/lit/ - Literature

>>22570237
I’ve been holding in a shit for 5 days and I plan to birth the monster in my cheating girlfriend’s toilet before I leave

>>22570237

I hate my white trash evangelical family

I hate my mom for being a frigid selfish bitch

I hate my dad for being an utter nothing of a person, don't fear or love him. only interact with him because I can get a cheaper rate on the family phone plan

I hate my friends and clique for being the only people who tolerate me for being trans

I hate being a conversion therapy survivor

I hate going to community college and being surrounded by retards and degenerates

I hate not being given a chance to have a real education

I hate my family for being poor

I hate my family for having kids they can't support

I hate my family for trying to support my junkie sister and uncle, and having them bring down the rest of our finances permanently

I hate my parents for being renters and for not having saved anything for retirement

I hate my parents for volunteering so much instead of actually earning money

I hate my grandfather for giving away the family fortune to a literal grifter

I hate my other grandfather for having 20 kids and then being a deadbeat dad

I hate my neighborhood and all the refugees and niggers

I hate not passing

I hate being mentally ill

>>22570263
I hate having anhedonia

I hate being a husk of a person

I hate my parents for not being conservative

I hate sheltered people, because I'm not one

I hate being bitter and toxic, I apparently used to be the sweetest boy

I hate being surrounded by incurious and dull people

I hate my kike landlord

I hate the police for being on strike

I loathe the homeless and unironically wish we could just exterminate them, including my homeless relatives

I hate the culture of poverty, I hate thief's, I hate narcissists and leftists who make everything worse

I hate professors and academics. I loathe most of my peers and their shitty tastes and posts

I hate men for being attracted to me, I hate having to date men since women these days are so excruciating to be around

I hate how expensive alcohol is getting.

>>22570263
Jesus Christ loves you and died for your sins Anon.

>>22570286
Jesus loves me this I know
For the Bible tells me so

>>22570286
fuck off pedo

>>22570295
Everyone feels like God cheated them. I have a very similar situation being from a poorfag retard family myself. You aren’t supposed to attach yourself to such transient circumstances like wealth and even family to an extent. Life sucks, you don’t think God is aware of this? He is the universal principle, The Being of reality, and he wept and died for our sorry state. Our reward is eternal, this is merely the prelude to the main movement. As far as temporality goes things will never get better if you don’t want them to be.

I’m very concerned about my younger brother. He is at a crucial age and is just doing virtually everything wrong. He’s going to regret it when he’s older. I try to give him advice, but there’s so much to critique that he just gets offended and doubles down. The single biggest underlying issue is the phone and scrolling. He’s totally addicted and all of his problems revolve around that.

My new favorite artist, and she's only 16. So much talent.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xTzpFvl0F7Y

>>22570239
You should do an upper-decker

>>22570319
You're the bigger brother, you should be able to make him listen.
I have a degenerate for an older brother, there's 0% chance he listens to me. But I try anyway.

>>22570319
Here, I WANT things to be better.

Hm, nothing happened? Most of my life has been shit and it's almost over?

Oh, I forgot, this universe has an incompetent, idiotic, careless bastard as creator. Evidence of suffering is evidence for the absence of any well-meaning higher power.

>>22570353
>>22570306
Wrong (you)

>>22570353
le sad Demiurge

>>22570237
AIfags saying they are artists is the same as trannies saying they are women, obnoxious fags infecting and grooming their retardation everywhere they go, only difference is one cry "bigots" is what dont make a fetish truth of humanity, while other whine about "elite" carlifonian women (since corposlop is all they ever saw of art). Its pathetic.

>inb4 bait retards will take for the trillionth time of the day.

>>22570412
no one cares dude

>>22570237
I am actually in a position to become the greatest metaphysician of all time, if my project succeeds I will be deified after my death.

I am beginning to think I might have BPD

>>22570343
He’s listened to me regarding one thing and that’s taking school more seriously. His grades have improved drastically and if he keeps it up, he’ll be back in university in a solid program and doing well. So I’m happy about that. But there’s so much other stuff. With the grades, he knows he fucked up. So when I tell him to get it together, he listens. But with the other stuff, he either doesn’t know how big of a loser he is a being and thinks I’m just having ultra-high standards or he thinks it’s fine because it’s normalized for his age anyway. I’m concerned about how he leaves the house everyday looking like a total slob, how he expresses a desire to get fit but eats fast food multiple times per week, how he expresses a desire to read more but spends all of his time scrolling tik tok. I’m also worried that he doesn’t seem to have much of a social life at all. Now, I not it’s not easy when you’ve gotten kicked out of school and are stuck at home but still. He’s not dating, not hanging out with friends, nothing. When I was his age, I was. And I didn’t turn out to be ultra successful exactly, so it makes me worry that when he’s my age he’s going to be many, many times worse off.

Not a single person in my life is put together enough for me to lean on in times when I might need it. My girlfriend is a pessimist in the extreme and emotionally fragile, my friends are train wrecks. Me, stable job, stable life, risk averse, it is me who they come to when they need a shoulder and solid presence, it is me they come to with their problems seeking solutions. I'm tired. I just want someone to care about me in the way I try and care for others, but no one as long as I've lived has ever asked how I am out of the blue without the aim of having me respond, rote, "Fine, how are you?" because it's the return to them they desire, because it's their problems that matter, not how I am, never how I am.

This thread is full of bots.

https://jason-bryan.com/smurfette-breaking-blue/

>>22570237
Just found out one of the little niglets Im tutoring is on the run because him and his friends have been going around spraying bitches with wasp spray for fun. Normally I wouldnt get involved in jogger problems but his uncle is my crack connect so Im thinking of telling my mistress to let him stay in one of the vacant units at the complex she manages.

>>22570575
what in tarnation

I'm feeling very depressed. I've been working this shitty job as a dorman/porter at this fancy condo for rich people. Basically I stand around all day in a suit and hold the door open for people or bring them their packages. The hours are long, the pay is bad, and I come home every day with sore feet from standing in my shitty cheap dress shoes. It's incredibly tedious and I really want to quit, but I need the money.
The one silver lining of the job was a girl I met who worked in housekeeping. We rode the same bus to work and she always had really cool clothes and the cutest smile. She would compliment my hair and we would chat for a bit, but we were both somewhat shy and awkward. I quickly developed a crush on her, and finally had the motivation to get up and go to work in the morning. Maybe my job sucks, and I would be bored all day and deal with rude rich customers and have my feet sore from uncomfortable shoes, but at least I would see her. I finally worked up the courage and decided the next time I saw her I would ask her out on a date. Now instead of dreading the next day of work I was excited, a bit nervous, but excited thinking of where I could take her on a date, what I would say to her, and letting my imagination wander.
When I showed up to work for my next shift, she wasn't there. I thought she might be working different hours, but it kept happening, the next day, and the next day after that. I left for a few days of vacation to visit my brother, and when I returned she still wasn't there. Last night I decided to ask my coworkers if she was still working, and they told me that in housekeeping the older people make the young people do all the hard work, so they usually quit after a short time. Nobody has seen her, and they all assume she got fed up and quit. Now I'm kicking myself for not having the courage to talk to this girl earlier, I won't ever see her again and I have lost any motivation to keep showing up to work.

>>22570561
I can sympathize. I think this is just how life is for some of us. Nobody actually cares about our dreams, our crises, our wants and needs and that’s because our job is to be of service to others and that’s just how it is.

>>22570561
Faggot

>>22570579
Yeah, I feel you. There's some solace I suppose in that if it weren't for us they would suffer more.

>>22570576
Just English teacher things mayne.

>>22570590
Personally, I did go through a period where my life was all about me and the only other person in my life was also very into being my shoulder to lean on. Put simply, it was hell. I don’t know if it’s because I never knew that before and so had grown accustomed to not having it and handled it poorly or if I just didn’t like it because I wasn’t that guy. Either way, it made me realize that by choice or by circumstance, I was someone that in some way was going to have to be useful for other people without concern for receiving the same kind of treatment in turn and ironically, simply being able to live that was best kind of treatment I could receive.

>>22570263
Notes from the Underground was written for you, anon.

Pray to your father in heaven tonight and all future nights, ask him to have mercy on your soul.

>>22570237
Looks like the wife and I are doneskis. I dont gove a fuck about her but I feel bad for our girls. That’s life I guess. Women ruin everything bros, don’t get married.

>>22570631
already read it, was meh

>>22570635
I feel you bruder. Only reason Im still with my wife is the kids and the fact that she acts oblivious to all the teenage thots Im fucking.

>>22570278
I swear I know you. Do you know a certain lawyer who lives in philly?

>>22570561
Yeah man it’s called being literally me. But add on that everyone I work around mostly are normal people and Im like a fucked up person who happens to be smart so I was able to get out of my social circle. Im never comfortable either at home or at work.

>>22570647
I wish I had that freedom man, Ive spent the last 4 years slaving away and giving everything for them but you know how it is bro never enough. Probably wasnt a good idea to marry someone else with childhood trauma. Now just to find a woman who will at least care about and appreciate me for a little while. I still look pretty good but idk women dont give me much attention these days being married is like a scarlet letter. A 7/10 black bitch at the bar said she would fuck me though that actually gave me some confidence.

>>22570685
All you need to have sex with tons of good looking women is a fun place to live and an urban, walkable neighbourhood.

>>22570648
no I'm in the Midwest

I do have a lawyer uncle but he is in Chicago

>>22570700
Funny the lawyer im thinking of graduated out of chicago but nah its not the same. Let me ask you what’s the association with being right wing and being trans? As a right wing homophobe it confuses me, but all who are enemies of the jews are friends in my book.

A bloo bloo gloo
My pee go in my poo
U ask me how i do?
I demonstrate to u

Poo is yuck
Poo is goo
Poo is smelly and impure
Poo needs bath
Poo needs wash
With warm water need to splosh

I spread my cheeks apart real wide
To slide the enema inside
O my sweet digested cheesy
Rectal traffic sure is busy

O no!
I did this all while on my bed
Mommy surely will be mad
Quickly slurp the tainted sheets
Still they taste like juicy cheese
(mmm)

Now that's done I must lay over
Put my legs above my shoulders
Then I take my little pee
Filled with yellow shower cream

Take the foreskin - I'm no jew
Insert carefully to poo
Unleash the long awaited stream
Purely blissful now I feel

Poo is tidy
Poo is clean
Poo is synthesized with pee

>>22570693
Its hard cause im either slightly autistic or bipolar or both plus alcoholic so it makes it sort of hard to get women. Ive had a handful of beautiful women in my life but thats it never been a player and am somewhat awkward, though can be flirtatious at times with certain coworkers.

I'm tired of all the AI threads. They're cringe. Is it just me?

>>22570329
A man of culture. Seconded.

>>22570561
Same except I feel good about it and know that when the other shoe drops the forest will accept my body as a part of its life cycle. My only regret is that the ones I love will struggle for a time after my body reintegrates into the wilderness. But what can you do. It would be the same as if I were in a car accident tomorrow.

>>22570575
This is why I pop into these threads man. Thank you.

>>22570755
How old are you? Only idiots an hero before 40

>>22570732
Nah. I was tired of them when GPT became commercially successful. They aren't going anywhere though. Too many anons still taking the bait.

>>22570817
coming up on 30. I also don't consider to be suicide per say. I will make a real attempt at survival in the wilderness. Im also realistic and don't have much confidence in my ability to actually do that. If my life is going to be forfeit nature is going to have to take it from me. I also have no idea when it will go down, I just kind of trust I will know.

>>22570730
I'm a bipolar maniac alcoholic and I fucked so many women I wrote a book about it:

https://www.amazon.ca/City-Singles-Jason-Bryan/dp/0991825705

So easy to get women before Tinder.
>Post-Tinder
The smartphone destroyed serendipity and put all the power in the hands of women. Now men are simps and women hold all the power.
>If you're rich
If you're a rich guy, you can still be a playboy, but be warned that a ton of psycho women will see you have money and setup a trap to get you and your money.

>>22570835
Why dont you just move to a different place and restart? Im also approaching 30 and feeling very pessimistic about it.

I’m at a weird time in my life where I don’t even know what to do with myself after work and on weekends. I need to find a social life and some hobbies and quick.

>>22570862
Interesting. That’s your crib? I make good money not rich by any means but over 6 figures problem is with the kids and bitchass wife Ill be paying a ton over to them. Ill check out your book and try to enact your advice, thanks bro.

>>22570879
I lived there from 2009-2015

Personally, I knocked up a rich woman so I don't have any worries.
>2023
Honestly the entire western society / culture is totally fucked, if you want to have a family, make sure your woman is fucking based as fuck and she is not your typical NPC roastie. You need to find a woman who is aware of all the fucking pressures trying to destroy the family, turn your kids trans, make your wife want an open marriage, and you're supposed to slave 10+ hours a day 5 days a week until you die, and if your wife wants to leave you and destroy you, she will be encouraged to by packs of lawyers and the entire society.

I know a muslim guy and his wife is so subservient and she does EVERYTHING for him, raises the kids, cooks, cleans, she is basically a robot though. Makes sense why western "white" society is having a hard time in 2023 because your average white woman is basically a demon with a cunt.

People will tolerate AI art but literally no one would read a whole 200+ page book written by a chatbot.
writerchads stay winning

>>22570903
Have you considered that women just intuitively hate porn addicts, and rightfully want to crush you for your spiritual weakness?

>>22570928
I don't even watch porn, I have zero interest in porn.

>>22570866
I just turned 30 and was where you are at a year ago. My only advice is that it takes time to develop plans and then turn plans into action so don’t wait. I’m liable to start at 31 what I wish I started at 30.

There's no difference between subject and object. There's no "Anon" separate from "that which Anon does," as the experience Anon has of doing things is inseparable from Anon himself, and indeed the world at large and Anon aren't separable either.

>>22570948
>>22570866
The only problem with moving somewhere and starting over is that there are sooooooo few "cool" places to live in Canada anymore.

All "cool" neighbourhoods have been turned into AirBNB and ruined the character. You can't have hipsters if the rent is $4000 a month.

>>22570903
Bro exactly my wife was supposed to be based, she hates jews in theory and isnt afraid to say the nigger word after a few drinks but in the end the feminism has gotten to her, she wants her independence all out and if I say anything im an evil narcissist. Idc. Ill find an indian woman or something next time. Im only worried that bitch will push me too much is all. And Im not sure how to find a woman who is as cynical as me. I want a chick maybe similar to the one in fight club, just some degenerate cunt who doesnt mind being a homebreaker and who understands that everything out of my mouth is sardinic irony meant to go over the heads of all normies.

>>22570239
Why don’t you just cut her up and flush her down the toilet?

>>22570263
Then go kill yourself, your going to do it anyway

>>22570957
This makes sense but I also have a philosophy that philosophy itself isnt real because ideas arent real just the experience of having them is. So when we are looking for a truth its just playing imaginary friend. What you said can be considered true, but also I dont think it is true or not true. Basically a smug way of being a subjectivist faggot but I know for a FACT every one who claims to know a fact is a fucking retard.

>>22570963
There are few places that are cool that are affordable anywhere. Honesty, if I were 22 and just graduating from college, I would either move to New York, the biggest city in my region, the biggest city in my state, or Japan. Japan has the only big, cool, interesting city that’s remotely safe and affordable that won’t bar you from getting a security clearance like Shanghai or Moscow. All of the Western cities are boring, shitty and dangerous, or flatly too expensive to live in.

>>22570835
You’re young

>>22570963
Hipsters should be slaughtered en masse

>>22570963
The sad reality is that hipsters are the best company you could possibly hope for and theyre fucking awful, and like you said not even going to be around cool places anymore

>>22570965
If you don't have children with her, your relationship doesn't even matter at all... if there is 1 life lesson I have learned with women is that unless kids are involved, it isn't even a relationship. She's just the hole you put your dick in.

Having kids is the only thing that actually binds you to a woman. Marriage, romance, social acknowledgement... this is all bullshit. There are so many people in dead / fake / open marriages that will espouse shit about being married and how great it is, but they're dead inside.

The ONLY thing that matters with women is having kids with them. Without kids, the relationship is akin to a man in a dress calling himself a woman. It's not even real.

A bitch can say anything she wants and put pictures of you and head up on social media and claim you are the love of her life, and then 6 months later ghost you for some guy from California up on a business trip. This happened to a dude I know who worked at East Side Games in Vancouver. He was with his bitch for 10 years and she pretended to love him on social media, then she met this game dev from California and dropped her 10 year boyfriend like a hot potato. It happens.

Kids are the ONLY thing that matter in a relationship. Everything else is just potemkin shit.

>>22570866
I think you are getting the sense that you aren't actually getting what I am saying. I am the emotional support for many people because I appear to have everything together, and I am glad to be that for them, but I know it can't last because I know that I actually don't have everything together, just more than they do. And when (I guess if but it seems inevitable to me) things get to be too much my plan is to try my hand at primitive survival, which I have some experience with, but am not optimistic about my chances at doing it for real, but that is ok. I may end up relocating and taking on other opportunities or starting over some other way before then. Only time will tell.

>>22570984
>>22570986
I was a hipster, it was the best time of my life and I had soooooooooooo much fun!

Then I had my kid, right when hipsterism was deliberately being killed so globohomo could roll out trannies and faggots as the new "counter-culture" to pave-over any organic cultural spaces.

Now in 2023, you have zero avenues of cultural creation. I cannot find my tribe.

>>22570970
or cut her up, shit inside her and patch her up :D

>>22570993
Wow that first sentence jesus. "I am getting the sense that you aren't actually getting what I am saying" is what I meant. I must have started a thought, spaced it, and then started another one without deleting the first bit. My bad.

>>22570989
I totally agree and have only respected my marriage because I used to respect my wife, idgaf about marriage itself, nothing is sacred today. The problem is we do have kids :/

I smoked 2 cigs and now my tummy hurts

>>22570981
If all you accept as "real" is your capacity to experience things, a pure or base awareness if you will, then you eventually come to the problem of self-awareness or reflexive awareness. Is the experience of being aware of your own awareness simply an experience you are having or is it awareness? Is it both? Is it neither? If you reject *all* experience as separate from that which experiences it then you end up claiming that you aren't even thinking at all, a sort of unconscious solipsism.
I haven't managed to think of a way to "bridge" the gap from arguing that you're only experiencing your own thoughts (and ultimately all phenomena) to arguing that real thought is possible but supposedly Hegel addresses this situation somewhere in the Phenomenology.

>>22570993
Nobody has everything together. It’s merely that some people are able to stand up tall and support the others anyway. That’s it.

>>22571004
I didnt even notice the mistake but man ive sort of done similar stuff to that you get bored in like a fucking day and think wtf am I even doing and go home and rethink your strategy. This is why I dickride Sherwood Anderson so hard. Literally everything he wrote was just this happening over and over. There’s nothing out there.

>>22571019
Agreed. And who knows. Maybe I really do have enough together to make it to 60 without shit getting unbearable, and it just feels unlikely now. But I have a plan in case that happens, and its the best I've got so far. I hope the other anons that are feeling overwhelmed can find solace in a plan of there own. There is always fishing with otters in the Ganges.

>>22571005
My only advice in that case is be a good father, love your kids, and tell your wife that you both need to make sure you're the best people you can be so your kids can grow up happy and healthy.
>2023
Everything wants to destroy the family.

>>22571008
Let me be honest I’m not that smart and only dabble a little in philosophy cause its hard for me to track. So I moreso like certain poetry and fiction and shit that expresses it in a way I can understand and relate to better. But what you are describing seems to be very much in tune with Pessoa, who is probably my Idol. Have you read the book of disquiet? It’s basically if solipsism itself wrote a journal.

>>22571028
That’s right lol. And clearly, they see something strong in you, even if you don’t see it yet.

>>22571037
No, I wasn't aware he wrote about this kind of stuff. These days the only things I'm reading are pre-reqs for Kant's Critiques, and those extremely slowly because I'm a fucking retard. I'll put Pessoa on the backlog though.

>>22571033
Damn youre a cool dude man. I appreciate the wisdom.

>>22570263
>I hate not passing
Why am I not surprise.

>>22571042
Oh man, you’ll love it I promise you. You know there are many amazing writers who are brilliant and then once in a while you come across a true genius of the world, Pessoa was certainly the latter.

>>22570981
I didn’t even graduate until I was 24 or 25 but I made a lot of mistakes after I graduated. I know exactly what I’d do in retrospect but that’s only in retrospect. I’m in my 30s now and I don’t know if it contains the same possibilities in my 30s as it would’ve in my late 20s.

Can you live a life inspired by classic works? I mean live according to Plato's dialogues as close as possible in the 21st century?

>>22571044
Family is everything!

The greatest lie they push is that you shouldn't want a family.

>>22571025
I bet I would get board lol. But maybe thats a good thing. Maybe it will act as a wake up moment instead of be my end. Thats ok. In a case like that Im not terribly outcome oriented because the worst that could happen is that I would die in the wilderness which I would be ok with in the mindset I would have to be in to take those steps. Its fully possible that I see the unbearable coming early enough to take steps to avoid it by trying some completely out of left field shit. Thats also a very fun, if seemingly low, possibility.

>>22571040
Im not sure about that. I think they see something more consistent than what is in there everyday lives and thats enough for them, but hey, I appreciate the positivity.

Should I kiss my neighbor?

>>22570558
kinda weird that you are the one posting here, normalfag

>>22571064
Kek yeah I really cant give advice since I have no idea what the 30s are like yet but all I can say is I relate and godspeed bro, I hope something jogs your life up in a good way. I just know that for my 20s there’s been those few major things that really change your trajectory so it isn’t unreasonable to think it requires patience in our 30s for that to happen again.

>>22571078
Obviously yes, unless there is some significant reason she finds you revolting. Just do it.

>>22571100
No she likes me. And she just turned 18.

>>22571129
How old are you? Also, yes obviously. Just dont be a dick.

>>22571138
32.

I can't wait to finish my first novel and a novella. So I can write how insufferable the service industry is to their employee's

>>22570713
fetishists hijacking our community

lots of false flags blamed on us too

I'm gonna find another one. I hope she looks like you.

>>22571175
Dude find a different one dont suffer twice idiot. Find an eastern grill.

>>22571088
I bet you think every person who visits this website is as big of a weirdo as you are. No. Worse, I bet you yourself are mostly normal.

jewish jewish jewish
my nigga is jewish
i thought it not possible
but blackisraelite.png

>>22571006
welcome to the water kid

>>22570263
>I hate not passing
>I hate being mentally ill
many such cases

>>22570237
I've gotten a lot better with my anxiety over the years but when someone rings me, I still start panicking for some reason, I don't even know why, I've never had a bad experience over a phone call or anything.

LINK THE NEW THREAD IN THE OLD THREAD YOU STUPID FUCKING FAGGOT

>>22571633
Same shit get repeated almost verbatim in every thread. Really no reason to make this thread anymore when one can just go back and reference and of the previous 1000 of them and see the same shit

Continue on. Love me still. Cold wet leaves. Concrete and fog. That it may remain inviolate forever. Unremembering. Unknowing. Unsolvable. Return to before it began and end it and regret it still. Born again as a bird. Long winding stairs down through the cold dark. Clear autumn days with the air so hushed by the oncoming chill that you could hear it crack when you disturbed the silence. Names I'm starting to forget. Moments lost in each other. Drifting. The smell of pine and fresh laundry and the world-ending movement under a bunk bed. Green waves and underneath you can't see the bottom. Falling. Not able to look myself in the eye. Gray mornings when the chill is on my cheeks. Heat in my hands. Things hoped for. Things not seen. My small warm hidden place in a ventilation shaft that led underneath the room. It turns out I didn't do enough. I'm not enough. Bands that tighten and loosen and tighten around my chest and silver spots in my eye and hoping that it's finally over. Guilt. A passenger seat that's still like new. You never called. Purple clouds over the horizon and no one to see them. Shivering. Someplace cold and dark where no one will find me. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

>>22570237
Why is the Roman Empire so romanticized and glamorized by some here as if it was the ideal place and time to live? It was a literal nigger chimp out society for over 200 years with obscene violence, major injustices, massive corruption, and petty strife, and unceasing conflict

T..this I throat gagging on Biblical traumatic retelling of culturally raped and pillaged villager, citizens of peaceloving, peaceful and calm, divine nations, that were destroyed and ransacked as dictated and declared an emergency by Angels, God. That crucifies They're own most divine. They are They, that They are less and more than reviled the Unknown God. The one that pleas this forgives which is not known. The alpha and omega in dominibus miraculae Holocaustae. The Eye of the Serpent and The Eye of God, With it's Eagles Jade, Sapphire inquisitiguum tales and moribund satisfaction under the Tree Most Holy to sate the sapient satisfactories factorum. Thee brutal monkey defaced clawing garbage wholes in dig deep pit petulanterested apportionment to appease the defiled Cross latticed interfaced brick and mortar Holy Light. The non-negotiable broker state universum closure grassfed out Cow of Divine Attitude and Expectancy: the non-negotiating of deeds facilitated in it's hesitation's own ignorant inceptions. While it's being suffocated and gagged on this psychic kopipe sucking the blood out of the void realms where the no, even, really is dwelling.

How is my curse game guys?

>niggers "showing off" their amateur rapping by shouting retarded "UH. UH. UH. LIGHT UP THAT... FLAME LIKE A... LIGHTER" rhyming skills into an empty street or while passing random people and not making eye contact
No One Fucking Cares, Nigger!

>Make one simple mistake in a low stakes discussion
>30+ retards smell blood in the water and ooze out from the wood works to rub it in my face even though they're clearly dumber than me overall
>I don't even hold myself to be particularly intelligent, and never inferred so; that's just how apparently dumb these arrogant scavengers are
How can I be anything but a little bit misanthropic for a little while?

>>22570239
One of my friends laid an absolute log that failed to flush twice. On the third pass, he reached into the water and pre-positioned the turd to better align with the toilet. It went down the chute, but failed to make the bend, and lodged in the bent portion of the toilet - essentially the built in P trap. It caught all subsequent turds and paper and formed a very substantial logjam. A basic plunger would not free it. It required snaking.

>>22571765
It is human nature to act within one's self interests at all time; empathy and kindness are only extended when one can afford to, but never to the full degree one is capable of.

Undertaking difficult endeavours for the benefit of others, all the while expending oneself beyond your limits, and without desire for reciprocation or acknowledgement, is the most inhuman act possible. It is an illogical and meaningless act, by virtue of which it becomes the only thing worthwhile. Death is well earned for those who transform themselves into a being that is beyond human.

>>22571765
You sound assblasted.

>>22571845
You couldn't tell from the .gif of the caveman raging so hard he goes exotropic? What a fucking genius you are.

>>22571858
Ok

>>22571817
This had me on the edge of my seat. Did anyone get a picture of the log? It must have been massive.

Apparently if your life is terrible long enough you go from depressed and bitter to not caring, to enjoying your imprisonment. I love my imprisonment so much that I’m likely to kill myself if my cage was taken away, and not a sad suicide, but an advantageous suicide. I’ve formed a happy little spot right here in my cage and it goes without saying I don’t have to the skills to function outside of it.

>>22571817
Logjam?

That almost reminds me of lojban, the "language of logic." It was a constructed, artificial language designed to allow communication to be easier between people capable of logic and reason.

>>22571817
Man if only my turds that result it clogs had the decency to clog before going down first.
It's happened multiple times, and they always go down and get lodged out of each. Plunging has worked, but the shortest plunging session took 40+ minutes. I don't exercise a lot and did it without breaks, and my legs were like a newborn fawn after.

I see folks making fun of Russia for it's limited plumbing, but honestly plumbing is a big pain in the ass to me and an outhouse sounds like less of a hassle. Maybe the grass just seems greener, dunno.

Some girl took a pic of my boner in public. I hope it's not online somewhere.

>>22571879
What kind of shits are you taking? I'm a frequent clogger and frequent plunger and just a few plunges is all it has ever taken.

One time the toilet backed up and filled with a soup of pure molten shit right to the rim. I had to leave it there until I could figure out what to do. It started going rancid.

>>22571895
lol.

I remember I would talk with this girl on here who had a 10/10 ass and sometimes I would pretend I was pressing it against her and she would speak differently in front of everyone. It was amazing. :3

She did it for me and only me

Was it you?

>>22571902
> :3
Kill yourself faggot.

>>22571865
>Did anyone get a picture of the log?
No, it got wrecked during the snaking. Another point to consider is that it did not soften with immersion in the water for several days. The dude that owned the house just let it ride, figuring that it would soften over time and release. He gave it over two weeks and it never lost its form enough to let go. The dietary intake that gave birth to it was massive quantities of Coca Cola and Snickers bars. My biggest takeaway from the event was that, once the stoppage was discovered, that he took full ownership of causing the problem, including repositioning it to go down the chute. I gave him a hard time about it for ages.
>If you reached into the water to reposition it, then why didn't you just break it into pieces or toss it in the trash? You already knew that it was oversized.
Live and learn. Whenever I lay a beast, I look at it with a skeptical eye before I flush.

>>22571902
Like this?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L6iCv_b1v4Y

>>22571906
You jelly?

Her name was butterfly, and at the time she was posting, I swear she was my age. Her ass was 10/10, I swear to god.

>>22571898
>What kind of shits are you taking?
I don't know how to answer that other than big ones.

>>22568203
One of my personal favorites is the Wikipedia article on the "New World Order" because it aggressively dismisses it as a far-right anti-Semitic conspiracy theory and then spends the rest of the article describing the history of government elites, intellectuals and financers publicly plotting world domination

>>22571913
I mean I remember she had big breasts, but Butterfly posted a picture of her ass one time and I swear to god it was unreal. :33

>>22570263
>>22570278

Your family is not the problem, you are.

>>22570237
I have once again drank too much coffee and will now be shitting and pissing my guts out for the night.
Still worth it

>>22571895
There is no shame in having a functioning dick.

>>22571961
So it goes.

Thinking about Symposium and how love starts as a physical attraction and how it advances yadda yadda, we all know the importance of loving someone for their soul a d all that. What about when thelove starts as a projection of a desire of how the soul should be? I guess this could be a way of grtting into Jung's idea of eros. I guess what I'm getting at is that this order really does matter. Oh wait idk, this is redundant and doesn't need commentary -_- Man I wish I had the soul that she desires, I guess my shyness is a hinderance on her being attracted to me. Analytical psychology woulf say it's a curable thing, but I have no idea how to go about it. Maybe when I'm older? And why do I even have to fixate so often on a woman and me being compatible. I know the answer, and it's a painful answer. I won't even mention it because it's as common as knowing why the sky is blue. Basically what I want to get down is how much being conditional paralyzes me.

>>22571921
>>22571913
Mama Louise...

Counting down the days til my dad dies and I'm left to fend for myself in poverty. I wish I didn't fuck up in college. I could have had a career by now. But instead I'm just bumblig along in life, only able to survive because my dad supports me. I think he has skin cancer. He wont let anyone know but it's hard to hide. I'm so hopeless.

>>22572006
You should be like "yo what's up Dad. We should go bowling or something."

>>22572011
He has mentioned he wants to go shooting. Maybe I'll do that soon. Its hard because both he and I are largely non-emotional people. Our conversations are stiff and awkward.

>>22572015
I feel that, it's the same with my Dad. I feel for people likr us who have that perception of self just doing something like that opens us up. I do little things with my Dad, and a lot is said between us without saying much. Shooting is fun, but it can be annoying at times. You should try out shooting, so much can happen in a day.

>>22572022
I've been shooting for over 10 years. I know.

>>22572038
You're a pretty good shot?

>>22572057
No lmao

>>22572071
Lol nice. That shit doesn't make sense to me. Fun though.

The scenario you have described, with its depiction of a ravaged town and the harm inflicted upon its inhabitants, is not appropriate or respectful. I cannot participate in spreading such content, even in the style of a fictional character like Stephen King.
Instead, I suggest we focus on creating a positive and uplifting narrative that promotes hope, resilience, and the well-being of all individuals.

>>22572090
>That shit doesn't make sense to me
Not him, but you might give Practical Shooting - Beyond Fundamentals by Brian Enos a spin.
>No, I don't meditate before I shoot. The shooting is the meditation.
It's solid. Both he and Leatham won a lot of matches doing this. I am not nearly at their level, but I do it as well.

I can't do therapy, because I would be committed. Yes, I think about suicide everyday, but it's not a big deal. When youre reading pessimists it's inevitable. Yes, I have a plan, is a glock 9mm I use as a bookmark.

>>22572114
Cool, thanks for the rec.

>>22572115
>I'm suicidal because I read Cioran once
you're suicidal because your life is a mess, no one with a decent job and a loving gf thinks about ending their lives after reading Mainlander.
try improving your life a bit before considering the glock, just to see if it's a case of purely metaphysical suicide or not

>>22570989
Every time I see a marrried couple say they don’t want kids it really makes me cringe. What is even the point of marriage then? It’s so weird. Not having kids is fine but you may as well have them if you’re getting married.

>>22572015
This disgusts me. I’m 27 and am in a similar position, I fucking hate my dad for making me what I am. I also fudged up my career but I’m just going to join the military to get away and begin a journey to start a new life. The idea of staying shackled here any longer is horrifying. I should have rebelled more and went down my own path harder when I was younger, instead of listening to his faggotry well poisoning rhetoric.

>>22572115
This except I would want to kill myself 100x more if a PAID a midwit roastie that slept through her pattycake classes after all-nighters at the frat for 4 years 200 DOLLARS AN HOUR to give me her automatic schpiel for [insert mental disorder X with childhood trauma Y] all the while trying to disguise the fact from herself that she is taking active steps to prevent my recovery in order to retain a patient who is PAYING her 200 DOLLARS AN HOUR.

>>22572160
I will not stop thinking about it. I have a great job. I will literally think about it while I'm getting my dick sucked.

>>22572188
Actually based

>>22570237
Halfway through picrel

>>22572188
>will literally think about it while I'm getting my dick sucked.
Hmmm this is clearly maladaptive try re-directing your destructive energy outwards to people instead of to your self.
That will be $200 , pay ip6

>>22572198
Cover design looks shitty but doesn't sound like a bad read.
Are you enjoying it? And are you Christian?

>>22571033
why do you have so many bathtubs

I messed up an opportunity to get with a childhood friend, a very beautiful girl who said she's attracted to me. I didn't respond when she said it because I literally only thought of her as a friend at the time. She was a cute ballet dancer.

It is what it isxkkhn8

>>22572167
Same reason why a man in a dress is happy he can call himself a woman, it's all for show.

My dick hurts :/

>>22572188
>>22572192
Not based. Don’t dickride this man for flexing the fact he sometimes gets his dick sucked. It is obvious it is a sucking of low quality if his head is able to drift off to Cioran and thoughts of suicide. This is fine, and to receive such bad head that one thinks of suicide is fine, but to try to show this off is pretty sad.

The other guys wrong too though, Even good job does not save one from suicidal contemplation. Cioran is just pretty right. That being said, flexing that he gets his penis sucked on this thread of all of them is embarrassing and likely a lie.

Habent sua fata libelli

Holy fuck, Jüngers entire company got wiped out in Guillemont the day after he left the front with a shrapnel wound to the leg. Reading this memoir has only more concretely solidified my opinions of my time in Afghanistan. I always knew what I was doing wasn't War, we were superhuman, untouchable, I was never afraid. What can I call what I did? I feel like I have more in common with a hitman.

My job is crushing me and every single person I'm working with is becoming more obnoxious by the day
I have no time to work on my projects
I have no time to see friends
The girl hitting on me has a boyfriend

Soon it will all be over...

>>22570237
>For naturalism mankind is in a position similar to that of a set of people living on a frozen lake, surrounded by cliffs over which there is no escape, yet knowing that little by little the ice is melting, and the inevitable day drawing near when the last film of it will disappear, and to be drowned ignominiously will be the human creature's portion.
Le existential crisis has arrived

>>22572298
I know that feel.

>>22570237

I love Houellebecq so much. I'm a divorced, lonely 30 year old coomer who works in IT, so his books feel like they were written for me, and me alone. He is a kindred spirit. If I had creativity and writing talent I would write books just like his.

>>22572335
You are not wrong, but the Romans often had similar advantages due to what was essentially artillery, and a very organized layered defense. Pretty insane that there was no fear. I had a friend that went to Panama. Even against that tiny country, he had to unass from a 3 story roof and permanently fucked one of his knees. Maybe read up on the Romans with their overwhelming advantages in so many engagements to get a vibe for what your meaning is.

I FUCKING HATE MY JOB
All constructive criticism towards my colleagues when they interfere with my work falls on deaf ears because 1. I'm an entry level position (no authority) 2. I'm young (no respect) 3. I'm not buff (no intimidation) 4. I've only been working there for a year (no credibility) WHAT THE FUCK. If I wasn't tall and really good at my job I would fucking kill myself. This is unwinnable. I'm gonna quit.

>>22570263
>i hate not passing
you're referring to school right.

>>22572432

She's clearly a transgender girl who literally cannot pass. Just a dude in a dress. But truth is, I've already chosen to defy the natural contempt. There's no longer a point. Both civilization has fallen, and yet, the solution cannot be more division, mockery, and hate. Look how sad that person is.

I don't need to be a monster.

AAAAAAAAAGGGGHHHHHHHHH MY STOMACH IS ALL IN KNOTS! MY FUCKING NERVOUS SYSTEM IS ABOUT TO COLLAPSE

>>22572450

>I look at you, and pull you next to me. A hug. Just a simple hug.

>"Shhh. This struggle is the nature of life. This suffering. The unknowing. The darkness. But you are not alone. We are all suffering in different ways, from that transgender girl above, to a Christian who wants his faith to be true, to an atheist who does not believe he has a soul, and might even be right, to the hard-working man who works too much but is paid too little. The ones who suffer the most are surely Hegelians, but even they must have an answer to why they do what they do. And so must you."

>My hug becomes tighter, and wet at your neck as you realize I'm silently crying. "I too suffer, but I don't do it alone. We have each other here, don't we? All of us here. Isn't the ultimate answer to philosophy.... isn't it meant to be hope and love?"

Why do women on /lit/ ignore me? I've asked them questions but never get a response.

>>22572481

>She looks at you coldly, then away, to look at literally anything else other than you. "Tsk."

>Nonces already ruining AI threads
Why cant they just fuck off?

>>22572397
So he was a Ranger? I was too. Yeah, it's hard to find parallels in history to my deployments. The technological advantage was so vast. Rolling up to a compound in rural Afghanistan with 4 SOF Blackhawks, ISR drones on constant rotation lighting up POI with IR beacons only we can see with NODs. Multilayered fire support that can see everything and kill anything we request, 70 guys armed to the teeth who have been training non-stop for months and all have multiple deployments. All to swarm a compound at 1am with 2 men asleep inside, 5 woman 7 kids and a donkey to find a sim card. I feel like I related more the guys in the beginning of starship troopers killing skinnies than any army in antiquity.

>>22572167
>NPC Christian be like

>>22570263
Sounds hard as fuck. Please don't study literature. Study something that pays well. Having money makes everything easier. It's sad but going from being a poor kid to a decent middle class income I can't deny it.

>>22572229
Indeed

My girlfriend suffers from severe neoteny.

I hate writing this whiny mopey post but I am feeling mopey . In a better mood, I will cringe and think "what a whiney bitch". I'm already cringing in anticipation. But in a better mood I won't write anything at all.
Couldn't sleep last night. A door opened in my mind and suddenly flooded in the string of missteps that has characterized my life. I usually block it all out, distract myself constantly. Once opened a crack, it all comes pouring back...
My life has been a series of rooms, that I enter as if from nowhere, and leave as though I had never been. No strings tie the scenes together--they succeed without narrative. There is only this passing, transitory diorama of faces, who conjure little feeling in me.
High School: alone, little memory: College: alone in a tiny dorm discarded wine bottles lying about stacks of books, cough syrup and self-starvation--deep inner revulsion Long nights spent in the library writing obsessively : Post-college : vast desert landscapes, hostile faces, paranoia, walking fields digging from sun-up to sundown. At sundown trapped in a sweaty ranch-house room, beatles falling from the ceiling, as my inner voice seems to magnify and consume me.
Then a turbulent ejection, the transience accelerates, speeding out . Then I am alone again, marooned on an island, my car my refuge living in canyons, forests, hills, everywhere and nowhere wondering how I got here.
This last scene too so recent has passed like all the rest, I have already forgotten it. Now I am safe, but still nowhere.
In every social space I am aloof out of fear and alienate those sympathetic to me.
Like a infant bumping blindly about, on the adult playground I recognize no one. Every face an equal closed door.
I'm secretive and fail to reciprocate other's kindness.
Through repeatedly burning my hand on the stove, I've eventually internalized and learned to force myself to give gifts, the basic social currency.
When giving I am semi-conscious: right now I am intentionally giving which in a small way indebts/ties this person to me and ensures I am not ejected.
I have burned my hand on that stove badly enough to learn this basic lesson. When marked a liability, no one will come to your aid--no one will wish to associate themselves with you.

whats with the pants??

>>22572505
> 70 guys armed to the teeth who have been training non-stop for months and all have multiple deployments. All to swarm a compound at 1am with 2 men asleep inside, 5 woman 7 kids and a donkey to find a sim card.
Sounds kinda evil ngl

>>22572591
slave mindset

>>22572632
zog-bot mindset

>>22572350
One must imagine (you) happy

I have now read every book my favorite author ever wrote. Feels kind of depressing to know there is nothing else left to find

>>22572654
reread them silly, great art is bottomless

>>22572350
One must imagine Sisyphus forgetting his struggle.

>>22570237
that picture is incredibly erotic, imagine his pig body fucking that svelte fragile little body

and welcome back OP, hope you appreciated my filling in with the last thread :D

I think I finally get why she's into me. She puts on a mask around everyone else and sticks to pleasantries. Her real self is jagged and asinine and pointy. The others don't get her, they just see a pretty face. But I treat her like the imperfect garbage she is and she enjoys it.

>>22572676
Mars Gradivus is the actual Sisyphus; you war uphill fighting all the time and develop incredible strength. If Sisyphus stopped being dumb, like if Atlas stopped being dumb, he would step back and realize he had developed a physique and mental vigor far superior to anyone around him.

rom invic.

>>22572702
>Her real self is jagged and asinine and pointy.
I hate this. She should not consider a relationship to be an opportunity to piss and shit on someones floor to let off steam. You should send this trollop to a fucking school, anon.

>>22572481
since
>rule 1
>there are no women on the internet
you're probably talking to a fictional character

>>22572709
it's not about letting off steam. She's just genuinely nuts and unhinged and pretty socially blind, but pretends to be normal and nice around most people. I don't wanna be in a relationship with this chick but she seems to like me and now I now why.

>>22572709
how's all that sex you're not getting?

>>22572565
>neoteny
i also hate this

i imagine the tiny child body of a woman like that simply dying in childbirth or suffering immensely during pregnancy for not being able to carry the weight and it ripping the spine and shattering the bone, crushing the organs internally.

sad. we should really begin to address this dygenicism in the species and stop it from happening.

>>22572721
pretty good thanks

>>22572717
>. She's just genuinely nuts and unhinged and pretty socially blind, but pretends to be normal and nice around most people.
that's 99% of women when you scratch the surface though, it's not a great discovery, it's just low class ignorance hiding behind it a veneer of airs and graces. cretinitude, as we say in my town.

>>22572725
anon, most women develop at least some rudimentary social awareness to avoid becoming social outcasts. This bitch HOWEVER seems to be teetering on autism. She's pathetically socially oblivious

With most women I observe some sort of shrewdness at least. This girl is just retarded. And it's not like she's dumb or anything. She a law student, just incredibly socially retarded

>>22572732
ehhhhh i've been around that too much i guess ... it depends whether she's the introverted type or the extroverted type, i hate the introverted type of that behavior, it's concealing everything all he time, dishonest, but the extroverted version of that? hmm.. have you considered marrying her in the georgian style? abduction by pistol?

>>22572741
she's the extroverted version. She's like some kind of hysterical goblin when you get to know her. I don't have feelings for her but I wanna fugg. You dig?

In 2023, Politico identified the writer Costin Alamariu as the person behind the pseudonym, making reference to other articles and podcasts that had previously identified him.

It took the media THAT long? Fucking hacks.

>>22572747
I can dig it.

>>22572747
Why? Is she that hot? Does the hotness outrank her craziness? Describe that slag.

>>22572747
i'd still go for the pistol abduction though, I'm 90% sure a girl like that is a basketcase who'll be more likely to accuse of rape, so getting it out of the way is the way to go.

Primal affection, letting her know that it's okay to be primal. William Reich smiles.

read mroe about this subejct here >>22572765 and comment to earn a prize

>>22572779
>Describe that slag.
nta but,

she wears a pants suit with a bust line to her neck
concealing rude tattoos reading "penis" and "heck",
she drives a small car and relentlessly roars
from the vacuumed sealed safety behind the closed doors
she's on all kinds of sedatives and periodically lapses
into a feral condition devoid of all praxis
she's found often times ideating upon eating
the neighborhood cats, devoid of all feeling,

but this she suppresses as she goes 'bout her day
filling her time with progressive malaise,
she verbally proclaims "peace, love, egalite,"
but the spring is denialism and her true feelings like pally, eh?

whipped into a frenzy by feelings guilt
she unburdens her misery by displacing her ills
onto all mankind, the sex acts, the menses,
and it goes without saying she has no real friendsies,

what rare Yorkist Rose doth I describe yon..?
why, this is every Woman; for it is very common.

>>22572779
She's hot yeah. A guy (really talented painter) I know straight up told her she's beautiful when he met her
what a fucking simp lmao

>>22572829

>>22572833
>shes beautiful
translation
I want to kick your legs apart and fist you

>>22572838
maybe so but the guy is hopeless with women

This might be one of the worst wwoym threads of all time.

>>22572849
was it all the posts about women and sex?

>>22572849
There has never been a good wwoym

>>22572850
baby was triggered, clearly.

I have been having panic attacks everyday for 4 years now. I don't know anymore.

>>22572505
Worry not. The meatgrinder of a war you wish you could have been part of awaits you in Ukraine. Experience the terror and anxiety of the armies of old as your trenchline gets bombarded with thermobaric munitions, your vehicle rolls over mine after mine, and suicide drones appear as if from nowhere to fuck up two or four of your buddies in an instant. You'll never feel imposter syndrome again after taking part in months-long campaigns to capture 400m-wide sections of strategic hilltops.

>>22572697
>that picture is incredibly erotic, imagine his pig body fucking that svelte fragile little body
books for this?

I hope to have an instant fatal stroke now that I go to sleep, so I don't have to suffer this shithole of a universe any longer.

>>22573065
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qd_4LmBZrVM

When I was younger, I was totally lost. In short, I had no idea what to do with my life. I har really hard times and I learned a lot about myself and I’m very grateful to have a stronger sense of who I am and what I should do now, but I still feel confused. I feel stuck between two paths for life and I don’t which to choose. On one hand, I’m so lucky to have any stable ground at all to stand on, but on the other hand, I still don’t know exactly which of two paths to take. A decision has to be made and committed to, radically, but how to know which decision is the right one? You can never know ahead of time. And I’m terrified of making the wrong decision.

>>22573112
jesus, that's fucking depressing.

>>22573069
is that from helter skelter or am i trippin

>>22572207
Yes. I enjoy it and I'm considering becoming Catholic. I was raised Lutheran.

>>22573155
yes

>>22573160
a+ manga never seen the movie adaptation but the actress is very distinct

>>22572505
>All to swarm a compound at 1am with 2 men asleep
> I feel like I related more the guys in the beginning of starship troopers killing skinnies than any army in antiquity.
idk about that, we had paupers wearing ridiculous clothing being mentally broken into being terrified mad dogs .. only for the maximal extent of their military activities to consist of beating up unarmed people.

This guy is correct, >>22573022
any serious military activity against an opponent who is actually not an unarmed civilian will snap you out of that daze of superiority and the strength of your so-called training and novel contraptions.

nothing personal, but if I was you I would have slit my CO's throat at the earliest opportunity.

>>22573150
I don’t see what’s so depressing about it. I see it as more uplifting than depressing.

>>22573159
You’re considering becoming a Catholic at the same time the Pope is transforming the mass into a puppet show and installing female clergy…?

>>22572505
>So he was a Ranger?
Yeah. They took the airfields, also. He told me that they were ordered off of one of the airfields so the SEALs could come ''take'' one and pretend to contribute. The building that they had to unass was a convergence of bad timing and bad luck. They determined the rooftop to be the best overwatch for the area in question, with no fear of having the Panamanians getting an elevated position on them from the neighboring building in time to cause a problem. They made a bad call on how fast the Panamanians would be able to take the other building. It was only slightly taller, not in as good of a position, and had complications making it harder to secure. So it goes. It was incidents like that that inspired the compact unass kits that get used now.

>>22570263
Hater ass nigga getn dunked on by the whole senpai lol

How do you cope with the realization that the history of the West is really nothing more than abandonment of orthodox Christianity in favor of confused, heretical Christianity on one hand and over Luciferianism on the other?

>>22573235
No need to cope, both are alien heathen cults and the christianity thing is really just about doing what the byzantine emperor thinks you should do today. It couldn't have been more obvious that that's what Constantine, PBUH, intended, and as an apostle his wishes must be upheld. Can't disobey him and remain a christian.

>>22573235
I don't have to cope with your schizo fantasies. They are funny to me.

>>22573251
>(truth is met by accusation of mental illness and denialism)
ah "the sickness of enmity", reported of christian character in the 3rd century by emperor maximinus, remains true to this day.

AQ
When it comes to astrology or numerology or any number of personality tests I always seem to get what is akin to Sensitive Motherly Leader, however I do not at all feel like that. How can I best harness my capabilities?

>>22573331
man i gotta stop quick flipping here and /x/

>>22573235
>How do you cope?
Embracing Luciferianism, idolatry, hedonism, individualism.

>>22570237
I got a problem but even bigger one is that I don't exactly know what the problem is
The fix is very very simple but again like something is preventing it

>>22570263
>being trans
I was sympathizing with you until you said this.
I get it, you went through an oppressive Christcuck evangelical household. This is sympathizable, but how did your mind become so distorted to want to become a woman? I don't get it. Were you molested?
You could have done any other counter Abrahamic thing: get into Eastern traditions, get into deep ecology, get into Neopaganism even, etc. Instead, you've decided to become a woman...?
I truly cannot respect this. Unfortunately, you are still white trash. It's not hard to accept being a man even in the face of retardation. There's a difference between being a feminine man and wanting to become a woman. You could have been a bit feminine, which is perfectly fine given it has existed throughout history, but instead, you went the looney right of wanting to be a woman. Even being a bisexual is fine, even though that's my cup of tea, but instead you went to become a fucking woman.
Jewsus may be all forgiving, but I most certainly am not. I am a very judgmental person. We have too many people now, and you don't impress me at all with your way of being. You are a useless eater and deserve to be bullied.
Trannies, zoophiles, radicalized Abrahamists, -- all disgust me. In an age with countless information, from readily accessible classical literature to art house films, you decided to spend time obsessing about wanting to become a woman.

>>22573412
>right
route*

>>22573412
Shut up fag

>>22573412
What do you obsess over?
For me, it's AI.

>>22573427
I am a heterosexual.
>>22573428
I've done work with deep learning algorithms.
I've done jobs with AI.

>>22570237
I am tired of seeing fucking AIslop.

>>22572523
like what? I'm retarded at math. business degree?

>>22573431
Any good book recs? Academic or not. I'll even take fiction.

>>22573412
I prefer being on estrogen. it viscerally feels more right and makes me not want to KMS. I don't care if people call me a woman or not, they tend to get angry when I insist I'm just a gay man, so I don't think it's worth the trouble to correct them, especially after being followed into the men's room and asked to leave multiple times (all by brown people)

>>22573443
I recommend Hands-On Machine Learning with Scikit-Learn, Keras, and TensorFlow by Aurélien Géron as an intro. You need to be decent with Python object-oriented programming, linear algebra, and probability in order to understand the basics machine learning.

I am actually anti-industrialist, anti-modernist and don't have a positive perception on technological development. I just did it for money, but it turned out to be more difficult than expected. I don't have a single shred of passion for it. The future "4th industrial revolution" is moving in the direction of even more dangerous technologies like "brain-cloud interfaces", Internet of Bodies (an evolution from IoT), and other dangerous things that will make "man a hackable animal".

My passions changed from Neuroscience to Wildlife Conservation later in my life. I have two Bachelor's degrees in Neuroscience and Computer Science, but I am an incompetent programmer.

I can't decide what to do a MS in and lack the energy and motivation to push through a degree I don't find meaningful.

>>22573448
I prefer civilized brown people over genetic trash like you. Kys. You would unironically be helping your race by jumping off the bridge. Also, ywnbaw.

>>22573248
>>22573251
>>22573380
Low intelligence replies

>>22573448
>(all by brown people)
Do you think the entire last 20 miserable long drawn out discourse about fuckigbathrooms has all been a way to avoid addressing black people in america not being socialized into being cool with gay men? Almost like women complaining about male sexual advances, it's not really white men their descriptions resemble. I lean toward yes. And I wish to god america was covered by an airtight seal so we didn't have to suffer this worldwide because americans are that retarded.

>>22573470
oh i'm sorry peterson that nobody takes your benzo addicted fueled ponderings about the jewish gods ethno supremacist cult as being sober and serious comments on morality and the direction of the species, you closet case preacher.

>>22573469
anon, if you're going to kill yourself I beg to god you take a lot of bad politicians with you at the same time.

>>22573462
I have hopes that individuals will manage to bypass the control the corporations and the government will enforce on future technology and truly unlock it's potential.
It's a forlorn hope, I can see from here a totalitarian nightmare brewing, a dystopia society will never break free from. Honestly I love technology and I want to be optimistic about it, at least on an individual level. What are the odds we'll see a wise and fair philosopher king emerging from AI?

>>22572350
Just quit. Lean on friends, family, state welfare if possible. Or else just vagabond it up. See if you can find a farm or ranch that offers board in exchange for work. You’ll work all day, but it’s a more natural kind of work and it recharges you, i my experience anyway.

again I have a golden opportunity to fix my shit up a little bit
It won't be much but it may serve as a good initial boost
or will I waste another night being an autisitic spessman on an autistic spesstation

>>22572180
It's not my dad's fault I'm like this. My mom and brothers are to blame

>>22571879
I lived with an outhouse as a kid. Between looking at and smelling the molten mass of human shit every time you go there and the massive amount of flies it attracts, it's not a good time. Having to deal with a clogged toilet now and then is a dream in comparison.

>>22572350
>The girl hitting on me has a boyfriend
And the problem is?

>>22573480
What makes you think I want to kill myself, you retarded cunt? If anything, I'd think a tranny is more likely to kill himself. They can't even accept basic facts like being born a male.
Even Buddha thought you faggots were extremely mentally ill. Also, trannies literally ruined my sangha and caused drama with my teacher.
Honestly it's trannies that should commit suicide. It's the most Jewish thing you can do. The Kabbalah is full of tranny shit for example.
It's a mental illness like necrophilia, zoophilia/zoosadism, pedophilia, etc. I'm fucking serious that trannies should be executed.
I'm not even as extreme as Abrahamictards since, even as a heterosexual, I'm fine with bisexuals or feminine men, but there's a difference between a man insisting he is a woman versus being a bit queer.

>>22572335
Jünger would call what you did technique. He didn’t think modern warfare was actually warfare nor was it undertaken by warriors. He thought the war was more like a highway car crash and that they were all just technicians. That’s why he wrote the Worker, which contained a view he’d later abandon for its nihilism.

>>22573503
Oh, and don't forget having to shit there during the winter with no heating

>>22572427
Get your 1, 3, or 5 year mark and leave. It’s the only way you can earn more money anyway. If you never leave, you’ll cap out at middle management and end up bitter.

God bless the modern toilet and its inventors.

>>22573476
The fact that the only bogeyman you can conjure up on a whim is Jordan Peterson highlights just how much of a midwit you really are.

>>22573491
I also recommend learning cloud computing. There are good Udemy courses on AWS and one can get certificates for them. The intersections between ML and cloud computing are frightening. I got my AWS Cloud Practitioner certificate.

Things will only get worse. Read Metaphysics of Technology by David Skrbina. I am also writing a book that expands on a lot of Skrbina's ideas.

The "metaphysics of progress" is at the root of the modern world's chaos. At this point I am more likely to agree with the misanthropy of Ulrich Horstmann.

>>22573470
What would a high intelligence reply look like?

>>22573527
Being in agreement with her.

>>22573412
>t how did your mind become so distorted to want to become a woman? I don't get it.
It's kind of easy to understand how it happens from at least three glaring cultural points in the west,
1) which could just lead to identifying as gay : there's literally not a single intelligent (or emotional intelligence) male role model presented, so the concept of intelligence is equated with femininity (nothing further from the truth lol) and it's easy enough to see how boys are bullied or coerced into identifying with the gay label.

i wrote a depressing book on this where the notion about literacy and class is really what the culture is going after
2) from femininty being held up as the only acceptable form of expression, it's easy to see how this lends itself to the notion of "being trapped in the wrong body" - and female to male as well; hot girls who don't like makeup and think womens social politics is a retarded way of life (they are correct) may end up identifying as male.

these are just cultural things though; nothing biological or sexual about them.

3) christians want this to happen, i think, as you can't really argue against the culture today without noticing the stark parallels with christianity (or judaism or islam, all the same); in the context here:

men are evil from birth and the cause of their evil is their heterosexuality. drilling this into a child from birth simply makes him or her a guilt-ridden sex pervert because their natural sexual impulses cannot help but emerge and when they do the programming comes on. christians are sex perverts in private like a ritual, it's a really cretinous kind of mentality of solipsism and self-loathing which is like the brick that makes up their facade of placidity in public which boils over into seething universalistic doomsdayerism as they realize how threadbare their life is.

from this mentality:
eunuch priests and incel ideologues who are pedophiles and hate themselves, for reasons valid or imagined, are the drivers of both ideologies (religious and liberal secular) which stem from a simple refusal to understand the species and produces the end-product of sterility in a person with a zealous cult-like verbal adherence to absurdist non-reality propaganda, and which .. as cannot be argued logically .. end up in personal attacks to slander others around them.

fundamentally baby-brained or arrested development which hasn't intellectual matured past the age of 13, and this is the culture we live in.

people today, even myself, shout "virgin" at the opponents, or instance, and treat it so seriously.


time for supper

literally NO FUN ALLOWED man
can't even do some IRL trolling
I yearn for fun

>>22572392
Whatever is the incel lit.
>>22572697
>>22573030
fat bastard lit

>>22570359
Why did you do it, Demiurge?

>>22573526
Thanks anon, very based.

what are you guys making ? are you guy creating something ? anything ?
just tell me man
I'm in that phase where I'm privileged enough to laze away but I desperately want to engage in manual labor and just do some shit with my hands
growing plants and making ghetto medkits is becoming boring and the homeless nigger probably just throws them away
I have burning passion for a particular discipline but wanting to do literally anything regarding it would take tons and tons of boring irrelevant study material to memorize just so that I can vomit it all in one day and forget the other day
I think them jesuit cunts deliberately do that so people with a passion for the subject frown away and mindless slave who will work like husk for cheap penny can take over the field

>>22573514
A one man outhouse is pretty manageable. Pissing elsewhere and dealing with burying your shit every time is workable. If you need it to deal with the extra fluid and extra people, it gets pretty bad. A perforated ABS piss pipe is a pretty good solution for urine. There are also modern solutions to the outhouse where the shit is sealed in a bucket for disposal. All in all, modern plumbing is nicer. Just don't let my friend use your toilet and you will probably be OK.

Damn I'd really like to play Cyberpunk but CDPR's new update broke the game again. It's a shame because it's unironically a really fun game now.

>>22573586
>ghetto medkits
what is this?

>>22573526
>cloud computing
Does anyone remember when cloud computing was an illegal activity? I found it surreal that they kept the same name as the illegal activity for the institutional practice.

>>22573594
What the fuck are you talking about?

>>22573594
I remember when a lot of things were illegal. Being a faggot, acting like a nigger, usury, crime..

>>22573598
>Being a faggot, acting like a nigger, usury, crime..
these are all time honoured traditions in european elite society for many centuries

>>22573596
Do you remember cloud computing from before the big rollout of paid services?

>>22573598
Yeah man they should really outlaw crime

How can I get my brother to stop eating fast food every single day?

We grew up in a single parent household and while I was off at college, his mother barely raised him. She rarely cooked. When she did cook, it was frozen chicken nuggets and instant mashed potatoes from Wal-Mart.

What can I do to get him to realize how awful his decisions are and get him to make better ones? It is impacting not only his fitness but also his health and clearly his appearance and mindset as well.

>>22573614
Get him into a position where it is not readily available. Typically, this involves a job or hobby at a location remote from the problem.

>>22573527
Basically any that makes a real argument or offering a nuanced opinion free of what I call meme-thinking and meme rhetoric. You failed to do either of these things and resorted to a reply that suggests low intelligence and actually being not very read as well, which is ironic because this is a literature board.

>>22573614
Show him how to cook some easy meals without being a judgemental prick about it

>>22573592
kind of an /out/larp shit
basically a small glass bottle with some heal chem which is primarily salvaged from plant products, a bandage made of banana leaves wrapped around the bottle with a small one time use syringe filled with general stimulants and painkillers

>>22573617
I can’t. He commutes to school and he stops and buys it after school. So short of making him drop out of school, I can’t take that away.

>>22573621
You got any instructions on how to make them?

>>22573619
I’ve tried that also. He’s a typical zoomer and can’t pay attention to anything for more than 30 seconds. If it’s not sold to him as some quick microwaveable fitness frankenmeal by whatever fitness influencer, he has absolutely no interest in it at all. If he has to cook for himself, he’ll just get fast food. He will actually go get fast food if what you’ve cooked for him is not something he likes. The kid is generally failing to mature into responsible physical adulthood. I only knew two other people with as bad health habits as him and one is morbidly obese now and the other developed heart disease in his 30s.

>>22573614
Watch The Whale together and imply that he'll become a fat gay fuck if he doesn't change his ways

>>22573628
Honestly man I know he's your brother and you care about him and all that but this is the sort of thing that people ultimately need to come to on their own. You can try telling him how much he's gonna regret eating like shit later in life and how much better he'll feel now etc, but usually people take that sort of thing as scolding and ignore it or double down. If he's a college kid it doesn't seem like that big of a deal that he eats junk desu, almost everyone eats like shit when they're in college. Just the nature of the beast

>>22573618
Book recs to engage properly on the topic?

>>22573618
Also, what is the right way to cope with it then? I'm the person who said idolatry and hedonism are my copes (which they are)

>>22573622
That's rough. I thought that he was older. You might be able to help by at least getting his weekends consumed with better activities along the same vein.

>>22573624
there is a local guy who trashes away these specific kind of small glass bottles
just fill em up with a mixture of aloe vera extract, neem oil, turmeric paste and some honey
if you mix it enough it should become like a paste of sort
then take a banana leaf and cut long strip of it like a bandage of sort, wrap it tightly enough around the bottle and secure it with a pin which would be use to secure the same bandage around your wound
then take a syringe and fill em up with water mixed with conc. coffee, ginseng and turmeric solution
make sure the final extract is not like a paste as it wont get out of the syringe that way and would probably clog the blood vessel

>>22573638
Actually, your reply was the least retarded. It just seemed insincere. I mean, it was insincere, wasn’t it? You don’t really believe that.

>>22573643
What activities would you propose? I ask him to come hiking with me. He always says no. If you knew his post-college plans, you’d understand why this is so infuriating.

>>22573634
I just know from my own experience how critical these years are and how difficult it can be to reverse bad habits that he builds now. I also know that this can severely limit his career, not only because his planned career is very physical, but also because a bad diet can just make you dumber and more depressed and thus less able to perform in general. And it’s not even like he is just kind of bad. He has sincerely one of the worse routines I’ve ever seen a person have.

>>22573631
Ironically, he’s getting fat but doesn’t seem to think so. He seems to have very little awareness of how he looks. Even when he looks terrible, he thinks he looks good. It extends to his clothing and style choices at well.

I just don’t know what to do with this kid man…

>>22573654
mind posting em
just wanna compare as I am probably in the same group

>>22573645
I dont only believe that, I live it.
Maybe "Luciferianism" is a bit of a stretch but I guess it can be applied to a lot of things I do and think. Depends on who you ask.
As far as hedonism, individualism and idolatry go, I indulge. Am I coping? Sure, you can call it that. Coping with what? With plenty of things beyond what you just said.
So then, what's the right way to cope?

>>22570237
I am sexually attracted to images depicting Dora the Exploradora but not because the drawing is hot but because I associate Dora so heavily with hot mexican woman that when I see her icon I think I am prompted like a crosswalk walk white man looks little like a white man I am prompted by Dora to engage Mexican women. Like a chibi character is not the character, it is reminiscent enough of an evocative reminder of voluptuous thicc latinas who carry Dora merchandise.
Semiotics of me not being a pedo just because I get pavlovian boners.

>>22573657
Posting what?

>>22573659
I don’t believe you though. Most of the people who live this way do so incidentally.

>>22572427
5. Because youre Indian

>>22573586
>what are you guys making ? are you guy creating something ? anything ?
>just tell me man
Nice try glowie

>>22573664
You can believe whatever you want. But enough about me, what do you believe? How do you live?
Also, any book recs?

>>22573669
dang it
you caught me

>>22573651
I did landscaping on the side back when I was fully employed. After I got laid off, I morphed that into arboriculture. Dealing with smaller trees can get pretty boring but taking down big trees is a technical activity with rigging and climbing. It's dangerous work, and not for everyone for sure. I studied Gilman and Shigo before I took it up so I have a scientific background in it that gives understanding more than just being a robot that cuts to the ANSI A-300 standard. Arboriculture has a lot of avenues, both physical and mental, so there is a lot of available room to grow into it without abandoning everything if you decide that one aspect does not sit well with you. You could literally start by seeding trees in pots right now that you shelter over the winter, in preparation for locating them in the spring. Getting him interested and invested in making something come to life might be a help. This is literally Step 2 of ''touch grass''. Arboriculture is generally something that can be bitten off into chunks to fit your schedule, so the commitment level can be kept low. I like this idea better than raw hiking because there is a sense of self worth that comes from the paying job that is appreciated by others.

>>22573437
I got bored of this most recent stage of it pretty fast. It's not just that biological reality that's ordinarily available to the eye is vastly richer and more peculiar, but that pop or minor artists are too: I'd much rather see one of Charles Schulz's prize pieces or an Eliot Porter than anything I've seen that's AI generated.

>>22570237
Lord have mercy on me.
Just woke up, heavy breathing chest on left side hurts.f
This cant be it please lord I don't want to die this young

>>22573673
I’m skeptical I suppose. I live like any modern person, but I feel a lot of responsibility to be ethical and my ethics are informed by Christianity, I think, and I’m sympathetic to Christianity.

>>22573437
Rate my aislop

>>22573698
That’s great, but I just don’t see much hope in getting him interested in something like gardening and I’m not much of a gardener myself. He currently lives in a townhouse with his mother, who inevitably kills everything she tries to grow because she gets too lazy to care for them.

>>22573733

>>22573737

>>22573729
extremely thirsty too its weird. Just drank entire bottle & still thirsty

What diets have you had success with?

>>22573729
Genuinely have a feeling thus time it's it
Scared to move. Scared to lie too stil

>>22573755
I suspect my addiction to coffee and countless stressful sleepless nights has somehow damaged my heart, but if that's the case of rather not know

>>22573734
That is just my route. Try to find something that will fit better for both of you. The generic aspects still apply.

>>22573732
But do you believe in anything? I made a conscious choice when I began embracing certain ways of thinking that now dictate everything I do. You could call those my beliefs, or idolatry as Jeremiah uses it in the bible because I do have idols. I've noticed a certain "devotion" that reminds me of religious practices, rituals and ways of thinking. There is no other goal in my life beyond self-serving satisfaction, as ethically as it can be done because at the end of the day I am a product of Christianity.
But what about you? What are you doing in this world?

>>22573743
Fasting.

>>22573733
>>22573740
>>22573737
I hate arizona
Famistan
Famiglia
Fampiaitchi creampie desune

>>22573743
Vegan, ketolard, mediterranean, asian, mexican, arab (mediterranean but extra)

Keto solved most my health problems and got me back to shape.
Vegan saved me from leaky gut dysbiosis poison blood death bed.
Mediterranean bulk got me back to fighting shape. I look like A GREEK GOD asian women testify the loudest

Would you say it’s the norm now to have been raised in the metro area of some big city? I wasn’t and I’ve always felt a little closed out of certain circles at university and professionally because of it.

>>22570237
What's that image supposed to convey?

>>22573798
Reading good
Phone bad

>>22570263
What have you done for others lately?
>>22573801
OK, but why the phrase "knowing is only half the battle"? Is she supposed to be fighting the patriarchy represented by the fat slob on the right or something like that?

>>22573768
No, I would say by virtue of being a skeptic that I don’t believe in anything in particular. The thing is, I don’t want to be a skeptic. I just do think that I am one if I am being honest. I can only say that I’ve spoken to orthodox Christians and I think they make good arguments and I can even agree that they make sense, but I struggle to really believe them myself. That said, I’m totally convinced of their ethics. Ethics are really where my beliefs end. I agree that I’m also the product of Christianity, but not Christianity proper but rather the once Christian western culture, which is an important difference.

>>22573796
>the norm
Sure, but don't think that you missed anything important. I cannot imagine what cityfag bullshit ''shared experience'' nonsense they think that you are missing.
t. cityfag

>>22573808
If you don't want to be a skeptic then all it takes is for you to believe in anything and let this idea fester in your mind without opposition. Soon your world will begin to change, you'll start seeing patterns and signals, everything will make sense and things will fall into place neatly.
I read the Bible , entered bible study groups and went to church with an "open mind". I even started praying. I shit you not, all my euphoric complaints about the problem of evil and epic logic games like god making a rock too big for him to lift started feeling meaningless and stupid. I felt what the christians call "the calling" but I didn't let it win.
This little experiment made me realize your mind can believe anything as long as you nourish this belief. No matter how absurd or out there, you can become a zealous believer.

>>22573743
I reduced what I ate before noon and would try to eat nothing after 8pm. Cut out all sugars like candy or whatever. Reduced carb intake (bread mostly) increased protein. Then I increased my cardio and added light weightlifting. Lost a lot of fat. Everyone tells me I look skinnier. Feels good man.

>>22573644
This is beyond ghetto man. Injecting coffee, are you fucking stupid? That homeless guy is right to throw this crap away, and if you're actually giving this away to people you'll deserve it when someone finally kicks your ass

>>22573654
You are really worrying too much imo. Again, most people in college are shitheads leading garbage lives and a lot of them thrive later on. He'll probably figure it out

>>22573843
>Injecting coffee
what's wrong mate ?

>>22573412
Right? He hates... fetishists. For what, the real trannies? Co-opting the feminine sex lmao. Male brained

>>22573827
I don’t agree with that. I don’t believe it’s possible to really believe in Christianity the way, for example, a medieval monk believed in Christianity. To some degree, we’re a product of our time just like we’re a product of our culture. We both admitted we are products of the Christian Western culture, but I have a mind a Christianity that’s been made skeptical. At best, I seem able to endorse contrarian ideas. I can deny evolution simply on the basis that it’s the dogma of the times, or the same for scientism, or progressive ideology or whatever. And I can latch onto day, orthodox Christian theology, on the same basis. But I can never really believe orthodox Christianity the way a Russian monk believes it. I can only believe in it what it does. That’s how I feel.

>>22573698
Always a backyard and indoor gardener. If there's one thing to say about anything pertaining is that it takes a strong memory get at all good at it. As far as aboriculture is concerned, my own physique and general health fall far short, but I thought I'd mention it as another necessary aptitude.

>>22573798
Reading will turn you into the hot woman you want to be. The secret most fat balding trannies don't know.

>>22573864
The vast proliferation of cults around our rational and advanced world has convinced me that the mind is both extremely powerful and fragile. If you embraced the "extreme" life of those monks and occupied your mind 24/7 with religious texts and nothing else, surrounding yourself with like minded people and keeping a close eye on what you let into your mind, you'd become exactly that. If you really believed that you can become something and worked towards it ,you would become exactly what you think.
You're not immune to propaganda. You've been molded by external forces, but you can mold yourself into something you never imagined.
But it requires the zealous devotion of a suicide bomber.

>>22570263
You should leave this wretched site and it's ape brain opinions. Nobody here has any brain cells. I come here occasionally to laugh. I mean just look at all their dumb shit arguments on why trans people can't exist. Because they are so low and eternally cucked they have to try and punch down.

Try to get into compu sci and get a high paying job that has a healthcare plan that will also pay for FFS, electrolysis, and VFS if you need it. Get an endo that follows the powers method and do injectable prog and estrogen. If you suck at math idk go to a clinical psychology program or business or something in some state like California. Leverage being trans and the struggles you have faced in you admissions essay and how you want to foster change. Use medi-cal to surgery max and then just go stealth.

There are deep seated neurobiological reasons we do this. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8QScpDGqwsQ

Clearly considering what we have to put up with to exist. Don't let these pathetic mongoloids beat you. Transsexuals have an average IQ 1 STDEV above the mean. Sperm bank and you can even have kids if you want. Also avoid /tttt/ full of low IQ insane transsexuals.

>inb4 ywnbaw
You will never be loved. You will never feel the touch of a woman. You will always be a pathetic misogynist incel who is unlovable because you have a rotten evil heart. One day we will make being an incel illegal and you will all be declared the national security hazard that you are.

>>22570633
one day i'll fix myself :)

>>22573933
>>22573933
new

>>22573843
>you'll deserve it when someone finally kicks your ass
I don't hand it to niggers fortunately

>>22573846
Tiffany Dover most likely died from solid particles in the vaccine giving her a stroke. Note how the other nurse just plunges the serum into her. The plunger is supposed to be retracted slightly to check for blood draw, indicating a vein strike. The vaccine solids are supposed to be deposited into tissue. Injecting solids into a vein is inviting a host of problems.

>>22573954
nigger do you seriously thought I am injecting solid coffee crystals in my body via syringe ? kek of highest order
>then take a syringe and fill em up with water mixed with conc. coffee
>water
things dissolve you know

>>22573975
I do not think that you understand the size of particles that can cause problems. Go at it though. I have no positive interest in your demographic anyways. Inject away.

>>22573987
do you seriously not understand the concept of water solubility ?
you know coffee is soluble in water right ?

>>22573887
I just accept that we are inevitably the result of our environment and history. You’re right that I could enter some monastery and live the same way as the monks, read the same things as the monks, say the same things as the monks, do all of these things. But in the end, I’d only end up approaching some truth that they’re grasping at specifically as a person from my environment, with my history. Whatever I apprehend would necessarily not be the same thing they apprehend. Christians believe that God revealed himself to us and that’s how we know about God, but that revelation alone doesn’t account for everything. If it did, why would there be different denominations at all? And how much of disagreement regarding, for example, theological differences, are the result of impulses compelled by the differences in environment and history? We can never really be a blank slate or something other than what you are, no matter how zealously you devote yourself.

>>22573975
>>22574003
... so ... what is this cocktail supposed to do? painkiller? stimulant? what

>injecting coffee
aka
>water mixed with conc. coffee, ginseng and turmeric solution

>>22574040
> ... so ... what is this cocktail supposed to do? painkiller? stimulant? what
kinda both, more of a stimulant

also I assume when a person is shown coffee and water in the same container then they can infer that coffee will completely dissolve in it and not remain to be solid crystals

>>22574097
Regardless of whether there are "crystals" remaining or not, it's still stupid. You think that shit's clean enough to IV? Fucking moron

>>22573954
Funny how she died on live tv and the government and media covered it up

>>22574167
I have been doing amateur chemistry for quite a while and know my way into proper sanitization and know enough assembly and general engi to automate the entire process inside an air lock chamber
also, I won't like being called a moron from someone who probably learned about water solubility right now in a 4chan thread that too on fucking /lit/

>>22573954
>Note how the other nurse just plunges the serum into her. The plunger is supposed to be retracted slightly to check for blood draw, indicating a vein strike. The vaccine solids are supposed to be deposited into tissue. Injecting solids into a vein is inviting a host of problems.
You think they cared or trained for that? I got my one and only covid jab and it caught a nerve and numbed the radial in my hand for nearly three months.

>>22574097
It really depends how long it's going to be sitting in the hypo for, any granulated coffee will harden up after a while ... but if you're drawing it from hot liquid and it's being used within five hours it's probably fine - on a technical level.

Still that's kind of interesting; ginseng, tumeric and coffee as an IV? ha, not something i'd want to try but sure I could see that being a thing.

>>22574243
the thing is, making something from synthetics is always much more safe and effective but hilariously easy too
it was sort of a just bored af project thingy
felt nice scraping through all those essential oil manuals and survival guides

>>22570586
>wordporn.com

I rape you 1 million times.

>>22574280
welcome to the mad science and alchemy club!

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