write what's on your mind

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Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:16:30 2018 No.12139913 [Reply] [Original]

write what's on your mind

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:17:03 2018 No.12139915 fuck jannies

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:20:24 2018 No.12139924 >>12139913 when I got really horny my pp only grew just enough to call pp hard and I always wondered It's normal or not

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:21:46 2018 No.12139928 Ainda contento que meus pais aprovam. Vim parar aqui na sua, a conheci era um janeiro quente meu rosto ensopado, reparei seu ombro nu. A tatuagem a mostra admirei, aquela frase sei já cantei.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:26:02 2018 No.12139944

Meme tank: pitch me a meme and I'll decide whether to invest in it

example:

That meme of the two muscular arms clasping each other in fraternity. One of the arms, maybe the white arm, is labelled "fart niggas" while the other black arm is labelled "shit niggas"

at the center, where the two men shake hands in friendship, is labelled "stuff that comes out your ass"

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:29:15 2018 No.12139955 >>12139913 I need something to stick up my butt when i jerk off, I'm unironically considering buying a prostate massager.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:39:01 2018 No.12139981 There’s this girl in my classes I keep breaking up with (in my mind) and finding reasons to why it wouldn’t work between us. But she is just so cute.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:40:10 2018 No.12139988 >>12139981 You're the reason it wouldn't work

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:41:14 2018 No.12139992 I usually use these threads to vent my frustration but I have just realised now it doesn't help. Nothing helps.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:42:43 2018 No.12139998 I am an üntermenschig weakling who can't hold jobs or lasting relationships together and whose attempts to lay off drugs and alcohol each time are met with failures. And without even a hint of shame as time goes by.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:43:11 2018 No.12139999 File: 21 KB, 363x550, ede2b35ab00e4365be8e199112a17567.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12139913 FUCK NIGGERS AND FUCK JANNIES!!!!

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:43:17 2018 No.12140002 >>12139988 I don’t disagree

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:51:31 2018 No.12140023

I have been in a relationship with this very demanding sensitive girl for almost a year: and though I want to love her truly I feel like I actually can't.
It feels like shit. I keep the delaying the time when I finally tell her and take flight or at least more space because I am so afraid of hurting and crippling her further.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:54:36 2018 No.12140028

There's a girl at work that I have a thing with but the thing is, she has a boyfriend of 3 years. She told me she has no idea what to do; break up with him and get with me or just stay with him. I don't even know why it would be a contest. This guy owns 3 tech companies and makes $120k a year and I'm just some part timer at a clothing store.

She's also a virgin and wants to wait for marriage to have sex (she's not religious, just scared of pregnancy.) I like her but I have no idea how I would go about making her break up with him since he's taking her to Hawaii in 2 weeks and she's about to move in with him to, "see if she really likes him."

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 13:58:02 2018 No.12140038 I wonder how many of these posts are real

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:00:15 2018 No.12140048 [DELETED]

>>12140028
>wants to wait for marriage to have sex
what if the sex is awful? why do people completely disregard the impact of sex in their relationships

>>12140028
>she has no idea what to do; break up with him and get with me or just stay with him
sounds like she can't make up her mind about things that should be very clear because she's emotionally stunted

I would avoid her

also fuck janitors!

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:01:48 2018 No.12140054 >>12140038 More than you'd suppose at first glance. Anonimity has a peculiar way of drawing out the straightforward and raw, even when it cloaks itself in hyperbole or irony.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:04:23 2018 No.12140059 I will pursue a career I hate, father children with a woman I will eventually despise, produce nothing of notable value, and die regretful.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:08:30 2018 No.12140068 File: 135 KB, 748x739, 1520171961614.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12139913 My wife's sweet potatoes are great. Fuck that old Chinese dude.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:10:17 2018 No.12140073 >>12140059 Don't, mate. Lay off the inertia if you can't find it in your heart to pursue this fate.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:10:55 2018 No.12140075 >>12139913 Boys and poetry, as usual desu :3

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:11:15 2018 No.12140076 >>12140059 And it's your own fault

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:12:23 2018 No.12140085 Almost all the posts on here are from incels about their oneitis crush that they can't approach - a great reminder that this place is no better than r9k

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:12:49 2018 No.12140086 >>12139913 My happiness has been steadily declining since I was four years old.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:13:11 2018 No.12140089 >>12139944 How about a giga nigga but instead it's a hulk-sized Trump? With his head like a basketball. Trump as a big orange angry ogre; we could capitalize on the already hot meme appeal of the Trump brand.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:14:14 2018 No.12140091 >>12140085 I've seen an influx of that crap too. I wish the hyperactive jannies would get on that case.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:15:37 2018 No.12140098 >>12139955 Or you could just hang out with me.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:16:19 2018 No.12140102 File: 154 KB, 494x491, 7A476D28-698D-453C-9D92-C6EE3D2D784B.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12139999 FUCK NIGGERS FUCK JANNIES FUCK SPICS AND FUCK JEWS

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:18:02 2018 No.12140105 >>12140102 based

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:18:26 2018 No.12140107 I wish I was a bbc addicted snowbunny grill desu.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:20:44 2018 No.12140120

So I was strolling down the streets yesterday. A girl from Ethics class came to me, she said "let me tell you." I asked "tell me what?" She went on about some Peter Singer guy and how we should be able to sex retards and animals if they make the first move. I said she was crazy and that's rape; they don't have the mental capacity to ever consent. Who was right?

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:22:03 2018 No.12140126 >>12140107 We could roleplay a little bit if you use your imagination.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:22:36 2018 No.12140128 >>12140120 The based retard and beast fucker was right. Who are you to judge someone else's right to consent?

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:26:19 2018 No.12140144 >>12139913 Slipstream is shit.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:27:33 2018 No.12140149 >>12140128 Yeah but who has the right to fuck someone or something without the capacity for consent? You're not supposed to creep over and fuck someone who is passed out drunk for the same reason.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:27:34 2018 No.12140148 File: 20 KB, 400x450, bluchan.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12139999 I bow to you quadman, let your numbers cleanse those who you oppose!

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:28:35 2018 No.12140154 >>12140149 >You're not supposed to Pure spook

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:29:44 2018 No.12140160 >>12140154 >Pure spook Pure splooge ;)

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:30:56 2018 No.12140161 >>12140149 >You're not supposed to creep over and fuck someone who is passed out drunk for the same reason. You can take it on assumption. On the basis that they probably would say yes and that you'd be their type.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:34:15 2018 No.12140178 I wish I lived as a game character, I wish I could change my stats according to my circumstances. I wish I could reach closer to perfection in whatever task I felt like by accruing xp, I wish I lived as a game character

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:36:17 2018 No.12140185 >>12140085 Stop banalizing feels, you pedantic fat fuck.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:39:27 2018 No.12140197 >>12139955 I work at a sex shop. There are plenty in the $20 dollar range. Don't be too uncomfortable. The person working there has seen much weirder shit and won't be judgey. Prostate massagers are pretty vanilla.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:43:52 2018 No.12140212 >>12140197 I always wanted to ask: how do you clean those vagina-like sex toys

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:48:16 2018 No.12140228 >>12139913 What is on one's mind?

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:49:03 2018 No.12140233 File: 297 KB, 901x676, 1540271866757.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12139999 I wish this was made a sticky

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:49:05 2018 No.12140234 File: 395 KB, 575x333, deleuze-and-guattari.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12139913 I wish I had a good pal to drink and complain about things with.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:50:19 2018 No.12140237 >>12140073 Inertia? >>12140076 I know, I chose this by doing nothing

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 14:50:43 2018 No.12140239 >>12140234 check your inbox ;)

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 15:35:25 2018 No.12140388 >>12140239 As empty as it ever was ahah

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 15:47:18 2018 No.12140414 >>12140212 I don't think they're the type of thing you can take in to get serviced.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 15:52:02 2018 No.12140433 Still haven't broken up with her bros

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 15:53:07 2018 No.12140435 >>12139913 I'm a noxious person, indecisive, moody and unlikable. Nobody will ever want to marry me, but ot doesn't matter. I don't feel anymore, I'm resigned and spiteful.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 15:55:03 2018 No.12140445 >>12140435 On a scale of 1 to 10 how unfair do you consider the world

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 15:59:12 2018 No.12140472
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I've been told many times by people here that behaviors like that having a crush, being attached to your friends, being discontent with society, or even just desiring things like a meaningful relationship are childish and naive and that you should "grow up" and abandon them. That you shouldn't care about unrequited love, you should try to bang as many hot women as possible. That you shouldn't try to improve the world, you should make a shit ton of money and spend it on hedonistic activities like attracting hot women who only care about your money but that's ok because you're supposed to have given up on liking women as people. I don't understand how people can do this, once you strip away all the romanticism from life and accept the "adult" values you're left with an ugly, base world carrying out a hollow, meaningless existence. To see the world through those "mature" eyes seems dreadful indeed. I'd rather keep the delusion, for at least it's warm and comforting and tells a story of something other than nihilistic pleasure-seeking and contempt for anything good and beautiful.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8YiWF5RULIc

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:02:30 2018 No.12140485 >>12140472 I like to think those are all memes and newfags who read Beyond Good and Evil once. Based wiseposter

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:03:25 2018 No.12140492

After months fighting with my girlfriend she finally asked "if I still want to stay with her" and that brought down all i had in plans. I was hoping that she would tire of me and initiate the breakup herself, but now I'm faced with this. I am incapable of making this decision and I don't know how to respond. I don't want to stay with her anymore, but my inertia and cowardice is too strong to give her a reply.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:04:04 2018 No.12140496

>>12140472
No one actually thinks like that, what are you on about?
Is this your idea of romanticism, to pretend everyone else is unromantic?

>>12140485
You make it sound like Beyond Good and Evil speaks against passion, but surely you're just saying newfags interpret it wrongly

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:04:53 2018 No.12140499

>>12139913
Today I bought a bottle of water from a vending machine that sold beer, chips, pregnancy tests, condoms, tampons and there was even a little vibrator thing called "Geisha".
It clearly said that it didn't give you change but I still put a one euro coin in it for a 0,50 cents bottle of water.
That was something.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:05:18 2018 No.12140505 >>12140472 Baby detected.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:05:19 2018 No.12140506 Give me something to write about. I'll write a small piece about whatever the first responder to this post suggests and post the results. Do you worst.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:05:35 2018 No.12140507 >>12140492 Say "Probably not" She'll be so disgusted by the half-assedness she'll be gone before the day's over

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:06:22 2018 No.12140510 >>12140506 the history of forks around the world be scholarly

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:07:24 2018 No.12140513 Fucking anatomy, I hate this shit so much, why the fuck did I decide on orthopedics.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:09:26 2018 No.12140520 Was so horny today i texted this girl and flirted with her so hard she ended up telling me all about her boobs and how she wish they were bigger.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:09:46 2018 No.12140521 >>12139913 My parents want me to study in a nearby city but I've decided to go as far as possible from here.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:14:54 2018 No.12140539 >>12140028 >boyfriend for 3 years > virgin shit b8

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:21:57 2018 No.12140567

I feel guilty for having sexual desires towards my gf. I've never had a gf and always felt guilty of wanking. I have programmed myself to be repulsed by sexual things. It took me three nights of sleeping with her until I initiated sex. She clearly wanted it much earlier but my dick wouldn't become fully erect and I literally told her I was afraid of sex. We have fucked now and my brain is being reprogrammed to link orgasms to sex with my gf, thus creating a desire for me to fuck her. I feel guilty about this. Before this, I considered her as a innocent creature, to be protected. Now I simply want to fuck her, and afterwards we can cuddle or watch a movie if she insists. I hate the male sex impulse

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:21:59 2018 No.12140568 Having a family is the only thing that will make me feel successful. How do people love their jobs and hobbies and talents? I feel like everyone’s been indoctrinated or brainwashed into contributing to the system while I just desire my necessities.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:23:24 2018 No.12140575 i've moved to a new city and started college in september and i still haven't talked to anyone for more than 30 seconds

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:23:27 2018 No.12140577 >>12140510 Sigh. You could have made this fun.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:24:11 2018 No.12140578

There is no such thing as "real" news. All news is propaganda created by the capitalist class in close cooperation with at least one political party or lobby. The rise of the term "fake news" is the mainstream media's attempt to suppress mass consciousness.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:24:18 2018 No.12140580 >>12140577 >the f word

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:25:19 2018 No.12140587 >>12140577 I was gonna respond with "time" but my post counter stopped me

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:25:36 2018 No.12140588

Hey, here i walk, just walk, with nothing to talk
Hey, i just watch, as the pink clouds turn red and the crowds becloud the sky
Hey, it comes and crumbs once again

Hey you, would you like me to act?
To put on my tiger mask, or perhaps bask my true inside self
Hey you, would you like me to pretend?
To cry and to smile?. Or to ask why and to sly?
Just for you, i must forego

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:26:57 2018 No.12140593 >>12140568 Everyone has a different drive in life anon. It's difficult to understand other people's motivations >>12140578 wow you're so woke

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:30:38 2018 No.12140610 >>12140577 that's on you

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:31:35 2018 No.12140613

>>12140577
Well here's what I came up with. Thanks for playing along.

According to some academics the fork was first invented by the Eastern Roman Empire of Byzantium where forks were first used during the 4th century AD. There are however conflicting accounts. In Italy in the 15th century forks saw a sudden renaissance of their own. Catherine de Medici took them to France when she married the King of France.

As far as we can tell forks were never quite a status symbol or emblem of elite breeding. They always had a workmanlike pervasiveness and popularity in the west. Prince and pauper alike would grab fork in hand to eat their peas. A knife, the original eating implement, had limited applications and could understandably lead to some rather unfortunate injuries.

As both a penetrating tool and a lifting utensil, the fork became the culinary innovation to be beat. You got your small and punch salad fork for delicate tea time eating, your oyster and fish forks for those who are so inclined as to favor the fruits of the sea, your trusty and iconic dinner fork, the elegant desert fork, and more besides. The devil, coincidentally carries an oversized fork called the pitchfork, for shoveling pitch, a tarry combustible substance which presumably keeps the fires of hell burning.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:32:36 2018 No.12140617
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ever since I was really depressed for a month or so I became unable to think clearly
it's like my mind is clouded all the time, I can't concentrate or do anything productive, especially in the morning and in the evening

it's driving me insane, at least it forces me to be more social, since I can't read, play vidya or watch anything requiring attention most of the time

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:36:40 2018 No.12140633 >>12140075 >produce how vapid and of no consequence like a child

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:39:59 2018 No.12140647 >>12140496 Well yeah, most of Nietzsche is interpreted wrong by newfags. I met one guy who said TSZ was about nihilistic atheism

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:45:43 2018 No.12140676 Guys, there is one of eng tests task and its kinda messing me. The sentence: Dolphins are so intelligent __ they can communicate with people. And 2 most true of 4 answers: for and because, but both of them are true imo!!! Innit?

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:46:11 2018 No.12140680

Can a society prosper without expectations?
Like, if me and everybody else just live their lives not expecting the future at all?
No plans for traveling, no next semester, no hopes and dreams for the future, not expect anything from the person next to you.
Just genuine joy of what's happening around us.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:46:24 2018 No.12140681 >>12140613 eh. scholarly doesn't necessarily translate to dry non-fiction. just being truthful to sources and boastful of knowledge would've sufficed. you could've written a pynchon pastiche, for example. anyways, i can't complain, you delivered

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:48:28 2018 No.12140691 >>12140680 >oh hey thats an intriguing thought, reminds me of- >"WOULDNT WE FINALLY BE ABLE TO BE HAPPY THEN, WITH NATURE?? :-D" Oh piss off

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:49:55 2018 No.12140697

for some reason, my human experience lead me to believe greater beings have created life. Our entire consciousness has built in intrinsic drives that keep us alive and growing. we have no choice in this. reality does not seem congruent, one could not see a single patch of earth or reality and figure out how the rest of the universe operates phsyically. i suppose im just thinking emotionally again

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:51:08 2018 No.12140703 >>12140185 what these losers experience isn't "feels," it's circlejerking and self-loathing, a way to 'legitimize' their "suffering" without any real action or effort. It all reads like the same script. Grow up.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:53:56 2018 No.12140712 File: 177 KB, 960x960, 1542438466605.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >have deep, original idea >find out someone else thought of it before you >everyone thinks you copied that someone else Why does this have to happen so often?

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:54:34 2018 No.12140715 >>12140676 both are wrong, it should be "that" dolphins' communication skills stem from their intellighence, not the other way around but just in terms of language, I think "for" doesn't fit well with "so", probably of some deep linguistic fuckery

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:54:37 2018 No.12140716 >>12140697 >Our entire consciousness has built in intrinsic drives that keep us alive and growing. Merely because all the alternatives ceased existing.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:55:39 2018 No.12140722 >>12140712 Post two (2) such ideas.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:57:16 2018 No.12140729 >>12140722 I once put a burrito, inside a burrito, inside the heart of that very same burrito, called it a Thurito. It's a total mindblinder, but you don't see me bragging about it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:57:28 2018 No.12140731 >>12139913 ugga chagga ugaga, ugga chagga ugaga, ugga chagga ugaga

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 16:58:16 2018 No.12140735 >>12140712 a lot of good philosophy feels like that. something you've known on a deep level from experience, put in words

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 17:03:45 2018 No.12140756 >>12140731 based Hasselhoff poster

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 17:14:58 2018 No.12140804 >>12140691 No one said anything about nature though.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 17:15:52 2018 No.12140809 Reading French is so damn easy. I just wish I could pronounce more than a quarter of the words.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 17:17:17 2018 No.12140816
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Halt. Stop right there! We are the 4chan secret police dispatched by his majesty Hiroyuki to apprehend all renegade posters and dissidents! Resist and you will be shot!

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 17:37:15 2018 No.12140894 the only one holding myself back is me and if i don't pour my soul into everything i'm doing then why bother

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 17:48:04 2018 No.12140930
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I was fired from my job and my girlfriend left me for another man all in the same week. It's such a strange feeling, I don't even feel any sadness anymore. I feel as if I'm a movie critic of some sort just looking back and critiquing all the moments leading up to it. The journey, the ride and the end. It's all such a sappy feeling.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 17:53:07 2018 No.12140938

I have an embarrassingly low rating (500) on chess.com and from what I've read if you're playing THAT bad it has to be because you're just placing pieces randomly and haphazardly with no real strategy. And yeah, honestly I'm so anxious while playing that I find myself barely staring at the screen and only half-thinking about what's going on but I'm just worried that I actually am so retarded that that is indeed a proper score for me because it's not like I'm not thinking about the game at all.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 17:55:22 2018 No.12140949 >>12140938 Could be worse anon, you could've gotten banned from the chess club at school because you grabbed the other player by the collar and screamed at them to forfeit because your were losing so badly, like I did.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 17:59:10 2018 No.12140958 I can't write.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 17:59:19 2018 No.12140960 I was just watching porn, and the background music was some variation of Schubert's Ave Maria. For some reason I got extremely aroused by this and my ejaculate hit the ceiling. I wonder what other classical music I could jerk to.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:04:48 2018 No.12140978

>>12140938
A 500 bloody rating? Do you know that's literally subhuman tier. Only thing that would save you is if your were under 10 or just started playing chess last week. Like, fuck sake, an elo rating of fucking 500!!!!!!! Hahahahahahahahahahaha hahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!?
Like, how is that even possible jheeze. Do you even know basic openings? What grades did you get in school? Check that, did you even go school? Fuuuuuuuuckkkkkkkkkkk!!!!! Wow, boy you need help. Literally. That low of an elo rating is inexcusable. Actually, just stop playing the game. It's it's only gonna affect your self esteem some more.

Oof!

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:15:33 2018 No.12141031

>>12139913
Why am I such a depressed narcissist?
I’m constantly in a uphill battle between two hill practically a plateau of self devaluation and overconfidence.
Within 20 minutes of being alone with my thoughts I feel God’s gift to the earth with complete dominion over all who’s in and within 5 minutes I’m the absolute worst person ever or at least a half notch below Hitler.
A useless parasite who’s belittling egotistical, rude with no disregard for anyone but himself

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:17:11 2018 No.12141039 >>12140089 ORANGE HULK BAD

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:18:26 2018 No.12141047 >>12140433 do it mate you might miss her but ripping the band aid is better for both of you in the long run

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:19:36 2018 No.12141056 >>12140472 how's 8th grade?

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:19:38 2018 No.12141057 >>12140978 I'm 20 but I have a mental age of 9 (well, technically 8 and a half) and I only just started playing chess like 12 minutes ago. So haha jokes on you buddy.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:26:27 2018 No.12141082

I'm from poor country in Central Europe. Sorry for my bad english but i never be good in foreign languages and have a little complex with that. Now I be in my bed and think about girl which I love. We are friends (at least I feel that) and I'm really scary to tell her what I feel.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:26:50 2018 No.12141085 >>12140507 Kekko

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:31:50 2018 No.12141101 I think these threads are blatantly off topic and filled to brim with self important self important litfags whose "problems" mainly revolve around a subconcious desire to create a certain aesthetic for themselves.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:36:22 2018 No.12141117

I’m a 21 year old neet and live with my parents. I’m taking my drivers license atm but I kinda suck.
My father has had cancer for the past year but he survived for now but the doctor said it will come back and it will be the end of him.

I have around 160 000 € on my bank account. And my father is a millionaire so I will probably inherit a lot (sharing with 3 other siblings).

I’m haven’t even got grades for a high school degree because I was lazy and depressed during that time. Doing a lot of drugs didn’t rly help either.

I’m a disappointment atm but I will fix my grades now I think. I want to make my father proud so I might apply for military service.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:45:13 2018 No.12141153 >>12141101 stop it

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:47:57 2018 No.12141163

>>12141101
Agreed
Void yelling though more healthy than cutting yourself, smoking, or drowning yourself in alcohol they all achieve a similar impact:
Proverbial tail chasing.

Thinking your going far just because you’re moving around in the exact same spot.

“Attempting” to fix your problem by circling around it however never ever coming close to actually solving it is often times a more poor use of your time than drowning in alcohol.

At least with alcohol your damaged reflection could be your motivator.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:49:43 2018 No.12141177 >>12141117 fuck you

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:49:56 2018 No.12141180

>>12141031
You don't know who you are. Value yourself on your actions and the actual things you have done in the past, not on the made-up personality you think is you.

Why, that's pretty much your own fault. Sure it was culture and your shitty upbringing, but you are the one who constantly keeps it going.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:52:18 2018 No.12141192 File: 50 KB, 351x445, buddha3.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >tfw you realize the transcendental oneness of everything but still hate niggers

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 18:58:46 2018 No.12141232 >>12141117 you have money so that shit doesn't even matter you will have a better life than most of us fuckkkkkk you

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 19:03:10 2018 No.12141247 >>12141117 Give me your money, I will put it to better use than you ever could!

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 19:06:45 2018 No.12141261

>>12141180
Exactly

Though we all may daydream to be Chad, Hugh Hefner or a multi billionaire there’s far more the world needs and appreciates than the extremely lucky few.

There’s still comfort and satisfaction is simply being you.

You’re own talents such as being amazing at numbers, organizing events that go smoothly, or having the reassuring mental silence to hearing yourself think loud and clear

The “beautiful people” we dream to be could be themselves dreaming

“I wonder what it would be like to be a mailman?”

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 19:10:20 2018 No.12141275
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>>12141192
Having hate in your heart is similar to drinking poison and expecting the other man to die.

Gimping yourself from the experiences of the world is thinking you are a giant because you’re world is a big as a speck of dust.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 19:12:21 2018 No.12141281 File: 3 KB, 416x421, coincidence.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12141192 Your hatred is misplaced. Don't hate the attack hound, hate the man who continues to breed them.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 19:32:16 2018 No.12141364
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Why have ambitions? No matter what you do no one will care about you once you die. Why would they? They never met you. Are you really gonna like yourself more if you do something like start a huge business or become president? Will that make you a better person? Why even be a better person in the first place? It won't matter when we're dead.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 19:39:52 2018 No.12141394 >>12139928 baseado

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 19:41:59 2018 No.12141404
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I have the opposite problem people on this board seem to have: I can't stop reading. When I sit down and pick up a book I generally finish it in one go. I often end up reading till the first lights of the morning.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 19:42:32 2018 No.12141406 File: 74 KB, 600x760, whitepill.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12141364 babby's first existential crisis

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 19:44:43 2018 No.12141416 >>12141364 reach your peak potential or get off the stage, bucko

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 19:46:39 2018 No.12141421 >>12139955 >>12140197 I'd sooner inject heroin than stoop this low.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 19:49:26 2018 No.12141433

>>12140472
I see myself as sort of a half and half of that. All of the romace in terms of wanting to find a companion I enjoy spending time with are on the backburner but I just want to eke out an existence doing menial labor, donating to charities I know do good stuff when I can and trying to be nice to people. Thinking about it gives a really warm and comforting feeling and that means it's got to worth something. Don't change, anon, we'll do good here.

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>>12141433
Samefag.

I'm thinking I'm just going to muddle through my life. Pick up menial jobs and tasks to keep me entertained. Maybe I'll do a bit of farming for when the end times come. I'll hopefully have a nice little fortress for myself then. Gates to keep anyone or anything out for the first initial death wave. In the very heart of my little fortress I'll have some of my favorite memories from 4chan written down in a chest along with an English decoder for any aliums that may be doing archaeology there along with whatever else I deem worthy of mankinds legacy.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 20:02:16 2018 No.12141489
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>tfw you find a really good tutorial on youtube that teaches you everything you need to know about programming in OpenGL so you follow it and now you gotta turn in the assignment but my code is 80% not mine

really hoping I don't get a plagiarism notice

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 20:04:33 2018 No.12141501 >>12141489 spend some extra time fucking with it. make it yours. either that or just dont. they fuckin know

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 20:04:55 2018 No.12141504 File: 25 KB, 480x480, Savage.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12141416 >>12141406 I like you guys you don't play nice you're honest.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 20:08:58 2018 No.12141522 >>12139955 lol just have sex with women you freak

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 20:09:54 2018 No.12141526
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>>12141501
ill try to bump those percentages to 30% and fudge with variable names but I dont thnk i can do more than that. And anyways the professor also supplied like 50% of the code so we can focus on the more improtant parts

if I had balls Id just ask him but im afraid he'll say no and I dont have enough time to do everything from scracth. I think im just going to gamble.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 20:11:58 2018 No.12141533

>>12141057
I'm 20 and have the mental age of a 14-15 year old. Fair enough if you started 12 minutes ago. Watch this guy on YouTube:https://m.youtube.com/channel/UCHz5JQAUSkjxrosDIWCtEdw
He taught me a lot and even has a basic to intermediate chess playlist.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 20:27:08 2018 No.12141597 >>12141526 may the odds ever be in your favor

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 20:36:08 2018 No.12141627 >>12140120 she was coming on to you, retard

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 20:43:10 2018 No.12141652 >>12141627 That's some next level autism to use animal and child sex as your opening line.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 20:47:48 2018 No.12141674

>>12141652
>see classmate who might be retarded
>"hey, I'm down to fuck retards if they initiate"
>he looks at me funny
>realize he's not retarded
>"oh and uh and animals too haha"
>walk away
>go home and complain about troubles of being a fembot on /r9k/
you dodged a bullet anon

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 21:04:02 2018 No.12141739 >>12139913 too much haiting not enough loving, how do i stop this ?

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 21:25:31 2018 No.12141814 >>12141533 I was just kidding with that post for the most part. I've been playing for a few days now.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 21:43:59 2018 No.12141882
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Like magnets we unite in pairs, or groups to have relationships, to love. We don't love directly but make games of it. All types of relationships are loves game. And the music begins proceeded by an initial rhythm, that is, the boundaries of ones existence, the body. The act is the rhythm, the passion the music. And we smile, and sing and dance and now I think of her. We took each other's hands, heart beats fell into accord, life flowed through us. And the fruit we bore was barren and so we parted. Now, this, the vacume where meaning dwelled with the sole intent to dwell. Am I really supposed to deny this in order to be free? Because it seems to me to be the gift chosen if given the freedom. That is. To dwell in love.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:02:28 2018 No.12141953 Why the fuck does mellow music make me contemplate shit? Also if I see another dumb fucking twitter/instagram meme I am going to fucking lose it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:03:23 2018 No.12141959 >>12141882 >Like magnets we unite in pairs Magnets unite as opposites, any number of magnets will stick together if you bring them close to eachother.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:06:12 2018 No.12141975 >>12141814 Still, watch his videos on chess you non sentient brainlet!

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:06:53 2018 No.12141977
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Anyone else notice how people who heavily lean on citing logical fallacies during their arguments are always stupid as fuck and usually don't understand the fallacies they're citing? I see this so much, it can't just be me.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:09:56 2018 No.12141993 >>12141977 I find that dogposters are also stupid as fuck.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:09:58 2018 No.12141994 >>12141977 yeah theyre fucking idiots

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:16:34 2018 No.12142010 >>12141993 Wow what the fuck?

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:21:40 2018 No.12142028
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>>12141977
People who even give a fuck about 'logic' when arguing are psueds. The only objective measurement of succuss in a debate is convincing the other side. Doesn't matter how the fuck you do it, the art lies in that task only through words and not fists. Bowing to logic makes you weak. Only god comes before my immediate unfiltered thoughts

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:21:56 2018 No.12142029 fuck dogs

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:22:06 2018 No.12142030 >>12141977 Yup. Ad hominem and No True Scotsman are the most abused.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:22:53 2018 No.12142031 >>12139913 amazing how accurate this picture is

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:39:49 2018 No.12142087
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I've currently got to write an entire term paper that I am not writing for this instead.
I'm in the middle of an Adderall high that I purposefully gave myself in the break of my Calc III class to help me focus on the paper
But instead I'm writing this right now because even when I am able to fully focus on what actions to do, I still needlessly procrastinate on something I have to have done by tomorrow morning.
My mind is as still as a lake without breeze, and I can see the horizon of the lake, as it touches the sky like a silver sheen against violet, and as I continue on the lake keeps expanding and expanding further along, while my mind keeps trying to view the whole lake. The lake as an image is as much an abstract description of a multi-variable function f(x,y,z) being brought to infinity and I've got to find all the critical points and the sum of the function at those points. Of course, being a function brought to infinity where the exponent of the numerator is greater than that of the denominator, its never going to reach zero, so I can't do it.
I failed, just like I've failed every single test on the subject I've taken for the last semester, and I've an online quiz that I've yet to start due at 11:59pm, which is the only sort of saving grace I have at this point to save any form of passable grade, so I can get off academic probation and finally get financial aid again.
The lake isn't still anymore.

Now I rebound back into the stillness of ever expansion.
There's a noise in the background; my mind is screaming, not at anything in particular. Just as a sort of catharsis.
Interjected are bits of inebriated clarity as to why I would allow myself to reach such a stressful event of my own accord, answered by itself by my clear and acknowledged lack of self-control, and replied with that it's why no matter my youth, I have willing cast my fate into something I cannot reclaim control over, too far gone. Even when I remind myself I've years of life to head to pick up and fix my mistakes, I know that they're just lies I tell myself to comfort me with a non-existent control.
Then it goes back to a brief silence, reinterrupted with the reminder that I'd ought to be writing my paper, due at 8:00am tomorrow morning, as well as doing the math quiz I need to do to save my grade so I can save my GPA.

I'll be back to my paper. I'd ought to not have taken however many minutes I had taken to write this self-defeating, freshman-tier deterministic angst-fest from an eventual NEET, so sorry for shitting up the thread with it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:42:04 2018 No.12142091 >>12142087 based addiehigh poster

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:47:31 2018 No.12142110 >>12141404 based

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:48:33 2018 No.12142111 How do I find boutique / meme literary journals?

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:53:05 2018 No.12142119
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>>12141406
>We can reduce human attributes to the brain
>Reducing the mechanism to its parts invalidates the mechanism's purpose
>Therefore, our consciousness and emotions do not matter
Name one (1) other situation in which this is a valid argument.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 22:59:09 2018 No.12142134 >>12141117 >Have money for free >Invest it >Never work, play video games and fuck thots. Woooooow, that was hard.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 23:04:33 2018 No.12142144

>>12139913
i recently realized that my imagination might not be normal...
I look at my radiator bar and see it become an aspen, the bar sheds itself and reveals a grandma below, her eyes are sown shut and blood oozes between the stitches, she pulls out a clock and swings it like a pendulum and whistles in the way my radiator does, her eyes unmoving from my body and her other hand draws circles over my body, begging for the next ring of her life to expand and her wrinkles to deepen

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 23:07:13 2018 No.12142150 >>12142144 yeah that's pretty weird

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 23:12:32 2018 No.12142164 >>12141975 I did and now my toaster is on fire, fuck you.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 23:13:29 2018 No.12142168 >>12141364 Live for yourself. Have ambitions because your life will be more vibrant and interesting for it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 23:21:03 2018 No.12142186 >>12142150 that was in a minute at will too, very strange

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 23:29:03 2018 No.12142210 >>12140472 You must be 18 or older to post here.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 23:33:22 2018 No.12142226

I'm afraid of dying. I remember being 4 years old as clearly as yesterday. I became 6 in a blink, and was entering kindergarten. Soon after that I was old enough for junior high, then I left high school. I was 17 years old five years ago. Now I'm 22, and the year 2018 is ending. It feels like I'll blink again and be 40. I'll blink again, and if we've spent our lives together like we dream about today, me or my significant other will be dead, and the one that remains will be old and alone.

Is there medication for this? I take lexapro.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 23:33:47 2018 No.12142228 >>12142210 This is 4channel, a family friendly webpage site.

Anonymous Mon Nov 26 23:36:42 2018 No.12142238
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>>12139913
I'm writing a short five page paper for the sake of a grade. It's due in about 7 hours and I'm just now about to finish page 4, yet it's taken me about the whole day to even get this far. Procrastination, browsing this site, and an overwhelming feeling of not wanting to write this fucking paper has been keeping me back. I'm supposed to be commenting on the state of the education system in the US yet I'm only allowed to use four sources, two of which have to be from texts my professor has given me throughout the semester. I'm arguing for outright reform of said system yet each time the whole commentary appears to be shallow due to myself being vague on what that reform would entail, since I don't believe myself to be well equipped enough to make such a judgement. Honestly, I just don't care to write about it anymore.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 26 23:38:14 2018 No.12142242 >>12139913 I put so much effort into my virtual dragon micronation idea and nobody cares and that makes me sad

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:09:51 2018 No.12142336
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>>12142087
My entire adult life consists of failing every non-menial task I've had placed upon due to a lack of self-control, and whenever I think I've finally been able to get a grip, I slip and fall back into the whirlwind of living in the moment, and in brief moments of lucidity I see the consequences I've wrought to myself, and the only escape at this point I can see is death, the only meaningful comfort the thought of no longer existing to endure the self-hatred, but I know that I'm too much of a coward to actually act on those impulses

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:15:24 2018 No.12142355 The fire leaps up with my soul inside it.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:17:21 2018 No.12142364 About to break 27 days of nofap. I'm at my limit but at the same time I feel I should try for 3-4 more days

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:21:08 2018 No.12142384 >>12140676 use "because", "for" is used when you want to appear intelligent

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:25:08 2018 No.12142394 >>12142384 But because makes it sound like communicating with humans is what made them so intelligent

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:27:39 2018 No.12142404 >>12142028 Fucking this. Fuckers need to stop shoving their faces in worthless 'how to win argument' books thinking it will make them any more intelligent.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:28:56 2018 No.12142410

>>12142242
Nobody cares about things made for others to care about. Just do you anon and enjoy the process. If it's quality no barrier will prevent it from reaching the right readers. I've been obsessively constructing a historical setting for like 3 years now and nobody I know gives a fuck about it except if it can possibly bring money and fame. I do it because I can't think of doing anything else

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:29:53 2018 No.12142412 >>12142364 Keep going anon, trust me, giving in isn't worth it at all. It only serves to further torment you

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:30:25 2018 No.12142415

I could use a little more joie de vivre. I've become so joyless over the years, really for over a decade. Call it maturity if you want but I call it a shame.

Sometime I watch a video or see a group of happy adolescents stroll by and I can see the love of life leap from their breaths. I don't think I consistently felt that way since I was an adolescent, with the exception of a serendipitous few years in my early twenties when everything in my life fell into an exquisite constellation of optimality. I was fit, occupied with measurable goals, surrounded by good friends, encompassed by nature's tranquility, supplied with all the amusements and fucks a young man could ask for. But it went up in vapors as soon as it arrived and the dark tunnel I was to emerge into has not left me.

The last fleeting instant that I felt a deep sense of contentedness was this Thanksgiving. I traveled out to my relative's who lives in a beautiful rural town with more cows and horses than people. Their house was an idyllic little gingerbread house jacketed by the recent snows and glowing on the inside with an oasis of warmth and coziness. For the past several years I've lived in nothing but cities and the grease and grime have clotted my eyes and ears. I'm meant to live around nature but I can't find a way to make a living out there.

I'm tired of cursing life waiting for it to end and for thinking happiness is something that happens to other people.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:35:00 2018 No.12142431 >>12139913 I love what the keto diet will do to my body (which, if I do it right, is lose weight). I hate what it does to my moods (not being an absolute fatass and eating the carbs I crave). Any short poems for this feel?

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:44:56 2018 No.12142462

>>12142415
Well it seems like it is something you've experienced not just as a child but also a young adult. You are beginning to comprehending what makes you happy or not, use this knowdge to help you further. But imo, I think chasing happiness is pointless and destructive. The times where I am so into whatever task is at hand that the whole world and time just dissipates behind me is what I constantly seek. Adjust your lenses for interest not joy. Joy is a reaction not a state of mind. As long as I'm reasonably content in the times outside of that intense focus I'm good. For me it's basic necessities, nice living environment outside the house, close to my parents and siblings, and intimate relationship with a mother of my kids. It's simple but surprisingly difficult to obtain nowdays, especially the last part lmao

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:46:18 2018 No.12142466 I don't understand anything

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:46:57 2018 No.12142470 >>12141163 Well said

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:48:29 2018 No.12142475

>>12142415
I still feel like blogging so to continue.

What would bring this coveted joy about? My mind offers up a few feeble guesses. A deep romantic love, perhaps, but I've always felt such affections were on bought time. They expire, passions fade, infatuations give way to disillusionments. Someone fails you. It's a terrible bargain and one I do not accept.

Wealth, power, prestige? Nice things, but just so many trinkets and ribbons. Money could make more possible but it won't change the fundamental disposition of my temperament, which is in essence brooding. Power is a drug but I have no need for others to do my bidding. And while it can be reassuring to be well known, it's my preference to fly under the radar.

So the truth is I don't know. I lack that self-understanding. Meaningful work, perhaps, but work is still work and always has a begrudging aspect. Another truth is that nobody knows what will do the trick for them. You either find yourself in that position or you find yourself out in the cold. To work toward something, you need to have that something in mind, a definite picture, a result state. But if I don't know what will make me happy as opposed to simply bring me pleasure there's frankly nothing I can think to do.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:49:51 2018 No.12142478 >>12142462 I'm not pursuing happiness in the vain hedonistic sense. It's more peace of mind. That's the essential part. I can (and have) lived without happiness. Like any good writer lol.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:54:10 2018 No.12142488 >>12141163 How is posting in these threads any different from writing in my diary desu? It's just open to be read and social. I could be doing either at the moment but I opt for this because I don't want to be locked in my own head right now.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 00:56:34 2018 No.12142498 >>12142412 Yeah, I thought better of it.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 01:39:50 2018 No.12142622 I have talked my way into a great job which I have absolutely no qualifications or ability to do. I feel like resigning before I even start so I don't fuck it up.

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>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 02:11:59 2018 No.12142666 >>12142649 Literally smash your pc and phone. Don't think, just do it. Whatever thought that pops up to stop you just ignore it. You'll be miserable for a little while but in a few months you'll thank me. Do it faggot. Today is the day.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 02:16:43 2018 No.12142675 I want a cute son dang it. This desire to be a father never occurred to me before until recently. I just thing it would be such a pure form of love. And watching him grow into a man would be so gratifying in some deep, private way.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 02:21:53 2018 No.12142681 File: 73 KB, 596x600, MORGAN FREEMAN.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Is this board moderated by bots or high minded individuals? I just want to know if I am being banned for being a pseud or if I am being banned by a bot while being a pseud

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 02:26:39 2018 No.12142690 I wish trump actually was literally hitler. At least then I would get free healthcare and education.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 02:33:15 2018 No.12142705

>>12142675
Well you know the drill. It's easy. You don't need 99% of shit pushed on parents nowdays to incorporate with your children. Once he's like 8 or 9 just let him wander and do whatever the fuck he wants. All the important things are developed before that age. If he becomes a drug addict because you arent giving him all the frivolous shit given to kids today after that age than you failed instilling values and beliefs in his early childhood. Be around him, but don't dedicate your life to your kid. It's pathetic and he'll resent it when he's older as well as faltering because he wasn't around a strong independent male figure growing up. Those dad's acting like mothers around their kids especially boys, makes me sick. It's either being an abusive asshole to your kid or his little bitch, there's never an inbetween with these people

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 02:37:34 2018 No.12142710

>>12142675
>grows up to be another damaged and neurotic shitposter on 4chan

You can try your best, but you can never fully control your children anon. Even the best upbringing cannot stop them from becoming reprobates or just broken people in general.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 02:38:36 2018 No.12142711 I want to die

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 02:48:03 2018 No.12142737 I don't want to wear a mask, but I can't reveal who I am. There are consequences. I won't pretend to be someone I'm not, but I don't know how to be truthful, without drawing attention to what I'm trying to keep to myself.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 02:48:55 2018 No.12142740

>>12142711
No you don't. If you really did you'll be dead. I'm sure whatever situation or mental state you're currently in is telling you that's there is no way out, you're trapped, it's pointless to change, everything other than suicide is a cope, you'll always feel like this whatever you do blah blah blah. I went through the same shit. 100% I thought it was the overanalyzing and philosophy I subject myself to but really it was because I had bad diet, terrible sleep schedule, weed addiction, no friends or gfs and was living at home forcing me into the role I was assigned growing up. No doubt your situation is a little different but it really isn't as bad as you think it is. Am I happy? No. Do I want to die still? No. I had a near death experience during my suicidal times that kicked that delusion right out of me. Facing the reaper is terrifying, especially with regret

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 02:53:31 2018 No.12142746 >>12142740 I want to add also that I'm not discounting outside influences effecting your mental state. But acting like a victim to it helps nobody, especially yourself. We all must make do with the time we're givin

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 03:31:34 2018 No.12142817

>>12139913
Why did my dad have to be a fag. He married my mom knowing he was gay. He had his first-born child knowing he was gay. He had his second child knowing he was gay. Then he had me, knowing he was gay. Then he decided to be a shit father who yelled at me for having anxiety all the time and faought with mom. Then, when Im 14, he decides to randomly tells us he's gay and leaves us. Mom barely found a job in time to be able to pay the mortage, we almost lost the house. Not weeks later he tried killing himself, he told me so over a text message. I was 14 and had to be the one to tell my mom and siblings that our dad tried to kill himself. Then he becomes a fucking drug abusing meth head degenerate, so much so that after naively inviting him to come to my high school graduation ceremony, I walked into his apartment to find him passed out asleep after a bender. I almost missed the ceremony. Then he disapears and I dont see him for 3 years. During this time, its just me and my mother at the house, as my two siblings have gone off to uni and started their own lives and got jobs and found people who loved them. I went to a local community college and got a two year general studies degree in three years, commuting to class by riding the city bus. I had no friends in high school and none in college. No girlfriends. No job. No drivers license. Desperately lonely. My mom grew to hate me more and more as she saw what a loser I am, but seemed to only love my siblings more and more. So it was just me. Nobody was there to support me. After I finished my degree nobody congratulated me even though it was a huge accomplishment for me. My mom decided not to celebrate. In April I decided to get my drivers license to impress my family, show them Im normal. I only had my mom to learn from though and she was very annoyed whenever I asked her to go practice with me. I barely passed the test, I actually got the fucking score that you need to pass. One point less and I wouldnt have. My brother and sister congratulated me, not mom. In May, I got my first job at 21 to again try to impress my mom and show her Im not a loser. Just a seasonal retail job, but it wasn't easy for me to get it because I was still an anxious shy kid just in a larger adult body. I got the job and she didn't care at all, of course. Over the summer me and my brother found out where my dad was living and went to see him, for the first time in 3 years. That was kind of nice, he's mellowed out and lives a quiet life by the beach. On the drive back home, me and my brother were talking. So much was going on in his life, and for me, nothing.As the next few weeks went by I realized how pointless this all is. I quit my job abruptly on the 15th, the first week after my promotion to full time and a decent raise. I could have finally moved out, gotten away from my soulless mother. But I thought about how I have no friends. No girlfriend. And I don't think I ever will. No reason to work.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 03:40:37 2018 No.12142831

>>12142817
Do you have some money saved up? Go on a trip. Get out or your routine. You obviously have no responsibilities and not many care about your presence. Figure out a place you're interested in and check it out. Come home with a fresh face. Do not succumb to expectations of the future or regret from the past

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 03:54:00 2018 No.12142860

>>12142817
(cont) No reason to work, nobody there to support and provide for. I was sad quitting my job, because the people there smiled at me when they saw me, and I smiled at them, and they also said good morning to me every morning. Not all of them liked me because I am very awkward, but some really did I think. My supervisor was a cool guy in his mid 40's, who basically became my dad and gave me life advice and lent me his ear whenever I wanted to talk about something. A lady there, a very pretty and sweet motherly-looking lady, always took care of me and asked me how I was, and she smiled and waved whenever she saw me. As sad as it is, I sometimes liked pretending they were my real parents, at least they cared about me. Regardless, I quit. That was a couple weeks ago and now I'm back to being a loser neet, I have a couple thousand in the bank that should last a while until I get another job.
I wanted to vent tonight even though I hate when others do it, because I dont know what to do. Nobody will have me. I know that doctor said I have aspergers but I don't think that's enough for not one person to love me. Maybe I'm one of those people life just doesn't work out for. And the worst part is that I only exist because of a lie. I only exist because my dad was so cowardly that he hid his true self and pretended he was straight. Im just a fucking prop. It keeps going through my head. Just a prop. Just a prop. A farce. Useless. Fucking useless.
And once again tonight I will lie down and dream of a different life.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 04:02:33 2018 No.12142870

>>12141977
I always hated this during school debates in high school or college.
You say something and then they'd just respond with uhm that's a red herring or you're using circular reasoning or whatever
I'd always just say so? back to them.
They were always more obsessed with criticizing your tactics rather than your argument

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 04:05:20 2018 No.12142876

>>12142831
Thanks for the advice anon. I do have $2700 in my bank account. I seriously was thinking earlier about buying a shitty used car for a thousand bucks and just driving to some quiet small town and finding a job there. Or take a trip somewhere like you said anon. But why do that if I don't have someone there who loves me? Thats the core problem Im having. That I have been deprived of love my entire life, and desperately want it, but am too much of an autist to get it. If I didn't still have a tiny flicker of optimism that I just need to meet the right girl, and say the right things, and stand the right way, and make the right amount of eye contact, that maybe they will fall in love with me and I'll be happy.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 04:11:09 2018 No.12142885 Is it reasonable for a girl to invite you to movies, gym ect just as a friend? Been on my mind recently

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 04:11:38 2018 No.12142887
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>>12142876
>But why do that if I don't have someone there who loves me? Thats the core problem Im having. That I have been deprived of love my entire life, and desperately want it, but am too much of an autist to get it. If I didn't still have a tiny flicker of optimism that I just need to meet the right girl, and say the right things, and stand the right way, and make the right amount of eye contact, that maybe they will fall in love with me and I'll be happy.
I can understand where you're coming from because I've felt it also. But honestly you have to stop thinking like this. Meeting a nice girl won't solve all your problems. And no girl wants to be with some desperate guy, you can't be desperate for love. Girls can smell it. And also when being so desperate you're willing to accept someone less than you could probably get just because you want love.
I was the same as you, then I got with a girl, then a few more girls and realized they don't make you happy. They can be a source of happiness in your life, but they'll never be the only thing you need. After 2 and a half straight years of me constantly searching for love or hookups, incredibly desperate, I now have zero interest in having a gf right now. If someone great were to come along then cool, but I'm not searching for one and have stopped allowing girls to walk all over me in the hopes that I get some love or pussy.
It's not fucking worth it. Go on a roadtrip alone, I have plans to travel and in my travel plans there is no girl with me

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 04:12:34 2018 No.12142889 life sux

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 04:15:06 2018 No.12142893

>>12142885
Case by case basis
I don't think I've ever had a true "female friend" before though. Any female I hangout with as friends I always end up catching feelings for or being infatuated. Therefore I don't have any female friends anymore cause they always leave my life after like a year because of things like that

So I don't really have any female friends and never really have, they've just all been mates waiting to happen

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 04:21:53 2018 No.12142903

>>12142893
Yeah my thought too. I know it's almost impossible to answer the question from just a bit of text but wanted to vent. When I was younger I would have obviously asked her but these days I wouldn't be convinced unless she confessed her feelings overtly. Talk about low energy

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 04:24:18 2018 No.12142909

>>12142903
For me having a female friend is usually too annoying and high maintenance for me. Often it feels like having a gf without being able to fuck them.
I usually don't get along well with girls who have lots of friends but especially lots of male friends. They always seem way too open and at the same time you have this inability to get close to them.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 04:47:30 2018 No.12142956 >>12139913 Fellas... I'm literally bleeding from my dick right now Anyone want to give me the skinny on what's causing that??

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 04:53:15 2018 No.12142963 >>12142956 You should probably go to the doctor.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 04:59:11 2018 No.12142973 >>12142963 I really probably should shouldn't I It's stopped now but I'm still a little rattled to be honest

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 05:07:39 2018 No.12142996

>>12142887
Maybe you're right. But I'm afraid your point will never resonate with me until I learn it for myself. And I have to defend myself; Im not simply desperate for some pussy, nor would I be a doormat for some cunt, nor do I think a girl is the one thing that will fix me. Anon, I have not felt love ever in my life with anyone, I've never had a friend whom I felt "friendship" with, and the only two family members I would truthfully say that I feel anything at all for is my two siblings. I'm 21 years old. Barring the issue being my genuine inability to feel love, I need to know what it feels like to build a connection with someone who is not family. I think I'm just having a hard time accepting that love is a privilege, not something everyone gets.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 06:28:10 2018 No.12143168 >>12141163 >written introspection is bad Kill yourself. >>12142470 See above.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 06:56:03 2018 No.12143248

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>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 07:10:14 2018 No.12143290 >>12139913 constant screaming

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 07:26:27 2018 No.12143325 I've let my go in terms of weight In terms of sleep schedule In terms of motivation In terms of diet I'm disgusting and barely functioning. I'm surprised I made it this far in school. I'll be shocked if I pass my class that I'm expecting to fail.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 08:06:58 2018 No.12143433 >>12141977 ad hominem gets misused the most. They think a personal attack ("you fat ugly incel") is ad hominem, even if it isn't being used to discredit their argument.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 08:36:50 2018 No.12143485 I regret not following my life's dream of being an Olympic figure skater and it will follow me until I die.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 08:52:58 2018 No.12143519 Anyone know if jailbreaking paperwhites is still a thing? My kobo's broken I'm thinking about getting one

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 08:55:47 2018 No.12143523 >>12139913 Creating a story about defying destiny isn't feasible desu

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 09:52:41 2018 No.12143708 Alright guys I'm doing it I'm breaking up with her

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 09:59:42 2018 No.12143738 >>12143708 Me too. Good luck to us.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 10:16:34 2018 No.12143788 >>12143708 >>12143738 i did earlier this year and she still fucks me, got a good deal

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 10:21:07 2018 No.12143805 what do you do when you're too tired to read, watch, listen or work?

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 10:22:03 2018 No.12143812 >>12143805 i usually cry, drink and sleep

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 10:22:34 2018 No.12143815 >>12143805 shitpost on 4chan

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 10:31:17 2018 No.12143850 >>12140472 Good post anon

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 10:34:04 2018 No.12143868 Just got done, she accepted it but took it hard, but I knew that beforehand >>12143738 How about you bro

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 10:36:02 2018 No.12143879 >>12143868 She doesn't wants to accept, we are fighting and I'm digging myself deeper into a hole every minute.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 10:38:16 2018 No.12143887 >>12143879 Smh brah, did you start compromising? How about "Actually, forget the conversation until now. I started saying things not for my sake but for yours. On second thought I'm done for real."

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 10:43:11 2018 No.12143907 File: 328 KB, 800x778, 1E782557-5563-46C0-B06A-145ADFABAE0E.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Sex doesn’t exist

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 10:45:07 2018 No.12143922 >>12143907 if only

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 10:50:00 2018 No.12143943 >>12140068 Fuck man, why are sweet potatoes so good? I need to find myself a potato cooking woman.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 10:59:41 2018 No.12143965 >>12143887 I'm afraid of closure, and I feel guilty about leaving her despite the relationship being joyless.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 11:02:37 2018 No.12143972 categorising every single abstract idea, visual thing, concept, philosophy, individual into two or three broad categories

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 11:03:09 2018 No.12143975 >>12143965 Well damn, nevermind, you're the exact opposite of me. I'm afraid of things not being closed and at some point coming back to bite me. Which is also why I avoid even opening shit in the first place

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 11:04:04 2018 No.12143979 >>12143972 -based -redpilled -cringe

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 11:57:29 2018 No.12144156

My uni accommodations have these shitty florescent lights that make me feel like I'm in a hospital ward, it's incredibly not-comfy I don't know how to improve it. I can't seem to adequately light my space with a lamp and too often dark and overcast to rely on natural light.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 11:58:42 2018 No.12144160 How do I actually study philosophy instead of just reading texts and nodding along to whatever the author is saying?

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 12:09:06 2018 No.12144195 >>12144160 take walks and think over material

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 12:47:56 2018 No.12144303

>>12144160
Easy. Find some topic that interests you. Then read some book about that. If you have researched the topic because of your interest your going to read that author and find things that you disagree with. If you did all this youll feel a need to write, to talk about it. Kant wrote the critique of pure reason after having read Locke's book about human understanding in a 3 day binge.
Its like when you are talking to other people or you are listening to them and someone touches a topic you know a lot about and you just have this drive to tell that person what you think. A real fire inside of you.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 12:55:52 2018 No.12144326 File: 268 KB, 926x1280, 6df1cc64476de94500d61b9f1b99dcc6.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12140472 read Narnia then

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 14:24:53 2018 No.12144648 >>12139928 basão

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 14:25:40 2018 No.12144650

The main problem with the American system is that it personalizes problems that should be political. This is a noxious bargain that leaves thousands to fester in obscurity with no assistance. It's the perfect tactic for the ruling class to fleece the populace and then live them blaming themselves for their immiseration.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 15:00:23 2018 No.12144764 >>12144326 Good advice. Is that illustration for The Silver Chair?

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 15:28:22 2018 No.12144849

>>12142028
>>12142404
the point of an argument is to lose so you gain knowledge and take a step further on the road of discovery. if you can't lose then the next best is to try and discover all the flaws in your own thoughts using others viewpoints to puncture holes in your ideas. if you're trying to win argument you're deluding yourself. you can only teach somebody if you know it and then it isn't an argument and there isn't winning.

these posts relate to how i feel so unhappy with the web lately. the topics i want to discuss have all sorts of crazy people that have an agenda spamming the most bizarre racist stuff possible. i just want anonymous discussion so i can be stupid and learn from being stupid. i don't mind wild ideas but you get this shit that is filled with contradictions and when you question them you're x boogeyman. raging incel who come here to be angry really ruin the best quality of anonymous posting.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 15:52:43 2018 No.12144936 >>12140804 There's an interpretation of nature that fits the context, why the fuck are you arbitrarily picking one that doesn't?

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 15:59:43 2018 No.12144956 >>12142028 you're all wrong, the point of debate is to convince third parties that you're right and the other side are brainlets. Have you EVER had your opinion swayed by losing a debate? I haven't.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 16:00:43 2018 No.12144958

>>12139913
The semester is coming to an end and I know I should ask a beautiful and smarter-than-I girl in my philosophy class out for coffee or some shit. The class meets for the last time in two days and I fear my chance will slip away forever simply because I'm a pussy.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 16:07:16 2018 No.12144976 >>12144956 >you should make people feel like a brainlet >but remember that no one has their opinion swayed by being made to feel like a brainlet Thanks for the addition, anonlet.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 16:07:50 2018 No.12144978 >>12144958 What do you have to lose, faggot? As you said, if she rejects you, you won't meet her again anyways. Just do it pussy, or you'll be asking "what if" in a few months.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 16:08:12 2018 No.12144979 >>12144976 Please reread my post, you make THIRD PARTIES think the opposing side are brainlets, not the other side themself.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 16:12:00 2018 No.12144991 >>12144979 If you're debating for an audience you're debating the wrong person. >inb4 some dumb political parallel You're not a politician, shut up man.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 16:13:19 2018 No.12144997 >>12140499 there's gotta be some symbolism here desu

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 16:16:36 2018 No.12145010

>>12139913
Every girl i was dating and thinking of, had a boyfriend. None of them told me that, I just figured it out.
I am still meeting those girls only because they're only women besides my mom, that want to talk with me and spens time.
I don't know if there is something wrong with me or with them.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 16:28:44 2018 No.12145066

>Like Anna Karenina killin' a commoner killin' a foreigner people who follow her antics are frantically calling forensics prevented from entering - send her in - butler defend her in court cause he thought what he saw was a dream cause it seemed to be rough at the seams, saw enough at the scene, acted tough but he'd seen something awful, obscene
Some of the rhymes here don't work in an American accent but basically I wanted to make a semi coherent story with as much rhyming and assonance as possible
>He stayed in the lake for a while, treading water in slow, methodical strokes and imagining a group of friends with him. A few hours later he was dripping dry on the beach as a strong wind blew, destroying a large, intricate web in front of him. He saw the eight legged terror of the eight legged terror, desperately holding on until a final gust tore the last strand of silk. He watched the spider land, and laughed to himself.
This entire passage is just based off a really stupid pun that I'll be really disappointed if nobody catches.
>a really long analogy between English and a pretend Video Game Studies to explain to my non reader friends why schools should not do Harry Potter in English class and how heartbreaking it is to see people hate a medium you love because of school
I'll post it if someone asks but I can't be arsed right now.
>He ordered a book on becoming a white hat called Into The Mainframe, as it was clear he had no chance of learning through doing. He began Reeding Into The Mainframe, and as that didn't help matters either he slowly became convinced that the man on the cover was pointing at him.
This one's got multiple stupid puns in it, I really hope someone can spot them all.
>imagine if someone wrote an experimental magnum opus based on Ulysses, where instead of the Sirens chapter it's the MC browsing for camwhores, instead of the bit where he masturbates in Ulysses he masturbates to hentai and instead of the bit where he argues with the guy with the glass eye over politics, he gets into a racebait argument on /pol/. Ulysses took the piss by basing his tale of one mundane day on The Odyssey, this book would show how much we've descended from even there
Just an idea I had

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 16:59:22 2018 No.12145216 >>12142973 Could be kidney damage or something.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 17:01:32 2018 No.12145227 How do I end a relationship with an unstable, possibly victim of abuse and possibly suicidal girl? It's been two years and I can't take it anymore, but I'm afraid she's gonna do something.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 17:03:59 2018 No.12145239 >>12144997 Nah I'l post a picture tomorrow

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 20:00:46 2018 No.12146041 >>12139928 Que merda de música

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 20:06:29 2018 No.12146079 >>12145227 brap on her

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 20:31:10 2018 No.12146189

Il faut que j'aille en cours, de plus - honnêtement - je pourrais violemment faire l'amour à un trap. Je m'en estime capable. Je suis un peu stressé car d'ici le 5, j'aurai le plaisir d'en accueillir un chez moi pour quatres jours. Pas n'importe quel inconnu, bien évidemment, mais l'une des rares personnes dont je peux me targuer d'être l'ami.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 20:32:13 2018 No.12146192
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I'd really like to find a girlfriend, but it's only a few weeks until I go home for christmas break so it feels pretty pointless to try now. My hometown is really small and I already know almost everyone I would be interested in dating, so I can't really do anything until I'm back at school in January. But even then it's only a few months until May when I'll graduate, putting an effective four month time limit on any relationship I have, which is already making the insane assumption that I find a gf day one once I'm back. All this makes the idea of even trying to date seem pretty useless. Same thing for trying to build friendships beyond gym buddies and casual acquaintances. If I wanted this I should have started years ago, but I was so depressed and neurotic I couldn't. I've essentially wasted three years of my life, that, depressingly, many people claim are your best. My degree (math) isn't even useful or a huge passion of mine, and I'll probably end up being a codemonkey since programming is the one thing I'm really good at that's also employable. Even if I hate it. God knows I don't have the energy to hack it in a PhD program, even if I may be intellectually capable (not that I'm ever sure). The only reason I picked math in the first place is because I felt I had to do something that at least could be conceived of as useful in the modern economy, unlike say linguistics or literature. I wish I had gone for a humanities degree though, if only so I wouldn't have been at a technical school. Maybe then I could have made new friends and found a new community like my high school friends have at their colleges. I don't even know why I bother specifying "high school friends", they're the only friends I have. I guess a random anon won't know that though/

It really feels too late to make anything out of my college education, other than learning a bunch of useless esoteric math, shitposting on /lit/, and being an overly sensitive wannabe artist. It's like high school all over again, except not really because at least I had friends and dreams and stuff in high school. I should be able to say that I've, at the very least, grown as a person, but that thought just makes me disgusted at how pathetic I must have been at the start of college if this is me *after years of introspection and improvement*.

Books for this feel?

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 20:53:44 2018 No.12146268

I just wish I could be rid of the idea that my only real chance of love was with you. This month marks the 4 year anniversary of my breaking up with you. Not out of lovelessness but because I knew the relationship had reached the apex of its toxicity. I had spent much of our relationship nursing a secretive drug addiction to painkillers and the guilt was ruining me and you. My mother saw us arguing constantly and put pressure on me to end things.

But please you have to understand, I didn't want to. I just thought that if something gave way, the tension would dissipate and I would be able to make a sensible decision.

But god, I miss you. I long to be able to say the things I've realised. The summation of 4 years of regret and unaccomplished experience. I don't think I've ever loved anyone the way I loved you.

You blocked me on all forms of social media. And so I'm denied any catharsis that seeing you in your life would have given me.

The girl I'm with now is great but I still miss you. I hate that I miss you but I do.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 21:06:33 2018 No.12146328

>>12145227
>>12146268
>>12145010
>>12144958
Stop talking about girls you basic pansies. Nobody cares about your little crush on stacy or how her perfectly shaped c cup titties inspire you. Ever other post is about some faggot putting some skank on a pedestal. Post about something interesting.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 21:08:00 2018 No.12146336 Burst an internal pile and painted my bathroom with blood. Not been a good day all things considered.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 21:15:40 2018 No.12146359 my cat is more entertaining than all of literature.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 21:18:35 2018 No.12146368 Fucking LessWrong hating on my post about dragons, fuck them

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 21:22:09 2018 No.12146387 >>12146328 you first

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 21:23:16 2018 No.12146391 >>12146368 lol wtf

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 21:24:16 2018 No.12146397

>>12146328
I'm this guy>>12146268
I get it, it's tired and boring to reminisce over a woman but you have to understand, this girl has been on my mind pretty much every day since we ended. I recognise that it's irrational given the amount of time that's gone by.

I'm terrified that in 10 years, I'll run into her and be arrested with regret and emotion at the thought that I didn't do anything to pursue her

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 21:30:09 2018 No.12146428 >>12139928 As someone who's learning portuguese, this really fucked me up Huebros, does this actually make sense in Portuguese? Asking non-ironically

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 21:31:44 2018 No.12146437
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>>12139913
Freedom cannot exist without society. All ideologies value freedom, it's just a question of when and how that freedom can exist in relation to the state, which is itself a larger question. It can be aptly said, that the state is an extension of the power weld by society, the purpose being to protect that means by which society can exist, and thus elevate mankind above nature. To understand why society exist one must look at two things that every society has in common, and ultimately separates mankind's tribal way of life 12,000 years ago: gender and monogamy. it is from these that society can not only form, but generate a national identity from therein, the reason being, that the family unit is ultimately a microcosm of the nation itself, containing on the genetic, historical, cultural, traditional, significance that defines it.

I know it's kinda all over the place, but I can clarify more if anybody's curious.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 21:33:39 2018 No.12146449

>>12146391
They downvoted me six times. And then four people upvoted me, and then I got downvoted four more times and now I'm at -6 again. And nobody has even said anything about it yet except that they don't think it was appropriate to post there. I hate them.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 21:42:33 2018 No.12146494 File: 20 KB, 413x395, 1509330320699.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12140681 >>12140613 >>12140577 >>12140510 wtf is happening to this place

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 21:49:18 2018 No.12146518 >>12139913 I am insensitive and impatient, despite knowing better and watching myself do what I do in real time I can’t stay my hand. At some point I will be all alone because of this.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 21:58:46 2018 No.12146553 Sometimes I want to start over. A new career, another country.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 21:59:40 2018 No.12146557

>>12146328
This. Thread is fucking pathetic. These girls are sucking some other dudes dick while these guys wallow about the look she gave them 2 weeks ago on an online image board. I don't say this only to ridicule. For real guys, this type of thinking will put you the farthest away from picking up basic college hoes, they can smell your desperation and absolutely nobody is attracted to people who hinges their self worth and interests in other people exclusively

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:00:26 2018 No.12146564

>>12146437
Freedom can't exist without a stable and loving family that teaches you the appropriate values of said family and (hopefully) proper protocol of interacting with other familial units. It stems from upbringing. Freedom is not sought by all societies (Islamic states/nations). Further, people must be oppressed in some way to retain an identity. liquid without a container has no shape, it just gets everywhere and makes a mess.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:04:15 2018 No.12146571 >>12146557 the fact you think people are sad about "not picking up basic college hoes" shows how clueless you are

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:09:32 2018 No.12146595

Wew, I just took a trip to /pol/ and i'm aghast at how some people can find so much time to hate. It takes effort to hate that much. All i'm picturing is stinky boys in their stinky rooms posting on /pol/ all day with nazi flags and photos of Charles Manson festooning their dirty, sock and underwear soiled lairs.

They hate EVERYTHING. I suppose they like pussy but they hate women, so they can't get laid. They might like rap but they hate blacks religiously. They might be Christian (founded by the man who saw himself as the ultimate messiah of the Jewish people) but they sure do hate Jews. They might wear the latest fashion but they just want those stupid fucking flamming faggots to suck their stupid fucking dicks. What went wrong?

Here's my thesis. We live in a society where white males, especially of the heterosexual variety, are supposed to have everything figured out for them. Call this privilege. They don't have to swim around in a soup of difficulty and existential despair like oppressed minorities do. Well clearly they do, as you don't see this sort of behavior from a well-adjusted individual. But when you keep getting this message that you're privileged when nobody saying it to you knows you or cares about your life, and make an effort to foist their ideology over you, resentment, as sociologists have long understood, often ensues.

And when that resentment gets really bad and there are guns laying around? Well, let's just say some people feel they have nothing to lose and things can get ugly. And this is precisely what we see.

Contemporary liberalism unequivocally owes responsibility for the monster they have created. These young man could have been shown acceptance and given a little bit of power and autonomy and you wouldn't see the weekly and monthly horrorshows that we are so accustomed to tuning into.

But of course I'm the madman. I'm the one who is betraying those poor minorities. Well those poor minorities would probably do better if there weren't all these angry young white men in their physical primes out to start a race war to give them a reason to get out of their bedrooms.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:10:34 2018 No.12146600 >>12146595 Upvoting this post.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:12:35 2018 No.12146609

>>12146397
Talking about women you didn’t love and congress with is fucking gay and you should be ashamed of doing it. Its one thing to have oneitis from a real relationship where there was mutual affection and bond, but without that its unbelievably pitiful, possibly reprehensible, immoral ideation.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:14:33 2018 No.12146618

lying in bed trying to peel myself from this computer and read... have to leave for my graveyard shift in 2 hours. 2 hours of being comfy and then the rain and the night and work. but for now, i am comfy. it has stopped raining just now, i hope the rain starts up again, the wind and dripping rooves sound sand and small outside, the world is small without rain, rain like fog puts a great distance between small and close things, a great room to think and breathe, a privacy.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:18:18 2018 No.12146637 >>12146192 Hey man I just want to say that high school friends will be the best friends you'll ever have... don't let go of them

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:26:12 2018 No.12146663
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>>12146595
You choose to partake and visit the shitstorm that is /pol/, it was your decision alone and no one elses, so really you're just making yourself and others around you miserable

Stop giving a fuck

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:28:28 2018 No.12146671
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>>12146595
I feel on a roll so to continue:

Exibit A of what I'm talking about. Take a look at this reddit post. This showed up in a search I did relating to a video of Jordan Peterson's in which he "issues an apology" for Democrats. In other words says what he thinks they should say but never will.

Instead I clicked on this rather than the Peterson video because it looked incredulous. Once I laid eyes on this gem at first I thought this was some kind of parody subreddit in which they ironically mock Peterson. I'm still entirely convinced it isn't parody. Then I realized in all probability these people were being absolutely literal and serious.

If you actually delve into what Peterson says it is totally rational and benign. I can't understand why anyone would think what he's saying is "oppressing them". Hows a forced march over the river Kwai for oppression? You're a child. You have no understanding and your views shouldn't be respected until you are able to formulate them beyond simple glandular reflexes and knee jerk responses.

It can't go on like this. No culture can survive this sort of implosion and not come out changed---or unscathed. Things can go bad. Really bad.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:29:31 2018 No.12146677 >>12146663 Not true. This is borderline gonzo journalism bud. It's not making me miserable. It's making me interested.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:30:32 2018 No.12146682 >>12146637 Fuck that, let them go. In fact kick them out the door. My highschool friends at least sucked balls and not in the good way.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:42:58 2018 No.12146734
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>>12146677
So essentially you want to write fake news from your overly emotional personae and feed and shove it down goyims throats at the behest of all the disgusting lefties that are paying you.

You are already brainwashed too much and its too late to save you, but think of the children.

You should be ashamed

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:47:39 2018 No.12146747 >>12146734 stop calling american liberals leftists you dumb frogposter

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:49:34 2018 No.12146753 >>12146609 We were together for 3 years. We both loved each other and the relationship ended for reasons that didn't involve a loss of love or romance.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:54:31 2018 No.12146767

>That feel when you realize you have only a handful of friends because you don't have enough emotional bandwidth to care about more people

If I'm going to be friends with someone I want to seriously be friends. Not just say hey sup bro how's it going at parties or other superficial encounters. I want someone I can take confidence in and who has my back.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:55:22 2018 No.12146769 How do I know the world as it is when I'm depressed, i.e. complete lack of all meaning, lack of all positive emotion, isn't the real reality and whatever things keep me going through short periods of happiness aren't just illusions?

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:55:33 2018 No.12146770 >>12146734 Lol, you're one of the angry little boys I'm writing about. It's like I can see your face clearly. Like I see right through you and you're in the palm of my hand.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 22:58:53 2018 No.12146782 >>12139913 They (Disney) are making an Artemis Fowl movie and I can't help but feel like no movie will be good ever again and this is just the tip of the iceberg of cinematic hell

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:04:34 2018 No.12146796

>>12146769
Yes, stasis is the natural state of things. The universe is always spiraling into greater entropy. Strictly speaking, the most natural state of things is to starve yourself to death and return to a higher entropic level. You were born into order instead of chaos. Happiness, dopamine, etc., are all tricks to keep chaos at bay. You can decide whether to allow those tricks their domain.

And if you actually are clinically depressed, seek professional help.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:07:15 2018 No.12146808 Living in despair is far more enlightening beyond anything I could imagine. I learned to keep my expectations of those around me low and strive for happiness while experiencing the crushing emptiness of reality.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:09:19 2018 No.12146813
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>>12146747

> absolute state of burgerland education
> a giant hambeast writing articles about muh privilege and how every opinion I dont like is bad
> actually gets paid money for it
> everyone gulps it up

I genuinely feel sorry for you

> stop calling american liberals leftists you dumb frogposter

You commited more fallacies here than grade one kid telling a shitty story; deflection, strawman, accusation, all hallmarks of a person of very low intelligence

You should probably stop posting

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:12:20 2018 No.12146820 >>12146769 Nothing is known to be the real reality, but happiness is more pleasant and more active. You're more likely to have a clearer idea of what's what if you aren't lodged in a stagnant, uninformed depressive pit.

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:12:33 2018 No.12146821 >>12146813 I'm not the anon larping as a gonzo journalist you brainlet, I'm a man who's sick of retards not knowing what "leftist" means

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:13:45 2018 No.12146825 >>12146813 >space after > go back

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:17:00 2018 No.12146841

How much can you alter a poem before it's no longer the same? The meme response is "none at all", but I don't think that's true, for a given piece I imagine there are typically many alterations you could make with no noticeable impact, and more that would only have a very minor one.

I have to imagine that when poems had to be hand-transcribed or publicly read in order to be shared there would have been alterations just from flawed transmission. I wonder if there are any surviving examples of this.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:22:25 2018 No.12146863

>>12146821
> communist, socialist
> jews, jews
> brainwashed masses

Same retards that keep saying trannies are normal and sexual education should begin at 9 years old, who can take hormones which fuck you up for life but cant even wipe their own ass on their own yet. Extreme cases, but nonetheless.

You are the brainlet here if you think leftist doesnt imply socialism and communism

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:24:12 2018 No.12146868
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feeling overwhelmed with decidions in my life has made me start to read into the occult and spiritual, for entirely educational choices and in reading the quote "Ultimately the pilgrim finds his way to the spring, in fact the water is there long before the thirst" the sense of emptiness in realizing that everything happens is without our control. and the joys of surrendering yourself to this chaos through meditation is found to bring on a sense of bliss. so i decided to fully enjoy the evening, lit some incense and put on a little music and lay on my bed letting myself surrender to the universe. i begin to feel joyous and lifted. eventually i open my eyes and feel very contented with the path my life is on. baring the good with the bad,

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:24:38 2018 No.12146870 File: 56 KB, 624x624, 1541559581338.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12146825 where to

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:24:58 2018 No.12146871 just bought mom Jane Eyre for Christmas WHEEZE

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:27:07 2018 No.12146879 been ignoring my only irl friend for 2 months now. He was not a very good friend and we dont have a lot in common. I wonder if he thinkgs I hate him or something

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>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:32:10 2018 No.12146900 >>12146879 I've been doing this too but it's been 4 months and he dropped out because of it

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:37:47 2018 No.12146910 why does everyone here have to be so edgy all the time? Every thread I go into theres some /b/ tier comment about who all woman are whores or the ZOG is real or some dumb shit like that. What happened to talking about books?

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:39:51 2018 No.12146916 >>12146910 doesn't give you as easy (you)s

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:41:01 2018 No.12146919 >>12139913 is he crying over 12 lost years or is he nostalgiafagging about how wasting time on the computer used to be better than wasting time on the computer currently is

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:41:45 2018 No.12146920 >>12146870 you know where

>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:41:50 2018 No.12146921 >>12146910 Airing frustrations I guess.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:43:55 2018 No.12146926

>>12146910
making fun of women ironically is funny but most of /lit/ doesn't go in for the Jew stuff.
>What happened to talking about books?
This is a wind-down place for many, not a forum. Since most of us are studying or working and haven't read all of the chart books it's more rewarding to mess around.

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:47:57 2018 No.12146945

>>12146571
The fact that you think you want something 'real' and 'deep' in order to cope with the easy sex you don't have access to and also believe getting in some fantasy relationship will solve your mental problems and make you not want to blow your brains out shows how clueless and pathetic you are. If you aren't looking for a women to fuck or a women to have your children immediately you're a faggot and will never even get a hand job because of how this thinking alters your actions signaling to every girl in a 20 mile radius to stay the fuck away.
The worse part is that it's always boring average to ugly bitches that you guys elevated and believe are somehow different because you told them your feelings and they didn't immediately recoil in disgust

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>>	Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:53:41 2018 No.12146972 >>12146945 the world would be better without you

Anonymous Tue Nov 27 23:56:54 2018 No.12146982

>>12146910
>>12146926
4chan as a whole got significantly worse following the donald trump election. the whole culture did. my friends IRL are doing the same shit. i see someone i haven't seen much in a couple years and suddenly he's making alpha male jokes and ironic racist jokes. the culture is in the shitter. america hates itself.

Anonymous Wed Nov 28 00:05:18 2018 No.12147006

>>12146972
Back to r*ddit please
Maybe one day when you're tired of getting pity sex from an overweight 4/10 or angry because that cute girl in class ignores you you'll heed my words. Trust me when I say their subconscious is even more brutal when judging you
>>12146982
Nothing changed. Media and social conditions only made one type of expression acceptable to utter again and online image boards and social media used this opportunity to tack on their own little contempory spin on it

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>>	Anonymous Wed Nov 28 00:07:14 2018 No.12147013 I can't tell what's going on in my life I just know that I don't like it

>>	Anonymous Wed Nov 28 00:10:18 2018 No.12147020 File: 67 KB, 1600x900, 337813-Marcus-Tullius-Cicero-Quote-Glory-follows-virtue-as-if-it-were-its.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I've realized the source of all my problems and know just how to change things. I've given up as a result.

>>	Anonymous Wed Nov 28 00:32:08 2018 No.12147082 File: 787 KB, 1190x842, 1529010046914.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>12146595 >Here's my thesis. We live in a society

Anonymous Wed Nov 28 00:49:22 2018 No.12147124

>>12139913

Torn in every direction,
My memory scatters
Like leaves in wind
Sand on the dunes.

Seams burst endlessly,
releasing harsh words
that race towards an end
I wish came sooner.

Clouds settle,
forming fictitious fog,
that blinds and binds me
to a fallow future

Like this I wake,
and unwillingly
venture into dreams,
rest in reoccurring horrors.

Man is always in conflict.
Peace of heart, oxymoronic
Peace of mind, idiotic
Oneself as the casualty, ironic.

>>	Anonymous Wed Nov 28 01:23:02 2018 No.12147240 File: 37 KB, 1200x1200, waypoint_tycho_burning_man_2018.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] tycho's 2018 burning man mix is sublime

Anonymous Wed Nov 28 05:06:52 2018 No.12147753

>>12139913
I'm a pretty introverted guy. In early high school the need to fit in and appear acceptable to the group never bothered me or entered my mind. I was content with studying, reading, participating in all the extra-curricular activities associated with the "nerd" stereotype (chess, band, public speaking, debating, short story competitions etc.) and hanging around with similar individuals. Is it shallow to be envious of what more sociable people have now that I'm about to leave that behind? I never did get to have the whole high-school girlfriend partying experience.

>>	Anonymous Wed Nov 28 05:39:24 2018 No.12147821 >>12147753 You're not missing out for the most part I think, but it could potentially haunt you depending on your personality I think safer choice is to have it and decide for yourself

>>	Anonymous Wed Nov 28 07:57:44 2018 No.12148093 I finally found the strength to shower after I dunno how long. It was more than a month. Feels good to be clean again.

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