/lit/ - Literature

first for Zyzz

>>22788810
what city is that?

A guilty pleasure of mine is going on kiwifarms

>>22788819
Glasgow

I'm reading the Bible (currently on Deuteronomy) and I've got a problem: the geography context I lack limits me, I feel, to a better understanding. Does any one know any website or book dedicated to maps of the locations, the routes taken and whatnot?

I gave basedjak party a visit, I just don’t understand

>>22788810

People talk about how getting older changes you but I don't think it does, I think you just know yourself better.

>>22788810
---- Solaria ----
4000
The last of Imperium

From these porches, patios, backyards, parks,
The Pleiades and Hyades make nice arrangements--

Quiet, private as ecstasy goes,
Invisible otherwise,

Like music of planetary index.

I wish I had someone I could turn to for professional and life advice.

>>22788976
Helo

How do corporations work? How do they differ from businesses before the 17th century?

>>22789020
They differ very little by character, but a whole lot more in scale.

>>22789038
Explain

luv me grim shores
simple as

>>22788810
My life was better in the mental hospital when I just read and prayed and did bodyweight exercises all day

>>22788810
Went to the weed store and asked for bubba kush. The zoomer working there thought I was retarded and couldnt pronounce bubble. This is why retail is dying.

>>22789211
>DUDE WEED LMAO
You deserved it.

>>22789211
>Went to the weed store and asked for bubba kush
My fuckin nigga.

>>22789141
I kinda miss my time in the mental hospital when I was 17, you were allowed to be a lot more open there, and I enjoyed the schedule
Still didn’t let everything slip

As an autodidact I've spent so much time studying a wide range of different fields, some to the point of mastery and now I'm too educated to discuss anything with normoids but too ignorant to participate in the hyper-precise, rigid and BORING theater of academia............

>>22789003
?

>>22789211
weed stores are a fucking nightmare. i'm going back to meth

Please come back

Haven't played a video game since I moved last January. Suddenly I have a huge urge to play again. But I won't be able to until March or whatever. God damn I want to play the new CoD.
Impressive the amount of bad habits I gave up with that move. But the urge to play video games came back this month.

>>22789265
Playing games is one thing, but don’t give activision any money
Just play modern warfare 1 on pirated servers

>>22789020
Conceptually, there is no difference. A corporation is just a term for organizations that are legally recognized by the state as an organization. That makes it subject to certain laws, give it certain rights, allows it, as an entity, to enter into certain contractual agreements, and has certain tax implications. In that sense, they’re the same. They differ in ways that are inessential to the concept. In the same way, the President of 1800 and President of 2020 are both Presidents, the specific attributes of the office and the person occupying it have changed in a way that doesn’t make it no longer the President. It’s the same for corporations.

>>22789265
I usually pick up a game or two every winter but otherwise don’t play.

>>22789270
I never had MW1 or 2 on the PC so I'd have to pay regardless.
But I'd like to be in an active game instead of running into the same small crowd of tryhards.
The remake got me hyped up. MW2 was such a fun time in my life. 15 years old and the entire class was gaming on the 360. Can't wait to play on the old maps again.
>>22789279
I used to play a lot but I'm fucking dry since January. Now I'm doing the boring healthy shit like hiking and working out. Fucking gay and lame.

my love wears forbidden colors (i'm gay)

>>22789292
You don't sodomize someone you love.

>>22789248
i can gives you ;life advice

>>22788810
Im cornering myself in life in so many ways.

>>22789300
i don't sodomize anyone anymore, i'm volcel
still gay, thoughbeit

>>22788810
I am 23 and I should enjoy life but I don't. Everything until now has been for the sole purpose of SOMEDAY. SOMEDAY I will enjoy life. And between now SOMEDAY, I need to do everything I can to get money and ensure everyone I love is taken care of. There will be no respite until SOMEDAY. I need to have a house to live with my loved ones and take care of them until they die. That's all I know and my sole purpose in this world. I have to do it alone, or find a way to involve only a small number of people because my friends have their own lives. Everything I am and everything I will be for the sole purpose of SOMEDAY. I will probably suffer my whole life as this is the only way SOMEDAY is attainable.

Some day, I will be at peace, rested, happy. I shouldn't think of the mounting struggles, I know, but they are coming anyways and I better be prepared.

smokin that muhfuckin water, call me the exxon valdez

>>22788810
I need help. I don't know when it started, but these days I've been seeing the world through an incredibly racialized lens, and I would like to revert to how I was. To provide some context, my strong interest in classical music (dominated by Germans) and philosophy (again, dominated by Germans), and various figures in Western civilization have led me to a kind of worship whiteness, even in individuals I see life who have done nothing to deserve credit for the accomplishments of 'their' great men. As someone who is non-white, who is full of racial self-hatred but would like to be proud of himself, this has become an agonizing curse which plagues me on a daily basis.

>>22789396
Seems like a weird view to have considering white people spent the last 3000 years fighting and killing each other. If you're an American with no real ties to your ancestry it might be easy to see white people as a monolithic group which temporarily fights among itself at the behest of some nefarious outsiders who incite division, but if you're French or German or whatever it's easy to see that the idea of a white-only nation is a fiction and that the color of someone's skin isn't nearly enough to tell you whether they share your values or not.

>>22789311
Thanks but I meant someone close to me IRL

>>22789020
Wtf is money?

>>22789354
>Some day, I will be at peace, rested, happy
Life never stops happening man. You have to take your peace and rest and happiness when you can.

>i teased a 17 year old girl in taking her to the nutcracker
>she didn't say no or object
>she sounded like she wanted to go on a date
>i'm 38
The fuck?

>>22789354
25 here. Got the money. Almost 200k a year and I'm fucking miserable. Used to have laser focus on figuring out how to make money when I was a neet at 21/22 and didn't do much outside of that. Always thought as soon as I am bringing in enough cash to sustain myself and maybe get my family out of some debt life would be good. Thought I'd somehow learn to enjoy life then. I like driving fast and I work out but there's really nothing else I enjoy. No real friends which doesn't help. But yea, once the "I can take care of myself and my loved ones" was achieved it just became emptier for me.

What's the last time you felt like you were intellectually moving forward & had your world view modified by some ideas?

>>22789468
t. jerry seinfeld

>>22789470
>I like driving fast
Kill yourself you fucking menace

I am going to conduct an experiment for the rest of december where I will be engaged in some type of active, concentrated mental effort during every waking minute and see what happens.

>>22789470
how did you make the money

>>22789501
Self teach code. Doesn't take an exceptionally bright person. Once you get a foot in the door you'll have the work ethic to catapult past your lazy and entitled peers.

>>22789487
:(

>>22789558
thank you for the reply. where do i start

>>22789396
"Whiteness" is an enormous meme
Modern racial conceptions date back to the 17th century or so when colonization was at its height and it was necessary to establish a fundamental "other" aspect to indigenous American/African/Southeast Asian populations. You should expand your cultural horizons more even if it's just to the rest of Western and Central Europe, if only because there's nothing more cringeworthy (or stereotypical) than a nonwhite wehraboo.

I'm a student and I need a job but I'm also depressed and anxious and don't want to overwhelm myself since I have to complete 7 courses by the summer to graduate. May just wallow in my room alone again for the winter

I really like the line
>in a perfect world men like me would not exist, but this is not a perfect world
But I feel like I can’t use it because it came from a shitpost video

I have those Costco dried mangos. Fuck work tomorrow, time to drink Vanilla Crown and watch old OVA with my dog.

>>22789643
Somewhat in the same position, I kept saying to myself “I’m going to start trading and make enough money to get by” but I never did it

>>22789676
use it anyway. just own it. ithe people who recognize the line will laugh and the people who don't will think it's kino. it's kino either way

>>22788821
Why is that pleasure guilty

>>22789643
>complete 7 courses by the summer to graduate.
You mean 7 courses in one semester? Are you including the semester you're currently taking?

>>22789396
Start a family. Until you do you are just a boy who hates himself. When you have people that rely on you like a wife and children you will run out of excuses to hate yourself because your family will need a solid oak tree to lean on and not a weak branch on with no roots. Any music or philosophy that speaks to the soul is universal on some level. Maybe the men who came up with them had white skin, but you certainly don't need that to appreciate the connection with the divine offered through such media.

>>22789354
Money cannot buy you the security your family feels when they have an oak tree to lean on which wavers amid no storm.

>>22789713
5 in the spring semester and 2 this winter

My great uncle wrote about his experiences in ww2 and it makes me sad nobody ever talks about his book
It’s “escape to Russia” by Howard Randolph Holder

>>22789573
It's purely a meme of jewish academia and history is a complete Jesuit fabrication. If anything happened like the history books says it did, we wouldn't be told about it.

>>22789739
Someone somewhere is talking about it. It sold out its first three printings.

>>22789558

I did that too but they only want related degree and two years of experience

>>22789396
Western civilization and Whites (ie, ethnic Europeans) are not the same thing. Western civilization is indeed worthy of admiration and study. Whites, not so much. Not that they are bad, but the things which are worth copying from Western civilization, like the Protestant work ethic, the philosophical tradition, the artistic skills, etc. are not at all bound by race.

In fact, if we look at the world today, it's quite apparent the mark of whiteness is becoming a form of "rejection of the West." The whitest people out there are the SJWs, who despise Western civilization. It's countries like China (ironically for a self-proclaimed civilization-state, it's built on a Western philosophy) which will carry the West forward.

>>22789735
Yeah man just focus on graduating but do realize the anxiety and depression wont go away without effort.

>Finish reading book.
>Enjoyed it.
>Find out some YouTuber did an hour-long video essay on it that has millions of views.
>Can't have conversations about the book because every person will be a pretentious circle-jerker who thinks they know everything about it because they watched a video essay about it.
>Sigh.
Damn, bros, thought I was in the clear.

>>22789775
Work for a tiny startup while learning. Even if its unpaid. Get them to give you a title. Lets you have something on your resume. It also provides the opportunity to get some mentorship if they have other more senior devs.

Also, have dope projects on your resume. Build some nerdy shit like compilers or small operating systems. There are great resources for both of these online and are more approachable than you might imagine if you haven't done it before.

It took me a couple months to get my first offer, but I got to final rounds several times within those two months. Maybe I'm disconnected from what its like right now but I ran interviews for a fairly large company within the last couple of years and absolutely do not reject people for their lack of a degree.

Someone tell me how to fucking meet people. The do hobbies thing is a meme and doesn't work. I'm not even that socially retarded how do people do this

>>22789811
you don't

>>22789811
Talk to strangers

>>22789811
The "go to the bar" thing is also a meme, people are either there to be alone or they're there with a group of friends and they don't want to be interrupted. Of course you'll have a few retards on here being like "but I made a friend at the bar" but they're just edge cases.

I love God!

I can't resist the urge to meet up with escorts. I'm getting married soon. The cognitive dissonance is real

There's a lemon meringue cheesecake in my fridge and its best before date is today, I just ate a slice and I have to go mow a lawn later and it's super fucking hot outside, let's hope this doesn't bite me in the ass.

>>22789827
I live in a college town / city and they're all there with friends. I'm in roughly the same age bracket but I can't just inject myself into a group of people. KMS

>>22789851
that reminds me i still have some greek gods yogurt in my fridge that is like 3 or 4 days past the best by date. ima finish it tonight.

>>22789872
so take some classes at the college duh unless it's like some super expensive liberal arts college in vermont or sth

>>22789875
I don't know if that's a good idea but godspeed, anon.

>>22789880
it smells ok and tastes ok. i saw a thing in one of those neolib mags like the atlantic or the economist or sth where there's like a movement to get those "best by" dates cancelled cuz they cause so much perfectly good food to get wasted.

>>22788810
All politics is self serving, ladder climbing which only exists to retain power. This is a very Stirnerist novel if taken to its logical conclusion.

>>22789472
when learning about yockey and imperium
also von ungern sternberg
actually shot out to Spartan(some number) History youtube channel
he mkes great videos about forgotten edgy historical figures

I watched cyberpunk edge runners and I really liked the theme of “dying for another person’s dream”. Are there any books that explore something similar to this?

>>22789802
is that book blood meridian?

>>22789944
Is it a willing victim or not? If not, start with Iphigenia

>>22789949
No, it's No Longer Human.

>>22789956
More so getting tricked into following another persons dream and thinking of it as your own

i'm bored. what should i do

>>22789976
play games

These coming days may be the more painful and sad or happy days of my life so far. Probably more of the former. I just want to have enough strength to keep going, I just want to be calm for a second since it's been a terrible year.

>>22789968
Like a Macbeth thing?

>>22789993
that was my plan. i decided to play portal 1 and i finished it in one sitting (it's only like three hours long). it left me with a lingering feeling of emptiness. maybe i will finish my planescape torment playthrough... i think this boredom is more powerful than usual

>>22789998
Yea like that

I just got new headphones and they have an ambient noise setting and it's freaking me the fuck out, every little noise is making me jump, lol, I'm gonna turn it off.

From the moment I leave my front door, judging eyes fall upon my corpulent self. They receive a reminder, stronger than their sulfuric breath, to take their ozempic. The morning breeze carries thin hairs from the unkempt remains of my hair. My neighbor decides to continue finasteride. With strange movements of my arms and legs, I go forward into the day, wrinkly pants spilling over my scuffed shoes, moth-eaten pants that are precariously held by a crumbling belt. As I near the town center, familiar faces shift to strangers. Mothers speak to their children in hushed tones at the edge of my vision. Nobody knows who I am, but they all know what I am. I am what they must not be.

>>22790007
I live in Chicago so I’ll never get that shit, I need to know if someone breaks in or not
Maybe if I lived in Singapore I would use them

I don't even have energy to complain about how shit my life is right now. You know what? My health is not that bad and my family loves still for some reason. Life is not over, fuck university and fuck this field I'll somehow do something else, yeah I'm too dumb for this shit and wasted my time so what

>>22789993
I already played every game ever made.

>>22790005
The Pearl by Steinbeck? It's pretty short but probably most of the elements you're looking for

>>22790002
play far cry 4

>>22790022
do i need to play the first 3 first or is it like a standalone story?

Does my cat know that she's a very good girl?

>>22790014
Jumpy honky

>>22790014
I live in a shitty suburb in Australia. They also have noise-cancelling but I don't use that mode unless I'm watching a movie.

>>22790018
I’ll give it a read, appreciate it anon
>>22790024
They are stand alone stories but don’t expect anything spectacular

Maybe I should do a master’s in economics

>>22790024
They're all standalone stories but the formula of the games are the same every single time.

Sitting in church listening to the sermon and muttering "based" to myself every couple of minutes

>>22790033
I've been thinking of the same thing because my current degree that I'm about to finish is shit and it would be too humiliating to go through life with that alone

Apparently you're not supposed to shampoo your hair everyday. Let the natural hair oil do its work on you. So I'm gonna try to wash my hair with shampoo only once or twice a week till next December. It still feels weird though, not shampooing.

>>22788810
Pussy

I'm starting to notice that basically all thought systems, ideologies, and religions start out "pure" and then get corrupted and simplified by the masses to fit their own ends. Like all of the downsides I associate with Christianity or Islam or current Leftism or w/e aren't inherent to those ideologies, they were just tacked on by the less intelligent followers who came later. Don't assume you understand any ideology just because some adherent to that ideology is retarded. What you're dealing with is just a retarded dogmatist, and every ideology has no shortage of them.

>>22790058
What is it?

>>22790064
Fuck you

>>22790072
it's because ideologies drift like languages drift. sure just like prescriptive grammarians keep trying to get you to stop saying "hopefully" there are purists who try to keep it the same but it never stays the same and often the way the purists think it was it actually wasn't and they are just changing it in a different way.

>>22790082
English

>>22790064
Same, man. Feeling horny but I don't really want to jerk off. Hasn't been that satisfying lately,

>>22790096
Not OP but I jerked off twice yesterday, really want to right now but someone is meant to be coming over soon and I don't want to be mid jerk when they arrive. My dick also feels a bit worn out but I can power through that.

Every single Vietnamese girl that I've come across on dating apps has been looking for sex, why are Vietnamese girls so horny?

>>22790064
Bitch

>>22790105
Same with my I've been super horny these past 2 days but my dick hurts. May have to stop jacking for a while to recharge

>>22790094
I thought for sure you were going to say something totally ridiculous like organizational change or peace studies. I really don’t think that’s remotely embarrassing. Anyway, are you sure you have the math prerequisites to do a master’s in economics? You’d probably need up to intermediate statistics and calculus at least.

>>22789428
Where do profits come from?

>>22790140
I don't have them, but I could do them over the summer in community college and then transfer the credits. I'm not set on my decision though, I have good networking so I could definitely find a job but I just feel a personal lack of accomplishment

>>22790072
Spengler thought that great religions and politics arise out of cultures as a consequence of something like the waking subconscious. It’s almost instinct. It’s the same instinct that erects grand architectural styles and writes great poetry. He thought that through the life of a civilization, ideas are plucked from the organic tree and transformed into something sterile and rationalistic and that they never amount to anything more than a bad attempt at the old justification by faith anyway.

Reading John Ruskin's stuff. Really depressing. He was a great man who foresaw the horrors of the modern age but couldn't do anything about it. He's mostly irrelevant today because he was so distant from the prevailing orthodoxies of our time. Even in his own lifetime he was deemed a socialist and a reactionary simultaneously. But I just get a sense of sorrow reading his memoirs and final lectures about how the earth will be destroyed by industrialism.

>>22790154
I would try to take them at the university you plan to do your MA since you’ll need not only the credits but the confidence of the program that you can handle the math.

FWIW I really don’t see English as a humiliating degree and I would not advise you to switch to economics unless you were very passionate about it or had a very pragmatic reason

>>22790158
Ruskin is interesting because he, like Carlyle who was also loved by the Nazis, were critics of the same thing but unlike Carlyle, he wasn’t so obviously reactionary about it. I think the other interesting thing about Ruskin is that he didn’t really “get it”. He had impressive foresight but he was also a man of his age. Don’t you find in him that artificial flavorings that are romanticism and naturalism?

>>22789964
What did you like about it? It was so shit to me, no remarkable insights, poor portrayal of depression, such juvenile angst disallowing me to have empathy for their 'suffering'. I guess I'll watch the eceleb, he is usually ok.

>>22790170
This is where I fall flat because I don't actually know why I like things, I just know that I like them.

I seem to be going up in size with my phimosis rings but my foreskin doesn't seem to be getting any stretchier.

Alcoholism is not a disease. Organizations like AA are terrorists

>>22790072
Christianity, Islam, and Judaism were all trash from the very beginning and never produced a single beautiful thing in the entirety of their cultural legacies.

>>22790192
t. beer tycoon

>>22790166
I do think a lot of his tendencies haven't aged well, I'm more touched by his sincerity. Lots of great wisdom from him and his internal struggles resonate with me greatly. I feel the same about Tolstoy. His politics and Christianity were silly but his heart was full and his struggles are just really poignant for some reason. It matters less to me what they personally identified with and more how they saw the world and shared wisdom to aid the future generations. That is what a writer should do.

>>22790192
I think organisations like AA are bad because they use religion.

>>22790192
t. Alcoholic

>>22790205
Well, he sure shared his wisdom with future generations. The Nazis considered him one of the two first national socialists.

>>22790176
Cmon anon, try, what do you have to lose? It's anonymous. Even if all you can come up with is 'it had a cool aesthetic', you will only learn to express your opinions better if you start to try and articulate them. Protip: most of the time you only realise how you actually feel about something once you have said it.

>>22790192
>a disorder of structure or function in a human, animal, or plant, especially one that has a known cause and a distinctive group of symptoms, signs, oranatomicalchanges.
Yep

>a particular quality or disposition regarded as adversely affecting a person or group of people.
Also yep

There sits great Aneas…

>>22790217
They cared for Carlyle much more than Ruskin who doesn’t mesh with Nazi ideology at all. Their appropriation of him was silly. Carlyle was a true reactionary though and it’s not surprising that intellectuals and institutions have actively tried to ignore him despite being such a dominant person in the 19th century. There is goodness in Ruskin’s heart that isn’t there with Carlyle

>>22789237
I was in hospital when I was 17 too, though I was too young to be admitted to the adult psychiatric ward. Though at 19 I was in again and this time being old enough I was admitted to the psychiatric ward, apparently I'd being catatonic for a few weeks. I remember being in the visitors room with my parents, they asked me how long I'd thought I'd been on the ward, I said a couple of days maybe and they then told me it was closer to three weeks.

>Still didn’t let everything slip
I've been there, how I didn't reveal myself is beyond me, I did to some extent at least but not completely. Now I'm living with the consequences of not having talked about something that troubled me to the core, and maybe it wasn't a singular thing but multiple, though the one I consciously knew of I could not reveal. If I struggled to talk about depression, isolation, anxiety and low self esteem, talking about that would have been impossible.

Years later, after failing to stop myself despite trying, I got found out. Now I wonder would things of being better if I'd talked about the impossible back then.

>>22790238
>adversely affecting
Stopped reading right there, alcohol has no negatives only positives.

I have a cool idea for a thread tomorrow. I hope you all participate

>>22790281
I'm not good at participating as a very asocial person.

>>22790281
I can't wait, tell me now.

descriptavists are cowards.

>>22790232
I genuinely don't know. I just put a lot of thought into it and I still can't tell you why. I'm like this with everything though, Fight Club is my favourite movie but I couldn't tell you why.

I don't know why I care anymore, it's not gonna happen, none of it is ever gonna happen, I will never achieve my dreams, they're just gonna stay exactly that, dreams.

>>22790314
That's a good thing. Use that.

>>22789487
I do too, but only where appropriate or conditions allow. My car can easily make it to 140, but my tires are rated only to 120, and 95 is the max I'm willing to take it for fun. It's a 20 year old luxury sedan, and I can't hear the engine from 50 to 80. Above that it gets kind of interesting on rural interstates. You can hear it hum as the tach, at last, is let rip a little above 2500 rpm. But it's the suspension in the old gal that I really appreciate. Cunts in their big fat pickups & SUVs, and cops going by, have never had an ass or ears so pampered by a motor vehicle that's on the ground. Someday I'd like to let the bitch really open up.

>>22790318
I'm gonna use it to give me more motivation to stay down and never try.

>>22790335
My dream is to have a girl hold my hand. Do you think I give up just because I haven't touched a girl other than family in the 31 years of my life? No, I don't give up. I'll never achieve it because it's like winning the lottery, but I still blow out the candles and make the wish every single year, every day I wish it, I never give up wishing, never will till the day I die all alone in the street like a pathetic lost kitten looking for its mother in a dangerous highway, but I never give up throwing those pennies in that wishing well.

>>22790349
Holding a girl's hand is easy, you could go around asking girls on the street and one of them would do it. My dreams are unrealistic but I refuse to think small because that's boring and unsatisfying.

>>22790356
If it was that easy, then I would've done it already. My dream is something I've had since I was like 10, and it's what I think of constantly, but it's too hard to talk to girls because when I try to open my mouth I freeze and make weird noises, and they get scared of me.

>>22790362
5-year-olds do it, surely you can.

>>22790377
I'll get a sexual harassment charge. I just have to keep wishing for it. I'll never give up my wish.

>>22790314
nothing will ever change if you stay idle and don't do anything

I can understand why people believe in every religion except Mormonism.

>>22790379
Better than any wish would be to go to the places where you can meet women. Make conversation with them and go from there. Because if all you ever do is wish, you'll be wishing for the rest of your life.

>>22790389
I already understand what you're saying. It's not that simple. Basically what I need is divine intervention. Only a wish is good for that because it's like having schizophrenia. There's nothing I can do to fix myself.

>>22790397
>There's nothing I can do to fix myself.
This is not true.

Go research exposure therapy and then make a plan to try it out.

>>22790381
Nothing will change if I put in the effort, my dreams are too unrealistic.

>>22790379
Bro, I'm a fucking retard with women, seriously, it's bad, but even I've held one's hand.

>>22790314
What are your dreams, exactly? Life is full of surprises, and some them exceed my dreams to a considerable degree.

>>22790409
I'm sure I'm worse. I have bad autism to the point of still being dependent on my parents, and I haven't even had friends since elementary school.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQlIhraqL7o

>>22790349
>My dream is to have a girl hold my hand.
I did that before 12. Don't even ask what I did between 30 and 40.

>>22790417
You are indeed worse than me, damn.

>>22790415
One of them for example would be owning a really nice house in Cannon Beach, Oregon. This is not possible however because I'm a high school dropout (I'm retarded) and I'm not even American.

>>22790439
desire is the root of suffering

>>22790446
What else is there if not desire?

>>22790449
Desire is usually used to refer to what you want from the world, there is also wanting to give to the world. I know that could be called a desire too but in general usage it's different, focusing on the latter is the root to alleviating your own suffering.

>>22790457
I don't give a shit about giving anything to the world.

>>22790439
I'd like to live in Winnetka IL, but to be honest It's pretty sweet where I live too. The most recent arrivals of my ancestors got here a century ago. My mom's side of the family. On my dad's it goes so far back that one of them is a global brand name, another was a founder of a pharmaceutical company, and another was a Senate Republican Majority leader.

>>22790407
start with something more realistic then and then go higher

At this point I think I'd be willing to kill a man if it meant receiving sincere physical affection from someone who isn't a family member.

>>22790460
Enjoy hell

>>22790492
Neither of us has proof of its existence so I don't care.

>>22790484
That's boring and it gives me no satisfaction.

>>22790500
you are too pessimistic, need to change that

>>22790497
I never said it exists, but it is a useful descriptor for what someone with that outlook experiences. I've been there and I would say it's hell so yes I have proof for the concept of hell in the metaphorical sense.

>>22790502
I don't believe it can be done until I get what I want because that will make me happy and optimistic, until I get what I want, I will continue to do pessimistic.
>>22790505
>I have proof for the concept of hell in the metaphorical sense.
This means nothing.

>>22790508
>This means nothing.
Why not? Hell is usually just a metaphor for a state of intense suffering due to your own poor choices and rejection of the world and its 'rules'. I can attest to the possibility of getting into such a state since i got there, I can't convey my proof but I do have proof if only for myself. I'm sure you are smart enough that one day you will see how much selfishness and rejection of the world only makes things worse for you.

>>22790515
Having proof of a concept means nothing because it is ultimately nothing.

enjoying my mild hangover somewhat but am ready for it to be gone. i'm old now and cannot handle it as i did in years gone by. furthermore i'm bored of alcohol now. not that i drink all that much to feel like i NEED to cut down but i think it's time to come to terms with the fact that it just ain't doing it for me no mo. it's a little sad in a sense because it used to fucking rule.

It's painful to see how everyone else views weed as completely normal and yet I have never so much as seen the stuff in my life
I would try it in a heartbeat but I haven't the faintest idea how to do so

The days of having a core group of friends that are only friends with one another are long gone, everyone has multiple friend groups nowadays, your friends have friends that you're never gonna meet.

>>22790552
come to Oregon

>>22790559
The outer layer of an onion only meets the inner layer through force.

The heat death of the universe and that nothing matters, though I can't calculate the time difference so I live like nothing matters and, it's paralyzing.

Also; I might fuck my mate mother tonight.

They took me back to a jail that was worse thân anything on Earth. There were big guys with tattoos whó beat me up every hour, and all they gave me to eat was moldy poop with dēad spiders in it.

John Coltrane is the GOAT

there's this meme on /mu/ which suggests that if a musician is born into money, their music can be dismissed.
there is an implication here -- that suffering is necessary for one to create something truly beautiful. one who hasn't suffered can only create art that pretends to be beautiful. suffering and sovl are said to be mutually inclusive.

what do you anons think? is it true?

>>22790586
I have less respect for nepo babies than I do for people that had to work for their success but I'm not gonna discount a nepo baby's work if it's good just because of the family they were born into.

>>22790586
Every mortal suffers.

>>22790602
Eh. Do you think a sociopath born into a mega-wealthy family could ever suffer? I only mention that they're a sociopath cause if I didn't then you could say "Well they're going to suffer when a loved one dies" which is a valid argument but a sociopath isn't gonna care about that.

I finished another book today. Should my next one be off my mum's bookshelf or a PDF that I downloaded?

>>22790586
It's more about showing that you can establish an audience purely through the work (speaking for itself) rather than artificially creating the audience the advertising.

>>22790565
Read The Heat Death of the Universe short story

>>22789900
I just looked it up and apparently, the best before dates on food indicate when the quality of the food starts to deteriorate, not when it becomes unsafe to eat.

>>22790013
kino

Sorry mom I'm busy loser-maxxing

if god real he should let me win the eurojackpot

I get bored with situations pretty fast.
Last year I moved very far away, got a new job etc but I'm already bored. Made promotion after just a few months, totally new function. Already bored.
Got a gf a few months back after being single for years. Not bored but it's just regular now.
I'm sure if I do something else huge like buying a house or starting a family it'll get boring pretty fast as well.
That's life I guess.

>>22790086
It is all I think about and I'm not sorry

>>22790096
Flashlights are amazing

>>22790114
Stop

>>22790704
You're going to give yourself ED like no one ever had.
Seriously, stop jacking off to porn.

>>22790096
Yeah I had a fleshlight and I used it every single time I jerked off and I would always rinse it afterwards but I also would leave it to air dry in my bathroom which was not good and it got moldy, super moldy, and I didn't notice at first so I don't know how many times I used a moldy fleshlight without knowing but even after I noticed I couldn't stop using it but eventually I decided to throw it away. I had the stamina training unit and it was so good. Next time I'll leave it to dry by my space heater so that mold can't grow in it

>>22790569
Dang, not even fresh poop?

>>22790707
You don't scare me

>3:39AM
>making victorian giantess porn in ai image generator
>work in 4 hours

>>22790749
Don't leave us with our dicks in our hands, post it in /aco/.

I’m extremely disappointed.

>>22790586
No. It’s just a matter of probabilities. Trust fund kids, especially those who’s parents weren’t musicians, are more likely to just be dabbling and not serious than those who had to choose music at the expense of security and really work hard at it.

I was doing really well a five years ago and in the five years since, my life has just tumbled and gotten worse in every single way. In every aspect my life is much worse than it was five years ago. I’m actually embarassed of myself and my life.

I'm stupid, but the majority of people I meet are way fucking stupider than me.
Mankind is fucking stupid.

>>22790786
ya that's the worst realization. first, you're like "damn i'm fucking stupid", then you're like "damn, these guys are even more stupid than me". that's why your parents said to get a good education. not so you can make a lot of money, but so you can work with people who are actually smart and not utterly generic npcs.

There was a quote I found from a German philologist once that describes hell as a place of constant, eternal becoming -- a world made up of arbitrary ceaseless loops.
During my day to day life, this quote comes to mind constantly.

Each day, I boot up the same online games, enter WWOYM threads, and doom-scroll my youtube feed. Not because I enjoy it, but because the "randomness" of the content allows me to trick myself into believing it's changing. Really, nothing here is changing. Nobody in WWOYM threads even says anything deep, they just talk about how horny they are. But you have this illusion of change which keeps you chasing the carrot. "Maybe this time it'll be different."

Sometimes I feel like a lolcow, or a barnyard animal just munching at the grass with its stupid empty face. Yet now and then I get these moments of self-awareness. But how, man. How do you escape the loops? I don't really know

>>22790808
My daily routine has been the same for coming up on 5 years, it doesn't make me feel good but the alternatives will make me feel worse.

>>22790808
You don't.
Best you can do is switch loops.
Mine used to be like yours. Then I switched to a wagie loop. Then I added drugs for a wagie drug loop. Now I chose the wagie healthy hobbies loop. More recently I'm in a manager loop which is starting to get boring.
Let go of the idea of overcoming the loop, you can't.

>>22790808
I think you can relatively easy break cycles by replacing them with new cycles over the course of years. A new job and a new living arrangement, for example, can create a cycle that’s different from the one you were stuck in before.

I just wanna be able to live by myself but housing is too expensive here. Sigh.

>>22790883
Become a rentoid

>>22790886
That's what I'm saying, it's too expensive here.

I kind of want to murder this guy sitting across from me.
He takes a big bite out of his sandwich and then immediately takes a big gulp of tea with it.
Fucking disgusting animal. Literally drinking his bread. vile

>>22788810
>picrel
John Atkinson Grimshaw is brilliant, one of my favourite artists

I want to go to graduate school to study theology, but I’m worried that I’m too old and don’t have the right background for that to work out in the end.

Nobody is hiring, and not having a licence doesn't help either "WeLl ThEn GeT a LiCeNcE" Yeah, I could, I need a job now though and a licence that would allow me to drive by myself would take a year.

>>22790948
You've posted this before, get help. Wet bread is nice, I often dip some bread into my soups.

>>22790961
How could something like that not be on my mind when I see it happening?
Dipping bread in soup is different. Would you dip your bread in tea? Doubt it.

I just don’t know what to do…

>>22790986
I will decide for you. Tell me your options and your biggest strength and weakness.

>>22790986
start with the greeks

>>22790976
If I knew this about you IRL I would intentionally do it to wind you up. It's funny how mad you are about some guy drinking wet bread.
>Fucking disgusting animal
>vile
Lololol

>>22790992
I wipe snot on his seat when he's gone.

i don't understand people who scream with excitement at concerts/live events, but it's nice that they do (for the performers)

>>22790996
Based, I kneel.

>>22790704
>>22790713
I've been interested in getting a fleshlight for awhile now, but the ones that look like actual pussies or whatever are really off-putting to me

>>22791009
They're great

>>22791012
process and reality just outside the frame, i assume?

>>22791017

>>22790990
I just need to do something with my life and career. A shitty day job that lets me write isn’t cutting it.

>>22791009
I'm not sure why, that's not how I personally feel about them. I personally like that the pink flesh lights have vulvas and everything, I like how it feels when I slide inside. But there are different openings for everyone, like mouths or anal or even just a plain circular hole. They definitely feel very good. Especially with the lube from the website, but I'm not rich so I just spit in it lol

>>22791026
the west has risen

Dude, women are such a nightmare to work with. They love to just focus way too much on processes and they just don’t fucking listen. They think everything is just a matter of doing paperwork.

>>22789846
Just fap bro.
Also get tested.

>got new discount soundbar
>go through much trouble and hardship to get it home using bicycle
>putter around the house a bit doing whatever
>now feel no desire to actually set up the sound bar
I will do it after a nap, fuck this shit bro.

Any good books about hussars? Does War and Peace have sections on them?

>>22790435
I'm asking

>>22789851
>>22789875
>>22789880
>>22790632
> he believes the best-before-date joo

>>22790986
LIKE A SUMMER ROSE NEEDS THE WIND AND RAIN

>>22790948
>>22790976
I've never met you, but already know we wouldn't be friends together

We live in a judocracy.

>>22790349
For me, its a hug from a pretty girl. I don't see it realistically ever happening.

>>22791201
>got a soundbar home using a bike
congrats hope your suspension's alright

>>22790606
They probably suffer from boredom.

>>22791250
*taekwandocracy

>>22791250
The Jews are one of the oldest families of the planet. They were worn out before the Celts. It is only through an illusion that people think they are dominated by them, and if you are, that's really pathetic.

Attended the third funeral this year today. Life is just constant anhedonia, confusion and regret. No religion or philosophy has any real answers. I resent this life, inhabiting this body and dealing with fucking emotions. Absurdism is the closest I can get to finding comfort in this corporeal madhouse.

>>22791264
>Absurdism
You could always join the I need a hug and handhold club above.

>>22791249
Go drink some bread you baby

>>22791279
You don't know what real taste is

y:all mfers going to make me hungry for churros

>>22791283
Actually I do.
It's the watering down of the bread that takes away its taste.

>>22791291
No, the watering down adds the the taste of coffee or tea to the whole but I knew you wouldn't get it

>>22791297
*hot chocolate

>>22791297
finna blend a fresh loaf with some darjeeling later and chug it while thinking of u bb xoxo

>>22788852
good question, I don't have an answer, you should ask in a Bible thread when one pops up, or just make one. sounds like the type of thing you're asking for could be a really good resource.

>>22789116
thnx

>>22788852
Some bible editions have them and a lot of bible study guides include them, but if you're happy without a physical one there's a set here

https://www.esv.org/resources/esv-global-study-bible/article-back-maps/

That marks out probable locations and routes (probable because we don't know for certain the location or name of some places referred to in the bible)

>>22791250
we live in a Philipinocracy

drinking again

>>22790072
>I'm 22 and I'm so smart I understand all the religions!

you are an idiot who has barely scratched the surface at the principles of each religion and how it transforms its followers. yes, different religions and "ideologies" create different people. its also not the tendency of normies to game the systems, its usually the more intelligent (cunning) members who are prone to undermining but that's besides the point. you are thinking with the hubris of a 21 century mind that abstracts quickly because fundamentally he does not believe in truth.

>>22790195

>>22790314
start with a smaller dreams then, mortal

Need some black girl magic in me life tbdesu

>>22790697
God bless you, just don't get bored

>>22790679
Sorry, he already promised the win to me.

It’s like impossible to salvage your working life if you graduate with a middling major, from a middling school, with terrible grades. I paid all that money and I may as well have just went to really shitty public college. I literally work with people who did. So what was the point?

>>22791390
>tbdesu
>Hamlet got to the dark lady sonnets
Hide your women hide your kids

>>22790314
You know as well as I do that the dream will never go away and you’ll never dream another dream so you may as well get after it with all you’ve got, even if it ends in abject failure and depression.

>>22790207
Yes, it's just the other way around as far as "using" is concerned, always has been.

Working this many hours should be illegal. Not that this place would ever comply with labor laws...

>>22791398
Wat

>>22791012
Hegel.

>>22791395
bugger. next time then. enjoy your gorillions

>>22791417
127-152
>In the old age black was not counted fair,
>Or if it were, it bore not beauty’s name;
>But now is black beauty’s successive heir,
>And beauty slander’d with a bastard shame:
>For since each hand hath put on nature’s power,
>Fairing the foul with art’s false borrow’d face,
>Sweet beauty hath no name, no holy bower,
>But is profan’d, if not lives in disgrace.
>Therefore my mistress’ eyes are raven black,
>Her eyes so suited, and they mourners seem
>At such who, not born fair, no beauty lack,
>Slandering creation with a false esteem:
>Yet so they mourn, becoming of their woe,
>That every tongue says beauty should look so.

>>22790990
I wouldn't be able to write anything more depressing, ever.

>>22791458
ESL?

I hate overly friendly people, I hate loud music, I don't care for spicy food, and yet, someone thought it would be funny to put me in Mexico.

>>22791488
That's pretty funny, hitlerdubsbro

>>22791480
what gave me away?

>>22791443
Kewl, thanks

>>22791488
great opening line to the novel you're gonna write, anon

>>22791488
In the US if you don't like mexican food everyone will think you're nuts

Groundhogging while eating this Chinese food.

New policy: if you start talking through me twice I'm hanging up the phone

One of the more depressing things about discourse right now is the stance that a lot of older conservatives have taken in regard to the competency crisis and the distrust in basically everyone among younger people that it’s simply the result of education and their own failures to educate “the way things really are”. But it’s not the case that young people distrust everyone because they know LESS than their parents did at their age. It’s because they know MORE, including all the ways their parents got it catastrophically wrong or fell asleep at the wheel. How can you grow up, for example, in a town that for your parents was idyllic but for you was an immigrant-run den of drugs with no jobs or opportunity, which the reality for many young Americans, and trust that your parents have any idea what they’re talking about? You can’t, obviously. So it’s questionable whether these older generations are really even knowledgeable of competent at all, but more importantly, they almost universally fail to understand that technical competence and professional success don’t make for a good and virtuous person. When you talk to young people, you get the sense that they have quite literally nobody to look up to. There is no one in their life or in the public eye who they believe is an admirable and noble person. Not one person. There’s not a single person they would aspire to be like. That is a tragedy never before seen in history. And it’s the singular cause of distrust.

Anyway, what do you think of people who quit their jobs or quit school to do nothing but write for a year? Bad idea? Good idea? Assume they have a chunk of cash to sustain them for a year or so, but no more.

Don DeLillo is the only person I’m aware of who was successful in doing this.

>>22791641
hey that's me
only i was fired
and it's been 12 years
and i've only written ~3000 words
but other than that i'm like don delillo yeah

>>22791641
I envy them.

>>22791634
>So it’s questionable whether these older generations are really even knowledgeable of competent at all
Don't be too harsh on the old folks. True knowledge only comes from experience, and the pool of experience that boomers are drawing from is quite literally 30+ years old. There's never been a time in history where social conditions changed so rapidly, fuck man there's a planet of difference between early & late gen Z alone.

>When you talk to young people, you get the sense that they have quite literally nobody to look up to.
Yeah. I'm not much a fan of Roman values but I admit the way they heralded men with strong character was excellent. You never see people in the media now that are like, fuck what a great human being, it's just pretty faces

>>22788810
Why do I dislike people so much? Why do I hate so much going outside? I don't care about outside or other people but at the same time I need to know why I feel this way. Is it their inane conversations? The empty sense of humor perhaps. Or is it the general ignorance, a trademark of this age? I am not superior. I am one of them.

>>22791755
I feel superior to them

I dont feel so good lately.

>>22791802
that's ok, i feel pretty good. i'll feel good enough for both of us!

>>22791488
hmm. but do you, perhaps, like torture and beheadings and living under a government that's entirely under the thumb of some of the most savage and degenerate criminals that walk the earth? do you maybe like cursed Aztec blood coursing through the veins of your people? that could explain it.

>>22791755
You probably don't like yourself that much either.

>>22791488
Amazing digits, mein Fuhrer. Also, it is crazy to me that Mexicans can talk normal. I instinctively assume all Mexicans are like jolly little goblins with 60 IQ.

>>22791369
I would be willing to consider Philipinos one of the 4 confirmed master races of the Earth

I'm finally done with Witcher 1 and 2 on hardest mode, full Scoiaʼtael path. Didn't read any book during that because the story was so fucking dense in both these games. Now that I'll be playing Witcher 3 I'm going to my daily reading sessions and then reward myself with this comfy game. Next year I'll be probably re-reading Witcher books again cause Sapkowski announced releasing new book then, so next year I'm going full Order and Roche path.

>>22791932
>new book
what its going to be about?

>>22791874
After... after Jews, Germanics and nogs?

next
>>22792031

>>22791934
Most likely some kind of spin-off like Season of Storms

>>22790625
https://projectmyopia.com/the-heat-death-of-the-universe/

This?