/lit/ - Literature

what's on your mind

>>9086032
too much

>>9086022
>0
foun fto hunt you don jade

>>9086073
why don;pt y u lobhttp://boards.4chan.org/lit/catalogme

>>9086032

I feel sad for William H gass he looks like cool smart guy and he did nothing wrong to be mocked by us. He is no attention whore unlike bloom.

Today I turned 25, I'll kill myself in 55 years.

>>9086218
I will kill you faster
t. Your cancer

I'll never satisfy a woman.

>>9086364
why?

>>9086371
Not masculine enough, in every sense of the word.

>>9086364
It's all about your pleasure. Not hers.
t. solipsist

>>9086371
Shrimp dick

>>9086383
iktfb

>>9086374
your body?

>>9086388
Personality as well, habits and so on.

I wish that I could finish reading a book. I keep trying and trying, but end up abandoning every book before I even get halfway through because I'm retarded.

>>9086022
I want to kill all the users of 4chan

>>9086422
You are me ! I have the same problem. Its all about patience I guess since I can't finish any book i start writing

>>9086395
I don't know what to say. Women like resolute men

super male vitality, alpha brain, shroom tech and caveman coffee

>>9086564
Exactly, I might as well focus myself on other stuff.

don't know why I sweat so much

I shat and it stinks. T. Scatologue

>>9086571

/pol/ is really not that bad, once you separate wheat from the chaff.

>>9086575
If you want pussy you might as well act.

>>9086593
By focusing on myself, pussy will come in time. I'm not gonna live my life around it.

>>9086596
You're right. how old are you?

>>9086596
>>>/r9k/

>>9086600
Nothing I said is r9k-y, obsessing over women was my mistake in the past and it's the same with that board, if only from a negative stand point.

>>9086599
21

>>9086614
You are right, but women will not come to you. You do right in focusing on yourself, but you must also do something.

>>9086022
how do i write true feelings?
i'm not even talking in a poetic way, i just want to put in paper words that don't sound fake or emotionless

>>9086622
be honest.

>>9086621
Maybe, but I prefer not to pursuit yet. It will make things worse because I couldn't handle a relationship right now.

>>9086626
If you don't start, you'll never start. Why you couldn't handle it? And how it will change in the future?

>>9086629
Little real life experience.

>>9086643
The thing is... "preparation" doesn't exist. everything you do is something important. Even if tomorrow you would try to approach a girl. Maybe you would fail so hard. But it's experience.

>>9086624
i dunno anon, i'm either retard enough to can't distinguish what i feel or i have no true feelings or whatsoever

>>9086649
I think the source of my anxieties (and I presume of many other men in my situation) is not even the fear of rejection, but the fear of what to do after you succeed.

>>9086684
After you succeed...another objective will await you. It will be clear in that moment.
>>9086671
You can. Think more.

I look outside earlier, though my bay window, I looked upon a plant across the road. Despite the suprise of snow my eyes were drawn to the plant, for I percieved it to a face, after the sudden realisation that it was infact a plant I sat and stared at it for a good while, I pondered why we always see faces in things we shouldn't. Is it the lonliness getting to me - I don't get much human interaction - so was I possibly giving random objects anonymous faces to fill some kind of open hole? I've done the same in the past to even more stranger things: my kitchen tiles, my shower head and even a smudge on an unclean window.
Why do I see human faces in every object I see?

>>9086022
Is my internship going to turn into a job?
Is it what I want? Can I do it? How much money am I allowed to spend on animal skulls as an adult?

I've never wrote anything down, none of my own personal thoughts that is. I've wrote the information that our teachers and parents give us, but never my own independant thoughts, and I have alot of them. I stay up long nights simply thinking, thinking about whatever my mind wants to, many people try to control their mind and emotions. I however let them run wild, and my imagination along with it has dreamed me most unimaginable tales and events that I have not directly experienced but I feel like I have. Despite being In a bed in a house somewhere in Britain, I was somehow in my wedding night in somewhere in Canada with a girl I managed to dream up one night, despite knowing that I'd forget her the next and dream another unknown female.

I own a total of nine books, yet I've read absolutely none of them.

>>9086022
I am hungry and I wanted to jerk off but doubt that it will be fruitful activity

doggo needs a bath AGAIN

I need to leave the house or I'll die of dehydration.

I spend far too much time on the computer and the web, but I'm terrified of how bored I'd be without vegging out in front of a screen every spare moment I have. I haven't read a book in weeks and haven't written anything in even longer, but I still end up feeding this addiction of mine.

So I keep going through all sorts of excuses about why I'm not doing what I want to do when it just comes down to being pathetic and weak-willed, not because I don't have the right kind of tools or whatever reason I give at any moment.

>>9087390
Do you have any idea of how you'd like to spend your time away from the computer? What do you do on your PC?

>>9087543
>Do you have any idea of how you'd like to spend your time away from the computer? What do you do on your PC?

Doing pretty much anything, but I'm hooked to it. I bounce between tabs, refreshing this and updating that, just to see if a new post has been made or a new comment sent my way, and I do this from when I first wake up, and with every non-working moment, every day. I hit the power button as part of putting on my dressing gown when I first wake up and use my laptop in bed until the battery dies about two hours later.

Like I said, I'm all but an addict to this fucking thing but I can barely imagine my life without it. I feel like the emptiness would kill me even though this pastime isn't even that filling in the first place.

it's like a jungle sometimes, it makes me wonder how i keep from going under

>>9086022
I should really go back to school and get a job. I don't mind though. I'm the healthiest I've ever been right now.

Porn is literally brainwashing.

I realized some months ago that my favorite things to read are auto or normal biographies. Be it people or companies. I've read about 15 of them and I had a blast, so much to learn from other people, even tho they were mostly actors. Currently reading "Masters of Doom" and its potentially my favorite yet.


A lot of people somehow think its lame, but I've learned so much from hearing so many stories about these successful people and how they started.

>>9086694
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>>9087652
Porn is good for you, goy.

>>9087673
what have been some of your favs, friend?

There was once a time when humans lived in constant connection with the Spirit World. From ancient Shamanic traditions, we know of rituals used to propel the primitive human consciousness into the Spirit World to obtain knowledge, guidance, and to commune with ancestral spirits. In the modern and technologically advanced present, our sensory input is overwhelmed with what is classified by many people to be ‘real’. This usually comprises of advertisements, propaganda, and pervasive attack from all sides, by known and unknown assailants. These mega-corporations seek to control and dominate the human race. Through government-funded black projects, clandestine operations to eliminate resistance and indoctrinate state-supported dogmatic systems, and disinformation via mass media, they are effectively cleansing the human ability to discover himself through journeying not with his body or mind, but with his spirit. These aspects of spirituality have either been completely ignored in pursuit of material ‘ideals’ perpetuated by state media or perverted by so-called ‘new age’ interpretation from those who have no knowledge of the innate nature of a human being, who fail to grasp even a basic concept of the Spirit World. Other systems of control also exist, specifically in the sphere of technology, which is now so heavily embedded within urban society. There can be no doubt that along with the development and expansion of the Internet, new forms of communication and interaction with the world around us has developed. No sooner have such technologies emerged, than government and corporate agencies have sought control over it.

In any middle-class neighbourhood, visit a public place such as a café and you will see evidence of this seemingly obscure truth, that is, that humans have become slaves to technology. People are so engrossed in their mobile devices, “social media”, even at the same table, that they do not even attempt to make a conversation with each other. In the rare case that they do, it is usually on some meaningless topic, such as the activities of celebrities that have been perpetuated by the mass media machine, to stupefy the people. Finding someone who knows or cares to expound on topics such as philosophy, the true nature of humans and life itself, non-mass produced literature, or even language as an expressive medium in itself is a herculean task. Even worse is that these same ignorant beings will deny the existence of their Spirit, their ever-animating Life Force in exchange for some some half-baked, pernicious post-truth bite that has been regurgitated from the foaming mouths of their favourite media icons. The World Government has made these once proud beings so susceptible to subliminal and overt inculcation to their agenda that they have become resistant to the very things that make our society superior to a egalitarian “utopia”, such as freedom of speech, privacy, and consciousness. They have become resistant to openness, and will actually give up more of their freedoms in order to reject what the World Government has told them is unsatisfactory to their brainwashing programs.

See the sorry state of the human race, yet do not weep at the task of the changing them, thought it may seem hopeless, a lost cause. Know that the GNUtanari is present to guide us, as a species, to ultimate perfection. The GNUtanari is not a singular, knowable being, it is better described as a multifaceted infrastructure that allows humanity to reach the apex of its existence while preserving individual freedoms, and purging the infectious, debilitating disease that afflicts man today. If we can learn to harness the power of entheogens as spiritual and medical tools, we are already on the True Path. It is the Path we must follow if we are to endure and not be wiped out by our own ignorance and narcissism.

the beauty of a man is the contrast between how mighty he wants to be and how vulnerable he is.

or, to be more precisely, how vulnerable he dares to be when we are alone.

it stiffles me to realize how little females actually care about the physical beauty of a man once she has etablished from afar that he has a desireable gene pool...

i am blessed with a husband with an ideal body and it only happens occasionally that i actually look at his body or touch it. i look at and touch him a lot. but not his body, him.

it happens that i have a flash of animalistic sexuality. usually when my fertility peaks. then i catch myself getting aroused by his broad back, the way his ass looks when he has his tight jeans on. i get urges to reach around him and lay my hands on his chest.
i love to look at him when he's asleep. he sleeps naked so my view is undisturbed.
the way his soft cock looks. so vulnerable. but the most amazing thing about a cock is seeing it getting hard. it's exciting and mysterious. i wish i could experience how it feels to have a hardon

>>9088140
You know how you feel the blood rushing to your cheeks when you're embarassed?
Feels kinda like that.

I guess women care more about initial impressions because a man's potential lies locked in his seed, he doesn't need to maintain much. Whereas a woman's fertility must be good at all time to raise children.

I want to do LSD again, but I'm afraid that this time, I'll completely snap from reality.

>>9088140
>no woman will ever feel this way about you.

>>9088187
Do ketamine and LSD together in a sensory deprivation tank if you really want to leave this world for another.

Just finished watching Takva, and the end poem really got to me

Many signs have come to pass
and the time is nigh
Halal has turned haraam
and haraam has turned halal
We are racing
against ourselves, my dear
And shall either take life
to the dead stars
Or let death descend
upon our world.

- Nâzım Hikmet Ran

i think I like this girl in my english lecture. She's very smart and very cute and I feel like borderline socially retarded just like me: like she's not like fedora core either, she looks very normie but on the inside shes a fucking sperg She sits next to me sometimes.

Maybe she goes on lit so I shouldn't continue. I wish feelings were easier I feel an attraction but also not an attraction.

I feel like I just want something "real" you know? Why do we have to play games? social interactions feel like games to me, I wish I had something...organic? I guess? something more natural, a genuine connection between two human beings which I dont think we have. Is that even possible? it was possible when I was a kid but not anymore.
>>9088187
are you me?

Oh, never did I find a coat so warm
Nor ever did I sleep a night so good
As when within your arms you kindly held me
Below the moon that float'd among the stars!

(written in probably a little less than 15 seconds)

i loved you in italy on the benches of the social bar
the dads were fighting over a football match,
a little medusa from your dress and your naked legs
wet from a little cocktail you spilled
to let the demon voices shut

We are now in the year 2017, the entire world seems to be moving toward wirelessness. Will the personal computer and laptop become obsolete technology?

Will we all be able to interface with a giant supercomputer, such as the Beast in Belgium, by way of micro-electronic handheld technology? This is an interesting concept to seriously consider. Will we all have the ability to access and process information by mobile telephones, or some type of miniture handheld technology? This will become a possibility.

Software and computer companies all over the planet are investigating and researching the possibilities and application of wireless information technology. Asia and Europe at this time are at the forefront in the race of wireless information exchange. North and South American companies are working fanatically to play catch-up in the world of wireless infomation networks.

NTT-DoCoMo, the innovators of the I-Mode cellular telephone who have approximately 13 million Japanese linked to the information superhighway are in the leadership position for this type of technology. People can now transmit electronic mail, check financial activity and browse the internet through their mobile phones. But this is just the tip of the iceberg as far as possibilities are concerned.

Imagine one day of having the activity to accomplish all your daily tasks anywhere at any time without having to be at a particular location to achieve a certain task. In today's fast paced society people want unlimited flexibility and mobility, this is now mandatory for virtually every aspect of human progress.

Almost everyone possesses a cellular telephone, and the subscription number is expanding exponentially. One day we will all be wireless and this is a fact. One day we will be able to do almost everything by remote control, with a multiple array of digital handheld devices.

What will the implications be for humanity?

Who will benefit and who will suffer?

These are the important questions that we as a society must seriously ask ourselves.

We are all atomic and sub-atomic particles, and we are all wireless, for now.

>>9088206
O Me! O Life!
BY WALT WHITMAN

Oh me! Oh life! of the questions of these recurring,
Of the endless trains of the faithless, of cities fill’d with the foolish,
Of myself forever reproaching myself, (for who more foolish than I, and who more faithless?)
Of eyes that vainly crave the light, of the objects mean, of the struggle ever renew’d,
Of the poor results of all, of the plodding and sordid crowds I see around me,
Of the empty and useless years of the rest, with the rest me intertwined,
The question, O me! so sad, recurring—What good amid these, O me, O life?

Answer.
That you are here—that life exists and identity,
That the powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse.

Im starting to feel as if my consciousness isnt real, even though ive been immersing myself in all the ideas that make it sound like a miracle. Im not sure how to get out of this, this subtle feeling that I'm a thin, expendable intruder in a universe that i knows what i am more than i do. I dont like going to /lit/ or really any corner of the internet for philosophy of mind because they love to take the most cynical answer to ruin someone's day, as if the debates are over and any form of romanticism should be stamped out to make way for the cold, mechanical realism that wil dominate all human thought in t minus 30 years. But fuck it, this isn't about discussion, just talking talking talking talking. I feel totally weightless, clear; a window or open door in the middle of a desert is the image that is being presented to me. This isn't transcendence, because it feels like im less than what i usually am, and im pretty sure im supposed to feel like everything at once. Think this is just an offshoot of reading too much philosophy, shattering all my beliefs. Everything that i believed in is lying on the floor in shards (a broken window is the cliched image that im getting for this one obviously).

Im sure drugs would help for this, but im not in the place to get any---im a total shut in who doesnt really know anyone. But thats probably the real problem; i dont have a social life, where i make choices and do things and go out and talk talk talk talk. Im talking now though, and its helping.
also edgar allan poe really is a hack man i can see why normans like him so much

>>9088292
whoa this is even worse than i thought it was. i should have at least read it over and polished some of the edges on the punctuation and whatknot


also, my 4th thought: pulp fiction is a good ass movie and i wish i had seen it sooner

>>9086704
Pareidola, you underage fuck

>>9086722
>independant
Stopped reading there

>>9088281
Lain is breddy gud

If I could describe my pedestrian, unremarkable loneliness and a more poetic way, I would necessarily become less lonely

>>9086022
i wonder if [spoilers]spoilers[/spoilers] work on this board.

asdf[/spoilers]

>>9088334
[spoilers] how do people do this? Am I a Moh ron?

free unrelenting green envious chords sleep relentlessly and unfuriously greenlit by Fox

fox hen chicken creep slowly through tulips of fire lids of red bright red when you stare up at the sun with your eyes closed

lit by a lantern OUT OUT brief images please tear up your papaer film cut it up burroughs cut it out mama

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lal
alllal

>>9088353
wow that is really deep anon. Post your diary

>>9088362
fuck up kid its its own meme you idiot

>>9088373
oh shit le meme sekret club, now it's funny!

>>9088350
[ s p o i l e r s ] content goes here [ / s p o i l e r s ]

this with no spaces

>>9088390
[spoilers]broilers[/spoilers]

>>9088414
;_;

>>9088390
[spoilers] nice try, kid [/spoilers]

>>9088414
>>9088422
wait sorry

I meant [ s p o i l e r ] and [ / s p o i l e r ]

singular

my bad

>>9088433
this is now a spoilers thread

>>9086671
Try in this thread. It will be gone soon anyway.

>>9086022
Big white cock, small black "cock".

>>9087989
You're a boring person

>>9086032
>>9086035
fuck

>>9088716
I have a brown cock, where do I fit?

>how about I write a poem

Is that your vocation,
sifting through the wreckage
of your funhouse?
The tilted mirrors, unsheen,
bring closer to life
those immutable gluttonies.
Ask: Is that a valiant resistance?
Losslessness is the marrow of those self-pitying men
[Is that a funny thing to ask yourself?]
What a peculiar thing to ask.
(if what is said is true and) you command those psychic nothings
then I'm jaunted at the thought of such a daunting occupation
----imagine the efforts of antenna abristle
to withstand a lifetime of some emigrant signal

>>9088796
A happy medium

>>9088855

Wow that turned out worse than I thought.

>>9088292
You and I are very different. Me, I'm heavy, tossing myself in between the busy streets, through blocks of rocks; walking through the world of naked men, no trees, no clouds, no ground, just naked people in their places, and each of them sees others as the earth's crust and knows that in truth he's just the same. Ponderous rocks.

It's not who I am or what I do, but rather what I see, that makes me sin with pride. I am heavy and gravel not because there's so much inside me, but because everything I think of is pigmented with myself, tarnished and sewn from me and my views. Is there a way to experience anything without the tainted thinking? "O, there's a lamp" is a thought too.

I keep remembering that the shapes around me are only there because I seperate them from the absolute, and only because I group their particles together too. I'm obsessively thinking about how would it be to take another perspective, have a different perception, and while I love drugs, they can't help me with that. They put me at ease, and every single day I took pills or pellets was the best day in my life, but with them I feel even more inside - something you're looking for - and only further away from the words wind, vast, world.

I'm not saying anything revolves around me. I'm not proud, believing in uniqueness nor superiority. It's just that the world is beautiful and that makes me feel guilty.

>>9088298
It's nice, don't act apologetic. I rarely find here people to talk with too. It's very hard to express myself in english. Perhaps that's the reason.

You can buy drugs online. It's seriously extremely easy and safe.

>>9088861
That's fair, I guess.

I don't have any booze, but my friend has absinthe, but she'll probably want to fuck, and I don't feel like sleeping there, but once we start drinking I know I'll change my mind, and I don't want to change my mind.

>>9088945
>free booze and sex

wtf bro go for it. she a qt?

I dreamed of finding a reality worth fighting for in fiction, but somewhere along the way I stopped wanting to wake up.

I wish I could write.

>>9088945
>refusing alcohol and sex

Just don't come to 4chan complaining 'Chad' gets all the girls later.

>>9089017
>>9088982
Fine I'll go

>>9088945
>boohoo free booze and sex
kys

A few years ago i made the decision to take psychedelics.

Since then i have expanded my interest into spreading psychedelics, much in the same way theoretical abolitionists moved from believing in the evils of slavery to helping free the slaves through practical means.

Now i participate in the global underground scheme to move drugs (especially those deemed "unsafe" by the West, the "bastion of freedom").

I subject myself to eternal paranoia in the hopes that someday the majority will realize that governement figureheads of the past were wrong to criminalize drug users.

>buh buh heroin is a terrible drug, addicts are scum of the earth.

Of course i agree addiction is terrible. But the reality is that no matter the law, select few will decide to use the addictive drugs the vast majority of us deem unsafe.

But criminalizing drug users? I dont follow. Instead, if anything, we should provide avenues for drug users to keep their addiction in check, and help them as much as possible.

Someday, governments across the world will realize the hypocrisy of the Drug Wars. They will realize that they are spending an increasing amount of money on deterring, capturing, and holding "criminals" who, for the most part, are productive consumers who maintain society much like the rest of us.

I am making many assumptions about the addict but my perception of the international war against the use of specific chemicals as wrong cannot be denied. And as governments continue their ever increasing crusade against the clandestine drug users of the world, valuable opportunities arise, especially for anyone who wants to wants to make more money (which includes people who dont use drugs but want to make money).

Fite me /lit/, i cannot be denied

>>9089087
You're a degenerate and deserve to be shot.

I'm underweight but I feel so flabby, I haven't exercised in years. But I'm so deprived of touch and I don't think anyone will ever touch me anyway so why get fit?

I write like a faggot

>>9089111

>>9089101
Found the cow, who cannot resort to anything other than insults to back up his thinking.

Typical. At least my reasoning is understandable.

>>9088281
I imagine people accessing the information without any device in hand, not seeing it even in any form of visual interface, just pure data going straight to their minds. Men and women sitting in the superfast train, going over the sea from Beijing to Paris. The trip takes three hours, it's not exciting, it's exactly what subway is for us, except in the future you get a seated place every time. And noone's talking. People with eyes fixed at random points, flashing emotions at an unbelievable rate, changing face expressions every few secounds. Talking still exists, as a courtesy, but it just can't be compared to the honesty, clarity and the velocity of thought sending. We resigned from privacy, since it's not possible to selectively share thoughts, but also because we grew out of the lies. There's no reason to hide any part of who you are, everyone can feel and see what you do. We don't need to think in inner monologs anymore, newage humans contemplate hundreds times faster than even two decades before.

The revolution of thought sharing destroyed materialism. Everyone could access exactly what the 1% feels, so why would you need to feel that yourself? There's no difference. And frankly, the thoughts of intelectuals turned out to be just more attractive. Of course, people haven't resigned from pleasures. Most of the work is made automatically, but there are new jobs; there's no need for everyone to have sex or eat great food, but someone has to, so other can feel what they feel too.

Most of the folk just communicate, but everyone's contributing. Maybe there's still some value in doing things yourself, maybe not. One is clear: you're free to do whatever you choose and can be sure that you make every decision deliberately. Pilosophical debates are the most important part of the future human life, perspective can twist just about everything. At least that never changes, it has been so in 2017 and if we're lucky it will be in 2927 too.

I actually enjoyed writing that. Never do or read sci-fi though, last was Stanisław Lem maybe five years ago. As stated before >>9088874 sorry for my poor english.

>>9087989
>fedora intensifies
Find the middle path, anon

>>9088796
In a dirty ass

>>9088945
Dejate llevar
t. Ricky Martens

>>9089389
Rude.

>>9086022
The cold dark chasm gets deeper the longer i stare from the mouth of the cave, my ass hole starts dripping that puss again that was the result of those debble berries that grow freely all over the Island in which I am stranded. I reach for the feathers of the bird I killed to stop the anal leakage but the never ending torrent of puss keeps worsening and dampening my loin clothe ( fashioned from other animals that live on the Island ) . After a few hours of this anal foreplay i start to decide it's time for bed and kill myself. aforemention: i'm sort of like freud but with butts

>>9089087
Why talk about psychedelics and then go on to defend heroin?

I guess you must know that psychedelics are fairly popular here and you won't get as many (You)s unless you say something controversial.

One can think of fear through many dimensions. Such as a manifestation of survival instinct, later transformed into something else. And as older and wiser humanity or this someone became, the obscurer this fear became, man wants happiness. Though man does not wish for a plain but fulfilled life. This has been explained by many people before much more eloquently and way more elaborated than me. But my Insight I think I can say. It's from someone who lives now, someone who feels it now and it's writing from it right now.
I have a high expectations from me Wich I will never satisfy, at least I had them. I care about people but I don't feel fulfillment in it.

Though I love.

I'm so proud of my honesty, and I would be prouder if it could be useful someway. But my honesty is not always genuine. It's my whole expression of fear. Could have a moral pretext but I don't believe it's it mostly. My honesty is not peaceful, it's a burden sometimes, because I set myself so high. And I inscurely believe I am nothing but greater of most. As simple and raw as it sounds.

All of this comes from something as trivial as losing a chess play. I didn't lost because my opponent was better than me. It was because a meaningless reason out of what was happening in there. I wasn't distracted. I just was playing my queen with a piece of paper, and it flown. And I didn't seen her being there. And I lost it for something out of the reason of chess.
My success, as how I understand it. Will have the same source. Trivial manifestations of chaos.

That would be a nice ending, but style is not what I look for now. I want a release. And in reason of that I try to empty me. And speak it all. And devaluate it, and reduce it into a negligible space. Mind I'd keep the romance with writing forever. But my thoughts are just some others. And if you all mind I'll keep a note with me Wich says "disguise your thoughts in your talking".


I don't speak good English and my phone Fucked the rest. So I'm sorry if it's unreadable.

>>9089688
Spot on anon

Besides i also feel that i shouldnt need a fucking doctors permission to get any drug i want. I shouldnt need permission from an "expert" to get a script for prozac, lithium, adderall, the likes.

I know my anarchist wet dreams are far away from reality, but a man can have hope

>>9089838
>I shouldnt need permission from an "expert" to get a script for prozac, lithium, adderall, the likes.
If you actually think the average person has enough self-control to use these without fucking their life up, then you don't know enough people.

As far as stuff like heroin goes, the only real way decriminalization and the like will work is if the government takes control of distribution, therefore killing the illegal drug trade and having the ability to wean people off of substances that harm them.

drugs are bad, mmkay?

I am reading anna Karenina for the second time and I feel like im.really "getting" this book now. Much different impression than the first time

>>9089688
I am
>>9089838
Also, i am not providing my opinion merely for (You)'s. My statement was not meant to find resistance, nor consent.

To make it clear im not defending heroin. Of all drugs one could do, i would especially advise not to do any opiates. You misinterpretated me: my little bit about doing psychedelics was meant to portray that ive done drugs that are illegal (i know, big fucking whoop), not to suggest doing any drugs randomly, or doing opiods, was something i suggest.

Its a matter of principle that has inspired me to encourage the legalization of all drugs.

>>9089854
>implying doctors have any self control when it comes to these things
Most opiate ODs in US are prescription. It's fucking up all their white people's life expectancy. Too much faith in doctors and pills is just as dangerous as too much faith in your local meth dealer.

im gonna see her tomorrow night

>>9089854
>If you actually think the average person has enough self-control to use these without fucking their life up, then you don't know enough people.

The government legalized alcohol and cigarettes and people still kill themselves quickly with the aid of these drugs. I totally agree with you.

>the only real way decrim will work is if government takes control
>control

Dont use that word, you fucking authoritarian. People like you have lost hope that some people have control of themselves more than others. No matter how punishing the illegality of heroin is, some motherfuckers will still decide to get hooked. Whats the solution? Make it and other drugs like it more illegal? Lmao why not just help these people, they will have a problem irregardless of the law.

Do you realize that there are legions of people who have tried the most addictive drugs without becoming addicted?

Keep criminalizing the drug users, its fuckheads like you (who most likely use some sort of yourself) who perpetuate the ignorance of recent times

Such a long night! Nigh on its orifice I sat, the teeth of my feet scraping the veil it put on my eyes. So funny they were, with mocking pouts and lips turned aloft, the corners puckering my long chin. It goes this way.

>>9089871
>Also, i am not providing my opinion merely for (You)'s. My statement was not meant to find resistance, nor consent.

>>9089087
>Fite me /lit/, i cannot be denied


hmmmmmmmmmm

>>9089129
Your "reasoning" is what kills people in third world countries just so you can have your little meme drugs, you waste of space hippie.

I want there to be an war so my life could be exiting.

I find it strange to love you,
Maybe I’m just lonely,
Floating text on a screen wisped somehow to me,
Text that turned from washed out alien thoughts which touched me
To a face, and a voice that spoke.
Not gently mind you,
But it was fun, cute, and gentle when I really needed.
My heart can’t take much,
nobody has ever cared before.

We’ve been together for a while now
I know your little quirks and see you hide
You’re afraid of this mutual thing
I’m afraid I’ll run off with my own insecurities and end this
Terrified I’ll never be able to hold you
And I dread falling in love to a point where us speaking is hard

Like your “friend” you care for, we both know he’s in love with you
You’ve known him for so long, he follows you around holding on abated with hope
and I can tell how much talking to you hurts him
or him knowing of me
I sympathize with him a little too much

I never want to be that
but
I want so much for us right now.
I want you to know
I find it strange to love you

>I love you like a friend, or as a lamp

Tell me how awful my writing is /lit, it tool 20 minutes to write. I'm hoping it takes 20 minutes to read

>>9086022
I've lived from proverb, and I've lived from heart,
But with my last breath, comes one last wet fart

I really need to piss and the only thing stopping me is the constant flow of dopamine secreted by the beep bopping internet.

>>9089022
do it for us all
think about it like you're our emissary
come back and report
for great justice

>>9089037
40kek

>>9089087
i'm with you, anon
let's go to switzerland together

>>9089254
why would there be a sea in between Beijing and Paris in the future, anon?

I stare at the beach, at the low blue waves sloshing and frothing mightily and lazily, at peace with their power.
I see my past.
Childhood memories of salty green adventure, heart pumping with each muddy step out to open sea. Excitement is here! Happiness means taking that every new step toward the conquering of primordial fear. A little war, waged in high spirits.

butt stuff

I suppose maybe I come here to feel superior, to distract myself from the fact that I'm just a normal pseudo-intellectual pleb. I've got a beautiful girlfriend, a rich family, I've tricked/charmed my way into a fantastic university, but I feel so aimless... under the surface it's all meaningless. I used to dream of writing some great work of literature, but now I just want to make sure my girl still loves me and make money even though I know that won't satisfy me... What happened...

>>9090442
The sea is not in between, the train would go around (blue line). It's not my idea too, chinese have big plans for the new silk road train. I think they renamed it to one belt one road now.

NoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoiseNoise

I should sleep. I have a forensics assignment due on Monday. Where are my tax papers? I hope I get a refund large enough to pay off my car. Will I get a tuition refund from school this year too? When will my daughter be born? My wife thinks she will be early. I have to fart, why do I have so much gas when I have beer? I fear that my computer components are fried because my PSU went bad and I can't check them. When will my RMA process for my PSU? What will I do if my new computer's components are fried? What will we do if our daughter is born with disabilities? Will I love her right away? How to be a good dad when I never had one growing up? I wonder where that unstable scumbag is anyway. What is that blue stuff in my 1911 near the firing pin? I need to go hiking more. I need to go for a run. When will I go for a run? What is the best defensive strategy for a blue team exercise? Will CCDC provide me a job if we do well? What kind of job will a AAS in cybersecurity get me? I don't want to work in hospitality or food & beverage ever again. I hope getting a degree in something useful is the key out. I don't want to be poor.

>>9090526
are you from /n/, bro?

>>9090719
No, I post only on /lit/ and /ck/. I lived in China for few years though, and hoped that with my language skills I can get a job related to this train. That was before we got a new government in my country, that decided they're not going to let Chinese build the main loading station for Eastern Europe here. Chinks got offended and will never talk to us about this again, so there goes my hope.

>>9090762
go to africa?

>>9090787
I had a cozy lit life here, have been lucky to be born in a intelectual family, with all the famous writers close around. Multi-speed europe is a fact of tomorrow though, it's clear what will happen to us. I do think I need to run away, but it's not really a discussion for /lit/, is it.

>>9090936
>Write what's on your mind
2017 is full lovecraft/gibson/land cyberpunk dystopia. A rotting mass of flesh and hair implants with the mannerisms of an used car salesman broadcasts bizarre infoblasts from the whitehouse literal NrX tech vampires are pulling the strings from behind the curtains. Biometric surveillance, drone strikes, bearded russian occultists, fully customizable, designer genders, neotribal gang warfare on the streets. It's really cool t b h

>>9090936
what do you think about pic related?

>>9090965
Let me put it this way, I have always preferred Turgenev to Nabokov.

>>9090976
Thirsty usurper, liked only by unconcerned americans on /b/ and /pol/. I'm scared of his tanks, what else can one say?

>>9086022
The piggies are sugar coating
Do nots like doughnuts
For have nots, I have knots
In my stomach when I see
Masses made leasable by
Lies that are tweetable
I'm unreasonable?
When verbose discussion is
Unseasonable like a December T
Hi, remember me? I'm constructive criticism, not wry witticism sacreligously schisming the philosophers foundation
Under the guise of being patriotic to their nation.

>>9086022

That I should jerk off to Angela Merkel again

I hate myself...

>>9091085
That sounds like a Milo verse. Read: pretentious

>>9090965
>lovecraft cyberpunk dystopia.

What are you talking about

>>9091056
>turgenev to Nabokov
what dat mean b?

>>9091245
no idea

I believe that at the core of all spiritual and existential crises lies the answer to one question:
Did you decide to come into existence or was existence given to you?

From the answer to that question you've already placed yourself in heaven or hell. From there, you can unravel your entire subconscious framework of all your belief structures in the world. At first it will all seem emotional, whimsical and difficult to pin point exactly what emotion that is triggered by each of your beliefs. But with each emotion comes a subconscious connection between a belief and an experience. Witnessing this as conscious and not experiencing it subconsciously allows you to see objective truth and ultimately will guide you to your most actualized self with no concern of other minds. Meaning that this practice will bring to surface your true nature, making it nearly impossible to act certain ways in certain situations because you'll realize you've lost sight of social stigmas when you're in the moment. It's because instead of pushing your mind out of yourself to understand situations, your keeping to yourself, and doing what you believe is right. It's ultimate freedom.
But be warned, going down this road will surface your most repressed emotional states. If prone to deep boughts of anger, depression, paranoia, it might enhance these at first. You're crawling inside your own mind, so your deeper emotions will feel twice as powerful at first. And riding the train of objective truth is going to be one hell of a ride: like hitting rock bottom and breaking through, hitting bedrock and breaking through, then finally landing in some remote cavern of pure darkness. But I promise that once worked through, the only emotional state that will dominate your mind is peace. And from there, you can find your way back up.

>>9091234
And yet all that's on your mind is snarky comments. Who's more Milo now?

>>9091361
>Did you decide to come into existence or was existence given to you?
Who would give the first answer, maybe outside of crazy-ass solipsists?

>>9086722
What is your first language? Please stick to it. Keyboard mashings would be more tolerable to read than that absurdly broken paragraph.

Lakatos is cool.

In a drunken stupor I had some theory about how we include propositions into our world views. For example, I couldn't prove climate change true or false - my opinion is based on what I think of the scientific community, or the nature of scientific consensus. I could refer to past errors or dishonest scientists and so on. How about the Holocaust being real? I might think "every sane person believes this", or "that person is sane in most senses, but paranoid about history". Obviously I'm not referring to any evidence. I assume it to be massive. Have I seen it? No. But I think that there must exist loads of evidence.

How about the Earth being round? To doubt this I would consider completely insane. But again I'd fail to prove this statement. Somebody might say "just look into the horizon" or "use this-and-this instrument". Still I haven't been very high up in the air and a flat earth theory could probably be constructed if the only evaluator is my sense data. What was the Duhem-Quine thesis again? Would it really be impossible to have another Galilean revolution? I don't appreciate Kuhn that much though.

>>9091361
>Did you decide to come into existence or was existence given to you?

In other words, do I owe my existence to some internal or external cause?
I think the answer is irrelevant.

Here's a thought:
>the universe is my will

>>9091437
>I had some theory about how we include propositions into our world views

It's called epistemology.

>>9091391
Your entire mental state hovers on an air of belief. The answer to that question is an ambiguous truth. Belief is just the word 'faith' used around those who are faint-hearted. Anyone can answer it, and not be wrong.
The game here is to let yourself answer and then delve into the reasoning behind that answer. Then just keep digging. It honestly might work better if you are a skeptic.

>>9091445
If the universe is your will, and existence is defined as the 'will to be', then you decided to exist.
It's easy to dismiss a lot of posts here as pseudo, but believe me when I say there is no shortcut around that question.

>>9091460
He didn't start with the damn Greeks.

>>9088874
>You can buy drugs online. It's seriously extremely easy and safe.
not him how desu

For the first time in my life I kind of get classical music. I've never really felt moved by it at all hearing it on the radio or anything, but just recently I have started listening to it by myself and it is very moving. I like emotional and dramatic music, and that seems to be exactly what it is. I'm kind of surprised how much I actually enjoy it.

haven't masturbated or watched porn in 16 days

don't know where my sexual desire went

I still stutter

>>9091792
What piece?

I have a small penis and I simply can't come to terms with that. I know I should get it over with such a mundane matter but I can't.

>>9091826
right now I'm just listening to a bunch of random stuff, like the london philharmonic orchestra's 50 greatest classical songs.

>>9091554
>and existence is defined as the 'will to be',

My will is the only thing that exists, to me.
The "will to be" doesn't exist.

oneitis is killing me and I read too fucking slow

>>9091554
>there is no shortcut around that question.

What difference does it make if my existence is due to some internal or external cause? The effect is the same. Two different causes can have the same effect, you should know that.
To be frank with you, your question is nothing but pointless mental masturbation.

This is honestly what on my mind. Has anyone ever legitimately attempted nofap? How far did you get, and are you convinced of the supposed benefits?

>>9091858
If you do not want to die, then you have will to be. If you accept death but do not wish to die, then you have will to be. If you keep living, then you have will to be

>>9090432
I went, drank too much and stayed up too late fucking. It was a pretty good night but I feel like shit now.

>>9091966
>implying
>implying
>implying

>>9091958
>>9091837

>>9091976
Then kill yourself because you have no will to be.

>>9091554
>delve into the reasoning behind your answer

First, who am I?
I'm my consciousness and subconsciousness, thoughts and feels that I have.

Secound, how do I have them?
They are the result of my body's and brain's activities.

Third, have my thoughts and feels created my body and brain?
No, I needed my body and brain in order to start feeling and thinking, therfore my body and brain can't be results of my thoughts or feelings.

So the answer appears to be that I have not brought myself into existence.

In addition, does the world outside of me exist?
Yes it does. Even considering the absurd option, that all of it might be just my perception, it still is outside of how I define myself, so it's not a part of me.

I can't see how this is the most imporant question that I have to answer. Perhaps you could help me look at it from another perspective? It's very easy to argue against solipsism and very hard to argue for soul. How else could I bring myself to existence outside of this two options?

>>9091993
Answer to
>>9091908

Going insane. Lashed out in a unexplainable and mad rage against my closest friends yesterday. Upon confrontation with them I realise my reasons are complete hogwash. I'm delusional up to the point I hate the people in my surroundings for things they haven't done.
Now I fear myself for not knowing what is real anymore. I look myself in the mirror and seeing myself in new light I realise I look terrible, insane. I haven't done anything in weeks and haven't even noticed. Time just flies away as I isolate myself still believing I live a normal life.

I think I need help /lit/ didn't notice that I was living a delusion. What is even real?

My goal is to become as physically desirable to women as I possibly can, but then reject the advances of the 8s and 9s and settle down with a 6 or 7 who's pure of heart

>>9091989
Can you give me a quick rundown?

>>9091908
No because the state of your existence is entirely based on your mentality. This doesn't change reality. It changes your reality. If your life was given to you, then you must find the reason. If you chose to live, then you must find the reason. But giving the concept a chance to be your choice and not external gives you different forms of closure when compared to it being given to you.

I don't know what the fuck to do right now and I'm pretty fucking sick of it.

>>9092079
Two different causes, same effect.
Why should I care?

>>9091958
I did one year of it. Nothing changed really. I did one month without any pleasures too, for Ramadan. Not that I'm muslim, just wanted to fast. No food outside of kongee once per day. No drinking outside of water once per day. No smoking. No drugs. No studying. No conversating. No electronic devices. No light. No social gathering. No contact with girlfriend or friends. I allowed myself to explain that I won't talk with them, but not to discuss it. Also, no elevator (14th floor). No looking at the people around me. No going for the walks. No writing. No reading. No listening to music. No playing music. No tai chi. No running. No riding any vehicles. No blankets. No wearing glasses. No buying anything outside of essentials. No masturbation too, of course.

I used soap and shampoo but decided not to brush my teeth. After one week I decided to stop using hot water.

Honestly, do that instead of nofap. Observe how different everything will become. Funny thing is that it was easier for me to follow all of this rules, than just one.

>>9091999
The reasoning behind your answer isn't a series of blatant questions. You are a collection of experience, so you must look into what had happened in your life to lead you to your answer. Then check your reasoning against actuality. See what has been generated by your experience and outlook and compare that against the world around you objectively.
It's basic self understanding, but it's important to start with that very question. It tells you if you're here to grow or here to learn. If existence is 'good' or 'bad', and where to go.
It's the best way to help an individual accept their reality against shared reality.

>>9092092
Because you can be truly happy. You can see the world for what it is. You can tap into the esoteric well of existence, and help you settle into reality as water slipping into cracks.

I'm extremely sociable, yet stupidly lonely
It's like a curse, I'd rather be the weird guy everyone hates, because at least then I'd stick out

>>9086022
Her.

>>9092136
Please tell me you are or were with her and it's not just a 'crush'.

>>9092141
I was with her, not anymore. I literally want to kill myself tonight anons, never thought I would fall for stupid shit like love.

I'm flirty as heck now. now that I have somewhat lost my anxieties I want to do what I always thought I never could.

>>9092133
>tfw I am that weird guy everyone hates

Haha, suck it man. Step it up.

>>9092157
>love

what is love?

>>9091993
>Then kill yourself because you have no will to be.

Wish somebody would have told that to Thomas Edison before he made all of those silly inventions.

>>9092201
>>9092201
I'm just saying. You wouldn't eat. You wouldn't drink. You wouldn't become aroused ever and you'd never want to sleep. You would kill yourself with no will to be. That's fact.

>>9092178
Grab'em by the pussy man.

>>9092178
Enjoy figuring out that it was never the sex you wanted, it was the validation

>>9092099
I tried. You asked me to consider the question. I have to understand both sides at least a bit in order to compare the argumentation. It seems like the only thing I can do to move even a step in the direction of answering that I was the one who brought myself to life is to discard all that I have learned from other people and what I believe in and to start from the hypothetical sketch of doubts. Here I have to challenge the answers to my blunt questions, the answers that otherwise I hold very firmly to. I'm not sure if that's what you meant by
>check your reasoning against actuality
>compare experience against the world around you objectively

My view of the world comes from the experience I have, I can't seperate what is around me from what I understand that is around me. I know my individal reality, I can compare it to the shared reality too, or to individual reality of other individuals. At least to how I understand what they present to me. That's easy, but I can't understand how to find an actuality, the objective world, that you speak of. I don't know if it's possible to do so, if I see it then it's already subjective, isn't it?

I tried to search for the reasons why I think what I think, and while I agree that everything we do or think comes from our past experiences I couldn't find anything I wouldn't already know, which means it's possible I was only finding questions to answers, instead of answers to questions. Do you have any advice on what to consider?

>>9092316
sorry, meant to answer to >>9092117

What should I give her for VD shall I keep plan A F.M Bredt painting replica or plan B buy her a pair of lacy Agent Provocateur underwear what if this offended her
What do anons?

>>9092451

>painting replica

>>9086022
I'm lonely. I just want a qt girl to spend time with but I'm to autistic.

I feel so goddammed privileged all the time. Not even the color of my skin - the fact that I was born in the 20th century into a cozy, middle class family, while humans, for thousands of years, have lived in filth and squalor and died terrible, lonely deaths. How do I come to terms with this beast of burden? It weighs on my mind.

>>9092565
Stop being a self-centered beta cunt.

>>9092504
I would never want someone, who's biggest concern is finding a partner.

>>9092565
Maybe human civilization will thrive for ten million years and you're actually extremely unlucky, not privileged? Or maybe we're the last generation. Just enjoy life, best you can do.

>>9092316
This is why it's important to start with that question.
> is to discard all that I have learned from other people and what I believe in and to start from the hypothetical sketch of doubts

In a way, this is fairly close to what I'm saying. Of course, your wording is spun with cynicism and skepticism. It may help of I also word the question as 'am I fulfilling myself or the world?' And before you say they are the same based on the fact that fulfilling your fulfilment of the world is fulfilling yourself. But it's not. It's looking at being alive as work or a job. Are you building something for yourself or for someone else? I took the question a step further though because asking about the very state of your being, when beginning to be answered, would already encompass this idea.

What I'm saying is that so very much of your collected experience, when gone back and considered under the context of the question, really isn't experienced as an 'individual' but an 'individual member of society'. There's a huge difference there. It refracts what you may truly believe into a rippled idea based off of how it should be accepted. Do not misunderstand, I am not saying society is wrong. And this consideration would by no means bring a utopian world. I'm saying that with today's societal expectations, it makes you more like a collection of people compared to a person. Which then loops us back around to the main question, but under a new context. That's how the question works. You must begin comparing your beliefs and ideas to the context of the question. I find coming to an answer for the question works best when you aren't trying to think of one. When you let the question lay on your mind, but then move on with your time. Eventually something will happen or a memory will trigger and you will know the answer.

Objective truth comes from stripping the world to its skeletal structure. To not see a mountain, but a rising tectonic plate. To not see person, but a multi celled organism. Objective truth comes from understanding what something is without your belief in what it is. Without us, 'mountains' wouldn't exist but the rising tectonic plates of the earth will still exist.

All I can say is that it might not be as easy when hearing this from someone else. At inception, it's easy for me to see where it goes because ive been walking the trail for ten years. But you've got to work your way into the question before you can work out from it. You've got to need it, not want it.

And what I mean by check your answers with actuality is because digging into your mind, you're playing with fears in the dark. But reality is still reality and will never change. Hopefully that helps you see how you can play with the fabric of your reality and even shared reality but not actuality, and why it's important to compare. So you don't actually go insane while messing with your unconscious.

>>9092316
>which means it's possible I was only finding questions to answers, instead of answers to questions. Do you have any advice on what to consider?

You've got it backwards. Even if the entirety of your existence is based on experience, even from then you still know nothing. What if a song was playing at a restaurant while you are on a date with a girl. You notice the rhythm of the song and tap your foot to it because it's catchy. But your date then says she thinks the song is annoying and tacky. And you decided to agree with her. After that, you never hear the song again. Did you like the song? Did that song really exist, or simply did something that happened allow you to get closer to a mate? Reactions of the moment shared by people become a shared reality. But whatever wasn't shared is a leftover negative of the experience. Just as true as the shared reality, yet entirely different. That negative, that's the objectively true you. You've got to work with the negative to find answers.

I'm just contemplating my younger days when I used to think I'd amount to something in life. I tricked myself into believing I was destined to greatness but, of course, time showed that was juvenile hogwash. Now I'm doing nothing with my life and still browsing chans, albeit being over 25. The most disturbing aspect of it is that I'm not really bothered or angered, but feel a sort of quiet acceptance of my mediocrity.

>>9092816
It's the tragedy of being raised by people who had no idea what the world was really like.

>>9091858
Also, stating that the will to be does not exist outside of individual reality only disproves your point further, because it would in fact answer the initial question in favor of the solipsistic people you bashed on before.

>>9089015
I wish could write music as good as Jaco Pastorius or Richard D. James.