/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.15415966]

Bar's open, /lit/

How you holding up?

[Anonymous No.15416860]

Gimme a whiskey

[Anonymous No.15416990]

>>15415966
Oi Hemingway, you still owe me a round from last week.

[Anonymous No.15416999]

>>15415966
no matter how im holding up give me something gay and fruity. I hate the taste of alcohol

[Anonymous No.15417011]

I'm getting older and will not be remembered for anything remarkable at all in the human canon.

Give me something so I can forget.

[Anonymous No.15417044]

>>15417011
you can only be depressed about that if you really tried to get in and failed, besides its not like any of the geniuses that were ahead of their time could be recognized as such. what did you write that was suppose to change the world anyway

[Anonymous No.15417179]

I am struggling to finish my essay due Monday I had 4 months for which I only started working on this week.
Gimme 3 fingers Burbon with a few drops of water for flavor enhancing. I don't wanna work anymore tonight.

[Anonymous No.15417204]

>>15416999
Try a Tom Collins. It was like the Cosmo for basic suburban mom's in the 50's. People wanting something lighter tasting love it.

[Anonymous No.15417209]

8 more days until the exam results.

[Anonymous No.15417221]

Reading moby dick and being laid off has been amazing. Sucks quarantine gonna be over here likely soon

[Anonymous No.15417230]

>>15417011
Writing something and putting it out there is better than not writing anything at all. Even if nobody reads what you wrote at first, at least it's out there

[Anonymous No.15417507]

>>15417179
same

10 pages down, 15 to go

[Gaskun !!LKQ0Koj4uFz No.15417873]

I’m on my 7th month of quarantine. I’ve wasted most of it but I’m two chapters into the sequel of my last novel. Could be worse. Bourbon. Neat. Make it a double

[Anonymous No.15418009]

>>15415966
Im being hostage of my fear of life. I dont have any confidence in my abilities too.
One cold pint.

[Anonymous No.15418054]

Give me a gram of coke

[Anonymous No.15418090]

whole milk and a dash of kahlua ona rock

[Anonymous No.15418176]

>>15415966
Breddy good, about to graduate high school and move on to college. I've recently however been very bitter with my eyesight, since years of video game addiction have practically ruined it. Can't see a fucking thing even if it's right in front of me. Used to notice girls looking at me all the time in middle school, now I can hardly see without my damn glasses.

[Anonymous No.15418190]

I just got my results in the HS exit exam in literature.
92%
I'm drunk.

[Anonymous No.15419248]

>>15418190
Congrats anon. A is an A.

[Anonymous No.15419388]

>>15415966
Send a Boulevardier on rocks with a few dashes of bitters my way, thanks mate.

I'm holding up fairly well on the outside. Due to some saving and good investments, I was able to keep paying my apartment rent until university starts again in the fall. I lost my spring internship and my summer internship to 'rona so I guess i'll be running up the tab at your bar for a few months.

I am unsure as to how my mental state is holding up. For reasons mentioned above, I do hold resentment towards the world because those 2 internships would've been my leg up to get close to wall street, however I rationalize that it isn't my fault, of course. I play video games (almost gold in LoL) and continue to practice my excel skills hoping to land a virtual internship but I doubt it. I am currently reading Hunger by Knut Hamsen.
>tfw no gf
When the world got rough and uncertain around early march, I didn't have anyone to intimately lay or console with. Ever since a breakup ~8 months ago, I haven't been able to masturbate so during this quarantine I reluctantly texted said girl. This was to no avail and she is apparently doing much better than me and from her social media, appears to be quarantined with a guy.

I am also 3 weeks nicotine-free and it fucking sucks. I am thinking of quitting quitting tomorrow. Can I bum a cig from anyone?

[Anonymous No.15419452]

I'll take a genever old-fashioned.

I had to put down my cat at the vet yesterday. I've had her for 20 years. I feel pretty shitty so I've been mopping around all day. Otherwise, I've been reading Moby Dick, some T.S. Eliot, a book about neurology and behavior, and reviewing some math.

I miss my cat.

[Anonymous No.15419518]

>>15419388
I would give you a ciggie if I had one. Ran out of rolling tobacco a few days ago.

[Anonymous No.15419643]

>>15419518
Thanks. whaddya like?

[Anonymous No.15419667]

>>15415966
Shirley Temple and water please.
I'm alright

[Anonymous No.15419766]

>>15415966
I'll take a Roy Rogers. Fine I suppose.

[Anonymous No.15419960]

>>15417011
Chin up friend

Beckett wasn't discovered until he was like 40

[Anonymous No.15420051]

>>15415966
I had a panic attack last night for no apparent reason other than that I hadn't had a coffee. I wrote down how it felt right after, don't judge me too hard I was in a state similar to post nut clarity but painful.

The back of my head tingles and I feel my eyes becoming seperate from the rest of my body. My ears glow red hot. My jaw is reduced to a dull, stiff pain on the bottom of my face. The rest of my face dissapears. I feel my breath catch, then come out in short, shallow breaths. My stomach tightens, then slackens. Tightens again, slackens. This marks the point that decides whether I catch myself, or whether I go full retard. I'll typically catch myself multiple times before I go down. But when I do, it's hard. It takes all the willpower I have just to not let out an agonised groan, as I find myself forced into the smallest form I can manage. My arms and legs tighten and curl up, like an electric shock, and I find myself thinking frantically about what I did to deserve this. Even when I did nothing, it's just a rhetorical question with no possible answer. I tighten more and more as I hear the deafening throbbing wind of my heartbeat in my head, and feel my eyes flood. My arms grab helplessly at anything they can, my eyes shut as tight as possible, as I hug myself as much as I'm able, quaking. Then it slowly lets off, then quicker, and as I come back to my senses and let my jaw loose I unfurl myself. I look forward, tired as if I had just lifted an extra heavy weight, and hope it doesn't hit again.

[Anonymous No.15420094]

>>15419452
I feel for you anon. I've felt like death after losing a fish I had for a year, I can't imagine losing an old friend like that. It's okay to take a while to feel down. You can even make use of it and write down some sad stuff for use later if you even want to conjure up the feeling for whatever reason. Just don't stay blue for too long.
Hug someone you love. I'll shout you this drink.

[Anonymous No.15420263]

A Bang would be nice, cotton candy.

If I were to die in this very moment, I would feel content. Life has been such a fucking wild ride and it always offers up a surprise, one after the other. I've learned so much and I've been able to translate it to my writings and life. I still see the beauty of what God breathed into the world. I feel content.

[Anonymous No.15420635]

>>15415966
I’m back home with my family for the quarantine and just attended my university’s virtual graduation. We’re all healthy, able to work our jobs remotely, and it’s honestly brought us a little closer together. I have tons of outdoor space to roam around in the town that I grew up in with my elderly dog. I hang out with my best friends on Zoom or Discord at least once a week, and feel healthier after deleting all social media apps off my phone. Aside from the occasional feelings of isolation, memories of trauma at this house I’m currently in, and remembering the women I’ve failed with, I’m doing alright. Many people are suffering right now in ways incomparable to my own, so I have no complaints. My world is small right now, but I have much to be grateful for.

Just an ice water please. Do you have that good tube-shaped ice? I love chewing it but I probably shouldn’t.

[Anonymous No.15421298]

Just went on a tinder date with a girl who's spent the last two years traveling around Europe. She was telling me about how she used to go to sex clubs and have group sex with lesbians and attractive men, and how "authentic" everyone there was because they were all rich and happy. She bragged about how she used to have a small city worth of thirsty men on tinder and made them pay her $800 phone bill, then complained about how she was used as a teenage girl because she only slept with attractive older men and didn't realize how they were taking advantage of her. Tried to kiss her and she flinched away, but then she followed up a few minutes later by asking me if I'd ever want to gangbang her with another guy.

Really made me wish that we had shariah here. I definitely sleep around more than the average man my age, but I talk to woman my age, even normal girls, and it's a whole different reality they are living in. I don't want to be with these whores. I just want a wife that's sexually normal and is there to support me and I will support her and we can just be together.

I hate this society we live in. Every day I feel so out of place and lonely, none of it satisfies and it seems like everything is just focused on consumption and spending money. All the soul has gone out of the world and its terrible.

[Anonymous No.15421300]

I WANT PUSSY. I WANT PUSSY. I WANT IT NOW!!! AAAAAAAAAGGH!

[Anonymous No.15421353]

>>15415966
Give me literally anything. I've been staying with my folks after my uni closed due to covid and I forgot that there's something in the water here that gives me mouth sores. I can't be wasting all my money on bottled water, so I just have to live with it.

I was really liking university too, fuck this stupid disease. If things don't reopen in the fall I don't know what I'm gonna do.

[Anonymous No.15421997]

>hate my old job, don't get paid much
>take an offer from another company that pays a lot more
>1 month gap between quitting and starting due to a visa changeover as I'm living abroad
>Had the best month in a long time
>Have to go back to work on Monday and fucking dreading it

How do I escape the wagie trap bros

I've never hated something so much as I hate working in offices

[Anonymous No.15422023]

>>15421997
>I've never hated something so much as I hate working in offices

I know this feeling man, it's hard to get people to understand. Most people dislike working in an office, but U HATE it. It fills me with a dread unlike anything else. But people think you're exaggerating, or you just need to get over it. Maybe I do need to get over it. I don't know. I've been a books guy my whole life but I can't stand being inside all day, I feel like I need a job in the outdoors. I know that has its downsides too but sitting in an office (even a nice one) makes me want to run a hot bath and slit my wrists.

[Anonymous No.15422060]

>>15422023
>It fills me with a dread unlike anything else.

Exactly this, I've got fuck all done today because I'm dreading stepping back into that. I know it'll start out light enough but before long it'll be sighing at 10pm as Slack pings on my phone because Some Super Urgent Omg has come up

I want to run my own business and do something creative. I'm thinking
>publishing
>art dealing
>microbrewery

tbqh I know fuck all about all 3 but any of them would be better than what I'm at now

A job outdoors would be amazing too, I'm sure you could get something that pays well outdoors. Those guys on oil rigs get paid shittons I hear

[Anonymous No.15422260]

Jameson neat. Double shot.

I hope to die in my sleep every night and I wake up disappointed. Yet the faggots around me tell me my life gives me no reason to be depressed as if depression necessarily and absolutely has a casual relationship with the material conditions of your life and your arbitrary “achievemnts” are prevention measures.

To help, I’ve also been recently burdened by a profound regret.

[Anonymous No.15422305]

Some vodka here.

I've been less motivated in my philosophy studies since quarantine has started. Don't misunderstand me, it has nothing to be with my university itself, it is just me, who has found itself lost in the infinity of monotony. Just as someone said, everyday just feels the same.

[Anonymous No.15422513]

I've dropped out of uni in the final year of my master's degree because I just couldn't fake any interest in my studies anymore during quarantine. I've stopped speaking to anybody because of this and bad social anxiety. I didn't tell my parents yet they think that I'm looking for an internship while finishing studies. I feel like I've reached an end-point, nothing interests me anymore. I barely read and write. I play eu4 all day long to pass the time and when night falls I go walking in the streets of Paris smoking cigarettes and drinking cheap beers alone, afraid of the people I might meet, of a face that might recognise mine. I listen to music to try to arouse some kind of emotional response but it's just not really there anymore. I've had many friends but never romantic affairs because I am not of the socially-daring kind, I am akin a little boy at the beach playing in the small waves but afraid of the big ones.

Yet I cannot bring myself to hate myself nor this world. I feel like this is just a big misunderstanding, that I'll feel silly for not understanding the small trick that get the people going. But right now I do not belong anywhere and I live by inertia waiting for something to happen, for the crisis to break. I do not think that it will be a pleasant thing, but maybe it will give me the courage to live or to an hero. Anything but these grey veils of solitude that surround me everywhere. I've come to accept that all my hopes and dreams are but soothing fantasies.

I do not know how life will be like, I wish it could just stop. I wish I could step out like one get off a bus.

A black coffee..

[Anonymous No.15423297]

>>15422513
Sounds like you just burned out, nigga. It happens.

I would strongly advise taking the last year once you've got your head in order. Doesn't matter if you're not interested, just do enough to pass and then you'll have it under your belt

[Anonymous No.15423321]

>>15422513
Lighten up Francis

[Anonymous No.15423373]

>>15415966
>see a escort a lot of times
>wouldn't say that I love her but appreciate it her (she was my first time and its extra kind to me, being virgin at 30, having a small dick, etc)
>she just tweeted that is looking for a boyfriend with a big dick
>I know that shit don't concern me but still I feel pain in the chest

I had been saving a bottle of vodka but I think its time to drink it all.

[Anonymous No.15423431]

>>15422060
I'm not the guy you're responding to but I did a few years of manual labour before going to university. If I don't win the employment lottery and get something intellectually/creatively satisfying worked out post-graduation I'm going back into blue collar work. Offices are where are man's soul goes to die.

For myself, I'll have a double eagle rare, neat. I need to give up giving up. I live like an animal behind a great, glass pane. I paw at the window and see others put their hands to mine on the other side but never connect. They walk on to look at something else and I sit here, in my head.

[Anonymous No.15423450]

>>15423373
>getting attached to escorts
what did you really expect to happen, anon?

[Anonymous No.15423929]

>>15415966
i'm half way through moby dick and want to quit. this book has not been enjoyable one bit, am i being filtered?

[Anonymous No.15424035]

>>15423929
I think so. If you don't like it, it only improves towards the last few chapters. It's okay to drop it if you're not enjoying it, maybe you'll like it at a later stage in your life.

[Anonymous No.15424039]

Today I realized there is still magic left in me. Sometimes I am able to tap into a psychological state in which I am totally focused on a task at hand and it feels amazing.

[Anonymous No.15424329]

A Gibson, please.

Life itself seems to have become redundant to the point of pedanticism. I graduated uni a few months ago, and still haven’t found a job. For some reason I quit my old job at a library, which was very comfy. I find the idea of working in business a bore no man should endure, as it is deleterious to a basic human love of life. Moreover, I abandoned my gf, the only person who I could be honest with—and even then it was difficult. Still, I’m seeing a progression in my poetry, and my love of life is still competent, though if I can’t produce change soon enough I think it will start to drop down with the drips of time. The bars aren’t opened yet here in Knoxville; there is something comforting about my local bar, sitting there with my head lowered, as all others are too lowered who go in at 3:00 pm. I think I would be better if I had money, because doing nothing except reading and writing and drinking with strangers in strange light seems to befit my ideas of removing oneself from culture enough. Yet I find myself growing old without the experiences of age. Days knock the coming winds. I’m too pious to be an alcoholic, though times I wish I could forget about the hang-ups of what makes the person good. My laziness produces the regrets of days long forgotten except for their feeling of emptiness. I can’t will myself into a depression, just a melancholia if Spirit. I thank people for music and art, everyday, wishing to be among them and to produce within me a visage of success that I know is only caused by such insipid pride.

[Anonymous No.15424429]

>>15415966
having no one to talk to is finally starting to shake the stability of my mind. I am longing for a real life interaction with someone.

[Anonymous No.15425155]

>>15423450
I really don't expected anything, maybe to see her a few month and then forget.
But I am a dumbass what can I say

[Anonymous No.15425195]

>>15424329
you have *got* to tone down the exaggerated diction anon