/lit/ - Literature

Lolita

Infinite Jest

I haven't read it.

>>6714717
I don't have one.

I'm here just to look smart and feel smart.

>>6714796
Also, I don't read at all.

>The Sound and the Fury
>I asked my aunt to jerk me off once, she politely declined
To this day the most cringe moment of my life

Ulysses

I haven't read it.

>>6714788
keke

>>6714805
Story?

>>6714824
I'd rather not talk about it.

>>6714724
keeeeek

>>6714805
did someone say story time?

>>6714805
story time

>>6714805
I guess it's story time.

Cmon you are Anonymous here, only mods know.

>>6714805
Narrative period?

>>6714805
oh my god I would just kill myself

>>6714805
A oneuponatime retaled early in bed and later on life?

>>6714788
>/lit/ in a nutshell

Murphy
[Spoiler]got caught by my sister while spying on her while she took a dump[Spoiler]

Jam

I don't read too much

The Rum Diary

I almost fucked my step sister in my grand parents house while our parents and her fiancé were downstairs in the kitchen .

∞ Jest

I made the suggestion for ODB to dress up as Rick James for the Nigga Please album cover

>>6714805
paragraph of prose?

>>6714805
A post of merit?

>>6714828
That's a shame because on here, once you start something, and unlike your aunt, you've got to give it a good finish.

>>6714805
>>6714828
You can't just bring that up and blueball us. That's heinous man.

>>6714717
>Women by Bukowski

My only sexual experience has been getting sucked off by a short latino faggot
I'm not gay

>>6714805
Copypasta secret

The Recognitions

I slept in my parents' bed until I was 13

Paradise Lost.

I started dating my fiance when she was 13.

>>6715587
>I slept in my parents' bed until I was 13
Lol why m8?

>>6715678
Nothing wrong with that. How did you meet her and enter a relationship at such a young age?

the strain by del toro/hogan

>>6715690
You don't understand, I was 24 when we started dating

>>6714805
Pretty sure I've seen you posting on this board before. In anycase, storytime please!

>>6715700
>I was 24 when we started dating
Nice
um...I mean, how awful, you dreadful pedophile

>The Pale King

I inject steroids into my ass

>>6715700
what's the problem

>>6715706
>Pretty sure I've seen you posting on this board before
Yeah, I've posted in two more threads like these, except both were from /v/.
Tell them the full story then, because I posted it back then. I don't want to type it again, I feel cringy just thinking about it.

>>6715700
how did you meet her? as long as you didn't fuck her before 16, nothing wrong that

>>6715739
please anon. it'll make you feel better to know that dozens of anons would've done the same thing.

>>6715690
And to answer your question, I met her when she was just over a day old, and started dating her by spending time with her.
>>6715747
Neighbor.
>as long as you didn't fuck her before 16, nothing wrong that
Why?

>>6715739
Well, if you are who I suppose you are, then the story was something like you were spending the night over and just flat out asked and she, like you've already mentioned, said 'no' politely. Not very memorable. But I don't remember the posts being on /v/, which leads me to suspect you might not be the very same person I was thinking of.

Also, I get feeling cringe. It sucks. But just think about it like this: You asked your aunt to jerk you off, yeah, that's really fucking embarrassing. Try thinking about something embarrassing pertaining to your aunt. Can't remember anything? Then it's likely neither does she.

>>6714724
Underrated

>>6715754
at 13 years old she is basically a kid. she still has to ask her parents for permission to go out or ask her parents to take her to the mall. This is essentially predatory. At 16 years old, she is driving, somewhat independent, and she has options. So if she chooses to go out with an older guy that's her choice and responsibility. At 13, guys her age are still playing gameboy, at 16 guys her age can take her out.

>>6715754
How old are you now? How did her parents react to the marriage proposal?

>>6715819
She isn't 13 now, she's 16 on the 4th.
Why does it matter if she was a kid?
>>6715825
27.
She has no active father and her mother is passive, but knows.

I bought her a damn horse, she lives with me now, she must know.

>>6715846
>Why does it matter if she was a kid?
Brah so you would be comfortable with your 12 year old daughter dating and possibly having sex with 24 year old man? You see no difference between her making out with a classmate and kissing a 24 year old in his apartment?

>>6715857
>You see no difference between her making out with a classmate and kissing a 24 year old in his apartment?
I'd rather the latter, I can communicate with the man, and threaten him.

>>6715865
It's okay man, I was 14 when I met some 24 year old and we had a relationship. He died sadly of complications from type 1 diabetes awhile ago, he really cared about me.

>>6715767
> you were spending the night over and just flat out asked and she, like you've already mentioned, said 'no' politely
Nah, that's the typical stories that mostly get made up, it wasn't like that.
I guess I'll share the story.
>was 17 years old
>aunt was pretty hot
>she came to hang around my place around 11 AM
>the reason was that she was supposed to wait for my mom
>currently in the middle of fapping when she came
>she's sitting in the kitchen, I'm in the room jerking off furiously
>hormones were fucking me up, I had some twisted fantasies, didn't help that I was a virgin and I desperately wanted to fuck
>at one moment I couldn't take it anymore
>go to the kitchen
>she's sitting at the table, watching TV
>I pull off my pants, she sees the dick
>she looks like she flinches, she's staring at it
>I make up an excuse that I think something's not alright with my dick
>she extends her hand, but doesn't touch it
>I show her the "suspicious" place
>she says with a quiet voice how everything's okay, still staring
>there's a short silence
>heart beating like crazy, I manage to make myself say her name, but my voice sounds so hoarse
>after saying her name, she looks at me in the face
>I literally can't say anything, I start making jerking moves with my hand
>she realizes what I want
>with a quiet voice she says "No, I can't do that"
>she proceeds to give me a signal to pull up the shorts
>I don't even know how I'm conscious with that heartbeat
cont.

>>6715871
what

>>6715902
cont.
>for some reason I'm not giving up yet
>still haven't pulled up my pants, I'm just looking at her
>she waits for a few seconds then says "No no, I can't do this, pull your pants up"
Honestly, I forgot the details after that, she held some kind of educational speech, with motivational shit like "you'll get a girlfriend one day".
A few days later she asked me about the girlfriend situation, I said how I still don't have any, and somehow I managed to shift the conversation to fetishes, told her I'd like to get a footjob, she was talking about fetishes and sex toys for a bit, but other than that nothing happened. That same day we talked about the cock size, I asked her how important it is, she said how it's not important at all, then she talked about her sex life she has with her husband for a bit (for example I asked when they fuck etc). Funny thing is, even though she talked about cock size not being important at all, when I used her laptop around a year later to download her some games (casual shit, stuff like Gamehouse games), I looked up her history and saw a shitton of "bbc" searches. Funniest thing? That she's a doctor, and the clips she watched have niggas with bbc coming to a female doctor.
I'm sure some people will think I made this up, but I don't care, just wanted to share the story because so many of you wanted it.

>The Sirens of Titan
i keep a bunch of used clothes as cumrags in the closet conveniently located right next to my computer chair. i've been using them for over a year and i never wash them. i need to fucking throw them away already.

>>6714717
brideshead revisted

someone caught me getting a blowjob from another guy. it happened at a party so i used being drunk as an excuse for letting it happen. i hadn't had a single alcoholic drink that night.

>>6715371
your failed spoiler tags pretty ironically fits your secret.

>>6714788
tip top post

>>6715925
she sounds like she really cares about you, or at least, understands what it would be like to be one of us

DOn't take it so bad, anon, takes a lot of balls to do what you did, no matter wether it was fucked up or not

>>6714788
I live on the street David Foster Wallace and his family used to live on in Urbana IL. I played tennis with his dad a couple times. Pretty cool dude

>>6715964
Thanks, man.

>>6715520
you're probably gay anon

>>6715925
It sounds like she was genuinely understanding of your situation; not just acting like it to reduce your embarrassment. Don't let it torment you forever.

Still, the
>I make up an excuse that I think something's not alright with my dick
made me laugh my ass off. That sure was a promising approach.

>>6714717
How do you do the spoiler thing??

Gravity's Rainbow
I was arrested for throwing my own shit over a public bathroom stall divider at a local swimming pool when I was 19. Still don't know why I did it, just was being an edgy lowlife and I thought I could get away with it I guess. Hit some old guy with the shit, heard him yell in disgust, I ran out right away, drove home, parking lot CCTV cameras got me. Got charged with some really heavy stuff, vandalism, public endangerment, sexual harassment, and ended up spending three years of my life in prison because of priors. It's my greatest shame to date, my family pretty much disowned me afterwards and I have no idea how to explain it and my record to any potential friends, employers, girlfriends, etc. Probably going to end up killing myself from loneliness and shame one day, over something so fucking stupid and childish too. I fuccking hate myself, Ir eally fucking do, I am dirty dirty animal and I need to be put the fuck down. Somebody gas me please, or I'll do it my fucking self

>>6715937
Then do so promptly.

>>6716024
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>>6716025

>>6716027
it's gonna be so gross though :(

>>6716025
Jesus Christ man, forgive yourself.

Well, I know I can't.

My favorite book is Imagined Communities.

Once I got absolutely wasted and touched a dog's vagina. Another time I got wasted and groped a female friend. I've quit drinking, as I lack all self-control. I disgusted myself... I disgust myself.

>>6714724
well done.
>The Yellow Birds
>I've been cucked.

Im open to suggestions on what to do to her.

>>6716025
that's fucked up what you did, but what's more fucked up is your family disowning you over one mistake. that's not what families are supposed to do.

write the guy a letter of apology and forgive yourself.
and write a book about your experience. seriously, not many people can say they've done what you did.

Broom of the System

I killed 6 million jews.

>>6716025
thats pretty funny. forgive yourself, its the only way you'll move on. so yea, you can give up on having a career so learn a trade, thats not such a bad living. besides, you can hide something like that from friends and women, just tell them you were in the slammer for something else.

>>6714717
Siddhartha

in a year or two I'm joining the Marines once I'm in shape. On the surface I tell myself it's because I need a steady job to pay my student loans, that I want to serve my country and that I can use the experience to write a book or two...but a part of me wonders if I'm just doing it for the glory. Part of me wonders if maybe I just want an excuse to shoot strangers overseas with little to no consequence.

>>6716109
>Welfare queen
>Glory

top kek

>>6716109
It's not really a secret that people who go into the military are amoral shitheads only interested in shooting brown people and pretending they're heroes

>>6716129
*fedoraman.jpg*

>>6716110
>getting trained to fuck shit up
>spend your days working your ass off doing whatever it is you end up specializing in
>>welfare

Are u high

>>6714717
Runaway horses

I'd have ended my own life if I wasn't so unhappy with it. I don't want my death to be tied to emotion.

>>6716129
tell that to the dudes with PTSD

Killing Star

My whole life is a lie, no one knows me, my real name, my past, my family.

I am a non-existent human being, because I myself do not even respect my own persona, partly because I hate who I am.

he... now that I am typing this out, it's crazy... but it's true.

>>6716412
The sci fi book?

Because that's a fucking crazy book.

Hard to find, too. In fact, I've only heard the audio book.

>>6716412
That book portrays, what I think is a rather likely occurrence of first contact.

>>6716593
>the night does not end

>>6715969
If it makes you feel worse, I couldn't finish the story

Although one time in 7th grade I jacked off in my computer class through my shorts and I think my teacher knew. So boys will be boys

Gravity's Rainbow

I think about killing myself so often the thought actually bores me. The Thought arrives every couple hours or so along with a vivid image of how I'd do it. I just wait it out. I haven't done it because it seems cowardly and I don't want to put my family & friends through that.

>>6716678

I'm >>6716140 .

I know what you mean.

>>6716140
>>6716678
>>6716697
And I also know what you guys mean. Even if I go through all of the work required to turn my life. I get in shape, get a decent job, get a few girls. What's the point? Why should I do all of that when I can descend into nothingness. The best way to describe it is, I want to fall asleep and never wake up.

>>6716710
>I want to fall asleep and never wake up.

That can easily be arranged. The fact is that you don't do it. Why?

>>6716710

Where I'm at is: let's say you find a girl to spend a significant amount of time with. But also, you know you're a vile, mentally-ill wreck. How do you keep up the facade and not try to confide in her? Can love bloom or am I just gonna read books alone until my heart fails?

>>6716717
>That can easily be arranged. The fact is that you don't do it. Why?
Maybe I'm just a pussy. Maybe I think I can one day turn my life around and be a happy well rounded person. How do I arrange it? In a way that's relatively undetectible and can be attributed to natural causes?


>>6716729
My problem is that I don't believe in love. Most of the examples of love I see around me is an amalgamation of circumstance and biological drives. I mean right now. Let me put it another way: Women don't like individual people, they like men. And this isn't love.

>>6716109
USCBP[/spolier]

>>6714717
Dune

Depression and I drink too much.

>>6716763
How did I fuck up that bad?

>>6716752

there's research saying love exists and research saying love doesn't. "love" as i think of it (and as it tends to appear in literature) probably transcends biological drives to be something more like "hmmm you an interesting creature, and you are fun in bed. i want to stick around for a while to see the things you will do."

but you know, dissecting emotions is the surest route to insanity

The Art of War

Once I was really inebriated and I sent gore, various messages about tomboys, poems about tomboys, images of tomboys, and many other strange things to about 30 people on my Facebook.

Surprisingly I'm only blocked by 5 of them, all except my close friends removed me from their friends list though.

>>6714828
That's ok. In the future you should probably clarify that you don't wish to elaborate though. You really got my hopes up for a good greentext.

>>6714796
Like most of us. No shame anon.

I'm sure somewhere on earth there are two human beings that love (mental) each other whilst being physically attracted to each other. But that's just unlikely.
What mostly happens is:
1. Women settle for a man they're not really attracted to and end up marrying a best friend. These women are essentially getting roommates. 90% of the time when you hear women talking about how amazing their husband is, this is what they're referring to. A fun person to watch movies with.

2. Two people are attracted to each, start to fuck, and eventually get in a relationship. I would rather be in this scenario than scenario #1, but it's not ideal. Either person in this relationship could be replaced by a man/woman that fitting a certain criteria; confident and dominant for a man, submissive and expressive for a woman.

Call me idealistic, but I view love as a very personal attraction combined with physical attraction and consistent bonding (physically and mentally). I'd say maybe 1 out of 20 relationships are love.

Crime and Punishment

I fucked a horse

>>6716884
really m8? that just sounds smelly. was it fun? did you get your rocks off?
green text please

does someone have that passage from Portrait of the Artist where it's a boy and a girl standing on steps and it says something about the girl going down a step and back up again?

>>6716896
yes

>>6715700
Why did you date a 13 year old at 24?

The immaturity didn't annoy you?

Did other girls in your age range reject you? (honest question, if a bit pointed)

>>6716903
He obviously couldn't get other women. If he simply wanted a younger woman he would've gone for a 17 or 18 year old. But they usually have options.

>>6716901
may you post it for me? I'd like to read it again and show it to a friend.

>>6716903
Because girls peak in every way at 13/14.

Immaturity and maturity are spooks, she was far more pleasant to be around than any of my peers.
>Did other girls in your age range reject you?
No?

Why would I settle for them?
>>6716907
I'd sooner die than date a girl that age.

>>6716025
Holy shit, Tyrone. Get a grip man.

>>6714724
Have you actually read it?

If so, and this is directed to anybody who read the book and liked it, what did you like?

>>6716911
do you have any rare pepes?

>>6716917
> 13/14
No. Large amount of girls are starting puberty at that age. Some of them just learning how to use a tampon.
>Because girls peak in every way at 13/14.
Only if you're a pedophile/hebephile. If you're a man who is attracted to women who have gone through puberty the best ages are 16-22 (16-19 are gold).

>>6716025
You should move somewhere far away and start anew. It's a cliche, but it's never too late to reinvent yourself.

>>6714805
>incest boy likes TSAF

Underrated post

>>6716917
Every way?

Not maturity.

>>6716894
Yeah it was kind of smelly, but I like that part. Of course I got my rocks off.
I didn't get caught or anything, nothing to green for.

>>6716811
It's pretty simple to fix something like that you know. Claim you were hacked or something like that.

>>6716763
Which came first, the drinking or the depression?

Gravity's Rainbow

I get drunk, ride the train back and forth, and stare at women's asses while writing edgy poems and silly stories when I should probably be looking for work

>>6716955
Are you me?

>>6716945
>Yeah it was kind of smelly, but I like that part.
may i ask how did you develop this fetish and why? how was it pleasurable? wouldn't it be like a hotdog in a hallway.

>>6715925
Thanks for sharing anon. Sounds like it could have gone a lot worse.

Still not sure what you were thinking, the odds she would say yes....

You were quick witted enough to come up with a half decent excuse though. Which you promptly ruined with the jerking motions.

>>6716936
if i show a rare pepe will you show me the passage?

>>6715767
He asked his aunt to touch his penis. Of course she remember it.

>>6716025
>>6716678
>>6716955

Damn, what is it about Gravity's Rainbow?

>>6716964
The smell?
I had a toiletry fetish developed when I was younger because of how open my house was about that, I think, so the idea of an animal freely shitting and pissing anywhere gets me on. Also mare's have amazing muscle control and pussy's that winks. And horses don't judge your performance.

>>6716981
no the fucking horse fetish.

>>6716984
I explained it.

>>6716987
you explained your toiletry and smell fetish. now why do you want to fuck horses rather than homeless women?

Problems of Philosophy

I got out of my shitty weaboo phase almost a decade ago after middle school but for whatever reason hentai seems to be one of the only things that gets me off.

Also to all of they individuals who purport to being suicidal: have any of you actually attempted suicide? Am I the only one?

I recommend at least making an effort to try it once. It's quite an uplifting experience if you survive. You get a whole new perspective on the monotonous, dull poor excuse for a life you abide on a daily basis.

Oh and while we're on topic with depressing secrets I fell that I should mention the time I developed a crush on my psychiatrist while I was in the hospital.

Can't say I have a favourite book yet, Stoner, maybe.

Ever since I found nude pictures of my Aunty after staying at her house when I was a kid, I've had this insatiable lust to see her naked and possibly fuck her, I fantasize about certain scenarious. Then after I'm done masturbating over this, I think to myself 'ew dat bitch is gross tho'

>>6716994
>Also mare's have amazing muscle control and pussy's that winks. And horses don't judge your performance
And they have really shapely asses.
>homeless women
Like I'd ever stoop so low.

>>6717004
In what context did you find the pictures?

The Ethics.

I'm so boring that I can't even think of a dark secret. I'm afraid of people realizing how boring I really am, so I don't talk to people in real life, reinforcing my boring-ness.

this fucking thread makes me want to abandon this board forever

>>6717008
Do you get told that you're pretty nice sometimes?

>>6717012
How so?

>>6717018
Not in recent memory, no.

>>6717012
Really? It kind of makes me want to stick around. See what happens.

>>6717026
It makes sense now. YOU make sense now.

The Confidence Man

I used to have self-emasculation dreams. I haven't actually ever done something edgy because I'm a fucking square

>>6717005
I don't think homeless women would ever stoop so low.

>>6717031
wat

>>6717033
wow burn

>>6716976
Pinecone's writing resonates with rejects, freaks, failures, and outcasts.

>>6717041
I try.

This Side of Paradise

>>6717042
So 4chan.

>>6717049
We're all dead badgers here.

>>6716968

Here you have, anon. I hope you enjoy it.

>>6717058

Also, I'm not dat anon, I don't need any pepes.

>>6717058
>dog-ears

You fucking monster

>>6717058
found it thanks to the page number, thanks :)

hope this is rare enough

>>6716955
In that case I hope you've read V. also

>>6717069

Is a birth defect, I don't want to talk about it.

>>6717074
Are you saying I should take a trip to Malta?

>>6715967
i appreciate how cool u r

>>6717007
When I stayed at my Aunties it was a small apartment so I used to sleep in her room, and there was a pocket of photos just laying there on the bedside table, I idly browsed them, unaware of the effect it would have on me throughout my entire life.

>>6717071

I said I don't want your fucking pepes, pal. I've got all the pepes in the world, I'm the king, man. I rule the underworld, guy. I decide which ones are rare and which ones are not.

>>6717091
how old are you?

>>6716976
Gravity's Rainbow is my favorite book and I don't have any dark secrets.

Just that I'm a 26 year-old kissless virgin with no social life to speak of, but that's tame for 4chan. I guess it's still pretty shameful in the outside world though.

>>6717042's theory holds true.

>>6716936
>No. Large amount of girls are starting puberty at that age. Some of them just learning how to use a tampon.
No? Why are you being wrong on the internet?

Girls start puberty at 10.
>If you're a man who is attracted to women who have gone through puberty the best ages are 16-22 (16-19 are gold).
You're hardly men, you're shallow materialists and slaves to society.
>>6716942
Maturity is a spook.

Girls only get pretentious and slutty past their early teens. If that's maturing, then the blackening of a banana is also maturing, as is the molding of bread and the rotting of meat.

>>6717101

Over 9000.

Sorry, I have a speech impediment, I can talk only through memes.

1. The idiot
2. I touched the butt

>>6717109
So you're 27 and you live with a 15 year old you're engaged to? What country do you live in?

>>6717131
Canada

>>6717109
You're a weird fuck bro. Be happy you weren't dating my sister. I'd have put child porn on your phone and called the cops.

Ulysses. Only book I've read I would label as genuinely "life-changing," despite my love of reading.

When I was 11 or so I showed my dick to my little sister. I don't know why I did that, but 9 years later it still haunts me.

>>6717134
If you're not attracted to older girls (you said "I'd sooner die than date a girl that age" about 17-18 year olds) then what are you going to do when your fiancé gets older?

>>6717135
Why?
>>6717140
Who knows, I've planned a crazy overly romantic near-death experience in December.

100YOS

I don't really have a dark secret but I stayed at my friend's house one time and he had a hot older sister and her thongs were on a drying rack in the basement. I don't know if I have a thong fetish or what but when my friend was asleep I took it upstairs and put it on for a few seconds.

Although I have no reason to suspect otherwise, to this day I'm pretty paranoid he knows. I'm also paranoid he told his whole family. I only saw them infrequently anyway

Go to bed, Jim.

>>6717031

absolute wat

>>6717147
Reminds me of this one time I was at a party and there was a pair of panties on the floor in the bathroom so I sniffed them. I mostly just did it because of the novelty of the act.

>>6717166
It's me again: I rented a house for the summer during my college years and at the end when we were cleaning it out I found a pair of panties that was there probably from a party we had a month before. I probably would've taken them (I don't even really know what for) but there were a bunch of us down there. We laughed and threw it away. I'm pretty sure I know to whom they belonged to as well

A lot of Gravity's Rainbow.

im a newfag trying to get back into reading after a couple years. Can someone briefly explain to me if it is worth the hype? I want the first book I pick up for the summer to be elite and get me back into it

>>6717211
it's a third of /lit/'s holy meme trilogy
read ulysses and infinite jest also

>>6717239
>ulysses
I'm an autist loner like a bunch of these other chanfags.

Which novel will I be able to relate to the most? In regards to my major self esteem issues, depression, and isolation? Taking other recommendations as well

>>6717256
Stoner.

first love, last rites

i'm sexually attracted to my mom. she was working in the yard and then went in the pool today. i masturbated while watching her 4 times today from about 2pm to 7pm. i used to jerk off 3 times a day every day when i was 12 to her and my big-titted math teacher. she's 50. i feel like my fucking dick is gonna fall off. i stop thinking about her like that for a few weeks at a time out of guilt but then i have wet dreams about her and relapse. i'm a 23 year old virgin. shocker, huh? it's impossible for me to have feelings for a girl AND be sexually attracted to them since i'm so fucked up. it's one or the other. so i don't know if i'll ever have a healthy relationship. i also once found "non-nude child models" on my father's computer once. He fucking left it open, I wasn't snooping. it was girls in bathing suits doing risque poses. if he ever found out about my attraction to my mom i would use this information to keep him quiet. honestly, as fucked up as it is though, i do love my parents.

>>6717256
Isolation and alienation play a big role in the whole meme trilogy.

>>6717272
Which is the best most autistic! of the three?

>Candide

""I jizzed all over my schools academic team buzzer set after we won nationals""

>>6717266
>it's impossible for me to have feelings for a girl AND be sexually attracted to them since i'm so fucked up. it's one or the other. so i don't know if i'll ever have a healthy relationship

this is something you tell yourself, you have never really tried
we all go through that mother phase, it's just attraction to the closest possible object (same with your teacher), then we find girlfriends and move on

>>6717278
Infinite Jest is definitely the most autistic one.

Cat's Cradle

In the future when virtual reality grows increasingly prevalent in society I want to meet up with Chris Pratt's virtual avatar and eventually get him interested enough in having digital sex with me. Naturally I will take the form of Blue, the beta female velociraptor from the new movie Jurassic World. I want to have sex at first in a tentative doggy style before shifting into a mild fem dom via reverse cowgirl. The cuddling afterwards will be possessive, but in a way that seems more natural and bestial than it is clingy. At this point I would be perfectly fine with him ending it on a one night stand, but I'll probably keep a recording of it to send like minded friends as video proof that dreams, no matter how outlandish, are possible to grasp.

Love In the Time of the Cholera

Was sleeping next to my cousin when we were... 13? I was feeling super horny and I was a weirdo at the time so I touched her lips with my hard dick. I'm not even bugged by this memory to be honest: it's dumb shit horny preteen me did.

>>6717287

>>6714717

Twilight.

That's it mang. [\spoiler]

>>6714717

Pic related.

Thass it mang.

Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas

I like being talked to like a dog. Couldn't tell you how or why this arose. But when someone talks to me sweetly in an almost sing-song voice, or calls me good, or any shit like that, I immediately melt like butter. It's embarrassing, but I'm just so damn okay about it. I hate it, but not when it's happening. When it's happening it's like I'm not even me.

The Temple of the Golden Pavilion

When I was 12, I was stuck for 6 months in a long term mental institution as a substitute for the fact that my mother could not support me, and my father did not want anything to do with me and was fighting in court just so he could not take care of me. I had threatened to kill myself the night that me and my older sister were taken away to child haven and subsequently a foster home. My sister was a popular middle school girl and couch surfed for the entirety of the period I was stuck at the unnamed mental institution. Throughout my time there I was room-mates with a blonde, 11 year old boy who always discussed penises and sex under his bed every single night, and I could not do anything about it. In my agitated, hormone ridden state and my absolute desperation for release, we had planned to have sex in the bath room where the staff couldn't see us as they passed. It did not work out, and neither of us ejaculated. His penis was undeveloped, and mine was too big for him to swallow, we could not stick either of our penises inside of each other without being disgusted or in pain. We eventually got into an argument later on and went to bed. The next day I told the staff member who was there last night what happened, and convinced us both to keep it a secret. Every single day a 5 year old boy named Abraham would act up and you could hear his blood curling screams as the staff members restrained him daily. One day a staff member was removing the books from my room while I was perfectly calm because he said that I was at risk of throwing them and hurting someone, I got so angry that I accused him of trying to rape me. The police were brought in, my parents alerted, and I eventually recanted the claims. Every single day my room-mate tortured me endlessly, he never let me sleep as he would continually talk about sex, even after the ordeal that happened between us.
cont

>>6717693
We were the slaves of a constant schedule, and I, including everyone else, developed a Stockholm syndrome attachment to the staff members even though they constantly belittled us, abused us for the slightest things, and frequently provoked us either for the fun of it or to demonstrate that they had the ability to restrain someone else to the manager who was a fat, homosexual man who whore shirts too low so that his belly was extended. I was in 6th grade at the time, and we were in a bad neighborhood. I went to worst middle school in my whole entire city. There were fights every day, and the infrastructure was crumbling. Throughout all of my experience there, I was forced to take a heavy dosage of anti-depressants every day that morphed my personality in a way I never noticed, but I heard people describe me as being dull or boring or not really there because of it. My mother filed a 70,000 dollar suit with the city for my treatment there when I was 16. Nobody but me, the other kid, and the staff member I told the story to knows that the room-mate ordeal happened, and I was always left wondering if it was considered a loss of virginity. To this day I have suppressed the thought of it, and there have been times when I was about to commit suicide because I was thinking about it. I was permanently fucked up by that point, and from then on into adulthood I always hated myself. The whole entire thing happened over 6 months, and it was the single most traumatizing experience I have ever experienced in my life.

>>6717515
a-are you a grill?

>>6717266
So you want to bang your mom, but you cannot simultaneously love someone and want to bang them? Your last sentence is obviously a lie then, you do not love your mother.

>>6717108
>a 26 year-old kissless virgin
This isn't really that tame, man.

>>6716955
Go to bed Benny.

>>6717728
Th-thanks...

The Picture of Dorian Gray
I bullied my classmate for 5 years. I would beat him everyday and just make him feel awful. What's even worse, he was one of my best friends before that. I apologized to him after those years but I think that we both know he can't forgive me for what I've done.

>>6717515
That's a good boy.
Who's a good boy?
You're a good boy.
Want some treat, good boy?
Come here.
Beg.

The Rings of Saturn by W.G. Sebald

When I was about 15, on several occasions, I tried to have sex with my dog but couldn't find its vagina and so would masturbate and come on its chest. I'm certain this was not as quiet as I thought and that my entire family is aware but has condemned the fact from memory.

>>6717693
>>6717716

amazing story. thanks

>>6717716
Shit, man. I hope things are better now.

>>6717716

I'm so sorry this happened to you. I hope things get better for you anon!

>>6715925
so hows the gf situation now?

Amerika

My parents made me sleep with them until I was like 12/13 maybe? I have vivid memories of waiting until my parents were asleep and then masturbating silently next to them. I wasn't doing it to the thought of them, I was doing it because I was just generally ambiently aroused and I thought that they wouldn't notice. I was also afraid that I would accidentally automatically impregnate my mother in the night; because I didn't know how sex worked and I was very afraid of what seemed at the time to be a real, terrifying possibility.

Also once when I was sleeping in the middle, my father groped me by accident for a moment because he thought I was my mother. He, of course, recoiled immediately and laughed at the absurdity of the situation but I feel as if it was one of those moments that will poison the world, forever; one of those things that cancels the hope for redemption in this or any other life.

Moreover, when I was young my parents never booked playdates with girls; as a consequence, the first few stages of my psychosexual development were spent in the presence of male peers. The memories are distorted because they're so ancient now, but I recall we practiced fellatio on each other at the time when we were both capable of speech. I also have a vague memory that we were once discovered by his mother.

At my house, we would page through my father's enormous book of classic artwork and dog-ear pages with naked girls in them. My father chastised me, not for what he of course saw as a perfectly normal expression of burgeoning sexuality, but for damaging his book by dog-earing it. That was the most intense sense of shame I've ever felt.

I have a vague memory of bathing naked with my mother when I was at the age when articulable speech was possible for me, because I remember asking if I could try sucking on her breasts. She allowed me to do that. Nothing more beyond those bare particulars remains of that memory.

Afterwards, I emerged from my latency period with a boy who coerced me into masturbating with him. We also masturbated each other, from time to time. I remember he would counter my protests with the most ornate sophistries until I was too fatigued to resist him anymore.

I have more memories, but just recounting these few has made me weary; I've never had a normal sexual experience, I've never experienced even the shadow of healthy love, I've never had my genuine advances responded to—the world, to its last league, to its last moment, has been poisoned, irrevocably poisoned. I would commit suicide, but it's far easier to pretend and to forget than it is to remember one's life as it really happened.

>>6717814
I give up. Who are you?

>>6717814
beautiful and moving. thank you

Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy or Hitch-22

When I was 16 I was at a shopping center with my grandmother. We were having lunch when this group of girls sat nearby. After a short while I noticed them laughing and looked to see them laughing at me. I had terrible acne at the time and was incredibly insecure about it. Sure enough, I could hear them calling me 'pimple' or 'meatlover's pizza'. This went on for 20 minutes before even my grandma asked if I knew them or something. I excused myself from lunch and told my grandmother I'd meet up with her later, that I just wanted to look around and do something shopping. I rounded the corner and waited for the girls to walk away where I followed them out to a carpark that was still under construction. I saw them light up a cigarette and found a heavy grey rock on the ground. I went up to the girl in the middle, who'd been leading the laughter and threw it squarely at her face. There was a horrible crack and she slumped down into the dirt. The 2 girls that were with her screamed and I quickly ran back and left the place a 10 minutes later. That night I saw on the news that a 17 year old girl had been assaulted at a Gold Coast shopping centre. Freaked out for weeks that I'd be found out.

I know it sounds like something a faggy fedora edgelord would claim but it's not something I'm proud of, or have ever told anyone. I have deep seated misogynistic notions that's i'm terribly ashamed of as well and though I've never physically assaulted a woman since, I clutch every time I think about what happened.

>>6717839
Wow. Heavy

A Night at the Tavern (Noite na Taverna)

I feel fueled by sexual desires much more than any of my close friends and the male average even though I was diagnosed with delayed puberty and have quite lower levels of testosterone in my body right now. I'm a little wary of going into treatment because I fear I'll be a complete pervert and end up fucking keyholes and the such.

>>6717814
>Amerika
mah nigga

>>6717847
that's my name

>>6717839
Its okay anon, I think you can be absolved of the situation.

Drop the background misogyny and move on with your life; you stuck up for yourself more than most people ever would, but if you let it stick with you and effect you then it was not a victory.

forgive yourself, and them, and move on.

>>6717850
heyooo

>Be nerd with terrible acne
>Just trying to enjoy a meal with granny.
>Bitches are constantly insulting me, and my grandmother can only assume the best of them, even though deep down they are terrible, shallow people who were never reared correctly and get sick kicks out of belittling others
>Throw a rock into the main bitches face
>Probably teach them a lesson or two that they wouldn't forget
>Lean back and watch society as they fawn over human garbage purely for her appearance.

I see nothing wrong with this, anon.

>>6717855 was meant to reply to >>6717839

>>6717855
It felt good at the time. But I'm now 25 and since that incident, I've lived through instances that has bolstered my misogyny instead of diluting and eventually extirpating it. I hate that I feel this way towards women, I wish that I didn't carry around this immense hatred all the time. It's exhausting.

>>6717853
And cheers bro. That makes me feel better. Do you think I should talk to a therapist about this sort of thing?

>>6717515
treating a girl like a pet is my only true fetish

i really want to make one go on all fours and eat out of my hand

>>6717868
You have universal healthcare, don't you? Get a good one.

Think of it this way: In the past, food was scarce but emotional support was prevalent.

Today, due to forces beyond our control, the opposite is true. There's no shame or weakness in going to see a therapist.

>>6717741
Wrong or right
Satisfy the dog

>>6717814
Most authorly post itt
Second is the institution one.
Both should go out and write good things

>>6717839
kek if this is true

>>6717839
Without denying the enormity of the act you committed, I feel I can forgive you. Just remember for every post on 4chan, there are ten lurkers who feel the same way.

>>6717814
>>6717839
real human bein

>>6717839
>I clutch every time
Wanna join my csgo clan?

The Fall

I feel so dispassionate an empty, I've never found anything I've been able to try to devote my life to. I keep just drifting on the surface of all sorts of stupid distractions without living life. And looking at life from afar, it's really fucking scary and hard and I don't wanna try. I just want to be an autist for something, but I can't.

I don't belong here, I'm sorry

>>6717970
>iktf

"I'm so despondent about everything. Everything I try goes totally wrong. There's no escape from this hole here. I feel drained. So far, I still haven't found a real purpose in life. Sometimes, I'm afraid to get out of bed in the morning. There's nothing to get up for."

July 17, 1924

—Joseph Goebbels

>>6717839
>tfw I remember going to the shopping centre with my grandma. Never threw a rock at anyone, though.

>>6717975
I totally get that sadly. I feel so aimless I wish there was a draft

>>6717801
It's shit. Still haven't had a girlfriend. I'm not a 10/10 for sure, but I'm not ugly either, it's just that I'm socially retarded. I can talk with people normally (girls too), but I can't get into "that" zone which gets me a girlfriend. I flirt and joke around with some girls, but that's about it.

>>6717999
>>6717999
ikft, I'm in the same situation.
What always happens to me is that I think/am convinced that a girl is into me, because in my eyes it can't be any other way because of the way they talk to me/act around me. Now I have ended up with several female friends who I'm kind off close with, which is all good, but it I want something more. I want more closeness, passion, tenderness, which I'm not getting from these friendships.
>inb4 hurr you only think you're not ugly if you weren't ugly you would have gf

>>6717740
Oliver?

>>6717979
No, you really don't.

You've not experienced the sheer (as in cliff-face) horror of being made to fight and kill other human beings for nebulous causes that you can barely understand.

The only way it can be tolerated is to make of yourself something less than a man.

Killing for your own purposes?

perhaps that can be justified.

But a man should not be a gun.

>>6718060
I know I really don't, wish is why I'd never sign up for military service but something like that would give me an actual purpose

>>6718022
not even close fam

Don Quixote

I love you

>>6718060
Middle class platitudes. I don't quite have the arguments ready, but I refuse to believe war and warfare is quite so pathetic as it seems; a dropout stoner is capable of these remarks, there's got to be more to it.

>>6717814
If you wrote a semi-biography, I would read it.

>>6717814
Awesome I loved this you have invoked a feeling that I should post honest to my disgusting perverted heart.

The Beach
I broke the girl I liked's nose in 1st grade
I stole hundreds of car emblems in the vain of rebellion and cried violently in front of my friend when my mother found 5 of them in a backpack; then dumped the remainders I had in the trash the next day
I stole 50 dollars from the backpack of a really good friend with another 'friend' then spent the afternoon trying to find a criminal with my buddy
I Bullied a black homosexual in 7th grade to the point of open derogatory terms and attempting to light his hair on fire with aerosol spray to find out he committed suicide 3 years later
I stole a $700 camera from a car while walking home drunk; lock checking cars, only to realise it belonged to the family of the suicide victim I bullied in highschool after masturbating to videos of the victims younger sister and her friends

>>6718284
why are you such a shitty person breh?

>>6717970
Oh, fuck.

This pretty much hits the nail on the head for me, too.

I just want to feel something, have something to strive for, and not just waste away drinking.

Les Miserables

I have never been in any kind of romantic or IRL sexual relationship, but I have had many, many girls that I talk to online which then often lead to us only talking to get each other off, or me hopelessly pining after them in some capacity in an effort to have consistent human contact, even if it's just online. Three years ago, I drove 500 miles roundtrip to meet a girl I met online a couple of months prior. We hung out for an evening, saw a movie, ate, and laid next to each other, not touching, on a hotel bed until midnight. I knew she couldn't stay for the night, and although in the back of my head I wanted "something" to happen, nothing could've because she had to leave. After she left, something in me snapped and I spent the night crying more than I cried when my mother died when I was 11 (I am 23, now), because I had felt a connection I had never felt before or since, and it had been simultaneously severed. The girl did not speak to me after that night, until much later we became "friends" again but the sting of being cut off made me pretty resentful. This is pretty light in comparison to other things, but that moment was a breaking point for me, and relationships/closeness/intimacy are extremely, extremely hard for me.

tl;dr Forever alone mentality and I can be very verbose as to why I feel that way. Not sure if anyone wants to hear more, for some kind of resonance

Brothers Karamazov
I've posted on 4chan since 2005 but grew up to be a huge normie and moralfag.

>>6718336
Please be in London.

>>6718352
>girls
>on the internet
pick one lad

1. Fear and Trembling
2. >>6718322
I know exactly what you mean, to the point where I wonder if we're the same person. I will semi-randomly feel immense, passionate infatuation for a girl to the point where I delude myself into thinking that we're compatible. I then have endless fantasies about a relationship between myself and the object of my affection (because usually at this point in my mind, the woman I harbor feelings for is just a simulacrum of the actual human being I've met) As a result, I feel intense compatibility on my end where there is none on hers. To top it off, because of my past behavior, whenever I sense that a woman might actually be interested in pursuing a relationship with me, I'm so terrified of rejection that I wait to express any shred of emotion I feel for her until it's too late and she has given up on me. This is due to my attraction to normal, mentally and emotionally healthy women who have better things to do than waste time waiting for a neurotic, pitiable wretch to reciprocate. And the worst thing? And it happens over and over, again and again and I don't know how to stop it from happening. And worse yet is that I don't know if I would stop.

>>6717719
Unfortunately, no.
>>6717741
F-fuck off man seriously don't pull that shit.

>>6718366
I'm >>6718322

Yup, I know what you mean. I've been in a few "flings" that are mainly online, some to the point where the girl is fully aware of the fact that I desire them, and the fact that I can "never get them" is pleasing to them, so I'm teased, often sexually in nature, because of it. I take this sort of borderline-abuse (I use that word lightly in this situation) not because I enjoy it, because I fear the alternative of actual, reciprocal relationships. I've been used a lot, mainly for attention (because they know I'll dish it out because it's such an automatic response for me). I always end up alone though. I think it's sort of deep-rooted in me (I've seen a lot of therapists, many of them think this whole thing has to do with my very close relationship with my mom being ended when I was young). Any connection, even if fucked up, is better than nothing. So I tend to settle for the less, and end up damaged by it.

>>6716981

I can't stop laughing at this post.

>>6716071
let it go. The best revenge is living well

>>6714717
>BNW
>I browse /d/ for pleasure

>>6716412

Hey Don

>>6717139
Get over it bro, you were a child, you did something stupid with your willy, that's life.

>>6718461
>>6718322
Holy fuck you faggots, it's not that hard.
>kissless virgin until 22
>lift weights for a year
>dress better
>stop being nice to women
>be a confident asshole
>constantly fucking women

It really is that simple. Why do you faggots like being cucks? Treat women like the sluts they are and they'll suck your dick.

>>6716884
Where did you do it?
How did you avoid getting caught?
How old were you?
How did the horse react?

>>6718649
Those slags are pretty disgusting, tbh. The kind of chick who goes after d. bags like Zyzz.

>>6714828
You have to remember you're on an anonymous message board. It's not like the world's going to know.

I'm not the person I thought I was.

>>6718674
sour grapes tbh

>>6718674
That's the thing though; 90% of women are the same. Only reason why the "good" girls don't go for Zyzz is because they know he's not interested. I've been on both sides of the fence. It's more fun to be a "douchebag" and fuck shitty women, than be a "gentlemen" and jerk off.

It's ridiculously simple too. Go out on the weekend, bring good energy, talk to people, and don't take shit from anyone.

The Odyssey
I'm sort of dating this one girl who recently blew me off for a date, if she ever does want to go out again I plan to guilt her into fucking me.

>>6718715
>The Odyssey
Fagles or Lombardo?

>>6718666
tfw that guy probably has left the thread forever

>>6718284
That's pretty common, m8.

hmm. The Selfish Gene, maybe
>inb4 endless shitposting about Dawkins. It's a great book and you know it

I think my darkest secret at the moment is that I have three girlfriends, and have done for ages, and they have all said they love me and want to live with and/or marry me, but really I am just using them for sex and to keep my fear of loneliness at bay, and I am not really into any of them that much, and in fact what I really want to do is have a quick affair with a trap or ladyboy just to see what it's like

>>6718936
I know you're probably being authentic here but you found how to trigger almost all /lit/erati

The Logic of Scientific Discovery by Karl Popper

I have a thing for fat black women

>>6718936
>likes dawkins
>is a degenerate mentally ill sex pervert
All checks out

bourdieu's distinctions

am a sex addict who's slept with over 50 girls at the age of 21. i sometimes have weird rashes i tell nobody about. sometimes the girls i fuck complain about UTIs and other stuff. dont really care, probs just the 2 fingers i had in your ass and then in your cunt

>>6718936
yo, i'll tell you something, the relationships with your girls aren't what you're imagining. you're not using them for sex, you're just telling yourself a story to feel less alone. sorry, fuccboi

>>6718936
How the fuck do you find the time to keep 3 gfs?

>>6719079
he's 'lying' - not in the strict sense, but he's just delusional.

>>6715678
how conservative do you even have to be to call that your favourite

don't get me wrong, it's a lovely poem, but I just can't imagine taking it seriously enough to call it my favourite

>>6714717
A Prayer for Owen Meany by John Irving.

Runner up: Infinite Jest by he who shall not be mentioned.

>>6714805
to my ears, it sounds like the appropriate time for an anecdote

>>6714717

The Man Who Was Thursday GK Chesterton

The Bible.

my favourite part is Genesis 19:30-38

>>6717256
>Which novel will I be able to relate to the most? In regards to my major self esteem issues, depression, and isolation?

pic related

Alasdair Gray's "Lanark: A Life in Four Books" hugely resonated with me.

The protagonist(s) is/are the author's explicit auto-biographical self-insert(s), and the whole thing is about a mid-20's, virginal, autistic Scottish NEET in the process of fucking up every aspect of his life across multiple parallel Glaswegian universes.

It was like looking in a mirror.

Don't let my description dissuade you. It was comfy in equal proportion to its capacity to unsettle, and the insight and introspection it prompted were well worth the +500 page price of admission.

Godspeed, Anon.

Oh dear. Looks like >>6718981 was right.

>>6719042
>>>/pol/

>>6719075
Wow, you sound like an expert in relationships. Whatevs dude, you know best.

>>6719084
Oh yeah, I'm so deluded

>>6719079
I only work part time. I do a lot of different leisure activities and I invite a different girl to each one. Usually they stay over at my place afterwards. I have a box for each of them where I keep their toothbrush etc when one of the others is staying over.

>>6717926

kek'd aloud

>>6716837
Who the hell are you to tell him what to do? I am glad your hopes got smashed. Get used to it.

>>6714717
Infinite Jest, or Philosophical Investigations

IJ was incredibly emotional for me because of how easily I could Identify with Hal. The ending chapters where Hal becomes for and more distant, right before he loses all communication, really resonated with me.

The scenes where Hal is watching Himself's movies and ignoring people around him or when he tries to find an NA meeting for his marijuana addiction particularly stand out. I just feel like I'm constantly drifting farther from the social dogma. I feel almost constantly emotionally drained, and I think about suicide but I lack the motivation to attempt it.

I'm worried that this apathy will swallow me, and that it will be misunderstood as early adulthood angst. Too many of my friends spout that "I don't care about anything" nonsense as a way to cope with stress, or as a way to look cool, but I've gotten so tired I can't even explain to people how deep my apathy runs.

Even phrases like "I don't care about anything" would take a type of emotional inertia I just couldn't muster, and even if I could it would just feel immediately misunderstood.

Even what I'm typing now feels too angst-ridden. I think communication has gotten much harder for me, I feel like anything I say is immediately interpreted by people as if they were the ones saying it.

My biggest fear fading away like this. I'm drawn to art as an attempt to express what I can't with words, but I feel like I won't get the motivation to actually create anything worth while, and even then I'm sure it would be misunderstood.

>>6717144
Are you gunna kill her anon?

>>6715728
Ah, the rare /fit/lit/. He puts so much effort into improving himself, and has likely risen far above the average Joe both mentally and physically. Yet, despite all this he is still
>tfw no gf

>>6717839
Kek, fag

The Picture Of Dorian Gray

I have a dead man locked in a room upstairs

>>6719313
Get a load of this moron

>>6719381
What do you mean, anon?

Brothers Karamazov or Infinite Jest.

I lost my virginity to a girl last year. We were really close before we started hooking up. It was an open thing. We had sex three times but I only came inside her once. I had trouble getting hard. I knew it was an open thing and that she was hooking up with this other guy, and it was kind of ok - it really wasn't that ok, but I really liked her - but then she started hooking up with me early in the night, and then sleeping over in his room later that night. I was warming her up for him.

I told her we should stop hanging out and she started crying and yelling at me. Said I never expressed that I liked her. Said I never opened up and that I couldn't be intimate. I don't know what I said. I just think I mostly looked at her. She was crying but I just felt really calm and could only just take note of the physical space between us.

I haven't been able to be intimate with a girl since. I had a panic attack when a girl tried to hook up with me. The thought of sex now terrifies me.

>>6719467
IKTF, this is almost too similar to how I lost my virginity

>>6719313
I finished IJ recently and I feel the same way.
as of right now I think absurdity is the best coping mechanism

>>6719374
how? are you a gangster? bad luck? did you pull grandpa's plug? are you dissecting a hobo?

>>6719173
sounds cool.

thanks anon

>>6717716
would read book/10

>>6717839

You've done God's work, anon!

>>6717742
>The Rings of Saturn by W.G. Sebald
just bought this on but haven't read. why did you like it?

>>6717091
I got the pepe's. I roll the nickels

>>6716076
this guy brings up a good point, it would make a pretty funny but also emotional book

>>6719481
>>6719467

At least you guys lost your virginity. Don't expect sympathy where it is not deserved.

A Confederacy of Dunces
I have such a deep-seated hatred for women that I often seriously consider going gay

Prometheus Unbound

Assortment of mental issues, substance abuse, manipulation and using people, just a general shittiness that I somewhat mask under the guise of having some secret meaning I"m striving towards that supersedes normal life and excuses my various failures. I even spend hours alone writing about this meaning in some attempt to convince myself it's true and excuse any unethical behavior by telling myself that the moral was a social construct or that hurting people isn't bad because any strong emotion is meaningful, and that not acting on your desires is repressing life.

Walden (And Civil Disobedience)

Sometimes I think I have one of those bullshit asexual things where I feel like I'd be completely able to never have a relationship without guilt if it wasn't for the social stigma. Its my driving factor in talking to women, or at least saying I do when im not. I want someone special in my life like that, and im still attracted to people of course, but it often feels not worth the effort, that its just not meant for me. I am a grown man and I still don't know what my personality should be. Even with my friends I feel like im the black sheep that only hangs out because we always have. People notice that I seem "off" and it makes it very difficult to talk to new people, or that when they do its only for the novelty of it. I have no idea what I want to do with my life.

>>6720153

>>6719780
>homosexuality
>a choice

>>6720153
>>6720168

>>6720153
>Even with my friends I feel like im the black sheep that only hangs out because we always have.
>People notice that I seem "off" and it makes it very difficult to talk to new people, or that when they do its only for the novelty of it
>its only for the novelty of it
Sometimes I feel like a beautiful empty box.

>>6720153
>>6720168
>>6720183
>>6720287

>people notice that I seem "off"

You guys too, huh?

>>6720360
>tfw
this is the feel that drew me to feel threads back on /v/ in 2011

>>6716931
prose

>>6715925
sounds like she wanted the d, you were just too beta

>>6717211
Read some easier Pynchon first, I'd recc TCOL49.

I don't know you so I don't know what else to rec, and nobody else does, just read whatever the fuck you want and if you like it idgaf

If on a Winter's Night a Traveler

I lost my virginity at age 14 to a girl that was 16, and she proceeded to attempt suicide

>>6721333
the suicide wasn't directly related to your sex, was it? One would think she was already in a bad mental state if she had sex with a 14 year old

Mossflower. Come at me bros, my nostalgia will fight all of you off.

Tropic of Cancer
I fall in love with pretty much every girl I fuck, even if only briefly. I'm good looking but kind of neurotic so I get some, but every single time I'm thinking about how the rest of my life would play out with this slut that I met two hours ago and just finished with.

>>6721360
She was raped in middle school. Not Tumblr raped but actual raped. Even though she won't admit it I think sex is hard for her

>>6720618
>sounds like she wanted the d
Why would you be so optimistic?

>>6717281
Thanks, Freud.

>>6718336
Same
Same, except I started in 2008