/lit/ - Literature

>>7507129
>went in to comp sci because stem meme
>was shit at math
>given up and going into English
>hope to be a teacher and probably a virgin for the rest of my life
>I regret everything

>>7507129
>Uni

That slang is still detestable, even in current year.

>live in a country where university is completely free
>everyone slowly study whatever they want in the rhythm they can (both considering their smarts and if they have to keep a job or a family or whatever)
>80% don't finish it anyway.
it's strange, maybe people don't really feel like having higher education if they can live without it.

>5 semesters in Engineering and Business double major
>knew I wouldnt like either of them, but "da money, muh 6 figure salary"
>Biz classes are filled with ditsy girls surprisingly
>Engineers are FAR worse, they are not just geeky guys, they are totally arrogant and absolute philistines
Like these guys were reading Harry Potter and unironically listening to Psy
>Constantly bashing EVERY other major while complaining about "How hard calc 2 izz :("
I dropped out and now work as a prep cook catering weddings.
But jokes on them because my library card still works and I check out more books than any of them

>>7507145
It's not slang though, maybe you should've gone to uni to study english and then you would know.

>>7507151
I read an article on how people are becomming more and more self sufficient, how traditional schooling is failing because people dont believe in having a bachelors, masters or even a doctorate to have the guarantee of a secure life. It was called "the death of the Curriculum Vitae"

I'm two years into history and Japanese and Japanese is really not my thing but at this point I can't really bring myself to switch either, so I keep hoping I'll somehow make it through without actually putting the effort into it.

I dropped out after two years of an English degree. This was ten years ago.

I didn't have any plan for my life or reason for going to college and was bored by most of my classes, which seemed on the same level as my high school English classes. I wrote shit papers the night before just like high school and managed to pass everything. I stopped going to class and would just go to the library and read for hours, and failed out my fourth semester.

I regret it now, mostly because it was a really prestigious school and I know I could have done well if I applied myself.

I am now almost done with a Statistics and Computer Science degree at a state school and am applying to grad schools. Still read and write, but was too scared of fucking up and nojobs to try studying humanities again.

>>7507129
I dropped maths, lied on my cv and still got a job.

Currently a year and a half into my physics degree at a pretty mediocre university (Birmingham) and I don't really see myself completing it. I'm not taken to it whatsoever but then again I can't seem to be arsed to do anything any more so I may off myself somewhere down the line. Failing that I'll leave home and get a job somewhere far moving boxes and make just enough to go home to eat horseshit, occasionally attempt to read books beyond me and watch shitshows on netflix.

Why I decided to do it? I vaguely remember spouting some shit about how it's a 'pure' attempt to seek knowledge on the universe blah blah blah. Basically an attempt to be better than others.

>>7507129

I've been going for almost 4 years without any discernible goal in mind. I'm not going back next semester. Not to say I never will; I just need to stop wasting peoples' time and money.

>>7507151
>university is completely free
Please tell me where you live, I don't want to drown in student debt for the rest of my life.

>>7507162
To add on to your point about self-sufficiency, there's shitloads of free university courses online (Harvard, MIT, Coursera, etc.) nowadays so you can teach yourself just about anything you want, but most people never finish those courses. I think I recall reading that the majority of those who do were already reasonably well-educated white/AZN men who had at least a bachelor's degree.

>>7507152
I enjoyed my engineering courses and I met some of the most entertaining people I've ever known there, but I am fully aware of the twatty culture of elitism involved in a large population of students (esp. undergrad). What always killed me was when those people acted like that towards other STEM fields that they considered not rigorous enough, no matter how advanced the person or field of study was.
>Biology lol what're you like, studying dolphin buttholes all day?
>Abstract mathematics lol not applicable to anything real
>MechE/ElecE/CompSci lol oversaturated field, you'll never get a job

I always liked how their faces would change when I told them I was studying Civil and they would start to go 'lol concrete' and then explain I was specializing in Hydraulic/Hydrologic, at which point they would always follow up with 'fuck fluid dynamics, why would you want to do that?'

My econ classes were full of people who obviously didn't want to be there. Only a few people ever spoke and the professor was constantly pissed off at the lack of participation and spent half the period insulting the class for being brainless idiots who needed to have answers spoonfed to them.

I think the only other courses I took where the students were exceptionally twatty was my mandatory Philosophy course. And I guess the premed students in Chem were pretty awful too, now that I think about it.

>>7507224
How about fusing it together into Japanese history? There's some entertaining shit to be had there.

I went quite late, as a mature student. Started two years later than most people graduate here.

I think I was much better off as a result. I knew more or less exactly what I wanted, and because it was my own money and time, I took it really seriously. I really feel like I had huge advantages over the younger people.

Posting because I watched a lot of those people either drop out, or do equally destructive things because of the same things that made the drop-outs drop out. They just didn't know what they wanted, but they were rushed into it so young by their parents. I mean, for me, first and second year were miserable slogs through courses I didn't want to do, but I found ways to squeeze in the stuff I DID want to do, and when I got to really tackling my major I enjoyed it. But I saw so many people burning out in first and second year because they got slammed with an obnoxious courseload full of gen-eds right out of high school, and lost interest in the whole process of university (not to say their actual intellectual interests) as a result. Then by third or fourth year, because they're so tired of it they don't grab on to the opportunities for real study, and it just seems like "what, another two years of this shit?"

For you younger people, try to keep your head above the water and find the things you love. Also, don't be worried about flubs and fuck-ups and taking an imperfect trajectory through life. Everyone's was a little imperfect, and most people I've encountered had at least one major wonky episode where they lost an entire year of productivity or even got an entire degree they didn't really want. Life is complicated.

I went quite late, as a mature student. Started two years later than most people graduate here.

I think I was much better off as a result. I knew more or less exactly what I wanted, and because it was my own money and time, I took it really seriously. I really feel like I had huge advantages over the younger people.

Posting because I watched a lot of those people either drop out, or do equally destructive things because of the same things that made the drop-outs drop out. They just didn't know what they wanted, but they were rushed into it so young by their parents. I mean, for me, first and second year were miserable slogs through courses I didn't want to do, but I found ways to squeeze in the stuff I DID want to do, and when I got to really tackling my major I enjoyed it. But I saw so many people burning out in first and second year because they got slammed with an obnoxious courseload full of gen-eds right out of high school, and lost interest in the whole process of university (not to say their actual intellectual interests) as a result. Then by third or fourth year, because they're so tired of it they don't grab on to the opportunities for real study, and it just seems like "what, another two years of this shit?"

For you younger people, try to keep your head above the water and find the things you love. Also, don't be worried about flubs and fuck-ups and taking an imperfect trajectory through life. Everyone's was a little imperfect, and most people I've encountered had at least one major wonky episode where they lost an entire year of productivity or even got an entire degree they didn't really want. Life is complicated.

Racist image redacted.

>>7507129

Studied Engineering and realized I would off myself if I did that for the rest of my life so now I'm a welder.
I'm probably going to get the cancer and die at 60 but other than its chill as hell.

>tfw crippling depression prohibits me from getting in to Uni
i don't want to be (me) anymore.

>>7507446
>How about fusing it together into Japanese history? There's some entertaining shit to be had there.
Thanks. The problem is that I just don't have the discipline (and ultimately, motivation) to keep up with language classes (which I would have to take either way), an I'm not sure if that would give me the necessary push. The sad truth is I know it's not working out but I'm also too much of a coward to switch as long as there is a theoretical chance I might pass the semester (the moment I'd switch I'd knew for certain I'm looking at at least three more years of financial struggle, I'd have to confront my parents, etc.)

Studied engineering for three years. Instead of gaining new skills and refining the ones I already had, I became worse in every way during my time at school. I'm in debt up to my eyeballs with nothing to show for it. I have nothing left.

>>7507129
I never went to uni and I regret it because I have no life

>>7507129
>I dropped out of uni because I didn't want to go at the time
>One year cost my parents close to 21,000 dollars they didn't have
>quit after two weeks
>Quit my job a few months later
>Got a new job at a movie theatre where a man was shot
>quit
>find new job
>begin community college
>quit job
>continue community college
>work as tutor at their writing center
It's good work and most of the professors I've had teach the same classes at the uni I dropped out of.

>>7507698
This, except I'm from country where university is free, so I only wasted time. But I met some interesting people and get decent job with their help. I dont regret it at all, learned nothing, but it was fun.

>>7507497
Start from the bottom. You have a chance most do not to rebuild your life with the objectivity that comes from seeking true fulfillment over societal fitting in.

>>7507129
Economics, first year
I dont regret it, but i still dont know whic major i should choose. I must choose between something which could give work in future and good income (IT) and something i genuinely enjoy but might be "art for art sake" (music or literature)

>>7507733
All art is a job if you really are committed to it. Persevere with your "passion" and you will be able to live with it as a creator or an academic and if you can't manage that question whether it is truly your passion.

I went to study philosophy but found out I was still an autist who couldn't express himself and decided to drop out. On my way to the other autists in STEM I guess.

graduated 10 years ago, never found a job.

feels bad man.

>>7507733
I also quit on econ first year. Originally wanted to get into behavioral economics, but I soon realized you could only specialize in that in the grad level and that you'd only be able to take 1 or 2 courses in it as an undergrad. Ironically enough, I ended up taking a few courses in my new major that touched on behavioral.

Also despised how amoral/unconcerned with ethics the major was. It was all about graphs without any second devoted to whether it may be fucked up that we're aiming for 7% unemployment for an optimal economy or avoiding raising minimum wage because it's inefficient, etc.

>>7507766
>Also despised how amoral/unconcerned with ethics the major was. It was all about graphs without any second devoted to whether it may be fucked up that we're aiming for 7% unemployment for an optimal economy or avoiding raising minimum wage because it's inefficient, etc.
similiar thought desu

>>7507728
I met some good people there, but I've come to resent them (and hate myself even more) for their successes. I've reached the point where I'm no longer functional enough to hold a job, so there's very little chance that I'll be able to repay my debt.

I wish I had done it differently. It hurts to see my old friends becoming fully educated in something they're passionate about.

>>7507766
Not that guy, I thought the perspective was interesting, but that might be because I have a hard time empathizing with other people to start with. Most of my engineering and science classes at least touched on ethical issues relevant to those fields, but the looseness of econ ethics fascinated me. It's not devoid of ethical concerns, the field just perceives them in a different light or lowers their priority.

I guess I like the gamelike aspect of econ. I've been thinking of taking some econ classes for fun.

I "dropped out" or more like took a break this semester, working 2 jobs to save up some money. I was planning on going military because I'm so fucking tired of school shit, but I'm just going to switch my major to English because it's something I actually enjoy and try it again taking it slow next semester with two courses.
hopefully I'll graduate by 2 years and set off as an Air Force officer.

>>7507497
stop being a sad fuck. that's all there is to it

>inb4 chemical imbalance

>>7507371
>pretty mediocre university (Birmingham)
birmingham in the UK or in america? Because I thought the UK one was supposed to be pretty good.

>>7507129
>Dropped out after the first year (Comp sci)
>Now earn $150k as a web developer
>Ended up not needing a degree for what I do

However, reading Stoner has made me wish that I finished a degree, so that I could get into teaching. Before I choose computer science, I was going to study English lit and be a teacher. I'm 28 now, so maybe I'm a little old to begin that journey. Maybe in another life.

>>7507129
I've planning to quit.
Pretty much everyone in my family, with the exception of my parents, complain about how useless, lazy, and worth-for-nothing I am. The fact that I never had a job (23 y/o) is what they usually bring up, with the fact that I hardly care about family matters that seem to upset everybody.

I've been thinking about dropping college and getting a job, not to please them (although it seem that's what they want) but to move away soon and never speak to them again.

>nice blog entry m8
I'm sorry

>>7507853
You're not too old. I've known several middle-aged people who have gone back to university to get a degree and go in to teaching. It's not as uncommon as you'd think.

I've been planning to quit.
Pretty much everyone in my family, with the exception of my parents, complain about how useless, lazy, and worth-for-nothing I am. The fact that I never had a job (23 y/o) is what they usually bring up, with the fact that I hardly care about family matters that seem to upset everybody. Also, people usually finish college at 21, but I'm still there, which kind of put me down.

The plan was drop college and get a job, not to please them (although it seem that's what they want) but to move away soon and never speak to them again.

>nice blog entry m8
I'm sorry

>>7507853
>>Now earn $150k as a web developer
h-how senpai

>>7507371
>(Birmingham)
I love their accent.

>>7507870
What's your major though?

I'd quit life before I quit school desu senpai

>>7507870
Don't quit, man. Finish.
You're family'd have more ammo if you quit too.

>>7507910
Double in philosophy and mathematics.

>>7507943
>You're family'd have more ammo if you quit too.
I know, but the idea of moving away quickly is something I've wanted for a long time.
It would be great if I can get a well-paid part-time job, but getting a job nowadays it's like pic related

>>7507475
thanks. this helps.

>>7507910
Double in philosophy and mathematics.

>>7507943
>You're family'd have more ammo if you quit too.
I know, but the idea of moving away quickly is something I've wanted for a long time.
It would be great if I can get a well-paid part-time job, but getting a job nowadays is like pic related

>>7507989
So isn't that worth studying?

>>7507989
>the idea I've wanted for a long time.
There isn't even any grass. Get your degree, man.
>people usually finish college at 21
How are you gonna feel when you get your degree even later than 23 ? Persevere.

>>7507989
If you have the chance to get through, do it. The regret I feel from failing to do so is so intense that it's tough to describe. A college degree has Holy Grail- like significance in my mind at this point.

>>7507129
>Uni is very cheap in my country, and there are no requirements to start any study (except Medicin)
>My entire class from highschool went to Uni
>Had to go to Uni, it was expected, but no idea why
>Study Law, 3rd year already
>Decent grades, never thought of quitting though I'm not really motivated or see myself doing anything Law-related in the future

>>7507989
My father dropped out of uni and still regrets it I think. Finish your studies, can't take you too long considering the time you've already put into it, right?

>started mechatronics
had no chance due to work (logistics manager) and the fact that i never went to school (bought a cheap eastern european degree for 300$... i'm dyslexic, depressive and have a cardiovascular desease)
>dropped out after two semesters
>started to study sociology/statistics
quit job after 5 years
>failed this semester after 6 successful ones

>>7508172
>i'm dyslexic, depressive and have a cardiovascular desease

Oh, come fucking on.

>>7507129
>Computer Science
>2 years.
>Yes
>Depression. I was good but stopped turning up to lectures, then it was too late to rescue it and I didn't follow the easy enough route to repeat a year. I fantasise about going back and doing lit / phil but I think I would make the same [non-]decisions. I still got a decent job as a programmer, but I'm not where I could be.

>>7507989
That picture is kinda Kafkaesque.

>>7508289
>Depression. I was good but stopped turning up to lectures
Same thing happened to me
I still have to get back to the doctor to get a new prescription of antidepressants, but I'm ashamed to do so, because this is the second time I dropped the treatment...

>>7507129
>How many of you quit Uni?
Haven't
>What were you studying? How far did you get?
Went from premed to psych to lit. One semester from graduating, and every book I've read for class has been shit. Wish I majored in physics or maths now
>Do you regret it?
Yes. Should have done trade school instead. Become a carpenter or something. Join the army.
>Why did you do it?
Because I'm a middle class white male and I felt I was supposed to go to uni.

>>7507371
I wish I went to Birmingham instead of Chester. I visited it last year and it was great. I come from Wolverhampton so that would have been a nice bonus.

I studied English Lit/Lang for my first year and was ready to drop out this year because it went horribly. I had to retake 3/4 assessments in August and I hated the university life in general because I'm no good at it. No confidence and no friends. I didn't drop out and now I travel 3 hours a day on the train just to get there and back, because I didn't organise any accommodation during the summer.

I'm having one of the worst times of my life but it would be much, much worse had I continued with English Language. They let me change to pure Literature, and it's a lot better. It's actually fun. I have no social life to speak of, no girlfriend and I get home at stupid times, but it could be worse. Maybe.

I understand that I'm lucky to go to university and that I'm in a minority I wouldn't be in if I dropped out. I hope that the experience is making me more resilient. There's only about another 10 weeks to go of university anyway, which is partially why I continued.

>>7507757
My worst fear. I'm going to get out with a degree and no job with a metric shitload of debt.

I dropped out of CS degree from UCLA and made a video game instead. Got 6 million from it now I live in the hollwood hills and chill.

Do I regret it? Fuck no.

>>7508609

Uh huh. What game would that be, anon?

>>7508614
>comes at me with a condescending approach and expects an answer from me
You can try that again.

>>7508625

I'm sorry for being skeptical when someone on an Iberian basket weavers' support group website says they made $6M from vidya. I take it it was an indie game?

>>7507151
>University is completely free
So teachers don't need to get paid, aight?

>>7508639
In the same way you don't say 'I paid to travel on the road this morning'. Stop being willingly obtuse.

>>7508625
Hahaha! Teenfag is terrible liar!

I'm 19 years old.

I am handsome, smart, athletic and virile.

I have a novel that is in it's final editing stage, and a creative writing professor at my college has read the first draft and thinks it's saleable.

I have a girlfriend who is confident, articulate, playful and spontaneous.

I have a small group of interesting friends from different social and academic backgrounds, and I also have many other acquaintances who see me as a reliable source of humour and good company.

Both my parents are alive and in good health.

I have no regrets.

I have already experienced three existential crises, the latter of which was described as having the depth and profundity of a man twice my age.

I am a passionate lover, a sharp thinker, and a trader of witty repartee.

I am not self-pitying, meek or needlessly humble.

I will live a good life at your expense.

>>7507868
This basically. My Trig and Calculus teacher in high school was one of the big brain guys at IBM and decided after retiring that he wanted to teach. Dude was awesome, we pretended he had to be immortal with all the cool shit he did in one lifetime.

>>7507497
>>7507829
feeling like shit because of feeling like shit is a vicious circle

Didn't even go to Uni, I quit college (UK, 16-18) in my second year (incompetent Comp Sci teacher, the class dropped from 30 people down to 3 by the second year, I couldn't drop it myself because I'd already dropped another subject).

Sat around for a couple of months before I turned 18, got a job shelf stacking, been doing that every since (3ish years).

I very much would like to go to Uni, but I'm not sure how I'd go about doing it. I don't know if I'd need to finish college, in which case I feel as if I'd be wasting my time backtracking, and also be surrounded by immature teens (it's bad enough listening to their idle conversation on the bus on the way to work, they talk for the sake of talking).

I don't think Uni would be much better either, especially in something non-STEM, these people have no real perspective. I don't claim that my job is difficult or anything, after all I just work in a shop, but I know the value of money, I pay for what I have, I neither want nor expect handouts, and that'd put me at odds with all of the lefties I feel I'd be surrounded with at any University.

So I just sit here and stew, shitposting between work and sleep, never progressing. Saddest part is my teachers at secondary school actually had high hopes for me, all of my grades were A-A*, nothing lower, and yet here I am, considering my exit strategy.

>>7507129
Business and no I don't regret it. This is my first Winter without crippling depression and it also happens to be my first Winter our of Uni.

Now I'm saving money for a month across the country. I'll return to college someday but right now I just want to live life and hang out with other young people like myself.

>>7507129
Business and no I don't regret it. This is my first Winter without crippling depression and it also happens to be my first Winter out of Uni.

Now I'm saving money for a month across the country. I'll return to college someday but right now I just want to live life and hang out with other young people like myself.

>>7507129
Business and no I don't regret it. This is my first Winter without crippling depression and it also happens to be my first Winter out of Uni. Now I'm saving money for a move across the country. I'll return to college someday but right now I just want to live life and hang out with other young people like myself.

>>7508691
I don't know because I went straight from sixth form to university, but you would probably need to finish college.
Besides that, your issues seem to be rooted in preconceived prejudices of people based on lies you've been fed on here. University students in this country are not the same as the ones in the USA. Not everyone is a 'lefty'. Not everyone is stuck in a vacuum.

>>7508691
>Saddest part is my teachers at secondary school actually had high hopes for me, all of my grades were A-A*, nothing lower, and yet here I am, considering my exit strategy.
the GCSE's are piss easy though, after all they're designed so even the biggest retard with no revision or work ethic can at least get a C.

>>7508727
C's the average for a reason, they aren't difficult but it's also not easy to get 95% in every subject.

Uni? I didnt even finish gymnasium.

>>7508691
i'm a neet and i want your life
if you don't live with your parents

>>7507129
>I quit.
>Computer Engineering, two years, worked an internship in the automation department of a factory.
>Not at all
>I realized that I was at a school where the purpose of my education was to get a job, and that if I wasn't passionate about my job that it wouldn't matter how much money I had. So now I work laboring positions and do people's college work for money on the side. I have little more than I need and life is fantastic.

>>7507129
I'm 22.
>Dropped out of English lit during the first semester, alcoholism induced depression.
>French lit, start drinking again, depression, dropped out during the first semester.
>Philosophy, morbid alcoholism, suicidal depression, get diagnosed with BPD, killed myself a couple of times, dropped out during the first semester.
>English lit again, been sober but meds were making my brain too squishy, stopped cold turkey, a variety of withdrawal symptoms, still recovering, going to drop out during the first semester.
I regret being born.
I think I want to be a tailor.

> studying for Civil Engineering degree
> get bored/depressed half way through.
> spend a day writing a top notch resume but more importantly a a personally catered cover letter for each employer.
>get job after one week.
> one year later get promoted to regional analyst with 60k salary and company car

I get that i'm the minority but all it really took was about a weeks worth of effort. FYI i'm not even white. I'm a fucking arab in Arizona of all places. Try harder.

>>7508825
Fuck off normie.

>>7508834
Will do. Sorry to bother you guys.

>>7507129
Poli sci
One semester
nah
I Just left, I have a concussion and can't do much work other then reading, but it takes me hours to read small amounts. I'll probs go back in sept

>>7508825

Regional analyst, you say
What do you do as one of those? What was your position before being promoted?

>>7508798
>killed myself a couple of times
>still alive to post here
Forget tailor, become a magician or something.

In all seriousness though, good luck with all that, anon.

>>7508888
I can tell you it was an entry level desk job. Got promoted about 7 months in to manage a group of people doing what i did. So far taking data from a newly acquired company in a different state and putting together metrics to compare to all of our original branches. It's cushy as fuck and i can work remotely from home.

>>7508922

That sounds pretty fuckin great, and $60k is more than I'd even need. Real jelly, anon. Glad it worked out for you.

>>7507475

great post. insightful.

>>7508931
For sure. Btw i'm 25 years old and have been clinically depressed my entire life. I haven't been diagnosed but i'm pretty sure i have mild tourettes as well. Life isnt all that great anon. Money will only go so far, and in some cases may even make things worse because you'll stop being distracted with things like making rent or being hungry, and will have to focus on your mental health and real life existential struggle. I wish i was dead everyday anon. I'm going to go back to reading Palefire. Have a good one.

>>7508669
K...Keep me posted.

>>7507870

youre doing fine. get through it though, it wont be easy, but you are still young and you have loads of potential.

>>7508691
You can always go to Birkbeck (Man with low grades: this is a place you could go) which is a fairly high quality evening university, and any of the universities in London tend to be a bit more fun (My dad lectures art history at Middlesex and Liverpool JM and even though both are a bit crap he says that the Londoners at least bother having opinions). You have to be willing to seek out people worth talking to at univeristy, talk to lecturers, talk to mature students, talk to students in their 3rd year or masters or phds. There are interesting people, there are people who care about their course, there just aren't that many, so you have to put in the effort to find them.

>>7508825
Can you take a look at my resume and tell me why I can't find a job? I've tried my hardest to use my /lit/ skills to get employed but nobody wants to take me on

>>7509017
Is that a joke?

>>7508669
I have a feeling You write like shit

I think you are lying

I think you are full of regrets

I assume you are a virgin

I welcome you to 4chan /lit/

>>7509017
Have you tried Sams Club, I hear they are looking for people with skills in Shelf replenishment

>>7509017
>10/10 would hire to restock shelves

>>7507475
Thanks mate needed to hear that.

>>7508958

I'm sorry anon. I think you need discernible goals to work toward throughout your life, or else, like you said, you end up becoming introspective to a fault and focusing on your existential absurdities and awkwardnesses (which, in my own experience, will cripple you).

I don't know what to say friend. I hope you find something that makes you not want to die as much, though.

what major is required for menial office work?

>>7509192
computer science

>>7509177
>discernible

>>7508669
>, the latter of which was described as having the depth and profundity of a man twice my age.
I'm very surprised that you have a small group of close friends. You sound unbearably smarmy

>>7509207

Yes, that's a word I used. What is your implication?

who /droppedoutandgotfat/ here?

>>7509192
Menial office work doesn't care too much about what your major was, just that you have a degree.
Majoring in business probably helps you get a job
>>7509198
If CS gets you menial work, you're dumb. I have a six figure starting salary with a CS degree.

>>7509038
>replenish*

I slogged through my English degree, but fantasized constantly about dropping out and adopting any one of a number of radical lifestyles (most having something to do with living frugally). After living with my parents and working odd jobs for a year and a half, I got a skilled labor job in the transportation industry. It pays all right but I kind of suck and have to live at work for weeks at a time and endure angry tradesmen yelling at me. I rent a super cheap room in a kinda cool small city. My roommates are musicians. I continue to have few friends and no romantic partners. If I can't handle/learn this job adequately, I'll quit and try something new. I dread almost every job i take. I haven't found a creative outlet for me to express myself. I love people and crave relationships but I'm introverted and out of touch. I think I'm getting a little healthier mentally and emotionally, and I attribute this to being more active. I'm trying make like Molly Bloom and "say yes" to life.

>>7509223
Sorry bro, my tall slim physique is one of my few sources of pride

>>7507129
I dropped out of English at Berkeley to study Computer Science in my hometown. Feels bretty good but my dream job is still to be a writer.

Its bullshit you have to finish to get any chance at a nicer job. This has to change.

>>7509441

>Im wasting the precious time I have on this earth
>my dream is over here but Im not really moving towards it even though it will take me working every single day to get there
>I'll always be able to say I tried! The real world is just too tough

First time I've been here in about a year
I hopeyou really understand this
Fuck you. Go chase your dream

>>7507446
>Please tell me where you live, I don't want to drown in student debt for the rest of my life.
not that guy but university in Germany is basically free (depending on which federal state the university is in, there may be fees of ~500€ / semester iirc)

>>7507475
I was strongly considering dropping out before starting my fourth semester on a degree path I'm still unsure about. I dropped a course after two weeks, failed another by never going, and got subpar grades in all my other ones due to sheer laziness. This made me reconsider. Thanks.

>>7508669
Cool pasta, friend.

>>7507844
The one in the UK. I don't know, maybe it is.When I didn't get into Imperial I just picked whatever.

>>7507890
Heh yeah it can be a pretty charming accent I think, especially the black country variety. Not so much the case for some of the scuzzier inner city dwellers. Still, whenever I catch myself picking it up I undergo a mini speech therapy session.

>>7508337
I have to say Birmingham can be pretty great. I don't know where Chester is but it sure sounds like a hole. Good luck to you though.

>>7507129
I made the decision not to return to school this past summer. I studied history and had one year left to graduate. I left because I had lost all interest in school and the work had become too tedious and stressful. I'm sure I'll regret it in the future but right now I'm just enjoying life and trying to finish my first screenplay.

>>7508099
are you french?

>>7509440
comfy/10
what is the job?

>>7509475
Some of us, probably most of us, need MONEY to "chase our dreams."

I'm almost 24 and just started out on a STEM program. I am surrounded by 19~20 years old that remind me every day of the time I've wasted. At least I'm doing the right thing now, I guess.

>>7510286
>STEM program
>the right thing
hehe

>>7510288
What's funny?

I didn't.

>degree in genetics
>masters in immunology
>have never once read anything scientific in a non studying capacity
>just want to read classics and write essays on them
>will be in STEM forever

>>7510288
How you called STEM program 'the right thing'.

>>7508669
>I have already experienced three existential crises, the latter of which was described as having the depth and profundity of a man twice my age.
Lol that's crazy, the only difference is I'm 4.'ing uni with a major three minors (business math german econ) and still could outwrite your shit tier writing. Also I support my smart, clever, hot, accepted into best art schools in the country, girlfriend through trauma she's suffered. Your humbleness is lacking in all the ways you are.
>fin

>>7510321
was meant to quote >>7510309

>>7508669
How is it possible that so many people still haven't seen this pasta LOL

>dramatic arts major
>dramatic arts majors are annoying as fuck desu
>drank too much and did too many drugs
>attempted suicide
>overdosed on xanax
>i dont really know how i feel abt it anymore
>going back to uni next fall for publishing
>wtf

>>7510321
Yes, that I understood. Why is a STEM program the wrong choice, though?

I realized about a year into accounting that I'd blow my brains out if I spent my whole life with it. I'm currently working in a warehouse and waiting till fall to go to a 2 year school for forestry.

>>7510349
it's a /lit/ meme

and the truth

>>7507446
Engineering fags are the worst.
I don't know what it is, but they're almost all awful.

My best friend is in civil and I make fun of him for not taking a real science.

Why would I quit uni? Time fucking flies now,not like when I was at school

>>7507129
I'm a dropout

>studied Latin at an ivy
>hung around with a good amount of stem nerds as well
>one of them had a pretty good tech start up idea
>asks me to be CCO because I'm a stoic big guy and a good strategic thinker, his words
>provide some starting capital, do my job well, resolving nerd's disputes is easy
>I'm good with computers anyway so I know generally what they're talking about most of the time, regulations haven't been a big problem yet
>get 15% stock because they like me
>start spending an incredible amount of time at the house we used at an office
>skip class
>eventually just drop out because fuck it, I make enough money
>fast forward two years
>we have a small office in Brooklyn, employ about 20 people, I'm still CCO, have lawyers who work for me
>pretty inexperienced, but I still do well
>thinking of going to law school because of all the regulatory tape we face
>literally on call 24/7 because my friends/coworkers/nerds/geniuses/savants have intense disagreements over trivial matters and their egos threaten the entire company
>made about 100k last year, plus about double that in bonuses
>will continue to make more until we plateau
>live frugally, only spend money on books, rent, and food (but I have a smallish trust for stuff if I really want it)
>22 years old

don't regret it at all. I have real-world experience and good connections. I do kinda miss chilling with some profs, though. Also, college girls are far less gold-digging than the ones I've met as an adult in NYC. I mainly fuck prostitutes and sluts on tinder, kinda scared of an actual relationship because my life is going so well and women tend to fuck that shit up.

>>7507853
>Another life
Just do it now, buddy. You don't get second chances.

I live in Chile (south america). I studied psychology for 3 years and got kicked out. Just did the chilean version of the SATs and in the next few days I have to decide what to study (which means staying here with my parents for 5 more years). I'm not sure if going to college is for me, I was just thinking about leaving and backpacking around the world. Is it very necessary or useful to have a degree in whatever shit when you are backpacking around the world? Do people respect you more or is life generally easier if I get a degree? I like psychology but I don't wont to work as a psychologist, I'm thinking that by leaving now and traveling I would become more mature and learn more than if I studied again.

>>7510441
Nice m8. I wish you the best. Hold off on a proper relationship until you're sure you're ready for it.

>>7510486
Are you intending to stay in Chile if you do get a degree or move elsewhere?

>>7507853
You can still teach with many orgs, for example http://software-carpentry.org/join/

Definately move elsewhere. I'm basically deciding if I go with what my parents say, start college again, finish and then leave and live life backpacking around the wolrd working in whatever, or doing that same thing right now, no college degree, just me and life.

>>7510530
A university degree would certainly help your status as a traveler, especially if you intend to work.

I quit Law during my first year. Some of the reasons were I lost my virginity to a girl who cheated on me, my dad threw me out (to Uni), and I hated the structure and lack of creativity in the Law degree. Don't regret it much.

>>7510332
Right? Newfag invasion

>>7510325
Newfag
Cuckold

>>7509440, here.

Here's a question: are any of you getting work doing stuff like editing, proofreading, or transcription? I would love to have some low key freelance or flexible part-time work to earn a little extra cash and make myself feel like I'm not completely abandoning my English skills.

I know from experience that I don't want to be a full time copy*writer*. I just want to maintain my skills while I work in a completely unrelated field. Repetitive work and tedious subject matter is a-ok.

>>7507475
Thanks for your message, anon.

Best of luck with your life :)

I currently study Ukrainian and Indian and I decided to give up to pursue film. I fell in love with editing and photography. I'm from the Balkam area and all these ex-yu countries are terrible for anyone trying to find a little bit of motivation for life.

I would like to still go to some of those language courses because I like the IDEA of knowing more of these languages. I can speak english and german well too, so I hope to try and study abroad.

All of this is a vague description of "what I want" , in reality I feel like dying, not because of depression but because I simply live like a leech and live with my mom who struggles with finances and I can't get a good job to give her some for rent AND pay for university.

I hope I'll find some glimmer of hope and get off my ass and start working and fill my lungs with the breath of purpose in life, get into a university I would like to go to every morning and willing to learn, educate myself. I can't get my thoughts across well in english but lets just say I'm in dire need of will to finally live like a man is supposed to live

>>7510689
>I'm in dire need of will to finally live like a man is supposed to live
I know that feel.

Went to a state university for two years, English. I learned jack and shit for the amount of work I was doing, and ruined my own social standing in my frat. I left in disgrace and now am working on my novel in relative solitude.

If I could tell my past self, I'd have recommended just getting a job out of high school and working on my writing like mad instead of fucking around with the grad students they called teachers.

>>7507129

>be 17 almost done with high school (hated it)
>got a scholarship out of nowhere
>dont know what to study. have a vague sense of it
>parents say i should do engineering
>want to save it for next year as i was not sure
>parents say i cant just be at home "doing nothing"
>dont know real value of what a scholarship represents
>think "its ok, if i dont like it no money was waste"
>literally search careers in one afternoon with father. it was decided (the uni that was offering the scholarship).didnt even go to see the campus.
>realize i was a dense modafucka
>Drop out at near end of the semester out of self-indused stress (the career was environmental engineer, at least 1 semester was easy af but couldnt cope with inner doubs)
>lost access to all kinds of media as "punishment" 1 hour of pc at day at best with vigilance.
>spend the next 6 months like a hermit doing nothing
>Depression began to sung its teeths
>dont want to continue being like that
>choose a career just because of that (didnt even want to) be it mechatronical engineer
>after 2 semester transfer to biomedical engineer (same uni) because medical stuff was at least not such of burden for me (not difficult, everything was easy as fuck. but in the sense of unwanted work)
>completed 5 semester
>stress and depression was to much for me to bear. didnt continue.
>"friends" convinced me to enter biology at their uni
>enter it at last minute
>first half of the time was good. the other uni was way better at structure and surroundings also got the company of several "friends" everything seemed good
>at half semester for some unknow reason to me depression returned. began skiping classes or days enterily. Couldnt get out of beds some days.
>notes droped skyrocket down. couldnt even read properly anymore or think
>always tried my best at the present of other as i didnt want to be a burden to them. didnt want to look weak too.
>begin to see "friends" life improve. actually happy for them. start hearing rumours that they talk bad about me
>dont mind it
>after weeks of actual battle to just trying to get my shit up and go to uni i broke
>couldnt keep my happy acting face or usual behaviour
>be potatoe me at uni coushions all day (21)
>at first some uni ppl and friends tried to "care" or "help" telling me advices and stuff, couldnt even hear it properly
>some days pass the rumours and things i heard were real, at that point they didnt even cared. said them to my face. apparently they never liked me, they just were with me because they didnt had anybody till they got their grop at uni
>be sad at realization
>drop out and cut all connections
>havent done anything in maybe 8 months
>be 22
>realize i dont have any real passion to anything in particular
>realize my mind is now nihilist
>find no motivation in anything
>dont know what to do

>>7510747
>ruined my own social standing in my frat. I left in disgrace
how?

>>7510756
good, good. you're on the path to patricianhood, anon.

>>7507129
all you need senpai

>>7510765

Elaborate please

>>7510756
>realize i dont have any real passion to anything in particular
>realize my mind is now nihilist
>find no motivation in anything
>dont know what to do

My college career wasn't 1/3rd as fucked as yours, but this is exactly where I am now. I'm not going back next semester. We'll make it, right anon? We're not completely stupid, we can make something happen.

I'm still on my first year and have not considered dropping out yet but I fear I will end up doing it eventually due to my crippling inferority complex(racially motivated). If I drop out I would be considering getting a pilots license to try to become a commerical airline pilot.

I've been thinking about applying to the military to do bomb defusal work.

At least that way I have a chance dying doing something meaningful and kind of cool.

>>7507766
I'm in my final semester of a double major in economics and political science. I've finished all of my economics courses, and I just have a couple of poli sci credits to finish up.

It's true that you don't specialise in anything like behavioural economics in undergrad, but I think your concern about the field's amorality would be alleviated if you'd stuck it out a bit longer. All of my intermediate courses, while fairly math intensive, had at least one or two units on welfare theorems and whether or not it would be good to impose an inefficient market outcome if it helped out the less fortunate. Also, the quips about minimum wage being inefficient, etc. are essentially dropped after first year because the truth is much more complicated than the simplistic supply and demand analysis you get in introductory courses.

As an aside, I lean quite socialist, and this has not changed despite my being able to maximise consumer utility.

At any rate, if you are concerned about the lack of care for ethics and whatnot in economics, I would advise you to take political science alongside it. My university has a programme that is very focused on political thought (philosophy), so I was able to supplement what was lacking in the economics department with my readings of Kant, Hegel, Marx, etc.

>>7507797
Game theory in undergrad economics--at least in my experience--is very simplistic and you don't get into anything terribly interesting until the grad school preparatory courses. I'd recommend looking for a course under the math department for game theory instead.

>>7507129
>How many of you quit Uni?
I did not.
>What were you studying? How far did you get?
I graduated.
>Do you regret it?
I don't regret graduating. I would regret not graduating, because it inevitably means a waste of time and money.
>Why did you do it?
I graduated because I'm not retarded or poor.

>>7508639
taxes are used to pay teachers and hospitals, so people are happy to pay them because they get something out of it.

>>7507446
>Please tell me where you live, I don't want to drown in student debt for the rest of my life.
Argentina, we have decent universities in a handful of subjects but nothing too impressive. A couple good science fields, debatably good or bad psych since they really stick to Lacan, and freedoms to get what you call liberal arts degrees since it's all the same.

>>7510871
As long as we can make a good plan. I'm sure we will make it out

>>7510915
I picked up a couple books on more intensive game theory from the library to get a gander at them before I made up my mind. I think MIT Open Courseware also has a few classes on the subject, so I could save myself more money that way.

>>7510876
If piloting doesn't work out, you could do air traffic control. I've heard there's been a lot of vacancies in that field.

>>7507129
Me.
Nursing two and a half years
I try not to think about it cause the regret is massive, In shame I don't talk to anyone and I had a great thing going on. probe my biggest regret

Parted too much and was depressed.

>>7507475
I'm 18 and my loans for college got messed up, so I'm just sitting around working part time now and saving up. Thanks for the encouraging post, doode. It's nice to think I might not be living on the street a year or two from now

>>7510947
Can't you go back to school?

Why does everyone here have depression? It's like everyone is pretending to be some nihilistic novel protagonist.

>>7511002

Having literary interests and depression are going to correlate fairly well since they both tend to involve a high degree of contemplation.

>>7510987
I was going to a private Catholic school, so money is the issue also shame.

>>7511006
I was under the impression that depressed people don't even bother thinking much at all.

>>7511017
How so? What do you figure depression is like?

>>7511033
Well depression inhibits you from doing much and deprives you of energy.

>>7507870
I recently turn 23 familia, lazy but i did have some jobs. And finished college about 5 months ago. Done some interviews waiting for the call, dating casually, tight money. Next year probably is gonna be better. So cheer up senpai and finish you studies, also get a job.

>>7511042
Those are some of the symptoms yes but so is contemplation. Especially contemplation regarding suicide and simmilar topics.

>>7511060
I see.

Rather than quitting, I've continued into a PhD program because I don't know what else to do with my life and I get paid to do it.

>>7511002
Since the definition is kept vague so they can keep making new drugs that maybe fix it in some cases but not in others it's very easy to find yourself having the symptoms and being professionally diagnosed.

>>7508834
>>7508852
lol

>>7507145
I thought I was the only one who was irritated by this

>>7510756
start to work, practice sport

>>7510441
think you got lost friend, r/wishfulfillment is elsewhere :)

>these losers are the kind of people who claim to be "intellectual" and "well-read"

this fucking thread lmao, /lit/ truly is the most fraudulent board. even more pathetic than r9k - at least they don't pretend to be what they aren't and are generally honest with themselves

>>7510756
youre not as bad as me, at least

>finish tenth grade
>shit grades
>never gave two shits about school, always hated it
>dont wanna do anything or study anything
>start business/service related line of education in gymansium
>have no interest in it
>after the first year ive skipped so much and flinked most subjects i have to redo the year
>the same again
>become a neet
>become a stoner
>parents nag at me to get a job
>eventually they give up
>then i get a job, a shitty ass job doing nothing getting paid shit at doing pretend computer work at some place
>quit the job, go back to neet
>get a new job at a convencience store
>doesnt pay that bad in my country
>been there for almost two years now
>no clue what to do with my life
>getting sick of my job gonna quit come summer otherwise ill go insane
>would like to play music, but asocial AF and would be hard to find a band or something.

i dont even know fellas. im not even depressed or anything anymore. Just dunno what to do with my life and im fucking 25 now. just spend my days, working, lifting, reading, gaming and playing guitar.

>>7511343
This is scarily similar to my story, but I guess that's why we both ended up on 4chan. Truth is, I only ever had one dream in my life, which was to work in entertainment, particularly as a writer, but I guess I became convinced at some point that it wasn't really attainable so I've just drifted aimlessly ever since. Doesn't matter, though. I squeeze every goddamn drop of enjoyment out of life that it's possible to, given my circumstances.

>>7509491
Tuition in Germany has been abolished federally for EU students, afaik.

Anyway, a rule of thumb (with minor exceptions) is that within EU: east of Germany (inclusive), universities are free. Major exception being Scotland, with universities being free for Scots, Irish and the continental EU.

Americans usually have to pay though. The tuition alone is somewhere around 500 - 2000€ / year on the "free" universities. Plus the usual living expenses.

>>7511397
*Americans and the rest of the world.

Dropped out of philosophy after a few years since my sceptic/nihilistic tendencies made it impossible for me to muster the willpower to continue to engage with what seemed basically like nonsensical memes to me with the required dedication.

Don't regret dropping out.

>>7511013
PUC?

>>7507129

Dropped out.

Studied history, was a junior. When one of my last remaining close family members died my junior year I broke down after dealing with the realization that I was almost completely alone in the world. Long story short I started taking care of sick or addicted family members when I was 10 and it all the psychological damage caught up with me in college.

Decided to stop wasting my time paying 40k a year and go back to my home town, my church and the job that I love. I might finish up my degree at a local school this year though.

>>7507129

Never even applied. Never took the SAT. University is for the slaves and drudges of tomorrow.

>>7507135
Basically me

>17
>psychology major
>went through several mental health problems (anxiety, depression)
>expectations lowered, teachers and college were really mediocre and below average
>didn't get a single friend, loneliness
>decided to quit
>18
>wasted a whole year and a half
>going for a History major in a somewhat decent university
>non-profitable career
>living in a third world country
>drowned in debts
>I'll be supposed to start at 19
>parents think I'm a failure
>everything gets worse

>>7508308
Sweet Jesus. Are you me?

I barely passed a general arts and science degree (entry-level humanities course) for two and a half years. My marks improved dramatically once I actually started doing the work, but now I'm out of my shitty local college and feel like I trapped myself into this. I also feel like the world has trapped me into situations and actions that make me extremely uncomfortable, have felt this way for years.

What I'm about to say will probably make me sound fucking insane, but here goes nothing. I want to somehow make enough money from my shitty job to be able to take courses that would teach me how to live off the land. While a life of self sufficiency may be gruelling, I don't want a career, I don't want to lie sedated in front of a screen while the world outside deteriorates. I want to be free of all of this, but I don't want to die.

It's a dream that has driven me to live for four years, and I'm afraid that I'll never see it realized. Even if I could hunt and grow my own food, create shelter and tools and clothing, someone would still find me, and they would hurt me or arrest me for trespassing on private property or government land. I just wish I could escape to this ideal, but even if I could, the grass likely wouldn't be any greener on the other side.

Fuck it, this hurts. Working 70 hours a week just to survive off of table scraps, atomized and separated from kin, a sense of genuine community, and the non-human world. I don't know how much longer I can hold on for.

Should I just join the army?

My country is currently not involved in any conflicts (outside of sending some planes to Syria to shoot at people) and I might be able to trick myself into thinking I have a purpose by reading Storm of Steel, right?

Finally graduated after eight years of pure misery studying engineering. Felt like giving up and dropping out for good, every single semester, but somehow didn't. Feels good man. Don't care about my nonexistent prospects or impending NEET status or whatever, I'm just glad to have actually escaped with a diploma.

I am currently first year in comp sci ,and so far I managed to fuck up really bad . I also got depressed from the fact that I'll have to study 4 years instead of 3, because of my autism.But now seeing all of you fuck ups, made me feel better about my self .
Thanks guys

History. Waste of time.

>>7507129
>How many of you quit Uni?
I quit my first time. Went back 3-4 years later
>What were you studying? How far did you get?
Was taking a general arts and science class the first time around then a year of kinesiology then I switched to chemistry/biology...I really hated it the first time around. Did one semester barely passing my courses.
>Do you regret it?
I don't regret dropping out. I regret going back. I'm a bright person, maybe slightly above average IQ, but I don't have the intelligence for academia or the social skills to network effectively. I should have just done a 1-2 year skilled trade program... Which is what I'll be doing next year.
>Why did you do it?
My mom made me go the first time. The second time I felt like I had to prove to myself I was capable of doing it. Now I just need to pick something to make myself money

>>7511222
That makes three of us. European faggots think they're so cute and quirky with their make-believe words. Uni, maths, mate, etc.

>>7507475
Saved in case my gen-ed classes get the best of me. Thanks anon.

>>7511400
No, just americans. They resent our freedom so

>>7507129
>How many of you quit Uni?

First year, and I also left a year of college

>What were you studying? How far did you get?

I was studying criminology because at the time I had a general idea of what I wanted to study but my parents pretty much forced me into crim cause it was supposedly better for jobs and would lead into law school. As for college, I was studying insurance.

>Do you regret it?

First year of uni was a waste. Only one course I truly enjoyed and the rest were courses that I had a bare minimum interest in or didn't do as well as I thought I would. Criminology does not lead into law school, in fact, they rank on the bottom of majors that tend to succeed in law school. The insurance program at college was a huge blunder, one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I fucking hated that program and by second semester did not give a single shit about any of it.

>Why did you do it?

Parents who don't seem to have an idea of my strengths or why people take the program. I place the blame on myself as well for not being vocal about it or thinking carefully about what I should have studied after high school. Nowadays I'm studying journalism at college and enjoying myself more. I have the opportunity to transfer to my country's best journalism program so I'll see how the future works out. I do appreciate how college gets you hands on and networks with the right people at least, even though it isn't intellectually rigorous.

>Hated school throughout my entire life
>Drop out in ninth grade because of horrible >anxiety.
>Start reading and studying on my own at 15.
>Get GED
>Try to enroll in college
>Decide at last minute that school is still a misery
>Never had a job
>Read and write everyday, start playing guitar
> Here I am now 20 and neet as fuck

>>7510922

>free degree
>from Argentina

That's ok I'm fine with paying for a degree from a university people actually care about.

>>7512931
get a job. make your parents proud.

>>7507129
I did one semester of community college. I quit because I knew nothing I wanted to do required a degree anyway.

Now I have a career I enjoy and all the people my age I know are moving back in with their parents because they can't find a job.

>>7512979
What do you do?

>>7507129
I started at a UC right out of highschool, I was 17. Looking back now its unbelivible what an amazing situation I was in at the time. I was living with my aunt and uncle, rent free. I had a car, a job and I was studying what I loved at a good school.
Im not sure what really started it, but I began to fall apart. I started getting really significant mood swings. Id wake up one day happy as a lamb and others feeling like death incarnate. I would drive around aimlessly for hours, stay away from everyone I knew and all my obligations for days at a time. I lost my job, I alienated the family I was staying with and got kicked out, and with no money and no real place to go I started living in my car and things become really strange. When I look back on that time, there isnt really a chronological order to the events that took place. Just a blur of people and places and some significant events without any rhyme or reason. And there are blank patches as well. Entire weeks or on one occasion months of my life that I cannot for the life of me place myself in my own head.
Still, I kept my head above water grades wise, mostly C's and B's but passing. Durring spring break my softmore year I let a girl I was seeing at the time borrow my car while I was visiting her out in san fernando, and she totaled it. The rest of that year things rapidly went downhill, I was bumming it in the city around my school, and stopped going to classes, I had never really gone to many lectures before (it was a large school, nobody really notices if your missing in a class of 70-150 people) but I had always managed to drag myself to midterm reviews and such. I fell into a dark dark place, and those months are those that I mentioned before, only the briefest of memories punctuating an otherwise turbulent grey area (and I use the word memories loosely). I managed to pass my spring classes, but failed 3 out of the 4 classes I took during the summer and got the boot.
I wandered for awhile after that, and eventually moved back into my parents house and got a job, then decided to start going to community college, which after almost 2 years at im about to transfer out of and back to the same school actually. I regret everything, but im still relatively young and things are better than they were.

>>7512983
I'm a tattooer.

>>7513040
dragging yourself up from the ground is an incredibly valuable experience. what UC?

>>7513088
UCI

>>7513099
I heard that they have a great critical theory program

>>7513103
I haven't heard that, but certainly most of the humanities I took had aspects of critical theory built in. I'm was majoring in engineering though, so it wasn't really my focus.

>>7512931
20 is young and life is long. Find a goal and get off your ass.

>>7513103
are you still a student?

Dropped out of college. Now in med school.

bump

>>7507129
Nope. Community college student and I'm graduating this spring.

Before you laugh at me, consider that I'm paying less than half the tuition you are, and I'm almost guaranteed a job right away.

>>7513549
Do you belong to an ethnically diverse study group like on TV?

>>7507129
>My parents pay for my college, started off at a community college
>420 a few times a week, parties, drinking, etc.
>Getting top grades even though I put no effort in
>Graduate top in my field
>Start university
>Same shit, 3 more years until my masters degree
>Still not trying at all
>Even if I was doing bad or mediocre, it still wouldn't matter because I have a job waiting for me at my dad's office
Lmao eat it, working class scum. College won't save you from being a lower class wageslave

>>7513614
youre still a wagie scum

>>7513620
Look at this butthurt proletariat
Back to your rented house/apartment

>>7513614
>have a job waiting for me
>call other people working class scum

You're just more affluent working class, anon. The greatest trick of the bourgeoisie is making the working class believe there are such things as 'middle class' and 'upper middle class', making their little workers believe that a gold cage is freedom.

>>7513614
You'll hit your wall, sooner or later.

>>7508337
Never thought I'd see another person from Wolverhampton on /lit/.
Whereabouts are you from?

>>7508669

>quit uni
I didn't, unfortunately.
>what were you
Guess.
>do you regret it
I'm not sure anymore. I feel as though I only stumbled out of the cave of ignorance two years ago and my eyes are still adjusting to the light of the sun, slowly. How do I regret something that was outside of my control? Why didn't anyone ever tell me I obviously had some colorful spectrum disorder?

They say the best predictor of the future is the simple one, the algorithm written on the back of an envelope. I predict I need to become a code monkey to get a real job, and that I need a real job to move out. This needs to happen before my father either drives me to strangle him or dies of a heart attack first.

>>7514613
>I feel as though I only stumbled out of the cave of ignorance two years ago and my eyes are still adjusting to the light of the sun, slowly. How do I regret something that was outside of my control? Why didn't anyone ever tell me I obviously had some colorful spectrum disorder?

The joy of looking back on your youth

That feeling when you see someone lacking self awareness and being a stupid cunt just like you were, and you want to throw them down the stairs so they hit their head or shake them really hard until the wake up, but you can't

I'm afraid that, a couple years from now, I will wake up again

>drop out of conservatory after one year
>big regrets
>study le computer science maymay
>drop out after one year
>good decision
So yeah.

I want to get back into studying music, but this time I want to be in the composers chair, trying to stack together a portfolio but I hate everything I've written and I haven't made anything new since 2013.

>>7514641
>That feeling

Yes, it comes back to me whenever I look at most of my old "friends".

By some miracle, I still have one friend who actually has ambitions without mixing them with terrible ideas. Met him on the train today. He wanted to surprise me as I shambled down the compartment so he gently grabbed my shoulders from behind. I assumed it was some junkie, ignored it, kept walking. He had to grab my shoulders a second time before I looked around. That's the difference between us. He keeps trying, I assume the worst and retreat into myself. I still have a lot to learn.

>>7507475
Going to need to see that there racist image, anon.

>>7507371
Mate, I almost dropped out 2nd year Physics at another Uni I thought was 'mediocre' (Sussex).

You've got to realize a degree in physics from a mid-tier uni puts you above most people in terms of education.

I think people in Physics/Maths/Science tend to have been at the top of their class in secondary, and get an attitude of 'best in the class, or nothing', and lose sight of their achievement in relation to most people.

On the other hand if you drop out, you will be below most people, even someone with a degree in hairdressing from an ex-poly,
and it will be hard to recover.

>>7510689
jesi iz hr? otkud ti to da ideš na indiologiju hahah

I was studying Psych at Loyola Chicago when i decided I had no idea what it was i wanted to with my life anymore.

So now i'm taking care of gen eds at a local community college. Think i might go back to uni and go into history because i actually enjoy it.

>>7515463
Also i lost my scholorship cause i stopped going to classes. Had a bit of a breakdown

>>7507135
Just because Math was too hard for you doesn't mean STEM is a meme.

>>7508669
>I have already experienced three existential crises, the latter of which was described as having the depth and profundity of a man twice my age.

So weird for someone to brag about this

My brain can't handle it

>>7515584
he's posting memepasta that is supposed to be as obnoxious as possible, anon

Quit Uni?
>No. About to get my B.A in English
>I graduate soonish.
>I didn't pick a field of study I knew I'd hate.

The longer I browse 4chan the more I realize we're all essentially the same fucking person.

>started as engineering major because I thought I was supposed to
>became severely anxious and depressed by year two
>dropped out for year
>re-enroll as English major

I'm a more than a little disenchanted by the dominance of YAF and feminism over the English major curriculum but overall I'm enjoying it more than engineering.

>>7507129
>3 semesters into uni
>began as engineering, found out I actually blow at any math past calc 1
>switched to economics
>good grades, do my work and study but could still work harder
>see no reason I won't graduate and get an okay job

Probably could have continued with engineering if I swallowed my pride and asked for some help, but I don't really regret switching.

>>7515640
>The longer I browse 4chan the more I realize we're all essentially the same fucking person.

Looks like someone has fallen into the trap of projecting their own experiences, emotions and opinions onto and anonymous image board :-)

>trudge through 5 years of a lit undergraduate
>finally graduating next semester if I pass all my classes

feels fucking great almost being done.

I got exactly what I wanted out of the degree, namely discipline to rigorously study and the dedication and ability to read so hard I'm gonna fall off the edge of the earth or something.
Also its been brought to my awareness that while English degrees are useless here, you can teach in the east and live a slow paced life of reading and writing, which is precisely what I'm gonna do when I graduate

I've spent my first two years in accelerated Maths and decided to minor in Computer Science because it seems fun. I just finished taking my first semester of a graduate-prep course (basically Analysis) and I hated it, despite it being interesting as hell.

I'm for sure not going to pursue math beyond undergrad, so I think I'm going to email my professor over this break and tell him I won't be returning to the grad-prep course. This means I'll switch my major and my minor and take an extra semester to graduate.

Hopefully Computer Science stays as fun as it has been.

>>7507475
god dammit, thanks for posting

>>7515640
stooooooppppp

I'm studying something I am interested in (biochemistry), so I have no reason to drop out >;v)

These sorts of threads always reveal the bonds between us all. It is really impressive and I hope you all live fulfilled lives one day.

>Start out in Engineering, never had to work at all in high school to pass. Easily achieve high grades which slowly dragged down over time.
>Fail everything because I never turn up and never work.
>drop out after hitting at it a second time but lacking the personal resolve and discipline to pass.
>Re-enroll at a different university for History/Defence studies
>Considered a top student, barely score Cs because I handed my essays in late as fuck and only got away with it because the lecturers like me.
>Get rejected from the military as an officer before finishing the degree, proceed to drop out.
>work on an orchard for a while, contemplating and writing.
>Devote myself to spiritual and mental growth, determined that the man must make himself first before he achieve outside himself.
>Start Law, Economics and Maths (double degree, double major) with an eternity to go.
>Straight As across the board.

I probably should have dropped out and accepted defeat, but perseverance seems to have paid off. Cost a lot though, but money means nothing compared to what can be learned.

I'm 24 and only have a high school degree with 90%+ marks to my name. That's literally it. No job experience, no college degree, nothing.

What would you do in my shoes if you wanted to turn your life around? What options are even available to me, realistically?

>>7516175
>work on an orchard, contemplating, writing

That sounds comfy as fuck.

>>7516103
>biochemistry
Useless degree. Unless you're top of your class...I wasn't

not sure where to post this but just found out that:
>got 79% in a course because of low participation grade
>prof rounds it to A- (80%) on my transcript when marks are finalized
I feel a mix of relief and self-disgust. I must truly present myself as a pitiable creature to warrant that kind of treatment from someone I've barely spoken to.

I've only got a semester left (English degree) but it just gets more difficult every day to not drop out. If I did I'd have truly nothing left going for me, though.

>>7515691
>you can teach in the east and live a slow paced life of reading and writing, which is precisely what I'm gonna do when I graduate
Please elaborate.

>>7516213
Apply to any community college, do well, move on from there.

With just a bachelors you can teach English. More than minimum wage and you get summers and winters off. You can travel. You also can be considered for management at very basic businesses with some experience in the field.

Can get a masters, be paid even more.

This is just one option, assuming working and independence is something you want.

You honestly have no bad marks on your record so you can prepare now and set yourself up to do well. Just look at this thread. Most of us were idiots at 18-20 and didnt know what we wanted and were punished for jumping ahead.

Think about what you want to do. Go to community college. Get some shit anything job, tutoring at your community college maybe. Get a credit card so you can eventually rent on your own.

If I can't get over this depression and anxiety, I'll have to quit.

Daily functioning in adult life ruins any sense of perspective.

I was reading Frankenstein earlier, and despite the climax of the novel, I felt tepid to how I felt. Will this end? I can't go on if it doesn't

Is it too late to go back to school at 25? Bear in mind I only went to community college and would just be going to get a degree in something I'm passionate about rather than for career goals.

>>7507636
Take a semester off and take a trip to Japan. You'll have a reason to learn and hopefully it'll rekindle your motivation.

I was studying physics. Left after a year. I stopped loving it. I'd love to finish the thing eventualy.. I'm studying meds now.

>>7516381
How did you make the switch?

Not quit yet despite how much I dream I could, I don't think I will unless I'm forced to leave from failing. I'm retaking a Physics foundation year, having failed at first because I have fucking awful time management as well as a jumble of diagnoses plus the high grades required to progress. I'm pretty shit at it but I enjoy the subject, so as long as I don't fail this year and actually get onto my course then it's going to be smooth sailing because I don't really care about my degree classification as long as I pass.

Was originally going to do some sort of art degree but took a gap year to mull it over and came to the conclusion that I'll never git gud so might as well quit while I'm not even ahead. Kinda makes me feel empty as shit inside though, because I have to study so much I don't really have time to progress in my hobbies or live some sort of life that's not dominated by academic stress-fuelled mental illness.

Honestly I just want to work in a bookshop or something, then read, write, and draw away the rest of my time. The dream would be to get my degree whilst dedicating all my spare time to actually improving my art rather than trawling /ic/ and somehow make a sort of living off of it eventually with a job that pays the bills in the mean time, but I'm not at all optimistic. I like to think I'm working hard now to have a comfy/10 life in the future but to be honest I have no idea what I'm doing and don't see myself living past 30 at most anyway.

>>7516309
I know plenty of people who did. I'd say go for it. Depending on where you live it's not that strange at all to see people 25 years or older entering college.

>>7516280
Go read Catcher in the Rye you pathetic man-baby.

To be honest, studying is sort of a double-edged sword. People who start off too young have great prospects in the sense that they have plenty of years after college to develop themselfs, to travel and get some work experience. To live in a sense, a bohemian lifestyle. Though with youth comes ignorance; most people do not know what they want to major in or what job they like to have when they get older. Personally I studied History, which I enjoyed, but even after my first year I came to realise that this is definitely not something I want to do the rest of my life. Fortunately History is a flexible bachelor's education so I still have plenty of options regarding what Master I wish to partake in.

When you're older however, you have become much more matured partly due to having plenty of work-experience and, perhaps, traveling the world. However once you go to college it pretty much means life will be over. You will be 27, 28 and forced to enter the adult world.

The prospect of being a wage-slave doesn't entice me when there is so much to enjoy in this world. But alas, you can't have major gaps in your CV if you want to compete with the very best. And naturally, I think many people on these boards are more ambitious than they often convey.

Amor fati I guess

>>7507129
>Build up huge expectations for university... expect to make cool new friends genuinely interested in free spirited intellectual discussion
>Start out studying Engineering & English
>Physics lectures are amazing... labs are hellish - stuck carrying a complete dumbass who had never done physics before and expected me to do everything
>People are insular, insecure and just as petty and status obsessed as anywhere else...
>Have huge doubts, irritations
>Emotionally shattered because of family breakdown and sudden change of living arrangements
>Realise I only did Engineering because of my dad and older brother memeing it
>English nothing like I thought it would be
>University nothing like I thought it would be
>Drop out completely, disillusioned

>Spend the rest of the year living an almost NEET lifestyle, not really sure what to do
>Mother blames herself and takes pity on me, letting me work it all out for myself
>Do some tutoring a few hours a week, inspired to love learning again by the really outstanding students
>Feel like a failure and fuckup, but decide to go back to university the next year
>Study IT and English instead, knowing something about what I'm in for
>Can't look my friends in the eye... go into full stoic drone mode
>Manage to pull through the first year in good shape

>Lose interest and get lazy in the second year, spend most of my time playing video games... thinking I can do everything "last minute"
>Lots of absences, barely scrape through some courses... fail half
>Feel huge shame, anxiety. Have never failed at school before in my life.
>Spend a long time internalising and working through the failure
>Resolve never to fail again
>Slog through the next few years... reconceptualising myself from "smart person" to "hard worker"
>Achieve much better grades, slowly pull my average back up... comfortably above where it needed to be to apply for jobs
>Wasted 2 years of my life in the uni machine
>Have my 2 pieces of paper, and an office job lined up

I made it in the end, but this >>7507475 is spot on... most people go through at least one major wonky episode. I'm thankful that I figured out what I wanted and pushed myself and persisted. For me, it all worked out in the end. For quite a few people I know, it didn't.

Best of luck figuring it out, anons. It's never too late to change what you're doing, or to go back and try again.

>>7516772
Fuck you too kid what are you going to do about it

>>7513591
No. A study group would do me no good because everyone else at the college is either a shut-in or as dumb as a fucking brick. But I don't need one, the work's fuck easy which is why I like it.

>>7507129
Going next year, no idea what I want to afterwards. Can't do anything with an English degree anyways, other than teach, and I refuse to do that. Maybe I'll teach myself to program, get a shitty job as a code monkey. Maybe I'll just kill myself, but I'm not depressed yet, just numb.

>>7509017

>overriding themes

goddamn 11/10 fell out of my chair

>>7507475
Thanks mate. I'm going through a lost year right now :.)

>>7516213
Same here, expect than I live in Brazil so I'm fucked for the rest of my life.

>>7516772
Come on you fuccboi respond

>>7507371
Are you not white?

I read Mathematics. I often considered dropping out, usually when I had a girlfriend I wanted to impress by being aloof. My parents got wind of it and I was told, in no uncertain terms, that I'd be cut off completely if I were to leave without a degree.

My elder sister dropped out of the other place six months into a Classics degree and doesn't regret it one bit, mainly because she's always off her face on gin.

>>7509017
Are you actually a U of M bro? Whats good?
Also nice ruse

>>7518619
Reading and "the other place", Oxbridge?
Your sister sounds cool, could you introduce me?

>>7518661
I'm U of Mn - TC. whats good my anon?

>>7508798
>killed myself a couple of times
unlimited keks

>>7508798
A tailor's actually not a bad job if you enjoy creating interesting clothing and making adjustments.

I knew a guy who decided he wanted to be a haberdasher. For those who don't what that is, it's guy who makes hat.

He just wanted to make fucking pirate hats out of actual leather and stuff. Now he works for the film industry making hats for films and making fine men's hat on order for weird Estonians.

He stated he had a hard time making those hats for the ladies down south in Peru. They're really persnickety about their hats.

>>7512555
Why don't you look into a farming collective?