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[Anonymous No.15178359]

[Anonymous No.15178371]

Eating cereal makes me blow hot diarrhea out my ass

[Anonymous No.15179052]

Corona really needs to sweep through the house and senate and clean out the mendacious geriatric swine ruining this country.

[Anonymous No.15179127]

I haven't changed my bedsheets since two weeks before lockdown began and I have spent so long in my bed that my memory foam mattress now has a permanent imprint that doesn't rise. I've also farted so much into it that whenever I roll over it releases poop smells into my room even if I haven't farted in hours.

[Anonymous No.15179164]

>>15178359
No

[Anonymous No.15179306]

Everyone is a little bit LARPer. Not as pretending that we're something that we're not on the internet, but as actual 24/7 irl LARPing, more or less. I don't know why, but I'd say that the most interesting people I've ever known were also the biggest LARPers. I mean, it obviously doesn't guarantee you success or happiness, but at least you believe in something, right? I also want to believe, but I haven't decided in what yet. And this longing for conviction and certainty is just killing me, but at the same time it all seems so vane, jeez...

[Anonymous No.15179406]

>>15178359

[Anonymous No.15179423]

I'm doing my best to break off any connections I have with people. I'm better off alone

[Anonymous No.15179510]

Sex is not transitory. It's not about wearing frilly dresses and makeup. You can mutilate yourself as many times as you would like but you're just a retard who cut a bunch of holes into himself. Literally a wound made with intestines and innards and God knows what else.

[Anonymous No.15179534]

Pussy

[Anonymous No.15179539]

If trannies are real women ask his brothers if they would fuck trannies. They wouldn't because deep down they don't actually see you as a woman.

[Anonymous No.15179540]

I want to be shrunken down and found by a catboy in a forest and teased and tasted and swallowed and digested

[Anonymous No.15179544]

Look at me! I'm a lardass
A lardass with no nuts. The nutless lardass!

[Anonymous No.15179553]

>>15179510
>>15179539
Literally obsessed

[Anonymous No.15179576]

I'm trying to write a somewhat short story. My greatest difficulty is writing what happens in-between the major events - or rather, trying to make the dialogue in these segments not feel bland.

[Anonymous No.15179640]

>>15179553
This just amuses me a bit. I can talk doen to you and your whole family in front of the girls and you are powerless against it.

[Anonymous No.15179670]

>>15179640
>I can talk doen to you
>I can
No you can't. If you had the confidence to do it you would've done it already. You are powerless to act on your feelings about trannies in real life, that's why you vent about it in threads like this.

[Anonymous No.15179688]

>>15179670
You don't know what I am talking about. I am LITERALLY pushing a tranny to suicide as we speak but I will not go into it.

[Anonymous No.15179720]

>>15178359
why did I waste a whole day shitposting

[Anonymous No.15179796]

So I started what was meant to be a short story a couple years ago. I tapered off from it until five months ago. When I picked it up again and took a long look at it, I realized that the characters were too rich to be this limited. There's a lot of potential I could open up to, so I decided it turn it into a full length novel. It will be my second and it will be just as carefully crafted as my first.
What makes a story truly great is the amount of characterization and a plot that can be weaved from them. From there, you could really get a sense of where it's going to go, not a general idea, but just a frame. It's like a jigsaw. Once you get the flow, the pieces will fall in their own place. It is definitely worth the long hours of thought and free writing and energy put to use. I know i'm rambling but I cannot express enough the true art and beauty of writing and crafting a story that you yourself have solely made. Creation is marvelous and I thank God everyday for the abilities I have, that we all have if you aspire.

[Anonymous No.15179882]

>>15178359
I am writing a story and unlike Tolkien have great difficultly naming the most important character. I know the first name starts with an "M" but I don't know the rest of the letters. Can /lit/ help me remember what her name is?

[Anonymous No.15180276]

I'm always tired and my heart is awlways racing.
Is this because of my new anti-depressant?

I guess I simply smoke too much.

[Anonymous No.15180296]

I wrote a bad chapter today, and it pisses me off. I haven't written a bad chapter in. . . years.

I'm all fucked up because I'm about to get laid off from my job. My actual, adult, career job; with benefits and health insurance and paid time off and sick leave. My actual, real job that I love.

And now, to top it off, my writing went into the fucking toilet.

This is a really shitty week.

[Anonymous No.15180495]

I think I meant last name not first here >>15179882

[Anonymous No.15180555]

>>15179540
I want to set you on fire and put you out with a baseball bat

[Anonymous No.15180570]

>>15180495
Why did you say "remember"? That implies the name has already been decided. Matilda

[Anonymous No.15180587]

>>15178359
Screenwriting is a intolerably flawed medium logistically at it's most fundamental level.The best filmmaking is an extension of mime, gesture, and graphic design which are impossible to describe with the needed brevity in the written word.
The best compromise would be to write impressionistic treatments that only give vague situations, and perhaps replace 'screenwriting' with storyboarding.

[Anonymous No.15180593]

>>15179052
This

[Anonymous No.15180619]

>>15178359
Its interesting how similar the Russian classics and Western American literature are in a lot of ways. Maybe it's something about living in a harsh, unforgiving environment. I've been reading a lot of Jack London and Robinson Jeffers lately (I doubt you pseuds know who that is) and it really strikes me how visceral Western American lit can be. Jack London was already writing on the folly of Nietzscheism at the turn of last century (and I say that as I die hard Nietzsche fan).

Russians tend to deal a bit more with human relations as opposed to the elements, but they both paint a bleak picture of existence.

I'd say the difference in how they deal with suffering. Us Americans will always have our optimism, however faint. We always believe that tomorrow might be better. The Russians seem to advertise more looking inward, and making the world better through your own moral striving.

[Anonymous No.15180790]

I genuinely feel bad for anything I did against Cait. Even if she dislikes me, I still feel bad for it. She was a nice girl. I utterly loathe Rose and her stupid brats though. I hope that whole family suffers till their last breath.

[Anonymous No.15180845]

I have no interest in Lacan. But the insight that the 'master' can only exercise Jouissance through the 'slave' is one of the most useful dramatical patterns I've ever heard. You can seemingly invert any sort of relationship by presented the junior or lesser is the one with the 'real power'. Not only that, but it's a useful shorthand to describe real world relationships like Codependent types where you think one person is doing al the 'heavy lifting' but actually that's what they want.
I wish I could find more of these kind of dramtical patterns. It's like having a invisible scaffolding to instantly construct the conflict necessary for a story.

[Anonymous No.15180983]

>>15178359
I think I need to become insular and not tell people my problems, even those supposedly close to me. People are liars when they say they will not judge you or think any less of you for opening up to them. Even if they do not consciously think it, it seeps into their subconscious and they begin to resent you. And no matter how close someone is to you, as you as you open up, that's leverage that can and will be used against you.

Tangentially, when I have expressed myself "truly" in the past (and even then I filter myself), I sensed that people were thinking "how can they be upset about that"? Or,"look how experientially deprived he is". Or, "look how his views deviate from the norm (even on innocuous matters) - he must be somewhat out of touch". Maybe I'm experiencing the boundaries of language.

The truth is, I think about certain things a lot and feel as though I have a better read of social dynamics then people believe me to have. Now, this is conjecture and chances are others have the same view about their external circumstances. but I cannot for the life of me accept the platitudes and truisms of others which they likely don't believe themselves in their heart of hearts.

I have relatively normal social life and these musings are ones that I have not shared with anyone I know. I know that hoarding personal problems, anxieties and true beliefs can be pressure cooker but I'm too much coward and evidently care too much about what people think of me because I do not want to be a social pariah.

Thank you for reading this blogpost. Maybe some anons can relate.

[Anonymous No.15180997]

>>15180619
That's why Russian lit is infinitely more based.

[Anonymous No.15181083]

Three days of no porn. Of no jerking off. I'm honestly shocked how difficult it is to not do something.

[Anonymous No.15181114]

I like scrabble. It's one of my favorite games, because I'm very good at it. Where every other form of thinking feels like swimming upstream, putting letters into words feels natural and innate. All other forms of abstraction and logical connection are a struggle against my natural abilities, but arranging letters into words is perfectly simple. Playing scrabble is like cool water.

But I couldn't compete in a scrabble tournament. I wouldn't get close to the top. Success in competitive scrabble depends not on finding long word patterns in difficult situations, but in memorizing short ones, in thinking geometrically about the board, in sacrificing creativity for speed. The most optimized scrabble play is an entirely different game from the thing I'm good at. It wouldn't even be fun.

It's like this with everything. Optimization kills the nature of the thing being optimized. But greatness is the goal, isn't it? Aristotle says that the singular objective in nature is perfection of potential. So why does the objective of perfection seem tamp down the soul in everything? It would be perfect to feed all the hungry people, but the optimization of food production kills the soul of living off the land. We want perfect communication and connection among humans, but the optimization of that connection has been the downfall of human unity. As we create more perfect products– unblemished cups without sign of man-manufacture, long uncrumpled sheets of aluminum, identically-machined silicone chips – are we leaving anything of value behind?

Sometimes I think it's just me, that there's something in my nature that gravitates toward mediocrity, that there is a fineness of soul out there that could bear the brunt of perfection and not be burnt by it. But then what will we do when all the perfection created by that soil is hoisted onto people not strong enough to bear it?

What can I read that talks about this? And maybe doesn't using fucking scrabble as the entry point? How can I find a perfection to stumble towards, without fearing a great flattening as I reach the end?

[Anonymous No.15181170]

All i have left is sadness and anger underneath it.

[Anonymous No.15181175]

>>15181170
me too. is there anyone happy left out there?

[Anonymous No.15181228]

>>15180983
I commiserate with your sentiments. For a while, I've been grappling with a similar problem. Don't lose all hope, though: true friendship is possible. You just have to find people that align well with you.
From your post, I get the sense that you live on the edge between normalcy and the realm inhabited by your stereotypical neets, sexually unsuccessful men, and the like. Maybe you're a virgin; maybe you've gotten laid but still long for young love consigned to a past that never was. Maybe you're in a place dominated by a certain political worldview, but you harbor heresies that you can't purge. Maybe I'm completely off the mark. But it seems to me that this is the situation: you're not a normalfag, but you can pass as one.
The most important fact is this: you really won't be judged for sharing your problems -- as long as you've got the right ones. On the contrary, if this criterion is met, sharing your true self with others can create the deepest friendships. But what does it mean to have the right problems? Here's an example of the opposite: if you're talking with your stereotypical Chad type and you complain that it's been too long since you've fucked (to use an example that may or may not be true), he will judge you and look down on you. This is because your problem reveals its source to harbor a completely different outlook on life and set of experiences than his. It outs you as "low-status", lacking the qualifications needed to be in the club.
If, however, you share this problem with people who you know have similar difficulty getting laid, it suddenly becomes a catalyst for bonding. The other members of the group will hear their fears acknowledged and appreciate you for doing so. That's how brotherhood is forged.
So your solution -- which isn't necessarily easy at all -- is to find people around whom you don't have to hide your powerlevel. If you're in a setting with enough people, then they're guaranteed to be out there. Befriend these weirdos, these misfits, and you'll be able to escape from a hell of facades.
On a side note: just about all of what I wrote applies to men and men only. Insecurity repels women. Of course, if you're in a loving relationship, you shouldn't close yourself off from your girlfriend entirely. Women like being able to rally behind their men as they tackle problems head-on. But when it comes to exposing your own self-doubts and internal psychic struggles, unless they're the "cool and brooding" type, keep that for your male friends. Occasionally, though, you may find a woman who asks you to spill your deepest fears to her. Experience has taught me that these types are some of the most dangerous: they turn your own confessions against you in order to make you solely dependent on them. Maybe there's a unicorn of a woman out there who genuinely seeks to care for you. If you find her, treasure her forever. But be wary of impostors.

[Anonymous No.15181296]

>>15181175
probably normalfags

[Anonymous No.15181305]

>>15178359
When i read philosophical texts i have a very hard time understanding everything, im beginning to think im dumb or dyslexic or something.

s the only way to solve this to just power through the texts with the sole goal of just understanding what is being said?

[Anonymous No.15181314]

>>15181296
I don't think they're happy

[Anonymous No.15181315]

>>15181114
Damn. I hope somebody answers this question.

[Anonymous No.15181326]

>>15181314
Why not? They atleast appear happy.

[Anonymous No.15181359]

Being genuine is so hard. I try to write something close to my heart. Something that if someone critiques I would feel genuinely hurt, but I keep everything I do behind this layer of active hate and irony. I think that maybe the only things that I keep close to my heart are discontent and active nihilism.
If I recall correctly there was something last year that I did have an obsession with. I wrote about it and wanted to so it well, but that was just a fetish. It quickly burnt out. It was more than a fetish. It was and it wasn't. I have great trouble separating the two. I'm gay because I fuck dudes. I see it as a fetish, but others see it as a lifestyle. How happy they are. Genuine souls who wish me well.
I want to be like Rimbaud. Screaming for demons to flay my skin. I can not. I flay my own skin. Metaphorically of course. Everything is grey. I'm enjoying the grey. I want to take that grey and smear it across the walls. I wish I was edgyier. Paint the walls black. I wish I was lighter. A good person doing good things.

Genuine passion? I just made a VN was that not passion? No, that was a shitpost intent on causing pain. It held no other water. I can't articulate my suffering on 4chan how am I going to articulate it through a story?

[Anonymous No.15181376]

I watched a meme review of the new carameldansen meme. The one where they play the song and have a depressing visual. The YouTuber called it an Ironic meme. I deeply disagree with that. This has to be one of the most genuine memes of this year. All of the cermeldensen kids growing up, sitting in their tiny apartments clinging onto the good times. The turn of the century kids are just now experiencing the death of their childhoods.

>>15181305
Try an audiobook. Or find a better translation.

[Anonymous No.15181457]

>>15181326
I used to be normal, and I've known a lot of normal people. Those normals who appear happy most often on closer inspection seem to merely be blank at best, and faking it at worst.

Maybe it's me, but it's been a long time since I've known someone who was happy. All my prime examples of happy people seem lately to be showing cracks. Maybe it's me.

[Anonymous No.15181461]

>>15181228
It means a lot that you replied to me anon. I just thought I’d let you know that before anything else.
>From your post, I get the sense that you live on the edge between normalcy and the realm inhabited by your stereotypical neets, sexually unsuccessful men, and the like. Maybe you're a virgin; maybe you've gotten laid but still long for young love consigned to a past that never was.
I’m a blend of these things. I’m too ambitious to be a NEET. However, I am a virgin and pine for a love that I have never experienced. I am young but yes, there is a fear that I will be “consigned”. The girls I’ve been drawn to were not drawn to me, but the girls that wanted me I did not want. The irony is, in my more lucid states, I am deeply aware of the farce that is romantic love. I just need to observe my parents, my friends’ relationships and the rest of the world for that matter.
>The other members of the group will hear their fears acknowledged and appreciate you for doing so. That's how brotherhood is forged.
Interestingly, a large part of me believes that I have found that right now. However, this group has had greater success with women. There are other points of difference to make but it would make this reply longer than it needs to be so I’ll focus mostly on this topic as it’s a very good proxy. Nevertheless, if I were to truly speak my anxieties, the extent to which my failed romances have eaten me up on the inside, I intuit that I would seem feverish or at least unstable to the extent that I am awkward to be around in some respects. That perception of me would seep into other things which will evolve into an overall lack of respect for me. I know because I have done this to others. I’m not stupid enough to believe I’m not an asshole like everyone else.
> On a side note: just about all of what I wrote applies to men and men only. Insecurity repels women.
I can recall an instance quite vividly where this has happened. Let it be known that I will never make this mistake again. That’s a point that I seem to disagree on with almost everyone I know. To me, it is a great oversight and naivety on their behalf. Unfortunately, my assessment of these things lacks social credos because of less experience. Yet I have seen this happen time and time again to others.

[Anonymous No.15181498]

>>15181376
I tried listening to philosophy but my mind wanders too often and i had the same problem of not understanding. With books i have the option to reread sections at least. I would understand if i was dumb otherwise but i didnt score dumb-levels on an IQ test, is it because i slacked of in high school and my brain is underdeveloped or something?

[Anonymous No.15181560]

>>15181498
Idk man. Here I'll impart onto you the two words that shaped my life philosophy more than they should have in my formative years.
"Git gud."

[Anonymous No.15181623]

>>15181457
There are different subtypes of happy people - happy persona, happy because you're running from inner problems and genuinely happy.

[Anonymous No.15181660]

>>15181560
Haha tanks, i will stick with it.

[Anonymous No.15181811]

I have porn addiction. I usually read Ntr and this type of doujins but I don't see my self as cuck but some times i see myself as Dom guy or person from above TRP.
I have seen increasing amount of Bbc cuck treads on /gif and in porn in general. Too much of cuck porn is coming out.

And guy from 18-24 are searching for cuck shit. Is it then end for us.
Guys already have penis problems mine is small mine is medium, manlets crying. All of this and Watching porn in that guys have big dicks and they get women easily.
Their insecurities and porn making it worse by Watching cuck shit.

I have been looking into this. I found some couples do it because they have talked and set boundaries. Some do it where wife has a husband a boyfriend and some sex toys as men.
Sometimes women lose respect and love for their man. And get motherly protected while fucking other men. In nearly every frame you look at it we give to much power to women and to our insecurities that eventually lead our fall.

I have read some stories where wife gets pregnant by the bull And cuck accepts it.wtf

In some cases women do slutty shit with bull but won't even kiss or touch cucks dick they completely deined sexual pleasure to their man and fuck with bull. Spent times with em watch movies. Where some women won't even let their men have fun with other women.
>We are giving too much power to women and Pussy

Women gets to act like sluts get fucked by anyone and they still have a "man" at disposal at home. Some of em have kids and still do this shit.
I'm not going against anyone's sexual preference.but it's automatically fucking up my generation. Setting us up to fail.

I don't know bro what the fuck to do.
I'm on Nofap and Noporn trying improve. And get over my insecurities. If I don't am I doomed

[Anonymous No.15181831]

I will write the same thing that is always on my mind.

Life is war, war is eternal, victory is survival

[Anonymous No.15181855]

>>15179688
And yet people like you insist that its the surgery that drives them to kill themselves, and not the stigma? Kill yourself, evil little shit.

[Anonymous No.15181863]

Women are a psyop. A way to sedate men and keep us from bloody revolt. Their judgment of us keeps us on our toes; we lap up to their spiritual, political and social beliefs because we are so scared to be without them. The beliefs of women are weak and easily swayed by passions. Empowered now by the destruction of the family women have been set “free”. As women no longer care for children so it follows they don't care for men. But man will forever care for women. Hell raise and we will still be at their guard. This is being taken advantage of and rotting the world.

[Anonymous No.15182040]

I should see the head-doctor while I still can recognize myself as mentally ill, but I keep having nightmares about the therapist telling me I'm completely normal. If that were the case, I would never be able to forgive myself and probably attempt suicide shortly after.

[Anonymous No.15182275]

>>15181811
There always been sexial deviants. The only difference is that theres more information about it.

[Anonymous No.15182298]

>>15181114
I hate Scrabble because my mom and grandma (mostly my grandma) would play and I'd play and my grandma would spend ten minutes for her turn and would always, always look up the word in this stupid Scrabble dictionary she bought even though we had an actual dictionary. She also chews with her mouth open and smacks. It was very annoying and ruined Scrabble for me.

[Anonymous No.15182310]

>>15180790
Don't get drunk and call Cait. Trust me.

[Anonymous No.15182334]

>>15180587
Big agree, or if you can produce what you write that way you write for yourself!

[Anonymous No.15182736]

>>15182334
Even with the self-production I find it hard. It's tricky to try and capture concisely and clearly thoughts.
How do you "write" a pantomime sequence without it being clunky and over technical?
Ingmar Bergman lamented that he couldn't write his films the way a composer does a musical score. Walter Murch suggested using I-Ching hexagrams, so I'm told, as a way of recording the interpersonal dynamics of film scenes.
I mean unless you're a skilled illustrator, how do you write a gesture? One or two you might be able to write a verbose sentence.
Now try and write Jacque Tati's Playtime... uhhh... try and write a Robert Clampett cartoon with every eye-bulge take, anthropomorphized flower, and contortion of a object at speed ... uhhh...

[Anonymous No.15182846]

I don't want to live up to my potential.

I was always very talented, from a young age. I've been given a place to study at the top university in the country. I have so much potential, I'm in a great relationship, I'm well-liked. People expect me to achieve great things.

I don't want to. I don't even want a job. My dream is to just be a drifter. Travel the world, not in an instagrammer way, but just hitchhiking from town to town, hopping on freight trains, leaving it all behind and seeing the world with my own eyes. The kind of hobo you see wandering their way slowly through the world.

I'm going to finish my degree, to make my parents happy. Then I'm out of here, on the first ticket going.

[Anonymous No.15182864]

>>15182846
isnt it just running away from responsibilities?

[Anonymous No.15183466]

>>15182846
oh look, another one of those

[Anonymous No.15183515]

>>15179688
people like you are admitting to stupid shit like this and then are surprised when hate speech becomes illegal

[Anonymous No.15183517]

>>15182846
>so much potential
Not with an attitude like that
You can freely carry on with these delusions, I won't stop you

[Anonymous No.15184155]

>5 years ago or so
>have an extremely vivid dream where I meet the most beautiful girl I've ever seen and fall in love
>the kind of beauty that makes you lightheaded to be around
>spend an entire life together, have a family, live out in a forest in a small house I built
>grow old together and die side by side
>wake up feeling like I had just experience an entire lifetime overnight
>just today realize that every single girl I've pursued or dated since that dream all look like her in some way
>my extremely specific taste is the butt of jokes with friends
>realize that I'm only attracted to her and can't have feelings for anyone who doesn't at least look similar to her
>I'm stuck trying to fill a hole left by someone who didn't even exist

[Anonymous No.15184904]

>>15184155
thats your anima, dummie. read jung and stop suffering over nothing.

[Anonymous No.15184908]

>>15179052
based and boomerpilled. death to all boomers, assault coof squads assemble.

[Anonymous No.15184919]

>>15182846
Based wasteful anti-productivity anon
Bataille would be proud

[Anonymous No.15185001]

I'm unemployed and will probably have to draw porn to survive. I don't have any regrets on this, at least my art may end up being profitable, and I'll get to train quite a bit on human body, skin tones, digital art, being able to do something really erotic and sexy

I'm researching how to 'break out' because that's probably the hardest part. It's not enough to be some Mogudan-tier (aka: really good) artist, but also getting noticed. Be it here on /ic/, invading drawthreads to post fanart of popular characters, tumblr, twitter, whatever. Social networks are alien to me so it even sounds kind of exciting to figure it out, if it weren't that my economic safety wasn't on the line.

After that part, things seem to take off nicely for everyone. I'm seriously considering paying a girl to pose as me, as being a girl would exponentially increase my popularity

[Anonymous No.15185037]

>want to read more books and finish ones i have half-read
>want to finish genrefiction novel i was working on for fun, since it's at 80% and probably marketable
>want to write new serious novel i did a mock-up for, just made a mental connection with what existing novel i want to model it after, then need to read all the prerequisite material for the research
>still studying for actual career job and second language
>downloading anime off IRC in the background, upgrading a tv rip to superior BD
>food in the oven, coffee in my mug
>city is in spring, cherry blossoms all over, flowers in people's front gardens i can look at while taking a stroll
>all the buses are free, can go anywhere i want
>on enhanced unemployment trumpbux and doing fine financially, have no worries
>health has improved
who /comfy/?

[Anonymous No.15185115]

>>15184904
Does that explain why she looks basically like a petite female version of myself? Every girl I've dated since I get told we look like siblings or even twins.

[Anonymous No.15185140]

>>15180593
is it adjusted with avg. life expectancy?

[Anonymous No.15185221]

I was just meditating when I suddenly had a very important epiphany. I was happy but I put the thought aside to focus on my breath and return to it when my meditation is over. Now it's over but I can't remember what it was. I can't even remember what it was about.

[Anonymous No.15185244]

>>15185221
Probably wasn't that important

[Anonymous No.15185271]

I want to write a poem about a Robot I found on here, who I schooled in losing their virginity. Not sure if cringe? I'm just bouncing ideas around in my head. I was going to call it "You don't belong here"

[Anonymous No.15185281]

>>15185244
I remember thinking it was *very* important. That's why I'm so dismayed about it.

[Anonymous No.15185335]

>>15179052
This, honestly.

[Anonymous No.15185393]

>>15185281
Insights derived from meditation are a lot like insights derived from psychedelic drugs. They just feel very profound at the time

[Anonymous No.15186030]

Man I'm thinking some really messed up shit right now, like if people could read my thoughts they'd probably run away screaming. Some people underestimate what I'm capable of, they just don't know. Then again, they underestimate just how patient I am. Sometimes I think I could really save humanity, other times I think I just might show them the dark grim truth that they're weak, the bottom of the food chain, how easily they can be destroyed. But I think it's better they find out for themselves, humans out there killing themselves off instead of helping one another...while I sit behind a rainy window looking on with a knowing smile...I warned them. But they're just too vain to listen. And I sit and wait for them to come to me in revenge, revenge on their once-friend who they turned their backs on, their prophet, their stoic... they don't want to mess with me, they better watch their backs.

[Anonymous No.15186044]

Culver's was good but I ate too much

[Anonymous No.15186088]

>>15178359

I hate niggers. I love the stock market. Why can't it be Monday, already? I can't wait to dab on the niggers. Ah, but I suppose weekends exist for writing books, these days.

[Anonymous No.15186105]

>>15178359
cheeseballs

[Anonymous No.15186124]

>>15186030
cool, have you taken your pills today?

[Anonymous No.15186159]

>>15186124
Not funny man, I could mess you up

[Anonymous No.15186195]

>>15186030
>mfw

[Anonymous No.15186213]

I want so dearly to say fuck it to all of my problems and experience maybe ten seconds of total and pure selfishness. I’m the only person in my family with any income rn because my mother is disabled and my father’s work is temporarily shut down due to the pandemic, and my colleagues are dropping the ball on some time-sensitive and really important project, so in all arenas I’m picking up the slack—working extra and double checking on my family’s financial needs etc. The anxiety is causing me physical pain and recurring nightmares. I just want ten fucking seconds to care only about myself! Fuck this whole situation!

[Anonymous No.15186294]

>>15186030
Dude if I were to cross you on the streets I'd end you. You're a wimp.

[Anonymous No.15186346]

>>15186030
>Sometimes I think I could really save humanity, other times I think I just might show them the dark grim truth

[Anonymous No.15186392]

>>15186030
Now I'm craving a full-length book like this. A Confederacy of Dunces 2: Chuuni Edition. Someone write it.

[Anonymous No.15186867]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!

[Anonymous No.15187702]

>>15178359
A stale, foul odor remained where he had stood.
His eyes and mouth were open but they didn't move. That expression would be his last.
I picked up the tumbler of rye whiskey he had left in his hurry and swilled its contents.
"Such a skull would make a fine spitoon," I observed, wiping the droplets from my mustache.
I turned around to see a small crowd of onlookers.
"Did ya'll enjoy the show?"
I strode past them and they parted silently, averting my gaze.
A little girl, not more than 8 or 9 years old, breached the wall of bodies near the door and spoke up.
"Mister, what did you do?".
I came to a stop.
"Mary Belle, quiet!", A faceless voice chided.
Her face was pale and round. Cheeks red and mouth like a small button with lips pursed in contempt.
Such a face I would wish for my own daughter.
I went down to one knee in front of her.
"Mary Belle, is it?"
"Mary Belle Louise, if you please."
I smiled at her propriety.
"Well, Mrs.Louise, you see that man on the ground over there?"
"I see him."
"Mrs.Louise that man was wanted for murder in three counties. He had even killed a little girl just like you."
Her eyes narrowed.
"So I killed him before he could find another little girl to kill. Is that alright with you?"
She looked down for a moment and then raised her head.
"Yes, that's alright."
Then she ran forward and gave my arm a tiny hug.
"Thank you."

[Anonymous No.15187781]

i am in equal measure horny and severely depressed and have spent the past hour or so in a post-coom crisis state, and i will likely coom once more and face one more crisis. when will i learn, bros? i am a retard.

[Anonymous No.15187824]

>>15187781
You have to take active measures against your retardation anon. You have to thwart yourself. If you get good at it, you will by implication know yourself.

[Anonymous No.15187860]

>>15181855
I don't care either way. They are already mentally fucked and it amuses me to watch them suffer. What do you think the girls think when they see posts from a loser who gets assfucked by an overweight tranny? They'll laugh at him and he'll just sit there and take it like the chimp he is.

[Anonymous No.15187876]

I can't wait to see the look on those loser's faces when buffalo bill's wrists are slashed. Never forget who was the handsome man who sent him to Hell.

[Anonymous No.15187901]

>>15182310
To be serious for a moment, can you tell Karina to get Erika to come back. I really miss her.

[Anonymous No.15187918]

Literally if you guys got Erika to come back and taught me to drive, I would leave you all alone. I would even stop trying to get that tranny to kill himself, maybe.

[Anonymous No.15187934]

I would like to get married and have children. My rule for dating is that I'm generally going for women younger than me, since I'm a little on the older side. But I've drawn a line at dating girls more than ten years younger. I think that seems prudent.

[Anonymous No.15188182]

>>15178359
"I wish I had cancer".
"What did you say, Tommy?" asked Cliff raising his head from his paper
"I said I wish I had cancer" replied Tommy.
"Oh" said Cliff and went back to reading,

[Anonymous No.15188532]

>>15178359
Is it bad to steal a girl from her boyfriend if she's unhappy in her relationship? What if he's a fucking loser (stocks shelves overnight and has done so for years) and she's beautiful and educated (has a Bachelor's degree)?

I'm doing it anyways I'm just looking for further justification.

[Anonymous No.15188539]

>>15188532
The strong do what they can, the weak suffer what they must.

[Anonymous No.15188616]

>>15188532
Sure the argument is to be made that I'm a prick but I'm pretty sure she's unsatisfied in her relationship (she hasn't confessed as much but those are the vibes I'm picking up).

In nature is it a tragedy for a fattened calf to be picked off by wolves when it is not well guarded? No, it is to be expected!

Sure it would be a tragedy if she was in a happy relationship and I manipulated her into sex. But in this case I am simply pushing her out of a plateau that would eventually lead to stagnation.

If I didn't make a move in five years time she'd be unhappy and even bitter - she'd feel like she's settled (This was the case with another couple I knew. The woman settled for mediocrity because she was afraid of the alternative. How she wanted me!).

If anything it would be immoral not to break up their relationship. His mediocre genes will have to settle for a mediocre mate. Whereas through my striving I shall find a mate who's intelligence and beauty will make my offspring that much stronger!

[Anonymous No.15188640]

I would rather live in a fascist state than waotch this degeneracy continue

[Anonymous No.15188646]

>>15188532
Having a Bachelor's doesn't make her educated

[Anonymous No.15188659]

>>15188532
I don't really know the definition of ''steal'' for these situations. If she ever decided to be with you and left his bf for you, you never stole anything from him, because she decided it. Also if she cheat on you or she left you in any moment don't be surprise

[Anonymous No.15188664]

I legitimately can not stand most of you but I am willing to suck it up if you just do as I ask. I fucking swear. I can be nice.

[Anonymous No.15188690]

>>15188646
Compared to him she is. She's intelligent (we did Speech and Debate together in high school) and that's really what attracts me to her

[Anonymous No.15188696]

I'm a really cute person, I love reading, I have friends, people flirt with me, and I love my career and I put my heart on it because I really want to be able to help people, but honestly I feel kind of lost. I'm in therapy for about 5 months ago and I'm just scared that people I love just leave me because I need constant reassurance, and I'm so exhauting. I just hope I find someone that really can stand with me.

[Anonymous No.15188708]

>>15188696
retard, one can only love themselves and if you seek it from any other place you will be used as a means to an end and nothing more

[Anonymous No.15188728]

>>15188708
thanks, anon. Sometimes I forget about it.

[Anonymous No.15188736]

I would even be nice to the V- family and you all know how much they irritate me. I would legitimately suck it up and be friendly though.

[Anonymous No.15188755]

My cool fleet died in Starsector and I was playing on ironman mode so it's gone forever

I had a Wolf frigate with a bunch of custom torpedoes on it so that I could phase skip right up a dude's ass and fire big hot red torpedoes up his ass hole. It was the most fun I ever had and now it's gone. I got too cocky bros. At least as I was spinning out I fired one last bullshit torpedo salvo and got a lucky hit and blew some fat nigger assault freighter to niggereens

[Anonymous No.15188771]

I want a cute, loving gf that will spend each day with me then fall asleep holding my hand. The fact that I’ll never have this, because it is a delusional desire born out of romanticism, makes me want to kill myself.

[Anonymous No.15188776]

>>15188755
You're gonna make it, bro

[Anonymous No.15188853]

>>15178359
I've always been fascinated by guys who have a magnetic attraction for women. Even women I regard as smart and independent become like putty under some guys' spell. I've been trying to incorporate those aspects in myself. It makes me cynical, though, to think that courting women is just a matter of social manipulation. I know I can score a cutie if I try hard enough but I want women to come to me the way some guys get them.

I especially want to fuck Megan. I want to get her wet and make her cum. She's a puzzle, smart like a Rubik's cube. I want to put the pieces together and make her my little slut.

[Anonymous No.15188910]

My mom said recently that I act like I've been through some horrible trauma. It was right after I told her about how as soon as you have something someone will ruin it. I do act like I've been through some horrible trauma, I don't like sitting in a room where I can't see all exits, I place my backpack in my lap in public, I turn sidewayish in lines to avoid people being directly behind me.
The kicker is that I haven't had any trauma. I know that people will ruin what you hold dear as soon as it's public from video games. The others where just taught to me.
Maybe people learn from both big and small traumas and I just have a lot of small traumas.

[Anonymous No.15188965]

>To him who has everything everything shall be given; to him that has nothing everything shall be taken.

This applies to everything: success, money, women. What's the alternative? Christianity seemed to be a good basis for flattening the Pareto distribution, at least somewhat, but what's a good alternative?

Socialism? Maybe, but I feel my country is much too large to implement socialism successfully. Why should I, being in the PNW, care about the people in New York, and vice versa. Socialism will fail in this country simply because we don't have the empathy large enough to sustain 300 million people.

The only way forward I see is the Balkanization of the US. Let New York take care of New York; California for California. If Wyoming wants less government let them; if California wants a nanny state let them at least attempt it.

Spiritually I have no answer for the Pareto Principle, I am Nietzschean in part by necessity. But politically I think a series of independent states, cities, and principalities is the best path forward.

[Anonymous No.15189049]

I have had dandruff for years and it's starting to piss me off, it dosen't really itch and it's only in some places but still i keep thinking it goes away and then it just comes back.

[Anonymous No.15189055]

>>15189049
I had it even when I used head and shoulders like a motherfucker, then I switched to selsen blue which is supposedly the exact same chemical and it instantly went away forever.

[Anonymous No.15189092]

>>15181811
you could maybe learn a little english too

[Anonymous No.15189106]

>>15181831
you're stupid

[Anonymous No.15189124]

>>15186030
>while I sit behind a rainy window looking on with a knowing smile...I warned them
probably the gayest thing anyone has wrote ever.
>I warned them
Have you even talked to a human yet buddy?

[Anonymous No.15189262]

>>15186030
Hey man, I'm sorry if you're hurt and you're lonely. I don't know your situation and I don't know your path.

I pray that you find people who can convince you that we're not all bad, that we don't all deserve to be destroyed. I hope you find the love that should've been given to you, because you deserve love and you deserve to be happy.

Because the reality is that life is indeed a bleak, cruel place. But despite of that we can still care for each other, we can make life worth living. I hope I'm not just praying in vain but I give some of my love to you, Anon. I pray that you can open up your heart and give people a chance, the right ones, because they can be sometimes hard to find.

Jung said that terrible heights also come with terrible depths, but that the reverse is also true. If you can conquer the darkness inside of you then you can be a force for good in the world, I pray that you just give it a chance.

I love you Anon.

[Anonymous No.15189281]

>>15186346
There are two wolves, man. I know it's cliche as fuck but it's really true. Our actions really do determine reality. Every choice we make, either good or bad, has ramifications for all of eternity. We can make the world a better place or a worse place, so you're correct in saying you can save humanity.

I hope you can find love and those deserving of love. We can build up or we can tear down. And it's a lot harder to build things up than tear them down.

God Bless you anon. I know it might not mean much but you'll be in my thoughts.

[Anonymous No.15189432]

I failed the bar exam again. I don’t even know what to feel. I just feel so empty. What am I even doing with my life anymore.

[Anonymous No.15189459]

>>15188532
Vronsky stop

[Anonymous No.15189513]

>>15189432
I hear being a lawyer is a shit career path nowadays so maybe it's for the best. Unless of course you paid for law school in which case better try a third time cuz there's no going back bro!

[Anonymous No.15189517]

>>15189106
Why? He's right

[Anonymous No.15189542]

>>15189513
Yeah, I’m in quite a bit of student debt. My whole life is revolves around the law for the past 4 years. I don’t even know what my skill set outside of legal writing is. The economy is collapsing, so it’s not as if I’d be making bank as a lawyer anyway. I don’t know man. Thanks for the reply.

[Anonymous No.15189557]

>>15189542
Ya sorry man that seems like rough situation. Who knows, maybe things will improve eventually. Law might be in a totally different situation in 10 years. If we do break into separate countries like I hope we do (assuming you're American) lawyers will definitely be needed in the resulting clusterfuck.

[Anonymous No.15189602]

>>15189542
But even if you get in a situation where you can pay off your debt - don't.

Fuck the fed, let them choke on their sin of usury. Let the whole system come crashing down on those cocksuckers.

Kronos' sin was eating his own children. See now how the ruling class has eaten us with crushing debt? More and more we are saddled with the sins of our fathers. I say shed the yoke that is not yours to bare! And let this whole fucking system of gluttony and greed, of high fructose corn syrup and the petrodollar, come crashing down!

The tree of liberty must be refreshed from time to time with the blood of patriots and tyrants.

Let us open up the fat fucking spleens of the rich and degenerate; let their fucking bile fall into the ground as a penance of their sin. Let us feed the next generation with the offal of our Grandfather's who refused to feed our mouths. I want to burn this motherfucker to the ground, if it means that liberty can rise from it's ashes.

[Anonymous No.15189633]

>>15189602
Based naive revolutionary. Unfortunately the essence of the human creature is static and transcends epochs.

[Anonymous No.15189648]

>>15189633
Well then let's at least overthrow Kronos and make way for the Olympiads.

[Anonymous No.15189716]

I am the happiest person i know.

I know exactly the way i want my life to go and I know that i have the ability to make it all happen. Everyone around me seems at a loss for purpose or utterly beaten and defeated by life and I find it hard to share my positivity without coming off like i'm mocking them, as in "dood just be happy lmao".

t. a 27 year old bloomer

[Anonymous No.15189750]

Any references on how to make a domestic, slice of life, typical household drama story but with a cosmic horror twist? I'm making a story of an abused child who shared his mind with a cosmic horror monster, but refuses to stand up against his parents since he doesn't know if his parents also has stronger monsters inside their bodies

[Anonymous No.15189756]

>>15189716
You seem really self-assured having to proclaim your transcendence to a Thai fish farming forum

[Anonymous No.15189758]

>>15189750
Reminds me a little bit of that Parasite anime

[Anonymous No.15189775]

>>15189716
Nice, Bro!

[Anonymous No.15189814]

>>15189716
What compels you to share positivity over say something like philanthropy
If you are only interested in seeing people smile when you are around, you might as well get a clown costume

>>15189750
How does your story differentiate the cosmic horror monster from a mental illness, or the hoardes of 'voices in my head' tropes

[Anonymous No.15189840]

Recurring vision I had 2 years ago:
In the not so distant future, state media and scientists will think to be on the brink of a discovery that liberates them from Earth. They will claim Earth is used up and that it’s our responsibility to leave it. The problem is that the amount of oil required for these hyperadvanced technologies is immense. And this oil has already dwindled greatly as the expense of progress. Oil will be used up quicker than ever before as the stakes for transhumanism rise with quality of life decreasing due to oil scarcity. The vision ends with a rocket ship holding the elect shakily piercing the atmosphere but then stalling in vacant space, letting gravity pull it back into the cesspit it neurotically attempted to apotheose.
But what if in the final mad moments in which all of humanity’s spirit is piqued the impossible becomes true? Alchemy performs a miracle allowing the infinite to be drawn from the finite?

[Anonymous No.15189850]

>>15189814

Hmm... This is why id never make a book at all in my life, nothing feels original anymore and I tend to give up so easily since my ideas are probably had already done by someone better

[Anonymous No.15189872]

>>15189850
Dont let that guys negativity affect you. I thought it was an interesting premise.

[Anonymous No.15189886]

I hate you all so fucking much. You are all so fucking stupid and you don't even realize it. You think it's a silly game and I'm going to say "gotcha" and reveal I wanted to be your friend the while time but deep inside the truth is I think you are all incorigable simpletons that I am stuck with for the rest of my fucking life. I literally can not even have a fucking friend or a job or anything. All I get is torment. From harassment by my mother and exclusion as a kid to this present day Hell, my life has been sheer torture. My last option is to take pills and put on a haply face and pretend to be your friends when really I hate every last fucking one of you.

[Anonymous No.15189911]

>>15189872

Thank you Anon... I kinda want to write the story with a lot of offensive humor and maybe typical angst stuff, but in all seriousness it's all just a comfy simple story, like a weekly comic strip

[Anonymous No.15189913]

I love Edmund Kemper so fucking much. He would put you all in your fucking place. Let's see you try to harass me after your head is sawn off and darts thrown at it.

[Anonymous No.15189922]

>>15189886
What's the matter, Friend-o? :)

[Anonymous No.15189926]

>>15189922
Look behind you, it's rose and her husband. Dont tell them but I will cut his testicles off and make her eat them later. It is a silly prank I am planning.

[Anonymous No.15189933]

>>15189913
Aww is someone gwumpy today?

[Anonymous No.15189945]

>>15189933
I wish Fanny was a random hitchhiker I had met. I would disembowel her and bury her in the forest.

[Anonymous No.15189961]

>>15189933
I am so fucking stupid. If I was smarter, I could have just pretended to be your friends and pumped you full of insulin like Harold Shipman and taken your things. No one would have had the faintest idea.

[Anonymous No.15189989]

I think you are all fucking beneath me and I think it is fucking shit that I have to fall to my fucking knees and pretend to be your fucking friend when really I hate your fucking guts!!!

[Anonymous No.15190003]

>>15189961
Fortunately for you, Anon, if the system continues to collapse you may have a chance to satiate your bloodlust. Of course, the feeling is mutual. You are an abomination, an aberration masquerading as a human being. If I encounter you during the coming crisis I will destroy you.

[Anonymous No.15190014]

>>15190003
Those idiots can not even say "okay, that is that" and go their own way. They have to harass me every day like I want to read their ill imformed, stupid fucking opinions. Hey retards, what are you even doing on a philosophy forum? GP THE FUCK AWAY!!!

[Anonymous No.15190022]

>>15190014
:)

[Anonymous No.15190040]

>>15190022
I have to be smarter if I want to do anything. I should have been born in the Vietnam or Ted Bundy times. I would have done so much. "No, you wouldn't. All talk. Bla bla bla." Okay, you keep believing that.

[Anonymous No.15190063]

I really like the fake cast thing. Bundy used a cast and crutches and then when the girls let their guard down, he strangled and stabbed them.

[Anonymous No.15190071]

If I could, I would literally just drive 6 states away and try that right now. "No, you wouldnt. No, you wouldnt." Okay.

[Anonymous No.15190083]

>>15186030
Ooo, edgy.

[Anonymous No.15190130]

Rose, your iq is like 80. I doubt you have read anything that isn't on the back of a cereal box. Same thing with Jaime and most of them. Why shouldn't I get rid of dead weight?

[Anonymous No.15190166]

I'll be graduating high school in just more than a month's time, yet I have no idea what college I want to go to. I have no real plans for what I want to do with my life, nor do I have any goals, desires, or passions. All I really want is to be loved, understood, accepted. That's likely a pipe dream, though, as I feel like I'm an inherently unlikable person, being an aimless, obsequious child who likes to wallow in self-pity and self-deprecation.
I've somehow managed to make it this far in spite of my lack of motivation, but this year, with all the stress and pressure I'm facing, the stopgap walls I've built are starting to crumble and fall down around me.
I often think of killing myself, but I don't think I'd be able to go through with it if I had the chance. Yet at the same time, I really can't see any other way my life could go. For now, though, I'll simply continue putting off thinking about these matters any further.

[Anonymous No.15190186]

In Feudal Japan, samurais tested out their swords on random peasants and what do you think Manifest Destiny was? You people live in fucking pussy world and don't know what real pain is or what the real hierarchy js.

[Anonymous No.15190187]

>>15178359
I'm currently doing a BA in linguistics and Japanese. My electives are filled with two years of classes in Latin and Attic Greek (potentially 2.5) and my plan is to TEFL in Japan after I graduate. Should I do a double major or a minor only in Japanese? I would like to replace the two boring mandatory Japanese major classes with elective classes in Latin Republican poetry or Roman drama, and Greek literature and history or post-Classical poetry, but I'm not sure how that will affect my employability. Thoughts?

[Anonymous No.15190204]

>>15179640
>>15179688
>>15187860
>What do you think the girls think when they see posts from a loser who gets assfucked by an overweight tranny?
What the fuck are you talking about, what girls, what posts? You are coming across as more mentally unstable than whatever poor soul you are trying to bully to suicide. Seek help, anon. Find Jesus. Repent for your sins.

Failing that, I have reported your posts to the FBI. Just linking all of them here so its easy for them to see when they turn up in the thread. Hope you have a good lawyer.

[Anonymous No.15190222]

>>15190204
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND. I DO NOT WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND. YOU ARE AN IDIOT AND DO NOT BELONG ON A PHILOSOPHY FORUM- PERIOD.

[Anonymous No.15190239]

>>15190186
Easy times make weak men

[Anonymous No.15190253]

What the fuck do idiots like that turk sandnigger shit even think? I clearpy dialike you and do not want to be your friend. Do you want me to put on a fake fucking smile and be your friend? I clearly wouldn't fucking mean it. I would clearly stil dislike you inside. Same thing with Roae and her stupid fucking shitheads.

[Anonymous No.15190266]

Khan, Arnieri, Madchen and Abordo- those are the only ones I don't fucking despise. The rest of you are completely retarded and need to ficking die.

[Anonymous No.15190293]

>>15190222
>all caps
Whatever, schizo. My money is on you getting sectioned rather than put in jail.

[Anonymous No.15190295]

I wish Rose was herw right fucking now. I would make her last moments a living Hell.

[Anonymous No.15190302]

>>15190293
I DO NOT WANT YOUR FRIENDSHIP. I DO NOT WANT YOUR FRIENDSHIP. I DO NOT WANT YOUR FRIENDSHIP.

[Anonymous No.15190329]

>>15190302
t.

[Anonymous No.15190332]

I can generally tell whose comments are whose and there is nothing that peeves me off more than vege or roses stupid brats. You are fucking idiots and I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND OR SOMEONE WHO WANTS TO BE YOUR FRIEND- PERIOD!!!! I am willing to give money or anything but take a fucking hint and leave me alone.

[Anonymous No.15190344]

>>15190329
I'M NOT YOUR FUCKING FRIEND AND HARASSONG ME WITH YOUR INANE STUPID COMMENTS DOES NOT MAKE ME YOUR FRIEND. GO THE FUCK AWAY AND LEAVE ME THE FUCKINH HELL ALONE

[Anonymous No.15190353]

I wish I didn't know you people. I really wish I didn't. I wish I had my own better job and a car and a house to live in and you would all go the fuck away forever.

[Anonymous No.15190402]

>>15190344
>waaah I don't want to be harassed online but I take gratuitous pleasure in bullying someone to the point of suicide in real life
You brought this on yourself. And also how the fuck is cyberbulling real nigga hahaha just close your eyes like nigga just switch off the computer hahaha

[Anonymous No.15190438]

>>15190402
The tranny is the one harassing me and most of them too. I do not want their fucking friendship at all. If everyone just accepted that and then helped me to stand on my feet there would be no problem. I go this way and you go that way. That sounds like a good idea.

[Anonymous No.15190446]

>>15190402
What's wrong with that at all? I go this way and you go that way.

[Anonymous No.15190456]

I just want to suppory myself, that is it. I will fucking suck it up if you can teach me to drive. Most of you irritate the shit out of me but I will suck it up and keep it balled up.

[Anonymous No.15190473]

I wouldn't fucking pretend to not know you if I wanted anything to do with you but I will suck it fucking up I swear to fucking God. Just teach me to drive.

[Anonymous No.15190498]

Roses husband had a lardass friend who was supposed to teach me to drive but he stopped because lardass 1 told him to. What a lardass scumbag. Lardass scumbag. Cant even teach me to fucking drive or let me work a job. Has to fire me and harass me? Why? Because cut the mutilated jew up. Shoot that fat wetback in the head and then flay the skin. Let the lord cry tears of pain and laughter at the dead mongrelized chimp

[Anonymous No.15190512]

Stab stab stab stab. My name is Karp Kopfrkingl and the death awaits you.

Jenom smrt smrt smrt smrt

[Anonymous No.15190587]

>>15189092

I'm learning but there's just too much on my plate right now.

[Anonymous No.15190601]

>>15190166
I've been there. I recommend travelling. See the sights and get a bigger perspective of the world. That's what I wish I would've done when I was your age. Don't feel like you have to go to school right away if you don't want to. I did and I ended up wasting a lot of time because I was depressed and didn't know what I wanted to do.

[Anonymous No.15190695]

>>15178359
I want to experiment with non traditional sleep cycles, eg 24x12 or 32x16. I'm currently experimenting by accident: I drank some coffee last night and I'm currently awake at 7 in the morning.

When we go to space we won't be tied to any specific schedule, so why not try experimenting now? For me of course the obstacle is the 9-5 grind. Luckily it's the weekend

[Anonymous No.15190705]

>>15190695
Of course the obstacle of escaping work is something many spend their entire lives on. I'm going to move back in with my family and try to work at the mines. If I go underground I could clear over 100k a year. I do that for several years (even if it means living with the folks at 30) I would have several hundred thousand to build my fortune. Then I can escape work, and spend my days playing with circuits and writings political statements about the dissolution of the United States.

[Anonymous No.15190710]

>>15178359
Corona-lockdown has left me with too much time, and I am drawn back to this hellish place for the first time since '18, and it is fucking horrible.

[Anonymous No.15190720]

>>15190710
They always come back

[Anonymous No.15190765]

How do you escape depression?

[Anonymous No.15190774]

>>15190765
By fighting it. Doing things, creating things, finding a sense of purpose through philosophy are all things that have helped me. Depression is a part of me, and if I don't watch it it becomes a weight that drags me down. But at least I have hope.

[Anonymous No.15190833]

>>15190765
>>15190765
I don't see it as a bad thing in itself anymore. In the same way you feel pain when you touch a hot stove, feeling shit all the time was probably a good survival strategy once upon a time. It is quite unbearable at times, but I trust its intuition like other primordial emotions to identify what I'm doing wrongly. I just have to make my resolve stronger than my pain. Whatever you do, don't make the mistake of making it an external enemy. In my case, it probably is just my natural disposition towards life.

[Emily Dickinson No.15190887]

I'm Nobody! Who are you?
Are you – Nobody – too?
Then there's a pair of us!
Don't tell! they'd advertise – you know!

How dreary – to be – Somebody!
How public – like a Frog –
To tell one's name – the livelong June –
To an admiring Bog!

[Anonymous No.15190977]

What age do wet dreams stop?
I'm 20 and have had 6 during the lockdown.

[Anonymous No.15190994]

>>15190765
You don't. As the other anons have said, you live with it.

What frustrates is when normies characterise depression as some transient anomaly. Even if someone has a for an extended period of time its seen as a deviation from the norm. The true characterisation of it is that it is a realisation of the vanity of existence and an acknowledgment of its existential roots. The popular clinical/CBT/therapy-based approach avoids this truth (perhaps intentionally). You don't "get over" depression like the common cold. Yet they seem to treat like a bad dream that they woke up from.

I have found that in moments of joy, there remains a latent consciousness of how ephemeral that joy is. All is vanity. I'd be liar if I said I wasn't striving however. I'm viewed by others as ambitious, driven and a hard-worker and all. In my clearer moments, I laugh at how ridiculous it is to be so intimately conscious of the above truth and yet continue to strive. That's why I do not mythologise my striving as something noble - it is frankly absurd. Here lies the truth in the Schopenhauerian assessment of the human - that condemnable and hypocritical creature.

[Anonymous No.15191008]

>>15189850
>>15189911
Not meaning to get at you, just wanted to see why the story is cosmic horror, then you can explore from there
Whatever your story premise ends up becoming it has likely been 'done' before, many times better, many times worse, and will likely be done many times more in the future. Don't let that put you off
I'd be interested to see how a comfy cosmic horror pans out

[Anonymous No.15191020]

>>15190994
So depression for some people is natural predisposition?

[Anonymous No.15191034]

>>15178359
I may have coomed my way into bisexuality. I spent a few months away from my coomer shit, and yep the weird pseudo-bisexuality went away, but alas I’m back to the regular habit. Guess I have to go through all that again.

[Anonymous No.15191038]

>>15191020
I'd say so. But that does not also diminish the accuracy of their assessment of things.

[Anonymous No.15191045]

>>15191038
I guess therapy doesnt get rid of depressive tendencies 100%.

[Anonymous No.15191090]

>>15191034
What does that mean? Are you calling fapping to gay porn pseudo bisexuality?

[Anonymous No.15191096]

>>15191045
I don't know you so I can't say. If it's troubling you in a way that feel the need for it, then by all means try it. I can only speak for myself my friend.

[Anonymous No.15191125]

>>15190512
Divný post

[Anonymous No.15191192]

Do you guys read paper or electronics?
I've read electronic for so long that paper feels really weird

[Anonymous No.15191193]

>>15191096
Im just talking in general. Depressive tendencies are tied to character and its more or less given since birth.

[Anonymous No.15191254]

>>15191193
I see. Well then yes, there's almost undeniably a dispositional element to it. Wittgenstein's life is an interesting character study for that.

[Anonymous No.15191323]

>>15181228
posters like you are the only redeeming grace for this board

[Anonymous No.15191411]

>>15182846
don't be afraid of yourself dumb kid

[Anonymous No.15191497]

>>15190977
If you masturbate regularly they'll likely stop.

[Anonymous No.15191564]

>>15191497
yeah, it's because I share my room with my sibling and the lockdown makes this hard to do.

[Anonymous No.15191619]

>>15191564
Is your sister hot?

[Anonymous No.15191671]

>>15181461
you have to be 18 or older to post on 4chan

[Anonymous No.15191920]

>>15190187
You don't even need Japanese to teach English in Japan so scrap the classes if you want

[Anonymous No.15192006]

>>15180983
How long have you known the people you're confiding in? What are you confiding in them? Have to assume you're very young based on the cringe writing and trivial problems.

[Anonymous No.15192028]

>>15188532
Can you do it? That would be the most important question.

[Anonymous No.15192061]

I'm surprised at the amount of nice Wojak edits (non-soi) posted on this board. Even saved several new ones to my collection. Probably the board with the most favorable Wojak-Pepe proportion.

[Anonymous No.15192114]

>>15190765
Most people statistically never escape or get over it. It's mostly just coping strategies.

[Anonymous No.15192128]

>>15190695
Never going to work if you're a wagie. Fucking with your sleep is a bad idea anyway.

[Anonymous No.15192188]

How do you cope with being a low tier wageslave? If you have no connections and come from a poor background you're fucked. Can't even cope with the hope i might get a better wagie position as all jobs posted on job boards (all good ones from connections that never get posted obviously) are all the same tier of shit as i currently work. There is no way out.

[Anonymous No.15192194]

>>15192188
Yes, there's no way out

[Anonymous No.15192335]

When I was in high school my dad killed himself. He was very abusive to me and my siblings, and when it happened it caused all of us to start performing terribly in our classes. I stopped going to school entirely during my junior year, effectively dropping out (although I went back and got my diploma when I was 20). My GPA dropped below 1.0, and I haven't been able to recover from it. I desperately want to go to a good university, but even now I am incapable of succeeding academically. I don't know what's wrong with me; the classes are easy and the effort expected of me is next to nothing, but I still fail all my fucking classes. I hate the education system, but I know deep down that it isn't the education system's fault I'm failing - it's mine. I'm going to move into the forest.

[Anonymous No.15192419]

>>15192335
Are you at a university right now? What's most important when trying to do well in your schooling is structuring your time well. If you're struggling to get the work done you need to find a way to force yourself to get it done, easiest way to do that is to isolate yourself from the normal habits you fall into when wasting time.

[Anonymous No.15192481]

>>15191020
If they let it be. I'm a big believer in choice. I have depression, but I am not my depression. Im a bit more manic depressive so my experience may be different, but for me the only way to get past the depressive episodes is to attack them. Keep striving even when things hopeless, especially when they seem hopeless. Keep doing the things like exercising, meeting friends, because eventually it might kindle a spark that allows you to finally leave your bed and experience the sunrise. I say this as someone who spent almost a month and a half in bed a few months ago.

[Anonymous No.15192482]

>>15192419
I go to a community college. Thanks for the advice, I'll keep it in mind

[Anonymous No.15192512]

>>15192482
I'm in a very similar boat, home life was always horrible and schooling suffered. Right now I'm also at a Community College but I struggle to even get the smallest amount of work done, with the Corona virus lock-down right now I quite literally haven't finished a single assignment in almost 5 weeks because I cannot physically separate myself from both the ways I waste time(addictions) and my horrible parents. Realistically I'm going to fail the semester, was looking for employment before this entire thing blew up to continue saving up money so that I could hopefully move out(very unlikely considering that I live in a big city). You seem to be considerably older than me, I hope things work out for both of us.

[Anonymous No.15192522]

>>15192481
Most people who are depressed feel hopeless. They don't have the drive on believing that things could get better. That's why it's so shit. If you have depressive episodes it's a different mechanic.

The moment a depressed person starts to believe that a certain thing can fix things, that's the moment they start healing.

[Anonymous No.15192673]

>>15192512
Good luck, anon

[Anonymous No.15192928]

Can the doomsday just happens now man I'm tired living in this corrupted world, there's literally no worthy reason to live if you'll end up sucking to corporates boots anyway

[Anonymous No.15193927]

Writing is how I register I'm alive.

[Murphy's law No.15193968]

>>15178359
Money, sex, food. Usual in spring time. If not money then you sex or you food

[Anonymous No.15194011]

It occurred to me how stupid the whole SSN system is. Bureaucratic inefficiencies like this autistically fascinate me. Perhaps they made much more sense in the 30s when the system was first formulated and when there were far fewer means of fraud, but in this digital age the notion is entirely antiquated. and ripe for exploitation.

The idea of linking everything financially important to a person to a single static number assigned at birth is almost quaint in view of modern understandings of encryption and data security. Yet government bureaucracies are hulking, maladroit decision-history-locked systems, updating them would create too many cascades of disruption that would halt and break their rusty old pipes. Given how incompetent the US Government is it's hopeless that it will have a president with the foresight and technical knowledge to modernize the system either.

Part of me wishes to entertain a libertarian anarcho-capitalist fantasy where the task of handling the role previously held by the SSN is taken over by some Silicone Valley tech startup which applies cutting edge computer science methods to develop a more secure and sensible system. A lack of third-party-to-government technological integrations makes this a fantasy however, the IRS will remain a museum of dinosaur methods. This tech companies come across everyone's data anyways in the course of regular internet use, might as well hand it over. Someone has got you by the balls regardless

[Anonymous No.15194113]

>>15178359
I am the will of the universe. I didn't know that I existed until I saw myself in a mirror, that is, this creatures understanding. It was and is still a oddity. What does god do with this creature? What should I do now?

[Anonymous No.15194147]

>>15179052
Honestly, there should have been established term limits in the constitutiont. They get comfortable and feel they can do whatever the fuck they want because people don't want to go against what's familiar to them.

[Anonymous No.15194172]

I'm tempted to betray my principles and create a Twitter account. I realize all my chances at success require me to betray my principles, such as not giving af, but that's how it is.

[Anonymous No.15194431]

I can't get over how shit this board has become.

[Anonymous No.15194445]

>>15194431
Do something to make it better

[Anonymous No.15194477]

>>15194011
> where the task of handling the role previously held by the SSN is taken over by some Silicone Valley tech startup which applies cutting edge computer science methods to develop a more secure and sensible system.

yes because facebook has such a great record with data security

[Anonymous No.15194529]

>dad started buying vitamin C supplements because of corona
>drink some for 3 days because of pure boredom
>acne problem on my back decreases significantly

well, corona solved at least something for me

[Anonymous No.15194578]

>>15178359
I drove through my city center today and it was so empty. Normally it would be packed with the weekly fair. I also drove by the restaurant I worked at last year. It didn't seem to be open.

This time last year I remember how everyone yearned for meaning, how the economy seemed unstoppable and yet we were sedated by a delusion of porn and drugs. How we were all so lonely and atomized and how we were wishing for its end. Well it seems now we have it.

[Anonymous No.15194742]

>>15194578
with "we" I hope you mean the western nations, because my life has been shit all along

[Anonymous No.15194791]

I've been in a really good relationship for a year and a half, but I really miss falling in love

[Anonymous No.15194822]

>>15192188
>>15192194
There's a way out.
https://youtu.be/UgoheqxXRuc

[Anonymous No.15194840]

progress isn't linear, for life is as a rhizome, unlike a tree

lateral syntax > hierarchical semantics

trembling knees, and open wound murmurs aside

a weakness, of its own

holding it in silence,
releasing contraries in contrast

the four walls
closing in
beyond all imagination

to become a Dionysian para-transhumanist aesthete whore, if I am indeed merely romantically delusional, since by this point saving myself is just a toothless joke from the vestiges of Christ's cavities, and I am no saint or angel

the self-contained radioactive decay foaming throughout the faulty machinery of this psychophysiological complex doesn't implode anymore, it occasionally leaks toxic waste

as night's teal light flourishes unto incandescent shades of burning amber

as it is, and it is,
(at the very least for the time being ...

dissolving away
into a labyrinth
deconstructed from
Cassandra's mystical reveries
upon
Melancholia's phantastical memory

going
beyond without transcendental delusion
or
to probe within immanent fantasies

juxtaposing opposites/contrasting differences

between sharp tongues and muted voices!

I, gently fall down
into
some faint floating distance

as I drown along the drain,
grasping for breath
under the vacuum of time and place

[Anonymous No.15195419]

first bout of depression in weeks.

[Anonymous No.15195431]

>>15194742
Where from?

[Anonymous No.15195529]

>>15195419
For me, its being ignored by friends on Saturday evening

[Anonymous No.15195551]

Being born in Brazil is to be doomed to a life of purposeless strugle. Everywhere you go, everything you do, all is strugle. There's nothing else in here. Even if I moved to another country, I'd still carry the scars of being a Brazilian, a parasite, a misantropic error of God - the citizen of a country that was never meant to exist.

[Anonymous No.15195612]

>>15194791
I've never been in love. You atleast have the memory of it.

[Anonymous No.15195669]

By mindlessly scrawling down every one of my half thoughts am I inhibiting the formulation of potential profound ideas? If the only thoughts worth expressing are ones that have been thoroughly modelled, must I rigorously deliberate before approaching the paper? Or by the act of "opening the gates” or letting my inhibitions down, am I allowing myself to receive inspiration passively? The more frequently I write, the higher chance there is that my writing will be of value. Take the musician for instance, he does not create his art by thinking. He practices and reinforces his skill through repetition that could develop to a point of lucidity. He is no longer thinking of technique or theory, he is able to express pure emotion through his art. The skill has become second nature. I am convinced the latter of my questions is the one worth pursuing. I’ve made it this far in my life by thinking more often than doing. After writing one hundred words, my anxieties vanish, while after letting my mind work freely for an hour my anxieties compound. Perhaps my brain lacks sufficient discipline. Perhaps the mind and the pen must be utilized in a sort of tandem. Perhaps I need to read more theory books. Perhaps I just need to write freely and uninhibited more often. Perhaps I must combine the two. Why is it that when i sit down to write I am immediately discouraged. Surely anything I write will be of no value, I think. It is obvious that this notion is getting in the way of any progress made.

[Anonymous No.15195857]

>>15195551
Women there are easy and really pretty/sexy though

t. A third worlder who's got it even worse than brazilians and their women are abysmal

[Anonymous No.15195911]

This is a society which is militantly and adamantly intnet on killing the average human being. Every aspect of your culture and society is a lie. If you are reading this please shoot up your nearest government building; don't mistakenly offset your rage on innocence who are part of the same class oppression; please take advantage of the present crisis to overthrow the governmental/capitalistic systems which are intent on killing you.

[Anonymous No.15195954]

>>15195911
Do you think you're going to start a revolution or something?

[Anonymous No.15195963]

>>15195911
terrorism never changed the flow of history

[Anonymous No.15195982]

>>15195963
Yeah, sure.

[Anonymous No.15196016]

>>15195982
How did it change anything at all? The US is the same country it's always been, the politcs in the mideast are all the same. You could watch TV from 30 years ago and it'd be the exact thing, besides the pandemic.

[Anonymous No.15196021]

I wish this was the Bela Kiss days. I would just invite one of you dumbasses over with your dowry and then bury you in the backyard.

[Anonymous No.15196046]

>>15195954
I hope so. It's better than nothing. I''m tired of being oppressed and being told I' My poor mom and dad have followed every rule and yet they are repeatedly brutalized. I was preyed upon before before I had a chance. Fuck every politician and scum-sucking cop who has a moment to reflect on my statements, they are spiritually wicked nothingness who will swallow eternal damnation in due time god willing .

If i'm not mistaken, we live in a psychopathic society which will drive the human species to extinction for the sake of the richest who will themselves die spectacularly. I speak the absolute truth.
>>15195963
Terrorism is the equivalent of war itself which is the essence of history,. What we call terrorism is the resistance of the poor against the wealthy. The true terrorism is the dropping of megaton bombs and massacres by highly armed troops against helpless poor populations. The war against drugs/terrorism etc has always been a war against the poor. Shoot eery politician you see I'm begging you.
America is the ultimate downfall because it is the proof of marxist theories.
Arrest me you filthy scum, prove to me I'm right.

[Anonymous No.15196051]

>>15196016
Sure made flying a pain in the ass afterwards

[Anonymous No.15196059]

>>15195982
>NOOOOOO!!!! NOT MY TOWERINOS!!!

[Anonymous No.15196071]

>>15179127
Orin Incandenza is that you

[Anonymous No.15196083]

>>15196046
All I'm saying is that killing one or two politicians won't do anything

Killing all the wealthy and their supporters is another thing. If you fail at least they'll stop feeling smugly untouchable.

[Anonymous No.15196144]

is there any evidence that abstaining from masturbation helps or is it all just pseudoscience and bloggers trying to be hyper masculine and saying, "if you do THIS you will BE BETTER" and they usually have a lot of ads on their sites. i get that pornography really has an effect on your mind but i'm curious about masturbation.

[Anonymous No.15196165]

>>15196144
pseudoscience and judeocristian guilt of feeling pleasure

[Anonymous No.15196173]

>>15196144
regular masturbation is healthy
pornography isnt

semen retention will turn u into a god

[Anonymous No.15196180]

>>15196165
go on on your second point, please.

>>15196173
how will it turn you into a god? how do you masturbate and still have semen retention?

[Anonymous No.15196183]

>>15196144
Pseudoscience plus hype/media attention (i.e. no nut november). Masturbation is only a problem if it's preventing you from doing other things you want to do with your life.

[Anonymous No.15196190]

>>15196144
Weak people let others determine how they should and shouldn't live their lives

[Anonymous No.15196209]

No one is more hopelessly enslaved than they who falsely believe they are free" -Goethe

[Anonymous No.15196265]

>>15196180
He probably was ironic. Semen retention is unhealthy. Not satisfying your libido increases stress among other psychological downsides.

As long as you aren't clamping down your dick 5 times a day 3-4 hours or something stupid like that, you're fine.

[Anonymous No.15196267]

Reading Fear and Loathing in Vegas, at the moment. I used to do drugs but the sharp contrast between his life and mine, makes me wonder about the meaning of life. I am religious but I still can't find my purpose. He must have been a hard working man if he can handle copious amounts of drugs and still note take for a novel. I don't run my mouth and speed down highways (drug fuelled) It's giving me an early mid-life crisis

[Anonymous No.15196275]

Please, blow the brains out of every politician and capitalist speaker you hear from, please do the right thing. Arresting me is only proof of my truth.We can do better.

Only by reciprocating the violence of this class can we breathe freely. Take advantage of this current hell to deliver it back unto them. Pleae.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Georges_Sorel

KILL EM ALL prove me right. I want to see spineless FBI knocking on my door. Kill them all

[Anonymous No.15196333]

Every Reuplican and Democrat should have their throat slit to make way for the new future. Proove me wrong,

[Anonymous No.15196823]

>>15196083
yang best boy

[Anonymous No.15196845]

>>15196333
How rebellious 14 year old of you

[Anonymous No.15196857]

I unironically consider myself intelligent but unmotivated. I don’t care how many people laugh and say I’m coping, it’s the truth. I do very well in most things when I try, I’m just a lazy fuck who would rather work a part time job and loaf than go to grad school or aim for a prestigious career. Which is a fatal character flaw, to be honest.

[Anonymous No.15196888]

>>15196857
What a strange way to proclaim wit and wisdom.
A lot people miss out that intelligence is when you can succeed without trying, or at the very least being able to put yourself in a situation where 'trying' is least noticeable and doesn't feel like trying.
Say hi to the 105 IQ crew for me

[Anonymous No.15196891]

>>15196857
it's like i literally typed this myself.

[Anonymous No.15196902]

>>15196857
Easier to never actually test that intelligence huh?

[Anonymous No.15197022]

>>15196083
Why don't we kill Gates or Bezos? Strike fear into the hearts of the upperclass

[Anonymous No.15197153]

>>15196888
>>15196902
Again, I don’t care. My self confidence cannot be broken.

[Anonymous No.15197186]

>>15196857
At some point, smart people are smart enough to realize the effort isn't worth it. Sure I could go back to school, or spend 16 hours a day "challenging my mind" at a thinktank, but why should I? All of my material needs are met by my dumb office job, anything beyond that would just be to stroke my ego. I don't care about dumb shit like going to mars, or curing cancer, or feeding the hungry because none of it is even real in a cosmic sense. The whole planet could blow up tomorrow and there'd be no one to even notice.

Smart people are often labeled slackers because they don't live up to their capability, but in reality they've just optimized standard of living with effort expended based on their personal preference. Turns out it doesn't take much effort to live a comfy life in the 1st world anymore

[Anonymous No.15197231]

>>15195529
Knowing full well they aren't busy

I hate that I'm retarded enough to not be able to keep friends, but not retarded enough not to want them

[Anonymous No.15197242]

All my life I've had nightmares about the end of the world. Usually it's the nuclear holocaust or a zombie outbreak. If I ever have to experience something like that, I want my death to be quick and painless. I don't ever want to live in a world where society has fallen apart.

I've spent around 500 dollars commissioning erotica on Fiverr. Generally, the stories revolve around a shy/awkward guy who finds himself getting kissed, teased and jerked off by NFL cheerleaders.

[Anonymous No.15197278]

I don't think you chucklefuck idiots realoze how much pain you've caused me. If I want you to leave me the fuck alone then just leave me alone. I shouldn't say mean things but I have zero obligation to be your friend. Most of you should not even be allowed to post on a philosophy board even.

[Anonymous No.15197288]

>>15197231
I wouldn't take it personally, senpai. They probably lost track of time fapping to incestual anime porn

[Anonymous No.15197317]

Literally been fucking fired and harassed everywhere I go. I should have just said yes to one of you and fucking killed you. I am not your friend. Acting like a pea brained dimwit does not make me your friend. Go the fuck away. I should slash your fucking faces open.

[Anonymous No.15197380]

>>15197317
>Literally been fucking fired and harassed everywhere I go.
iktf

[Anonymous No.15197403]

>>15197380
All the shit they've done and they sit there cluelessly about why I dislike them. It is like go away, I am not your fucking friend. Do you genuinely believe I would be happy to be around a clueless fuckwit like rose or the V-s? No, I fucking wouldn't. No, I absolutely fucking would not. Literally just accept that we are not friends and continue on with your life. You're not making me like you or think you're funny or cute. You're making me think you're clueless, imbecilic rude god damn peabrains who need their skulls bashed in.

[Anonymous No.15197420]

Most of you are fucking imbeciles and I mean it. I have more respect for fatass pizzaman retards who spam stupid Guenon threads than I ever will for you.

[Anonymous No.15197476]

I wish I coild drive and support myself and make my own friends, but friends I actually want. I dislike most of you. I know you all think "he likes me but he just doesn't know it yet" but no, I dislike most of you and believe you are simpletons and fucktards that I want nothing to do with.

[Anonymous No.15197492]

>>15197476
And yet here you are, spending your saturday night with us <3

[Anonymous No.15197505]

>>15178359

Donald Davidson
Maurice Blanchot
WVO Quine
Kurt Godel
Henri Poincare
Hermann Broch
Harlan Ellison

Need

More People

Who Don't

Talk Out

Their Ass

Don't hate me, piss on me, or copy me. I got good stuff coming along. Just need more books like Thomas and Death of Virgil.

[Anonymous No.15197532]

>>15195669

Dude. You're putting me to sleep.

[Anonymous No.15197563]

>>15197492
If you teach me to drive and help me get a higher paying job, I will put on a fake smile and pretend to be your friend. That is the very best I can do.

[Anonymous No.15197623]

I don't know who I am anymore and I dont understand life anymore. I am so tired of thinking and feeling and dreaming.

[Anonymous No.15197661]

>>15197022
Exactly

The oligarchy tends to share everything. Favors, money, influence, power. Maybe they should also share fear of being killed for no reason, like the rest of us do.

[Anonymous No.15197711]

It's 00:00

I wish I had a gf

I wish I had a gf

I wish I had a gf

I wish I had a gf

I wish I had a gf

[Anonymous No.15197914]

>>15197532
sorry anon

[Anonymous No.15198038]

>>15197186
A think tank wouldn't pay you to end world hunger.

[Anonymous No.15198178]

Holy shit, writing is hard...

[Anonymous No.15198285]

>>15197623
Embrace the existential dread. It will set you free

The best decisions I've ever made in my life occurred while my psyche was in pieces on the floor with my gun in my hands

Or you could just go on a bender for a few days and go back to ignoring your issues, either or

[Anonymous No.15198295]

>>15197711
I just miss her titties, they were fucking massive

Couldn't pick a worse time to be back on the market

[Anonymous No.15198306]

>>15195669
Imagine thinking art has value

Imagine thinking anything other than your own personal enjoyment has value

Stop writing for others and write for yourself

[Anonymous No.15198308]

>>15196857
Eh, I feel this. Personally I went to uni but I regret it, I wish I were a blue collar worker. I’m tired of spending hours in classes and listening to pretentious pseuds.

[Anonymous No.15198315]

>>15178359
I don't like the way women behave according to there social standers, or to say I don't like the social standers that are placed on women. Its very unattractive and guys the demand women act and look a particular way are highly obnoxious and are always the dumbest pieces of shit.

[Anonymous No.15198435]

I utterly loathe you and your worthless family. Philosophy is not for you. Go away.

[Anonymous No.15199162]

How do you effectively convince people to do something? I can tell you to eat my burger but you won't do it. I can tell you the benefits, from its taste, and how it staves hunger, but you still won't. So, by conversation, what convinces you to eat my burger in the land of 10,000 burgers? I noticed advertisements like to use "real people" using the product then praising it. Would showing you a relatable joe eating, saying how great the burger is convince you to eat my burger, even though every burger has the same showing? How do I distinguish my burgers from the rest? My burger is truly the best, but people don't notice it because of all the other burgers.

[Anonymous No.15199208]

>>15178359
I just realised that true suffering exists in this world beyond physical pain, and I'm fucking terrified of going insane. I saw one of my old aqquaintancea in an insane asylum posting pics of him high and it made me feel suffering I literally never experienced.

[Anonymous No.15199295]

The guy going on about bashing skulls, changing ips and worthless families scares the hell out of me.

[Anonymous No.15199502]

>>15189459
He'd never ask

[Anonymous No.15199718]

Occasionally I fall into this really powerful wistful sort of depression. It seems connected to time and space in a very strange way. When it happens it's sort of like my whole life the sum total of all my experiences flashes before my eyes but in particular there's a large focus on places and imagery not so much events. The places and imagery are commonly taken from my memory but also sometimes not and they also seem exaggerated or idealized in a way that's hard to describe. It's like I'm seeing these things in a way that I can't see things normally. Not just seeing but feeling as well I might see something as simply as a flat grassy plain and yet I get this overwhelming feeling of connection to it on a level that seems so far beyond looking at a mere photograph or physically being there and indeed I'm not there at all but rather it's as if it only truly exists as a part of me. It's almost as if I'm experiencing these things with some new sense the closest comparison I can make is it's sort of like the way it feels to be in a dream where somehow it feels more real than you believe real life ever could feel I suppose the word you might use is surreal but it's beyond that. I've encountered this ever since I was a child I distinctly remember the first time it happened. It doesn't happen very often and when it does it doesn't last very long either like I'm just getting this brief peek behind a curtain. Part of me is convinced that when I'm in this state is the only time when my mind is truly "awake" and has reached it's full capability for receiving and processing the mass amounts of stimuli I'm actually being exposed to on a regular basis and it's as though I've inched slightly closer to some fundamental understanding of the deep and complex underlying nature of the universe. The rest of the time my mind must be in some sort of dulled state maybe for the purposes of coping with everyday life I don't know. This has been one of greatest mysteries of my life (an unspectacular life I assure you) and all these years later I feel still no closer to understanding it.

[Anonymous No.15199872]

>>15199718
I dont know what to say but i've read your post.

[Anonymous No.15200135]

I shouldn't drunkpost.