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Write what's on your mind Anonymous Thu Jan 30 17:44:19 2020 No.14635805 [Reply] [Original]

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 17:51:32 2020 No.14635837 >>14635805 dddddd pppppp eeeeee gggggg

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 17:54:25 2020 No.14635857 glow bull lists DESU

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 18:23:43 2020 No.14636021 >>14635805 Both the Italian Journey and Conversations with Eckermann (which Nietzsche dubbed the best German book). Thanks for the memories, anon.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 19:55:12 2020 No.14636512 Monolinguals have a very limited scope of thought.

Anonymous Thu Jan 30 20:28:45 2020 No.14636628

I just read "The Dead" by J.Joyce and i don't understand how "one of the greatest short stories ever written" can have 80% of it's content removed and still get the same point across, which is nothing really because this story dosen't really provoke anything but being food for thought.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 20:37:59 2020 No.14636660 >>14636628 When I read it as a kid the atmospherics did it for me but ultimately the story (what there is of one) palls. Not even the best story in a slender volume.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 20:45:29 2020 No.14636688 >>14635805 Skoo-e-ooooooooooo

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 20:47:58 2020 No.14636697 I GOT THAT SUMMERTIME SLAVNESS SUMMERTIME SLAVNESS

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Anonymous Thu Jan 30 21:50:32 2020 No.14636906

I'm an overall unpleasant misanthrope that only goes outside to attend class, but I'm pretty sick of people acting disgusting and spiteful toward each other for the most banal reasons. I should stop checking social media as often as I do but I've already made it a habit to check it whenever I don't have the time nor energy to do anything else; it mostly just mildly annoys me to see people practically jumping at the chance to act like shit flinging apes. I know that they can do better.

I didn't notice it until it was pointed out to me, but everyone on this campus wears a Canada Goose jacket. They're everywhere. I don't know how anyone can lug around those 700 dollar jackets in good conscience. Do people ever look at me and think "what a fucking fag, wearing a 50 dollar jacket, probably got it from a donation drive too" like how I think "what a fag, wearing his jacket padded like gold and not thinking twice about how much it costs, it must be nice to just go to university to learn whatever dumb bullshit you want without ever needing a job". I don't know what to do with myself. I feel an obligation, this obligation that I need to repay my parents by not being a failure and getting a job and thanking them for helping me to get into a university as nice as this one. At the same time, they always took a backseat approach to parenting- I learned practically everything from shitposting on the internet, which is probably why I'm such a socially maladjusted fuck today. I should thank them, but I hold a small level of spite or resentment toward them as well for never being there when I was a child. But I will take what I can get, I shouldn't ask for more than I have- at least they didn't beat me or sell me into sex slavery or god knows what. It's unfair of me to say that they didn't care for me when they were probably working long hours in our basement just to get every piece and order done in time. One part of me just wishes that I'm able to talk about my emotions without feeling shame immediately afterwards for being so vulnerable, so weak to the point where I'm almost naked. I could never talk about those things with any of my family members- my brother would probably call me a faggot.

Anonymous Thu Jan 30 21:54:39 2020 No.14636917
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>Were there a species of creatures, intermingled with men, which, though rational, were possessed of such inferior strength, both of body and mind, that they were incapable of all resistance, and could never, upon the highest provocation, make us feel the effects of their resentment;

>The necessary consequence, I think, is, that we should be bound, by the laws of humanity, to give gentle usage to these creatures, but should not, properly speaking, lie under any restraint of justice with regard to them, nor could they possess any right or property, exclusive of such arbitrary lords. Our intercourse with them could not be called society, which supposes a degree of equality; but absolute command on the one side, and servile obedience on the other.

>Whatever we covet, they must instantly resign: Our permission is the only tenure, by which they hold their possessions: Our compassion and kindness the only check, by which they curb our lawless will: And as no inconvenience ever results from the exercise of a power, so firmly established in nature, the restraints of justice and property, being totally useless, would never have place in so unequal a confederacy.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 22:03:23 2020 No.14636955 >>14635805 Wuthering Heights is absolutely incredible and one of the best books ever written.

Anonymous Thu Jan 30 22:07:08 2020 No.14636968
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>>14635805
Last Saturday night was the worst night of my life.
>Be me
>18
>Work at a country club as a food runner
>Don't leave until 11 at night since other workers want to go to Ihop
>Only really going because there's a waitress I flirt a lot with
You have no idea how much I cared about this bitch. I gave her a teddy bear and balloon rose for Christmas, shared secrets with each other and even comforted her when she was crying. Would always hug each other, have arm around her and I'd kiss her on the head everyday before leaving.
>We get in the car with other workers
>Me and her are sitting in the back seat
>She's mainly on her phone and talking to her friend in the front seat
>Entire fucking time all she talks about is getting fucked up, wanting to do drugs and going out to party at a club
>Then she starts talking about wanting a boyfriend
>I learn that a week ago she met a guy who was working at aa gas station and made out with him after meeting
>I am visibly uncomfortable and unhappy
>Driver points it out but I try to play it off
>We arrive at Ihop and the other two people who are with us head on ahead
>She talks about hopefully finding a boyfriend in their
>Plan on kissing her to try and make myself feel better
>I'mgonnafuckingdoit.jpg
>Wrap arm around her and kiss her on the lips
>Literally felt like nothing
>Tell her she was my first kiss
>We go inside and she's talking about other guys for a whole fucking hour since the service was shit
>Showing her girlfriend a guy who stopped texting her on tinder
>Also shows her promiscuous pictures
>Depressed as fuck but pretending just to be tired
>Go home at 2am
>Didn't even eat just took the food home
I seriously thought about quitting my job. Then I went to church and felt somewhat better. Granted there were some warning signs along the way but I just shrugged it off. One of the servers I'm cool with found out and asked me about it. He sympathized and thought it was fucked up. The girl still tries to act friendly but I ignore her. I was so close anons. Please pray for my soul and wellbeing other anons.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 22:09:50 2020 No.14636976 >>14636906 Crush that resentment now. Kill it before it lays eggs

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 22:11:24 2020 No.14636981 File: 13 KB, 196x258, 2Q==.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] i want a virgin girls ass planted right on my nosebone

Anonymous Thu Jan 30 22:21:10 2020 No.14637005

Flattery is the greatest tool a man can have. I am painting a couple nudes of a lover and ex-wife of mine. They are coming along well, more erotic than I had originally planned. She wants me to impregnate her over valentines day, says she will raise the child herself if she has to. I'd like to capture the feeling forever.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 22:24:22 2020 No.14637019 File: 130 KB, 1080x1080, 1580321535157.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14635805 I need to fuckINNNGGG FAAARRT. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOH THAT felt so good. Will need 2 laundry, if you get what I mean

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 22:24:57 2020 No.14637021 >>14636968 >doing a carnal act like a kiss outside the purpose of copulating for the sake of children within a marriage happens to the best of us. Repent for your sins and ford on. Coochie is temporary, wisdom is forever.

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Anonymous Thu Jan 30 22:36:03 2020 No.14637067
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>>14636968
Darn it I felt that one Anon. Do not despair. I want to recomfort you with hope. But I have been there, and it will take a lot of time to become the men women wants. I, too at 18 I was working in a restaurant and the same happened multiple times.
Work on yourself. Just do your things. At the end of the day, just ask yourself did I live or was I only a spectator. Then find how you could be an actor, find the reason preventing you from being what you want to be and inact them and slowy become an actor. I am 23, my situation is way better than when I was 18 but its still hard. Things ''can'' get better.
Stay with God. You dont need the love of this world only the love of the Father!

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 22:41:17 2020 No.14637082 >>14637019 the blonde tall girl is the only hot one desu

Anonymous Thu Jan 30 22:46:21 2020 No.14637093

Terry's voice in Smash Brothers makes me giddy in the most childlike way possible. Most characters call out their moves in this smooth, romantic half-yell, so you can tell exactly what they're saying. Terry's yell is throaty and raw. It isn't inherently cool like Joker calling for Arsene, or Marth bragging about his successful counter. Terry yells like he's in a vicious argument, without any illusion of dignity or self-control. His yell, when combined with the mangling of English words done by his Japanese voice actor, is so lame and spastic that it loops back around to being great.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 22:50:23 2020 No.14637108 Ich bin eine dubliners

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 22:55:32 2020 No.14637127 >>14637093 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aLekt6fGous SNK Engrish rules, always delivered with high spirits.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 22:59:36 2020 No.14637150 File: 235 KB, 480x633, Jesus-holds-lamb.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14637067 Thank you for your compassion and empathy Anon, I'm glad to call you my brother in Christ. I will pray for your loving soul.

Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:02:54 2020 No.14637157

>>14635805
my dad told me to watch dracula on netflix but i didn't. i watched uncut gems yesterday so i want to watch good times now. also i'm excited for the new season of bojack horseman. to keep it lit i'm also thinking about breathing by franco 'bifo' berardi, which was a very insightful read

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:04:21 2020 No.14637162 I should be doing my assignments. Instead I'm wasting my time lurking again.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:10:13 2020 No.14637186 >>14637019 >the aryan 6' forest elf goddess >the 5'11 femcel med

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:14:05 2020 No.14637198 File: 10 KB, 211x162, 1580444045295.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] This is day one of no-fap. i will become pure for her

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:26:42 2020 No.14637247 >>14635805 The more I read the more I realise how stupid and unoriginal I am, and how I little I know about anything

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:31:07 2020 No.14637266 >>14637019 coom

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:32:47 2020 No.14637270 >>14637198 Who dat nigga?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:34:00 2020 No.14637274 >>14637019 Your a brooooper or a fooorter?

Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:38:32 2020 No.14637287

I'm a volcel and it's kind of weird to think about, in the context of all the talk that's gone around about incels. I've turned down multiple offers from multiple girls for sex over the years. This is because I am a devout Catholic and I won't have sex outside of marriage as a result. I guess it does arouse pity in me if these guys truly can't get women to notice them.

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Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:45:06 2020 No.14637307

>>14636968
It happens man, and I've been there. When you're young like you are it can feel like you're doing all the right things, when in fact it turns out you've been misreading signals and maybe even been led on. It's hard to deal with, it feels like you've wasted a lot of time and been made a fool of. What I've learnt in my years is to not assume you've got "something special" with someone until you've actually explicitly both agreed that you're dating. Don't beat yourself up about it though since you're still very young and you've got a lot of time and growing to do. It'll suck for a while, and that's ok, but don't let it turn into resentment or bitterness. Keep your head up and look forward.

Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:45:54 2020 No.14637309
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My birthday is coming up and I want to get drunk with the boys.

Would also like to have a gf or at least some kind of progress on dating, it feels like the only thing where I didn'treally improve since taking care of my depression.

Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:48:11 2020 No.14637323

As a teenager I was happy and didn't realize it. I feel like normies lied to me about the 20s being the best period of life for anyone, since it's been a stressful existence so far. I hope things get better, I'm not mad at these obstacles tho, for I know deep inside that God only wants to best for me, and that is to be a strong person.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:53:46 2020 No.14637347 >>14637300 wtf i love australia now

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:54:12 2020 No.14637350 >>14637198 >becoming pure for an inbred french mongrel with FAS o-okay...

Anonymous Thu Jan 30 23:57:24 2020 No.14637363

at work: damn i can't wait to get home and study, man I am PUMPED to get out of here and hit the books
at home: fucking hell i'm irritated and tired, can't focus for shit. give me food and let me go to bed.

what a waste of my energy and time. fuck this shit. i have 3 hours of work a day but have to sit there for fucking 8 god damned hours because boomers are retarded and hate happiness and prosperity. if i couldn't listen to audiobooks at work so it's at least not a total waste of my time, i would have already thrown myself out the window by now.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 00:03:03 2020 No.14637380 >>14637300 So, is the tit tattoo a family thing or part of the anglo tradition?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 00:18:54 2020 No.14637438 >>14637380 It's a temporary tattoo that bogans usually put on themselves on Australia Day

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 00:48:05 2020 No.14637547 >>14637438 how are bogans like?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 00:51:23 2020 No.14637561 >>14636766 Nice song, nice pic,

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 00:55:14 2020 No.14637574 >>14637547 Fuck-off cunt

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 00:57:06 2020 No.14637585 >>14637574 is that your way of greeting a friend?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 00:58:49 2020 No.14637592 >>14636628 didn't read it closely enough

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:01:19 2020 No.14637598
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enlightment is realising a good part of boomers are alright. i often see people like pic, likeable in naive sincerity, simple in their sorrows and joys.
some of those people could be your favorite 60-80's novel's MC in their better days.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:05:11 2020 No.14637613 >i never conquered >rarely came >16 just held such better days ;_;

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:07:16 2020 No.14637619 File: 299 KB, 1080x1080, 1580320832632.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14637347 >>14637380

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:11:15 2020 No.14637634 >>14637619 even the little sister is hot, notice her scratch on her right leg

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:14:48 2020 No.14637643 >>14637634 Why are you thinking they are from the same family? One has small titis different pigmentationand different face. They are friends not sisters!

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:16:43 2020 No.14637654 >>14637643 all blonde look same

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:20:31 2020 No.14637674 >>14637287 based&chastepilled. i'm a volcel too since 16 (would be 15 if i met this girl three days earlier), not because of faith, i'm just a schizo with my own understanding of wisdom and purpose

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:20:57 2020 No.14637675 File: 98 KB, 820x1024, 1571964839739.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14637654 Ya but she is not blonde you derp! The little one is brownish. The blonde color is dyed! Pic related is REAL blonde like the giant one

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:25:26 2020 No.14637692 >>14637675 they are cute giants I see

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:29:44 2020 No.14637710 >>14637692 Nnigga you high. Why use ''they''? You see more than ONE giant here?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:34:46 2020 No.14637733 File: 7 KB, 207x249, 1580328866674.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] > child being annoying&loud while im trying to read on a light train

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:34:48 2020 No.14637734 >>14637710 i'm considering all the pics

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:38:59 2020 No.14637749 >>14637734 But do you consider that blonde giant different entities or she is the same?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:43:14 2020 No.14637761 >>14637749 she is the same giant goddess, of that i'm quite sure

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 01:57:16 2020 No.14637799 >>14637761 We are two. She is be the same giant godess. the ONE send to deliver us! We need to impregnate her to birth the next Ubermensch!!

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 02:34:23 2020 No.14637889 >>14637733 I fucking hate any kind of noise when I'm reading.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 04:45:27 2020 No.14638176 >>14637592 No, the book has no central theme and is mosly Joyces ramblings about things. The only thing you can really get out of it is that you should court women at the age of 10 so you can experience true love.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 04:55:09 2020 No.14638199 >>14637323 adulthood is good because you have your own money and you can drink whenever you want everything else about it sucks though

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 04:56:11 2020 No.14638203 >>14637363 can you read e-books/epubs on your screen without getting caught?

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 04:59:11 2020 No.14638208

>>14638176
The book's central theme is 'paralysis'. Every character in each story ends the story at the same place they were at in the beginning. It's his commentary on what he saw as the stultifying nature of Irish urban life in the early 20th century.

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 05:00:10 2020 No.14638210

When I am my true self whenever something horrible happens I am filled with a divine readiness and thrill. For example the lights are blinking on and off in this room and I view it as a benediction. And then I feel a hand on my head which is not present. As soon as the demons and ghosts are involved I am pleased. As soon as the UNKNOWN rips into people I see their fear as tiny, precious little things, and I pity them. I have seen it: when someone's fear is smaller than mine. For the first gift the demons give you is knowledge of fear. Whenever I am given permission , whenever the ,lights go out suddenly, whenever the bad grows larger than the good, life seems to smack you in the face with the force of gigatons. Suddenly it all snaps togther: is this worth it or not. Only then are you asked to truly live: and forgive me for the conceit but I do believe this is at the core of civilizational maladies. People don't know what to do with fear, so they are commanded by it, and thus their possibilities and freedom are curtailed. In some sense the <i> progress </> has created new problems in its attempt to neutralize others in the same way that when squishing clay you do nothing but displace it and push it into a new mould. It has over-privileged safety, not from physical harm, but mental safety, a strong connection to reality, a taoistic *blending in* with the fundamental operations of existence.

As safety has increased, the illusions of fear have multiplied, as fear has become more banished from by a system of "happy" illusions, the more true security is compromised. For all of history was a campaign against fear, pushing it back and hammering it into submission through the force of will.

It's a common habit to view the ultimate goal of the "developing world" to become more like the "developed world", but really what the diffence is here is not between the rich and poor, but between the senseless indifference of reality closing in on the fringes of the species. Countless upheavals of every twisted color and shape, criminal monstrosities of every kind, rampage inside the rips and holes of failure. And the fact that barbarism is the ever and undeviating constant just begging to be released--that is a force that can devastate beyond reckoning. Until you can see the good in the bad and the bad in the good, to see in other words, the limits of your morality there is no clarity. Until then you can't see great beyond, well, beyond it, that raw and assumptionless world of raw and direct experience, life will continue to suck.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 05:10:51 2020 No.14638223 I understand what I just wrote might not make a lot of sense. But I'm on to something. Seriously!

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 05:23:06 2020 No.14638247 >>14638208 But Gabriel is much worse off at the end since he finds out he never really had his wife's love and his epiphany on life.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 05:34:59 2020 No.14638271 Maybe I should have just reverted back to the kid I was as a child. Y'know, the guy who just punched everyone he didn't like.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 05:36:50 2020 No.14638274 Anything you guys would recommend to get out of a rut? My life has been the exact same for a decade and i'm not getting any younger...

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 05:44:27 2020 No.14638281 >>14638274 Does a venting thread seem like the sorta place to ask how to get out of a rut?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 05:52:56 2020 No.14638298 it feels disgusting living in the ruins of a civilisation

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 05:56:29 2020 No.14638302
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I saw a video online today of an old woman telling a younger lady to, "Stop hacking her phone." And the younger woman proceeded to film the women and tell her off with a flustered and stupid confusion. You could tell she was waiting for this old lady to do something, by the mere act of her beginning to film before the issue even occurred. A schoolyard trick and spectacle.

This old woman was clearly insane and unhinged, owing to some dementia or senility. But this girl didn't give any time to consider that, she only thought about putting it to the woman in the modern way of the viral magnifying glass and the burning sun of whatever Hambeast wanted to lance this white 80-something with liberal urbane light.

That is the true cruelty of humanity, the very tip of its edge that though can be blunted can't be made any less lethal. Look around at any video with a mentally ill or even slightly strange person, and you'll see people taking it in like a spectacle and almost by knee jerk treating that person as harsh as they can. As far as I can tell, it's not even a self aware sort of cruelty, but almost an in built reaction like an immunoresponse in the body.

It spans across cultures. Go on Worldstar and you can find inner-city kids slapping an autist while he screams, or hit up liveleak and watch some delphi man get his ass kicked down a flight of stares for flinching at shadows. It's universal, and the only true multicultural goal achieved: The merciless revulsion of the mentally ill other.

People are blind to the humanity of the mentally ill, and that's just a hell we walk on gazing at flowers. They might as well be holes in reality, sucking up all notice and good will.

I don't know what to do about it. All I know is it's dreadful and horrible.

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 05:58:02 2020 No.14638304

The mystical experience (the kingdom of God within, the great Self, the everlasting and unborn, that peculiar oceanic feeling etc.) is so widespread, in space and in time, that for the conscientious empiricist there can be no doubt about its existence and its genuineness. Suppose now, the mystical experience arises from confusion, from nonsense, from untruths, from refutable assertions; And at the same time, the mystical experience grants all kinds of benefits, both for the practitioner and for his surroundings (which, I'll venture to say, given my personel ethical standards, is most certainly the case for most pracitioners of mystical religions); In the face of unscientificity on the one hand, and evident goodness on the other, it seems appropriate to me to subordinate science and theory to practice, to believe in the false, fully aware of its falsity, and to devote oneself fully to the mystical teachings. The question that immediately arises: is believing in something that you think is untrue, such as believing in god while being atheist, possible, meaningful, fruitful? The answer: 1) Either way, a thing that is so good for yourself as it is for others, mystical practice, is worth taking the risk of not succeeding; The question whether it works or not should be explored by everyone in a practical way; And 2) there is evidence to suggest that for the mystical experience it is not necessary to believe in a particular thing, but rather to discard existing beliefs within yourself (as is taught in the Christian mystic tradition, in Buddhist and Hindu schools, amongs Sufis and others), which could be characerized as empty belief, contemplation without thought, being focused on nothing in particular, or being focused on a particular thing (i.e. the love of Jesus Christ) so steadily that it loses all its properties until a state of pure contemplation arises (a process similar to that of the eye that stares too long at a thing until it becomes blurred; or a word that is repeated until it loses its meaning and becomes pure sound). Atheistic religion, iron will pushing through unbelief, pure pragmatism

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 06:01:02 2020 No.14638309 >>14638247 Well The Dead is like an extended coda. The realisation that all the petty nuisances that defined the lives of those in the previous stories are just that: petty. That realization isn't exactly a good one.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 06:09:39 2020 No.14638320 >>14638203 seconding. just tell them your ereader has the necessary instructions or some shit (download something related for conspiracy)

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 06:11:57 2020 No.14638325

>>14638302
>But this girl didn't give any time to consider that, she only thought about putting it to the woman in the modern way of the viral magnifying glass
well-said. outrage culture is vile, internet virality is possibly worse than journalist shittalking for a sensation

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 06:14:21 2020 No.14638328 It’s harder for me to focus on reading. Or maybe it’s because the Tale of the Genji is so fucking boring.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 06:14:45 2020 No.14638329 > can't wash the smell of mare in heat off my hands having my lunch with a faint smell of horse piss as a special guest. Gargantua&Pantagruel is funny AS FUCK and the social critique is strong behind its obscenity

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 09:15:41 2020 No.14638679 File: 36 KB, 720x532, 1580480022071.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] my favorite weather is when every pic looks like it's monochrome. horses are a blessing and this work is soul-restoring

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 09:40:28 2020 No.14638749

>>14638304
>Suppose now, the mystical experience arises from confusion, from nonsense, from untruths, from refutable assertions
> to believe in the false, fully aware of its falsity
Agreed with the rest of your posts, but regarding these parts, why believe it's false? The claims that the mystics have made are all completely outside the realm of science. Meaning that the non-duality of experience could never be affirmed or refuted by science. It's simply above it.

But we as humans rarely doubt our everyday experiences. As I'm writing this, I can hardly doubt that I'm sitting in front of my desk and my fingers are stroking the keyboard. We count our experiences as the simple premises of which every conclusion is made of. Is there any reason to limit the scope of experience by discarding the mystical experience? Does my belief in external world has any more epistemological validity than (supposing that I experience it) the mystical experience?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 10:02:51 2020 No.14638812 >>14636917 based

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 10:26:03 2020 No.14638878 >>14638328 >the Tale of the Genji Is it worth reading in English? A lot is probably lost in translation

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 10:38:14 2020 No.14638913

>>14638749
I wanted to point out a problem and offer a solution. The problem is that a colourful veil of words is wrapped around all mystical practice, which deters a great many people: "This is all empty poetry, you with your holiness, levitating yogis, inner fire etc. This is material for grandma's fairy tale book and not my science book." I believe that's what many people think. Mysticism for our scientific age is a little too, how shall I say, old indian, a little too flowery. In actuality it is a hard, sober process, a muscle training of something inside us, so to speak. Now suppose I wrote: "A muscle training of the soul," someone would answer: "But there is no soul," and he'd be lost. So there is a great problem of how to talk about mystic practice.

This word curtain - holiness, enlightenment, inner spirit, ocean depths of pure light-consciousness, God's eternal pointing finger bending towards the half moon - all this is, I think, an attempt to make the mystic practice appealing to people; But because the kids of today see through it, question it, and believe that they're going to the dentist and not to disneyland, they're scared and run away. The solution is to drop all word-making, stand up and say: There is no God, no nirvana, no enlightenment, none of that, it's just talk; Maybe true talk, maybe false talk, we don't care; Here, with us, there is only the exercise; It can take many different forms; And, for whatever reason, if you follow it honestly and persistently, this exercise leads to a healthier, more balanced, friendlier, more enjoyable life. It should be like the Zen mindset, only most Zen practitioners make even their silence to a noisy spectacle, a sort of cult. What I think about is a total, materialistic practice, uninterested in anything metaphysical, in any great realization. No going aways from the world, no coming back to the world, only mantra chanting, only sitting, only walking etc whatever your practice may be. A world beyond our world is not necessary. Only practice, one pointed mind.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 11:23:02 2020 No.14639100 File: 7 KB, 228x221, 1575238541512.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] if i see another normalfag posting LE CORONAVIRUS MEMEY i'm infecting him with AIDS. meme this, retard

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 11:32:37 2020 No.14639131 How do I stop being horny and letting sexual impulses influence me? Would really appreciate any advice that goes beyond the simple suppression of desire or abstractions like “go to church”.

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 12:10:15 2020 No.14639291

>>14638913
I don't think those words are just to make the experience appealing to the people. It's more like an attempt by the mystic to describe an experience which is by essence indescribable. But if we aren't going to integrate the mystic experience to our knowledge of the world, is there any reason to devote years and years of one's life to asceticism and daily practice? I think a purely materialistic view removes the whole appeal.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 12:32:13 2020 No.14639381 Why do i even bother reading literature? It's not like i'm going magically stumble on life transforming words.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 12:43:06 2020 No.14639413 >>14639131 What helped was to be conscious of my desires and whenever sexual impulses came up, kill them off instantly, which was probably what you meant by "suppression". Really I can't think of any other ways.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 12:49:17 2020 No.14639439 >>14639381 Not with that attitude

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 12:51:51 2020 No.14639446 >>14639439 I'm quite naive in a way that deep inside i believe that i'm reading towards "critical mass" which will grant insight. However i often catch myself ponder if that's possible in the first place.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 13:09:19 2020 No.14639505 >>14639100 You can't infect someone with AIDS

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 13:09:33 2020 No.14639507

>>14635805
medical entrance exam is in one month.. i'll have prepped for 6 months by the day of.. finally getting the burden of it off my shoulders is going to be great but i feel like it's become a part of my life now, life without studying is going to be weird. what am I gonna do all day? i'm on a gap year

and then there's the constant questioning and uncertainty.. whether i've done enough practice, will i make it, will the nerves get to me etc, even though i've been getting 90-100% on practice tests.. i keep doubting myself.. did i get lucky? surely couldn't have gotten lucky on all 15 exams, averaging around 90%. but still, the voice in the back of my mind keeps hurling me into endless self doubt as it usually does in other facets of my life as well

i just hope i get a good result, that the hard work pays off, 6 months is a long time to be studying for this when most people i know do only 1-2 months of serious study

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 13:10:31 2020 No.14639513 >>14639507 You'll do fine.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 13:24:32 2020 No.14639568 >>14639381 If you make yourself receptive, each book can be truly transformative. Though you should be careful to read the right books.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 13:27:05 2020 No.14639585 >>14639568 >the right books what happens if you read not the right book?

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 13:31:39 2020 No.14639605

>>14639291
I guess both forms - the wordy and the quiet one - are alright. They target different people. I don't mean to abolish exchange of ideas between mystics, but I'd like to see an alternative that specifically targets people who don't believe in anything. For those kinds of people mystic talk is a hindrance, an alternative a necessity, and materialistic mystic practice the answer.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 13:37:40 2020 No.14639625 The representation of human being is somewhat vague to me. I can't grasp them clearly, opposite with that of things/ideas which I see with great clarity.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 13:55:28 2020 No.14639687 Farewell.

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 13:55:43 2020 No.14639689

>>14635805
drank too much caffeine today, had my first panic attack in ages, thought i was having a heart attack
it was fucking surreal and scary, i thought this was it, literally, i stood up and walked around and calmed myself down, that seemed to help

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:04:10 2020 No.14639733 >>14637613 Imagine peaking at 16. Even i’m not that pitiful

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:04:40 2020 No.14639736 >>14639687 Where are you going anon?

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:06:44 2020 No.14639748

Why am I so bad at making friends with fellow /lit/bros when I don't have trouble connecting with people in what's conventionally considered an intellectual space? It's bizarre how hard it is for me to click with people here.

In the past anons have commented that I'm one of the better read individuals they've talked to, so I don't think the issue stems from a lack of expertise in the things being discussed. Sure we can facilitate interesting banter but there's never anything that really hits on a personal level to hold me to the people I'm engaging with. Maybe I;m just in a different place in life.

>>14639507
Studying is effective and you sound like you have the discipline to really sit down and absorb the material you're looking at. Focus on keeping to that and make sure you get good sleep in the days leading to your exam. You're going to do great!

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:07:02 2020 No.14639749 >>14639687 See you tomorrow!

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:12:25 2020 No.14639774 I made my mother cry today while speaking to her on the phone, since I've been unemployed for a year.

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:19:43 2020 No.14639799
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I have become isolated from the rest of the world. I only go out twice per week to attend my class (I'm doing a part-time MA) and to buy groceries. It used to drive me crazy, but now I'm getting used to it. If you accept it then things seem different. When I look out of my window it's like I'm seeing a town in which I don't even live. It also seems that people on the street have a separate existence from mine. I can see them but at the same time feel a distance impossible to close. I don't really want to change things anymore. The more I think about them the more interesting I find them.

I used to be decent at socialising. I was never good, or interesting, or fun, but I could hold a conversation relatively normally. In the past few months, however, it's like I have lost my ability to speak. So I don't talk at all anymore, not even during class.

There is also this feeling of impending doom I've been feeling recently, that my life will end soon because there is nothing left for me to experience. I am not suicidal or anything though. But that feeling of finality is very comforting.

Thank you for reading my nonsense.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:22:07 2020 No.14639809 I was promised World War III and it didn't happen. I was promises a world wide pandemic and it didn't happen. WHEN WILL THIS SHIT SPECIES JUST DIE OFF ALREADY?

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:24:58 2020 No.14639820

>>14639774
What happened? Why are you unemployed?

>>14639799
Anon I think you're lonely and it's making you scared of socializing. If you want someone to talk to, I'm happy to help. I'm reading the witcher books right now and you can make fun of my poor taste.

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:29:37 2020 No.14639839

>>14636906
I'm not trying to downplay your family situation here, because feeling disconnected from your parents must hurt. But try to consider that it made you stronger as a person. You learned most of what you know by shitposting on the internet? It shows that you are adaptable when it comes to learning. If you would have been given everything you could have ever asked for, then you would have become one of those people who act disgusting and spiteful towards eachother.

I feel the same way in regards to talking about how I feel. This is the first time I'm posting in these threads, but I'm glad they exist. That way I can talk about things without anyone knowing that I ever talked about them.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:33:15 2020 No.14639856 >>14639799 How old are you?

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:38:21 2020 No.14639876

>>14638302
People seem to have this need of feeling superior. Be it racists, or "woke" people, or whatever. They constantly need validation.

Those who are mentally ill are probably the easiest targets, that's why they go for them. These people basically want to win fights without actually getting into one.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:38:30 2020 No.14639879 >>14636968 Young anon, you'll be okay. Keeping you in my prayers, remember to repent though

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:39:42 2020 No.14639885

>>14639820
>What happened? Why are you unemployed?
She was upset when I had no progress update on getting a job. Ended the phone call on the verge of tears. I have been unemployed since I graduated with a useless BA; I have no experience and no one will hire me.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:40:53 2020 No.14639890 >>14639885 >since I graduated with a useless BA; I have no experience and no one will hire me. i know that feel

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Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:44:20 2020 No.14639907

>>14639820
Thank you. I'm not neccessarily scared or socialising, just tired of it. In many ways I feel like this Anon: >>14639748
I can't seem to be able to connect to people in any meaningful way.

You can talk to me as well if you'd like to. Even about the Witcher books, but I wouldn't really know what to say about them since I haven't read them or played the games or seen that new TV show. But I'm happy to listen. I mean it.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 14:45:43 2020 No.14639917 >>14639856 I should have replied to this in my previous post, sorry about that. I'm 22. Why?

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 15:01:48 2020 No.14639987

I’m a socialist, but I have delusions that there will be any real opposition to capitalism in the first world anytime soon. Revolutions have only occurred under conditions that, to the pampered 21st century first worlder, were incomprehensibly shitty. Being sad because you have student loan debt and got a triple shift at your burger flipping job isn’t going to cut it. It’ll lead to concessions at best. Change will only occur when automation advances to the point where the system can no longer sustain itself, and I really don’t think that’ll happen this century.

But this puts me in the awkward position where the only rational move is to use my position as a relatively well off wage worker to accumulate capital and become a minor capitalist. My class interests as a member of the PMC really aren’t aligned with those of the actual working class one bit.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 15:10:26 2020 No.14640039 File: 532 KB, 1882x1841, 1580501408291.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I go to /pol/'s Corona Virus General so that I have people to talk to.

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 15:28:59 2020 No.14640131
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I flew into a rage. I don’t even remember what I said or did. The only thing I can remember is that for the first time in my life, I realized how small she was. I felt powerful. I felt disgusted. I’ve never hated anyone in my life besides her and myself.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 15:29:30 2020 No.14640135 >>14640131 open hand or closed?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 15:35:00 2020 No.14640171 File: 80 KB, 645x773, 99E760BB-430D-487A-B8D3-1CF0A1692777.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14640135 I wish I had the guts to do either.

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 15:37:55 2020 No.14640183

>>14635805
It occurred to me last night after an ill-advised moment of weakness with my ex that I've had it all wrong for years. I thought that I had a problem with controlling lust, with giving in to sins of the flesh. This is not so. My issue is with crippling loneliness. It just so happens that the only time I get to interact with a human being recently is either during flirtation or on either end of some sexual encounter, so I have conflated the two. When I get lonely, I tend to look for sexual encounters first, but then I feel nothing but disgust afterwards. The physical actions are a misplaced attempt to fill the emotional hole. Last time I had a friend I could see regularly I didn't even masturbate. Porn bores me and I don't want casual sex at all, I have a terrible habit of sleeping with people just to be their friend afterwards because thats the only way we express intimacy anymore. I feel terrible for hurting their feelings and my own. Knowing all this, hopefully I can change things and be a better man.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 16:11:56 2020 No.14640359 >>14639987 I also hate capitalist. But I am not a socialist. Why should others be helped? Some are total fucking shitbag.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 16:13:09 2020 No.14640364 File: 279 KB, 574x896, cater.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Started anti-depressants last month and so far they've: -made my orgasms 20 times stronger -made me switch to Linux Not sure if either of those are documented side-effects.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 16:13:13 2020 No.14640365 >>14640131 >>14640135 >>14640171 Fucking schizo

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 16:15:02 2020 No.14640371 >>14640364 Why put a bandage on your wound? It will never leave if you do not stop it and cure it by the source! Go consoooom more derpface

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 16:19:12 2020 No.14640393 >>14640371 The act of going to the doctor and actually getting it all out into the open itself is helping the main source of my depression. But, thanks for the concern.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 16:28:23 2020 No.14640430 >>14639917 I'm interested in knowing the age at when people enter certain stages that's all

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 16:31:23 2020 No.14640443 File: 35 KB, 484x497, 1579392700430.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I really hope animals can see dreams like us. I hope it's something nice for them all tonight

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 16:49:29 2020 No.14640558

>>14640359
Because in my view people are just a reflection of the broader society, yeah they fucking suck but that’s because that’s the culture they exist in. If we can change society we can change the people along with it.

Of course that’s nigh impossible in practice.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 16:55:34 2020 No.14640587 >>14636955 I read it in a night, and really enjoyed it, but youre wrong, intentionally wrong. Cute b8, though.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 17:01:56 2020 No.14640622 >>14640443 Dogs definitely dream. No reason not to believe they don't see in their dreams, although maybe they dream more by smell.

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 17:04:45 2020 No.14640640

>>14635805
I've been reading Mann's The Magic Mountain lately and a certain passage about time really stuck with me. How monotony will stretch an hour or a day into the infinite, but dissolve a year, even several years into a grey nothing. Conversely, new, fresh experiences make an hour or a day go by in an instant, but grant weight and solidity to the year or the decade; they anchor your existence in time.

It scares me to death because the former has been the last several years of my life; the (few) notable things I've experienced I remember well, and they help me tell the years apart, but in the periods between these events I find just that grey nothing.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 17:05:55 2020 No.14640644 >>14636955 >>14640587 Is it a loves story?

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 17:15:51 2020 No.14640693

>>14640640
interesting you should say that. I recall reading in some pseudoscientific book on memory (Walking with Einstein by Joshua Foer) there was an aside about how, like you just said, novel experiences slow our perception of time, which is why our childhood seems to occupy such a huge place in our memory

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 17:18:41 2020 No.14640708 File: 53 KB, 400x600, 16B8FBD0-234A-428F-BB94-0CE049A8BC78.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14635805 Horrible, horrible things.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 17:20:52 2020 No.14640723 >>14640708 Can relate.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 17:22:10 2020 No.14640735 >>14640644 Not those anons, but no, it's a ghost story. Who reads Wuthering Heights for story though? It's been one of my favorite books since I was 12 and it wasn't for story.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 17:23:27 2020 No.14640744 I haven't read anything in 2 years since getting a blue collar job and a girlfriend. I feel lost.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 17:33:54 2020 No.14640816 >>14640735 english is not my native language so i cant enjoy it as you can.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 17:34:23 2020 No.14640818 >>14640430 That sounds interesting. Tell me more. What conclusions did you draw from my post, if any? >>14640183 You might be interested in The Demon by Hubert Selby Jr.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 17:47:31 2020 No.14640890 >>14640818 dif anon I concluded ESL or typo

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 17:49:44 2020 No.14640905 >>14640816 I wasn't trying to be condescending, the writing is just over the top. What's your native language anon? I read a lot of books outside my native language and I know it's tough, so you have my respect for that.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 17:53:51 2020 No.14640932 I used to try and read more challenging books now I dont give a fuck anymore, totally love game of thrones books

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 17:57:25 2020 No.14640950 I know that im disappointment to my parents and other and they give good advice but i still end up doing nothing.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:17:00 2020 No.14641079 >>14640950 Why do you think that you are a disappointment?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:19:13 2020 No.14641094 >>14641079 Im a neet who's clueless manipulative coward without any future

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:26:06 2020 No.14641131

I'm unattractive, very grotesque looking, I dream of a future of mechanical augmentation.
I've always wanted to look insectoid, why? Well I feel as if the human-mammal look is not enough, but will that ever happen? People cutting their flesh and bone for plastic, metal and wiring, is it going to be for everyone, is it going to work?
Alien or as alien as one can be, insectoid.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:28:22 2020 No.14641141 >>14637585 It is a bogans except you would take it offensively and wonder why he's being so rude but he's just a bogan. You can never understanding the unique textuality of life if you do not know the thing.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:30:45 2020 No.14641153 >>14637733 >>14637889 Shut up you spiritless hacks, get a life.

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:30:51 2020 No.14641156
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>>14635805
>tfw born with cleft lip
>got it repaired as a baby but still ugly
>want to kms but would make mummy sad

what are some books where the Main Character has a cleft lip?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:32:14 2020 No.14641162 >>14638679 Everyone likes that anon, things feel alive.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:33:02 2020 No.14641169 >>14641156 Watership Down

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:33:47 2020 No.14641174 Unironically these threads are the most comfiest on /lit/.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:33:51 2020 No.14641176 >>14640443 The kicks of my cat are definitely the dreams of a hunt.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:37:35 2020 No.14641203 >>14641169 >Watership Down lmao i laughed thanks anon

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:41:16 2020 No.14641228 The mods on this site are bunch of dumb cunts

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:43:19 2020 No.14641243 >>14635805 Oh god oh fuck why is time moving so fast

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:43:34 2020 No.14641244 >>14641228 Agreed. Especially considering the case with You Know Who.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:50:42 2020 No.14641292 >>14640818 Will check that out, thank you anon

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:54:53 2020 No.14641310 I CAN'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND PARMENIDES. WHAT IS THE BASIS FOR STATING THAT "WHAT IS", CANNOT CHANGE INTO ANOTHER "WHAT IS"? Why did this phaggot have to be so important, and yet write in such an incomprehensible way?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 18:58:30 2020 No.14641324 >>14641094 What's stopping you from making a change? The thought that there's no point in doing anything?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 19:01:44 2020 No.14641337 >>14636968 >>14637021 >>14637067 >>14637150 That sucks anon, but y’all are fucking lame. Do you seriously talk like this in person?

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 19:02:46 2020 No.14641341 >>14637247 A wise man is aware of how little he truly knows

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 19:04:06 2020 No.14641345 >>14636968 Listen to this anon>>14637307

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 19:11:49 2020 No.14641382 >>14637247 I agree with this Anon: >>14641341 A man whose intelligence intoxicates him will soon become ignorant.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 19:20:51 2020 No.14641421 I used to be lonely and horny but I'm not even horny anymore. I'm a lonely 23 year old coomer who can barely even get an erection until 3 days of nofap.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 19:21:23 2020 No.14641426 I just wish there was less r*ddit on this board lately

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 19:23:41 2020 No.14641439 >>14641426 >lately

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 19:46:15 2020 No.14641541
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my will to do anything is vanishing. i take no joy in anything now. i cant bring myself to read or write like i used to, not even play video games. now all i do is exist all day, fulfill biological necessities and watch youtube videos (of people playing games that i used to play).
how to get out of this sinkhole anons. ot is not even despair I feel. just unwillingness. emptyness. i lack any drive. i'd say I just want to lay in bed forever but I lack the will even for that. I just go on through life unmoved, like as if it were being shown to me in a movie theater. I had to bring myself to write this post. even binge reading 4chan posts has become hard to get myself to do. help anons, this is a cry for help.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 19:54:05 2020 No.14641595 >>14641541 other people. there's nothing as exciting as the feedback of your peers. take the initiative to do things with friends. get handsy with a girl. start a fight with one of your bros. physical interaction is invigorating.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 21:27:35 2020 No.14641953 >>14641131 Hey man I'll fuck your bug cloaca if you choose to have one. Always wanted to

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 21:35:02 2020 No.14641995

My friend is in the hospital for a chronic, life-threatening condition and I feel so helpless but I also feel like I can't allow myself to be upset by this and worried about him because it isn't my pain and his position is much worse. I just wish they would come out with a cure tomorrow, we have all this technology and shit but can't figure out how to fix our bodies
Fuck

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 21:36:37 2020 No.14642000 >>14640693 >which is why our childhood seems to occupy such a huge place in our memory What? I barely remember any of my childhood. little bits and pieces sure, but not very much - I think that most people are the same???

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 21:37:23 2020 No.14642003 >>14641995 >tfw none of my friends would give a fuck if I died right here right now Hope your friend gets well, friend.

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 21:45:20 2020 No.14642035

The internet used to have such an affective impact on me. Browsing old websites and forums felt like looking into another foreign world, the curiosity evoking a very real but hard to describe sensation within the body. 4Chan itself used to be so mysterious. I remember reading about cyberpunk on shitty forums with crappy black and green neon layouts. I felt like I was spying into a forbidden world. I don't get that now.

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 21:52:43 2020 No.14642075 >>14642035 the internet isn't a gathering of enthusiasts anymore, just another sanitized space for commerce and profitable interaction

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 22:02:43 2020 No.14642114 File: 1.67 MB, 320x180, 1214df59060c4d4a4b94ad557190bf3e[1].gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14635805 fuck niggers and jews but more specially FUCK JANNIES

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 22:28:57 2020 No.14642227

I’m reading a book by Stephen King and the first few chapters are so slow-paced. The woman hasn’t left her house yet, spent a bunch of time reminiscing about some memories of her husband, and now FINALLY she’s going to go find a silver shovel that has some connection with her husband’s death

>>	Anonymous Fri Jan 31 22:35:20 2020 No.14642258 >>14635805 It's so tempting to use psychoanalysis for evil

Anonymous Fri Jan 31 23:52:02 2020 No.14642474

>>14639839
Yeah, I'm not too upset about my family situation much now- I don't think I would have been half of the person I am today without my parents giving me the amount of independence and time alone I had in my childhood. There are probably people who have it much worse out there, whose childhoods have traumatized them for life, but me being here and also being able to make a living off of something that I work toward every day is testament to the fact that my parents did an overall good job in raising me. Maybe it's less so resentment and more the desire to be able to talk to them more. I've always seen those idealized versions of the parent-child relationship in movies and I wanted to have the same amount of intimacy as they had, even having an argument would be fine, but my parents had always let me do as I pleased as long as I had work to show for it. Then there's the problem of the language barrier between me and my parents: I'm fluent in their native language, but I'm much more well spoken in English (I didn't realize this before, but my parents always say 'happy' in English instead of using our native language. Are we just all soulless bugmen to the point where we don't even have the word 'happy' in our language?) Honestly, my largest regret of my childhood was that I sat at my computer all day shitposting on forums instead of creating or learning anything useful. Not to say that I didn't develop any skills or meet anyone worthwhile, most of the people I can confide in are people I've met through the internet. I don't have the same kind of emotional connection with any of my friends offline, mostly because I probably constantly come off as an aloof sperg to them. Despite all of this, I'm confident in my own abilities and character. It's conceited of me to say this and I don't deserve more than the average person, but I've worked hard to get to this level of skill- and I'm glad that I was able to.

These threads are always wonderful because I can see some insightful, life-affirming posts here: something you can't get out of any forum since there's always a layer of having to follow arbitrary social mores and sucking the cocks of the mods. It's comforting to be able to write a large wall of text, even if nobody reads it. I'm flattered that anyone would take the time out of their day to read my post- I'm sure it's disorganized, a mess, jumps from point to point without making a point, but they don't have to be a masterpiece when I'm yelling into the void with the rest of you all.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 00:13:15 2020 No.14642531 Tranny jannys deleted the thread, but I wanted to share my thought >>14642038 Female instagram posts read like primitive chatbots trained on self help and pop-mindfulness books.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 00:15:47 2020 No.14642542 >>14642531 I was enjoying the other thread about cucks being possessed by demons from their sissy hipno videos

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 00:22:23 2020 No.14642559 >>14642542 Archive link? Sounds interesting

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 00:25:24 2020 No.14642569 >>14642474 Good post anon. Wasn’t incoherent at all and was well written. Maybe get your parents a gift or invite them somewhere where you can talk about things.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 00:46:53 2020 No.14642620 >>14642003 Thanks anon, I hope so too. And I hope you'll find some better friends.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 00:51:59 2020 No.14642632 It's okay to occasionally write fanfiction if the bulk of your output is original fiction and poetry, right?

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 01:06:31 2020 No.14642665

It's amazing how quickly I forget the consequences of my sins when I'm tempted again. I am trying to be more watchful of my thoughts and terminate poisonous ones before they enter my heart but too often I dwell on something tempting for too long and allow myself to entertain it within me. If only I could be more vigilant of myself amd engrave the sinner's prayer on my heart rather than reciting it with my lips.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 02:59:37 2020 No.14642981 >>14639131 You don't. You just need to masturbate often. The time between each ejaculation will be freed for productivity.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 03:01:02 2020 No.14642985 >>14642632 Some of the most acclaimed writers of all time wrote fanfiction. Virgil wrote fanfiction of Homer's work, Dante wrote fanfiction of Virgil's work. Are they despised for this? No. Stop being insecure and write what you want.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 03:06:00 2020 No.14642992 >>14635805 Nick Land seeks catharsis through giving into capitalism (death impulse). The next step in history will actually be a rejection of society

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 03:07:04 2020 No.14642994 >>14635805 I will become a historical figure. Maybe not this flesh husk specifically, but one of my defendants. And I will be reincarnated into him.

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 03:19:59 2020 No.14643025

I have lately realized that if I'm ever going to get married I'm going to want to marry someone who is aggressive and assertive. I have huge ambition and I won't settle for anything less than perfection, so if I ever get married I can't be married to someone who's just passive, or weak, or needs me to constantly direct her like a child. I need some kind of warrior woman, someone who will challenge me and push me to be great, someone who's as arrogant and confident about herself as I am about myself. I need some kind of conqueror-woman, an empress. Someone who's beautiful and aggressive and daring. I need a woman that I can conquer the world with, and I need one who WANTS to conquer the world. I don't think I'd really be happy with anyone less.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 04:35:52 2020 No.14643179 >>14641324 Fear, anxiety and the lack of meaning. Ironically im in the spot where i dont give up entirely on myself yet im unable to leave this mental limbo entirely.

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 04:37:21 2020 No.14643184
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How similar do you think you are how similar do you see your thoughts as being to the average person?

Do you think you are "understood"? I think usually I am not.

I'd say I'm like 30% similar to - have 30% of the same thoughts as -the "average" person and maybe 40-50% similar to the average /lit/ user.

It's possible I'm overrating my uniqueness. I think there is probably a lot of range for variance in people. Like we are all pretty dissimilar from one another. (Who could embody the "average" then?)

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 05:08:39 2020 No.14643260

Do you guys ever try to avoid lingering on or revisiting past happy memories for fear of "diluting" them. Like let's say there's a song or a place you associate with a happy time, you'll intentionally avoid listening to it or revisiting it out of fear that you'll water it down by replacing it with new memories? I can't tell if this irrational or sensible, I kinda like having certain parts of my past "off limits" so to speak even to myself, I like preserving them in a sort of mythology. But then maybe I'm just preventing myself from reliving happy memories.

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 05:11:05 2020 No.14643266

>>14643184
This is something I used to think a lot about when I was younger, but as I've grown older I realise everyone is unique in their own ways. I do still think there is a difference between "normies" and myself, but I don't see myself as special, I just have different interests and think about different things. That doesn't make me better (I know that's not what you're implying necessarily, but I think that's a common enough mindset in these parts)

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 05:14:29 2020 No.14643282

>>14642665
Unrelated to your post but you know what pisses me off about some people who weren't raised religious? A lot of atheists laugh at the idea of original sin, and say superior smug things like "are you telling me that a baby is born sinful, what a perverted way to think" when really original sin is just a way of explaining something absolutely fundamental to the human condition: that we all fuck up and we all give into temptation and no matter how hard we try we will never be perfect. This is something that everyone raised Christian understands intuitively and I want to tell those people to get off their high horses and I'm not even religious anymore.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 05:24:56 2020 No.14643318 >>14643260 Yes. I avoid my favorite things for fear of my re-experience being lesser than my nostalgia.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 05:31:19 2020 No.14643337 >>14643282 Isnt original sin about being born aka separation from God?

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 05:32:26 2020 No.14643342 >>14643337 your original sin was being born gay faggot

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 06:33:08 2020 No.14643497

would you be interested in /lit/ discord server?
> inb4 discord tranny
i think it's a pretty good platform for continuos active talking. you can set a slowmode timer on 60 seconds in some channels to make it authentic.
i'm thinking of book club (to read some lesser-known book every 2 weeks), book discussion channel, book recs and lifestyle improvement. maybe "on your mind" channel as well. every existing lit-related server has retarded rules or is generally retatded
would you join?

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 06:41:32 2020 No.14643529 >>14643497 Discord is a honeypot, not to be trusted

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 06:43:38 2020 No.14643532 >>14643529 do you mean it's not secure enough? i'd suggest telegram, but it doesn't have channels and maybe 2% of people here have it

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 07:21:29 2020 No.14643637 >>14643260 i do this also. also do this thing where i only listen to certain songs if i "deserve" to listen to them, so to say

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 07:33:59 2020 No.14643678

No interest in God.
No interest in the Kingdom.
No interest in what is talked about, nor how it is talked about.
No interest in right or wrong, good or bad, everything else that goes in this direction, but also everything that goes nowhere.
Just interest in practice, the exercise, the path; not as an object of thinking, but as an object of doing.

What is prayer? What is meditation? A stick that flies into the spokes of the wheel. One activity is replaced by another activity. Is that enlightenment? Ask someone who is interested in such questions. There are things that humans can do, and stopping the wheel is one of them. It's as simple as that.

What does stopping the wheel mean? Sit down and pay attention to nothing, absolutely nothing, like a dead body. Do it a few times and you' ll understand what it means when a stick flies into the spokes of the wheel. It's something that comes naturally when you give it enough room. Room is created when the minds eye is not following thoughts and feelings. It feels like dwelling outside of the world. If that feeling arises, the last step is to pay no attention to it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 07:57:46 2020 No.14643750 >>14635805 How do I stop tying my self-worth to my intelligence? I think it's because it's been the only thing I have going for me since I was a child, and the only thing I was praised on as a young one

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 08:00:50 2020 No.14643758 >>14643750 Develop other areas

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 08:21:33 2020 No.14643841

>>14643750
Go to the gym. Nothing will humble you faster then realizing your body's current limitations, and nothing will make you feel better in the long run than knowing you've surpassed them over and over. You'll know that you're not just a one trick pony. Also, the discipline that is good for one helps with the other.

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 08:24:26 2020 No.14643852

>>14643266
I didn't mean it in a superior sense. I mean it as something much scarier. I mean like basic linguistic comprehension or confusion. I have this weird fear that nothing I say is being understood. And so all communication is approximation. But then sometimes I feel like a 110% empath, and like I can get exactly inside the head of others. idk

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 09:08:18 2020 No.14644048

>>14642474
>I've always seen those idealized versions of the parent-child relationship in movies
I am sure that you know that there are just that. Ideals and nothing more. They very rarely reflect reality. I would say that you might have even had a better relationship with your parents than the average kid. But this kind of makes me sad. Like you said, are we just soulless bugmen, unable to truly connect?

>my largest regret of my childhood was that I sat at my computer all day shitposting on forums
I feel the same way. My friends were Anons from 4chan and truth be told, back then I didn't mind it. I could never really socialise with other kids irl and all I can do now is small talk. I have actually gotten pretty good at it during my university years, but I couldn't form any meaningful relationships with anyone.

>These threads are always wonderful because I can see some insightful, life-affirming posts here: something you can't get out of any forum since there's always a layer of having to follow arbitrary social mores and sucking the cocks of the mods.
Agreed. I came to unironically think that certain parts of 4chan are much more understanding than mainstream social media.
Don't worry about how organised your thoughts are. I could make out what you were trying to say quite easily (I hope). I can't write in a coherent manner about how I feel either. I am very self conscious about writing properly, so I tend to make lots of mistakes as a result. So many that an Anon even thought that English must be my second language.

>>14643184
As I have written above, I find it much easier to talk to Anons than to your average person. That being said, I'm not sure that there even is such a thing as an "average" person. Most people might act the way they do simply because they want to fit in.

>>14643497
Discord isn't really anonymous, is it?
But if you want to create one then don't let me discourage you from it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 09:15:29 2020 No.14644084 File: 67 KB, 564x816, 1580228500155.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14642542 Quick rundown?

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 09:57:03 2020 No.14644275 >>14643260 Yes but if you don't revisit them enough you will forget them. Such is the cruelty of the demiurge.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 10:32:01 2020 No.14644428 >>14643184 >>14643266 >>14644048 I can't relate to this "nobody is average" mentality. Just go look at and interact with people! Everybody is average aside from a few who somehow stand out.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 10:40:49 2020 No.14644466 >>14640905 My native language is Lithuanian. I try to read english books but a lot of meaning and especially prose just flies over my head.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 11:33:17 2020 No.14644695 >>14636981 based autist

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 12:00:05 2020 No.14644829
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my entire self improvement framework i've been pushing down my own throat is falling apart and im indifferent towards it. I've tried reading multiple philosophical books lately and they are all so fucking boring i can't read more than a few pages at a time of forcing myself so I stopped. I tried NoFap but there's nothing else fun to do so I gave up and now just bust when im bored. The only thing I've been sticking to is weightlifting, only because I actually enjoy it "in the moment" and don't care as much about the results. I think the whole self improvement thing of forcing yourself to do shit you don't want to is slave mentality (I dont mean that in whatever way that Nietzche guy used it i've never read him L.O.L) The only thing I've been obsessively reading about is cavemen, they are so interesting to me. I've lost all interest in politics or anythign related to modernity. I find both the Traditionalist worldview (I did read Guenon ROFLCOPTOR) and modern scientific rationalism worldviews retarded and I just want to be a cave man with a stick poking mammoths. I don't really know any of my views on things, I bounce between hating Christianity and praying to God, I bounce between wanting to be an ascetic and a hedonist every fucking day and I've finally started accepting this is just how i operate and i dont care anymore. I care less and less of society or others opinions of me, I just want to live how I want but most of it is just being depressed and browsing here so whatever i guess. i have no strong convictions other than i want to fuck gorls and kill something with a spear

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 12:05:02 2020 No.14644851

Fill my heart with joy
Fill my soul with light
Take off the weight
That lies upon my head
For all I want now
Is to see again in colour

I want to feel the morning breeze
As the sun paints my day
No more black and white
The world shall be bright again
Taste, feel, smell, smile
I'll be alive once again
I'm sorry if it sucks, it just came out

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 12:09:22 2020 No.14644865 >>14644851 If it isn't clear, the last line isn't a verse

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 12:14:27 2020 No.14644887 I’m thinking I would like to return to graduate school to study Classics, but I’ve already graduated with shit grades in a shit STEMbug degree. I should’ve just studied Classics from the beginning like I wanted to.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 12:49:24 2020 No.14645038 Honestly, I even bother with OCS considering there’s nothing going on and the Army really only seems to be interested in non-white female engineers? I just want to serve but I flip flop back on forth on this Army.

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 12:54:18 2020 No.14645065

>>14635805
I hate working. I only work so I can have money by summer to move out safely, but its taking too long. I yearn for the day I dont have to waste my time at a job I dont care about and just focus on bettering myself and be in a career I truly love.

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 13:08:11 2020 No.14645150

Been thinking that i have a gf for 5 years now and time really flew because of work and life in general and it baffles me that i only had sex with one woman the last 5 years, where i had the chance to have sex without other multiple women but didn't.

Should i be feeling bad about this? Been thinking this a lot the past 5 days or so

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 13:13:32 2020 No.14645188 >>14645150 You should actually feel good that you had the chance to pair bond with your girlfriend.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 13:36:21 2020 No.14645302 >>14645188 don't know i rejected a 19yo beauty and i feel really bad.. she must be thinking im gay or something

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 13:37:17 2020 No.14645304 >>14645302 Just fuck her on the side, it's literally impossible for men to cheat

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 13:37:55 2020 No.14645308 >>14645304 don't have a second place. the gf smashes the phone every hour or so. where i tell her i'm going?

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 13:39:34 2020 No.14645320 >>14645308 I was just kidding you probably shouldnt fuck the 19 yr old, but does your gf actually contact you every hour?

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 13:51:19 2020 No.14645388

>>14645320
Anon if after 5 years your girl is still that insecure, you need to question why. I'm not saying break up with her or anything, but just consider if thats healthy. Last girl I was with for 5 years was comfortable as hell because we were so close and had never strayed, on several occasions I kissed another girl in front of her in the context of a game or on a night out, we would skinny dip, literally didn't matter because we knew that nobody was going to fuck around. Between me and her at 3AM those conversations are what mattered, and thats where the relationship was cemented. She didn't call me to spot check me, nor did I her, because it wasn't necessary.

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 14:11:04 2020 No.14645497

>>14645065
Do you really hate work though? I don’t mind working. I hate working in an corporate office with corporate office people and I hate working for no reason. I basically make just enough money to survive, pay off enough student loan debt that it’s not increasing but isn’t decreasing, and continue going back to work.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 15:05:30 2020 No.14645863 I watched Perverts guide on ideology and cinema, now i dont know what to think of zizek.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 16:45:27 2020 No.14646374 bump

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 17:02:11 2020 No.14646438
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>>14635805
>can't write, think i'm a fraud
>procrastinate long enough so I only read at night and its usually less than 20 pages
>sleep late but also sleep long, usually wake up at 11am-2pm
>no friends to make plans with
>cutie wants to go out but afraid of spilling spaghetti
>burning my retinas daily on my phone
>have money; nothing to waste it on
>playing vidya=waste of time but usually do that instead of read
>tfw no purpose

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 17:16:25 2020 No.14646508 pretty sure i have corona virus. what should i do?

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 17:17:13 2020 No.14646513 >>14646508 Where do you live?

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 17:19:46 2020 No.14646523
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was the Buddha a mongoloid, a brown indian, irani-looking or what?
every time I read a sutta I imagine his voice as that of an indian scammer pretending to be a microsoft customer service agent

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 17:20:54 2020 No.14646529

>>14646513
large west coast city. i live in the part with all the asians, and i shop for groceries at the chinese market. i use public transit as well.

feeling feverish and weak all of a sudden. mild throat irritation. body aches.

well i have no health insurance so RIP i guess.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 18:18:37 2020 No.14646779 There’s only one person in my life I talk to about my thoughts and feelings and she only listens because I pay her.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 18:19:25 2020 No.14646781 >>14644851 Fill my heart with song And let me sing for ever more You are all I long for All I worship and adore That's what it reminded me of. In other words, I like it!

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 18:19:40 2020 No.14646784 >>14646529 youre not going to die dumbass, it's basically just another flu

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 18:24:55 2020 No.14646808

>>14636906
>I should thank them, but I hold a small level of spite or resentment toward them as well for never being there when I was a child.
You resent them not because they weren't there for you, but because you can't pay them back. You thinking about how they weren't there for you is just your mind trying to justify why you haven't paid them back by imagining a scenario where they gave you less.

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 18:44:22 2020 No.14646904

>>14636906
>>14636968
>>14637021
>>14637067
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>>14637162
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>>14637287
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>>14639799
So many decadents. I couldn't even stomach to go through the full thread.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 19:30:47 2020 No.14647162 >>14646904 ok

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 20:11:50 2020 No.14647313 For the past six months I haven’t even been able to pretend that my value system extends beyond nihilistic hedonism. Pretending otherwise was just the juvenile larping of a pseud. My own comfort and happiness is all I care about.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 20:57:03 2020 No.14647515 >>14647313 I feel the same

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 21:00:17 2020 No.14647528 FUCK I WISH I LIVED IN JOJO

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 21:02:54 2020 No.14647541 >>14646508 See a doctor, perhaps?

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 21:13:13 2020 No.14647589 its been a long time since you

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 21:33:15 2020 No.14647665 >>14647541 no health insurance and nothing a doctor can do. feeling pretty bad. gonna go to bed early and rest. what are a few must-read books before i die? i've read most of the /lit/ canon.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 22:01:22 2020 No.14647812 >>14647665 all the books in the bible

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 22:10:31 2020 No.14647850

You think I could write a new communist manifesto? Do you think that with modern person that all they need for something to be revolutionary is for it to be accessible? I told one of my friends, “I was watching a video comparing Marx’s theories on workers disassociating their own work with Joker.”

“Marx?”

“Karl marx.”

“Who?”

He didn’t know, he’s smart, 25 years old. 25 years old and doesn’t know who Marx is. Don’t worry, he knows who Plato is.

God I hate these people, Monty Python has a sketch, where they send out the Greeks vs the German philosophers into a soccer match. Each team had 12 players, so each team had 12 famous philosophers. I could recognize about 10 on each team, and knew the gist of about 6 on each team. I doubt the people around me could recognize one.

I know the people around me don’t know who Nietzche is. I also know that their living their own lives, as valid and as fulfilling as mine, probably more fulfilling. Knowing a lot about basketball gives them joy. Knowing a lot about Nietzche gives me depression.

Not really, the depression gave me Nietzche.

Then I thought, when that sketch aired, did the people back then laugh? By all accounts it wasn’t a good sketch.

Anonymous Sat Feb 1 22:16:20 2020 No.14647867

Since starting work there’s been a perpetual exhaustion I’ve been wrestling with. It’s the common state most workers face, where you’re too drained to pursue your hobbies and you resent the melancholy of it. I’m either slowly adjusting or dissolving, but the feeling is murky all the same. I’ve been scarfing down philosophy and poetry lately because that’s apparently all I have energy for. I’d read a fiction or watch some art film but I don’t have the patience, everything needs to be quick and meaningful these days, otherwise I’ll just fall asleep. I still have my love for adventure, but that’s only briefly felt in conversation with strangers around the city, and I’m not always willing to risk approaching people anyway. This is corny but I’d like to walk around Paris again, be like a pebble kicked through the crowds, get all twirled up in their slick tongue, observe new ways of being. But knowing life I’d get there and be miserable in a week (don’t dream like that though). Anyway this is an odd time, I get angrier at little things now too, like a wretched old man, if I stub my toe I might write a whole essay about it, “Displacement and Anguish: The Phenomenology of Not Wearing Socks and Encountering Stray Coffee Tables”.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 22:18:15 2020 No.14647877 I'm often feeling very, very frustrated.

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Anonymous Sat Feb 1 23:00:58 2020 No.14648029

>>14635805
If someone wrote the Tao Te Ching today, I'd think he was a fucking idiot. Because it's old and famous, I didn't dismiss it the first time he said something so broad as to be meaningless, or something concretely, demonstrably wrong.

Meanwhile some of it seems insightful. But is that just me reading in a meaning I'm ready to see because I already felt that way? Or is it genuine insight clearly communicated and just hiding among platitudes and nonsense.

How many other things have I neglected to see something valuable in because they are less old and famous? And since I have to be able to recognize the thought to see it, (at least where the intended meaning is unobvious) to what extent am I the author vs the reader?

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 23:01:55 2020 No.14648035 >>14648029 t. npc

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 23:03:54 2020 No.14648046 Should I continue working on this blatant Hopkins pastiche that I'm stuck on, or start working on a long poem that's been eating at my psyche? The pastiche is easier to turn in for critique, but the long poem is more alive.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 23:05:37 2020 No.14648053 >>14647970 beyond pathetic

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 23:07:06 2020 No.14648058 >>14647970 huge faggot

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 23:09:58 2020 No.14648067 >>14648035 Great point, anyone who doesn't innately share your perspective probably isn't real.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 23:47:45 2020 No.14648178 >>14647665 presuming you are an otherwise healthy young male then you have nothing to worry about. this won't kill you just stay hydrated and rest up. that's all you would be doing in a hospital anyway.

>>	Anonymous Sat Feb 1 23:50:26 2020 No.14648191 >>14648046 If you hit a wall, it may be right to work on something else. Who knows, by the time you get back to the original project your brain may have come up with something as it diffused.

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 00:21:44 2020 No.14648320 does anyone here want to rate my core workout /fit/ only cares about lifting 60 lemon squeezers 60 Russian twists 60 bicycles 1 min flutter kicks 1 min plank 1 min hollow body x3

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 00:25:06 2020 No.14648332 >>14647970 Excerpts from the new John Green?

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 00:27:30 2020 No.14648346 >>14635805 I just coughed up phlegm, but I didn't close my mouth in time to catch it, so it shot into my hand and a little got on my robe, it is sticky and it glistens in the dim light of my room and fuck captcha I should buy a pass again

Anonymous Sun Feb 2 00:40:43 2020 No.14648397

>>14635805
How can I develop self control? I'm working from home more the way my work is, and I just find myself eating and snacking constantly, always looking at my phone, not reading, not even listening to a podcast. the only thing i can do is play a game with random youtube vids in the background, or stuff my face with snacks with rrandom youtube vids in the background. I have so many ambitions but i have no discipline or self control to get myself to work towards them. my ambitions are not even that difficult too, i am well within my abilities to achieve all of them, i'm just in this perpetual state of procrastination and resistance

Anonymous Sun Feb 2 00:47:20 2020 No.14648423

>>14642569
Thank you, I've taken my parents out to eat before and they've always appreciated it. We do almost always end up talking about mundane things, though, like how the food tastes compared to other restaurants or if we should go for groceries later. I've realized that the magic of family relationships is that they'll always be there no matter what, to the point where you tolerate each other in the most mundane ways. I can think of the several times I've clogged up a sink before or had something inexplicably mess up while cooking and, while my family members were (reasonably) annoyed at me for a while, they would always sweep it under the rug the next day. My mother is rather flighty and sometimes says some incredibly shallow things, but I forgive her (tolerate it) because she's my mother. Not to say that everyone should tolerate every family member they have just because they're family, but it's a lot easier to do so when they are family- I don't think I would interact with any of my family in all honesty if they weren't my family, we don't have much in common. But that's the great part of being in a family: you're always there, and they're always there, for better or for worse. I think I'll take them out for dinner soon when I have time, but they're pretty shaken up about the whole coronavirus scare. I don't know why either since we live an entire continent away from China. Though, lately I've been getting little gifts for my parents whenever I go out to get groceries- most recently, I got them 2 bags of this coffee candy they liked and also a loaf of bread. Not much, but they finished both within a week.

>>14644048
I probably do have a much more stable relationship with my parents than with most people, even if we don't get to speak much even when I visit home, but that's mostly because they're working and also because I'm working on something as well. Everyone in my family is a (relatively) busy person- I won't demand emotional intimacy from them when they're probably dead tired by the end of the day from dealing with customers. I've been able to have conversations about my emotions before, but only with people that I'm especially close with (i.e. internet friends who I've known for more than 10 years). I don't have many people that I talk to on campus, except for my professors (who are all good and knowledgeable people, I'm always shocked by how much more they know than me and it's a humbling experience every time and a constant reminder that I can always do better). I've tried attending clubs before but there's always a layer of discomfort when I'm with people I barely know and have almost nothing in common with. It's not a matter of social anxiety or such either- I usually always chime in with my opinion during seminar-style classes. There are just some parts of social interaction that I find dishonest and upsetting, like petty, banal, and constant criticism of everything.

Anonymous Sun Feb 2 00:48:54 2020 No.14648429

It's my birthday, I dont really care but I do. I'm sure everyone feels like this a little bit. Remember when micheal was your friend? he goes by aemon or something now. I like being alone and im mad at my partner which is what made me think about birthdays. She's making me mad on my dumb little day. But it is mine after all right?

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 01:00:20 2020 No.14648481 >>14648320 add some trunk lift or similar to engage the lower back--otherwise you'll fuck with your posture in the long run

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 01:02:15 2020 No.14648484 >>14648397 >snacking constantly might be an oral fixation, if not a food addiction. In either case, try chewing gum. And also get chrome web blocker and block youtube, seriously. >>>/adv/

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 01:07:10 2020 No.14648504 >>14648429 What'd she do to piss you off? Maybe you're just unpleasant.

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 01:09:42 2020 No.14648515 >>14648481 Ty bro

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 01:09:42 2020 No.14648516 >>14648504 Oh just a dumb little irritant, it's silly life is weird.

Anonymous Sun Feb 2 01:21:01 2020 No.14648559
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>>14636968
I got something worse.
>at new years party with my first girlfriend who is growing distant from me after I had erectile dysfunction the first time we tried to have sex, and the times we did have sex afterwards were darkened by the shadow of my first failure to perform and were ultimately dead actions, but we still care about each other
>she gets really fucked up and halfway to the party gets really attracted to the only other guy there (this is a party with 6 people total, all close friends of her)
>end up completely disconnected from everyone at the party
>when its time to go to sleep, try and finger her but i cant even find the fucking vagina
>i cant fall asleep
>shes trying to fall asleep with her back towards me
>spooning is really uncomfortable for me so i try to get her to fall asleep facing me
>for the first time, she brushes off my hand as if disgusted by me
>cant go to sleep
>lay in the bed until morning with my whole being aching in anguish and being the most alone I've ever felt in my life, begging god to just let sleep take me
thanks for reading my blog post

Anonymous Sun Feb 2 01:24:29 2020 No.14648572
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>>14635805
What should I read next? Based on my bookshelf. It's been fucking haunting me and I'm a big enough faggot to be swayed by strangers opinions on the internet.

Here are the books I started, loved (because I read a few hundred pages in) but put down because I just kinda got sick of them - I'm hoping to rekindle the flame! I'm fully aware of the plots of almost all of these, so if you do suggest them maybe hint at what I'd enjoy about the prose/themes (what I'm mainly interested in tbqh)
>The Brothers Karamazov
>Anna Karenina
>Guermantes Way (Proust is my favorite, I DEVOURED the first two ISOLT volumes but this one doesn't hit the same for some reason)
>Moby Dick
>Crime & Punishment
>Pale Fire (annoying to read tbqh, otherwise cool)
>Infinite Jest
Do you think I'm pigeon-holing myself in classics of similar eras? It's 99% of what I know literature to be but I'm admittedly not educated in literature, just been reading lit as a hobby for 4 years.

Books on my shelf I haven't started:
>Divine Comedy
>War & Peace
>Borges' Selected Non-Fictions (LOVED his Collected Fictions, Borges is my #2 fav behind Proust)
>Notes from Underground
>a ton of business books I prob should read because I'm a fucking loser

Anonymous Sun Feb 2 01:25:28 2020 No.14648578

>>14648559
I mean, I wasn't there anon, but a lot of this sounds like it was in your head. Like, I feel like there's a lot of reading more into a situation than is necessary going on here - but then again, I'm not there so I can't say for sure.

Also... how can you not find the vagina? Just move your finger lower and lower until you get there?

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 01:32:16 2020 No.14648595 >>14635805 Is The Leopard the peak of reactionary fiction?

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 07:52:08 2020 No.14649645 >>14648578 >Just move your finger lower and lower until you get there? >>14648578 do NOT do this, vagina dentata is most active at night

Anonymous Sun Feb 2 08:09:25 2020 No.14649693
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>>14635805
showing emotions as a man is the worst thing you can possibly do. if you show emotions you've already taken yourself twelve steps back. unless you are the god of all men's genetics, women will see emotions as a weakness. ever wonder why so many chicks are with uncaring caricatures of alcoholic abusers? its because they don't go around talking about how something upset them or hurt their wittle feewings.

if you're ever going to show emotion, show happiness in moderation, you're going to get yourself fucked if you try to "connect" with a girl you like. shut up, and just hug her, grab her hand walk with her.

after just closing off my emotions to women ive had so much more success

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 08:34:56 2020 No.14649792 >>14649693 its insane how true this is and women act offended and say that its not its only because i like the idea in theory but if it ever happened to them they would be horribly turned off

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 08:41:18 2020 No.14649815 >>14649792 you're a better friend if you're emotional you're a better boyfriend if you're cold and overbearing my only solace is this tuvan coloring book enthusiast board

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 09:05:07 2020 No.14649903 >>14649693 yes and no. if you have substance (confidence and lifes goal) then showing emotions as a passion isnt a bad thing. However you're screwed if you act like hysterical girl.

Anonymous Sun Feb 2 09:21:33 2020 No.14649965
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>>14648423
>there's always a layer of discomfort when I'm with people I barely know and have almost nothing in common with
>there are just some parts of social interaction that I find dishonest and upsetting, like petty, banal, and constant criticism of everything
I feel the same way, Anon. Though I will try to chime in during my classes as well, because I feel that I am taking my withdrawal to extreme degrees and that might harm me in the long run.
Anyway, have a nice day and I hope I'll see you in the next thread as well!

>>14649693
If you show emotion to anyone, not just women, you'll cease to be seen as an equal worthy of respect. Instead, you will be seen as someone less, who doesn't deserve love but pity. Do you also find it funny how these days the media constantly spews bullshit like "men should not be afraid to cry"? And then society will completely cease to see those men as men.

I do realise how completely autistic this sounds, but in the past I felt guilty about finding certain girls pleasant to look at. Pic related, for example.
Nowadays I don't really look at people or at pictures of them so it's no longer something that affects me anymore. But since I'm here, I was wondering whether anyone else had this problem, or something similar.

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 09:35:27 2020 No.14650013 >>14635805 Dm d-dm dm dm People are strange When you’re a stranger Faces look ugly When you’re alone

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 09:36:49 2020 No.14650017 >>14635837 what did he mean by this

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 09:44:05 2020 No.14650040 >>14635805 Sisyphus 2

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 09:48:31 2020 No.14650052 >>14649965 some people are just so pretty its hard to comprehend

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 10:27:34 2020 No.14650227 >>14648572 Oblomov

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 11:52:49 2020 No.14650657 Gotta say, “clean your room”, in a completely literal sense, is actually good advice. I feel much better when everything is tidy, thank you lobster man.

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 12:09:26 2020 No.14650741 at least i can always kms

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 12:39:38 2020 No.14650880 >>14635805 Yes.

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 12:49:58 2020 No.14650938 File: 5 KB, 222x227, 1579600130411.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14650880

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 13:05:12 2020 No.14651029 I'M SO HORNY THAT MY PEANUTS ARE PREGNANT

Anonymous Sun Feb 2 13:44:36 2020 No.14651225

Honestly Anons? I got a brain injury back in 2018 and having just recently got back into literature and after reading "No Exit" by Satre and I only really enjoyed it on quite the surface level and from that I'm not sure whether, like my maths skills and spelling skills, my ability to enjoy lit and the "deeper" meaning of these books and scrips are now permenantly ruined for me or whether this is purely a lack of volume in regards to reading.
Either way it just reminds me I'm just a shell of the man I used to be.

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 14:03:23 2020 No.14651306 >>14651225 read Adler "How to Read a Book" it will teach you the steps you can take to have a "deeper" understanding of the book as you say. gaining this deeper understanding is actually a surprisingly straightforward process.

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 14:04:42 2020 No.14651314 >>14651306 ps. not to conflate "straightforward" with "low-effort" though. the more effort you put in to it, and it can take a LARGE amount of effort, the better your understanding will be

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 14:06:05 2020 No.14651323 I had an argument with my parents about current problems and they dont understand that taking responsibility for myself, knowing what i want are the most difficult things.

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 14:13:28 2020 No.14651356 She isn't coming back, is she?

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 15:18:16 2020 No.14651775 >>14636955 No.

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 18:32:28 2020 No.14652822 >>14651356 Just move on

Anonymous Sun Feb 2 19:16:11 2020 No.14653026

In the evenings I feel like myself, whatever that means, everything I want to do is way easier than it was during the day. I feel happy with myself and go to sleep early, sometimes thinking that I should keep going but why should I? All worries gone, I'm not in a hurry, but still I feel like that's just me rationalising my fear of change and failed expectations. In the morning all is gone and I fail to get out of bed

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 20:15:09 2020 No.14653257 >>14637287 The true chad. same here

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 20:40:34 2020 No.14653368 You will not, "get better." Eventually your father will die, your mother will die, and you will be alone. You will forever be unable to form a connection with another human.

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 20:47:10 2020 No.14653412 File: 4 KB, 162x114, 111.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Why the fuck do some of you do this?

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 20:50:36 2020 No.14653435 what's on your mind

Anonymous Sun Feb 2 21:32:19 2020 No.14653635

>>14639131
focus on your self control. build other habits intentionally. small ones. The more you do this the easier it will be to control yourself when you decide to stop faping. also, when I finally quit, I was going to weekly confession and waiting as many days as I could before faping again. some weeks I would last four or five days and some days just one or two. Keep trying

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 21:37:16 2020 No.14653653 I'm waiting for a bus at the station and the game is on behind me, and this kid sits down in a chair opposite me and looks at the game for like five seconds then asks around if it's the only game on. Funniest shit I've heard in a while.

>>	Anonymous Sun Feb 2 23:04:08 2020 No.14653937 >>14653412 What's odd about that? Obviously, someone's to read list is going to be bigger than than the book's they've read. Also, people's read list isn't necessarily every book they've ever read, just the books they've added and decided to rate.

>>	Anonymous Mon Feb 3 01:48:00 2020 No.14654667 Drifting

>>	Anonymous Mon Feb 3 02:48:39 2020 No.14654840 >>14635805 based

>>	Anonymous Mon Feb 3 02:50:35 2020 No.14654848 WUAHHHH MY SKULL IS FUCKING SCEAMING 3:)

>>	Anonymous Mon Feb 3 02:51:37 2020 No.14654853 *SCREMING

>>	Anonymous Mon Feb 3 03:00:02 2020 No.14654880 Was it not meant to be?

>>	Anonymous Mon Feb 3 05:36:22 2020 No.14655271 >>14653937 It's stupid to sit on Goodreads and add books all day. The guy is never going to read any of them so he's just filling up my timeline for no reason.

Anonymous Mon Feb 3 06:10:47 2020 No.14655339

I have stoped my most permiscuos and ignorant ways.
i now start to see the beuty in life and look for days to come. Most days i achive my at least one or two objectives. And things i used to dedicate a full day to now i want to get them done quieckly in the morting.
Im now a bit less focused on only doing deep work and realise the importance of connecting with others and sharing ideas. I want to improve my english and portugues for language is the bases for most day to day comunication of ideas and concepts.
I feel like im on the verge of making it just a bit more efford and im there.have been feeling like this for a while, and if i focus on it a sensation of presure grows within my chest.
As such i dont think about and insted focus on compaling a list of 100 most used words in english so I can finaly stop doing so many ortugrafic mistakes.
If i do make it... i will share the way with the fellow men.
> thank you anons, for being here for me.

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