but I'm back in any case.

Yeah, I'm going to recommend you read and study Jung. I'm also going to recommend you steer clear of Marijuana. Watch these.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bXYAWCAIqRE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zjIaed_iw9Q

[Anonymous No.15559581]

>>15558749
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nyMso_CFU7s

[Anonymous No.15559592]

>>15552848
You're a monster

>>15552896
And you're a bitch

[Anonymous No.15559674]

>>15559525
what is the preteen post office? some américain invention?

[Anonymous No.15559798]

Taking the lithium and taking the lithium and taking the lithium and taking the lithium, still unstable

[Anonymous No.15559823]

>>15559798
a system of cells interlinked with cells

[Anonymous No.15559848]

>>15559823
Cell Dude

[Anonymous No.15559887]

I wish I could manage my relationships in a healthier manner. It feels like my life experiences, childhood parenting, and past traumas/abuse have compounded themselves into very deep-set and inflexible behaviors and reactions to things. It seems very difficult to conquer those parts of myself, but I will keep on trying. I just sometimes wish I didn't get so fucked up.

[Anonymous No.15560478]

>>15559674
Yeah why not