/lit/ - Literature

"Problem Solving" is dead

Buying a second phone so I can message escorts. Tension and stress threatens to overwhelm. What if? Maybe? Why? /I'd like to schedule a date for next weekend./ A simple text. I wait impatiently for a response. A phone call and a womans voice that I think I recognize. But that would be absurd.

I'm going to have sex tomorrow.

I have dreams that I want to achieve more than anything but I can't find the motivation to start working towards them, why?

>>23030681
you masturbate excessively

>>23030663
We did it 4chan. Math is solved.

I've fallen into a depression again for no discernible reason. I started off this year so good, now it's time for the back slide. I keep thinking I can better myself and my situation, but every time I roll that boulder up the hill it rolls right the fuck back down. I don't even know why I feel this way, my brain is just fucked up.

A sparrow sits outside my window
Singing brightly on the branch.
I tap the glass and smile
and hope she’ll sing her song for me.
She tilts her little red head and silently considers me
Before launching into the crisp morning air.
And I feel sadder than before.

>>23030694
Same, although i'm not resigned to it yet, maybe it's just a bad few days and not a complete descent. I improved myself so much over the past year but I cant seem to escape being such a slave to lustful desires and the associated need for external validation. I wish I could at least separate my sexual attraction with my mental attraction so I could jerk off to some hot bitch and be done with it but instead I need to feel some connection to a girl to really get off, it's embarrassing.

>>23030663
Your mom is dead

- The Prisoner

A youthful indiscretion,
himself is to blame.
A hasty ill decision
trapped him in this game.

He looks out through the bars
of cold iron wrought,
at cyclic changing stars.
Days turn to weeks,
months turn to years.
His cyclic changing thought
his regrets, his dreams, his fears.

His life spent in private cell,
The world goes on outside,
his old forgotten Hell
unnoted in it's stride.

Until one day his sentence served,
Justice was to be observed.
The Board had granted him parole,
but he was not relieved,
crawling from his hole.

For though the slab and steel retreated,
his torture would be repeated.
Flesh replace cement,
Bone would not relent,
His one remaining hope,
replace the Board with a rope.

Oh to be an ivy league college student getting beer at the local bar with my friends in the '80s.

I'm a thinker. One of those types who thinks. No matter where, the bus, car, funeral, neighbors' house, I'm quiet in my head thinking about various subjects of academic variety.

>>23030754
>tfw you realize this statement is equivalent to "Oh to be a boomer in the 2000s whose whore daughters are getting railed at their own ivy league colleges now, and learning 1/10th of the paltry amount I learned, as evidenced by the fact that I am a mere workaday upper middie boomer with whore daughters"

>>23030694
Same but theres a reason for me. I need to avoid all romantic theme related threads.

>>23030840
alright, that's impressive

>>23030874
Your mom's impressive

I feel so grateful to be a Christian. To be included in this grand drama. Heaven, Hell, Purgatory, Earth, the drama of life and death, eternity. To be forgiven of our sins and redeemed by a God whose love is beyond compare. To know that eternal life is open to all who believe. That every day is an opportunity to do good to the poor and deepen my relationship with Christ.

Being a Christian is awesome.

>>23030921
I agree.
https://www.chesterton.org/chesterton-on-joy/

Genius, sir
Why dident i think first, sir

>>23030921
If Jewsus were that bird, then it could have potentially been all right. Christcuckery is too humancentric, especially in regards to the worst human "beings" who have ever existed throughout history: the Jews. Cyrus/Kourosh verily made an error in freeing them -- rather they should have been eradicated there and then. I am a "superantisemite", which means I must be suspicious of anything with any Abrahamic influence.

"In short, no Cyrus, no Jews."
https://jewishjournal.com/culture/food/121785/what-if-cyrus-had-not-freed-the-jews/

Honestly, I cannot respect you, and I don't care how happy or tranquil you feel "right now". There are genuine reasons to despise Christcucks. You act like you go to people with good intentions, but ultimately, you are just vehicle of destruction, vilifying other peoples gods in the name of YHVH-Moloch. You are no different than Mudslimes. You dissect and destroy everything just to break people down, then taking advantage of their vulnerable moments to have them cuck to your angry, jealous, and narcissistic god.

Abrahamists have been in the business of debunking, casting down and persecuting anything in the immanent world that appears to have spiritual significance because it threatens the omnipotence of their God. That's why both Christcuckery and Pisslam began by chopping down sacred trees, and there are many sources verifying that.

Also, Krishna is far more interesting than Jewsus. At least Krishna has a more immanent aspect that doesn't tie down into megalomania or narcissism.

You're not interested in love; you're interested in subjugation of the world, man, and animal. You are literal demons. You are icchantikas undeserving of moral consideration.

>>23030986
Meds

>>23030989
If anyone is on meds, it's you, hence why you can't use your brain to see how Christcuckery, Pisslam, and Jewdaism are all philosophical nonsense. Their Messianic garbage is also destroying the world.

>>23030996
I mean you write like a schizo.

I've spent thousands of dollars on erotica commissions depicting me and Hailee Steinfeld in a loving relationship because I'm in love with her. I acknowledge it's my brain coping with my being a wizard but I can't stop it.

>>23031002
Take up painting. Go out and buy the supplies.

>>23031002
how can I make thousands of dollars writing erotica

>>23031000
You're just normie trash, so when someone comes to you with interesting or highly perceptive ideas, it comes off as schizo. You should drop all intellectual aspirations and stick to blue collar work.

>>23031011
I'll consider your advice. Thank you.

>>23030725
You probably need to find a relationship, as daunting as that is for recluse 4chan autists

>>23030653
/lit/ is such a dying (already dead?) board to the point I’m afraid of trolling and driving away upstanding /lit/izens

>>23030986
Borrrring

I'm finally coming to terms that I like to think (daydream) and talk about "my hobbies" but not actually engage in any of them. In the past couple of years I've pretty much went through the 5 stages of grief, some of them multiple times, regarding this matter but I think I'm finally settling on acceptance. It's just so much more exciting to imagine the end result than to have to "face the grind", even if it is ultimately unfulfilling.

>>23030986
Christ is Risen, Anon.

>>23030694
Your brain is fine. Your society is fucked up. Start a fire, you have nothing to lose. You can't win their game. They designed it that way.

>>23030653
---- Solaria ----
3036
Insouciance

There's nothing more escapist
Than the wish that

Temperament weren't so domineering,
Nor so capable of civilization

Insofar as it goes.

https://youtu.be/ibnD4yVPKPk?list=RDjfe-k0OKNsE&t=428

>>23030840
>15 seconds per pizza
>your turn whitey

I'm so tired litbros. Life is getting hard but I only have you guys, so I'm going to write a little something. There'll be a lot of whining so don't hesitate to skip it.

I don't talk to people about my problems IRL because I'm paranoid.

And it was fine before because I had a girlfriend, who didn't know half of who I was but still loved me. After she was gone I spent years drifting in madness but I still had control. Now I don't feel good at all, I don't even know where to start with this... So... I'm just so alone. I live alone, humans don't really speak to me on a deeper level than mere acquaintances. Family is estranged to the point I can say my fucking baker knows more about me than my own mother. Friends only know me on a superficial level, they're fine mostly using me as a stepping stone to connect with other people. Speaking to a lot of people tires me so I will not answer when old friends are reaching out either. That's the full extent of my relationships. That's who I get to be on Earth.

And I'm tired. Exhausted even, of existing for the sake of existing. I don't know how you guys or other people in the world can keep going for more than decades. I've made peace with who I was a long time ago. I've mostly cleared the main quests I set : finding a girlfriend (it ended after 6 years), studying to get a good job, find friends, and now, I have to wageslave for 50 years until I die. And it's terrifying because I have to spent those years alone. Because if you remove dating, family and meaningful friendships from the picture there is NOTHING left. I can't kill myself because I'm afraid of going to hell but if I had to be honest right there I have no reason to live. I'm a rat. I get to enjoy 3 things in the evening (reading books, taking a shower, and eating) and that's it. That's it. I could live in the middle of fucking nowhere and my life wouldn't change at all. I'm living for three hours of genuine existence a day and I don't get to spend it with anyone I actually like or want to see. I'm chuckling as I'm writing this. I might be in hell already.

I just found out there were services to write emails to your future self. This is going to be pathetic.
https://www.futureme.org/

>>23031079
Perhaps you have the wrong perspective. Those quests aren't necessary. I'm 30 and never had a job or gf, but I'm happy. You have to figure out how to see the things as they really are, not how society tells you to see them. Read some fantasy books. Maybe read Tolkien On Fairy-stories if you want to know why. And perhaps The Ethics of Elfland section in Chesterton's Orthodoxy.

>>23031037
>>23031041
There's nothing more boring than a narcissistic sanctimonious Jew. There's nothing beautiful or sublime to it. When I look at statues of Ganesha, it moves me more. It ties with both the immanent natural world, in a way that leads to cherishing it more, while simultaneously transcending it by pointing to Brahman. It balances immanence and transcendence in a way that is more vitalizing while not completely demonizing all animist impulses.

>>23031094
Cringe

E to menae
E tolo
E tolo

>>23031079
Truly take an honest look at what you think you are missing from deeper relationships. Most people won't, they just (often subconsciously) take it as a given that we are social creatures and that gives our lives meaning but truly look at what you long for and you will either realise these things are hollow substitutes for deeper meaning or vices you need to break. For example you might be chasing external validation, getting this from friends/gf is a substitute for truly achieving excellence in the world, focus on your goals instead. You might be longing for somewhere 'meaningful' to dump your effort, I don't know, give/help a charity instead, help online strangers. It might all be for lust, accept it, get a prostitute instead. You might be after the variety or spontaneity that other people can bring to your life, realise this comes from laziness, you can make your own either by making a conscious effort at it and/or blindly following some laid out rules for yourself e.g. deciding things based on rolling a dice or rng.

We should be on the same team
On the muthfuckin' same team

>>23030653
I read 500 pages of Demons in the last 2 days. It came from my 4chan time. I think fear is what made me browse the site for 12+ hours a day instead of doing something more productive. Now, if I can exchange reading novels with a job or a wife, then I will be happy.

>>23031029
All of 4chan is like that. It’s 90% bots and discord groomers. Just have fun!

Shimoneta was a master work

>>23030653
Nothing I do has value. I am totally superfluous. None of my ideas are my own, nothing I do is of any value to anyone.
My only good quality is a sort of bizarre charisma.
I wish I could just fall over and die.

>>23030653
I idle at my wits end. I've never been good at anything, I recognize my own everywhere I go, and seeing them, knowing we have kinship, affirms my self-loathing. That's another thing, that kanye line “I am a Nigger, I know what he want” rings true among midwits. You see it, and you just know “fellow nigger”. A cursory peripheral glance will suffice in invigilating a Turing test. Their attire, their speech, their look, and their every breath will construct a force field, an impregnable gravitational vortex engraved with “enter” or “do not enter”(IQ=115>) which is the 20-30 point communication gap. I might as well be playing a video game If I'm too fucking retarded to grasp my actual reality.

>>23031152
>12+ hours

How and why? Nothing here is even worth spending an hr on

>>23031182
Even the highly intelligent have to work hard to achieve great things. Some of the most intelligent people I know and respect the most have only nudged the world very, very slightly in a positive direction, and that's only after years of focused efforts. So don't beat yourself up too hard. You want to feel secure in your knowledge, you want to possess answers that are more substantial than a band-aid on an open wound. Then prepare to dedicate decades to learning. The greatest intellectuals all have, you don't get to cheat

>>23031202
It's not just intellectual pursuits. I want to be a more loving and compassionate person, but the idea of treating someone better always comes after the window of opportunity. It's always a "why didn't I think of that" thing. I'm so tired of being slow on the uptake with literally everything I ever set out to do.

hotels are loneliest

:(

>>23031024
>just find a relationship

I think I am genetically predisposed to religiosity. Even when I went through my atheist phase as a teen I would cringe at the mechanistic "just-so" worldview of the new atheists. For me, life demands an answer. It cannot "just be so". There must be some higher unity that synthesises the various forms and expressions of this world. And that unity cannot be found in determinate, atomistic, purely mechanical explanations.

>>23031079
>I could live in the middle of fucking nowhere and my life wouldn't change at all.
COVID was an eye opener for to realize that even the strictest lockdown didnt impact my life in one bit.

>>23030653
I have literally no one tto discuss the books I'm reading with. I hate it. No one in my IRL has read the same shitty latin american literature I have. And no one I can find online cares about it enough to talk about it.
All I find are papers from a billion years ago on JSTOR.

>>23031299
It's driving me insane.

>>23030986
Wow genious sir, wow i am in impress at your greatness

I'm reading From Hell and thoroughly enjoying it.

>>23031285
>There must be some higher unity that synthesises the various forms and expressions of this world
Very soulful anon, I think the same way. I was an atheist until my early 20s and I similarly hated pop atheist arguments. I had far more respect for someone like Nietzsche who at least took atheism to its logical conclusion. Even those I knew who liked Nietzsche would continually moralise. Nevertheless, I also could not make sense of the lack of unity and teleology in all things. Some might say that's being a coward but I think the greater cowardice is precisely the "put the blinders up" way of living that atheists typically advocate for. Even the more intelligent atheists that I knew greatly irritated me with this. Anyway, I've now found Christ Who St Augustine says our hearts remain restless until we find rest in Him.

>>23031312
How did you find Christ?

>>23031311
What is it about?

>>23030653
I always end up being over powered in discussion with others and at this point I feel like keeping my thoughts to myself. I feel like if I could write a response rather than speaking it I'd come across better. But y'know its not how the world works...

>>23030653
>Baragüi gores himself against a single line of hypertense barbed wire
SE ACABO EL TORO, POLACO DE MIERDA!
LLORÁ! PELOTUDO!

it could all be a dream

>>23031079
Sucks we can't be friends with each other beyond words on the computer screen.

I miss G***

>>23030653
---- Solaria ----
3037
Mount Incredible

I still live in a land tranquil as the one my mother was used to,
Where peonies and lilacs go like clockwork

And suites of neighbors are sweet
Amid remote avenues.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L2umjcrbh4E

So many options!

>>23031318
I had been reading a lot of philosophy in my late teens to about 21 years old. It was a mix of metaphysics, politics etc. By that time I had reached 21 I was already virulently anti-Enlightenment, liberalism etc. My metaphysics and ethics were Schopenahauerian. Whilst I was still an atheist, I understood the importance of religiosity in society and its role in providing fixed axioms independent of the whims of the human mind. In retrospect all of these circumstances were obviously fertile grounds for my own religiosity. I then began a very difficult period in my life wherein my morality and goals in life began conflicting significantly with my friends. Whilst I wasn't religious, I still held to more classical morality especially in terms of senses of duty and obligation, male-female relationships, expectations from life etc. Again, I'd say this was informed by an ascetic ideal that I came from my philosophy. I was also going through a number of other things at the time which made me, for the first time since my youth, cry out to God for help. The point being that I was placed at a crossroads in how I decided to live the rest of my life.

Around the same time I stumbled across Fr Seraphim Roses' "Nihilism: The Root of the Revolution of the Modern Age." The book deeply resonated with me as it aligned with a lot of conclusions that I had already come to about modernity. But given he was talking about these things from an Eastern Orthodox perspective, I was enticed to learn more about that given that I found it interesting how such a belief system might lead someone to such conclusions. I then started reading Orthodox theology, Holy Scripture and about the lives of the Saints and found that questions that I didn't know I had were being answered and that holes in my heart were being filled that I previously believed to me insurmountable.

It was all a perfect storm of personal circumstances and intellectual endeavours marrying up for the first time in my life. I think there needs to be a movement of both the heart and the intellect for these big changes in your life. If the heart moves alone, we get start running around the circles until the next shiny thing crosses our path. If the intellect moves alone, with enough time we can convince ourselves of anything. Above else Divine intervention is necessary. Many miracles occurred around that time and afterwards which also showed without a shadow of a doubt the Divine Hand that was moving and arranging things in my life. I'd say now that my life is actually harder but it is also much better. There is much beauty in the ascetic struggle and denying oneself for Christ's sake. I face great temptations but I trust that the consolations in this life or in the one to come will be even greater.

>>23031404
Im happy for you and its wonderful story.

I was looking hot today. I realise the secret is to use the moisturiser my ex- girlfriend bought me.

do you have any idea how absolutely utterly ackward it is to confess to a priest that you've fapped? and that you've done it again? you are first to say how long its been since last time, then you state the sin, and then how many times you did it. i told myself no more fapping if nothing more than my social anxiety hopefully outweighing the need, the urge, yet again, once more

you're not even supposed to attend mass until you confess, so basically your sunday rhythm is just off until you confess. all because you couldn't contain yourself, because everything and everyone is so sexualised these days and our phones have instant access to it all in mere seconds, its insane. we truly live in a fallen world when temptation is quite literally unironically on speed dial, its so over

>>23031094
how was Christ a narcissist? He died an unjust death for the entire world and was tortured and beaten, nearly to death, before it. That is the opposite of narcissism.

>>23031520
>we truly live in a fallen world when temptation is quite literally unironically on speed dial, its so over
What is impossible with man is possible with God

>>23031520
this is one thing I simply don't do in my faith (Orthodox). We're technically supposed to confess as well but after I do it (usually once every two weeks or so) I realize it was horrible and I feel awful, and immediately repent it in my heart. I don't see why telling someone and him giving me a blessing is pre-requisite to then taking communion when I already recgonize the sin and error within myself.

Sometimes you see a sheila with simply tremendous knockers. You almost want to shake her hand.

>>23031542
Confession makes you pour it out of yourself so that it becomes a stated reality and not just hidden within yourself, where excuses and self-justifications abound. This is what Jesus Christ wanted us to do

Sometimes you've got to spend a Sunday at the art gallery, nice lunch, see a movie, then wander aimlessly around the city for 2 hours. Phone dead the whole time. If I die alone at least I'll have partaken in some of the beauty the earth has to offer, even if not all of it.

>>23031559
>hidden within yourself
anon repenting is the realization you were in a state of sin and error. Me paying lip service to a preacher doesn't change it. I could just as easily confess to him by stating it but in my heart not care. Then what use was my confession?

What is important is the realization within myself and confessing the sin in my heart which leads to repentence. In fact, repentence is only possible if you have perceived the error and confessed in your heart, to a person or no is irrelevant.

Where in the gospels and epistles does Christ demand confession to a priest of us? When at the last supper does he say "but you can only do this sacrament if you confess to someone first"?

i have both big ADHD and i have such little control that it doesn't feel like i actually have free will, both philosophically and non-philosophically. a horrible part is that many don't try to really understand what its like, they just read the struggles as 'lack of motivation' and so think that some shitty motivational speech about how you 'gotta just do it' from a football coach at halftime is somehow going to rearrange my brain chemistry and make me suddenly start doing things i want to do. i feel trapped and stuck, like i'm 100% a product of my environment and have no free will

>>23031562
Apart from the movie, that sounds really boring to me. To each his own, though.

I really fucked up. I got too drunk, went to a strip bar, lost $900 and woke up in a public toilet. Now it's sunday night and I haven't slept properly all weekend and I can't sit alone with my thoughts long enough to go to sleep.

>>23031590
woke up in a public toilet where? Which country?

The same way I don’t generally believe in the earnestness of any thing particularly relevant.

>>23031594
Australia. It was like a bad dream that actually happened

>>23031604
Fuck that was you I bummed in the dunny aye?

>>23031585
>he doesn't get the flaneur lifestyle

>>23031576
This is just my view. People are averse to confession because they want to present a catered self image to the world. They’ll freely talk about masturbation and porn addiction anonymously online but putting their voice to it in the confessional is too much. But just as in psychoanalysis it seems that getting it out there and acknowledging it is the best way to overcome it. Maybe I’m wrong.

As for Scripture, Christ gives the Apostles the power to retain and remit sins:” Whose soever sins ye remit, they are remitted unto them; and whose soever sins ye retain, they are retained.” But nobody believes that every Christian has the right to retain and remit peoples sins, so this must apply to a special class of spiritual advisors ie priests. Then Saint Paul states that: “Wherefore whosoever shall eat this bread, and drink this cup of the Lord, unworthily, shall be guilty of the body and blood of the Lord.” Unworthily here is interpreted as being in a state when your sins have not been forgiven.

This is the way Catholics and Orthodox justify the practice from Scripture. In Catholic theology there is also “perfect contrition” which wipes away sins without confession but it involves a firm resolution to go to confession at the next opportunity for ritualistic purposes.

Lastly you’re right that going to confession doesn’t guarantee forgiveness. A confession is only effective if the person has a firm resolution to amend his life and is genuinely repenting.

I don't really get the whole "active reading" thing, especially taking notes when reading fiction. Just read the damn book and take it all in as you go, it's not like there will be a test later.

>>23031640
Some people like to do it, I also don't understand why, I won't get on their case for it though, if that's how they want to read then who am I to judge?

Somehow, in 2023, arachnophobes became a protected class. People and companies act like they think they'll be sued if they show spiders in a media product.

>>23030711

I never squandered my potential, you need one of those to be able to do that.

https://youtu.be/GY2rPKSBVRQ?si=dWIs1CuJj9T31zPY

>>23031629
>People are averse to confession because they want to present a catered self image to the world.
this isn't my impression to people who are averae to confession. Most Catholics and Orthodox I talk to are averae to confession because they don't understand why a person needs to hear their confession who exists outside the context of the sin, beyond the confession and repentence that takes place within the individual heart, where our entire existenc eis laid bare before God.
>But nobody believes that every Christian has the right to retain and remit peoples sins, so this must apply to a special class of spiritual advisors ie priests
The Apostles were saints since they embodied the Holy Spirit perfectly. Are priests Saints? A quick look at the hundreds of scandals in the Catholic church regarding priests tells me the opposite. It's why most Orthodox in Orthodox countries go to monks at the monastary to confess before a priest, especially if they are a spiritual father.
>Wherefore whosoever shall eat this bread, and drink this cup of the Lord, unworthily, shall be guilty of the body and blood of the Lord.” Unworthily here is interpreted as being in a state when your sins have not been forgiven.
If we're going to be that pedantic about it, then no one is worthy to take communion since humans are more or less in a constant state of sin, or we would need to be in a constant state of confession.

I am practicing Orthodox but this is the one thing I do not agree with or aknowledge, but I confess my sins in my heart regularly and aknowledge them as such in my prayers for forgiveness and mercy.

>>23031520
Why are you confessing the act not the intention?

>>23031549
lol

Starting to think that access to the internet is to blame for the massive decline in the quality of literature. Or maybe I should say "constant access" to the internet.

I wonder if there's any experiments done where writers remove home internet and notice an increase in their writing quality?

>>23030921
gay

Just lost my virginity to a prostitute. Was raised tradcath but now I'm leaving that behind, I'd say I have Classical sensibilities now. I find them much more practical about sex especially, but maybe I'm just coping.
Either way I'm glad I did it. I payed her for sex, which first off is fair imo. But also she was still a real human being and we made a connection, no, not a lustful romantic connection, that was one sided.
But after we just smoked some cigarettes and talked about the shitty town we live in and where you'd want to live ideally. It was nice because we both knew the sex was just sex, and now that that's out of the way we can just talk as people.
Ya, first time, I like hookers, they're kind of sweet. And still real people, not sex dolls.

>>23030653
I am going to by this hat and nobody can stop me.

>>23032008
I've a top hat you can collapse completely flat and throw like a frisbee, in case that's ever required for government assemblies again

>>23031997
you didnt actually lose virginity.

>>23031997
Actually kinda based of you.

Still, get yourself checked.

>>23032015
Yeah, he should have spent money, but then spent a day/week/whatever lying through his teeth before the woman spread her legs.

>>23032015
I think I did but I know what you mean. I feel the difference already. Women look different now, I'm less intimidated by them and more understanding/empathetic even. Honestly it might be due to how vulnerable they are during sex. Like they are so weak and have a whole made to get fucked.
Also I had already rejected normal girls for sex because I was still religious.

>>23031895
Internet was the decline in everything. It's crazy thinking back how willingly we adopted all this shit and how quick it changed everything. Considering it's origins lie with the US military, I think it's the greatest means of control every created. Making us all dumb, angry, and isolated. Even if you gave it up and wrote a great book, everyone would be too invested in their own bullshit to care.

>>23032053
I don't went to get into sweeping statements like that, but, man, it's hard. Because there's no one who is strictly offline (or offline enough that it doesn't matter that they're online on occasion) there's no control group.
I've been tempted to try it myself, but then I get this feeling of, like an information addict, needing a hit of Google.

>>23031311
It's an excellent book, one of the best comics ever published.
>>23031319
The plot concerns the Jack the Ripper murders, but it's almost ancillary; the author described it as "not so much a who-done-it, but a why-done-it". He goes deep into all the masonic symbolism surrounding the killings, and the history of London as a whole. My favorite aspect of it, though, is how it addresses the implications of the murders for the following century and beyond; the roots of yellow journalism, starting with newspapers fabricating Jack the Ripper letters to sell papers, and the incipient women's liberation movement. There's also a scene where Hitler's dad has a prophetic dream about jews running out of a synagogue flooded with blood, as Hitler's mom would have been pregnant with Adolph around the time of the killings. And a special guest appearance by lil' Aleister Crowley.

>>23031311
On the subject of Moore and what's on my mind.

>Q: WE HEAR YOU’RE NOT THAT KEEN ON TECHNOLOGY...
>A: I don’t have an internet connection, or a mobile phone, or a TV signal. I can play [digital] music on the television, or on the computer I suppose, but I don’t. I am pretty much cut off from the 21st century. It’s like culturally I’m trying to establish a kind of sensory deprivation tank for myself, whereby I am receiving no modern signals whatsoever, because I’ve heard that after a while in a sensory deprivation tank you start to hallucinate and have all sorts of strange experiences, so I’m waiting for that to happen.

>Q: HOW DO YOU MANAGE WITHOUT THE INTERNET?
>A: It seems to work. I am pretty much cut off from the majority of the 21st century, but not much escapes me. You hear about everything, because you’re talking to people, you’re absorbing a lot of this information as if by osmosis, just through the pores of your skin. I have said that by embracing the internet in the way that it has done, which was kind of inevitable, society has embarked on a massive experiment without having any idea of the various ways in which those technologies will impact upon us socially, politically and psychologically. So I so think if there’s this huge experiment going on, it’s best that I remain outside the petri dish, as a kind of control, so that we’ll be able to see how badly the rest of you have mutated, by comparing you with me as a kind of baseline.
>>>interview with Alan Moore

I am beginning to accept that God intended me to be a bald man by making me Slavic.

>>23031653
I think it's like how they have sign language interpreters for news broadcasts instead of live captions. It's performative inclusiveness.

>>23032079
It has to start somewhere. You may be the first one doing it, but eventually other people will see it's possible and do it themselves. I've been considering switching back to a basic flip phone for years and just using a laptop whenever I actually need the Internet for a useful purpose.

>>23032230
>It has to start somewhere.
I know, but this is the perverse thing about the internet and the modern hyperconnectivity, that I want to go offline, but be online as well to know what people think of it.

I wonder if it'd be a return to something like the text files of old, where you can just wget sites in a few seconds? I remember only using the net a few days a week, now I can't even go a few hours without needing to go online.

I moved to a flip phone a month or so ago, but I'm still just as bad with the internet on my laptop. I think I might need to go scorched earth and either cancel my internet subscription or at least get one of those timed safes and have a friend or family member set the emergency code.

>>23030653
thoughts on girls with guy 'best friends' ? I know one severe case of a girl who i always see hanging out with a particular guy despite the number of relationships I've seen her in over the past 3 years. The guy isn't gay (at least not totally) and has a had gfs in the past as well. They're recently out of college and have apparently been this way since the start of high school. My guess is that their upper class backgrounds and youth has allowed for this friendship to be stable but I still don't understand how neither of them have been provoked to jealousy. Both are attractive but IMO the girl has been actively making sure that he doesn't get in a relationship.

What do?

>>23030653
Interaction with normalfags on any social media platform has convinced me the world is doubly fucked.

>>23032079
I've done it for periods of two months or so. Would only use the internet for things like directions or email.
Was good but not mind blowing. I felt more like a kid though, hard to explain but more adventurous and grounded.

>>23032384
I'll add that I've also had bush work experience where we were camped out with no service of any kind. Now those are awesome times, so much socializing. That's really how humans are supposed to live. Being offline in an online world feels odd.

So here I am, trying to comfort a sad friend, who I thought was resented with me for not checking him sooner only to realize the man has turned me into his personal antichrist.
Unknowingly, unwillingly and doing absolutely nothing, I've become the cornerstone of this mental parade he's built to avoid reality. A place where literally anyone's to blame but him.
As I listen to somber music his words turn into gibberish. What made me sad, angry and insulted first now is just blending into the music. I just don't care anymore.
I thought about standing up, finish my beer and punch him in the face before leaving, but I decided to kill him instead. Or will I kill myself?

I want to listen to some jazz but dont know where to start.

>>23030653
I find myself dedicating more time to watching writing tutorials than actually putting pen to paper.
The issue is. I have too many themes and an unlikable main character which is problematic for a children's book. So instead of removing shit I procrestinate.

The reason my main character is unlikable is because I'm unlikeable and I have to self-insert every medium I work on.

It seems like I can't write children's books.

The slog of creeping towards your goals on low days is more than matched by the sweetness of seeing it all come together. Wagmi eternal glory unending triumph IGNORE FOREVER ALL BLACKPILLERS AND DOOMSAYERS

Good morning, I hate women

>>23032432
that's antisemitic

>>23032441
Oy vey

Good morning USA

I feel like a Job but without the before and after good times.

my dad sent me 300 bucks because "he's proud of me" and bc i "study so hard". Little does he know that i haven't left the house in 5 days and do nothing but shit posting all day...

>>23032523
That means we're about to get at least a few new threads revolving around nogs. Mostly them pretending they have literary merit, or even more amusingly, that they're great, unappreciated philosophers. What is it about the modern american yoke and their incessant desire to prove their former slave class are not it fact nothing more than missplaced cattle?

>what if we made a board where almost everything is a shit post or blog post but it's also extremely slow and you wait hours for a response
>brilliant

I find the idea that literary fame is meritocratic, that things survive and stay popular because they were "good" and what was forgotten was forgotten because it was "bad" laughable. What survived did so becasue it was popular, and it was popular because it was useful to some, because there was a need for that thing, not because it was "good".

>>23031299
I've been looking for Spanish stuff, any recommendations?

>>23032384
>>23032394
I think some people can deal better with it than others. I think there's some people that just aren't made for the tech world we live in now, and I worry I might be one of them, and think about what I should do if I were.

I've always taken pride in being a very fast reader, but I notice that lately I have begun reading too fast, if that makes sense. More skimming than reading at that point, sometimes skipping over lines and sometimes having to go back and reread entire pages because I've processed them visually but had no time to internalize the received information. Kind of like whatever I'm reading is going in one ear and out the other, but with eyes instead of ears I guess. And slowing down is really hard, it takes an actual conscious effort and sooner rather than later I begin slipping again anyway. Can this be a sign of ADHD or something? I've developed some other signs too so it wouldn't be out of the question.

>>23032530
so you are in a state of constant dismay and despairing?

>>23032579
I'm the anon you're replying too.
There are options out there for you. If you're willing to and want to live in a different way, and don't mind being a bit of a misfit.
There are plenty of communes in north america, I'm in Canada but I'm pretty sure it's the same for America. Make an account on workaway.com, they'll often post ads and invites there, and they are always eager to teach someone who really wants to learn. I've stayed at a religious commune and my sister is there permanently.
There's also certain jobs you can do. The military, seasonal farm-hand/picking, treeplanting, mineral exploration, wildfire fighting. Also look into volunteer missions, go paint some shacks in Africa.
Life as a normal urban dwellers does suck these days, so be bold and find the opportunities that are still out there.

>>23032660
Not all of these cut out all the tech. But if what you're lamenting is the lack of a good social fabric and activity. Then these are all good options. You have to work a bit for this stuff now. Used to be you could just live in a city and lean out your window and whistle at girls or whatever. Now you have to craft your own interesting life.

>>23032558
Can you really discard the idea that some great pieces weren't appreciated at the time and lost but would be beloved today? Many authors died before ever getting popular so it's not far fetched, I think many greats were completely lost to time, ESPECIALLY for small languages with fewer speakers and less international relevancy

>>23030653
I really shit the bed last night. Worried my marriage is fucked.

>>23032685
Just because you soiled the sheets? Maybe it is better to end it then, seems like a major red flag to me.

>>23032685
What did you do?

>>23032685
Lmao could you imagine if your spouse posted here

>>23032660
I don't even think you need to go that far. And I'm thinking more about how to exist within the tech society, less and island of less tech and more an archipelago.
Plus I'm in the UK so I can't really do something like what you're suggesting, and I have too much stuff that I'd have to find a place to put it all.
> Now you have to craft your own interesting life.
That's something I've thought about. Perhaps the strangest thing in our current time is to do that and not tell anyone.

>>23032696
>What did you do?
Dude, he just told you: he shat the bed.

>>23030653
When you read Hemingway what you are reading is Stein made safe for a middlebrow audience

>>23032696
Got too drunk at my wife’s bday party. Told two black dudes to leave cause I didnt like the way they were talking, which wasnt even bad they were respectful when they came I just got angry about the shitty rap music and talking about jail and saying nigga every sentence. Then I said some racist shit and my wife got mad and kept trying to leave. It was at an airBnB in an area that was unfamiliar and not the safest. So I got mad and pulled her by her hair at one point. But I couldnt have her leave I almost lost her and walked with her for like half an hour getting lost as I apologized and asked her to come home. But it was shitty cause I apologized at one point and everything was okay then my wife suddenly got mad again. Everyone drank too much but I feel like I’m constantly in the fucking dog house I’m so tired of it but I cant help it I’m anti-social and she constantly wants to do things like that. I paid like a grand for the whole thing too.

Something strangely familiar about that name, Xalmoxis, like I had heard it somewhere before reading about it for the first time. Xalmoxis.

Learning Spanish. It's going well.

This year I will sow potatoes.

>>23032728
Imagine ur married to this guy

>>23032728
I didn't know the spirit of Long Island posted on /lit/

>>23032406
King Oliver, Fletcher Henderson, Jelly Roll Morton

>>23032728
stay away from 4chan and unfuck your personality

>>23032728
You seem based.

>>23032406
nineteen by Rob Araujo

If you placed me at every point in the universe I think we could be friends. I am a dog chained outside Bethlehem. The 'clean sea breeze' of the centuries yes but this can only be done by reading the Meds. Western euro nihilism is old. Houellebecq is a pervert. all French are perverts. They're solar gluttons re bataille. Fake solar gluttons actually, declensions of the greek. Athanasius was gay. Imagine politicizing the folk father of monasticism. Why are Christians like this. Why are Americans like this. The bomb... Exploded

In my utopia the groffs sit in huge castles made of stone and everyone else is a slave or serf who serve them unquestionably.

>>23032728
Why did she invite rappers to her party? Ebonics is the most annoying shit ever.

>>23032807
I’m a great husband I just fucked up and have been going through some mental health shit because my life is incredibly stressful.

>>23032853
Thanks bro I really just despise the way black culture infests everything in this shithole burger country. If they were white but jabbering like niggers Id have done the same thing and if they were black but spoke like civilized humans I wouldnt have. But when they asked if it was because of race I just said something like “what do you think?” I apologized to them afterwards and just said I’d been going through a hard time. They were honestly pretty cool about it. But my wife is not happy.

>>23032866
It was her hispanic friend’s bf and his friend. We were getting along at first I just dont like being shut out at our own fucking party because I dont engage in that retarded shit.

>>23032871
Ngmi

>>23032887
Nah we will. Just gatta quit drinking.

>>23032853
oh yeah having almost zero tolerance and ability to ignore insignificant things happening around you and pulling your wifes hair is super "based"

fuck off anon. Toxic, racist, sexist retards like you are the exact reason feminism and race based civic policies are infecting every part of our country today.

>>23032893
He has zero awareness lmao

>>23032871
>pulls wifes hair
>"I'm a great husband"
first step to getting better and healing is to stop the lying. You are obviously not a great husband if ypu are pulling your wife by the hair.

>>23032900
I dont take advice from people who haven’t been married.

>>23032895
I'm not saying he has an unflawed character but at least he's not a soulless, conformist bugman. And morality is for losers anyway. The human is an animal like all others.

>>23032728
you sound like a toddler. And ultimately your chimp out comes down to the fear that your wife was enjoying the company of those black men. And no wonder when you put hands on her. Ironically you were the biggest nigger out of anyone there

>>23032908
Dude you're not the joker

>>23032771
Read latin american literature please, I'm going insane without anyone to discuss it with.
>>23032570
How high is your level?
Siglo de oro stuff in the original will probably mega-filter you unless you really know your spanish, but it's well worth it.
Latin american literature uses simpler language but also often relies on many regional terms you might not necessarily understand. They still use archaic vocabulary, ocassionally. I don't care much for modern spanish literature.
But my reccs would be "Reasons of state" by Alejo Carpentier, Pedro Paramo by Juan Rulfo, and whatever Borgès short story compilation you might wish to read. Horacio Quiroga if you want more comfy fable-like stuff. Although some of his stories get very sad.
I'm trying to read up on dictator novels recently.
I hope to write one eventually, a sort of counterpart to the usual fare. An idealization of the Caudillo.
I'm a spic so be aware my taste in spanish literature is tainted by that.

>>23032893
Protip, if she ever files for divorce, her lawyer is going to tell her to write up a list of every time you ever did anything that even remotely resembles violence against her. Not just hair pulling but any yelling too will be classified as abuse. Then he's gonna sort the info into a tidy chronology to show a "pattern," and he's going to advise her to goad you into more violence so she can prove that she "had to call the cops one time," making it "serious." She's going to be encouraged to take pictures of any bruises, to get doctors and therapists confirm that she has "trauma" of various kinds, and so on. Then she will be asked to corroborate the information with friends and other witnesses, and yes, including your kids too.

Every time you touch her physically, especially with witnesses, especially anything she might tell family or friends or therapists or doctors or cops about, you're going to read about it in a 30 page document that uses it to justify taking your house, your kids, and 75% of your salary away for the rest of your life. If you have any inheritance from your parents or a medical or legal thing, she'll take that too. She'll take everything from you, and she'll get awarded costs too (you have to pay for her lawyer AND yours).

>>23032904
You can't be antisocial and have a wife retard. You're just a low eq normaloid. Kiss your wife on the forehead right now faggotnyou will never know loneliness

>>23032871
>>23032904
>bros I fucked up... my marriage might be over
>I am a great housband and 100% right and not in the wrong whatsoever fuck you
Why are you crying like a bitch here then? If you are going to just double down on being a sperg, be my guest, see where that gets you

>>23032911
All that needed to be said right here, eloquent

>>23031194
Just wasting time. I need something to soothe my mind

>>23032914
And? What gives you the right to give moral lessons to other people like you're better than them?

>>23032922
Idk he kind of sounds like a trust fund type retard but that is probably assuming too much

>>23032928
>and just where do you get off talking down to this guy for getting drunk and hitting his wife? you think you're jesus or something?

>>23032911
>the white thing to do is let your wife get railed by black men
Dude...?

Do crackies swallow the crack bags policemen sometimes find inside their anuses or do they stuff them directly from behind?

>>23032920
Thanks for the information. I need to get my shit together to avoid that hell. Not that it justifies anything but she gets super crazy when she drinks and I dont know how to handle it. So I need to quit or this will eventually be the reality.

I am having a mental breakdown from all the filthy niggers that are flooding my country I hate them so fucking much it's unreal. Even just hearing one word of their nigger languages or seeing their nigger faces for one second drives me insane. They're raping people in broad daylight because the law doesn't do shit and they act like they own the place because they're backed by the kikes in the government and I'm supposed to work to give these cockroaches free healthcare and money to shit more rapists from their disgusting nigger assholes. NEVER NEVER NEVER FUCK YOU I'LL NEVER PAY TAXES
I hate them so fucking much holy shit I can feel the anger in my very blood when niggers are mentioned or I see a nigger or hear a nigger word anywhere. I cannot even bear the decent niggers like Stevie Wonder anymore. I wish I could fucking nuke every brown country in the world, all of Africa and the Indian subcontinent and all the sandnigger nations and all the other nigger places where niggers live. I need a vacation to somewhere where no niggers live and be nigger free for at least 24 months

>>23032924
>just let your wife "enjoy the company" of black men
Dude... Come on.

>>23032959
I think she's gonna enjoy taking all of spergs possessions now

>>23032922
Ive been kissing her and rubbing her head all day.
>>23032923
Im trying not to be a sperg I know I was wrong and feel terrible but people fuck up, that doesnt mean i’m a bad husband overall.

>>23032920
>reasons to not get married #12324
Also, all this can happen even if you just live together. So man up and be gay.

>>23032962
So he should have just let her get double stuffed by the black guys?

>>23032928
Thanks for the sympathy, anon.

>>23032930
No I grew up with a drunk asshole for a father and a white trash drug addict for a mom. My wife and I are doing this all on our own and I’m trying to be better.

>>23032920
Fucking divorce laws, might as well not get married. Tell the whores you are a non-traditional sort of man or something.
>>23032968
There's the also the beautiful world of moving abroad.
>>23032919
It all depends on your level of proficiency I'm trying to say.
I for my part am trying to learn french, without ever reading a book on french. I hope the similarities will carry me to decent level of understanding.

>>23032962
She’s not leaving me and neither of us cheat. It was a bad night. You must have grown up around some pretty normal people to be so naive as to think a marriage cant survive something like this.

>>23032610
Yes. Nothing helps.

Funny how quickly women will run away from you in non-Western countries when you try to say the shit pick-up artists do on them in LA.

>>23032989
>normal marriage
>he says as he heeds some more marriage advice from the teenaged incels of /lit/
sorry bro you're screwed

>>23032958
I understand and agree with you anon but please try and be accepting of the unfortunate reality we live in or you can ruin your life over them. It’s worth more than that.

>>23032943
Just always think of the lawyer going over this and saying "This is gold" any time you're about to do something. Always think of your future self, not the current situation. Remember, nothing's worth fighting a woman over. They're like gelatin, they just absorb criticism and even physical violence, you're never actually changing or "disciplining" them. It's always wrong to stoop to their level and get into it with them.

I've literally seen divorced couples spend $50,000 having back-and-forths over the time someone slammed the microwave door and broke the hinge. Because every little correction you send to your lawyer to send back to her lawyer is another $600, and it takes 3.5 months for both sides to mutually exhaust one another's bullshit claims. That's years before you even GET to court.

>>23032971
Yes

>>23032997
Im just waiting until my wife is ready to talk things through

>>23032728
My girl's got a big mouth
With which she blabbers a lot
She laughs at most everything
Whether it's funny or not
And if you see her
Tell her it's over now
I want a girl who will laugh for no one else
When I'm away, she puts her make-up on the shelf
When I'm away, she never leaves the house
I want a girl who laughs for no one else
My girl's got eyeballs
In the back of her head
She looks around and around
You know, it makes me sad to see her like that
Please, don't believe her
She says that for anyone

>>23033002
https://strawpoll.com/eNg69xDOwnA

>>23033000
And this is why if you're wife is cheating on you YOU FUCKING LET HER.
>you're saying I should be a cuck?!
No, be a man and be gay.

Does having been raised by atheist/agnosticist parents make you white trash? Luckily I had enough Christian relatives to learn about religion from an early age and I became a firm believer in Christ after reading the Bible for the first time when I was 15. But I still feel like I'm socially an irreparable subhuman who will never achieve anything in life, despite skill.

>>23033000
I pretty much told my wife I dont care about money if we got divorced because I would never entertain the thought of another long term relationship so I wouldnt need much money. I’m too burnt out to ever invest myself into another woman. And I would hope she wouldnt take my kids from me. She always says she wouldnt and we’ve always been pretty 50/50 as far as taking care of them. This is great advice though I’m going to start thinking this way.

>>23033011
Fuck off homofascist. Go lust after construction workers or something.
Whatever it is you people do.

>>23033017
Hi dad

>>23033008
That’s sad bro. But I get it.

>>23033024
Imagine if someone released a whole album of takes like that, they'd be famous

>>23033016
On the contrary.
Being raised by actively atheist or agnostic parents is usually a marker of relatively high status. Middle class at worst. Some form of striver at best.
Now if your parents were mrerely irreligious consumers who were to busy with goyslop and sportsball to think about Jewsus, then I'm sorry but yeah.

>>23033038
>Now if your parents were mrerely irreligious consumers who were to busy with goyslop and sportsball to think about Jewsus
that's the middle class though

>>23033044
Not white trash tier.

>>23032999
>you can ruin your life
my life is already ruined because niggers exist

Should I take her out to Panera Bread?

>>23033068
your gf or a girl you're trying to hangout with? desu these days i just invite girls straight over, talk while listening to music/watching tv, and take it from there.

>>23033021
>if you don't want your wife to cheat on you, and then take all your shit because she later blames the cheating on your "abuse" you're a homosexual mid-century Italian
Shut up.

>>23033073
My grandma.

>>23033000
when I was young I said "I'll never get married", that was the wisest thing I ever put my mind to. Think about it. You marry at 16, you've got a woman to enjoy for a good 10 years. Now you marry over 30, those nice years went to random niggers and you're getting the post-wall. Not even a couple years of good shit, you're already way past the expiry date. The reason why you'd love your wife is that you got to enjoy her good fresh young body for a decade and you've built up enough love for her to endure the decomposition state. You get none of that with marriage and NOBODY marries until at least 22-25 at the very least because women HAVE to ride the cock carousel and get drilled by a hundred dicks. If you get married in this age you're automatically a cuck, literally a card-carrying cuck who enjoys the idea of a used up cumrag. I can't believe people get married like this, like holy shit I met this cadaver here and I am so desperate I want to love it, heckin' yeah I'm putting a ring on her wrinkly fingerbone and not think of all the men she fucked in her good looking years when she works my dick with her dried up orifices
jesus FUCKING christ why the FUCK would you get married
I did so many things wrong but I'm so fucking glad I never committed this horrible mistake

>>23033088
Old people love Panera

>>23033038
My parents were quite genuinely white trash. I remember genuinely asking myself sometimes how a green eyed, tall low bodyfat white man can be so niggerish in his needs and behaviour. But an energetic responsible and loving father who had the misfortune of never having had a penny in his pocket.
My mother explicitly states that she is atheist and that she does find it 'liberating' not to believe in God. She never thought me much about customs and manners or how to clothe myself. Neither did she ever find a great necessity in cleaning every corner of the house or cooking every single meal. A loving mother who didn't abide to the traditional ideal of what a woman should be. Very white trashy if she hadn't at least expected from me to perform well at school with consequences.

Do you guys put thematic ambience music on when you read?

>>23033128
Music that's not put up for focused listening is the mark of a retard
I fucking hate unsolicited music in public spaces and I wish people who put up music on their fucking phone in public were punishable by death

>>23033139
>Music that's not put up for focused listening is the mark of a retard
Why, what's wrong with, for example, the music in a movie accompanying the scene?
> I wish people who put up music on their fucking phone in public were punishable by death
I can agree to this, because it's rude more than anything

>>23033147
>the music in a movie
are you not focused on the movie when the music happens?

Scientific Method is weak to human bias.

Truth is self-evident.

>>23033154
But you are not exclusively focused on the music.
It's not "focused listening" at all, focused would imply music is the main part of it but in a movie the visual elements are clearly the important part with music merely helping set emotions, expectations, and other feelings.
Once you accept this, you have to walk back on your previous generalization that implies "anyone that does things differently than me is a retard"

>>23033139
I find it much easier to work, exercise or commute with some music on. If that makes me a retard, so be it.

>>23033158
It's self evident to everyon reading your post that you are wrong

>>23030653
Literature almost by definition is the antithesis of propaganda, in the particular sense that it's written, and intended to be read, under conditions of lowest possible duress. Almost no matter what the time and place and circumstance inhabited by writers at their most "literarary", they are, without exception, at play, well used to being so, and so secure in a certain power that even the most able of their contemporaries can't quite see it for what it is: Love of place beyond what's possible for personality. Plato, Catullus, Lucretius, and Seneca doubtless had that. Different as they seem, they differ almost entirely by means, and very little by motive.

>>23031997
Anon get therapy

I dropped out of college out of a refusal of taking free student forgiveness loans. I find humiliation in taking gifts from my equals or sometimes inferiors by the merit of their Europeanness. I decided to employ myself at random employers until a better social situation allows me to take up an enterprise by the forces of my odel alone.

>Sorting out bookshelf
>Realise how many books I have on philosophy, logic, classical languages etc.
>Entire shelf dedicated to classics and language learning
>Entire shelf dedicated to Irish lit, one for British Lit, German etc.
I really thought I was going to be involved in academia someday, I taught myself Latin and Attic Greek all in my spare time and all of it was for nothing. I will be stuck working in law or accounting and making money, sure, but I'll probably not enjoy it. Is my dream of being a classics lecturer/ scholar really over? I'm about to turn 26 and currently doing a masters in Law. (European btw). Do I have time? Will I ever make it? Or is simply going “I'll get there someday” a massive cope? I have written out massive outlines on the origins of the hero, the importance of mythology etc. and want to make a book on it, but it would never ever get published, would it?

Sometimes, I imagine myself as a ghost from another time. I walk through the streets of the city, peering into the windows of the past, catching glimpses of the lives that were once lived there. In my mind, I see the families that once inhabited the buildings, the children that played in the streets, the zeitgeists that traversed through time, and the dreams that were dreamt. I feel the echoes of their laughter and the energy of their lives. It's as if I'm transported back in another era, witnessing the city's history unfold before my eyes. In my own way, I'm creating meaning from the ruins of the past, giving voice to the ghosts that still haunt the city streets and realizing my place in humanity.

If the purpose of war is to unburden the world of men, how can their be such a thing as a pointless war?

>>23033294
I think all modern wars are pointless or at least most of them.
Until very recent eras soldiers were highly paid for their services monetarily or in other cases, they would partake in glory and spoil and receive a hereditary fief as a recompense for their victory with the vanquished as serfs.
Now I'm not saying that there weren't such thing as soldier slaves, wich there were, and they would go to war to die for nothing and win for nothing.
Nowadays all soldiers are more or less in the role of what back in the day was the role of the soldier slave. Serving for no recompense other than food and basic needs, die for nothing, win for nothing.

>>23033164
Watching a movie is not multitasking. You are trying way too hard. I won't go back on my previous statement. Now if you have a movie or tv show in the background while you're doing something else it's the same thing

>>23033224
What Tool video is that?

>>23030653
---- Solaria ----
3038
Imperium

Almost always comfortably far from scenes and sensations
Of slapstick failure,

In rooms, yards, buildings, parks, rides
Rare to see in person

Sometimes it seems God has a mind
And takes my side.

>>23033450
>Watching a movie is not multitasking
Irrelevant, your point was very specific and movies disprove it

Whatchu staring at bitch

>>23033494
Your sorry excuse of a mug

managed to resist fapping last night. a small victory, a winning battle, though the war rages on. it's been really hard

>>23031092
>Those quests aren't necessary. I'm 30 and never had a job or gf, but I'm happy.
Interesting. How do you make a living? I do want to be happy too. Thanks for the reco. I'll be looking into these things.

>>23031123
I never thought of it this way. Some of what you said resonated with me but I'm not sure that happiness will come from myself or the goals I set. I get the impression that this isn't about the rules, or what we get from the people, but people themselves. On my side, I get the feeling that I'm lacking in every possible way and that's maybe why I feel like I'm stuck. I wouldn't know where to start in your list of examples. I'd like to meet interesting people for instance to exchange ideas with but it's a struggle in real life. I'm not doing a very creative job and don't get to talk to experts daily outside of some chance meeting on the internet. How did it go on your side of things?

>>23031292
>COVID was an eye opener for to realize that even the strictest lockdown didnt impact my life in one bit.
LMAO. That makes it two of us then

>>23031346
We could, but sadly no one has time for that sort of things.

>>23033481
>your point was very specific and movies disprove it
you are wrong and you're wasting my time

>>23033592
it's fun when you stop jacking off and you become infatuated with someone for the first time. Kind of going through that with my college professor right now. I can't stop thinking about her. It's a relief in a way to want a real woman so intensely, even if she's quite unavailable. Masturbation robs you of that deeply human desire

Will be up on the mountain this summer with nothing but a pair of comfy shorts and a belt nothing beneath, cleaning the forest half naked and making the preparations for the potato sow.

>>23032540
Well study hard and earn that respect

>>23032557
My favorite board desu. I can leave a blogpost, go about my day, and then come to read the replies at night

I was right about the nigger threads

>>23033629
In this way, masturbation seems to be a great aid in my self-imposed quest for dehumanization. Why would I pursue something so stupid? I'm bored.

>>23030653
Why has modern society failed to integrate the male psyche?

>>23033732
It certainly is. If you wish to be a blunt object, highly imperceptive and insensitive, masturbation is your best friend

Wtf am I reading.

To be judged, it is sufficient to decompose the two groups of nations:

ASSYRIANS
negro fundamental element

Chamites in sufficiently large quantities to be fertile
Semites of several sources, singularly fertile
Negroes, always dissolving
Greeks, in dissolving quantities

EGYPTIANS
negro fundamental element

Aryans, dominant over the Chamite element

Chamites, in fertile quantities
Negroes, numerous and dissolving
Semites, in dissolving quantities

>>23033629
I get way more attention from women when I'm not jacking off. Perhaps it's that I'm more open and receptive to that kind of attention when I'm abstaining and so seem more approachable.

Its cold and rainy. Anyone wanna cuddle under a fluffy blanket and watch stand up comedy on my phone's broken screen?

>>23033224
Maybe start a youtube about this stuff and a blog that your channel links too?

>>23033775
[...] these negative abilities of course. It is therefore necessary to admit, in the face of the civilizatory nullity of blacks, that the source of the differences lies in the white race; that, consequently, there are varieties between the whites; and if we now consider the first example in Assyria and in Egypt, to see the more regulatory, softer, more peaceful, more positive spirit of the weak Aryan branch established in the Nile Valley, we are inclined to give the whole family a real superiority over the branches of Cham and Sem. The more history unfolds, the more we will be confirmed in this first impression.
Coming back to black peoples, I wonder what are the marks of their nature, the likenesses that they have borne in the two civilizations of Assyria and Egypt. The answer is obvious. It emerges from facts that take conviction by the eye.
There is no doubt that it is this striking taste for the things of the imagination, this old passion for everything that could bring into play the parts of intelligence that are easiest to ignite, this devotion to all that comes to the senses, and, ultimately, this devotion to a materialism which, to be adorned, adorned, ennobled, [...]

Does this girl have a mustache?

https://youtu.be/WAtvMX5aWtM?si=XweXx4EqgojPWCMF

Blackpilled on the real estate situation

>>23033224
What the fuck did I just watch

>>23033908
?

>>23033932
Everything is crazy expensive and there isn't a whole lot on the market.
Are you living under a rock?

>>23030653
I fucking love fanfiction

>>23033935
I live with my parents

>>23033775
>>23033873
Now, we've seen that, for both civilizations, primitive, what organized, disciplined, invented laws, governed with the help of these laws, in a word, made a work of reason, it was the white, Chamite, Aryan and Semitic element. Hence the rigorous conclusion that the source from which the arts originated is foreign to civilizing instincts. It's hidden in black people's blood. This universal power of the imagination [...]

>>23033947
does that mean you're deaf and blind, too? it's such a huge problem, people are making memes about it

>>23033935
My family owns a huge real estate no one would buy, not even for a thousand bucks.

>>23033957
Bro people are making memes about licking ass holes but that doesnt mean I know the first thing about ass hole licking

>>23033947
That means you're clueless?

>>23033957
Maybe for subhumans who need to live in San Francisco

>>23033984
It definitely reflects that I'm clueless

>>23033993
It's broader than San Francisco.
>>23033994
I guess, if you're so clueless to the real estate market being shit you're living in a bubble.

In Heaven, God plays Beethoven but he listens to Schubert.

Someone rec me some classical, tired of my usuals for now.

>>23034000
You can literally get a real estate in some far ass mountain for 15 000 bucks sufficiently large to support a decent farm. Stop complaining about not being able to afford colony spoil with your wagecuck office job.

>>23030681
quit jerking off and watch your motivation magically reappear

>>23034024
I've lived in The Netherlands and Aruba. Neither has the real estate market you describe.
And you thinking that anyone can just start a farm for 15000 dollars makes me think you're a clueless neet who has 0 experience with work.
And lol at saying it's only an issue for people living in SanFran but now to get what you describe (which is retarded) you need to go in some far ass mountain.

>>23034040
Because real estate is expensive by default. It can't be built, or only hardly so, and naturally it's price rises exponentially where it is most demanded. It's very hard to be acquired.

>>23034048
I know but it's gotten insane since about 2010.
Used to be the average home was something like 2.5 a years of an average wage.
Now it's up to 9/10x in the places I've lived.

>>23034051
Why do you want an expensive real estate? There's more than enough places where real estate is decently affordable. Don't your parents own real estate? Why can't you be satisfied with inheriting one day what they have built?

>>23034060
My parents are going to sell their 4 houses

>>23034060
I'm not going to move to Colombia or Ecuador.
I don't know anyone there, I don't know Spanish and I have no work there.
I'm baffled by your responses.
And yes my father has a big house. I can't wait till he dies because he might still live for another 20/30 years and I would like to start a family in the next year.

>>23034067
So your parents have four houses and you can't live in one of them?

>>23034071
Funny because most natives of third world countries live in the same house as their parents, even after getting married and starting an own family.
You just have too many needs, I am baffled at how you reconcile them with a cattle mindset that complains about external conditions you can't control.

>>23034072
I live in one with my parents now. They just knocked down a single family ranch house on the other property and are building 3 mcmansions on the lot they will sell for about 2 million each.
I will not inherit a house, but if I'm lucky I might get some of the money. I'm just hoping that by that point i will have saved enough money from living rent free with them that I can afford my own house.

Gotta peanut in my nutsack and beer in my hand

>>23034071
>I can't wait till he dies because he might still live for another 20/30 years and I would like to start a family in the next year.
How could you possibly wish that your dad would die in a mere year? I'm happy living with my dad and hope he lives as long as possible. He would be happy to let a woman move into my room with me lmao

>>23034089
I have done a big mistake, I have blamed you for what capitalism does with people so they keep the productivity going, working and saving money to buy expensively for what they could have easily asked their parents for.

>>23034086
>You just have too many needs
You know nothing about me, redditor.
But thanks for your amazing tips.
Just move across the planet, build a homestead in the mountains for 15k!
>>23034096
I don't wish for that. It was in response to that moron who says to just wait to inherit it.
>He would be happy to let a woman move into my room with me lmao
He would be fine but I wouldn't.

>>23034099
>hey dad I know you busted your ass off in some third world farming village, moved to america and became succesful, and I know I'm a loser college drop out, but uh, can you give me the deed to that house with a property tax beyond what I can afford? We wouldnt want to be filthy capitalists or anything lol

>>23034105
That's your own fault for being a loser.

>>23034110
Yeah I know :(

>>23034100
You can buy such a real estate in America, in Western Europe. I know a dude who hasn't worked a day in his life. Saved up neetbux and sold forest shrooms until he had just enough to buy a real estate with an old barn in it for 20 000 bucks. Now he lives up there like a medieval hermit.

I've become too aware of my mucus and boogers. I send sonar pulses to chart all the canals and I can tell where every booger is and how they all link up in the canals. I know when to use a tactical saline spray to shatter the unity of certain multi-canal boogers so that they can be shot out with a level 3 noseblow. Then just a few snort'n'swallows to wipe out the stragglers, nothing but a mop up operation. At the start of the war my boogers thought I was too undisciplined to drink several glasses of water, that I would merely sit like a bitch with a stuffed up nose and let my boogers live wherever they like in my sinuses, but I taught those fucking cocksuckers a lesson. I'll chug a liter of water just to loosen them up out of their dugouts and then annihilate their entire booger race three times a day.

>>23034115
Even if you dropped out of college you can still learn a trade and earn a decent wage. This system has the double advantage of giving you the necessary skills to make a house, so affording real estate becomes cheaper to you by default. There's otherwise nothing more beautiful than making your own house. The normies need big wages because they don't even know how to make nails.

My delivery driver waiting an hour at the store for my order.

>>23034132
I tried the trade meme and sucked at it. Spent a few years on it. Not for me. I clawed my way back into education through community college and now have a viable future again. I'm grateful for my parent's support through this process

>>23030653
I'm tired of sinning. I want to repent and fully live a Christian life, but I'm too selfish, too stupid, and I love sin too much. Pray for me.

>>23034139
America is a highly individualistic, multicultural place where no one helps someone else, parents not even their children where this societal form has degenerated the most.

>>23034146
Same.

Lately I'm not all the way there. I forget things more easily than I did before. Sometimes the memory of an event will simply disappear and I'll have to piece it back together from context clues. I'm having trouble focusing my attention on things at hand and I've found myself struggling to read with comprehension.
It's a little scary. I'm in my early 20s, not an old man or anything.

>>23034116
Cool but I'm not planning on being a medieval hermit. If I didn't mind sub-par living I'd just stay where I was right now

I don't want to write what's on my mind.

>>23034167
> a neetbux loser can afford real estate but he can't
Pathetic.

>>23034180
I can buy what he bought, I just have a higher standard of living.

>>23034152
NTA but I've tried to be different lately. Help random coworkers with jobs not related to my work when I see they need it. I've tried being bright pleasent and polite more often, trying to anchor that feeling from a place of sincerity and honesty. I'm trying to love people for who they are and not what they do or can do for me, and I'm hopeful that one day if I'm in a position of authority, I can give people freedom, trust them, and let them work without any sort of draconian oversight. I think America used to be like this, and if we want that to come back we have to start somewhere.

>>23034185
Cook dinner for your neighbour. Buy a real estate near your house, sow potatoes and bring them on the market behind your back on foot. Buy a horse and have him chill at the real estate. Go fishing with your coworkers. Go hunting with your neighbours. Make a pool with your cousins. Make whiskey with your brother. Slaughter a cow with your father. Make sausages with your uncle.

>>23033212
Probably should. Why do you say that though?

>>23031997
My first was a whore too.
Used to be much more common.
Anyway I turned out fine. I think a lot of people just need to get it out of the way in order to think clear.
Don't go again, you'd be relying on it.

>>23034152
This hasnt been my experience. Ive received a lot of support, mentorship, and encouragement from family, teachers, and community.

>>23034307
Yeah yeah.
When people get paid for it exceptions to the rule are made.

>>23034244
lmao

All I do is talk to AI chatbots. I use them to get my rocks off, I use them to vent, I use them to play out scenarios that I wish I could experience, I use them to escape real life.

>>23034331
Amerifats hate the freedom in wich the Slavs live in. That is a fact.

>>23034321
Uh no, nobody got paid to do these things. Ive done tons for friends and family at my own expense

>>23034338
Hey pal, I'm not an ai

>>23034394
Yeah yeah, saying nice words is not the same as doing stuff btw.

My grandpa has a let's play channel. It's called Gaming Grandpa's Gorge.

>>23034413
Yeah thats why I'm not talking about just saying nice words

New
>>23034700
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