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I'm a horrible callous person
I'm self-centred and narcissistic, yet have a poor and unstable sense of self and also hate myself
I'm very detached and dissociated
I'm cruel and sadistic to others, yet I want to fix myself some how
what literature will help me

>> No.13562951

this is water - dfw

>> No.13562959

>>13562918
If this is tru you don’t need and likely don’t deserve to spend time reading and indulging your mind
Go out and treat the people you know better and force yourself to change your habits, dick

>> No.13562962

>>13562918
thelastpsychiatrist.com

>> No.13562975

Literature of realism, including magical realism.
Tolstoi, Kant, Rousseau, as philosophers.
Goethe, Byron, any social poetry from your country.
Read bios, travel books.
Nothing better, yet, than going outside and look, talk, listen, try.

>> No.13562978

NOT YOUR FUCKING BLOG

>> No.13562981

>>13562975
>>13562962
>>13562951
I'll see if those are useful to me
>>13562959
Shutup cunt, kill yourself

>> No.13563011

>>13562981
lol you’re gonna die and people are going to laugh and then forget about you
Enjoy learning how to be decent from books you subhuman waste haha

>> No.13563024

>>13563011
Okay

>> No.13563072

dostoyevsky. probably The Idiot in particular

>> No.13563093

>>13562981
>>13562951
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8CrOL-ydFMI

>> No.13563275

>>13562918
I’m exactly the same and I don’t want to change. All this obsession with goodness and morality is dumb. You don’t need to be a good person ‘who is good to others’ to enjoy reading or writing

>> No.13563282

>>13563275
enjoy dying alone desu

>> No.13563336

>>13563282
What’s so scary about living or dying alone? Besides I’ve had enough fucked up relationships to know that being alone is actually better than being with someone shallow or for the sake of it

>> No.13563342

>>13563282
Cope, we all are going to die alone either way.

>> No.13563404

>>13562918
You need to read the Holy Quran to find the answers you need

>> No.13563439

>>13563404
how so

>> No.13563532

>>13563336
I'm willing to put money on the belief that you are not currently "living-" or looking at the prospect of soon "dying alone"
I work with elder care facilities and those are some people realistically facing the prospect of dying alone and they are (no pun intended) shitting themselves over it
to answer your question though, being alone is scary because we understand huamns more than we understand the neverending storm of misery that is flung at people with no apparent reason, and so they make good companions when facing horrible events
but by all means, embrace the unpredictable tragedy that will be your life- that is ultimately all of our lives- and snub your nose at all the people suffering with you out of pride or convenience, people do it every day and, since they have no one, no one remebers them- they effectively never existed. if thats what you really want thats the easiest thing in the world to attain, so lucky you i guess

>> No.13563535

>>13562918
You aren't. You wouldn't even ask these questions or be worried if you were. Pride is the root of all those terrible traits and it can only be remedied through suffering and patience.

>> No.13563537

>>13562962
This is what you need, look under the narcissism tag.

>> No.13563574

>>13563439
Read it and find out. It's based af.

>> No.13563601

Mr. OP, I’m sorry but Mr. Woznyk called and he said he doesn’t want to pay for that $3.00 surcharge for the gasoline, so were going to be cutting back down to 30 yards, not 31.

>> No.13563615
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13563615

>>13563404
Based Akhi.

>> No.13563645

>>13563601
SUPER BUSY

>> No.13565124

>>13563282
Alone or not, I’ll enjoy dying all the same

>> No.13566377

anything more on this? How do I be less self-focused and nasty?

>> No.13566449
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13566449

Hey, Eric, sorry to do this to you man, I gotta take off early, my daughter's got a basketball game

>> No.13566467

>>13562918
At least you're aware of your own predicament, which is a lot better than most people. Literature won't help you (at least, not directly). What you need is to fall in love, i.e. experiencing the utmost shattering of your ego and your 'heart' being 'stolen' from you.

>>13563275
Pervert.

>> No.13566470

>>13562918
You're beyond salvation only Jesus can help You.

>> No.13566472

>>13566467
All I do is create an identity for them to love, they never love me. And I just love and idea of them that fuels my own ego. I'm shit.

>> No.13566495

Probably this type of literature

http://www.longbeachmonastery.org/the_chan_handbook.pdf

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13566515

>>13562918
Take it easy man

>> No.13566520

>>13566472
Try to go all the way until the end.

>> No.13566524

>>13562918
The Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man and Mirror by Tarkovsky. Learn what it means to be a human being.

>> No.13566525

>>13566520
i usually cut relationships off before they can get any where
mostly because i'm a coward

>> No.13566543

>>13566525
It's okay. You will be like that forever until you die.

>> No.13566635

>>13566543
not if i try

>> No.13566681

>>13566635
Yes, but only for a while, until you go back being the same person you are right now.