/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.12142811]

ITT: Describe your life and other anons give you book recommendations based on it

>college dropout
>short, fat, pug-face, small dick, hispanic
>living with parents, 24 years old
>kissless and hugless virgin, no friends
>work at subway where my boss and coworkers constantly make passive aggressive jokes about me
>woke up at noon and then got in bitter argument with my mom for the 20th day in a row
>ate a bunch of poptarts for breakfast, felt like complete shit
>took a massive dump while watching clips of the bee movie and then jacked off, but missed and was out of toilet paper so I had to use the toilet paper roll to wipe my ass and clean up the cum everywhere
>want to become a writer but haven't read a full book in months, always starting them but getting bored and dropping them
>the last book i finished was siddartha because it's like 100 pages and super easy
>started a goodreads challenge for a book a week and then changed it to one book/year because of my constant anxiety about it
>wanted to spend last year learning a new language but learned only very basic japanese, spent most of my time watching anime and jacking off to hentai and JAV
>lungs and head hurts constantly and i feel nauseous 24/7 because of my nicotine addiction
>spend like two-three hours planning out my plan for this year and downloading various textbooks and creating study guides and book reading lists that I will never follow
>jack off again and then eat a bunch of hot pockets
>start to read a new book but then put it down and open my computer and spend the rest of my day alternating between watching bbc cuck porn and writing "my diary desu" and various other low energy memes on /lit/ while chuckling to myself
>it is now almost 3 in the morning

[Anonymous No.12142822]

My diary desu

[Anonymous No.12142829]

>>12142811
Work out, it's easy for short Hispanics.

Read Oblomov, The Sound and the Fury, the Bible.

[Anonymous No.12142874]

>20
>underemployed STEM grad
>work in machine shop
>like to read and play drums in spare time

[Anonymous No.12142953]

>20yo white guy
>haven’t dated anyone in over a year (by choice. my last relationship was 3 years long and it ended horribly)
>redpilled as fuck on sex workers... oops i mean women
>i’m a freshman in college again. (i dropped out but im back at a new school)
>struggling to do any work because i just want to read and play vidya all day
>little to no motivation
>currently reading broom of the system
>hopelessly addicted to coffee, nicotine, and especially kratom
>writing a book but i keep scrapping and restarting it
>third positionism
>sleep issues
>meditation is key
>i want to live in a cabin in the middle of nowhere with my friend and two dogs forever

[Anonymous No.12143074]

>18
quit watchin porn two years ago, started smoking weed every day instead
>midway into 2018 i watched porn whilst stoned as fuck on a meth comedown
>now trying to quit both weed and porn
>It's getting a little harder to focus every single day
man i shouldnt have been so profligate with drugs in my early youth, by the time i turned 18 id tried all the mainstream ones just for the sake of experimenting.

[Anonymous No.12143115]

>22
>studying some semi-meme subject abroad
>going to the gym
>making music
>reading Mann for the last 4 months as it's boring but I'm unable to put down a book unfinished and I'm in the last quarter
> a qt russian polish-jewish awkward girl without friends that listens to classical and is into mystics is the only thing that interests me next to chess lately

[Anonymous No.12143131]

>20 years old
>live in great Zürich
>study psychology and love it, aspiring to become a court psychologist
>17 years old gf
>have my own place
>don't work, parents pay my rent and pay for psychology textbooks
>broke otherwise but don't care
>one close friend in Zürich, still in touch with my friends and family in (German speaking) Italy
>study a few hours a day usually, spend the rest of the time with my girlfriend or reading
>intense fear of death that comes to me almost every night and keeps me from falling asleep for hours

>tfw my life is pretty much perfect except for the last point

i will recommend you all some books in my next post

[Anonymous No.12143156]

>>12142811
i correctly recognized your post as a rarely posted pasta, of which you might be the original creator but i doubt it because it hasn't been changed since it was first posted in early 2017 and points like "wanted to spend last year learning japanese" would be outdated by now
so fuck you faker faggot i won't recommend you anything

>>12142874
something by Hans Henny Jahnn, try a short story collection

>>12142953
Pan by Knut Hamsun

>>12143074
Infinite Jest

>>12143115
Something by Haruki Murakami because your life sounds like out of one of his novels

[Anonymous No.12143356]

>21
>5'5
>finished the lowest level of high school in my country three years ago (literal retards usually do it aged 15)
>tried to go back to school twice since then, both times stopped showing up after a few weeks
>never worked in my life
>live with my severly depressed girlfriend at my father's who hates us both
>virtually no friends
>don't know when i last finished a book, bought notes from the underground two years ago and never read it, bought a rilke collection one year ago and read like 7 poems
>just sit in my room watching youtube or playing minecraft all day
>next to no sex drive, fuck my gf like every other week and don't enjoy it
>she frequently gets mad at me for refusing sex and starts sobbing uncontrollably

[Anonymous No.12143362]

>>12142811
sounds like a productive day all things considered

[Anonymous No.12143398]

>>12142811
>23yo american studying abroad
>on 2nd year
>STILL never had a job
>mom STILL proud of me
>spent 3 years getting an associates degree in math before this
>great grades but reject any opportunity to have friends
>this past summer did a program in korea and met a girl that also goes to my uni there
>have dreamt about her almost every night since we’ve met months ago
>i speak like an extremely schizo autist anytime I message her
>every subsequent message she sends is even more overtly disinterested
that was anticlimactic I know but that’s where I’m at, wherever that is, my life is clogging along at a snails pace and nobody cares

[Anonymous No.12143411]

>29 y.o.
>unfulfilling data cuck job
>live in the cesspit which is London
>girlfriend and I have run out of things to say to each other
>just want to be alone
>probably retraining in accountancy soon but have absolutely zero motivation to do it except family pressure

[Anonymous No.12143427]

>21 year old Chinese guy
>Graduating next spring from STEM degree at one of the top CS schools in the country
>Full-time job lined up at a Big 4 tech company
>Been reading 1 book a week for the last 5 or 6 years basically without any breaks
>Writing stories of the older generations of my family, just finished a semi-fictionalized account of my maternal great grandfather who was assassinated for sleeping with a Japanese officer's wife in the 1930s
>Wanted to study English or History in college but my parents forced me into studying STEM
>Dread my future spending a lifetime in a career path that I detest
>Feel like I'm becoming more and more of a soulless ant person with every passing day

[Anonymous No.12143457]

>>12142811
Do this OP I'm planning to

[Anonymous No.12143460]

>>12142811
>22
>6 foot
>graduated from college last year
>took a shit job arbitrarily, living with parents tenporarily
>sticking around because there's an easy career development type promotion in sight, but:
>increasingly angry at how little I make, even once I get the promotion
>looking at colleges and trying to determine the best paying possible job route off of my degree without becoming a doctor
>don't interact with people my own age outside of work
>spend most of my spare time reading
>read a maximalist/encyclopedic type novel every month or two, with lighter reading on the side
>compulsively buy books, my room is filled with slowly heightening stacks
>>12142811
You have terrible health practices. Look into basic online reading on diet, exercise, and sleep.
>>12142874
Burroughs
>>12142953
Walden, obviously
>>12143074
Infinite Jest
>>12143115
Simone Weil
>>12143131
William James' Varieties of Religious Experience
>>12143356
Anna Karenina
>>12143398
Houllebecq
>>12143411
Bartleby, the Scrivener
>>12143427
The Metamorphosis

[Anonymous No.12143463]

>>12142811
Good, another blog thread. Pretty telling how popular these are on /lit/

[Anonymous No.12143464]

>21 years old south american
>grew up in a farm
>formerly a NEET for 6 years
>now math freshman, I don't really have passion for anything but I'm doing good for now
>detest uni "culture"
>city where I live is a dangerous shithole
>doing calisthenics since a few months ago, I know gym is better but I fucking hate the idea of going there
>since entering uni I stopped wanting to kill myself, now I want everyone to die instead

[Anonymous No.12143482]

>31
>NEET of 10 years
>didn't finish university
>don't leave home anymore
>no libido due to antidepressants
>not a single friend
>suicidal

[Anonymous No.12143493]

>>12143460
J R by William Gaddis. Your recommendations are pretty good.

>>12143464
100 Years of Solitude

[Anonymous No.12143497]

>>12143074
>quit porn to smoke pot
>quit pot to do meth

[Anonymous No.12143503]

>>12142811
so you are that "my diary desu" guy

[Anonymous No.12143509]

>>12142822
>>12143503
What's this "my diary desu" shit?

[Anonymous No.12143528]

>19
>6'5" skinny half-asian half-white, which is an uncomfortable combo and girls have very polarised reactions to it.
>only child. couldnt learn social skills from parents cos my moms a gold-digging chink and my dads literally literally autistic. i have many memories of his rreee moments.
>anxiety meant i didnt speak for the last three years of elementary
>started programming as a hobby at 10 yrs old, mostly due to loneliness.
>spent most of teenage years playing videogames, usually to top 1%ish in rankings, and talking to randoms online.
>hit 6'2" by 15, so stood out at school much more than id have liked to
>did very well academically. had a couple friends but didnt really know what i was doing. no female friends apart from some girls i grew up with.
>nervous breakdown at 16. after a couple weeks of self-harm and -hatred started a ton of self-improvement type shit: read IJ, wrote a terrible 200 page novel, calisthenics, bought better clothes, etc.
>always had a clean room. biggest issue for me was social anxiety, and i wasnt brave enough to push for that
>got into possibly the best uni in the world for CS.
>since then focussed a ton on using constant exposure to get rid of social anxiety. intentionally got a roommate. watched a ton of podcasts. started paying huge amounts of attention to how well-adjusted people act.
>id force myself to go out as often as possible, usually setting some kind of social goal for the night like e.g. getting some specific girl's number, telling a funny story to a group of strangers, aggressively teasing a chad for x minutes, reading one of my poems aloud to a not-especially-close friend, putting my hand round some specific girl's waist, making someone really enjoy my company, etc.
>id give myself the ultimatum that id kill myself if i failed.
>eventually worked but involved a lot of cringe moments, depression, shouting into my pillow, awful navel-gazing poetry, and more self-harm
>now have a large number of friends, more female than male, who seem to like me, tho i often still find myself disbelieving it.
>compared to my friends i have a really non-standard personality development arc, which is again polarising for people to deal with. like e.g. i get absolutely zero stage fright with strangers, but with friends i can still occasionally go into social anxiety thought cycles that im fucking awful at getting out of.
>couple days ago i got rejected by a girl i liked a lot. im meeting her best friend for food later and i know it'll be quite awkward, but im weirdly really looking forward to it.
>written a couple short stories or poems a month for a couple years now, mostly for therapeutic purposes, based a lot on my life. they arent good and no one reads them.
>currently reading blood meridian. previous things i read were V and norwegian wood.

[Anonymous No.12143533]

>>12142811
>5'11" king of all manlets
>college dropout, twice... ten years ago
>banged maybe eight girls total, intimate with a few more
>haven't had any sexual contact in half a decade, don't really miss it
>living at home well past the age where it is appropriate
>no job
>applying to a private college, which will be 100% paid for
>former athlete, out of shape but can get it back quick-ish
>philosophy student
I keep vacillating between wanting to become a police officer or becoming a priest. The degree path is out of a true love for philosophy and argument, and because the discipline doesn't matter for higher ranks of law enforcement.

>>12143398
Sexual Personae

>>12143411
Allan Quatermain

>>12143427
Plato, and quickly

>>12143482
Catullus, or Whitman. I'll be your friend anon.

>>12143464
Calisthenics is excellent. Don't worry about gains or whatever. Cardio health and flexibility is what you want. Borges' Labyrinths.

>>12143074
Don Quixote

>>12143115
Simone Weil's Gravity and Grace

[Anonymous No.12143536]

>>12143533
oh and I forgot to mention
>massive alcoholic, it really is a death spiral

[Anonymous No.12143541]

>>12143528
Ecclesiastes, then Job

[Anonymous No.12143550]

>>12143533
>I'll be your friend anon.
t-thanks

[Anonymous No.12143561]

>>12143460
*looking into graduate schools, I meant
>>12143493
Thank you, and I haven't tried Gaddis yet but I've heard him talked up here plenty, I'll give him a shot.

[Anonymous No.12143567]

>>12143550
Before you go to bed I want you to think of me, some random anon out here, who is thinking of you and wants you to do well. <3

[Anonymous No.12143592]

I know that feel brah.

[Anonymous No.12143595]

>>12142811
>19 years old
>Irish boy
>live in England, hate being called British
>effeminate white dude with shoulder length hair
>put into schooling aged six because of sperg parents, in a sixth-form where everyone else is 16/17
>broke up with girlfriend of 2 years when i was 16 because she was edgy and wierd
>realise i don't care much for girls
>feelsgaybro
>no job, just a NEET in education
>studying philosophy and ethics, politics and sociology
>literally have 2 good friends out of the entirety of the people i interact with
>last book i finished reading was Thus Spoke Zarathustra, its actually helped me mentally

[Anonymous No.12143606]

>19 yo neet
>unfit, skinny fat and physically weak since childhood
>5'9
>can communicate well if I want, but I have trouble making friends and exposing myself to others, sometimes anxious in social situations
>no girls ever obviously
>failed admission to medical school, going to apply in September next year
>poor family has lots of expectations on me to suceed
>can't bear to dissapoint them but been a lazy bastard for all my life
>should be studying but procrastinating as usual
>don't remember last time I went out
>lonely, no friends
>Spend every day wasting time on porn and vidya
>want to exercise, read, study and improve myself but no will and motivation.

recently found Crusader kings 2- I work very hard at it unfortunately. No pressure lit, I need a life changing book that'll help me get myself together please. My life just been a haze these past few months, I can't say where the time is going. I need discipline, but it's really hard

>>12143528
Elliot Rodger if some girl gave him a chance lol
>>12143482
Cicero, the shortness of life
>>12143427
Kafka

[Anonymous No.12143607]

>>12143595
The Mabinogion, Tristan and Isolde, The Power of Myth

[Anonymous No.12143609]

>>12143607
Any reason why?

[Anonymous No.12143611]

>>12143509
underage r/eddit normie weeb kids post that everywhere because in their software its supposed to be interpreted as a universal punchline to any discussion that is always funny

[Anonymous No.12143615]

>>12143595
Wilde. Gay and Irish, long hair

[Anonymous No.12143617]

>>12143606
I want to like CK2 but I just can't. Too complicated, feels like managing spreadsheets.

>want to exercise
>no will or motivation
Just do it. Just do it. Do it once. Do some pushups once. Do one. Keep doing them until you did ten. Then for the fucking hell of it try ten more. You will feel so much stronger the next day. Sore, but stronger. Do it. Why are you still sitting there. It takes ten seconds. GO.

You can read the Aeneid but only if you do your task.

[Anonymous No.12143622]

>>12143615
I've read De Profundis and thought that Wilde was a cock desu. He just sounds pretentious

[Anonymous No.12143623]

how can you detail your life so thouroughly on a platform like this? don't you know they're watching?

[Anonymous No.12143626]

>>12143623
>implying any of us care
Anon, we already go on this site, thats more than enough to give them details

[Anonymous No.12143627]

>>12143609
You're a chap on the sea of life. You're constantly changing, still. Mabinogion is just a bunch of cool stories, and perhaps part of your heritage. Tristan is a mythical figure about your age who is also suffering for love or its lack. Power of Myth is more directly instructional, not the least of reasons being Campbell goes over the Tristan myth, and courtly romance and love in general.

[Anonymous No.12143630]

>>12143623
>don't you know they're watching?
Yes, at least someone will notice me

[Anonymous No.12143639]

>26
>i'm a bum father, no contact with child
>blackpilled as fuck
>struggling with drugs for years, currently having slight withdrawals after relapsing on heroin after 8 months
>working out/boxing, reading, and jacking off are my only hobbies
>can see the look of disappointment in everyone when they look at me
>huge dick, but have ED due to psychological issues (embarrassment of being a NEET)
>change girls every few weeks after they find out what a huge loser i am and because only when drunk/high on weed can I get hard with them
>bum money off of mommy, auntie, and granny for weed
>pose nude for artists for $50 weekly

Fuck my life is a mess. I'm gonna make some coffee and go to a fucking temp agency NEETdom is killing my soul.

[Anonymous No.12143646]

>>12143617
It is a lot of information yeah. Keep playing, you'll pick things up every time you do.

That's kind of instructive actually. Ck2 is not easy to learn, yet I spent 10-12 hours a day on it just learning the mechanics. I don't remember myself ever being so focused. I want to be able to apply that to other, more useful things. But it's tough.

I guess the aeneid and other stuff could be inspiring, but all change must come from me.

>>12143622
He was pretentious, but some of his stuff is brilliant. His poetry and plays in particular.

[Anonymous No.12143653]

The answer is always Blindsight, you massive fucking brainlets.

[Anonymous No.12143654]

>18, freshman in college
>single for over a year
>last relationship was through all of high school and ended poorly
>no idea how to talk to girls
>scared of commitment
>have plenty of friends
>usually have people over on the weekends
>still feel lonely
>tried using tinder but never know what to say

[Anonymous No.12143656]

>>12143627
Thanks fren

[Anonymous No.12143679]

>>12143595
>>12143607
>they're gay
>gets told to read fairy stories

kek

[Anonymous No.12143691]

>28 yo college graduate
> handsome, blond hair, blue eyes, stocky type
> have been writing in one shape or another continuously since I was 16
> homosexual
> warlike and confrontational aries who doesn't believe in astrology but fits most of the stereotypes of that sign to a T
>Have never been in a relationship longer than 6 months
>Solitary, taciturn personality unless something interesting comes up in a discussion
> chronic depression
> pot and tobacco addictions; smoke them in combination constantly
>Go to the gym on average 4 times a week, still not in the best shape
>Polymathic intellectual interests in science, philosophy, and literature, excel in all three fields
>Excel in everything I put my mind to; yet doesn't put mind to much
>Indolent much of the year like a spider conserving energy on its web

[Anonymous No.12143696]

>>12143679
>t. npc who doesn't understand love
it's horrible stuff m8. traumatic and tragic. one must go into it prepared.

[Anonymous No.12143710]

>>12143691
Ovid, remember narcissus.

[Anonymous No.12143715]

>>12143691

[Anonymous No.12143717]

>20
>studying pharmacy
>no inner convictions
>no opinions on anything
>gf says i looked disturbed when i smile or laugh
>many people i study with think i'm either schizophrenic or autistic but they're wrong
>working part-time as a night security guard
>won 30k six months ago when i played the lottery for the second time in my life

[Anonymous No.12143719]

>>12142811
>27
>Cum laude student
>6'4
>broad shoulders, blue eyes, blonde hair
>athletic
>tfw to smart for most of my peers
>struggling with existential questions on a daily basis
>Varg is my role model

[Anonymous No.12143729]

>>12143646
i think it's too late for me my man. I spent my early 20s playing Rome Total War that way. the existential dread of finally growing up won't allow me to sink so much time into something that isn't nostalgic.

>>12143639
my friend was a heroin addict. he hung himself. please don't do that to someone. get some money at a labor job, get rock hard, bang sluts if it makes you happy. anything is better than going back to the death spiral. Tennyson's Idylls of the King.

>>12143654
The Idiot

>>12143656
you're welcome fren

>>12143691
A woodworking manual. Reader's Digest Back to Basics can be found used. Make something real and solid.

[Anonymous No.12143749]

>>12143719
12 Rules for Life, ironically but also unironically. It sounds like you've gotten where you are on talent and the mediocrity of your peers, and are left with real problems that no one can help you with. Varg sucks, don't listen to him. And don't listen to JBP either, except for his biblical lectures or psychology.

>>12143717
The Holy Bible, esp. the New Testament.

[Anonymous No.12143774]

>>12143729
>Idylls of the King
I'll check it out.

>he hung himself. please don't do that to someone
Nah. I've "died" once after being intentionally poisoned and going into a coma and it was a dreadful existence. I'd much rather struggle in life then be dead. Thanks for the encouragement.

[Anonymous No.12143783]

>>12143774
>after being intentionally poisoned
what the fuck anon

[Anonymous No.12143795]

>>12143783
The streets anon, the streets. To make a long story short I bought heroin that was laced with meth and PCP. Ended up hallucinating, fighting cops, and drowning in my own vomit.

[Anonymous No.12143797]

>24 years old
>Grew up with crazy cat lady aunt and drunkard father mom not present in life at all
>still live at home
>Average achiever and never gotten any kind of award in my life
>never went to college went straight into work force currently am at a meh paralegal job
>no intention to really go to school
>got a 6/10 girlfriend with big tiddies that I recently have been arguing with about how I barely feel anything about improving myself and bleakish views on life
>rarely see my friends anymore and constantly fantasize about the days I used to go to raves and be a degenerate again.
>Basically the biggest achiever despite all this shit currently in my immediate family because they all fucked up their lives harder than me even

[Anonymous No.12143832]

>>12143797
wish i had a gf with big sweaty tiddies. you're doing alright for 24. and i'm jealous of your rave experiences. i'm too old to have those now, and i was too reserved as a youngster to go out (and it was dangerous, besides, and i hate everyone where i'm from anyway). you have time to "achieve" if that's what you want. don't delay too long. one day very soon you'll be too old to seriously consider switching to a career you can retire from. when you feel sick of your paralegal job, look at some college websites. if you can't pay and you're in the US, consider military.

Fight Club.

[Anonymous No.12144239]

>>12143460
Thomas Merton

[Anonymous No.12144308]

>20 y/o hispanic
>Manlet 5'3"
>Long hair
>Severe ADHD
>Clinical depression since childhood
>STEM Undergrad; aspiring surgeon
>Used to read often; either too swamped with college work or too lazy to schedule my time correctly
>Unemployed
>Thousands of dollars in debt
>Wants to invest time in philosophy but fear that I'm too stupid for it
>Just picked the guitar back up after a 2+ year of hiatus
>Actually enjoys IJ and post-modern lit, but will shit on it in any thread I can
> Have held a relationship with a Russian man for the last 3 years
>Main boards /d/, /lit/, /gif/
>Makes art (pic related)

[Anonymous No.12144323]

>>12143832
Yeah i'm very normie tier I can admit that, I can't afford school and honestly dont want to go just to go I really wanna figure out whats interesting and somewhat lucrative to me. Military is my last resort if I break uo with the gf and am desperate. But Ill probably be alright. Ive read fight club thanks for the req boomeranon.

[Anonymous No.12144344]

>>12144308
Damn, thanks man. I've got it bad, but not as bad as you. Weirdly reassuring. You need to read Pynchon

[Anonymous No.12144349]

>21
>eastern europe
>third year uni, studying CS
>never had a gf, zero friends since middle school
>5'5", skinny fat, average face but crappy chin, baby face
>social anxiety since i was a kid, stunted backwards personality as a result
>completely disconnected from people and culture
>struggle to form sentences in native language because i rarely use it
>alternate between complete hopelessness and vague hope about the future
>spend hours in fantasy about meeting a girl and having a family
>inner yearning for human contact, especially female touch but recoil at any attempt for closeness
>feel weird when my mom hugs me
>browse /lit/ but never read anything other than self-help
>others only bring out feelings of shame and alienation
>struggle to do basic adult tasks like buy clothes or learn to drive
>barely keeping up in uni because i never go to class and can't concentrate enough to study
>dread having to get a job after i graduate despite being a competent programmer
>sleep all day to escape
>want to die, but don't want leave my mom alone in the world

[Anonymous No.12144388]

>18 years old
>was great at writing in school and picked up guitar and vocals as a child
>come from a family of migrants that built their own enterprise
>father wasn't around as much as I'd have liked but it gives me more escapism from socialising growing up
>at 12 I get into hc punk and nihilism from extended family on a holiday
>secondary school is an all boys catholic one an hour away from my hometown
>self alienating to a point of almost being diagnosed with aspergers
>what would tyler durden do
>dress as a skin head on a casual clothes day and constantly pick fights with "bullies" to get expelled
>to the point of ric flairing one in front of the coordinator
>parents pull me out and put me where I wanted to go
>never cut my hair since
>weirdo friends become popular and "cool" friends start to become criminals
>develop self awareness and become no one for a while
>join my first band at 14
>youngest one
>start sneaking out at night with the older members to smoke pot
>develop crush on pianist
>upper year level "popular bitch" lead singer with a boyfriend is dtf
>reject her because muh moral compass
>get with pianist
>turn 15
>pianist leaves me
>write first song and the band doesn't like it so I quit
>verbally abused by another member
>experience depression, anxiety and a mix of insomnia and hypersomnia from then on
>watch Cobain's "montage of heck"
>feel understood and vow to write a demo by the time i turn 18
>the next year or so i spend writing songs, smoking pot and being led on the ex's friend
>enamoured by her, the type you think is just like you in adolescence and then use as a red flag basis after
>no self esteem pacifist loser at this point
>aforementioned criminal friends take turns robbing me
>hard to find new friends because of the established reputation of a sperg i set at 13
>european family don't "get" my mental illness so I see a psychologist
>a great man who shaped me into who i am now more than any of these events
>finally get a date with the girl
>she brings my ex and I get robbed again later
>stops talking to me
>find out ex moved on with a 21 y/o two months after leaving
>she was 16 and left due to age gap (i was 15)
>contemplate suicide (i was a faggot) and decide the demo matters
>parents drag me to old country for christmas holidays because I've smoked through 2 quarterbags in a month
>everyone's my heritage
>my voice and face isn't strange
>constant centre of attention
>fresh slate
>pick up cigarettes to get with a girl my first night out
>kiss in the stairway of the pub at midnight while the snow falls
>write songs on her grandfather's guitar
>get kicked out of a club at new years for smoking pot accidentally
>get lost neck deep in snow for hours on a ski trip gone awry and make my way back
>lived for once and came home feeling like a person for once
>psychologist is proud
TBC

[Anonymous No.12144404]

>>12143795
Fuck. I wish you well, anon. I hope you manage to quit drugs for good.

[Anonymous No.12144466]

>>12144349
>struggle to form sentences in native language because i rarely use it

Me too, i speak better english than polish. I cant speak proper sentences because of heavy stutter when i was young made me not wanna speak at all. Now theres only gibberish coming out of my mouth. Had to emigrate because of this.

[Anonymous No.12144482]

>>12142811
>"white" with brown hair and dark colored eyes
>5 1/2 inch penis, ex gf said i'm girthy but i don't believe her
>balding
>have had sex with 3 fat girls
>haven't had sex in a year now
>vegetarian
>gyno plus hips
>5'8" tall
>was vegan but gave up on it (i had gyno since puberty)
>go to a culty new thought church
>almost 22 and no drivers license but i bought a motorcycle anyway
>walk 5 miles to work 5 days a week because i'm too lazy to put a new tire and a flashlight on my peddle bike
>maladaptive daydreaming makes my walks easier
>work overnight maintenance at walmart
>even though i'm not technically a NEET i've grown to enjoy hot cheeto popcorn sandwiches
>i feel i can beat up any untrained man in a one on one fist fight due to how many MMA technique breakdown videos i've watched on youtube
>addicted to youtube, bread, and daydreaming
>started drinking those diet monsters just because of the boomer meme
>pick up litter on the side of the road because i'll feel bad if i don't
>have spent over $700 on self help content in my life
>impulse bought an acre of land for almost $3000 and i haven't seen the property in person
>can't remember the last time i finished a book
>parents are white trash meth addicts
>live with my older sister and her NEET boyfriend
>my dream is to become a homeless ascetic who spends all his time picking up litter and meditating
>i created this chart today

[Anonymous No.12144512]

>the girl talks to me again
>visits and finally something happens
>"exclusively casual"
>stops talking
>see she spent the night at the ex's who's abuse was the sole reason she couldn't date me
>don't give a fuck about anything
>drink from the liquor cabinet or sneak out with the band member that formerly chewed me out just to get high
>father has a car chase with him wielding a cricket bat
>no plugs and the cabinet's too obvious so I think about my life
>music course is cut, all I'm good at is english
>fuck being an english teacher
>decide to drop out and dedicate time to my passions or bartending if all else fails
>can live contently with my passions or just knowing they were never an option instead of settling for something half assed
>spend most of this year dealing with the "trauma" with my psych
>take 6 months off the hooch and opt to chainsmoke instead while training as a barman
>a friend and I's fb page reaches near 150k likes
>friend and I had as much of a passion for making youtube videos (similar to old jontron) as I did for music
>plan to make a yt channel based on page
>end up constantly meandering, unmotivated, just trying to learn to be consistent until
>a mentor figure cousin takes me on a camping trip and I pick up absurdism
>finally get over the girl
>psychologist has to go to a different line of work and is proud of me
>2018 starts
>all my videos i worked on for half a year got wiped
>my phone i wrote half the songs on is factory reset
>meander for a while until i find jordan peterson mid this year
>realise I only attract trainwrecks because I am one
>they just want casual sex then get confused about wanting a relationship with me because I "get them" and I shouldn't let myself be used
>realise I need a schedule
>start giving myself to do lists
>stop being nocturnal
>work on art every day
>everyone's twice as impressed as they should be because I spent most of my life fucking up
>my coffee cup reading babushka neighbour gives a prophecy
>sees new friends around a table and a bag of money
>sees this in the cups thrice until I meet new friends
>likeminded media students I start seeing weekly at the same table in a library
>suddenly get asked if I want a doco made about me
>like montage of heck
>considering the coffee cups and me actually trying to manifest an interview to happen I now have faith
>shoot the doco and start producing the demo
>then I meet a girl
>who used to have addiction problems but changed her friend groups, just got out of a year long relationship
>kept her at an arms length but she barged in
>spend the next month conversing every day
>she spends the night once
>she supports my progress as i work on everything and have finally become consistent without trying
>then leaves
>says there's a lot going on rn and she can't explain
>meet for closure
>makes me walk around for an hour in a city to go to a crowded food centre to talk where she can't explain
>asks to ride the train back with me

nearly done

[Anonymous No.12144514]

>>12144512
No one cares, you faggot, save yourself some time and stop typing right now.

[Anonymous No.12144569]

>she lives an hour away in the opposite direction but is seeing a "guy friend" where I live
>makes me wait for the fucking bus after too
>laughs when i gesture to hug as she leaves
>breakdown in public
>go to a party straight after
>suppress everything
>try speed
>go home
>lose track of everything
>5 stages of grief have never been like this because I want myself back
>realise everything I taught myself to believe for the better was just to impress her
>can't tell if I care at all about my betterment alone as an artist or if it's just grief
>contemplate suicide because I've turned 18 and missed the deadline
>can still do it ofc but it was the only goal of my life which I had 3 years to commit to
>have to commit to the youtube channel too and even if I abandon the demo my friend's are making that documentary
>watch it all pass by as I eat shit food, drink, smoke whilst fucking my sleep cycle
>eventually move on from her after finding out she put on a character for me and thought I'd wisen up to it
>tried doing the message hi out of nowhere for attention to reject thing
>tell her to go fuck herself
>says she's fucking my best friend who abandoned me (this happened right after the breakup)
>don't fucking care because they're both as lost than I am
>write great stuff now and then (literature videos or music) but only out of spontaneous inspiration
>no passion in editing or committing to responsibility
>feels like starting a new game after being halfway through
>if i don't it feels like I'm pissing everything down the drain every day
>in a dilemma because I can't live in and enjoy hedonism as I used to either
>constantly in a limbo
>took back best friend because he's a lost cause
>I just want to make my psychologist proud

[Anonymous No.12144576]

>>12144514
I'd care to see if that's the case after getting to the end, unfortunately a lot of my former problems I felt the need to mention are stupid

[Anonymous No.12144581]

>>12144514
besides i need to finish something i set out today, idec if i get recommended catcher in the rye

[Anonymous No.12144593]

>>12143411
The Rising Tide of Color Against White World-Supremacy

[Anonymous No.12144602]

>19
>autoimmune disease thats slowly taking away my vision, hearing, urinary retention, ability to maintain an erection and ejaculate, and motor control

[Anonymous No.12144603]

>>12143595
>NEET
>in education

I don't think you know what NEET means

[Anonymous No.12144611]

>>12143639
The Metamorphosis

[Anonymous No.12144618]

>>12144602
Malone dies by Beckett but it might hit too close to home

[Anonymous No.12144621]

>>12144602
Research psilocybin anon. I'm sorry.

[Anonymous No.12144626]

>>12142811
>27
>newly married, NEET with an art degree
>living in foreign country
>numerous lofty aspirations and dreams
>being given the opportunity to act on them
>don't know what to do
>scared to do anything
>fear of doing the wrong thing
>know that the only wrong thing is to not do anything
and yet here we are, on an anonymous panda massage image forum.

My favourite book is House of Leaves.

[Anonymous No.12144715]

>24
>third course, philosophy undergrad. Was in physics as undergrad, but dropped out - couldn't keep up on the math alone, was too awkward to seek help, started skipping classes because I felt alienated and too stupid to be there, figured I will fail one course, thought that means I will drop to paying for my courses after rotation (wich is not true), lied to parents who were supporting me all the time that I am doing fine, left uni right before christmass. Our relationship was never the same after that.
> gap year to study history so i can redo school exam and apply to phil undergrad
>in phil now, feels like I am larping all the time
>have no friends there, all effort is either too late or too little, barely passing most courses because I don't try hard enough
>highest grade from overall was 9/10, else is between 5/10, wich is minimum here, and 7/10.Attendancy is around 30% or barely minimum not to fail course.
>all friends either abroad studying or abroad working at this point
>made no real new friends after like I was 16
>family hardly stomachs me at this point
>never had gf because no self esteem or self worth, only frends are make easily are betas and people who can't succee in life because I don't feel bad about myselfwhen being around them
>only thing that makes me okay for normie chat is actually well trained sense ofhumour
>tried consulting psychologists, after whole ordeal I no longer hold any respect to them unless they are certified psychiatrists and past their 30s.
> diagnosed clinically depressed, wasn't hospitalised or anything, quited the treatment because all drugs they prescribed was had sedative effect on me
> was going to end myself on day x by hanging, didn't because was shocked that morning to have a call from mother that my brother just tried to kill himself and they are on their way to hospital and they don't know if he is alive at that point. That made my world drop, I couldn't make my mother to feel the same as I heard her feel. Can't take the plan b from then on.
>work mcshitforfooddonalds as part time for 2 years now, promoted to insructor with no posibility for further promotion in forever and ever
>like most of the collective there, in all due honestly I feel better working there then being in uni, though I enjoy most of the literature I read for the courses.
>spend most of free time surfing /phil/ threads here or other time killing activities

[Anonymous No.12144723]

>>12144715
seems like you don't need to be in uni, you should be out there finding something to live for

[Anonymous No.12144724]

>>12142829
>it's easy for short Hispanics
Why

[Anonymous No.12144876]

>>12144724
shorter frame, shorter limbs=faster gains

[Anonymous No.12144911]

>>12143457
>planning to
oh god im laffin. you never get anything done with your perpetually planning
im just projecting btw
>>12144581
I didnt read your post, because honestly... but read Inherent Vice, its short and fun and everybody should read Pynchon

[Anonymous No.12144917]

>19 yo male
>freshman
>not sure what I want to study but want some outlet for my love of writing in a career
>I'm not gonna be a fucking author
>collegiate cross-country/track runner, spend 1-2hrs a day running or doing some sort of auxiliary exercise, extremely dedicated
>not kissless or totally autistic, but virgin
>pretty self-conscious often, I'm pretty sure I don't get girls because I rarely make the effort to do so
>have read the Greeks for school this semester, love Homer

[Anonymous No.12145161]

>18
>1st year Illustration student (no comic books faggots)
>Britbong
>very social
>make music
>weird phobia of drug use caused by heroin addict brother
>in a phase of being interested in philosophy but too brainlet to understand a good 70% of it, and mostly read for entertainment
>Art is almost the only thing I care about in terms of a career path no matter how slim, overworked and underpaid.
>if you told me as an Bearing/Chris Ray Gun youtuber fan a few years ago all my friends at university would be either trans, feminist, or from the south I would be disgusted but I am grateful for these people as an adult
>horror films I guess

[Anonymous No.12145258]

>22 from Italy
>Need to study for my last year in a CS degree at university
>I got into philosophy 2 years ago
>Can't think of anything else beside that
>Hard to focus on CS now
>Few close friends no girlfriend
>Getting into Hinduism and meditation
>Going hard on meditation (like full week of just that)
>Getting more and more disinterested from anything
>Even harder to study CS

[Anonymous No.12145259]

>>12145161
>if you told me as an Bearing/Chris Ray Gun youtuber fan
absolutely retarded

[Anonymous No.12145269]

>>12144308

Nice artwork

[Anonymous No.12145284]

>>12145258
Hello my compatriot

[Anonymous No.12145303]

>>12143606
>this person
>suggests kafka
like pottery

[Anonymous No.12145342]

I think I'll write this as a greentext
>be me
>Lit fag
>Tried to learn several different instruments, never accomplished anything for any of them
>shitty writer and voracious reader
>virgin beta
>Fat, but tall
>Love Shakespear
>went into theater during high school, later decided I wanted to be a veterinary, wasted a good 4 years.

Also I'm a huge fan of Lovecraft

[Anonymous No.12145372]

>>12143533
i feel like I’m on the road to becoming you so It feels weird suggesting a book but huxleys grey eminence

[Anonymous No.12145383]

>be me
>be 27 year old ugly beta loser nofriends autist with no friends or social experiences since school, no female attention ever; have never been to a pub, club, or party; have no passions

Life is going by so fast and I waste it all. I waste a lot of time on the internet but if you read the below, you will know why. It's like I view everything as a chore that needs to be avoided through procrastination.

I got bored of a history book I was reading and gave up on it. I abhor the modern humanitard mentality. If you want to know what it is, imagine an upper middle class person who says (honestly or not) Pynchon is funny and who reads the New Yorker. He is a pseudointellectual that claims his philosophising and literary interests are due to a love of knowledge but he knows nothing about STEM or anything practical or anything not marketed by a major publishing company or university. That's as succinctly as I can put it. The humanitard mentality is the prism that 99 % of all media is refracted through.

I don't have productive interests. There are just things I feel like I need to do to stop the pseudointellectuals coming after me (going through SICP, reading boring old books). I feel guilty for everything I do, don't do, and how I do it. I feel like I have to be more efficient in how I do things.

I have a full time job that requires no work and about 10 minutes per day at the office (plus commute) but I am still unhappy. I am insanely lazy and when I worked from 9 to 5 I saw my life as over. It was soul crushing.

Being an ugly autist without a posh accent is a career death sentence. I don't know how I will ever bother putting effort in to things, especially when I know Chads and women get everything handed to them. I see decades of boring work ahead of me.
My only pleasures in life are junk food, coffee, and McDonalds. My main hobby, apart from wasting time on the internet, is walking around London and hoping my 20s spontaneously stop feeling wasted

[Anonymous No.12145393]

Get some freaking exercise dumbo.
Jog every morning for 30 minutes, do 50 squats everyday, do 20 push ups and sit ups eryday even if you have to do them fatkid-style. Fix your diet, don't eat so much sugar and processed foods, eat plenty of fruits and vegetables. Drink wawa. Get some sun, start dancing. Take some LSD
Potatoes can't read.

[Anonymous No.12145400]

>>12145383
Hello Londonfrog, how are you doing? I think writing blogposts every day on 4chan is really improving your writing, by now it's a pleasure to read your posts. What are you reading currently? Have you ever enjoyed any literary work?

[Anonymous No.12145401]

21, virgin, whenever I go out I wish I was home, obsessed with the death and Philosophy, no direction

[Anonymous No.12145485]

>>12142811
>21, central europe, completely average physically and mostly in other regards
>village kid, upper middle class
>used to be far right edgelord but grew out of it
>college dropout, intellectual disposition
>enrolled in college just because, didnt know what to do, quit because i hated it, didn't have any interest in it, didnt have much discipline and it went against my worldview and moral rules
>work a minimum wage manual job
>no friends or girlfriends, estranged from the people i used to be good with
>i dont care much about it tho because im a loner
>virgin, but i don't care as much as other people do, don't really approach girls at all to be honest - maybe its disillusionment, maybe lack of testosterone, who knows
>live with my family, but ive never understood this "you have to move out" meme, ill stay where i am for the rest of my life and dont feel insecure about it, its easier, more comfortable and i think a better choice overall
>avoid cities as much as i can, even smaller provincial towns tire me easily (10k people is a decent sized town for my standards and where i live)
>dont have a car or drivers licence, dont intend to get one
>i get social contact, but quite rarely since i avoid it
>no real initiative, socially or profesionally
>haven't read in a long time
>terrible sleeping rythm, almost lost idea of day and night
>relatively comfortable with it all, but still feel insecure since im left out of everything
>all of my actual dreams are really crazy and unrealistic, i got laughed out when i tried expressing them to people i know
>main problem is that i dont really desire anything and have no drive or initiative, i could probably live contentely on a routine crappy job my whole life and accomplish nothing

ive been a bit depressed for a while, but now i don't care that much anymore
i made some changes, started dropping bad habits got a copy of augustine's confessions, thinking of getting into agriculture studies and maybe opening my own business one day, but im not sure if it will lead anywhere

[Anonymous No.12145591]

>20
>live in midwest
>5'10"
>white, very dirty blond hair, blue eyes
>volcel
>attending undergrad at a big uni
>very interested in space/astronomy
>currently reading Cosmos by Carl Sagan
>pretty redpilled
>former NEET of 1.5 years
>kinda not sure whether to continue school or to go into the military

[Anonymous No.12145595]

>>12145591
Oh my God I'm in love with that thot who is she

[Anonymous No.12145600]

>>12145595
Rome

[Anonymous No.12145616]

>>12145595
Julius Caesar

[Anonymous No.12145635]

>>12145591
>>12145595
imagine how would it be to live as someone who is so insecure as to post nude pictures of herself publicly

[Anonymous No.12145891]

>18
>senior in highschool
>applied to uni
>have had a few sexual experiences
>petrified of talking to women
>unable to maintain a relationship
>wishing i had my youth back

[Anonymous No.12146019]

>>12143595
>NEET in education
nigga what

[Anonymous No.12146048]

>>12145259
I should have included 'former' in that

[Anonymous No.12146127]

>25, male, english
>grew up international brat
>moderately popular, moderately sporty, moderately nerdy in highschool
>did shit tier liberal arts degree
>depression, smoked weed all the time
>met wonderful girl, became gf
>put myself back together but long distance w gf saw her every 6 weeks
>now 3rd year law student at good uni
>great group of friends
>see gf weekly
>good job prospects
>2 profs asked me to do grad research / masters and phd with funding
>still with wonderful girl after 6 years
>moving in w her next year

things

[Anonymous No.12146270]

>20 y/o white guy
>English major at a state school
>Obese, but I still fuck
>Always had friends bc naturally charismatic and witty
>Currently reading Butcher's Crossing
>writing a novel rn that will be published next year to acclaim
Despite being overweight, and from a poor family I think my life is turning out pretty gud. Books for this feel.

[Anonymous No.12146281]

>Bored at my job and have tried to get myself fired more than once
>Make constant plans to schedule brunch with old classmates and drinking buddies I haven't seen in five years
>Dream of going to a foreign country possibly to live and work but can never gather enough time or resources to make that happen

[Anonymous No.12146355]

>23, male, spic/white mix
>technical writer because I hate verbose writing
>read semi-frequently, more interested in visual media than books
>5'7, skinny ripped, but kinda anorexic
>fit most of the /r9k/ stereotypes
>perfect middle class upbringing, wealthy parents who are still together, never been a wagecuck, no abuse, currently in uni
>only desire is to live alone and not be bothered
>internet racist
>have transhumanist fantasies, but not a fan of science fiction
>have thousands of cursed images on phone
>lolcows are extremely interesting to me
>my leading philosophy in life is: literally anything can be justified as long as it's funny
>last book I read was Confederacy of Dunces

[Anonymous No.12146441]

>mutt
>chunky
>don't currently have a job
>don't like working with people
>very sensitive
>thinking about what's beyond our world
>feel smarter and more aware each week, after a certain point of being free to think
>not really any problems outside of finances and some physical/mental health concerns no one could currently help me with

[Anonymous No.12146451]

>>12145591
>>currently reading Cosmos by Carl Sagan
>>pretty redpilled
explain desu

[Anonymous No.12146452]

>18yo in uni
>fall in love with thot
>Missed my opportunity to smash because I was too pussy to make a move
>End up only kissing her before she lost interest in me
>Still think about her every day
Any books about lost opportunity or loneliness would be great

[Anonymous No.12146576]

>>12146451
idk I like space lmao, but I don't agree with Sagan's stance on stuff like nuclear weapons and climate change though.

[Anonymous No.12146598]

>>12146452
catcher in the rye

[Anonymous No.12146746]

>>12146019
fuck off tranny

[Anonymous No.12146748]

I don't care about much of anything anymore. I moved to the area ive always thought I wanted to live in to get away from my life living with my dying grandmother and mom. I have a temp job which pays ok but nothing special and certainly not for the area which is bonkers expensive.

I live wondering whether I'll ever get hired full time or keep existing as a 3rd rate worker. Or, get fired. I perform lower quality work than my co-workers. It's a data entry job and I listen to podcasts at work.

I don't care about lifting anymore. I've given up on relationships until something drastic changes. Ive read some great books but haven't much lately. I used to take part in writing groups which end up mostly with older people. I'm 27.

I'm decently smart and can be creative but I feel stymied. I rent a room from a woman because it's all I can afford in this place. No car. I just sit around in my work building or library after work and watch sports and lurk. I'm constantly putting off gravity's rainbow 150 pages into it.

[Anonymous No.12146927]

>>12144482
pretty based chart tbhwydesu. also neet and wish i had land. would totally install a well and build a bunker and move my books in there and just farrm and raise chickens and read books until i die.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WpltX664ADI

[Anonymous No.12146935]

>>12145372
>huxleys grey eminence
thanks man, i will check it out

>>12146927
forgot book. Kaczynski's Anti-Tech Revolution: Why and How

[Anonymous No.12146960]

>>12143427
roths?

[Anonymous No.12147213]

>>12144344
I just started Mason & Dixon recently. But yeah it's not all bad. My studies and my relationship help ease the depression

[Anonymous No.12147453]

>>12146441
Don Quihote

[Anonymous No.12147460]

>>12143457
how do you find this shit?

[Anonymous No.12147637]

>>12142811
>watching bbc cuck porn
I want to believe your post wasn't bait, but this made it hard

[Anonymous No.12147829]

>>12143691
who gives a shit about your star sign you fucking faggot

[Anonymous No.12147849]

>19
>Irish
>5'7 Manlet
>not ugly, healthy
>politically blackpilled
>want to take vargpill but addicted to porn, however I can't masturbate to anything with a non effeminate penis in it
>NEET, work very sporadically, only have 1,200 euro savings
>no friends
>no gf, elliot rodger KHHHV
>only real hobby is /out/ which I can't do during winter
>spend every day inside on 4channel or playing video games, occasionally reading
>upcoming court case for vandalizing a gay bar, might go to jail
>hardly leave the house, only for training 3 times a week and collecting dole money

[Anonymous No.12147859]

wish i had dole money

[Anonymous No.12147861]

>>12142811
>28-year old Finn living in Sweden
>scrawny manlet
>work as financial controller
>work from home 1-3 days a week, otherwise at the office
>last time I was on a date was last year, with a lebanese cutie and a couple months before that with a desi cutie
>extremely awkward with women (and humans in general)
>have my own place
>have some money saved up
>like traveling, tennis, hockey, reading
>politically I lean heavily to the right
>sleep issues since I was a child
>been smoking weed/hasch for 6-7 years, very regularly
>the few people I know have no ambitions and are trying to drag me down
>don't want to be dragged down
>don't want to be completely alone either

[Anonymous No.12147862]

>>12147859
what's stopping you friend

[Anonymous No.12147874]

>>12147862
i'd have to periodically prove i'm looking for work and then i'd have to pay it all back when i finally get a job, which would be impossible if i claimed some shit about mental disability. also if i claim mental disorder i can't have guns anymore. america sucks.

[Anonymous No.12147878]

>>12147874
>i'd have to pay it all back when i finally get a job

[Anonymous No.12147880]

>25yo
>/fit/izen
>Polack
>sorta existentialist, a bit laveyan, pragmatist, naturalist
>tasted weakness and learned helplessness early in life, snapped out of it by realising that the only things I deserve are the ones I have the guts to do; it doesn't matter whether might makes right, all that matters is that might makes
>mild psychopathic tendencies, propensity for absolutely remorseless machiavellianism
>a general /fit/-induced dislike of humans stemming from disillusionment
>have a loving gf whom I also love very much

[Anonymous No.12147884]

>>12147874
>if i claim mental disorder i can't have guns anymore. america sucks.
How is that a bad thing?

[Anonymous No.12147887]

>>12147861
>financial controller
hail summoner. conjure me up some dollarydoos, would you? read Frazer's The Golden Bough.

>>12147878
yeah land of the free my arse. like brad pitt said: america isn't a country, it's a business. also i forgot to rec you a book. get a nice cookbook.

[Anonymous No.12147890]

>>12147884
i'm a gov't trained marksman and true believer in upholding the constitution. i like guns and think they are 1) important and 2) fun.

[Anonymous No.12147893]

>>12147880
start with the greeks.

[Anonymous No.12147896]

>>12147890
I mean how is it bad for America that mentally ill people can't have guns? That is only logical

[Anonymous No.12147899]

>>12147896
pretty sure i illustrated it well enough, anon. think harder.

people who believe guns are important or necessary will avoid anything to do with mental healthcare. especially in positions of public trust.

crazy fuckers, on the other hand, will shoot up a place regardless of what the law is.

you = btfo

[Anonymous No.12147901]

>>12147893
Please no

[Anonymous No.12147904]

>>12147901
>he doesn't want to be /fitlit/
wasted talent.

>>12147896
expanding on the previous point: the only way you are going to keep guns away from the real crazy fuckers who shouldn't have them is by locking them up for being crazy. and that is never ever going to happen. we can't afford it and it is indefensible. the only real victim here is people who are coerced into suffering in silence.

[Anonymous No.12147908]

>>12147899
>you = btfo
Are you retarded? Is that why you're afraid they'll take away your guns

[Anonymous No.12147915]

>>12147908
you aren't american are you. the federal government gets what it wants by bending the arm of anyone who takes their money. and they are the final authority on every background check, including routine checks made with every firearms purchase.

[Anonymous No.12147917]

>>12147849
>upcoming court case for vandalizing a gay bar, might go to jail

lmao what did you do?

Being obsessed with porn and vargpilling is a bleak path. I'd read something light and entertaining like murakami novels

[Anonymous No.12147918]

>28y/o
>former math prodigy (part jewish)
>handsome white male
>in a loving relationship
>former management consultant
>have read majority of literature canon
>have read through the history of philosophy
>have read widely in history/religion/mythology
>not well read in poetry
>not well read in math and science
>only speak two languages
>quit job a year ago and have travelled world with gf
>no idea what to do with the rest of my life

[Anonymous No.12147923]

>>12147917
it made the news

https://www.thesun.ie/news/2785554/dublin-gay-pub-pantibar-rock-thrown-through-window-homophobic-slur/

[Anonymous No.12147926]

>>12147918
>jewish
>handsome white male
10/10 bait.

anyway you're severely overestimating your accomplishments. there's no way a 28 year old could have read the canon or thoroughly understood the implications of myth or mysteries of religion (esp. being an NPC son of godkillers).

read the New Testament

[Anonymous No.12147929]

>>12147923
kek that lede
>A POPULAR Dublin gay bar was targeted in a homophobic attack last night.

>POPULAR
normies deserved it reeeeeeee

[Anonymous No.12147931]

>>12147923
Based

[Anonymous No.12147945]

>>12147923

anon that wasnt nice, but it was very based

[Anonymous No.12147946]

>>12147923
based and, dare I say, redpilled

[Anonymous No.12147957]

>a bar full of chads and staceys (who are also chads)

[Anonymous No.12147959]

>>12147917
>vargpilling
What does that mean exactly? I only know who Varg is

[Anonymous No.12147968]

>25 y/o
>CPA/CFA lvl 2
>Filipino Catholic
>Remote working for an australian company for cryptocurrency research
>Recent breakup
>Decently read but mostly mainstream and modern titles
>Thinks Sapiens is ca$h
>Loves anime, manga and vidya

[Anonymous No.12147975]

>>12147904
I do, I just find the Greeks ridiculous. Except Thrasymachus, maybe.

[Anonymous No.12147991]

>>12147959
Well he runs a youtube channel where he espouses anarcho primitivism and white supremacist rhetoric. I define the vargpill as being a racist hermit who has designs to live off the grid. I don't think this lifestyle is feasible for the majority of working class people. Varg can only sustain himself through royalties - and even then he isn't exactly "fully off the grid"

I fail to see how living your life anticipating the collapse of the global economy and outright anarchy is anything but naive optimism. Things are going to peter on and in 50 years Varg will be stuck living in a shack in the French countryside while international capitalism unrelentlessly marches on. He's right about porn though.

[Anonymous No.12147995]

>>12147991
>He's right about porn though.
What does he say about porn?

[Anonymous No.12148010]

>>12147968
>CFA lvl 2
BRB, reporting you to ethics board

[Anonymous No.12148016]

>>12143528
You're basically someone who's absolutely normal and painfully excreted by society, not sure what to recc, but the navel-gazing and self-over analyzing was so excessively drab I thought it'd help to hear you sound pretty normal

[Anonymous No.12148027]

>>12147991
>white supremacist
>varg

[Anonymous No.12148036]

>>12147991
He could easily sustain himself off the land if he had to. He's got a little farm and there are animals to hunt. Why he is living off the profit from his books is, I think, because it would be unfair to his hundred and one children to just sperg out and handicap their growth by forcing them to eat like in a survival situation when they don't have to. The way he lives is imo very sensible but I agree not everybody can live like that obviously. And yes it will take more than a hundred years for the system to collapse at least. His grand children will be better off than most millenials living in the big city and trough their sheer numbers his progeny will be more likely to survive. So one can't deny his ideology doesn't make sense.

[Anonymous No.12148039]

>>12148010
Kek, you know what I mean

[Anonymous No.12148061]

>>12147887
Two stacks, comin' right up your way, anon!

>read Frazer's The Golden Bough

Thanks for the tip!

[Anonymous No.12148065]

>21y/o
>thicc flannel boi
>manage a vape shop, in process of joining the army
>currently hosting an ongoing, three year long Cyberpunk 2020 campaign
>haven't dated since high school, can't be bothered with it right now
>recently moved into condo with dad
>like to read and write regularly, but have slacked off in the last couple of years
>last book i read was The Killer Angels two or three months ago
>go camping and kayaking regularly
>practice Portuguese montante fighting
>have a small but close group of friends that have been together since early childhood
>homeless and in debt right out of high school, been dragging myself out of the hole for three years. nearly there
>favourite author is Ernst Junger

[Anonymous No.12148073]

>>12142811
have you tried giving your life to Christ

[Anonymous No.12148081]

>22
>Studied entrepreneurship but moving on to study Japanese for 3 years
>No friends, decent looking but no confidence
>Depressive thanks to loneliness
>Hope during my studies I'll make genuine friends or find love or a reason to be

[Anonymous No.12148089]

>>12148065What have you read by Jünger? Leutnant Sturm was great desu

[Anonymous No.12148095]

>21
>High-school dropout
>Currently re-doing school
>used to be extremely depressed, sucidal and cut myself
>I'm better now, but still not great
>Arms are scarred, heve to wear long shirts all the time, even in the summer
>currently re-doing my school, I'm at the top of the class
>still feeling stupid and undereducated
>Favourite author is Thomas Mann

[Anonymous No.12148096]

>>12142811
>21yo white british
>done nothing but play vidya and read history books since quitting sixth form 2 years ago
>never had a job
>live at home with parents and siblings
>bored of being NEET, trying to find a career path that doesn't make me want to slit my wrists

[Anonymous No.12148109]

>>12148089
Storm of Steel was the first book of his that I read. I'm somewhat obsessed with late 19th and early 20th century military history, and I think his account of The Great War is easily one of the best out there. I've also read Heliopolis and Glass Bees, though haven't had the fortune of reading Sturm or any of his other works. Aside from the sheer meme value, his writing actually pushed me away from going full pinkotard and turned me into a more reasonable centrist. To a certain extent I even share some of his views about the nature of monarchy and its destruction in the western world.

[Anonymous No.12148115]

>>12142811
I have no friends, what books should I read for this feel?

[Anonymous No.12148117]

>>12148109
If you liked Storm of steel, stick to his earliert works, up to the forest passage. his late works are very tiresome in my onion

[a_poor_sinner !!eiHxl4pZe1i No.12148129]

>>12148115
Dragonlance.

[Anonymous No.12148133]

>>12147849
>>12147923
You're doing gods work anon, keep it up.

[Anonymous No.12148155]

>>12143457
monk mode is the only reason the red pill is edible. the reset to your reward system this mentions is not achievable without knowing thyself and practicing self-awareness. this can take years and decades, so don't be discouraged by what doesn't change after seven days. you just have to identify with a personae that covets austerity. but as soon as you do bring forth the words of that type of avatar, brace yourself like some eastern european institute being stormed by needy anarchists crying for a suck. the only means at your disposal will not be rational arguments, but a disposition that seeks tranquility.

[Anonymous No.12148196]

>>12148039
Busting your balls.
Did you go CPA first then CFA? I'm in an accounting firm now because my grades weren't good enough to go banking or buy side or ER. Thinking of finishing my CFA tests and getting an MBA so I can finally move over to the investment side.

[Anonymous No.12148287]

>mixed race black/white
>Left uni a few years ago
>Friends moved away
>Now an alcoholic
>Work 5 day week at a game company in central London
>put on 4st since leaving uni due to depression and alcholism
>never had a gf, can't get one as if you aren't a 10/10 black guy who isn't a thug then you might aswell kill yourself
>diagnosed with ADHD as a kid but now I think it might be aspergers
>was on Ritalin for 10 years and now have no empathy
>cannot feign interest in anyone, haven't made a new friend in years

[Anonymous No.12148422]

>>12148287
>mixed race londoner
>tfw you will never be a stereotype

[Anonymous No.12148510]

>>12146927
apparently the place where i bought it's expensive to get a well drilled because of all the bedrock or whatever, i might just save up to get it done anyway to then either live on or sell.

[Anonymous No.12148849]

>20 Y/O
>student, but have never been employed
>socially competent (often considered charismatic), but only keep a small circle of friends due to dislike of socialising
>Generally speaking, I like women (I even like some feminist authors)
>hopeless romantic
>love aesthetics and beauty of all kinds
>have unreasonably high expectations of myself, which can lead to bouts of self-loathing and overworking myself
>Terrified of the future
>Life goal is to leave behind some sort of lasting legacy

[Anonymous No.12149003]

>22
>5'11
>USA
>dropped out of college halfway through junior year
>Wellbutrin XL 300mg
>valedictorian in high school, too much recognition. got accepted to dream university, got a big scholarship, went to a shitty local place because they were basically paying me tuition
>still undecided major when I quit
>worked in sales for a year. got pretty good at it but I hated it
>got a plain jane gf just to not be a virgin but she was boring
>currently NEET living with parents. great relationship with dad
>make music, work out, read, cook, vidya
>probably going back to college next semester for a business degree so I don't have to work minimum wage or commission

[Anonymous No.12150615]

>>12146576
What's his stance on that stuff?

[Anonymous No.12151171]

>18
>White
>Construction worker
>Aspiring runway model
>Always saw myself dedicating my older years to philosophy
>Picking up Critique of Pure Reason again after seemingly giving up after the 50th page.
>Technically have no huge future prospects, but I'm not in debt and I'm making good cushion money for when I start getting casted for shows/shoots.

[Anonymous No.12151186]

>25yo
>law degree
>hate my life
>quit my job and now neet
>no debt, 25k in the bank

I still haven't hit bottom but my God does it seem like I'm steering that way

[Anonymous No.12151195]

>>12151171
I want punch and kick the fuck out of her face.

[Anonymous No.12151198]

>>12151195
she's 15

[Anonymous No.12151202]

>>12149003
>Dropped out of college
>Going back
>In America
Are mommy and daddy rich? And why would you go to a college as a valedictorian with no major?

Unironically read Hamlet. I'm not even a huge Shakespeare fan.

[Anonymous No.12151206]

>>12151195
Lad.... take it easy.

[Anonymous No.12151209]

>>12151198
>you can punch women if they're old enough

[Anonymous No.12151216]

>>12151198
At what age would it be acceptable to you for that poster to punch and kick the fuck out of her face?

[Anonymous No.12151220]

>18
>White
>Stupid ass college student
>Wants to LARP as a renaissance era mystic
>Has bought hundreds of books, never opens them
>Spend most of my time planning out my day, never goes through with it
>Fat
>Unimaginably lazy
>Possible mental illness

[Anonymous No.12151240]

>>12142811
>22
>lesbian with 6/10 girlfriend
>graduated from private liberal art school
>worked at Disney, now working at bookstore
>lifts weights
>writes shitty philosophical treatises and rips off Hunter S. Thompson's gonzo journalism poorly
>used to practice martial arts but had to stop due to an injury that resulted in having metal plates installed into arm
>chainsmoker
>functional alcoholic

[Anonymous No.12151253]

Jesus Christ, why are all of you so fucking weird. I mean, not weird in the reddit kind of way but genuinely strange people. I'm trying my best to recommend a book to you all but I'm at a lost.

[Anonymous No.12151264]

>>12151253
don't forget where you are

[Anonymous No.12151283]

>>12151264
I'm on /lit/, where people (supposedly) actually enjoy putting energy into a hobby that people wish they could enjoy. /r9k/ is where fuck ups are supposed to go.

[Anonymous No.12151362]

>>12151283
>nonconformity and weirdness is bad
here's a book you'd be able to appreciate

[Anonymous No.12151390]

>>12151240
L
O
N
D
O
N

[Anonymous No.12151392]

>>12151362
Never said any of you were bad, but strange and hard to find proper book recommendations for.

[Anonymous No.12151399]

>>12142811
u should join the military

[Anonymous No.12151489]

>>12151390
As in Jack London?

[Anonymous No.12151611]

>>12151202
>rich
yep
still free though if I go back to the same school before I'm 25

>And why would you go to a college as a valedictorian with no major?
I wasn't required to select my major upon entering. As for why I never selected one, I couldn't decide between going full soulless STEMfag and humanities/arts. dropout was due to a breakdown

>Hamlet
kek, ouch
required reading, but thanks

[Anonymous No.12151625]

>>12143509
a really unfunny meme that they have adopted as a motto and retort to all self deprecating but relatable posts or OP's especially if the OP is asking for a recommendation of something gay, weak, pathetic or depressing. I have never not subvocalized the phrase in question with an unbearable high pitched upper middle class teenage pseud voice

[Anonymous No.12152482]

>25
>still living at home, near to no free apartments ever, and also not searching cuz fml
>dysfunctional family from lower middle class
>horrid grades cuz ADD and no medicamentation (yet)
>1st semester of masters degree, bachelor's took me around 5y
>too socially crippled to talk up women
>room full of books but I lose interest often
>last ones I tried were the kama sutra and Schopenhauers aphorisms
Life's disgustingly stale and sometimes I'm getting close to throwing it all away

[Anonymous No.12152508]

>23
>live with parents
>3 year general BA degree
>no job, not good at working
>never been in a relationship
>fairly ugly
>filled with contempt for modernity but don't picture myself succeeding outside of it
>not interested in self-help books
>really really enjoy cuddling with my little cousins, but they are growing up and not I think we get looks

[Anonymous No.12152618]

>straight A student in high school
>follow gf to a state college for engineering
>get bored and switch majors twice, settling on Biology
>gf breaks up with me in summer after freshman year
>become alcoholic
>get fat and mean and horribly depressed
>failing classes
>takes 5.5 years to get degree
>don’t even want to do anything with it
>worked as a fork lift operator for 10 years during this time
>approx 2 years after college still doing forklift
>fall in love with girl online
>talk everyday on the phone and Skype
>she basically saves my life
>become motivated again
>stop drinking
>pick up second forklift job
>lose 50 lbs
>working out everyday
>fall ass backwards Into a career as a cop
>she “breaks up” with me because I went to the police academy and I couldn’t communicate with her anymore
>accept it and am grateful for what she did for me
>currently 2 years into my career and haven’t be happier
>sober except on holidays
>making tons of cash
>lifting weights steadily

It’s weird man. My life has gone completely the other way I expected it to just 3 years ago

[Anonymous No.12152622]

>>12152618
killed many black kids recently?

[Anonymous No.12152630]

>>12152622
maybe. maybe not. would you care either way?

[Anonymous No.12152658]

>21 y/o NEET male from Scandinavia
>from rich family
>no high school diploma
>moved abroad and worked in Lisbon for one year but moved home because my father got cancer
>used to take 2 much drugs (coke, ecstasy)
>periodic alcoholist atm
>go to the gym several times a week
>haven't had sex since february

[Anonymous No.12152662]

>>12152622
is that a book?

[Anonymous No.12152669]

>>12152662
what are you the thread police

[Anonymous No.12152689]

>25
>just got offered a software engineering job but I'm already anticipating working nonstop and hating my life
>engaged to high school gf
>finishing the last draft of a book I've been working on for over a year
>depressed and periodically starving myself

[Anonymous No.12152706]

What the fuck is this thread? What happened to 4chan? Everyone’s a blogger

[Anonymous No.12152719]

>>12142953
try reddit