Write what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.14501393]

I made a voice recording since I had things to do

https://voca.ro/a5EICFYZ8ez

[Anonymous No.14501408]

Any book recs where protagonist knows whats wrong with him yet does nothing to fix it?

[Anonymous No.14501443]

>>14501393
Got food poisoning lads, help

[Anonymous No.14501470]

>>14501443
What did you eat?

[Anonymous No.14501516]

>>14501470
sandwich from a dodgy place that just opened

[Anonymous No.14501520]

Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out

Calm down Okay?

[Anonymous No.14501531]

>>14501393
just posting to let you know that this was a shitty grab for attention and that I'm not gonna listen to your vocaroo.

[Anonymous No.14501535]

I'm scared no one will love me ever. I've hit rock bottom. I wake up thinking about it and then cry myself to sleep at night about it. None of my past partners thought I was very attractive and they all kind of hated me. I'm thinking about cutting my face open.

[Anonymous No.14501540]

>>14501408
Zizek's interpretation of Gee Officer Krupke in Perverts Guide is like that.

[Anonymous No.14501549]

>>14501535
Atleast you had partners

[Anonymous No.14501558]

>>14501540
Perverts guide to cinema?

[Anonymous No.14501587]

>>14501549
I want to fucking kill you

[Anonymous No.14501772]

>>14501587
You'll be doing me a favor

[Anonymous No.14501925]

>>14501393
well, thx for reminding me bitch

[Anonymous No.14501984]

>>14501408
Any Houellebecq.
>>14501540
Hé interprets it more as a satire on liberals rationalizing youth violence and disregard for the law as a mental problem or a result of a bad upbringing.
In that vein, a clockwork orange.

[Anonymous No.14502469]

>>14501984
>Any Houellebecq.
I read him but that wasnt anything similar.

[Anonymous No.14502473]

this can't be all there is to existence

[Anonymous No.14502479]

>>14502473
it is. i've tried for years to convince myself otherwise, but to no avail. i'm sorry man

[Anonymous No.14502483]

>need experience to be confident
>need confident to gain experience

ayyy lmao

[Anonymous No.14502493]

>>14502483
even God forgot you

[Anonymous No.14502495]

https://youtu.be/GnA8zxBFghY

>>14502483
i'm a sperg, some things come so slowly to me it bottlenecks everything else and i can't progress

[Anonymous No.14502509]

>>14501393
>There's less than 1000 movies worth watching
>The amount of tv series worth watching is in the single digits
>The amount of books worth reading is less than 300
>The amount of anime worth watching is less than 100
>the amount of videogames worth playing is less than 200
If you watch one movie per day, you'll finish all the movies worth watching in less than 3 years. Finishing all the vidya, anime and books that are worth takes far more time and effort, since you tipically can't finish them within a day each.
Just posting this for those that worry that they'll die before they're able to read/watch/play everything this Earth has to offer

[Anonymous No.14502511]

>>14502495
seeing my dad at 58 still struggling with the stuff I'm struggling with at 21 has crushed my hopes if it ever improving. I don't know how he has survived up until this point, possibly because he didn't have the internet to understand so much about himself and humanity at my age. I'm done, I don't wanna go on. There's nothing in this world for me

[Anonymous No.14502526]

>>14501393
Cute baby OP, what's her name?

[Anonymous No.14502578]

>>14502509
Hush you retarded twat

[Anonymous No.14502619]

How can I improve my prose? I used to think when I was a teen that I just didn't have enough words but now I know that can't possibly be the case. Fundamentally, I have two issues
First, my first draft of anything is incredibly simple. Like I just describe the most basic stuff imaginable without any stylistic choices and worrying very little about descriptions. I used to do this because otherwise I would put hours into writing a few hundred words that I ultimately abandoned. But now I feel I've essentially trained myself into a very bad habit.
The other issue is that I have a real problem bringing up words and thinking visually. Like I said, I used to think I just didn't have the words. But even if I'm writing about a character looking in the fridge and I want to list shit that's inside, my brain draws a blank in connecting images I have from life to words. Instead of them coming to me naturally I have to make an effort to remember what a thing is called, even when we're talking about the simple stuff like milk or bacon.
But if I have to write nonfiction where there are very few visual images, I suddenly do incredibly well.
Is my brain broken?

[Anonymous No.14502876]

god i wanna kill myself so bad

[Anonymous No.14502910]

>>14502526
AI-generated image from thispersondoesnotexist.com

[Anonymous No.14503047]

>>14501393
Why do jannies let all these troll threads stay up but delete my (off-topic admittedly, but serious) thread? Either clean this place up seriously or just don't bother.

[Anonymous No.14503458]

Stop being depressed, life isn’t as bad as you think. Wanting to kill yourself is cringe.

[Anonymous No.14503468]

>>14502619
> pic
How does that even happen

[Anonymous No.14503498]

>>14502910
Figures, she's too attractive to be real :(

[Anonymous No.14503526]

>mfw the warosu search function has been busted since the 29th of cocksucking december and jannies are nonchalantly getting fucked in the ass rather than fixing it with no end in sight

[Anonymous No.14503573]

>>14503458
Thanks Peterson

[Anonymous No.14503605]

>>14503573
You’re welcome anon, now I must return to recovering my substance addiction rehab

[Anonymous No.14503615]

I can't help but get attached to any (interesting) girl that shows some interest in me. I can't stand this anymore. Why do I hate myself so much that I act like acts of interest and attention are charity to me?
I'm feeling so much regret, angst and anxiety thinking wether I'll have another shot with this RANDOM girl.
I should be above it all, this is shameful...

[Anonymous No.14503756]

>>14503615
iktf all too well..

[Anonymous No.14503821]

I'm nestled in a solid place within myself, from here I see clearly, and can navigate with ease and even lightness.
But then days pass, and I realize I'm not there anymore. Change, time drags me along, and I'm not there anymore.
Somehow I went astray, and I don't know at which point, or if there even is a point.
I have to get back.

And I realize I've been doing this for years. Re-realization upon re-realization. I wonder when the stack grows too thick, how tired will I be.

[Anonymous No.14503852]

>>14503821
ye i know that one as well. if only i could retain that feeling indefinitely.. i wouldn't wanna kms anymore probably

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !mxvabIoSIE No.14503888]

>>14501984
Yes but he also mentions Freud and the notion of understanding why you are that way while being unable to change.

[Anonymous No.14504094]

>>14503888
what book/video?

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !mxvabIoSIE No.14504105]

>>14504094
Rewatch the Perverts Guide scene. I think he says it there. Literally something like "understanding why you are that way but being unable to change."

[Anonymous No.14504167]

>>14504105
cinema one?

[Anonymous No.14504229]

>>14504158

[Anonymous No.14504493]

bump

[Anonymous No.14504975]

anyone else afraid to finish their novel because they aren't yet ready to deal with international fame and never be known as anything other than a writer ever again? damn it really sucks

[Anonymous No.14504983]

I don't wish for the bad things that happened to me in the past to not have happened, otherwise I wouldn't be me.

[Anonymous No.14504994]

>>14501516
What a retard

[Anonymous No.14505003]

>>14501587
Kill me too please

[Anonymous No.14505195]

>>14504983
I wish I hadn't done the bad things I did to other people, though.

[Anonymous No.14505230]

I'm exceptionally late on some work for my Master's and I feel that my internal hemorrhoids are gonna be turning external real soon

[Anonymous No.14505364]

>>14504975
I feel like there is no good place for my writings online. Even a blog is not a good place for literature and almost no one reads anyway.

[Anonymous No.14505485]

Is there a way to get rid of my weight gain fetish? Is it true that women will naturally put on weight in relationships?

[Anonymous No.14505486]

>>14505364
>almost no one reads anyway.
You're right. We've chosen an archaic artform. Luckily this means less serious competition and more gratitude for works that are actually worth a shit.

[Anonymous No.14505594]

>>14505485
tell me if you find out, anon :(

[Anonymous No.14505643]

I'm trying to move and get a job that isn't at the family business but my mom is constantly second guessing me. Everything I tell her about my goals and plans to accomplish she throws into doubt

"I'm just worried about you", "People outside the family just want to take advantage of you". She tells me to go ask "my friends" for advice, "You do have friends don't you?" I tell her that I don't have any real friends because she would only let me have ones from her religion and I couldn't make a connection having to walk on tiptoes around that subject, "she's says that she's never forbid me from having friends outside of the congregation", I said she's never explicitly said that but made me understand that from a young age because it's not worth making friends with people who aren't saved and are going to spend an eternity in hell.

She's says that she's never said anything like that and says I'm just making it up, I tell her that she's straight up gaslighting me and that's why I need to move out. "Gaslighting!? Do you know how much I've done for you?"
>MFW

[Anonymous No.14505694]

>>14501393
>Studying linguistics is hardly /lit/
>Studying philosophy is /lit/ but impossible to find a job for unless A. You go to a top school or B. Bust your ass while making networking in the department
>Studying Classics is /lit/ and you end up learning Latin and or Greek but, the field is extremely small, unappreciated and almost irrelevant now-a-days
>Studying eng/comp. lit is a joke and you'll have to end up in a class learning about some minorities literature

1 year in uni and i'm running out of time, the more I investigate the humanities the department the more I discover how politically motivated and invested they are I don't care for money(nor do I need it so bugmen leave now) and all I want is to go into gradschool to study my subject of interest more in depth. What do i do bros?

[Anonymous No.14505719]

Am I autistic? Why is it so difficult to read social cues or understand relationships with other people? Why can't I just be normal? What would normal look like anyway? Does everyone have these prohlens? Most people consider it normal to have intimacy and be in close relationships, so if I don't is there something wrong with me? What did I do or say that made my best friend cut all contact with me? Is having nobody close to me supposed to be this hard? Is it going to be like this until I die?

[Anonymous No.14505725]

>>14503458
It's not cringe. It's now the second leading cause of death among teenagers. It's a sign of a deeply disordered culture unable to process or even openly acknowledge its own dysfunction.

[Anonymous No.14505776]

>“We all know that any emotional bias -- irrespective of truth or falsity -- can be implanted by suggestion in the emotions of the young, hence the inherited traditions of an orthodox community are absolutely without evidential value.... If religion were true, its followers would not try to bludgeon their young into an artificial conformity; but would merely insist on their unbending quest for truth, irrespective of artificial backgrounds or practical consequences. With such an honest and inflexible openness to evidence, they could not fail to receive any real truth which might be manifesting itself around them. The fact that religionists do not follow this honourable course, but cheat at their game by invoking juvenile quasi-hypnosis, is enough to destroy their pretensions in my eyes even if their absurdity were not manifest in every other direction.”
― H.P. Lovecraft

Yeah, I'm thinking he's based

[Anonymous No.14505785]

p s 3 h a s n o g a e m s
(bachelors degree) (jobs)

[Anonymous No.14505800]

>>14505785
nice meme, takes me back to the console wars.

[Anonymous No.14505822]

I was physically assaulted by a teacher in fourth grade and forced to participate in a mock firing squad of a classmate by another teacher the same year. Also, that year a teacher forced me to act out one of my OCD fears and I had a nervous breakdown

[Anonymous No.14505831]

>>14505822
>forced to participate in a mock firing squad of a classmate

sounds highly based to me

[Anonymous No.14505840]

What's her name, /lit/?

[Anonymous No.14505867]

Any religious devotion that isn't inspired by a private mystical experience (one that wasn't manufactured by clergy) is just a cargo cult

[Anonymous No.14505868]

>>14505840
Hitler

[Anonymous No.14505903]

>>14505694
bbump

[Anonymous No.14505918]

>>14505840
Anna, but then I heard she slept with an idiot coworker of mine so I can't love her anymore.

[Anonymous No.14505938]

>can't see myself becoming friends with most of the people at my university
>not in any clubs, don't care for them
>want somebody to at least talk to about random shit
>everyone I've met in classes and traded contact information with never contacts me, presumably because I am a charisma black hole
Do I just start sending long, meandering emails to my professors at this point? I enjoy the life I have right now, but I'm wondering if I'm missing out. I'm getting sick of hearing people have fun and laugh inside of my dorm.

[Anonymous No.14505950]

>>14505938
Things never get better.

[Anonymous No.14505971]

Rate my hand writing /lit/. It's from my diary desu so don't judge my grammar and spelling or anything

[Anonymous No.14505972]

>>14505840
Leah

Brooklyn

Rachel

Grace

Megan

Elizabeth

Taylor

kennedi
how do you get over women you never even asked out

[Anonymous No.14505976]

>>14505971
awful but so is mine

[Anonymous No.14505997]

>>14505486
What frustrates me is that I'm confident I have good materiel. Fairy tails made up by cats smart enough to use Tor but dumb enough to think bule toilet water is a magic portal is something I know has bard appeal. I have also have passed a otaku event horizon and doing research on Japan to write Touhou fan faction.
4chan is the closest thing I have to a target audience.

[Anonymous No.14506025]

>>14505972
lift some fucking weights and develop hobbies and wait two years

[Anonymous No.14506082]

>>14501393
Is this a woman talking?
>>14502509
more like 20 video games worth playing

[Anonymous No.14506306]

>>14505840
Rosalie

99% sure we will never be a thing but there is still a lingering 1% of hope that she will change her mind for a date.

[Anonymous No.14506906]

>>14505840
Not anymore, i've grown out of crushes.

[Anonymous No.14506914]

>>14505972
What the fuck kind of name is Kennedi

[Anonymous No.14506924]

I tried to get drunk for the first time ever tonight but I don't think it worked. Just a little tipsy. I spaced it out too much, too worried about nausea and other problems.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !mxvabIoSIE No.14506926]

>>14506914
I think it is a guy's name and that is why it is crossed out?

[Anonymous No.14506957]

>>14506914
I knew a girl named Kennedy, she was ugly and white

[Anonymous No.14506985]

The cars were ceaseless until they stopped and the clock was better company. The sheets hadn't been changed ever and smelt of greasy hair which was actually quite comforting. There isn't any reason I can think of why the yellow stains should harm him.

[Anonymous No.14507422]

>>14505938
If you can't even make it in college, with all the endless opportunities to have fun, you won't make it anywhere. it's over for you after you graduate man.

[Anonymous No.14507694]

Talking is a practical matter. One looks first at what one wants to achieve in the other, and then works towards it. Anyway, to open your mouth is to demand something, so might aswell be honest to yourself about your intentions. Another thing: talking is a way of telling a story; and there is a trick to it. The story needs to be plausible; you must be convinced of it yourself or pretend to be; and it must be a story the other person will want to believe. Also: Life is less like Brecht and more like Shakespeare, less like thinking and more like feeling. Intellectual honesty is fine in certan occasions, but, as the opportunists that we are, we should almost always focus on emotional impact - truth is the servant of feeling - truth needs not to be true: it needs to be convincing.

[Anonymous No.14508002]

>>14505840
Emma

[Anonymous No.14508012]

>>14503756
any progress on that?

[Anonymous No.14508066]

28 years failure at life, almost no money to my name.
Put 10k towards loan over 4 years, only gone down by 6k
Suicide looks better every passing day.

[Anonymous No.14508131]

Im way too impressionable. Most of the time when i like character or person, i want to become it and then start to imagine that person in my clothes. I even take some mannerisms for quite a time. This cant be normal.

[Anonymous No.14508262]

I can't help that my brain craves more. More stimulation, more intellectual conquest, more action. Intoxications, altered states, the derangement of the senses. I can't escape this black hole in the center of my skull, seeking to devour all information, all possibilities, all of the world. Sobriety aches and gnaws at me. I've taken to listening to heavy rock music almost exclusively because only its intense sonic bombardment and massiveness provides a jolt of liveliness to break me out of this perceptual grayness. I want to push my brain to new limits of supercharged delirium and electrified excitement.

[Anonymous No.14508308]

>>14505840
Thalia

[Anonymous No.14508329]

>>14508262
You're running from something. All you do is a distraction.

[Anonymous No.14508464]

>>14501393
I've noticed that I get really insecure after the initial "honeymoon" period of the relationship. I'm scared of saying something wrong or of upsetting them or of being vulnerable and coming off as weak or of changing into someone they don't like anymore or of just giving them any reason to leave/dislike me.

What can I do to remedy this, bros? Should I communicate more? I don't know what to do.

[Anonymous No.14508897]

>>14508464
Try adv

[Anonymous No.14508994]

Best show I've seen in years and years. Anyone that hangs out on /lit/ and enjoys Sopranos/Mad Men should absolutely watch this.

[Anonymous No.14509016]

>>14505840
Miruna

[Anonymous No.14509028]

why are there so many shit threads today? mostly just coomer, incel and /pol/ shit

[Anonymous No.14509040]

I´m finishing my school next fall, I´ve been thinking about going to university next, something to do with philosophy, history and/or literature. I don´t want to be a teacher, so my options are pretty limited. You guys have any experience in the fields?

[Anonymous No.14509049]

>>14509040
how about being translator?

[Anonymous No.14509053]

>>14508464
If you want to be happy, just try to be open and honest and don´t change your behaviour because you think they might not like it. If they really want to be with you, I think it´s better for you both that you really know each other

[Anonymous No.14509059]

>>14508131
i do that as well, mostly with online personalities that intrigue me, who have lots of material like interviews etc i can draw from. I start seeing the world through their eyes, imagine how they would approach situations I find myself in, how quickly they would come up with solutions to problems etc etc. It's autistic as fuck, but i've done it all my life.

[Anonymous No.14509063]

>>14509049
It´s one option, but to my understanding it´s not that well paid. I´ve actually been thinking about translating as a sidejob, but I´m not sure I can finance my life with it only

[Anonymous No.14509068]

>>14509059
is it really autistic?

[Anonymous No.14509073]

>>14509068
i dunno honestly, maybe it's not autistic in itself but the fact that i do it means there's a void in my life where normal social interactions should be, mostly likely caused by neurodiversity

[Anonymous No.14509109]

>>14509073
maybe it could be attributed to the lack of self (especially the core) or even a big repression of actual you hence the act of becoming anyone else.

[Anonymous No.14509115]

>>14509109
yeah, i certainly lack a stable identity

[Anonymous No.14509141]

>>14509115
same. i should really go to therapist but i dont believe it's possible to fix it.

[Anonymous No.14509363]

>have to have sex today

I just want to read

[Anonymous No.14509394]

>>14509363
>have to have sex
first time?

[Anonymous No.14509402]

>>14509363
I know that feel but don't expect many to share it

[Anonymous No.14509796]

I gotta go poop but when I sit on the toilet, nothing comes out. Shit just defiantly clings to my intestines and refuses to leave. Now I've got a buncha stomach aches. Speaking of stomach, I'm hungry as hell and just want to eat something starchy and filling but I'm trying to eat healthy.

[Anonymous No.14509825]

I can't even listen to a certain type of music because it reminds me of a girl.

[Anonymous No.14509976]

>reflect on how i'm a sad fat retard
>play synthwave music and put hands on hips
>stare out window
>suddenly feel like a cool important guy

At least I'll always have autism.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PQggvJx_kFA

[Anonymous No.14510000]

>>14509976
do you have a good view?

[Anonymous No.14510116]

>>14501393
Who am I and what do I want?

[Anonymous No.14510349]

>>14501393
Dykes dykes dykes I fucking hate fucking dykes and I will kill all dykes every single dyke will be dead
I haven't eaten in 6 days

[Anonymous No.14510353]

>>14502619
why is the dumb bimbo with her ass out

[Anonymous No.14510383]

>>14509402
I've never had sex. I envy you

[Anonymous No.14510529]

>>14510383
It's not that fun.

[Anonymous No.14510593]

how do i ask my coworker out? shes cute. dont know if she has a BF. she works in a different department

[Anonymous No.14510627]

>>14510593
Write out your darkest fantasy, package it in a royal-looking letter, and drop it in her bag with your initials on without her noticing. Maybe add a piece of jewelry if you have the cash.

[Anonymous No.14510742]

>>14510627
but that will get me fired, anon.

[Alfred, Lord Tennyson No.14510882]

Ulysses
It little profits that an idle king,
By this still hearth, among these barren crags,
Match'd with an aged wife, I mete and dole
Unequal laws unto a savage race,
That hoard, and sleep, and feed, and know not me.
I cannot rest from travel: I will drink
Life to the lees: All times I have enjoy'd
Greatly, have suffer'd greatly, both with those
That loved me, and alone, on shore, and when
Thro' scudding drifts the rainy Hyades
Vext the dim sea: I am become a name;
For always roaming with a hungry heart
Much have I seen and known; cities of men
And manners, climates, councils, governments,
Myself not least, but honour'd of them all;
And drunk delight of battle with my peers,
Far on the ringing plains of windy Troy.
I am a part of all that I have met;
Yet all experience is an arch wherethro'
Gleams that untravell'd world whose margin fades
For ever and forever when I move.
How dull it is to pause, to make an end,
To rust unburnish'd, not to shine in use!
As tho' to breathe were life! Life piled on life
Were all too little, and of one to me
Little remains: but every hour is saved
From that eternal silence, something more,
A bringer of new things; and vile it were
For some three suns to store and hoard myself,
And this gray spirit yearning in desire
To follow knowledge like a sinking star,
Beyond the utmost bound of human thought.

This is my son, mine own Telemachus,
To whom I leave the sceptre and the isle,—
Well-loved of me, discerning to fulfil
This labour, by slow prudence to make mild
A rugged people, and thro' soft degrees
Subdue them to the useful and the good.
Most blameless is he, centred in the sphere
Of common duties, decent not to fail
In offices of tenderness, and pay
Meet adoration to my household gods,
When I am gone. He works his work, I mine.

There lies the port; the vessel puffs her sail:
There gloom the dark, broad seas. My mariners,
Souls that have toil'd, and wrought, and thought with me—
That ever with a frolic welcome took
The thunder and the sunshine, and opposed
Free hearts, free foreheads—you and I are old;
Old age hath yet his honour and his toil;
Death closes all: but something ere the end,
Some work of noble note, may yet be done,
Not unbecoming men that strove with Gods.
The lights begin to twinkle from the rocks:
The long day wanes: the slow moon climbs: the deep
Moans round with many voices. Come, my friends,
'T is not too late to seek a newer world.
Push off, and sitting well in order smite
The sounding furrows; for my purpose holds
To sail beyond the sunset, and the baths
Of all the western stars, until I die.
It may be that the gulfs will wash us down:
It may be we shall touch the Happy Isles,
And see the great Achilles, whom we knew.
Tho' much is taken, much abides; and tho'
We are not now that strength which in old days
Moved earth and heaven, that which we are, we are;
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.

[Anonymous No.14510892]

For those who need to get it off their chest
>>>>/adv/gioyc

[Anonymous No.14510987]

>>14510892
even less chance of replying there

[Anonymous No.14511364]

>>14505903
Bump

[Anonymous No.14511529]

Man I wish I could be a fantasy merchant, hauling crates of rare cargo around the country and making bank. Being a day trader doesn’t have the same aesthetic appeal. And IRL trucking sounds terrible, you’re not even selling the goods.

[Anonymous No.14511580]

I hate myself.

[Anonymous No.14511599]

>>14511529
I had a wonderful dream once when I was 20 about being a merchant caravan guard in Morrowind. We were walking along in this craggy desert near dusk and I remember it felt huge and real instead of anything like a video game. Even years later I still remember that dream and how vivid it was.

[Anonymous No.14511627]

I hope reincarnation isn't real.

[Anonymous No.14512310]

>>14501393
OP can you make a vocaroo imitating alan watts?

[Anonymous No.14512651]

>>14511627
It is.

[Anonymous No.14512656]

Do you envision scenarios and exchanves fucking me? I want to hear what they are. Tell me.

[Anonymous No.14512673]

I have tossed and turned and brooded for weeks about a novella I've written about a love triangle between two beautiful women and a man. I'm brooding because it ends with one of the women murdering the other in cold blood and completely getting away with it, and the novella ends with her happily married and pregnant with the man's child, and regretting absolutely nothing of what she's done.

It is the most vile and black-hearted thing I have ever written and I'm terrified to publish it, because I consider myself a pretty good and upstanding guy. Is it right, is it just, to publish depictions of evil deeds that reap rewards but no punishments? Is it an evil thing in itself to depict evil as reaping rewards? I tell myself that the particular circumstances of this story are such that it's not likely to inspire imitators. I also tell myself that the actual narration of the story does not in any way praise or applaud the victorious woman for her murder, and in fact leaves you open to the idea that she's done something horrifying. But the fact remains that within the story itself she does do a terrible thing and reap rewards from it, and suffers no consequences except a guilty heart. And I think this is deeply bothering me, because as I've moved towards publishing it I've lain awake in bed for a few nights this week. I'm debating whether or not to just abandon the story and delete it, because it seems to be bothering me on a deep and powerful level. Yet, again, is there anything wrong with depicting evil deeds resulting in rewards, as long as the narration itself doesn't endorse the acts themselves?

[Anonymous No.14512707]

>>14511364
bump

[Anonymous No.14512730]

>>14512673
>Yet, again, is there anything wrong with depicting evil deeds resulting in rewards, as long as the narration itself doesn't endorse the acts themselves?

it doesn't matter if the novella you've written admonishes the woman for her deeds or not. readers can form their own conclusions about what is right or wrong in the novel based on their own personal subjectivity. supposing that you included no endorsement nor admonishment of the murder in your novel, readers would still be able to come to the conclusion that her behavior was justifiable or not.

certain personalities are probably more inclined to consider murdering competition to their spouse than others, and their personality (in this case, the extent to which they will allow others to suffer for their own gain) is that way due to factors that you as a writer do not personally control. your reader brings that baggage with them to their reading of the novel and will interpret it according to their own moral code. i think it is the case you can contribute to certain developments in your reader's lives.

you can easily imagine a woman who is reading your book who has gone through a particular set of experiences in their life such that they arrive at a sociopathy that places her own needs above others. you can then imagine that this individual leaves your book thinking "hm, i hadn't quite crossed that line in my brain and considered this line of action. i'll keep it in my memory banks for future manipulations." or, alternatively, you can imagine this person saying "wow, i now see the way that my actions are deeply harmful and deceitful to others and resolve to change my personality." whether the girl reading falls into the former or the latter category depends on the extent of their openness to change.

with any work that someone puts out, there's a capacity to change people for the worse or for the better. that's just one of the facts of human experience, that we are changed by that we consume. if you are deeply unsettled by the possibility of some sociopath being inspired by your book to murder someone you shouldn't publish it, but this is probably unlikely to happen or quite rare a possibility.

[Anonymous No.14512812]

What have I done?

[Anonymous No.14512888]

>>14512730
Thanks, Anon. You've put me at ease. I've also been browsing /tv/ and, believe it or not, that put me at ease, too. There's a There Will Be Blood thread up on /tv/ right now, and it made me realize. Daniel Day-Lewis' character, Daniel Plainview, is an awful, reprehensible man who does terrible things and, ultimately, gets away with all of them. Yet the movie never tries to justify his actions. His actions are left to stand to the judgment of the viewer, and there's even a certain amount of implication that the camera itself thinks the things he does are monstrous.

And if a movie as great as There Will Be Blood can do this sort of thing, why can't my shitty love triangle novella do it?

[Anonymous No.14512910]

Does my novel need sex scenes/ discussions of sexuality?

[Anonymous No.14512936]

I find sex so disgusting, I can't relate at all to people who find it enjoyable or want it. How can they even be trusted when their behavior is influenced by a desire I don't experience? It's such a disgusting activity, with bodily fluids, putting your mouth on another person's genitals. I can't even fathom it. I've always been sensitive to disgust, and this is one area where it holds true. But it isn't just a physical disgust, but also a personal, emotional, and moral disgust.

[Anonymous No.14513027]

>>14512936
i think everyone has this impulse at a young age but it slowly erodes as they experience sex on their own terms. i know in my case i was disgusted by sex for a long time (longer than most children) and didn't seek out its depiction in any way, but i eventually came around to it by dabbling on my own terms. have you attempted to break out of your shell in this regard?

[Anonymous No.14513048]

>>14501393
Skin disease has left me ugly and a shell of my old self, i'm filled with doubt and no confidence. I can't seem to find motivation anywhere, I think my work is genius but I only have motivation for it and nothing else, uni is turning out to be a joke and waste of money. I use 4chan for company, really no other reason. I can't even go out with friends due to shame. One day i'm interested in my major and work, the next day another major and am disgusted to think my work would be anything. I'm honestly lost.

[Anonymous No.14513053]

>>14513027
Yes, I've dated, watched porn, etc. It's just such a disgusting process. My first and only girlfriend, I had a very nice thing with her, but one day she gave me that look in the eyes that was very aroused, and suddenly it just made me completely disgusted by her. I was still in love with her, but I couldn't ever get over the thought of how disgusting her urges were.

[Anonymous No.14513061]

>>14505840
Anna

[Anonymous No.14513749]

>>14512910
depends

[Anonymous No.14514334]

>>14513053
fais l'amour

[Anonymous No.14514342]

>>14514334
I don't want to, it's gross. Anything involving bodily fluids is. I just want to hold hands, cuddle, and maybe kiss without the mouth being open at most.

[Anonymous No.14514347]

>>14512651
Proof?

[Anonymous No.14515007]

bump

[Anonymous No.14515034]

>>14502619
how do i get a wife like this? srs

[Anonymous No.14515078]

>>14505840
yui-chan

ritsu

mugi-chan

ohana-chan

nakochi

minchi

spe-chan

rin-chan

aoi-chan

umaru-chan
how do you get over women who will never be real?

[Anonymous No.14515085]

>>14509976
based as fuck

[Anonymous No.14515175]

>>14515078
>spoiler
jesus christ anon.

[Anonymous No.14515404]

>>14509976
i love the honesty

[Anonymous No.14515625]

>>14503526

FOR FUCK'S SAKE!

[Anonymous No.14515642]

>>14505694
Bump

[Anonymous No.14515657]

>>14505694
Grad school will always be a shaky career choice unless you can afford to throw several thousand dollars at getting into a top 5-10 school

It depends what you want to do with your life

[Anonymous No.14515800]

I had a dream that a few people saw an approaching storm, dark clouds in the distance, and went into a large abandoned building, a school or a hospital. They started rummaging in the darkness and it turned out I was the camera in an X-Files episode. They were very curious, reading dusty documents in separate parts of the building, walking past each other without saying anything as if in a trance. The realization that something bad had happened there was steadily creeping. Finally, Mulder found himself in a totally dark room, the faintest light coming in from the hallway, and what he was reading about and putting together started happening as he was doing it: there was a cougar-like or jaguar-like demon in the building that killed a child, it came down some stairs and into the room as he was reading about it, the papers in his hands turning into the child's head, alive and aware, which he had to offer to the demon to be killed again, lest it killed him. It ended as he extended his arms, crying in a silent panic, images and feelings of canines sinking into skull and brains repeatedly flashing.

[Anonymous No.14515817]

>>14502509
Look at this retard. Post your top anime and books.

[Anonymous No.14515820]

I have no one I be my authentic self towards. Every relationship I have only involves a part of me.

[Anonymous No.14516139]

>>14515820
Do you feel like you only put a mask?

[Anonymous No.14516536]

pierced my ears 3 weeks ago and i just squeezed one of them and a bunch of puss came out.

[Anonymous No.14517214]

>>14503526
This website's janitor's don't have any authority over the archive or the ability to fix it.

[Anonymous No.14518445]

>>14501393
I more or less know that my life is going to progress in a disappointing manner, and I feel powerless to change that.

[Anonymous No.14518743]

>>14515657
and if i dont get into a top school ?

[Anonymous No.14518956]

I wrote 2812 words today: 1691 in my diary and 1121 of fiction.

[Anonymous No.14519036]

I'm a fucking retard, I just realized that a girl I was in love with wanted to have sex with me, but it was 4 years ago and she doesn't talk to me anymore. I wanted to marry her, I had a chance.

[Anonymous No.14519099]

It serves only to ignite feelings of inadequacy within my mind and disappointment with this uninspired real life that unwittingly became mine.
While I was busy trying to actualize some kind of real life, real life passed me by.
Reflection was registered only to pass the time- times I failed to speak my mind.
Temerity begat a self-consciousness within me well ill-suited to the situations to arise in real life.
Numerous opportunities were to surface but not satisfy, as each offered opposed my indecision, incapability to speak, compulsion to obsess.
Well within parameters of scientific inquiry
I studied the magnetism in her eye.

The extent of mine endeavours caused me to further outlie.
Wondering if it was worth it, is it worth it,
to wholeheartedly engage in lie?
Subtle placebo, substitute for real life.
Is it an erstwhile or major concern? Lack of direction, lack of return.
Excess or moderation; which is real life?
Is most suited to efficient delivery of intellectual to be known as I.
Or immediate liberation from sloven, undedicated
amateur absent mediation currently inside worthless isolation;
is it the falsity or the perfect crystallization of real life?

Fallen short of my heroes, fallen short of my desires, wants that I wanted to conspire, to see realized, to come to fruition within my real life.
Word that most aptly describes the level of devastation within mine is total failure.
Ever try to never settle for petty real life.
From the towers of the castle of my mind
I daydream on a stormcloud without being poured out.
Less than inclined to actively participate than to fantasize.
Yet settle and inquire, were the steps that I climbed conducive to or combative against gaining the ability to connect,
to recognize inclusion correct as opposed to intrusion upon the sanctity of my individual mind.
To be included or neglect. Neglecting opposition solely for the sake of conflict.


Was I a human being all this time?
Unconsciously acting out well within the realm of real life to which not only I, but others are bound?
Does such a proposition not wholly demonstrate the totality of which I am not right?
While offering no absolutions from the sins I've spoken to through so many nights.
Isn't questioning a vital particle of mortality?
But while we were questioning did we pass on the efforts of the countless engaged in, and in some semblance fully living, real life?


Or is this unwillingness to compromise on another's terms the most certain definition of our only real life?
That we have nothing to show for it is testament to the intangible for which we felt compelled to strive,
without regard for cost, across both edge of knife.
No matter how deep it cuts or at what risk to life. We wandered through the dark in search of
Never giving up on real life.

[Anonymous No.14519131]

>>14518743
If you can't pay for schooling without needing to take on loans, don't bother.

[Anonymous No.14519270]

>>14519036
damn, you are fucking retarded. post IQ

[Anonymous No.14519275]

I'm about to fough up some lit cookies in the shapes of all the great novels. Phantom TollBooth, Swiss Cheese man, Go Dog Go, The Bernstein Bears The Big Honey Hunt, The Bernstein Bears The Bike Lesson, The Bernstein Bears The Bear Scouts, The Bernstein Bears The Bears' Vacation, The Bernstein Bears Bears on Wheels, The Bernstein Bears The Bears' Christmas, The Bernstein Bears Inside Outside Upside Down, The Bernstein Bears The Bear Detectives, The Bernstein Bears He Bear She Bear, The Bernstein Bears The Bears' Nature Guide.

[Anonymous No.14519314]

>>14519270
Haven't taken one recently, but in 1st grade I took one and got 128. I'm not literally retarded, I'm just a fucking autist who hasn't been able to talk to even one woman in 3 fucking years, not even a simple hello. Holy fuck, I want to die

[Anonymous No.14519333]

>>14519314
nigga just go to the drive through or something. i haven't telked to a girl in a longer time than that, but i still talk to cashiers at least, its not hard as long as you have the excuse of buying something

[Anonymous No.14519373]

>>14519131
I can pay for schooling at a state school but nothing in the top 10 of my country

[Anonymous No.14519379]

How the literal FUCK are you supposed to get a gf if you’re not in school and constantly coming into contact with tons of women? I do not meet women at all during my day to day activities. Am I supposed to just start chatting up random women while out hiking and shit? Isn’t that just going to get me labeled a sex pest? I have a handful of female friends but they all either have bfs or aren’t appealing to me. I’ve also been mocked by anons before for expressing romantic interest in friends, apparently that’s retarded unless you’re literally a teenager. Tinder is a carnival of depravity that I doubt will lead to anything long term.

Ahhhhhhhhhhh I just want a partner, why is this so hard?

[Anonymous No.14519406]

>>14519379
yeah i work construction in a small town and i haven't talked to a girl in probably 3.5 years. the only girl i really ever "Talk" to is the gas station cashier who is roughly my age, but it would just be weird to try and talk to her about anything other than buying energy drinks or cigarettes. good thing i lost my desire for intimacy long ago haha

[Anonymous No.14519834]

My god there are too many cute girls at the beach. I don't feel any kind of lust towards them but it does make me feel a longing for intimacy.

[Anonymous No.14519901]

>>14504975
Yes, but I haven't started writing yet, just hundreds of pages of notes. I don't know if I'm going to do anything with it at all but if I ever do publish I probably want it to be under a pseudonym because I never want to achieve IMMENSE fame- if it was the kind where I get recognised twice a month I'd be fine with it because that'd be nice but if it means I literally can't go outside I'd hate it. I know the odds of these are microscopic but I still have to consider it

[Anonymous No.14519937]

>>14519901
NAH NIGGA WE LITERARY GIANTS UP IN HERE ill suck yr dick (pause) not!!!!

[Anonymous No.14520175]

Is there anything better than having imagination?

[Anonymous No.14520268]

>>14520175
having a gf

[Anonymous No.14520370]

>>14515078
by becoming them

[Anonymous No.14520373]

How do I become free? I'm not talking the false freedom most people seem to have, but true freedom. I recognize the slavish nature of the average person and am trying to remove those elements from myself, but every avenue I have explored (self-help, philosophy, spirituality, religion, politics, etc.) is more about blind conformity and never challenging the status quo. I don't care about money, social status, gf or any of that other nonsense. So what am I supposed to do?

[Anonymous No.14520472]

>>14520373
live a woods by yourself

[Anonymous No.14520491]

>>14520472
Not an option.

[Anonymous No.14521098]

Soulless vs soul

[Anonymous No.14521457]

Recently started writing and I realized that as an ESL I haven't actually read a book in English, only some low tier fiction at best. In consequence, I'm lacking when it comes to vocabulary. To make up for it, from now on I'm gonna look for English versions of books I want to read, starting with Kafka on the shore and The Metamorphosis. Any recommendations for books meticulously depicting sexuality and female body?

[Anonymous No.14521543]

>>14521457
>Any recommendations for books meticulously depicting sexuality and female body?
Bukowski?

[Anonymous No.14521578]

>>14501393
Finally got some good friends after 4 lonely years.
Probably going to have to move across country when I graduate in 6 months.

[Anonymous No.14521594]

>>14501393
An other one of my friend who married last day is having a kid, while I am sitting here not learning for my uni finals on my mom's laptop because I am too broke to fix my pc. Every second I am not spending on some escapism bullshit is miserable, and every time i try to break the cycle by trying to get a job or getting to know someone i get rejected. This world is a fuck.

[Anonymous No.14521767]

>>14520373
Stop giving a fuck. Freedom from society is partially doing what you want rather than follow the pressures of getting money, spending it, and making a family. In itself it isn't bad but following the trend because that's the thing to do rather than doing it to achieve what you want is.

[Anonymous No.14521868]

i finally admitted to myself that i can't bring up the energy anymore to continue this mind-numbing stem degree, just job prospects as motivation isn't enough. thinking of switching to either sociology or philosophy, not sure which one to take though.

[Anonymous No.14521977]

>>14521868
>i finally admitted to myself that i can't bring up the energy anymore to continue this mind-numbing stem degree, just job prospects as motivation isn't enough.
that was me 5 years ago. i finished the degree but i did absolutely nothing with it.

[Anonymous No.14522000]

>>14501408

My diary

[Anonymous No.14522295]

I can't recall a single happy memory in my whole life. I don't think i've ever felt good. And there isn't anything I want to do or have a clue that would make me feel actually happy. Everything people advise here as a depression cure hasn't worked on me. I worked out, im still sad. Good diet, felt like shit. Went out and talked to a few people, miserable. I don't have anything , i never had anything, i will never have anything.

[Anonymous No.14522328]

>>14521868
your future is working in health insurance. it's the dumping ground for everyone who have no idea what they want to do in life. and then they spend 40 years of their life on a worthless career and die.

[Anonymous No.14522617]

I’m not asexual, but I don’t desire sex enough to put active effort into obtaining it. I’m certainly not going to get into a relationship just to be able to have it regularly. My view is that if someone wouldn’t want to be with me without sex then I’m not interested.

How unusual is this? I didn’t think it was that weird but the more I interact with people in my age bracket (early 20’s) the more it seems that most of them are primarily or at least largely motivated by wanting to have sex, it’s why they look for gfs, it’s why they go to the gym, it’s why they buy nice clothes. It’s all about the chance to bang.

[Anonymous No.14522658]

>>14501393
I wonder what I should read to help me rip off homestuck's humor and general appeal for my own webcomic

[Anonymous No.14522732]

>>14522617
My view on sex is the same as yours.

[Anonymous No.14522855]

>write manifesto cry for help about how depressed i am and i want to commit suicide soon because i have protoschizophrenic persecution delusions of being cursed because in everything i do it's like i'm the butt of a bad joke and the world is actively suggesting that i kill myself
>thread is deleted 0.3 seconds later after being up for hours

[Anonymous No.14522923]

Any good texts on the relationships between psychedelics and organized religion/spirituality/mysticism? Particularly Christianity

[Anonymous No.14523081]

>>14505840
E*******

In really short:
>Met this girl through friends
>She said to them that I was good looking
>Hang with her and those friends at a bar
>The same night she wrote to me, really cheerful, and said that she wanted to hang out with me again (she got my number from my friends)
>Went to my university city a few days, than returned
>Wrote to her for getting a drink together
>She acts all cold and says that has other things to do

I mean, maybe she actually had really something to do in this weekend, but she seemed so cold and distant... After looking like she was almost into me. She seems that doesn't really care about seeing me after saying literally that she was "happy to know me". Just why?

[Anonymous No.14523099]

>>14522855
I laughed
but sorry for that

[Anonymous No.14523268]

>>14522617
Same here. I don't want to sound akin to feminists, but I don't want to be like an object to others to be fucked by

[Anonymous No.14523721]

>>14522855
>delusions of being cursed because in everything i do it's like i'm the butt of a bad joke and the world is actively suggesting that i kill myself
those aren't delusions, anon. the world really is trying to drag you down into hell. earth is made of quicksand that leads to the nether.

[Anonymous No.14523766]

>>14522658
Homestucks “appeal” came from shipping and troll retardation though

[Anonymous No.14523778]

>>14517214

Does anyone have information pertaining to when it will be cunting fixed?

[Anonymous No.14523783]

>>14521098

Kinda of underrated.

[Anonymous No.14523988]

I'm fighting a losing battle with entropy. Everywhere it creeps in, lethal yet slow, insidious yet quiet. Everyone is in this battle of course, and some have not made it as far. In any case it's a matter of when. Of abating the severity and delaying the inevitable. In the end everything will know destruction, neutralized and flattened out into the thinnest strand of dust. You will be pulverized. Still. To fight is to live. To fight is beautiful. No matter how futile the struggle or transient or insultingly pitiful the reward if you fight you have dignity, you still exist. More than exist, you stand fiery against the night.

[Anonymous No.14524557]

>>14522617
Sex is okay but it's only one aspect of a relationship. People defiantly put too much emphasis on it.

Or maybe we're just lazy. Maybe it's a bit of both.

[Anonymous No.14524568]

I try not to curse too much but honestly fuck Instagram. Fuck everyone on it, fuck every dumbass fucking retarded fucking story some dumbfuck posts on there, fuck every single female that has reeled me into using that piece of fucking shit, fuck that it is part of Facebook, fuck all the smooth brains that say "well uhhhh I didn't get the notification :)", fuck getting me to follow your retarded ass posts that I can't even fucking understand because they are just a generic ass facebook meme in a different language, fuck follower counts, fuck influencers, fuck all the ghosting motherfuckers, fuck your bullshit response times, fuck all the idiots that somehow don't know how to talk like an actual person, fuck all the people who think they are too good or above others and most of all fuck it's popularity.
It is also going to snow today and hopefully it doesn't interfere with people's schedules.

[Anonymous No.14524572]

>>14524568
>associating with normieniggers

now you know

[Anonymous No.14524580]

>>14524568
Fuck you for bending to somebody else's will you weak piece of shit. You could have just said 'no'.

[Anonymous No.14524630]

>>14524580
You aren't wrong and I only have myself to blame. I just needed to hear it from someone else.

[Anonymous No.14524745]

>>14522295
I know the feeling. Everything I've tried to do seemed futile. I tried talking to people but eventually realized that it was worthless because it didn't actually help me. I feel better, physically, after getting fit, but it didn't solve my problems since i'm still miserable.Everything I tried to do basically just failed. I guess some people are just destined to have shit lives.

[Anonymous No.14524779]

Is it possible to disperse brain fog?

[Anonymous No.14524788]

>>14524779
Use a fog horn.

[Anonymous No.14524810]

>painfully shy after years of humiliating experiences and being sexually abused by my dad
>ugly as shit
>small dick
>less than zero confidence
I've spent around 600 dollars on custom girlfriend audios to simulate the experience. I also paid a girl 15 dollars to take a picture with me to convince my coworkers I have a girlfriend. I almost threw up talking to her, but I did it

[Anonymous No.14524811]

>>14501393
I have a headache due to high blood pressure and my girlfriend keeps getting angry for at me for no discernible reason, which in turn raises my blood pressure and makes my headache worse

[Anonymous No.14524906]

>professors are good-looking and well adjusted
Why is this allowed?

[Anonymous No.14524944]

If it wasn't for my parent and sibling I'm not sure if I would have the will to keep going. I think it would be wrong to pass my own suffering onto them by offing myself. Just have to keep going.

[Anonymous No.14525039]

>>14524810
Look at this guy:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QbxinUJcLGg
The whole muh me so ugly no girlfriend meme might be bullshit.

[Anonymous No.14525339]

My friends won't talk to me anymore. Every attempt at friendship ends in failure. I just want somebody to talk to.

[Anonymous No.14525366]

normalfags have an uncanny sixth sense they're probably not even consciously aware of and know to avoid social undesirables like myself. Started a job in August and probably halfway through October they had realized something's off about me even though I don't spill spaghetti, am thin and not unattractive, and have confidence. It's like some pheremonal signature I emit tips them off. Pretty remarkable.

[Anonymous No.14525444]

how do I stop cringing at everything I write and erasing them?

[Anonymous No.14525474]

>>14501393
Germans are too soulless to be held responsible for their actions in any real way. It's like getting mad a dog for biting you. In the moment it's understandable but with reflection you blame the owners, no? It was as much the fault of others for failing to provide krautoids with the leadership they need. Now that they've got it they're fine so it's easy to let it go

[Anonymous No.14525784]

More and more I've been thinking him the reason for my growing frustration. Wanting to spend so much time together, at the same time wanting me to be a successful writer whilst I'm still in uni and introducing me to all those friends who are married and own houses. That's not what he's saying, that's what my brain makes of it. Of course I can't hold a candle to them - they got ten years on me and a completely different background. I'll skip the so-called threeway date to write another song, I'll refuse kids, I'll marry a beautiful woman and we'll live in a rented flat or shack or a studio with a shared bathroom and I'll be the happiest I'll ever be.

[Anonymous No.14525942]

Today, I was suffering a period of touch deprivation. I was dying for the warm cuddles in bed again. It had only been four months since I brought my ex back across the country to her home, but the loneliness was killing me.

One day, I was microwaving some pancakes I recently made. I suck at making pancakes- I just can't figure out how to make them right. The ones I made this time came out thick and leathery, but because I didn't want to waste them I figured I'd eat them.

When I pulled them out of the microwave, I noticed how much they felt like a person's flesh. They felt warm, and they're leathery quality gave them a texture not unlike skin. I suddenly had a horrible idea.

No one was home. It was just me, myself, I, and two pancakes on a plate. I decided to go through with my idea.

I dropped my pants while I was on the couch, and wrapped my two warm pancakes over my already erect plaything. I beat not just my breakfast sausage, but my pancakes as well. The more I got into it, the more the crumbs flew. I tore those pancakes a new one. Within a few minutes, I spread my frosting all over those sad, sad pancakes.

I felt pretty guilty afterwards. I just wasted two mediocre pancakes to try and stave off my deep feelings of loneliness. I made sure to clean the crumbs up thoroughly and tossed the pancakes in the trash, where no one would see them. I skipped lunch that day because I wasted that one meal.

[Anonymous No.14526018]

>>14523766
nah, i'm getting more at the atmosphere and pacing of acts 1-4 than anything else. that was the good part. (and the audience i'd want, not the "skip to act 5" people.)

[Anonymous No.14526038]

>>14516536
should have watched that episode of Full House

[Anonymous No.14526269]

>>14505719
relating hard to this. it is supposed to be that hard without others around. You should try to find some people to talk to and hang out with regularly. this could be in real life friends or people on discord. Also, find yourself a wife.

[Anonymous No.14526274]

>>14505867
>religion can't be found by reason
fucking retard. go back to your hole

[Anonymous No.14526277]

>>14505971
This is actually identical to mine.

[Anonymous No.14526311]

>>14505971
this is qt as fuck.

[Anonymous No.14526316]

>>14505719
>What did I do or say that made my best friend cut all contact with me?
lol for me it was "the holocaust has to happen for real this time or we're basically fucked"

[Anonymous No.14526431]

>>14512651
fag

[Anonymous No.14526537]

>>14525942
based

[Anonymous No.14526548]

Today I found out Seattle's Best Special Blend #4 is really fucking good coffee.

[Anonymous No.14526596]

Is it bad that I still get smitten occasionally with some girls even though i'm in a serious relationship? I'd never act on it, but I feel bad

[Anonymous No.14526617]

>>14525942
>not eating them anyone
you still have a long way to fall.

[Anonymous No.14527292]

>>14526596
its completely normal

[Anonymous No.14527578]

>>14505840
Saya

Ageha

Devourer-chan

Cybele Echidna Wars DX

How do you get over women who you could never even find a suitable enough 3dpd replacement you could settle for after accepting the unrealistic perfection in fictional depictions because they literally can not be real?

While I'm replying to this post to expand on another anon's take on the joke this is basically what had been on my mind lately anyway. For almost a month now probably and I doubt I will shake the feeling any time soon. I keep trying to find people who at least share the feeling but I have had very little luck with getting contact that lasts longer than a few emails out of people.
I would settle for something new to read with themes of love and admiration for a non-human entity, or even just works which describe the aesthetics I like in a neutral or positive tone but generally it is only written about as horror.
Image related spoilered for intense cringe. Maybe I should go write my feelings in a notepad so I can copy paste them next time someone asks 'what do you mean you don't know people that share your tastes anon?'

[Anonymous No.14527850]

>>14502509
how do you measure worthiness anyway

[Anonymous No.14527898]

I found myself digusted at the sight of face

[Anonymous No.14527931]

>>14527898
what do you see there?

[Anonymous No.14528463]

>>14527931
Nauseating geometrical figure

[Anonymous No.14528671]

>>14528463
do you look that bad?

[Anonymous No.14529082]

Once, in bed, a girl told me her fetish was wanting guys to pee in her. I still think about how, for those few seconds, I, for some inexplicable reason, felt genuine fear.

[Anonymous No.14529369]

>>14529082
kek'd

[Anonymous No.14529588]

>>14525366
The fact that you think youre different in some kind of way is the subconscious poison causing this.
Your body language is off, your gait. Microemotions your face shows. All these things reveal to others that it isn't the fact that you're different, but that you're not happy with who you are.

Watch some videos about how to improve your charisma. Just like anything it's a skill and some people are born with a talent for it.

[Anonymous No.14529617]

Recommend me some books with very good prose.

[Anonymous No.14529625]

thinking about life doesn't mean shit when my fluid IQ is literal doodoo and I can't function outside of my room. I'm just regurgitating the same shit over and over again trying to get some satisfaction out of this dire situation, but in reality I'm stuck and the most I'll ever accomplish is working a shitty job for some large chemical company. fuck it, i don't wanna go on

[Anonymous No.14529651]

>>14529617
Nabokov: Lolita for high tier purple prose

McCarthy: Blood Meridian for modern biblical eloquence

Beckett: Unnamable for apocalyptic prose rhythms

[Anonymous No.14529655]

>>14515800
I enjoyed reading this post. Cut some of the fluff like x files camera and it could be a good short story

[Anonymous No.14529682]

>>14501393
Life is great.

[Anonymous No.14529705]

>>14529625
You are probably just afraid to transition into working life and to deal with all the social interactions. Get over it and integrate yourself into society, faggit.

[Anonymous No.14529751]

>>14529705
part of it, but i'm mostly just a dumb pretentious narc with mental issues who was coddled and told he was so smart and special too often growing up.

[Anonymous No.14529835]

>>14529705
also didn't help i went to an isolated classics school where the supposed "intellectual elite" of my country did their education. fkn bullshit, got bullied over the smallest shit and none of the people coming out of that place had any option but to get stuck into 5 year university degrees everyone ive spoken to wants to quit but can't.

[Anonymous No.14529951]

>>14529617
Spring Snow immediately caught my attention

[Anonymous No.14530131]

this culture is so toxic it wouldn't surprise me suicide will climb into the leading causes of death if things go on like this

[Anonymous No.14530200]

>>14525474
holocaust justification? >>pol

[Anonymous No.14530978]

>>14526277
Show me

[Anonymous No.14531009]

>>14530200
Defending krauts>>reddit

[Anonymous No.14531141]

>>14508012
i dunno what you mean by progress. i just need to put her out of my mind at some point by not interacting anymore cause as soon as i do it's back to the same obsessive emotions. loneliness is fucking weird

[Anonymous No.14531200]

There are animals smarter and more virtuous than human beings. We have succeeded because we are more capable of evils unimaginable to the "lesser" species.

[Anonymous No.14532260]

*white noise*

[Anonymous No.14532279]

>>14501393
Making decisions is hard. Can't decide on one thing without both pros and cons. What they said about the result of an action is true; there are no such things as benefits or drawbacks, only consequences.

[Anonymous No.14532357]

>>14505840
>What's her name, /lit/?
Mary. Least I had the balls to tell her and try asking her out. Of course it didn't go well. We're still together, though. We just don't want to let each other go, for some reason. Maybe it's because we get along too well; who knows.

[Anonymous No.14532465]

I've been wanting to go to a dominatrix again. I'm pretty great at saving money, but I also need to pay off the last of my loans. Usually, I can satiate my desire by beating off, but things have been so heavy recently, it hasn't been enough to quench my meed

[Anonymous No.14532529]

I'm so lonely. Falling asleep at night is very hard and the things get harder to enjoy everyday. I'm certain things will only get worse from here. I wish I was smarter and/or more capable or atleast a homosexual so I'd be less lonely. The only people I attract are twinks or traps.

[Anonymous No.14533828]

>>14532465
When did masochism start?

[Anonymous No.14533946]

Are anorexics mentally ill, or just identifying as fat?

[Anonymous No.14533958]

I never realise how servile we are until I think about how most people don't grow their own food and rely on and pay corporations for one of the basic needs. It's really odd.

[Anonymous No.14533959]

I enjoy writing stories and I don’t care that nobody else will read them and that they will never be published. I have a full time job and don’t need money

[Anonymous No.14534007]

I know there's one anon on here who's really into William Baylebridge. I don't know if you live in Victoria, but if you do I know a secondhand place where you can get a few volumes of his collected poetry.

[Anonymous No.14534286]

What do authors write daily? I want to improve, but I'm not sure what I should be writing. Anything and everything, or something specific?

[Anonymous No.14534334]

>>14505694
i dropped out of uni after 1 semester cause i couldn't stand the politics behind every course. the humanities are honestly not worth it anymore, and it's sad cause people with a real talent and interest in ideas have nowhere to go anymore

[Anonymous No.14534701]

I think that friendship doesn't truly exist.
There are many anons here that yearn to have a group of friends, but I wouldn't say they are missing out so much.
I don't know about you, but when I used to be friendless I was scared of making new connections because I imagined friendships required such a deep and complex understanding and appreciation of each other's feelings that there was no way I wouldn't fuck it up. Then I discovered that by just saying hi, talking a bit and telling jokes you read on the internet you could get people to get used to your presence. I couldn't fucking believe that there wasn't anything else to it, but that was it. Worst of all, I can't help but feel that this applies to everyone else's friends: a person you hang out with for long enough that their presence is acknowledged. It makes me think that people only interact with each other to momentarily forget how incredibly alone we truly are.
I know that i shouldn't lament something that never existed in the first place, but it still hurts so much. I've felt empty and selfish for my entire life and wanted to find someone who could show me the way, but in everyone I look I find the same emptiness.

I know it is very presumptuous to assume that everyone is as unauthentic as I am, but that's the way I genuinely feel.

[Anonymous No.14534740]

>>14534701
very much something i agree with. maybe some people can't reach a level of introspection where they realize they're only connecting with other people on a superficial level at almost any given time. I seem to expect to be able to completely align my feelings and thoughts with someone before i call them my "friend" but now that i think about it i really haven't had any "friends" in all my life even though i'm speaking to people every day. not even my parents and sister know/understand most of the things i experience on a daily basis and they're genetically similar. so how would i expect a person with a different history and a mind that processes the world in a possibly completely different manner to understand me on that level? i need to get outside my own head

[Anonymous No.14534779]

>>14534701
Theres nothing wrong with that. I have couple of friends with whom i only share one/two activities and i dont expect becoming something more. To find a best friend is akin to the gift of God.