Nothingess

[Anonymous No.13027034]

It is ridiculous. I'm sitting here in my tiny room, me, Anon715, who turned 28 years old and whom nobody knows.
I sit here and I am nothing. But still, this nothingness starts thinking.
Long gone is the youth with all it's potential. What can you be without potential?
Broken down is the ladder to ascend.
No energy, nothingness, just vegitating for the sake of existence.
Visualize, imagine me. Let me become part of you and I shall make your life better.
Whenever you'll seek short term gratification i will remind you of the consequence.

[Anonymous No.13027054]

>>13027034
>Broken down is the ladder to ascend.
ascend to what? whats beyond ultimate neetdom? Do you finally become a patrician? Tell us anon what happens at the end of the timelines

[Anonymous No.13027075]

fuck off you fucking boomer, this is a board for literature. Fuck. It's in a constant decline because of you.

[Anonymous No.13027084]

>>13027034

He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal.

[Anonymous No.13027109]

You deserve it for using whom wrong

[Anonymous No.13027149]

>>13027034
Learn to spell, to capitalize, to think. Maybe then we can talk. But right now you’re a waste of space and time, and if you’re truly sitting alone in a tiny room with nothing to look forward to I’m not at all surprised.

[Anonymous No.13027161]

English is not my native language

[Anonymous No.13027219]

Some people lose their humanity in work, other people lose it in leisure. But they're equal.

Wasting yourself devoted to your work and wasting yourself devoted to your play is equally the same slave mentality.

Just enjoy yourself, as in yourself. Stop trying so hard to make something of yourself. A NEET who spends all day worrying that he's a failure and that he hasn't made anything of his life is honestly the most over-worked, over-stressed, and slavish human being in the world.

As long as your sense of worth is dependent on external things you are a slave. That goes for presidents and CEOs as much as NEETs.

[Anonymous No.13027251]

>>13027219
Also our society very strongly encourages this slave mentality, "work hard, play hard". If you could just lay down in bed for 5 minutes and experience one moment of real leisure, of real relaxation, of really not having any cares in the world like when you were a kid – all your slave anxieties will be known to be illusions.

"Broken down is the ladder to ascend" is a very positive sign, now you just need to put your feet up and relax. Maybe when you've had a few weeks of real relaxation and enjoyment you'll even have the energy to do something, but as long as you're constantly worrying and trying to distract yourself with "short term gratification" you are really like an over-worked employee running here and there for his boss.

[Anonymous No.13027279]

Fuck it dewd quit being a little bitch and go live life on your own terms.

Go fuck a 22 year old and recapture your lost youth, boomerscum.

[Anonymous No.13027308]

I turn 28 in a couple of months. Still a virgin. Still enslaved by fear, and now guilt as well. All those dreams wasted. All those ambitions never pursued. All that time traded for money that gives me no satisfaction at all. I try neg myself into being a 30-year-old boomer, being a "nice guy" who helps his community, lives a humble, gentle life and so on - but I just don't give a fuck.

[Anonymous No.13027312]

>>13027219
>>13027251
based

[Anonymous No.13027339]

>>13027219
>but what if, Mr Peterson, my internal worth is diminished by externalities?

[Anonymous No.13027417]

>>13027308
same turning 28 khhv neet here just enjoying my comfy neet life

[Anonymous No.13027432]

>>13027034
>Long gone is the youth with all it's potential.
If you are a man, 28 isn't that point. For a woman, certainly.

[Anonymous No.13027538]

>>13027339
There is nothing in this world that is original to your true self, not your body, not your mind, not your thoughts, not your senses. Everything is external to the true-self. So how can you speak of self-worth being diminished by that which is outside the self, when the self is made from the outside! You are so deeply conditioned by the world, you cannot see that the only unconditioned, is the witness, or your consciousness without mind.

The mind is tool for processing thoughts, and all thoughts come from the world. YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS because thoughts are made up of that which is external to you. You are the witness to the thoughts. Get it? When you are joyous, are you thinking thoughts? No, the mind is empty. The mind grows restless when it cannot find joy, yet your ego tries to stop the mind from running away. This is impossible for it to do, so you experience much suffering. If the mind loved you, it would come back to you on its own accord. Forget freedom of thought, THINKING IS SLAVERY.

Happiness and Joy are not the same thing. Happiness is a conditional thought ("my country's team won the competition", "I got an A on the test"). This kind of feeling comes, and then goes.If you grew up in India, you would be happy if India won the cricket world cup, and if you were Pakistani, you would be happy if Pakistan beat India. But if the Indian and Pakistani were to switch places, would n't their reactions be the opposite? You see how silly this kind of conditional happiness is. It's purely circumstantial, and outside of the self, and has nothing to do with the true self.

The true self is joy. It is joy without condition. When you strip away the ego and the false self, then you will find joy.

[Anonymous No.13027912]

>>13027149
>>13027109
Americans are 50% of this site. Keep it in mind next time you fucking retards.

[Anonymous No.13027944]

https://vocaroo.com/i/s0OHfAxu5wWo

[Anonymous No.13028202]

>>13027034
same

[Anonymous No.13028214]

>>13027084
heck yeah

[Anonymous No.13028220]

>>13027538
nice

[Anonymous No.13028230]

The Tiger
He destroyed his cage

[Anonymous No.13028258]

>>13027034
>depressed pseuds

[Anonymous No.13028261]

>>13027308
>I turn 28 in a couple of months. Still a virgin

I'm a 28 year old who has had sex a few times, but infrequently enough to still get those "something must be wrong here" feelings. In a way it's more frustrating than when I was actually a virgin. At least then I could consciously hold the experience of getting laid as some ultimate act of self-actualization. But then I got laid & the predominant feeling was "this is it?". And then it happened several more times, same result. Nice enough, but no more so than eating a particularly nice meal, or taking a hike out in some beautiful landscape, or doing psychedelics for the first time, or whatever. I began to pass up obvious opportunities with women I was attracted to, because it didn't seem worth giving up so much of my time & emotional energy...but then, months of that went by (18 months at this point, I believe), and I found myself back in this place of endless longing for physicality, even though my conscious mind still remembers what a disappointment it was before. Sublimating myself in the pursuit of romance, or forgoing romance to focus on self-development - why can't I just be satisfied with one mode of being or the other?

[Anonymous No.13028276]

>>13027034
Adam corrola says you dont have to be doing ANYTHING until you're 30. You're on track. If you feel a waste of potential then spend the next two years figuring that out and when you're thirty actualize it.

[Anonymous No.13028365]

I feel like my life is pretty stable & moving in a positive direction (low paying but also low stress job that allows me to save some money, good exercise routine, trying as best I can to devote my free time to learning things & creating things, no debt or serious addictions), and a genuine belief that I can get what I want out of life (which I only remember is an advantage when I go on the internet & see people who feel hopelessly trapped). The main source of stress is just that internal paranoia: "am I moving too slow? Am I avoiding things that I would eventually need to do to get what I want?" - which leads to the fear that I might stagnate into some well-maintained cog who never lives up to his imagined potential, or that alternatively I might be compelled to take stupid risks that will serve only to undo my progress, without actually opening up novel possibilities. I spend most of my time thinking about this: how to genuinely step outside my comfort zone, widen the scope of my reality, without just entering into another cycle of meaningless hedonism that ends with me feeling like I've wasted six months, and going back to whatever I was doing before.

[Anonymous No.13028451]

Stop being so fucking faggy, /lit/. I turned 27 yesterday and I'm a khv, and while I do work, my career profile is kind of a joke and I might as well be a neet. Whose opinion matters to you? That's the important question to ask. Stop tripping over the opinions of people who don't really matter to you.

[Anonymous No.13028488]

>>13027075
>Everyone I don't like is a boomer

[Anonymous No.13028505]

>>13027219
>>13027251
extremely good posts

[Anonymous No.13028660]

>>13027109
Except that that is the correct usage of 'whom.'

[Anonymous No.13028692]

>>13027251
thanks anon :)

[Anonymous No.13028914]

>>13027219
thank you

[Anonymous No.13028943]

>>13027219
Shit like this is literally the reason why I honestly think 4chan is a dope place

[Anonymous No.13028975]

>>13027944
I was hoping you’d post

[Anonymous No.13029192]

>>13027034
I feel you anon. I'm 22 but already threw away my life. Dropped out. No friends. Absolutely nothing.
I threw away my talent. Don't get me wrong, I'm not egoistical here. But there is a thing I have an advantage in. Because of the environment I grew up in and the effort I put into in my earlier years. I could even say I even had talent for it. And I profited nothing from it. I know it sounds narcissistic as fuck but I see people who are worse at it profiting from it. Only because they put themselves and it out there. Meanwhile I'm socially autistic, depressed retard. Makes me want to kill myself. First, I never get the wasted years back. This is something I can't process and gets worse every day. Second, every time I thinking of my wasted opportunities I want to kill myself.
Fuck this existence

[Anonymous No.13029755]

>all these virgins in their late 20s
I've got to get the fuck out of this board while I still can.

[Anonymous No.13029923]

>>13027219
>>13027251
>>13027538
bravo

[Anonymous No.13029928]

>>13027219
yep, this is based

[Anonymous No.13029936]

Cringe

[Anonymous No.13030309]

>>13027034
same bro
same

>>13027538
based
sometimes (ok, only twice) i experienced that lately - the true self, this blank joy beyond thought where i know all my thinking to be false... but today i thought of it as "stupidity," as the inability to differentiate myself from the rising ground. but joy isn't stupid. thanks anon

[Anonymous No.13031084]

Thanks for the replies, I can see that I am not the only one who feels like this

[Anonymous No.13031100]

>>13031084
hang in there friend

[Anonymous No.13031132]

Similar situation here. 29 years old, also a virgin, though that's not something I particularly care about anymore. I just wish that I never existed. Life isn't something worth suffering for.

[Anonymous No.13031197]

>>13027219
so your reduced sense of self when not being able to do something for long periods is not a warning that you should be doing something?

[Anonymous No.13031215]

>>13027034
>28
You could start doing ANYTHING productive practically tomorrow and completely change your life within the month. This is the pill you don't want to swallow.

[Anonymous No.13031499]

>>13029755
it's pretty much the same everywhere. lit is not exception.

[Anonymous No.13031556]

>>13027538
>ous
Based.
Can you recommend literature to the thoughts you just have elaborated? I am really interested to dive deeper into it. Are you speaking about a trichotomy of body, mind and "soul" (true-self)?
Thank you.

[Anonymous No.13031557]

>>13027075
>It's in a constant decline because of you.
Sweeet moorseeeel

[Anonymous No.13031582]

>>13031215
*today

[Anonymous No.13031590]

TFW found GOD

[Anonymous No.13031602]

>>13028365
This.
I feel like I'm doing good, and I have lots of objective ways that indicate it, but I worry easily. Perhaps that is precisely the reason I did well, though.

[Anonymous No.13031625]

>>13027538
Thank you based Nisargadatta

[Anonymous No.13031635]

Long story short, a guy I made friends with the first day of our archaeology class studied together throughout the semester. I quickly developed a crush on him but didn’t know if he felt it back. We even went on pseudo-dates where we studied over lunch at a cafe and got dinner and ice cream after class, but we didn’t call them dates and it never got romantic. He’s graduating in a few days, and I thought it was too late. He almost had an Irish goodbye, but last night after we went out with friends and we’d each gotten home, I was a bit drunk, and texted him asking how he felt about me. He told me to meet him outside my building in 5 min to figure things out. When he pulled in, he got out of his car, walked directly to me, and said “just kiss me.”
We made out for like 5 minutes before successfully using words, and then spent the night together

[Anonymous No.13031642]

>>13028488
yep
>>13031557
I'm just visiting since it's summer

[Anonymous No.13031643]

>>13031635
unless that friend was metaphorically Jesus, GTFO fag

[Anonymous No.13031644]

>T. Non-fiction readers

Get the fuck out you losers.

[Anonymous No.13031682]

>>13027034
>Long gone is the youth with all it's potential. What can you be without potential?
Still chained to the most petty things, I see.

[Anonymous No.13031737]

>>13027219
>>13027251
>>13027538
Ascended posts

[Anonymous No.13031786]

>>13027034
>>13027308
You’re 28. Some people didn’t start writing or pursuing their craft until 29, like Murakami or Saunders one DeLillo. Sure, it’s probably not going to happen for you, but it’s worth a shot.

[Anonymous No.13031793]

>>13031215
>t. 30

[Anonymous No.13031801]

>>13027034

Let him who seeks continue seeking until he finds. When he finds, he will become troubled. When he becomes troubled, he will be astonished, and he will rule over the All.

[Anonymous No.13031802]

>>13031786
Van Gogh didn't learn to draw until he was 27.

[Anonymous No.13031813]

>>13031802
25 is the cutoff unfortunately, which is why Van Gogh was a hack.

[Anonymous No.13031834]

>>13031813
I can say stupid things on the internet too, you know.

[Anonymous No.13031842]

>>13027109
Idiot

[Anonymous No.13031868]

>>13031834
He died poor

[Anonymous No.13031892]

>>13031868
I'm sure that you're implying that this means something, but I can't figure out what it is.

[Anonymous No.13033714]

>>13031635
Congratulations, Anon. I'm so glad

[Anonymous No.13035197]

>>13031635
If you are a guy, this is disgusting.

[Anonymous No.13035224]

>>13027034
Anon, you and I are the same, down to our age and outlook. I am much more ill than you physically I imagine, but we share a lonely and despairing soul

[Anonymous No.13035237]

>>13027219
It's very easy to be a stoic neetposter when you live with mum and dad or mooch off the government, both being dependent on someone else working

[Anonymous No.13035239]

>>13027219
>>13027251
>>13027538
Blessed posts
Thank you anon, this really broke through to me.

[Anonymous No.13035294]

>>13027034
You need psychological help anon.
You won't win this alone and forget family/friends, get some help from a professional and get better.

[Anonymous No.13035491]

>>13027034
honestly...this post is motivating for someone who's 20 and doesn't want to end up like that. Thanks, anon!

[Anonymous No.13035514]

>>13027034
have sex

[Anonymous No.13035518]

>>13031635
gross dude

[Anonymous No.13035663]

>>13027034
if you relish in your insignificance you will remain the insignificant and empty faggot that you are, no one is bound to make you feel like you are worth something, that is only up to you, so be something you fucking shameful excuse of a man

[Anonymous No.13035939]

>>13027219
>>13027251
>>13027538
Reddit tier articulation of glorified eastern jibber jabber that nowadays passes as philosophy. What a miserable state of affairs.

[Anonymous No.13037324]

>>13035491
thats what it is meant to be!

[Anonymous No.13037366]

>I turned 27 yesterday and I'm a khv
how does this happen?

[Anonymous No.13037388]

>>13037366
yes, really strange!

[Anonymous No.13037392]

>>13037388
Is it desire, will or power you lack?

[Anonymous No.13037400]

>>13035939
>wahh wahh wahh wahh
worthless post anon

[Anonymous No.13037407]

>>13037366
go back

[Anonymous No.13037428]

>>13027034
Go out into the forest, the eternal now is always and everywhere. Your eyes seeth just as well as you did when you were child.
The components are there, but the controller is tired and weary.
Remember how you were when you were young.
Remember how a tree was a guardian of the path.
How wandering dogwalkers were scouts of the evil Leameruerss and were out to get you, better hide!
Remember how the wellspring of love was your destination.

I did this, my sorry friend. I felt the DMT yet again flow through me, and there i was walking and singing some holy melody caught from the creator of all, randomly spurting out beautiful nonsense.
The potential is there, pathetic failurer, you just have to go outside.

[Anonymous No.13037432]

>>13037407
I wish I could but it’s too late

[Anonymous No.13037435]

>>13037428
based pseudo-spiritual schizo