Write what’s on your mind

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Write what’s on your mind Anonymous Tue Mar 26 17:50:28 2019 No.12831046 [Reply] [Original]

Poetry edition. Here’s one of mine.

The snowy mountain pass
Gravel underfoot
The cricket’s woeful song
Drowning in the bush

The fields of woven green
Golden bales of hay
The knotted hearts of oak
Smell of windy may

The salt spume on the coast
Crystal of the sea
The smooth rocks of the bay
Blue horizon free

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 26 17:53:24 2019 No.12831065 >>12831046 I've traded actual love for book reading.

Anonymous Tue Mar 26 17:53:48 2019 No.12831067
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Após labuta eu e você palreamos.
Refletem os findos raios no violáceo
da hortência que, no seu jardim, em ramos,
fomentam seu olhar, que é o bel-palácio.

Tilinta o som do aprazível encontro:
No pires, uma xícara é ajeitada.
Percorre o cheiro da torrada ao ponto.
Chá posto e eia: é a hora desejada!

Boa é a melancolia apropriada,
O mar de estrelas finda a jornada,
Agora alma anseia coisa mais digna.

Fulgura inda teus olhos. Logo, presto,
Guio-te ao canto escuro e, de Eros com o gesto...
Torna-se a lua voyeur da obra benigna.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 26 18:15:17 2019 No.12831181 >>12831046 Those are just words OP what does it convey??

Anonymous Tue Mar 26 18:23:28 2019 No.12831217

I know her,
She loves me and I know her smell,
It's disgusting, she doesn't know.
She makes me breakfast, she massages my lobes.
I throw up and thank God that she doesn't know.
Why are girls so clingy, they just won't let go,
Could she be so dense that she doesn't even know.
I fuck other women so that she can know,
But the dumb whore is too dumb to even know.
I can just say it to her but what's the fun in that.
Everyone can say shut up you cunt.
So I did, so what now.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 26 18:46:00 2019 No.12831298 >>12831217 Terrible

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 26 18:55:01 2019 No.12831351 >>12831065 let us hope that the intellectual eros burgeons; a love to content you beyond want.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 26 21:20:35 2019 No.12831992 >>12831181 It’s a little piece about my country. I wrote it while in a patriotic mood

Anonymous Tue Mar 26 21:22:27 2019 No.12832002
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I'm always conflicted between trying to educate myself, become fit, become a good artist and having a girlfriend/friends. All of those are hard and require more motivation that what I often have, and the lack of any of those makes me miserable

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 26 21:23:22 2019 No.12832007 >>12831046 I want to dominate a dog in public

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 26 21:42:49 2019 No.12832081 I made a pot of black bean soup Creakity arms and backward stoop Massacred onion and celery To have rectified incorrect revelry Demurred to olive oil inferno And still froze in aesthetic eternal

>>	« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !mxvabIoSIE Tue Mar 26 21:45:58 2019 No.12832093 >>12832002 do all of it for your enjoyment. Don't pressure yourself. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBWDIzHldPg

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 26 21:59:44 2019 No.12832128 >>12831067 this is nice

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 26 22:21:48 2019 No.12832201 >>12832081 someone found the thesaurus

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 26 22:30:35 2019 No.12832220 >>12831046 I like it

Anonymous Tue Mar 26 22:31:51 2019 No.12832229

Lately I am taken by the bell curve
Three tics from the crux makes almost all.
The top of a tower that, when filled,
Is almost the entirety of man’s choices,
Actions, lives, thoughts, feelings.
Three standard deviations either direction leaves
A portion small enough so that it just as well could be ignored.
Only zero-point-three percent of the beaker
Divides and divides to infinity to form a perfect one hundred.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 26 22:36:13 2019 No.12832247 >>12832220 Thank you

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 26 22:39:31 2019 No.12832257 I wish I was someone else. Living somewhere else. With a different history. And a different family. Anything. Just hit the random button on character creation. Anything

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 00:12:00 2019 No.12832580

Would you believe
a kid like me
was the boss.
A kid?
Would you believe
the things they give
to decide
a kid.
I may strike you
as a punk,
this golden funk
will fade.
But I’ve been hiding
all the deciding
all the deciding
they gave.

I’ve been hiding the weight.

In this town
this golden town,
this blessed town,
I raze.
Would you believe
a kid like me
a kid like me
carried weight?

Would you believe
the lives
that stain my hand?
Would you believe
these realities
leaping land to land?
And this tension,
this apprehension,
I must navigate.
Would you believe
a kid like me
a kid like me
carried weight?

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 00:35:59 2019 No.12832650

Part of a long poem I'm working on. It's goes back and forth like the Nut Brown Maid.

Her:

Yeah
I cheated
So what?
Does that make me evil?
No.
I did it cause i love you.
I just don't like to feel you.
Men want to fuck women cause they're horny
Not cause they love
And I love him too
Does that make me evil?

Him:

Mine Elizabeth, sweet Elizabeth
Thy father's dowry were for nought
But seven years hence have taken me apace
And I am left to rot.
I forgive your fickleness
Infidelity
Chaos
And pray thine arms grace mine arms
One more May.

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 01:22:20 2019 No.12832816

>>12831046
Ugly you, ugly me
Truly a fool you and me
My dog's drool, on the sweater I've left on the floor
I sense the air's as cool as the weather outside
Or room's too small, all in all I should be grateful
Thy try in writing: not tasteful
Dog wants to take a walk,barks strongly
Fog as white as chalk, park's lonely
No hurry lad, sour this verse is
My poetry is bad, yours worse
Diss.

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 01:26:49 2019 No.12832834

Oh play unto me
Thine song again
That sweet song that sounded
Like the sounds of a songbird singing solemnly to her
Sons and others
Doth not the bell chime
At the hour the cat durst climb
The walk to the high abode?
Say that but a simple song
Had had the chance to move a frog
Like that

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 03:39:30 2019 No.12833187 I will forever have an inferiority complex when it comes to Oxbridge

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 03:48:54 2019 No.12833212

Felt a little edgy reading back over this desu
-----------------------------------
Void
Nothingness
When last was I happy?
I don't know
When last was I sad?
I also don't know
I know only that I am
And that I will be
But what lies within?
I have long missed the feeling
Of contentment with life
Feelings are fleeting
Please let them stay
Friends are fleeting
Help if they may
Perhaps it is love I seek
Perhaps it is lust
But I seek something
In this I trust
Could I seek wealth?
Would avarice and greed
Grant me some purpose
Will I feel freed?
From the bonds of banality
And of a life wasted
Or will I still fall?
A forbidden fruit tasted
Should I strive for glory?
Fly close to the sun?
To plummet to earth
When melted wax runs?
Is happiness out there
At least for me?
Or have I been fooled
To search for eternity?

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 04:02:54 2019 No.12833239 To thee thy unrelenting motion Makes me see thee with covert interest Ere me and my friends came upon the scraggy banks Of Fort Aiden in the springtime gay and dreary Oh let me live to make loce to a woman's corse body...

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 04:04:10 2019 No.12833240

Opiates and
A fractured kneecap

Sofa is molting
A single light
from the cable box

It's never been this dark
That light has
Never been this bright

Village shaking.
Barrels and carts roll
Onto mothers and children,
roll
Onto broken buildings,
roll

My body rolls
Arms into back into sofa
Green. Light. Bright.

My mind,
rolls
Into broken mothers. Rolls
out my mouth

It's never been this dark.
It's never been this loud.

I decide not to sleep

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 04:07:41 2019 No.12833248 Even after the report's been released every major media outlet is talking about Mueller nonstop, it never ends and none of it will matter... just SHUT THE FUCK UP I hate the media so much jesus christ

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 05:34:29 2019 No.12833410 to the spider eight spidery points skittered all over the sink trapped, tapping, trying at the basin walls, and - quick! when I see you you stitch neatly into spidery ball and not a spidery shiver moves you watch out, eight-legs the plug hole yawns!

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 08:36:27 2019 No.12833847

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 08:38:02 2019 No.12833850 File: 90 KB, 904x873, apollo_11_rendevous.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12831046 Are there any good poems about the Moon?

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 08:49:26 2019 No.12833875 >>12831992 What country?

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 08:54:22 2019 No.12833888 File: 53 KB, 500x380, image.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12833847 Maybe one day somebody will love me that way one day.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 08:58:11 2019 No.12833906 >>12833410 nice

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 09:10:34 2019 No.12833943 >>12831046 Gf just dropped soup on my laptop; shut it off immediately, in a country with no independent repair shops (gundam country my fucking ass) might just end it all right here bros.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 09:22:26 2019 No.12833971 >>12831046 reading Devil's Elixirs, pretty comfy. do you prefer old editions or crispy freshly-published books?

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 10:16:45 2019 No.12834155 do you eat/drink while reading? i like sipping coffee with milk every couple pages

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 10:18:27 2019 No.12834161 >>12834155 I like black tea (:

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 10:19:54 2019 No.12834165 My FEET hurt.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 10:20:27 2019 No.12834168 promised myself I'd never piss in a bottle again yet here I am doing just that I have no future

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 10:20:59 2019 No.12834172 >>12834161 with a patrician piece of lemon i hope? 2bh i just like milk, but drinking it on its own seems weird, so i make coffee which is half or 2/3 milk

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 10:23:13 2019 No.12834177 Am I still insane even if the insane things I do are done intentionally?

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 10:23:30 2019 No.12834178 >>12834172 Lemon and honey is fine but most times I can't be bothered to exert any effort into my teamaking. I do keep a bottle of honey by my desk though but my lemon tree hasn't fruit so far this year.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 10:27:52 2019 No.12834189 >>12834165 why though? >>12834177 that's your conscious choice, so no, it's ok. >>12834178 > growing your own lemons may i say this is based and fruitpilled.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 10:33:10 2019 No.12834208 >>12834168 whats stopping you from taking the maybe 30 seconds to walk to the bathroom piss and back

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 10:39:14 2019 No.12834235

>>12834168
i never understood the pissbottle meme. i thought it's fake, only for the lowest of the low.
piss in the sink at least.
you must be a fat fuck if it's hard to walk to the bathroom. do you even shower? grab yourself by the last bit of self-honour and change your life by small steps. First one being: don't piss in the bottles.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 10:44:24 2019 No.12834254 >>12834235 I'm not fat, walking to the bathroom is just too much of a bother.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 13:04:41 2019 No.12834848 >>12833888 And I'd love to have someone to love that way.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 13:11:17 2019 No.12834874 >>12834189 Wouldn't an insane person still think that what they do is a conscious choice? What if I just feel like these are my choices when in reality I couldn't stop myself from doing them.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 14:45:19 2019 No.12835354 I want to get married and have children so badly.

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 14:51:28 2019 No.12835379

>>12834235
I did it once because I was really tired and wanted to go to bed but my housemate was hogging the bathroom. Doing it regularly though I can't understand, like just go when you go to get a snack or make some coffee or something? Or do those kind of people also unironically have their mum bring them tendies?

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 14:59:00 2019 No.12835427 I got rid of years of depression, suicide ideation, oneitis pining, etc though a combination of epicurean hedonism, laziness, and "just b urself" meme advice, ask me anything

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 15:06:41 2019 No.12835456 >>12835427 are you actually happy now, how do you live

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 15:11:38 2019 No.12835479

I sit here on my porcelain throne
My poo swings to and fro
But reluctant to break away from me
Why do you linger so?
Drop, drop, my negro friend
Into your watery home
Instead of just hanging there
Inspiring this here poem
Now go, be gone, away from here
Let go of my burning bum
Just drop, be free, and let me be
Your fun is yet to come.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 15:22:07 2019 No.12835518 >>12831067 Did you write this?

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 15:23:35 2019 No.12835526 >>12835456 I'm broadly content. I work part time as a software developer and live modestly.

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 15:33:43 2019 No.12835568
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>>12831067
I enjoyed your website. (Yes, I did find it - you write quite well for a 22 y.o., which is also my age, and you seem to be quite productive, which I am not.)

I am also Brazilian and interested in writing formalist poetry, though my way of expressing my thoughts is always permeated by a large number symbols, which does not seem to be your case.

Here is a sonnet, whose meaning is starting to escape me, but which has to do with the origin of new, unseen beauty, and how it somehow swallows all previously existing beauty, modifying it, while, through this very process, preparing the terrain of vulnerability which will give rise to even newer forms of beauty. I wrote it during a night when I realized I will always look towards the classics with modern eyes, because my aesthetic sense has been thoroughly informed by modernity - Eliot, Pessoa and such -, which means I will never be able to experience Dante or Petrarch in the way a Medieval Italian man did. In other words, new beauty is always a substitute for old beauty.

SONETO DA BELEZA QUE SURGE

Beleza como pregos aos poucos desponta
Das nuvens da palavra furadas de fogo,
Tal pescoço de cisne onde a frecha desconta
A cor meridional de um ignorado rogo:

Jovem perenemente e, desde ideia, antiga
Ela cresce, esmagando com giros fatais,
Sua fonte geratriz – é píton que castiga
Com peso de bigorna os ossos fraternais.

A Beleza se nutre com os olhos das costas,
Mastigando impiedosa o jardim que ficou,
Desde as flores reais até as flores supostas
E, depois, se encostando a um tronco que deixou,

Tal quem com sangue estranho o seu proprio enrijece,
Beleza nova tece e, tecendo, adormece.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 15:34:59 2019 No.12835570 >>12835479 nice

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 16:12:23 2019 No.12835756 >>12834155 how doesn't your coffee get cold friend :(

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 16:13:47 2019 No.12835764 >>12834254 brother how r u ever gonna write your novel if u cant even walk to the bathroom. a valuable existence takes discipline

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 16:21:34 2019 No.12835790 fear fear fear fear has taken my life life life life is the actual fear

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 16:37:07 2019 No.12835852 >>12831046 chip and clock and board and RAM abrogate that which I am close my eyes and touch the net plastic NiCAD don't forget in and out through past and new browser backup becoming blue

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 16:42:56 2019 No.12835872 >>12832650 Pretty bad

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 16:44:36 2019 No.12835878 >>12835872 no really bad

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 16:48:58 2019 No.12835899
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>>12831046
Unfinished but fuck it:
The fruitless vow... How many days have passed
Since I assured myself to cease these thoughts
Of tenderness and yearning? To terminate
The heartache, so accustomed I'd become.

But now these stubborn thoughts have emerged anew
And reared their seductive forms to me, once more.
How foolish to believe that I could ride
My psyche of such ruling, overbearing thoughts.

Engrossed within this warming quilt of love
I wove from a medly of tender looks.
I feel at peace, having returned again
To this, my weary, anxious tendancy.

I've had a major case of onetis with this girl from school: over the course of last year I asked her out around 3 times, each instance getting softly, indirectlyt rejected. We kept in contact, and recently things started picking up again and I have to admit I got my hopes up. But then in the middle of a conversation yesterday she stops responding to me, and waits 20 hours before responding again. I feel so hurt and confused I don't know whether to be angry but I can't help myself from loving her fuck I'm so lost

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 17:06:02 2019 No.12836006 >>12832650 Is this how sociopaths write romantic poems?

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 17:18:31 2019 No.12836057 File: 79 KB, 900x450, machiavelli.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12831046 What was it? nothing ok

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 17:26:05 2019 No.12836091 >>12832002 I got the motivation to do all those things by just listening to anime openings

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 18:06:53 2019 No.12836273 >>12833212 fair >>12833240 xanax? >>12835479 this is not the place for racist public toilet vandalism >>12835790 too true to be good >>12832650 stop it. get some help.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 18:08:51 2019 No.12836283 >>12836273 so truth cant be good?

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 18:11:18 2019 No.12836294 >>12835872 >>12836006 >>12836273 What's wrong with it?

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 18:13:57 2019 No.12836308 >>12836283 I pulled a funny, anon. (the proverb is "too good to be true", just as an irrealistic hope. in reality, however, all things good must be also true and beautiful, unlike critiqued poem.)

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 18:15:06 2019 No.12836315 File: 888 KB, 998x1096, 1470532038117.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12836308 >unlike critiqued poem oh i see

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 18:19:12 2019 No.12836332 >>12831046 what dawdling, pseudo-Romantic doggerel

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 18:37:28 2019 No.12836424 >>12836294 >woman apologizes her being unfaithful >guy comes along as super-beta pseud >massive style break >no solution >no carthatic moment it's unpleasant and unfinished (and probably stolen from Shakespear)

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 18:40:29 2019 No.12836433 >>12831046 The words are nice, but they don't actually mean anything. What are you trying to covey besides something i can see in a photo?

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 18:49:47 2019 No.12836480 First death at twenty-two, experiences are not quite as new a slight lull. Second death at thirty-three, experiences lose their lustrous shine and become dull. First life at fourty-four, experiences rare but still occurring all the more full.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 19:37:33 2019 No.12836726 >>12836424 The point is she doesn't apologize because she knows she didn't do anything wrong, it doesn't need a solution because it's a piece of a much larger poem, but I'm flattered you think it's Shakespeare.

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 19:43:35 2019 No.12836760 >>12836726 to be quite honest, the facts that I read the damn thing past the first lines and that I got emotionally evolved enough to hate her instantly puts your poem into the upper class of contemporary poetry in my book. keep up the good work, anon

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 19:46:39 2019 No.12836773 >>12836760 knowing nothing else about you save this post I know conclusively that you are a moron

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 20:08:02 2019 No.12836874

>>12836773
by upper class I surely did not mean the upper 1%, but the upper 33%. that doesn't even put the poem in my personal top 1000 of contemporary poems. but I cared somehow and I don't care about 90% of poems posted in /lit/. Anyhow, tell a moron how to judge poetry.

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 20:28:00 2019 No.12836956

>>12836760
Thanks. Here's more:

Her:

Um
Ok?
You're always doing this
Sucking up to me
Apologizing
I don't want that
I want to beat me
And yell at me
And make me feel bad
Because it makes me feel good
And you could use a few inches
In more place than one.

Him:

Ah, I sleepless am as the flood
Of the River Mary rolling through
My heartland. Give me
Such as you would give half of him
And i shall be pleased
That thou canst see mine eye
As the eye of thee.
Forlorn!

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 21:27:43 2019 No.12837231 >>12832650 sex without love is masturbation

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 21:56:33 2019 No.12837420 >>12837231 What is sex with love?

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 21:57:38 2019 No.12837423 >>12837420 Fulfillment. Self-actualization. The realization of love’s perfection.

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 22:19:43 2019 No.12837535
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infused with knowledge i am god almighty

struck with vigor and strength i rinse the world and wash away unpleasantries

much love to myself in pursuit of Onee

how far I have to go

still

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 22:33:47 2019 No.12837615 >>12837423 So you support her cheating?

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 22:35:29 2019 No.12837618 >>12837535 I played with it a little To thee thine knowledge is like a great god Infused with strongness of a strange kind I scrub thine world clean The monad is me Thee must go far in thy ascent Soon

not sage :^) Wed Mar 27 22:42:37 2019 No.12837644

endangered species struggles to survive
accepting that its utmost failure has nothing to do with the surroundings
aching silently in the darkness is the glacial pattern on her skin
is it too extravagant to try to amount to anything?
or is it just deeply fascinating how convulsions turn into pleasure
rooted inside the anguishing tree is the essence of cryptic life
marks down the true historiosophic dogmas that evaporate as the dust settles
compassion is being replaced by divine being
it has nothing to do with my utopian dream

>>	Anonymous Wed Mar 27 22:50:34 2019 No.12837677 >>12832650 burst out laughing once the second section started, thanks anon.

not sage :^) Wed Mar 27 22:58:48 2019 No.12837723

involuntarily approaching the stop sign as the lights turn off
what is inside your fucking head, you ass?
is it porcelain, it seems to clack and click what an annoying sound
river with the mountebanks is variously ingrained in the specifics of agriculture
shaman has her egg and it is hatching soon
hold me and pray that titanic drowns in the depths of flavorful tea, preferably green
aweugyeh what's outside the window it's closing in and it is big blue but also black and scary
maybe a seagull can give its beak to the charity
no? tits have influenced me greatly

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 23:22:01 2019 No.12837844

>>12835354
if you're trying to find purpose through your children it really doesn't matter in the end, if your children or children's children don't have offspring it would all be for nothing - then there's the separate topic of the suffering you'll probably inflict on your future offspring... just take the anti-natalism pill

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 23:36:38 2019 No.12837940

Oh lonely shopping cart
Out in these fields
Probably once quite full
Nownothing to yield

From burgiosie to bum
You begin your venture
From the sears parking lot
You forfeit your tenure

Don't blame yourself
Or your defective wheel
You'll be fixed by the homeless
They'll even polish your steel

Tis the woes of your life
But keep a happy heart
For those lonely wandering eyes
Oh lonely shopping cart

Anonymous Wed Mar 27 23:59:19 2019 No.12838072
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I think I'm going to eat meat once a week. I sat in the shower thinking about eating beef or pork again. Ate some sausage on a pizza last week and it was pretty good. I've been a pescatarian for almost three years. Sometimes I unironically eat tendies. I've liked it since I made the choice since I like cows and pigs. Sometimes I want a cheeseburger or a bratwurst. I haven't given in yet (aside from the pizza sausage mentioned) but it's something I've been craving for months. I'm allergic to onions and there's onions in almost everything.

I don't know, lads. I would have to make everything from scratch if I made a cheeseburger. Buns, mayonnaise, etc. I'd grill it. I don't know if it'd be worth it. I just don't know.

>>	not sage :^) Thu Mar 28 00:58:14 2019 No.12838344 ayahuasca uverture indigene avventure hashimoto fibreglass rumpelstiltskin intimas kabbalistic rusticano schokolade mitomano aiethopia intifada vaginismus estacada

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 01:01:26 2019 No.12838351

>>12838072
I can't eat meat anymore.
Something's funky with my stomach acids and I throw up constantly.
Quit meat. Quit dairy (I was supposed to quit only dairy but I'm too lazy to cook meat).
Do I feel better?
Not really, but it beats throwing up after every meal because of cheese.
I miss bacon mac though.

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 03:08:53 2019 No.12838656

Everyone gathered
To watch him splat

They felt no love
When they watched him splat

They held their phones
As they watched him splat

They smiled and laughed
As they watched him splat

Someday I’ll splat
Someday you’ll splat
Someday they’ll splat
And their kids will splat too

And they won’t know how it doesn’t feel

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 03:14:40 2019 No.12838669 I thought the evil in the fruit Or vine must lie, but ill lay in the water, love, ill lay in the earth.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 03:30:34 2019 No.12838706 File: 20 KB, 612x612, 1547776543215.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Ass, suckin on cracker jacks like a Bootcamp comin up like a blast, yeah Puttin on glasses fast, fast Like a cat gotta big sack to splat, hey

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 04:08:56 2019 No.12838797 >>12834168 good, natural selection

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 04:40:33 2019 No.12838839 Let the texters of new baes weep and side pieces rend their hair lol lol that let lol And sucking Stacy stymied amid thicc thots in the round of their asses, rip-weaved and shaking, for want of my nubbing.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 05:08:03 2019 No.12838894 >>12835899 hey i like this man, you will improve with age both in ur poetry and ur approach to love you stop trying even to contact this girl dude, shes not worth the pain, someday youll find a girl who makes you feel this way and loves u back :((( :)

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 06:46:00 2019 No.12839082 I wish I could read greek and why not also latin. Being Swedish and fluent in English I should be able to easily learn german ;_;

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 11:59:49 2019 No.12840117 >>12837618 nice spin. мнe нpaвитcя

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 13:30:12 2019 No.12840474

I've come up with a strategy that helps me get to sleep at night: if I find myself too wrapped in thought, I try to focus on pushing the blackness from the corner of my eyes to the center. It feels like sweeping water with a push broom. Try it, right now, and you may very well fall asleep in your chair.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 14:08:12 2019 No.12840628 >>12839082 I want to learn the weeb language but it seems very difficult

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 14:10:49 2019 No.12840638 >>12840628 I've heard that learning japanese isn't too hard because you can ease your way into it with the phonetic alphabet and don't have to worry about the Kanji at first

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 14:12:49 2019 No.12840647 Delivered Read 3:56 AM Delivered Read 12:03 PM Delivered Read 1:47 PM Delivered Read 2:02 PM Delivered Read 2:03 PM Delivered Read 3:36 PM Delivered Read 9:12 PM Delivered

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 14:31:12 2019 No.12840715 >>12834165 Sneed

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 14:45:18 2019 No.12840788

Poem about my crippling depression

rest in dreams
you prison of my mind
for it to be my sanity
awakening when i am not there

wild is the fire
calm is the dust

a parlour with white roses

squirm like a worm
humble in your believes
be unkind
and never be reborn

servant of my prison
servant of my mind
what has kept you caught
servant of my prison
feed me thoughts

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 14:47:00 2019 No.12840802 I want to become a literary softboi I dont have the hair yet but i own a skateboard and idk how to use it but im making an effort Where the girls at

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 15:02:09 2019 No.12840880 >>12840647 >having read receipts on

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 15:03:12 2019 No.12840885 >>12840802 what is a "softboi"?

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 15:39:24 2019 No.12841014 >>12840788 Would love some feedback m8

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 15:43:19 2019 No.12841032 >>12831046 I want my cozy nights back i hate how they're filled with sucidal thoughts now

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 15:46:33 2019 No.12841048 >>12832650 Lmaoo

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 16:14:23 2019 No.12841181

I hate how we're all twisted by capitalism, propaganda, and sociopaths. I live in the American South and it's a bit ridiculous and a huge contradiction. People are friendly and will help you completely. In a pickle? Someone will help you in any way they can. If they can't then they will help you find someone that can. Limited by affordability, of course. Everything is.

In natural disasters people naturally work together even when they don't know the person they're helping. It's a big group effort. People are helped too, and they accept it.

Now turn that around with political ideology. Most people here are Republicans and completely against any sort of help. They're all for hurt. No healthcare because they won't pay one cent to help someone (not understanding what insurance is + profit for the insurance leach) but they love the military who exports death to people the media says is an enemy, if they even report on it at all. No help with education but a pride in being ignorant. All education is indoctrination. Give money to a church but not people who need it.

So many contradictions.

I feel conflicted on gun control because of my fellow Americans. On one hand I believe Marx was right about frustrating every attempt at controlling the arms of the public but on the other hand Americans are fucking stupid. We need something like Australia has but also include pistols and semi-automatics. Everyone should take a class before they own a firearm and it should be registered. Treat it like a car. Is there something wrong with that? I have guns myself so I am a bit muddled on where I stand honestly.

I say Republicans but those folk are the ones I'm around. Not a Democrat. I'm an anarchist which others will call stupid or tell me to grow up.

I just don't know, guys.

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 16:25:39 2019 No.12841236

>>12841181
I don't want to be that guy but don't you think anarchism is too idealistic? I can't imagine an anarchist movement growing beyond some buddies living in a commune and graffitiing "smash the state" on your local municipal building. I can't think of a larger anarchist movement that didn't get immediately BTFO, other than the Zapatistas but their situation is completely different from the united states

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 16:29:40 2019 No.12841260

>>12841236

Maybe, but it's all I have. It could work. Maybe not now with our current mindset but somewhere in the future we won't have due to climate change. Early humans were pretty anarchistic for longer than we've been as we are so without other factors I think we could do it. We engage in anarchy every day. You and I are doing it right now.

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 16:33:03 2019 No.12841280

>>12841181
>Most people here are Republicans and completely against any sort of help.
They just have a different idea of "help" than you do. Personally lending a hand to someone who is clearly in need is different from paying into government healthcare without any clear guarantee that your money will be going to the right places. Just because they don't have faith in the system doesn't mean they don't want anyone to be helped. They might even distrust the system because they don't see it as helping anyone.

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 16:55:08 2019 No.12841385

>>12841280

No, I have literally talked to people who don't want to help people when it comes to healthcare but these same people will give you the shirt from their back. It's not about allocation or lack of proper governance but the fact that it's going to someone who "may not deserve it." It's a crazy outlook at these people pay for insurance.

This is all locally anecdotal but you can also see it online.

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 16:56:36 2019 No.12841397

>>12841280
Anyone who has ever worked for or with government agencies would tell you that our government was never designed to control a line of business top-down. "Inefficient by design" is an incredible tool when it comes to being fair and ensuring that the people's voices do matter, but the same exact reason the US government is so hostile to high-achieving individuals is why political corruption in America is incredibly low, something Americans take for granted.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 16:58:52 2019 No.12841405 >>12840885 I thought it sent but I guess it didnt. Softboys are just skater types that like the fine arts and rococo and shit. A lot of people associate them with lana del rey but idk her music so idk.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 17:08:11 2019 No.12841475 >>12841397 >why political corruption in America is incredibly low this has to be satire

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 17:17:53 2019 No.12841516 File: 99 KB, 964x711, 1451976139497.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Pickpockets need to be severely maimed

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 17:19:52 2019 No.12841527

>>12841475
Tell me where the widespread political corruption is. If you think campaign financing, lobbying, nepotism and bias in policy-making are "corruption" you need to travel to some countries where political corruption is actually a problem. Those things are corruption in the same way that sitting on the train with your legs open is rape.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 17:23:31 2019 No.12841550 >>12841527 Based.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 17:36:15 2019 No.12841618 File: 105 KB, 1024x1000, 1551123057047.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >have a job >have hobbies >exercise everyday >meditate everyday >still find life extremely unfulfilling and boring What else can I add/try to make life more interesting?

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 17:36:49 2019 No.12841622 >>12831046 Slow work is a drag No things to set my mind to Waiting to go home

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 17:39:00 2019 No.12841636 I DONT LIKE SUNSCREEN BUT IM TURNING AS RED AS SALMON NOW REEEEEEEEEEEEE I HATE THE SUN

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 18:08:58 2019 No.12841801 >>12841527 Just because some things have things worse doesn't mean other things can't have it bad.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 18:23:05 2019 No.12841854 >>12841527 literally the entire defense industry, the entire us government is basically just a racket for arms manufactures

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 18:24:07 2019 No.12841858 >>12841405 That's cute anon, you sound like a nice person.

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 19:34:21 2019 No.12842176
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>before fap
neurotic, think about wasted gains on gym, count calories, lost in retarded fantasies
>after fap
learn another part of wagner's transcription, meditate, read, lost in thoughts about moral perfection and virtue
How to erase the first part, I feel like a schizophrenic.

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 20:05:42 2019 No.12842272

Serious question but how do you guys deal with being admonished by your friends? On Sunday I said some stuff I should not have in front of people I should not have said it in front of (nothing terrible or anything but still) apologised for it today and got a slight reprimand for it. Basically, I got carried away with banter and it went a bit too far.

I take things pretty badly and will dwell on it for weeks if not months whilst other people will forget it within the day because what has needed to be said will be said. I can understand that, but I still dwell on it and feel like a giant retard for doing it. I will not be able to get over it and it will completely change how I am in order to avoid it in the future. That being said, I find it hard to filter myself and I am quite impulsive when it comes to saying things. Like I said, not anything bad but I get carried away.

I feel like I should have learned this as a child but never did, and now as an adult I don't really know how to deal with it in a healthy way.

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 20:38:09 2019 No.12842393

It can't go on much longer at this rate
My time is almost here. This time next year, I'll be a memory
For a few
I'll still be nothing to the rest
I didn't spend as much time here as most people
But they'll know why I walk away
"He was so young!"
Regardless,
I have many years of regret. I regret everything.

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 21:00:16 2019 No.12842507
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Almost finished chapter eleven. It's turned out my best chapter yet despite my previous reservations. My notes for it were 3/4 stricken out when I started, but I found a way to tie everything together neatly. I've made myself cry, so I think I've done a good job. Would you save the flower, /lit/?
>If she saw a small flower growing in the street, she wanted to halt all the traffic in order to save it from being trampled, preserving a single flower at the cost of the entire city’s progress. But she didn’t think there was anything wrong with that. If a person didn’t want to save that flower at some level, it would have been a revocation of what it meant to be human. We do foolish things because they’re beautiful without thinking about if they’re beneficial, but if people were any other way, the world would have become an unbearably cruel place.
>>12835427
>I got rid of years of depression, suicide ideation,
Why get rid of them? Embrace despair.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 22:41:35 2019 No.12842926 File: 29 KB, 431x604, 2343d91ca4660406d0ae53cba7695b49.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12842507 Midway into chapter 12. The despair has reached hellish levels, but we can still go deeper.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 22:45:14 2019 No.12842947 >>12842176 That's called behavioral addiction. Substitute alcohol, or something.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 23:01:41 2019 No.12843002 >>12831046 I feel like I've probably just accidentally retread other writers in a retarded fashion and I feel really stupid about it.

>>	« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !T/X3HW4AMo Thu Mar 28 23:07:14 2019 No.12843020 >>12840647 lol

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 23:32:30 2019 No.12843143

>>12831046
laying in a field of grass with thorny little trees
my dog is in my sleeping bag laying on my knees
the drone of distant interstate and balmy midnight breeze
glad that winters over and that i did not freeze

i know what it's like to fight for daily bread
an iliad and knife i place beneath my head
this is my ritual i honor before bed
because I have known many that have wound up dead

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 23:39:34 2019 No.12843185

The last man's body, buried bones have hid
And mythic places round the earth have been
The dirt that was once burning brush on mighty mountain led
By thundering voice the haggard league stiff necked
Trumpets in the desert buried by the well
And the oft dissent of man 'equarrels and dispell
Quiet and no love idols shall they have in hearts to dwell
Nothing, Nothing, Now they have foretaste of hottest hell

Sandy place of gilded calfs are half the wind-blown longings of a man
What calfs, what longest legs of even flesh, in Eden I have been
Stomp the snaking urges I have seeded and have sent
Put my progeny on all this earth with sweated back to bend
What yearning heights and hopeless things descend
Between dear Abraham and Son of Man

Now,

Hopeful things half hearted whisper creep
In the long shadows of the smoke of Trinity
There is a great glow at the end of man indeed,
I am Adam, scattered is my progeny

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 28 23:48:25 2019 No.12843237 >>12841854 the same for rome,taxes to pay for military

Anonymous Thu Mar 28 23:59:05 2019 No.12843279

Pneumatonics:
There is a white field under a white sky
Serotonin oceans, liquid to ossify
Every movement exits
Static mind, white eye
There is a static wave in the white sky
Parabolic noise pattern, form to stratify
Star influxing overhead
Clear being, static mind
There is a spirit flooding the static sky
Expands on axes, fails to quantify
Every movement returns
Complete form, fractal time

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 00:08:32 2019 No.12843319 >>12843279 Stop taking drugs

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 00:25:38 2019 No.12843389 I'm reading Machiavelli's The Prince. I think it's retarded. Why read something about the most unstable group of leaders in the world? (European rulers) I'll finish it though just to say I've read it.

Anonymous Fri Mar 29 01:38:03 2019 No.12843671

Nowhere had a thought
To hold a little game
To pass the empty time
And Nobody entertain

I should probably read more Hindu and Bhuddist philosophy but I am usually too tired and sick to do much and it is always extremely laborious to read translations which often come across as very awkward.
But I am starting to think theism and atheism may not be totally incompatible.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 01:54:38 2019 No.12843736 >>12843671 Theism and atheism are incompatible. (So is Buddhism and western science). If you want to dig your way out of the modern abyss, you have to do more work than that.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 04:13:16 2019 No.12844167 >>12840474 I'll try it, ty my man

Anonymous Fri Mar 29 05:27:40 2019 No.12844389

Was just doing some board game thing team building and was paired with some girl and her brother. She was fairly cute but overweight, and she was very friendly towards me but seemed somewhat snappy and demanding towards her brother. Made me think how she'd be in married life- I imagine much the same, bossing around her husband a decent amount, but probably also being quite demanding in a different way (sexually speaking). I bet she'd be very bossy in her life and her husband would be constantly pent up, since she'd only ever indulge in sex when she felt like it as some kind of reward for his good behaviour. She'd probably be quite surprised when he during sex he acts quite aggressive or primal, especially during the vaginal intercourse where he'd desperately be thrusting in and out of her while she whined softly and grunted in arousal. She'd cum extremely hard (and later masturbate to the memories), but would never let him catch on, quickly gathering her breath and acting indignant and as though she were above all that sort of sexual thing until he was finally spent. She'd act a bit softer towards him in the meantime, but quickly return to her earlier nature of berating him at every opportunity before repeating the whole cycle anew.

Anonymous Fri Mar 29 08:50:45 2019 No.12844993

>>12832002
im in the same place as you, you just have to do it incrementally and have balance. its hard and you will falter and i just had a terrible week but fuck it its whitepill season you just gotta open your mind to readjusting your goals and being okay with where you're at as a starting point from here on out. be honest with yourself and dont aim for a gf imo; that will work itself out when the times is right. get a schedule or a calendar and put working out on it a couple times a week, consistency is key and even if u do a little and its not all u wanted to accomplish it can spur that positive feedback loop necessary to become actualized. the confidence from fitness and working out and being further along physically, being able to see improvement that has a lasting impact, even if its slight, helps u out of the ruts quicker than you previously could at least in my experience. in your spare time listen to philosophy lectures instead of watching porn or going on twitter, idk man its all up to u but i got faith we gonna make it my g

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 11:05:55 2019 No.12845505 >>12835479 based

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 13:02:23 2019 No.12845941 >>12843389 Confirmed retard.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 14:09:30 2019 No.12846254 File: 2.13 MB, 2088x2639, Böcklin_Mädchen_und_Jüngling_beim_Blumenpflücken_1866.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I don't miss her anymore, but I do miss what she meant to me.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 15:23:52 2019 No.12846599 >tfw lounging around in a bathrobe drinking coffee and watching anime is this the literary lifestyle?

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 15:34:52 2019 No.12846674 >>12846599 >anime Not even close

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 15:48:11 2019 No.12846728 Just realized I havent had a good gut laugh in months.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 15:49:41 2019 No.12846736 >>12843020 PLEASE RESPOND

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 16:21:41 2019 No.12846919 >>12846736 I'm so glad I got over that shit

Anonymous Fri Mar 29 16:25:26 2019 No.12846949
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>>12842926
I can't seem to ever write in the mornings. I'm too cheerful yet, I suppose. I read Dazai's Osan (short story) and it's put me in a good mood for despair. It's about a wife watching her husband undergo continually intensifying suicidal inclinations. My last scene: the woman tries to commit suicide in order to save the man's reputation and allow him to live in peace, but he stops her in time. Next scene: The man is killed as a result of torture during investigations into their relationship. I'll have to think a while on how I want to frame that scene, if I can stomach to do it in his point of view. I think it would need to be, it's just going to be painful to write. (Written in multiple third person limited. So one scene from one character, another scene from another. I've only used four characters' POV so far, and most of it is in the protagonist's. Well, the battle scene will have to be in a fifth.)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eq8r1ZTma08
Listened to this on loop for last night's session (about 4 hours if not including time spent screwing around.) The acoustic version is also good.
>>12846674
Anime is /lit/, senpai. I don't consume television, movies, youtube (other than music), internet other than 4chan and pixiv, or video games--only anime/manga and literature. It's nicely withdrawn to the point of eccentricity without crossing the line into hermitage.
Boogiepop this season is quite good. You should try it, senpai.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 18:34:38 2019 No.12847586 >>12831046 >Write what’s on your mind I want to live in the anime world with big titty anime girl harem

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 19:38:00 2019 No.12847911 >walking home alone on the friday evening street looking up through the illuminated windows at normies hanging out and laughing and enjoying themselves

Anonymous Fri Mar 29 19:54:28 2019 No.12847983
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>>12846949
Chapters 12 and 13 are finished. Only 9, 14, and 15 left to go. Still only at 45k words, but all the remaining chapters will be on the long side. I'll probably have to go back and fluff everything up; my writing style is just too concise to be suited to simpler stories like this. chapter 9 is more or less self contained and can be written anytime. I might be able to get 14 done before bed. It's raining out, so it's quite a good night for despair. I love listening to the rain and feeling how chilly it gets with the window open and heat off. It's maybe 45F out.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 20:06:22 2019 No.12848052 if you's a spazz with e- nuff zazz they let u do it snatch'em snazzes n minges innit sumthin jeepers i could very well do with some more cocaine now couldn't i

Anonymous Fri Mar 29 22:24:14 2019 No.12848608

>>12846949
butting in to say anime for the most part ain't /lit/ (like 5% maybe?) ¬ but bathrobes coffees and POV questions sure are. I find it so hard not to "pop out" of the subjective third person and add stuff the character couldn't know but that feels necessary

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 22:28:52 2019 No.12848619 I feel like there are enough books that I want to read that I don't really need to come here to discover new works. Thanks /lit/, but I'm gonna go work through the canon, bye for now!

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 23:27:25 2019 No.12848786 friday night, time to listen to music and reminisce. time smooths your memories out, so even if you were super unhappy you end up missing times past

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 23:38:33 2019 No.12848831 Fly, fly, closer, closer Arrogance turns into cowardice. The fall of man.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 23:38:38 2019 No.12848832 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3_MUi3AfOuI

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 29 23:41:53 2019 No.12848841 Quenton, your latest video will get you fucking v& you absolute madman

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 02:32:45 2019 No.12849438 >>12841618 love and extreme sports

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 03:06:28 2019 No.12849506

>>12847911
Shit like this doesn't make me sad anymore, I'm too far gone so I've embraced my place in the world. Seeing a couple lovingly kiss each other now makes me happy, not bitter. I've accepted that these experiences are not meant for me personally to experience, only to observe. I feel free by this realization. I can enjoy viewing the world without my ego screaming at me to participate. For the first time in my life I'm happy. Probably just a massive cope but whatever. I can now see what you've seen, close my eyes and smile, just taking in the atmosphere is enough for me, knowing the multiude of emotions and thoughts running around fills me with joy. I've become merely a mirror

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 03:08:31 2019 No.12849509 >>12849506 that's probably not healthy, don't give up for your own sake

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 03:12:43 2019 No.12849518 >>12849438 >Extreme sports This, nothing like a good motorace. Taming a beast at the edge of death will never get old. Every moment of life is just a waiting game until the next drive https://youtu.be/auXfAHHNSFo

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 03:16:07 2019 No.12849526

>>12849509
I didn't care until puberty, where I then sacrificed everything to be accepted. I mostly failed, but even in the rare instances where I was successful, I was underwhelmed and just wished to retreat. I realized I only pursued that life because I would fall into self loathing if I didn't, not that inherently enjoyed it. I would enjoy the idea of being a normal sociable person than actually being a normal sociable person

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 03:37:24 2019 No.12849570

>>12849526
I understand, I was the same. Now I see how pathetic it was. I stopped forcing that sort of hyper-social behavior in my late teens and after that I had far more dignity and confidence though I don't participate socially relative to my peers. I didn't retreat though, still played sports and drank with the others. Just didn't force things, my presence was enough. Being with girls became easy after this. If you're like me, you have retreated... take heart

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 04:12:23 2019 No.12849630

all this moaning, being a loser, all this reading and all this thinking. its all pretentious and so indulgent. perhaps the mass man, those who are good at what they do and have some sort of goodness in their hearts are not to be scorned but admired. I am, without sentimentality or unnecessary self admonishment, a terrible person. I really need to be squished like a bug

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 05:11:40 2019 No.12849744 >>12832257 Even though I feel what you're feeling, hopefully everything gets better for you anon. God bless.

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 05:35:47 2019 No.12849775
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Coming off of a six year opiate habit, feeling pretty fucking rough. Motivated though. Angry that I let myself slide into the abyss of addiction again. Before it was alcohol, which was pretty easy to kick, but boy is this a whole nother league. The difference between the withdrawals is like jumping to coach pitch to the World fucking Series, let me tell you. But I've learned to let things go. I dont wallow in regret, self pity, or self loathing anymore. What's happened has happened, and I'm gnashing my fucking teeth ready to go and get things done. This isn't a manic phase. This isn't a period of respite. This is me letting the fucking killer I've been trying to suppress handle his shit. That dude who swaggered off of an airliner at Fort Bliss, so full of confidence and defiance didn't wane into the meek, apathetic turd I am today. No, he was drugged, self medicated, dragged into a world of despair and angst and mediocrity. But now he's back. Now he's awake. For the first time in a decade I feel driven. I dont have much to be proud of, but I will. I feel like a man who's woken from a dream. More a nightmare really. I woke up today and felt my chest puff out, my shoulders rock back, and my chin tilt up and I smiled. I looked in the mirror and didn't see a dull sack of shit, still stoned from the shit he took to help him sleep;

Nah, I saw a killer. I'm back motherfuckers.

And it's all thanks to you faggots. No shit. I wandered over here from /tg/ (of course I did, because of course I searched for every type of escapism I could) and y'all reminded me that I love to read and, more so, that I love to write. I started writing a little, and reading things other than trash genre escapism, and realized one simple thing: I can't write stoned. I can't comprehend or express like I know I'm capable of when I'm high. Then I started to look at other shit, at my life as a whole, and realized what a sorry fuck I'd turned into. Working security, for $10 an hour? At 30? No degree despite the fact that Uncle Sam will pay me a salary to go to school? No fulfillment, just hedonistic floundering? Unacceptable. Fuck that.

So this is my thank you note /lit/. Drive on.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 07:46:09 2019 No.12850012 Midnight, chaos Morning, chaos Eternity, chaos Evening, chaos Night, chaos Midnight, chaos Noon, chaos Chaos, chaos Evening, chaos Lunch, chaos Eternity, chaos

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 09:27:32 2019 No.12850252 good

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 09:44:03 2019 No.12850291

For an hour I pulled on the hair
Growing from my left nipple.
Five feet long, every inch
A gory torment.
At the end there was a ball
That popped out, sootblack
And covered with anuses.
I squeezed... pink pus flowing,
Room filled with a forest smell.
Huh, whaddaya know...

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 09:51:46 2019 No.12850320

What's up, /lit/izens?
Here's some of my own haikus.
It's fine to edit.

>sun cannot but see
>sheer beauty illuminate
>everywhere it shines

>again, the blood soil
>fosters new life springing forth
>rampantly growing

>Dr. JOHNSON glares
>up from where I tossed his book
>"Diligence, my boy!"

>1:30am
>again: "What is this?" I say
>I take a photo

>grafitti artist
>whips can to spray seeds, blackthumb
>is planting flowers

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 10:24:59 2019 No.12850414 I made out with a girl for 5 hours last night. Cuddling and kissing really feels great. Girls are soft and they smell good. She really enjoys when I kiss her neck. Any of you who have yet to experience this need to get on it, pronto. That is all.

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 10:57:28 2019 No.12850535

>>12831046
snow-gravel chirps
May wind gusts though wood and hay
hot blue seas'-end

>>12831217
my dumb whore smells
how to get rid of her quick?
I cheat but she's thick

>>12832229
Centre a bell jar
over (most of) the city.
Look, it's a height map!

>>12832580
Would you believe that
a kid like me carried weight?
I'm hiding the weight

>>12832834
Oh, sing me the song,
the warbler-chime cat-climb frog
-moving simple one.

>>12833212
I am in limbo
feeling blindly but for what
I have not yet seen

>>12833410
eight-legs running up
white, not going up, too smooth,
slopes to the drain-death

>>12835479
shit clump stuck again
I had to jump up and down
on the seat, god damn

>>12835852
the last back-up sits
untended, humming along
and humming along

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 13:21:17 2019 No.12851022
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Night
As silent as it moves in the cloaking of night,
with the ripples of water reflecting light,
proudly it moves, but oh so silently,
where the pressence of croaking might appear quietly,
silence remains as prevelant as dark,
inspecting his home as its true monarch,
looking for a meal to satisfy,
for no reason it alone shall cry,
as alone, as it lived,
as lonely it will die.

Choice
It happens to every person you see,
however unchanging a person may be,
augmented by a choice they make.
It builds them as fast as would they break.
To the calling of a being it shall reply,
as it lives and as it will die,
howevermany voices it may awake.
it will offer all that it will take.
These choices may lead them to fun,
or become one others would blame,
None of these can ever be undone,
and the result could've never been their aim.
A choice can change history,
whether somebody chose right or wrong will forever remain a mystery.
I may change or alter my decision, however it may come,
in the end, however, I just hope I chose the right one.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 14:42:17 2019 No.12851366 File: 130 KB, 1920x1080, 333.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] All's right, all ok, all green, perfect, good. Good. Good.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 17:32:43 2019 No.12852175 bumping. why is /lit/ flooded with such cancerous threads as of late?

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 17:36:38 2019 No.12852197 >>12852175 Because Mars is rising. Prepare for war.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 17:50:55 2019 No.12852280 >>12852175 because low quality threads are easy to make so low-quality people make loads of them

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 18:10:54 2019 No.12852380 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OabTK7y7d6E How is he so based?

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 18:22:56 2019 No.12852440 [DELETED]

i got shit on by someone at an interview
because I didn't know about this book

i was for this public health survey thing
the city of LA wants to know
how poor people live
and it was easy money

she saw my copy of the long goodbye
"do you like to read?"
no i just carry this book around
like a prop
hoping someone will notice
and i can begin a conversation
that way

yeah, i'm reading it

i carry it around
because, when my phone eventually
does die
i'd like something else
to bury my face into
so i don't have to talk to people

i like being unapproachable
i've got so used to it
whenever someone does sit
next to me
on a bus
I think i'm getting mugged

she was pushing a novel by some POC
that just came out

i raised the surface-anxiety in my eyes

"you should be on goodreads"

I get enough algorithm from amazon
to expand my taste that way

I pushed back and said
I didn't really read contemporary stuff

"you should do something about that"

fuck you. fuck your noise ring and
your intentionally-imperfect bangs
and your undergrad internship

i got a copy of Pessoa's collected works
that I haven't looked at
since 2013
and whose 14 pages
I could only read
is probably more profound than the
sum total
of writings written since the industrial revolution

I'm not going to read a book by some bougie sheboon
who only got published bc random house
needed fodder to tap the bags of woak
upper-class
phillistines
who got so bored to death
by the western canon
they swore it off completely
and damn any of its derivatives

It could be a white man
who wrote that book
I don't give a shit
I'm not taking your recommendation
Is there any good contemporary literature
by POC
that is actually of its time?
or is it all just a cashgrab
maybe the cashgrab is the zeitgeist

I wish I never dropped out of college
I'm just a pawn for sociopaths
who want to push policy

It's like I'm in some secular church
being prosthelitized in exchange for aid

I'm just complaining now

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 18:30:20 2019 No.12852475 https://pastebin.com/gbeiQpBm

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 18:31:23 2019 No.12852480 I'm going to read a book now (:

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 18:39:28 2019 No.12852514
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I've never thought I would ask this because I wanted to be a good boy, but it just dawned on me that I really fucking hate my degree and the possible career path. My intuition has been right all along. So my question is, what the FUCK do I do? How do I tell my parents? I'm in europe btw so there is no question of wasted money involved if usa anons are wondering.
Picrel is my right now

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 18:41:44 2019 No.12852523 Why do i cry When there nothing when i die While atop a mountain Sits every little sky Big, small We all Fly, fly in the sky

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 18:51:31 2019 No.12852571 >>12852514 don't you euros have a fuckload more flexibility in things like that? I've talked to people who got a degree in one thing then worked for a couple of years only to go back to school and learn another field

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 18:52:37 2019 No.12852578 >>12852514 Be honest with them, then do what you have to do. You're an adult anon, make your own way. Dont settle and let yourself be miserable. Pull your big girl panties on, sit them down face to face, and tell them what you're doing.

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 18:52:46 2019 No.12852581
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>>12852514
I'm currently in the process of informing my parents my plan to drop out of college, work full time in a shit job long enough to build some savings and then retire in a third world country and spend the rest of my days painting. Definitely not going over well lmao. Luckily I have some semblance of talent to reinforce my position but this is my parents worse case scenario alongside being a criminal

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 18:59:21 2019 No.12852621

>>12852514
>tfw this happened to me but I was in the US
>had fullride scholarship
>got to third year, checking out career path, really hate options, hate major
>hate my school and am miserable to the point of mental breakdowns on the daily
>it was the worst period of my life, not a single good memory from this time
>told my parents
>omg anon you're in your third year just keep going lolololol
>like a retard kept going
>mental breakdown happens, went from a straight A student to suddenly failing every single class
>dropped out entirely
>had a miserable "gap year" working a minimum wage part time job I didn't even make money from after living expenses
>went back to college after that, no more free ride
>changed major so substantially I needed another 3 years to get my 4 year degree after having done 2.5 years already
>racked up 50k in debt for it
>hate this major too but the jobs are easy to get and plentiful, at least, so it's a paycheck
My advice? Switch. NOW. Don't listen to your fucktard parents, do what you need to make yourself happy.
As a bonus now whenever I mention student debt some pseudo-smug retards tell me "lol should have gotten a scholarship." I HAD one, thanks. My god I hate this site's userbase more and more every day. But I hate every other site's userbase even more than I hate you retarded faggots.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 18:59:27 2019 No.12852622 >>12831046 >>12836480 >>12843185 >>12843279 only good ones in the thread

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 19:00:54 2019 No.12852636

>>12852621
As a bonus, I remember crying hysterically one evening on the hour drive from the university back to my shitty room in my shitty abusive parent's house in that shitty dead end town, just full on breakdown on the highway and no option to exit for several more miles, couldn't even pull over anywhere. Fuck everything about that timeperiod.

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 19:03:29 2019 No.12852649

posted it twice: but i want to see if the it gets more views instead of the pastebin link. would like some feedback. pls be my writing circle thanks

i got shit on by someone at an interview
because I didn't know about this book

i was for this public health survey thing
the city of LA wants to know
how poor people live
and it was easy money

she saw my copy of the long goodbye
"do you like to read?"
no i just carry this book around
like a prop
hoping someone will notice
and i can begin a conversation
that way

yeah, i'm reading it

i carry it around
because, when my phone eventually
does die
i'd like something else
to bury my face into
so i don't have to talk to people

i like being unapproachable
i've got so used to it
whenever someone does sit
next to me
on a bus
I think i'm getting mugged

she was pushing a novel by some POC
that just came out

i raised the surface-anxiety in my eyes

"you should be on goodreads"

I get enough algorithm from amazon
to expand my taste that way

I pushed back and said
I didn't really read contemporary stuff

"you should do something about that"

fuck you. fuck your noise ring and
your intentionally-imperfect bangs
and your undergrad internship

i got a copy of Pessoa's collected works
that I haven't looked at
since 2013
and whose 14 pages
I could only read
is probably more profound than the
sum total
of writings written since the industrial revolution

I'm not going to read a book by some bougie sheboon
who only got published bc random house
needed fodder to tap the bags of woak
upper-class
phillistines
who got so bored to death
by the western canon
they swore it off completely
and damn any of its derivatives

It could be a white man
who wrote that book
I don't give a shit
I'm not taking your recommendation
Is there any good contemporary literature
by POC
that is actually of its time?
or is it all just a cashgrab
maybe the cashgrab is the zeitgeist

I wish I never dropped out of college
I'm just a pawn for sociopaths
who want to push policy

It's like I'm in some secular church
being prosthelitized in exchange for aid

I'm just complaining now

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 19:04:19 2019 No.12852658 File: 380 KB, 500x543, skelly drumz.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] DEEEEMMMMMOOOONNNNNSSSSS AAATTTAAACK WITH HAAAATE

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 19:11:18 2019 No.12852692

I've been depressed for about 2 years, and haven't had a song to get me in my feelings properly honestly in a year, just appreciating deeply. Until I heard daves purple heart. His line, you think my work is art, and I think you're a work of art has me weak and touched and in my feelings. Fucked.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=LvNgcW5DJIg

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 30 20:30:07 2019 No.12853055 >>12852692 trash

Anonymous Sat Mar 30 23:36:16 2019 No.12853850

>>12852636
I remember being 18, going to school out of state. I hadn't made any friends at school. There was nobody I was in contact with in my home state. I was driving home for Christmas break to absolutely nobody, and then I would go back to nobody. Some cars would be on the same highway with me for long stretches of time. I would get emotional when they'd take an exit and leave me alone on the road.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 01:23:12 2019 No.12854217 I want a fat wife. I want a really fat, feminine wife who will be my lifelong companion and bear me lots of children.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 01:35:31 2019 No.12854241 Sleep, take me. Suffocate me in your dark arms. Make me your slave of desire to your marish visage. I ammmmmm And i beeeeee

Anonymous Sun Mar 31 01:36:31 2019 No.12854245
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Life is going fine. I'm feeling optimistic despite any bad stuff that happens. Have been doing a lot of tasks I always postponed; have been facing my fears, little by little. My days have been taken more and more by such an exquisite feeling; is that hope, anons?

I feel grateful for the support that has been given to me, for all the good people I met, for having a second chance in life and developing faith in God, Christ, and in my fellow human beings.

There's still loneliness and uncertainty, but their weight is lighter, and despair grows weaker. This week I started talking with two girls I see regularly. Both seem like decent people, and while we are just acquaintances, perhaps I will develop interest in one of them as we grow closer. Even if romance does not blossom out of it, friends are never too much, and getting to know others is such a joy.

Anyway, thanks to all anons in these threads. You helped me a lot since August, and brought light to many dark nights. I wish, from all my heart, the best to each and every one of you.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 01:37:36 2019 No.12854248 >>12854245 hugs you

Anonymous Sun Mar 31 02:18:57 2019 No.12854380

I wrote this in 10 mins while I am currently still drunk. It’s my first

She drew out a passion I never knew
The way she smiled
Drove me wild
Thrown aside, it’s true

I would grab, smother, hold
Even now the things she wrought
Alone I am, of course no thought
My heart all of these things untold

Anonymous Sun Mar 31 02:26:28 2019 No.12854395

You were the work of Michelangelo.
I remember the day you popped into my life. A bubbly child, brimming with light, love, and laughter. But good years don’t last long, and as our childhood drifted, so did everything you once were.
You grabbed my hand and we collapsed into Eden, vibrant and lovely with roses beginning to bloom.
I remember you as a gift of god in those days. An angel gracing our earth. You were a kind of beauty I never knew and never understood at that time, but I held you on a glass pedestal built upon the prophecy you claimed. It exuded you, a beauty driven by pain and lust and a yearning for something so unholy that I dared call you religion. Maybe that was because all you knew was that kind of divinity.
When your face grew pale and your thin fingers found their way around the next cancer stick, you were still carved of stone and draped in silk. Delicate and fragile, a rib-cage adorned with rubies and pearls, dusted with hues of violet, green, and blue.
You called me “darling” and “lovely,” but come nightfall poured yourself into a canvas who wouldn’t remember your face the next day.
You were still beautiful when you held Alice’s elixir to your bruised lips day after day, night after night, the “DRINK ME” label still engrained in my memory. You never stopped being beautiful, even when I held you and your eyes glazed over while the lights of dead artists, lovers, and poets sunk you into eternal unconsciousness.
That’s all you ever really wanted, was to drench your canvas black and rip it to shreds. You were still beautiful.
You were the work of Michelangelo.

Anonymous Sun Mar 31 02:36:43 2019 No.12854424

poetry is really stupid
it barely utilizes the good paper its on
and leaves entirely too much of it blank

it tries to come across as clever
by forcing you to spend more time with simple phrases
"the mother wouldn't leave the lake
for the dog was still amid the pines
and since it was half past seven
a nimble acorn crunched underfoot"

which is all meaningless b.s.,
but because its all spaced out its "poetry"

bah, I hate poetry.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 07:23:26 2019 No.12855104 >>12852621 >My god I hate this site's userbase more and more every day. But I hate every other site's userbase even more than I hate you retarded faggots. Based

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 09:02:51 2019 No.12855431 File: 54 KB, 780x1040, IMG_20190331_155849.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] > he doesn't browse /lit/ exclusively on ereader is this a pleb i smell?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 09:51:46 2019 No.12855594 >>12855431 I need to know if this counts as phoneposting before I can respond correctly

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 10:23:27 2019 No.12855736 If I have to read another poem about a shitty relationship in my workshop class I will pluck out my eyes

Anonymous Sun Mar 31 12:16:50 2019 No.12856203
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>be boomer
>grow up in period of unparalleled economic prosperity
>biggest threat to your life is that your dumbass government gets into a nuclear exchange because they're mad at a country on the other side of the world not capitalisming enough
>pay for college with your part-time job as a drive-in movie theater concession worker
>get a degree in "business"
>your uncle who works for the government gets you a 200k a year job sending paperwork from one government department for another
>union that you didn't bother joining bumps that pay up to 250k
>retire with three houses (1 million each), a pension, and 10 million in other assets
>could do anything you like, travel, work on a hobby, sip margaritas on a beach surrounded by expensive prostitutes, etc
>spend time gorging yourself on applebees and complaining about zoomers on facebook instead

are boomers the most coddled generation ever?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 13:11:54 2019 No.12856481 >>12831067 Muito bonito caro anon. :)

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 13:14:36 2019 No.12856492 I'm an alpha male. I am an alpha male. I am THE alpha male. I am alpha. I am an alpha male.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 13:15:57 2019 No.12856499 >>12831046 I want to kill people

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 13:18:01 2019 No.12856510 >>12835568 Muito bom muito bom. :)

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 13:50:15 2019 No.12856654 WHY DO I SEE HOPE WHEN I STARE INTO THE ABYSS. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 13:52:14 2019 No.12856663 >>12854217 Me too anon

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 13:53:53 2019 No.12856672 Feet hurt Feet hurt My Brother's keeper Not a leader Didn't need her Where's that receiver fuck it I'll use the meat cleaver

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 13:56:13 2019 No.12856684 >>12856499 People... I hate them.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 15:00:51 2019 No.12857019 Oil fried, boiler plated Are we hot enough? I don’t know, let’s try it Sweet, sours, sizzling in the inferno Can I fit all of them? I think I can Vomiting cracks Of blubber geysers What a messy cook

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 15:41:50 2019 No.12857191 File: 156 KB, 640x424, AstronautTree.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12854245 this is the mood I'm in when I drink coffee, then about two hours later thoughts of suicide come back.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 15:50:17 2019 No.12857247 File: 311 KB, 1296x864, anna-king-298822-unsplash.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] looking outside on the grey drizzling day through the window blurred with March's last rain alone now, as my self in the glass would say

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 15:53:28 2019 No.12857262 >>12857191 I need some coffee

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 15:56:45 2019 No.12857279 I dreamt I had a little sister and it made me happy. How I hate being an only child.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 16:02:49 2019 No.12857304 >>12857279 I have a little sister and she's even more autistic than I am

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 16:03:39 2019 No.12857307 >>12857304 cherish her

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 17:16:07 2019 No.12857640 File: 23 KB, 480x480, 1478816216989.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] The love of a young mother, towards her newborn baby, can only be compared to the dankest Cali weed - Rupi Kaur

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 17:20:30 2019 No.12857661 Big Chungus on my mind

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 17:26:35 2019 No.12857687 File: 74 KB, 429x400, 1514843101378.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] you're in my face I don't like it you defer to me or get out

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 17:36:58 2019 No.12857732 I'm married to an Eastern European girl 9 years younger than me who comes from a rich family.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 18:22:04 2019 No.12857950 >>12857732 I'm dating an Ecuadorian girl who is educated, cute, bilingual, and adores me. Only trouble is that if we have kids they will be short.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 18:25:44 2019 No.12857973 >>12857732 Extremely based. Are you going to ride off that familial money to write your novel?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 18:39:08 2019 No.12858040 >>12834168 put a message in the bottle too to remind yourself next time

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 19:07:34 2019 No.12858148 File: 88 KB, 489x423, 1547176224.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] tfw no dreams left

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 19:14:58 2019 No.12858176 I'm being brainwashed by the jews right now and I don't know how to stop it.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 19:48:54 2019 No.12858284 mutter, ich bin dumm

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 21:47:59 2019 No.12858775 I can't make a thread about this because I don't know how to post images on 4channel so I'll ask here: Wtf was the point in the Shoemaker Elves?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 21:52:54 2019 No.12858802 File: 25 KB, 354x286, 1547176225.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >jamming out to upbeat music in the evenings C O M F Y

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 22:02:11 2019 No.12858840 >>12858802 >tfw upbeat music when I'm depressed Makes me feel like god is wrapping me in a warm comfy blanket.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 31 22:41:15 2019 No.12859062 >>12858148 only nightmares

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 00:28:59 2019 No.12859486

As I've gotten myself reacquainted with literature and learning, I've discovered a sad fact about the rest of my life: It is hopelessly, painfully trivial. While I spend several minutes on one paragraph of a philosopher, I don't even finish reading most posts on 4chan, and rather skim through them as quickly as possible to stay entertained. Not only that, but the pointlessness of it is assumed. It's so shallow that it's starting to clash hard with my actual pursuits, like I can't help but notice whenever I'm on 4chan.

Not to say the rest of the internet is better, of course. Perhaps what I'm feeling now is normal, and it took a positive change in my life to break the spell that 8+ hours on here a day casts on you, where it becomes the new norm. I'm not leaving, though - I just want to know if you feel this way.

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 00:40:11 2019 No.12859540
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My shadow stretches from the soft glow of embers and mingles with yours
Flickering on the walls of my skull
The past burns in my chest as our future ignites before my eyes
The ashes caked to my throat
Heavy in my spirit
Branded like cattle
I wear it like armor
Manipulated by the hammer of experience
My core is buried by life's flux

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 01:04:21 2019 No.12859676 File: 49 KB, 651x303, what.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] what the fuck have you done Hiroyuki ... just realised it's April

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 01:26:30 2019 No.12859770

>>12831046
Haven’t written anything in awhile, so here it goes

To weave a golden thread
To keep and covet a dream
Taut in the aether
A glimpse of the mother
Radiant and proud as the essence that unfurled beneath my very feet
It trickled up and swelled behind my cloying eyes

I clench and stretch the anima
As a bird struggling for freedom of its porcelain white cell
Life is ushered forth
Spraying it’s fragrant, violet mist
Speckled to my skin
The beads of warmth escape as if they had never belonged

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 01:42:58 2019 No.12859873

>>12831046
Aye, this is the mood
At night, listening to your favorite playlist
Not worrying about tomorrow
But if one ought not to think about the yesterday
Then, on what is one left to think?
The present?
I don't want to think about the now
I have enough problems as it its
Stuff to do, people to please
I just want to be left alone and to listen to my playlist.

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 04:03:19 2019 No.12860266 Walk in the way of my soft resurrection Island of roses I'll find my way Fly like a fire Follow my place, to the circle of hope Of something better I know the way To the monastery of my mind

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 04:55:08 2019 No.12860380

>>12857973
I stopped working soon after we got married. We're living off money I have left from my previous job and her parents, who regularly put between five hundred and one thousand euros on her bank account, seemingly at random. They also paid for our two weeks stay in a 5-star hotel last summer, which was completely unnecessary but shows how generous they are. I do feel guilty but having a cute multilingual /lit/ wife makes me forget about it most of the time desu.

>>12857950
Good on you anon, she sounds like a keeper.

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 04:58:12 2019 No.12860392 >>12860380 treat her good you stupid bastard

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 04:59:51 2019 No.12860403 >>12860392 What makes you think I don't?

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 05:11:41 2019 No.12860433

Shit poetry edition here:

Before and after all things,
I see the ocean sprawling in front of me.
Trails in the sand paint the entrance to the portal.
At first it takes you into the stars elated,
And then it inserts you into a vacant shell.
Perhaps you will have a family, maybe a job too.
Eventually you will return to the exact same bench.
On the exact same beach, but the stars will be different.
The portal will be gone, for a while.
You must regain your strength.

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 05:29:41 2019 No.12860475

i write poetry but i need to keep working on it.

seeing your big green eyes
insulin shock therapy
tie me down to beige plasticky examination table
please dislocate my frontal lobe from the rest
i can beg if need be
i want back to numb; the kindness of tacky capsules on my tongue
and routine
and sleepy obedience

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 07:53:35 2019 No.12860807 >tfw no one Likes! your poem feels bad man

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 10:17:05 2019 No.12861351 Bumping poetry heavy thread

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 13:34:01 2019 No.12862352 What's on your mind

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 14:20:26 2019 No.12862587 Somewhere Someone Feels this way too Sometimes It's easier just to stay blue

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 14:51:54 2019 No.12862732
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>>12847983
14 and 15 are now mostly finished. 15 is pretty shitty though, I'll need to substantially revise it.
Added a few more scenes to other chapters and played with wording. Still need to finish 9. I'll take a bit of a break in order to more intensively research the historical period and the concepts relevant to the story, then flesh everything out more after reflecting on all that. Then one or two front-to-back edits and it might be decent enough to try and submit.

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 15:22:55 2019 No.12862925 >>12831046 here's my haiku bitches on my tip yuh yuh yuh

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 16:02:16 2019 No.12863123 I wish there was a better place online to share poetry than /lit/. I suppose it's to be expected though, poetry is in complete shambles following the internet revolution, even more so than lit in general is. >>12862732 Good job anon!

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 16:54:58 2019 No.12863414 Moar pomes! Board turnover is kinda high today so I want to read the thread before liking it

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 17:49:01 2019 No.12863725 seeing emojis and gifs on the comment box makes the experience a lot shittier

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 18:11:35 2019 No.12863854
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>>12857279

My adorable little sister, whom I had to raise after our father died and mother abandoned us, went to a small liberal arts college and became a tranny<div class="like-perk-cnt">💯</div>

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 19:10:41 2019 No.12864161
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I feel very lost now that my high school friends and oneitis have all moved on with their lives and I'm not a part of that anymore. Like pathetic as it may have been before at least I was pathetic in relation to something, at least I had ideas and desires to be pathetic either. Now I am pathetic and have only myself.

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 19:12:01 2019 No.12864169

>>12831046
Out on the lake of drifting figures
Rocks the boat of sea and sky
Claw your way out from the chasm
Dancing to a sonorous lie

Read the words writ on the pages
Bite your lips and close your eyes
Open up a new perspective
Sift and shift through paradigms

Crooked keeps and ivory towers
soar within a cave sublime
Reach for glory, wealth and power
fall and watch the children cry

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 19:17:14 2019 No.12864203 Reading is giving another person control over what you think, choose wisely.

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 19:21:35 2019 No.12864217 >>12864203 Assuming that you blindly assimilate what you read and don't think about, judge it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 19:22:09 2019 No.12864220 >>12864203 Thanks for the reminder from beyond the grave, Schopenhauer

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 19:26:07 2019 No.12864244

Why must I always revel
In revelation?

Why does my every word
Be or demand explication?

How I envy those
With nothing to prove

How I long for certainty in my uncertainty
A life with nothing to lose

For then and then only
Could I live, in truth

Carefree, and without direction
Or means to the end of youth

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 19:27:09 2019 No.12864248 >>12864217 I'm assuming you think with the same voice you read other people's words with

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 19:32:17 2019 No.12864277

>>12864248
No they're different streams of awareness, my voice makes automatic commentary on what I read, which has its own tone, depending on how the author wrote it. It's almost a visual representation in my mind, the text becomes a little structure that my 'verbal hands' are holding up, examining, and relating to other concepts.

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 20:08:28 2019 No.12864470 >>12831067 muito que bem, anão!

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 20:14:05 2019 No.12864509

What the fuck is up
Puffinstuff
pickle poo poo fairy froufrou
Fiery retribution too true
For mankind to ignite
Like sick placid oil in the engine of god
Out beyond light
From all lines of sight
Deep ending on self

So where we? Yeah I got fired today, fired and raped.

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 20:16:31 2019 No.12864528
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I have the feeling that I can't take anything serious anymore, that nothing is holy anymore, all is subjective. And, as a result of that, I have no drive or dreams besides maybe writing a book.

But how can I do that when I don't even know what is good and what is bad?

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 20:19:14 2019 No.12864546 >>12864277 Can you read and talk in your head at the same time?

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 20:19:32 2019 No.12864548 >>12864528 Any man that has forgotten the splendor of nature, feels nothing when he is out in the green world, he is defunct.

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 20:22:56 2019 No.12864564

>>12864528
>>12864548
Just to reiterate. The idea of you looking at a blade of grass, and not feeling the slightest sense of wonder or inspiration makes me want to wretch.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vOHekLZD5i4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qERdL8uHSgI
Ignore the memes, look at how life manifested the ideal habitat for itself. Do you truly believe there is no greater purpose to your instrumentation?

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 21:13:28 2019 No.12864867 >>12864564 even if I concede an intelligent design, I have no idea of how to live this life or what to live it for

Anonymous Mon Apr 1 21:24:11 2019 No.12864935
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I saw the strangest thing today. I have a thing for fat women, and, occasionally, fat men. However, I only get aroused by fat men if they look like women. That is to say, if they have overtly feminine facial and body features. Big hips, a large bottom, insignificant pectoral muscles, an overall sense of softness, etc.. Basically as non-masculine as you an conceive a man of being. Naturally, I'm used to seeing this in 2D porn, because I quite logically assumed that no adult male IRL could ever actually look like this.

But, today, I actually saw a guy who I was certain was a fat girl for a few minutes. I was at a coffee shop, and the fucker passed for a woman better than any tranny or drag queen I've ever seen. His face was very soft and gentle and delicate, without even a hint of facial hair; his features weren't masculine at all, and the round flabbiness of his cheeks eliminated any strong cheekbones he might have had. Meanwhile, he wandered around the shop and gave me a good look at his body, and it he had the biggest hips I've ever seen on a man. They almost looked wider than his shoulders, and he had soft, wobbly thighs that didn't have anything like firmness to them. Meanwhile, he seemed to have a pretty large gut. I couldn't exactly tell how big it was, because of the other odd thing about him: he was dressed in an extremely feminine way. He wore what I almost want to say were black leggings, and he had a large, flowing shirt on that almost looked like something you'd see a fat girl buy for herself on Etsy.

Like I said, I did a double take when I saw him, because I honestly wasn't sure if it was a fat guy or a fat woman. But it was clearly a guy because his voice was masculine, surprisingly so given what he looked like.

It was extremely perplexing, one of the strangest individual persons I've ever seen in real life. It's also one of the first times in a long time that I've gotten a genuine whyboner away from my computer. I didn't think people like him existed outside of artwork that's normally posted on /trash/.

>>	Anonymous Mon Apr 1 22:23:13 2019 No.12865271 >>12864935 you sicken me

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