Write what's on your mind

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Anonymous Tue Sep 24 17:41:26 2019 No.13878994 [Reply] [Original]

Write what's on your mind

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>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 17:43:52 2019 No.13879005 >>13878994 Where is the other half of the ungulate?

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 17:44:34 2019 No.13879013 You are 1,000 miles away but I wish you were with me. I am making money now but I wish it was more. I wish it was enough to be with you.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 17:51:57 2019 No.13879051

thought 1: the oneitis I worked with over summer that I can't get over, and our post-work facebook conversations are starting to stagnate
thought 2: szymanowski's violin concerto no. 2 is actually pretty good
thought 3: how the hell did I not fail that quiz today
thought 4: why can't i find meaning in anything anymore
thought 5: this decaf coffee is really not that good
thought 6: i'm putting way too much time into this post and my reflection upon the day is making me depressed
thought 7: this is the last thought

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 17:53:08 2019 No.13879061 >>13879013 I'll be with you soon my love. This world cannot keep us apart forever. Destiny will reunite us. Yours in longing, Pee pee poo poo

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 17:53:50 2019 No.13879066 Fuck Jannies

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 17:55:59 2019 No.13879082 >>13879051 decaf? what a shitty concept. caffeine is great

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 17:57:30 2019 No.13879091

I wonder if there hasn't been any academic papers about imageboards because how hard it is to keep tabs on biblography since the very Nature of them is most stuff Will be deleted or obvious doubts to wheter the field work subjects would be reliable, since people are pathologicsl liars on the internet

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 17:57:45 2019 No.13879094 >>13879082 not a fan of the dependence nor the crashing I would be getting in the middle of the day. Making the switch was a good decision, evidently so since all the problems I was having are no longer there.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 18:05:45 2019 No.13879143

>>13879094
>not a fan of the dependence nor the crashing
I really have no idea what the hell people are on about when they talk about this, even though I drink it by the bucket. I can, and have, gone a few days without, and I can't say it ever caused me any suffering besides just wanting a cup because I like coffee a lot

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 18:13:19 2019 No.13879192 >>13879143 no splitting headaches and increased apathy? lucky I guess. Granted, I've been a heavy coffee drinker for at least 10 years.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 18:18:45 2019 No.13879226 >>13879192 No, I don't get headaches. Apathy? Couldn't say, I alternate between apathy and hyperactivity regardless of what I do. At least 10 years for me as well

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 18:50:33 2019 No.13879389 Do you think that two people with increasingly different worldviews can continue to be friends?

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 18:56:07 2019 No.13879422 >>13879389 Yeah

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:05:34 2019 No.13879468
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>>13878994
There's this question that i've been asking myself everyday since I lost my innocene as a child. If were to die in this very moment, would I have led an accomplished life? Would I have died feeling unfinished? This question helped shaped me into who I am today. I don't fear anything and I try to push the limits of my mind and body everyday. I never bothered with being nice to please people and there is almost no better freedom to be yourself in front of the people you despise. The prospect of death has brought me freedom and strength and I could not be prouder of the man I am today.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:06:16 2019 No.13879475 >>13879389 Did they make each other friendship bracelets?

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:06:23 2019 No.13879477 File: 66 KB, 696x738, rilke.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] eh, I don't know what it was all for. I hope it was for something. I hate to think I wasted years for nothing. Ups and downs and changes and so on, it's all a learning experience.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:06:48 2019 No.13879480

Group tasks on Uni are the fucking worst. They always makes my grades get lower. I wish I could do everything by myself, but my teachers always come with the typical "You have to learn how to work on a group" Fuck that. I know how to work with a group, it's simple: everyone does their job and thats it. Not my fault if some idiot doesn't put enough effort on his part of the work. Anyway, I'm going to read some Adorno right now. I hope ya'lll have a good night.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:06:50 2019 No.13879481 Pretty fucked up that Teddy K tells people to buy his book off Amazon.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:09:40 2019 No.13879491 File: 4 KB, 450x325, 1569096522989.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I am a proud autogynephile

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:09:59 2019 No.13879492 >>13879480 >Not my fault if some idiot doesn't put enough effort on his part of the work That """idiot"""" is the smartest one there, honestly.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:11:01 2019 No.13879498 >>13879475 Unfortunately not. That sounds cute, though.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:16:20 2019 No.13879528

>>13879492
Why? What the hell are you doing on Uni if you don't want to work, study etc etc? I don't see the point, anon. It's not like I looove doing this shit, but it was a choice of mine, so there's no point on doing a shitty work or not putting effort on something that I literally choose to do it.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:17:10 2019 No.13879534 >>13879528 >Why? Because it's a group project, and everybody else is doing the work for him.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:27:50 2019 No.13879586 >>13879534 But he's not learning anything, just wasting four years of his life while he could be doing something that he's passionate about it... and he's also fucking up my grades! It's not cool, anon :"(

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:27:55 2019 No.13879587 >>13878994 >your you're

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:33:47 2019 No.13879607 >>13879586 Aw, I'm sorry anon. I'm sure you at least giving it your all. Maybe go talk to him and ask him not to be such a lazy faggot in future.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:40:14 2019 No.13879635 >>13878994 neurons and shit

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:40:32 2019 No.13879637 >>13879389 If they can chill together

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:43:39 2019 No.13879650 Why are people angry about the Joker movie if it's not even out yet?

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:44:02 2019 No.13879653 why do I keep coming to this board, it's always depressing, no one even discusses books anymore it's a /pol/ subsidiary sprinkled with trolls talking shit about easily targeted classics

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:44:35 2019 No.13879658 >>13879498 Makr your fren a friendship bracelet and give them hugs.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:44:41 2019 No.13879659 >>13879653 habit

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:45:19 2019 No.13879663 >>13879653 >why do I keep coming to this board I don't know why I do either, anon. But thank you for keeping me company.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 19:45:38 2019 No.13879664 >>13879650 Phone recording rips from festivals?

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:08:33 2019 No.13879770 >full of ambition while trapped at work >get home and just want to shitpost and eat junk food until i fall asleep

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:22:26 2019 No.13879836 >>13879658 Adorable, but he might get the wrong idea. I don't want to make it look as if I'm proposing to him or anything like that.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:24:16 2019 No.13879844 >>13878994 I am extremely nervous about my upcoming audition due to is considerable influence of my upcoming life. Other than that I feel considerably more happy than I have all year.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:26:15 2019 No.13879856 File: 251 KB, 468x1000, Ballet Girl in White - Robert Henri.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13878994 I wonder what my future girlfriend is doing right now? Maybe she's reading and thinking about what I'll be like

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:33:09 2019 No.13879885 thinking about if I could actually get a qt japanese gf if I learned japanese and moved to nippon

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:34:04 2019 No.13879896 >>13879066 Checked and based

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:36:29 2019 No.13879910 >>13878994 I'm thinking about writing an essay on radicalization, the internet, free speech, and how those three relate to each other. Dunno what I'd do with it though, maybe submit it into a contest or some shit.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:36:43 2019 No.13879913 Can i beat 7 billion people to the top of any field? Probably not, so why even bother trying to be anything but mediocre

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:37:12 2019 No.13879917 >>13879885 It would improve your chances, but don't get your hopes up.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:40:17 2019 No.13879935 File: 2.30 MB, 4000x2654, 7a9f15bdfe88a31cacca39992af8ce5c.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13879856 I'm not your future girlfriend, but I'm thinking about ballet, and how great it is.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:42:48 2019 No.13879946 >>13879005 Hanging on someone else's wall.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:43:05 2019 No.13879950 >>13879917 I think I'll try to visit japan in the spring and see what it's like. that should help me see if it's even remotely a good idea

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:45:07 2019 No.13879964 >>13879950 I hope that you enjoy it then! I've never been, but it seems like a lovely place. Best of luck.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:48:58 2019 No.13879982 >>13879935 Ballet suck ass T. a ballet dancer

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:50:37 2019 No.13879990 >>13879982 Sorry. I can only view it from the sidelines. You're an admirable group of people.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:50:42 2019 No.13879992 >>13879913 Get over it anon the whole concept of exceptionality is artificial

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:53:50 2019 No.13880007 No sorry I'm just bitter, ballet is an admirable form in many respects, it just can't ever be what I wanted or perhaps needed it to be. thank you anon

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:55:30 2019 No.13880016 >>13879982 Be my gf?

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:55:59 2019 No.13880021 >>13878994 remember anons, believe in yourself. we're all gonna make it.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 20:58:27 2019 No.13880030 >>13880007 What did you want it to be? I know that it must be a lot of hard work for you all, sorry. But you do all make it look so effortless. Do you still do it?

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>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 21:13:08 2019 No.13880096 I hope her parents will approve of me when the day comes. Seven years of longing will pass, and my fate will depend on their decision. I will either become the creep, or the happiest man on the planet.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 21:14:24 2019 No.13880104 >>13880033 I bet I'm even more redpilled than you

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 21:14:35 2019 No.13880108

I'm in my final year of training I'm trying to decide if I should continue, I will have to start auditioning for contracts very soon. Or if I should just abandon it after 10 years of training and attempt to move to a different field/just go off grid for a while. I've always stuck to it because of the value everyone attributed to it but increasingly so I'm beginning to realise the supificiality of these values. I though it could provide me with a reasonable method expression andprogression but unfortuantly it no longer does any of this. I hate all the dancers around me, I hate virtually everything I do all day, but i cant spearate from an intolerable fear of living without it.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 21:23:26 2019 No.13880156 >>13880104 you're certainly more desperate for approval

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 21:36:04 2019 No.13880210 File: 8 KB, 259x194, spongebob.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Why is it that spongebob makes for the best reaction images?

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 21:55:00 2019 No.13880283 I just don't know anymore guys.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 21:56:19 2019 No.13880294 >>13879856 >thinking about what I'll be like She'll be very disappointed, won't she?

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 21:56:58 2019 No.13880295 >>13878994 I actually feel good today. It's been a while.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 21:57:04 2019 No.13880296 there are too many things i want to do in life and i'm already middle-aged and i feel like i fall in love with a new woman every day

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 21:57:26 2019 No.13880298 >>13880096 not this goddamn degenerate again.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 21:58:36 2019 No.13880303

>>13879856
That's cute, anon :3 Sometimes I think about this too, like there's a ton of people I'm going to meet in the future and I wonder what they are doing now that it's going to bring them to my life me and vice-versa. Life is a strange thing, right? Whenever I think about this I feel a deep sense of joy just for being alive, not sure why.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:00:38 2019 No.13880314 >>13879935 i love it too. ever read The Painted Girls? it's freakin' elegant and lovely.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:01:38 2019 No.13880318

>>13880108
>I've always stuck to it because of the value everyone attributed to it but increasingly so I'm beginning to realise the supificiality of these values.
I'm curious which values smiling when in pain and knowing you can walk with most of your toes being broken are values, r-right?

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:02:37 2019 No.13880322

>>13879910
Do it, anon! It sounds interesting and I would read that!
>>13880296
Remember: you're never to old to chase your dreams. I mean, it sounds cliche and dumb, but there's some true to that. Most of the time the only thing stoping you it's yourself.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:04:03 2019 No.13880329

>>13878994
I didn't want to go to the birthday party, so i decided to drive to the lake. It was a nice day and there were many people out and about. Boats in the water, people at the beach, in the reserved shelters, picnicking on the grass. Happy families making happy memories. It made me feel guilty, but that whole thing...it's not for me anymore.
Eventually i got bored and decided to drive back into town. It was still early, and i knew the party was still going on. I drove around for a while, but the gas tank was getting light. I pulled into the mall with the intention of hiding my presence in the sea of cars. I listened to AM radio. A family of black people pulled up next to me. Black people are really loud, they don't seem to care that others can hear their personal conversations. I continued to sit there, lighting up a few cigarettes. More and more black people were pulling in all around me, talking loudly. Black people really seem to enjoy the mall. I saw a family of white people walk right in front of my car. The daughter was kinda cute. I snuck a peak at her feet, but her brother noticed me and we made awkward eye contact. Dont dress like a whore if you don't want creeps staring at you, i rationalized my behavior to myself. I finished up my cigarette. It was time to move on.

I pulled out of the lot and drove back towards the house. the gas light had turned on. I bit the bullet and drove right in front of everyone out on the porch. The guest cars occupied the driveway, along with the whole street. I drove by slowly, pretending to look for a spot, but as soon as i turned the corner i kept driving. I would have continued to cruise around if i had gas money, but i had to settle for the local park. I parked the car and walked out on the shitty baseball field. I had one cigarette left, and a few hours till dark. I saw a fat lady and her boyfriend with their toddler up at the playground. I'm 28, that should be me by now. I see a young teenage couple walk by and giggle at me. A reminder of what could have been. I laid down on top of the wooden bench at the field. Looking up at the sky, fast clouds moving east. A light mist started to fall on me. I kinda felt like mist too, a puff of moister from the nozzled hose at a children's birthday party. I smoked my last cigarette as slow as i could manage.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:10:10 2019 No.13880360 I'm straight, but I've been feeling the desire to get absolutely railed during the past week. Just pounded on with my ass in the air until I'm drooling in ecstasy. What the fuck is wrong with me

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:12:36 2019 No.13880369 >>13880360 Probably too much porn? Or you are just gay but don't want to admit this to yourself.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:12:42 2019 No.13880371

it's 4AM. uni sucks. i peaked in middle school. i miss having real not-busy-all-the-time friends. but they moved on with their lives and are now pursuing their dreams and have no business hanging out with an unambitious lazy loser. also fuck im dumb and no amount of books or movies is going to change that. why am i too scared to commit suicide? it makes me hate myself even more. self-pity doesn't help either why can't i just get out of my room, find motivation to fall in love with my uni major again and become healthy? i'm scared of judgement. i used to be fit, happy and passionate. what the fuck happened? why am i paranoid, ashamed and always doubting myself? i wish i was more of a suck-it-up and be-a-man person and less of a whiny faggot

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:15:18 2019 No.13880384 >>13880371 >why am i paranoid, ashamed and always doubting myself? the question that defined a generation

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:19:00 2019 No.13880400 Spontaneity is a hell of a thing

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:21:37 2019 No.13880415 >>13880400 Spontaneity is a myth.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:24:28 2019 No.13880427 >>13880322 thanks anon. cliche or not that's a message i needed to hear. >>13880329 you seem like a beautiful person.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:28:44 2019 No.13880441 I just realized that the only board in which I type with capital letters is /lit/.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:32:50 2019 No.13880453

I just watched the video from that Audition (Fools Who Dream) song from La La Land on YouTube and I started crying and sobbing. Her interpretation is amazing, not necessarily the singing, but the acting, all those emotions she manages to convey in a very simple scene. The lyrics hit me a bit too.

Also I legit think I might be starting some light depression or adjustment disorder episode.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:35:00 2019 No.13880462

Knausgard has ruined me. I'm getting to the end of book 1 of my struggle, when he writes about his dad dying. I started crying in the library. I don't want my family to die. But they will, and I'm sure I'll have a shitton of regrets when they do. Still, I'll wallow in mediocrity and loneliness. At least Knausgard could write

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:35:23 2019 No.13880464

i have a very strong oneitis case, while i dont know if its going to get me somewhere cause ive been getting fuckton of mixed singnals im trying my very best to 'use' her as my motivation
ive lost a lot of weight, been going to a gym for a month now, and thanks to fellow anons read some books, im just trying to have a win-win scenario regadless of the outcome, would appreciate any thoughts

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:36:29 2019 No.13880467 >>13880427 >you seem like a beautiful person. not really sure how to interpret this, but thanks for the complement nonetheless

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:38:50 2019 No.13880473 I should probably do my homework for french class right now but i just want to shower and sleep. My mouth tastes bad.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:38:58 2019 No.13880474 >>13880415 Then I guess literally everything is derivative? If then, then of what?

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:42:24 2019 No.13880480 >>13880467 i mean something like, your intensity of awareness of emotion is a sign of something beautiful in how you experience life idk if i should say more than that

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:42:52 2019 No.13880483 >>13880415 it's probably just a misnomer. i think what people call spontaneity is really just "the zone", it's when you really feel alive and are operating from a higher from of presence; above the grooves.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:45:43 2019 No.13880491 >>13880483 I mean specifically randomness, the ability for the human mind to spawn something out of thin air.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:52:14 2019 No.13880515 >>13880360 stop watching porn

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:52:32 2019 No.13880516

>>13880491
i see. there certainly is a subjective quality to what people call creativity, and there is a subjective view of novelty, but i would ultimately agree that people don't actually "create" anything, we just draw attention to and highlight things. what people would call creativity or spontaneity, is really just subjective novelty. which is one of the reasons i find it off putting that some "artists" get massive egos.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 22:52:41 2019 No.13880517 I want to punch something wildly. I don't know what just something.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:00:46 2019 No.13880541 >>13880515 >>13880369 You're probably right

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:02:12 2019 No.13880543 >>13880298 What did he do?

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:08:04 2019 No.13880557 >>13880543 I fell in love with a girl too young to fall in love with

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:10:10 2019 No.13880565 >>13880557 how young?

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:11:20 2019 No.13880568 >>13880565 9

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:12:00 2019 No.13880571 >>13880568 you sick fuck

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:12:25 2019 No.13880572 File: 191 KB, 500x552, wizard-pepe-32432549.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >tfw no one to go on adventures with like actual adventures. not adventuring the hotel balcony to get pictures for instagram.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:13:01 2019 No.13880577 >>13880572 where do you live?

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:13:54 2019 No.13880582 Are the malazan books any good? I've been reading the first one and frankly it seems boring.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:14:59 2019 No.13880588

>>13880557
i once fell in love with a girl 14 years younger than me (1985; 1999). i don't really care what others think. i went out of my mind thinking how evil i might be though. thinking about the violent consequences of pursuing that relationship. i ended up in the psych ward for about 2 weeks.

i still don't think i did anything wrong, though. i'm still glad she was born; and glad i was born. it's just that i could not act on some of my dreams and feelings, without activating a tragic catastrophe, which i avoided at the cost of keeping her unblemished in my mind.

sort of like penelope fitzgerald's <the blue flower>

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:16:09 2019 No.13880592 >>13880568 >>13880571 it's not unheard of. just remember, when she's that young, you're supposed to not touch her, but flee into exile and write epic poems.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:16:43 2019 No.13880596

>>13880571
There’s nothing sexual about it. When I met her, it was totally “romantic” if that’s the right word. I was totally focused on her existence when she was around. My whole chest was light as a feather, my heart was warm and fuzzy, and I was just in pure joy. Even now, just thinking about her gives me life.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:18:14 2019 No.13880599 >>13880592 >>13880596 classic pedo

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:20:14 2019 No.13880604 >>13880596 well i believe you. your words bring to my mind a k-pop song called "i love you i love you"

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:21:40 2019 No.13880607
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No other type of person can compare with a well tempered and well educated conservative. There are few of them these days, and they are precious treasures to me

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:21:44 2019 No.13880608 >>13880582 I think you have to heavy fantasy autism to get into it. I found it impenetrable. I did manage to read about half of wheel of time though.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:22:47 2019 No.13880612 >>13880577 american west.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:23:23 2019 No.13880614 >>13880607 good post

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:24:38 2019 No.13880616
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>>13880599
how am i a pedo for advocating that anon not act act on his romantic urges? the worst you could say about me is just that i'm vocel and think others should be vocel as well with all their inappropriate notions. unconditional love and the vocel lifestyle save lives.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:25:21 2019 No.13880619 >>13880612 midwest here. i was thinking i needed to do something soon as well. not sure what yet. i recently watched the vagrant holiday series and it really gave me the traveling bug.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:26:24 2019 No.13880623

>>13880599
If I were a classic pedo I would be interested in other girls, I would seek out child photos, I would be sexually aroused by them. But I’m only interested in this girl, and I never think of her in sexual ways. Generally, for all the girls I’ve liked that were my age, I thought less about them in a lustful compared with the romantic feeling. It’s the same with her, only it’s completely based on love. Of course, she is beautiful, and intelligent, and nice, but I don’t appreciate her beauty in a lustful way.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:27:37 2019 No.13880628 >>13880619 I feel similarly even though I'm in a place that would probably be interesting to people not from here. I've just been here too long there's not much magic left.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:28:09 2019 No.13880629

>>13880616
>>13880623

the notion that it's some kind of pure love that has the capacity for reciprocation is a classic pedo thought process. pedos don't think it's creepy, they thinks it's romantic, that's what makes them pedos, because they really think that on some level it's a viable relationship.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:28:37 2019 No.13880631 >>13880607 every truly great person is a radical revolutionary. the only point of being a well-tempered conservative is that it attracts pretty women, who are scared off by the truly great men.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:29:26 2019 No.13880636 >>13880631 a well-tempered conservative is about as radical as you can get these days.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:29:49 2019 No.13880637 >>13880596 Yikes. My heart is fluttering.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:30:54 2019 No.13880640 >>13880629 That’s why I said I will wait for seven years.

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:31:47 2019 No.13880645 >>13880640 i wouldn't get your hopes up

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:36:54 2019 No.13880658

>>13880645
I know it’s unlikely. I’m not a fool. But the fact is, I do have hope. I’m driven to work hard in school and the gym. I fight off the urge to masturbate, or to look at girls around campus, or even dream about someday dating them, because my mind is focused on a girl much more special. I think about her every day. Every time these threads are posted, I will always say the same thing, because she is always on my mind. Of course, when the time comes, my dream will probably shatter, but those years waiting will have been meaningful, and I will be a better person because of it. I can accept the possibility that I will never be with her, and that it’s very probable, but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t fight for it.

Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:38:35 2019 No.13880659

>>13880636
you might be right but some cons only pretend to be well-tempered. i'm not sure there has been a truly well-tempered con since doctor samuel johnson.

>>13880645
well i think he should get his hopes up. give all to love. who wants to live a life without having over the years had a few great expectations?

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:46:02 2019 No.13880681 >>13880640 no you wont. youll move on to the next girl. i hope you get help

>>	Anonymous Tue Sep 24 23:57:05 2019 No.13880724 >>13880681 I hope that someday you’ll experience what I’m feeling

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:14:41 2019 No.13880794

>>13880659
>i'm not sure there has been a truly well-tempered con since doctor samuel johnson.
it certainly seems rare

>>13880659
>well i think he should get his hopes up.
7 years seems like a lot of time to waste in a fruitless pursuit, but i really dont care one way or the other, i dont know these people.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:19:01 2019 No.13880805 >>13880640 What if she wants a boy her own age?

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:19:21 2019 No.13880808
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Going to a wedding this weekend. Flying out tomorrow. Will see a lot of the family who I haven't spent time with in years. And strangers. Going to spend the whole week being asked questions I have no good answers to.
Are you working?
No, I've been unemployed since I graduated
Oh, what did you study?
A useless social science
What are you qualified for?
Absolutely nothing besides flipping burgers or manual labor
What do you want to do?
I don't fucking know
Do you have a girlfriend yet?
Obviously fucking not you can clearly see how fucking ugly and how much of a mess I am who the fuck in their right mind who give me a second look
What's your plan?
I'm probably going to jump off of a fucking bridge once I've paid my parents back what I owe them

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:21:15 2019 No.13880811 >>13880805 I better make myself desirable then. If I fail, I fail

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:22:06 2019 No.13880815

>>13880724
you know, when i was about ten years old i feel in love with this girl at the park, i dreamed about her every night, it was one of the most magical times of my life, and i got over her within a couple brief summers. of course, i was ten and she was ten, so it's something that accompanies a season of a persons life. i get the impression that maybe you are a profoundly stunted individual that should go travel and see what the world has to offer, you know, get out a bit. because this fantasy of the little girl, is just that, a fantasy.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:27:26 2019 No.13880838 >>13880811 Start keeping a diary detailing your eventual kidnapping of her. It will be great art.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:28:49 2019 No.13880844

>>13880808
have you thought at all about professional school or some other kind of postbaccalaureate credential? a lot of people do undergrad based on what they're interested in, then go for more practical options if and when they get done fulfilling their personal, intellectual interests
>tfw english and east asian studies
>worked at publisher for a while
>neet'd around
>tried teaching in korea
>liked it enough to go for my postbacc state certification in teaching ESL, language and lit.
>might also add a cert to teach mandarin since i minored in chinese

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:31:44 2019 No.13880856 >>13878994 Other than my company's "reputation", I don't believe I'm getting anything of value. In fact, I believe being more incompetent. I'm reaching a threshold.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:32:16 2019 No.13880859 >>13880844 I have no interests besides writing, I have no direction. I do not know what I would study. I have been economically redundant ever since it was revealed I was useless in math, coding and salesmanship.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:33:12 2019 No.13880861

>>13880838
i liked the same girl for 10 years once. from age 14 to 24, even while dating others, i thought she was the one for me. eventually i gave up but it didn't hurt that badly. she and i just lived in different worlds. so i bought about 10 dollars' worth of supermarket ice cream, and some honey, and ate half the ice-cream and passed out.
took a good dump the next morning, wrote some poems, hit the gym. bought a new black cashmere sweater.
6 months later, i was wearing that sweater when i met the love of my life.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:36:06 2019 No.13880869

>>13880859
i have a writing uber alles mindset too but that didn't stop me from differentiating a truly shit job paying minimum wage and working irregular hours, from a tolerable job like teaching with a modicum of human interest, intellectuality, creativity and learning, plus not having to work nights or weekends

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:39:22 2019 No.13880881 >>13880861 I feel very bad for you. I have loved someone too but at least felt the joy of her sharing it. I do not think this little girl you're speaking of wants you or will want to be with you when she is of age. How well do you even know her?

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:39:59 2019 No.13880884
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Its comforting to know that all the greats died without ever receiving their true deserved praise and value. That in the end, they too strode along a journey of agony, loneliness and doubt. Yet despite this, their only salvation lay in the awe and wonder their works would inspire in the future, motivating the proceeding generations to do as they did. And in this way, from work to work, from generation to generation, so long as man kind persisted, they would - in a sense - be connected with each other through the same road. In the end, we are all walking along the same path, separated by untold space and time, yet still holding hands and united through our beloved craft.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:41:33 2019 No.13880891 >>13880859 >>13880869 do you guys actually manage to write a lot? if so i envy you. i haven't managed to do even that much in the past 4 years.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:43:37 2019 No.13880898 I used to be somebody

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:44:31 2019 No.13880900 >>13880881 He’s not me. I’ve only been around her a few times, but it’s almost guaranteed that I will see her more in the future as she is friends with a close relative of mine.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:48:08 2019 No.13880911 >>13880900 What do you plan to do when she reaches puberty and wants to be with other boys? That's going to happen.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:48:59 2019 No.13880916 >>13880900 dude, just get the fuck out of there, you are obviously torturing yourself and it will only end badly

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:49:57 2019 No.13880920

>>13878994
Why must degeneracy be the equalizer of true desire? Must a woman’s penis be the must unobtainable treasure in these baron fields? For being just a simple man devoid of traditional immoralities why must my urges gravitate towards that which I may never experience? The joys of female penis are to remain a taboo pleasure only satiated by hours of punishment in front of a screen. Oh how I wish to be free of this restraint society has enforced upon me.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:52:49 2019 No.13880934 >>13880920 it would pleaseth me if thouest art killeth thyselfeth

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:54:22 2019 No.13880941

>>13880911
I really don’t know. I’m not that worried about asking her. I could take her to expensive restaurants, but her anything, but, I’m not sure how to do all this with respect to the parents. Either I talk to them and risk probable criticism or try to be sneaky and risk getting caught. There are a lot of variables here. I have a tendency to have things go my way, especially when I concentrate on a task, but this one will be challenging. I might need luck to go my way. I might need to be bold. I might end up being shamed and mocked, gossiped about. But I wont feel shame for my feelings.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:55:16 2019 No.13880946 I've been alone for a couple of years, i feel like i need semi-long-term friends.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:57:00 2019 No.13880952 >>13880623 >Of course, she is beautiful, and intelligent, and nice, but I don’t appreciate her beauty in a lustful way. She's 9. Just admit your true motives. I don't hate people like you. You just have some mental problems that should be treated.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:57:04 2019 No.13880953

>>13880916
I can’t get away. Perhaps I’m just postponing the acceptance of reality. Maybe she won’t be as captivating as she gets older, but that’s unlikely. I won’t be able to get her off my mind until I know for a fact that I won’t be able to marry her

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:58:32 2019 No.13880961 >>13880952 Maybe you just don’t understand and you’re assuming the worst in people

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:58:47 2019 No.13880963 >>13880953 how long have you known her? and have you been diagnosed with autism?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 00:59:49 2019 No.13880969 >>13880952 >You just have some mental problems that should be treated. with bullets

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:02:38 2019 No.13880977 sometimes i fart in a room and come back later and it still smells like fart.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:02:46 2019 No.13880978 >>13880969 I’ve done nothing wrong

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:02:53 2019 No.13880979 >>13880941 You're going to take her to an expensive restaurant with other customers? Will you tell them you're her father? People will stare at you if you act and talk this way in real life.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:04:41 2019 No.13880988 >>13880978 you have done wrong spiritually, and if you dont think you have then that means you are defective and death is a privilege at that point.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:04:49 2019 No.13880989

All this shit with Greta Thunberg is annoying. Zoomers saying "you need to listen to the science" without knowing what primary production or a trophic scale is. We are going to live in Mad Max world and these tree hugging nonces are going to get cannibalised first because all they know how to do is "raise awareness"

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:05:11 2019 No.13880990 >>13880979 So what? Why is following societal norms inherently right? Those norms aren’t constant across history and regions of the globe

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:06:12 2019 No.13880994 >>13880988 >you have done wrong spiritually Loving is spiritually wrong? What are you basing this on?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:08:29 2019 No.13880999 >>13880989 I sarcastically said to some lefties at work, "Why are people even still questioning climate change? Don't they know how science works? No asking questions!" They all thought I was serious and agreed.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:09:49 2019 No.13881005 >>13880994 dont play retarded, i dont like kids the way you do, you know it's different and it would go somewhere it shouldn't if you had your way. what you think is love is a perversion, that's why it's wrong

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:10:11 2019 No.13881007

>>13880961
He's assuming she's nine and assuming you think that is a basis to start a relationship. It's not any kind of good basis, because it assumes she will grow up to be the kind of woman who is okay with men falling in love with nine year olds, who will want to ignore social cohesion enough to isolate herself by association to such a man, and that she will want to assume societal responsibility equally for decisions you made when she was nine and you were of age. All of this suggests that you do not comprehend social responsibility well enough to be left near nine year olds, because if you did, you too would see why you should never have a relationship with her for her same. Since you don't have any awareness of the obvious social blowback you would force her into or of her as a separate individual with social needs opposite to yours, you are unlikely to see why she would object to such an arrangement as an indication of her social maturity. She is going to outgrow you in social understanding very soon, unless something horrible stunts her development like yours has stalled.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:11:15 2019 No.13881010 >>13880989 >>13880999 things became so easy that the generations became retarded and there is no talking them out of it.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:11:45 2019 No.13881013 >>13881005 >it’s not common and you’re not like me therefore it’s wrong I would agree with you if I were lusting after her, but that isn’t the case.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:12:54 2019 No.13881016 >>13880946 I need a wife. One certain woman to be my wife and to open a restaurant with in rural Washington state like in Twin Peaks. That would be grand.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:13:56 2019 No.13881019 >>13881007 I’ve already said that I would wait until the age gap is made less significant, until she is legally old enough for marriage. Of course, I wouldn’t want to marry her quickly, but I wouldn’t want to be dating her for years, either

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:14:24 2019 No.13881022

>>13881013
if that wasn't the case then you would not be talking about it this much. you say it's not lust, it's love, but if you were alone with her for a year in the woods, constantly bumping into each other, working together, cooking together, your mind goes, "hey this feels nice" don't act like it is anything to the contrary

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:14:35 2019 No.13881023 >>13881005 Don't worry. He'll lose interest by the time she's Tanner Stage 3 and won't do anything in 7 years.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:14:45 2019 No.13881024 >>13881010 I'm just incredibly bored, I know how things are going to end without WWIII and if it even happens in my lifetime I'll be too old to share the fruits of it anyway

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:16:06 2019 No.13881027 >>13881024 yeah, okay?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:16:46 2019 No.13881030 >>13881013 Then you're going to take her to restaurants and date her in seven years as platonic friends?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:17:52 2019 No.13881033 >>13881027 yeah, I'm basically Jesus Christ. God talked to me in a dream

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:17:57 2019 No.13881034 >>13880607 i wish i knew you in real life, because i'm going insane in this insane world, and this thread is really gay.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:18:59 2019 No.13881036 >>13881033 what did he say?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:19:20 2019 No.13881037 >>13881019 Anon, she's going to have her own wants and needs that are completely different from your's. Boys from her school will be asking her out before it is even seven years anyway.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:19:43 2019 No.13881038 >>13881030 >>13881019 >>13881022 You’re just wrong, dude. I’m opposed to all extra-marital sexual relations, and also sexual relations with pre-pubescents. Not only is this my conscious morality, but its woven into my being.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:20:07 2019 No.13881040

>>13881019
>would wait until the age gap is made less significant,
That does not make it a decision you made when she was not nine and you were not of age. It is still asking her to assume responsibility for a decision you made when she was a kid, only it also gives you years of planning to prepare yourself for that blowback, while leaving her dangle. This inability to view it from her perspective and the obvious risks it poses to her development and future is why you should not be left near kids. Just like you don't let a blind guy drive the bus, you don't let people who are oblivious to obvious risk to children's well being take care of children.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:21:16 2019 No.13881043 I wanna pee

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:23:59 2019 No.13881052 >>13881038 bro...no

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:25:31 2019 No.13881056 >>13881040 What are you talking about? Her being 9 now will be irrelevant in the future. I won’t make the situation seem non-spontaneous

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:28:16 2019 No.13881064 >>13881056 >What you're doing is unhealthy, deviant, manipulative and doesn't take her feelings in to account >Yeah but I WON'T make it look that way!

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:28:46 2019 No.13881066

>>13881056
> Her being 9 now will be irrelevant in the future.
No it will not. The question "when did you two meet?" will always be answered with "when I was nine and anon was an adult" or a lie. That you do not see that coming when married couples are asked that throughout courtship and marriage and you do not see the social blowback that will cause for her and any children she may have is why you should not be left near kids.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:30:21 2019 No.13881069 >>13881064 What is manipulative or deviant about asking a 16 year old out on a date?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:30:59 2019 No.13881070 >>13881069 Planning it for seven years.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:31:04 2019 No.13881071 >>13881056 >>13881064 >>13881066 i just want to nuke everyone in this situation. just to be safe pedos will face the cleansing fires

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:31:06 2019 No.13881072 >>13879013 is this a snipit from the upcoming The Great Gatsby fan novel of the process of how Gatsby got all his money?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:32:06 2019 No.13881076 >>13881070 kek, you win the thr

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:34:01 2019 No.13881082 >>13881070 >it’s not normal so it’s bad Would it help if I told you she hardly knows who I am, and we have minimal contact? If what you’re saying is so real, then I could simply avoid her until whenever

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:36:43 2019 No.13881090 >>13881072 It's a a snippet from my ode to JS Bach. My love and devotion

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:37:05 2019 No.13881093 >>13881082 that makes it worse. i will assume this is a troll and wash my hands of the whole affair.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:38:04 2019 No.13881097

The whole world feels out of sync. As if everything is hanging by a thread. This thin glass rod ties together everything, and even the slightest vibration out of wack would send it shattering.
I used to cut through the world, try to "get to the bottom of it" slice and subdivide it like Christmas pudding until I had the one raisin that mattered.
Knowledge of the systems arrayed against you and within you is not the same as the experience of these systems directly. This sharp depature between phenomenological apperception (immediate summation of sensory of sensory inputs ) and abstract representation makes it futile to attempt to reconcile the two. We spend our whole lives thinking and worrying only for the world to remain unaffected. And then suddenly, exactly what needs to happen, or must happen, comes to pass. In those arresting moments we step out of the nihilistic shade of insignificance and into the sunbeam of purpose, of universal alignment.

Why is it that some hibernate, even through their entire lives, while others hear the siren call and enter that poisoned and wondrous twilight?

Why is it that I burn my time in effigy, welcome the deathly ooze of time of age, regret and inevitability, the darkness against the straining flame . It's better perhaps not to fight it. If fighting here means wrestling the world into conceptual submission, analyzing its systems as a general might the arrayed opposing troops. You act on what you think is there, not what is there. And what do you think is there? Any number of things, an arbitrary number of options. You could choose faith, but that is just an option among others. This is the dilemma of rationality. If you were to persist in believing that what you believe about the world is enough to go on, you must shut out all other considerations. But those considerations are part of the world too. They form the sum of potentialities of all that could be, and what is must by logical necessity stem from what could be. Stopping yourself from getting swallowed by infinity means anchoring yourself to the affairs of humanity, --we do in some sense operate as grounding for each other, as if our minds form a grid that stabilizes each other other. At least in the best of times of course.

In the end there is no end, so I can be satisfied knowing that even the wrong is necessary and I can claim full absolution.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:38:37 2019 No.13881098 >>13881082 A teenage girl isn't going to want to date her mom's adult friend she met as a 9 yr old girl years ago. Get your head out of your ass.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:39:59 2019 No.13881102 >>13881098 I’m not that old

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:42:12 2019 No.13881108

>>13881082
No, planning anything is manipulative and premeditation. Planning to date a nine year old when she turns sixteen is definitely deviant. It's what the words mean. The fact you're doing this to a child you barely know is not any consolation unless you keep not knowing her at all forever, rather than planning how to intervene in someone's life for seven years. If she were an adult, having a seven year plan before your first date would also be abnormal, and deceiving her about that abnormality would be manipulative and considered broadly dangerous or damaging to her. Have you thought maybe the reason you keep failing to understand my posts is because you are not very good at reading social norms for child welfare? I'm not the only anon telling you many times over why this harms your purported loved one, and you continue to ignore the harm and plan to press on in manipulating and damaging a girl you hardly know. Stop that if you have any idea what human kindness is.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:44:48 2019 No.13881112 >>13880371 Started meditation and now have the balls to kms. Idk if telling you this is helpful anon but I wish you the best of luck.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:47:27 2019 No.13881118 >>13881112 god speed

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:49:01 2019 No.13881120 >>13881108 Not telling her won’t “damage” her. You’re caught up in the present. In the future, things will be different. What if I just stopped thinking about it until that time? Then would that no longer be manipulative?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:50:00 2019 No.13881122 >>13881102 If you don't like her physically then what specifically draws her to you? Expand on the "intelligence" and other aspects. I genuinely want your insight in to your side of the story.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:52:52 2019 No.13881127

Does anyone have anyone here have any experience with the French Foreign Legion? I've always liked the idea of training and discipline, and marching in France, getting paid to learn French, travelling the world really appeals to me as an eighteen year old loser. I've always wanted to read Proust and Baudelaire in their original language.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:53:17 2019 No.13881128 >>13880371 let go of your ambitions and ego and pursue things which you enjoy

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:54:23 2019 No.13881131 >>13881127 Real life Foerign Legion isn't the romantic life of Beau Geste. They're expendable 80 IQ criminals and thugs from east europe and east asia who kill darkies.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:54:42 2019 No.13881133 >>13878994 Any good books about politics? >>>11931854

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:56:21 2019 No.13881135 >>13881122 dude he is a pedo, why are people trying to clarify this?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 01:57:40 2019 No.13881139 I write A grade papers but submit them all late so my grades are terrible and it does not feel good

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:01:21 2019 No.13881145 >>13881135 I genuinely hope he keeps us updated with this. Think of all the wacky hijinks this idiot will get into thinking he can successfully romance their 9 yr old daughter. I imagine Humbert Humbert but dweebier and without the debonair.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:03:22 2019 No.13881150

>>13881122
Obviously if she weren’t beautiful then I wouldn’t be captivated by her. But my point is that it’s not a sensual attraction. I feel like I’m being honest with the fact that a younger girl can be beautiful, and most people just are conditioned to not think that way. But I wouldn’t say her appearance alone is what made me so enthralled. Because I’m sure I first experienced physical effects of love (light chest, good heart feeling, etc.) after I observed her charming personality. She seemed quite intelligent and aware for her age, with a good vocabulary and no indecent outbursts or strange remarks. But she is still young, and so of course she is playful and energetic, and that is lovely. And now my heart is acting up...

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:07:31 2019 No.13881157 >>13881150 Draw a picture of the both of you and then upload it here so I can visualize it. Be honest with your appearance.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:08:20 2019 No.13881160 I use my wits and intellectualism to hide that fact that im a coward.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:09:39 2019 No.13881164
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>>13878994
My desire for change is outweighed by my fear of it. I desperately want to change and know how, though I'm holding myself back.
Despite having German roots in Midwest Burgerland, I cannot stand bratwurst.
I should really go to sleep.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:11:28 2019 No.13881166 I have mistreated some but not been severe enough with others. I feel upset.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:13:44 2019 No.13881171 >all the beautiful women are promiscuous, all the ugly ones are bitchy with bad hygiene what is this world i was born in?

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:16:28 2019 No.13881180
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>>13881019
>mfw this faggot doesnt understand how fucking retarded and wrong his logic is dude you’re talking about imaging a marriage with a literal child you do understand how hilariously pathetic that is right?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:17:02 2019 No.13881184 >>13881043 I peed

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:18:58 2019 No.13881190 File: 8 KB, 73x191, 59729355-BE49-45A7-9A3A-0F815D42A05E.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13881157 I look like this guy I met at a competition once (people say we look like twins almost), but slightly bigger. And think Jennifer Connelly

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:20:03 2019 No.13881193 >>13880314 I have not, but I'll be sure to check it out. Thank very much, anon!

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:22:50 2019 No.13881202 >>13881184 How was it?

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:28:18 2019 No.13881213

I've been feeling fairly confident recently. It all changed last night, I had a fight with one of my only friends, I broke nofap and I realised my beard looks shit when I saw it in one of those reverse cameras. I'm feeling fairly empty right now, so I'm reading some light stuff to feel better

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:28:51 2019 No.13881215 >>13881171 a world that you have mistaken and know nothing about

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:32:59 2019 No.13881229 >>13881215 >my anecdotal evidence is better than yours

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:45:51 2019 No.13881266 >>13881202 It was pretty nice

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 02:59:56 2019 No.13881310 >>13881145 i g h y k y s y w n k w i m t b c l y s f u

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:08:35 2019 No.13881335 File: 146 KB, 409x409, Untitled.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I want to create art, but I can never decide what kind (music, literature, illustrations, etc.). Even if I could decide, I feel like I actually have nothing to say.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:10:19 2019 No.13881345 >>13881157 I second this

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:12:35 2019 No.13881358 >>13881335 Just do it anyway. Maybe you'll find your voice as you go.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:14:31 2019 No.13881362 I have a completely (mostly) non-sexual fascination with the penis. It's a really cool piece of equipment.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:19:15 2019 No.13881366 >>13881362 are you a girl?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:20:19 2019 No.13881370 >>13881366 No. Would that make it less weird?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:21:25 2019 No.13881373 >>13881370 i dont know, can you keep talking to me about it?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:23:37 2019 No.13881376 >>13881335 Consume more art, you'll have things to say eventually

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:24:36 2019 No.13881378 >>13881373 I guess. What's yours like?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:26:30 2019 No.13881382 >>13881378 it's perfectly fine. what do your fingers look like?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:26:40 2019 No.13881383 >>13879477 There is no learning, no personal progress - only the world becoming more like you.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:28:11 2019 No.13881389 >>13881382 Long and thin I guess, why?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:31:24 2019 No.13881398 >>13881389 i figured we were asking things of each other? would you consider yourself: handsome, cute, sexy, cuddly?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:35:48 2019 No.13881404 >>13881398 Most people seem to think that I look pretty okay. Cuddling is certainty nice.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:36:27 2019 No.13881406 >>13881404 okay cool

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:37:29 2019 No.13881412 >>13881404 so we're together now? that's pretty dope, not gonna lie

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:40:15 2019 No.13881422 >>13881412 I guess. Is this what having a boyfriend feels like? It's alright I guess.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:42:16 2019 No.13881432 >>13881422 yeah, it's exactly what it's like. if you rub my nips, then that is what sex is. and we both enjoy it. although i enjoy it better

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:43:29 2019 No.13881436

I need to stop smoking weed ASAP

>>13879091
Interesting point, the closest analysis I've read is "Kill All Normies" but it's far from any kind of intense academic or sociological study of daily imageboard culture (if that's even possible)

>>13879475
Kek

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:43:54 2019 No.13881438 >>13881422 i do have to ask though, does /lit/ have it's own frequency? because i definitely hear it in my room?

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:43:57 2019 No.13881439
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the gnats fly around, the rotten apple core their fixation.

college goes good, payments on the mind.

stirring restlessness deep inside, no escape.

fuck now suffer later.
fuck now suffer later.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:50:08 2019 No.13881464 >>13881438 What? We're not a radio station.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:52:25 2019 No.13881470

>>13881422
respond to me if you think i'm still cool, otherwise don't. i feel like a lot of people are all responding a lot so...things obviously need to settle down first. but i have a feeling you are white and have nice skin and hands, and i think you have nice feet for sure. is your butt have nice goosebumps on it?

for some reason you remind me of this time i went to visit my cousin in 1998
this video was like that
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6GJyP5WwOu0

>>13881464
>What? We're not a radio station.
we are now

i think i fell in love with you.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:53:25 2019 No.13881474 >>13881120 >I plan to continue operating behind her back when she is an adult >WHAT IF I LIE MORE? DOES THAT MAKE IT NOT LYING?? That will still be a shitheel move in the future.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:53:32 2019 No.13881475 There are really some bizarre, fringe of the fringe people you find on these kinds of boards. It's both refreshing and revolting. Maybe I'm not so bad after all.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 03:57:51 2019 No.13881490 >>13881475 who are you addressing here?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 04:06:53 2019 No.13881516 >>13881422 how do i contact you?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 04:10:18 2019 No.13881534 >>13881516 Give me your email, I will contact you.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 04:11:33 2019 No.13881536 >>13881534 no that sounds sketchy, i'm better off contacting you

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 04:15:29 2019 No.13881544 >>13881534 do you have a twitter or something?

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 04:37:40 2019 No.13881610 [DELETED]

LEAVE ME ALONE

LEAVE ME ALONE
LEAVE ME ALONE
LEAVE ME ALONE

I have nothing to give and no god to pray to and so I created you instead. why did I create you, why did I create you, why won't you leave me alone? I want a god, I want greatness, but I created you so that every time I think of greatness I think of you instead. leave me alone, leave me alone, leave me alone, leave me alone, leave me alone, leave me alone, leave me alone

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 04:40:09 2019 No.13881622 >>13881610 show me

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 05:11:41 2019 No.13881705 >>13881490 Nobody in particular or here fren. Just talking about what I've picked up after some time browsing 4chan. Simply sharing my current thoughts, per the thread prompt. Take no offense.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 05:19:12 2019 No.13881721 File: 763 KB, 761x761, 1568310036669.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] www.youtube.com/watch?v=fSzOcvAJmi0

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 06:17:32 2019 No.13881881 I think I developed IBS and it makes me fart and I feel pathetic

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 06:47:32 2019 No.13881961

>>13880808
>I'm probably going to jump off of a fucking bridge once I've paid my parents back what I owe them
you could try to find some kind of minimal life insurance policy and then manage to have a lethal accident that is accepted in the insurance policy.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 06:49:33 2019 No.13881970 >>13880952 >You just have some mental problems that should be treated. That's true. I'm not saying you're going to rape her to abuse her, but if you're a grown man and you genuinely fall in love with an actual child, you really have issues.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 06:54:42 2019 No.13881989 >>13880572 Spain?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 06:56:39 2019 No.13881993 >>13881007 high IQ post

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 06:58:35 2019 No.13881997 >>13880884 >ts comforting to know that all the greats died without ever receiving their true deserved praise and value. Comforting? That's motherfucking depressing as shit

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 06:59:58 2019 No.13882001 >>13881016 I'd come have coffee and pie there

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 07:01:48 2019 No.13882009 File: 219 KB, 1920x1080, hearts.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13881721 I adore that album. Great taste, anon. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CsLLmBOIkcI

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 07:13:45 2019 No.13882049 >>13881475 That's part of what makes it so interesting and worth coming back to. It's the spice. You can encounter anyone on the Internet, and imageboards draw some of them in, the really out there ones

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 07:14:52 2019 No.13882055 >>13880462 Don't keep reading then, his life only gets more depressing with time. I'm afraid after the 9 books I've read by him I'm basically imitating his thought patterns.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 07:45:23 2019 No.13882149 >>13881989 If you are still here where in Spain are you? I'm south coast

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 08:00:41 2019 No.13882195

Finding it hard to go on, i mean I don't want to end it, but when you've dealt with depression for most of your life you just crack sometimes. Art was my salvation it was really the only thing that revived my soul and me, making paintings that would enter the canon one day and stand alongside my heroes. But even now I can't finish my most recent painting its just sitting staring at me.

I think the hardest part about being an artist is when you're obviously not social and don't network and you create all your artwork in a void or a vacuum, it all starts feeling meaningless and worthless. And when your work looks like mine the only place you can literally show it and receive praise is some high end contemporary art gallery. which getting into without the right connections or going to the right school isn't exactly easy. I have probably 130-140 paintings stored in my house that i've done this year and last and I fantasize of my mom taking them to galleries and getting attention for them in the event that i did kill myself.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 08:16:43 2019 No.13882233

>>13882195
Finish the painting and start networking. Start calling places once a week, asking for space. If you really cannot find a venue (including restaurants and cafes and other places that will take ambient art for free and will let you put up a price list and details) start guerrilla art showings. Tape a painting to a busy city bus. Find railings you can legally attach shit to and plaster it. Ride a bike with canvases strapped to it and a streamer announcing gallery free art sales.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 09:19:07 2019 No.13882406 File: 216 KB, 1480x1080, Out of the Past - Jacques Tourneur (1947).jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13882009 It's my favourite from his early period.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 09:24:57 2019 No.13882427 >>13879389 If they are capable of understanding each others point of view, if they can accept that they cant understand each others actions as well as before and they trust each other to make decisions for themselves without the other, yeah

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 10:25:42 2019 No.13882642 >at home, bored >oneitis suddenly calls >haven't talked to her in a year >asks if I want to go for a walk with her >accept >get ready, go to leave >wake up

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 10:28:55 2019 No.13882655 >>13882642 What follows is what you should now do, as suggested by your dream: >call oneitis suddenly >ask if she wants to go for a walk with you take the leap of faith. If you don't shoot, you're guaranteed to miss.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 10:34:06 2019 No.13882671 >>13882655 she lives on the other side of the country now and I'm pretty sure has a boyfriend

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 10:41:43 2019 No.13882703 >>13882671 boyfriend? Disregard the boyfriend. >she lives on the other side of the country now well now, that's a bit of a problem, I'll admit

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 11:08:52 2019 No.13882829 >>13879003 vast improvement desu

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 11:11:05 2019 No.13882842 >>13880515 I bet you say it because you watch porn and have the desire to get railed in the ass too. just accept that you are third gender and embrace your life purpose of gratifying real men. quitting porn won't change your nature.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 11:16:28 2019 No.13882867 >>13882671 Mine lives on the other side of the country too. Have a home in WA? Let's swap houses.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 12:17:38 2019 No.13883135 U spin me right round round U spin me right round round Ty krutish menja prjamo vokrug sebja Ty krutish menja prjamo vokrug sebja lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalal Ok, that was all.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 12:21:13 2019 No.13883150

Anyone good at dream interpretations? I had an interesting and very vivid dream last night and I'm not sure what it means.

(In the dream:)
>Drove up to the Bible camp I used to go to as a child, all of my same age peers were up there. I went to claim a bed but noticed someone's clothes were already laid on it. I asked around and found out they belong to the girl I'm interested in IRL. I could use that bed though because she just hung herself, I broke down crying and ran outside.
>Outside was a hill leading down from the main cabin to the lake. All of the people up there, the church youth group, had constructed a nine level terrace made out of sand leading down to the beach and mounted the ramparts. It was like Mina's Tirith from LOTR. I made my way down the terrace passing by everyone I knew. At the bottom was a woman from my church (who is a narcissist and shares much too much) standing alone yelling at everyone and denouncing the structure as idolatry. Talking about Nebuchadnezzar's dream about the multi layered statue. The whole crowd gathered around her and I had a giant protractor in my hand. She kept telling and the crowd moved onto her violently and the scene changed.
>Next, I was in an airport in Korea, trying to smuggle my child cousins out of danger by getting them Into the state of Israel (I'm not Jewish btw). We had fake passports and disguises and were waiting in line at customs. A salesman I knew recognized me and started accusing me of deception to all of the other people in line. I ignored him by reading a newspaper but was very nervous. This went on for like five minutes, he eventually got tired and left to go get security after I didn't react. We got to the customs desk and the first two children got in fine, my passport was accepted but the child I was holding was not accepted because their passport was obviously not theirs. The clerk was very stern with me and angered that I was trying to fool her so blatantly.
The dream ended and I had slept through my alarm. There's a lot of symbology in there and I don't normally dream about people I know

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 12:25:11 2019 No.13883176 >those anime figurines mega-weebs collect cost hundreds of dollars each what the fuck

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 13:21:22 2019 No.13883442 The more I learn, the less I know

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 13:33:32 2019 No.13883512 >>13883176 there are people out there who have spent thousands of dollars on funko pops think about that

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 13:38:01 2019 No.13883537 >>13883442 Good.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 13:43:43 2019 No.13883564 Trump is basically out of office if the Dems can convince 8 Republican senators or 6 Republican and both independent senators to vote him out. It's really that close

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 13:43:53 2019 No.13883565 >>13883512 People on here have spent several times that amount on books they will never read.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 13:44:49 2019 No.13883568 >>13883512 those are even worse because they're all just slight variations of the same thing, at least the anime figurines are unique >>13883565 I doubt I've even spent a thousand dollars on books

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 13:51:18 2019 No.13883594 >>13883565 If /stack/ and /shelf/ threads are anything to go by, you aren't wrong

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 13:52:02 2019 No.13883596

>>13883564
which will never happen, they'd only flip if there was meaningful opposition from their voters who trump is *extremely* popular among. If we look at republican senators ranked by how how dem-leading their state is we see that to get 8 flips *in the easiest way* would involve flipping states like fucking florida. Can you really see marco rubio voting to convict?

also where are you getting 8 in the first place? you need 67 (or maybe 66, idk) to convict. are you including some republican senators you think you vote to convict for sure?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 13:54:05 2019 No.13883604 >>13883596 Isn't it 58 or 59 d senators with the 2/3 required majority being 66?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 13:55:17 2019 No.13883609 >>13883604 Affiliation Members Republican 53 Democratic 45 Independents 2[a] Total 100 >Sorry I'm a fucking retard, not sure how I messed up this badly

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 14:33:07 2019 No.13883824
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>ate healthy food last night
>woke up at 8.30 am
>browsed internet, drank coffee, ate healthy food
>read 60 pages of a history book
>went to gym and did cardio
>somehow it was already 5 pm
>go in to central London for my usual walk and read in the library; saw lots of officeStaceys and felt demoralised
>listened to Cumtown podcast
>walked through a park
>now drinking coffee

I looked on patreon and saw that the Cumtown people get paid $50k per month for 2 hours a week and felt so pathetic. Then I looked at other parts of patreon and saw all sorts of people being paid a few thousand per month and felt even more pathetic. I haven't even been able to start a proper 40 hour per week wagecucking career yet, at the age of 28 (I'm starting a good job soon).

It's incredible how unfulfilled I feel and how little motivation I have to do anything. I may have a Last Binge Ever just to feel alive again. I haven't had junk food for 72 hours. I saw today that McDonalds has changed its temporary burger. But my biggest problem is my inability to do anything productive under my own initiative. I have been procrastinating everything that's important (or unimportant) and non-urgent.

The history book I'm reading is non-dull but I feel like I'm wasting my time. Reading is a consumercuck activity. And I read so inefficiently. If I had sacrificed two days for nothing but reading, I'd have read more than I have in the past two weeks. But I can't sacrifice a day because then I'd feel like a loser.

And I have wagecuckery on the horizon...

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 14:39:24 2019 No.13883854 >>13883824 >>ate healthy food last night holy shit, is this a plot twist or what riveting shit right here, london

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 14:41:44 2019 No.13883868

>>13883854

You should have read Monday's post, where I bought the food.

What is worrying was that buying the healthy food for the first time in many weeks and then eating it didn't feel like an effortful decision. I still feel like a passenger in life

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 14:43:05 2019 No.13883874 FINNA BOUTA

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 14:44:05 2019 No.13883881 >>13883854 Londonfrog: collected posts when?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 14:45:43 2019 No.13883889 Someone from my building with a sniper rifle could change the course of the political future from their window. For reasons I shall not disclose. I wonder how closely this building is being monitored.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 14:54:50 2019 No.13883936 Imagine torturing some dumb cunt to death with a knife and saw and then becoming famous world wide.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 14:54:52 2019 No.13883937 >>13883881 hopefully never

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 15:00:48 2019 No.13883966 >>13883824 Londonfrog go on cumtown

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 15:03:19 2019 No.13883979 >>13883966 I cringe at how existentially cucked I am compared to free spirits.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 15:04:40 2019 No.13883984 File: 82 KB, 1080x1241, 1569411804667.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I need a big titty goth gf

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 15:06:25 2019 No.13883993 >>13883979 the cumboys do nothing but sit around and play video games though. they went to fucking japan and nick just bitched endlessly about it

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 15:10:17 2019 No.13884018 >>13883993 Doing very little is part of the existential journey. You can't be sad in a profound manner when you work 9 to 5, plus commute.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 15:15:15 2019 No.13884045 >>13883984 I want a girl to tie up and stab fifty tines with a knife. It would be even bwtter if she were pregnant.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 16:48:29 2019 No.13884421

Life is slipping through my fingers. I think my gf and family only humor me because they’re afraid of what I’ll do if they cut ties with me like they should. The naive optimist in me is telling me that all great men are confounded during their humble beginnings, but the realist knows that I’m full of shit and that I’m not going to amount to anything if I continue on like I have since I’ve transitioned into adulthood. Part of me wants to go back to school and put an honest effort into studying music or psychology, but another part of me wants to embrace the life of a starving artist since I’m basically already there and I’ve been told I have talent. I’m stuck on the fence and all possibilities seem fruitless and rife with disingenuous shitheads. I’m a whiny bitch.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 17:18:55 2019 No.13884550 >>13884421 How old are you?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 17:20:53 2019 No.13884554 >>13884550 25 gonna be 26 in November

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 17:28:14 2019 No.13884588 I poo in the loo and pee in the sea, peeing and pooing is good for me. I fart and I shit more than a bit, there's really nothing you can do about it.

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 17:31:59 2019 No.13884605

>>13882195
Anon, i hope you're still here. I can't say I'm particularly well connected but I have a friend that works as an art buyer, and at the very least I might be able to offer you some personal appreciation. What is the best way for me to contact you?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 17:32:09 2019 No.13884607 i want to drink wine i dont want to drink i want to fuck a girl i want to be virgin til death i hate i dont know what i hate, i just hate i want to be in peace, in silence, alone, this city, this people are sickening me

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 17:33:28 2019 No.13884615 >>13878994 Today i was accepted to work for a company of freelance writers. I am excited.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 17:42:20 2019 No.13884660 >>13878994 Is the goat looking at me? Or does it stare at something?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 17:42:35 2019 No.13884662 >>13880607 good post

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 17:46:31 2019 No.13884682 File: 2.02 MB, 1000x1333, test.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] K I N O I N O

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 17:54:08 2019 No.13884716

>>13878994
The world revolves arround me relentlessly and I can barely make sense of what is happening around me. All the while I have a hard time coping with reality I have this animalistic need of composing a work of fiction that will help me understand my surroundings better. I've hit a wall in which I'm feeling more and more like I need to better grasp what is around me if I want to reflect it, and it's sickening that I've fallen into a loop out of which I can't come. It's frustrating that I used to have great ideas; like I had no creativity filters and my mind flowed like a river. Since school started I feel as though a dam has been built around that river out of the insecurity that the plausible judgement of my work by others ingrains me. How do I go back to not giving a shit about what other people will think about my ideas?
How do I regain my brain wings?

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 18:01:08 2019 No.13884752

I want to buy a suit. Something a bit flamboyant but not too over the top. I used to not attach importance to clothing, but people make snap judgements. If you shamble about in a stained t-shirt and cargo pants and sandals, the immediate judgement will not be favorable. A sharply dressed elegance captivates and tantalizes the eyes. I live in a place of exuberant fashion, and while my outfits are occasionally on point, I also have a tendency to slap together whatever clothes has been washed. The finest Italian suit cannot make up for an empty head or bankrupt soul either.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 18:21:29 2019 No.13884837 Cars are almost always more beautiful than their drivers

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 19:05:29 2019 No.13885023 >>13879950 try attending a language school there too

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 19:07:45 2019 No.13885034 >>13880588 how old was she at the time anon?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 19:15:06 2019 No.13885059 >>13880658 you're idealizing a nine year old. She's going to change drastically once puberty hits too. Do you actually know her super well? She won't live up to your fantasies.

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 19:20:10 2019 No.13885091 >>13881007 based

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 19:21:15 2019 No.13885095

>>13881019
>It's not any kind of good basis, because it assumes she will grow up to be the kind of woman who is okay with men falling in love with nine year olds, who will want to ignore social cohesion enough to isolate herself by association to such a man, and that she will want to assume societal responsibility equally for decisions you made when she was nine and you were of age
Did you read his post?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 19:27:21 2019 No.13885127 >>13880898 what happened anon

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 19:29:05 2019 No.13885137 >>13880900 >I’ve only been around her a few times what made you so captivated?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 19:33:17 2019 No.13885154 >>13880994 have you ever been in a serious, reciprocated relationship?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 19:36:25 2019 No.13885173 >>13881184 I'm proud of u

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 19:43:29 2019 No.13885209 >>13881108 good shit anon

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 19:45:33 2019 No.13885218 >>13881102 >A teenage girl isn't going to want to date her friend's adult brother she met as a 9 yr old girl years ago. Get your head out of your ass. still holds in your situation

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 19:47:09 2019 No.13885227 >>13881345 >>13881157 please do it >>13881150

Anonymous Wed Sep 25 19:51:36 2019 No.13885249

>>13881150
>I feel like I’m being honest with the fact that a younger girl can be beautiful, and most people just are conditioned to not think that way.
>But she is still young, and so of course she is playful and energetic, and that is lovely
You're only infatuated by her childlike traits and claim not to be a pedo?

>>	Anonymous Wed Sep 25 19:52:56 2019 No.13885254 >>13881171 there's beautiful women that aren't promiscuous, but you don't see them since they don't put themselves out there

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