Write what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.11286312]

[Anonymous No.11286474]

>>11286312
Shhhsss. People are reading.

[Anonymous No.11286493]

>>11286312
I've never smoked a cigarette in my life, but I've been getting the most insane cravings for a ciggie for quite literally months. Like I think about smoking several times a day every day, and I generally find myself looking up pictures of people smoking, info about brands, tips on how not to get addicted whenever I'm on my phone and I stop concentrating. It's fucking weird and I'm on the verge of just going out and buying a pack

What the fuck causes this?

[Anonymous No.11286558]

>>11286493
Marketing.

[Anonymous No.11286582]

>>11286558
Idk dude, I really haven't been exposed to a lot of cigarette marketing. I mean all the packs in my country have like photos of lung cancer on them so if anything I've been exposed to anti-marketing. And no one has smoked in my family for a decade so I'm not getting it from them

[Anonymous No.11286672]

>>11286312
i have been called to the center stage by life but i brought no offering.

[Anonymous No.11286699]

>>11286493
I have the same feelings anon, how old are you?
I think its a sorta petty rebellion thing desu

[Anonymous No.11286758]

>>11286699
I'm just about to turn twenty this weekend, so kind of too old to be doing rebellious shit. But maybe it is just some kind of rebellious thing, because my family, my peer group and the larger society is so against it. Fuck I hope not, that would just be teenage and embarrassing

Interesting that you can relate to it though, I wonder if it's a more common experience than I would have thought

[Anonymous No.11286789]

>>11286312
Ontario is literally the dumbest province. We collectively fuck ourselves over and over. I'm moving to the Yukon

[Anonymous No.11286797]

>>11286758
I'm 19 too
It is a teenage rebellion thing in my opinion because by this time you've generally outgrown all the really petty teenage edge stuff like listening to music to annoy your parents and being angsty all the time but you have to remember that even though you feel mature it doesn't mean that you actually are.

I'm sure that in 5 years you will be cringing at your present day self in the same way you might be doing it to your 14 year old self now. Its just the way it goes

[Anonymous No.11286851]

>>11286493
They're not very good. I remember my old teacher telling me "you smoke one and you're hooked!" well, I did just that and nothing...a semi rush, and just a social thing to do at parties when you're feeling flushed. Waste of money

[Anonymous No.11286855]

How I am going tell my psychiatrist that I have been having paranoid delusions.

[Anonymous No.11286861]

>>11286758
Wtf it's not rebellious to smoke a cigarette you literal autist. Just go buy a pack of smokes if you want to. They're not that great, matter of fact they give me a headache if I've been smoking too frequently. Maybe that'll learn ya

[Anonymous No.11286889]

I don't wanna kill my China pig

[Anonymous No.11286951]

My dad had this tick where he'd blink really fast if he was angry. My clearest memory of him is one in which I was much younger, maybe 6 or 7. At that age I played soccer in the seasonal youth league. We had games in the park near my house. During one of the seasons, my coach at the time said both himself and the assistant coach wouldn't be able to make one of the games we had. My father volunteered to step in as a substitute coach for the game. Now, I wasn't very good at soccer. I wasn't even average. But my father expected me to be. I unknowingly connected my father's approval and love to my performance in soccer. Growing up I always knew my family's love and support was always conditional. This isn't something I'm trying to hold against them, by the way. In a sea of mystery meat, the unyielding hurricane that is the kwa, I had to make a name for myself, and validate all of the efforts my parents had made in their lives. Looking at "their lives" from the perspective of my life just made it seem like everything they ever did ultimately culminated in the conception of me, which gave support to my theory anyways. So, season after season, I signed up for soccer, I went to all the practices, and all the games, just to do nothing of note year after year. I think I averaged a single goal a season, if at all. You can see why my father was eager to coach the team. His wanton desire to see his son achieve anything drove him to seize the reigns of the chariot of victory itself. If I couldn't achieve anything, then he'd force me to with his hand at the helm of my crumpled soul. The day of the game was punctuated with rain. When we ran, mud kissed at our shins like drunken butterflies, and when we stopped, our blood retreated away from our skin and the wind chipped away at our hearts. My father had me on the field for the entirety of the game, constantly shouting commands at me. I felt like a colossal bomber shot to pieces, condemned to death, gliding in lazy morbid circles as the pilots in the cockpit frantically shouted commands to the crew, cursing the neutered bird as they fell. It’s all blended together now, inch for inch, breathe for breathe, we were beaten, but I lost. I remember as I walked across the field as the game ended to meet my father. He stared down to me, simmering, blinking rapidly. His eyes brewed hatred and fire, the color red stoked and sparked as he blinked. I wonder now how his gaze didn’t melt my small body there, leaving nothing but ash, immediately washing me away in little rivulets of sadness.

[Anonymous No.11286994]

>>11286855
>paranoid delusions.
what are they for you? (I had to add the for you, and not just, what are they, in case you told me the definition of the concept of the term 'paranoid delusions' and not what yours are)

[Anonymous No.11287288]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tk9fa1CTY9k

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S9gBHd_B9lk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rUgMSF49YE4

[Anonymous No.11287323]

>>11286951
So do you talk to him still or what?

[Anonymous No.11287340]

>>11287288
just discover music, pleb?

[Anonymous No.11287350]

>>11287323
Yeah. I wrote it from the perspective of an older version of me reflecting over my time with him after his death.

[Anonymous No.11287420]

>>11286493
I've never smoked and yet I'm often smoking cigarettes or cigars in dreams I have.

[Anonymous No.11287446]

I made an instagram account with no pictures or bio and zero identifying information whatsoever and I use it to talk to autistic girls (of legal age) who live hundreds if not thousands of miles away from me. I feel bad about this but some of them will send me sexy videos and stuff if I DM them asking for them. These are all like weird tumblr style girls (but not fat). They ask for nothing in return and they don't seem to care that even my avi photo is just some painting, there's no photos of a human anywhere on my account. I don't know why I do this and I hate myself for doing it.

[Anonymous No.11287670]

should i read the books on guerrilla warfare by mao and el che? i kinda want to.

[Anonymous No.11287683]

gene wolfe seems obsessed by the concept of an unreliable narrator. once i noticed this all of his short stories feel the same.

[Anonymous No.11287724]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bcI8KV4ftCk

[Anonymous No.11288821]

lay it with me straight chiefs, is a 1380 (new SAT) brainlet-tier? I feel like it's in that grey area where it's solidly above-average but nothing to be too proud of if at all.

[Anonymous No.11288839]

Who the fuck are these fags on here that reply "don't do it" or "hurr permanent solution to temporary problem" whenever someone says they're gonna kill themselves? As if a three letter response from some anonymouse asshole would ever affect this person's decision making. Why would you bother replying with such a faggy platitude. Back when I started browsing here you'd get five dudes telling you to get it over with, three telling you stream it and two or three an hero reaction pictures. That wasn't funny, but at least it wasn't as pathetic as some limp wristed "pls dont" bullshit we get these days

[Anonymous No.11288862]

im hungry
i cant write
i want to consume

[Anonymous No.11288941]

I swear to God I was in World War II in a past life I just wish I could prove it.

[Anonymous No.11288961]

>>11286493
I smoked for several years, it's awful and truly confers no benefit. The only appeal to it is that it gives you an excuse to idle and remove yourself from what you're doing for 5 minutes, which can be helpful in the writing process. But it's not worth feeling like ultimate shit all the time.

[Anonymous No.11289009]

I seem to think there’s an intrinsic truth to the present moment that is lost when it ceases to be the present. Things that were true at one point are no longer true by the sole virtue of their now being in the past. Nothing continues, everything is in in flux and if something appears true for more than one present then it's pure coincidence not owing to any legitimacy of that thing, because it isn't the same thing any more.

Is there writing on this topic? I feel like Hegel is tangentially related to this somehow but I'm not sure.

[Anonymous No.11289614]

haven't fapped in like a week but im sittin here fresh out of the shower ready to whip it out of my shorts, convince me why not

[Anonymous No.11289626]

>>11288961
it's good for networking too cuz while u huddle around on the fire escape or the back exit you can bond with fellow smokers who may be in quite different levels of the organizational chart

[Anonymous No.11289634]

>>11288839
its cuz that chick got convicted of manslaughter after she told some friendzoned beta to kill himself and he did, now everyone has to watch what they say

[Anonymous No.11289749]

>>11288941
It doesn't matter, there's no point in it, if it was significant you'd remember right? If it isn't significant to your present life other than maybe knowing there is such a thing as past and present life, then there's no point in trying to proof anything. And if you do still feel the need to proof it, would it be for ((them)) or yourself?

[Anonymous No.11289768]

>>11288941
u just watched too many hollywood movies as a kid

[Anonymous No.11289811]

I haven't been finding 4chan very enjoyable recently, there's a difference between bants and spitting sincere vitriol guys. Might start LARPing as a normie again if I don't fit in here anymore desu.

[Anonymous No.11289848]

every now and then induldge yourself and mime and dance to dadcore songs or fag disco music at 2am... i i i i'm not your stepping stone... then i saw her face now i'm a believer... yeah i would walk 500 miles and ah - i would walk 500 more... all the leaves are brown... i feel loo-oo-ove... you make me feel mighty real... you spin me right round baby right round...

[Anonymous No.11289888]

>>11289848
WILD THING YOU MAKE MY HEART SINGE

[Anonymous No.11289919]

>>11289848
>>11289888
This is a disco thread now.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PTuaWSfwnj8

[Anonymous No.11289951]

>>11289919
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gwc45CiqK68

[Anonymous No.11289958]

>>11286493
I'm currently smoking a rolled cigarette of sweet, brown tobacco. You really should anon, they're delicious. Don't listen to the agressive anti-smokers, they're the true victims of marketing (btw all this anger towards anyone's consumer choices should raise questions) - and don't listen to the bitter ex-smokers, they're substance addicts while you could be a smoke gourmet

[Anonymous No.11289968]

sometimes i really think unironic Full Retard is the way to go.

[Anonymous No.11290111]

>>11289958
>they're the true victims of marketing (btw all this anger towards anyone's consumer choices should raise questions)
what?
how old are you? how long have you been smoking?

[Anonymous No.11290156]

>>11289811
same, i'm no normie, but im also not a total wacko

[Anonymous No.11290179]

>mfw the first track on that new kanye/cudi collabo is a beat from the nes classic solstice

these producers think we not autistic enough to notice, solstice had sick beats tho so far enough, i'm not the sample cops

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E20jk5vgkdQ

[Anonymous No.11290183]

>>11287446
Please make a tutorial

[Anonymous No.11290186]

On my way to being dragged to the mosque i saw balancing rocks on the rail of an exit from the highway

[Anonymous No.11290198]

>>11287446
are u sure this isnt a trick by zuck to get u addicted to ig? like how do u know they arent professional models in estonia that they pay to do this shit? u might have been zucked bro, we know he's shady enough to do it

[Anonymous No.11290230]

>>11290186
do u ever be sneakin snacks during ramadan?

[Anonymous No.11290235]

>>11290230
yeah

[Anonymous No.11290244]

>>11290235
Enjoy hell lmao

[Anonymous No.11290252]

>>11290244
rude

[Anonymous No.11290254]

>>11287446
post the girls

[Anonymous No.11290283]

My passion has always been for ancient history and philosophy. Ever since this last American election, I realized how ignorant I am about political things and modern history, and I've tried to get into it, only to end up with a huge backlog. Beyond that, while I've gained knowledge, I can't say I'm into any of it in particular, but at the same time I hate feeling stupid and out of the loop, and I'm paranoid about missing a piece of information that might radically shift my life, while also worrying about finding it out too late. Nothing scares me more than waking up at 50 or something realizing that all I've spent my time doing and chasing after was a lie.
I feel it's cowardly to just crawl into your comfort zone and spend all your time there.... but the only reading I'm progressing with what I'm doing now is because I hope there'll be some payoff at the far-off end of the line in a decade from now, where I'll either get what I needed from it or at least have significant grounds to dismiss it other than 'lol this is boring'.
But I don't know. I'm sad. And I don't know what to do.

[Anonymous No.11290292]

>tfw you give heartfelt advice to people, both online and in real life
>tfw they thank you
>tfw they tell you that you made their life better
>tfw you never follow of your own advice and your own life is still a disaster
why am I like this

[Anonymous No.11290341]

>>11286951
God damn dude this is so dark and the vocabulary is so uneccessary

[Anonymous No.11290343]

>>11290111
I'm 25, been smoking since I was 18 and enjoyed every cigarette of it. Sometimes people tell me they're gonna kill me and I sometimes respond that it's beautiful to die in the hands of something you love. Edgy I know but I'm ok with it. Nice trips btw

[Anonymous No.11290364]

>>11290283
read some chalmers johnson one of his books has like a big analysis of rome and how it compared to the bush administration, i wasnt into the ancient west but after i read that i got more into it, i mean i like greek literature, but roman politics is a bit of a who gives a shit to me, not that into the latin world

[Anonymous No.11290380]

Feel like dying today.

[Anonymous No.11290388]

There’s this white wall with bits and pieces bloating in and out in strange balloon shapes. It’s not really something anyone can see. Saying there are four sides to this wall is a rudimentary way of visualizing its limits. The miasma sort of winds its way out of my ears, at first popping my eyes and face and ears like that inflating balloon, before I try to pull myself out of my head and the walls begin to bloat.

[Anonymous No.11290395]

Writing a story about Herbert West (ReAnimator) dropping out of medical school and applying to an MFA program

[Anonymous No.11290413]

>>11290343
>Sometimes people tell me they're gonna kill me and I sometimes respond that it's beautiful to die in the hands of something you love.

based

[Anonymous No.11290578]

>>11290341
thanks for the criticism anon

[Anonymous No.11290740]

Jesus christ /lit/ has been shit today.

[Anonymous No.11290789]

Interesting /faglit/ thread just got destroyed but the shitty Bourdain shilling is still allowed to go unchecked.

[Anonymous No.11290872]

I'm thinking about breaking up with my girlfriend. She's sweet, fragile, cute, she even has a weird sense of humor that I like, but I feel that's where our conversations end and we have nothing else in common. Is this just my balls talking because two inteligent top drawer slags with bodies no man could resist have been trying to seduce me lately and I feel dishonest? I doubt it. I desire some innocent autistic girl but they are all delusional armchair feminists with no taste, no matter how cute.... I'm settling right now and I don't like it, not because of other people but because of her. Everytime I uninspiringly say I miss her even tho it's a lie, I get heartache.

[Anonymous No.11291463]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HsuhDUzC_jg

[Anonymous No.11291579]

>>11290789
speaking of faglit, did u dudes see giovannis room is today's daily deal on audible? and it's rated as romance not literature lmao with a rating of "hot damn" which is like one level maximum hotness, havent read it yet, but now im curious, just how gay is this shit? lol

[Anonymous No.11291613]

>>11290872
that's painful man. Just be honest with yourself

[Anonymous No.11291634]

Scott Fitzgerald wrote "The Beautiful and the Damned" when he was twenty-two.
Here I am at his age shitposting on /lit/ instead of reading.

Wasting my life like I've been wasting it. But I can't help it. I'm an information junkie. I love the dopamine hit of it. If I got some value out of it, that would be one thing, but I don't. I just waste my life.

I will always enjoy life enough to not bushido, but I'll amount to a spectacular nothing and that just sucks.

[Anonymous No.11291654]

>>11291634
There are browser extensions that can block sites after you spend a certain amount of time on them. I set mine up to only allow 30 minutes of 4chan a day (and during weekdays this must be outside of normal working hours). I'm getting a lot more done desu.

[Anonymous No.11291672]

>>11290343
literal bugman

[Anonymous No.11291676]

>>11291654
which one do you use

[Anonymous No.11291730]

>>11291634
>I love the dopamine hit of it.
this must be a meme, even if there was no dopamine or pleasure distriputing mechanism, you, or people would like still spend their time consuming information

[Anonymous No.11291739]

>>11291676
WasteNoTime. I like it because it has a fair bit of granularity in the settings and there's an option to require you to type in a long (30ish characters) string before you can make any changes. That stopped me from compulsively editing the settings to give me more time when I first started.

[Anonymous No.11291747]

>>11291730
if there was no pleasure distributing mechanism no one would do anything you stupid fuck read a book on the brain

[Anonymous No.11291762]

>>11291739
yeah i used to just use a hosts file but i would still go in and unblock everything to often, now i moved my monitor so my neighbors could in theory see if from my window, not really but im paranoid af so even the chance someone could get a glimpse of me shitposting stopped me from browsing on my main computer, then i have this other laptop i use for fappin it, and shitposting, usually i don't plug it in when i sit down to fap/shitpost which gives me maybe three hours max since it's a shitty windows laptop

[Anonymous No.11291776]

>>11291747
not true dumby, theres no real evidence, such theories are baseless and ill thought out. If there was no pleasure, sports, and music, would still be beautiful and fun. Everything that is done for fun now would still be done, there could be arguments maybe against sex, and orgasm, lack of feel.. but the other stuff gets to the heart of ideals and forms

[Anonymous No.11291785]

>>11291747
it is not dopamine that makes a painting beautiful, and therefore desirable to create and view. What do you work for pharmaceutical for something

>inb4 detached vacant simple ad hominem meme response

[Anonymous No.11291786]

>>11291776
the absolute fucking state of evolution deniers. 'gets to the heart of ideals and forms' my lels are in frenzy

[Anonymous No.11291825]

>>11291786
im not denying evolution, just that that anon could still prefer spending his time browsing the internet without our knowing how much dopamine is secreting in his head, if it was 0 amount, he could still prefer pushing his internet buttons over eternally pushing a boulder up a hill. My point is without the concept and mechanism of dopamine, and a conscious being was possible, it is very likely that desires and time preferences would still exist. Like saying, even if a person felt no pain, (and they wanted to live) they wouldnt cut their limbs and head off.

[Anonymous No.11291834]

>>11291776
you seem kinda stupid hro, all mammals operate on dopamine, there's mountains of "evidence" to the point that its not a debate

[Anonymous No.11291840]

>>11291786
>>11291825
So all in all, it may not necessarily be so accurately reductive, to say, anon comes to this sight strictly for the feeling of dopamine: this may be carts before horses and such. chickens and eggs. Escaping, interacting, path of least resistance, these are things trancendent of dopamine drip mechanism

[Anonymous No.11291852]

>>11291840
4chan is similar to gambling, you post some inflammatory shit and hit refresh hoping for a (you)

[Anonymous No.11291859]

>>11291825
geniuses are people who get dopamine from working on hard problems, plebs are people who get their dopamine from browsing 4chan and beatin their meat, there's no free will in it, like it or not

[Anonymous No.11291867]

>>11291776
>things would be still be fun, but not like because they're enjoyable or anything lol

[Anonymous No.11291872]

>>11291852
but essentially, its human interaction, the desire for interaction. If dopamine existed or not, don't you think some people would crave interaction? Can you imagine a person that is not used to be very lonely, even if they had no dopamine, them not desiring human interaction, just because not having interaction for long time can be boring? Even if noone had dopamine, you are saying at that point, there would be no such as preferring, liking this thing over that, everything would just be the same, nothing would matter, do you think everyone would be able to live their whole life in solitary confinement?

[Anonymous No.11291883]

i remember a funny expiriment where some scientist hooked a electrode or something directly to a lap rats dopamine receptors and the thing kept hitting the button nonstop until it fucking died, wouldnt even stop to eat since it got more dopamine from hitting the lever than eating food even when starving, sort of like people who blow their whole life playing world of warcraft because the dopamine of maybe the raid boss will drop that 5% change gear shit time is better to them than going to the gym, reading a book, or talking to a pretty girl

[Anonymous No.11291885]

>>11291872
we're saying dopamine(it is not just dopamine but whatever) is the mechanism by which desire and reward function

there is no desire or reward without this mechanism. the fact that humans desire things which are not obviously beneficial in the way food or sex are doesn't change the basic process

[Anonymous No.11291896]

>>11291867
>but not like because they're enjoyable or anything lol
precisely my potentially poignant point. Youre stance is: the only reason anything is and can possibly be enjoyable is because when it is done, there is such thing as 'pleasure juice' that makes the consciousness feel good.

when sports teams are losing, and still playing, do we imagine they receiving dopamine? have you ever played a sport and been angry and serious?

You really think if there was no such thing as the feeling of pleasure people would not desire to live on earth? There are people that are depressed (apparent lack of dopamine) and look miserable, there are people whos life and jobs suck and they are anger and hate and miserable, and yet they still strive to live

[Anonymous No.11291904]

>>11291872
junkies who flood their dopamine receptors to the gils on heroin don't give a fuck about socializing

but humans need to socialize because our thoughts are mediated through language which is a shared system, so whenever u think you are verbalizing, and over time u need to talk to another person to get feedback on the stuff you are thinking, so yeah for extroverts socializing is no doubt a dopamine flood, and probably for primates thats all it is, but for humans its more due to language

[Anonymous No.11291926]

>>11291896
u seem confused, which is probably due to your lack of reading and education, dopamine doesnt make you "happy" it just gives a pleasure response, do you think people who sit in a casino blowing their paycheck in a slot machine are "happy" no but they have a low level dopamine buzz going in their brain that they cant get away from, same with people who play world of warcraft or shitpost on 4chan all day

[Anonymous No.11291930]

There has, in the last week, been an influx of terrible posters. Not because I simply find what they say boring or uninteresting, that's frequent enough; but rather that they are illiterate, even more so than the average user. They've read nothing, and speak with an undue confidence; understand nothing, and presume to be the only to comprehend; superficially comment, and vainglory in their profoundness .

[Anonymous No.11291943]

>>11291930
yes this anti-dopamine guy is a real dipshit, i remember last week he did the same shit, someone mention dopamine and he goes "dur thats not how the brain works" despite offer no counter argument or anything to back up his claim which goes against all established science

[Anonymous No.11291949]

>>11291904
>a dopamine flood
I said, even if an extrovert didnt have dopamine, imagine that was possible, a person that really likes to be around other people, being alone can be scary, all alone in the dark, just with you and your thoughts, imagine a person who is used to people and social and family and friends, without dopamine, now placed in solitary confinement with no human contact or talking, trays of food just dropped under the door without a word. Do you think that person would desire human interaction solely because they desire dopamine drip? Potentially if you are right, if you gave that person a drug, they wouldnt need the social interaction, as the social interaction is just a kind of drug. So maybe you are right. Maybe that extroverted, very social person, without dopamine mechanism, there would be substitues that they could live 40 years in solitary confinement, and be content and satisfied. Sure you can say, give them a book, but thats close to representing human interaction, an other humans thought. So in this thought experiment, they just have nothing in the room at all. Everything we would offer to see if they could not handle that just being alone, what they could handle, would be a representation of being able to escape just being lonely.

[Anonymous No.11291961]

>>11291926
>"happy"
well that makes the conversation more complex, how you would define happiness. Can happiness be anything other than the experience of dopamine?

And why dont you answer my interesting questions:
You really think if there was no such thing as the feeling of pleasure people would not desire to live on earth?

[Anonymous No.11291980]

>>11291949
people "really like" things because their brain is wired to get dopamine from them, some things are universal like sugar, cocaine, sex, etc. but in every individual different things may turn them on, but there is no "really like" that is separate from dopamine, thats why you "really like" something, because your brain got wired to to get dopamine from it, someone who can walk through the met and be bored is getting no dopamine from art, someone who spends all day and forgets what time it is, is getting a flood, again read a book on the brain bruh

[Anonymous No.11291986]

She won't leave my mind, and I know that she's not here because of me, and only fucking me. She probably hates me and likes someone else, but it's still not enough to make me have one single bad thought towards her. kill me

[Anonymous No.11291988]

>>11291961
sorry this shit is too pseudy for me, read some books go to school and maybe you'l be able to figure it out on your own

[Anonymous No.11291990]

>Tfw hang out with a girl I somewhat like and another guy
>Having fun and all
>We drink a lot
>Went to a cheap disco
>At a certain point they start kissing and then they go to the bathroom
>Then they went to her home together
>Tried to appear cool, actually felt cucked and humiliated (I should have stay home/hang with other people)
>Now I'm home, alone

I know that tomorrow when I'll wake up it will hurt like a freight train covered with Japanese wasps. I mean, I liked that girl to a certain extent, the problem is I'm tired to be the third or fifth virgin wheel and I don't know any girls to try with. It's so fucking hard, I wish I was a neet so I could have some excuses. I don't want to sleep because I already know I will be depressed as fuck tomorrow

[Prince of Germanyland No.11291996]

I’m walking towards this chocolate woman, my eyes up and down her body. She looks at me and runs a tongue over her lips, biting her teeth together in a clamp. Her chest is ‘breathing heavily’ from a dress that holds up her behemoth bosom with thing strips. I hug her close to me, my hands around are around her waist.

They slowly cup her ass and she asks, “What are you doing?”

“I want to warm up.”

As she takes me to her office, I lay her flat, undo her bra, and let her breasts spill on her desk as her ass cheeks slap against my stomach.

“What if you get me pregnant?”

“I will pay you ten million dollars to keep it a secret.”

I can do this because I am Prince of Germany land.

I get her pregnant. All my friend’s girlfriends let me take their virginity. All my friend’s girlfriend’s moms sleep with me behind their daughter’s backs, as a right of passage for them getting to sleep with the Prince of Germanyland. Blonde and red head teacher bang me every night. Movie stars force me into fake movies with real sex scenes, and once we are done having real sex constantly, the movie is cancelled. I have kids with everyone.

Then I’m all done having sex with the tub of mayonnaise from Tinder.

[Anonymous No.11292006]

>>11291988
You are the one that brought up the difference between happiness and pleasure: and suggested that happiness was something more than just dopamine.

Just when the discussion appeared to be swinging in my favor, I understand you must go

[Anonymous No.11292016]

>>11292006
how what is "swinging in your favor"? you just got btfo because you are uneducated unread and quite frankly a fucking pseud

[Anonymous No.11292025]

>>11286889
Great album, the lyrics are /lit/ as well

>The black paper between a mirror breaks my heart
>The moon frayed thru dark velvet lightly apart

[Anonymous No.11292052]

should i blow 7 bucks on a mothafuckin sausage parm or what? i need some food with meat in it, i dont wanna become an accidental vegetarian, i didnt eat meat all week

[Anonymous No.11292058]

>>11292016
You are the one that brought up the difference between happiness and pleasure: and suggested that happiness was something more than just dopamine.

Do you think I dont know the base point you are saying, that dopamine is related to and creates and provides the sensation of pleasure, do you think I am not aware of that, I am trying to probe around it, and discuss if it is certainly known for certain that that is absolutely the only possible nature of experiencing pleasure, happiness, joy... the nature of preference. If it was possible that there was no dopamine, for a person, there would be no such thing as value, or preference, a person could not find a circle beautiful, a person could not value continuing to live on earth, simply because trees looked interesting and they liked mountains, and seeing people... you are the one that is crude and simple minded.

[Anonymous No.11292066]

>>11292052
oh wait i did have some tuna, but fish is like the weakest meat

[Anonymous No.11292075]

>>11292052

>i didnt eat meat all week

often happens to me. and yes, seven dollars is fair, but sausage may not be healthy

[Anonymous No.11292082]

>>11287446
please teach me how to meet autistic girls

[Anonymous No.11292083]

>>11292058
the reason looking at shit is pleasurable is because the human mind is a pattern recognition machine, when it unconsciously scans shit for patterns it gets dopamine, are you trying to defend some believe in objective beauty outside the human experience? are you a religion nut? if you're a religious nut can u just let me know now so i dont waste more time talking to a retard

[Anonymous No.11292088]

>>11292075
yeah i used to get chicken parm but chicken gives me these sticky turds that leave big orange streaks when i flush and require me to wipe my ass more vigorously than i would prefer

[Anonymous No.11292192]

>>11292083
why isnt the person in the casino happy? why isnt dopamine equivalent to happiness? What is happiness besides dopamine?

[Anonymous No.11292209]

>>11292192
i don't care about happiness, i was merely talking about dopamine with that other anon, happiness is a spook

[Anonymous No.11292222]

>>11292083
essentially it started with the, he comes to 4chan for dopamine hits, reflecting on my self, I dont think I come to 4chan for dopamine hits, but because I dont really have any way to interact with any other person, and I dont think the reason I have a craving to interact with people is purely for dopamine hits. I think its because I like mutual creativity, I like witnessing and interacting with a creative force, and I dont think that is purely because dopamine hits, I think if there was not such thing as dopamine there still might be such thing as boredom, the absence of data, of input, of interest and intrigue, and there would be a desire to make something ,explore, experience something rather than nothing

[Anonymous No.11292228]

I'm camping alone in Sweden with little preparation. I have barely slept and since the sun rose I assumed it was 5 o'clock, but I turned on my phone and it's only 3:42 right now. I am being devoured by mosquitoes and I just want them to go away. At least I have a fire and enough battery on my phone to shitpost for a while and entertain myself.

[Anonymous No.11292231]

>>11292222
believe whatever you want to believe my dude idc

[Anonymous No.11292232]

>>11292228
Are you swedish?

[Anonymous No.11292239]

>>11292228
why do captchas burn so much battery when my laptop is dying in low battery mode the captchas are slow af and rape the remaining juice

[Anonymous No.11292255]

>>11286951
I thought at first that it was just a story of your life but the vocabulary showed that it is fiction (or at least, a story trying to be literature)
I don't like your prose, it is way too unnecesarily anguish, It seems you are trying to force the reader to feel empathy for the protagonist but it just makes it cringe worthy, it seems unrealistic while it is not symbolizing anything, difficult words for the sake of making it "cute" to read, the protagonist seems like a weak person and shows no character what so ever, just "my father wasn't supportive boohoo" but no real value on it, but I liked the not linear prose, at least it makes a contrast, however, it is not special and a 15 years old could write something like that
I am sorry Anon, but it is too generic and too dramatic for the reader, not interesting enough to cativate, not easy enough to make it good read but not hard enough to make me feel connected to the prose

[Anonymous No.11292264]

>>11292228
Just LARP the Thoreau inside you and it will be fine

[Anonymous No.11292273]

>>11286582
Pic related is marketing. As much as a character looking cool after drinking a bottle labeled "Coca-Cola", anyway.

You've definitely been exposed to cool looking people smoking several times in the past.

[Anonymous No.11292280]

>>11286312
i want to write fantasy stories and have stories and setting inside of my head already, but im afraid that its not possible to make an original story

[Anonymous No.11292288]

>>11292232
No, I'm American

>>11292264
I've been trying to write about how traveling isn't fulfilling, but I've only got a page and a half about Thailand or Sri Lanka.

[Anonymous No.11292293]

>>11292273
>yfw u realize true detective was just an eight hour long ad for marlboro lights

i felt rused

[Anonymous No.11292294]

>>11292255
What do you suggest as some initial steps to fix the prose? should I cut back on the adjectives and devices? Also, the character is supposed to be weak, I'm not really sure how to fix that.

[Anonymous No.11292296]

>>11292288
Get an axe and stop being a bitch
Travelling is good when you want it to be good

[Anonymous No.11292305]

>>11292288
Why are you camping in Sweden? American national parks aren't good enough for you, huh?

[Anonymous No.11292318]

did any of u dudes watch the keynote from this years wwdc? probably not since you're not stemfags and/or are angsty resentful linux users, well anyways, it seems like craig frederighi (apples vp of software) is starting to sound more like patrick bateman ever year, like this year there were times were it just seemed like he must be imagining american psycho dialogues in his head, i remember he had a sort of break in his usually shillfull self a couple years back when he was demoing some new emojis or some gay shit and he was like "uhh wow kids are going to be totally illiterate in the future from all this stuff! ha ha " and had like a pained smile, then more and more he starts to sound like bateman, i wonder if he'll ever just quit someday, probably not since he makes millions

[Anonymous No.11292324]

>>11292294
The character can be weak but still be great, Araby is a great example for that, but the thing with early Joyce's prose is that he was not trying to make it seems more than it is, even if the protagonist was weak, it was still relatable and not overly dramatic, you should just make the protagonist seems more human than a poet while talking about the problems with his life, there is no meaning behind the unnecessary words, there is nothing special about them, write in a more realistic way so it can make it more relatable and less dramatic, you don't need to "OH MY GOD I AM SO BAD" to make the character appears weak, I recommend
-Write in a more realistic way
-Don't make it too much dramatic
-Use less words and no difficult ones, if you put words for the sake of words, it is not worth reading it
I hope I've helped you, good luck developing

[Anonymous No.11292336]

>>11292324
araby is such a piece of shit, i wanna know what asshole selected that crap to put in every basic bitch "literature reader" for shit schools

[Anonymous No.11292342]

>>11292324
Thanks anon, this all seems like solid advice.

[Anonymous No.11292346]

>>11292336
If you're the one who wrote the story, well, it is better than yours
If you're not, stop being a fucking braindead

[Anonymous No.11292351]

>>11292342

[Anonymous No.11292353]

>>11292305
Nah, I was visiting my bro, but he left to go to some gay pride thing or something and I'm stuck camping until my flight on Monday.

>>11292296
Nah, fuck off, I've been around enough to know that I'd be happier with family back home.

[Anonymous No.11292354]

>>11292324
different anon here

i have a bit of a problem with this board since i like writing in a more emotional, "poetic" way while lit prefers simple realism, even if i did write something good it would always get looked down on here

[Anonymous No.11292355]

>>11292353
in honor of gay pride get naked and masturbate with a stick up your ass

[Anonymous No.11292364]

>>11292324
>>11292294
the reason the anon may suggesting this is because, no matter how gruesome and dreary you depict it with language (none of which I had a problem with, your writing is good and interesting and gripping, and good at painting pictures and emotions...genuinely being good cop here) he likely doesnt think he can ever be that sympathetic with the situation, in terms of, it was a soccer game...well actually in this sense your writting did work, because it did really highlight how powerful the dad was, that it was just a soccer game, and there was so much seriousness and feelings and horror in volved in a little meaningless childs game. Everyone knows of the angry parent coach of angry parent on the sideline. So from one perspective its like, woah, the dads just a dick, and on the other hand its like, that doesnt matter, because the dads experience and the kids experience are real, and this is what that realness is like. That anon offering advice maybe subconciously is thinking 'its just a soccer game, who fucking cares' so is telling you to trim words and stuff, maybe even because it had any affect at all on him and he doesnt think it should, matching with the characters sentiments, yada yada, dont kill your darlings, at least never permanently (if you do change anything do it in a separate file so you have that writing saved), it would certainly help to see your other writing, the context clues, to make any legit judgement about the over all work, and this section in particular

[Anonymous No.11292383]

>>11292354
I myself hate realism, I think it is shame that Art tries to seek reality for a great thing, however amateur writers tend to make it seems more beautiful and more special than it is, this is not good for the book, this is not helping the continuation, this is not helping the reader to have interest, if you want to write something realistic, write in a realistic way, it can be with a normal prose or a stream of consciousness one, but if you are going to make it have beautiful words and everything fancy like that, don't throw it like they have no meaning and are just there for the aesthetic, make it have a symbolism, make it have a meaning
I hope you understand my point

[Anonymous No.11292399]

>>11292364
I praised the non linear prose of his, it is good to see another perspective, however It doesn't help when it is thrown with words that doesn't help, the character seems a bit bland, the singularity of his emotions bothers me a lot and it doesn't help the development of the situation, if you want to make a contradiction between attitutes I fully support, but don't make it in only one situation, show the contradiction in the character too, the conflict of emotions
It seems to bland and overly done

[Anonymous No.11292436]

>>11292399
well it seemed real and lively, I really felt for the character, it was palatable, tangible. The vision of the angry disappointed dad yelling at his unathletic son is the essence of that anons blurb,

I mean you are telling him to eliminate words, yea its one of the longer posts in this thread, but dont let 4chan add infest this potentially true artists true vision and feelings.

Can you highlight some lines directly you think can be removed?

You dont like how depressive and mopey the character seems... well what if thats the character, and its driving home the point, and making the reader recall and sympathize maybe, with the son, or father, that this dynamic exists, and it is kind of , potentially veery tragic, a small slice of modern t ragedy. it is setting the table for more interaction between them, and more exploring of this character how they experience other things in their life.

>>11286951
To this anon, if you are serious about ever writing, dont always be so quick to take others advice, other writers, or even who knows, random people, who could not know what they are talking about, or not care.

[Anonymous No.11292438]

>>11292364
I'm the anon the wrote the story, and I appreciate the kind words. But, I do think what I wrote is ultimately bad because of what this anon>>11292383
says regarding flowery prose. Too much of it cheapens its use and it doesn't really add anything to the story. It sounds a bit tumblr-y now that I go back and re-read it. I have a bad habit of writing literally everything this way, and I do think it's something I ultimately need to address.

[Anonymous No.11292462]

>>11292383
>however amateur writers tend to make it seems more beautiful and more special than it is
i know what you are talking about
first he is writing normally and then we see stuff like "seize the reigns of the chariot of victory itself" and "with his hand at the helm of my crumpled soul"
totally out of place, its like he is trying to parody the situation
you cant just start an everyday situation and then morph into nabokov all the sudden

[Anonymous No.11292467]

>>11292436
>When we ran, mud kissed at our shins like drunken butterflies, and when we stopped, our blood retreated away from our skin and the wind chipped away at our hearts
This is unnecessary

[Anonymous No.11292475]

>>11292462
Thanks for adding that, the prose is inconsistent, you can develop a prose in a story but not as short as the OP did
Even though I love change of prose with the situation of the protagonist, the story was consistent while the prose not, this is a really bad thing

[Anonymous No.11292477]

>>11292462
good point, it's a bit much

[Anonymous No.11292478]

>>11292467
so are roses

[Anonymous No.11292480]

>>11292478
You can take meaning out of roses tho

[Anonymous No.11292484]

Nathaniel Scuttlebug Paragoomba Two-
Legged Black Haired Singularity Three-
Legged Master Roshi Koopa the Quick
Everytime Sometimes Once in a while
Untitled Artist One Mahjong Titans Withheld
Available on PC Windows Flash Computer
Personal Computer Android Mobile Phone
Samsung Galaxy Microsoft Windows 10
Windows 2000 Desktop Linux PC Mac
HTML File Mario Platform Super Windows
8.1 Windows Microsoft 7 Chromo-
Mobile Android Kitkat Macintosh Apple
Computer Windows Virtual Box VM Ware
Wii U Browser Wii U Nintendo Browser
Original Nintendololo unofficial 3DS Linux
Super Ubuntu Spongebob Stupid Mario
Simulator Portable Device Goomba Koopa
Troopparaboopa ullet Bill My Aunt Jill
Piranha Plant Obama's Rant Big Boo Little
Boo Medium Boolmiss you Boo Whompy
Whimpy Bimblebimpy Chain Chomp Chain
Thwamp Teeny Weeny Cheeny Beany Lakitu
Grakitu Lickety Splickety Spiny Whiny Two
Tone Liney Bomb-Omb Bob-Omb Boo-Bomb
Boo-Bomb Pokeywokey Lickeydokey Lub-
Ubbombonsai Wonsai Billy Herrington Amp
Shockey Klepto Fly Unagi lll Sushi Wooshy
Golden Tiger Roar and Jolley Roger's
Bay Home it's time for dinner Bill Blaster
Wind Bob Ross Boss Base Micro Goomba
Medication Beach Goomba Gringles
Bingles Skeeter Baba you're in trouble Bully
Your Mom is Booper Pooper Jambery Oh
Mama Heevho Mister Blizzer Holy Golden
Lizard Mad Piano who always scared me
As a kid in Super Mario 64 BUP Whoosh
Dont blow me off the mountain Nathan
Moneybag Bunnyslag Bomb Snufit Chuckya
Buckya Sushi-Shark Mr.Eye Bookend Bigger
Mr.Eye Giant Eyeball Killer Chair floats and
Follow you from one room to the another
Bandai Namco Entertainment Japanese
Videogame Development Bandy

[Anonymous No.11292485]

>>11292475
>Even though I love change of prose with the situation of the protagonist
i dont
it just doesnt feel right to mistify everyday situations like that

[Anonymous No.11292487]

>>11292478
sometimes beauty and impression and metaphor and imagery and fluff and floweryness for its own sake in creative writing makes creative writing good and enjoyable

[Anonymous No.11292492]

>>11292484

[Anonymous No.11292493]

>>11292480
sometimes beauty and impression and metaphor and imagery and fluff and floweryness for its own sake in creative writing makes creative writing good and enjoyable

[Anonymous No.11292494]

>>11292477
it needs to feel right desu
when you are describing someone parting with his long term partner in the rain i can see the style, but not like that
it also needs to have a smoother and longer transition from normal state

[Anonymous No.11292495]

>>11292485
I love changes of prose with developing, not out of nowhere

[Anonymous No.11292502]

>>11292495
what i was trying to say
i just dont see it in retrospectives like this one

[Anonymous No.11292523]

I'll never finish this novel. I have a very thought-out world, very thought-out characters, and what happens in the book. But I can't fucking write interactions between people. I can't write the small stuff. I have the big plot points and what everyone in the book does and where they go. But I can't actually write it. I don't know where to begin.

If I could draw I'd just make a comic.

[Anonymous No.11292530]

>>11292523
heres an idea: just write a scene
not the book, a scene
and from there you will see where to go next

sometimes you need to start from bottom up instead of top to bottom

[Anonymous No.11292532]

>>11292530

I have a couple scenes. I'll keep writing them until they fit together in some way

[Anonymous No.11292536]

>>11292532
usually when i write new ideas come up by association and it makes me think about it overall

[Anonymous No.11292538]

I'm so tired, and yet I just want to walk. To head out the door, and just keep going. Maybe along the way I'd meet the love of my life, or experience some other fairy tale I couldn't have imagined. Or maybe I'd just walk the Earth, like some sort of ghost. Maybe I'd inspire someone, or just be another face in the wind.

I feel like a giant wound up, like there's wings waiting under my my skin.
I'm so tired and always in physical pain.

[Anonymous No.11292678]

mid summer july sun sweltering. Little johnny gets ready to go to the swimming hole. Puts on his cap and struts out of the front door high held was his head. a long walk it was but he finally reached his destination. a clear blue oasis. He peered through the moss hanging trees. crystal clear blue water. he took his socks and shoes off tossed them to the side took his shirt and shorts off,: down to his knickers. Johnny stepped to the edge of the pool of still blue. He mustered all the strength he had in his legs and sprung forward and dove into the water. with a mighty splash he landed shootin water far and wide. The waves dissipated to the waters edge. Johnny never rose from the water. He didnt know how to swim and was dead. The pool of still blue was once again

[Anonymous No.11292688]

today im at grimbo work, cleaning bins, I have failed in life, I am 40. the end, now back to cleaning bins.

[Anonymous No.11292712]

>>11292688
>grimbo
what that?
what kinda bins? doesnt sound so bad. janitors are usually old and noone really judges them or minds, someones gotta do it.

[Anonymous No.11292715]

I want money and a better personality

[Anonymous No.11292747]

Would you choose being broke but living for 2 years in a cool city surrounded by other young people OR having $80,000 in your bank account but living for 2 years in a small town with nothing to do and essentially no chance of getting a gf?

[Anonymous No.11292759]

>>11292747
depends on how old are you, 2 years is not a lot of time
i'd probably choose money

[Anonymous No.11292773]

>>11292759
24 and you feel like you've already missed out so much on taking advantage of your youth.

[Anonymous No.11292797]

>>11292773
24 for a male is still young tho, unless you look too washed out which is still fixable if you groom yourself properly

[Anonymous No.11292805]

Im a loser, i haven't left my house in years, i barely leave my room, i dont talk to people, i have no skills, no job, im getting older and fatter. Suicide seems nice. I have always felt i might have some undiagnosed form of autism. But i never liked self diagnoses and it would be convenient to explain away my incompetence, wouldn't it. I graduated high school, i went to community college for a bit. Then i went home and never left.

The amount of time i have locked myself in my room would have driven any other man mad.
I have developed severe agoraphobia and my brain is filled with fog.

I have no idea how to break out of this place, my parents dont really seem to care. They feed me and shelter me, thats about it. I never learned how to be a competent adult.

women dont like me because im an incompetent loser with no money, job, still lives at home, no adult skills and have the body of Henry Kissinger (circa 2018). I wouldn't know how to meet a woman, talk to her, date her, or fuck her.
I have severe low self esteem to the point of masochistic psychosis.

A girl has never touched me, they dont talk to me. I feel a hollowness inside more vast than the universe. Like a plant without water.

I have a lot of time to think about things, life, politics. Im glad i was a loser in the age of the internet.


the rootless cosmopolitans that rule over us despises us and despise the nation state. they plan on replacing you demographically in order to attain more cheap slave labor, consumers, and profit. They will brain drain third world countries in the name of multiculturalism and tolerance. They will let the 3rd world hordes fill in the jobs they couldn't outsource. They will accuse you of racism for not accepting your countries demise. The left will not fight for your workers rights because they have been trained to fight the native worker who they now view as morally repugnant, backwards, racist, misogynist, and all other kinds of isms. The liberal left are the foot soldier in oppressing the native worker. They use minority oppression, identity politics, and culture wars to divide the proletariat against each other rather than unite them as an economic unit based on class

America’s future is present-day 2018 California: corrupt, brown, and bankrupt. The end game of a nation where republicans can no longer be elected and minorities are the majority. There is no melting pot. There are only self indulgent tribes fighting for their fuck you got mine. And altruistic white liberals and globalists have led us to this state. The future of america is the present of California. Extreme poverty, third world conditions, decaying infrastructure, and hordes of shitskins

The hyper atmoization of culture and society will continue rendering everyone and everything into fragmented isolated neotribes fighting each other in a never ending culture war


TLDR: sometimes i feel very sad


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LO0l8AAEIzs

[Anonymous No.11292807]

>>11292747
the latter

[Anonymous No.11292837]

>>11292747
cities are universally shitholes

[Anonymous No.11292847]

>>11292747
being broke and living in a small village
gf i want even less than i want money

[Anonymous No.11292867]

>>11286312
I'm tired of everyone I interact with at work being either profoundly ugly or underage

[Anonymous No.11292927]

school
schoooool
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schoooooooooooooooooooooooool
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schoooooooooooooooooooool
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school
school
school
school
school

[Anonymous No.11292963]

>>11287420
I also smoke in my dreams despite never having smoked irl.

[Anonymous No.11292987]

Wondering if my art will manage to get into a gallery. I'm waiting for a friend to get back to me who will be taking pics of my paintings for me.

[Anonymous No.11293042]

The fact the NEET subreddit is so niche makes me feel like NEEThood is a meme only a few sad souls fall for. It's the only thing I even use reddit for.

[Anonymous No.11293050]

>>11292963
what does it feel like when you smoke in your dreams? do you feel relax, energetic?

reminds me of when terence mckenna said he smoked dmt in his dreams once and tripped while sleeping

[Anonymous No.11293174]

I am struggling to find a reason to live.

[Anonymous No.11293225]

yo i feel u i just got hit with a mad wave of depression, probably because i was in a good mood earlier so now its swinging to the shit end of the mood spectrum

[Anonymous No.11293228]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UceaB4D0jpo
I'm obsessed with this song right now.

[Anonymous No.11293246]

i will never have a real job and never be able to start a business that makes livable income....i've screwed my life bad, it all started going wrong quite young, so i would like my parents to at least admit they were shit parents, i don't know how normies can live these utterly shit lives like work in a factory 40 hours a week for 40 years and then keel over dead, i mean if there were actually factory jobs that paid enough to buy a house and have some kids i would seriously consider it, but there isn't even that, i hate this economy that is either wealth or poverty, they changed the social contract, when i was a kid you go to school, do a bachelors in whatever, and get an ok office job and live a low tier middle class life, and its all nice, now its like you either get a phd from an elite school and get rich on wall st or in sv, or you live in your days in poverty looking forward to even having a chance to toil away your time for a few bucks

[Anonymous No.11293259]

>>11293228
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=93oN-R4nXQY

dude check this shit out

[Anonymous No.11293262]

>>11293246
Dude working 40 hours a week is not that fucking hard and unless you've already sunk yourself into a debt spiral like a retard its not hard to work, save up and invest in commercial education that will get you better jobs and better pay.
Your life isn't suddenly over just because your daddy wasn't rich you spineless pussy.

[Anonymous No.11293268]

>>11293262
>implying i don't already have degrees
>implying i didnt already do tech bootcamps
>implying i dont already have a job
>implying i dont already have published apps
>implying i will ever make enough money to support a family

[Anonymous No.11293274]

>>11293268
>went and invested time and effort into a field dominated by Pajeets working for .25c/hour
Gee I wonder where you fucked up

[Anonymous No.11293275]

>>11293259
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WrsFXgQk5UI

[Anonymous No.11293286]

that first track released of the "lost coltrane album" was a lot better than i expected, usually when a recording is "lost" its cuz it fuckin sucked and wasnt suitable for commercial release, but that track was not bad, of course the rest will probably be a big turd, but so far not bad

[Anonymous No.11293300]

>>11293286
how do you know its not a meme trying to trick 'jazz fans' and its some nerdy white boy tooting the ish out his horn, and all the execs and folks laughing like 'they actually believe it, ha, heh'

[Anonymous No.11293301]

>>11293274
did u move out of your mom's basement yet? it's easy to be optimistic when your life hasn't started yet, no matter what degree i get no one is going to hire me, i could some shitty mba from whatever crap state school will take me, but no one will hire me and then ill owe 50g, i'm studying stats now, maybe if i can just unleash my autism on machine learning i can get into a decent program, stats is more objective than your typical mba bro stuff, but i just saw that list of all the deep learning patents google applied for in 2016 that just got exposed, i almost wanted to cry, call me a pussy, but using a convolutional neural network to produce audio, or using a convolutional neutral network to parse text, or using a convolutional neural network to do basically anything is going to be fucking owned by google, deep learning and ai is fucking dead for anyone who doesnt have access to big silicon valley capital and we all know that money only goes to chosen tech bros from stanford and not scrubs from state school

[Anonymous No.11293315]

>>11293286
>nerdy white boi tooting the ish

idk bro some of them poles do be going ham on the horn, but listen for yourself, sounds authentic to me but what do i know

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q7X2X7LDFok

[Anonymous No.11293324]

>>11293301
Be more of a histrionic lil bitch that'll help

[Anonymous No.11293334]

i'm just depressed cuz my life is totally pointless like ill never make a contribution to anything that matters and i cant even afford to have a fuckin kid, idk how poorfags just have kids left and right like fuck it the dems will give us our daily gibs, im like fuck that i dont trust no goldman sachs funded democrat to give my family the gibs it needs to survive, and i'm too fucking stupid to provide a good standard of living on my own, fuck, my brain probably has a chemical imbalance or something rn, i wonder what i ate? ill probably feel better tomorrow

[Anonymous No.11293345]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EP6LRiYgsJo

this shit always puts me in a better mood how can u stay angsty listening to this jam

[Anonymous No.11293569]

What are the differences between substance, essence and nature of something?

[Anonymous No.11293587]

>>11293569
a baseball is made of substances, the nature of a baseball contains the facts of when it was invented and why, the theory behind the use of materials in their ways, the stitching, the different ways to throw it, and I guess the essence is to play ball?

[Anonymous No.11294000]

It's been a week since I told her goodbye for the last time. It still fucking hurts, I still think of her every goddamn hour of the day.

[Anonymous No.11294043]

>>11294000
What happened, anon?

[Anonymous No.11294048]

>>11293334
very good post, highly literary

[Anonymous No.11294084]

>>11286493
try a cigar, a pipe, or weed
much better than cigarettes

[Anonymous No.11294224]

>>11291463
where is this

[Anonymous No.11294266]

>>11286312
The west is doomed. I can't stop refreshing facebook. I've had 10 cups of coffee today. I want to read Heidegger's Being and Time but I'm scared. thanks by

[Anonymous No.11294334]

>>11294266
And that's a good thing!

[Anonymous No.11294344]

>look at face in mirror, skin looks decent
>not going to land me a modeling job but its not horrible
>try to take picture for tinder
>skin looks like that of a former heroin addict and current burn victim
JUST

[Anonymous No.11294443]

I'm beginning to wonder what exactly the reason was why I wasn't accepted into the gifted programs in elementary/middle school, whether it was because I scored low on the tests they administered, or because I was always a weird ADHD kid (which could have factored into the identification process). I've a 127 IQ (Stanford-Binet), pretty sure the cutoff was 120 at my school. I know it's usually 130 but at mine it was 120. So yeah, every dip got in, why couldn't I?

[Anonymous No.11294464]

>>11286493
I like to smoke. Nothing quite like a late night smoke under the cold stars. I don't really believe in addiction, I've been smoking only one or two a day for years.

[Anonymous No.11294511]

>>11294443
>I know it's usually 130
This has no bearing on your post but this is interesting information to me. I don't know what my IQ is because I'm autistic enough to obsess over it. Having a reasonable lower bound of 130 is interesting though, and somewhat relieving T B H

[Anonymous No.11294585]

Linkola was right. God needs to punish man's arrogance. I live like I'm in a dream now, like I'm walking and breathing underwater

[Anonymous No.11294659]

i am going to die a virgin

[Anonymous No.11294732]

>>11294659
if you let me fuck you neither of us will die virgins

[Anonymous No.11295211]

>>11293301

I'm in the same situation as you but worse. Keep up the good fight, I guess.

[Anonymous No.11295297]

GOTT STRAFE ENGLAND!

[Anonymous No.11295391]

>It's another butterfly tripfag is back for the weekend episode.

[Anonymous No.11295427]

Damn i make some fucking good oatmeal

[Anonymous No.11295434]

i'm on track for a successful life and career but i don't actually want it. i just want to be happy but it's impossible.

[Anonymous No.11295465]

Imagine being american and unironically supporting the police

[Anonymous No.11295650]

>>11295465
Whose WiFi are you on today Tyrone?

[Anonymous No.11295837]

>>11295650
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shooting_of_Daniel_Shaver
This guy was white, and some psychotic pig got away with murdering him. You're not safe just because you're white.

[Anonymous No.11295942]

>>11295650
Cops park outside my house to use my wifi

[Anonymous No.11296024]

The most consistent source of happiness I've found so far is hope. When you truly feel your life is headed in a good direction, it's better than any simple pleasures out there. However, you have to genuinely believe in it, which is tricky. Religion used to fill this niche, but it's very hard to put faith in it without some proof. But still there are 'spiritual experiences' documented across many belief systems from several centuries ago, and it's hard to wave them away. The more I look at it, the more depressing is our society's mindset, and the more uplifting the religious one. Even if it's wrong, you will still live more content than otherwise. And most religions share a similar morality, so by following one, you'd hypothetically be earning favor with others by performing the same virtues. It seems like a win-win scenario.

Do you know what I mean? Some of the smartest people I've met were Christian, and I wonder if they went through a thought process like this too.

[Anonymous No.11296122]

>>11291990
I know that feeling, it's sickening.

It happens whenever i'm around a couple, even my closest friends. I don't even have to like the girl

[Anonymous No.11296174]

Wasn't expecting Lolita to turn into National Lampoon's Vacation halfway through

[Anonymous No.11296199]

>>11291990
I think I would probably kill myself if this happened to me. Not even memeing.
not that you should kill yourself anon, don't be like me

[Anonymous No.11296478]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KWooB4tpQ9I

[Anonymous No.11296744]

>>11286758
>I'm just about to turn twenty this weekend, so kind of too old to be doing rebellious shit.
>twenty
>too old to be doing rebellious shit

haha

[Anonymous No.11296751]

I experienced something by accident and now I keep fucking up while trying to think and achieve it on purpose. I have no idea what I'm doing. I don't know how to get out of this rut.

[Anonymous No.11296764]

>>11286312
Hentai.

[Anonymous No.11296773]

>>11294443
You know, people who brag about how intelligent they are, usually aren't that intelligent.

Or perhaps they're unwise.

[Anonymous No.11297060]

>>11296773
Why do you think I'm trying to brag?

[Anonymous No.11297109]

I cut contact with the two friends I had in high school because I feel inferior to them and being around them knowing that they pity me makes me want to kill myself, but I’m also extremely lonely and have nobody else aside from my brother, who I don’t get to see that often

I’m 21 and wasted the best years of my life sitting in my room being a depressed little faggot instead of having formative experiences, and the past year I’ve developed IBS and a nerve pain condition that may never go away

Even if I manage to get my shit together I feel a constant sense of impending doom as though the world is ending and I won’t be able to experience anything good before my inferior subhuman genes are wiped away in WWIII or ecological collapse or whatever

I’m also terrified that the eternal return is true and that I am doomed to repeat my miserable life for all eternity—one of the main reasons I haven’t killed myself.

[Anonymous No.11297127]

Diversifying my hobbies since I broke with my now ex-girlfriend 20 hours ago.

Been smoking like crazy and I've started to masturbate to fight boredom at night.

[Anonymous No.11297168]

Now there are multiple butterflies and things are actually starting to get interesting. Hopefully this push back will make her go away again for a little while.

[Anonymous No.11297260]

My family is a pain in the ass and a bunch of assholes. still love them but i really wished they fuck off sometimes.
anyway progress on my book is slow because college work demands it to be i guess.

[Anonymous No.11297299]

I hate summer because I always see people out enjoying the whether and one another, going on vacation and forming bonds and memories. I have no one, all my "friends" will never speak to me but happily send me a barrage of photos of them with one another as if to rub it in my face. They even know I'm lonely and yet they never ask how I am.

A clusterfuck of envy, the girl I liked completely ignoring me, my job being useless and going nowhere and Bourdain is really convincing me that maybe I should kill myself.

[Anonymous No.11297334]

>>11297109

lol 21, you faggot im ancient. start lifting and eating good food. learn a language, get a part time job that you can deal with, learn a practical hobby, gardening, playing an instrument. 21 is awesome. life isnt stressful till 30.

[Anonymous No.11297335]

I don't have any ties anymore. I only really talk to one of my old friends anymore, and it's always over text because they live on the other side of the country. The last time I visited my parents and hometown everything felt so different. The people I loved had left years ago. It wasn't my home anymore. I don't think I'll go back ever again. I burned my relationship with the girl I've had a crush on for years, that's over now. I'm at college now, but this will be my last year. Next spring I'll be saying goodbye to my advisor and the few professors I know well, the only people I'm somewhat close to here.

I don't know where to go next. I could go anywhere, but I don't have a reason to.

[Anonymous No.11297405]

>>11297299
>I have no one, all my "friends" will never speak to me but happily send me a barrage of photos of them with one another as if to rub it in my face
Force your way into their hangouts or stop being involved with them altogether

>the girl I liked completely ignoring me
Stop seeing her. Don't talk to her unless she contacts you, and if she does tell her to treat you nicely or fuck off. The girl you love, the one that thinks of you all the time and loves spending time with you, doesn't exist. Or if she did, she died ages ago and was replaced with a whore.

Trust me, it's easier this way.
t. you a year in the future.

[Anonymous No.11297416]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQbW75y3P9g

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CHiW9XLU8tM

[Anonymous No.11297432]

>>11297168
the night of a thousand butterflies was fun. kept him gone for at least a few months.

[Anonymous No.11297437]

>>11297405
I'm not involved with them at all. Last time we hung out collectively was in January and when I arrived they said "oh, you're here". I know I'm not welcome, but Ive got no one and I don't want to be alone, I'm already 27 and people seem to make friends so easily, and I just can't

[Anonymous No.11297442]

>>11297432
Was it just a ton of butterflies in every thread or one in particular? I'm interested in seeing what happened, what night was it I guess? I'm trying to think of what I'd type into warosu to find out about this history. Butterfly has been coming back today and during other weekends so you all might want to repeat this event ASAP.

[Anonymous No.11297444]

>>11297335
Why don't you return home, put down roots?

[Anonymous No.11297457]

>>11297335
Go traveling?

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!Srz2lnO/STC No.11297474]

>>11297168
>Hopefully this push back will make her go away again for a little while.
I go away and come back all the time now. You guys don't hold my interest they way you used to (No doubt a different user base) The imposters will probably quit after I leave too. They usually do. So no worries, kid.

>>11297432
We were all banned for a day or two. The extended absences are due to me having a life to attend to.


>>11297442
Years ago. warosu doesn't recognize the Ʒ and such.

Go and build your fort with the couch cushions now.

[Anonymous No.11297527]

>>11297474
Can we write a novel/play together?

[Anonymous No.11297528]

>>11297444
There's nothing there except a failing economy and crumbling buildings. There are also barely any people in my age range as everyone that could GTFO to a bigger city.

>>11297457
I plan to, but unless I can find a way to travel indefinitely that will only postpone the issue.

[Anonymous No.11297586]

>>11297437
Then you need to delete them off of social media. They're not you're friends, they're just some people you know. Pretending otherwise will just hurt more in the long run.

[Anonymous No.11297621]

I seriously doubt if humanity is capable of existing in its current form long-term. We're glorified animals, we're not designed to reason about the world in the way we do. It was one thing when most everyone was religious and had some values baked into their very being, but modernity and all its changes seem to have thrown everything into a tail spin. Nothing matters. This idea that we're going to somehow transcend ourselves and become something greater is absurd as well. Everything will be the same as it's always been until we self destruct.

[Anonymous No.11297814]

>>11297586
It's a weird thing that I have social media to keep informed about that happenings of the world (anonymous twitter) but I just can't muster up the courage to delete Facebook and Instagram in some vain idea that when I meet new people from work that they'll somehow someway want to contact me. In the course of working at this job for 7 months, I've only been invited to one thing, despite being told everyday about how everyone was at some party or get together. I don't know what's wrong with me or why no one wants to spend time with me

[Anonymous No.11298035]

I have spent a year or so doing technical writing and I'm trying to get back into a more creative mode of thought. I'm finding it difficult to transition. I could itemize the appearance of a beautiful woman, maybe even add a footnote or diagram explaining how my interest in her increased with time, but that wouldn't be very interesting to read about. I feel, for lack of a better term, autistic: it's all about direct, guileless, unlettered communication. When do I get my metaphorical mojo back, /lit/? Or is it something you just have and can only imitate if you don't?

[Anonymous No.11298074]

>>11298035
You just wrote a paragraph of flowing sentences, input your woman perception and feelings in there.

[Anonymous No.11298245]

this book puts protestantism and mohammedanism on the same level of heresy, if ur a hardcore catholic check it out

[Anonymous No.11298261]

>>11297416
harpsichord patrish af

[Anonymous No.11298271]

>>11288821
IQ test, SAT, ACT. It doesn't matter the exam--the whole nuances of human intelligence can't be measures so predictably with a traditional exam. Scoring high on the SAT can help indicate if you are above average (statistically) but its human nature to assume your better then other people. Why do you have to seek validation? Work hard, be self aware and give to your fellow human.

[Anonymous No.11298280]

Why do I feel when I read any kind of philosophy or political theory I can't seem to give myself a view I'm defending. I don't know by which perspective I should be approaching a work. Does anybody else experience this?

[Anonymous No.11298298]

People who claim that fantasy, science fiction, and other such works of "genre fiction" to be inferior literature are glib pretentious reddit-tier plebians who are too stupid to realize that every literary work of fiction belongs to a genre, even their precious "muh literary merit" books (it's just that their genres are either obsolete or the philistines who pretend to read them aren't aware of the fact). Not every fantasy or sci fi novel is YA wish fulfilment or lowbrow airport entertainment. The only reason they don't know that some "genre fiction" can have literary merit or be as profound as their precious realistic novels of ≥100 years ago is because they don't bother to look out for them and because of their pathetic bias towards anything beyond their sad comfort zone. These people are no better than the normies that read John Green books. Actually, they are worse, since at least the people who read John Green don't pretend to be ultra intellectuals and have a higher chance of being employed (either now or soon in the future) and actually contributing to society.

[Anonymous No.11298336]

>>11298298
sci fi is good, but how does it not get to a point where if you read a few you read them all, would you not agree there is a lot of repetition? aliens, robots, worlds, lasers, materializers, creatures, forces, magic, empire, wormhole, starship, spaceship. There are big names in sci fi right, the cannon of sci fi. When people easily brush genre aside maybe they are doing the 10000s of books beyond the exalted ones, as they are seeking the heights of non sci fi, non western, non romance thriller mystery

And yes, we are sure any of the 10000 sci fi novels are likely an enjoyable read for what they are.

[Anonymous No.11298352]

sending bombs to addresses solves everything

[Anonymous No.11298481]

>>11286474
Period gnidaer era elpoep. Ssshhhs.

[Anonymous No.11298487]

Trying to figure out something altruistic and suicidal I can do even though I'm a transsexual without even a bachelors degree.

[Anonymous No.11298489]

>>11294000
im so fucking scared of this

[Anonymous No.11298514]

>>11298487
>Trying to figure out something altruistic and suicidal I can do
be my girlfriend?

[Anonymous No.11298575]

>>11298514

I guess that's +EU? I'm not attractive though.

[Anonymous No.11298656]

>>11290872
Beat it out then think it out.

[Anonymous No.11298673]

>>11286312
I want to read some patriotic literature
>>11298352
Calm down Ted, you should just publish a couple of essays

[Anonymous No.11298709]

>>11298575
>+EU
?
are you a writer?

[Anonymous No.11298778]

>fixed my AC
no more reading in texas hellscape temperatures :)

[Anonymous No.11298802]

I can't think of a tinder bio that isn't cringey

i'm 29, and have no significant accomplishments, i dropped out of college and haven't left my hometown in years

[Anonymous No.11298805]

>>11298673
Patriotism - Yukio Mishima

[Anonymous No.11298953]

>>11298802
Bio: Give me one shot to rock your world, and I promise I won let you down, girl

[Anonymous No.11299049]

Killing myself to make me a life

[Anonymous No.11299184]

>>11296199

When I wrote that I was really upset and drunk, so maybe I exaggerated the things a bit, for example I knew that it could happens and the girl, even thought she's cute and all, she's a weirdo with many red flags, so it was a loss to a certain extent. But still, it really hurt (and still do a bit) mainly because of my insecurities and my status

[Anonymous No.11299215]

I feel like I based my whole life off of drugs and partying. I thought I was the Beastie Boys living in A Clockwork Orange and now I've been locked out of this world I created.
I went too hard, and unlocked some depersonalization disorder in my brain, and now I don't know if I can do any sort of drug again. The worst part is this wasn't some signal saying this part of my life is over, and I need to move on, because this part was only beginning. I never moved past alchohol weed and tobacco and now that world I immersed myself in screams back at me my inability to live the life I want to.

[Anonymous No.11299439]

Good lord the absolute STATE of the catalog right now. I'm filtering about thirty different garbage threads and yet this board is still a steaming pile of shit.

[Anonymous No.11299486]

>>11299439
I blame hiro and the creation of /his/

[Anonymous No.11299536]

>>11298802
Talk about yourself as a person. Are you really interested people who are only interested in YOU because of your accomplishments? And if you're a boring person, work on fixing that first.

[Anonymous No.11299539]

>>11299439
Summer posting is real, I'm telling you. Maybe the overall traffic is about level because some people stop using 4chan during the summer, but I'd be shocked if the demographics didn't skew waaaaaay younger.

[Anonymous No.11299617]

>>11299539
Explains why there's also a million more 'Where do i start with philosophy?' or 'Haven't read a book since ninth grade...' threads.

[Anonymous No.11299679]

Can you smoke without absolutely reeking of tobacco like those guys on the corner back in high school?

[Anonymous No.11299705]

Everyone hates everyone now.

That's what I've inferred from the memes we've been getting since 2016.

[Anonymous No.11299707]

>>11299679
American Spirits smell alright.

[Anonymous No.11299911]

i have plenty of ideas for books but no talent or skill so will never write them because they would just turn out shit

[Anonymous No.11299972]

i'm gonna put on an iron shirt
and chase da devil out of earth

i'm gonna send him to outer space
to find another race

[Anonymous No.11300016]

There's no real difference between dreams and waking reality, which itself may just be a recurring dream.

[Anonymous No.11300030]

>>11299679
No, you'll smell like an ashtray either way, although there are ways to mitigate it.

For one thing, never hold a cigarette with your arm at rest or in a downward position. This causes the smoke to trail up your arm and body which makes your clothes reek even more than they will otherwise. Hold it with your arm extended outward or with your elbow bent so your hand is facing up. This will make you look kinda weird when you are smoking, but who cares.

Keep around some mints or gum so your breath doesn't constantly stink, there's nothing worse than tobacco breath, it's an immediate turnoff for 99% of people including other smokers. ESPECIALLY if you also drink coffee.

But regardless, you'll still smell like tabacco and that's a given. Don't smoke. If you are going to smoke, occasionally smoke a cigar or hit a pipe (and by occasionally I mean no more than twice a week) and don't inhale because both of those can still get you addicted and they'll fuck up your lungs far worse than cigarettes will.

Regardless of the health risks of cigarettes, you'll never truly understand how expensive the habit is until you actually start smoking and buying your own packs. 90% of people who quit, quit because they just can't afford it.

[Anonymous No.11300035]

>>11286312

Once again, I was in Coffeeshop Omen, enterprising continental security with or without agreement of those who master the land, my mind presence was needed whilst a neutral yet powerful party did not agree with my bold actions of asking no permission doing so. They brought in their children and they know what is politeness as well as their elders, yet children as they say are the coldest to another, so they were stomping on my head in my presence of mind. The world I conducted myself in was not psychical yet how one reacts is truthfully the same if one angers another; this was not what I did not expect from the world; explaining that I was not dealing with unexplainable entities and or people I could not lay a finger on. As they were stomping on my head and making my fontanels liquid, I felt a slope in my skull, knowing that their feet were indeed, damaging my mind. Before I made the known choice to all that were listening that I was making my way to Coffeeshop Omen, forbidding me for they knew what happened before in that place yet for power’s sake and for national representation of who is in charge, I disobeyed the cruel and arrogant wielders of actual power of the cities and villages where I lived. I looked with disdain, misunderstanding and sadness to the skies, hoping they would understand that in this time of danger, I am needed and in fact, need money to keep influencing my mind with both smoking and drinking yet, my attempts were futile and had to conduct my ways to obtain while being in this heavy burden, walking with the laborers and putting myself to shame for only the elite knew what I was doing. A main reason of why I drank excessively and not listened to my health advisors was because they would not listen to my financial means. Later on this would be a reason for great shame and almost a loss of friendship, in turn, I got punishment from those who sent me and only come when great deed incorrectness and injustice is committed. Destroying the very essence of what I thought was my purpose, not by those who sent me as an agent of the Blue Triangle yet by those who saw a kink in my armor and chose to ruin my purpose in means of rest on my behalf. Truthfully they are kind, yet in kindness also lays destruction if not applied correctly or sought mistakes as reason of removal purely for the point of having rest themselves. Having met those who destroy for international code of conduct protectors, I met those who sent me, and punished me for being destroyed.

[Anonymous No.11300040]

>>11300016
except one is real and the other isnt

[Anonymous No.11300054]

>>11300040
What does it mean for something to be real?

[Anonymous No.11300062]

>>11300054
being physical, corporeal etc i suppose

[Anonymous No.11300078]

The freshly slaughtered Calf rose from the basement this morning, his moisture was glistening through the skinned skin. An employee conducting knife movement on his stomach said: ’’The Calf rises, brothers.’’ A new breed of Veal was coming into the world, meat none knew anything about other than its regular taste. All brothers knew what the Employee said and meant, the Calves they all spoke about for decades, even ages, was drawing near to hanging from the conveyor belt. Departments grew uneasy after the words had been said, 350 shut down for one week. Calves that weren’t slaughtered yet grew old in the basement told his fellow Calf for even the Cow heard the Employee speak, that indeed, times are changing, for all of us. Calves so old, as old as the House itself, that even they were not avoiding the Needle of Death anymore like they did for so long. Since 125 years ago, Veal that outsmarted the workers yet not the walls, grew old within the basement. Than in 1942, tales of a Calf Prophecy reached the basement, that someday, a Calf would rise, that it would drop dead by itself, removing the need of conducting such consciously labors. The tale also spoke of hanging without suspensions hooks, for It knew where he was going. Even without a beating heart, the Meat knew and knows. A new client grew weary, for after 10 years, they concluded safety in these Halls but now there is talk of floating Calves and Risement of a particular Calf. A delegation once again was sent, whilst slaughterhouse agents were deeply hidden on the vessel of the client. The one who spoke the Words of the Calf, was not left alone, some say, he was even hated for saying the Poem of Veal. For the Butchers waited so long, they knew it was a lie and this one Employee, was mocking their faith turned into disbelief. Yet the Employee knew and others too, The Calf Rises. Boss of Slaughterhouse Bosses, knew of the tale and the Prophecy, yet he knew, whatever the Calf meant, he would not lose this client of international grandeur. He secretly hired assassins, from the darkest, furthest, filthiest corner of Europe, to make sure the delegation would never arrive, until this Employee and the Prophecy was dealt with. The oldest Butchers know too well what they do when one stirs the people with talk of the Calf. They take those at night, when the House just sleeps, and scissor his legs. Not a regular cut, no, they make him retract his lower leg, his ‘’Calf’’ and scissor below the kneecap. You will lose your leg both low and high, the pain fullest of leg removal. The Employee feared nor thought about revenge or the Prophecy, for he was quoting a movie, yet changed Fire to Calf.

[Anonymous No.11300360]

>Every time I get the inspiration
>To go change things around
>No one wants to help me look for places
>Where new things might be found
>Where can I turn when my fair weather friends cop out
>What's it all about
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NR7_TbMIVnA

[Anonymous No.11300418]

The reality that is seen yet is not believed, when one reality makes sense to you, the neutral reality. When it makes sense, you will with objective reality try to help solve and explain the reality that isnt making sense. Thus creating an pyschosis that is judged by an reality that makes sense and the one that isnt making sense. The one that makes sense is the one, keeping you, that is keeping you back that is from screaming in the air because you can talk with having conversations with a person in your head.When you are hold back by reasoning, you endure this pyschosis purely inside youre mind. You dont express this reality with others, making it unaltered by anyones spoken judgements, thus creating a butterflyeffect that evolve into an pyschosis, imaginiative reality yet gets doubted by reality and not letting this imaginitive reality to be expressed, meaning that you creating a reality based on objective reasoning yet fuelled by the mind. Meaning you objectivley are evolving the pyschosis r easons and reality. Thus creating a world that is experienced as this, you reason with an neutral reality about how the events in the imaginitive reality can be explained, by an neutral reality, making real life guesses, making creatable reasons, creating human possible reasons to explain these pyschosis, that bring up so many questions about that pyschosis. You endlessly keep guessing untill you snap of the pressure revealing your reality, expressing this reality. When you are com[aring reality with an pyschosis reality while living in both realitys. Meaning the rate of comparing realities is the rate your mental age increases. Meaning every second gets multiplied to 25 seconds. Meaning 1 secpmd om real-life is 25 seconds of data in your mind, for the mind accelerates time. Mental age gets influenced everytime you explain both realitys while living the realities. Meaning that you aree xplaining 2 realitys at the same time while living these realitys. Meaning that X=25/sec*realitys. Realitys=realitys seen and the other realitys believed. 25/sec*realitys*time=X. X=mental age increasement. Time is in seconds. 25/sec*2*3600=180.000. 25 frames per second*2realitys*1hour=data, meaning that when you receive; 9000 frames of data per hour, plus comparing 9000 frames of pyschosis data. Meaning that one hour in this state, you are doubting the hour experienced. Data obtained is X. X=25frames/sec*2realitys*time equals data. A=Mental age, B=Memories, T=Time. X+B*T=A. 5 years of memories. 1 hour=180000 frames, 15 hours equals 2700000 frames per day, 1 year based on 15 hours days=985500000 frames. 5 years=4927500000 frames of data guessed, on average by the human Eye. X=25*2*1, B=4927500000 frames of data collected anda lways expanding. 50+4927500000*1=4927500050. X+B*T=total frames/sec. Total frames per second, T comparing total frames with eachother. 4927500050*60=295650003000 frames per minute, which will make 1.77390002*10^13 frames per hour. Total frames+X*T.

[Anonymous No.11301101]

>>11298709

I try to write sometimes but I'm not really good at it.

+EU is Effective Utility, I think. I'm not a utilitarian though.

[Anonymous No.11301109]

>>11288839
It's not because they believe they will actually stop a suicide. They just do it to clear their own conscience and feel better about themselves.

[Anonymous No.11301186]

>>11301109
Eh I've talked a couple people on here and /adv/ out of killing themselves. Who knows if they would have actually gone through with it, but there definitely are empathetic anons out there that want to help.

[Anonymous No.11301201]

Never lived in a place I wasn't embarrassed of. Maybe it's just me.

[Anonymous No.11301298]

it' fucking bullshit that I have to watch two nearly two year old children on my fucking birthday of all days. All because their mother is "sick"and won't man up and deal with it. i am absolutely sick of watching kids that are not mine.,especially when I just fucking turned 21. i should be enjoying my life and focusing on getting my own situations figured out, not looking after someone else's mistakes. the worst part is I am too much of a spineless coward to stand up to her because i know she will freak out on me and possible get physically violent.

side note: Fuck you Adam for ruining "September"by Earth,Wind,and Fire. that song is fucking everywhere and it always reminds me of you and I have been doing pretty well forgetting you

[Anonymous No.11301324]

>>11301298
I need to know about this adam and September story

[Anonymous No.11301339]

>>11301298
Just tell her to fuck off

[Anonymous No.11301346]

I'm reading the first few bits of I am a Strange Loop and fuck me is Hofstadter a pedantic moralist or what
>muh veganism
>muh animals are people because like slaughterhouses are scary
>oh but fetuses don't have souls because science XDDD
I'm afraid this book is going to end up pissing me off

[Anonymous No.11301350]

I thought I was a degenerate for drinking everything including alcohol out of a coffee mug, but my housemate has been using the same mcdonalds paper soda cup for the past week.

[Anonymous No.11301498]

>>11301324
>August
>be lonely
>think i'm bi
>decide to say fuck it and post on /lgbt/
>post my stats on a /gaygen/ thread
>someone replies
>they're interested
>unfortunately find out he lives in Canada
>I'm Texan
>go to other thread about someone wanting a chubby bf
>it's the same guy
>"guess it's meant to be"
>exchange discords
>start talking
>he wants to stay closeted and so do I
>we start to RP via text
>September
>we start to get closer
>talk for everyday this month
>he "accidently" says he loves me
>we video and voice chat
>we finally exchange FB profiles
>I start to actually care about him
>October
>we start slowing down
>suddenly he stops replying at all
>it begins to hurt
>try to deal with the emotions
>November
>almost over him
>tell my sisters BF in confidentially about him to get it off my chest
>get on Discord for a daily check
>a ton of messages from Adam
>he is asking me to forget he ghosted me
>to take him back
>I foolishly do it.
>he shares "September" along with other songs he like to try and nake conversation
>we talk but not as frequently
>I still have him ghosting me in my head
>stupidly tell him that I told my sister's Bf
> het distracted with work and real life
>go back and try yo talk to him
>gives and error when i try to message him
>See that it says add friend instead of remove friend
>gives an error when I send him a friend request
>he blocked me
that is that story. he was just the first person I cared about like that,and be helped me answer long held questions about my sexuality.

[Anonymous No.11301511]

>>11301339
i wish I could but she always "needs" help and I don't want to be a dick, also like I said in the first post she can be psychotic and dramatic like a typical fucking woman

[Anonymous No.11301603]

>>11301498
You sound like a faggot

[Anonymous No.11301615]

>>11301603
thanks Capitan Obvious

[Anonymous No.11301720]

>>11286951
Lovely. What happened next?

[Anonymous No.11301743]

I have no sense of self-preservation of no inclination to do anything about it, but other people find this upsetting. I can see why they are upset, but at the same time I am baffled. Why would anyone care if I stuck my hand in a metal bucket of ashes to check if they're cooled down or not? It's my hand, not theirs, and I've had third degree burns before so it wouldn't even be a big deal. It's not even like the time I touched the moving blender blade to see what it felt like, I was just checking to make sure the ashes were safe to go on the garden.

Honestly, people are so uptight.

[Anonymous No.11301831]

>>11299679
I've never disliked the smell, to be honest. My relatives all smoked, so it gives me a feeling of nostalgia.
>>11300016
Have you ever noticed that moment right after waking up where you realize in a flash what world you're in? It's hard to explain, but it almost feels arbitrary, like I could one day wake up in my childhood bed as if the past few years didn't happen.
>>11301743
Stronger sense of empathy, maybe. People are too high strung, though. It seems like every death is considered a tragedy now because we're so far removed from it, like we should personally hurt every time a homicide is mentioned on the local news. Not that our lives aren't excellent, but this is something traditional societies handle much better than us I think.

[Anonymous No.11302009]

"Self Improvement" has not improved my life, I am still an awkward pathetic man-child with no redeeming qualities. Women look at me as if I were a pig's corpse. lifting, diet, reading and work has not moved my life forward one inch. Locked in the same place as when I was an obese neck bearded troll rotting in an office chair I realise my life is still the same, staring into an LCD monitor day after day, The agoraphobia has faded but the damaged has been done. I am unable to form bonds with other humans and I doubt I will ever be able to.

[Anonymous No.11302030]

>>11301720
I went home and had some tomato soup. I remember my dad sitting at our dining table with his shoes and jacket still on. He didn't talk or move, he just kinda sat there and stared off into space. I wonder what he was thinking about.

[Anonymous No.11302150]

>>11302009
>I doubt I will ever be able to.
time is long,
>Women look at me as if I were
you only need one, strive to be the man you must be to win and keep that one

[Anonymous No.11302209]

I spent half an hour with my phone duct taped to my wall taking pictures for tinder. I hope there's at least once decent one in there somewhere. Tho I've heard a lot of people are lazy as fuck with their profiles so maybe it's not that big a deal. Also if it's going to take a professional-quality photo to get people to talk to me I don't think I'm interested in talking to them.
at least that's what I tell myself

[Anonymous No.11302259]

I'm wondering if inhaling ethanol fumes or using a .22 would be better. Probably the latter, at least concerning efficiency, but it'd be so messy. And, the former can be made to look like an accident. Quite a predicament.

[Anonymous No.11302313]

>>11302259
>.22
Pretty sure you would be writhing around on the floor in extreme pain before finally bleeding out

[Anonymous No.11302327]

>>11302313
That was my concern. Maybe I'll bite the bullet on buying a .357 instead, then.

[Anonymous No.11302386]

>>11302327
You'd be better off getting a 12 gauge if you're truly serious about offing yourself. Shotguns are cheap on top of that, you'll easily spend more money getting a .357 then a cheapo shotty.

I'm not going to sit here and do the whole "anon don't kill yourself" normie thing. I will tell you that whenever I really think of eating a bullet I try to do something to get away from it all. Go into the woods, get away from people, etc. Just throw yourself into the unknown. Physically run in any odd direction if you have to. The last time I did something like this I ended up experiencing a vision of god.

[Anonymous No.11302497]

I can't decide what font to use for my novel and it's blocking all progress, a thing so futile.

Any ideas? I don't know what are regular fonts used by publishers/novels?

Also: how the fuck do you stop Word from making a white line when you press enter instead of creating a paragraph-indent?

[Anonymous No.11302568]

>>11302386
I appreciate your advice, but I think I'm nearing the end of the line. I've tried what you said a few different times, and it works, but only briefly. It doesn't fix anything.

[Anonymous No.11302574]

>>11302497
I'd suggest finding a book whose type setting you enjoy and then copying that font. There are places over on lebbit where they can identify fonts for you, may be something similar here idk.

That said, you should be focusing on writing not typography.

[Anonymous No.11302737]

[Anonymous No.11302768]

>>11302737
Holy...I want more.

[Anonymous No.11303209]

>>11302568
I suppose I can't stop you, but at the very least try to do something that has some meaning to you before offing yourself. You don't want to arrive in the afterlife with regrets you can't easily fix.

Godspeed anon

[Anonymous No.11303233]

>>11302259
>.22
Are you a squirrel?