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Write what's on your mind Anonymous Mon Dec 30 06:52:09 2019 No.14442313 [Reply] [Original]

Heaven is real ed.

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 06:53:41 2019 No.14442320

I can't help it. There's something so sensually and sexually erotic and post-modern about watching a thin, athletic, fit girl eat her way into obesity under no influence but her own. Watching her toned middle fade into a giant squishy belly, the moans as she struggles to swallow another 6,000 calorie weight gain shake through a funnel, the belches and burps Why am I cursed with this attraction

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 06:57:25 2019 No.14442338 File: 310 KB, 2560x1440, hey arnold.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Have you made somebody smile today?

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 07:01:35 2019 No.14442350 File: 2.94 MB, 3120x4160, IMG_20191229_143523.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] fluffy coat i'm meeting the new year here, gonna be great, and you anon?

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 07:16:21 2019 No.14442405 Are the rumours about Kennedi/Bratty's past really true? I don't want to believe

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 07:59:46 2019 No.14442542 >>14442313 Heaven... Israel

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 08:04:02 2019 No.14442552 Asking again for book recommendations which would increase my sex drive.

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 08:09:03 2019 No.14442568
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Trying to make friends on soc
Cant garner any interest
I feel at a loss

Is it me whos out of touch
Or are all the girls
Empty headed bimbos, and such

Ive made plenty of contribution
Seem the oly thinb left to do iis retribution

Stacies beware, im coming for you
Think twice before rejecting me wont you?

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 08:09:34 2019 No.14442569 I can't find anything to do. Nothing to live for. I'm numb to most of everything. I can't find the energy to get out of bed. There is nothing for me. I don't know what to do. I wish I would cease to exist.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 08:29:19 2019 No.14442652 >>14442569 Where do you live?

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 08:34:42 2019 No.14442670 Does anyone else think it'd be a nice idea for there to be a /lit/ 2ch-style textboard? I like coming here but I also think it'd be comfy to have a textboard where we can just talk about books we're reading with a little less shitposting.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 08:35:48 2019 No.14442673 >>14442652 In a house.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 08:39:07 2019 No.14442687 >>14442652 I'm in college. I live in a dorm

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 08:39:45 2019 No.14442689 >>14442670 Yes, it would be nice. but it would have to be maintained, and someone would have to pay etc.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 08:39:49 2019 No.14442690 >>14442687 Are you roommates cute?

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 08:42:25 2019 No.14442701 >>14442689 4-ch has a literature board, I suppose we could all start using that. It's very quiet at the moment, of course.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 08:46:31 2019 No.14442717 >>14442313 I want to rape a girl and commit suicide Waited 3 years but it seems not getting better to me

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 08:53:09 2019 No.14442742 >>14442568 Your first mistake was trying to make friends on soc. Nobody of worth goes there. Only cumbrains.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 08:55:56 2019 No.14442752 >>14442687 i mean in which country, maybe you lack vitamin D.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 09:47:05 2019 No.14442919 2023.08.27 is the date i kill myself

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 09:48:07 2019 No.14442927 >>14442919 are you getting 30 at this date?

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 09:49:08 2019 No.14442931 >>14442752 I'd give you some vitamin D

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 09:52:16 2019 No.14442949 >>14442927 no, it will be one month before i turn 28

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 09:53:56 2019 No.14442957 >>14442752 I live in East Asia

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 10:11:13 2019 No.14443046 >>14442313 How do I know if I'm in love?

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 10:42:10 2019 No.14443165 I was with my cousin at the pool, we were playing. She is the definition of a Stacy. I was intrigued when she asked me what i thought about Hitler and quickly, without letting me answer, she said that she thinks he was right.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 10:44:11 2019 No.14443173 >>14442313 I wonder what’s considered avant-garde in the postmodern era

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 10:47:47 2019 No.14443186

i've been interested in this girl for months now. finally she's showing me some attention and it's like all at once i lose interest. i start to notice everything i hate about her. i no longer care. this happens every time. i cannot respect a woman who wants anything from me. it implies they are broken or disingenuous.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 10:49:05 2019 No.14443192 >>14443173 things that take unbroken time, commitment, effort, which require work, specialization, or foreknowlegede.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 10:51:49 2019 No.14443201 >>14442405 her past? she's been a lonely neet all her life, she has no past

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 10:56:01 2019 No.14443219 File: 7 KB, 218x231, download.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] PIKACHU IS A NIGGER WE WUZ KABUTOPS

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 11:10:09 2019 No.14443282 Everyone hates the Jews for just trying to survive.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 11:11:36 2019 No.14443293 >>14443282 yes but no, they use jews as a scapegoat for capitalism

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 11:39:24 2019 No.14443408 >>14443219 BASED!!!!

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 11:47:14 2019 No.14443451

>>14442405
Cringe /mu/ poster. Go bakk.
>>14443201
Based.
>>14442670
8 (ignore this parenthesis, this is for the spam filter) kun . top /lit/
Slow board, but I go there once every few days.
>>14443046
You don't.
>>14443165
Based Stacy. You should kiss your cousins.
>>14443173
Postmodernism should be destroyed completely. You can only rebel so much before you're left with absolutely nothing. We need to destroy the idea of avant-garde and return to reading and writing classical literature.
Also this >>14443192

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 11:48:57 2019 No.14443457

>>14443451
>Postmodernism should be destroyed completely. You can only rebel so much before you're left with absolutely nothing. We need to destroy the idea of avant-garde and return to reading and writing classical literature.
aha
ahahahaha
hahahahahaha
have you ever read any actual "post-modern" writer
have you ever actually made art

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 12:06:09 2019 No.14443539

>>14443457
Pseud. Goethe, Shakespeare and Milton are all superior to DFW, and it's no contest. You people are mad that you cannot compete so you destroy this literature instead of respecting it. Even the American Transcendentalists are 1000x better than any postmodernist. You deserve to be euthanized, you sick dog.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 12:30:10 2019 No.14443637 >>14443451 >You should kiss your cousins She's with my brother; but I'm with my other cousin, she's really cute too, I want to marry her.

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 12:43:49 2019 No.14443699

I live in two countries. In one I'm very frendly, go out, read in the park, make new friends, cute girls approach me, I speak with them and kiss them; while in the other (in which I spend most of my time) I'm a loner, I read in my room, sometimes I go out to play soccer and thats it. I have passed six years without knowong someone new. I feel blocked by this people, sometimes like an outsider. I can't easily find people with my interests in that country like in the other. I know what I should do but I feel like people change so much from one point of the world to another that it becomes unsufferable.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 12:47:07 2019 No.14443712 >>14443699 Which two countries? I feel similarly but I am an outcast in all three of my countries. Some countries definitely have friendlier and livelier people than other countries.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 12:52:10 2019 No.14443742 >>14443712 Colombia and Panama, in that order.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 12:53:32 2019 No.14443751 >>14442313 do i say thank you or same to you when people wish me a happy new year?

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 13:26:47 2019 No.14443902

I used to dream of finding "my people". There was a garden of Eden of nonconformists like me. Once there it would only be a matter of putting all my plans into action. How sad to find no matter where I go the same social games, and always at their center, the same paranoid, unpersonable, bridge-burning me.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 13:30:12 2019 No.14443926 File: 27 KB, 235x340, 21c8712d22ebfbc4480f3f6fd15a9abf.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] 24 entire hours without fapping... i am... unstoppable...

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 13:32:48 2019 No.14443936 >>14443539 >thinking DFW is post-modernism aha ahahahaha hahahahahaha for real read something outside the canon

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 14:28:39 2019 No.14444233 >>14443926 6 days here

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 14:50:16 2019 No.14444341 >>14443451 >You don't. Why's that?

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 14:56:58 2019 No.14444374 I'm hyper aware of my masculine body traits and I'm not sure why. It's actually kind of disturbing, all the things I'm noticing and can't ignore

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 15:06:20 2019 No.14444414 >>14444374 me too except i'm female, i'm feminine but i can't help but overanalyze everything masculine >look in mirror >hmm my shoulders feel too broad

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 15:11:36 2019 No.14444447

>chase enlightenment for a decade
>practice asceticism
>grow as a person and as a soul
>genuinely catch glimpses of truth, and have near-religious epiphanies about the platonic unity of the True, the Good, the Beautiful
>jot down hundreds of notes for a lifelong spiritual quest after the seat of my own soul and the key to the logos
>one day, be browsing 4chan absent-mindendly, contemplating dianoia on the back of my mind
>see one pretty girl
>unconscious mind: "I SHOULD WOULD LIKE TO SMELL AND LICK HER ASS HOLE AFTER IT'S KIND OF SWEATY NOT TOO SWEATY BUT YOU KNOW LIKE A NORMAL DAY'S WORTH OF WALKING AROUND, PRETTY SURE I'D CUT OFF 2, MAYBE 3 OF MY FINGERS JUST TO LICK HER BREASTS FOR 30 SECONDS I WONDER IF SHE'D SIT ON MY PENIS IF I LITERALLY BEGGED HER??"
>realize I finally reached enlightenment after all those years

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 15:14:46 2019 No.14444483
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There is fucking nothing. Nothing is on my mind, apart from same dreams, fears, regrets and dissapointments. With year coming to an end, the dish that I eat every years end is only slightly altered by adding spice of this years experiences. Which add nothing to the flavour. Now there is no stop, the dam of bitternes cracked, and once again I am puking out my deeply hidden thoughts to strangers. I hoped that with years passing by I would at least get used to smell.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 15:24:33 2019 No.14444544 >>14444414 Such a subtle dab

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 16:25:15 2019 No.14444892 File: 134 KB, 1280x720, 1550362406450.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] nature is probably considered a parasite on another planet

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 16:25:49 2019 No.14444895 >>14444892 What will there be on this other planet besides Nature?

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 16:26:28 2019 No.14444897 >>14442338 Yeah, myself.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 16:29:41 2019 No.14444913 >14444895 ROBOTS

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 16:30:46 2019 No.14444919 >>14444895 ROBOTS it's a planet made by, and consisting nearly entirely of MACHINES

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 16:31:40 2019 No.14444924 >>14443751 I usually just reply "happy new year" back.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 16:34:35 2019 No.14444940 >>14444895 Something that acts like our plants but is a different form of life. Same functions different parasite.

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 16:39:21 2019 No.14444960

>>14442320
Have you been keeping up with Stephanie Buttermore?

I have a feeling that reading classic literature is like a stranger who is waving at the person behind you. For a moment you feel an intense connection that comes with a stranger making the transition to someone you know. Maybe they’re hopeful for a better future where their ideas are considered a societal norm. The wave being a book of experiences condensed and refined into a time traveling gesture. Only when the surprise and excitement wears off, I realize that connection was for someone else. Someone maybe more influential and powerful. Someone that will actually do something differently when they recognize the gesture.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 16:42:06 2019 No.14444979 File: 28 KB, 768x431, so ronery and horny.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I've been so starved for female attention that i seriously considered trying my chances with these chubby goblinas that were sitting on the park bench next to mine

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 16:46:07 2019 No.14445002 That bitch Heather left me for Chad; She's not better than my jizz'd sock. Bitches all call him cool and rad: Birds of a flock suck the same cock.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 16:47:10 2019 No.14445012 >>14445002 She's no better*

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 16:49:41 2019 No.14445028

>>14444979
We all want beautofull young women, but historically, even toothless, dirty chubby and disease ridden lasses had some action. Beautifull females were for the conquerors, the richest wide-chested males. Now everybody has extremely high expectations, we are surrounded by pictures, even moving pictures of beautifull women, and it's harder to fall for any kind of pussy, when your mind has been tricked into believing that beauty is in abundance.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 17:19:58 2019 No.14445205 File: 1.96 MB, 900x1177, h49.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] how will you guys be celebrating new year's? I'll be drinking vodka and listening to the smiths alone in my apartment

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 17:20:04 2019 No.14445206 >>14444919 Are they cute robots?

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 17:21:50 2019 No.14445221 >>14445205 Sounds pretty gay. Can I join you? I'll even be your new years kiss.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 17:24:32 2019 No.14445236 File: 67 KB, 707x712, 1510935508849.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14445221 depends, are you a cute skinny girl with short dark hair?

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 17:30:26 2019 No.14445264 >>14445205 I'm working night shift

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 17:40:57 2019 No.14445337 >>14443293 capitalism is conserved by a majority of jews

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 17:43:11 2019 No.14445347
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>>14443936
>NOOOO YOURE NOT ALLOWED TO READ THE CANON!!!! YOURE ONLY ALLOWED TO READ THE SAME POSTMODERN GARBAGE THAT I READ!!!
Imagine thinking this is a good argument. The lack of canonical reading is exactly why DFW exists to begin with. We need to read more Canon, not less.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 17:43:35 2019 No.14445351 Really into this girl but she's underaged and 12 years younger than me. She's way more mature for her age. I really like her tho

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 17:47:12 2019 No.14445385 >>14445236 I'm a skinny boy with long blonde hair. Whether or not I'm cute is up to somebody else.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 18:00:52 2019 No.14445469 >>14444233 >>14443926 i've gone months without fapping and only feel a slight boost in energy. perhaps, i am destined to do nothing.

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 18:12:30 2019 No.14445558

>>14445469
The thing that made the biggest difference in energy for me, is getting proper sleep. And I mean proper. This doesn't mean just the right amount of hours, but being in bed at eleven, at the latest. Then, you can think about getting eight hours.

I also supplement zinc (not only regulates sleep, but also prevents cancer by boosting the immune system) and omega-3 fish oil (makes you remember your dreams, good for your heart, and a bunch of other stuff). Vitamin D might help as well, it is certainly bad if you don't have enough.

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 18:14:36 2019 No.14445575

>>14445028
Nice post.
>>14442313
My life feels complete as if I could die happy. As I hone my skills, I see that there are titans towering over me and talentless faggots that seethe over my progress. The humorous part is that I once was that seething faggot. Thousands of hours later and I have become respectable, at least in my own eyes. The gap between myself and most older people has been lessened. My only hope is that I am able to make an impact. I'll try.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 18:16:32 2019 No.14445590 File: 1.47 MB, 382x308, KEK.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] 2020 in T-minus < 48 hours

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 18:17:01 2019 No.14445597 >>14445575 What do you even do? Write? What do you write?

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 18:21:03 2019 No.14445635 >>14445590 At least I got my degree, so there is that. Mow my road as a milennial is complete, I live with my parents, have no career prospects, and a useless degree. Roaring 20s here I come!

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 18:21:20 2019 No.14445636 >>14445385 please kill yourself you sodomite subhuman

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 18:22:31 2019 No.14445641 >>14444940 >>14444919 How is this outside of Nature?

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 20:04:17 2019 No.14446224

>>14442313
>>14446153
Yes you absolutely do.
>>14446140
>>14442313
/lit/ has gone down the gutter pipe, low attention span attention seeking retards caught in braided river dialectics looking massive turd smelling white noise out the ears shrieking low fruit replying mother fuckers, real mother fuckers, backwash of the noise pollution tended by higher strata midwit apologetics, language apologetics, sarx denying, pie in the sky flying, in your face buying the next bookstore top ten top sends of the cliffs chief real fat plastic cliffs made of fake gym to them no better than hieroglyphs throw out the hieros and the rosetta stone fucking bitch cunt nigger.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 20:34:21 2019 No.14446442 >>14442552 Bumping for the same reason.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 21:28:20 2019 No.14446811 >>14442350 Keeping it low-key this year. One year I did new years in northern Minnesota. Was beautiful

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 21:29:16 2019 No.14446819
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God is a soul-voring monster girl.
I want to have my soul devoured by God when I die.
To become one with her, to dissolve into nothing but her in her eternal stomach, saved from eternity.
The gurgling of her guts shall be my heaven.
I'm just a little lamb to be eaten by the eternal devourer, tossed down the gullet of nonexistence. All that is left is just a fleeting memory of my taste she has. Did she enjoy tasting me? Did she appreciate my own enjoyment of such tasting?
Gobble me up sky-mommy.

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 21:58:05 2019 No.14446982 What can one gain from studying esotericism? I've been feeling a pull towards studying it and don't know why.

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 23:39:58 2019 No.14447663
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Hey, it's the guy from the last thread who mentioned he was working on a Highschool of the Dead fanfic. It's actually finished now. The fucking thing's the size of a novella, it's almost 30,000 words long. And I wrote it in three days, from start to finish. I'm genuinely impressed with myself, it's been a long time since I tore ass through a story like that, whether it's fanfiction or original fiction.

Now I need to figure out what to do with it. I genuinely like it, so I want to put it somewhere, but where? Fanfiction.net? AO3? Is there some other fanfic site the kids use these days?

(I also need to get back to the original poetic work I've been working on in fits and starts, now that this fanfic is done. That's been slower going, but creating something new always is.)

>>	Anonymous Mon Dec 30 23:41:31 2019 No.14447673 I feel unfulfilled.

Anonymous Mon Dec 30 23:48:08 2019 No.14447705
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I've been eating myself alive due to this girl I have an incredibly unhealthy obsession with visibly losing interest in me after seemingly developing feelings for me. I've punched myself in the face, banged my head against walls over and over, screamed at myself out loud and internally, etc. I asked her to go to a concert with me just so she could outright reject me and I could stop abusing myself, and she just agreed enthusiastically. And now that same fire is kindled in me again, in which I'll invariably abuse and destroy myself the second she shows waning interest again.

I think that's really what I want from her, an excuse to abuse and destroy myself. I've done this with my past 3 girlfriends, falling delusionally and unhealthily in love with them and enjoying the torment of not knowing, of being able to tell myself that they don't like me. And when they confessed, I lost most of my feelings for them. None of the relationships lasted more than a year, dragging on as I shamed them about their pasts and gave myself reasons to justify why I don't feel anything for them anymore. I like to tell myself that this girl is different, this time it'll be different. This time I'll love her, this time I'll take care of her. Deep down I think I know it's bullshit. Deep down I can see myself destroying another girl emotionally so that I can destroy myself in her name.

I maintain a facade of moral integrity and virtue, when really I'm nothing more than the embodiment of Lust.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 03:34:35 2019 No.14448501 Bump

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 05:09:50 2019 No.14448734 I bought Clark Kegley's mybestjournal 2.0 online course. I'm kinda regretting it honestly

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 05:31:38 2019 No.14448820 >>14447705 Take your meds cuz.

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 05:35:03 2019 No.14448834

>>14442313
I am terrified of being a failure. Sounds lame but I'm trying my best to learn unity and Spanish so I can make a language learning game. I have other ideas that if I complete them would make me not a failure but I believe that is my best one.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 05:41:34 2019 No.14448851 >>14442313 is that John Maus reference?

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 05:59:42 2019 No.14448905 File: 426 KB, 750x738, 1560119938789.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14448851 He's her favourite artist

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 06:33:40 2019 No.14449009 File: 13 KB, 300x300, not good frog.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] india will be a superpower in one hour and twenty five minutes

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 06:43:41 2019 No.14449041

>>14443539
Anon, postmodernism is a reaction to modernism which says we should go back to the Romantics and Transcendentalists and underline the room for error and beauty and mystery and the necessity of myth. Reading postmodernists like Flann O'Brien, Umberto Eco, or Nabokov often requires a greater knowledge of Goethe, Shakespeare, or Milton (and of course foreign and dead languages) than most college graduates in literature could muster these days. Please learn what your terms mean before going full retard.

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 06:45:24 2019 No.14449046

My writing has matured considerably these last three years. Thanks to the patience and personal investment of two of my professors, I am getting published next year in a small university journal. Nothing to get too excited about. Yet, I am excited. I should be excited, right? After all, if I could not even make it into something as low stakes as a university journal, what hope would I have in the real world? I don’t know. I should be excited.

However, when I sit down to write, I realize I have nothing to say. Sure, my prose is occasionally okay to decent. I float somewhere between accepting my writing and hating it. I think many writers and would-be writers feel that way. Hell, sometimes I’m vain enough to hold up my ambivalence as a virtue. In any case, while my writing largely receives positive feedback from instructors and peers alike, it's shallow. At its best, I'm just showing off. All style and no substance.

I don't believe in anything. I feel like a cartoon character sometimes, like how someone who doesn't read philosophy at all might picture a nihilist. I don't want to be this way. I used to have things to say.

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 07:00:36 2019 No.14449101

>>14442313
I feel there is something wrong with my heart. Wherever I get really emotionally, romantically close with a woman, at some stage, I feel my heart close up. As if molten cling wrap has made it's way around the muscle, constricting the most minute movement, preventing the bubbling, genuine emotion underneath to come out. Some of it is insecurity and the feeling that they have fallen in love with the now-me, but I will change, as people do, will she still be in love with the future-me? This thought I feel has subtly influenced my actions too: in that I act in ways that I think I should act (the way the person she has fallen in love with would act) and purely whether I want to act that way, and that feeling of not being free might be what's constricting my heart. I'm always so afraid to make mistakes, afraid that I'm not doing things the "right" way.

This girl now is compassionate and communicate and patient, and I don't want to lose her by my retard actions. What do I do?
I can absolutely bring it up with her, she'll listen and talk with my calmly, but I again have the fear that if I make myself seem weak and insecure in front of her, I'll be seen as a weaker man, a man she would not be with.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 07:11:42 2019 No.14449141 I’m surrounded by hylics who don’t even know that time isn’t real

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 08:01:18 2019 No.14449315
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A month ago my internet oneitis had her first child; not anymore should I suffer at night as my hands aren’t long enough to hug the remote palm trees which grow in that Polynesia neither curse my eyes for being unable to gaze past her inanimate heart; fast forward, present tense, feeling lonely yes but hope isn’t far, devoid of soul, this empty shell of mine persist, what is void shall be refill, so preaches the Gasoline Priest. As almost a decade has fade into memory and memory into a nostalgic illusion, I have realized there is no death – only transformation – she hasn’t gone nor I have forgot, the world hasn’t end but ended a million times. Again and again, the Earth has remade itself by reattaching its pieces, as dreams are made from the unconscious remains of a bright day. Emptiness yes, but for how long indeed? How long does happiness last? Are answers time-proven? Is this busted soul where Madame Eternity resides? Still troubles me, I greatly suffer at night, now outliving the moods, or so I think. A survivor. Monday: only a musky shell, almost devoid of substance, an inanimate moment, sprang into life a minute later at Friday. Sunday I turn into gas.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 08:35:51 2019 No.14449420 File: 329 KB, 964x1285, AE1B8060-E854-437E-93CB-36FB6A87E2CE.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14448905 why couldn't it be me

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:10:43 2019 No.14449558
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>>14442313
I feel like I need to lose my virginity first so that I won't be a horny troglodyte when I start dating.
I've stopped watching porn early this year hoping that would motivate me to seek female company or get out of my confort zone but it didn't really work, but at least I lost a bad habit.
My phimosis is pretty severe and I lost hope for that. I don't know what a woman would think of it, probably nothing good. I certainly won't go get a circumcision just to have sex.
I'd rather die a virgin.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:12:05 2019 No.14449565 >>14442313 I am tired from amphetamines, but I wish to take more amphetamines to not feel so tired.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:18:04 2019 No.14449591 >>14449558 Maybe there are girls who dont mind inexperienced guys

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:18:45 2019 No.14449593 File: 43 KB, 650x650, 1541590439260.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14449591

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:20:20 2019 No.14449599 File: 67 KB, 500x650, D3U6OL5WwAEKD5v.jpg_large.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14449591 Anon you know that's a lie

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:26:08 2019 No.14449627

>>14449315

>This world is a corpse-eater. All the things eaten in it themselves die also. Truth is a life-eater. Therefore no one nourished by truth will die. It was from that place that Jesus came and brought food. To those who so desired, he gave life, that they might not die.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:27:46 2019 No.14449639 >>14449591 There are, trust me.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:28:16 2019 No.14449640 >>14449558 >still being a virgin in 2020 how

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:31:49 2019 No.14449654 >>14449639 But why guys have such a hard time believing this?

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:33:39 2019 No.14449663

>>14449640
It's still 2019 here.
I live with my family and work at the family business and study right now.
I haven't had any friends in 5 or 6 years. I'm very anxious and I don't know how to talk to women or date or pick up. Also the phimosis as I said.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:34:43 2019 No.14449670 >>14449654 I don't know. Probably because it never happened to them.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:38:14 2019 No.14449687 >jannies deleted my Greek & Latin learning thread and keep all this off-topic /r9k/ /pol/ bait trash up Oh man I sure do love jannies

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:39:55 2019 No.14449695 >>14449687 They don't even delete the booktuber threads. I'm fine with the wwoym threads

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:40:23 2019 No.14449697 it is

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:51:27 2019 No.14449734 >>14443742 Ayyy my boy! Do You live in Bogotá?

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 09:53:24 2019 No.14449742 >>14449663 ur right, wasn’t thinking... I believe in you bro, stretch your dick a little more every day, we’re all gonna make it

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 10:04:05 2019 No.14449784 >>14449742 I tried that, doesn't really work, it just hurts and squeezes my dick.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 10:23:24 2019 No.14449855 >>14442313 im addicted to bbc

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 10:27:55 2019 No.14449871 >>14449855 black bbq chicken?

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 10:29:08 2019 No.14449874 >>14442313 tfw no gf

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 10:32:00 2019 No.14449885 >>14449871 no big black cock

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 11:21:46 2019 No.14450085 >>14449734 No, vivo en Caldas.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 14:16:52 2019 No.14451029 >>14449874 same

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 16:44:07 2019 No.14451806 >>14442949 joining the 27 club huh?

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 16:49:42 2019 No.14451830

>>14445635
This sounds like me. I'm /1997/ so I guess I'm Gen Z but I had a millenial-tier mindset when it came to college leading me to get a political science degree. My parents are okay with me living with them but my pride can't handle it. Next step in life is law school, probably gonna wanna kms for all 3 years

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 16:50:45 2019 No.14451834 >>14449874 Me too, another New Years alone I'm as disposable as a human being can get

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 16:51:14 2019 No.14451840 >jan 1 2019 >this is the year i get a gf

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 16:51:46 2019 No.14451845 I want to die

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 16:56:50 2019 No.14451860
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>>14448905
>not listening to her favourite song 'Just Wait Til Next Year' in preparation for new years
She's got over 1,000 listens to it on lastfm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TWAVB8aX2ns

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 16:58:49 2019 No.14451870 Foolishly thinking 2020 is going to be any different or better for me than previous years. At least there will probably be many happenings to help keep me distracted

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 16:59:51 2019 No.14451875 Xanax

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:01:10 2019 No.14451881 >>14451860 >>14448905 Explain to me why exactly you orbit a girl whose only personality trait is listening to obscure music.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:01:39 2019 No.14451884 >>14451875 Billy fan? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LZyybvVx-js

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:02:41 2019 No.14451887 >>14451881 Why post about or take interest in anything? Why orbit a literature forum

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:03:40 2019 No.14451896 >>14451887 Reddit

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:08:07 2019 No.14451913 another year closer to my planned life exit

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:09:52 2019 No.14451925

I find the concept of orbiters disgusting. I guess it's natural for men to gather around the most beatiful woman there is in the village and now it's extrapolatrd to the internet but I don't understand how someone could be so stupid as to obsess himself with other person he will probably never even see in real life. The problem is not the hoes but stupid men who doesn't have the balls to kill themselves. I know what is like to be in love, but this is bullshit.

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:11:52 2019 No.14451942
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Happy new year anons. Listening to Viper, having a few fags, a few glasses of baileys, then will continue reading American Psycho, with intermettent messages to my suicidal friend who I hope will let me mutilate her sometime this year.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:12:38 2019 No.14451946 >>14451925 Where can I read more of your blog posts

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:14:14 2019 No.14451956

>>14442313
At a restaurant for nye with my folks.
They are dancing and having fun with their friends, no single girls of my age in sight.
I'm drinking chatdonnay and watching Hellier season 1.
Already extremely drunk. The old figuersbsitting next to me look like lizards and reptoids exactly like in the film Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:19:03 2019 No.14451985 >>14451946 This is the write what's on your mind thread you idiot

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:20:42 2019 No.14451996 >>14451925 Whats an orbiter

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:29:13 2019 No.14452023 >>14451996 go back

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:31:46 2019 No.14452036 >>14452023 To what?

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:33:59 2019 No.14452044 >>14451925 those men legitimately believe that they have chance at succeeding. >she'll start dating me once she'll realize how much of a good friend/orbiter i am

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:36:43 2019 No.14452055 >>14452044 >posting pictures of a girl means you want to date them or know them in real life You are projecting a bit here. Do you assume when we post about authors or philosophers its also because we want to date them?

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:44:21 2019 No.14452100 File: 22 KB, 350x450, novalis.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14452055 Yes.

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 17:54:12 2019 No.14452149

I feel like my life is usually in a constant state of median existence. Nothing overwhelmingly positive or negative can happen. Though I'm incrementally making progress. There are huge pitfalls that grab hold and trap me. It takes a huge force of will to climb back to just be where I was, then things pick up slightly again.

Im also now going back and forth between deciding if I should give up on romantic interests all together or not. I used to be a tremendously romance driven person. Always looking for the one and a few times thinking I found it. The place I work has many females I'm attracted too and there is a mutual connection but most of them already have a significant other, marriage or otherwise and it's fucking with me when they flirt because I don't want to be the cause of someones relationship ending, nor am I happy with the idea that I would attain a love interest that had left their current significant other.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 18:05:13 2019 No.14452198 File: 999 KB, 2048x1453, 1577831405203.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Here's to another lousy decade

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 18:21:14 2019 No.14452275 >>14451956 Litwral mongolouds dancing with cuties, still sitting and drinking champagne

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 18:34:30 2019 No.14452321

>>14449420
Psychologically analyzing that John Wayne Gacy painting is a fun exercise. The way the hand wave is contorted into a strangulating gesture, signaling an irrepressible need to dominate hidden behind a friendly facade. Then there is the blank, almost hopeless expression in the eyes, speaking perhaps to a secret despair at being unable to form healthy human connection. And the cheerless, flat smile, one release of the zygomatics from a crushed frown. Here is an individual who has never known compassion or warmth of heart.

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 18:36:29 2019 No.14452324

>>14448820
Am I really that crazy for being aware of my self-destructive tendencies? Most relationships these days are two people poisoning each other with their complexes in obfuscated ways, passive-aggressive sabotage. The only difference between me and you is that my tendencies have spilled out into my conscious mind rather than remaining hidden in the unconscious.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 19:00:14 2019 No.14452440 File: 96 KB, 480x358, mfw hny.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Happy New Years, anons!

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 20:13:20 2019 No.14452779 Am I as delusional as the next guy? Or am I going to be a writer one day? Am I writer already?

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 20:15:07 2019 No.14452787 >>14452779 There's a difference between being a writer, a published writer, a famous contemporary writer, and a canonical writer. Anybody with one hand and five braincells is capable of becoming "a writer."

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 20:15:49 2019 No.14452793 >>14452787 The question is what makes these differences.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 20:57:54 2019 No.14452990 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MdiU2zSsSHk Brahms lieder on my mind

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 21:03:02 2019 No.14453009

Heading to a party soon, really fucking hoping my former oneitis isn’t there. We haven’t spoken in over a year, I’d like to think I’m over her but I’d rather not take any chances. God I wish l could just stay home but that would be peak pussy behavior.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 21:33:50 2019 No.14453111 >>14452990 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iIss3Gca6Qo Good taste.

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 21:59:19 2019 No.14453203
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>>14449627
>This world is a corpse-eater. All the things eaten in it themselves die also. Truth is a life-eater. Therefore no one nourished by truth will die. It was from that place that Jesus came and brought food. To those who so desired, he gave life, that they might not die.
High in heaven there are no consequences, therefore Father Jesus marvels Himself when we pray, wear our body out, offer Him our petty gifts, gods don’t bleed you see, only in mortal body they may suffer; so we amuse them. As for this bread or gasoline you talk off, which kind of truth is it? Will it fill my tank along formidable lengths? You see I believe in the pantheon, a graveyard of selves, a cellar of stars. The Earth a corpse-eater? Of course it is, so does humanity eat herself, we are these awkward creatures, but even so I will die along my brothers and so does --I presume—Dear Jesus Christ, but why should old Priest Gasoline care? He won’t attend His funeral, busy enough he is working 7 days a week. Well, thank you Jesus, thank you for this food, I really appreciate it, really delicious stuff, but today I wanna die so fucking hard. It is a mood, or movement, consequences, transformation, a graveyard of selves, a cellar of stars, hell I don’t know what the fuck I want, this is not a project but a process, and at this very moment every ambition or promise of immortality is a plus. I will keep dying but no really.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 22:43:12 2019 No.14453373 >>14443186 >i cannot respect a woman who wants anything from me. it implies they are broken or disingenuous. Elaborate this

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 23:06:42 2019 No.14453476

>>14442313
I wonder. I've made a few realizations lately. They're distancing and uniting me with the rest of the known world and people. I understand people now, but I feel none of the things I used to. It's bizarre, it's almost like I had dehumanized and given life to all of them at the same time, and become human and inhuman myself - defeating social anxiety but ending without social desires, seeing my friends and family the way I used to watch birds.
My own extremities seeming bizarre, from toes to body hair it became goofy. Yet it is me and now is the first time it has been noted.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 23:11:08 2019 No.14453493 >>14453373 low self confidence and high standards. if someone values me they themselves must be worthless, or else trying to manipulate me.

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 23:12:40 2019 No.14453498 File: 71 KB, 600x600, bf454886c82e31cb1303497f87b7f20e.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14453493 >>14453373 or an unironic pic related

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 23:15:15 2019 No.14453509
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I am at university early from break because some friends said that we'd all get together on the 27th. They stayed for the day then left. I had one of my roommates for a day after to hang out with but now I'm all alone. I think I've come to terms that there is no one for me. I am the jack of all trades master of none. No one hates me but no one cares about me either. In my 19 years on this earth, I've never come across anyone else I can really open up to. I have one person that I just push my stuff onto because I have no one and there's more of a response rather than posting on here.

I feel like I can't grow up. I try so hard to but it hurts. I drink, I smoke, all to save face towards friends hoping that with every consecutive drink or hit I will become someone I'm not. I had a girlfriend last year but never had sex with her and never did anything more than just kissing. This wasn't because she didn't want to but because I'm so afraid. My parents didn't approve of her to the point where they were going to kick me out of the house because I spent time with her. I feel like I'm just a little fucking kid. I don't want to grow up despite that being all that I try to do. I just felt that she wasn't really the one and there wasn't really a point to being with her and towards the end, she got really selfish. Like a parasite I've attached myself to a girl at university who I feel like is just being nice to me. I posted in here before and some anons said that she liked me but I don't know. Her ex asked her if we were a thing and she said no and he said that it seemed like that way and she told me that she didn't think it seemed that way and asked if I did. I told her kind of and she asked what I mean so I said I'd like to get to know you more if that's what you're asking.

She said that she'd like that too but I think she realizes that I'm too much of a fucking pussy to do anything so I'll be in this limbo forever and become an orbiter. I don't even want to have sex with anyone I just want someone to hear me, someone to listen. I want to hold someone close and have them hold me back. I picked her just because she's the only girl I have really hung out with. She seems so crude and easily talks about sexual things in public and whatnot. I guess that's fine and I'm just a fucking prude. We've talked a lot though and I'm just scared to move forward or anything even though I'm forcing myself to.
(1/2)

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 23:16:28 2019 No.14453511 >>14451881 I want to defile her.

Anonymous Tue Dec 31 23:17:05 2019 No.14453516
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>>14453509
I'm disgusted by the fact that I get happy just by hearing another person's voice over the phone. How I covet the moments we talk when she probably sees it as casual as anything else. I hate this human addiction to fit in and how it plagues my every waking thought. I was scared to look for another girl after my last girlfriend because I would be going to university soon and what's the point of starting something that had a definite time limit on it. I'm scared that because she has experience I'll be nothing because I think that's probably what matters to her most in a relationship but I don't know. I feel like I'm looking for a relationship that is built on listening and holding each other and then sexual stuff after. I'm probably a fucking moron for thinking this but whatever.

This all started by the fact that I'm spending this new year's eve alone and then she invites me to come to her friends 30 minutes away. I tell her that I found some weed and then I'm told that the parents of the girl whose house it is doesn't want some random person over. I totally understand that but this girl seemed sadder that there wouldn't be weed rather than I wouldn't be able to come. I would have rather had never been invited rather than invited then not. I don't know how this year is gonna go.
(2/2)

>>	Anonymous Tue Dec 31 23:17:46 2019 No.14453519 >>14451925 hoes encouraging it are a problem too

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 03:30:09 2020 No.14454109

Things took a downturn with the switch from polytheism to monotheism, and then again to atheism. (I'm an atheist myself but wouldn't recommend it for reasons I will explain further on.) What many do not understand is that religion is a type of psychological self-augmentation. Religious materials, be they gods or rituals or observances, defend against existential security at the minor expense perhaps of wasting time and energy on imaginary things. Nietzche said "there is not enough love and goodness in the world to permit giving any of it away to imaginary beings". "Beings" here standing particularly in reference to God. He was wrong. There is a prejudice against the imaginary, but most of the most potent active forces in society are imaginary. The fiat value of money, justice, nationalism. Religious figures and myths are intimately connected to processes that map the human psyche. They are imaginary but have real agency because they are collectively believed in.

Polytheism often depicts an intricate human drama in the gods. The gods are typically representative of certain traits. They are personifications of virtues or vices. They then become ciphers, prisms through which to focus and think about those traits. When we wish to be reminded of a certain virtue, or when we wish to invoke it publicly, we mention its patron god. The god is a data structure, an information signature bearing that meaning. In trying to interpret the world, the gods were a natural extension of the human tendency to anthropomorphize, a holdover of our evolutionary origins as social primates.

The shift to monotheism is actually a purely political turn, a move towards centralization, simplification, and domination by a consolidated priest-king axis. In embracing monotheism, the human variety and complexity of polytheism is shattered for the sake of a more compelling, unified religious stimulus. The conversion of Constantine to Christianity was a political move, and it wasn't just because he saw how the wind was blowing. He realized the governmental value of a unified, consolidated ecclesial authority that could be tightly coupled to temporal power.

Atheism is one step further, and more extreme in the dilution of the psychological role of religion. The ordering effect that it has on the individual and collective, the psychologically stabilizing effect, is lost completely. And science and rationality are poor substitutes, because it is not the content that matters, it is the process, the ritual, the form. The cold hard fact of this or that doesn't matter, it is the benefit that these virtual entities give. "If God didn't exist it would be necessary for us to invent him." So when conservatives say everything is going to shit because of the decline of faith, they are not wrong, but they are right incidentally, for the wrong reasons.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 03:31:14 2020 No.14454111 >>14454109 >existential security insecurity

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 03:35:10 2020 No.14454118 >>14442717 You should commit suicide first then rape after.

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 06:16:43 2020 No.14454393
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>>14442313
I just got yet another job that I probably won't hold onto for more than a few months due to my tendency to drink at minimum one pint of vodka each night. I don't know how I'm supposed to find time for /lit/ or /fit/ when I'm at work literally the entire fucking day and getting paid the shit scraped off the bottom of the barrel and expected to be grateful for the 'opportunity' to make somebody else rich

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 08:03:44 2020 No.14454629

My mother is watching TV on her tablet again and it's interrupting my scheduled reading, does this woman have any conscience? At least she had the sense to bring me food and coffee while I was falling into stupor on our couch, preventing a disruption of my sleep cycle with an afternoon nap, since I stayed up extra late for the New Year (1:30 a.m.). Once I'm done devouring these potatoes and stuffed mushrooms I will begin practicing my classical guitar in an attempt to drive her from the living room.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 08:11:56 2020 No.14454652 >>14454393 Welcome to capitalism for proles, enjoy your stay.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 08:37:50 2020 No.14454737 >>14451884 Her music? No. But now that she's officially 18, let me say: I would fuck the absolute shit out of her. Hope her nudes come out someday and that she stops wearing baggy clothes all the damn time.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 10:24:50 2020 No.14455024 File: 63 KB, 1008x695, bunker.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] happy new year, anons

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 10:34:39 2020 No.14455052 File: 13 KB, 325x250, 1537218012125.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] i'am so indifferent to most things that when family members won't take "i don't care" as an answer i just flip a coin. What level of autism is this?

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 12:14:38 2020 No.14455455

>Got a three volume Philosophic history set for Christmas that I can't discuss on /lit/ since foreign language
>Some of the part seem shaky and I know the writer to be somewhat preachy at times so I go online to see if some reviews point out my critique too
>all the bad reviews are literal brainlet posts that give to book 2 stars because they can't understand the comparably easy language.
Jesus Christ. Now I'm almost afraid to hold the book in a bad light because everyone who dislikes it seems to be a troglodyte.
I hate it that Richard David Precht is THE most well known philosopher in Germany. Draws in all the retards. Well at least I should see it as a course in writing for a big audience.

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 13:18:16 2020 No.14455738

Started using instagram again recently after not using it for a fair few months (probably a bad idea I know) and fuck if I know the etiquette for this kind of shit. I stopped because I asked out a girl I'm somewhat friends with who I hadn't seen in a while (she said no) and we always liked each others photos and shit but I don't know if that's still the done thing or not since we don't really talk either and I feel like "liking" her shit might just make it seem like I'm desperate to fuck her. I also see stuff from her friends and sister whose photos I would have liked in the past, but don't know if I still can now because I feel like they'd think it strange if they knew I had asked her out (which I assume they do but don't know for certain), or like I'm now trying to move on and fuck them now instead, which isn't true.
I just want to like this girl's photo because it's nice but I'm starting to think about all this other shit, and while I'm sure I'm overthinking it that doesn't tell me the right etiquette or what I should do that's "acceptable" or doesn't make me come across as thirsty or whatever.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 13:55:20 2020 No.14455898 >>14451925 I can't explain it. I don't see myself as having any chance. It's indescribable. I become obsessed and infatuated with an ideal while simultaneously I am aware that I will never even see these women irl.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 14:08:05 2020 No.14455955 >>14442313 Hope is now a glimmer in the void of my life, no longer fading, I can see it again. I see it there, just out of arms reach, taunting me to pursue, and I am desperate enough to play.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 14:27:55 2020 No.14456067 File: 3.54 MB, 4032x2909, A93DAA8F-8358-47E9-86C4-E949D7E33D6B.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I'll never make art as good as my aunt. She inspired me but my work is just garbage.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 15:16:24 2020 No.14456335 File: 19 KB, 312x233, 01A37B41-AFDC-474F-AE64-6AA39A2EABA1.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] You ever post something really stupid and get told you're wrong and a fucking idiot and then feel terrible about it for the rest of the day? yeah.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 15:18:57 2020 No.14456353 >>14455738 just leave a platonic comment or some shit, if shes weirded out shell prolly just block you.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 16:16:39 2020 No.14456656 >>14442552 >>14446442 Your anti-depressants are killing your libido and probably your boners. Ask for a reduction in dosage

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 16:17:46 2020 No.14456663 >>14456656 Not taking any meds.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 16:33:19 2020 No.14456738 File: 31 KB, 678x710, 815D30E6-6D9E-4E7D-96EC-FCCC67BC8819.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] when does it end

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 16:34:12 2020 No.14456745 >>14456738 at the end. Once you die - you relive the same life over and over again.

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 16:51:09 2020 No.14456826

>>14451881
Her lack of visible personality allows autists to project onto her. "She's just like me!" I wonder if it's better to keep your personality public or private at that point. It probably doesn't make much of a difference seeing how /r9k/ has orbited some women who are both ugly and have shit-tier personalities.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 16:51:41 2020 No.14456831 >>14442313 i make over 80k a year and still feel poor.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 17:16:58 2020 No.14456970 File: 188 KB, 1000x1000, 15DD350E-E6E4-4CD0-90C0-F653BFD9BD03.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14456826 >Her lack of visible personality allows autists to project onto her. jesus fucking christ how do I stop doing this

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 17:18:26 2020 No.14456981 >>14456826 she has plenty of personality if you look at her twitter or tumblr these niggas just like cute girls, they don't care she likes music

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 17:19:40 2020 No.14456987 >>14456831 I make $2,000 a year

>>	« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !mxvabIoSIE Wed Jan 1 17:24:11 2020 No.14457022 File: 47 KB, 325x625, 1577815785364.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I want an asian gf. Give me an asian gf.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 17:25:04 2020 No.14457033 >>14451881 >girl makes art >girl makes music >girl likes cinema >girl writes >girl reads deleuze and mark fisher >SHE ONLY LIKES MUSIC SHE IS SO BORING She's mine. And this is why.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 17:56:19 2020 No.14457239 File: 19 KB, 640x628, 1577821943445.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Who /bullet journal/ here?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 17:59:39 2020 No.14457260 File: 695 KB, 1280x1280, 363CFCD4-78C2-44AC-9744-C138C8A4398C.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14457033 >tfw ywn hug kennedi

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 18:08:31 2020 No.14457318 >>14457239 What do you mean?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 18:19:12 2020 No.14457382 >>14457318 not him but it's writing in a journal using bulletpoints instead of paragraphs

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 18:28:34 2020 No.14457436 >>14457382 That seems kinda autistic

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 18:29:55 2020 No.14457445 >>14457033 >reads Deleuze I'm sure. How deluded do you have to be to think that someone like her actually reads it and doesn't just skim it and post it to instagram for attention?

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 18:32:00 2020 No.14457456

>>14457445
you obviously haven't looked at anything but her instagram which doesn't even have any deleuze on it
she's not a genius but she's a genuinely autistic teenage girl that only makes art and reads and listens to music
she's p insightful, don't know what your issue with her is

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 18:34:07 2020 No.14457466 >>14457456 >she's p insightful Please go back to /r9k/

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 18:42:53 2020 No.14457516 File: 151 KB, 838x457, Dream Mountains.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Drinking Disaronno shots, listening to Americana by the Offspring and craving cigars. God bless. >DiskWorld is based and Redpilled and if you disagree you are a fag

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 18:56:22 2020 No.14457588 This sucks, this really sucks, it's horrible, comparable to being skinned alive whilst you've had concentrated formaldehyde poured down your troat, chemically schorching your soft tissues.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 18:58:18 2020 No.14457597 >>14457466 these threads are r9k im here to talk about pynchon and qt girls

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:01:28 2020 No.14457612 This sucks, this really sucks, it's horrible, comparable to being skinned alive whilst you've had concentrated formaldehyde poured down your troat, chemically scorching your soft tissues.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:02:46 2020 No.14457619 File: 222 KB, 828x435, Pastel sunset.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14457612 What's wrong lad?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:04:11 2020 No.14457630 >>14457516 >>14457619 Did you make these?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:05:16 2020 No.14457641 >>14457630 I did indeed, what do you think? >What can I improve?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:06:15 2020 No.14457647 >>14457641 I think they look good. I made a few of my own let me see if I can find them

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:08:41 2020 No.14457664 File: 116 KB, 828x435, Desert at Sunset.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14457630 >>14457647 >>14457647

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:10:03 2020 No.14457680 >>14457647 Show us lad, very comfy to make after a wee smoke

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:10:48 2020 No.14457689 File: 521 KB, 780x498, 312C5786-1EA1-4985-9BCD-0391E47837C5.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14457680

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:12:06 2020 No.14457698 >>14457680 dear god I have 20,000 images saved unironically and it is very hard to find them but I will

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:12:11 2020 No.14457700
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>>14457619
My heart of broken glass has been defiled yet again, trampled under the monotony of wagieslaving, and the realisation that it will never get better, that me writing gay little poems in a notebook is a rotten way to cope, and that my split, wounded and shackled mind is too damaged to form a meaningful bond with anyone
>thank (you) for reading my blogpost
>this post was brought to you by 5 pages of fire hydrants

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:12:24 2020 No.14457703 File: 201 KB, 838x456, Nostalgic Shore (Basic Beach+Sun+Sea).png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14457689 The sense of perspective is good, especially between the tree in the foreground and the smiley sun in the background

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:13:36 2020 No.14457710 >>14457700 Na lad, let it all out. Life is nothing but pain, watching that and those which we love decay and die

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:23:00 2020 No.14457762 I can't recall the last time I've ever been happy.

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:25:49 2020 No.14457785

I honestly think this will be the year of anhero'ing. This almost incessant need of mine to seek approval from others has degraded me to the point where I cannot even be alone without becoming frightened. 2019 is entirely blurred from alcoholism and pill-toking, and I predict the next year will be much the same if something isn't done. I'm afraid of Earth

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:26:34 2020 No.14457789

4chan is lost. People were brainwashed into being edgy, saying mean things "unironically", hating jews as a joke,...
Then some outsiders told them they were being antisemitic, transphobic, etc. Instead of just fucking accepting it and thinking about their fucking impact, people -led by the brainwashers- started thinking that it was mean outsiders pushing a political agenda. This led to a radicalization of the content. More edgy, more offensive. Over and over again.
Until it stopped being ironical.
Outsiders started alarming other people, saying that it was dangerous, that they were being imbrigaded by the alt right, but a good strategy was used against that.
People just made it look like it was perfectly okay. "We're just making jokes", "we're against "anti-right" racism",... Of course anyone who disagrees with inoffensive things like that would look like the Bad Guy (TM). That's the fucking point of this strategy. Make your opponent sound like a fascist because you're hiding your nazi ideology behind jokes and edgyness.
That's what happened on this website in 2017

I need to write a fucking book about that because the sociologic process used is really interesting

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:27:09 2020 No.14457793 >>14457762 Why not?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:27:36 2020 No.14457797 >>14457789 Trust me, you are not as interesting as you think you are and your ideas are not original in any way

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:29:32 2020 No.14457808

>>14457797
i don't fucking care dude
you clearly haven't read what I wrote if you think it's about "ideas" anyways. Could have literally happened the other way around
You're just a scum that can't accept the fact that he's been brainwashed while posting fucking frogs on a website

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:30:10 2020 No.14457812 >>14457785 Watch this whole please. Do not ever close this video. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cBYyu6MvVd8

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:31:03 2020 No.14457817 >>14442313 I am quite empty inside. My life is going nowhere, I would like a book with some (anti)hero character that could inspire me with his strong will and unique insight into the world.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:32:40 2020 No.14457826 >>14457703 >>14457680 >>14457664 >>14457641 >>14457619 >>14457516 Ok I found them and I was gonna post them but I'll just put the best ones here: https://we .tl/t-OHCmLQTFjX

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:35:42 2020 No.14457834 >>14457826 >https://we .tl/t-OHCmLQTFjX Dodgy link m8, but I like them desu

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:36:23 2020 No.14457839 >>14457793 Because I haven't.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:37:43 2020 No.14457845 >>14457839 Yes but there must be reasons. Factors which are contributing to your unhappyness

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:40:01 2020 No.14457852 >>14457689 are you the faggot posting about kennedi i recognize your art from r9k

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:44:00 2020 No.14457872

>>14457845
I haven't spoken to anyone outside of family or store employees for the past 2 years. I don't chat with anyone besides my family also. I've been avooding them also and preferring seclusion, despite not actually enjoying it. I dont enjpy anything. I dont even get angry. Nor do I cry or anything. Im kust numb

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:46:56 2020 No.14457878 >>14457872 You sound drunk lad, have you been drinking too?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:53:18 2020 No.14457898 >>14457878 I dont drink. Im utterly pathetic. I tried beer (bought it legally), drank half a bottle and threw it away because it tasted like bad water. Im a disgrace

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:54:16 2020 No.14457902 I am deeply unhappy with every aspect of my life but especially that I have not been able to get a girl, though I have tried a number of times, in the three years since I was dumped.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:55:19 2020 No.14457906 >>14456335 everyone says stupid shit sometimes >>14457382 >>14457239 why? >>14457641 they're pretty

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:57:39 2020 No.14457912 >>14457898 The sober life is a good life. It's a base off of which you can improve

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:58:44 2020 No.14457916 >>14457906 Thank you. They are probably going to be the greatest creative achievement of my life

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:59:21 2020 No.14457919

>>14457898
I used to drink and I used to love beer but then I quit, few years later I tried drinking again I did not enjoy it at all, tried several different types of alcohol and it all tasted like piss or worse.
Not drinking in this day and ago is a big thing and you should be proud of yourself. I hope that also includes not taking or using any other degenerate substances?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:59:24 2020 No.14457920 >>14456335 You're okay

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 19:59:51 2020 No.14457921
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I am going to a con in a week and a half and I think about fucking a Costhot but I know it won't happen.

Also downloaded Tiktok out of boredom, the girls are very cute but it makes me feel lonely.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 20:00:37 2020 No.14457925 >>14457852 I think I have problem. How can I fix myself?

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 20:01:26 2020 No.14457926

>>14457912
How wpuld i know that? Ive never been drunk. Im considering reaching out to a colleague and asking him to take me out to drink or whatever. Which is funny because ive never talked to him before. I didnt talk to anyone in class. I just want to find something to raise me out of this slum, this stupor in which i trapped myself. Fuck ive never even been to a bar or night out or anything, look how pathetic i am. Sorry for venting

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 20:06:34 2020 No.14457940 >>14457926 But thats good thing, anon, dont fall into a trap of alcohol and drug fuelled college student life

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 20:07:33 2020 No.14457941

>>14457921
Convention girls are easy as hell. If you know people who are going that you can tag along with then do that. Conventions are 10% about anime/manga/video games and 90% about getting drunk and partying in hotel rooms. I've been offered shit tons of drugs (most of which I turned down) at conventions. If you go with the right mindset you can have a shit ton of fun.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 20:07:47 2020 No.14457942 >>14457940 Agreed, being sober is an advantage over the rest of the drug filled cattle

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 20:11:58 2020 No.14457954 >>14457941 Not him but I don't drink or do drugs. How do I get a convention girl if I'm not going to be drunk?

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 20:21:18 2020 No.14457979
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>>14457941
It's only going to be a small local convention though this time, the big one is 2 months later. So no hotels here this time, next time definitely though.

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 20:34:47 2020 No.14458062
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>>14442313
we live in purgatory.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Purgatory
https://youtu.be/cHAXm09LtM0
why take the effort to open the thread and write this, nobody cares. oh well dont have anything better to do so i might as well. i do have better things to do, dont get me wrong. theres always something better to do. its just that im sitting in bed right now and should be sleeping. going to sleep now, bye bye.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 20:38:22 2020 No.14458080 >>14458062 >Purgatory >from the sky daddy fantasy series

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 20:51:19 2020 No.14458145

>>14458080
the bible is more redpilled than you might think or (((they))) might have you believe.

15Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him.(the world here is creation after the fall and under the dominion of satan. it is creation no longer oriented toward god, but temporary and dominated by inordinate passions[lk 16:13 “No servant can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon."{mammon=riches/money}])For all that is in the world—the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life—is not of the Father but is of the world.† 17And the world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of God abides forever.

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 21:00:35 2020 No.14458183

>>14458145
>but he who does the will of God abides forever.
But thats factually incorrect, therefore what is the point to abide forever (that is until death, probably no more than100 years, hardly a forever) instead of enjoying life or just doing whatever one wants or feels doing?

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 21:18:05 2020 No.14458274

>>14458183
>but thats factually incorrect
how the fuck do you know. you think this life in this silly world is all there is to your existence? you think after you die there is just nothing? you, your consciousness(!) just disappears? you think your consciousness is that worthless? it is such an incredible thing, consciousness. and you think it just disappears into nothing, into eternal darkness? i dont.
>enjoying life
life consists of suffering and every man has an innate urge to growth. so it is contradictory to strive for a life full of pleasure. if you do, you worship the whore of babylon. and see where it got the people of history. they were judged. and so will you if you follow such a path.
"unlimited possibilities are not suited to man; if they existed, his life would only dissolve in the boundless. to become strong, a man's life needs the limitations ordained by duty and voluntarily accepted. the individual attains significance as a free spirit only by surrounding himself with these limitations and by determining for himself what his duty is."

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 21:39:18 2020 No.14458390

>>14458274
>how the fuck do you know. you think this life in this silly world is all there is to your existence? you think after you die there is just nothing? you, your consciousness(!) just disappears? you think your consciousness is that worthless? it is such an incredible thing, consciousness. and you think it just disappears into nothing, into eternal darkness? i dont.
We both have opinions but my opinion is supported by facts and scientific research and observation. Your only proof that there is some kind of continuation after death is 2000 year old book written and rewritten hundreds of times by barbaric people from the dark ages.

>>14458274
>life consists of suffering and every man has an innate urge to growth. so it is contradictory to strive for a life full of pleasure. if you do, you worship the whore of babylon. and see where it got the people of history. they were judged. and so will you if you follow such a path.
>"unlimited possibilities are not suited to man; if they existed, his life would only dissolve in the boundless. to become strong, a man's life needs the limitations ordained by duty and voluntarily accepted. the individual attains significance as a free spirit only by surrounding himself with these limitations and by determining for himself what his duty is."
Again nice opinion backed by old fantasy book

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 21:51:32 2020 No.14458447

When I had a psychiatric incident last year I was also stricken with a highly uncharacteristic bout of hyper-religiosity. What struck me were these visions of Christ. Never before have I seen such a pathetic figure, grey, mournful, otherworldly. Emaciated and brittle, yet somehow having an inner strength. Around him glowed an ethereal radiance that is impossible to describe. Like the warmest, softest light of a beautiful spring morning. His head was turned slightly down, and his eyes were closed. As if he as in meditation. Yet I could feel his utter fixation on me, his undivided attention and compassion. Into him went my pain and sorrow; he absorbed my suffering in his perfect silence and repose. His understanding was whole and complete.

I eventually came down from this episode but the vision has stayed with me.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 21:58:10 2020 No.14458469 File: 302 KB, 1167x1024, Christ_in_the_Wilderness_-_Ivan_Kramskoy_-_Google_Cultural_Institute.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14458447

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 22:05:51 2020 No.14458497

>>14442313
Seems like a nice place to post this:
Conection Junkies, running all over the place
Mashing their hearts left and right, just to feel one more embrace.
Some hearts tattered, broken and reshaped
Some hearts shining, light dimmer by the day
Conection Junkies, all over the place
My own beat crying, for yet another hit.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 22:32:12 2020 No.14458611 I'm outta booze. Crappers.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 22:58:28 2020 No.14458739 >>14445028 based

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 23:11:35 2020 No.14458797 >>14456335 just remember no one knows it was you

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 23:29:38 2020 No.14458873

>>14443046
wait until she leaves you and check how you feel about an hour or two after. if it hurts you loved. Alternatively, marry her and see if you can live an entire life with her happily.
Only other option is to put her in real danger to see your reaction.

Anonymous Wed Jan 1 23:32:00 2020 No.14458881

>>14443186
This is a self image issue, not a women issue. You need to understand that women are capable of loving almost any man given the right circumstances. You could be an acid attack victim and you would still get girls flirting with you on occasion. Get over thinking you're special and worse then everyone else.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 23:33:17 2020 No.14458885 >>14443926 three weeks here. feelin good man

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 23:35:44 2020 No.14458898 >>14458885 Dont worry, you will relapse sooner or later

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 23:36:01 2020 No.14458900 >>14446982 Don't. Read about the higher levels of catholic prayer. They are real, and don't force you to commune with demons.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 23:37:24 2020 No.14458902 >>14447673 I'm sorry.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 23:42:17 2020 No.14458921 >>14454109 you are a brainlet

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 23:46:59 2020 No.14458941 >>14457872 try meeting people at a local church desu

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 23:48:25 2020 No.14458945 >>14458469 This is my favorite painting of Christ

>>	Anonymous Wed Jan 1 23:54:11 2020 No.14458972 >>14442313 Wholesome christian girl

>>	« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !mxvabIoSIE Wed Jan 1 23:57:54 2020 No.14458983 File: 2.22 MB, 1513x2048, What_is_truth.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14458945 this is my favorite

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 00:00:12 2020 No.14458992 >>14458941 Don't get me wrong I am very religious but the people you meet at church are the dumbest of the dumb

Anonymous Thu Jan 2 00:09:25 2020 No.14459027

People are becoming degenerate retards because the architecture, mannerisms, food, behavior, media, intellectual diet has degenerated and retarded.
Government; Architecture; Agriculture; Industry; Academia; Medicine all act with malevolent animosity towards common man and completely disrespect and destroy any chance he has at independence as an individual, they don't let him; own his own property, build his own house, let him gather and process his own resources, have kids that he educates based on his own experience, giving him all of his time and attention much better than any dumb fuck 20 y.o cunt teacher could.

The real perpetrators are the faggots who when you had an idea about the world you wanted to pursue, essentially were looking for a way to express yourself based on your experiences and who you are as a person, told you 'that's retarded, do shit like everybody else does it', basically disregarding your right to express yourself through works based on individual creative and expressive pursuit.

The biggest degenerate, is him who doesn't see that there's only a few universal patterns in life that apply in every discipline, instead thinking that disciplines are walled off and separate pursuits existent entirely on their own, these universal patterns are attainable by every common lay person and boil down to recognition of inheritance and logic in the world around you. Generally, religious people are the quickest to recognize this order, pure technocrat authority and peer worshiping hive minded autists have no chance of recognizing the divine simplicity of the world they inhabit, because they chose the sterile world over the living.

Anonymous Thu Jan 2 00:18:04 2020 No.14459052

>>14442313
Fuck. Erased like 5 paragraphs and trying to figure out WHAT'S on my fucking mind but I can't compose anything remotely coherent anymore because fuck me in the ass I'm so fucking fed up with the insolence of trying to raise two adults who should have raised me and who want nothing more but comfort and convenience for themselves and are genuinely narcissistic to the point where they literally do not see me as a human being but as an extension of their being and cannot even grant me the smallest amount of respect they would and do grant their fucking runt of a dog. I stayed due to circumstances, now the time has come for me to go but this is how I was brought up and it's all I know and I'm building up the courage and money to finally leave them but I feel like everyday will be my last because of a lack of certainty that I will even awaken tomorrow and I spent my last day of life being overly complacent and passive when I know I am an assertive leader type who has taken people places and has taught and learned so much about life before I fell apart and had to crawl back here. I am a failure. I see no tomorrow where I can stand to look myself in the mirror while being here but I do not want to leave anymore. I know I must. But I worry I cannot.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 00:33:33 2020 No.14459085 Where do you find God?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 01:08:48 2020 No.14459185 File: 1.41 MB, 800x1067, zxhafwhdwt741.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Why is anti intellectualism most popular among intellectuals?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 01:12:59 2020 No.14459204 >>14459085 Nowhere. A bastard neet killed him.

Anonymous Thu Jan 2 01:13:32 2020 No.14459208
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My consuming interests, at least for the last several years, have been literature, philosophy, & theology. Now, as I approach the deadline for making a final commitment towards a major in college, I realize I am too much of a lazy midwit to ever succeed in a humanities subject. I'm not a remarkably subtle or original thinker. What the hell am I supposed to do with my life? What options are there for the midwit /lit/izens out there?

Anonymous Thu Jan 2 01:19:01 2020 No.14459233
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One night I was feeling depressed as shit, guilty because I felt like I had really been irresponsible with my life. That day I felt more depressed than I’ve ever felt, and I just wanted to go to sleep, so that my mind could escape this empty feeling in my stomach.

I went to bed and closed my eyes, and I actually noticed myself falling into the dream state. I started hearing joyful laughter, and these sounds of euphoric happiness and I hadn’t felt that much at bliss in a while. It was like my mind was reminding me that deep down, underneath all the pain and guilt that has consumed me, there was still a joyful place in my soul that could never be corrupted.

—Excerpt from My Diary Desu

Anonymous Thu Jan 2 01:21:08 2020 No.14459241
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I need some more hopium to snort so I can pretend I'll ever find someone with the same aesthetic tastes that will understand me.
I read a web article I'd been putting off reading before I made this post to be sure I was using 'aesthetic' right.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 01:22:47 2020 No.14459247 >>14458447 Nice anon

Anonymous Thu Jan 2 01:23:15 2020 No.14459251

>>14459208
i'm gonna be real with you nigga i confused my lit consooming with me being a genius and took a humanities degree thinking i was finna be the next david foster wallace

i cant get 1 job with my degree... i jump from shit job to shit job and now im back in my childhood bed in my parents house with hardly the will to live.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 01:27:18 2020 No.14459265 >>14459251 Dude. I don't know what to say. I genuinely, really, sincerely hope things get better for you, bro. You'll be in my prayers.

Anonymous Thu Jan 2 01:28:37 2020 No.14459272

I feel as though my personality is getting worse as the years go by. I cannot specify the changes that may have happened, nor have there necessarily been any repercussions yet that I can say for certain would not have also happened some years ago. Yet this nagging hunch plagues me.

Perhaps I've stayed the same, and my perception of a good man has matured, and I see my puerile self as the worm that I both am and have remained. Perhaps it's a baseless accusation borne of insecurity. Regardless of its truth or fiction, the best course of action must be to become that manner of man who would satisfy me to embody: among countless traits, affable; humble; respectable.

But how? How?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 01:33:27 2020 No.14459288 I'm so ugly it makes me want to kill myself. Men only talk to me because they'll fuck anything. But I don't want sex. I wish I wasn't so fucking hideous. I haven't eaten in 3 days but I'm not even fat so idk why I'm doing this.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 01:34:23 2020 No.14459294 File: 64 KB, 564x442, EFSXUa8XUAAR2PR.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Where are the best places to drink alone in Melbourne?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 01:39:34 2020 No.14459310 >>14459265 dont pray for me. take a non humanities degree.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 01:51:24 2020 No.14459349 >>14459288 post face. I doubt it's that bad

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 01:56:46 2020 No.14459362 >>14459349 No post face is scary

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 02:13:28 2020 No.14459427 >>14459294 your home

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 02:22:56 2020 No.14459457 >>14459288 If decent looking men who are well-adjusted are looking for a serious relationship with you, then you are probably attractive. If otherwise, then you are probably just average looking and insecure.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 02:26:50 2020 No.14459462 The internet is a vessel of torture that keeps me in casual contact with a girl I wish I fucked like seven years ago

Anonymous Thu Jan 2 02:38:34 2020 No.14459487

>>14459457
That's where it gets confusing. A decent looking, well-adjusted man did want a serious relationship, but it didn't work out. It's good that it happened, but I can't help but think about the rest of my exes and how little they thought of me. It feels bad. And I can't stop thinking about it.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 02:40:59 2020 No.14459495 I have read TOO much. I will never be normal now.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 03:03:21 2020 No.14459550 I think I'm in love. She is 12 years younger and I don't care.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 03:07:21 2020 No.14459560 >>14455455 >hosts a TV show yeah I’m thinking he’s retarded

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 03:14:33 2020 No.14459578 >>14457789 have you ever thought maybe the Jews are the bad guys? I’m utterly serious and inironic, they even killed Jesus

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 04:15:31 2020 No.14459770 I am very gentle with women. How can I stop respecting them so I can start fucking them?

Anonymous Thu Jan 2 04:17:17 2020 No.14459773

>>14458390
the fact that everyone has an innate urge to growth is not an opinion. it can even be explained by your science. the fact that life consists of suffering is also not an opinion and can just as easily be explained by your science. evolution, if a species did not have an urge to growth and wouldnt suffer, it would not survive.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 04:23:03 2020 No.14459791 >>14459770 why not do both

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 07:28:29 2020 No.14460245 >>14459770 >I am very gentle with women In what way

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 08:22:31 2020 No.14460351 >>14460245 he caresses them in bed

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 09:26:06 2020 No.14460511 >>14459550 What makes a man (and you) fall in love with a girl that is 12 years younger than you?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 09:27:45 2020 No.14460517 >>14451925 >The problem is not the hoes but stupid men believe me, there are women that goes out of her way to turn men into their orbiters

Anonymous Thu Jan 2 10:14:23 2020 No.14460636

The year is 2020. The fireplace is crackling away in the corner. Your belly is warmed by your jumper and the half-finished choccy milk lying on the table. You're tapping a post away on your phone, resting your body against your gf's as she absentmindedly plays with your hair. life is good.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 12:34:27 2020 No.14461190 I love hiding my power level. I hold my tongue at work. People who don't realize I am /lit/ usually think I am retarded. It gives me a privileged perspective on things.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 14:56:53 2020 No.14461862 File: 124 KB, 2002x2048, BIrLmFz.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 16:11:12 2020 No.14462227 I like writing more than I like reading now. What’s wrong with me?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 16:21:42 2020 No.14462266 >>14462227 Based. Me too honestly. When I was in college I read fiction every day. I don't even remember the last novel I read now. I prefer to read philosophy and write a few thousand words a day about my sexual frustration.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 17:10:30 2020 No.14462547 >>14459085 elaborate

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 17:12:54 2020 No.14462560 >>14459550 how old are you?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 17:14:06 2020 No.14462566 >>14460636 I miss times like this.

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>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 17:21:22 2020 No.14462611 test

Anonymous Thu Jan 2 17:27:48 2020 No.14462659

>>14442313
This girl I used to spend lots of time with left a few weeks ago. Sometimes I lie/sit down in my room by myself thinking of how everything went wrong, and I think of how much I loved and hated her at the same time and I just start laughing a weird sort of laugh. Imagine making the sound of laughter but you are crying. Your smiling and trembling with laughter but your eyes are filled with all this pain and resentment.

All I can do to make the memory a bit less painful is to laugh, but my insides are screaming, and screaming and screaming and screaming.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 17:57:06 2020 No.14462813 Jebane młotki zostawcie nasze schodki my tylko pijemy to piwo i palimy lolki, no sorki ze byliśmy troche głosni

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>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 19:00:39 2020 No.14463107 >>14442568 you can't befriend dick pics

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 19:00:54 2020 No.14463109 >>14462813 jfiodsojd dslkjfds sdpjfspjo ewrwpoer lfdkjs

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 20:42:04 2020 No.14463603 >>14462566 i never got to have times like this i hope 2020 will be better

>>	Anonymous Thu Jan 2 21:20:32 2020 No.14463809 i've forgot how to laugh attempting now to regain it

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