/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.11905280]

write what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.11905306]

AAAAAA IM SO LONELY AND HORNY FUCK

[Anonymous No.11905328]

Another day going to my dead end job at Disney World. I dread having to serve and clean up after fat, infantilized middle-aged guests from the Midwest. The foreigners are typically nice, when the Latin American families aren’t leaving their filthy trays on the table and leaving. But the Americans have no respect for us workers. They require convenience. It’s a life or death situation in their eyes amidst this Florida heat.

I’m just glad I have a job.

[Anonymous No.11905335]

>>11905306
I second this.

[Anonymous No.11905344]

>>11905328
Wow, this is like magic. Just a second ago I was wondering what it's like to work at Disney, and now I see this post. Fucking synchronization.

On an unrelated note, does anyone know where to find the Urbanomics stuff that's out of publication? I can't find the 1-5 volumes of Collapse anywhere.

[Anonymous No.11905354]

>Dont really have anywhere else to say this,
Im tired of all this. All of this is for nothing. All the shit that has happened, and will keep on happening... all the times and people lost, none of this is worth it anymore. Im not spending the rest of my life struggling looking for a Pyrrhic victory. Ive tried, I know that, theres nothing left, its all too late. So many regrets. God I wish I could have known.

[Anonymous No.11905362]

>>11905306
You know, one thing I never knew before the internet was that people actually strongly desire having relationships and sex. I enjoy them myself of course, but it's just another part of life, whereas for many people on 4chan it's like the most important thing in the world. I wonder if this division has always been around, like today's ">tfw no gf" guys are the same type as the young guys in bildungsromans that get obsessed with young girls like in Steppenwolf and Oh Human Bondage, and the others just preoccupy themselves with an ambition or hobby or something. Not to say they're black and white or necessarily fixed, though.

[Anonymous No.11905364]

I have a pen
I have a apple
UNH
apple pen

[Anonymous No.11905370]

>>11905362
I was also obsessed with being a virgin and wanting a girlfriend before I got one and lost my virginity. Now the only person for me is my loving dog.

[Anonymous No.11905381]

>>11905362
Nigga i just want a blowjob fuck off, Ive not had sex in two weeks

[Anonymous No.11905393]

>>11905280
watching that painting makes me think myth is vital to man; wisdom is characterized by the acceptance of uncertainty.

it's like we're all in a feverish dream and some switch just broke... work and work, fake smiles, fake souls, no story, fake joy; we're so confident that we are in full control that our hubris creates large voids of space; colorless no matter what we pour in them.

doubt has ravaged our souls; and after it no faith can ever surmount to make up the time lost. even children today are withered; such is the path we choose; for knowledge always comes at a price of being.

[Anonymous No.11905405]

Im tired of all this, its all for nothing. Everything thats happened, the time, chances and people lost. I dont want to do this anymore. I dont want to struggle all my life and try my best just for a Pryhic victory, or less. All the regrets and mistakes, fuck, I just wish I could have known differently back then. I wish I could do something to make this all right instead of just ending it. I guess I thought life was a lot like fiction, that there would be a ending, a proper ending with all the characters and tying up all the loose ends and everything coming to some sort of conclusion.

Its not though. These unanswered questions and everything thats happened, its never going to change. This is the new status quo. I cant believe I let this all happen but I know I couldnt have done anything. I feel like I made a mistake in arriving at this place but I dont think there was any other destination either.

All these moments are just going to be lost too, the memories and the people, gone, forever. Just like it never happened. Sometimes Im not sure as to whether it did or not. Just left with nothing but more regrets.
Im tired of all this.

[Anonymous No.11905416]

I get here and see the board filled with Pepes and Wojaks and "memes", and I'm gonna give goodreads another try. I don't want to discuss literature with a bunch of depressed 20 year olds.

[Anonymous No.11905892]

>In so far as the citizens of the Western democracy have really gone wrong, they have not inherently or quite naturally gone wrong. They have been taught wrong; instructed wrong; educated wrong; exalted and uplifted wrong. A huge heresy, rather peculiar to modern times, yet singularly uncriticised by modern critics, has actually perverted them in a way which is not really very consonant to their personalities. The real, natural Americans are candid, generous, capable of a beautiful wonder and gratitude; enthusiastic about things external to themselves; easily contented and not particularly conceited. They have been deliberately and dogmatically taught to be conceited. They have been systematically educated in a theory of enthusiasm, which degrades it into mere egotism. The American has received as a sort of religion the notion that blowing his own trumpet is as important as the trump of doom.

Everyday Chesterton gives me something to marvel at his superhuman genius. Even the line "trump of doom" is almost spookily prescient, as it seems to contain traces of echoes of our Trump of doom.

Why isn't this guy taught in highschools or at least undergraduate more often? Too white? Too male?

http://www.gkc.org.uk/gkc/books/GKC_American_Ideal.html

[Anonymous No.11905903]

>>11905892
“Blasphemy depends on belief, and is fading with it. If anyone doubts this, let him sit down seriously and try to think blasphemous thoughts about Thor.”

[Anonymous No.11905904]

>>11905892
>n-not inherently
way to argue like a filthy commie.

[Anonymous No.11905909]

I hate this history paper, i want to write my short story but the paper is due tomorrow

[Anonymous No.11905934]

>>11905909
big feel here, all I want to do is edit my screenplay but there's AVID media composer shit I have to do instead

[Anonymous No.11905943]

This cigar is tasty and its sunny out

[Anonymous No.11905979]

There is this massive black hole in my chest from when I was a kid, and a shitty neglectful doctor forced me into benzo withdrawal. I spent three years lying in bed fighting for my life, when everything felt like it was on fire and I wanted to die. I survived something that very few children tend to live through, but no matter what I do, nothing can fill the void. There is no bottom to that hole, I can't stack the things I love, use them to replace what was once there because they just fall into this endless pit, never to be seen again. It's as if there is an inky dark eclipse robbing the whole world of light, but when I look up into the sky I'm the only one who can see it. It is only there for me.

I cannot find anyone who understands this. I am still alive, but infinitely alone.

[Anonymous No.11906000]

>>11905405
me too friend

[Anonymous No.11906113]

>>11905381
>Ive not had sex in two weeks
Only two weeks and you're complaining? FUCK YOUUUUUUUUU

[Anonymous No.11906124]

>>11906113

[Anonymous No.11906126]

Adulthood is just looking back on your past and regretting the way it turned out
Thinking of all the people who are no longer in your life cause you fucked it up. And realizing things won't really change from here on. Monotony will drive you insane until you either off yourself or resign to the tediousness and observe yourself slowly wither away, looking at the calendar and wondering how did I get here?

[Anonymous No.11906128]

>>11905280
Is there a comfier feel than having a /lit/ gf with whom you share and recommend books?

[Anonymous No.11906138]

I hate myself with passion and I want to escape this cursed body.
Need to do some reading for the next lecture and after that it's Schopenhauer time.

[Anonymous No.11906152]

>>11905280
I love the way alpine forests gently breathe and go “ahhhhh” in the late afternoon of monsoon season, right before the rains gather and the winds pick up their momentum. I hate how gentrified areas in cities still smell like sewage and smoke. Urban monstrosities are vile and ought to be destroyed.

[Anonymous No.11906156]

>>11905306
Relatable

[Anonymous No.11906168]

So weird how about 1 day every two weeks I'm energized enough to be productive all day and then the rest of the time I'm too lethargic to do anything other than shitpost on 4chan all day.

[Anonymous No.11906169]

>>11906126
This is why I'm a neet who has largely retreated into his own inner world.

[Anonymous No.11906174]

I'm in the university library right now, watching the day turn to night from above. it's so calm and cosy.
my first month of uni hasn't passed yet. I'm loving this freedom I'd never experienced. just being able to sit in the central station for hours on end watching life go by, smoking a cigarette every hour just because no one's stopping me and spending afternoons reading in local cafes because it makes me feel like I might look like someone I'd be happy to look like.
the experiences are endless. city life means I can do anything. and it's really wonderful.

but I'm starting to notice that I'm enjoying it alone. I miss my old friends a bit. everyone seems to have found their people here, but I spend my days alone and sometimes just talk to myself to make sure I still remember how to talk.
how do I find people and meaningful relationships? how can I share the happiness that this place gives me?

[Anonymous No.11906180]

>>11906174
>how do I find people and meaningful relationships?
You don't, just accept your comfy solitary life so you don't spend two years in utter anguish like I did. Alternatively if you live in Massachusetts I''ll be your friend.

[Anonymous No.11906183]

>>11906180
Hi other masshile, I’m studying at Fitchburg State, rescue me from this shithole please and thank you.

[Anonymous No.11906184]

>>11906168
Lithium

[Anonymous No.11906186]

I dont want to specialize in anything but thats all this life and what every job wants from everyone but god there is so much in life to experience.

[Anonymous No.11906203]

>>11906183
What are you studying?

[Anonymous No.11906252]

The bathroom stall is a safe space. Total vigilance doesn't reach there. It would be a counterproductive measure to install cameras in the bathroom stalls. We could sue them. But maybe they have hidden cameras. Perhaps inside the toilets. It would be too risky to leave such a place unwatched. I could sleep here, if that were the case. If I needed to sleep, that is. Kneel on top of the toilet and close my eyes. The place would be swarmed with homeless people. I could shoot speed or place a bomb. It's too risky to not have cameras. That must mean I'm being watched. I wonder if it's somebody's job to watch live CCTV footage 24/7. Or if CCTV footage is held in an archive in case something happens. I would like to not be videotaped while I'm in taking a shit or masturbating during office hours. Another pill, yes. I'm sweating. I need a cigarrette. AC is not working. Somebody must be selling this information to nihilist corporations to improve their profits while the world burns all round me.

[Anonymous No.11906368]

>>11906203
Documentary filmmaking

[Anonymous No.11906443]

there's no need to save me from this squeeze

[Anonymous No.11906490]

Nothing of what I write is original or good. I wanted to write up a setting for a tabletop game but then I realized the people playing it are just going to make the usual LOTR jokes and comparisons so I lost any interest.

[Anonymous No.11906508]

Life could be so much more. The truth of this statement is as true of the unaspiring layabout as it is the staunchest up and at it go getter. We are all like medieval peasants stuck in our times and station, content with the idea that things will never change and that it will always be like this. On the contrary everything is bursting at the seams with possibilities. The future, even the next minute, the next hour, the next day, is as plastic and open ended as a ball of puddy.

Everything crackles with limitless potential if only one's imagination is on par with nature's. You simply need to dip your hand into the flow of things to discover something new and delightful.

But the modern person, including myself, seems more intent on building a private fortress-prison for himself than venturing into the unknown. The world has become a distant, untrustworthy thing, full of rejection and dangers. The coward is brave and the brave is a fool. We've lost touch with the wisdom of life of the ancients. They were more real than us, more man, more woman than us.

[Anonymous No.11906544]

>>11905364
You can smoke weed!

[Anonymous No.11906555]

neetu zoidbois are superior to the wage race

[Anonymous No.11906556]

>>11906508
Maybe we are throttled by knowledge.

[Anonymous No.11906558]

I’m so tired, my mind is blank

[Anonymous No.11906564]

>>11906555
Probably going to be me once I fail to get into actual academia

[Anonymous No.11906569]

i would, but someone always gets mad at me

[Anonymous No.11906584]

>>11906555
Trips of truth

[Anonymous No.11906587]

>>11905280
I really want to read Keith Laumer's Bolo series but I just can't find any. Except for those suspicious looking pay download sites. Creepy.

And traps are gay.

[Anonymous No.11906591]

>>11906508
>last paragraph
I despise my family who gawk at me for living and working in far off places they believe are dangerous and evil. Their outlook on the world is exactly as you have described. They hate their own country because of what they’ve been told about it, and yet they themselves have never been out there. They have not journeyed beyond the next hill, and it is up to me to come back and laugh in their faces about how wrong they are. Have you ever realized how childish a 65 year old man is who lives and functions in this way, the closed off fashion my father does? It’s so bizarre, we carry the opposite dynamic of most people who dwell in this website. The young should fling themselves off into every corner of the world before the very things that created their curiosity cause them to decay.

[Anonymous No.11906603]

Less than 40 days till I take the LSAT, nervous but hopeful

[Anonymous No.11906616]

>>11906603
Save yourself anon

[Anonymous No.11906619]

>>11905306
Renounce the flesh. Temper your desires.

[Anonymous No.11906628]

>>11906619
Based christposter

[Anonymous No.11906629]

I never remember my dreams; the space between drifting off and unpleasant awakening is smooth vellum. My memory is similarly absent, large patches of blank space in between fleeting glimpses of a barely-remembered past. My mother looks at me with worry when I admit That I’m unable to recall birthdays and Christmases, schoolteachers and relatives.
Where would I be now without these incomplete gaps dotting my consciousness? If I could remember my dreams, to have that level of unconscious awareness open to me; if I could just recall more of my experiences, to have learned from them beyond the short term and carry that growth forward with me to the here and now. It’s like some aspect of my essential self lies just out of reach, the unconscious me, the me that lives in times lost to the past.
Would my life be the same if I could touch this part of me? Would I have made more of it? Is there something inexorably wrong with my brain, some rot eating away at the parts of me that I try unsuccessfully to look back upon?

[Anonymous No.11906716]

>>11906184
I ain't putting no DRUGS in my SYNAPSES are you crazy? But yeah, I've thought I have some kind of mild form of bipolar for a while.

[Anonymous No.11906837]

I visited Europe this summer and was struck by how small it felt. Flying over the continent the various countries passed below in due course, Ireland was a wink, Great Britain a sliver of cold beef in the early morning light, France a sleepy flat plain of listless villages and fields, Switzerland a jutting, magnificent crown of mountains with nary a sign of life.

The whole continent seemed like a fragile antique, a brittle piece of craftsmanship that could easily break if dropped. I wondered how this place managed to have such an exaggerated impact on world history when Asia looms over it like a hungry giant.

[Anonymous No.11906861]

>>11906837
Where did you go?

[Anonymous No.11906862]

>>11906837
It's not about the size of the land but the quality of it (and therefore its people).

[Anonymous No.11906873]

>>11906837
>The whole continent seemed like a fragile antique, a brittle piece of craftsmanship that could easily break if dropped.
This is the sad truth, at least for western Europe. If at present the situation is not reversed it very well could shatter into something unrecognizable.

[Anonymous No.11906900]

I lost some weight and then gained it back from eating bread like a monster. Made some whole wheat loves and have just been eating them with everything because I have not eaten bread in quite a while due to being allergic to onions. Stepped on the scale today and became disappointed with myself. Definitely going to eat smarter portions and not be a fool.

[Anonymous No.11906905]

>>11906591
Traveling doesn't bring you any benefit if it isn't done for a purpose. It hasn't brought you any to be frank.

[Anonymous No.11906917]

>>11906619
Chaste and breadpilled

[Anonymous No.11906919]

>>11906873
What the fuck does this even mean? If you're just complaining about muh brown people you're delusional.

[Anonymous No.11906925]

I've tried to get angry as i used to but it's just not all there.

[Anonymous No.11906946]

>>11905306
It only satiates for 30 minutes. Then the cycle begins anew. You are horny because you've allowed yourself to get horny by dwelling on lascivious thoughts or exposing yourself to erotic stimuli. It sounds counter to conventional wisdom but the solution is deliberate and total abstinence, practiced mentally as well as physically. The nagging of constant horniness can be ended with effort.

[Anonymous No.11906952]

A critical lack of conscious observation leads one to surmise that all subjective things, including those present only in the individual, are of a most stellar, or spectacular nature. I would say this assumption is indicative of a problem that goes beyond the mind of the individual, and perhaps reaches into the very will or fortitude of the individual. Without question, there is a certain sort of "attitude" or stigma which seems to present in the individual as a form of intellectual deficiency. To separate deficiency from degradation, it could be said of the mind to allow for a more spiritual sense of intuition, the likes of which would not be in the disposition of degeneracy to fit itself with. On the contrary, intellectual degeneracy seems to invoke a sort of disdain, unique in its sensation and not wholly attached to the personal feelings of the individual. In this way, disdain could be spoken of as an unnatural sort of feeling, which does necessarily preclude the attitude of the individual.

[Anonymous No.11906956]

>>11906919
To elaborate, the problems Europe faces are not new and they're certainly not the result of whatever meme political point you're fixated on. They're a result of modernity the failure to synthesize it with the western tradition into something good. Read Paul Goodman.

[Anonymous No.11906959]

>>11906905
You expect to know someone by a single post that was made for the purpose of resonating with someone else’s sentiments? “To be frank” you have no clue who I am, where I go, or for what purpose my life keeps me on the move. Pompous prick.

[Anonymous No.11907007]

>>11906959
I actually do. You made yourself clear enough.

[Anonymous No.11907031]

>>11907007
And this is exactly the answer I expected too. We are animals!

[Anonymous No.11907032]

>>11906956
Doesn't Europe, and with that the west, suffer from chronic boredom?

[Anonymous No.11907040]

>>11906368
Sounds pretty /lit/. Feel free to email to me, I always enjoy talking to other massanons.
> [e-mail]

[Anonymous No.11907080]

>>11907031
Wow, you are the Chessmaster, well done, and also well done on being superior to your parents and bragging about it to some strangers on the internet. How does it feel, Anon, to know that you are exploring the wideness of this beautiful world, but you are not capable to form a meaningful connection with your family. "Well, here are my parents, I present you them, the dumbasses, they don't know shit." It's your responsibility to make that one right Anon, not theirs, if you don't understand this, and you can't make me believe that you do, then you have no authority to talk about of importance of traveling, or the importance of anything.

[Anonymous No.11907096]

>>11906952
I can barely understand this jargon. Are you saying people are stupid for believing that their experiences are highly unique? And that it's a problem to believe so? The spiritual intuition and the degenerate disposition can not intermix? Disdain for themselves or other people?

[Anonymous No.11907115]

>>11907096
You hit the nail on the head

[Anonymous No.11907353]

I wanted to go for a run but it's too late now. Have to wake up in 7 hours but I don't feel particularly tired. Suicidal thoughts keep me up at night.

[Anonymous No.11907443]

Utterly sick of undulations of mania and depression. In a manic phase, so feeling okay. Things can only get worse or better.

[Anonymous No.11907489]

My mind is relentlessly tormented with unbearably horrible memories of things that have happened to me & been said to me. I don’t know if I can go on for any longer.

[Anonymous No.11907505]

>>11907489
go on

[Anonymous No.11907602]

I need an outlet for this emotion that is cursing through my body, this fire of unknown origin. I can not tell if it is spawned from anger or pride, ifit is destructive or productive, It simply resides in my chest with a need to be released. I tried utilizing it to write school assignments but it did not satisfy the flame. I tried some creative writing but it did little to appease it. I might try exercise after a shower to quell this fire before it blazes like an inferno.

[Anonymous No.11907622]

I can't seem to form any long lasting meaningful relationships.

What's the point of doing anything if you're alone doing it.

[Anonymous No.11908119]

>>11906919
>demographics prove at the current rate, nations like Britain will be close to having a native minority by the 2060s
>delusional
kek

[Anonymous No.11908385]

The bible is one of the most complex documents in all of known history, even core tenets such as the Trinity takes years of study to truly understand. But, no rather than the most learned scholars teaching the ignorant masses on scripture the protestants think that anyone no matter how dumb, how illiterate can form true opinions on this complex document. Even people who have never read the bible, aka most Christians can form opinions on it.

To find out the more sinister and hidden motivations behind the spread of this retarded doctrine we need to look at more complex power analysis. All power institutions want to expand, this is the nature of power and so the Christian Monarchs would allow Protestantism to take over their nation so that they could gain even more power. By eliminating the church as a competing institution of power.

And here is where it gets interesting Liberalism which is similarly asinine, and has similarly ridiculous ontology has managed to take over the entire world (or most of it) and how did it do this? Liberals seem to think that it was “the people” carrying out these liberal revolutions, but this is just insane, the average person is an idiot, I don't want to sound harsh but it's true. These ideas must have come from some area of power and they did, much like Protestantism was a facade for expansion of the Monarch’s power, liberalism this seemingly liberating ideology took power because institutions such as the media wanted to expand their power.


I'm new to politics and philosophy and even newer to power analysis so I'd really like some critiques of this.

[Anonymous No.11908698]

I'm making steady progress on my /ic/ skills, but as a result, I'm becoming aware of just how surface level I am. I've been surfing /fit/ and /lit/ for a while now with marginal strength gains and only a few books under my belt. Same deal with other aspects of life and "lighter" media.

I'm just not that interesting, and being able to do a bunch of things wont ever make me interesting to myself, but maybe one I'll day be able to be interesting to a sweet girl and my (currently) nonexisting son. I'm young, and I can only go up from here. All I have to do is not get sucked into playing league of legends all day, killing time with friends who always manage to get stuff done while I'm staying in the same place. This art thing is kind of what I've always expected of a religious experience, and now its all about getting better every day.

[Anonymous No.11908749]

>>11907602
You need to scream. What I do is silent screaming - just do it normally but don't use your voice box. Has the same effect and doesn't disturb anyone. Punching my bed, couch or whatever as hard as I can also helps.

[Anonymous No.11908759]

>>11908749
>screaming silently has the same effect as screaming
Postmodernity has ensnared you like a kevlar cocoon. Hopefully you have enough fight to emerge out a beautiful butterfly.

[Anonymous No.11908769]

Why do I feel like I can't sleep.
Help
L:SKJDFSFDLKJ

[Anonymous No.11908778]

>>11908759
Yes, full scream is best, but it's not viable for most people. I would do it if I had a place where nobody would hear me and lock me up for it.

[Anonymous No.11908786]

>>11908769
I'm tired in a way that sleep doesn't cure yet my waking hours are spent restlessly fantasizing over acts of pure, unrelenting action. If X marks the spot then I know where the spot is, but I don't know how to get there. Give me a map and I'll give you your voyage.

[Anonymous No.11908804]

>>11908778
>I'm sorry sir, but it's just not viable.

[Anonymous No.11908947]

i just want to be a man and have firm opinions. i can't hold a opinion for more than a few weeks because i'm always looking out for new information and arguments. basically, i want to stop being an agnostic and start being a full fedora atheist. if i can remove the fear of an afterlife, i'll finally fucking kill myself without any doubts, really. i got some sleeping pills from a friend and when i used it, i blacked out almost instantenously waking up 14 hours later. there was not a single dream no a moment of awareness. if death is like this, then how can it be so taboo? i don't want to be edgy here, but it's literally the best thing that could occur to me.

[Anonymous No.11909066]

>>11908947
It'll be sad to see you go, anon. I've had my times, my Mr Kill Myself times, bramble fuck times, but I've also slept overnight in those fields so as not to cut my balls open (blackout hiking). So you've fallen off the log. So you're neck can't look up anymore. Maybe just take a nap in the spikey bushes and stop trying to wade through it like some naked idiot drunk retard.

[Anonymous No.11909121]

I kind of want to become more social online but I don't know where to go. I never used Facebook or Twitter and I don't want to.

[Anonymous No.11909144]

>>11905280
Scientists give us 50 years. I will likely see the reinvention of humankind or the extinction. Society has grown so large collapse is inevitable. The poor and stupid are having more and more children while the rich and smart bear fewer and fewer children. Natural selection has been eliminated and the human race grows weaker and less intelligent by the day. This doesn't bother me too much, but it is an unsettling thought.

[Anonymous No.11909206]

>>11909066
once i was sleeping in the garden only to wake up and find my balls had been bited off by ants. i went to school with a huge pain and a huge bulge and i got bullied for 2 weeks and they called me balls of steel haha

i know you want to put down a generic whiny post, but trust me anon, i think i'm in actual pain. i had to drop out of college because of my health. IBS attacked me and i'd wake up in the morning shitting water for 9 or 10 times, each time more painful and pathetic, essentially leaving me no time to do anything in the morning. it was like this for 5 years, only recently, 2 months ago that it stopped completely, but the damage was done. i live in a shithole with no neetbux and colleges have a rule that if you drop out for more than 2 years you have to re do the course. this means that i'll only finish it when i'm 29 years old. the time that i should have a stable career and enjoying life i'll be a man straight out of college. there's then the sleep deprivation part. i have full raging blasting tinnitus that prevents me from sleeping. nothing works against it and it's literally deafening. doctor said that if i don't treat it the sleep deprivation will cause permanent neurological damages, and i think that has already begun. i can feel my iq decreasing, i'm forgetful and writing that was so easy for me to do back then takes me hours nowadays. there's also the fact that i'm your typical 4channer, meaning that i never had any positive experience with girls, i have literally zero friends and absolutely no life prospects. also i have a brother who's a enterpreneur and already has 3 kids and a expensive house. i get compared to him every day and my dad says that he's living life for me, that is, he already has 3 kids, he already secured my dad's offspring while i'm a virgin. just let me go already reeeee don't you think i deserve a honorable death?

[Anonymous No.11909282]

I often wonder if anons who say they'll kill themselves once their parents pass away really mean it. I've heard it in so many posts, yet I ask myself if it's just a very common and natural self-rationalization that people use to hide behind, when the truth is that they can't actually muster the will to kill themselves to begin with. This post isn't meant to discourage people from thinking this way of course, I just suspect that it's a coping mechanism that people genuinely believe but is really a lie they tell themselves and that they just don't know it.

[Anonymous No.11909297]

>>11909282
Probably a little of both. I sometimes fantasize about killing myself after my parents pass away but even then I’d have siblings so I wouldn’t do it. I view the parents thing as just another obstacle in the way of people killing themselves, it’s not the only thing keeping them from doing it but it is part of it. So one day after their parents are long gone and they have a shit enough day, it’s possible that all the other justifications aren’t enough and the thought of their parents wont be their to push them to survive. Most people who say that probably wouldn’t off themselves as soon as their parents passed but they’d probably be more likely to do it after they passed.

[Anonymous No.11909298]

>>11909206
In touch great big ol victimhood, what a thing. You don't deserve shit, anon. Being the so sad agnostic that you are, maybe take a few minutes from the misery and thank the maybe-he's-there-Sky-Man that things aren't worse for you.

[Anonymous No.11909311]

>>11909298
thanks anon but how could it be any worse desu i mean maybe he's a great guy, but maybe he is taking a shit all over my face

[Anonymous No.11909319]

>>11909297


Meh, my brother has friends, I could give a shit what he thinks.

[Anonymous No.11909349]

A kind of recurring topic of my daydreams, especially resting in bed, is sitting alone in some small desolate outpost consisting of some dug in, out of service soviet armored vehicles with a patched up collection of tents and steel plates covering the trenches connecting the vehicles into a closed complex, fully equipped to survive months in it, cause due to the hostile environment around consisting of the icy desert around and I think some dangerous beasts I can only leave it for extremely short amounts of time. Instead all I can do is observing the barren area around my "home" and the occasional piece of wildlife through the small ports and windows left open to let in some natural light.

[Anonymous No.11909364]

>>11909311
How bout you have some kind of interface with the Guy, put on your serious face, and eat divine shit if you are to be so worthy.

I really do pray for you, man.

[Anonymous No.11909373]

>>11906629
In case you consider this lack of memory of many things seems abnormal and beyond the average forgetting of stuff over time, consider talking to a neurologist or psychiatrist.
Perhaps there was or is something screwing with your brain.

[Anonymous No.11909381]

>>11909364
i also pray for my 4chan friends every night, anon.

[Anonymous No.11909383]

>>11908947
it was revealed to me by god that Dante's inferno is CANON. you're going to hell, buddy. jump head straight into the first circle

[Anonymous No.11909388]

Fucked up college by reading announcements wrong, missed the entire first week dedicated to signing up for classes and theoreticaly can't sign up anymore. Parents advised me to beg the professors to get me in today, but I'm wasting time till the student helpdesk opens so I can ask them for advice regarding the matter.

[Anonymous No.11909391]

>>11909388
go to your dean asap

[Anonymous No.11909414]

>>11909391
I have a feeling he/she won't do shit for a first time college goer. Are they helpful in general? Or is it depending on the case?

[Anonymous No.11909420]

DOES ANYONE HAVE A PACK WITH ALL THE URBANOMICS MATERIAL?

[Anonymous No.11909432]

>>11905280
I hit it off with a girl and we kissed a week later (my first kiss), but I think I didn't make more moves in time to keep her interest. I was just so nervous because I really like her, and now I might never get to feel her again. It's been a couple weeks since we've hung out and I don't know how she feels, and I wonder if I should ask.

[Anonymous No.11909468]

>>11909432
Don't ask how she feels. Just tell her that you guys should do something, and if she doesn't respond, it's time to move on. Give her a couple chances if she makes some excuse, but move on if it doesn't happen.

[Anonymous No.11909469]

>>11909414
you're a retard and yes you will get into your faggot 101 humanitard courses anon

[Anonymous No.11909480]

>>11909469
Thanks ma'am, you know how to put a smile on one's face. All I want is to study mechatronics to make robots to yell at white people about their need for culling.

[Anonymous No.11909492]

>>11909480
Just graduated from mechatronics. Youre not going to be making robots, friend.

[Anonymous No.11909498]

I'd give just about anything to get dicked every night. Also I wish I knew if I have ADHD or not, it'll be weeks or months before I can get tested. Inability to focus is keeping me from writing my novel, amongst other things

[Anonymous No.11909503]

>>11909498
Obligatory "gay or female?" reply

[Anonymous No.11909504]

>>11909468
She's curved me a couple times already, so I think I'm just going to tell her how I feel. I'm OK if she doesn't feel the same way about me, I'm just curious what she'd say.

[Anonymous No.11909509]

>>11909503
I have a beard

[Anonymous No.11909517]

It’’s 3:30 am and I am full of caffeince and nicotine. The girl Ilove has been stolen from me by youtube whores. These filth have posioined her mind and driven a wedge between us. I have never felt more alone than I do now. We should be together but I know she’s high on adderall binging youtube instead of being with me, the way it used to be at night. The youtubers she watches preach the most degenerate shit. They make being an escort (a whore) and having a sugar daddy seem trendy and cool. They encourage polyamory and casual sex. It makes me sick.

[Anonymous No.11909524]

>>11909517
Matt?

[Anonymous No.11909527]

>>11909492
Then I'll sue them for misinforming me, even when they said I won't make robots, for not teaching me to make robots.

[Anonymous No.11909536]

>>11909524
Not my name, sorry friend

[Anonymous No.11909560]

>>11909527
Good luck with that buckaroo

[Anonymous No.11909649]

>>11909517
>The youtubers she watches preach the most degenerate shit. They make being an escort (a whore) and having a sugar daddy seem trendy and cool. They encourage polyamory and casual sex. It makes me sick.
I'm seriously starting to get the feeling that YouTube has almost no redeeming qualities. For every good channel that does game retrospectives or uploading ancient interviews from 50 years ago, there's a dozen of these degenerate teen channels and Koch brother funded rightwing trash.

[Anonymous No.11909700]

We couldnt live more than an hour without texting each other.Now she doesnt even say hello.It happened overnight.

[Anonymous No.11909706]

This song describes my existence perfectly.

https://youtu.be/FnQVbk3O3ZM

[Anonymous No.11909720]

Way too many pseuds and wannabe deep posters since the last time I was here. The average iq must’ve dropped 20 points. I think I’ll go read instead

[Anonymous No.11909724]

>>11909720
And ill go smoke a cig

[Anonymous No.11909756]

Capitalism ruins everything.

[Anonymous No.11909764]

>>11909756
wow what a big thought

[Anonymous No.11909779]

i signed up for instagram so i could look at the postings of a few people in the same hobby as me that i think do miraculous things and so eventually i could also post my stuff and be validated in a circlejerk. this is after instagram kept having intrusive and annoying blocks of "SIGN UP FOR INSTAGRAM" and i figured what the hell. now it, on my desktop, has another annoying and obtrusive block at the bottom of my screen that tells me the instagram app is better. i have blocked it with an adblocker, of course, but it's still annoying. the only apps i have on my phone are firefox, adblock stuff, and an ereader. it's fucking annoying how everything wants your information so it can spy on you and sell your data.

stallman was right.

[Anonymous No.11909794]

>>11905381
try being almost 26 and
>never had a gf
>never kissed
>never hold hands
>pretty sure no girl as much as flirted with me

[Anonymous No.11909812]

I took a nap earlier and now I'm contemplating to dick around on my computer, maybe grind Earthbound Zero while listening to this chill ass playlist. Or I could just go back and read the texts that we talked about last night because you're on my mind most of the time. I feel content so far. Is this what this good feel is? I don't even feel depressed (so far), don't have the need to feel angry about anything. I guess I'm just living and it feels okay.

[Anonymous No.11909841]

>>11905280
Awake at 5:30 am. I can’t go back to sleep. God, I want a beer right now. Oh, great! I still have some of the Guinness Extra Stout I bought the other night. I crack open the bottle and begin to nurse it as I scroll through 4chan. I have work in a few hours, but I don’t care. Degeneracy is in my blood.

[Anonymous No.11909853]

>>11909756
No, it just strains out weak faggots like you. Live stream an hero?

[Anonymous No.11909867]

I feel like a fucking fish in an huge pound where women just throw bait in, jiggle it around, wait for me to notice it, and then as soon as I get my act together and go for it, they reel in and leave the pound.So I just stand and wonder what the hell just happened for a while, and, as soon as I forget about it and go about my fish life, another fisherman comes in, throws his fishing line, and the cycle continues, and it will, until I die I guess.

And now a new bait has been thrown, it's looking tastier than ever and I'm just tired of it, I know if I show even the slightest bit of interest in it, it'll be gone forever, and if I keep it up and don't show any, it'll just leave. So I think I'll just float around with my fish mates.

[Help me No.11909872]

>>11905280
What's the word for "a collection of qoutes"

[Anonymous No.11909874]

>>11909853

Don't you have to go wageslave soon, American? This board would be much better if Americans were range banned.

[Anonymous No.11909878]

>>11909867
Honestly, I’ve found that girls are more likely to be attracted to you when you don’t give a goddamn about dating them. Focus on yourself, your hobbies, your friends, and—slowly—you’ll notice that these gals will be more attracted. That’s the thing. Girls hate guys that are all about the chase.

[Anonymous No.11909884]

The increase of automation in the menial sectors of the workforce are making me increasingly worried for the future of humanity, I'm not sure how I feel about a basic income but I think this may be a serious prolem in our lifetime, and stifling such talk on issues because muh free enterprise won't have any credence when the main consumerbase dont even have money to support such enterprise.

[Anonymous No.11909903]

>>11909884

Climate change and its effects will affect us before that happens, I'm sorry to say.

[Anonymous No.11909909]

>>11909874
No, i have cucks like you to wage slave for me. Because I am stronger.

[Anonymous No.11909951]

i got my iq semi-validly tested at ~115 and i'm inordinately worried about it
i wanted to go into math but maybe i'll just go into lit instead haha

[Anonymous No.11909956]

>tfw my waifus manga doesnt have an english publication for me to buy

[Anonymous No.11909958]

How do i stop smoking cones?
each day i wake up not wanting to smoke another single bong,
then at like 9 something just clicks and i go smoke a (free) cone.
it's turned me a bit retarded and definitely made me withdrawn

[Anonymous No.11909968]

>>11906619
>>11906917
>>11906628
>Renounce the flesh.
>posts Jesus

umm you do know what a Resurrection is, right
how illiterate can you get

[Anonymous No.11909977]

>>11905280
i wanted my wife to wank me off with her feet earlier but she said she was too busy
now i'm thinking about the girl at work who has very nice feet and pretty pink toenails which i saw the other day when she came in wearing open sandals
i'm probably going to masturbate shortly

[Anonymous No.11910017]

Countries and governments don't take care of their citizens the way they ought

[Anonymous No.11910034]

>>11910017
move to scandinavia, get on neetbucks

[Anonymous No.11910057]

>>11908778
Go to a rock or metal concert, in most cases there will be enough noise to hinder your scream mute.

[Anonymous No.11910083]

>>11909909

I am a patrician NEET. Keep slaving away, wagie.

>bbbut i am the slave driver

Wagie.

[Anonymous No.11910090]

>>11910083
NEETs will never know true freedom. They will live on someone else’s dollar and labor without earning for their own. They lack the discipline it takes to be independent. A wage slave is still his own man at the end of the day. He struggles at his work, and the struggle is ennobling.

[Anonymous No.11910105]

I am tired but content

[Anonymous No.11910106]

>>11910090
one must imagine Sisyphus a cuck

[Anonymous No.11910113]

>>11910090
>A wage slave is still his own man at the end of the day. He struggles at his work, and the struggle is ennobling.
Wage slavery has to be one of the most humiliating things civilisation invented, outside of actual slavery itself.

Working for some fuckoff boss at a dirty bar or a nondescript administrative company or a giant, empty warehouse just doing meaningless work to be able to pay the rent isn't "ennobling", its frustrating and soul-crushing. So many wage slaves are either openly depressed or they've just found a way to drown their sorrows every weekend and put on a facade of happiness in the meantime.

Why do you think things like video games, porn, netflix, fast food, reality TV, etc. are consumed in such high quantities? Because people feel hollow inside, and have to rely on cheap distractions in order to numb the pain. If this work was truly as "ennobling" as you say, people would be far less likely to waste their time with such frivolities.

[Anonymous No.11910148]

>>11909373
I’m afraid to know the truth. What if I go in and have expensive testing done and blow through my savings, to find out that my brain is rotting from the inside out?
Or even worse, what if I find out that it isn’t?

[Anonymous No.11910154]

>>11910148
>expensive testing done and blow through my savings

fuck I really wouldn't want to live in america

[Anonymous No.11910177]

This idea for a science fiction story. It revolves around a story keeper. In the future people are employed, recruited, or destined to be story keepers. Their role is simple they have to root out and eliminate any foriegn stories that are trying to derail the societies grand narative. So, the protagonist realises that the grand narative is flawed and hopeless. And yadda yadda changes the world, which was the initial reason that the grand narative didn't work - because it relied on a grand hero arrising and changing everything.

Any stories like this?

[Anonymous No.11910180]

>>11910177
stop writing generic genre fiction

[Anonymous No.11910193]

>>11910180
And write what, poetry? I have nothing to confess so that isn't going to sell.

[Anonymous No.11910198]

>>11910154
There are a lot of things I love about America, but people dying because they can’t afford healthcare in one of the most medically advanced countries in the world isn’t one of them.

[Anonymous No.11910243]

>>11910113
NEETs are the ones consuming those frivolities en masse because they have nothing else to do. they have no drive to do anything taxing

[Anonymous No.11910246]

>>11910180
if the protag came to the same realisation but was crushed by it and killed himself would it be genre fiction

[Anonymous No.11910255]

>>11910246
genre fiction that criticizes it's own genre? you'd be making doki doki literature club, it's quite a popular trope in genre fiction

[Anonymous No.11910279]

i wonder if my entire life and experiences itself is just a shitpost on some super intelligence that uses what's physical to us to convey large amounts of information

[Anonymous No.11910287]

>>11910255
what separates genre fiction from literary fiction exactly

[Anonymous No.11910294]

>>11910287
genre fiction is like rock, rap, pop, jazz, metal, trap etc.
literary fiction is like classical art music

[Anonymous No.11910299]

>>11910279
i wonder if a super inteligence is monitoring humans because they have exhausted their imaginative extremity and have not come up with a solution to stop the universes great collapse and reset, and they are bored of waiting for inteligent life to reappear after the new big bang. So they are watching us now to see if we have the imaginative capacity to shunt the lit unverse further into the eternal darkness.

[Anonymous No.11910304]

>>11910294
That is nonsense. Literary fiction generally focusses on political, religious, historic or inter and intrapersonal events, it also aims to break traditional writing styles and experiments in other ways. Genre fiction is genre fiction.

[Anonymous No.11910340]

I can't help wondering what the point of recodring eveeything is, as we seem to be going that way. All it seems to do is force everyone towards endless semantics and exceptionalism, sort of like the death impressionism.

[Anonymous No.11910360]

I AM ATTEMPTING NOFAP AND I HAVE JUST HAD MY SEVENTH (7TH!!!) WET DREAM IN THE PAST MONTH AND A HALF WHICH IS MORE WET DREAMS THAN I EVER PREVIOUSLY HAD IN MY ENTIRE LIFE
HELP
WHY CAN'T I FUCKING KEEP MY SEMEN IN MY BODY?? I FEEL LIKE I'M BEING VIOLATED! ARE DEMONS ACTUALLY REAL? BECAUSE THIS IS FUCKING RIDICULOUS

[Anonymous No.11910364]

>>11910360
tape your peehole shut before bed

[Anonymous No.11910375]

>>11910090

L O L the wagie delusion

[Anonymous No.11910380]

>>11910360
It’s a combination of your body being used to ejaculating 3-4 times a day and your brain being so addicted to porn it infiltrated the subconscious world of your dreams.
I’m 6 days into my first real attempt to stop masturbating and I’m not looking forward to the feelings of trying to break an easily satisfied addiction.

[Anonymous No.11910387]

>>11909794
You have to try (and fail) if you really want a girl. Women aren't just going to come to you. That's not what they're raised to do.

[Anonymous No.11910439]

I’m going to visit Columbia university just to get pictures for my book so that I can describe what I see there. It’s the setting for my book and I want a description that could be used as blueprints to the architects. Any tips?

[Anonymous No.11910441]

I'm 18 and want to go to church, but I feel like it'd be weird of me to do so for my age. What would I say to friends and family asking me about it? How would other churchgoers react to me there? I'd just like to be Christian, but my age makes it feel wrong.

On the plus side, I'm going to start working again soon and I'll be studying psychology at uni, so I'm excited for that.

[Anonymous No.11910466]

>>11910441
literally nobody would give a single shit

[Anonymous No.11910478]

>>11910441
Visit different churches to find one that’s “right” for you, don’t just settle for whatever’s closest.
As someone who’s attended a lot of different churches, you’ll absolutely know when you find the right one for you.
As for what other people will think? Most churches will be happy to have you, and as for people in your life, who cares? If they’re true friends and family, it won’t make a difference to them that you’ve found Jesus so long as you aren’t militant about it, and if being a Christian is enough for them to drop you, they probably weren’t healthy relationships to begin with.

[Anonymous No.11910503]

I'm starting to wonder why I bother reading philosophy at all. I remember that ecstatic feeling I had as a kid when I first discovered philosophy - it seemed so esoteric, so unknown, almost magical. Now that I've read most of the big names from the Greeks, to Scholastics, to Muslims, to most of the moderns (including our friendly speculative materialists) I just feel incredibly disappointed.

It's simply incredible how myopic so many philosophers can be. Just idiot savants spending a lifetime on pet theories without once batting an eye at the insanity they're putting down on the page to question what implications it could have, or whether or not it might be too simplistic to make sense of the wider world in which they live. Brains on fire, possessed by the strongest kind of autism.

And then you also have the dudebro tier Easterners who have countless volumes that sooner or later boil down to similar if not identical core concepts. I remember feeling legitimate anger the first time I read Zhuangzi.

The fact of the matter is, most philosophers are the same as most readers of philosophy: they don't give a fuck about what the truth of the matter is. They either want to fuck over some guy that came before them and take possession of their fame, or they're simpletons that want to validate their preconceptions in outlandish ways. That's it.

I've literally wasted my teens and twenties reading philosophy only to discover it's a fucking joke. But there is no catharsis. Rather than thinking now that it's time to go outside, that it's time to read a fucking fiction book after five years, or god forbid play a video game, my one and only instinct is to tell myself I just haven't found the right guy yet. That somewhere out there is some obscure fucking nutter that I've yet to read, that's somehow going to give meaning to my pitiful existence and give me the same kind of certainty that Kantfags and Hegelfags get.

[Anonymous No.11910533]

>>11910503
ok cuck

[Anonymous No.11911260]

>>11910106
Based

[Anonymous No.11911281]

>>11908778
You can do this underwater my friend

[Anonymous No.11911287]

>>11910503
>That somewhere out there is some obscure fucking nutter that I've yet to read, that's somehow going to give meaning to my pitiful existence and give me the same kind of certainty that Kantfags and Hegelfags get.

Read Adi Shankara

[Anonymous No.11911319]

>>11910503
comfy putin

[Anonymous No.11911345]

>>11910503
>I remember feeling legitimate anger the first time I read Zhuangzi
Why?

[Anonymous No.11911667]

>>11911345
Something freudian

[Anonymous No.11911772]

Got up early today and took a long, introspective hike up a mountain. I was thinking about where I am in life, where I'm going. All the people I miss and times I wish I could have back. And of course my crush, who I finally admitted my feelings to months ago and naturally turned me down. It was really cold and windy at the top, but I sat and looked out at the world for a while. Then I grabbed the peak log and wrote a goodbye to the friends I've fallen away from and a short note to her saying how much I cherished our time together and that I was sorry that it ended the way it did. And that I missed her, of course. Even though I hadn't seen her for months this was the first time it felt like I was actually saying goodbye, and I teared up a little. After that I walked back down and went home. Now I'm just drinking tea and listening to a bittersweet playlist of songs I played when she was still in my life. When I still had that childish love for her and wonder for how good the future could be.

I miss that feeling.

Time to move on I guess The pain is still there, but it's faded to a dull melancholy from the overwhelming despair I was facing early in the summer. I don't really know what I'll do, probably just see where the wind blows me.

[Anonymous No.11911815]

>>11911772
why did you have to write this here, did you diary reject you too

[Anonymous No.11911827]

>>11911815
I stopped keeping a diary because it was either melodramatic garbage or too uninteresting to be worth the effort. At least this way I get replies to my melodrama.

[Anonymous No.11911828]

9. PSYCHOPATHIC DESIGN IS BEST CHARACTERIZED BY THE SLAUGHTERHOUSE IN WHICH ANIMALS ARE 'PROCESSED.' ANIMALS ARE LIVING SYMBOLS, OR SYMBOLS OF LIFE THAT

ARE ANIMATE, AND ARE IN SPIRIT CHILDREN OF GOD. THE DEAD SCIENCE, LACKING OUR BASIS, CORRALS ANIMALS IN CORRIDORS OF AUTOMATION, SEQUESTERING THEM FROM

THE WHOLE OF THE WORLD, AND THROUGH THE SPECIALIZATION OF MECHANIZED SLAUGHTER, MUTILATES THEM FOR THEIR VISCERA, RESULTING IN HELLSCAPE, THE

LOWERING OF ENERGY SIGNATURE AND ENDING THIER LIVES IN CHAOTIC DEATH.

THE PSYCHOPATH IS BY NATURE A VAMPIRIC BEING, A PARASITIC BEING, WHOM EXTRACTS PLEASURE FROM MURDER, AND WHOM ENGORGES HIMSELF ON SLAIN, INNOCENT

FLESH. THROUGH THE DEAD SCIENCE, THE PSYCHOPATHIC RULING ELITE HAD PERFECTED THE HARVESTING OF ANIMAL FLESH.

[Anonymous No.11911830]

After years of introspection I've come to the conclusion that I prefer legs to both ass and tits.

[Anonymous No.11911846]

>quote from a character or narrator in a book is attributed directly to the author

[Anonymous No.11911848]

>>11911830
same, but for feet

[Anonymous No.11911863]

My PhD oral examinations are tomorrow and I'm so numb from months of horrific studying that I can't even feel anxiety. I just want the nightmare to end. Just let it end. Whether I pass or fail, I'm going transform into a cosmic cloud and waft away after the exam is over.

[Anonymous No.11911927]

>>11910106
kek

[Anonymous No.11911991]

You MUST try putting ajwain in your hummus.

[Anonymous No.11911995]

>>11911991
never had hummus because I'm not a BASEDBOY, JEW or KEK

[Anonymous No.11911997]

>>11911995
Wrong.

[Anonymous No.11912080]

>>11911995
dumb burger

[Anonymous No.11912135]

The same dream about casually noticing spider webs, the funnel kind, and with each look the spiders become slightly bigger and stranger culminating in ones that resemble clumps of hair as big as my fist writhing inside rhizomatic webs.

[Anonymous No.11912150]

As I walk, no thoughts, no clarity, no harm, no sorrow

As I lie, my heart walks on, race towards failure

As I cry, for your lost mother, I wish to change

As I die, let me leave

[Anonymous No.11912215]

>>11912150

[Anonymous No.11912248]

To be honest, everything looks like it is one big loop, days are repeating, everything is boring and the same. People never change and sometimes we try to do it, but it ends badly... I am not lonely, but sometimes I prefer to be alone. Here I can talk about what I want to talk about, people are more honest here knowing there is no one to judge. I hope everyone has a nice day/night.

[Anonymous No.11912277]

>>11911863
Good luck anon

[Moot !!zQGXzS9SL5B No.11912318]

I love these threads. I really am convinced this is the best representation of the collective human psyche you can find on the internet.
Keep this happening please.

[Anonymous No.11912329]

I was standing at the counter in a coffee shop today waiting for my coffee. A cute girl was sitting in the corner eating her lunch. She called over to me and asked me how the line was. I replied that it was short at the moment and that i would go for it if i were her. She smiled, thanked me and went to line up.
After 30 seconds i glanced at her and found that she was already looking at me. She gave me a big smile and i did my best to muster up a smile back.
Once she got her coffee she came and sat at a table near mine. I desperately wanted to go and talk to her, but every time i tried to gather the courage to do so i felt myself start to slightly shake and then stopped myself from doing so.
I sat there in silence, scrolling mindlessly through 4chan on my phone, praying that she would come and talk to me.
After 30 minutes she got up and left. I feel like such a bitch. I spend so much time feeling lonely and wishing i had a gf, yet when an opportunity presents itself i completely pussy out.
Its mine own fault that im alone.

[Anonymous No.11912359]

My head hurts and I'm tired

[Anonymous No.11912363]

>>11912329
Hey man, at least you've realized that you fucked up. Remember it the next time you have an opportunity and use that to spur you to action.

You can do it anon.

[Anonymous No.11912380]

>>11909144
Intelligence is only about 50% heritable. You've heard of the Flynn effect, right? The future might be bleak, but underestimating the people you share it with won't help.

[Anonymous No.11912390]

i want to stop molding my character on Paulie Walnuts. thank god i don't live in america so people don't realize i'm copying him, they don't even know the hand thing bunch of faggots

[Anonymous No.11912395]

>>11912329
One time outside a cafe a girl came up to me and complimented my hair, to which my reaction was to immediately inhale the piece of gum I was chewing and have a have a massive coughing fit that made the old woman who ran the place to come out and force me to sit down and drink a big glass of water, which caused me to burp incredibly loudly an incredible amount of times. After a few minutes the girl gently escaped to somewhere less embarrassing.
Anyway, the moral of the story is to stop going outside.

[Anonymous No.11912412]

>>11909144
>>11912380
This isn't a issue. If you give the 115 IQ plus incentives to breed more and give the low IQ incentives to don't breed at all you can fix humanity in a century or 2 (and don't talk about regression to the mean like the uneducated pleb that you are, regression to the mean doesn't occur forever, if it did then traits wouldn't be passable at all) If we do this, you can imagine a world where the mean IQ is 130, and all of the problems that we have today are simply not a thing due to the intelligence of the species. Be optimistic anon, genetic engineering and soft eugenics will save us, long live the industrial revolution.

[Anonymous No.11912424]

>>11912395
Man, thats pretty rough. Thanks for sharing, friend

[Anonymous No.11912434]

>>11905393
Nice way to put it but the bottom line to this is
>I am 18 and i am cynical

[Anonymous No.11912443]

I think my girlfriend is falling in love with me. She is wonderful and beautiful and all that shit, and I've never been this happy in my life. God is real lads.

Also, I've been reading a ton of Don Quixote, and just got into book 4 in the first part. All I want to do is go home from work and read this fucking masterpiece.

[Anonymous No.11912454]

>>11912443
lol you're delusional your gf is probably cucking you

[Anonymous No.11912461]

Lately I've been smoking a lot of weed in the hopes of triggering some kind of psychotic episode. It's like picking at a scab or popping a pimple. I know there's something wrong in my head, I can feel it, and i want it to squeeze it out.

[Anonymous No.11912472]

>>11912443
I stopped reading the Don at chapter 29, should continue it soon, loved it back then, have no idea why I stopped

[Anonymous No.11912484]

>>11912461
Try amphetamines or meth.
Though why would you want to trigger a psychotic episode?

[Anonymous No.11912491]

Well that's the way that some want it to stay and I never want it to be that way

[Anonymous No.11912513]

A girl sometimes is really interested in me and we hit it off great, sometimes she avoids me or seems annoyed, completely at random. She isn't crazy, is she?

[Anonymous No.11912568]

I love you!

[Anonymous No.11912726]

>>11912484
maybe not psychosis, it's what i was medicated for as a kid though. i figure finding out what lies at the extreme end of whatever's not right in my head would offer some self insight.

[Anonymous No.11912741]

>>11912461
I tend to have intense, irrational negative thoughts when I get really stoned - to the point that it could be called a bad trip. Not on psychedelics though, strangely, except for once on shrooms when I felt a mild urge to bite off my fingers and dig into my eyes, but my response was basically "that's pretty crazy" and then didn't bite off my fingers or dig into my eyes. Nothing of the sort has happened since.

[Anonymous No.11912744]

>>11912568
then where are you

[Anonymous No.11912747]

>>11905306
>AAAAAA IM SO LONELY AND HORNY FUCK
damn, that's relatanle

[Anonymous No.11912809]

It's been around ten years, since I've known this girl. It's been about eight, since she went to live to the other side of the country, but we still chat regularly.
Always felt attracted to her, she's the intellectual-type after all, and over time I've made her like me too. Three days ago, being the introverted little virgin she is, she took some courage and send me nudes. The things is, I don't really feel anything by it except some sense of achivement like the one you'll get after running a marathon or reading a big book. On more local matters, a friend is eager to introduce me to this girl. "She really wants the D" he says, but I can't seem to be interested.
Am I too far gone /lit/? Has pornography burned my brain?

[Anonymous No.11912883]

>>11912809
nah, you're pretty normie, only most people ignore/hide those feeling you're having and pretend to feel what is more socially acceptable

[Anonymous No.11912910]

>>11912809
That's pretty normal. Not everyone gets stimulated by the same things. You're probably not that physical of a person

[Anonymous No.11912919]

>>11912809
>and over time I've made her like me too
This line is probably key to your first problem anon, you felt achievement because it was the end goal of your manipulation of her (not trying to sound like a preaching fag here), you probably don't feel anything for her at all, deep down.
As for the other thing, sluts are boring, go figure.

[Anonymous No.11912959]

I'm not real and this is all a dream I have proof

[Anonymous No.11912969]

>>11912883
>>11912910
>>11912919
Thanks Anons

[Anonymous No.11912972]

>>11912959
Reveal the proof, friend.

[Anonymous No.11912977]

>>11912741
Hmm. That's interesting. It matches my own experience fairly well. I find mushrooms are mostly confusing when things are getting sour, where weed manages to get pretty dark and anxious, particularly at higher doses.

[Anonymous No.11913003]

>>11912959
I always suspected this, or rather I always suspected that everybody else wasn't real and I was the dreamer
all those coincidences, nothing an outsider would consider lucky, but certainly one in a million events and veiled hints - I do wonder what is the end goal of all this

[Anonymous No.11913009]

>>11912959
For the love of god wake up already, I can't take it anymore.

[Anonymous No.11913020]

>>11912959
wake up already

[Anonymous No.11913065]

>>11912972
The very possibility of me being real is absurd. It is impossible to create filth this disfigured and deranged. If one holds that I do in fact exist in the material plane equals to claiming that mountains can sing and worms dance. The possibility of a life form this foul and disgusting is beyond any conception and so the only logical conclusion is that I in fact don't exist. All I ever did was taste poison seeping from every crevice of life, each day a new form of torture. Even my body feels alien. I don't feel like it is mine at all, I am thoroughly disgusted with each atom making up this bag of flesh. I have been in agony ever since I first opened my eyes. I am not real and this nightmare will soon be over.

[Anonymous No.11913151]

>>11909968
The flesh as in the desires created from your instincts.

[Anonymous No.11913386]

I need to find a way to move to Italy and be accepted there as one of their own despite being an American Euromutt heritage fag. I need to do this so I can live in a country with nice buildings and better food.

[Anonymous No.11913744]

>>11913386
Improve the country in which you live rather than seeking escape to another, which will in due time face the same problems as America. I do agree with you, though, that modernity has given us a serious architecture problem. I've been to Rome once, and the older parts of the city (read: the touristy parts) were absolutely beautiful. Now, comparing my experience of Rome to mine of New York, I've found that even the most beautiful sections of the latter can't compare to those of the former. God, imagine if every city inspired feelings of awe and happiness rather than disgust. Modernist "architecture" is a blight.

[Anonymous No.11914213]

>>11910148
Let me guess, you don't have insurance?

[Anonymous No.11914257]

I'm so angry that i was blue balled by a jumpscare
look at this shit, so this is the original that i was expecting
https://i.4cdn.org/wsg/1537604776830.webm
and this is the edit that i got in a porn thread
https://i.4cdn.org/wsg/1538877249355.webm
I'm so upset right now

[Anonymous No.11914258]

>>11905280
There is no real me only an ideal, an impossible standard I hold myself to.]
Everyone I know is an absolute whore and a victim of their desires and they are too ignorant to see they very thing they desire consumes them

[Anonymous No.11914342]

I will never be good at anything and nobody is going to care when I die. There is not really any reason why I was born, and that in itself doesn't matter either.

Dehumanize yourself and face to bloodshed.

[Anonymous No.11914396]

Existence is pain. Man must create his own meaning to save himself from the inevitable chaos that is suffering

[Anonymous No.11914403]

/lit/ based discord. join if you like at least a few of these things. warning: it's slow moving

1. literature
2. philosophy
3. sports (especially mma)
4. scantily clad/nude women
5. music

https://discord.gg/ySSnRM

[Anonymous No.11914424]

My fucking head hurts, why is there no cure for the common cold and flu? Queef the raven.

[Anonymous No.11914436]

If water isn't wet, then water is dry

[Anonymous No.11914445]

I have my second midterm for integral calculus tomorrow, and I think I'm going to fail. The lead-up to this went fine, for despite average about 5/10 on each quiz, I did feel I could get it right by the exam, but tonight as I'm doing practice problems I just screw up every single one due to some rule I completely forgot about. It's sad, really. To be honest, I've never been a studying sort of person in my life, because the info plain does not stick. I guess now that's finally come to bite me. :(

[Anonymous No.11914446]

>>11914403
i don't get the need for this desu. and i'm not a fag who's gonna repeat the argument that the point of 4chin is anonimity we are legion!!! but come one, the best thing about anonimity is that i can assume different characters, sometimes almost at the same time, alternating between them like a mad man. i can't do this on leddit or discord or whatever and that's why they're trash and they never going to get the presence of someone as interesting as (me) or any other potential schizo. i mean in this thread i myself have posted probably like 7 or 8 times each under a different character, it's just so good to type out in different voices and styles, i really feel at home like this and i used to think i had no personality, i was just a fake who assumed different persons but now i see, i'm a great organizer of inside voices.
anyone who isn't a normie would get absolutely boring by having to have a fucking identity. jesus, can you imagine being on one of these servers and having to behave yourself and make friendships and assume a consistent character because otherwise you'll get no friends and will be ignored and banned? seems like hel to me senpai, i'm gonna say no thanks to your invitation, but thanks

[Anonymous No.11914455]

>>11905280
pissy piss piss on the pissy urine flavored floor pissy tits in my piss slipping on the tits floor yellow brown uriny tits in my piss

[Anonymous No.11914458]

>>11909968
Protestant incapable of abstraction detected.

[Anonymous No.11914496]

>>11905979
:( day by day brother. maybe one day we will both climb the hill of darkness and clasp hands

[Anonymous No.11914603]

downloaded tinder yesterday, got a date today. she's not even that good looking or anything but my self-confidence has been crushed since i broke up with my girlfriend and im kinda happy, guys

[Anonymous No.11914622]

I like the cold. It makes me feel clean.

[Anonymous No.11914630]

All things move towards their end.

[Anonymous No.11914721]

>>11905280
I yearn for a creative outlet but I'm not sure what. My heroes are Joyce, Borges, Proust, Kubrick, the Coen brothers, and various comedians. I'm getting very good at digital and social media marketing, I make a living doing it, I nerd out on it a lot, but I would like to do something more creative. And I want to be great at it, I want to move people, I want to create art. I've tried writing fiction on and off. All of my friends have told me at some point that I could do standup comedy/comedy writing, but I don't know if I am funny or they're just fucking stupid.

I've been alternating between Ulysses and In Search of Lost Time for 1.5 years now and have not finished either of them. Every time I start a different book I feel like it's not as good as Joyce/Proust and I get frustrated and put it down and try Joyce/Proust again. The only thing I read entirely through was Ficciones, Nichomachean Ethics and Madame Bovary. I've began and stopped in the middle of over 50 books in the last 2 years, always stopping to go back to Ulysses or ISOLT. The worst part is it completely goes over my head, and I have no literature education aside from 101 and 102 classes in college.

[Anonymous No.11914771]

These past few weeks have been nothing short of spectacular. I met this girl. I've never been this close with another girl before. Honestly, before meeting this girl, I really haven't done anything with another girl. She's absolutely wondrous. Kind, caring, beautiful. Pure. Sexually inexperienced like me. Everything would've been perfect except for the fact she lives 13 hours away by car. I've seen her twice now and plan on seeing her again in two weeks. I've never felt so good. Don't give up bros, never give up.

[Anonymous No.11914784]

Belief in God dies as we move closer to the singularity. Conservatism will conserve less and less, bubbles of tolerance transforming it further and further left. Nihilism moves forward to the great acceptance, where people will fuck and drink and bring in our AI replacements.

[Anonymous No.11914790]

>>11905280
Planning my future and failing some college classes at the same time.Thankfully I don't need the classes I'm failing. I'm going to do my best to bring them up but if I can't that's ok. I want to end up working as a deckhand on a merchant ship. At least to start. I'm ok with menial tasks and the high seas are awesome. I'm kinda thirsty but I can't really drink the tap water because I live in a run down river city. I have a can of beans in the cupboard so I think I'll heat those up and continue reading moby digck.

[Anonymous No.11914819]

I hate how capitalism infects everything. I hate how it infects my mind. I can't want to do 99% of stuff unless I pay for it especially here in America. I can't want to do something unless it could potentially bring in money if I don't want to starve in a gutter.

Fuck capitalism. Fuck America. Fuck anyone that supports this shitty system or this shitty country.

[Anonymous No.11914913]

>>11914603
Trivial distractions and freshly pursuits bring death and misery, interrupted by ephemeral vain moments of pleasure that soon fade and are met with even more emptiness. If you want joy, you cannot be captive to external forces, you cannot be captive to various whims always thirsty but never quenched. You're just as stuck as you were before. You're posting to receive some validation for this brief respite in emptiness. You shall not get it.

[Anonymous No.11914997]

Fucking hate the Linux commandline. Oh, VineSauce is at a boss in Dead Space 1. The Linux commandline is so much better than Windows, but I hate how it's not doing most of the work a Desktop Environment would have. Ugh, hate feeling bloated. Should not have had that fudge from earlier. Lets see... Yeah, Vinny, Disturbed is still pretty huge despite everyone shitting on them. Don't know why. They've been around... how many years? 20 or so? Lets see, how the fuck does this netplan config thing work for WLAN? Least the tutorial I found is good, but ugh, I can never find any pleasure working a commandline. Always get bored too easily. Okay, so besides the Nextcloud and Calibre Library servers to install, what else? Everything else can be done from my phone. Like finances- Why are you using a rocket launcher on the little enemies Vinny? ... I already have a lifetime pastebin account and I can't use illegal torrents because Comcast are such faggots. Could route through the VPN... Not going to post CP to my NextCloud server, god forbid my family ever finds the porn folder, but loli\shota is illegal in my state. This little Odroid board would be a good way to keep feds off of me if I get arrested some day... Shooting an Antifa member would be worth it. The .22 bolt action would only be good at picking them off from a distance. The .380 kinda sucks with the fixed sights since it goes to the top-left... or top-right of where I shoot. I get what I pay for, but it packs a good punch for close range. ...Okay, that's enough 4chan. Was kinda looking for porn and free books, but was a nice experiment.

[Anonymous No.11915457]

>>11911772
I know that feeling only too well mate, keep your chin up and crack on. Be happy you got to experience that happiness, some people go their whole lives wishing to experience something like that.

[Anonymous No.11915663]

>>11912443
We’ve all been where you are. It’ll burn all around you.

[Anonymous No.11915688]

>>11914913
That emptiness is just as ephemeral as any pleasure

>>11914784
People have been fucking and drinking since the dawn of time. Such activities have nothing to do with nihilism.

>>11914790
>flunking out of college to become a deckhand
Get it together anon

>>11914258
>they are too ignorant to see they very thing they desire consumes them
You too

[Anonymous No.11915735]

I've gained too many interests and I feel like I don't have enough time for all of them and it's becoming a big source of anxiety. Studying languages, reading fiction and philosophy and poetry, studying quantum physics, hiking, writing, composing music, learning to draw, going to the gym, photography. That's not even counting my actual responsibilities. To make matters worse there's a big list of things I want to try / learn about, like cooking and film theory and jazz and sewing and linguistics. There's no way I can do it all. I can only even approach doing it all because I'm a friendless loser with a remote job.

I really need to cut down to a core set of interests, but every time I try I feel like I'm making a mistake. Fuck.

[Anonymous No.11915773]

>mum owes me a little under 3000 pounds
>claims its only 2000
>was supposed to be getting some back today
>instead shes asked for 150

never getting the money back desu. i only have 400 in my account too

[Anonymous No.11915805]

>>11915735
Life is long, you'll have plenty of time to do more. Why you'd wanna study something like film theory is beyond me though

[Anonymous No.11915811]

>>11905280
I had a long rebuttal to some idiot but the thread got pruned, so this is on my mind:

>>11915752
My argument at that point was simply that the YouTuber doesn’t know what he’s talking about, not that Foucault directly contributed to the rise of identity politics. I’m not watching the video again because it was shit, but from what I recall the dude said something this:

“Jordon Peterson blames people like Derrida and Foucault, and postmodernism in general, for identity politics. But identity politics are an outgrowth of something called postcolonialism! Therefore, it has no relationship with postmodernism, and thus no relationship with people like Derrida and Foucault.”

My point is that postcolonialism definitely is a postmodernist paradigm, and moreover, it’s basic conceptual foundation is Foucaultian. So to act like people who see connections between these things are idiots is itself idiotic.

If people like Derrida and Foucault came up with conceptual paradigms based on radical constructivism, power dynamics, deconstruction, and were moreover in many ways anti-western and political activists, and then you have a bunch of people who build intellectual and political movements entirely off these conceptual foundations, completely in line with them in many ways, share their anti-western orientations, and become similarly politically active, it’s hard to avoid seeing a non-arbitrary connection.

If you read mein kampf and thought the some of the rhetoric was inspiring because of its power, and then reproduced some of this rhetorical power in your writing, that would be a bit of influence. If you memorized the text, started wearing an ss uniform, grew a hurler mustache, and starting giving speeches talking about founding a new Reich that would last a thousand years, I might be able to stop and say: “you know what, I think this guy is acting and thinking basically in line with what Hitler himself set in motion, and I think Hitler himself, the author of the book that got this guy to start shouting like this, is in some sense to blame.”

[Anonymous No.11915814]

good books about yakuza?

[Anonymous No.11915816]

/pol/ hates the Jews but does not accept that Jews are only the symptom of global Capitalism and adamantly hates Marxist ideology.

Very strange.

[Anonymous No.11915848]

>>11915805
Not super in-depth, but I'd like to know enough to be able to appreciate art films fully. I also like the cinematographic aspect.

[Anonymous No.11916002]

>>11915848
imo you're trying to fill the void. If you had friends, you would easily prioritize spending time with them than chasing different hobbies.

[Anonymous No.11916030]

>>11916002
You're not wrong, but I don't realistically see myself making any good friends any time soon. It's hard when you're a sensitive boi and don't have many opportunities to meet people. I have my gym friends and the occasional hiking buddy but I don't know how I can go beyond that.

[Anonymous No.11916046]

>>11916030
pretty unfortunate..

[Anonymous No.11916064]

A little after the morning has set, when it would become embarrassing to sit in bed any longer, I leave my dorm for breakfast. If Lianne, the sweet Christian girl, is swiping cards at the front desk that morning, upon my entering the first floor, she will give a bright greeting that does not feel artificial at all. Though my expression is flat, and worn under a seemingly glum shroud, I do appreciate that sort of thing, honestly. So when she does it, I smile gently, and, in a low voice, tell her “yo”, and move out to catch the shuttle.

On the shuttle people talk if they know each other and they do not if they don’t. I think that’s normal, but one time, a student made fun of the fact, and suggested we ought to speak to one another, even if we’re strangers, because we’re all students here, and there’s no reason you should spend 10 minutes sitting across from someone and trying desperately to only meet eyes with their shoe. I believe in that spirit, but he felt too proud at having announced it, as if it were a sort of revelation. I don’t talk to anyone on the shuttle, I did once.

When I’m off the shuttle, I usually go to dunkin donuts for breakfast. I always say it’s some of the most decent fast food you can get. I usually get there after most people would have gone, but I prefer to get there when there is a lot of people there waiting for breakfast. It feels like I’m a part of a community when it’s like that. To even have the shared experience of wanting coffee and an english muffin is satisfying for me. I don’t like to go there when there’s only a couple people.

[Anonymous No.11916075]

I just wish Macca tours Brazil again before I die (or he dies, which is more probable)

[Anonymous No.11916078]

>>11906716
take some baths in mineral waters, anon.

[Anonymous No.11916102]

>>11915735
I feel that, anon. I think this is result of just being happy to live, and to love life. Does that make sense?

Sadly, I don't have a solution to your problem. I can tell you that stressing about it won't help.

"What's the use of worrying?"
-MCCARTNEY, Paul.

[Anonymous No.11916470]

>>11905280
I didn't expect Borges to be such a frustrating read. Not because it's bad, it isn't, far from it. But there are so many references that I need to stop reading and look them up. He is kicking my ass from beyond the grave, and I'm only at teh first story, Tlön, Uqbar, Orbis Tertius. And even then I do not completely understand.

[Anonymous No.11916534]

>>11916470
Half of the references are made up anyway so don't bother. Read Borges like you're looking into a mirror version of Earth that you don't fully understand.

[Anonymous No.11916545]

>>11916534
Yeah, that's the gist of it. BUt I right now, I am hung up on how Tlön's pantheistic idealism repudiates solipsism.

[Anonymous No.11916582]

Slowly going off olanzapine. I don't know if that's because of it but now coffee makes me incredibly shaky.
Anyway, listening to this is really calming
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=acnH6M1Ee8k

[Anonymous No.11916616]

I went to the forest, because I wanted to live deliberately.

[Anonymous No.11916630]

"What if, at the end of it all, one final door opened with a guy in a buisness suit behind it, explaining to you that it all was a Game, and nothing you ever did mattered?"

I want to write a play out of this Idea, got inspired by "Huis clos" by Jean-paul Sartre and "Biografie" by Max Frisch.

What do you think of it?

[Anonymous No.11916642]

>>11905416
>t. boomer

[Anonymous No.11916643]

>>11916630
I literally thought about No Exit when I read your first line without reading the rest of your post.

[Anonymous No.11916663]

>>11916643
Thats the english title of Huis Clos

[Anonymous No.11916886]

>>11915816

At the same time:

>Jews want to bring in communism and rule the world
>communism involves a stateless, classless society

American propaganda mixed with Nazi propaganda. Absolutely bonkers.

[Anonymous No.11916915]

>>11916886
No one in america has an actual understanding of what leftists think beyond muh ussr. If you asked them define communism they'd say it's when the government owns everything.

[Anonymous No.11916989]

“Hurricane ____ will devastate [shithole southern state] like never before!”
“The implications of this storm will be far reaching!”
“Doom doom doom!”
>0 casualties
>a few houses flood and some woman’s garden is destroyed
What the fuck is wrong with Americans? This sort of hyperbole is what happens when your entire population lacks any understanding of history.

[Anonymous No.11917011]

>>11916989
>damage is measured in casualties
>the low casualties have nothing to do with evacuation orders
>damage is limited to "a few houses" and "a garden"
Just admit you hate the poor who are disproportionally effected by these storms you won't look as dumb

[Anonymous No.11917026]

I hope I have not ruined my relationship with my girlfriend by cheating on her and lying to her. I would hate that, and I don’t know what will happen. Whatever Allah decrees I will accept, but I do hope he wills for us to be together and improve. I don’t think I would be able to say in confidence that I wouldn’t do it again if it happened maybe, last year or prior. I told that to my friend Ahmad, but, now, I feel differently. In my heart, I feel that Allah chose this time to reveal these things because I truly can be true to my word and improve, I have faith in that. But, it is incredibly reasonable for my girlfriend to feel otherwise, and, that is my fault. I don’t know what I’ll do without her, she is everything, one thousand meadows perennially blooming, a thunderstorm of honey and bird songs, and the thunder itself is only the plucking of an aeolian harp. I love her deeply, profoundly, and I have not proved it at all. No I have not proved it, nor do I deserve her grace or mercy, I know I don’t, and I don’t know if I deserve God’s but it doesn’t feel like I do, I think He just does that. What is it like to love her? At the bottom of an ocean, wading in bliss, the current of her charms, in which I only sink deeper. To bare the sun’s gleam, wide eyed, and to change your glance, only flushed with the white of the rays. I would like to burn my irises like coal with her love. But, I have been terrible and licentious and deceitful and corrupt. It’s not fair, and I am undeserving, ungrateful, selfish, yes. If she refuses me I may scream. Not at her, into something. I hope we can stay together and I can prove myself to her. I think the first song we declared as “our song” was “Song for Ariel” by Panda Bear, and the lyrics “I really want to show to my girl that I love her, and I do”, are very sharp right now. I wish I could play guitar and sing that to her but it would be very inappropriate and disrespectful. I wish I could do a lot of things for her but they would all fall into that category. Today I read a very beautiful story by Chekhov called “lady with the dog”, Allah willed it, because it was about two adulterous people finding love with one another in spite of their deceit and wickedness. I was expecting the story to end on a sad note, chastising their infidelity, but instead, it made it a pleasing romance, and I hated that. The story was very beautiful but it felt so surreal reading it, because it’s just not what I want, and not really what they wanted. They hated their secrecy and I hated mine, but, the difference is, they’re looking for a means to resolve it and be pleased with each other, and I wish to dissolve it, cut it with a scimitar, I don’t want to be wicked!

Iat least feels ok to write this, but I do feel dread, I do feel dread that she will leave me and I don’t know what I’ll do about it. There’s nothing you can really do, you’ve made your bed haven’t you?

[Anonymous No.11917050]

>>11906128
Nope. This is truly GOAT. Bonus points for seeing movies, ballets, and theatre based on or inspired by said books

[Anonymous No.11917055]

>>11916915

Americans are retarded and a blight. It even affects non-Americans too: >>11916989

Wow.

[Anonymous No.11917058]

>>11905416
>[abstraction not extrapolated]<<PANIC>>, ABORT! = CALCULATING------------ output decision reached (transcribe:) <<I'm gonna give goodreads another try>>

[Anonymous No.11917089]

>>11905280
I have no idea what happened to my brain but I seem to be of about average intelligence now and that makes life essentially unworth living

[Anonymous No.11917148]

If I am misreading the situation and I act, I become my own childhood monster. If I am reading it correctly and I hesitate, I will have denied both myself and the most wonderful individual I know a chance at happiness.

[Anonymous No.11917162]

Fucking mods and jannies not able to comprehend that Tucker Carlson's book is in fact, A BOOK!

[Anonymous No.11917178]

if you eat meat you're a piece of shit

[Anonymous No.11917384]

>>11917178
Veganism doesn't stop you shitting; see a doctor.
>>11917026
Fuck religious people make me hot.

[Anonymous No.11917391]

>>11917162
Maybe they think it's fanfic. See if your thread got re-routed to wherever we send the overenthusiastic Spice and Wolf fantards.

[Anonymous No.11917422]

Fuck this damned website. You need a vpn just to use it. I often wondered why we can't have an anonymous message board site without all the trolls and assholes of 4chan. But it seems to be a Universal Law of the Internet that any anonymity will tend to generate increasing degrees of assholes and trolls.

Anonymity allows us to take up the mask. It invites and supplements the Id.

[Anonymous No.11917453]

>>11906252
Do you have written anything else, because this reads genuily interesting and is pleasantly nuts.

[Anonymous No.11917471]

>>11905405
all those moments will be lost in time, like cum in the stain. time to die.

[Anonymous No.11917473]

>>11917026
Allah this, Allah that. Fuckin hell. Why should the almighty take such a direct role in your life? If you actually took responsibility for your fate and actions, you might not be in the situation now

[Anonymous No.11917507]

>>11907622
I get that feel, anon. The best thing you can do is to produce things creatively to fill your time, continue to put yourself out there, and try your best to mature your views on both platonic and romantic companionship. From there it's just a lot of hoping. Maybe it will come, and maybe not. But if it does not, at least we can take comfort in knowing that there was nothing we could have done to potentially change that outcome.

[Anonymous No.11917522]

>>11917473
>>11917384


These are just the beliefs of my religion. If you do not have this understanding then that is fine. But in Islam we do belief that God plays the most tremendous role in the ordering of your life. And with that said, as I said before, I'll accept whatever He decrees for me. I understand I've made my own situation through poor actions, I'm just lamenting about it. Have you never regretted something before?

[Anonymous No.11917524]

>>11910193
Try taking something somewhat generic and completely spinning it on its head so it becomes subversive and odd.

[Anonymous No.11917605]

>>11917391
It wasn't my thread and nah it was deleted.

[Anonymous No.11917637]

>>11917422

It's Americans being retarded. They can't stop being uncivilised, arrogant (for no reason as the country has always been a shithole and its people shit), and stupid. You can always tell when an American posts something.

[Anonymous No.11917683]

>>11912277
Thank you friend. I passed.

[Anonymous No.11917772]

Is it bad to write fiction of no merit? Must there be a greater message or moral? Will a story styled solely to amuse myself fail and be criticized as unworthy of anyone's time?

[Anonymous No.11918051]

>>11917522
I just get turned on by people talking about their faith. I know that's probably immodest in your faith, but religious ecstasies are a big thing for Catholics and we're much more about the flesh than your religion. I find it hot when people live their life as a servant of a higher power. Poets are the same if they're listening for the muses. Sorry if it offends your virtue but we don't have to put each other's God before each other, and I find it sexy as hell you're listening for that notion of God. I hope you and your lady friend work things out and make lots of little qt humans who listen for that voice too.

[Anonymous No.11918178]

>>11914997

>Shooting an Antifa member would be worth it. The .22 bolt action would only be good at picking them off from a distance. The .380 kinda sucks with the fixed sights since it goes to the top-left... or top-right of where I shoot. I get what I pay for, but it packs a good punch for close range.

Stop LARPing.

[Anonymous No.11918290]

Is it emasculating to believe in God? Why do so many men shrug off religion as a fantasy because it bans their vices and freedom of will? Those two things seem to be the most masculine thing you can have, as ironic as that sounds.

[Anonymous No.11918300]

>>11911863
>>11917683
That's good, anon. Have you been teaching as well? Did that suck?

[Anonymous No.11918305]

>>11909968
>>11906619
Does Jesus fuck Mary Magdelene? Or is that a meme?

I haven't read the bibble properly, but intend to do so for homework.

[Anonymous No.11918645]

Face down, ass up.

[Anonymous No.11918734]

>>11914721
Figure out what you want to do, then do a lot of it. Every moment you spend not doing what you want is crushing you into the sort of person you clearly don't want to be.

[Anonymous No.11918986]

>>11918051

Haha this is a funny response but thank you. We actually just spoke tonight and she said she'd give me another chance which I'm very grateful for. Also, we have the same God! There's only one God, He's just conceptualized differently by different religions. But as far as the Abrahamic goes, we have pretty similar conceptions, albeit yours has a heavier emphasis on things like Divine Love and the sort. We emphasize more so just following the sunnah (rules of Islam) and submitting to God completely.