/lit/ - Literature

>>23389521
Why do hr cunts instinctively dislike me.
Even when I try my hardest, dress nicely, be polite as possible they all distrust me and stare at me suspiciously
I really dgi. I just went to a hospital for an interview to work at the cafeteria. The hr woman seemed weirdly distrustful of me for no reason. She said the manager of the kitchen would be out shortly. I waited like 30 minutes she comes back and tells me they're in a meeting so I can either wait another 20-30 minutes or leave.
I strongly suspect she was lying and just trying to get me to leave.

I don’t but I wish that I could and so I tell myself that if I say it over and over enough times it’ll be true

>>23389521
Can the death of meaning by reversed?

I need career advice and I have nobody to ask.

>>23389649
Become an actuary

>>23389665
That was never on the table. Besides, I’m basically an actuary right now. I need more specific advice.

this 40yo lumber-jack lookin nigga on my shift really went and bolted on some titties and hacked his dick off now i gotta work with this 220lb linebacker lookin bitch and pretend like this nigga wasn't in the navy and isn't totally fucked in the head.

Has anyone ever written a poem about taking a truly satisfying shit? There are countless poems dancing around the subject of getting your nut but has anyone ever captured the transcendental experience of loading up on stool softeners after having all you can eat sushi and absolutely unloading into the gaping maw of a porcelain throne?

>>23389700
>The navy
Of course...

I have once again gone into the city for a small errand and been reminded of blacks

How many misbehavings and schizophrenias did I see? One thousand? One hundred thousand?

>>23389702
Horace wrote a poem about getting a blowjob

>>23389691
You are basically set up for life then I don't know else you want

>>23389713
I’m basically an actuary but not actually an actuary

I found out today mother changed her name back to her maiden name after her divorce. This upset me because it confirms what I already suspected, she loves herself and hates her ex-husband more than she loves her children.

I suppose it’s better to be angry than sad. If I could choose I’d rather feel nothing.

I am full of disdain.

>>23389757
Towards what?

https://www.theguardian.com/world/article/2024/may/14/far-right-twitter-identity-revealed

did he post here? pretty sure he did

Which edition of Infinite jest should i buy?
Picrel or the one with the clouds?
Which one has the notes at the end?
Which one is smaller(height and width don't carr about thickness)?
>inb4 go to bookstore
None have it

>>23389766
>which one has the notes at the end?
All of them, retard.

Look at the dimensions in the Amazon listing.

>>23389759
Der Wille zum Leben

>>23389521
>doing travel survey for money
>for some reason the government outsourced the work to Indians
>have to speak to some jeet and confirm everywhere I went
>the jeets near the end seems to be half laughing at me cause all I did was go to gym, go to a fast food place, and then to school all alone
My life sounds pathetic even to some call center jeet. It's over

>>23389762
Why does the BAP-osphere get so much attention from these journalists

>>23389762
What a mover and shaker, the right needs more guys like this.

I’ve always had a hunch that during a violent rape the man cums quickly. Probably no way I can find this out for sure

>>23389811
because they know these figures have influenced people in Trump's admin, and by extension portions of the Republican party. They're essentially doing skullduggery for the Democrats. Also, what happens once these nerds get doxxed?Someone informs their employer, then they lose their jobs and are ostracized. I think it also scares these journos that a lot of them have ties to universities. Though I find it lulzy that this guy was at UCI of all places. It's a super nerdy and asian UCs, very ethnically diverse too.

I hit up one of my ex's to get coffee or something and I think she hasn't gotten back to me (we were having a nice conversation before) because she's gotten, well, 'bigger' and is too embarrassed to be seen by me :( It was always her personality I found most attractive... besides, I just wanted someone to talk to, but I guess I get it.

For years now the internet has been one circular human centipede of regurgitated content. A Möbius strip of shit being re-digested ad infinitum. Copies of copies. Simulacra preceding the hyperreal. I now listen to my father regurgitate decade old memes and ideas posited by rodents on 4chan. Pretty funny, and pretty boring. The life of a precursor. Remembering my old man saying 'Doom-scrolling' without a hint of irony makes me chuckle as I start taking the slack out of the trigger.
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Hallo J--. Du geheimnisvoller, verführerischer und einsamer Elf. Ihre Anwesenheit ist ein elektrischer Strom. Es fühlt sich gut an. Ich habe dich erröten lassen. Du kannst mich auch mit einem intimen Blick oder einer Frage zum Erröten bringen. Ich möchte mich präventiv distanzieren, denn ich bin ein hoffnungsloser Pessimist.

>>23389702
I have read a tragic poem about a shit turning out to be only a fart

>>23389746
That's most divorced women

i have to euthanize my cat tomorrow and i feel terrible about it. its gut wrenchingly sad to me and i am dreading it, honestly. he has been my friend and companion for 14 years. i don't want him to go.

nabokov on kafka
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Mc5GEqfU7o

>>23389923
Sorry to hear that bro. Get another cat as soon as you can, it will help you feel better

>there is enough treachery, hatred violence absurdity in the average
>human being to supply any given army on any given day

>and the best at murder are those who preach against it
>and the best at hate are those who preach love
>and the best at war finally are those who preach peace
>...
Watching people, even ones that I've known for a long time, enjoying the sight of Russian/Ukrainian conscripts too young to even grow facial hair being horrifically mutilated has to be one of the most awakening things in the world. Completely normal people that go to a peaceful 9-5 job, play Call of Duty in the evenings, and have grill parties, simply enjoy senseless brutality if the news tells them it's LE GOOD.

Even I had this weird belief that chuds are somehow desensitized to violence and more willing to commit or endorse it, but that's not true at all. The average human being only needs to believe that horrific violence will be praised by his peers to revert to animalistic barbarism. How can someone avoid being a misanthrope?

>>23389982
By focusing on individuals and not the collective.
>man is evil
>no, men are evil but man is good

The fact that OpenAI's headquarters hasn't been torched to the ground yet is proof that Francis Fukuyama was correct

The angel of the LORD encampeth round about them that fear him, and delivereth them.

Psalm 34:7

I had the strangest dream last night. It was an ethereal experience.
>Be me
>On a beach in Eastern Africa
>See a white building, very beautiful but abandoned
>A voice in my head tells me it was a temple to Satan
>Climb to the roof
>Start yelling "Allahu Akbar"
>Climb down
>Walk further down the beach
>See a French-esque cafe, fairly busy
>Once of the customers drinking coffee is a woman
>Literally the most beautiful woman I've ever seen
>Walk towards her
>Wake up
I'm not a Muslim or an East African, not sure why I had this experience

Gotta create distance. Gotta make space. She keeps initiating, just being friendly, but it hurts me. Texting me. Tête-à-têtes for hours at a small table. Found out after two weeks of fantasizing and two attempted rendezvous after work that she has a boyfriend. She told me while we were wearing masks in the fab, so it was easy to conceal my disappointment, not that I was surprised. Gotta pull way back now. Quit flirting, quit looking for subtext and innuendo, quit hiding how much of a loser I am. Just work with another coworker.

>>23389615
If we dont start to kick these people in the teeth humanity will not survive. Givig white women power was the biggest mistake in human history. There is still time to course-correct.

/lit/ is a fast board and it's so cringe. fall asleep for 5 hours and the thread that was on page 1 that i was interested in is now archived. all because insecure 20 year olds want to post bait or cope or seethe all the time.

>>23389711
Blowjobs inspire a lot of poetry, quick way to experience the sublime
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oG6fayQBm9w

>>23390024
bs. it doesn't move that fast at all.

>>23390026
this is my least favorite song in the entire world

>>23390024
Yeah, this board turned into a dump

>>23389615
The only power women have is the power men granted them but it turned out this is not serving men, its making everything worse for everhbody. The moment men stop agreeing with a womens power she will not have it anymore. Why are men so pacified towards women? It is time for us to realize that this pacifist way is not serving us, quite the contrary, women are abusing it and it is time men start to realize it. We are warriors, the moment a women does something that you dont like you could just knock her out easily.
Captcha: 2woop

>>23389987
Looking at individuals makes people look bad, because these individuals are the ones laughing at death.

>>23390038
Any particular reason?

>>23389919
Yeah but she is not some divorced woman. She is my mother.

>>23390029
2 of the 3 threads i was looking at got archived by the time i woke up from a 5 hour sleep.
i know this board doesn't get a MASSIVE volume of replies, but this board has a higher ratio of OPs compared to replies than probably any other board on this website.
they would rather make a new thread to ask a question that can be answered in one post instead of just posting their question here for example.
i wish these people would just think twice about asking easily answerable questions or posting low quality opinions/baits as OPs and see if there's a thread or general they can post it in instead of making new threads

>>23390062
In a just world an anon would be able to make 1 thread a week. Also in a just world this board would have decent moderation.

>>23390062
its your fault if you didn't bump a thread at the tail end of the catalogue b4 going to sleep. rookie mistake.

>>23390072
it was on page 1 before i slept

too old for infatuation

>>23390076
wait til too old to get hard

>>23390074
bullshit

>>23390078
haha, quite literally just took a dick-pill. it's over...

i think i'll probably be dying and be like
>that nurse a cute

I used to work out all night and sleep during the day to avoid freezing to death.

>>23389521
It seems that I am the only one who is genuinely excited about this new book release.

>>23390098
What book?

>>23390100
"The Gift of Guthix," a RuneScape story. It just released today, and I literally left work early to go pick it up from an Amazon locker across town before they closed.

I didn’t really mean it

I’m a Lex Fridman looking ass. I wish I looked more stereotypically Western.

>>23390106
Probably a marker saturation problem

>>23390116
Market*

>>23389917
Ah, yes. Here I sit broken hearted. A tragedy in a single act.

It's 83 fucking degrees inside my apartment

>>23390114
Lmao couldn't be me everything I do I mean that's what it means to have free will

>>23390080
i fell asleep with 144 threads hidden and woke up to 61 threads hidden. There were 83 new threads in the time I was asleep. I keep track of these things. You should try it too if you think I'm lying.

>>23390106
Hi, Erin!

Only acholic trash memorize the legal BAC limit.

I think I found the one boys, she's perfect
>Has never been with a guy, never even had her first kiss
>Great relationship with parents, speaks very highly of her father
>Christian
>Doesn't smoke or drink or anything at all
>Dresses very modestly, no tattoos or any dumb piercings
>Very shy/sweet demeanor, haven't heard her swear once
>Very knowledgable about nature, animals, history
>Loves reading
>Great illustrator, writes and draws stories and sells hand-made art
>Great at cooking

I could go on and on. I'm wifing her up /lit/ and no one can stop me

>>23390170
It's not a hard number to remember. I've literally drank only 2 beer cans in my life, and I know it.

>>23390180
white trash

no sympathy for battered women who don't leave.

i'm so glad i spent all my crypto on steroids so i can stop watching the charts.

Hope Solo is a crazy bitch.

My sleep score today was only 49.

No sympathy for motorcyclists in collusions.
No sympathy for revolutionaries.
No sympathy for drug addicts.
No sympathy for the poor.
No sympathy for starving animals.
No sympathy for the handicapped.
No sympathy for the terminally ill.
No sympathy for the obese, disdain, even.
Don't care if your kids died, your spouse died, your dog died. Fuck you.

No sympathy for motorcyclists in collisions.
No sympathy for revolutionaries.
No sympathy for drug addicts.
No sympathy for the poor.
No sympathy for starving animals.
No sympathy for the handicapped.
No sympathy for the terminally ill.
No sympathy for the obese, disdain, even.
Don't care if your kids died, your spouse died, your dog died. Fuck you.

>>23390172
Men today would kill to get what you have

>Go to job help appointment.
>Hey, we'll call you once a month to check in.
>We also might help you find a job and might get you your year 11 and 12 certificates because you're a failure who dropped out of high school.
>And guess what? We're not even gonna pay you for any of this.
What was the point in going?

>>23390216
Someone's feeling edgy today.

>>23390172
I hope it goes terribly for you. Not because I'm jealous of what you may have, but because I don't want you to have it.

>>23390237
hehe :)

>>23390216
Mommy didn't get you the trendies?

Not even a guy with down syndrome can stand interacting with me. Why am I so difficult?

Looking forward to being in a good mood again. Wish they were more consistent and predictable. Gotta hunker down and wait for this to pass. Fuck man.

I shouldn’t have said that

>>23390172
>Has never been with a guy, never even had her first kiss
lol

>>23390246
Yeah, you should've, now you know not to say something like it in the future. Everything is a learning experience, anon.

none of my friends do or want to do anything anymore. online friends, or anyone. i don't mean with me, they even complain about it themselves. no one plays videogames even.
do i get new friends (100% out of spite), or whip the old ones into shape? or just accept indifference and loneliness.

>>23390250
My problem is that I never seem to learn from my experiences

>>23390252
No one is perfect, it sounds like you need to do some introspection.

>>23390247
femcel erasure

>>23390247
Not as uncommon as you people think

We're only making plans for Nigel

>>23390253
I’ve been trying to introspect. I talked to a friend of mine about the experience in depth last week and opened up in a way that I never have before. It felt very cathartic, and I thought that I had come to a resolution about it and made some significant progress. But then literally the next day I saw something that really triggered me and I got really upset and started spiralling into frustration and hurt feelings all over again and acted in a way that I now regret.

>>23390269
what triggered you and what is it that's so painful about it

Every day can go either extremely good or extremely bad if someone wants, this shows that humans don't want either

>>23390273
FALSE

Some girls are bigger than others

Suddenly feeling depressive again. Got home and it just hit me like a wave. I feel so alone and like I have no one I can be myself around. My roommates were talking and I couldn't muster the energy to participate in conversation. I just want to be normal. I can't seem to relate to people. I can't remember the last time I had a real heartfelt conversation with another person. I never feel real around other people like I just present a false face to everyone family included. I've been isolated so long it's hard to even carry a basic conversation anymore. Everything I say seems wrong or somehow contrived. When I hear my own voice echo back it doesn't sound like my own. I feel like a stranger to myself.
I don't know why I bother to wake up every day living like I do like a rat in a cage. Just circling through the same handful of empty enjoyments: food, alcohol, videogames. It's like I'm on a treadmill just treading water there's no direction.
I really want to get drunk right now

>>23390281
kek I can't imagine feeling like this and having to actually live with normies. when I feel like this the last thing in the fucking galaxy I want to fucking do is go home to a bunch of normies. I don't know how you people do it

>>23390285
>I don't know how you people do it
I do it by just ignoring them most of the time. They've learned this is just how I am so aren't even offended anymore when I don't make small talk.
I also have my own room I can escape to

>>23390276
It's true we always saving our energies for some distant day not knowing that day is today. We are comfortable being mediocre

>>23390287
But just being around them definitely exacerbates the loneliness because I feel like I can't ever be real around them.
So the loneliness just feels worse when I hear them having friendly banter and I realize I can't have that myself with them

I'm so excited bros. I get to drink alone all weekend for the first time in a long time. Gonna binge movies, dance naked around the house, and freely talk to myself aloud

>>23390060
Yeah yeah and my mom is a crazy bitch too. Just because she's your mom doesn't mean she's not a typical woman

>>23390292
ghastly. I just don't know how you do it. sharing a living space with people you feel like an alien around. the demons come out to play if you live alone feeling like this all the time but at least there's truth in that

Shut up butt face

I am: sad, lonely, bored, anxious, hopless, alone, a loser, sick, scared, nervous, ashamed, proud, vain, pessimistic, self-destructive, avoidant, embarrassed, ect.

>>23390313
based

>>23390313
Just stop it

>>23390312
Society is a great body horror classic

>>23390316
I'm not delusional.

>>23390298
If I could afford to live alone I would. My roommates are fine people, they don't bother me or leave messes but it does wear on me feeling like a stranger around them.
Awhile back I overheard my roommate talking about me "is he even human?". I've known them for 8 months but feel no closer to them than when I first moved in

>>23390325
damn.... fuck them

>>23390271
Some post that I saw. I guess it’s painful because I just find it really upsetting to have my feelings/thoughts/intentions deliberately misconstrued and characterised in a distorted way. I don’t know, it’s just like this immediate gut reaction of feeling so hurt and distressed and then behaving irrationally because of it

What is a prime and proper American dictionary that doesn't incorporate too many neologisms of older words. Find me When 'Objective' and 'Subjective' switched.

>>23390325
>>23390330
i am sorry you anons are in pain. please take drastic steps to improve your condition. if you sit on this pain like an egg for years it will corrode your spirit.

t. got so sad i developed a heart condition

>>23390344
start with the definition of literal

>>23390293
>>23390313
Aint life beautiful

>>23390313
Why?

>>23390329
I am 100% the problem. If you were around me you'd be asking the same question. The way I live is not natural.
He's usually nice and has multiple times offered to refer me for jobs. Both of them have freely given me stuff. I really don't know why
I'm an emotionless husk that can't open up or ever display authentic emotion. I'm extremely guarded around everyone.

>>23390376
It's not your fault you're autistic but autists are hard to live with, no point in denying that.

>>23389521
Alright, so...I'm going to run the short-way today. My body's fine right this moment, but I'm pretty sure this isn't sustainable. So later today, the short-way. Hopefully it will actually rain Friday so I can justifiably not run at all. I just hope I don't get 'caught up in the moment' like I normally do and go the long-way again later.

>>23390164
>*sweats profusely*

Will I ever be totally free of this

>>23390382
>It's not your fault you're autistic
I guess I must be. When I did an online test my score was in the normal range but I feel like i probably am.

Der Erlkoenig hat mir ein Leids getan.

Nothing can stop me now cause I don't care anymore

>>23390416
Stop you from doing what?

Dis day was today. Was uncharacteristically quiet.

I realized poetry is basically just being indirect through the use of poetic and sound devices.

poetry is literally the art of

>implying

>>23390428
Here’s a poem about that idea that my 9th grade English teacher had us read:

Pitcher
by Robert Francis

His art is eccentricity, his aim
How not to hit the mark he seems to aim at,

His passion how to avoid the obvious,
His technique how to vary the avoidance.

The others throw to be comprehended. He
Throws to be a moment misunderstood.

Yet not too much. Not errant, arrant, wild,
But every seeming aberration willed.

Not to, yet still, still to communicate
Making the batter understand too late.

wud the fug. "For" became "to"? wog the fog is wrong my with my native language?

>>23390471
Are you having a stroke, anon?

Termites in the earth, they're looking up my skirt.

>>23390170
In my state you need to know it as its a question on the test to get your license. They also expect you to memorize point penalties and other punishments. Shit is annoying and pointless because I will literally never drive drunk so why do I have to know something that doesn't and will never apply to me. Same with child restraint rules

>>23390506
>so why do I have to know something that doesn't and will never apply to me.
Just because it doesn't apply to you, doesn't mean it won't apply to someone else. They can't just make certain people learn it and let other people off scot-free.

>>23390506
Test taking is how everyone pretends we are doing our job as a society

>>23390258
For guys, yes but not for girls.

>>23390522
lol. lmao, even.

>>23390525
cool it with normie remarks

>>23390522
Guys kiss each other all the time dude
It's called heterosexual bonding

>>23390526
how is that a normie remark? I’m just pointing out that your idea of what is the norm for women is probably biased.

>>23390533
Nah man. All women are the same, and that sameness is defined by memes I see online

I dry humped my cousin.

>>23390534
yes anon you’re so right we’re all the same and could not possibly have any diversity of opinions or ability to speak based on our personal experiences or anything, that would be absurd

The two single girls my age that go to my church both dislike me for simply showing potential romantic interest at a specific point in time years ago (not at the same time). I wasn't even too forward or creepy or anything but they both seemed to be really taken aback by a simple ask for a date. They're reaching 30 and I'm pretty sure both are still virgins. Some girls just don't have that drive to procreate I guess, but it's strange since they're Christians. They're both good looking, too. It's bizarre how prudish they are, because I believe in abstaining from sex before marriage (30 y/o virgin here), but these girls don't even seem to want to try the slow courtship ritual Christians are forced to do.

>>23390543
I asked a girl to the state fair and she denied me. Feels bad. I don't want to use a dating app.

>>23390543
They just aren't interested but I wouldn't take it as any remark on you. Doesn't matter.

>>23390539
Yeah I know that's why I said it. I read a chateau hartiste article several years ago and learned every possible fact about women. Fascinating stuff
>>23390549
Shouldve asked her to the funfair. Niko Bellic, learn the name. Master of pussy

>>23390543
>Some girls just don't have that drive to procreate I guess,
This is the same as when a person says "I'm not ready for a relationship", it's not true, it's just that they're not ready for a relationship with you. There is not a single person on earth (even me who despises the idea of being in a relationship) who is not ready for a relationship, the right person just hasn't come along yet.

>>23390552
See I only asked once and wasn't even creepy about it. And they took it way out of proportion. This was years apart by the way, so it wasn't like I asked one and then asked the other cause she was my second choice.

brothers, i have been struck by a great illness and am in immense pain. there is pain in every breath, pain in every step, pain in every waking moment. i do not know or understand how this happened to me, what wrongdoing have i done, but i also know i am not entitled to an answer. it may be too late for me brothers, but i urge you to reconsider your habits before you too suffer such a fate. i once stood strong and tall, now i am weak and crooked. i once proudly lead a life where i thought i didnt need other people, now i need others to survive and conduct basic activities. i take pills which give side effects i need other pills to cancel out, which gives even more side effects. there is no peace in it, this cannot continue

be kind and love others, do this while you are healthy, while you have time. this was a great realization for me: i am not entitled to tomorrow, nor next week, nor next month. definitely not next year. examine yourself before it is too late brothers

>>23390565
try taking 2 extra strength tylenol

>>23390560
Fug, that’s so true. That used to be a go-to line for me whenever I needed to try to let someone down easy, but then it backfired.

>>23390563
Shit like that has happened to me. Could've been that you're oblivious and did come off weird, or you were fine and they're the weird ones, or some combination of these two. Either way it doesn't really matter. As long as you're not predatory it doesn't matter. Don't waste an ounce of energy worrying about it. But I feel you. Sometimes people make drama because it makes them feel empowered and they feel very small most of the time

those women who were creeped out were raped as children (you are part of a church community its guaranteed)

>>23390579
That’s not necessarily true, retard.

>>23390543
The girls around my age at my church are always touching me, like my arms, shoulders, back, and looking back at me while sitting in the pew directly in front me. I don't know if that's a normal thing, or if it's flirtatious because it does feel like it. I'm too autistic for this.

I looked into someone's eyes while I was talking with them today, it's the first time I've ever done that and I'm not sure how I feel about it.

>>23390584
>anon has next level autism

>>23390581
yes but you believe it

Why can’t I sleep I just want to sleep

Months of therapy haven't helped much.

>>23389665
Bad time to get into it, its being replaced by AI. Speaking of which so many industries are getting replaced by AI, what are we going to do when we run out of jobs? I regret not getting into something like a trade or something that would be hard to do with a machine or AI

>>23390607
Why doesn't OpenAi replace their coders with AI?

>>23389700
They really do live rent free in your guyses head

Just bought picrel and it turned out to be the last one. Fuckin scoreeeee.

>>23390607
I'm . moving to a 3rd world country to get a job there.

>>23390612
>3XL

>>23390612
What's so good about it?

>>23390620
I love that fukin band, esp the first album.
>>23390617
Inherently, yes.

>>23390610
Jobs aren't fully replaced by AI but they literally do use AI to automate stuff, same with other industries

>>23390621
Oh so you bought it because it has the branding of the musical band you like printed onto the fabric of the article of clothing?

>>23390625
I think that film Artificial Intelligence actually poses a probable scenario. Humans will get displaced as cyborgs become the new bourgeoisie, and eventually even they will get replaced by purely synthetic cyberbeings, and then reality kind of just dies out.

>>23390604
What issues are you hoping to fix with therapy?

>>23390604
You are the one that is supposed to help yourself. Therapy doesn't work if you are unwilling to

i am sticky from cinnamon sugar

>>23390640
One time my friend got sticky hands and she let me lick it clean.

>>23390639
>bro, you must be unwilling
just a cope for your modern voodoo

>>23389521
Am I a retard for letting Alejo Carpentier make me feel bad for Henri Christophe?
This is a genuine question.

>>23390635
Mostly my headaches, sleeping problems and stomach issues. Sometimes I get so nervous that I just randomly have to throw up.

>>23390643
Are you saying therapists should magically make you feel better? Thats not how it works

>>23390645
Yes. Don't be retarded.

>>23390649
I remember I was so in love once that I would throw up

>>23390565
fug, do you have stage 4 cancer?

>>23390651
Can you elaborate?

>>23390650
Why do you think I don't want to improve? Are you saying that therapy works 100% if you want help? None of the data supports this.

>>23390657
On the why, I mean.

>>23390657
Don't let other people make you feel things.

>>23390653
I once was in such extreme emotional distress over heartbreak that I got physically sick over it and threw up for like an hour. I remember just lying on the bathroom floor crying in between, because every time I would try to stand up the nausea would come back

How do you guys cope with having to work for 50+ years of your life. Im so tired of my job and Ive only been there for 3 years, I can't even comprehend doing this for the rest of my life but its not like I can't just drop it and do something else that easily. I missed so many great opportunities already having to go into work instead of going on a trip with friends when they asked and such. Having to go inside and work on a beautiful sunny day just kills me soul little by little every day.

>>23390677
>work
I'm 30 and never worked before.

>>23390682
I can't afford to not work. Shit is too expensive

I don’t understand why

>>23390690
why what?

>>23390693
Why I can’t stop thinking about it and feeling upset

>>23390693
Why my keyboard keeps running out of batteries. I replaced them just a couple days ago and they are already not working.

>>23390697
You aren’t me, fuck off

almost everyone i know is so burnt out from work and responsibilities. our group interactions are so shallow. even when i get real conversations it’s like stilted or rehashed. pathetic attempts
i know im not the odd one out here, but how it affects me and what i expect from others is obviously very different

>>23390700
Its all good yo it's just universal soul death

>>23390698
No you aren't me. You fuck off. Your vague moaning isn't adding shit, either give direct answers or go back to /r/vague

Ive been stuck on Gravity's Rainbow since 2015. I just don't know what the fuck is going on, there are always new names and I have no idea who they are or what their relation is to the story. I just know Roger and Slothrop. I just want to hear about them, I dont care about the white visitation bullshit or heteros and whatever the fuck

>>23390704
No, fuck you, I don’t owe you anything. You fuck off you arrogant prick

>>23390702
It's called anomie.

>>23390714
You would know, wouldn’t you

>>23390677
Become an alcoholic

Ive always wanted to write but I just can't for the life of me decide on what I want to actually write about.

>>23390724
Just write some shit

>>23389521
just realized that penis inspection day is in the Bible
>According to the decree, they put to death the women who had their children circumcised and their families and those who circumcised them; and they hung the infants from their mother's necks.
The Seleucid empire literally had people whose job it was to inspect Jewish boy's penises.

>>23389521
I wouldn't be surpised if there were writers who were like James Joyce when it came to the density of references and knowledge of their wider cultural cannon in other times (Like the Hellenistic period or China a little bit before the Qin dynasty, or India at different parts of history) but their work was just so dense, obtuse, and niche that no one actually bothered to have them copied, especially during times of crisis.

Where do I find a virgin girl interested in a lifelong relationship who's aversion to modern dating isn't based on religious fear or her being increadibly ugly?

>>23390823
High school

>>23390677
be brave enough to not work

>>23390696
about it?

>apply for entry level job requiring no experience
>rejected at application stage but get feedback saying my application was perfect just they had multiple people with years of experience apply

The job was barely above minimum wage, just something you use to get experience but competition is so high you have people with like 5+ years experience applying. I hate this clown world

>>23390677
Do everything you can to get a wfh/hybrid job that requires you to go in as little as possible and just coast doing them minimum. Ideally public sector if you can.

>>23390891
Entry level is no longer entry level.

>>23390891
Once your country began flooding Itself with shitskins you should have realized you no longer need to pay tribute or feel any sort of duty towards it. Try and get gibs and focus on your self and immediate family.

>>23390891
just lie about work experience and ask chat gpt about information regarding that experience so you don't sound totally misinformed

>>23390823
Autism peer counseling sessions

>>23389521
Don’t feel like creating a new thread, but does anyone know where to find scanned back issues of National Geographic?

>>23390677
I got NEETbux for being retarded and you probably can too if you put your mind to it.

>>23391010
What'd you tell then? I've been highly considering this for a while now

Solomon, Christ, and Spinoza make up the three gems of Abrahamic Taoism

>>23391011
nothing that wasn't true desu
depressed, alcoholic, habitual binge eater, been to shrinks and tried ze meds to no success. it's funny because now that I don't have any pressure on me to work to live, my mental health is fine and I've quit drinking. sure as shit not telling them that though. only real problem with collecting tard money is that it can take over a year to get approved. you should apply as soon as possible.

>>23391022
I dont have drug problems I'm just a fuckin loser who probably has autism and some kind of personality disorder. Will being a fucking loser with autism and a PD make them give me free money to play video games in project housing?

>>23391042
yeah but you have to get diagnosed, which I think you'll be able to manage.

>>23391013
I reject Spinozas determinism as it’s endemic of Jewish though, regardless if he was excommunicated

>>23391042
>I'm just a fuckin loser who probably has autism and some kind of personality disorder.
ain't that all of us here?
nobody who can remain sane in the modern world finds this place to be habitable, only those with the inclinations of eremites and sages find a strange peace in a place such as this
>those who treasure this Way
>don't try to be seen
>not trying to be seen
>they can hide and stay hidden

>>23391064
I've gone from typical r9k feelposting loser to a regular guy and I still come here daily.
Grannted it's a bit whiny for my taste but the other boards are mostly fine.

>>23391011
My diagnoses are:
>depression
>anxiety
>OCD
>Tourette's
>Nonverbal Learning Disorder (meaning I struggle with things that are nonverbal, not that I am nonverbal, obvs)
These together have allowed me to be a NEET since right out of high school. My mom and an advocate helped me apply though.

If I was a lefty I think the most difficult thing for me would be to reconcile my understanding/conceptualization of myself as an underdog with persecuted and unpopular ideas, with my decidedly mainstream and extremely safe politics and opinions. Though perhaps if I was a lefty it would be exactly because I wouldn't have the level of self-awareness necessary to notice the paradox between those two things?

Can't sleep, listening to Moroccan folk music.

Can't even watch the shows that I like at night time because they're comfy and they make me fall asleep.

Anyone else think this caiman looks extremely cool?

hahahahahaha

>>23391173
That is very cool anon

>>23391189
I'm glad you think so. I love nature.

>>23390682
Pls elaborate. What do you do and how do you pay for basic necessities?

>>23390677
It sucks but I'm comforted by the thought that when my father passes, I'll have so much money I can instantly retire.
He's 66 now. I hope he's along for a long time but lets be real, he has like 20 years left.
Meaning I retire at 49/50 which isn't too bad.
I'd only have worked 30 years then.
After that I can do part time work or other type.

>>23390416
Hell yeah! Do it anon! You got this!

>>23390581
Yes it is.

>>23391132
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7_HcLnrjFL4
>>23391173
Yes, I like this guy, his nerdy cousin, but that one is very cool

>>23391127
I read this as though you were trying to empathize with left handed people

>>23391261
I wanna visit The Amazon.

>>23391292
I wanna visit your ass

The voice in my head chanting 'kill yourself' is getting louder and more persistent lately, for brief periods of time I can't even hear my other thoughts when that devil is at work.

I wish I was 22 again so I go all in on going to Japan.

>>23391302

Something bad is going to happen.

>>23391292
I don't because it would kill me, but I like that the internet shows me pictures from there and tells me how to make curare in theory

In all seriousness, do you have purpose and enjoyment in your life? I was watching that trash taste podcast and even though those guys are weird it was clear that they were having fun and enjoyed each other. It made me wonder if you can do something you enjoy and have fun with your life but it comes at the cost of purpose. Clearly, their topics aren’t purposeful for them. They’re just youthful interests. Right now, I have neither but I was thinking about how to get one or both, to any degree that’s possible.

Will women's liberty always be eclipsed by the savagery of the lesser races? I want to believe that I can't live in a world without some radical commitment to women's liberty, but here in America it seems that women's suffrage is something akin to military authority. Just as in a child's dream, the idea of the strong tough soldiers being in control sounds good, to an idiot the idea of women being independent and liberated sounds maybe great. Maybe we fight hard to be idiots I don't know. It's an unrewarding mire of deception.

Putting your feet into a brook of running water feels good. This idea that hot sluts are awesome is just the way your soul endures the danger of gunpowder, combustion weapons, and armies.

>>23391402
You're wrong, and now that you've posted online you're wrong forever. Congratulations dumbfuck.

>>23391392
It’s not liberation, first of all. It’s simply making women be more like men, and do things men do, which has been an unmitigated disaster, maybe the biggest disaster in history actually once it’s all said and done. All it’s done is wreak havoc on states and institutions, weaponized the sexes against each other, brutalized women, and perhaps set us on a course towards extinction. There are actual countries right now that realistically are staring down the barrel of extinction because of gender politics. To say that it’s a been a disaster is an understatement of colossal proportions.

>>23391408
And yet the actors in this play persist. They enjoy it, clearly. It's much like the idea behind credit. Live in debt, who needs real money? All that matters is doing a lot. Women's suffrage may burn the world down but Tiffany being in the office that one day in a short skirt and bending over so you got to see her panties is when you say "this day was worth clocking in."

Is gratitude one of those things where if you larp like you feel it you will eventually feel it? I am incredibly ungrateful for the things that I have managed to build in my life and would like to change that, but that seems pointless if I don't actually feel the gratitude. I just kind of see everything I have as a prison, and on days like today I want to blow it all up.

>>23391402
But what if I fuck hot slits with my feet in cool water. Double rad!

I'm tired but it's too early to be going to bed, ugh, I hate this.

>>23391455
w/e i'm having a siesta

I've never thought that I end up being massive workaholic after being NEET for years.

Pretty much the only ones who, by the year 2024, are not under formal JCP (Jewish Colonial Power) are the white European farm owners (because they only marry to other farmers, because they only socialize with farmers, because they own their means of production, and because they could continue living even if civilization collapsed). Everyone else is an expropriated debt slave, forgetful of his past and his ethnic origin, expropiated of his belongings, expropiated of basic skills his ancestors knee like cooking and making wheels. The Jews have planned all this to enslave everyone.

Another meaningless spring. Five thousand days without love.

Maybe I’ll rent an apartment at home and just spend more time traveling rather than trying to spend 1-3 months at a time in any one place. Ultimately that’s what I want to do but AirBnBs are so expensive that I just cannot afford it.

>>23391392
Women’s liberty is a farce. Women cannot actually handle being “free”

My ex replied saying she's down to 'meetup for coffee or something sometime' so that's good. Been feeling so down and out-of-it lately, lonely and despondent. I been on new medication that has allowed for all of my human emotions to finally return and it's been rough, everything is surging back with a vengeance, so I don't know, I suppose I just need a friend or someone more for emotional support, someone to hold and talk to -- sex is whatever -- while I get my life back to normalcy.

I spend a lot of time with strangers and it baffles me that they want to stay in my country (France). No one can afford housing, getting an appointement with a doctor takes a whole year sometimes, and no one feels safe outside. What's the point of leaving your country if it's to live in poverty? I don't get it. The healthcare system is great but that's not what we pay extreme taxes for. If you have a well paying job you're better off living in any other 1st World country.

>>23390565
you write like one of those brother may i have some oats mfs

haven't read a book in almost three years now
at some point i just deliberately submitted myself to The Algorithm™ to see what might happen
the result seems to be severe disfiguring of intellectual function, perhaps irreversible
being alive is very interesting

>>23389521
This marks the 4th year in a row I participate in a local writing contest and don't win
It's becomign clear to me that not only do I not have talent, I also don't seem to be improving

>>23390022
Over time the Madonna-whore complex will just become the norm as society will just instantly expect women to be nasty urchins from the get go.

>>23390565
Damn I'm really sorry to hear all that, anon.

"kill yourself kill yourself kill yourself kill yourself; hey, have you considered killing yourself? oooo that looks like a great way to kill yourself! why don't you just kill yourself? kill yourself kill yourself kill yourself"

Shut the fuck up, wretched mental serpent.

I write out of spite, mainly.

>>23391918
Hearing voices? Stay strong, don't listen to them.

>>23391918
My new year's resolution is to get rid of all sorts of internal monologue. My aim is to become an unconscious biological automaton that acts purely on instinct.

We should call normies "RLfags". Normies are using the word normie, it's ineffectual.

>>23391953
it's 'normalfag' you stupid nigger. you're a fucking normalfag, why am i not surprised you don't know this.

>>23391942
>>23391947
It's weird, all of my previous moments and periods of suicidal thoughts have always sprung up from my own internal self, as a natural consummation of all my other feelings and cognition and psychological disposition, but this time it really does feel more like an unwelcome, foreign invader in my mind. Not quite a fully-fledged 'voice' per se but definitely distinct from my own internal monologue, like more the result of a biological organ or process, like sexual desire. I don't know, hopefully it goes away on its own soon...

>>23391964
Meditate on the go. Turn off the internal monologue.

Just copped some camo Crocs
Nutted ina sock and strolled down the block
Hit the Winco, 2 Rockstars to go
Now im back home, just goes to show
Staying caffeinated and hydrated and ejaculated
makes the day tolerated

I like to stare at cute girls. They're so cute! Just watching them...

>>23391997
Same. Fortunately I'm also very attractive so they don't mind me staring :)

I am 25, a tranny, KHHV, didn't go to class for 5 weeks so the whole semester is wasted, only eat junk food, have no friends and am generally weird.

>>23391201
I leech off my parents and live in poverty.

>>23391215
30 years of your prime though. When you are 50 you aren't going to want to do much

>>23390823
Become Christian anon. Start going to church

>>23392061
that vapid whore immediately started to SAG AFTRA she turned 18. fuck women

Apparently you're only supposed to drink a max of 2 cups a day of coffee when you're a teen. I was drinking an average 30 cups of coffee back then.

https://open.spotify.com/track/5zVbA1diXuNWKsXrIvwb3V

>>23391747
They can't be free at all.

I really wish I didn’t find East Asian countries and cultures appealing. Life would be a lot simpler.

>>23392088
>I was drinking an average 30 cups of coffee back then.
How? That's like 3,500-4,000 mg of caffeine a day. You can't be serious, can you?

https://open.spotify.com/track/5zVbA1diXuNWKsXrIvwb3V
the recurrent A#2 to D2 loop in this is very satisfying

>>23390823
>virgin girl
How old are you? If she is above a 7/10, she is probably not a virgin. There are several virgin women out there, but most are only virgins because they couldn't get any, or, if they have some sense of decency, weren't in a long term relationship before where they were having regular sex.

This 'virgin' meme is stupid /pol/trad bait. Literally doesn't matter at all.

>>23392192
I just drank it. I had a coffee pot on my computer desk and brewed 3 pots of coffee (36 cups), and it was literally all I drank every single day, never even had a glass of water.

>>23391907
I have never been impressed with anyone on /lit/'s writing. it always feels far too affected and contrived. Not that my fiction is very good, either, but at least I'm not delusional about my writing ability.

>>23392200
That's unbelievable. I can't even imagine, especially considering I didn't start drinking coffee regularly until I was 25, and I'll often have, at most, two cups a day. In my teens I drunk energy drinks and soda with caffeine, so I was still ingesting caffeine at that age. But nowhere near 36 cups a day level, that's increidble.

I bloomed like the purest white flower of the East.
I died like the Child of the Man who denied yeast.
I was reborn through the ashes of the phoenix.
And my fate was ultimately in the hands of the crowd.

>>23392200
Did it fuck up your health at all? Sometimes I feel like I overdosed on caffeine this one time and ever since then I feel chronically fatigued and have trouble sleeping. It’s like my circadian rythym and hormones aren’t quite right. Anything like that?

>>23392206
Have you ever felt jittery from drinking caffeine? I was like that 24/7. My entire body tingled all day. Funny thing is I got better sleep when I was drinking that much than when I stopped, would wake up naturally at sunrise without an alarm clock, and I never got addicted to caffeine because when I stopped nothing happened, no withdrawal, no craving.

>>23392220
>jittery
No, never, but that's because I don't drink much caffeine, just in the first few hours I'm awake. Sometimes I drink a cup of coffee in the afternoon if it's been a long day, I'm working a double, etc, but that's rare.

>>23392212
I get more fucked up now drinking a cup of coffee at night than when I did back then drinking all day and multiple cups right before bed. I guess it was something about the high dosage every day.

>>23392212
Also I don't have any health problems. Doctors say I'm healthy.

My professor took a point and a half off my final paper because it was 5 and a half pages instead of 6 pages. Wtf. That took my paper down from an A to a B

lmao my sister screamed when i kissed on her on the ground

>>23389647
Yes, through the übermensch bring truth and true meaning to the world.

I just found out my ancestral family crest uses the quinotaur as its symbol or whatever. Never heard of that shit before. It looks retarded.

women like to clean
and they like to cook steak

>>23392452
My waifu does that

Oh wow. I guess that fat Scottish guy that tore about that Waldun kid’s book “reverted” to Islam.

I don’t know why these people are such clowns. Why aren’t any of them just normal?

Some people really are meant to live short, sad and lonely lifes aren't they?

>>23392717
Worse, some are meant to live long and lonely lives. But that’s largely because of choice. Connection with other humans is always possible and you have to seek it out.

>>23392778
>you have to seek it out.
the problem nobody wants to connect with me

Where should I move?

The whole Ubisoft Yasuke thing has me unusually depressed. Usually when I see these insane leftists that have filled a company and made it woke and embarrassing, I usually just cringe and resolve not to support them or whatever. But this time it made me realize that every Western organization is just filled with these freaks now. And in that moment, when I realized that, I realized there this whole civilization is no longer worth defending or being attached to. It’s actually embarrassing and possibly unsalvageable. It’s not as if this is some freaks show that I only notice on the internet. It’s everywhere now. You’re basically got between a rapidly browning shit hole or this insane white leftist freak show now. So I don’t know. Maybe I should try to leave or something. I just don’t think it’s really worth taking pride in or caring about anymore.

>>23392804
To the left to the left to the left

>tfw so lonely and horny that reading a classical recording is performed by the 'St Albans Abbey Girls Choir' excites me

Come on now...