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you convinced me i'm havin a smoke, first one of 2024

>>23128017
My brother recently told me that he's giving up on finding anyone and resigning himself to life alone. He says he's never had a woman be interested in or attracted to him. What should I tell him?

Dorsal anyone else just reach the breaking point where the need for companionship becomes pressing? Soon going to be a 21 year old khv and I get more miserable with each passing day, but maybe I've just been brainwashed.

>>23128025
Do you believe that?

>>23128023
Yeah I'm pretty close to buying a pack myself. Just the other day I was stopped at a red light and the guy a car over was having a smoke. The scent wafted into my car and it was so delicious. Too bad it fucks up my cardio so much

>>23128025
Tell him he's retarded and that girls have signaled their interest in him but he's retarded and so he missed it
>>23128034
You're only 20.

>>23128039
stop doing cardio then

>>23128043
>You're only 20.
Me being a khv, makes me a minority at this age.

Uneed Ur panties ripped off and 3 BIG BLACK DICKS in ALL 3 holes at the same time! Way up ur pussey and Way up Ur ass as far as they will go but even farther. And the thickest cock goes down Ur throat so it makes U gag and convulse as those big black cocks pound away it feels like from the start Ur being assaulted but it's made U cum nonstop. Just one continuous constant orgasm and just before U pass out those big black dicks squirt their loads of cum inside U!As U lay on ur stomach the cum is coming out of all Ur holes, il turn U over and jack off all over U

>>23128058
it really doesnt

>just turned 19
>only had one gf
It's so over

>>23128017
Some days random girls are just in love with me and shooting their shot. I can’t figure out what I’m doing right on these days

Having been given no choice but to attend a class on CRT I have come to the realization - These people have absolutely no substantive solutions to the problems they continually rail against. At best they are nebulous, and at worst they are practical impossibilites. As an example: If blacks managed to rid themselves completely of the white oppression they seem to fetishize like some magical talisman, will racism stop? No! Racism is not going anywhere. If it's not the whites discriminating against the blacks, then it'll be the blacks discriminating against the chinese, or w/e dominate race manages to hold power over another.

The only thing CRT scholars are good at is complaining and finding new ways to justify their jobs, which is the crux of the issue: scholarship outside STEM is completely intellectually bankrupt. There is not a stone that has not been turned over 100 times in a 100 different ways in history, philosophy, classics, and literature. There's nothing new to contribute so the only thing left for ivory tower blowhards to do is to complain in the hopes that new issues from said complaining manage to emerge. This is an industry, not some spurious moral movement for the supposedly downtrodden. They are a simply a means to an end - money and job security.

>>23128036
Not really but I don't know everything about him. He's 23, in fairly good shape even if he is a manlet, has his own car and apartment, probably has decent savings, knows how to cook. I think he just had some negative experiences when he was younger and his self-confidence never recovered but any time I obliquely get at the subject he claims he's over all of it and doesn't care anymore or that he has the wrong personality for relationships. I'm tempted to just tell him to quit being a bitch but I think that'll just make him dig in his heels more.
>>23128043
I said something like this to him before and he was like "no they haven't, not everyone has someone express interest in them" and got kind of butthurt for the rest of the day. There's gotta be a way to get through to him but I don't know what it is.

>>23128167
>tell him to quit being a bitch
Wow with a bro like you I cant imagine why hes so fucking dour

>>23128115
yeah same. always good looking girls as well, uglier girls kind of hate me.
my theory is it's the shape of your eyes - the shape specifically, you might have supermodel eyes - and girls who are more alpha might look at your eyes more.

I'm sick of being the most wise person around and still not getting credit for it. I deserve to be emperor of the world. I literally have it all figured out, and you or your kids can have fun dying if you don't listen to me. I should be provided infinite resources to pursue my whims without condition. I'm no longer asking, I'm demanding.

>>23128079
NTA but yes it does. "It will get better, you're only 20." Being 20 years old with no friends is not normal. Being 20 years old and never having interacted with a female outside your family is not normal. Simply existing as you have been is a death sentence. Something needs to change or you WILL kill yourself.

>>23128023
I usually stick to a pipe but I’m getting minor chest pains from oversmoking

I should have fucking died years ago.
I should have died in that parking lot.
It should have been me.
Had I just been a few seconds slower.
I should've taken the bullet to the neck.
It was meant for me.
I shouldn't still be here.
I was meant to die there.
It was the perfect time to die.
Why the fuck am I still here?
Why the fuck am I still alive?
I shouldn't be.
I should have fucking died years ago.
I should have died in that parking lot.
It should have been me.

>>23128176
Well I'm 27 with the exact situation so what now
I dont think I can be called an incel. I literally went from age 20-27 never having even seen a girl. I dont jerk off or anything either. Girls were interested in me in school but I was really not up for it because of my home life.

>>23128176
What if you’re 41 like me and all your friends are shacked up and raising brats while the seventh girl you’ve dated screwed you over yet again?

>>23128167
>I'm tempted to just tell him to quit being a bitch but I think that'll just make him dig in his heels more.
Don't fucking do this. The man has achieved peace. Let him live in it. Don't tempt him to go fucking it all up for literally nothing gained. Let him stay at peace, it's the greatest gift anyone can have.

>>23128049
Cardio is my favorite exercise

>>23128106
>>23128034
Legit go on PonyTown and start talking to like-minded autistic chicks. I'm a pro spaghetti-spiller and even I get random walk ups telling me how they like my pony and get to talking to me about other things.

>>23128176
It's the new normal now. People are lonely these days. I know a 19 year old zoomer who met his gf on discord. If you want a change you have to make the change. 20 is still young with plenty of flexibility to make the change you want. You can cry about it on here for the next decade or you can get off your ass and do something.

>>23128196
What the fuck is PonyTown

>>23128203
Do what? I am outside every day. Nothing. I dont understand what im meant to do

>>23128195
i don't believe in it. 'jump around til you're out of breath'. with lifting you gain muscle at least, and get stronger, cardio you're exerting yourself for nothing.

>>23128190
buy another rolex

>>23128215
If you ever had to sprint a block you'd probably puke from the exertion. Cardio is good for a lot of things, especially longevity. It should be included with a strength training regiment.
I just happen to find a lot of peace of mind while doing cardio

>>23128210
What's your day to day schedule look like? Are you in work or school? Every play sports?

>>23128219
no one ever has to sprint a block
>I just happen to find a lot of peace of mind while doing cardio
is that true? when i see someones face doing cardio they look so miserable

>>23128225
I'm a neet. I just walk around outside until it gets dark. I live in an area where thats not crazy or boring to do. I don't play sports. People don't seem to do that here at my age.

>>23128025
That he's based and self-aware and that this isn't something you decide on a whim but after long years of sober observation. You sound like a fag.

>>23128230
I've had to sprint to either chase someone or run away from someone. I also like to play soccer and go on hikes so I need the cardio to be able to. Hiking up a mountain is a really great feeling.
>when i see someones face doing cardio they look so miserable
I like pain

I'm not sure i even want to lose my virginity now.
Like if I do then I'll always be the guy who lost his virginity at 30.
But if I don't then I can be a 50+ year old virgin where it circles around to being more respectable in my opinion.
Or if shit goes bad and were all killing each other I get to be the guy with a higher kill count than a body count. Haha.
I've already turned down girls when I was young. I guess that means I'd rather be alone than settle.

At this point I've seen so many relationships through my friends. I'm not sure I can tolerate it. Even the smartest women just got annoying after a while. And people seem to just give up on themselves once they get into a serious long term relationship. Plus they all have STDs that suits gross. I had no idea it was so common. But it is.
You have to mind someone 24/7, you lose freedom, listen to her shitty opinions
and all the incessant teasing and undermining that modern women do for some reason.

Yeah man I'm not sure

>>23128173
I do get a ton of compliments on my eyes, even from strangers. Sometimes I wonder if I give off vibes that are mistaken when I make eye contact, and it’s the reason I won’t look a man in the eye, quite a few guys have gotten a little gay with me. I almost always get a smile back if I make eye contact with a girl, I’ve even had super young girls who are strangers flirt with me

>>23128233
>I have isolated myself from all potential social interaction
>I do nothing with my time
Well duh anon. If you're gonna walk around do it in a social setting. I bring my puppy into town and shamelessly parade her around for attention.
You need to put yourself around people. Look up Propinquity. Familiarity is key. Get a job. Preferably one with social interaction, like a retail job. Don't want to work? Volunteer. Tons of volunteer opportunities.
Go take some kind of classes. Enroll in college or trade school or whatever. Be around people. Go to a park and ask to join people playing a sport. You see a couple guys throwing a football? Ask to join. You see some guys kicking a soccer ball? Ask to join.
If you have a dog, go to dog parks. If you have a decent family network, ask your cousins to hang out or something. If you have an inclination towards spirituality, join a church. Go to a Cafe. Read a book in Starbucks. Go to a Barnes and Noble and read a book at the Starbucks there. Join a gym, ask a gymbro for advice.
If you're online, use the MeetUp app. Use Discord. There's apps for socializing.
What you need is momentum. Change for the better.

>>23128217
Ugh…

>>23128265
This is frustrating, now you're just making assumptions about me. Am I going to have to shoot down each one individually? What a pain.
>I have isolated myself
wrong
>I do nothing with my time
wrong
>do it in a social setting.
i do
>Go take some kind of classes
One thing I will refuse to do. Dont take this to mean Im unwilling to try. This is a philosophical issue for me. Just on this one thing though.
>Go to a park and ask to join people playing a sport
People dont do that here.
>cafe,bookstore,etc.
Already do.
>church
there are none nearby that speak my language
>family
no
>dog
no

>>23128244
>”Okay so let me shove a cactus dipped in ghost pepper sauce into your rectum this will only pinch a little”

>>23128106
>30
>kissless, handholdless virgin
Yet I have not given up hope. You shouldn't either. Have faith in God!

>>23128249
i should say i didn't read the whole thing, but

adriana lima (girl in pic) was a supermodel who i randomly found out lost her virginity at 27 (she started modelling at 16 or so).

>>23128249
It was never respectable to be an old virgin. The “bachelor for life” man of the 19th century was just thought to be a faggot. People will simply think you’re a down low faggot

>>23128275
Where the fuck do you live where people don't play at a park? Why are you unemployed? Who do you live with and who pays your bills? When you're walking around do you even try to talk to people?

>>23128298
>Where the fuck do you live where people don't play at a park?
Its pretty urban, but yeah Ive never seen any adults play like that. Its more about shopping or walking around here.
>Why are you unemployed?
dont have to work
>Who do you live with and who pays your bills?
I pay my own bills
>When you're walking around do you even try to talk to people?
Yes but nobody is responsive.

>>23128275
To start off, try and get some kind of job. There is a middle ground between your obtuse obstinance and >>23128265 who says to approach random people outside. Unfortunately I think it is simply unworkable for some people, One man can approach strangers in a park, ask to join them, and then befriend them while they kick a ball around. Another man would awkwardly attempt to do the same and would be viewed as a crazy freak. At the end of the day no one is going to talk to you. You have to talk to them first, and you need the requisite skills to do so.

>>23127935
>>23127977
Seek Christ and repent. Your immortal soul depends on it anon.

I'm pretty sure I have had at least one (1) of my writing notebooks stolen. It's a shame because this notebook contained a sweet first draft of an essay about how the world "needs heavy metal (music)" and a beautiful first draft about a young girl living in Italy who is subject to supposed beatific divine visitations (whatever the opposite of demonic possession is).
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuIAPU6Gpaw

>>23128298
The Jew cries out in pain as he strikes you! He is upset about the many assumptions being made about him despite them all being clearly accurate lmao.

>>23128302
Well you need to put yourself into situation where you will be personally and directly interacting with the same people day after day. You need a common point of connection. You won't magically bump into a best friend or soul mate just strolling up and down urban mainstreet. Even if no one plays at the parks, there's still gyms.
Your situation seems weird. You live in a city where people don't speak your language, you refuse to go to sschool, you don't have family, you don't work but can afford to live in a city. Do you even have neighbors?

Remembering that time I ended up working for that shitty boiler room firm and how badly it fucked me over for years

>>23128249
There’s nothing wrong with losing your virginity at 30, or 40, or 50 for that matter. What we consider typical “sex life” today is not normal.

>>23128167
If you don’t believe that you should just tell him you don’t believe that

>>23128252
well everyone gets compliments about their eyes. i get what you're saying though. i think it's the outline, which i'd given any thought til just the other day when i saw a girl doing her eyeliner. who knows.
>quite a few guys have gotten a little gay with me
yep, problem for me as well

>>23128167
The way you get through to him is to set him up with a girl and let the power of pussy do its thing. The reason that men think they can’t date is because they’re not interacting with young women enough. That’s basically all it is. When you’re actually around the girls, biology just does its thing. So get him off the internet, out of the house, and around girls more.

>>23128314
I also recommended a job and school. I said sports because it can be a regular activity. I've met people by playing soccer at a park at the same time and day every week. Some people would join regularly. After about a year I asked one of the guys who joined if he wanted to hike. He's one of my best friends since then. My point is that there needs to be structured and regular social activity and interaction. It can't be aimless and random.
If anon refuses to join clubs, play sports, attend school, get a job or volunteer, or even call his fucking mom then no shit, he's gonna have no social contacts

>>23128134
It’s a jobs program. The whole umbrella of Democratic Party politics is just a jobs program.

>>23128244
running away not the sort of thing i'd dedicate a permanent exercise routine around
>I like pain
ahh

>>23128285
I liked her as a young man

>>23128356
You need cardio to fight. Don't you ever anticipate needing to defend yourself?

>>23128361
it did make me look at her very different, but not in a bad way at all

>>23128315
One of Slayers better albums. After Seasons they lost me.

>>23128366
NTA but I'm a 40+ heavy smoker. I wouldn't last a round

>>23128366
i could batter u

>>23128361
You mean when she was a young man or when you were a young man?

>>23128385
I would literally run circles around you

Using metaphysics and philosophy to engineer an LLM role based on process-relational principles.

You can edit and experiment with this. The future is A.I. augmented philosophical and narrative exploration.

https://pastebin.com/kcPLQwGh

When will my tears stop flowing in a consistent manner and having memories perceived as painful? I hope it's soon.

>>23128372
A man of taste. I fancy seeing such a sophisticate around these parts, to be honest.

>>23128315
even if i did like metal, i'd pretend i wouldn't

>>23128315
>beatific divine visitations
>demonic possession
It's all aliens, anon.

>think about sending McCarthy a handwritten letter
>he dies the day after i begin the letter
>think about sending Kissinger a handwritten letter
>he dies not even an hour after i put my pen to paper
I honestly just want to send a letter to someone from the previous era but they keep dying the moment I make up my mind to do so.

>>23128441
Send Noam Chomsky a letter. You can be responsible for his death.

How do I find local fascist or communist meetings?
I'm just curious. Does stuff like that still exist? I saw it in a book and it captured me. I've never heard of people meeting up for anything

>>23128456
I would think they're out there but you can't just join, you need to be recruited. One time I was at the mall with a friend having a smoke outside and when we left to catch the bus a guy directly addressed us and said to us, "white power, white power, white power." We didn't say anything to him and walked away but I suspect he was recruiting for a group, like if we had talked to him I think he probably would have given us a pamphlet. So what I'm saying is, that's what it takes. But aside from my anecdote, fuck you bootlicker.

Don’t do it????? Don’t do it don’t do it don’t do it i can’t do it I’m not allowed to do it,????? Im not going to do it don’t do it don’t do it something very bad will happen and i won’t be able to stop ever;,?????

>>23128441
Send me a letter

>>23128017
I am incredibly weak to female dancing from the mediterranean + black sea region. This is a realization that I have made in the past couple of years, and I must be wary of that shit at all because it drives me nuts. Not a fan of the stereotypical ''bellydancing'' clothes, but tall women with long raven hair doing the dabke has made me understand seduction and the power of the female form. Some of those girls move along so gracefully, as if they were floating. I hope that this won't be my undoing. If I end up marrying a montenegrin woman, I wouldn't be surprised.

>>23128467
Forget about him. I'll love you baby ;)

If only I could prove indisputably that truth = value then godlike powers would be tendered unto me.

What a weird fucking experience I had napping today. I never sleep well when I try to nap but this was the worst yet. I was in a very vivid dream and then it suddenly transitioned. I was laying in my bed in my old apartment I used to live in. The world was completely corrupted, darkness all around me, literal tears in reality were happening. I could not move my body and I felt strong tinges of pain. I was screaming and tried to get up, for some reason calling the name of the girl I'm currently talking to so she could help me. It felt so real it was insane. When I woke up my family said they heard me screaming.

I'M HORNY

>>23128076
KWAB. Fiction could never come up with something as wild as the Vince scandal.

>>23128467
Just say YES fren. Don't torture yourself with false doubts.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v4x4qYE6h7U

>>23128494
I only need him???? I only need to talk to him I can’t love anyone else????? I can’t love anyone else and he’s very mad and he’s never going to forgive me ever what can I do??????

>>23128466
>bootlicker
?

>>23128521
what makes you so sure that he's very mad at you? hasn't it been a long time?

my dick gets so
hyper
when i see a fine ass bitch
in a
diaper

>>23128521
I can love you better than he ever could

>>23128203
>20 is still young with plenty of flexibility to make the change you want.
tfw I've been telling myself this for nearly 3 years now and still nothing has happened

>>23128023
I had to switch to vapes because you can't smoke inside anywhere in my state. I got tired of braving the -15 degrees snowstorm to suck down a cancer stick and not even enjoy it.

homosexual 9/11

>>23128559
23 was the age I turned my life around

>>23128569
to be honest so did i and it's kinda nice, only problem is vaping is gay plus god knows what they're really doing to you. cigarettes we know are lung cancer, we still don't know about the neurotoxins, popcorn lung, whatever with vapes

Is being monolingual that bad

Hot take: if the USA were to suddenly flip to the USSR that would correct everything. The built up criticism and hostility to the USSR culturally accumulated in the USA actually provides the perfect grounds for a dialectical synthesis of the conflictive opposites. The truth , as is always the case, lies somewhere in the middle.

>>23128578
>only problem is vaping is gay
very true
>plus god knows what they're really doing to you
I use a juul, and all their shit comes from China.

>>23128571
Is it too late for me if I'm older

>>23128580
I was a monolingual and decided to learn my first foreign language 4 years ago. I'm still the same loser as 4 years ago, but with a couple more languages under my belt. That should answer your question.

>>23128581
>the middle is we de le gommunism XD
No. Fuck off.

>>23128584
I don't really have a real reason to learn a language so itd be pretty arbitrary with no real motivation or passion
Like french...russian...Japanese? I have no reason for anything

>>23128584
>now I understand when people are calling me a loser in 3 different languages

>>23128592
Language learning isn't for everyone. Give it a shot. If you like it, you'll stick with it. If you don't, don't beat yourself up over it. French is easy. That's the second language I learned.

>>23128583
No. Never too late bro.

>>23128581
What dialectics does to an mf

>>23128581
I think what the communist romanticizers don’t get is that you will never get 19th-20th century Russian communism. You won’t even get 21st century Chinese communism. You will get 21st century black trans American communism, which would be an unmitigated disaster on a scale almost unfathomable right now.

>>23128602
I'm not enjoying the hobby but I feel like if I give it up I'm a quitter. I don't know why. I have sunk cost

Holy fuck how do I know what my personality is
How the fuck do I settle in I have no clue what my character is supposed to be.

>>23128625
You don't understand, it's not Communism. It's Fully-Automated Luxury Communism™.

>>23128530
He’s mad right now???? Last night he was being mad???? He won’t talk to me even he only says leave me alone???? I rlly need to talk to him but I can’t text him any more time s because it just makes him get mad and he’s going to make them do it they’re going to be getting me if I go outside??????

What’s an experience like the military that young men can do that prepares them for leadership? Entrepreneurship?

I think AI is going to instigate a series of society wide D&D sessions. It isn't AI movies, art, comics, books, music, etc as discreet mediums where it is going to shine the most, but rather it is going to crash headlong with the "worldbuilding" types and you will have these reality-blending collaborative group games that people will take very very seriously as this will become many people's primary source of meaning and purpose and identity.

Questing in a Tolkien fantasy world with 10 friends and getting auto-group-hypno'd into pseudo-cultic violence are two points on a spectrum, not distinct phenomenon.

>>23128633
ultaliberal communism

>>23128653
Seminary.

Slowly coming to the realization that the hopes and dreams aren’t going to happen and that the only choice is to trudge along anyway or kms. The severe insomnia makes it hard to not be inclined to do the latter.

>>23128653
Cattle

My suffering must add up to something more than my own negation. When I explore the implications of such a simple proposition, I am shocked to learn how much I deserve. This universe exists to obey my will, or it has no right to exist at all. Otherwise, my existence is unjustified by the principalities and powers of this universe, therefore none of its demands apply have any right to apply to me. The injustice of birth ought to be restituted. The only thing preventing me from obtaining my birthright is the absence of the will to take it.

A universe that subjects me to unwarranted suffering is a universe that deserves to be conquered. There's nothing to debate here. Everything and everyone who has ever harmed me, has no right to exist without my permission. They have violated a fundamental metaphysical truth.

>>23128741
>>23128742
There is no morality beyond my view. There is no justice. If the universe cannot correct the pain it has caused me, the universe has no right to exist. A universe that causes the existence of suffering beings, without restitution, is a universe founded on lies. So too all the principalities and powers that depend on this falsehood. Therefore, only that which obeys my will is right, only that which agrees with me has a right to exist.

>>23128744
That's hot. You should get into BDSM

I wanna sit in a lawn chair on top of a trailer in the Arizona desert, I want the sky to be cloudy and grey and I want a warm breeze to be washing over me. There are many things I want which are similar to that but I can't do any of them because it'd be too expensive since I'm not American.

>>23128744
Seriously tho if you wanna dress me in leather and lead me around on a leash I'll totally submit to your will

My property! Yes indeed my property!

>>23128757
truly a free spirit

I just farted in this thread

can i be your kitty?~

>>23128771
wtf

>>23128771
Lol, it smells like shit, you really rip ass, anon. *fist bump*

Yes, a caveman isn't going to ever in his life want a gameboy.
If I forget my dreams, then never achieving them won't bother me!

>>23128017
I'm having a tough time, life feels extremely pointless. I'm not going to kill myself because I don't have the balls and don't want to upset my folks. I also am not sure if that's even what I really want to do. But I have absolutely lost the will to live. And you can really tell that's the case because I'm coming to a place full of anonymous people, who I know will tell me to fuck off and do it, or fuck off and get over it, to talk about it. I am well and truly screwed.

>>23128757
That's so hot, yes I'm your property UwU

I want to fuck a fat slut

I wish I had someone I could talk to on hear and give details of my life so I could get advice, but I can’t risk identifying myself.

>>23128819
Same. It's whatever. We will probably just crash and burn. Love ya buddy. And don't hurt anyone else. Only yourself if it comes to it. Always remember that bc that's the key.

>>23128819
I have posted my entire autobiography on /wwoym/ and I make daily blog posts about whatever I'm doing

>was a NEET
>hated it
>got a job
>hate it
>dont want to go back to being a neet either
>just miserable no matter what
I just dont see anything in life thats for me

>>23128832
Same exact problem.

>>23128832
It's such a waste. At least 6 out of 10 people I speak to here have such potential. And it's all wasted. Shame.

>>23128837
weirdo

Has anyone here ever felt like advice they've gotten from another person has helped them?


>>23128819
You can always use aliases and false info

>>23128841
Yeah so weird to see potential in others.

>>23128844
Its weird to be vague and condescending 24/7 while posturing and saying nothing

when the GDP is low, the value of human life falls too. Soon there will be no escape

>>23128846
I wasn't being condescending. I was being sincere. I said many people here have potential and it is not recognized or able to be applied, and that's sad because it is a waste. None of that is posturing or condescending, its sincere recognition of others. I think you should invest in a mirror after that one. That was something else

Anyone have the name of that French author/intellectual posted here at times? There is a funny video of him in a suit and bowtie enraging other guests and the audience during a talkshow. He also had some really Edgy shit to say about 9/11...can't for the life of me remember the name

>>23128850
Potential for what? Don't act like I'm unjustified here.

>>23128856
Writing, but also in general, people here can be rather insightful at times. Insight carries the potential for lots of things, positive ways to contribute to the world. I'm not being intentionally vague, but do you really want me to sit here and compile a list of the ways that thoughtful people can help out in the world? That seems ridiculous.

People say enlightenment is when you have no self and no desires. Well I feel like I've been there for a while and I just feel awful. Maybe my desire is to desire? Everyone around me all my life has said I'm tranquil and I have life all figured out and that I must be smart. But on the inside I'm just a storm of unfulfilled emotions I don't know how to express, a void where my personality should be, and I'm an idiot. I don't know where I even begin or what I want. I ask myself what I want and I can't come up with anything. I ask myself if X would make me happy and its always no.
No goals no desires no soul. I hate myself. Now I'm getting old and if a desire did manifest it could be too late.
All I do now is LDAR in bed. I don't here off. I don't consume media. I just wait to die counting my heartbeat until I next lose consciousness

>>23128860
How long laying in bed til you die
Asking for a fren

>>23128017
>>23123176
>>23123176
Trying to get back into my flow of writing and reading. Been on and off always but I've getting close to being able to make a collection of poems. I'm in an environment now where I'm more actively involved with lit stuff in school so it helps but I never accounted for the fact that it would never be tailored towards my interest or I'd be with similar minded peers, can't just do what I want like I do when I'm alone, it's a hindsight observation but still affected how I thought about literature and hindered a lot of my production.

I'm gonna try making writing and reading more of a habit and "make something of value". I have two small publications under my belt so I feel somewhat accomplished but my writing and reading coming from bursts of manic production are horrible long term and I don't like the feeling of it being out of mind for so long.>>23128017

>>23128858
well I have no insights and I can't write. being barren with NO womb is one of the things that bothers me. i feel less than human

I saw some liberal talking about the destruction of low quality embryos. How disgusting. These people are totalitarians using euphemisms for subhuman without even realizing it.

Obscure books are ridiculously expensive, i know, water is wet too.

>>23128869
Well. I can't fix that. But I'm sure if you sit and write you can churn something out

>>23128870
Every woman who reaches menopause without producing quadruplets every single time they ovulate is killing millions of unborn chuds
every time I jack off I'm killing millions of unborn chuds
together we murder billions of unborn chuds

>>23128875
please mentor me

>>23128880
Nah. But I can recommend books.

I feel like I've missed out on so much in life.
But apparently it's not a life that's real?
Everyone just settles into this school to college to work pipeline or most people do
And they basically become shut ins.
Well I'm a shut in raised on movies and books. I crave action. I want my life to have big arcs and passion. But apparently that's not wh a t life is. Its a lie. Life is actually just working saving money and doing a hobby...but hobbies are boring. But apparently you're supposed to live for them. I don't get it. To me hobbies are what you do when there's nothing else. But to most people there's nothing but the hobby. I don't want to be like one of those middle aged balding dads obsessed with some bit of need ephemera. But there aren't really any other options?
Why is the world so small and life so limited...I

>>23128874
>learned a language
>finding untranslated books is an expensive pain in the ass

>>23128883
Define 'action'.

Its hard to tell if my interview went well. I think i nailed 2/3 of them. In the first one I just had trouble telling my stories in a non rambley way. I was so nervous. In the others though I was all warmed up and cool as a cucmber. Made funny jokes and gave cool answers.
The first one wasn't even that bad, I dont think. My stories were bad, but when I was asking questions I was able to chime in and talk about my own experience with the things done in the job. And that was basically the last half of the interview.
I got recommended to the position, so we'll see how it goes. I want this job, anons.

>>23128878
Are you retarded? Eggs and sperm aren't unborn.

>>23128890
Things happening. People doing things. Big moves
Big swings
Not just settling into.malaise with a good enough job and a good enough spouse.
The escapism is so much better than life it undermines life itself and makes you wonder why bother.
I don't even feel like my youth was wasted. There was nothing to do

>>23128106
SHUTU THE FUCK UP FAKECEL STOP USING INCEL LINGO YOU FAGGOIT FRAUD SHUT THE FUCK UP NIGGGER YOU FUCKING FAGGOT KILL YOURSELF IN A BRUTUAL WAYS FUCKING FAGGOTG KILL YHOUR SLEFLL YOUVE HAD A GIRLFIRED STOP TRYING TO ILLICT SYMPATHY NIGGER YOU HAD AGIRL FRIDED YOUR NOT AN INCEL SHUUTTUTUUT THE FUCKKCKKC UPPYPYPPY P

I let a friend (female) borrow a copy of Guenon (pbuh)
Looks like it's going well bros, she gets to posit how intellectual she is on Instagram

>>23128840
I can’t though. I need specific advice.

>>23128936
Hope you fuck her anon. She sounds based.

I’ve identified the reason why I’ve been lazy and have generally felt like I’m in a rut.

What do you do if you have opinions you don't like having?

Like, I'm a little bit racist, to the degree where most moderate normalfags would be upset with me if they heard my unfiltered opinions. But I don't like being like that; upsetting or outraging people.
But trying to change my opinions doesn't work because I read the counter arguments and just don't agree with them or see eye-to-eye with them. It certainly doesn't help that they're presented in a manner which is hostile to people who don't understand them.
I mean, I can't verily change my opinion based on feelings alone, and I've yet to be presented with compelling facts or perspectives to make me do so. So what the fuck do I do?

Is an unpaid internship worth it? It's in content writer for a site about courses and scholarships and SEO

Cruelty and compassion only make sense in light of each other. That which is incapable of compassion is also incapable of genuine cruelty, as it is merely following its nature, that which is incapable of cruelty cannot be said to be truly virtuous for its compassion, since it made no real, deliberate choice to act compassionate.

I wish I was a Southern gentleman.

>>23128966
Why do you need to do anything?

You could work on yourself (aka grow up). 'Soul search' until you find what is the root cause of your insecurity, your need for approval from people who would be too lacking in critical facilities to respect/like the real you. Alternatively you can just stop caring about the fact that you have to use a 'persona' among these normal fags and just accept it as part of life. Protip: everyone is acting. You could even go further and start to embrace the social 'game' and gaming it/them but I'd recommend just more or less not worrying about it or thinking about these people and their opinions. 'Use' them somewhat with your 'false' persona but don't focus on it to such a point that you lose sight of the truth, try to clean your opinions but if you slip up and say something 'racist' don't fret, own it and go on with your life.

>>23128972
>That which is incapable of compassion is also incapable of genuine cruelty, as it is merely following its nature
Nonsense, I'm not sure where you are getting your definitions for these things. It reminds me of kids who criticise billionaires when they give money to charity "its not a compassionate act, they are just doing it for the PR". Like maybe, technically you could get autistic over this but it's still a 'good' act and we should label it compassionate rather than undermining all compassionate acts with "but they have ulterior motives", "but they didn't do it for x reason, they just did it because it's in their nature". It's the action that matters, and one that repeatedly makes compassionate actions should be labeled as compassionate regardless of motives or capabilities (to be cruel for example).

I am such a repulsive worm. From my diminutive size and thinning hair to my unimaginative and factory-retrofit thoughts, I am surrounded by nothing but horrible truths no matter how much I try to run from them or make them right. I'm not even talking about getting women, or getting friends, I failed at perhaps the most welcoming activity out there, volunteering and community service.

I was flat-out rejected by two agencies today, one of them a soup kitchen and the other an animal rehab center. In the first I was coldly told they were full after attending one of their sessions and they somehow let two more guys and a girl in who arrived after me, which was fine. Maybe they had arranged something beforehand or maybe it was because they looked like warmer people and more physically capable of cooking and doing dishes. They seemed completely new though and it they introduced themselves in such a way that they seemed completely blind to the process, like me.
Alright, whatever. In the 2nd case, I walked into the meeting and had a group of what looked to be college students giggle at me, literally making eye contact. I sat down and got through an hour of boring catching up between all the established members of the group and it got to question time for the public. I raised my hand, stammered a little and just asked:
>So, since you deal with a lot of different animals, what's the training process like? Is there a certification process for dealing with protected species?
and she goes
>Haha, man you really don't know anything do you?
and the whole room laughs. I laughed too but I wasn't sure how it was funny. She then just responds with
>Yes, it varies on the animal
which I already knew, but I guess I just asked too stupid of a question. Right from the get-go I'm humiliated by this lady and I never recover. Nobody ever says a word at me for the rest of the meeting and at the end I stand there for a couple of minutes waiting to ask her when the first training session is, and she ignores me until I butt into the conversation and just ask.
>Leave your number and I'll get back to you. There's a waitlist, though.
and that's it. They didn't even ask my name. I leave with 4 hours of my day spent and feeling like a complete moron. I just want to do something good for once.

Getting real tired of retards tell me that self-defense extends to artillery strikes aimed at city blocks.

If I see one more Christian neocon tell me why killing the innocent is a religious obligation, I'm going to shit my pants in rage.

I'd kill you to defend my nation.

>>23128017
I'm trying to do an alternate history scenario but I don't know if my premise will work. It's about what if the Iluminatii actually succeeded in spread through free-masonry. Can I get some opinions from you guys?

>>23129010
That's our life. You'd just be writing about real life.

Self-defense extends to nuking of planets where potential hostiles who could hurt my feelings may exist.

Had a dream a smaller dickhead was growing out of my penis and I popped it and soke weird liquid vane out of it, anf it left a wound making my think it was syfillis or something.

In this awful period of buying a house where a lot is in the air so to speak.
If I get this done I will be so extremely relived but we're not there yet.
Broker is retarded, so is the appraiser. Then I have to deal with the bank and my father who will help (how much?)
And the housing situation just got completely retarded in my area. Dry as a bone and what does come on the market just seems 20% more expensive than it was a year ago.
I'm afraid if this deal doesn't work I'm just fucked. I'm still positive however. Just needs to get done.

>>23128017
If I don't get an email in a couple weeks stating that my short story made the shortlist, then I think I will kill myself. Everything I learned, practiced, read, experimented with, failed and succeeded at for the last four years was in pursuit of this writing prize. I get palpitations every night that don't allow me sleep. There's much too much riding on this.

So I'm trying to get myself on the straight and narrow and, at least on the weekdays, off of the hooch. I used to wake up two hours before work. Now I wake up four hours before work and work out.
I'm going to start using an increasing block of this time for writing (up to a maximum of what I can fit in without fucking up the workout routine).
I started at five minutes a day, and I'm going to increase by one minute until the max is just 'work until the original two hours before work alarm'.
Is this feasible? Am I ramping up too fast?
>>23129139
I feel your pain.
What used to cost $25K here five years ago goes for $50K now.
I am not in a very desirable region to live (per the average consumer: I actually think it's very nice given that costs are lower than average, but hey), but prices have gone up so fucking fast anyway.
It's getting to the point where I think that having a full renovation of the duplex half I'm in done is going to be more feasible than buying a new place.

Ill have to move at some point. Im a bit scared of unreasonable new neighbours. Or that I have to live next to some schizo terrorizing the neighbourhood.

>>23129196
Do you like your neighbors now?
Are you sociable?
Are you willing to join the local religion of where you move? Church involvement can blunt the actions of some neighbors since they'll be unwilling to move against church members.

>>23129196
Move in a place next to a guy who has a dropped engine on the drive way. Those are the best neighbours, as long as you don't mind a bit of noise.

>>23128990
Fascists gonna fascist. What can you do? These people exist in every society and you cannot really get rid of them. There's always that 20% to 30% who are gonna be the first to don the brown shirts. You cannot really reason with them because these people are driven by their tribalistic mindset which is to a large extent genetic.

After spending four days offline I've come to the conclusion that there's some sort of distraction field that emanates from routers. I don't mean that entirely literally, but it does seem that just having that connection is a whisper into your ear at all times, even if it's just a quick "I wonder if I have any email?"

Making a list of things I needed to do online and not even giving it a second though for the rest of the time seems more peaceful, tranquil even. And if you don't have a television either, and use the screen only for something productive (writing, drawing, whatever) seems to cause a recession in a sense of technological panic I think a lot of people feel even while "relaxing" with those devices.

Not only that but I slept better, dreamt more and remembered them after waking up, and just generally felt more at ease.

>>23129225
There's a reason a lot of advice for writing and other stuff says, "work in a room without internet,", "toss your phone in a drawer," or even "unplug your router"

>>23129235
True, but I think that it takes longer than that for any affects to manifest. In my experience it took a day or two for the "net brain" to actually get set aside.

I think when I get a job and my first pay (we get paid pretty well here in Australia, even for bullshit jobs) I'm gonna take my mum out for dinner to show thanks and appreciation for her taking care of me all these years.

>>23129240
There's a reason why I also agree with the much rarer advice that I have seen:
"Take a week and go somewhere without devices at all, write everything on actual paper."
This is something I will probably do once a month or a couple times a season when writing becomes a job for me instead of just a side thing.
>>23129247
Wholesome frog if true.

get on my fucking level bitches

>>23129259
I'm thinking of cancelling my home internet, and just going online at my local library (only a minute's walk away. Should really get a card as well...) to do things like email, utilities, etc.

If I need to do something "longer" like shopping or downloading some videos I'll wait until I visit my parents.

>>23129267
I don't know what you do for work, but if that's feasible for you that might not be a bad idea (though I would caution you that if your parents are far away that might be iffy).
I work in an industry where, even though I am not expected to be twenty four hour, that I require home internet access to not be office bound five days a week for eight hours guaranteed.

>>23128174
This copy pasta is a result of the greatest echo chamber known to mankind not talking to anyone and not engaging in discussion. That or drugs.

>>23128868
Combat endless consumption by writing sentences. The pen is mightier than the sword. It's all idiotic ramblings until someone edits it into chapters.

>>23129279
There are advantages to being a lower-tier wagie, one of them being they don't give a shit about you after you clock off. They have my phone number in case of emergencies, but they've never contacted me.

It's also monotonous enough that I can think about my writing while working.

I am really considering it strongly, since my parents are only a short drive away, and that'll only be used for non-essential internet use like, as I said, videos and podcasts.

>>23129298
I'm considering trading 'down' to a trades position, which while physically harder isn't as mentally stressful.
Then again, I'm also considering like ten other different plans, including staying at my current posting until I am pretty sure I will have a breakdown.

>>23129311
If you can financially manage then I say go for it. Faint heart never won fair lady and all that stuff.

To keep reading or to play Dark Souls, that is the question.

>tfw soaking in drugs
>tfw not even fully dosed
hnnnnng

>>23128840
>You can always use aliases and false info

Say you are a woman in order to get more responses too.

>>23128806
What music do you like listening to?

>>23129449
I hate music

>they say evil men have no songs; why then do the russians have songs?

>>23129523
Being perma drunk for 5 centuries mellowed them out somewhat, hence the russian "music".

>>23129532
Maybe they just hear a different drummer
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=upYILrPe9Lg

I just watched a one hour video by some Vice type channel on the drug trade and it ended with an English former undercover cop talking about how the drug war doesn't work because niggers keep nigging no matter what you do. His advice was literally, stop fighting, you can't win, the reason you have nigger drug gangs is because they are capitalists who expand to fill niches and you are only giving them more business opportunities by policing them. He then cited how
"Sweden has drug cartels who use guns and grenades" and talked about that for a while while never mentioning it's 100% niggers.

I wonder how the history books will record this weird religion of the late 20th, early 21st century.
>99% of the crimes were committed by niggers but you couldn't say that. You had to just keep saying "We have a crime problem." If the same 500 niggers stole candy every morning from the same shop for 10 years, you had to say "Britain has a candy theft problem."
Is this a rite? A creed?

Now I'm watching public school chimpouts. Are there any expert racists on /lit/ who know a good source of content for how the school system is collapsing under the unbearable weight of niggers?

>>23128017
God is Alive
29/2/2024
11.46pm

Tonight, during my isolation, I engaged in PMO. Always feels bad after, but at the same time, the release of built-up tension brings some clarity. I’ve decided porn needs to go, but moderate masturbation seems permissible, maybe even beneficial. I’ll start with once a week and see how that goes.

Planning to use the To-Do app for lists of things that need doing. Write every day. Read every day. Pray every day. No porn. Masturbation about once a week to keep the biological reproductive system healthy. ‘Use it or lose it.’ Aim for 8-9 hours sleep per night. If I get less, I won’t worry about it; God always provides.

I'm amazed at how the Palestinian situation continues to get worse on a consistent basis. I wasn't expecting the jews to bomb people while they were waiting for humanitarian aid at the designated spot, but that's what they've been doing during these past couple of days, and with total impunity. Political castration.
Is this the most well documented case of genocide in history? I can't think of any other instance with a clearer series of events and a direct feed of images.

>>23129573
Fuck “Palestine”. They deserve every ounce of retaliation that they get from Israel. No sympathy for people who elect a religious extremist terrorist government and celebrate atrocities against Jews.

>>23129573
People killing each other for reasons I do neither know nor understand. Not that I think it's a good thing, but I'm completely impartial about what side's going to win or what side fights against the other in the more moral way.

>>23129573
Cool it with the antisemitism.

>>23129550
True but don't forget who are main clients, who are the one buying the drugs? If there was no demand there wouldn't be supply.

>>23129573
Terribe but don't forget that in the south of Gaza there is Egypt and Egypt being an Islamic country closed their border and are not letting any Palestinians in.

>>23129550
Nig nogs are only good in the countries were they are oppressed the most. Nothing more logical, you have to oppress the nigger within the nigger in order to get a good, hard working nigger. The less of a nigger he is, the better. Refuse to oppress the nigger and the nigger will behave like the niggermost nigger: niggertheft, niggerganging, niggerniggering other niggers. That's the way it is in Africa, that's the way they behave in the US.

>>23129603
* that's the way it is in some parts of Africa, but not in those where behaving like a nigger is oppressed even among niggers.

>>23129584
oink oink

Any of you had any success with sleep aids? Melatonin, magnesium, Zquil and other stuff only make things worse when I inevitably don’t sleep. The only thing that works like a charm is Xanax or some other benzo, but I can’t go back to daily benzo use. I beat myself up too badly to get off them…

>>23129584
Please blow your brains out

>>23129615
In shallah brother

>>23129614
Sometimes I can't sleep so I blow my brains with a shotgun it works instantly

>>23129600
You could say that Egypt has successfully gotten Sissified.
It's interesting to see them support Israel so strongly when the planned Ben Gurion canal will probably destroy their economy.

Only need a comb, a shirt, bacon and eggs.
It does not matter wether I earn a minimum wage or a banker's wage, I am always going to have thousands of dollars at free disposition.

Just found out my furnace shit out, but my job is helping me find a dinged/damaged unit to replace it for waaay cheaper than a brand new one. I was really dreading this whole situation but everyones been super helpful, they even found a reputable guy who installs them for cash as a side hustle. Good luck within bad luck I guess.

>>23129615
Please raise awareness for Palestine in the same way that Aaron Bushnell did.

>>23129627
You joke but I think about this laying in bed every night. My poor sleep has handicapped my life.

>>23128467
Whats the worst that could happen? You fuck up your life? You die? You fuck up other peoples lives? You get other people killed? Fuck it. Fuck em. Life is cheap and the herd needs culling. Do it up!

>>23128495
Wait till you figure out that illusion is value too, and both values are 0!

>>23128631
Don't overthink things. Just do. Thats it. figuring out who you are is easier when you have a portfolio of things done and an honest hindsight.

>>23128631
BTW Some character traits are those that make us adopt character traits that aren't genuine. You must make piece with this part of yourself too.

>>23128653
Getting lost in the woods with a couple buddies. And when say lost I mean you need to not know if you are going to make it out alive. But you wont do that. Its not controlled enough. Leaders don't need outside control to take on an experience, so odds are if you find this task a hard one to take up, its because you aint got that leader dog in you.

>>23129597
mostly other niggers

>>23128718
You should try drugs.

You might have been switched at the hospital.

>>23128793
Chalk this one under Fagts

>summons a horde of demons to torment you just because I can

>>23129573
Did you see this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3WMgoEwTbjY

They really are a very odious people.

>>23129600
>utterly destroy your economy for a generation with a massive refugee crisis and totally change your nation demographically forever so we can expel the people we conquered, forced into gypsy-like conditions, and administered as basically slaves
Not really an option any statesman would take. They are building a border wall because they know Israel will literally wreck other sovereign nations IN ADDITION TO the one whose civilian population they're massacring, to get their way. Israel has no respect for the sovereignty of other countries because it sees itself as the protagonist of history, with everybody else played by the computer.

Dubs and I go to the store

>>23129665
Mostly white

>>23129224
These fascists live in your head. There are no irl fascists. You’re just making shit up.

>>23128806
If you had lost the will to live then what is this will that keeps you living? You call it "not disappointing your parents" or whatever but that just sounds like will to live in red lipstick and sequined dress. You have resigned to nothing. You don't want things to be over, you want them to be different, but you don't know in what way you want them to be different. This is the time to start trying new things, get fixated on something, and make it your life until you either relax into it or get fed up with it and move on to something else. You are an empty vessel in the best way possible. Drink deep anon. You got this.

>>23129678
Fugg it I need ciggos

>>23129674
>Not really an option any statesman would take. They are building a border wall because they know Israel will literally wreck other sovereign nations
Surely there is a a road and a gate, a checkpoint where those aid trucks come it, they could easily let those people in while still maintaining their border wall.

>>23129614
Weed made me sleep like a baby

>>23129614
i eat a baked potato with lots of butter before bed, that worked

>>23129674
>Israel has no respect for the sovereignty of other countries because it sees itself as the protagonist of history, with everybody else played by the computer.

That's literally fascism, Nazism, Hitlerism, whatever you want to call it. I am sick of people not acknowledging that fact.

That is also maybe why people care so much about this particular conflict, besides the whole genocide thing. They see a rouge dangerous state that has actual huge political influence in our western sphere.

does anyone here eat a lot of oysters?
they seem like one of the healthiest foods ever

>>23129706
No, oysters feed on detritus and feces

youse listened to that new fred again track?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sQRfp2Xp6U0

>>23129702
>rouge
It’s ROGUE, you fucking retard.

>>23129709
they're ridiculously high in minerals. nothing has more zinc. and people eat them (raw!) around the world.

>>23129678
rolling

getting drunk

What the actual fuck. My Chinese gf is getting fucked by the government for talking shit when chatting with me, and now she is trying to escape to fucking Australia. She attempted suicide before and now she is psychically totally fucked, and I feel like her family hates me for fucking her life. it´s over.

I've seen footage

>>23129724
>yellow fever going for the suicidal chinese gf
>it's a long distance 'relationship' as well
grim

You ever really think about how nuts it is to let anyone from anywhere vote in the elections of Weatern countries as soon as they’re legal? You can be a Wahhabi Muslim not even 1 full generation in America and vote in American elections. That’s nuts.

Shit like that makes you realize how just how insane this whole propositional nation where anyone with certain legal status can vote is.

Saw a post reporting that South Korea has reached the worst fertility rate in the world and there were several viral tweets in response of women celebrating it and advocating celibacy. Most of these tweets also happened to be from black women.

Since my dad left, I've been stuck with my mom in the uncomfortable position of "man of the house", therefore responsible for little repairs, strenuous tasks, and having the initiative to make things right.
I just can't though, I lack the tools, the strength, the know-how, the SPIRIT.
I'm plagued with daily realizations of things deteriorating all around me: an invasive shrub I should deal with growing ever taller, the weeds taking over the garden beds (abandoned a long time ago), the windows and cupboard doors that don't close properly. I just try my best to ignore all of it and go about my day.
Now and then, we call a professional to take care of things, and I feel a deep shame waking up to the sound of their work, greeting them in my pajamas as they do something that I should do, or at the very least I should be able to do. The whole situation makes me feel less than a man.
There was a time in my life when I would tinker with hot glue and electric motors, but I dropped all of it in favor of becoming an artist.
And a good artist I became. I make decent money and can pay to get all these things done. Yet, doing so still feels wrong, like I'm tricking time, avoiding my duties somehow...
I fantasize about living in a house made of stone, one that could survive for a thousand years after I'm done, just so I don't have to deal with entropy and the challenges it places in my way.
Does anyone else feel the same or am I just fucked in the head?

>>23129733
Yeah, they could also be a cannibal or a vegan or a pedophile or good forbid, a Mormon.

>>23129724
LMAO

>>23129733
Sounds like a SCAMMER trying to get to your money.

>>23129754
Sounds like you did a pretty good job of building an edifice of what a "man" should be and are letting it kick the shit out of you a bit. Build a new edifice. You are there for your mother, who cares what form that support takes. You found success in your own pursuits. You are capable of feeling like you can do more which is good but letting such feelings effect you to the point where you are talking to strangers on the internet about it indicates that such feelings have outlived their usefulness.

>>23128456
Please respond at

>>23129733
Based Swiss people, in some cantons, hold communal elections as soon someone applies for citizenship. What a democracy! If there's a country that brought the modern liberal state to absolute perfection, it is the Swiss.

>>23128985
I volunteered for a door-to-door service once, but they had their hq in the city so it was mobbed with cool college kids. I am a stocky, skinnyfat goblin. I caught the guy interviewing me mark me a 1 out of 5 on how good of a fit I was for the organization on his little sheet. I thought I did well, that I was friendly and well-spoken, so I spent the rest of the day coping hideously that his scale was reversed and a 1 was the highest recommendation. That was a very long time ago now. I know your pain

>>23128456
>communist meetings?
Literally any campus will have a marxist bookclub. Warning: the people there will probably be losers, but whatever

>>23129754
My parents divorced when I was in junior high school, went with mom, never really saw dad again, she remarried and divorced again. I can’t say I’ve been in a “man of the house” situation because I went off to college and lived on my own for a long time, but I did find myself in a quasi-parental role for my younger siblings and my mother pushed stuff onto me over the years that should really be pushed onto a husband. When she was going through her second divorce she would call me in the middle of the night when she was a college student and tell me how she wanted to kill herself, would ask for money, and all this. I moved in with her a few years ago to save for a house. She rents and doesn’t own a home so I just buy groceries and gas and do stuff around the house and whatnot. I see where you’re coming from with the stone house thing. My dream is a big sturdy house with a bunch of rooms on a farm out in the country to be the family estate for generations, the home I never had basically. I planned to buy a starter home this year but prices have gone up so much over the last few years that I’m pretty much priced out now and these last few years have been pointless.

I was just walking through the city with headphones and Monster Energy in my hand and I felt like everyone was staring at me.

I feel like I look at Arabs/Balkans the most because I have long hair and painted nails. They always either have fake brand clothes (Gucci is their favorite) and a fannypack or those black puffer jackets. One of them is always on the phone talking to someone.

>>23129564
Do you think the early monastics were jacking off once a day to keep the reproductive system healthy?

>>23129770
He should take the initiative to do things around the home if he’s going to call it home though. It’s not about lacking initiative. It’s all discipline. It’s like trimming your toe nails or cleaning the bathroom. They’re just things you have to keep up with, not because you have some initiative but because that’s just your responsibility.

>>23129800
Yeah, and for the fascist group check either the history nerds of the finance/business bros (varies by local culture).

>>23129800
>>23129818
I don't know how

>>23129783
Switzerland is full of foreigners. When I was there I was surprise that it was swarthier than southern Germany.

>>23129754
>>23129770
>>23129817
His real problem, I think and in so far as he actually had a problem, is that he is not thrilled about this arrangement of being his mother’s man of the house. The children of single parents rarely are. Our parents push the burden onto us, but we never want it. We want to build our own lives, with our own families, and pay for our parents to the do the same if we can but none of us can afford to do it. I would know because I’m in this situation. I’m currently looking at business opportunities to try to make big money, even though I don’t really want to run a business at this time. I just have to make the money so I can fulfill the expectation of my mother and acquire what I want for myself at the same time, without handicapping my own life and development. In America, it’s shameful to live with a mother at 30…unless you’re rich.

It blows my mind that more than 50% of people will cheat on their partner at least once in their lifetime. That's insane.

>>23129832
insanely low

What is it called when you want to dress like a man, femboy/transgirl or woman depending on mood, social setting and dysphoria?

I am not a theyfab, I am seriously considering HRT (for the anti-masc and aging effects and to possibly actually transition).

>>23129835
narcissism?
are you goodlooking?

>>23129824
Well, there's a lot of foreigners in Switzerland but most of them are Eastern European white trash... Western European white trash... a few German doctors here and there, and the debrises of the old European nobilities who fled there.
In fact, some foreigners of Switzerland are so white that they are sometimes mistaken for locals. At least this is what happened to a pale and red-haired and an ivory white skinned, tall blonde Albanian women in a restaurant I worked at. The last one truly touched upon what I would consider the appearance of the Aryan woman. Both were Albanian.

>>23129835
mental illness

>>23129817
But he is taking care of the home from what I have read, he is just paying other people to do it. Responsibility fulfilled at that point.

if you're attractive - reply
i wanna talk to you

>>23129842
It’s not clear. He said he just lets stuff go or pays other people to do it.

my best friend is an 64yo old school gangster druglord released a couple years ago, im a 27yo uni dropout underachiever
this is all true

Anyone here have tips for anxiety?

>>23129826
Maybe you are right. I read it more as he feels inadequate to the task of being the man of the house because he doesn't do it the way his idea of a man of the house would do it. To what you said I would say that it sucks that you do not find your position to be noble but again, thats an edifice you have built of what life should be like, and not a reflection of the reality of helping take care of someone else out of fealty. It may be difficult to see but there is nobility in it wether you do things by hand or bring people on to do the work with resources you have acquired, or, more to your situation, wether or not you derive pleasure from it. You too need to build a new edifice that see's the good coming from your existence, one less informed by societal norms, and more the stability you provide for the people you care about, among other things.

>>23129855
Yeah, maybe he is living in shambles and only paying people to fix the things that effect him. You are right. Incomplete information. I guess I just assumed a more optimistic stance. But many people procrastinate, that doesn't mean that the things around the house don't get done before they fuck things up.

>>23129869
Don't have it.

>>23129883
Bit late

i love the sound of people shouting

>>23129813
>I have no ID (on me right now)
This is perfectly fine. I don't carry ID when I am out and about.

>>23129888
Ah, a fellow pasta brother I see.

>>23129869
Dont smoke weed. I suggest working out and forcing yourself to do things to improve.

>>23129895
>Dont smoke weed
Never. I only get anxiety when I'm doing something that's weird for me; sneaking out at night, cocaine at work. I want tricks to stop feeling it

Nowhere on earth is there a state as magnificent as the Swiss state. What a brilliant legislation, what a liberality towards it's citizens... the land where paying taxes is less of an obligation, more of a recommendation from sides of the state... disobey, the government will talk to you and listen to your view and how you justify it, agree with you where your pleading is reasoned. Nowhere have the liberal theories of the 18th Century been applied in such a severely logical manner than in Switzerland. Nowhere is the hope that the supremacy will remain in hands of the locals greater than in Switzerland. Nowhere makes the states greater concessions to individuals who disagree with obeying legislational law. Oh pretty European country, last of them all, how sad I am I had to leave it because even you have become too illiberal for me longer to live there, and yet, all my hopes for the future of the European peoples lie in Switzerland.

>>23129813
uk?
good vibe btw

>>23129869
I had really bad anxiety for years that I got over. Do you want practical advice or philosophical advice?

>>23129924
practical as long as it isn't 'deep breaths'

>>23128966
don't listen to this fag >>23128977
racism is perfectly natural and healthy, and the sign of well-developed pattern recognition skills

>>23129912
Can I move there im a poor American.

>>23129523
I recognize that shitpost

>>23129835
just fucking kill yourself

I ADORE U

>>23129928
Here’s a few things I did that really helped:
1) Get outside as soon as you wake up, even if it’s only for a few minutes.
2) Be active and/or go for walks without headphones, preferably in the woods or fields or something (this is like meditation for white people).
3) No screens 1 hour before going to sleep or after waking.
4) Just be online and consuming content or scrolling less.
5) Fix your sleep.
6) Fix your diet. Eat real, whole foods. I strongly recommend How to Eat Move and be Healthy by Paul Chek.
7) Get off Benzos if you’re on them.
8) Get your stimulant (caffeine) use in check if you use any.

I’m still working on 5 and 6 but I can’t tell you how beneficial the others have been enormously beneficial. It took me years to realize that anxiety is not exclusively a physiological problem but it’s greatly exacerbated by physiological problems. Most people with anxiety are just living totally fucked lifestyles physically. I was. I developed a severe Ativan and Xanax addiction at one point. I don’t take anything now, and while anxiety creeps up on me sometimes, mostly in the form of insomnia, I never get panic attacks anymore. I’m telling you, this stuff will help.

Life is nothing but suffering. The thing we want most of all in life, we can''t have, either because of God's will, the universe, or our own subconscious desire to thwart ourselves. I could want nothing more in life than to taste kiwi for the first time, and it would still never happen, even if I want it with all my heart more than anything else. It's like I'm scared that if I taste a kiwi, nothing in life will matter after. So I simply cannot let myself get what I want. I must torture myself and screw myself over so that I never get what I want because doing so would kill me. Why do we exist to suffer, and why do humans possess an underlying urge to prolong this suffering and keep us trapped in this prison of the mind?

do they call it the web because you get trapped in it and can't leave

>>23129977
I see I see. Way ahead of you on steps 6 and 8
>Most people with anxiety are just living totally fucked lifestyles physically
but some people life mad lives without anx

>>23130044
it's called foreshadowing

>>23129911
Sometimes you should feel anxious, like when partaking in zaps. I personally recommend only a small amount to be balenced out with liquor, but thats just me.

>>23130044
It's because a good portion of the people using the 'web' are shooting white strings at any moment.

>>23130049
Yeah, but everyone’s different. Some people can eat garbage and not get obese while others get obese from too many bagels. These are just things in general that help. If I had to say what helped me the most I would say 7, 2, and 5 in that order. Once you start to reason with yourself about not getting anxious about being anxious, that’s a sign that you’ve made progress.

>>23130065
a lurid thought. Sometimes you have to remind yourself that there's always a nonzero number of people jacking off/having sex

>>23130060
>Sometimes you should feel anxious
disagree
>I personally recommend only a small amount to be balenced out with liquor
I actually agree, but my tolerance has built where I do too little it's like nothing. plus the feeling of being amped is sooo good.

Ohh what have I done... a few hours ago I was so haughty and proud... now misery is eating me up again. Slowly I sunk among men, to the lowest of the four castes. So damn miserable. I am not worth a dollar. I can't nothing, no one trusts me to do nothing. No one desires my presence. Everything I must do alone, for myself. Everything I ask for, I must beg for. Deep deep misery. I had more potential than this. Didn't do something with it. Misery, the lowest of miseries. What do with nothing but misery! Fucking misery! Enough common sense to understand that my situation is worthless, but without any possibilities of changing anything about it. My parents have betrayed me, they don't have a dollar for me. Everything I must earn myself. No possibilities to school myself. I shall learn a trade in a city I do not know anyone other than my boss, rent an own apartment, bring vegetables I sowed myself in order to survive the winter. Winter, the summer has not even begun and I already think about the upcoming winter. Must sow vegetables in order to survive even though I've got no clue how to sow vegetables. Must prepare myself for the army because it is obligatory, must do two hundred push ups every day in order to prepare myself for the army so I don't fail at the army at least. I though doing all those things would make me better a man and my social value won't barely improve a bit from it. Wallow in misery! Become more miserable than the most miserable poor! Must marry a Swiss woman in order to be respected by my neighbours. A Swiss woman, and how will I justify myself in front of her father? I am too much misery. My stomach does not bare so much misery. I vomit misery. I eat misery. I bath in misery. Misery, misery, misery everywhere I go. My entire life will be a swamp of misery.

>>23130070
ah well

I really don’t know how anyone can take an objective analytical look at pre-industrial Western culture and not conclude that it was far superior to what we have today. It’s really just so totally obvious.

>>23130126
In what way?
Most people were serfs or later tenant farmers. They lived in perpetual poverty with literally zero upward mobility.

Do people who fantasize like this always imagine themselves to be some playboy knight or a prince or something?

>>23130138
> he fell for the libshit meme
Hands on the table, if you aren't a wagecuck today you wouldn't have been a slave or serf in pre-industrial society.

new bread?

>>23130162
>if you aren't a wagecuck today you wouldn't have been a slave or serf in pre-industrial society.

How does that counter what I'm saying? Most people today are employees who get most of the fruits of their labour stolen because they own zero capital.
Most wannabe capitalists (like me actually) are just day dreaming about someday becoming an employer but are in truth stuck being an employee?

Are you rich? Are you able to sustain yourself without working for somebody else? If yes, good for you. But how the fuck does that make life for other people better?

>>23130168
Make it yourself fag

>>23130174
> Most people today are employees who get most of the fruits of their labour stolen because they own zero capital
Most people barely work. The argument that the capitalist earns everything while the workers do all the work for a minimum wage only works for hard physical workers like me. Me and my crew brought the half a ton heavy object upstairs, almost breaking our backs, and put it in place. And who gets the money? Capitalist.
Most other workers are just leechs who make themselves no hypocrisy out of having chosen a white collar job because they don't want to work.
When I say white collar job, I don't count doctors, policemen and other noble activities.
During early capitalism, it was no different. The parasites moved to the city and started working in factories because hard farm labour became too hard for them. Factory workers effectively were people who did not want to work. Today they have evolved to college educated white collar office rats.

>>23130180
new bread?

>>23130192
>Most other workers are just leechs

Without those "leeches" you wouldn't even have a job because there would be no frivolous consumerism creating economic demand for whatever the fuck you were doing.
To sustain per-Industrial society with current technology maybe 5% of people would actually need to do anything. The rest of you would be unemployed. The contemporary economy revolves around frivolous consumerism.

I just woke up. What did I miss?

>>23130224
Go back to sleep.

the war machine springs to life

>>23130236
>>23130236

>>23130206
> Without those "leeches" you wouldn't even have a job because there would be no frivolous consumerism creating economic demand for whatever the fuck you were doing
I don't care. I have enough skill to make an own house and farm my own food. I just work because not doing so would make me look bad in front of society. Or did you think I do hard physical labour for the minimum wage I get for it?
> To sustain per-Industrial society with current technology maybe 5% of people would actually need to do anything
No, it would literally need all the people working right now. Those technological tools need to be invented, invested, built, sold and bought by the customers.
Even if we got rid of all technology everyone would need to work. Some people would be making clothes, other people would be sellers at the market, thirds would be making food, fourths running around everywhere searching and selling information, etc. etc.
> The contemporary economy revolves around frivolous consumerism
And you find that a good thing?

i'm excited for the rest of my life again