/lit/ - Literature

I've been crying all day.

You have no concept that encapsulates this barbarian invasion.

>>22579079
>t. can't handle hot chip

MY MOTHER WAS A WITCH
SHE WAS BURNT ALIVE

>first time fucking a girl and it feels too good so you cum in her and she calls you a pig

I am voluntarily celibate. A woman once was deeply infatuated with me. I told her that I was voluntarily celibate. I explained that I couldn't untangle my sexuality from my violent impulses. She wished me happy new years by kissing me on the lips.

I think I'm starting to get it. You can't separate the world-historical from the idea, you can't separate the subject from the object, when someone thinks it's not just a magic thinking field encircling an object, the thought IS the thinker and everything to the contrary is an elaborate illusion. A movement, a philosophy, an idea isn't a grouping of thoughts happening to touch the physical world from some realm of thought beyond, it's not happening in some "other" realm we only happen to touch from ours through the powers of thinking or whatever, the idea does not exist without its foundation in the world, in history, in its thinker, in the time and place it is thought.
I haven't thought past this point yet because every time I do I start getting a headache and this weird pressure in my temples.

>>22579105

Is she still alive..?

>>22579097
>>22579105
>anon is lost in the sauce

>>22579107
This is good so far. If you go off the rails, that Bronstein ''A does not equal A'' nonsense is not far off. You might want to look at that and make sure that you avoid that pitfall by defining it earlier rather than later.

I've cried more tonight than I have in years. Weeping as silent as I could so no one could hear me. I don't know why either, I think I just broke after all the stress and regret in my life I've built up during my college years. then i bought a new book on abebooks

>>22579126
Can you elaborate a little? If I continue down this path am I risking thinking myself into a corner somehow?

>>22579128
Have you tried not being a bitch?

>>22579128
Boy troubles? Get in some pajamas and make hot cocoa.

>>22579107

Let me give you one path you must be aware of: Memetic entities. A computer virus is not quite alive, but in a sense, it seeks to conquer and multiply itself. Up the complexity of the order of information, and increase the complexity of the host.

Instead of a bunch of mere code to infect a mere computer, imagine a spiritually beautiful idea meant to infect a human mind. And then conquer it and multiply to others.

This might not seem directly relevant to what you just said, so don't obsess over it. Just ponder it lightly, and let these ideas skip over the calm water of your mind. Just ponder: Is a genetic code the same as a memetic code? Is there life within a book? Can some of these beings be evil? But also some good?

The entities themselves, egregore? Tulpa? Mind-virus? Memetic-life-form? They require a host. A book unread is naught but dead-wood-pulp.

But read it and let the information enter into your brain, and from there, your active, metaphysical mind, and see what comes about.

>>22579083
Nice, Diamond Head

>>22579109
Yes.

>>22579110
I'm not even that guy.

>>22579130
>If I continue down this path am I risking thinking myself into a corner somehow?
Firstly, how much further does this need to go? Is this not enough? Are you trying to get anywhere other than objective truth by analyzing known subjective narratives? Regardless, here is Bronstein -

>>22579153
and also the rebuttal -

>>22579153
>Firstly, how much further does this need to go?
Until I understand as much of the final truth as I'm capable of understanding, I guess.
What is that final truth? No idea, but I'll know it when I see it or when it's uncovered through dialectic or direct vision.

>>22579126
A does not equal A is as false as saying A equals A.

>>22579145
>I'm not even that guy.
Doesn't change the fact that you are lost in the sauce.

>>22579161
What are your thoughts on the images?
>>22579153
>>22579158

>>22579132
Yes and it didn't work

>>22579184
(I am a different anon.)

A = A is a question that is not meant for philosophy, nor mathematics.

Let me introduce you to The Machine Intelligence.

Variables in programming are not the same as a variable in mathematics, for in math, the traditional sense of math, a single equation that is not being processed; the variables are harshly static. Try as you might, it is extremely hard to be Turing Complete with mere paper and pen.

No, you will need a programming language to do this sort of "Math Moving Through Real Time."

Thus, when A = A, we must read this as a programming variable, and in this case, we will also require an algorithm that utilizes that variable and does something to it.

Any algorithm will be written to utilize at least some aspect of CRUD.

Create.
Read.
Update.
Delete.

That is how a database sees things, and with that in mind, we are now dealing with A as a moving, living variable, rather than a static variable. We can now modify the value of A depending on what is happening around it.

Thus, A = A at this break in the code; at this point in time. But let the code run a bit more, and suddenly A = B, and due to the computations, this is still absolutely valid; no, NECESSARY.

An infinite loop is naught but mind-death to a computer, just as it also requires the chips to process data in linear time. We must let the code run, and thus the variables will change over time in line with the algorithm of life itself.

>The teacher takes a huge breath, finally finished, and then nods, happy to have explained things in hopefully a clear way. "Whew, but remember to think for yourself on all this, and ponder deeply the true wisdom of my words. I'll be happy to hear your thoughts on this, and indeed, I hope you all get an A."

I'm listening to the new Arghoslent and it's fuckin great so far

>>22579067
I wish I didn't have a sexual impulse

>>22579184
Definitions of A, is, and equal can be different, but also the method of determining what is A. A could be representing a concrete or abstract thing like numbers or Socrates. Is could be processing or processed, Socrates as he lives or Socrates as he's atomized, and it could mean equals so you should explain why the extra words. Equal could be exact or equivalent. Socrates is equal to Socrates could be wrong considering there are multiple Socrates, but 7 is equal to 7 is always right, as is typically the case in concrete vs abstract. But was I wrong that it should be specific-Socrates A is equal to specific-Socrates A? If someone confuses the As, and they think they're right, then they prove that A equals A or A does not equal A. The only way to know for certain is to have infinite knowledge.

>>22579224
Find yourself God, and then a God-fearing wife.

>>22579230
>Find yourself God
I have and He is my strength. It's more so the spirit of the age that weighs upon me.
>then a God-fearing wife
Not in a position to do so at the moment. I will fight to remain celibate with God's help until it is His will to have me married.

I finished Brave New World tonight. I read it on audio, narrated by Michael Yorke. I had had trouble finishing this one in the past so I am grateful for the masterful narration for making the book more than palatable even at the slow parts.
>>22579234
Good, good. I struggle with my lust too, anon, and I admit I lose more than I win. Women are such beautiful creatures and my heart can't help but ache.

>>22579239
>Women are such beautiful creatures and my heart can't help but ache.
God bless you in your struggle. Many of the Fathers say not to make eye contact of women lest you fall into temptation. I think this applies doubly so given how women hold themselves these days (which was partially the source of my initial lament). Even Sirach says so
>Gaze not on a maid, that thou fall not by those things that are precious in her

>I used to have a crush on you.
Why did she tell me that?

>>22579248
Spite - to get a reaction out of you, perhaps manipulate, perhaps to twist the knife in.. To also tell herself she is the one who holds sway in whatever friendship/relationship you have with her because she can bind and loose the emotions involved in it - self-soothing,

>>22579248

Instantly flash her a bright, glorious, charming smile and say, "Me too."

>>22579229
I worked in electronics manufacturing for several years, so I have a very pragmatic view on this. How I always treated this is A=A, wherein A is explicitly defined and tolerancing is always accounted, along with variables that can be accounted for. Any failure wherein A does not equal A became, for me, an issue of definitions being inadequate, or a wild card variable that could not be previously accounted. Again, if I find that A does not equal A, but that it does do so within the accepted tolerance, then we stamp it and ship it. I understand that you guys are more on the theoretical side, so we may come to irreconcilable disagreement. You might be ''more right'', but I can ship product, and the customer understands the potential variables, and they are accounted as best as can be predicted in the contract.

>>22579239
Mr. Savage should have cried about his filthy slut, considered it a lesson learned, and moved on.

>>22579254
We don't really have much of a relationship. Friend of a friend.
>>22579256
My response was "hm?" with a confused look because she said it while I was talking to my friends. (I don't remember what we were talking about.)

>>22579258

Your side is nothing but absolute materialism, where you are dealing with pure material, but putting a stamp of "Qualia" upon it. An ideal, a purpose, a meaning, to the widget itself. Thus you put a qualifying word before "materialism," such as "Idealistic Materialism," as opposed to "Nihilistic Materialism."

In this context, you are completely correct, just as my example (computer programming) goes the same way.

We take a raw, dead variable or idea, and give it life, spirit, ideals. It's not that the object itself has changed. It could just be a boltzman brain.
Yet it is not, because you the creator value it, the QA guy stamps it, and the customer values it most of all, for now they will use it for something that enhances their life for the duration of the product's lifespan.

This hard-materialistic approach demands for us to define words and ideas subjectively, thus your approach is valid because you, by the nature of your job, posit that "issues of definition" are vital to your existence at that job.

The multiple points here converge upon a form of idealism, yet never break the truth of materialism. This grants us a foundation to build upon. So when you say A (SHOULD) = A, to an acceptable tolerance, then that is a perfect answer.

I give you your grade: A+

>>22579268
>We don't really have much of a relationship. Friend of a friend.
Who knows then. Maybe she's hinting she still likes you bit I still think it's more likely to be self-soothing. What tone did she say it in?

When I was very young I didn't know much of anything about what I was supposed to like, and I grew up in a house that slowly filled with books, with everyone continually escaping waking life in favor of dream or study.

As I've aged, my employment has been primarily physical, and I've approached most activities as physical, even when complex abstract objects are involved. Holding a machete and clearing a line through the woods, carrying tripods and theodolites and prisms and gps poles, with or without a backpack, often with a sack or five gallon bucket. Holding a kitchen knife and cutting calamari, red bell peppers, button mushrooms, broccoli, onions. Washing dishes, because nobody else would. Wiping down the walls when you notice the residue.
An alert mind knows a life outside the confines of any consideration of its own workings. To question a perfect tool is no matter of sense: you have possession of sentience, which is capable of self-correction. Any recognition of fallibility means recognition of a path to improvement: even when the path is not possible, the mind gropes and struggles to fill the gap, to complete a pattern that could not be recognized otherwise.
Dream settles in. Craving structure, stories of lives with purpose and clarity and intent are easily found: these are well received and valued when done well, but: Earth likes sex, food, life, death, drama, and of course beauty and skill or wit and craft and all the other little fiddling autisms to be considered, but sex and food technically cover all of the orders.

Sex, as in life, procreation, chemical flush and release, the drive behind drama, social obligation, sex is integral to our society and all human industry, and its encouragement has a specific economic purpose in capitalism: consumers consume, need housing, water, electricity, food, endless contributions to middle-men of private or public interest.
Be ashamed: a homeless person dies this moment, and another now, both at the time of writing and reading. Real lives kick screaming into the world, evolution favoring the scream for immediate attention and aid from any nearby ally.
Social mammals are about as complicated as social birds. Human "birdsong" includes mass murder. Wildcard species, Charlie rolling on the pavement after diving out of the van full of barrels full of gasoline, an eternal progression of survival experiences from Michener novels, animals scratching out food from river mud, clawing open oysters with stove knives, being attacked and eaten by hungry bears, to the point of legend.
There is no guarantee of dream, but this is it. The sense of vision I trust fails.

>>22579245
>the Fathers
Based.
>>22579264
Based impudent strumpet fan

>>22579279
For some reason she's always been aggressive and dominating to me, but it still stung when she casually said it. I usually just ignore her.

>>22579283
>picrel
Nice. St Isaac the Syrian says the same thing in Ascetical Homilies

>>22579292
Her bravado is masking something. Is she like that with other people?

>>22579292
>she's always been aggressive and dominating to me
https://archive.org/details/secretswinger0000alan/page/n11/mode/2up

>>22579296
I've noticed she only acts that way towards me. I assumed she didn't like me but now doesn't like me. It's confusing.

>>22579302
She seems unstable - confirms what I was saying before about self-soothing and manipulative tactics. Steer clear.

>>22579311
True. Even if she still likes me I don't want a girl like that.

>>22579321
Good man

Provide for me more Japanese to transcribe

on a laymen's level, the only thing keeping any given conversation from genuine philosophical inquiry is 3 questions. two of those have to be "why?" and one of them has to be "what do you mean by [given term]". it does not matter which order these questions are said.

>>22579331
Why,?

>>22579352
well i guess its just the way these things work out. a conversation can easily be taken hold of and turned into something else. i guess it's just the human mind.

>>22579355

Yeah, and for me, I think there's a fourth element as well, which is (Why?) in my head, which I then begin to answer directly by speaking what I think the answer is.

That's what I did just there ^

But to do this, I had to do just one trick: Love and agree with you inherently. Not to say I am your "follower," but I must respect you and assume intelligence and benevolence.

That way, instead of every single encounter becoming an argument or debate, we begin to make progress towards something more.

I build upon what you said, but I don't mind inserting my own unique ideas in there too.

Now that I've answered to you, you would be in the position to ask ME "why" or "what do you mean by that?"

Thus the cycle; no the SPIRAL upwards continues.

>>22579369
what do you mean by spiral

>>22579374
he means the universal is formal

I don't know how to get out of the rut I'm in. I put myself in situations to meet new people but it just doesn't happen. I've been trying for so long, I'm very proactive about it, but I just feel like giving up.

>>22579374

Not a circle, where there is no progress and the beginning is the end. No! A circle is not at all the right shape for a discussion to take!

Instead, we shall spiral upwards towards something greater. A spiral, like a genetic code, like a staircase going up, like a drill that will pierce the heavens.

It means that instead of going in circles with nonsense arguments, debates, hate, and misunderstandings, it means that we work together to form a double-helix shape, such that our ideas fit together and continue the path towards the truth.

The moment we suddenly disagree on something, be it God, souls, material, culture, or truth itself, that's when we need to work out our differences and find some means of resolution. The ideal is communication, a scientific method of some sort, a vote, a compromise, synthesis of ideas, or simply war.

Asking why, or "what do you mean by that?" is perhaps the most beautiful way to do this.

>>22579205
They have a new record out?

>>22579224
Same my mind finds it revolting even as my body enjoys it.
It's like the rational side of my brain is so over-developed that even as im commiting the act I remain cognizant/conscious.
Sexual desire is also a distraction it overrides the mind and all .
Gratifying a sexual desire leaves me feeling unclean and weak for having given into a desire i never consciously chose.
I wish i was a eunuch so i could dedicate my life to pure intellectual matters.
I would do it but I'm a pussy and there are serious physiological changes it produces.
I read online that black licorice and chamomile tea suppresses libido, so I'm gonna try that soon.

>>22579302
Could be she feels like you have turned her down and so is giving an exaggerated performance of pretending not to care about you

I think I'm going to larp being celibate again so that it feels better when I inevitably go back to masturbating to incest porn.

>>22579067
I feel like an impostor.
I'm talking to this girl and it feels like a chore, kind of.
Talking to people seems like a chore, too.
I don't really enjoy doing anything, feels like I'm meeting obligations more than anything else.

>>22579531
>Sexual desire is also a distraction it overrides the mind and all .
>I wish i was a eunuch so i could dedicate my life to pure intellectual matters.
Many great men in history have advocated celibacy to attain that greatness. The Lord Himself speaks of this when He discusses the ones who are eunuchs for the sake of the Kingdom. Being divorced from the sex drive is what allows someone to truly engage in intellectual and spiritual struggle.
>I would do it but I'm a pussy and there are serious physiological changes it produces.
You'd also sound like a madman to the modern person. Your average normie has no conception of how hypersexualised they are and how their sexuality has been weaponised against them. It brings about the destruction of society because now you're utterly lobotomised.

>>22579661
Also please don't become a physical eunuch

>>22579665
>Also please don't become a physical eunuch
Like i said I'm too pussy to do it and afraid of not only the pain but the medical complications (including apparently skeletal issues & increased fat)
But I'm not morally opposed to it, and have a feeling i would not regret it as ive always despised sex and wished i could go full monk mode.
If I ever did i would never tell anyone cause normies would for sure think I'm crazy.
For now I'm gonna try herbal remedies

>>22579490
YAH NIGGA here u go
https://krakenfiles.com/view/PJtA7BL2wn/file.html

Tired of seeing ai garbage everywhere.

>b b but it lets me make any image I want!
You want a picture of Winnie the Pooh with prison tats? You want a completely bland painting of a landscape which doesn't exist? People on here like to think of themselves as cultured aesthetes and yet there have been endless threads where the whole point is to post these ugly pictures

There is no moral obligation to participate or improve society if It denies and discourages your claim to a cute virgin wife.

>>22579128
Don't listen to the normalfags replying to you. There's nothing wrong with crying.

>>22579869
Getting a beautiful trad wife is even harder than affording a house these days. you gotta be an engineer who attends a good church, ig

>>22579282
Hol up nigga, I know how you feel

Life ain’t all rainbows and sunshine. Some folks out there, they’re strugglin, man. Evolution wired us to scream like animals when we penetrated a woman. We’re like complex social birds, and our song ain't always sweet. Sometimes we get fed, other time we’re the ones being fed to the wolves, naw I’m saying? It has its own kind of twisted comfort. Lovin them 'cause of the struggle, not 'cause you be wantin them to struggle, but 'cause you feel at home in that sickness vibe. Sex, it’s like the life force. It’s about making more of us. Death, it's like that last ride into an eternal chill zone. When my time comes, I'll go out with a smile, man. This world, it's a crazy maze, kinda messed up yet strangely simple to navigate, you feel me?

I should have bought a house in 2008. instead i was an idiot and was a high school student, like some sort of prole

I want to appreciate my country’s rural traditions but hillbilly and redneck culture just really repulse me. I say this even as someone who practically grew up on a farm.

I don't even watch the NFL because I'm Australian but I like to have a team that I root for in every sport regardless of if I watch the sport or not. I'm gonna go piss and have a sip of milk to help with this heartburn and then I'm gonna watch the Jags (my boys) vs the Bills.

>>22579962
do you smoke weed? have you seen Skunkape?

>>22579067
>I like to drink a very tall glass of cold 2% milk.
If you drink anything other than RAW MILK from PASTURED COWS, then you are NOT DRINKING REAL MILK.

Real milk does not cause lactose intolerance because the enzyme lactase, which helps digest lactose, hasn't been destroyed by heat processing.

Real milk is the most nutritionally complete and nourishing food that exists, and governments are doing all that is in their hands to outlaw it, so only the elites can have access to it.
>https://www.naturalnews.com/034747_raw_milk_Queen_Elizabeth_Canada.html

EDUCATE YOURSELF ABOUT REAL MILK, A FOOD THAT GOVERNMENTS ARE TRYING TO MAKE IMPOSSIBLE TO OBTAIN, AND FIND A LOCAL PROVIDER
https://www.realmilk.com/

IF IT IS NOT RAW THEN IT IS NOT REAL MILK.

>>22579999
Nice digits but I don't feel like getting botulism poisoning

>>22579999
You tried at least.

https://www.fda.gov/food/buy-store-serve-safe-food/dangers-raw-milk-unpasteurized-milk-can-pose-serious-health-risk#:~:text=Raw%20milk%20is%20milk%20from,often%20called%20%E2%80%9Cfood%20poisoning.%E2%80%9D

>>22579999
>drink raw milk
>shit myself bloody for a weak
>move to milk with all the cream left in it like a non-schizo

>>22580004
The milk HAS to be from pastured cows, you ungodly forsaken faggot. It has CLA and beneficial enzymes and more. You have NEVER had real milk. You are a mechanized stupid faggot. If the cow is healthy and pastured then drinking the milk raw is perfectly fine
>>22580006
>trusting FDA
The FDA is corrupt. They frequently say pesticides and preservatives are good when they are not. They are easily bought out by major corporations.
Look up Big Pharma.

>>22580020
>this nigga likes chunks in his milk
unevolved swine. go get vaxxed

>>22579067
I should learn to code so I can make the world's first eugenics videogame.

>>22580020
You're right, I should trust schizos that aren't even close to the food industry over the FDA.

>>22580014
>>22580004
>>22580006
I've been drinking raw milk from Jersey cows for years. Each time I drink raw milk I also tend to get a bit of muscle mass.
Your ancestors have been drinking raw milk for thousands of years.
Milk was pasteurized only to make cows STUCK up in barns pumped with hormones and rbst edible. Raw milk from unhealthy cows stuck up in barns would kill you. It's only pasteurized to make it edible.
Raw milk from pastured HEALTHY cows is like a healing tonic

What happened to this midwit?

>>22580027
it sounds like raw milk makes you mentally ill
do you own cats by any chance?

Tired from strenuous activity, physical and mental, over the last week. Feels good having an afternoon and evening of rest but I am also hungry to return to work. This is my favourite feeling.

>>22580021
>>22580026
Check here : >>22580027
You're a mechanized faggot cut off from the natural world.

Also Weston A. price > FDA.

Btw read this:
https://grist.org/article/2009-11-03-i-drink-raw-milk-sold-illegally-on-the-underground-market/

Based Aryan Joel Salatin knows I am right. You fucking faggots are going to hell.

>>22580031
Stfu and kys, stupid fucking demon.
Stfu and learn humility, cur.
I am far wiser and contemplative than you.
I have better taste in literature, art-house films, and more than you.
I have had far more awakening experiences than you.
I have far more creativity, contemplative depth, metacognitive awareness, and much more than you.
You're just a woman.
Me, I am a man. A Chinaman in spirit.

>>22580028
Scrambled his eggs with ego and pills, never came back. Also strongly suspect what little is left of him has been compromised to the extent that such a thing is possible. You know, agents, handlers and the like. Should've stuck to teaching psychology, something he was actually good at. Shame.

You have never had real milk unless it's raw and from pastured, healthy Jersey cows.
End of story. I win the debate.

>>22580028
His hatred for commies blinds him to the fact that Israel is a fascist dictatorship engaged in ethnic cleansing. He likes to say he hates ideology of all stripes but he sure loves to defend Republican ZOG talking points.
>>22580033
>>22580036
>>22580043
take your COVID shot, faggot!

>>22580050
shut up commie retard your views are worthless

>>22580036
>>22580033
Embarrassing.

>>22580052
I happen to be a classical liberal.

>>22580061
Same thing, same worth

>>22580064
are the globalist FDA goons in the room with us right now, you schizo faggot? go drink some fuckin milk

>>22580036
yet you drink bacteria milk
curiouser and curiouser

>>22580076
Trite

>>22580050
Research is viewing the jab has many side effects and detrimental health effects. Imo it was intended from the start.
Natural whole foods and wisdom of local cultures is better than modern Big Pharma advice.
For example, Green Black Walnut Tincture works better than antibiotics
>>22580055
Just drink raw milk from pastured healthy cows, and you'll see I'm right.

>>22580089
It has good bacteria that aids in digestion.
Stop acting like a retard.
The only reason pasteurization grew was to make the milk of cows stuck up in barns and pumped with hormones like rbst edible.

Anyways, I am done debating this: I am right, you are wrong. Joel Salatin is a based Aryan chad people would benefit from reading.

>>22580098
>aryan
why would I read a book written by one of the losers of history?

>>22580092
>>22580098
you have brain worms which are clearly directing your skewed thinking

Drank two cups of hot cocoa in the last 24 hours. Might drink another.

>>22580127
why only two? should be two an hour, not a day

>>22580106
clear-cut case of toxoplasmosis

>>22580061
>classical liberal.
The only difference between classical liberals and communists is that the former group is narcissistic and the latter group is mentally ill. Otherwise, they're both materialistic, hedonistic, debased animals.

who was in the right here...

>>22579079
Have you tried reading instead?

>>22579435
Those people need a reason to be drawn to you. Provide that reason.

how do i know a self sustaining happiness exists? joy is the word i'm looking for

>>22579545
She might just want attention.

>>22580191
read the Fathers, anon

>>22579861
This is what happens when you hand a tool to the entire population base of retards. They feel like they are responsible for the output, and that they deserve attention for it.

>>22579967
>I like to have a team that I root for
That is just crass ideology. You may as well binge watch Ben Shapiro ''own the libs'' videos.

>>22580050
>His hatred for commies
Prove that he ever stopped being a commie.

I can't code, draw or produce music to save my life but I have spent a worrying amount of time conceptualizing a fighting game featuring every character I find cool. I've also made a tier list, stages, and prematch banter. It would get copyright struck to hell but I have fun with it

>>22580106
>>22580139
I've done parasite cleanses using Green Black Walnut tincture, wormwood, and cloves, so I do not. Also, I often drink drink 4 tbsp of apple cider w/mother diluted in water.

>>22580323
The gayest little diddy coined by a grade schooler possesses more creative value than this. You are regressing. Better your own bad art than a collage of crass mass media capeshit.

>>22580323
Imagine consooming so much judaic trash. Burgers are mentally buckbroken.

Working as staff at an R1 university is miserable. You job is lame and unimportant, academic administration looks down on you, faculty looks down on you, even graduate students look down on you. Hell, the whole world looks down on you because why would you for example get a finance degree only to become like an accountant at a university and not like a banker or something. This job has been such a waste of time.

>>22580359
You are not wrong, but your post has no constructive value other than the benefit of shaming.

Living "one day at the time" led me to stagnation.

>>22580560
That's already more constructive value than you deserve

>>22580485
Not every job is a career.

>>22580567
You can do better.

>>22580566
That philosophy was only intended for drug addicts. It is a step up for them, but a step down for most everyone else.

Aisha reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “Verily, Allah is gentle, and He loves gentleness. He rewards for gentleness what is not granted for harshness, and He does not reward anything else like it.”

>>22580161
kek

>>22580569
I’ve been in this job for 5 years already. It sure feels like a career. If I’m supposed to go somewhere from here, where is it? I would love to join faculty but they won’t accept me into their ranks at this point and I doubt I could get admitted into a PhD program anyway.

Are there dignified or aesthetic ways to live today? It seems that all is left to do is try to get rich, or waste your time with drugs and alcohol.

>>22580604
>Are there dignified or aesthetic ways to live today?
Grow up cringe zoomer faggot

I masturbated four times yesterday. Three times the day before. Five times on the day before that. My mind is restless and my hands are restless but I can't seem to do anything else with my scant free time. What the fuck is wrong with me?

I slept in my diarrhea.

>>22580638
Addiction

>>22580643
How do I escape this addiction?

>>22580651
Convert to Orthodoxy, go to confession, pray to God.

>>22580657
I already converted to Christianity five years ago and lost the faith. Didn't stop me from masturbating.

I think I would be amazing at lovebombing
I often think in superlatives, I love giving compliments, praising people, I think if I were to encounter a chick that wants to be complimented I would absolutely destroy her with sheer adoration

I'm very dramatic too, I would just tell her I'm about to kill myself every second she doesn't speak to me.

>>22580665
Then I can't help you

>>22580638
How do people pull this off? I need to be EXTREMELY bored to even consider jacking off twice in a day.

>>22580670
>I would just tell her I'm about to kill myself every second she doesn't speak to me
You would undermine all previous efforts. She does not want adoration from a disposable loser. She will only value your adoration if she sees value in your attention.

>>22580676
It sounds like you have low libido. You might as well just chop it off and feed it to your dog.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5_RFd1z_dwc

>>22580676
He’s probably 14

>>22580681
ok then I would tell her I'm about to solve Ukraine/Russia war as well as Israel/Palestinian conflict but I will not because her not texting me is making me kill myself so she's basically destroying the world for not texting me she loves me every 60 seconds

>>22580699
I'm 22

>>22580605
Look, if you’re not smart enough to come up with a serious reply, just don’t reply.

I GOT IT
I finally know how to ask her out

>>22580796
If you planned so long just to ask her out, it's going to be a disaster bro

>>22580806
no I mean that it's a really delicate matter and I need to do it in a way that's both ambiguous but also controversial and non-needy
ahh life...

>>22580832
Yeah it's going to be a disaster

>>22580837
This

>>22580837
you don't know who you're talking to

What is the red pill on Adolf and his Nazis regarding magic and the occult? Were they really into the occult or are they just lies?

>>22580844
How can they be lies, Nazis were pagans since their worldview started from the material reality (race). Occultism and paganism go hand in hand.

Everyone here would benefit from high-grade krill oil supplementation.

>>22580855
my daily intake is 500mg so I think you might be wrong

>>22580858
Are you getting no benefit from it? How is he wrong?

sometimes i find myself thinking a lot about acting on my homosexuality. my religion forbids it of course, so i just ignore it and let the feeling pass. i also know it would never work out either way. i have quietly lived alone now for decades and sometimes wonder what could have been, how different of a person i could be to spend a life together with someone. and yet, i feel as though i made the right decision. this is simply the way of things as they should. nonetheless it is difficult sometimes when the heart yearns for company. will there ever be rest to this struggle? someday, to be sure

>>22581027
lol gay

>>22581027
shut up homo
>alone for decades
you're a zoomer stop larping

>>22579067
Haven't had those but the truffle oil variety are kino. Also like the spicy dijon, but not as much as I thought I would. These things are so fucking good anon...

>>22580640
Most normal person in this thread.

>>22581027
Can't understand the kind of person who is so invested in a particular interpretation of God that they will break bread with people who hate them and even try to win their approval

Hey everyone!!!!!!!!!!

>>22581129
Shut it loser, r/atheism rhetoric has been trite for decades now, get that tiny brain of yours to say something creative for once

I don't want to go back to school, but it has become clear to me that I'm not the kind of person who can forge his own path. By the same token, I know I would flunk again.

>>22581132
Hello. My name is Ash. Five years ago, I was just a normal college student, studying for my degree in business administration and working part-time as a bartender to make ends meet. But that all changed when I stumbled upon an ancient tome hidden away in the depths of the library. It was bound in black leather and adorned with strange symbols that seemed to shift and writhe like living things. Despite the ominous appearance, I felt drawn to it, as if it held secrets that only I was meant to uncover.

As I opened the cover, a musty smell wafted up, carrying with it the scent of decay and forgotten knowledge. The pages were yellowed and brittle, but the words within were written in a language that seemed both archaic and timeless. I couldn't resist the urge to delve deeper, to unravel the mysteries contained within its pages. And so, I began to study the book, pouring over its passages and illustrations, devouring every word and image.

But as I delved deeper into the text, strange things began to happen. The air around me grew colder, and shadows seemed to twist and writhe on the walls. I heard whispers in my ear, faint at first, but growing louder with each passing day. They spoke of dark rituals and forbidden knowledge, of ancient deities and unspeakable horrors. At first, I thought it was just my imagination playing tricks on me, but soon I realized that something was truly amiss.

One night, as I sat in my dimly lit apartment, surrounded by stacks of dusty tomes and crumbling scrolls, I felt a presence behind me. I turned to see a figure standing in the doorway, shrouded in darkness. Its eyes glowed with an otherworldly light, and its voice whispered in my ear, "You should not have meddled in affairs beyond your understanding." I tried to run, but my legs felt heavy and unresponsive, as if rooted to the spot. The figure glided closer, its presence suffocating, and I knew that I was doomed.

And yet, instead of fear, I felt a sense of liberation wash over me. I had been consumed by the book, body and soul, and now I was free from the mundane concerns of mortal life. As the figure reached out to claim me, I embraced it, surrendering myself to the abyss. In that moment, I knew that I had become something more than human, something eternal and terrible.

Now, five years later, I roam the streets, a creature of the night, feasting on the blood of the living and reveling in the darkness. My heart beats no longer, and my skin is cold to the touch, but I feel alive in a way that I never did before. I am cursed, perhaps, but I would not trade this existence for anything in the world. For in the embrace of the unknown, I have found true freedom.

>>22581264
*stuffs flaccid unwashed penis and entire balls up gpt asshole*

>>22581269
Funny that you'd assume it's GPT.

My brother hates that I'm a Christian. He tries to rope me into a conversation about God by pretending like he's curious and sincere. Then he gets all angry and spiteful and blames God for all his problems and tells me Satan is right to rebel. It's really annoying.

>>22579128
What book did you buy

>>22581264
>bound in black leather
Thats hot

Do you ever feel like that you just don't know?

>>22581294
Bel-Ami by Guy de Maupassant

>>22581290
>Then he gets all angry and spiteful and blames God for all his problems
I think this is the main reason people don't believe in God. It's not out of some genuine commitment to materialist atheism, theyre just upset that suffering exists

>>22581129
A religion is pretty rad if it can do that.

Thinking about doing a Master’s in journalism. I’m in such a rush. I want to find something to start in January.

I'm impregnated.

>>22581139
Gay christians are fucking retards, sorry man

>>22580670
You'd make a half decent cult leader. Though not one of the best.

>>22581503
No, he's like that naive football player that Manson worked over. The moment he tangled with any opposition, he would be wildly outclassed.

My father has not gazed upon the figure of Acala.

are you kidding?

I've let the stray dog that lives on my street sleep in the backyard. I'm soaking wet, but I feel good. I should start doing more good deeds when needed

The problem with loneliness in the face of loving-kindness, against all odds, needing miraculous wonderings to occur to free the spirit.

If one were to be lonely, for a decade, in self-loathing (or a/my dysphoria), one would typically become sociopathic, psychopathic, or bitter inside and out, as a slippery slope phenomena. (After the trauma). (so, that, and this now pseudo-beforehood (aprioriness) in some abstract round-a-bout way): maladapted socially. Unable to be kind, alienated in trauma or shocking reality with it's truthiness or subjective falsification of the validity of the self and it's outward appearance with the incomprehensible smashing of the physical flesh in the face of exceeding worrisome, problematic, unsoluble, bad taste, horrific traumas with the survival of basic data engrams making a shallow and wiley copy of the instinct and shadow. To be a threat to survival, or inhumane, therefore, not, and out of, humanity, without kindness, except perhaps due to and ad hoc some particular self qualia qua higher spiritual power or reality or gratitude and the perseverance of divine or holy, loving-kindly attitudes, in those apriori. But without knowing, it is easily to confuse, in delusion, with supervision, out of the public eye, or distorted in it's vision and quest displaced (in momenta) against it's mental attitude (in momenta), expectant sexually unistatic or pleasurably ignored or manipulated and split disowned fragments or pieces of the psyche spiritual complex.

When all that might be seeked in life is the hope of death, to murder the ingrained values or kill humans has become the God complex of crucifixion. And in inequality, there is the wiggling space of lesser wealthy in dejection or immorality they'll call it, and this transfers, and yet (cf. 'but') this so amongst others, to negate the good will is this choice rejected. The choice, unobtainable, because of how holy it is exalted or placed onto and atop, upon yourself, or the pedestal to carry from them to the wished for future, without this testament or trial, it is impossible to be administered: see that this is only a figment of the mind's displacement on the solution, the solution abstract and unreal in it's nature, abstract and apriori, the maintenant's (system's) malfunction. The pleasure, to think, by accident.

This is all a game, a button igni ad incendiary. This idea, that someone beyond madness, will someone think, the plan, deeply, darkly in it's shaded project to configure the psychospiritual overmind, in devil's murder, intonating. This was just the idea, I need to ask a question: "Do you want to kill yourself, go to sleep forever, or commit homicide?" Something upsets the resident of this household, repetitively, unto the attachment contiguous and sentiment adorned unto they decide. After ranting, feeling hatred in cyclical fashion for their fellow ingrates, and getting this regulation done with and over, it may continue, but these are displaceable. It is not provoking the disturbed. The one who decides in their heart: 'I will snap, one day, accidentally or otherwise,' must be in bad company, that they think this plan, the non-plan it is, a matter of cosmic disproportion, it is this into the insane among society, disturbances of our sublicit legitimate claims agrieved in agonizing shouts.

Cf. Tonal intonations against evil, wicked spiritual values in a human downfall from grace, or origin of sin and the fall of a traumatized situation displaced onto the territory or premature idea distorted by a view to homicide or suicide incircumstantially (not truly safe, in truthiness to hold, nihil vulgarity against the common sense and good, of and onto truly false and unethical), in self-hatred toned humans.

Basically, in short, the plan is to rant about the annoying people, until it's out of the system, but they can't stop being annoying so you continue. What doesn't work, is insane, or needs to be remedied. And what is needed, is neglected, or is deemed just a want or desire, just like the desire or want now to.: One day, you intonate the circumstance's situation trajecting a pathos as a sane individual getting work done, the situation of incisrcumstantial intent to 'just snap:' homicide from rage induced emotion or sickness that psycho-(spirit)/mind fucked your entire reality in your head against the rebel against absolute or objective shared spiritual entity (human prospect, facilitated to murder, utilizable with raw physiognomic or maybe workable psychical logic). If it happens frequent enough, yeah, sure, people will probably aggravate to inhospitable death.

That's the inequality equal to unequal equality of self, other, dichotomous relation of annoying insanity shared. This is us. (Some people went full HERP). I see you :). And who knows, it's not real, just a chance goodbye to the new old of yesterday's bars to the real physical bars that one gets behind to support thee death sentence in full love or embrace to become, the fact fulfilled, your self-unfulfilled prophecy. But, really... not so grand a prospect.

p.s. And just sayin'g. Full stop.
Let's grind up our stress and smoke it.

I wish I could just start courses this spring instead of waiting until the fall. I should’ve applied with the score I had.

I've exhausted myself emotionally

>>22581692
Just make him your dog. Stray dogs are a nuisance.

I might be a tremendously determined autist, or a fucking retard, or both. It shouldn't matter but when I'm losing full nights of sleep over programming tasks it kinds of does.

>>22581786
Good. Your ennui could be cathartic. Make the best use of it.

How did we come to hate the crier in the desert.
There are not many voices that cut through time.
When we hear them we tell them to shut up.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p0DueaLlzg8&t=1682s

>>22581615
4chan is one step closer to becoming reddit. Site is ass but there's no better alternative

Everyone on twitter writes like such a faggot I can't take it. I don't know how anyone uses that site. They all write like this:
>Every day without X is another day without Y. Every. Single. Day. Let that sink in.
like a sassy bitch with no self awareness, it makes me cringe.

>>22579079
same

>>22581882
The extremely low character count limit was likely intended to cultivate this conversational style. It's interesting how slight tweaks in posting requirements can shape the user base. Instagram used to be flooded with little girls posting pictures of kittens. Now it's for whores to market their asses.

>>22581923
There's nothing wrong with that, so long as you make good use of it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ewr_jsMYe9Y

That is enough for today. Good night, friends.

>>22581786
I feel physically exhausted because I haven’t had good sleep in years.

>>22579067
I just had these chips 2 days ago
Love 'em, just don't eat 'em often because they are horrible cut food. Honestly all their avo oil flavors are top tier.

man i bought some cranberry bagels yesterday cuz they said naturally flavored with real cranberries and they cost like a dollar more than regular bagels so i thought they must be good and plus it's fall and cranberry shit reminds me of new england and shit. anyways, holy shit, they smell like shit. i had to put them in the fridge to stop the kitchen from reeking. then when you toast them they taste funky as shit and leave a weird after taste.

>jews chimping out on twitter, alienating undecideds and moderates
>controlled opposition pseudoconservatives forced to show cartoonish support for ZOG
>israel stock market tanking
>israel doubling down on losing netanyahu line
>israel still demographically doomed and ideologically riven even in the best case scenario
>entire internet polarized
>leftist antizionists and right wing antisemites seeing eachother and linking up
>normies tired of foreverwars making association "supporting ZOG" = "foreverwars"
>israel locked in pyrrhic war for eternity against infinitely respawning enemy that can't lose
>ZOG will be destroyed in this century

>>22582216
nigga it's the opposite, normies are seeing this as 9/11 2.0 and that's how it's being treated. palestine will be wiped off the map in the coming months and the world will cheer it on

>>22582219
oh well i guess they've admitted ukraine lost if the military industrial complex is moving on

>>22582219
The more they level Palestine the more people will hate them. IDF is already torturing and pissing on Palestinian civilians as we speak.

>>22582225
The best case scenario is that Taiwan and Ukraine fall, and then other countries intervene in Israel assuming that this all doesn't trigger WW3

>>22582229
Not this time. The number one fear of all people in the post-war era is terrorism. And Hamas killed hundreds of innocents yesterday. Anything that Israel does in retaliation, so long as Hamas fighters are branded as terrorists, is going to be virulently defended. This is exactly why the War on Terror was allowed by the world even though it killed or displaced tens of millions of innocents compared to the 3,000 that died on 9/11. That's just how it works. Palestinian blood was already worth nothing to most people, now imagine how much they're going to get slaughtered after normies are crying like little bitches about terrorism.

Life sucks. Why do people still alive and not end it all?

>>22582238
Normies don't give a fuck about "terrorism," the word stinks of boomer made-up perma-2000s shit. People want radicalism pure and simple, and fake leftist zoomers sure as shit aren't going to radicalize in favor of Israel. The default path for most is anti-ZOG. Any press is bad press for Isn'treal.

>>22582231
i bet if china takes taiwan, america won't do shit. we don't want that smoke. america almost has the same debt to gdp ratio now as we did at the end of ww2 and ww3 didn't even start yet!

>>22582246
you're very optimistic for something that has no basis, the default worldview for the average person is that Israel = free and civilized democracy, Muslim = uncivilized savages that die a lot

>>22579967
Australians don't say "root for". "Rooting" means fucking.

>>22582256
The average person is nigger cattle, what matters currently is the radicalized retard zoomers since they will be tomorrow's dysfunctional adults shepherding their elderly gen-X parents.

The more radicalism the better. Any press is bad press for ZOG. Nobody wants eternal 90s "consensus." Every binary and polarity will be collapsed instead of being maintained indefinitely like it has up until now. The establishment doesn't understand this and will try to re-sell consensus packages for another 20 years. Israel can kill 10:1 Arabs and Iranians and still lose. Israel WILL be destroyed.

>>22582264
Not if I have anything to say about it.

>>22582263
You’re thinking of rutting

>>22582211
Are you a broad? Cranberry-bagel sounds disgusting. It sounds like something that a broad would think that it might taste good. Did you post it on instagram before you took a bite out of it, or after?

>>22582241
You first. Do a flip.

>>22579661
>Many great men in history have advocated celibacy to attain that greatness
Many have advocated for it but how many have truly accomplished it?
Perhaps this sounds cynical but it seems like every supposed celibate occassionally jerks off or gives in.
There's no real way to know if celibacy is actually practiced.
They lapse all the time necessarily, and then make a big performance of crying woe is me so they can feel okay about continually violating their own ethic.
Also if half the supposed celibates were actually celibate you'd notice .... They would reek of cum (cause after the 2nd week mark you just start leaking) lmao

>>22582303

I doubt celibacy means literally anything whatsoever. It's just virtue-signalling.

What we should be doing though, as a true virtue, is trying to find love and a stable relationship, or if you are an "involuntary celibate," then finding peace with your existence even if biological females do not like you will yield more peace of mind.

If you simply are making a choice, due to asexuality or being a transgender person, or truly want a wife, even if you are an "incel," then you should simply become the bolt of lightning that strikes past the path of least resistance. If you are Chad, and wish to be celibate, then do so. If you are a tender Kyle, then become a sweet Mikaela, if that is your choice, and if you are a nerdy Trevor, then get the girl of your dreams, and let nothing stop you from finding the love you seek.

Choose your destiny and prove that freewill as a concept has meaning.

>>22582278
No, I'm not.

https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/root#Etymology_2

https://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=root

>>22582303

10 months of no social media, namely instagram. Feels like I'll probably never reinstall that app indefinitely now.

Pretty sure my wife is pregnant. I hope so. I'm nervous and scared that I'm neither nervous or scared, but I'm also numb to it. Life is weird. Feelings, too.

>>22582349
>trying to find love and a stable relationship
All physical contact is absolutely and innately immoral. A stable relationship is even more immoral than a unstable one as it provides more opportunity for sins of the flesh.
>if you are an "involuntary celibate," then finding peace with your existence
The problem with incels is not their celibacy but their resentful, jealous desire for the sex others have but which they feel denied.
The truth is that the mentality of an incel is as degenerate as that of sex having chad.
Both desire the sins of the flesh, only one feels denied them.
>will yield more peace of mind.
Peace of mind is never the goal. If you're experiencing peace of mind you're choosing to live in a state of ignorance regarding your sins.
>If you simply are making a choice, due to asexuality or being a transgender person, or truly want a wife, even if you are an "incel," then you should simply become the bolt of lightning that strikes past the path of least resistance. If you are Chad, and wish to be celibate, then do so. If you are a tender Kyle, then become a sweet Mikaela
Your live and let live mentality is not only delusional but deeply evil. All choices are not equally valid and peace of mind/contentment does not determine the rightness of anything.
I would say repent but you are clearly so far gone there is little hope for you.

>>22582420

There's a war going on.

>>22582456
cool it with the antisemitism

My parents want me to try CBD because I'm a straight edge square.

>Torrent something with 20 seeders.
>It downloads really quickly.
>Torrent something with 55 seeders.
>It's taking fucking forever.
This is why I don't torrent if I can help it, this shit is so inconsistent and often slow as fuck.

>>22581853
I am writing more. I'm only in this state because of being overwhelmed by a girl.

>>22582456
It's not like we haven't known this war was coming. Didn't you read Revelations?

>>22582467
Do they want you to start sucking dicks as well?

FUCK COCKSUCKING CHESS.COM ANTONIO BOT FUCKING SUCK COCK FAGGOT SMUG LITTLE FUCKING NIGGER BOT BORING SHIT GAME MEMORIZE MEMORIZE COMPUTER GOOK GAME FOR GOOK PSEUD

>>22582630
I wasn't sure I was going to win that one! Want to play again?

Productive and sober week, how long can this last?

never let it be said that i don't work damned hard to contribute as a productive member of society.

>>22582659
nor that i expect too high a salary...

we're 100% BLACK

>>22582659
>>22582668

yet all the same i get bitched at. ingrates.

>>22582643

productive as in
> i made the firm some money by moving around a bunch of debt that some poor plebs are going to have to pay eventually.
or
> i performed a service to society

>>22582716

of course it could be neither, but it's probably one of the two...

>>22582716
No, working on myself. Working through some mental issues, cleaning and organising my living quarters, reevaluating my life/goals/relationships, spending time on things I value rather than hedonistic pleasure. Productive as in things which I believe are long term investments into my future.

>>22582748
>Working through some mental issues

a man does not apologize for his nature.

>>22582755
Processing grief, you are right though and that was kind of the the 'solution'

>>22582765

what isn't a cause for grief these days?

I finished my book, threw it in the void known as Amazon.

Why am I even wasting my time writing stories when nobody is going to read them?

>>22582774
>why am I even living when I am going to die and everything will be forgotten about in time

Dunno anon, what else can we do?

>>22582774

That's why I stick to long-form text-limit posting here on /lit/. I don't give a h*ck about money. I just want someone to read my writings.

>>22579067

I have psychopathy. Been diagnosed and despite what you may think I'm now on the straight and narrow. I'm a severe sadist, but I have my impulse under control and I never hurt animals. I can't imagine hurting cats or dogs. Anyway, I'm very lonely even though I have a full family. My emotions are stunted based on previous experiences I have had aka my dog. I'm just lonely and tired.

>>22582659
cont.

at this point i'm used to people saying one thing and meaning completely the opposite, but think of how much easier it would have been had they told me to be a gutless, self-serving prick right from the beginning.

>Just have some cake for my sisters birthday.
>Not a lot of people have some so there's still a bunch of cake left.
>The piece I was given was tiny so I say "Since nobody else is having any can I grab a second piece?"
>She says no, apparently the rest of the cake is my sisters.
>What the fuck? This has never been a rule in our house for as long as I've been alive, why the fuck is she suddenly inventing a new rule out of nowhere? Last time we had cake, my sister ate the rest of it afterwards and it wasn't even her birthday.

>>22582805
Buy her a cake every week. After she eats a few and gets accustomed to it, buy her one in the shape of a big pink pig. Present it in front of everyone.

>>22582889
Literally do this and you will become a god.

>https://www.nytimes.com/2023/10/09/briefing/hamas-israel-war.html
>Why has American power receded? Some of the change is unavoidable. Dominant countries don’t remain dominant forever. But the U.S. has also made strategic mistakes that are accelerating the arrival of a multipolar world.

>Among those mistakes: Presidents of both parties naïvely believed that a richer China would inevitably be a friendlier China — and failed to recognize that the U.S. was building up its own rival through lenient trade policies, as the political scientist John Mearsheimer has argued. In Afghanistan and Iraq, the U.S. spent much of the early 21st century fighting costly wars. The Iraq war was especially damaging because it was an unprovoked war that George W. Bush chose to start. And the humiliating retreat from Afghanistan, overseen by President Biden, made the U.S. look weaker still.

wow the nyt suddenly having a moment of clarity here? the nyt supported all of the failed policies listed above!

>>22579067
Does /lit/ believe in ghosts?
Just posted about this in /x/ but I didn't used to, but recently I'm starting to wonder.
I work in a hospital and we have an abandoned ward that used to be used for terminally ill patients.
Very spooky place.
Never used to believe in ghosts, and am naturally skeptically minded, but my experiences have started to make me question that disbelief.
I have no explicit evidence, just lots of sort of strange or eerie things.
Often things are moved around inexplicably, stuff left on, doors moved slightly.
I'll put a door back in place and then in an hour when I patrol again, it's half closed again.
Shower inexplicably on at full blast.
Once I was up there and suddenly behind me heard a door suddenly lock closed. Checked all around, no one was there. And there certainly wasn't anyone inside the locked rooms.
Sound of air wizzing into one of the hospital beds but when I walk near, it stops.
Sometimes in certain rooms I get this odd sensation, light headed and kind of spaced out.
And tonight probably one of the weirdest.
Walking down the hall and I notice there's a chair in the middle of the hall.
Kind of weird but I reason to myself maybe a cleaning lady moved it or something.
Move the chair back in place.
Here is the creepy part: near the end of my shift, engineering guy comes by and says "it's the weirdest thing but there was a chair just in the middle of the hallway".
I keep patrolling the wing hoping to catch something in the act,
But it's like if there's something there it knows and is kind of playing with me.

>>22580567
Woman-tier behavior.

I’ve managed to kick all of my vices except my love of eating and especially eating sweets.

>>22583022
I love eating.
Was doing very well for months but I binged this weekend.
Went to Wendy's for a burger and an Oreo Frosty.
Then the next day i bought 6 white chocolate ice cream (kind of like Magnums).
I ate 2 of them yesterday.
It was very yummy!

>>22583004
>Does /lit/ believe in ghosts?
This is something I've been thinking about lately. I used to but I've realised that it's hypocritical for me to believe in things like ghosts and aliens despite having no proof but not believe in God because I have no proof, still tryna figure shit out in my head.

>>22579067
Various misfortunes led to me having to work as a lifeguard/janitor at a local country club for the past several months. After a needlessly long hiring process I was finally able to start a substitute teaching job at a local school district last week. For the first time in months I had a normal Monday-Friday work week with no 11+ hour double shifts and I was able to enjoy a completely unmolested weekend.
Then right before I went to bed last night I double checked the district calendar and realized there's a student/staff holiday for the next two days. Instead of being pleasantly surprised at an extension to my weekend, the thought of having a weekday off fills me with anxiety because it means I'm not getting paid. I even texted my old boss to ask her if she needed me to come in this morning.
Any recommendations on how to help me relax and make this time fruitful if I end up not having any work to do? I've never felt this gaslit by the Protestant work ethic this hard before.

I'm dreaming about getting disability and living from welfare

>>22583084
Why don’t you write? This is a literature board, after all.

What are your thoughts on being a lawyer? Is it a despicable career? Whether Shakespeare hated lawyers or not aside, every lawyer I’ve ever spoken to hates their career, even if they’ve made a lot of money and have a comfortable lifestyle. Being a lawyer seems like a de facto requirement for entering politics for some reason.

>>22583128
Not OP but where do you think that'll really get him?

>>22583133
Why does it have to get him anywhere?

>>22583136
What's the point in doing it if it won't do anything for him?

>>22583004
We used to have a city funded general hospital here. I knew a few of the security guards that were guarding it while it was defunct and awaiting demolition. They started a rumor that the hospital was haunted by the ghost of a baby that had died there. One of them got a tape recording of a baby crying and made a tape loop of it, stuck it in an air conditioning duct and let it run all night. It could be faintly heard through the whole bottom area of the building. Those faggots still probably think that it was real.

>>22583146
The absolute state of crab buckets.

>>22583184
You wanna try answering my question instead of avoiding it this time? I'll give you another shot, let's just forget your reply ever happened.

I'm gonna listen to Hootie and the Blowfish and play chess until I have to go to bed, hope you anons have a good day/night wherever you are.

https://youtu.be/xoW3bqnr7tw?si=hD-EOlI8SpdAMa5v

>>22583190
You never asked me.

>>22583073
Not hypocritical at all if you have experience of one but not the other.
I've seen shit thats made me consider the possibility of ghosts. Have yet to see or experience anything to make me believe there's a god.

>>22583207
Then why reply?

>>22583209
I like to think I have experiences with ghosts but I'm sure there's a scientific explanation to my experiences.

>>22583211
Because you are a crab bucket.

>>22583222
Thanks for conceding.

>>22583213
Idk man
What's the scientific explanation for a chair moving into the middle of a hall on a abandoned wing not once but twice at like 3 a.m?
Only scientific explanation is someone brought it out but me and the other guy are the only ones that go up there.
Entire building is locked down at 8pm.
The wing thats still active and in use isn't connected to the abandoned wing.
If this was the only eerie thing that I've seen I'd write it off but there's constant weird shit like this in a wing where tons of people have died.

>>22583231
Anyways I'm an obsessive person and I'm determined to get to the bottom of all this weird shit.
Tommorow im going to go up more frequently and stake the place out.
Also considering setting up a small camera

>>22583223
Yes, I concede that you have an exceedingly negative attitude about other people's lives for no discernible reason.

>>22583252
I don't, you're just a retard who can't read.

>>22583262
Keep doubling down. It wears well on you.

>>22583287
Is English your first language?

Wish i had a gf to milk me when I'm horny

this is a shot in the dark, but does anyone have a video where a former isreali special forces guy is giving testimony as to why he needs continued welfare? It's in a court room. Lets just say he is haunted by what he has done. The people he has killed come to him, sleeping and awake, to ask him why they died. He's completely ruined, can't control his bladder. I encountered it a couple of times on /pol/ like 5 years ago, I don't want to ask them because the last time I went there there was hard core pornography in the ad-banner and I'm trying to steer clear.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WKAVDYu6UOE

Is it as grim as this in other european capitals?

I've been a workaholic for a whole year now. I have to get a few things done and then I'll ne back on the dating scene. I don't give a fuck about failling.

I worry too much. I wish I could be more reckless.

I spend 3 years without a supervisor at work, but got a new one this past year. She’s a 40s woman with multiple graduate degrees and a stay at home husband. Whenever something has get done she never asks nicely. It’s always “I expect this” or “do this” and the workload keeps mounting because this bitch doesn’t know how to say no. Somehow I got passed up for the job she got promoted into I guess because I’m actually competent but not an ass kisser. Regardless, her tact has made me lose all motivation to do anything in this job. I think I will quit tomorrow. It bothers me to think I might have to ask her for a letter of recommendation so I can’t tell her off. I should just tell her to fuck off anyway. I’ll find some one else to write the letter.

>>22583146
Of course it will get him something, but not necessarily material gain. But then again maybe it will. How will he know if he never tries? It’s a dumb question. Imagine encouraging someone to paint and they go “okay but what do I get out of this” if you don’t want to paint then don’t but if that’s your thinking, that you only do things when they clearly and immediately provide material gain then you’ve already lost yourself and can’t be helped by any person. At that point, you should paint, or write, just to get in touch with your humanity again…

which bukowski book should i read first

I regret going to university but now that I have, I think I may as well go all the way for a terminal degree.

It seems that in America, a law degree is not required to become a politician but the majority of politicians do have a law degree. Should someone get a law degree if they want a job in politics then?

I got my degree from NEETU.

>>22583295
Why? Did a subtle twist confound you? I think not. Methinks thou forgeth a herring of scarlet robe.

>>22583848
Intentionally put yourself in situation wherein you will be forced to make difficult decisions.

I had this expectation of a social experience that I would have in university. So far it's been nothing but disappointment. I've been to two different universities. I lived in the dorms on one. Both universities have been so boring. They're these big campuses with fancy buildings but there's nothing to do. Even the attractions that are supposed to be fun, like the gyms, student unions, rock climbing walls are actually really boring after a week. The clubs are all lame and the events hosted by the university are equally gay. There's nothing really to do other than go to class and then go home. I was raised to believe in this "college experience" and everyone told me that my college years would be rhe best years of my life, but the only fun or excitement I ever have is when I'm doing things far away from school. I'm struggling to understand this. Are normalfags really that dull that this lifestyle is the peak of their lives? Am I missing something or doing something wrong? Or did universities used to be exciting and theres been some major social/cultural change?

>>22584084
Its the best period of peoples lives because they are young (but technically adults), usually the first time living away from home, surrounded by peers your own age with little responsibility. It might be dull, but the wagie life after is even more dull. So you are right in away.

>>22584109
I think a big part of the disillusionment is because I had a very turbulent adolescence. In high school I was running around the streets all night drinking and doing drugs so when I got to university I felt totally smothered by the environment. The campuses were small and very controlled. Kids were sneaking their first beers while I already webt through a whole phase of alcoholism. To me it wasn't really any kind of freedom. I actually lost freedom. And the dysfunction of my life up until that point left me a basketcase alienated from my peers. The stupid shit that the kids thought was fun was for me infantilizing. My problem is that as I've progressed into my 20s I'm realizing how abnormal I was. I learned that there was an innocence I lost early on and now I'm craving to experience that simple joy of a teenager getting away from home for the first time. But I'm too far gone now. I can't ever capture that or live that

>>22584143
Nah its over for you in that sense

>>22579080
There is no barbarian invasion, it's random heat death.

>>22584143
I can sympathize. I went through something similar. If you want some advice, it’s to accelerate into the lack of freedom. Deprive yourself of a freedom even more if you can. Hell, drop out and join the military with plans to go back to school later or join after school. I’m dead serious about this. You didn’t really have constraints during your formative years and although you might not realize it now you will appreciate having had them when you’re older. Accept that your teen years were just kind of fucked up and won’t serve you well in the future. Neither would uninhibited freedom right now before you in the future. The more you can experience what it’s like to have total degenerate freedom and as little freedom at all before your late 20s-30s the better off for it you’ll be.

Just realized how ugly I am and how shitty my life is. Damn. I guess I lull myself now or something.

>>22584189
I took the opportunity to do exactly that during covid. I dropped out and started working full time doing construction work. That was a desd end job and I want a more comfortable career so I'm back in school. I'm 24 now. I'm fortunate tthat this university is almost entirely older transfer students. The average student age is 25. I'm not entirely surrounded by teenagers, thank God, but I cant shake off that feeling of alienation anyway.

I've been in higher education for almost 4 years now in total and have failed about 75% of all my exams. Wasn't until last semester I decided to finally give up. Problem is I don't have any work experience either.

I'm not afraid of ending up homeless, what I fear is becoming homeless and learning it wasn't enough to lit a fire under my ass.

>>22584380
Like the Herman Hesse character that goes off to academy, fails, returns home, and drowns in the canal.

>>22584463
literally who

>>22584468
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hermann_Hesse

>>22584506
yeah but the character

>>22584509
I read several in short order. Though I recall the stories, I get the titles conflated. I am looking at his works, trying to narrow it down, and I just cannot find it. The protag is selected from his region to receive a full scholarship to a prestigious academy after graduating primary level of school that everyone else is attending. Being given too wide a berth in the academy, he falters without structure making specific demands of him. After a few years of non-productivity, he gets booted. He returns home to find all of his classmates, though engaged in menial work, to be well settled. He needs to find work amongst the same menial professions and finds himself years behind the others over whom he was supposed to tower intellectually. His graduation would have put him worlds ahead, and now his failure has wasted time and put him worlds behind. Barely scraping by as an apprentice when his peers were now journeymen, he took a walk one night, and was found the next day drowned. IIRC, Hesse leaves it to the reader to determine if the death is suicide or just another in the train of pitiful errors.

>>22584224
I think it was inevitable for people like us to not feel alienated in an environment like the university and it’s not because there’s anything wrong with us. It’s these times. Look at the prevailing dogma and then remind yourself that university’s job is to reinforce it. I’d argue, you don’t want this idealized university life simply because being an NPC comes along with that. Just be Machiavellian about it. Either study your passion or what’s practical. Do what you need to do to expand your success and your power. Use this time to find a worthwhile path and set out at on it. That’s really all it’s good for, a degree of self understanding.

>>22584380
I spend 6 and 1/2 years in undergraduate. 1 and 1/2 years was just being enrolled and withdrawn or waiting for the registrar to process my credits, but it was still a long time. I’ll probably get a PhD lol. I think Dick Cheney dropped out of undergraduate twice and dropped out of his PhD program.

I made some friends back during the "alt right" days in 2016/17. We've all since dropped that label but still maintain right wing reactionary views. What really bothers me is that since 2016 a lot of these guys went from being hardline anti semites to outright zionists who are now celebrating that Jews will exterminate the Palestinians. It's such a weird fucking phenomenon and I know that stupid gay Jew BAP is responsible for it

>>22584655
I'm majoring in philosophy which is my passion. I'm thinking about doing a double major plus minor. When I was a teenager I dreamed of being a lawyer and studying constitutional law. I think I'm way far off course for that, plus white male so there goes law school. But my university offers pre-law and paralegal studies as a minor which I might take just for the copium. For the second major I was thinking communications because I'ma good public speaker but a friend recommended I study some field in bussiness like marketing just because it's practical and employable

>>22584667
I spent one year at a university, dropped out and then went to community college for an AA. Covid happened so I dropped out of the CC for three years. Finally completed my AA this year and transfered back into the state university system as a junior. It's been 6 years since I started college.

As I read Moby Dick, I ponder whether I share characteristics in common with Melville, or if he was such a strong influence on the country that I was shaped in his image.

>>22584699
I’m going to law school in the Fall actually. I’m also a white male. You can go with a good LSAT if you want to. I broke the 170s and schools want me. I can’t go to Harvard, but I can go somewhere decent. Law is definitely not my passion. Philosophy, however, was my passion when I was younger, or so I thought. I mostly studied it on the side though. My formal degree program was economics. I hated it. I went to a top school but was unmotivated. I fucked around, withdrew, transferred, transferred back. I think I was 24 or 25 when I graduated.

If I can offer you some advice: forget about pre-law, communications, and marketing. All of that shit is useless. If you want to be a lawyer, you need a JD and you can get a JD with a high GPA, high LSAT, and a strong statement. That’s it. You don’t need any coursework. As for communications, it’s useless unless you want to be a journalist and manage to build a network as a comm student, but simply working for your student newspaper will serve you better if that’s your goal anyway. Marketing is a total waste of time. Trash degree. If philosophy is your passion, think about whether you want to do academic philosophy and get a PhD to do it. If you do, do whatever you have to do to get research experience before you graduate. Approach your professors and tell them you are interested in graduate school and want to know if they have any advice on how to get involved in research now. That’s if you want to do academic philosophy at a university. If you don’t then you know you’ll have to figure out something else. Writing for your school paper is not a bad idea regardless. Also, look into your school’s lit mag (and I’m sure they have one). It’s nice to know about in case you want to try to publish some poems or stories before you graduate, which will pay dividends if you ever try to publish either in the future.

>>22584707
So you’re a 6th year junior? Presumably you’ll graduate in 7 years? It’s not even that bad honestly. Most universities use 4, 6, and 8 years as success rate markers. And university is such a joke now that nobody gives a shit anyway. I almost respect you more for it lol. Don’t think I’d feel that way if it went beyond 8 though. At that point it’s kind of like ok quit fucking around dude.

Man, I really don’t know what to do for the next few months. I guess I should just get another apartment where my job was based and wait to see if I get new plans in the meantime.

>>22584757
I'll be getting my first Bachelor's in 2 years, so basically 8 years total. I do have the excuse that covid fucked up my education and tacked on an extra 3 years. I plan on getting more than one bachelors though and then I'll probably need to go for some kind of post graduate education. I can have two bachelors and a masters by age 30 so I guess I'm not doing too badly

>be incredibly depressed, anxious, poorly functioning person
>feel like I’m a 100% straight normal man
>improve mental health, feel happy and content, succeed in life
>feel like I’m an /lgbt/ weirdo and dislike being identified as a man
This is the opposite of what this Mongolian basket weaving board assured me was the truth, what gives?

>>22584896
You were previously not well adjusted to the sick society. Then you adjusted to the sick society and in doing so became sick yourself.

>>22584919
This sounds like the logic of a schizo desu

>>22585026
Yet.

>>22585279
>>22585279
new

>>22584896
>muh self satisfaction is le determiner of truth!
Swine mentality

I'm doing an introductory course to Sinology and the prof is expecting really indepth and detailed topics for papers. It's making me nervous sicne I can't come up with an idea precise enough.

Anyone of you fucks know a good idea for a topic related to Buddhism and China? I'm too mathsbrained for this.