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Write what's on your mind Anonymous Sat Oct 6 17:10:55 2018 No.11892877 [Reply] [Original]

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 17:14:52 2018 No.11892893 >>11892877 America is beyond salvation

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 17:15:27 2018 No.11892894 >>11892877 I hate writing side characters. How do I actually do it?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 17:16:18 2018 No.11892899 >>11892893 Their" English" is niggerized beyond salvation, too.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 17:18:13 2018 No.11892904 >>11892877 This restaurant is ass. What book should I read next? Is Nick Land IRL Cypher from the Matrix?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 17:19:03 2018 No.11892906 >>11892893 I honestly think we're headed towards a fascist state or atleast an upcoming civil war.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 17:20:29 2018 No.11892912 >>11892906 And thanks to the second amendment, it's actually legal to kill the president.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 17:21:11 2018 No.11892914 >>11892893 The American public discourse has reached a level of insanity that defines itself by its continual willingness to show how low it's willing to go.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 17:27:03 2018 No.11892942 Every political and cultural change we are experiencing all in all is fine and we'll deal with it. Novelty always looks monstrous when it comes, it's normal. And even more has to come yet.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 17:30:33 2018 No.11892962 >>11892912 Lolwut. >>11892914 Just wait til the 2020 election circus starts. Everything will end up even crazier and more bat shit insane. More partisan, more divided.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 17:31:26 2018 No.11892965 File: 23 KB, 1634x462, 4chan popularity.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] How did 4chan go from this?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 17:32:34 2018 No.11892971 File: 139 KB, 1638x858, Screen Shot 2018-10-06 at 2.30.38 PM.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11892965 to this?

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 17:42:28 2018 No.11893011

I wonder if there is any hobby that will truly make my life feel more fulfilling. I tried that with the Divine Comedy recently, but thought, if I learn more about Christianity, so what? It is briefly interesting, then back to nothing. The same with music creation: Faintly satisfying, then nothing. I thought I should venture into STEM then as an endless field of opportunity, but this is deceptive: The real process consists of endless little smallpuzzles to be figured out one by one, providing a brief thrill once accomplished fueling on ever higher and higher achievements, and in truth, there is no more to it than this. And philosophy: We may not have come across an ultimate truth, but at some point in time someone certainly believed that they had, and so felt the highest joy any of us possibly could . Whether we discover it or not, then, is of no importance unless the discovery yields something new in the act of discovery, which is quite unlikely given what we know about the world.

Ultimately, then, there is nothing for me. If I cannot enjoy life from my trials above, I cannot enjoy anything period. This is not an artistic exaggeration, but a reality of a mental illness which I have dealt with for several years now. I wish I could say there were some redeeming factor in it all, but the truth is, I can't. You wait for the weeks to pass and when they peel off left and right that's when you're doing it right. In some Buddhist scripture I read that man never suffers nor benefits from his experiences in the past if they hold no emotional sway over him in the present (paraphrasing), and so it is no use mourning the youth I now lose. In fact, there must be some great philosophical truth beneath I am still too dense to piece together, so for now, I simply wait; not really suffering - just there.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 17:53:34 2018 No.11893059 >>11893011 Have you tried searching directly for happiness instead of ways to get to it? I don't know if you get what I mean, I'm not saying it randomly

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 18:04:12 2018 No.11893095 Next time I apply for a job with anywhere that makes me fill out things after sending in my resume I am going to send them a bill for data entry. I'm not doing unpaid work.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 18:07:57 2018 No.11893114 >>11893059 I don't get what you mean, please explain further.

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 18:12:43 2018 No.11893144
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I realized she's not different, she's the same. I thought she was different than the previous girls I've known, capable of deep and artistic thought. But nope. She just portrays herself as such and even worse I portray her as such. I put onto her an ideal person that doesn't exist.
I realized all this the past few days when having a conversation about a few different pieces of art, and realizing she has nothing to say but the most surface and uninteresting things. And my comments barely got a response.

I think I'm looking for too much in girls, I'm looking for a guy almost. I want to be able to talk to a girl the way I've spoken with guys but I haven't found it. I need to reevaluate my desires. The perfect and ideal girl in my head doesn't exist and I need to stop letting that disappoint me

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 18:40:49 2018 No.11893309

>>11892893

America since its inception has been a disgusting, shitty country. Americans are legitimately some of the worst people in the world despite their own propaganda. The Dunning-Kruger levels are off the charts.

Whenever you mention this to one of those retards though they just lash out. Learn some humility and introspection, you goddamn hamongoloids.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 18:46:21 2018 No.11893332 >>11893309 t. someone from a country that doesn't matter Which other shithole country would you rather live in?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 18:55:42 2018 No.11893373 >>11892893 It always has been. The reformation, enlightenment, republicanism; all of it was a mistake.

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 19:02:23 2018 No.11893404
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>>11892877
>woke up
>went to get coffee
>long line
>surrounded by people chatting
>couples, office workers, construction workers, old people, young people, parents, siblings
>all enjoying each others companies
>I’m standing all alone with my arms crossed since I don’t know what else to do with them
>cashier greeting them all with a big genuine smile and seeing them off with a hearty “Have a nice day!”
>my turn
>Smile turns to grimace
>cashier looks visibly uncomfortable and fights with herself to force out the words “how can I help you?”
>order a black coffee
>she gives me a disgusted look
>tells me my order number and waves me off
>people keep coming and going as I wait for my order
>people who came after me and had larger orders are getting served before me
>stand their awkwardly staring at my blank phone for 15 minutes
>face covered in sweat
>finally muster the courage to ask about my order
>I-I ordered a c-coffee and-
>HUH? She interrupts me
>m-my order, I didn’t get my order
>Oh okay.
>she whips it up in 30 seconds, hands it to me and gives me an angry glare for bothering her again
>day is off to a bad start
>go to uni library because I have an important exam worth 30% of my grade that night
>all of the tables are overflowing with vibrant young people studying together and bonding over their shared stress
>I scurry over to the corner and sit alone
>can’t focus because they’re conversations are constantly zooming in and out of my ears
>end up staring at a blank notebook for 6 hours
>go to exam hall
>take test
>expecting to get an F, think I did good enough for a C
>feel happy for the first time all day
>walk out of exam room
>surrounded by groups of people all talking to each other about how the test went, venting and supporting one another
>mood suddenly drops as I realize that I’m not a part of this, that even if I scored 100 it wouldn’t matter because I’d have no one to share it with
>get on the train
>surrounded by bums, drug addicts and middle aged men who have also given up on life
>it’s raining now
>walk to my car, forgot my umbrella
>car is parked in a residential area in front of someone’s house
>they’re having a house party
>filled with people laughing and having a good time
>I am standing mere feet away from them separated only by a single pane of glass
>the light of their enjoyment shines upon me as I fumble about in the darkness looking for my keys
>drive home and hope the water streaming down my face is rain
So it goes.

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 19:06:12 2018 No.11893420

>>11893144
I believe the moment that I start thinking that my girlfriend is different from other girls is the moment where I should break up with her. There's no reason to discredit other girls just to make my girlfriend look better. I've seen people do that. Suddenly that new girl came into their life and made every other girl irrelevant, like they have acquired a higher level of judgement out of the fact that they are in a relationship, while in truth, your judgment is probably distorted because of your relationship.

While I think that it can be true that she can be the best, better than others, I don't think it's a question you ever need to raise.

Also, anyone noticed how people talk to girls they want to pick up? I've seen literally the birth of Chichikov several times in front of my eyes, the scene when he starts talking to that one girl at the party towards the end of the first part of Dead Souls. It's funny that you can miscommunicate like that and later change the narrative and blame it on the girls that didn't buy your bullshit only because you found one that actually did. Don't get me wrong, I am no saint in this, I talk a lot of bullshit, but at least I try to hold onto a degree of fairness.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 19:08:05 2018 No.11893427 File: 73 KB, 645x773, 1536183225122.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11893404 this is me last year. hope for the best anon, it doesn't get better but at least coping gets easier.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 19:45:40 2018 No.11893588 >>11893427 Thank you for the kind words anon, hope things get easier for you to deal with as well.

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 19:45:54 2018 No.11893589

>>11893332

Anywhere in Europe is better than your shithole, you simpleton. Even Africa is better. America is a retarded place for retards. It's a shame the beautiful land has to be put through the blight that is your country. Pity the indigenous didn't murder yoyour mutt ancestors.

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 19:53:48 2018 No.11893617

>>11893114
It was an important thing for me for depression. Searching for meaning or in general that approach doesn't work. So I thought it was obvious: the only thing I want is to be happy. Absolutely the only one. I don't know, everyone probably has then his own path. But that's a start, and not only a start, also the greatest goal. If you want happiness, there's nothing not worth doing for it.

I am not suggesting you to do something, just adjust your focus. Ultimately, happiness doesn't really work like other things, so don't worry about being able.
But since it's the only thing that matters, every effort is worth it, I'm thinling about the efforts with ourselves expecially.

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:03:02 2018 No.11893662
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everyone that supported kavanaugh got baited hard by the democrats and republicans.

kavanaugh created the legal justification for the patriot act, torture programs, NSA spying, surveillance programs, and the legal pathway to label Americans as enemies of the state, and to distract from all of this they created the rape allegation media circus to create support for this disgusting bootlicking statist because GOTTA OWN DA LIBTARDS AND FEMINISTS

Its so fucking smart and so fucking sinister at the same time. Both the democrats and republicans love their police state dystopia and they wanted to get this guy in so badly and created the rape narrative to get the republican base to go against their own interests and call for the nomination of the guy thats going to eliminate their 4th and 5th amendment rights.

fuck thats cold.

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:03:37 2018 No.11893666
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>>11892877
Freedom, equality, justice, etc. can only exist in the presence of the state (hierarchy)

Freedom, equality justice, etc. can only exist without the presence of the state (anarchy)

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:05:20 2018 No.11893675 >>11893662 >caring about the charade of america having a "government" in any real sense

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:05:28 2018 No.11893676 >>11893666 2nd one is correct

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:07:15 2018 No.11893686 I hope I get famous and name drop /lit/. The only 4chan board that likes me.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:07:42 2018 No.11893689 >>11893686 londonfrog, we believed in you from the beginning

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:08:14 2018 No.11893694 Reality as a whole is an unmeasurable experience by those who are not God

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:09:22 2018 No.11893696 File: 2.90 MB, 1224x1632, 1519460471199.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11893689 I'm not londonfrog.

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:10:07 2018 No.11893699
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I have requested something worth believing in for a long time, almost as of right but it's something I and no other will believably get. So is a life of acceptance and self sculpting the only thing left?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:12:10 2018 No.11893709 >>11893694 >those who are not >Implying more than 1 being is God

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:12:24 2018 No.11893710 >>11893699 believe in yourself as much as I believe in you. heres a hint its a lot :)

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:13:58 2018 No.11893715 Would any one like to read my song? https://pastebin.com/5EqJweVS

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:24:55 2018 No.11893772
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Why does Louise keep alternating between flirting with me and mentioning her boyfriend? Why does she persist with it, even though I do not encourage her and have never done so? Why does catholic guilt keeps assuaging me even after leaving the church during my boyhood? Why do the feeling that, don’t matter what I do, I will end up losing a friend is so sure and persistent? Why do I feel so conflicted, and why do both decisions seem like damnation on my eyes? What is the difference between fondness and love? Why can’t friendship be simple? Why can’t I keep her out of my mind? It’s not love or passion, but lust and confusion. Isn't it? If desire is so pernicious, why is my heart so full of it, and why does it bring me such vivacity?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:34:57 2018 No.11893811 >>11893662 Yes, America is a terrible hellhole. Anything else you'd like to waste a novel on?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:39:40 2018 No.11893829 >>11893811 my lack of gf would be a good 2nd choice

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:53:22 2018 No.11893893 L'effarante quantité de faggots sur ce board m'insupporte. "Ma vie est trop nulle parce que je ne suis qu'un faggot, ô mais qu'ai-je raison d'être un gigantesque faggot." Disent-ils, la bouche à moitié entrouverte par un pénis.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:54:36 2018 No.11893901 Is anyone here hoping to raise kids one day and instill in them strong morals and values, but losing hope that such a thing is even possible in today's society? It all seems so futile.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 20:56:53 2018 No.11893914 >>11893901 no, I'm not interested in creating children for my own ego. That's not cool. Otherwise I'd be okay with kids though.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:00:00 2018 No.11893932 >>11893914 delusional

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:00:15 2018 No.11893937 >>11893901 What do you consider "strong morals and values?"

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:00:30 2018 No.11893938 >>11893901 Raise them with religion anon. Correctly.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:03:29 2018 No.11893952 I've never made a real connection with a human being. Maybe there isn't one, in the way I'm thinking of it. Everything feels surreal, except the sweet salt, and diazepam. Don't want to ever let go of these feelings desu. Think I'm legit autismo.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:04:13 2018 No.11893958 >>11893901 I used to. Now I just focus on what's near by, sadly. Life takes over

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:06:01 2018 No.11893964 ==THINGS THAT ONLY YOU NOTICE ON /LIT/== I'll start: >that guy who posts a long winded joke that's suppose to be converging on the truth everyone shares and then he samefags it until it's canon

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:07:02 2018 No.11893968 >the guy that has a critical point against op but everyone ignores

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:09:13 2018 No.11893974 >that guy who's making all the epic psychosis threads that are really obvious remarks but he thinks he's the only one that understands

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:12:21 2018 No.11893989 >>11893964 >>11893968 >>11893974 I only care about londonfrog.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:16:33 2018 No.11894009 >>11893662 Are you still here?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:17:54 2018 No.11894013 I see no end in sight. I see the next few years being the same monotonous thing

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:24:23 2018 No.11894038 File: 90 KB, 900x1042, 1538169090697.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11894013 books for this feel?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:26:10 2018 No.11894045 >>11893662 >kavanaugh created the legal justification for torture programs Did he? I can tell you some things Kavanaugh did do, but what do you got here?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:26:53 2018 No.11894046 File: 225 KB, 750x749, 1519563741770.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Last I heard from this guy was that he was close to finishing, and that was a while ago.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:32:12 2018 No.11894160 >>11893952 I know that feel. Eventually I realized that the connection I wanted was an idealized fabrication that simply doesn't exist in real life. Real relationships feel shallow by comparison, to the point were it doesn't seem worth the effort.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:36:20 2018 No.11894176 >>11894160 So what type of connection did you want? If you don't define it some anon might give up on a dream that's completely achievable.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:38:35 2018 No.11894179 File: 284 KB, 900x1200, 1508985357901.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] There are no facts, only interpretations.

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:45:23 2018 No.11894201
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Do I really have to pretend to respect the opions of creationists? They all seem so intellectually dishonest.
I mean, how can I be expected to sit and listen to them drone on about anything? You wouldn't sit and seriously listen to a child tell you how things are, and men who belive in magic are essentially children.
I just clap along with them and zone out, and it makes me feel like I'm the idiot sometimes...
But how can I convince myself to see value in someones opions if I believe them to be delusional?
And should I?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:47:02 2018 No.11894211 >>11892971 good trole

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:50:55 2018 No.11894227 >>11894046 Absolutely vile >>11893952 What are you thinking of?

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 21:55:12 2018 No.11894240

>>11894201
With the delusional, it's always interesting to find the psychological core of their delusion. Stop trying to pick apart their arguments, and start trying to learn why they think the way they do... Then you can start to do the same with your own delusion.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 22:01:09 2018 No.11894260 >>11894201 >You wouldn't sit and seriously listen to a child tell you how things are debased and bluepilled

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 22:02:58 2018 No.11894267

>>11893952
>>11894160
Feel the same. I know there's no fantasy land of true mutual understanding and respect, but I've just never met anyone who I gelled with on any real level. Even the superficial. It's something lesser.
>>11894227
I just want to know someone who I can share my thoughts with, and be understood, and they can share theirs, likewise. To be able to express myself unfiltered and to receive something back that isn't just an obligation.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 22:07:47 2018 No.11894284 >>11894267 That kind of relationship definitely exists.

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 22:07:54 2018 No.11894285

I'm fairly good looking. Actually I can't think of a single girl i met that didn't make a remark on my looks or act all girly around me. Yet I'm too sour to reciprocate. I always feel that it's better to look dejected rather than overly enthusiastic. I had like five different girls tell me that I'm too cold. It's such a bad frame of mind to be in, and it's an attitude that I've cultivated rather than being born with. When I make eye contact with stranger girls, the pretty ones look as if they were confused or in deep thinking, the average ones grin from ear to ear. I want to feel confident enough to smile back at them.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 22:10:09 2018 No.11894294 >>11894284 Well, I'm yet to find it, unfortunately. In a man or a woman.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 22:15:20 2018 No.11894315 >>11893914 What makes you think I'd only be doing that for my own ego?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 22:31:37 2018 No.11894374 >>11893095 High IQ.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 22:36:03 2018 No.11894388 >>11892893 >>11892906 We need something. I don't think the people can take much more. I know families that are being divided by this vitriol and partisanship.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 22:42:22 2018 No.11894409 What Lovecraft stories are truly worth reading? I've been reading his complete fiction on and off for about 2 months and have barely made a dent.

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 22:52:10 2018 No.11894450

>>11894176
Right, my bad.
I wanted a sense that the person I was with was on the same page I was.That there was some mutual understanding and sharing of interests, goals, ideals, etc. And to feel like we could trust each other without the fear that I'd have the rug pulled from under me or be taken advantage of.

The goals and such are highly subjective, so other anons might not have that problem. But it's difficult for me when most of the people I meet seem to be just cookie-cutter products of a culture and society I can't stand.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 22:54:06 2018 No.11894458 >>11894374 I'm just a brainlet wage slave.

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 23:19:19 2018 No.11894508
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>>11892893
>>11892906
Ausfag here. I don't have any American friends to ask this: How likely do you guys honestly think it is people will go out on the streets and start shooting each other? My countrymen are so generally placid it boggles my mind to even imagine the possibility occurring.

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 23:22:24 2018 No.11894525
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>>11894038
>>11894285
My fellow ignored anons deserve some help. Read Martin Seligman's Learned Optimism. This book will help you see why you think the way you do and how to overcome it. I'll not gonna lie though: The coming journey won't be smooth, or complete in a couple of days; But at the end, if you put in the effort, it will be rewarded.

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 23:23:27 2018 No.11894531

The life of men is void of meaning, what could be the drive to continue with whatever you are doing, recognition is not worth it and society is just the lowest denominator of men triumphing over logic. We are so worried about surviving that we become blind to the consequences of our own acts, not only that, we become insensitive to the fact that other people are actively hurting us. Suffering is everything we will only know unless we can evolve out of our narrow minded state in which existing is the most valuable thing we can conceive. I'm not trying to say that existence is pain, only that we make unnecessary painful because of the way we relate to each other

Anonymous Sat Oct 6 23:52:23 2018 No.11894608

>>11894531
Don’t know if this will help you at all, but anyway. Since my early teens, I had thought people should strive to pursue something greater than themselves, instead of attributing to the ‘’I’’ the ultimate importance. This something could be varied: Work, art, family, research, contemplation, charity, justice; anything was fair as long as such purpose was done in good faith and surpassed the individual.
I, in my foolishness, decided aesthetics and beauty would center my life, probably due to how poor my interpersonal relations were.
A few months back, after starting the recovery from what was undoubtedly the lowest I’ve ever been, the realization that community, kindness and empathy for others are the most important things struck me as thunder.
People need people; not as competition, adversaries, or resources, although such concepts have their time and place, but as peers, friends and pillars of support and strength, mutually helping each other to strive for something better.
The despise for the self-centered mind came to me easily, but was followed only years later by the realization of what its antidote is: Community.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 23:53:55 2018 No.11894614 >>11894458 Better than me, a brain let NEET who can’t even wage slave correctly.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 6 23:56:05 2018 No.11894617 >>11894508 >How likely do you guys honestly think it is people will go out on the streets and start shooting each other? Not likely. We're all much too comfortable here.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 00:08:39 2018 No.11894652

>>11894508
I think, deep down inside, the majority of us realize all this political division is the equivalent of football fandom. Yes, you'll get the occasional riot after a football game, which corresponds to the occasional delusional mass shooter - and maybe the occasional militia in the hills - but for the most part, most of us realize that the only real difference between the two parties is the color of their ties, and most of the issues they use to galvanized their bases are ultimately meaningless or unresolvable.

The real change all comes from the private sector anyways, and almost none of us have any say in that, being basically an unstoppable force of nature and economic gravity. So we play fantasy football with our politics to make it feel like we believe in something that matters, even when it's so obvious it's become a carnival sideshow.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 00:12:31 2018 No.11894669

I went through that depressive phase of "the universe has no meaning, why should we live" and got through it but just keeping myself busy, but now at almost every moment I'm reminded of it. I'm reminded that, in the end, the hobbies I do are just meant to distract me from the fact that life is just a commercial break between pre-life and death. When im with my friends, when I watch TV, when I exercise, even when I jack off alone, I always keep thinking about it.

I've also had the lingering feeling like I'm not spending my youth correctly. Instead of being with friends, im at my computer. Instead of using the little time I have to do what I want before I become a wage-slave, im watching reruns of sitcoms. I just feel like I'm wasting my time, but that in the end I wouldn't have used it for anything good anyways

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 00:37:59 2018 No.11894756 man its insane i left for a month or two, come back, and it's just the same shill threads over and over, this site is dead as hell, heading back to celebrating the big win over at the_donald, peace out shills

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 00:42:20 2018 No.11894761 >>11894756 >yeah, I left you stupid losers for a week and all I see is shill threads. I'm gonna go back to the_donald because people here disagree with me politically and actually read books Fuck off redditor

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 00:42:53 2018 No.11894764 Here is whats on my mind: does anyone even read these threads? I see them all the time but never even open them. Are they really that interesting?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 00:43:41 2018 No.11894768 >>11894508 >My countrymen are so generally placid it boggles my mind to even imagine the possibility occurring. So are Americans. You might be surpsrised to realize that most Americans dont even give a shit about politics

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 00:44:26 2018 No.11894772

>>11894669
I know how you feel about not spending your youth correctly. I didn't go to school before college and didn't really have any friends. In my teens felt like I had wasted what chance I had to be young. Worrying about missed opportunity won't help you any. You're going to die, sure, but that doesn't mean the time you spend here is wasted or meaningless. My advice would be to start looking for something now that you can spend you time on that you find personally fulfilling. It'll probably take time to get there, but anything worth doing does.

If it's any help, what I did was think about what I want to leave behind after I'm gone. What I could possibly accomplish that would outlive me.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 00:52:24 2018 No.11894796 my anus is on the news

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 00:56:37 2018 No.11894812

>>11894772
Thanks anon. I think my problem isn't really with me not having friends, but mainly now that I can't enjoy even talking to them without having that lingering feeling that life is meaningless, that anything I do will eventually just get erased by supermassive black holes. And when I stop hanging out with them, or I'm, not at school and im alone at my computer, I feel like my I'm wasting my life not doing what my parents did in their youth.

I don't know, I think my parent's Gen X mindset of "as a teen, your job is to go around and be a moron and get high". I constantly feel pressured to do what my parents did as children, but when I do what they did, I feel some existential dread looming over me. It's only paused with brief periods of denial, but I feel like one day I might be able to truly accept that life, in the end, doesn't really matter, and what I do doesn't really matter, and thats ok.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 00:58:22 2018 No.11894817 >>11893309 Your countrymen still love our art. The world over is American now, or stronger due to our presence.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 01:01:03 2018 No.11894827 >>11894812 Jesus is the answer.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 01:09:10 2018 No.11894848 >>11893589 Getting serious small dick vibes from your post

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 01:15:32 2018 No.11894870

>>11894812
You're right. Humanity won't be around forever. Heat death will eventually occur.
What you do might not have objective meaning, but it can still have meaning to you. It might take time to realize how that can be, but it's true. And don't pay much mind to what your parents did in their youth. They're not you.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 01:22:17 2018 No.11894888 >>11893666 you ever think that the world isn't just black and white anon a cock can either be sucked or unsucked, but at one point in a blowjob there is a point where it is neither think on it

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 01:53:10 2018 No.11895001 can't wait till this fucking keras tutorial finishes downloading so i can get the fuck out of here, fuckin rutracker torrents all slow n shit

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 02:17:14 2018 No.11895065
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>>11894870
>>11894812
Never really understood the "human" need to have meaning made for them, when they are so capable of making their own.

...Or, to put in the cringiest way possible:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RDvN-g-3SxI
(Or just read some Asimov shorts...)

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 02:22:12 2018 No.11895074

>>11892877
Most days I feel like killing myself, I'm absolutely compulsive over it. Ideations are starting to manifest, I tried it six years ago and failed. So I'm planning what methods I should take after my mother dies. Living is a chore, and humans aren't really aware outside their own bubble. One thing is sure, humanity at the rate we are going at is unsustainable.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 02:26:18 2018 No.11895086 >>11895074 Anon, I'm aware of you. Please, please don't. I pray for you anon. Your life is worth more than you believe.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 04:27:15 2018 No.11895368 >>11893404 Too real my dude. This is why a I ran away to the desert.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 04:32:56 2018 No.11895377

>>11894201
>You wouldn't sit and seriously listen to a child tell you how things are

Children are some of the most intellectually honest, unfiltered, and unbiased intelligent creatures on the planet. Spend some time with a child and you will question everything you understand about the world.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 04:34:38 2018 No.11895379 30 year old NEET wizard wondering why I shouldn't just hang myself and can't come up with any reasons.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 04:35:58 2018 No.11895385 >>11894764 I think most people come here to post their feelings.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 04:37:08 2018 No.11895389 >>11892971 nice

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 04:38:34 2018 No.11895393 How can I call myself a writer when I can never find the time to write what I want?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 04:40:36 2018 No.11895398 I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 04:47:17 2018 No.11895413 [DELETED]

The world is a carnival of injustice and laughing goons, sat bleary eyed in London, fresh from their landlords kicking them out.
Righteousness is dead, all honest men have been driven out by the parasites in Westminster.
Life is unbearable, neither me nor anyone I know has seen more than two streets in the past year: Our work and our home.
There is no opportunity, no equity, no assistance for the poor or the blind or the sick.
My friend tried to commit suicide twice in the same week, they told him that he'd have to wait for a year before receiving 30 minutes of therapy a month, over the phone.
Our streets are lined, choked with homeless. Men and women, sometimes with children, often without. Their teeth show as many holes as their clothes. Each winter they die, but by summer a fresh wave of evictions pour helpless souls back into the streets.
Would that I were not afraid of death I would make those in Westminster fear it.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 04:55:33 2018 No.11895443
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>>11892877
I lived I. The wilderness for three years. Now that I have returned to the world of men from my long journey, I feel more and more each day that I cannot live without the wild, where everything is so absolute, so deadly, and honest. I feel claustrophobic sleeping in a building again, or watching the sun go down and not worrying about my light source, or wether the shelter I made with my own hands will protect me. I miss her, that world which I love, where the quiet stillness of massive silent things is still known and cherished.

I’m going back. I cannot live without it.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 06:11:25 2018 No.11895629 >>11893893 Quelle belle personne

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 06:56:34 2018 No.11895719 >>11892893 The Enlightenment was a mistake.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 10:07:13 2018 No.11896257 >>11893709 There is only one God, the rest are merely its masks

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 10:24:36 2018 No.11896300

I really want to do something related to entertainment and fiction (writing, art, design, directing, video games, etc., I can't really choose between any of them), but I don't know how to translate that into a college degree. I spent 2 years in a deep depression, getting Cs and Ds while trying to pursue a CompSci degree, and now I'm pretty much back at square 1 (granted I have most of my gen ed requirements already).
I guess the best thing I could do is to get some more friends and actually start practicing writing, art, programming, etc. instead of just thinking about it all day.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 11:04:15 2018 No.11896462 >>11895379 Backpack somewhere far away.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 11:07:51 2018 No.11896480

>>11892877
And so, single again, alone on the road. Cider and vodka bottles, empty, litter the slum hotel I've been sitting in. I've not spoken to a soul in weeks. Yet, knowing the woman I once loved has moved on, and though the pain weighs on my chest like a boulder, I know I will gain the strength to lift it. If not today, one day. I just have to keep trying, and pushing, and moving ever forward.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 11:12:14 2018 No.11896496 NOTHING IN THIS WORLD'S WORTH WORKING FOR EVERYTHINGS DUMB AND FUCKING BORING.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 11:45:52 2018 No.11896633 >>11892877 Frustrated because I am attractive as fuck but I can't get any girls because I hide all my qualities behind a wall thanks to being conditioned in my infancy to have a pathological fear of envy.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 11:48:42 2018 No.11896643 Capitalism ruins everything

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 11:54:57 2018 No.11896680

>>11894614

That is me, though. I am currently a NEET casually apllying for jobs because everyone is on my ass to do it. I had a job a few months ago I quit because it was making me so miserable all I did when I wasn't working was sleep. I tried to do my hobbies but couldn't muster the energy. Not ashamed to say that I broke down and cried a few times. It was a truly horrid experience for me.

Now I have nothing but time for my stuff and I enjoy it but as I said everyone is on my ass to do something with my life which obviously means make a pittance for myself and bank for my overlord.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 12:12:07 2018 No.11896740

My ambitions as a writer directly interfere with my ability to enjoy life. The way I live when I am deep into writing is so alienated from the common norm that I lose touch with what grounds me to others. I withdraw into a flutter of pages and books, into a spiritual inner sanctum that resides within an airless, silent pocket within the world. Only my own inner voice, like a flickering and fighting torch light, keeps me company in this beguiling voyage. Everything else might as well be beyond a vast ocean.

The irony is that I write to feel closer to things. To study them more, feel them inside out. Live doubly. And in a sense I do, anything I write down I capture and assimilate. At the same time it can come as a shock how much the world differs from the representation of it. It is a far more intricate thing than thought.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 13:39:34 2018 No.11897016
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I want to poop on my roommate. The other day it occurred to me how superior I am to her in every single way. She has no ambitions, no aspirations beyond the next fleeting pleasure. She's content to veg out in front of the tube for hours at end watching mindless advertisements and base comedies, and she stifles her own attempts at self-improvement at every turn working out at the gym only to buy sugary cakes and pies to nullify it.

Yet she still has the gall to give me side eye and serve up some passive aggressiveness when I pour my heart and soul into everything I do and strive to break the mould with every last breath.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 13:46:02 2018 No.11897040 File: 33 KB, 680x798, 1297526017213.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11897016 Lol

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 14:29:57 2018 No.11897203

>>11893404
oscar wilde wrote that there is no such thing as a hidden vice. that means that people can sense that something is wrong with you. stop being negative, stop being pessimistic, possibly stop being degenerate, and stop being generally morbid: this way strangers won't be disgusted by your mere presence or sight.

stop being such a huge faggot. life is suffering. the only way to make it better is to temporarily take on even more suffering. in your case that means trying to be social and getting rejected over and over until you get to have a handful of friends who can stand you.

do this or otherwise kill yourself now, because if you don't do either of those things you will just keep on bearing so much useless pain with no hope for improvement, and there is absolutely no point in that

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 14:32:25 2018 No.11897211 this >>11897203 is also for you >>11893427

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 15:13:05 2018 No.11897396 >>11894848 Vomit. The only thing to love about America is how you'll all be nuked one day.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 15:14:21 2018 No.11897401 >>11893404 Thats awful sad anon. And i dont mean that out of pity. I hope things brighten up for you bro.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 15:14:38 2018 No.11897405 >>11896643 this

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 15:18:57 2018 No.11897428
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I think adaptability and willingness to accept new ideas is the highest virtue a person can possess.
Why are people so insistent on doing/perceiving things the way they always have? I mean, I can think of a million examples where people demand things be done or seen a certain way simply because it was the "proper way." Leaving absolutely no room for unconventional thought.
People incapable of changing their ideas are low, really low.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 15:19:18 2018 No.11897432 >>11893404 >>my turn >>Smile turns to grimace >>cashier looks visibly uncomfortable and fights with herself to force out the words “how can I help you?” >>order a black coffee >>she gives me a disgusted look i dont understand why this would happen

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 15:19:51 2018 No.11897437 File: 35 KB, 493x480, E90E7EA8-84CD-472E-8868-B00022398756.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I missed out on life

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 15:22:20 2018 No.11897447 >>11894817 >>11897396 I meant this for you.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 15:26:07 2018 No.11897464
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Horror as a genre just doesn't work for me, there's too much anticipation, and afterwards, disappointment.
Whether it be a book or a movie, I can't enjoy it for what it's meant to be.
If I'm watching a movie, I'm just excited to see the creative ways in which the characters are dispatched. A book is much in the same, I think I build myself up to be scared but nothing ever scares me.
I have no idea if it's because it's predictable and there's no truly scary works of horror, or the fault is on me somehow.
Recommend horror if you like, or just respond with your thoughts.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 15:32:28 2018 No.11897491 >>11897464 Most modern horror is out of touch with the elements that made it an attractive form of narrative for centuries. You ever read lovecraft?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 15:35:42 2018 No.11897500 Accepting Christ into your heart and life is the ultimate redpill.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 15:38:56 2018 No.11897518

>>11897491
In what way? And of course, but I still don't feel anything like fear when I read it.
Come to think of it, the last thing I read that scared me was Alas, Babylon by Pat Frank, and that's only because I recently moved to America where the threat of a nuclear strike is more real.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 15:40:34 2018 No.11897520

When I study the greats like Leonardo, Michelangelo, Mozart, Aristotle, Plato, and all the other thinkers and artists who I draw inspiration from I feel an obsession overcome me, but I’m so busy with making ends meet and plotting my course to financial security that I rarely have time to fully pour myself into my pursuits. When I do, I feel heartbreak knowing it may be some time until I return. Upon returning though, I feel awake; I feel alive. I get chills and I feel every heartbeat. My awareness skyrockets as I sit down with my old friend and tell him through my crafts everything that he missed. Life truely is suffering, but the feeling of returning to what I love is enough to keep me going through the most tedious and soulcrushing moments of my life.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 15:48:42 2018 No.11897553 You all appear depressed, but it's okay you'll get through it.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 16:20:47 2018 No.11897657 >>11892877 To my knowledge there's never been a Yeats biopic (just documentaries), and I'm salty as fuck about this because he actually had a really interesting life and I think it would make a great movie.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 16:34:18 2018 No.11897701

My nutsack itches. Tried writing earlier and couldn't because my nutsack was distracting me.
I read some of the other replies in this thread and you all seem to have such varied and really, truly pressing problems and insights.
Yet for me, my nutsack itches and that's all I can think about.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 16:39:22 2018 No.11897721 >>11897657 Write the screenplay anon.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 16:43:17 2018 No.11897740 >>11897721 Now there's an idea. I've never written one, but there's a first time for everything, I guess.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:03:23 2018 No.11898058
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>>11892877
From the time I was seven years old until I broke free from a cycle of neglect after high school, I was this awful little creature who was forced into continuous withdrawal, because my parents stuffed me full of psychiatric drugs for reasons that nether I nor they will never understand. They feel guilty whenever they see me now, and I am incapable of looking at them with love in my heart.

The drugs ruined my hearing, gave me chronic muscle pains, and did some awful things to my reproductive system but once I recovered from their abuse I ran to the Rocky Mountains to find healing in nature. I met people out there who taught me how to build a shelter, to hunt, to navigate and find water. More than that they taught me how to reclaim control over my own life, because a mountain or a forest does not care who you are, and they will kill you without a single thought or hint of dishonesty and for that they deserve to be loved.

I guide mountaineering expeditions for a living. I do this with young people who were like me because I remember what the guides before me had helped me find. Some of them are gone now, dead on a mountain somewhere, so I’m trying to continue their work. Sometime I find my own students asking me the same questions that I once asked my own mentors, things that onky They are capable of answering themselves.

I’m back at college now and I’m finding it impossible to connect with people. I have this massive history, this unknown world weighing me down, and I find myself a part of something beautiful that nobody here at this institution is capable of understanding. I am afraid that if I try to share it, that I will scare whoever is willing to listen to my stories about the real world.

I am 23 years old, and I don’t know what do do with myself now that I’m away from the mountains. It is the only place on earth where I feel that I can be my authentic self, and where I am actually able to be useful to somebody else. I need to go back and reclaim the meaningfulife life that I have allowed to escape me, and I am determined to do so.

https://youtu.be/nVzj-5_FtJg

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:08:42 2018 No.11898078 File: 174 KB, 500x492, 2483208-2114905390-tumbl.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] /lit/ has been pretty bad this week Maybe i shouldn't just keep ignoring this board if i see something stupid.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:12:57 2018 No.11898100 >>11898058 Why did you go back to college?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:13:15 2018 No.11898103 >>11893901 No fucking way consciousness was a mistake, if you have kids you have blood on your hands for their deaths Although having said I might go dump a load of sperm in a sperm bank because in good looking and vaguely intelligent

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:15:34 2018 No.11898116 >>11897701 Have you tried scratching it?

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:24:57 2018 No.11898160

>>11898103
Then where do you find purpose in life anon? Don't you feel any kind of burden from your ancestors? Don't you think, even if you're personally unhappy, that raising a successful family would be a great feeling -- that they can make you proud one day or give you the sense that you've contributed something positive to the world? Anti-natalism is a very cancerous mindset anon.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:30:36 2018 No.11898175 >>11898160 HOW SPOOKED DOT R U?

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:32:18 2018 No.11898181

>>11898100
The communications department at my school has a world renowned internship program that is a pipeline to dozens of critical media outlets. Gaining access to these organizations would provide me with the resources and funding to create the documentary work I’m so dying to do. If I stay on this path and connect with the right people, I’ll be able to work with PBS, NPR, National Geographic, NOLS, and other outlets that fund independent storytelling projects. This would allow me to generate positive attention towards outdoor education and wilderness therapy non-profit programs, two critically overlooked sectors of the guiding industry that I know from experience (both as a former patient and care provider) have the ability to rehabilitate people where traditional methods usually fail. I know it’s an absolute pipe dream, but then again, so was the possibility of me living past the age of 19. With that second chance I at least have to try, and the resources I currently have access to as a student at are the most helpful things in that endeavor. I’ll have to grin and bear it for just a little longer if I’m to pursue my goals.

Come he’ll or high water I want to remain a very specific type of storyteller.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:32:38 2018 No.11898183 >>11898058 Where in the Rockies were you, vaguely? I used to live in Colorado, spent some time semi-homeless living on an abandoned campground.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:33:33 2018 No.11898186
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>>11893901
So just fill their heads with your schlock rather than having them discover their own morals and values themselves? What a good parent you are

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:39:23 2018 No.11898198 >>11898186 I guarantee you that he is an American that follows Trump. He is also most likely American religious.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:41:01 2018 No.11898200 >>11898198 american protestantism is some of the worst shit in the world, i swear to god

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:42:33 2018 No.11898211

>>11898183
My work has me operating as far north as Grand Junctuon but our base of operations is in Mancos CO just a little east of Cortez down by the four corners. I also guide in the San Juans, everything from the Lizardhead Wilderness east of Telluride to the Weminuche, Rico Mountains, and the La Platas. Sometimes I’m out on the Navajo Reservation doing work by Crystal, Polacca, Window Rock, Gallup, and Shiprock, and we even go as far north in Utah as Moab and up to the Green River or by the Colorado River towards Darj Canyon. So really all over the place.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:47:44 2018 No.11898237
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Je n'aime personne ; mes amis ne sont que des tocards que je déteste et méprise, auprès desquels je joue un rôle, je n'ai jamais eu que du mépris pour les quelques filles que j'ai baisées, mes parents ne me comprendrons jamais ; tous les gens que je rencontre sont des tocards méchants et stupides. Il y a une fille, qui est, peut-être... qui est peut-être bien. Je crois que je lui plais. Elle est déjà prise.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:49:14 2018 No.11898241

>>11898186
>>11898198
You guys sound very jaded. I'm not some kind of stormfag hoping to indoctrinate my children, I just don't want them to fall into the same traps of malaise, mediocrity, and nihilism that so many others I care about have fallen into. I've seen my younger sister lose her innocence and I feel like it could've been been avoided if our parents had done a better job. Same with some of my friends who I once respected but got pushed in the same direction as others in their dysfunctional families.

Why does someone need to be a right wing nut to want to raise kids who can rise above all the vices and vile shit in this world?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:53:18 2018 No.11898257 >>11898241 Because that is what you are. For a nation that touts its individuality you fat retards what everyone to fit a mold of what you deem acceptable. What the hell does "lose her innocence" even mean? Is she acting like a human and not a drone?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 18:56:26 2018 No.11898273 >>11894764 I read the whole thing everytime

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 19:06:58 2018 No.11898321

>>11898257
I don't know where you're getting the impression that I wouldn't let my children have any kind of freedom of thought. They can believe whatever they want, religiously or politically or otherwise. But I think, if they're raised right, they can avoid all the degeneracy in American culture right now. When I say my sister lost her innocence I mean she's no longer the modest, virtuous person she used to be. She's become another complacent part of that same culture of degeneracy. It hurts. Lots of other people are going down a similar path and I genuinely think it's avoidable. I want to have a family that breaks free from that cycle. What's so retarded about that?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 19:25:22 2018 No.11898376 >>11898321 Pro tip, bro: talking about degeneracy makes you sound like a fringe right winger no matter what your intentions are. How old is your sister?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 19:28:50 2018 No.11898385 >>11898181 Good luck to you anon. You have a fascinating story and it sounds like you have the potential to make something great.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 19:30:48 2018 No.11898393 File: 70 KB, 422x600, 1494694874937.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I want to kill myself but I'm too much of a pussy bitch to do it. I don't give a shit if it hurts my family, I just want this nightmare that began 15 years ago to end.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 19:35:56 2018 No.11898411 >>11893662 >the guy thats going to eliminate their 4th and 5th amendment rights. Will never happen.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 19:56:38 2018 No.11898472 File: 19 KB, 657x527, apu_apu_2.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11892893 >a nation of exiles, criminals and other losers turns out to be a kiked shithole WOW, DIDN'T SEE THAT COMING!!!

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 19:57:07 2018 No.11898473

>>11898376
Yeah I knew I'd catch flack for using that term but I feel like any reasonable person (politics aside) should be disgusted by at least some elements of today's society, don't you? I'm not resentful, I don't hate those who choose to be reprobates, I'm mostly sad that their families and society at large has failed them. I don't want to fail my progeny.

And my sister's 19, currently a sophomore at uni. Maybe she was going to turn out this way regardless but it seems like college corrupts almost everyone these days.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 19:58:39 2018 No.11898475 >>11898473 It's them ding dang dirty ess jay dubs, isn't it? They're corrupting the youth to want equality, liberated, and DAMN COMMUNIST.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 19:59:51 2018 No.11898480 >>11894652 This is a redpilled toast

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 20:03:51 2018 No.11898494 >>11892877 feelin pretty good

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 20:05:32 2018 No.11898502 >>11892912 commies get helicopter rides

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 20:12:05 2018 No.11898529 >>11897016 perhaps "self-improving" your self-esteem would be a wise next step?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 20:15:43 2018 No.11898544 >>11898472 A kike shithole that can dickslap your country

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 20:23:55 2018 No.11898573 >>11898475 Seems pretty narrow minded that you can't think anyone can harbor my sentiments without being some kind of reactionary right winger.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 20:29:29 2018 No.11898593

>>11898573
He's biting at you not for your disapproval, but for your refusal to say what she's doing and how it's degenerate. Is it sex acts? Drugs? Politics? Come out and say it. For my part, I find the people at my school to be generally decent (though I don't truly know any), considering they're polite and generally treat professors with respect and so on. No one knows what you're getting at by saying 'corruption', so go ahead and tell us.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 20:33:33 2018 No.11898602

>>11898473
It really depends what you mean by "degeneracy" and "reprobates" here. You haven't mentioned any specifics. If you're talking drinking, drugs, and sex -- these things have always been rites of passage for young people. You know, move away from home, suddenly no one's watching, you can do what you want. There's reasonable indulgence and there's dangerous, self-destructive behavior. The difference is easy to see, and people tend to moderate their behavior after the novelty of independence wears off. You're right in saying that I find some aspects of society undesireable, but it's not anything along these lines.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 20:36:22 2018 No.11898614 >>11898385 Thanks. I wish you luck as well.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 20:52:47 2018 No.11898664 >>11898544 This is one of the problems with Americans. They're so fucking stupid.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 21:09:29 2018 No.11898724 >>11898664 What does it say about most non-Americans that the vast majority of them leach off American inventions, products, pop culture, and more?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 21:11:23 2018 No.11898734 >>11898724 Oh boy, tell me some American inventions. That's only the first thing here. Let me see some American inventions that everyone uses.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 21:13:26 2018 No.11898748

Its hard to find a new good book review niche website that isnt pandering to feature "New Female authors" and Female authors of color".
They make a point on some to feature a majority of Female authors in all categories of new books released most being sub par fiction or books only from women only choosing to wright in a style that's coming from there identity as a women and letting that dictate and define the contents of there writing.

Its not that I don't feel women cant wright good books there are many good books written by women its just as of recently in the last 10 years it seems to publishers choosing to publish only women that wright from there identity.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 21:14:16 2018 No.11898754 >>11898734 For starters, the very personal computer or phone you're using to visit 4chan right now.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 21:14:48 2018 No.11898756 >>11892877 Eating sardines cures depression

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 21:16:33 2018 No.11898765 >>11898754 >Computer Babbage. British. >Phone Mobiles were, shockingly, first invented by the Soviets as something. It's an interesting story.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 21:16:41 2018 No.11898767 If you choose to pay attention to the news and journalism then it will make you feel worse. If you disengage from modern reality and look for literature that you find interesting its easy to ignore the current noise that never ceases

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 21:25:46 2018 No.11898794

>>11898767
Or folks could just do what most people aren’t willing to, and actually be fucking useful within their own immediate community but no, the modern status quo would have us believe we have to be the savior of the entire world or that we are powerless, that no in-between exists.

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 22:24:45 2018 No.11898971

>>11898211
Shit, I was just outside Delores, CO when I was living in the woods. That was late '15. You were really in wild country. I've been through Mancos a few times and I lived in Grand Junction for a time, even did a few semesters at Colorado Mesa, but I dropped out for financial reasons. I'm living the opposite life now, I live in Los Angeles. But I was born into rural life and was a misfit in it, and I suspect you were partly the opposite.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 22:27:35 2018 No.11898983 >>11898765 >le babbage invented the computer meme turing was also a brit but still, fuck you and anyhow the personal computer is also an important development, and the Internet itself is largely a product of american innovation

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 22:36:41 2018 No.11899008

Fuck cunt shit ass dick balls poop nigger faggot cunt bitch shit dick

Butt soft, what light through yonder window breaks?
Eye yam the yeast and Juliet is the bun
Arise, fair bun!, and show thy envious poon
All ready sick, impaled with queefs

Aujourd'hui, maman est morte
That stupid pallbearer won't shut the fuck up
Good lord how about I put a goddamn bullet in your head
And here he comes now, blah blah, more stupid shit to be sure
But what's this?
Hear him drone on and on and on about asinine banal horseshit

To be or not to be
I'll ask again
For someone in the back of the room made a really loud cough
I mean what the fuck dude
Here I am on stage and all and you have the gall to stand up and cough like that?

Ass cunt titties nips dick shit ass balls fuck bitch damn

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 22:48:04 2018 No.11899046 What keeps you guys going?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 22:54:49 2018 No.11899073 >>11892877 most of the time i post without reading any of the comments.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 23:00:58 2018 No.11899089 >>11899046 The fact that nothing I’ve come up against in my life, be it manmade or natural disaster has been able to fucking kill me. Come at me planet earth, you giant fucking nigger.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 23:05:19 2018 No.11899100 >>11899046 cowardice. i'm too scared to kill myself. hopefully i'll work up the courage sooner rather than later.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 23:09:10 2018 No.11899117 >>11899046 President Trump and the possibility of other happenings, although it seems at the end of the day nothing really changes anyways regardless of the political circus going on right now

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 23:10:47 2018 No.11899123 >>11899046 The will.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 23:16:06 2018 No.11899135 File: 85 KB, 424x736, 1513053567935.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11899046 Nothing has been strong enough to stop me yet

Anonymous Sun Oct 7 23:48:12 2018 No.11899248
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>>11899046
Suboxone, Adderall, clonazapam and books lots of books. Art, the internet ect.

Also have been self teaching myself to paint with oils.

I plan on killing myself when my adovtive parents die there both in there 70s right now so
in about ten years I guess im kicking the bucket literally already made up my mind.
Especially if my Mom where to pass away first that would prob be enough...

Im reading all the classics and things I dont want to die without reading, Lately Ive been reading up on the Stoic classics

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 23:51:24 2018 No.11899254 >>11892877 I suffer from premature ejaculation

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 7 23:51:39 2018 No.11899255 >>11899046 Trying to find that out. Right now the only thing is routine. The fact that I've been living every day already, but I'm losing that lately

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 00:10:37 2018 No.11899340 I fucking love him, I can't do anything about it. He's too young and says he loves me too but can't be in a serious relationship yet, but I don't know how long I can wait before I break.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 00:12:49 2018 No.11899352 >>11899340 Is it even worth holding on to if it causes you so much stress?

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 00:15:06 2018 No.11899358 >>11894764 t. sci-fi general poster I never open your shit threads either.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 00:15:22 2018 No.11899361

>>11899046
The wonder and mystery of something great, nameless, and all powerful in the world that reveals itself in short glimpses of overwhelming understanding. It's only visible to people who are willing to shed whats familiar and travel into the wilderness. I've witnessed it with my own eyes a couple of times before, if not extremely briefly. The sightings were years apart.

also in all seriousness, these as well
>>11899089
>>11899135

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 00:18:09 2018 No.11899375 >>11893309 LOL. You reference the Dunning-Kruger, yet America rules the world. You, yourself, just aren't very bright. And here I am of the opinion that that the USA should dissolve.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 00:26:31 2018 No.11899419
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>>11892877
I held the life of another man in my hands this past summer. He was dying of severe heat exhaustion and dehydration at the bottom of Dark Canyon in Southern Utah at 3:00 in the morning, and I was the only person for 200 miles who knew how to save him. He began to shake and shiver, convulsing as his limbs went pale, the residual fluids in all extremities desperately shunting heat and water back into the core of the body to preserve his internal organs. What's strange is that I don't even remember thinking when all of my medical training kicked in as he stopped breathing. I felt like an observer, watching my own hands examining and preserving his life, my mind and sense of panic subdued, but along for the ride. Were those truly my actions that morning, or an intervention of god? To this day, I am still unsure.

The gravity of the situation haunts me.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 00:29:23 2018 No.11899433 >>11899352 I don't know... what I do know is that being without him is much worse than with him.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 00:46:39 2018 No.11899502 >>11899419 What do you do in that situation?

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 00:48:01 2018 No.11899507 >>11899419 You absorbed his soul and it gives you strength.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 01:12:50 2018 No.11899624 >>11893662 yikes! shills are getting more and more common. ignore this faggot, fellow Americans. our competition wants us to hate each other and our government so that they can destroy our country. resist.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 02:01:45 2018 No.11899803
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I don't understand why she so desperately tries to show herself as something she's not.
She doesn't say she went to a party, she went to a gathering. She didn't go to her crushes house, she went to a coworkers. She doesn't drink, yet I've seen her drink numerous times in the past few months. She has no friends, yet spends every weekend out with them.
She's "intelligent" to quote herself, yet she comes to me for the answers.
It's like she finds loneliness and depression and personal problems sexy, cinematic. She assumes it's like how it is in the movies, the mysterious loner who is actually really witty and smart. But it's not like that. I can't stand her phoniness and don't know why she tries so hard to be this type of person to me specifically. She wants my approval, for me to see her as an equal I think. But in all seriousness, she's just annoying as fuck

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 02:07:39 2018 No.11899832

I've had it with the disrespect around here. Everywhere I go people stop what they're doing just to stare at me with the purest hate in their eyes. People go out of their way to mistreat me. The next motherfucker that looks at me funny is getting fucking curb-stomped. I mean it.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 02:12:47 2018 No.11899853

I do a lot of contrast aqua therapy a lot of photobiomodulation some PBM therapy Oh - over your head huh yeah that's the stuff that's Weird right because I'm not Ordinary I'm fucking I like thinking I love doing my homework and research on different things what kind of nutrients can you put in your body when I started seeing my plants grow and I realized that it wasn't just water and soil that they needed that they actually need a little bit of Supplements you start changing your Stuff because you know everybody takes care of animals right but yet even animals they require just a little bit less attention but you take a plant and you tried it look and take care of a plant well I guarantee you about 3/4 of you fucking let that shit die because you're too busy and you keep traveling it's called Watering The Plants I diligently tell my trainers i Train trainers I don't train athletes athletes are fucking lazy I train trainers I'm a Master Trainer I'm a Master Fighter but I'm a student first of all I'm not a coach a coach stops learning he stops becoming a student he becomes that one guy that's fucking Blowing The Whistle that's not me I'm a trainer I'm gonna keep being a trainer I keep doing diligent homework so that way I can keep learning this game better than everybody else I'm so far ahead of the curve these fuckers are fucking it up at the bottom these guys are fucking it up.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 02:13:45 2018 No.11899855 >>11899803 Is she me?

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 02:29:26 2018 No.11899888 >>11899855 Perhaps

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 02:46:11 2018 No.11899917 File: 32 KB, 480x760, PrjVi8d.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Existence is the residue on the inside of the weed pipe of a thrice transcended demignoxis

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 02:49:08 2018 No.11899925
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I honestly don't know what the fuck is going on with my life anymore. I don't feel in control at all. Some big tragedy or news get to me every now and then just for them to be fixed all of a sudden without me doing anything. I don't know if this is a higher force or pure chance keeping me well to provide me a revelation or fulfill a purpose that I have no yet got to.

I currently have a girlfriend I don't really want to be with, but still love dearly for some inexplicable reason. I can't muster up the strength to leave her to go see if someone else is better suited for me. She already expressed numerous times that she want's to get married to me, and says i'm her dream man or whatever the fuck.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 03:00:32 2018 No.11899949

>>11899502
Get the patient off the ground and onto an insulated sleeping pad so they’re no longer losing body heat to the ground and cover/ uncover patient before and after bouts of shivering to regulate temperature as much as possible. Record a new set of vitals every 5 minutes (HR, RR, SCTM, and Pupil movements) to develop a history and predict shock trends. Give rescue breaths when necessary to supply oxygen, and feed the patient tiny drops of purified electrolyte-infused water orally if possible. If there’s no swallow reflex present, place the patient into the recovery position and smear electrolytes onto their gums to diffuse it into their bloodstream.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 03:00:34 2018 No.11899950

>>11892877
Brett kavanaugh brett kavanaugh brett kavanaugh brett kavanaugh god damn why do i hate taking showers? I cant explain it except maybe that i constantly feel like im wasting time when performing basic and necessary hygiene. For two years i lay on a couch and that was about it besides using bathroom and eating so maybe it lingers from then becauseuh depression and now im gonna lose sleep from shitposting and maybe ill make it to morning class but who knows i suppose i could bike thats no big deal. Lol i m wearing pants and laying on my bed. Pretty tired and i want to start my meal prep but i also dont because i dont have much money and i cant fucking decide if i want to cut or bulk in the first place so here we go again and andhdnshsakf mot a minute soent andnejdhe s take it back ta baaaasvk

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 03:01:27 2018 No.11899952 >>11899925 If you're unsure about the relationship at this early stage, marriage will never work. The sooner you're out of it the better. Also, >>>/adv/

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 03:17:50 2018 No.11899993 >>11899952 Hey man i'm not asking for advice. I just wrote what was on my mind

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 06:51:14 2018 No.11900369 >>11898983 Lol Americans desperate for validation. You're all like children.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 06:54:47 2018 No.11900378 >>11898544 >YEEEAH KILLEM Wow so epic! WTF I LOVE US NOW retard

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 06:58:41 2018 No.11900390 I graduated college five years ago, bachelor's in literature. I'm not as well read as I was before, which is the crux of my predicament[ want to attend graduate school but feel intimidated, fell like I'm too dumb for graduate school.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 07:23:43 2018 No.11900434 smoking is so stupid. i smoke a pipe and i sit out here smoking. i willingly give money to inhale death into my lungs. i'm done with it. what a stupid vice. useless.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 07:57:49 2018 No.11900508 > have been talking to a long-distance friend for the past few months over text daily > friend got sappy, started talking about the value of our friendship > stopped responding to my messages afterwards, but everything has a read receipt

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 08:18:41 2018 No.11900529 >>11900508 > friend got sappy > friend stopped responding to my messages This is confusing. Why did they stop responding to your messages.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 08:20:47 2018 No.11900534 >>11900529 That's what I'm confused about. There was nothing in my response that would prompt a sudden ghost, in my opinion.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 08:24:32 2018 No.11900540 >>11899803 Renée?

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 09:19:20 2018 No.11900639
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>>11899361
>wonder and mystery of something great, nameless, and all powerful in the world that reveals itself in short glimpses of overwhelming understanding. It's only visible to people who are willing to shed whats familiar and travel into the wilderness. I've witnessed it with my own eyes a couple of times before, if not extremely briefly. The sightings were years apart.

I've had these moments too. Picture from me backpacking through French countryside last summer.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 09:50:59 2018 No.11900714 >>11896480 cringe

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 10:03:16 2018 No.11900742 Can I keep running from (the thought of) death forever? I have no idea what i'm going to do to fill the void after I inevitably get bored of literature again.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 10:37:02 2018 No.11900826
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I finished No Longer Human. I never thought I would relate to a Japanese author more than one of my own kind. I got so into it that I neglected a lot of my readings for classes and now I am behind again.

I tried to catch up on my work yesterday but the neighbors upstairs were having such loud sex. He must be an athlete Chad because they were going at it for a good hour. This depressed me and I drank several whiskies until I past out.

Today in class I got called out for not doing the homework. Even the qt shy girl I thought I had some chance with laughed at me. Princeton isn't the Ivy league paradise I thought it would be /lit/. Maybe I should have went to Harvard instead.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 11:21:58 2018 No.11900954

>>11899361
>The wonder and mystery of something great, nameless, and all powerful in the world that reveals itself in short glimpses of overwhelming understanding.
That's God. Catching glimpses of Him in your travels is perfectly fine, but in fact He surrounds you every day and everywhere. You just need to learn to look.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 11:25:29 2018 No.11900966

I seek connection. Perhaps the most powerful social drive is the drive to belong. A drive so compelling that if it is stifled, equally potent hostile and maddened forces take assertion in an individual's character.

I realize that the younger, less sociable me refused to give people the befit of the doubt. In my solitary isolation I presumed myself to be a higher form of man, going on Schopenhauer's dictum that it is the fate of all lofty and noble minds to be alone.

But having since opened my heart to the stream of other people and to have let that flow through has taught me that most people have something of value and even the scrappiest scruffiest knuckle dragger has a story to tell.

In the end I remain lost in the eternal mysteries.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 12:31:13 2018 No.11901186 A happy state of mind. Things are on the look-up, family connection is the strongest it's ever been.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 12:36:23 2018 No.11901215

>>11897432
Either he’s unattractive and physically looks as depressed and miserable as he feels or his sadness distorts the lens with which he views the world making it seem like the cashier was treating him differently. Or maybe she was just having a shitty day, could be anything.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 12:49:57 2018 No.11901268 >>11899135 I needed a reminder, Thanks

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 14:50:18 2018 No.11901770

I can't figure out what the hell I'm going to do with my life. Most of passions have dwindled in the past year due to starting uni. I just wish I could pick one field and commit to it, but I'm interested in too many things. When I was a kid I was pretty set on filmmaking or writing but now I have no idea

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 14:52:53 2018 No.11901785 >>11900540 I see this type of girl is more common than I thought

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 15:00:09 2018 No.11901805
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>tfw you will never cuddle and bro out with Dylan Thomas in the comfy fall weather

And there could I marvel my birthday
Away but the weather turned around. And the true
Joy of the long dead child sang burning
In the sun.
It was my thirtieth
Year to heaven stood there then in the summer noon
Though the town below lay leaved with October blood.
O may my heart's truth
Still be sung
On this high hill in a year's turning.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 15:02:33 2018 No.11901808 these grapes taste what grape juice usually tastes like

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 15:10:17 2018 No.11901833 >>11895001 >he fell for meme learning

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 15:51:45 2018 No.11901997 >>11900826 What are you studying at Princeton anon? I have a cousin who goes there, it shouldn't be hard to find like-minded people depending on the classes you take and activities you engage in.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 16:35:49 2018 No.11902223
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There's this chick in a couple of my community college classes, a ginger stoner gamer girl. We've talked a couple times in class briefly. I was put in a group with her for a project, was excited about that because I'd have a chance to talk to her. Turns out most of the work was done on a google doc and didn't get a chance to talk. Really woupd like to talk to her sometimes but can't find a reason to do so. I could cold approach her after class but under what pretext?

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 16:37:47 2018 No.11902232 >>11898472 It’s a mess but to make things worse it’s an extremely powerful mess

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 16:45:00 2018 No.11902260 Lmao so apparently mods and jannies are making it so legitimate threads don't bump, while threads about fucking e-celeb shits stay up here for days on end!

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 16:45:25 2018 No.11902261

>>11892893
The next generation is shaping up to be more conservative than the last few, so I don't see things going to shit as soon as they could. It won't help that they're all nihilists to varying degrees of irony though. I can see The US losing it's role as "leader of the free world" within my lifetime.
>t. American that's planing to teach abroad for a career to avoid as much of this shit as possible

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 16:50:36 2018 No.11902278 Acceleration is screaming "Do it!" into the storm.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 17:12:40 2018 No.11902345
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I turned on my car and the stereo started and it was a soap opera, the original soap opera, character arcs spanning fifty years, plotlines leaping from vacuum tube to transistor, oak to bakelite to 3-polypropylene. There was a woman talking. An old woman. She said
>"I stayed with him until they found him a bed."
She was talking about a hospital. And it made me think how far we've fallen. There aren't enough beds for the sick, and this fact has permeated so far down into the bedrock of the society that it has reached an Institution as resistant to change as the the fucking The Archers. If there are sacred duties, then surely caring for the sick is one of them. What lines are there left to cross? Things aren't coming apart except at the edges. Spin the sphere at thousands of rpm and it begins to warp, break,, the outer layers ripped off by irresistible force. But the center holds, and so we continue to spin, faster and faster, smaller and smaller. We will be diminished. We will be exhausted and miserable and we will endure as much suffering as it is humanly possible to bear and our children will have it worse.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 17:16:23 2018 No.11902357 >>11899624 That's right goy, don't question your wise leaders. They know what's best after all, the people who line their pockets have your best interests in mind.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 17:22:26 2018 No.11902373

I've put together a few dozen ideas into a Notepad file now for creating music, but I feel I lack the ability to take a neat concept and branch it out until it's a complete, self-satisfying song. And I fear I'm not skilled or passionate enough to create something I would like. Perhaps sometime I'll just sit down with my guitar and mess around with what I have now until something comes out. Here's a few things anyways.
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0TfEJG7nxX3
https://vocaroo.com/i/s1tAloyqUtVT
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0S5kFIVHBZV

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 17:23:28 2018 No.11902375 >>11900954 >That's God Cut yourself from the labels that man has created in a foolish attempt to contain the infinite and be free.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 17:33:25 2018 No.11902415 >>11902373 >https://vocaroo.com/i/s0S5kFIVHBZV nice

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 18:15:07 2018 No.11902603
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Life is too different. Our minds can only focus on the now, but changes are too vast and rapid. In a single day I go through many different moods, outlooks and behaviours.

This is why trying to prove some inherent philosophical truth of the world is a folly, it's all to dependent on the now.

Art is good in that it forcebly changes your brain into the appropriate mood to benefit from the visage, but it'll never reflect life in full, only aspects of it.

Also Jesus fucking Christ do I love her, it's so pathetic, why does it have to be so hard?

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 18:23:23 2018 No.11902631

>>11892877
Either you come with me to the one place on earth I cannot live without, where I know I am destined to dwell forever, or you can stay behind in foggy cold uptight New England where life and dreams do nothing but decay, and I break your heart. I love you so much, and yet I am not sorry for this. This ultimatum is outside of my control, for I will die inside if I don't go back out there to seek my destiny.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 18:30:35 2018 No.11902671

can you imagine what being on the internet would be like if shit actually hit the fan? like if a major city was destroyed by aliens or there were zombies? or even more realistic things, like nuclear war or war between two global powers?

/pol/ would be crazy. twitter would be crazy.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 18:32:17 2018 No.11902684 >>11902671 Yeah, even if something like 9/11 happened now. It's weird to imagine

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 18:38:58 2018 No.11902724 >>11902261 America has already lost that role

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 18:43:31 2018 No.11902748

>>11892877
Here I am on 4chan again. I've sat in this chair since my parents started working for about a month now. I feel bloated, though I'm not sure why.

I need to be writing that novel. I lost count of how many times I try to get that thing to work. People told me that I have talent, but that came from some fanfiction board. How could that compare to the real world of literature?

I'm going to get there one day. I'll probably only sell a few copies, but I'm going to give the thing my all. I have a $1000 in the bank and I'm willing to pour it all unto my work. I haven't found work since last year; my two year of technical college in office administration doesn't mean crap in the middle of a rural area surrounded by crop fields.

If this doesn't work, what will I do then? I can't support myself. My parents may love me to death, but I'm miserable being stuck in this house. I haven't have a decent friend for so long. Considering that I hardly socialize, I guess that's my fault.

Then again, this place is infested with drugs.

Even in dispare, there's still hope. I pray to a loving God, so I'll always have hope.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 18:50:04 2018 No.11902781 >>11899254 Stop tensing your cock

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 18:54:52 2018 No.11902803

I'm such an incurable autist that I have difficulty writing about it on the literature subsection of a goddamn online anime image board and I don't think anybody will believe what I say.

>thinking about it I have definitely made over 40 email accounts, making a new one whenever I think of a name I like based on whatever my interest of that particular day is
>haven't completed a game since 2012, still buy them and keep up with consoles
>usually delete my saves after every session
>almost every other week reset the system and make a new account
>started collecting books 4 years ago
>have spent over £1000 on over 60 books
>have read four of them
>tell myself I'll make headway once I finish my ephemeral idea of a collection, which I think to me means most of the Western Canon
>can only read/watch something/game under perfect circumstances, not too hot or cold, must be sitting up straight, my room must be clean
>if I get a single distraction like a computer freeze or worst of all my mum calling me from down stairs I just cancel whatever I was doing and don't start again for a few days
>I keep asking her to not do that, to never intrude on my privacy by opening my mail or searching my room when I'm not there or wearing my clothes yet she never stops
>am overweight and lazy
>keep telling myself I'll start dieting and exercising next week/next month/my birthday/new year's/when I've finished school/college/start working/get back to work/over the summer/over the winter
>when I do I starve myself for about a fortnight and then relapse and binge myself
>I do all of the above whenever I give myself a new identity with the plan of starting afresh
>I've been a rationalist my entire life but the last few months I've been experiencing a lot of De Ja Vu and synchronicities which in moments of weakness I've taken to mean that the universe is telling me singing
>so I've gambled away nearly £500
>my autism's not all bad though I guess, out of some deep retched guilt I've been donating a third of my income to various charities even though I can't really afford it

My life on repeat since I was 11. Blame it on discovering 4chan at that age.
I'm twenty and have no friends and I'm all alone and losing hope.

Been contemplating that either I do sort my shit out New Year's or I kill myself. It's do or die.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 18:57:26 2018 No.11902811 >>11902803 seems more like an OCD type thing imo, you should probably see a therapist about it

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 18:58:15 2018 No.11902816

I think i want to take a year off from my stem grade to study literature

I dont know, maybe its because ive been going through a few weeks of feeling particularly alive, and my desire to become myself more will dissipate so that i can go back to my dream of comfortable, gainful employment in a field that i have some interest in

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 19:04:12 2018 No.11902835
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>>11902816
you should do it. the fact that you come to this board indicates that you like literature more than most people. college is the most free time in your life. you owe it to yourself to study something you're actually interested in.

otherwise you'll regret it forever like me

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 19:07:43 2018 No.11902849 Thinking about if I should go on an exchange next year or stay. If I go I'll probably destroy all the connections I have here since I suck at maintaining friendships. I'm thinking Scotland or France or England

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 19:14:05 2018 No.11902867 >>11902835 Thank you anon >>11902849 I say do it if you are entirely willing to work to gain friends native to the country you choose. Most people who go on exchange end up hanging out with other exchange students, which seems utterly pointless

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 19:17:21 2018 No.11902877
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>>11892877
I've been thinking about celebrities, actually. Not to act like a stoner who just read house of leaves or something, but I honestly and truly think that there's no goddamned way they act like what we're so used to seeing on screen. This is why I get do annoyed when I see people on stan twitter whenever there's a scandal or something and those goddamned BTS obsessed 14 year old girls are all like "omg they'd never do that1!!!1!1" Like, how are we supposed to know that? We don't know them at all. They could be neo-nazis irl and we'd have no idea.

Speaking of, the whole J-pop/K-pop idol lifestyle is disgusting. Surely you've all heard of that girl from AKB-48 who got caught leaving her boyfriends apartments, and then shaved her head, and released an apology video because apparently dating is sinful or something in Japan? What a cruel joke. What kind of fucked up mentally retarded person judges a 20 year old woman for dating?? Although, I suppose that great lengths are taken to avoid discriminating the lonely old men who buy 15 copies of every CD. But whatever.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 19:19:41 2018 No.11902886 >>11902877 >What a cruel joke. What kind of fucked up mentally retarded person judges a 20 year old woman for dating?? idk the internet has fun with it

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 19:40:55 2018 No.11902969 lately I catch myself forgetting how old I am, the years go by but nothing changes

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:01:01 2018 No.11903036

>>11902969
Same man, I look at some of these rich and famous e-celebs and the vast majority of them are my age or younger. Or I look at professional athletes and see them as real adults or bigger than me but then I realize that most of them are only a few years older than me. I was watching the Mcgregor Khabib fight yesterday and they're both only 30 years old. It only gets worse from here.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:03:54 2018 No.11903045
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I just wrote 1500 words diary entry in one sitting. Went kinda all in on some stuff. After that I came back to my daily task and I felt a feeling of strangeness overcome me, can't precisely explain it, but things started to feel kinda foreign for a brief moment.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:17:23 2018 No.11903081 >>11902835 >college is the most free time in your life you okay there buddy?

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:18:20 2018 No.11903083
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>>11893404
Brew your own coffee you dumb faggot.

But seriously, perhaps people respond poorly to you because you are a sadsack "um"-ing his way thought the world. No one wants to talk to a worm. Other people are no better than you.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:19:30 2018 No.11903091 >>11899361 Truly the Greeks were right all along

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:27:18 2018 No.11903126 >>11897203 >>11903083 >Just stop being sad bro LMAO

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:27:36 2018 No.11903127 >>11893404 real nigger shit

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:27:40 2018 No.11903129

Only 3 galleries have gotten back to me since last week for the portfolios i sent in, all rejections.

This is the worst part of art, the part monet, manet, kirchner never mentioned. I haven't created anything in over a month, it's too draining and painful to keep going without a public confirmation of sorts that your work reaches a certain standard of acceptance in the art world.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:31:32 2018 No.11903146 >>11895398 Cheers

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:32:59 2018 No.11903150 >>11903129 I love you all the more for it

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:34:05 2018 No.11903155 Jesus Christ I have to write 1100 more words for the intro philosophy essay by Thursday God help me

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:35:45 2018 No.11903164 I haven't uttered a single word to another person in 3 weeks. I made plans for my life after graduating, they seem rather bleak but financially sound. I read 40 pages today, it's the little things.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:42:07 2018 No.11903195 I don't know how to start.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:42:35 2018 No.11903197 >>11902223 Smoking.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:44:05 2018 No.11903202 >>11903195 Start what?

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:45:00 2018 No.11903207 >>11903202 I wrote what's on my mind.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:46:05 2018 No.11903210 >>11903207 Dumb bitch fag idiot.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:46:37 2018 No.11903213

I have a suspicion this girl might be into me, but I honestly can't tell (I can never tell anyways), she frequently complains about her boyfriend, and constantly makes jokes about her tits for some odd reason which I can't tell if she is just joking or flirting. Perhaps im just being thinking too much into it but It's definitely been on my mind for about 2 days.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:46:50 2018 No.11903214 >>11893404 Get over and socializing isnt all that im woth friends but want tk go home.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:47:47 2018 No.11903218 >>11903210 Good to see this thread opening people up.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:48:42 2018 No.11903221 >>11903218 Shut the hell up, this is my board and I'll ban you if you keep talking shit.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:49:20 2018 No.11903223 >>11903221 And how does that make you feel?

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:49:49 2018 No.11903226 >>11902803 >1000 britbux >60 books Man, I have like 400 books and I probably haven't spent that much on them. Also, your mom wears your clothes? What?

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:50:52 2018 No.11903233 >>11903223 I felt nothing but shame, regret and disappointment for the past 5 years.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:51:47 2018 No.11903235 >>11903233 Perhaps writing your struggles down as a short story, or even novel, and the characters overcoming these struggles would help.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:53:23 2018 No.11903246 >>11903235 Perhaps fuck off. This story ends with a rope.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:54:30 2018 No.11903247 >>11903246 Then grab it and pull the boat to dock. Set sail.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:54:50 2018 No.11903248

>>11893404
perhaps it's just your appearance, and the way you carry yourself. I can be pretty introverted at times but I have learned to make friends by just being kind and trying to be confident with the people I talk to. also it helps by perhaps finding a club at your college, getting involved with school events, try striking up conversations with people in your class. I have made so many friends from just talking to people in some of my film classes about movies. I understand this pain and trust me if you try this you will feel a lot better. Also dress very nice, if you dress nice you will feel nice.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:55:55 2018 No.11903250 >>11903247 See you on the other side.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:56:00 2018 No.11903251

>>11892893
>America spends the last 100 years going to war with every country that doesnt bow down and open up their country to exploitation by the American cartel of multinational corporations and military industrial complex
>bro why is shit so fucked
hard question to answer bro. beyond me

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:56:19 2018 No.11903252 >>11903250 Be sure to write.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:57:35 2018 No.11903260 >>11903252 No.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 20:58:29 2018 No.11903264 >>11903252 >>11903260 Oh get a fucking room already.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:03:25 2018 No.11903282 >>11903264 femoid post

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:11:59 2018 No.11903315 >>11892877 Super computers will process all data and ittl bite me in the ass for all the weird shit ive done in the past even though im trying to better my ways.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:13:10 2018 No.11903323 >>11903315 what

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:13:33 2018 No.11903327 >>11893011 lower lvl dwelling

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:15:13 2018 No.11903333 >>11903282 Let the lesbians jack off to the gay male porn, it's how we get era ending classics, anon.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:15:14 2018 No.11903334 >>11903323 Like in the future someone could pay money to some private company that will then expose you.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:16:18 2018 No.11903337 >>11903334 make it illegal then go lobby the government

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:16:35 2018 No.11903339 >>11903334 You're forgetting that nobody cares about you again, anon-sama.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:17:19 2018 No.11903342 >>11903333 the fuck are you talking about

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:17:54 2018 No.11903345 >>11903339 Well I myself often come back from the future to tell me things but lets keep it a secret that time traveling is real and were currently altering both the past and the future with every single little thing we do.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:19:19 2018 No.11903355 >>11903345 seek help take a shower have sex hit the weights get a clue

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:19:29 2018 No.11903356

>>11903334
That can be done today more or less. Google at any point could pull up your file, and the feds can file a warrant.

Reputation management is a burgeoning multimillion dollar sector of the tech industry.

The trick is that if dirt is available on everyone, then there isn't much shame in having dirt. It balances out. My embarrassing search histories are no more embarrassing than yours.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:20:12 2018 No.11903362 >>11903355 man these clues aint paying shit there aint no help

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:20:22 2018 No.11903364 >>11892877 I ask myself every single day, is that fucking internship worth waiting another miserable year, you absolute cretin?

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:21:36 2018 No.11903368 >>11903342 Proust, Wolfe, Sand, Rousseau, Rilke Nietzsche and Salome, and all the other queer shit they put in those books you aren't reading.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:22:13 2018 No.11903371 i feel completely alienated from you people and don't get the pseudo faggot Mark David Chapman shit you keep posting all fucking day. it's really starting to bother me you're not interesting. just make coffee at home next time. shut the fuck up

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:22:29 2018 No.11903373

>>11903356
wanna bet

me having recently become very very aware of my actions and the consequences it could have gives me some feeling of moral superiority. But I've always had that regardless.. The gods are showing their presence but its mere bullying desu its not like anything will chance in this life. Karma high as fuck but I feel like this life is just another stacking up for the next. Not sure when I will redeem. Not sure not sure not sure,,.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:22:52 2018 No.11903377 >>11903345 You don't care about you. I waited a few minutes to see if it was different in the future, but it really wasn't. You're safe from the NSA.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:24:02 2018 No.11903386 >>11903368 lay off the ideology, that shit will fuck you up.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:25:03 2018 No.11903397 >>11903377 >You're safe from the NSA only people that are safe are CEOs and the government

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:25:34 2018 No.11903402 >>11903386 >Can't handle ideology Sorry life's 2spooky4u, my property.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:26:35 2018 No.11903409 >>11903402 you dont even understand the memes youre dishing out left and right an egoist is anti ideology

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:28:14 2018 No.11903414 >>11903397 >They'll really pic me Remember in Toy Story all the aliens disappointed to not be picked by the claw?

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:28:35 2018 No.11903418

Every interaction is like stars colliding. The internet fucked everything up and chaos will ensue.

It might take a thing or two. But you know what it do. Fuck you really think shit like playing xbox all day isn't going to have consequences? More lost than ever. Past life begs for this one to stop.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:29:09 2018 No.11903420

>>11892893
The revolution needs to happen here. It never happens here. It's the place it has to happen. But nobody is willing to fight it.

America has lost its vision. The right has fallen back on paltry nationalisms and jingoism that is an opiate for their uneducated voter base. The rest of the time they are shoveling money into the furnace of corporate power and hellbent on weakening the bargaining position of the American worker. The Republicans are the class enemy first and foremost.

The Democrats are craven as well. No one good in the lot of them. Flush em down with the rest.

The country needs new ideals and a new reinvigoration of its creative potentialities. But the public needs to stop voting thinking that it will change things. It never does. It has gotten progressively worse no matter who you put into office because if the system's overall form and organization is corrupted then it doesn't matter who you put in charge.

But so many superstructural components have been put into place to ensure that the American people don't think. Politics is a mind-numbing charade, designed to be like reality TV. The powers that be want everyone to watch memes and by fast food and find satisfaction in hating each other unproductively. The level of manipulative indoctrination at work in America is truly staggering.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:29:47 2018 No.11903421 >>11903409 No, read the book. Knowing something is a spook you can use for its material outcome is perfectly in line with the material ego.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:38:04 2018 No.11903452 >>11903420 >still clinging to exceptionalism holy lel

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:42:30 2018 No.11903462

>>11903420
The biggest political problem in America is that the left cares more about muh gender and racial issues than it does the uniting socioeconomic ones. It is a divisive tactic that keeps people from actually attacking the vital problems at the root of the health of the body politic.

The left is supposed to be the adults. They are supposed to be the ones who say, "No, we will not succumb to tribalistic rivalries and nationalistic grudges. We will support the least advantaged and downtrodden and provide a level of safety and comfort for every citizen." When the left is emasculated and reduced like it is now to pussy hat marches and BLM die ins, it loses the unifying thematics necessary to mobilize an effective regime.

The right isn't going to do anything for anybody except it's ultra-wealthy donor class. That's just the facts.

Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:43:31 2018 No.11903464

>>11903452
It has nothing to do with exceptionalism dummy. The material fact is America is the epicenter of world capitalism. You have to attack the problem at its root. All the worst reactionary policies and anti-worker positions are coming out of the USA. It sets the standard for predatory capitalism the world over.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 21:53:07 2018 No.11903497 ride on, ride on

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 22:10:20 2018 No.11903591 >>11903081 nah, feeling pretty depressed about my life t b h

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 8 22:34:49 2018 No.11903678 >>11897500 Christianity is the definition of a bluepill

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 9 00:04:41 2018 No.11903998 File: 553 KB, 2560x2489, 1469501804410.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I don't want to sleep because I'm afraid to wake up.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 9 02:26:30 2018 No.11904383 >>11903129 Looks like you have no choice but to start an ethnonationalist movement inside your country then.

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