how are you holding up, /lit/?

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Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:07:42 2020 No.14618743 [Reply] [Original]

how are you holding up, /lit/?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:08:36 2020 No.14618755 Anyone else reject women out of insecurity?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:09:43 2020 No.14618763 File: 46 KB, 720x705, 30f2862c7eb2584c28bb74098ba1a9d7.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Failed my last university finals so I can spend an empty semester looking for jobs, then somehow tell them that "no, i am not a fuckup, please hire me"

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:10:43 2020 No.14618766 >>14618743 Just want to die

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:10:44 2020 No.14618767

Since graduating college last year I’ve been feeling like my life is pretty much over. Nothing to look forward to. Any job that I can probably get will be unfulfilling and stressful. The idea of marriage and children just scares me. I’m just depressed all the time or most of the time at least.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:10:52 2020 No.14618768 File: 14 KB, 300x345, images - 2020-01-27T191008.566.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >tfw it's been 3 years already and I still can't forget her How do I get over this bros? Every other woman seems inferior to her.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:12:02 2020 No.14618773 >>14618766 based

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:13:23 2020 No.14618783 File: 46 KB, 486x401, feels.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14618767 I thought I was alone

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:14:44 2020 No.14618794 File: 993 KB, 1600x900, 1577083480927.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14618743 Performative NEETdom, precarious future, lost

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:16:09 2020 No.14618800 >>14618768 how long were you together ?

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:17:18 2020 No.14618806

It was supposed to be different. It is still the same, I am just older. And bitter about the past. Worried about the future.I am entering my thirthies withered. Those last ten years, supposedly most youthfull years can't be the best. They weren't even good.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:17:48 2020 No.14618812 >>14618767 I don't want to spend the rest of my life working, man.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:18:03 2020 No.14618815 >>14618743 I want to kill myself like most of you but can't do it because muh mummy & daddy's fee fees. Fuck this shit.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:18:34 2020 No.14618822 >>14618755 All the time. I almost broke up with my girlfriend because of it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:19:03 2020 No.14618824 Everything is hollow and devoid, I find meaning in nothing. I have lost all my friends since starting uni. I am working on creating a tulpa based on Guenon. Maybe he will be my friend.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:20:24 2020 No.14618837 >>14618822 >>14618755 chads gtfo

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:20:38 2020 No.14618839 File: 680 KB, 1920x1508, 1920px-Iván_el_Terrible_y_su_hijo,_por_Iliá_Repin.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14618743 How do you think?

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:23:54 2020 No.14618861
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>>14618743
My isolation from people is slowly getting worse and worse. I was failing to make coherent sentences to a classmate out of some type of autism, thank god it was a woman, they are so use to dealing with autistic shit by men. Nobody has faith and me and I have no faith for anyone, if I have no expectations i'll never be disappointed. I'm just like every other sad frog on here, slowly rolling into suicide. I'm slowly realizing how incompetent and stupid I am/was, the memories of the past still burn in the present shimmering in pain.

I have a date soon though, hopefully I don't drop it due to my insecurities like this anon has issues with >>14618755. Either way I hope it goes well.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:25:52 2020 No.14618882

About the same as always
> no friends
> a girlfriend who will break up with me once she realizes she can’t fix me or I’m not so great as she thought
> most of my writing is self-indulgent pity
> absolutely no friends. I had 3 in college (one of them I hated) and all three of them don’t like me or never want to talk
> applying for jobs constantly
> never read as much as I want to
> spend most of my time watching terrible contemporary films that got good reviews like Atlantic’s and booksmart, and hate these types of movies so much. So fucking much.
> parents hate me
> the highlight of my day is having a muffin and coffee.
> maybe I’ll watch I, Claudius and read tomorrow with my muffin and coffee. Should be fun

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:27:24 2020 No.14618892 >>14618767 >>14618812 These. I'm on the cusp of graduating and i'm not even sure what the future holds. Don't even know if there is anything to look forward to. Or that i'll have a job in 10 years.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:27:56 2020 No.14618897
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>>14618743
terrible. i just smashed my head on the door 4 times and now i have a headache and a scuffed up door. hopefully the last quarter of a bottle of whiskey will numb the pain. i love america! american dream number one! can't wai to wake up tomorrow and do it all over again!!!!!

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:29:24 2020 No.14618908 TOday was a good day

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:30:33 2020 No.14618920 >>14618768 Try 7

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:31:37 2020 No.14618928 File: 20 KB, 598x554, 1579526412175.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >faggots having sex, dates and even rejecting women Wtf. When did /lit/ become a giga normie board?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:32:00 2020 No.14618931 >>14618892 I just graduated and it’s a lot better. I’m this >>14618882 anon. It’s still shitty, but at least I have a semblance of independence and don’t need to bask in any delusions that college offered.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:33:24 2020 No.14618935 >>14618928 >and even rejecting women I laughed hard at this.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:34:11 2020 No.14618940

I think I will be happy with a part time job and nothing more. Academia, professional places sicken me to the core. I don't want a house, kids, dogs blah blah blah, so I don't even need a lot of money. I want time to work on my art, and myself instead.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:35:51 2020 No.14618944 >>14618928 I'm more surprised that people can claim to have soo many problems but still have the will to go out and fuck and maintain gfs

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:37:49 2020 No.14618952 How do people have no friends but a gf? Makes no sense

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:37:57 2020 No.14618954

Lmao @ self-help fags.

Currently studying a prestigious degree at one of the most prestigious institutions in my country, lift weights 4-5 times a week, work part time, have goals for the future, read regularly, socialise semi-regularly yet still sees the emptiness behind it all.

Imagine believing having/doing these things brings fulfilment. Schopenhauer was one of the most based men to have ever existed. We're doomed to restlessly strive because the pain of not doing the above is just as equal to seeing the vanity behind it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:38:13 2020 No.14618958 >>14618928 there isn't a single blue board that hasn't been raped by normies. only boards with a sufficient amount of shocking material can deter them.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:39:04 2020 No.14618963 >>14618952 Online dating

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:40:10 2020 No.14618971 >>14618954 What self-help fags?

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:40:58 2020 No.14618976

>fall for memes
>read Evola
>realize my consciousness is a parasite of my body and it is my flesh that sets limits for my actions and not the other way around
>realize I don't have the willpower and willingness to suffer for freedom
Not doing that great desu

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:44:03 2020 No.14618992

>>14618971
Just used it as a shitty catch-all term for people who believe that self-improvement can drive away the existential dread. I will continue to do the above but I'm under no illusions. I rescind the "self-help fags" thing for lack of a better term.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:44:21 2020 No.14618994

>>14618976
>tfw i have unbelievable will power and capacity for suffering
>have no idea how to actually do anything useful, no orders from any authority to carry out, a warrior without a king
it doesn't matter bro. be a bitch, be a hard motherfucker, it doesn't matter, we're all in the same hell and we can never escape it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:46:16 2020 No.14619003 >>14618992 Oh, got it. So the void/existential dread never truly goes away even after ticking all the boxes that allegedly make you happier?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:47:18 2020 No.14619011 >>14618994 take the G pill

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:48:08 2020 No.14619019
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>take uni writing course years later
>smart, cute girl sits right across from me the whole semester handwrites a full page review gushing about my story, telling me she loves it and thinks I'm the best writer in the class
>everytime I went to class after I thought about thanking her, but always backed out because I'm terrified of talking to women after years of horrible experiences
>didn't say a word to her all semester
Even my therapist got angry at me.
There was this other girl I had a crush on. We were in a semester long group project and both in the literary club, but she always started the conversations. One meeting I was so scared of saying hi to her I didn't even look in her direction for a whole hour and never went back to a meeting. I drive down to my uni to read her stuff when they publish the literary magazine every now and then.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:49:04 2020 No.14619024 >>14619011 is that the pill where one day i snap and start burning things down or killing until they catch me then i get mowed down by cops as i take out as many of them as i can?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:50:00 2020 No.14619032 >>14619019 >Even my therapist got angry at me. lol

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:50:05 2020 No.14619033 >>14619019 you did the right thing. women are a meme, avoid them as God instructs us.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:50:23 2020 No.14619038 >>14618861 Do you have any plants? Try growing some plants, trust me it helps alot

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:50:31 2020 No.14619040 >>14619003 Precisely anon

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:51:02 2020 No.14619042 You don't actually feel sad. Nobody does, as it's just a bodily sensation. Learn to recognize it as such, and enjoy it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:51:16 2020 No.14619043 File: 3.11 MB, 412x444, pogchamp.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14619019 >Even my therapist got angry at me.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:51:35 2020 No.14619046 >>14619038 this is the most brutal post i've ever read. fuck this earth

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:52:03 2020 No.14619048 >>14619003 Ticking boxes never made anyone happy

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:52:37 2020 No.14619049 >>14619019 She wrote you a fucking letter in the 21st century saying she loved your story and thought you were the best writer in the class and you still let her go?? Jesus Christ.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:53:15 2020 No.14619057

I finish my meme degree in a few months. I haven't learnt anything in three years, and have no passion for any of the work I have done and probably going to get a measly 2:2 and disappoint my high achieving family. I also have no idea for future plans beyond graduation. Not big problems compared to some others I know. I guess I'm just stressed about what the future may hold for me.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:56:53 2020 No.14619074 >>14619048 The gist behind it was to take care of all facets of my life. Nevertheless, what would you suggest otherwise?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:56:54 2020 No.14619076 >>14618767 i've been out for 4 years and it only gets worse. the money piles up and my depression has skyrocketed with it

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:57:14 2020 No.14619077
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I am happy because I am finally different. I changed into a better version of myself, I can feel it in the depths of my soul.
It took me a life but I'm finally free from myself, finally, I am someone else.
I don't care about heavy existential shit anymore. I have accepted that the future is bleak and the only thing awaiting us is pain and death, but it troubles me not. This new me is ready to live and die, to enjoy life for as long as I can and suffer through despair, to fight until the world devours me. I am finally someone else, and I'm ready to live.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:57:43 2020 No.14619079 >>14618954 what by Schopenhauer are you referring to? I feel the same way as you and I've been trying to find reading material for it

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:59:08 2020 No.14619083 >>14619019 is it alright with you if I save this and pretend it was written for me

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 20:59:09 2020 No.14619084 >>14619048 ticking boxes is the only thing that can make you happy, or at least, stave off the hopelessness and futility of life, via the release of serotonin in the brain. or you could just take SSRI's i guess

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:00:41 2020 No.14619090 >>14618743 I moved to a 3rd world village so I could live out my neet/lit/ dream but then bought WiFi and I’m just back on this site instead

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:03:28 2020 No.14619107 >>14619019 You posted this before. This is likely bait

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:03:53 2020 No.14619109 >>14619079 The World as Will and Representation vols. 1-3 and Parerga and Paralipomena. The latter text is more accessible but still builds upon WWR. For WWR, you should have a decent understanding of Kant.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:04:16 2020 No.14619111 >>14619090 based and bluepilled

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:04:36 2020 No.14619113 > /lit/ loves to shill Nietzsche, Evola, and all these hyper masculine power authors. > has literal talk therapy threads that nearly reach bump limit yikes

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:06:27 2020 No.14619120
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>>14619079
The man was an incredible writer:

>It is really incredible how meaningless and insignificant when seen from without, and how dull and senseless when felt from within, is the course of life of the great majority of men. It is weary longing and worrying, a dreamlike staggering through the four ages of life to death, accompanied by a series of trivial thoughts. They are like clockwork that is wound up and goes without knowing why. Every time a man is begotten and born the clock of human life is wound up anew, to repeat once more its same old tune that has already been played innumerable times, movement by movement and measure by measure, with insignificant variations. Every individual, every human apparition and its course of life, is only one more short dream of the endless spirit of nature, of the persistent will-to-live, is only one more fleeting form, playfully sketched by it on its infinite page, space and time; it is allowed to exist for a short while that is infinitesimal compared with these, and is then effaced, to make new room. Yet, and here is to be found the serious side of life, each of these fleeting forms, these empty fancies, must be paid for by the whole will-to-live in all its intensity with many deep sorrows, and finally with a bitter death, long feared and finally made manifest. It is for this reason that the sight of a corpse suddenly makes us serious.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:12:27 2020 No.14619148

>>14619109
>>14619120
alright man I appreciate it but I'm not interested in jumping into his metaphysics or broader work, do you enjoy any essay or shorter work by him where he writes about the emptiness of purpose that you were talking about originally?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:12:42 2020 No.14619151 >>14618743 Stressed out. Long story short transferring to a new uni but unsure about a lot of things or what route to take.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:13:18 2020 No.14619152 >>14619090 kek

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:17:33 2020 No.14619181 >>14619148 Fair enough. Read the following essays then: On the Vanity of Existence On the Sufferings of the World The Wisdom of Life

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:20:36 2020 No.14619200

>>14618743
Poorly, like always. Failed all my university classes last semester, partly due to living in a massive dorm. Terrible, oppressive atmosphere in my tiny room exacerbated by sickening roomates in my suite. I stopped going to classes halfway through the semester and just walked around at night and watched movies. Now my parents want me to go to community college, which I'll probably yield to even though I know it's going to be horrible. I just want to run away to Russia and become a conductor in Siberia. Naive. "There's nothing here for me to do, nowhere here for me to go, no one here for me to meet."

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:20:54 2020 No.14619201
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>>14618743
Could any /lit/ geniuses provide some advice? I love to master things and have a pathological need to be competent but since I'm a socially inept NEET, virgin autist I don't want to be viewed as incompetent, I'll just flee the situation. For example, in a group project and if I don't feel I 100% know the material, I'll just skip it because of the terror it brings me to be judged and the potential that I might mess. I'd rather seperate myself from the pack and die by myself than let the whole group fail.

I have the same mentalilty for relationships too. I hardly ever talk to women, I never kissed or held hands or anything and I don't want to start because of the women discovering that I'm new to relationships and therefore incompetent.

Am I just cursed to this mentality forever? Forever hiding yet wanting to be competent but since you need experience to be competent, I'll forever be stuck in this loop

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:22:06 2020 No.14619206
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>>14619201
I can be autistically devoted to something if I have a goal but if I don't have a clear goal, like now, I'll just browse /pol/, /biz/, /tv/ and /lit/ for 10 hours per day. I don't want to die without having achieved anything, bros

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:22:16 2020 No.14619207

>>14619201
Holy fuck why do you guys care about sex so much. I am in the same boat but I don't predicate myself with it as if it were some essential characteristic of me. Just fake it until you make it. I do a ton of shit on the fly, completely made up and it all works out. You are oversocialized

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:22:44 2020 No.14619212 I want to hold hands with a woman :(

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:23:05 2020 No.14619215 >>14619181 thanks for not degenerating into name calling or anything of that sort, I do intend to read Schopenhauer's complete work one day but I'm just not there yet. I appreciate the recommendations

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:24:17 2020 No.14619220 >>14618954 > Look at me I'm so great > But also > I'm so great because it doesn't matter. Still based except for the weights and goals. Congrats on the work though, only thing about that post I'm envious of. Although, part-time is nebulous.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:25:31 2020 No.14619225 >>14619215 different anon. He has a short essay collection called Essays and Aphorisms that includes his most well-known essays, including the ones anon said, On Women, and On Suicide. I'd check it out if I were you.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:26:11 2020 No.14619234 Almost 30, and the feeling of meaninglessness never left.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:26:40 2020 No.14619239 I told my therapist that when I leave each session I am usually upbeat for about an hour before becoming really sad. She seemed upset about it. But then the session ended and she let me go, so I guess not that upset.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:26:49 2020 No.14619241 File: 390 KB, 1024x768, twoface.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14619206 This is me too holy fuck

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:27:16 2020 No.14619245 >>14619207 I don't care about sex that much either. I just used it as an example of my mentality. I'd rather flee the situation because I feel like I'm incompetent (because I value competence)

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:29:28 2020 No.14619253 >>14619239 I stopped going to a therapist the moment I caught her yawning when I was telling something. That's where I knew I was fucked forever. Life got better, though.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:29:51 2020 No.14619254 >>14619225 will do, I'll dive in along with op's recommendations

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:29:57 2020 No.14619255

>>14619201
No because, thankfully, relationships are supposed to be about human connection and not one-upmanship. Hopefully, a woman finds you and loves you for what you are. It'll take several years and accomplishments, though, only if you're not fat. Even Pessoa had young poon all over him in his 30s. I'd say that's your best bet, be in your 30s, somewhat thin, have a distinct look to you, be handsome, be detached, be skilled at something (acclaim doesn't matter, women love discovering hidden gems, especially young ones) and this is your best bet. Authors to recommend to create this detached mindset: Musil, Dostoevsky, Celine, Pessoa, Kafka, Schopenhauer, Nietzsche, Salinger Joyce (only Ulysses), Proust (creates some profoundness, although he is different),

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:31:40 2020 No.14619264
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i see the beauty in all things. i love watching people and talking to them. i love the bad experiences in life for what they show me. i fucked a girl 2 days ago and we both hate each other, but in that moment we couldn't get enough of each other. i smile and i laugh. im satisfied with the inconsistencies in life and accept life for what it is instead of wishing it to conform to my irrational cravings.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:33:07 2020 No.14619271

>>14619253
My old fucking therapist would eat in front of me or go on his IPAD every fucking session. He then asked autistic 15 year old me, who had no friends and no romantic life, if I saw Kate Upton at a party would I take advantage of her. Mind you, I had not masturbated in my life at that point, and I'm still probably a repressed homosexual and have had only a handful of sexual encounters with women in my life (all after I was 21, I'm 23 now), and his main concern was that I would rape Kate Upton at a party, because I said I would take advantage of her when I had no idea what it meant, and I meant get her phone number. He told my parents, and I told them I meant sex in order for them to think I wasn't a faggot. My father slapped the shit out of me, and my mom started crying. That's therapy for you.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:35:00 2020 No.14619283 >>14619255 >be skilled at something Like what? Any suggestions?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:36:40 2020 No.14619291 >>14618743 i constantly feel a hair's breadth away from ending it

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:38:26 2020 No.14619296 >>14619283 DESU I thought you said STEM virgin, not neet virgin lol. I'd go for writing, because that's mine and even if you're shitty some younger girl will think you're deep at some point.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:39:29 2020 No.14619304

>>14619253
she is good so far with not being distracted. she actually takes notes and remembers details from session to session. I'm just not hopeful in general. I think I have a problem that takes a long time to resolve and I'd rather die than do this process for years.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:41:43 2020 No.14619319 >>14619271 Why people bother with therapists is beyond me. They can never understand your life fully. The only person that can change your life is yourself.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:44:23 2020 No.14619334 >>14618767 I'm aiming to retire before 33 and then.... Fuck me, is this why people get married? Will probably take a few months this summer to travel, maybe do grad school. But the time moves so quickly these days.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:45:00 2020 No.14619342 >>14619271 kek story of the day

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:46:01 2020 No.14619353 >>14619255 >be skilled at something (acclaim doesn't matter, women love discovering hidden gems, especially young ones) what does that mean exactly?

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:47:07 2020 No.14619360
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>>14619296
I'm not a NEET cuz I'm in a local college but barely attending and just taking a few classes. When I was younger I used to be super into robotics and I was probably pretty impressive for my age and got invited to science fairs which were held in a semi prestigious university in my country to compete with other young-science minded people. I was just in a regular public middle school at the time and was competing with other older highschoolers, alot of which were from these really preppy and prestigious private schools that requires entry exams to get in. i did pretty well overall but of course I wasn't the best. I still thought back then that I had potential but I wasn't cocky by any means and was always insecure and had the same need to feel competent and when I wasn't I wold punch my head and slap myself and stuff like that

i don't know what happened. If I just got lazy, my social ineptitude, my pathological need to feel competent and in scenarios where I do feel competent I'd rather leave (I'd rather myself fail than let the whole group down or even not be the main contributor in the group since it makes me feel guilty when someone does more work than me).

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:47:30 2020 No.14619364 >>14619319 My parents made me all throughout my childhood because I didn't have any friends and was too "angry." Upon growing older and realizing why I was so "Angry" was because my dad is the most insufferable bureaucrat in the world.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:48:41 2020 No.14619371 >>14619353 That younger woman like older single aberrant men that are detached and have a vocation even if they don't have a lot of money. Think Pessoa or Kafka.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:48:58 2020 No.14619373

Whenever a famous person dies like Kobe did yesterday and I see all the people mourning them worldwide it really makes me wish I could be super famous and influential and beloved. I felt the same when Michael Jackson died too. And when my mother died
I don't think I have many people that would come to my funeral.
The feeling usually goes away eventually, I mean I guess it doesn't really matter when you're dead anyway. And in the end the mourning doesn't last so long either.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:50:48 2020 No.14619386

>>14619373
Good that Kobe Bryant festival is the biggest fucking scam. He was a fucking basketball player that accomplished nothing,
> it really makes me wish I could be super famous and influential and beloved
Thinking like this beyond a certain age is pathetic.

cunt Mon Jan 27 21:54:32 2020 No.14619400
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>>14618755
>>14618763
>>14618766
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>>14618768
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>>14618815
>>14618839
>>14618861
>>14618882
>>14618897
>>14618908
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>>14619077
>>14619212
>>14619234

Can you all stop being huge faggots and live already, just do something for kill your self. Stop circle jerking about "My life has no meaning". or "TFW no gf". All you shit heads do is post Schopenhauer memes. Fucking live or die, pick one. And Schopenhauer isn't even a good philosopher.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:57:40 2020 No.14619416 >>14619400 >just be yourself bro

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:57:49 2020 No.14619417 >>14619371 What would be a good skill to learn to support myself for an INTJ-T socially inept zoomer?

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 21:59:25 2020 No.14619425

>>14619400
Nihilists need to be slapped and given a wedgie.
>B-but life is meaningless. Pain is just neurons firing in your brain bro, same with love!
*WACK*
*PUNCH*
*BAM*
>AHHHHHHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THAT HURTS NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO STOP IT! AH STOP! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THE PAIN MAKE IT STOP!
*PUNCH*
*PUNCH*
>NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AH PLEASE OH GOD MAKE IT STOP

And that's how you BTFO a nihilist

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:00:05 2020 No.14619428 >>14619400 why do you say that he isn't a good philosopher?

>>	cunt Mon Jan 27 22:00:43 2020 No.14619431 File: 16 KB, 343x343, 1520575363346.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14619425 based

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:02:36 2020 No.14619435 >>14619417 I'd say computer science, but I'm doing that and you have to be a bubbly apple-liberal faggot that works in groups constantly. Maybe Math in academia or Physics, anything else is too social and thus defeats the point.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:03:00 2020 No.14619437 >>14619386 >Thinking like this beyond a certain age is pathetic. Yeah okay, if you say so buddy.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:05:13 2020 No.14619446

Thanks for asking. I notice how asynchronous/nonlinear how life can be, one step forward, one step backward, a leap forward, a tumble on your ass backward.I'm in competition with myself, the old me, never content, yet strangely content with my discontent. I am comfortable in a state of discomfort. I embrace the viewpoint that life is struggle and that pain is unavoidable. Most glorious of all, I want less. I no longer feel pangs of envy or covet the unobtainable. There is work to do.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:06:44 2020 No.14619454 >>14619446 are you a nigger?

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:07:51 2020 No.14619460

>>14618839
>>14618743
I have a thing where, before bed, I sometimes daydream scenarios similar to this Ivan the Terrible painting. Typically I am someone like an orphan who has been scorned by the people meant to take care of me, and then I get fatally wounded, and they try to comfort me as I die. If it's been a long time since I've done it, I'll cry quietly. Sometimes I get an erection from it, but I don't feel arousal and I have no desire to masturbate during it.
Any psychology anons know what's going on here?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:08:33 2020 No.14619465 >>14619454 Hmm, not last time I checked. What makes you say such a queer thing?

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:10:26 2020 No.14619476

>>14619019
Hot damn anon, if this isn’t bait then you fucked up. Like this is the biggest fuck up of al fuck ups, you had to TRY in order to fuck up this bad. Reminds me of this girl who would always start conversations and say nice things to me, and I never ever made a move because I was socially retarded.

There’s a chance that I’ll see her again, and if I’m REALLY lucky (i.e. she’s not taken), I need to make my move especially after seeing this post. I really really hope I don’t fuck up this bad because I don’t wanna die alone

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:10:50 2020 No.14619479

>>14619386
>He was a fucking basketball player that accomplished nothing,
He accomplished a lot though. I assure you he accomplished far more than you did in his life. I'd be willing to bet everything that he accomplished more than anyone on /lit/ right now has, not to mention accomplishing more than most of the world. There's even a wikipedia page of his accomplishments.
Seems like a really false thing to say that he accomplished nothing or that mourning him is a "scam" whatever that's supposed to mean.

>>	cunt Mon Jan 27 22:11:12 2020 No.14619482 >>14619428 >suffering is when the wills blocked >therefore don't have a will >suffering is bad Also he shits on women because he cant fuck He might have a few good points but over all hes only know for having influenced Nietzsche the real OG

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:11:56 2020 No.14619486 >>14618952 There are girls out there that are even more lonely and autistic than we are. Learn to manage your expectations and I’m sure you’ll find one eventually.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:12:05 2020 No.14619487 >>14619465 Niggers seem to find diversion in senseless alliteration and ridiculous oxymorons, as well as rhythmic and meaningless writing style. Your post shows some of these signs.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:12:55 2020 No.14619494 File: 93 KB, 1901x385, Untitled27.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14618743 I'm splendid, how's the rest of the team doing?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:14:36 2020 No.14619506 >>14619482 Nietzsche also shits on women, though. And both are based as fuck. You are the cringe faggot here.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:15:12 2020 No.14619512

You all talk about acting on a move a girl makes, but when you look at people do you feel an earnest desire to know them in a romantic way? I just don't seem to have that. Except for one goth-ish girl in middle school, I've never felt the urge to begin a relationship.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:15:34 2020 No.14619513 >>14619487 today i learned poets are niggers i love /lit/

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:16:21 2020 No.14619519 >>14619487 Well, I don't think that any of that is true. It's a shame my post triggered you so. Certain types of schizoaffective mental illness can cause one to be violently annoyed at innocuous stimuli, such as my breezily offhand remarks.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:16:58 2020 No.14619523 >>14619513 No, I had another writing style in mind. Like hip-hop or Sean Penn's novels. But some writers are nigger tier, yes.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:17:06 2020 No.14619524 >>14618824 based godspeed

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:18:11 2020 No.14619528 >>14619519 >never content, yet strangely content with my discontent. I am comfortable in a state of discomfort. This is the nigger bit. Straight from a rap song. You should be a rapper.

>>	cunt Mon Jan 27 22:19:00 2020 No.14619534 >>14619506 >Nietzsche also shits on women Not in the spiteful why, but as a critic of what we might call nowadays there gender role. >You are the cringe faggot here Amazing come back, "I know you are but what am I" tier .

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:20:22 2020 No.14619539 >>14619534 >Not in the spiteful why, but as a critic of what we might call nowadays there gender role. holy fucking revisionism

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:21:51 2020 No.14619551

>>14619479
He was a basketball player. He expanded the game of basketball. Basketball is a consumerist hobby that millions of Americans have made their life's worth. He was very good at basketball, one of the best, but the world would be the same with or without him. He is no more human than any of us is my point.
> I'd be willing to bet everything that he accomplished more than anyone on /lit/ right now has
Assuming there's anything worse accomplishing ever, which I reject, so no he didn't. He was a terrific basketball player, and many other distinctions such as good friend, possible rapist etc., but he's still just a person.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:22:39 2020 No.14619557 >>14619534 >Not in the spiteful why, You don't know that. You're speculating here. For all we know Nietzsche's remarks on women could be directly influenced by his personal experiences. In fact, I'm 99% sure that's the case.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:23:10 2020 No.14619560 Pretty good, went to get coffee with a /lit/ girl, walked her to her apartment, and the minute she got inside, she texted me to tell me she had a great time and wanted to see me again.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:23:41 2020 No.14619566 >>14619551 >He was a terrific basketball player, and many other distinctions such as good friend, possible rapist etc., but he's still just a person. kek

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:23:59 2020 No.14619572 My dreams are all out of my grasp, and my mental state is slowly deteriorating. I don’t think I’m going to make it.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:24:23 2020 No.14619575

>>14619534
>Not in the spiteful why, but as a critic of what we might call nowadays there gender role.
No Book 7 of BGAE was present something entirely true and forbidden as logical and coherent, he did that in order to challenge the essayists of the past, this dogmatic "Jewish-liberalism" (he calls it this, so do not /pol me), and challenge people into hearing seemingly grotesque viewpoints, when in actuality many people think like he does.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:25:05 2020 No.14619577 Men getting bamboozled by the women meme again and again.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:25:24 2020 No.14619579 >>14619560 How to meet a /lit/ girl?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:26:13 2020 No.14619587 >>14619579 We were on the same discord server, and somehow it came up in conversation that we discovered that she lives like across the street from me.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:28:40 2020 No.14619606 >>14618743 I've been going from moments of extreme happiness to extreme sadness.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:30:40 2020 No.14619618 >>14618763 fuq what do you do in this situation

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:31:57 2020 No.14619631

>>14619551
>He was very good at basketball, one of the best, but the world would be the same with or without him.
It literally would not. He's impacted many people's lives. I don't think anyone ever claimed he was any more or less human than anyone else. Can you point me to where anyone said this?

>Assuming there's anything worse accomplishing ever
What does this even mean?

>He was a terrific basketball player, and many other distinctions such as good friend, possible rapist etc., but he's still just a person.
Once again, no one claimed otherwise. The only person claiming anything was you with your extremely stupid claim that he "accomplished nothing", and that mourning him is somehow a "scam".

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:31:57 2020 No.14619633
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>>14619572
The most depressing thing about growing up has been the descent into this stupid "practical" mindset of the "realist", becoming every more disillusioned with my dreams. I wish I could stay where I am right now but retain the ideals of my childhood.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:32:03 2020 No.14619634
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I just moved to a big city but it's really hard to make friends or get a gf. City is a glorified giant suburb connected by freeways so spontaneous interactions are non-existent. All of my hobbies are solitary and if not clubs for them are full of exclusively older men. I sometimes will come across a cute girl at a cafe or something similar but approaching them just feels weird, not that I think I'm going to get rejected, but knowing that the whole room will be listening and silently judging scares me off. I refuse to try online dating because I know I can get much better quality woman if they saw me irl because of the nature of those apps. Nightlife to meet people is a no go because I need preexisting friends in order to go without looking creepy. Like an entry level job that demands experience kind of situation. I feel pretty trapped by my circumstances

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:33:22 2020 No.14619641

I’m torn between picking up the book next to me and watching Seinfeld. The book is right next to me and it’s torturing me not to read it, but Seinfeld is so funny. These are too things I like so I’m like a rope being tugged and torn apart by two different choices

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:33:40 2020 No.14619643

>>14619631
Why are you freaking out, anon? He never met you and had no personal impact on your life, plus his career was over and everyone dies anyways. It is hardly your tragedy, let alone a countries tragedy. Fuck off. I'm done responding to your naivety.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:35:09 2020 No.14619649 >>14619641 I loved Seinfeld, then started reading and now dislike Seinfeld. I couldn't imagine watching an episode of anything anymore, anon. So, go watch Seinfeld while you still can enjoy it anon.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:36:49 2020 No.14619663 >>14618763 what are finals? why couldn't you just retake the classes?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:39:35 2020 No.14619673 File: 316 KB, 1456x1135, 26.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOT A CHICK I HOOKED UP WITH

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:45:15 2020 No.14619708

it has been a few years since i visited /lit/

helped me out a good deal when i was getting into philosophy but i cant help but despise this place, though i cant quite recall why now

a certain superficiality of anonymity that i cannot stomach anymore maybe

hope others go well

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:48:54 2020 No.14619730 >>14619673 Imagine still pedestalising women

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:49:17 2020 No.14619734

>>14619643
I'm sick of seeing the antisocial edgelord teenager shitting up the place, seeing absolute fucking garbage like how mourning a worldwide influential figures untimely death is a "scam", acting you're above everyone else just because you personally don't care and playing babby sociopath by disregarding millions of people's feelings.
>Fuck off. I'm done responding to your naivety.
Naivety. Yeah, sure. You really should have just said nothing in the first place.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:49:56 2020 No.14619741 >>14619587 what the fuck? a random discord server? what are the odds of that

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:50:39 2020 No.14619745 >>14619730 you wouldn't understand incel

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:51:27 2020 No.14619752 >>14619734 Not him but your idol was a US thing only.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:52:28 2020 No.14619762 >>14619745 It's easy to understand. I remember being 20.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:52:33 2020 No.14619763

>>14619734
Get the fuck off this board then. What the fuck are you thinking? It'd be one thing if you said Toni Morrison, but even in this obscure chat we have to feel bad for a basketball player-- a sport I dislike. I don't fucking care at all, people die every single fucking day, why is his any different? I'm a sociopath for not agreeing with society's mass mourning for a basketball player? yeah.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:53:10 2020 No.14619766 >>14619745 Oh trust me I do, that's why said it. Thinking about them too much leads to pedestalising them and projecting what you think/hope they are onto them. Speaking from experience my friend.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:55:52 2020 No.14619781 >>14619762 well guessed >>14619766 it's different, she's not like the other girls

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 22:57:45 2020 No.14619790 >>14619781 She's not like other girls until she ends up being like other girls. Time tells all anon.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:00:18 2020 No.14619805 >>14619781 >she's not like the other girls LMAO

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:01:50 2020 No.14619817

>>14619752
he's not my idol and that's untrue.

>>14619763
I didn't say you have to feel bad, I don't care if you feel bad or not. But there's a big leap between not feeling bad and then going out of your way to say absolutely stupid shit.
You could have said nothing. Or you could have simply said "I don't care". But neither of those is what you did. You instead said some stupid shit about he has no accomplishments. And mourning him is a "scam".

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:05:03 2020 No.14619832 >>14619734 >crying about the basketball ape >CRYING ABOUT 4CHAN MAKING FUN OF YOU CRYING ABOUT THE BASKETBALL APE my wews have called upon the wews of the neighboring hills to meet for a wew vigil

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:05:14 2020 No.14619833

>>14619817
>You instead said some stupid shit about he has no accomplishments. And mourning him is a "scam".
I said he had not accomplishments in an existential sense and then said nobody accomplishes anything in that sense. I said nothing "worse" accomplishing, but meant nothing worth accomplishing. It is a scam, he was a basketball player the fulfilled hedonistic pleasures for the masses. His loss only means something to those who knew him. The rest of the country only views him as a great player, and he retired several years ago, so it's not a national loss.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:05:25 2020 No.14619835 >>14619633 Get a hobby faggot. Paint or go kayaking, or write. Do something that feeds your soul not your belly.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:06:27 2020 No.14619841 File: 66 KB, 1000x1000, 1578188114587.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >she's not like the other girls

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:07:07 2020 No.14619845

My cooking is getting better as always and I have forced myself to write more. I get sad sometimes but it goes away quickly. PR'd on weighted pull ups with 2pl8 at 150lb bodyweight. Today I took my gf to work, made my bread I started last night, made breakfast, started my ice cream base, went to gym with gf, made dinner, made the ice cream and froze it, watched a movie, and had another serious talk with my gf about getting her shit together. Hopefully I make something out of my interests and don't die pathetic but I seem to always succeed eventually with enough dedication. I love you all but sometimes I feel like killing you all. It would feel so fucking good. Love you.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:09:27 2020 No.14619855 File: 52 KB, 500x492, A87767.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14619845 >

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:13:55 2020 No.14619879 Anyone here not a NEET, have a well paying job and is yet still fucking miserable?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:14:14 2020 No.14619880 >>14618755 >rejects women out of insecurity *ten minutes later > STUPID FUCKIN ROASTIES ONLY GO FOR CHADS REE THEy'RE DUMB CUNTS, I HATE ALL WOMEN FOR IGNORING ME IN MY MAGNIFICENCE

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:14:47 2020 No.14619884 >>14619855 Oh great I am reddit now. Even though I never browse the site and spend up to 6-7 hours a day on this fucking shit hole some days, faggots like you who spend maybe 1 or 2 call me reddit. Great to know. I hate you.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:17:25 2020 No.14619896 >>14619884 Now this is an anon I like. Giving a stern talk to his girlfriend and now that anon. What other boards do you go to anon?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:18:32 2020 No.14619901 >>14619884 Spoken like a true r*dditor.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:19:28 2020 No.14619911

>>14619833
Okay, fair enough. If you really believe that, as a result of some weird standard, no one accomplishes anything, well then that's pretty much inarguable. And I don't feeling like getting into explaining the basic idea that people can and do mourn the sadness of someone losing their life even if it doesn't directly disadvantage them,

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:24:37 2020 No.14619941 >first day back in the gym in a while >going pretty well >cute girl smiles at me on the way out I’ll fucking take it

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:25:23 2020 No.14619947 >>14619741 We both said the same thing!

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:26:49 2020 No.14619953

>>14619896
I have /lit/ as my home board so I have writing on my mind a lot. I browse /ck/ as you probably guessed. /tv/ because I like movies but the board sucks shit. /pol/ only when something new happens but I used to browse it every day and was so informed I wanted to kill myself and others. /gif/ to coom when I want to or when I get weak and addicted again. /h/ for the mom/son incest threads. /sp/ for /heem/ and when I am watching football occasionally. /fit/ used to be my main board but I pretty much sucked all the possible info from the current health and fitness industry nowadays. I browse other boards occasionally to see what other autists occupy this site.
>>14619901
How creative. You just copy things other anons post because you like being part of the hivemind here. Being a complete loser isn't an identity and I was not trying to humble brag. Enjoy one more (you).

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:29:14 2020 No.14619967 >>14619879 >Anyone here not a NEET, have a well paying job and is yet still fucking miserable? is 90k considered well paying? t. depressed software engineer in his first job

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:30:42 2020 No.14619971 >>14619953 nice work anon, /TV is cancerous beyond belief, but it's my third most frequented board. I mainly only browse /lit and /pol, occasionally /tv, /sci, and /his too. How old are you anon and what is your job?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:30:48 2020 No.14619972 >>14619953 Very low IQ. Never going to make it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:31:17 2020 No.14619975 >>14619967 why are you a software engineer

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:31:43 2020 No.14619979 >>14619967 Yes, and I'm applying for software engineer jobs too. Any advice? I was a math major, but taught myself Java and C++

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:33:04 2020 No.14619984 >>14619781 >she’s not like the other girls Once upon a time I met a girl and I thought the same thing. One day you will learn, one day

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:33:33 2020 No.14619989

>>14618755
>>14618822
I unironically manipulated my wife into going back to our native country and while she was there I went to court by my own here and annulled the marriage behind her back.
She was cheating on me and I found out about it, it was so bad that it took the judge a whopping five minutes to give me my annullment.

Ever since then, I have been rejecting women. I guess it's understandable. Been fucking whores once a month, that's all the affection I need.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:35:00 2020 No.14619999 >>14619989 what's your native country?

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:37:54 2020 No.14620013

>>14618767
>>14618783
>>14618812
>>14618892
Work is extremely rewarding. You meet people, you provide value, they congratulate you, I honestly think that retiring is what causes all these old people to develop these sicknesses and die out.

Just work for yourself thourgh. Even if you make less than you would in a salaried job, at least you're fucking free, independant, not a wageslave, entirely responsible for your situation.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:37:56 2020 No.14620014 >>14619971 22. I work two shit tier jobs.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:39:33 2020 No.14620027 Lads, I finally got published after 4 pieces and over 50 submissions. It's a fledgling publication and the other short stories in it aren't very good, but it's consolation enough. I'm gonna keep going.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:39:47 2020 No.14620028 >>14619113 lmao, underrated post

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:41:28 2020 No.14620035 >>14619999 Algeria. Everyone who thinks that Islam, Muslims, etc., are a thing, is a huge delusional moron. Muslimettes are gigantic whores, that veil is just a façade, virtue signaling. Algeria is a gigantic 2 million square kilometer whorehouse.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:42:32 2020 No.14620041 File: 40 KB, 640x628, A1561529471307.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14619113 >men can't have feelings >also suicide stats are going up wow how?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:43:34 2020 No.14620048 >>14620035 What's the difference between annulling your marriage and a divorce?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:44:48 2020 No.14620055 @ everyone seek therapy

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:44:58 2020 No.14620058

>>14620041
There's a difference between having emotions and depressively venting like a teenage girl to a anonymous degenerates on a 4chan literature board. If anything, this is the sort of thing that INCREASES depression with all the incel defeatism in here.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:46:12 2020 No.14620065 >>14620058 >>14620055 Then why the fuck are you here?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:46:28 2020 No.14620067 >>14620058 Bottling up emotions is just as bad. Also, it's not like people here know each other.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:47:21 2020 No.14620076 >>14620028 Nietzsche said in his letters that he cried constantly, I also doubt you understood him. This is our symposium.

Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:48:36 2020 No.14620084

>>14620048
Divorce = there is a period of time where you were effectively married, and the marriage produces its effects. Namely in terms of sharing the """common assets of the marriage""" (lol) and alimony. Your matrimonial status is divorced.
Annullment = the mariage effectively never happened. No sharing of assets, no alimony. Your matrimonial status is single.

I was extremely lucky and dodged a gigantic bullet, but when I think that someone had the nerve to go through the whole shenanigans of traditional Muslim marriage with me, and it was all a scam, and hold the act for five years, I don't know, now I'm just thinking that nobody can ever be sincere with me. I don't trust anybody anymore.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:58:26 2020 No.14620132 >>14620084 Damn. I'm sorry your woman betrayed you in the worst of ways, brother. I wish you the best of luck.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 27 23:59:17 2020 No.14620135 DAILY REMINDER THAT JANNIES UNIRONICALLY ALLOW THIS TO STAY UP YET TAKE DOWN LEGITIMATE LITERATURE THREADS.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 00:04:46 2020 No.14620168 >>14619460 it's your mythos.. do you find yourself takings Ls for recognition in your daily life? could that be you overcompensating to make up for "not being enough" in other areas? there's nothing wrong with you, anon.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 00:06:15 2020 No.14620174 >>14619400 You don't know shit.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 00:33:31 2020 No.14620295 >>14620084 You need to learn to forgive yourself for trusting the wrong person. Idk if thats a good advice to give but felt the need to say something, and wishing you a good life gentleman.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 01:10:37 2020 No.14620469 >>14619255 thank you for this. fucking kek

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 01:36:29 2020 No.14620586

>>14619201
Read Notes From Underground bruh

In regard to HER, all she wants is for you to be yourself anon. When she wants you to be someone else god knows she'll let you know

Just make sure you're somebody outside of the relationship (i.e. you have other friends) so you have a real self to be as

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 01:44:15 2020 No.14620611 >>14618743 Married men, how did you know you found your wife? I have this very strong sense of inevitability, in the positive sense, with a girl I'm with now. I will live a better life with her.

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 01:55:37 2020 No.14620654
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>>14618743
How do I stop jerking my dick off? I feel life escaping me. My essence is consumed. I, once, succeded not fapping for weeks on and once did a 45 days off fapping for lent.
I need some lights anon(s) and anon-ette(s).

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 02:00:46 2020 No.14620688 >>14620035 Based. Do they like white guys there?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 02:29:56 2020 No.14620817 >>14618755 Nah, never. I get rejected tho

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 04:01:22 2020 No.14621091 >>14618743 I am depressed as fuck apathy sucks when you want to do something

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 04:13:42 2020 No.14621109 i woke up 35 today. the past 20 years have been regretful and brief. my life is stalled and meaningvoid.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 04:20:59 2020 No.14621133 >>14619271 LMAO what? Where did that question even come from? This would make a good episode of something

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 04:59:00 2020 No.14621232 >>14620013 based and laborpilled

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 05:01:41 2020 No.14621237 >>14618763 does the pic mean 'doom metal'?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 05:02:43 2020 No.14621240 >>14618755 How do I get to the point where women want to be with me?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 05:06:49 2020 No.14621249 Everything is boring lads. Even books aren't doing it anymore. I'm 20 and can't drive, have no life and wake up to the same nothing every day. It's hard to think that I'm wasting my youth inside my room every single day.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 05:07:21 2020 No.14621253 >>14620013 yeah i'm sure maintaining a broken society is rewarding

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 05:22:24 2020 No.14621292

>>14618743
I feel pretty terrible. Unwanted. Shit career.

My best friend died in 2018, and I ditched the rest of my friends because they had just turned out to be losers. I have acquaintances now but I don’t really connect with any of them. I imagine the conversations I’d have with my best friend sometimes — as if he never got addicted to heroin and died. That’s 15 years of developing a certain kind of humor etc. Not sure I’ll find that anywhere else.

I need to quit coffee and tobacco, which have become a mild problem for me, making me feel more depressed. I need friends. I need to make career moves. I need to find my peace.

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 05:39:10 2020 No.14621333

>>14621253
You are wrong. Even if you want to consider society as broken and not worth of conserving, there are many ways through which you can earn a living and make society better.
I strive to become a Chi Kung and Kung Fu instructor/master. In essence I strive to be the best version of myself until im so good at it that people pay me for it because it benefits them too. That has nothing to do with maintaining a broken society.

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 06:10:42 2020 No.14621405
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I keep thinking I'm a fraud at everything I do, always underestimating myself yet the results always show potential. I can't event socialize as well as I use to because I put myself down as some incel who can't socialize, which is not really the case at all

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 06:32:11 2020 No.14621448 i used to be a psued and try and read all this bullshit philosophy, lately i've just been reading popular fiction and i'm much happier

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 06:41:25 2020 No.14621464 File: 147 KB, 960x720, 12286043_10153710586038890_1684529619_n_10153710586038890.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14618755 broke off two engagements, try and beat that. ama pic related, girl i left

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 07:08:05 2020 No.14621506 >>14618928 It's ridiculous

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 07:15:50 2020 No.14621520 Better and better actually Feels bloomer man

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 07:15:58 2020 No.14621521 >>14621464 How good was it fucking that ass?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 07:25:04 2020 No.14621541 >>14621521 Pretty good. Ended up hurting her butt the forth or fifth time and she wasn't interested it trying that anymore afterwards. Pussy is better anyway so I didn't mind much.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 07:39:42 2020 No.14621584 >>14621541 How would you rate the sex overall? Why did you break the engagement?

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 07:50:59 2020 No.14621628

>>14621584
Sex with this one was the best of my life, sometimes, and sometimes meh. Mostly it was great. Average was like a strong 7, she was stupid hot and really sexual, we had a lot of fun.
Broke it off cause I'm a sad loser. When I left she had two master's degrees and a great job in Paris and I didn't have any prospects, barely spoke the language and couldn't see what I could do. I don't really do anything except shitpost here, read, and play vidya and I feel like a huge loser cause of it, but I don't seem to change at all.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 08:02:38 2020 No.14621671 I want online friends now, I've been feeling incredibly lonely and wistful these past couple of days. Not sure why now, I've been alone for years.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 08:11:53 2020 No.14621699 >>14621628 how did you bag a girl like that as a foreign NEET? I need whatever you're taking

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 08:19:53 2020 No.14621722

>>14621699
I'm handsome as fuck, bud. And more than that, I used to be chad. I lived all over the world for a few years, speak three other languages well, was a pretty successful amateur athlete, had a job that made decent money. I woke up one day and realized that I was sad, and then pretty much lost all my chadness. Last thing to go was the girl, and I had to drive her away, but I think it was probably for the best. I've got a lot of reading time now.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 08:22:17 2020 No.14621731 >>14621671 Hello, friend. What is your lonely life like?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 08:24:00 2020 No.14621737 >>14621722 read Byron and post physique

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 08:34:00 2020 No.14621764

>>14621737
Byron as in fuck greek boys Byron? Is that just a literary suggestion or is there supposed to be a purpose.
And no, I wont post physique. I'm 6'1'' and around 200 lbs, I've got love handles now. I am claiming to have been chad, not to be chad.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 08:49:47 2020 No.14621822 I underachieved, lads.

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 09:35:36 2020 No.14621982

Just finishing the first semester of a 12 months long exchange program in one of the top 5 universities in Germany and realizing that my third-world-country university was just as good but much harder. I still haven't made any good friends and my German is still the same solid 5/10 — and I'm not very hopeful that the next semester will bring anything new. I'm increasingly more angry at the fact that having to pay for shit in euro or dollar for a period makes your curriculum automatically better in third-world-logic. But fuck it, I'm not going to give up or anything. I'll keep spending my scholarship on the shitty german food and thanking immigration for the kebabs for 6 more months if needed. Hopefully I'll be able to at least read something good untranslated at the end.

PS: german coffee is absolute shit.

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 10:48:11 2020 No.14622256

>>14621982
I might do the same except in a Russian university with limited language skills. Were you able to understand lectures in the beginning or did you gradually get used to it? I'm not sure whether b2 is enough to understand university level lectures in Russian (what about in German?)

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 10:55:24 2020 No.14622283 >>14622256 >>14622256 bizarrely, I'm doing this right now at a Russian university. If you want to talk about this more realistically, drop some form of contact (telegram or email) and I'll hit you up.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 11:09:23 2020 No.14622338 >>14622283 ayy hmu! I'm jap btw overseas4chandiscussion@gmail.com

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 11:14:04 2020 No.14622354 >>14622338 alright, I messaged you

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 11:14:20 2020 No.14622355 >>14621822 same

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 11:26:02 2020 No.14622400

>>14622256
I'm doing STEM, so the language problem isn't that bad, and 2/3 of the courses are in English, so...

I I don't have any idea about Russian, but an ok B2 with the help of a copy of the textbook in english was fine for me. Group work is ok because almost everyone in college speaks English, so I could speak in it and they would reply either in German or English. But I would avoid classes that require you to do presentations or write essays. the professors didn't mind my broken German, but it was quite painful to speak in public.

And avoid only making friends with other foreigners, they don't have much tying them there and might all disappear one by one (personal experience).

Look, I have a friend who is currently in Tokyo and he is loving it, so even though my experience wasn't the best I still recomend it.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 11:30:31 2020 No.14622419 >>14622400 just one more thing: understanding lectures is waaay easier than understanding any conversation between two other students.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 11:31:09 2020 No.14622422 >>14618861 >my isolation from people >i have a date soon what a fucking faggot

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 11:37:47 2020 No.14622465 >>14622400 >>14622419 Thanks anon!

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 12:13:02 2020 No.14622582 >>14620654 injure your dick then you won't feel like jerking and your semen will be saved

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 12:18:45 2020 No.14622604 Read 0 books this year except shitty holocaust book I had to read in school Can't remember what happened the last 8 years of my life it's like there is a gap in my memory since reaching the 10th year of my life

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 12:37:44 2020 No.14622682 >>14618743 Pretty bad. Feel like shit, had a total breakdown in office.

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 12:43:45 2020 No.14622702

>>14618743
I'm pretty sure I've been somewhat psychotically loose for years, pretty sure I have some kind of autism and OCD. No damn money for therapy or meds. No real sense of direction in life. Never had real relationships other than with my father. Tinnitus has gotten rose. In all I'm fairly content though.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:14:58 2020 No.14622844 >>14622702 What do you mean by ocd?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:16:18 2020 No.14622850 >>14618743 Very badly Didn't read a single book this year

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:21:37 2020 No.14622873 >>14622844 I have constant obsessive thoughts and actions I need to do, most of which revolve around the number 6, cracks in the floor, and my breathing.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:22:51 2020 No.14622881 >>14622850 >Didn't read a single book this year How come?

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:32:00 2020 No.14622924
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>>14618743
Not good. Antibiotic resistant ghonorrhea from fucking 13 thai whores raw. Acid reflux and stomach pain from abusing alcohol and cocaine for years. Still addicted to lorazepam and alprazolam. Have to take a betablocker and any sort of benzo anywhere i go with me because of paranoia, anxiety and heart palpilations, which might aswell be in my head. Every time my stomach hurt i think its my heart and i go paranoid. Sleep is shit because of it. Have ghosted over 40 friends. Used to be the most popular kid in school until i just snapped and went into full isolation. I love being alone. Im my best friend and worst enemy. There is only me and my mind, in constant battle. Sometimes i win, sometimes i lose. Lifting weights and hiking for hours is relief. Splitting a whore apart is top but i feel better on semen retention. Gonna retain my semen for 7 months now, inject grams of testosterone and then go to thailand again to fuck everything moving on 3 cialis pills and 2 litres of gin hendrix.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:34:16 2020 No.14622933 >>14622924 Why thai specifically though?

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:34:40 2020 No.14622935

>>14622924
>Gonna retain my semen for 7 months now, inject grams of testosterone and then go to thailand again to fuck everything moving on 3 cialis pills and 2 litres of gin hendrix.
Why exactly do you think that is a good idea. How about just getting a girlfriend and having a healthy relationship with pleasure instead of binging

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:36:06 2020 No.14622945 >>14622933 I got yellow fever and japan is cold as shit + 5x expensive

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:36:32 2020 No.14622947 >>14622881 Depression Maybe I'm just a stupid sperg and I'm not meant to educate myself or something

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:38:15 2020 No.14622954

>>14622935
>How about just getting a girlfriend and having a healthy relationship with pleasure instead of binging
Because i dont want to share my body, mind and life with somebody for more than a short time. I have tried and its not for me. In my opinion only weak man need that. I want to stay free.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:38:35 2020 No.14622956 >>14622924 Sorry I'm afraid you'll go to hell

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:40:07 2020 No.14622960 >>14622873 fuck I can relate I have a similar sensation sometimes It's just not that strong that I would act upon it

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:46:18 2020 No.14622973 >>14622873 When I was a kid I had that with the number 4. I still write almost all my poems in 4-line stanzas and do weird little physical things 4 times or in multiples of 4. This happens more when im anxious

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:47:51 2020 No.14622980 >>14622956 Good

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:49:47 2020 No.14622986
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The only times I'm not bored or depressed are when I have bought something new. A new book I'll read a bit before never finishing, or a new game I will never finish etc Never finish anything.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:51:09 2020 No.14622990 >>14622422 I only have spoken to her through facebook

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:54:10 2020 No.14623003 >>14622973 For me it's only straight numbers

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 13:57:34 2020 No.14623010 >>14618755 More of a case of not caring enough about women or sex or dates in general, I always had other priorities

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:00:58 2020 No.14623021 >>14622947 Don't give up anon.

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:02:17 2020 No.14623026

Just got home from a second date with this girl. We ate and talked for two hours before she said that she wanted to go meet some classmates to work on a group project, I said sure and we paid and left the place. We just walked together for 20 seconds and she said the food was good and then we said bye.

Problem is;we didn't talk of meeting again at all. The departure was so sudden, and I don't know if she is uninterested or if I came of as uninterested. Tbh the conversation was kinda boring and shitty, so I'm guessing she wasn't into it. So I'm considering sending a preemptive text about me feeling that we didn't "wibe" and that she is a really sweet girl etc but it won't work.

Because I feel certain she won't text to initiate a new meeting, and if I try to I feel she will just say no.

Am I in the right?

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:05:04 2020 No.14623035
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>>14618755
Yes.

>overweight incel who is quasi-attractive to certain women anyway
>internalizes that he is unattractive
>loses eighty pounds with a mixture of discipline and adderall (dont judge)
>starts to notice women finding him more appealing; lingering stares, smiles, blushing
>socially inept retard, so he can’t do a thing about it
>actually fine in the social sense, but afraid that girls will be disappointed by his personality anyway, and so doesnt act on these instances of attraction
>secretly hates himself because his dad walked out on him at an early age
>afraid of intimacy, but starved for it at the same time
>incapable of imagining himself having sex with a woman, ever. It’s not a plausible scenario in his head, just a far-off, fantastical aspiration that will never be realized; might as well wish he were an astronaut
>no friends, other than a drug dealer associate who straddles the line of friendship but makes a point of not crossing it

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:06:41 2020 No.14623042 >>14618743 >implying anyone on /lit/ has chest muscles and a neck that big

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:07:15 2020 No.14623044 >>14623026 Why not just try, though? I mean I know rejection is hard, but you’d feel it either way.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:07:42 2020 No.14623045 >>14622954 I don't think you are exactly in the place to be calling people weak when you yourself said that you are mentally ill and binging hedonism as a cope.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:10:49 2020 No.14623057 >>14623045 Oh, there is different forms of "weak". Im weak aswell, just in a different form.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:11:53 2020 No.14623065 >>14618954 Based lit Chad.Fuck these pencil neck fsggots. Just stop caring bro’s it’s easy even if you’re a fuck up LOL.

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:13:35 2020 No.14623069

>>14623044
Ego is a really stupid thing, I feel that if I "reject" her by sending the preemptive text about us not being a match, I can go for the next girl right away. If she rejects me however, I take it personally.

This is really irrational, seeing that whether or not I am the one who sends the text first, does not change whether or not she is into me. So I am still getting rejected, even when I engage in this childish behavior, though my brain doesn't think of it that way

Holy shit this is beyond stupid, why can't I just ask her, potentially get rejected, and still move on with my head intact?? Why am I so frail?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:16:28 2020 No.14623080 >>14619042 Same can be said for enjoyment, then you won’t be able to enjoy that anymore.

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:20:06 2020 No.14623095

>>14623069
I dont know. I have the same problem. What I like to do is diminish people to the point where I don’t like them anyway, then proposition them afterward.
I mean the conversation was boring and shitty? Could she have been all that, funny, smart, witty, etc, when the night was such a bore? She certainly wasn’t beautiful enough for you to have an illusions about what took place on that date. I don’t know, I’m just a virgin, man.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:23:06 2020 No.14623113 File: 97 KB, 550x783, 43785.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Not even people on 4chan respond to me. I'm invisible.

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:23:07 2020 No.14623114

>>14623095
I am doing the exact same thing right now.

It is so unhealthy, for all I know she is sitting there thinking the exact same thoughts, about how I wasn't into her etc and she is scared to text me. I should have just asked on the spot and got it over with, but no, ofc I didn't.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:30:39 2020 No.14623152 Dealing with work stress. Other than that, not much else.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:32:00 2020 No.14623159 I went from being a recluse 23 year old virgin to being at the center of a love triangle in the course of 12 hours.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:33:19 2020 No.14623164 >>14623159 How did you do it?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:34:10 2020 No.14623171 >>14623113 Not for those /adv/ anons, prolly theyll tell you to kill yourself

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:35:31 2020 No.14623180 Why am I spending so much time on this site? Rn I have round about 20 tabs on 7 different boards open Like I want to learn shit but never go beyond superficially lurking on this website Is there a way out?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:35:34 2020 No.14623181 >>14623164 It is not really a how, anon, I am a man to whom things happen, not a man who makes things happen.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:36:41 2020 No.14623189 >>14623181 Well what happened?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 14:45:59 2020 No.14623233 >>14623189 Went on a date, went very well, 11 hours later, girl I knew several years ago who I am in love with, but haven't seen in years, calls me and tells me she wants to meet up.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 15:00:57 2020 No.14623314 >>14623233 cringe

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 15:05:46 2020 No.14623341 File: 43 KB, 650x650, 1541590439260.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14618743 >one chance at life >born as an ugly manlet with no father figure

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 15:07:35 2020 No.14623356 >>14623314 Why don't you die drowned in cum?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 15:19:03 2020 No.14623405 >>14623159 >I went from being a recluse >>14623233 >Went on a date >>14623356 A 'recluse' going on dates does not compute. Failed normie scum.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 15:20:35 2020 No.14623413 File: 26 KB, 640x404, 96r9amxwpye31.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] WAT IT DO GUCCI GANG!?!??!

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 15:23:16 2020 No.14623423 >>14623356 And you’re a psychopath as well, so a cringe normie psycho

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 15:23:21 2020 No.14623425 File: 609 KB, 1080x902, 1558624384551.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14619425 implying the will to avoid pain have a meaning

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 15:24:36 2020 No.14623431 >>14619019 Cringe. Come on nigga it ain’t that hard. If you get laid once it all becomes easy. Might as well let me take your ass and you’ll be able to get women no problem: PS I MEANT nigger not nigga sorry

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 15:30:37 2020 No.14623471

>>14620013
I was happier as a shitty NEET parasite than I have ever been at work. It's nothing but drudgery that eats away two thirds of your waking hours and leaves you with no energy to enjoy the remaining third. I'd rather stay in my room and waste my life away with idle escapism and never accomplish anything if only it was an option. You can't imagine how much I miss even sleeping in whenever I feel like it. The term wageslavery is dead on. Working means not being the master of your own life anymore, as bosses and/or customers have all the power to decide where you need to be and when. Only the independently wealthy and NEETs know what it feels like to be free.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 15:40:15 2020 No.14623514 >>14619234 Get out of here old man this is a young bulls board

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 15:41:39 2020 No.14623521

I fucked some milf 3 years ago, it was nice, she approached me. Ever since i haven't kissed a woman, i lost all hope.
I'm hitting the gym for months, lost some weight, getting some shape.
I'm 180cm tall, normal face, blue eyes, now getting fit i will became attractive, but my mind it's so fucked up that i will never be able to talk to a woman out of fear and insecurity.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 15:46:20 2020 No.14623545 >>14619264 Go to back to /reddit/, faggot. >we couldn’t get enough of each other. Jesus Christ bro lol what’d you read that in a John green book?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 15:48:21 2020 No.14623555 When I think of myself as a little child, I just want to murder him to spare him of his future. It fills me with pity first but then it grows into anger because I see this naive little boy who doesn't know whats coming. Give me some book to read.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 15:56:04 2020 No.14623584 >>14619975 Idk. Seemed like a decent career. >>14619979 I was a math major too. Take as many CS classes as you can, get fucking good at leetcode, and apply to wherever is hiring.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 16:01:18 2020 No.14623613 >>14623026 How about you give the truth a try. Tell her >hey, last time was a bit weird, wanna try again? If you're honest but reality still fucks you over, then you can tell god in the end that it wasnt your fault.

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 16:02:15 2020 No.14623617

I just heard back from a company I interviewed at. I thought the interview went exceedingly well, but they’ve decided not to hire me. I was excited at the thought of working there. My mom called me and told me it would be okay and I’d find something else and it’d all work out. I could feel myself choking up towards the end. Then I went on a walk, saw this thread, and decided to add to the void.

Chins up lads. I mean it.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 16:08:26 2020 No.14623647 I'm so socially retarded that I don't even know when people are laughting at me nor how to give proper response.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 16:08:55 2020 No.14623653 File: 41 KB, 500x350, 1325839402.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14619090 guess they're right, you really never do leave here

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 17:12:36 2020 No.14623978 I think I'm an alcoholic. It's been getting in the way of my reading pretty bad now

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 17:14:29 2020 No.14623991 File: 137 KB, 1039x559, 432.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14619734 Kobape was a nigger, you are a nigger, and I will spit on both of your graves S S

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 17:22:40 2020 No.14624020

>>14623113
I don't respond to anyone. I just read everything everyone posts, form my opinions, and move to the next thread because of the slight effort it takes to complete captchas. I have likely formed an opinion about your post. Consider yourself lucky I sent this

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 17:24:15 2020 No.14624027 i'm drinking every night again the problem is i have so many good books i want to read but each evening i just drink wine and can't concentrate on my backlog so here i am it's bad

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 17:30:14 2020 No.14624054 >>14619884 >when a redditor tried to blend in Sheesh at least try to lurk a bit before you go rambling off boards you pretend to frequent

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 17:32:37 2020 No.14624063 going insane

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 17:33:23 2020 No.14624068

>>14620084
Mudslime problems boring,

>>14620132
>betrayed in the worst way
Scummy to be sure but worst way Jesus Christ fucking wake up faggot. Countless stories liek these are broadcasted everyday in all forms of media. Maybe pay attention for once and you won’t be so blindsided by everyday occurrences.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 18:25:25 2020 No.14624273 >>14623042 Speak for yourself unironically

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 18:26:38 2020 No.14624276 >>14620013 You're lucky if you have a job where you are truly valued and where you can make friends

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 18:33:50 2020 No.14624302 Today was a bad day

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 18:52:12 2020 No.14624366
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Not well
>meet girl online from a different country (interpals i know shut up)
>We talk for over a year
>we meet
>she's perfect, it feels like magic when we were together
>she's interesting, smart, caring, everything. Studied a lot about Rome when I mentioned I liked it, read my favorite book without me asking her to, was actually interested in what I had to say. Had truly insightful conversations with her
>have the most genuine connection with her I've ever had out of anyone in my life
>feels like Jesse and Celine in the Before trilogy
>both in hectic times in our lives, I work and go to school, she works, is thinking about going to school, and is doing a language exchange program soon
>We plan to meet in summer, which would have made it a year since we last saw each other
>the wait seems unbearable and impossible
>start getting attention from girl at work
>start taking longer to respond to her, it continues like this, we eventually decide to call it quits
>say goodbye, and say we hope to maybe rekindle this when we're in a better place in our lives
>start dating girl from work, she's fine, we have good sex
>really just miss online girl
Fuck, I don't get it. She was everything I could have wanted, she was perfect. She did the most for me. So why did I throw it all away? Maybe I'm naive to ever think it could have worked out, being in separate countries and both being in times of our lives where it just wasn't feasible. But why did we have to say goodbye? All I do is fantasize about meeting her again, and being with her, but if it ever does happen, it won't be for a few years at the earliest. I don't know what to do, I just want to talk to her again

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 18:56:06 2020 No.14624381

>>14618743
Can't relate to this sort of thing. Didn't have a happy childhood. Been NEETing while I figure some stuff out, and I'm having more fun now than I ever did as a kid because now I can buy candy and alcohol. Which is to say, I'm fucking miserable, which puts my childhood in perspective

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 20:06:33 2020 No.14624745

>>14624027
>but each evening i just drink wine and can't concentrate on my backlog so here i am
yeah especially if it is book you really need to think for like philosophy or a book with complex themes, or just anything.

I have gotten somewhat better but still drinking half the days of a month gets in the way of my reading time.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 20:39:38 2020 No.14624919 im going to have sex tomorrow unless i fuck up something horribly

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 20:42:03 2020 No.14624930

>2015 finish uni
>Gf dumps me cuz sex wasn't good
>Miserable
>Drop everything
>Make 5 years plan:
>Will go out of parents home
>Will go to live abroad
>Will work study and do what I love
>Find a new job
>Save money
>Go abroad
>Start a new course
>Find a part time job
>Find an apartment
>Live independently
>Everybody says they're proud of me
>Make new friends
>Go out with attractive girls weekly
>meditate daily
>Still feel the "nausea" despite all
>Buy alcohol
>Stop meditating
>No money to eat and borrow from friend
>Get more alcohol
>Ask money from brothers and parents
>More alcohol
>Get hungry
>Failing classes
>Lose job
>Lose friends
>Lose girls
>Loosing apartment
>Alone
>Lost

Why even all this planing and effort I wasn't satisfied? I could make another 5 years plan, go cold turkey and kept pushing the boulder, but the truth is that existence is a mistake.

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 21:06:19 2020 No.14625032

>>14624930
Sounds like you just decided to throw everything away instead of taking what was good and changing the rest. Or you built a facade around you of everything that you were told would make you happy. The struggle may be internal, but having some utilitarianism for the world around you is indispensable.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 22:19:13 2020 No.14625418 >>14618767 Graduated last May. Have student loans. Can't get a job, no dice. First payment for loans in Apr. Nice life

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 22:27:44 2020 No.14625478 >>14624366 how did you meet online? and would you recommend watching the Before trilogy is it any good?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 22:35:18 2020 No.14625523 >>14620027 4 short stories? that's cool man, how long did those take you to write?

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 22:45:44 2020 No.14625588

>>14625478
>would you recommend watching the Before trilogy is it any good?
Not that anon, but I liked it a lot more when I was younger. Seeing it again, Sunrise seems immature and angsty but fun 8/10, Sunset is very depressing and forgettable, but the most realistic and erudite 9/10, and Midnight is fucking amazing in every sense of the word 10/10. Boyhood is also 10/10 kino fuck the tv neckbeards. Good Linklater films are a treasure. For me (all the one's I'd give an 7/10+, I've seen them all except A Scanner Darkly)

1. Boyhood.
2. Midnight
3. Everybody Wants Some
4. Sunset
5. Slacker
6. Sunrise
7. Waking Life
8. Dazed and Confused
9. Bernie
10. Tape
11. School of Rock.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 22:57:35 2020 No.14625657 >>14621253 Maintaining a broken existence is even better

Anonymous Tue Jan 28 22:59:15 2020 No.14625669

>>14625588
Honestly I found that the Before trilogy gets better with age and experience, I kinda expected it to feel immature and cringey the 2nd time around but it only got better. Then I showed it to my gf, who rarely likes anything I show her, and she loved it

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 28 23:55:18 2020 No.14626033 >>14625669 I understood it more, but I've seen a lot more movies and read a lot more books then when I first saw it so that is why lol.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 29 00:13:41 2020 No.14626139 >>14625478 A website called interpals And yes I recommend it, it's my favorite trilogy ever

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 29 01:19:59 2020 No.14626442 Confused about staying in college or entering the army In one hand college is my last and only chance For social acquaintance, but in the other hand the army will make my life financially better

Anonymous Wed Jan 29 01:23:02 2020 No.14626452

>>14618743
I missed out on this thread but I'll tell anyone who is still here anyway.

In school, for a degree that I am interested in but don't know what to do with. Want a wife and kids but am quickly aging out and dating any of my college classmates makes me feel icky. I'm twice their age. Some of them would bang though.

I'm getting good grades and planning for the future. This is something I've never really done, ever. Feels strange to finally be invested in myself but whatever. We're all gonna make it lads. Except that guy in the other thread who repeatedly said f*** the Holy Spirit. He's going to perdition.

Anonymous Wed Jan 29 01:24:12 2020 No.14626457

>>14626442
it's not your last chance i'm sure. army was a fine time for me, one of the best in fact. you'll learn a lot that way, and you will be changed whether you think the training affects you or not. good news is you get college mostly paid for afterwards. for three years anyway.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 29 01:34:44 2020 No.14626498 >>14624366 she fantasizes about you too anon drop office girl and get a good job and invite foreign girl to come visit you. then marry her. what you have with her is fucking rare. like maybe never will come again.

Anonymous Wed Jan 29 01:40:41 2020 No.14626520

>>14626457
I'm not from the us anon, and if I Joined the army I won't get back to college, I will fight for the French Foreign Legion for only 4 years to gain sufficient military experience and Join a Pmc
Sounds like a good plan or I'm I being delusion?

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