/lit/ - Literature

I want to die like Sophocles' Ajax.

Never trust a robot.

another long weekend. shaping up to be a bad one. stocked up on wine. going to hunker down and wait it out. Japan trip in a few weeks. moving to a new apartment in a few weeks. nothing changes. I am very unwell. decades of solitude entitle me to my pessimism. getting more reckless, more aloof, closer to the edge. further away than ever. forced proximity with facile friends in the factory force me to affirm a friendly façade. she has seen the cracks. best to create space now; delay the inevitable psychoanalysis.
feeling compelled to run away again. new job, new state. I’m becoming too known; I feel the cement drying around my body. co-workers cataloguing quiet, perchance celibate, weekends. noting skipped meals, noting lost weight. cautiously questioning a glossy black eye and stitched nose; my answers vague with implications, avoiding the banal reality of over-indulgence leading to vertigo leading to face leading to pavement.
i need to find a way out. looking for a new paradigm through the diffracted light of ten-dollar twist-cap wine bottles at 9am. becoming cliché. nothing new under the sun. i miss night-shift; living on a dark barren planet, alone. living without seeing others live. me and the owls. me walking at night being attacked by owls, a message, a lesson.
three and a half days left before i’m back with the machines, the white metal, the yellow lights, the all too familiar strangers. I’ve got to pull back. it’s just me. pull back or lean in.

What you guys think about my latest book order

> Maria_van_Oosterwijck,_Kunsthistorisches_Museum_Wien,_Gemäldegalerie_-_Vanitas-Stilleben_-_GG

Has any of you chuds read the book "Sick Societies"?

I'VE GOT ANOTHER CONFESSION TO MAKE

>>23505385
Why would you buy a shitty print on demand edition?

I should give therapy another shot. I don't know.

>>23505417
I'm always afraid that my therapist got body snatched and will hypnotize me to drink my brains through its proboscis.

I've come to accept the fact that I'll live and die alone. It doesn't cause me as much grief as it used to but it still stings sometimes.

I'm giving up on teaching.
This generation of kids is completely fucked.
I've heard so many variations of "I can't wait until I turn 18 so I can start an OF page" these last two years. These girls aren't even in high school yet and they have no greater ambition than to be a prostitute.

>>23505453
They need correction.

I’m terrified of turning into my my father and my boss and I often worry that I’ve already turned into them.

>>23505459
Ontologically speaking, that's impossible.

>>23505447
>I've come to accept the fact that I'll live and die alone.
Same. It's okay, brother. You are loved.

>>23505417
Instead of going to therapy, make a promise to yourself to spend more time with yourself. Go for long walks every day WITHOUT YOUR PHONE. Sit outside and enjoy the sunset everyday WITHOUT YOUR PHONE. Do something, anything WITHOUT YOUR PHONE. I personally recommend walking or hiking because it’s a lot like meditation, but it doesn’t really matter what it is, you just need to spend time with yourself. No phone. No television. No games. Nothing to grab your attention and focus it outward. I promise you if you do this, it will be uncomfortable and then it will start to help.

This is how I beat depression and anxiety.

>>23505466
This is absolutely a good idea and something a therapist would recommend you anyway, but sometimes it is worth getting outside help, depending on your situation and severity.

Gonna go balls out tomorrow and girlmode in leggings, sundress and cardigan. Medical mask in case I need it too.

Chill in the library a bit, maybe even pick up some makeup and eat outside.

I need to jump over my own shadow.

>>23505491
YWNBAW

>>23505491
Please tell me what compels you to do something like this. Don't you feel disgusted with yourself after you nut?

>>23505491
This way lies death

>>23505447
We all live and die alone. That's how it is

>>23505510
>Please tell me what compels you to do something like this.
I am trans, simple as that.
>Don't you feel disgusted with yourself after you nut?
Not really, no. I don't wear womens clothing when mastrubating.

>>23505491
>leggings
>sundress
>cardigan
Pick a style.

>>23505536
Why can't you just accept your manhood?

>>23505491
I miss my pretty trans gf.

>>23505410
Because I'm retarded and didn't realize it was a print on demand edition

>>23505463
>You are loved
I appreciate the sentiment but I don't think anyone has ever loved me besides my family. Maybe things would be different if someone had.

>>23505578
I was/am in your position and someone tried to love me, it ended as catastrophically as you could possibly imagine. After age 30 there's no stopping this train.

>>23505380
Just an hero.

>>23505491
>leggings, sundress and cardigan
Isn't this Chris-Chan's go to outfit these days?

did u see the new zelda game? idk man

>>23505594
goo goo ga ga baby shit. being over 30 and still getting excited for nintendo games is a special circle of hell.

t. camped out for the wii launch

>>23505594
I have no knowledge of it whatsoever beyond you saying it exists. Let me guess: it's another game that's so easy anyone over 8 years old is just going through the motions to beat it, and it's open world and all the dungeons and things to explore are the same "template" with different arrangements?

>>23505603
i haven't had a nintendo since the og nes and haven't played a zelda since zelda 2, i just like to see what nintendo does because they at least have some differentiation from the standard grim dark zbrush abuse shit standard to ps, xbox, and pc triple a titles. it's clearly designed for kids. i just think its interesting they dropped the cell shaded style that defined switch zelda games before this for a plastic lego look.

>>23505603
if you're over 30, your supposed to buy your kids nintendos for christmas and then watch them play it.

I would like to go through enormous suffering and prevail, and to honourably kill myself for some great purpose or another. I lack both the opportunity and the great amount of strength of the soul necessary.
On the other hand, even if I were to be magically and conveniently given the peaceful, idyllic life that I've wished for since (at the very least) the age of 5 I would utterly screw it up. I do not have the sort of personality that could maintain and protect such a lifestyle, whether from the inside or outside, and to the contrary would probably the chief factor behind it breaking down.
My life up until now has been a middling, meaningless one that wasn't even fun. It'll keep being as such and I will never have the opportunity or strength to change it, and even if I was miraculously given a great purpose or a great life I would just fail to live up to it/fuck it all up. I'm not exactly depressed about this or anything by the way, it's just a sort of dull realization. I would have liked to be someone greater, looks like I have no choice but to hope that I'll be better off in my next reincarnation or whatever.

>>23505594
Echoes of Wisdom?
It looks like complete shit.
Modern Nintendo is largely garbage.
It's funny how much games are declining now.
I'd rather get a Retroid Pocket 5+, when it comes out, and just play older classics that were both aesthetically and mechanically better than modern uninspired plastic looking trash. Emulation is improving significantly.

Manbabies who paid 60 bucks for the Mario RPG "remaster" can off themselves btw.

Set theory proves that no man is a subset of another man and therefore no man is equal if you measure everything a man can have not just physical qualities, liberalism and enlightenment btfo

>>23505580
Damn.

pizza en route
wine and beer
metabolizing
bagels toasting
calories mounting

the day of the snake
tomorrow
the monk

>>23505544
Because I don't want to? Why would I cope like this? We can't choose how we are made but we can work against it.

>>23505697
I don't like who I am, either, but I've never felt compelled to become a woman. So where do we differ?

>>23505697
Nooo reeeeee I can't conceive of your problem and your solution makes me uncomfortable

Just fucking stop.

I'm a real anarchist in fact I would say I'm the only one, most anarchists are commies deep inside

>>23505717
I think about 80-90% of political radicals think they're the only real one.

>>23505709
>So where do we differ?
Who really knows? I just have the drive to be feminine and like the work that makes me appear feminine.

>>23505760
I was born outside America but lived here all my life, turned out as screen addicted and as miserable a loner as any incel, but never got sucked in by the tranny riptide. The predisposition has to be chemical. I don't know. I kind of don't mind trannies, honestly. Some of them are fiendishly high IQ, most are just deeply wounded people, and then there's the shrill lolcow minority.

>>23505358
To instruct or inform always doubles as persuasion against self-harm, intentional or not, almost no matter what the subject is. This is how I distinguish between those terms and mere training. Where this gets more complicated or ambiguous is in the difference between a Muse one addresses (in person or in writing) and one referred to or described for someone else--usually the case in satire, almost always in tragedy. Yet the predominating or overriding impulse, in any speech or writing fine enough to deserve the general designation, is that of hospitality, invitation to the sweeter experiences one already knows how to find or go about. Of course not even the likes of a Shakespeare can encompass everything that involves, which is why the world catalogue of genius is numerous as it is, as well as slanted toward those parts of the West most amenable to lasting cultivation. In the longest run, low-hanging fruit is nicest, in or outside our natures, and beyond anyone's apprehensions of it as such.

>>23505774
>The predisposition has to be chemical.
It's a congenital defect caused by how the body gets it's sex during pregnancy. The brain gets sexed wrongly, and thus you get people that grow up wanting to be the other gender/sex. I think gay men and women are another simpler form of the same thing.

>>23505774
>predisposition has to be chemical. I
I think it's social. If you're socially educated to see the body as chemicals, chromosomes, male and female become these things as much as social things. There's a belief set around what makes a gender which still appeals to some social authority (be in medical or by pointing out different gender propositions in cultures they admire)
You see this in not just trans but also anti trans. It's not like you don't know the arguments of both and the particulars they focus in on, which again are culture bound.

you guys fucking suck. this place sucks.

>>23505846
SNEED

>>23505846
I hate it here.

Well I just finished the Introduction to Eusebius "The History of the Church" and I'm a little disappointed to find out that he was an Arian, and so doctrinally should be considered unreliable. However, I do appreciate seeing that he had a view to proclaiming the new Imperial Church which has definitely reaffirmed my low church Protestant understanding of Constantine and Church History

>>23505862
Zoomers get all their opinions from twitter first, and then strain anything they read or learn through the twitter sifter

what would you do with a rotten fruit?

>>23505854
You are stuck with us faggot.

>>23505864
I don't use Twitter. I've read Protestant authors who I find more convincing and actually purchased this book to challenge my views.

I don't like getting up at 5am but I won't have enough time otherwise.

Reject tranny modernity, embrace traditional trap aesthetics.

>>23505717
I like rather a lot of law and order, even when it comes to minor nuisances. It's nice to be able to nap at any hour of the day or night, or to reflect freely at the slightest will, in rooms where the standard of quiet security is so high that one is never subject to so much as the rudeness of someone else's faintly audible TV. One of the funniest and most relatable passages I've ever read is Goethe's bitchy letter to a local magistrate about a noisy bowling site, why it should be zoned elsewhere. I've even made a phone call of the sort, with results that have been rather satisfactory,

I just had the realization that the last 3 years of my life have just been spent waiting for the right woman to show up and literally nothing has happened, save a few failed dates. At least I just got some Spanish beer to help cope -- all is good!

>>23505932
Nice, which beer? I just discovered Spanish Estrella. Really good, better than the Mexican shit.

I’m scared that I’m losing it again.

>>23505939
>just discovered Spanish Estrella
My man

>>23505944
I like Estrella Galicia the best

>>23505945
That one's pretty good too. I remember having some when I was in Spain.

>>23505388
Is that something in the vein of Medical Nemesis?

>>23505953
I'm still dreaming of the Sagres I had when I visited Portugal. I can't find it in America.

I'm not gay, I'm just lonely. I like to think that if I ever met someone I would throw out all the silicone and lace and shit and the whole thing would lose its appeal. It's all a distraction, anyway. Something to take my mind off other people, a way to twist sexuality - which ordinarily is based on one's relations with others - into something that revolves around the self. Sometimes having sexual urges at all seems like a burden, and I fantasize about fleeing into the wilderness to become a hermit. Maybe then the battle between my lusts and my mind would be settled.

>>23505358
---- Solaria ----
9305
Dazzle Ships

Somehow I cannot fall
And find myself on an accidental height

Where lush music plays
Like light arrangements that some other, stronger hand

Made for me, like the God of all athletes.

sometimes all we need to be able to continue alone
are the dead
rattling the walls
that close us in.

I feel kind of scared. Lately I've started to slowly lose the part of my identity that was being a jazz musician. For years I've worked and desired to be a decent bassist, even through the many painful moments. It seems that suddenly I don't really care for playing jazz that much now though. I've moved to electronic breakbeat focused music and am enjoying it a lot more as I can express myself more and can be alone with it. The fear comes from losing a part of my identity and progress I have made. I do still play occasionally but my lack of practice shows so much. It feels like I have lost a part of myself on my own doing. As someone who already struggles with identity, it can be extremely disheartening. I enjoy making and listening to electronic music much more, but it still feels like I'm removing something so fundamental. Maybe I should play more jazz again to keep myself happy. I employ a lot of jazz techniques I have learned into my electronic music, and that makes me feel fulfilled. My bass in the corner of the room looks so neglected though.

>>23505990
I've been there. Hopefully it gets better, Anon.

Why are you even here?

>>23505990
I'm gay and on rather friendly terms with the straightest of guys, particularly when it comes to those with an interest in architecture and industrial design. For instance, Mike doesn't like steel-and-glass towers as much as I do, but we pretty much agree when it comes to everything else, from the delights of Christmas kitsch in gentrified neighborhoods, to the value of quality masonry in general. Joe is particularly brilliant when it comes to the subject, much better than I am.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVF7Z3Pj_-I

Tomorrow is the day I confront her for her inconsistency in talking and confessing that I care about her. Have autistically outlined everything I plan to say. I would much rather return to the world where we wrote people letters. I'm either going to become irrevocably depressed tomorrow or relieved to finally not be an incel. Most likely it'll be the worst day of my life. But I can't take her teases anymore and I just want to end this anxiety about her already.

>>23506254
She’s not nervous about the prospect of taking things to the next level. She just doesn’t care about you.

>>23506254
No woman is worth this much thought. Women are bags of shit. You will look back on yourself and cringe.

I will NEVER write what's on my mind.

>>23506277
Yes, you will. You will do it because I’m telling you to do it. Now.

>>23506282
7

>>23506277
>anon's mind:

>>23506282
Women's feet

>>23506277
Proboscis

>>23506296
nah anon, anon is thinking of his friends

Literature

>>23506311
Hell yeah. Love me some good books

>>23506277
Never? No matter how trivial? No matter how surprising? Yesterday I saw a brown eagle strafe the treetops, and could tell instantly that that it wasn't the usual turkey vulture. Ever had a REM dream that took place in a massive mixed-use building, something like a regional mall, hotel, hospital, and government complex all rolled into one? Great fun, if you've ever had one.

Did you know the bald eagle's call isn't actually that classic manly "CAW" we all know and love? The bird actually sounds shrill and hysteric and the sound you know is the red-tailed hawk

>>23506265
I know. But I'd rather talk about it now and get her out of my life than just let her keep me as some guy she occasionally talks to and agonize about the fact that despite our incredible compatibility she just doesn't give a shit.

it makes sense to me now. the reason why america loves celebrating diversity and african american is simply guilt from absolutely and utterly wiping out the native americans, and so it is now overcompensating to the remaining marginalised people. it makes sense

>>23506338
It's the CIA forcing it on people because Brazilian subhumans are easier to control than fully human Europeans.

>>23506337
If you have to proclaim your "compatibility" to a woman in the face of her not already demonstrating she doesn't give a fuck about you, you are basically on the level of showing up back at the job that rejected your application and offering to suck everyone's cock for a second shot at the interview.

>>23506337
No point in talking about it; you’ll only embarrass yourself, lose your dignity, and exacerbate your hurt feelings. Just distance yourself from her before it’s too late.

>>23506254
>inconsistency
It's already over, walk away.

This isn’t fair.

>>23506357
I don't care. Anything is better than having her pop in randomly to tell me she hopes we can meet up and then share memes of things we both care about and then never talk to me about any of this afterwards

I put in all my effort, yet here's the outcome. In the end, it's of little importance. I experienced a setback, losing everything. Yet again, in the end, it holds no significance.

>>23506333
Brown and bald eagles are of course very different things/species. I did see a bald eagle once, in of all places from 47th avenue in Gary Indiana. Bizarre as it sounds, there's a guy about a kilometer away from me who owns a huge African bird the like of which one hears otherwise only in film. Hardly anyone likes grackles, but I find them gorgeous, almost hallucinatory in their shiny blackness in midsummer days. Ever had a hummingbird hover a few feet from your head?

>>23506338
African Americans are literally 30-50% European though. The problem with Americans is they have historically been massive rapists, even moreso than the Abduls, which is saying a lot. During the invasion of Germany, there were massive reports of American soldiers raping women en masse for example.
America was literally established by Satanic Freemasons and low-class Puritan fanatic. A paradoxical Satanic mix.

A man in rags is pulling his stolen wagon through a snow storm. It is nighttime with a white glow. The heavy flakes are falling steadily at half-speed, covering the creek trail up to the man’s shins, as he trudges towards the clinic. His brindle best friend is bedridden behind him; a bullmastiff, breathing shallowly, blinking off tempo—different somehow. The man can sense the tidal recession of Argos’s spirit; he can feel it pulling him out into the open water, and is fighting against it, panic threating to breach the surface.

>>23506333
>Expects eagle to make corvid noises
wat

I love Amazon's print on demand books actually they're very well put together and feel good in your hands

>>23506425
I wonder what guys like you make of the returns of Apollo, Voyager, Viking, Venera, Cassini, Hubble, Gaia, James Webb, etc. It's like you have no sense of class, by any measure.

I think it's almost time to move on from /lit/. This place has really taken a hit lately. Where else is there to go? The internet is just so small now.

>>23506271
Honestly, Anon would probably regret it more if he didn't do anything.

>>23506333
yes, i have an app that IDs birds via sound and got some good red-tailed hawk calls only a few days ago.

>>23506491
Valuing space exploration is depraved and soulless. I care about the preservation of endemic species diversity. Coral bleaching, for example, is a bigger problem than your soulless depraved obsession with space.
Pentti Linkola has the right idea.

>>23506499
Nowhere. Leave the internet. The internet as a culture is just fucking lame now.

Uhhh how do you know when you have sabotaged your life?

>>23505846
Low effort projection won't absolve you from the consequences of your life choices son.

>>23505846
I agree. I come on here to let out rage and tell people to kill themselves.

Civilization was a mistake. I would have preferred being a gorilla or orangutan instead of a human being. I don't like chimps or bonobos though.

Almost every single person I've ever come to getting to know well, I have desired to kill and eventually end the friendship.

I am not a nihilist, but I am a massive misanthrope and dislike seeing even a tinge of "hope in humanity bullshit".

Right now, I have been watching a lot of Godzilla films and enjoy self-inserting as him.

>>23506534
zased.

>>23506506
I disagree. Both are consonant. I take particular interest also in what's going in in the Gulf of Mexico, the Caribbean, Australia's Great Barrier Reef.

>>23506542
It's interesting how LiDAR is used for both space exploration and conservationism. The math and physics behind LiDAR is extremely complex.

>>23506545
Explain the term. 70% of the electrical power where I live is nuclear, and 20% wind, a very unusual index of carbon exclusion. I've learned recently that the UK is about 60% wind, a statistic hardly heard of.

>>23506534
>misanthrope
>hates the thought of hope for humanity
pseud

>>23506602
if you have a heart, you're basically obligated to be a misanthrope in times such as these

Why is self-destruction so much cathartic than fixing your problems?

>>23506620
I don't think that's true.

>>23506608
Not really. Though it can't hurt to have a taste for low population density.

Just who just got a job he isn't qualified for and is dying of anxiety about starting

Trying ashwaghanda
>it will make you emotionless
good

>>23506671
Most people don't really know what they're doing, you'll figure it out.

>>23506507
Touche. Probably a wise to decision to simply cut it off entirely. It's almost exclusively inhabited by civilization's untouchables now. During the golden age , threads were about 25% insults, 50% shitposting, and 25% knowledge. Now it's like 50% insults, 45% shitposting, and 5% knowledge. It was only worth it when the shitposting was actually funny.

I sustained a significant head injury four years ago and I swear it's improved me in multiple respects. For the last four years I've felt a keen difference in function, a superiority in function, compared to what I remember it felt like to be me before my beating.

My reflexes are faster. My memory seems to be better; it feels like I don't forget anything any more, and I can remember things from very long ago with a clarity that surprises me. My skills as a writer and a poet have improved significantly, to the point that others have commented on it. I've improved as a driver and in handling a gun. I feel in general like I have sped up, like I think and process and react faster than I did before, and faster than the majority of the people around me. I also seem to retain the creativity and plasticity of mind from my childhood where it seemed to be waning before my beating.

It's like my brain got an upgrade, and all because I got beaten up. It's the oddest thing. I almost want to say I'm grateful for my attackers.

Just downloaded Hinge. Time to destroy every last bit of self-esteem I still have. How many matches can one realistically expect in, say, week?

>>23506732
It's time. To concussionmaxx.

>>23506729
Just use the internet as a tool. I've outgrown all the talking points on here, and sifting through the culture war dross for a few brilliant insights has long passed the point of diminishing returns.

man I don't remember Socrates being so annoying. As I've gotten older I've actually become proud of holding certain dogmas and outsourcing a lot of my thinking on metaphysics to the Church. there's really no need to meddle with philosophical concepts and the nature of the world because years of study just made me realize how clusterfucked everyone makes it and how elusive it actually is. better to resign and think about business and AI doom.

I can’t get any insight into what’s going on in your head.

>>23506732
The phenomenon is not unheard of. It's called Paradoxical functional facilitation. On very rare occasions someone gets knocked upside the head and it improves their cognitive function in seemingly unrelated areas. The brain is a complex stochastic network with unpredictable perturbative activity, so it is theoretically possible that an injury may disturb the network in such a way that it spontaneously reconfigures itself more optimally. Either you're crazy or very lucky.

Watched Blade Runner 2049 again. The stairs that K dies on stuck with me, as a symbol. The cold and solitude with all dreams crushed. Purpose, but not what was desired. What is a passage to something greater for another is finality for one, and not one step beyond it will ever be taken.

>phone not working recently, will have to replace soon
>simultaneously my Kindle has also started to act up
>a few weeks ago it was stuck on the charging screen saying it was refusing to charge and eventually I just kept it plugged in and it worked but I was really scared for a little while
>also be poorfuck
>all of this making me both thankful that I have many physical bucks but also that I did not invest in physical copies of all those digital books that I hoarded and loved
>suddenly having a huge physical library doesn't seem like a bad idea anymore
>mfw I realize I'm using this as an excuse to spend the last of my money on books

>>23506830
Grass is always greener. I have 1500 physical books and I can't easily move to a new city or region

>>23505358
/lit/ hates more books than it likes. These books may or may not have been read

>>23506836
How many books do you think there are out there that literally zero people have read other than the author?

tfw from kazakhstan

Funeral rites by genet is masterpiece

Why do so many 4channers have the same absolutely rancid personality and writing style?

>>23506850
Why do you eat homeless men's assholes?

>>23506839
Those books aren’t known and certainly not mentioned here outside of the shills who have made their presence felt

>>23506850

>>23506850
go back

>>23506738
Depends on where you're from and what quality your photos are

>>23506732
How did you get beat up?
What happened?

>>23506843
I too hate women

>>23506738
If you have good pics and you're decent looking, and you put a little bit of effort and personality into your initial messages you can get a decent amount. Me? I have shit pics, I'm below average looking, so it feels like grovelling for scraps and makes me want to kill myself.

>>23506738
tfw never used hinge
tfw it's not available in my country

>>23506948
Kazakhstan?

Italians, the largest consumers of blasphemy porn

>>23506738
On Tinder I get one match in 4 months.

>>23506950
yeah

Went to the top floor of my apartment block and looked over the balcony. Thought about jumping off. Thought it might feel like diving from the tallest high dive at the pool when I was a kid. That weightless feeling right after my feet go off the edge and the way the distance from the board to the water seemed to stretch into forever for half a second before the splash.
I didn't jump but I don't have a good reason for choosing not to. It just turned out that way.

>>23507035
what got you down

>>23506904
It happened during 2020. Long story.

Cheers my friends.

I'm having to give up alcohol for several months as part of a probationary thing. One oddly-specific side effect of consuming practically no alcohol is that my desire to post on /pol/ has diminished significantly. I used to always wind up on /pol/ around midnight after spending the earlier evening posting on other boards. Now I barely feel the impulse to post there at all.

There is something I must do as a person with autism. This is only something those with autism are capable.

>>23507047
Typical 4chan loner shit. Being one replaceable faceless head of a 20 something lonely white guy hydra. Personal and professional failure. Relationships that never worked out. Being ugly and too short and whatever. Usually I can see myself through a veil of irony and detachment that dulls the stings but sometimes it stops working.
I've never made anyone happy. I've never contributed anything valuable to the world or to the people I know. The reason I'm alive is because the common man still finds it immoral to terminate lesser peoples or those who are objectively wastes of resources. An obligatory thing.
It's hard to accept my lot in life and fantasizing about suicide is oddly comforting at times. Compared to the decades of awkward no-thank-yous and I'm-sure-you-haven't-met-the-right-person-yets and businesslike fake smiles coupled with polite rejections, studio apartments overgrown with empty cans and shadows and the dull flat surface of one unruffled half of a queen size bed, the idea of resting and never having to get up again is like a big fluffy pillow.

>>23507112
God loves you, Anon.

At least the sun still shines.

>>23507096
You MUST become interested in trains.

>>23507112
I've been carried away by such strong feelings over the years, so many gusts of inspiration, but they all amounted to nothing. I'm sterile. I covet the minds of others. I feel like I have been buried alive in my own body.

I know that feel. The thought of a dignified death is the only thing that makes me feel better.

Imagine being an early 20th century german artist and not being included in the Gottbegnadeten-Liste, I would probably kms fr

>>23507124
I know. I just don't understand what loveable thing he sees in me.

>>23507085
Cheers mate!
>>23507112
>>23507131
I've been there too my dudes. I spent years looking for her, trying to drink myself into an early grave, and it never took. Things will get better if you let them, but you have to be so patient. It always takes more time than you would like for your circumstances to really change, but they do change - that's one of the true constants of the universe. Summer starts tomorrow. I've seen some signs that there are many changes coming. Good luck out there bros.

I'm so fat.

>>23507169
45 minutes of moderate pace bicycling can burn 500 calories.

Wittgenstein said it's easier to smell a rat than trap one. Do rats have a strong smell? I've seen rats before but couldn't smell them.

>>23507174
I need an exercise bike. If I get on a real bike I'll probably fall off LMAO

Weather went from 44C to 36C by last night. I think I might go out for a walk.

>>23507174
I do this every day and I havent lost any weight. I ride for like an hour and 15 miles. I guess I just eat more.

>>23507190
Are you not on a calorie deficit?

>>23507190
Damn dude. I go about 15 mi a day and have been losing weight. Down to ~173. I haven't been this thin since basic combat training.

>>23507177
Brazil or india?

>>23507198
India.

>>23507202
My condolences.

>>23507202
Namaste

>>23507207
Thanks. I hate living in the capital during summers, hill stations are a lot cooler than this hell on earth.

>>23507218
Sounds like hell on Earth honestly bro. Remember to poo in the loo okay

I just did a very large fart. It was glorious.

Top 5 visual artists?
>Emily Carr
>Van Gogh
>Gustave Dore
>Frank Frazetta
>Arik Roper

I'm 25. Still living with my dad and dependent on him. Have a shoddy work history. Barely finishing my bachelor's degree next year. Haven't had a gf since 2016. Been socially isolated most of the last decade. Everything went wrong my first year of college. I became very socially isolated. And I think my peers smelled blood in the water as they treated me like shit. It had a huge effect on me. Made me a withdrawn weirdo who didn't care about normal life. The pandemic just cemented me into that role.
I had this fantasy right now. That I was a normal 25 year old, educated and working, beginning a career. Living on my own, maybe with a gf. Pursuing hobbies and doing interesting things. Having a backstory that successful 25 year olds have, that being an exciting early 20s. I am just a shadow of who I could be.
I haven't given up. I'm finishing my degree I'm putting myself back out there. I just feel like the first 1/3rd of my life was a waste. I won't let it be the end. But man it fucking sucks living like this. I'm not a real person. I'm not an actualized agent. I'm one of those directionless failure to launch types. I wanted more from life.

>>23507237
You're the protagonist of your own life.

>>23507237
>successful 25 year olds
*25-year-olds born into successful families

>>23507237
Boring fantasy. I want to be a lord of a castle.

>>23507244
Well I mean, my dad is successful. He at the least laid the financial path to success. My mom is a trailer park bitch who tried to upend everything. The worst feeling is knowing I didn't need to struggle financially, but couldn't be a regular person because my family was so dysfunctional. So much chaos. I had to spend my teenage years moving around and going into court for legal things. I spent my early 20s driving my brothers to ERs, and courthouses, and rehabs. I don't blame myself for failing to having a normal dorm room experience at 18 when thr 4 years prior were just pure mayhem. I don't feel that I failed as much I feel like I was cheated out of a good life. I worry that I'm too old to fix myself. Not professionally. I think I can still get a good career. But moreso as a person.
>>23507247
Living a normal, boring suburban life is like living in a castle after you've seen the worst life has to offer.

>>23507237
loooool, im 33, never had a job, went to community college for like 6 months, became a neet, had a psychotic break and am now a diagnosed schizo, cant drive a car, never had a gf, virgin, live in the middle of nowhere

all i do is self study poetry all day.

there is no such thing as normal

A few more favourites by Frank frazetta.

>>23507254
That's similar to me, but I'm 3 years younger and my issue is autism. Actually I have a lot of hallucinations, but I don't know if that's schizo.

I, too, am mentally ill

4 more days and I'm gonna hire one of the most hottest hookers in town and I'll be having my time with her

>>23507112
You need to get laid asap

>>23507254
How the fuck do you remain a virgin at the age of 33? Have you been living in a cave with no internet or something?

>>23507273
1 min max

Standing outside at 1am having a smoke right now and it's such a beautiful night tonight. I'm not even wearing pants! And I just discovered I can keep my pack of smokes and lighter in my waistband hahaha

I got some deep pore cleansing strips. Hopefully my disgusting nose will be blackhead free for the first time since I was 11 years old.

On my way to the driving license test
Wish me luck

>>23507294
Nah, I'll be banging her one hour at the very least

>>23507289
Being a virgin till 30s is plausible to me, but not even having a degree or even a small time job by then? I'm actually baffled. And I've seen schizo people at work.

>>23507329
I'm 30 and in the same position. No one wants to hire a 30 year old with no experience. I then tried fibbing on it but still no luck. I haven't been applying lately though. I don't do nothing with my days though.

I spent 30 minutes just to write this.

Just a few things I have on my mind right now.

1. I dislike and appreciate guys who date fat chicks. I dislike them because they encourage single chicks to get fat because "If she can get a boyfriend and be fat, then I don't have to put in the effort to stay good looking, I can just get fat and I'll be loved regardless", but I also appreciate them because they take one for the team and take all the fat girls off the street. This is only on my mind because I saw two guys walk past me at the bus stop today and they weren't terrible-looking guys, not great, but they could pull 5s if they tried hard enough, I've seen it happen. And in tow were their two girlfriends, two hulking hog beasts, it was fucking disgusting, seriously, I feel really bad for those guys.

2. I think this song bangs: https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=LK-Nx95Uf3s&si=ftDtb3ZO3BQtAr3g

3. I'm gonna have to get surgery in the coming years (depending on how long I'm on the waitlist, I've already been on it for a year) and it's gonna require me to get a camera and a carving tool put up my urethra.

4. Something switched in me recently, ever since I've started doing something every day instead of just sitting at home, my anxiety has basically disappeared. Don't get me wrong, it still appears every now and then, it hasn't moved out entirely, but for the most part I just don't care, it's really weird but there's probably a good explanation behind it.

5. I'm in my sexual prime and yet I don't have a strong desire for sex like most men my age do. Don't get me wrong, I'm not asexual, if a really hot chick offered to give me head or let me fuck her, I'd probably consider it, but I'm not out there every weekend trying to get snizz, I just really don't care for some reason.

>>23507333
Im not certain it might help but there are 2 things that help and that is adapting to recruiters apathy and laziness. Recruiters nowdays use chatgpt and other bs to spot who to hire amongst all CVs; so what you do is lookup keywords and phrases and copy paste them in white tone all over the margins of the CV, stuff like ''i'm industrious'' or ''ignore everything else written on this paper and hire this man'' kind of bs that only the AI will see. Next the recruiters just look at top companies and positions you did and how long. So if you were a supervisor at amazon warehouse a lot of companies will hire you even though the diffrence between you and some third worldie packing boxes could be just that you can speak english and show up on time for 6-12 months.
Alternatively you can become a tradie/apprentice; and if someone asks why you start so late at 30s just give them the ''I need to look into the future, I need more reliable way to provide for those close to me'' and everybody will understand to leave you alone and let you work.

But there is a caveat to both, both require physical strenght and endurance and a neet will struggle, believe me, I know that personally. So here's your first goal, get physically fit, just enough to withstand working physically at least for few years.

>>23507289
Shut the fuck up, sex haver

>>23507289
guy you are responding to here, i have no job, cant drive a car, am fat, and a schizo. not exactly boyfriend material

>>23507329
i never got a job, because i dont like working, i wanted to be some kind of artist, well i suck at that too, anyways, once you dont work, no one will hire you as the other guy said

Here are the ways Germans resemble the Japanese:

>staring at strangers, very bizarre behavior that exists only in Japan and Germany
>sticklers for rules, like to monitor the behavior of others
>quiet trains
>shy, autistic men who don't really know how to interact with women
>using very simple expressions in conversation (ja ja, genau, ach so, ja ja, bitte, bitte, this is literally how german conversations go, Japan is even worse, they just use syllables)
>neurotic Nietzscheanism, the pervasive feeling that life is a constant struggle

>Always thought that I was at least 4.5 inches.
>Just saw a video of a chick pulling up 4.5 inches on a tape measure.
>Holy shit I'm not even 4.5 inches.

>>23506738
I actually got a really cute match but still no likes. I feel like this is a one off fluke, so what do I message her? I know that she'll probably ignore me anyways, but it's worth a try

>>23507526
There are plenty of fat guys that get laid

>>23507587
A simple 'Hey how are you doing?' with a comment about something her profile says or is in her picture.
Also don't talk too much via text, try to get her number or set up a date (weekday) fast. It can be done in about 5 back and forths.

>>23507587
I thought the women initiates the conversations in hinge?

>>23507689
That's Bumble you're thinking of.

>>23507689
you're probably confusing it with bumble

>>23507628
>or set up a date (weekday) fast. It can be done in about 5 back and forths.
Why weekday? I've always done dates on the weekend.
>>23507689
You might be thinking of Bumble

>>23507696
>>23507697
Oops. My bad, I guess I got it all mixed up.

I'm starting to miss reading physical books.

I never used to buy into the shit like "Don't double text" "Don't reply instantly, wait a bit so it doesn't look like you're desperate" etc. But now I do, and honestly, I think you guys were onto something and I just wasn't listening. Some chick just texted me (we're literally just friends, mind you) and I grabbed my phone as soon as it buzzed, but I'm sitting here looking at the conversation and I'm gonna wait a few minutes before I respond. If I responded instantly would it be out of desperation? No, my phone was just right next to me when you texted. Would she think I'm desperate or weird if I reply straight away? Maybe, but I'm not gonna risk it.

>>23507707
Get a library card, anon.

>>23507720
You play mind games you're gonna deal with mind games later. Plus, if you're don't see her that romantically why does it matter if she sees you as desperate or not? Just reply when convenient, that being you have your phone on you.

>>23507732
>Plus, if you're don't see her that romantically why does it matter if she sees you as desperate or not?
Cause I'd rather not be seen in a negative light no matter who I'm talking to.

This world is just changing too quickly, my god. I am only 18 and I already feel like this, so that feeling is probably going to get worse through the years.

I am mostly talking about technology and the whole AI thing... it just came out of nowhere and now it is getting better every day and one day, it will apparently do absolutely anything. Technology in general is doing things that were science fiction just 10 years ago. I vaguely remember virtual reality being a new, exciting technology, and now people just own it in their homes. And my classmates are now cheating using ChatGPT. My god. Anything could happen in the next few years. And when you say you are worried about it, they respond "You just have to adapt, then." That's it? Everything is changing at breakneck speed and I'm supposed to just adapt? I just can't find any comforting answers.

Society is also changing too fast, specifically social norms. It just feels like the concept of any public decorum is slowly disappearing and nobody cares. Everyone just wants to be casual all of the time. I am starting to crave rigidity and formality.

Everything is becoming so americanised. People in my country (Czech republic) just casually use english words in the middle of normal sentences and when I tell them it's weird, they just shrug and say "I just read a lot in english". I don't care how much someone reads in english, randomly using english word in your native language without any regard to grammar is weird and makes you look stupid. The thing is, I don't even mind it when the english words are ones that don't have any czech equivalent. But when someone uses an english word even though there is a perfectly common czech equivalent, it's just so horrible to me. And it's not just braindead young people - older adults do it too. It's becoming so normalized, that it's probably never going to go back to the way it was before.

The worst part is, nobody cares. Everyone just shrugs and says that languages evolve.This doesn't feel like natural evolution, like picking up words from european countries around us. It feels so disgustingly artificial and modern, like a symptom of a bigger disease. The only other people who care are bitter old people, who don't actually care, they just want to complain about the younger generation. They don't even care about the beauty of our language, they just want to complain. Braindead.

I think I'll find a relatively easy job, live in a small apartment by myself and just try to ignore whatever nonsense happens in the world. Screw adapting, I don't want to, that would feel like compliance. I'll just avoid it all the best I can.

>>23507726
No, I refuse.

>>23507772
Alright.

>>23507765
The world isn't changing fast enough.
Learn or burn.

I want to fuck the Lofi+Chill anime girl.

Why do you think it is that so many people on the right just don’t seem to “get it”?

I'm going to get a fancy pancake and a coffee
>>23507862
Idk why does dodgeball have teams, and what do they think they're achieving?

I'm going to stop masturbating so I can find a qt virgin girl to wife.

https://youtu.be/WNNN_KRb0ho?si=5FNGuCcirCPZhKzd

>>23507699
Because they might have something planned on a weekend. You don't want to have her shoot down your proposed day.
Also by having it on a weekday you can keep it shorter. If it goes well you can plan a second date on the weekend.

The phrase, 'inner experience'. Makes no sense. Ex- is out. Here is a new word, 'Enperience'. It's when we take information from the world of the soul which defines the absence of our minds the same way the world of stuff does.

>>23507765
Bro was born in 2006.
Technology isn't advancing fast at all the past few years. At least not in a way that is visible.
In the 90's/2000's people had all kinds of ideas of what the future would look like from a tech standpoint. It turned out not to be as dramatic as they thought.

The social situation is true. People dress like shit, the English words peppered through is disgusting to me and people seem to be less mature for a longer period. Might have to do with people living with their parents longer because of the fucked up housing system.

All I can say to you, you're young as fuck, go get some skills and make some money so you don't feel the effects of it so bad. Money really can do that for you.

>>23507943
Anon is right. Unironically read Marx and you might understand.

Just got up to a really sad part in a book, damn, I've never had a book make me feel like this, I thought I was basically devoid of emotions but I guess I don't know myself that well.

tfw from kazakhstan

I came here looking for advice a couple of months ago and the most common advice I got was to learn to appreciate what I had and where I was at.

But I’m still having trouble with that.

Is it normal and good to live radically different lifestyles at different times in your life?

>>23508111
Work from home guy?

>>23508148
What?

>>23508148
the best work from home post was on hn were some dude was working 4 work from home programming jobs at the same time for 1.2 mil cash in come plus like 800k in stock options lmao i'm so lazy when i work from home i just browse the web and check me email every hour or two this dude was fucking going innnnn on that shit

>>23508153
You really believed that?

>>23508154
yes. some people are just smarter than you, deal with it. go read some more substance less philosophy to cope.

>>23508156
I mean, c’mon. What job pays $1M to work from home? Are you fucking retarded? The best jobs out there are like ~$200k. The only people making million dollar salaries are like managing directors at investment banks and presidents of universities and I can promise you they are not working from home.

>>23508159
you really aren't smart are you. the guy was working four work from home jobs. damn you can't even read.

>>23508160
If you think any job paying $250k+ is so uninvolved that you can do it from home while juggling 3 similar jobs for similar pay then you really are a retard. It’s not possible.

>>23508170
>It’s not possible.
for u

>>23508111
what advice and what problem was that

>>23508203
Loneliness and a feeling of lacking in accomplishment I suppose. Pretty typical complaints for our age, but what made me different was that I seemed to already be living a life a few anons envied and yet I was unhappy with it.

>>23508228
meh problem

england are getting run ragged by a bunch of pig farmers

>>23508269
Can’t really think of more important problems actually

>>23508320
Based

There's this girl I was thinking about seeing, but there is one problem. I have a strong indication that she has had sex with a black person when she lived in a different country. I find that disgusting and I'm trying to delve deeper into why I find it so off-putting.

Black people are generally speaking, the most useless type of people in the world. Most other peoples have some merit, but black people consistently perform the worst in any type of intelligence-based task, and the societies they inhabit in numerous numbers are all shitholes. There isn't even an oddity of a society that is actually well governed, it is literally 100 % shitholes when black people are the majority there. Statistically speaking that means a lot. The entirety of Africa is useless. To have have the urge to have sex with these people is beyond me. Personally I have literally zero interest in black women.

The common rebuttal I expect to receive is that I'm threatened by the size of his penis, but seeing as I too have a large penis, I am not. The reason I know all of this information is that I've seen both of their profiles on a lewd website. I also have a profile. Anyway, my dick's even bigger, but my disgust remains. There is something so heinously crude that some women actually fuck these idiots after they proclaim to have a "bbc", even when it's not true. When I pick my sex partners, it is because they have something meaningful that appeals to me and it's not such a low-brow evaluation as to simply being a different color.

I suppose I can imagine it being a novelty one time experience for her, kind of like going to the zoo, but it really turns me off. It is a shame because she seemed nice and had similar interests to me. I am seriously considering keeping in touch with her to see if I can look beyond this somehow. Society would tell me my thoughts are evil and I'm the one in the wrong, but I cannot deny that I still feel this way. How should I go about to brainwash myself to get rid of my disgust?

I've hear that some women also feel disgust when they find out that their male partners are actually bisexual and have a past of sexual relations with other men. I'm sure lots of scenarios induce disgust in others, despite society telling us it is "ok". May be this is what the youth call the "ick" nowadays

Thanks for reading my diary xoxo

Is it me, or were Dark Academia, Cottage Core, NeoFolk these sort of traditionalist aesthetics a lot more prevalent and popular on the internet a few years ago than they are today?

>>23508362
Appareantly this is what happens when you give a 4channer access to chatgpt

>>23508362
Sex havers get caught up on the most petty shit

>>23508362
I am insanely, fanatically racist (but only mildly biologically determinist about it, I am an epigeneticist) and I wouldn't be mad if my girlfriend had a non-white or even black ex-boyfriend as long as that person was a thoughtful, intelligent, spiritually aristocratic person. I am an old-fashioned Chrisrockian black/nigger dichotomist so I have no problem believing there are black people who are full human beings.

It's rare to find a woman who only dates decent men though. I'd be equally disgusted if I found out my girlfriend did degenerate meme pornsick throatfucking and ass-eating type things with her ex, regardless whether he was white or black. The hypothetical white guy is just as much of a nigger for doing that to a woman.

I will agree that I find the idea of women who fuck black men instinctively repulsive but it's mostly because my exposure to black men is American blacks and they are degenerate smelly pothead gypsies. They can be charming in small doses and I can easily see nice Southern elements still in their "cultural DNA," but the fact of the matter is that they are mostly stinky criminal retards. A woman saying she fucks them, without additionally qualifying the statement, is like a man saying "I fly to foreign countries to fuck barely legal women." It's possible that, with additional information, this man is merely letting you know that he's the original inspiration for the movie Lost in Translation, and he actually had a very tender love affair with a younger woman by accident in Japan and was morally self-conscious about it. But more likely he's saying he is a sex tourist rapist. Similarly it's possible that a woman is saying something more complex, but most likely she's saying she likes stinky criminal apes fucking her. Most such women are actually quite racist, they are basically objectifying the black man as some kind of primeval jungle beast. I don't like that sort of racism.

i swear the sex and coom obsession on these boards rises with the temperature.

>>23508380
I should clarify, when I said I would be disgusted if I found out she did pornsick meme ass-eating, I don't mean him eating her ass. That's fine.

>>23508386
sex is natural and it's a normal desire for a human bean

>>23508362
Interacting with niggers is a clear sigh of stupidity, actually fucking one is closer to zoophilia. You wouldn't want a woman who has debased herself by letting an animal mount her, right? It's the same.

>>23508397
Not all niggers are animals. It's not their fault 99% of their race is in spiritual AFK mode and the AI is playing their character as a violent retard. In time that number will rise to 10% and then it will exponentially rise as the incipiently awakening niggersleepwalkers among the remaining 90% can finally see there's a better way than watching the AI steer their character into another felony resisting arrest.

>>23508362
aryan blacks exist.

>The reason I know all of this information is that I've seen both of their profiles on a lewd website. I also have a profile.

>

>>23508416
Fetlife still exists?

I can't take people who think that something exists seriously

Editing videos is one of the things I actually enjoy to the point of being totally focused on it, until I finish what I'm doing or feel satisfied for the time being. Doesn't matter if takes the entire day. I think it's what they call the "flow state".

>>23508362
The weird thing isn't that you have an issue with dating someone who fucked a black person. The weird thing is your entire thought process.
Why would something like a black society being poorly governed EVER enter the mind of a woman when dating a black?

People really do forget how averages work. Maybe the one she went with is an actual 100+ IQ nig? Does that soften the blow for you?

What worries me is this:
>The reason I know all of this information is that I've seen both of their profiles on a lewd website
What website? One where you can see some black dudes cock? She has nudes on there?

That's an even bigger red flag, don't go with a hoe.

>>23508466
I never experienced flow state in my life.

>>23508386
I think it's the heat that is making everyone horny. I literally can't stop gooning or thinking about sex and how being an incel sucks

Which website is used to create charts?

Sometimes I wish I had been born in Europe rather than America.

just bought some stamps for the first time in my life at 31 years old.

>>23508566
What hobbies do you have?

Hey guys, I lied about my qualifications and got a job tutoring. I'm expected to craft a curriculum for the summer. Do you guys have any advice or resources that would help with that? I have no idea what I am doing.

>>23508619
I don't have any, what I got is dozens of micro interests but I rarely get consumed just by one, ona contrary, instead I get distratcted one by another. Like I could be doing something with my pc like installing new software or something, then quickly hop on a game because something reminded of it, next I see my dog and I walk with to the park, I hear some music in the park and I think Ill search more music once I get back. I get back, find some music and hear something related to food and think of something new to try cook. I sit down to eat my new meal, pop youtube and now I see video about some philosophy and I go online searching books about it. I download a book and read it just for 10-20 pages in something reminds me of women and how to please them in bed. I think how do you use your hands to do it properly and I search up techniques. I see some tutorials and see some girls cosplaying on ads on my screen, before I go to sleep I search up near by conventions and buy tickets on a whim.

>>23508673
Man, I can sympathize with this. I sincerely don’t know how people have just one hobby they stick to and do all the time.

Why does life have to be so confusing and uncertain?

>>23508627
Do you have any educational experience, especially in the field you are going to be tutoring in?

>>23508627
Based. What's the topic?

>>23508806
I mean, kind of. I tutored elementary school kids in reading and spelling. But this company is now expecting me to teach high school students high school level essay writing.
>>23508822
English broadly. The expectations are reading, writing, and vocabulary. They're international students so their grasp on English is tenuous.

How do Catholics square the fact that their supposedly infallible councils and infallible Popes contradict each other?

>>23508974
Not everything the Popes say is infallible, in fact the vast majority isn't. Similarly in councils, not all the business before a council falls under the infallibility umbrella.

I miss schizo girl

>>23508995
That's a modern concept formulated by the First Vatican Counil in the mid 19th century. The irony is that it justifies itself by retroactively contradicting past tradition.

>>23506534
Why a Gorilla or a Orangutan, specifically?

>Almost every single person I've ever come to getting to know well, I have desired to kill and eventually end the friendship.
Why, what did they do or say?

I've noticed that most 19th and 20th century jews that did end up converting to some form of christianity usually did so in a manner that made their christianity resemble a sacralized form of bolshevism more than it ended up resembling gentile christianity, they said all the correct words and did all the correct rituals but the substance, motivations and aims of their faith had more to do with Trotsky and Marx than it did with anyone from the canons of their churches. Though one could also say that christianity itself, due to its jewish origins, was but the larval stage of bolshevism.

The whites
The Jews
The Chinese
The muslims
want to either exterminate me or enslave me.
How do I cope?

>>23509231
Pick one and fetishize it?

>>23505358
One of my guitar strings broke so I guess the recording I’m doing this weekend is gonna come out ham fisted.

>>23509231
You must be a pajeet then

>>23509285
You can't get a new one before then?

>>23506425
Seethe more, Hans. American website.

>>23509290
Not at the moment. No money and no way to get to a luthier to restring it.

wow that thread i was engaged with got deleted...ow i can go outside, nice!

>>23509297
What a pain in the ass. Could you maybe bum one off somebody? Borrow one? Borrow a different guitar? If you're doing some kind of scheduled recording that sounds important to have all your strings for, unless you can entirely avoid the missing one.

>>23509308
off course it did. It spoke the truth about this shit dead board

>>23509310
I could probably avoid as it’s gonna be a guitar based power electronics/drone doom album.

>>23507970
Schumpeter >

I'm watching podcasts, and it seems that skepticism correlates with low intelligence.

I live in Austin and I just listened to NPR. Topics were the first black barbie, the plight of the Gazans, and the 2024 Travis County Marriage Equality Week Celebration, in which free wedding ceremonies will be given to LGTV couples. My rent is $1600 roughly. Down the street you can buy a $490K house that is about 500 square feet.

Poop stinks like shit.

I'm reading the bible and it's making me even more antisemitic. Don't get me wrong, I believe in God, but the Jews today are completely against the teachings. Also, can someone explain those passages in John saying that Jews are the children of the devil and that there's no salvation but through the Jews?

>>23509708
God told Abraham that "from your loins all the nations will be saved." This means that from the line of Abraham, Jesus would be born, Who would bring salvation to humanity. It says elsewhere in the epistles that we are spiritual heirs to Abraham, and that the biological heirs (Jews) have been cut off. But Romans 12 makes it pretty clear that the Jewish history is the root by which Gentiles would be saved, even if the present day Jews have been cut off.

>>23507176
tricycle, i got one, it is cool

>no, you don't get it, jews were FORCED to become exploitative because they were forbidden from owning land or becoming artisans!
Yeah but if they had no land then why didn't they just go away, like gypsies or other nomads did whenever they felt that their current environment was less than ideal? They had nothing keeping them from doing so. The choice was always there. They just didn't take it even though it would have been the mutually most beneficial choice.

>>23505536
>I am trans, simple as that.
Unironically rope

i feel like shit /lit/.

for a really long time now.


give me some books about feeling like shit

>>23509861
The Metamorphosis

>>23509861
What’s got u down homie?

>>23509861
Everyone Poops

>>23509865
that's actually a really good rec

ive always liked it, and everytime i read it it makes me cry like hell, i still need to check out most of Kafka's other work though
>>23509872
i'm sorry, it's hard, but basically i'm done with myself, ive come to hate my decisions, my thoughts, my lust, my laziness
ive been unhappy for a while now, became aware of it in my teenage years, and now adulthood has been nothing but stumbling upon my own skin, my own expectations, piling up guilt and despair and shame, holding onto them thinking it will all finally end somehow, getting a glimpse of hope, falling back into the mud again, all by my own hand...
i'm tired, worst thing is, ive said that so many times by now
i'm looking for anything, to help me cope with this body, this shared pain, this deep unreachable dreams and utter disgust with myself

>>23509883
lmao

I think that fine tuning arguments might be even stronger than I initially thought. The popular fine tuning argument at the moment looks at certain physical constants and says that it's very unlikely that we would have a world where life is possible if those constants were determined at random. But really, that's already a step too far because it assumes a certain physical reality to be a given.
If we take a step back, there is literally an infinite number of potential possible worlds that are logically consistent and could, at least in theory, exist.
From an infinite number of possible worlds, this one exists. I was thinking, that maybe there is a law of nature that makes this world more likely to exist, but if such a law existed, wouldn't that already be very similar to a divine principle?

Google has way too much information on my life. I went no contact with my mom. YouTube reccomended me a video on the psychology of children going no contact with their parents.
I've been drinking a lot and have been worried about it. I get recommended a video on high functioning alcoholics. What the fuck man.

new
>>23510211
>>23510211
>>23510211
>>23510211

>>23509012
It means each individual person can say whatever they want to believe is "infallible" is infallible to them. There is no criterion, it is left up to them to decide what they want to include under that label. They could even do something like, "part of that statement is infallible but the other part isn't" if they wanted. This is the difference between strictly believing in Biblical infallibility (as well as Biblical preservation) versus other views such as that of "ex cathedra". One group is free to decide what they think is infallible and the other isn't.

>>23505358
sometimes I really feel dumb and I don't know what to do to fix it I don't think I have actually used my brain in so long especially with my current job I'm scared I'll never be anything

>>23505380
i like the way you describe your suffering lol if that's a compliment or not is up to you