/lit/ - Literature

>>22416913
Oh shit, this was meant to be the picture.

do i just keep reading? should i avoid derivative works until reading the original first? does it matter?

I just woke up. What am I in for

>>22416913
We need a race war. NOW!

>>22416935
Pretty much the same as yesterday just slightly worse.

Just lost $25 gambling with my mum, I'm now $25 short of rent, man am I retarded. I'm softening the blow by telling myself "Worse things have happened to better people".

I raped her. I'm not sure what to do now.

>>22416913
On the one hand, I'm enjoying Nostromo a lot and learning a lot.
On the other, the book may overpraise the English a little. And to be honest I don't particularly like the fact that Costaguana is a weird hybrid of Argentina, Mexico, Colombia, the Andes, and Brazil.
I'm enjoying everything else though.

>>22417021
Hand yourself in man.

>>22417031
it was a long time ago. I haven't really thought about it clearly before.

>>22417031
>>22417034
they've changed the law here, I don't think it qualified as rape as the law was then but that it would have now, but either way morally that it.. that I should have stopped.

>>22417021
Do nothing. Pretend it didn't happen. If you cannot bear it, then I guess rope or give yourself in.
>>22417034
Was it like a date rape or something?

>>22417043
>Was it like a date rape or something?
it was a hell of a situation.

>>22417041
Do you see the girl on the daily?
If not just live with it.
Not legally wrong, no social consequences at this point. Just move on.
>>22417047
You fucked her when she was passed out?

>>22416913
Feeling sleepy but I got to go out for shopping

>>22417058
Get some cookies.

>>22417086
I don't eat sweets in general but I'll think about it. Nain stuff to buy is toilet paper, tomatoes and potatoes

I decided I'm too tired to feel sadness.

Probably the best decision I ever made. It's tiring you know, feeling sadness, all this mopping around, watching depressing videos, p0rn, out of anything it's all so tiring.

Like, right now, I wish I already decided 10 years prior that "I'm too tired to feel sadness". Because I could have spent all that energy to actually writing a book, solve math problems, making a song.

I hope my what's on my mind benefits somebody today.

>>22416935
Opportunities for happiness.

>>22417124
It's always easier to not do things than to do them, it's just about realizing which things you need to give up doing.

Reading the Third Reich by Childers. Never before have I enjoyed a book so much. I'm not knowledgeable in history and I'm learning so many things. But most of all, it's the most epic character development ever. Hitler was humiliated his entire life. Had only one friend. Didn't care for bitches. Went homeless. Absorbed enmity from his surroundings constantly and naturally grew this hateful and bitter that he personally suffered Germany's humiliation, not even his birth country. He seethed so much at the treaty that he went temporarily blind. He was super intelligent and wanted to make something of himself but life kept humiliating him. Then thanks to his sheer charisma, intellect and hard work (autism), he finally found a way to express himself to the world and people loved him and followed him because he was genuine and passionate. Can't wait to see what this nigga is up to next.

>>22417159
>thanks to his sheer charisma, intellect and hard work (autism)
You forgot the cocaine and meth. Wish I had some of what he was on desu.

>>22416913
I am absolutely appalled at the seemingly non-existent pushback against Google's decision to wipe "inactive accounts". This has to be the most blatant and explicit transgression against the Internet's core attribute, setting an extremely worrisome (and saddening) precedent, and yet here it is passing by without much controversy. I haven't seen a single person with a large following tackle this issue, or even advising their viewers to start backing shit up. Valuable information that has no real place in today's context for whatever will be disintegrated with impunity, just because it's "undesirable". Don't even get me started on dissident/alternative knowledge. Even on this very website, you're more likely to have a few posts denigrating people's attachment to this problem, whether it's in jest or as a genuine attempt to pwn the tards, disregarding what 4channel has been all about since its inception.
You will no longer be able to escape the zeitgeist and glean Light from the world surrounding it.

It seems like choosing the wrong degree and wrong career can literally ruin your life, and not for any financial reason. It seems like they can ruin your life because they can set you on a certain irreversible trajectory that excludes certain possibilities in the future.

I’m going to get a graduate degree, but I haven’t decided on the field.

Born into an educated family with money? Congratulations! You can do whatever you want with your life.

Born into an uneducated family without money (middle class or lower)? In general, best you could hope for is a life spent working with no real achievements or freedom. You could achieve financial freedom, but you’ll have to give your life over for it and thus, won’t have real freedom.

Do you agree with this?

>>22417543
very narrow view of the world. it's somewhat logical, but the world itself isn't as much.

>>22417543
Sounds like you think the grass is greener and would if you were on the other side too

My family is now at the point where they are blaming each other for my brother's death. This has dug up a whole lot of bad memories. They're spiralling out of control

>>22417358
I'm okay with it. I have old google accounts I've forgotten the passwords to with very embarrassing info publicly viewable

>>22417630
Do you think rich people think that the grass is greener when you're living paycheque to paycheque and are constantly afraid of being sick because missing a couple days of work will put you out on the street?

>>22417675
Stop thinking the middle class is rich bro

>>22417358
>This has to be the most blatant and explicit transgression against the Internet's core attribute
The internet has always been ephemeral

>>22417692
Do you think anyone who's above that situation wishes that they were in that situation?

One of my closer friends became a father today.
when I'm a wizard
Really puts things into perspective.

>>22417714
Seeing one of your close friends become a parent feels weird. I have a friend that I've known since i was thirteen and she was fourteen and she's gonna become a mother this year and I got a weird feeling when she announced her pregnancy, like, we've known each other since we were just young teenagers and now she's becoming a mother, crazy.

I genuinely think no matter how much I sleep I'll always wake up tired. I slept just under 8 hours last night and when I woke up and went outside with my dog I was yawning like crazy. I've slept for over eight hours in the past and done the same, I don't get it, I'm sick of waking up tired.

>>22417675
>Do you think rich people think that the grass is greener
Yes that's why slumming is a thing
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yuTMWgOduFM

>>22417732
You realise this is a very tiny minority of rich people, right? If you were to ask 100 millionaires if they would like to live paycheque to paycheque 99 of them would say no and the other 1 would consider doing it for a day or two and then most likely say no as well, people don't want to be poor.

>>22417694
Nobody realizes it

>>22417788
>It isn't a right of passage for rich kids to pretend they're commies
kek

>>22417796
It isn't and anyone that believes it is is delusional.

I only read 2 chapters of war and peace per day. At this rate it'll take me six months to finish it. How do I actually read more?

>>22417714
congrats to him, having a kid is hard work but it's fun, I wish him and his family the best

>>22417732
The thing about "slumming it" is that you always have money to fall back on when you need it. You're never actually poor

>>22417792
I don't see why, given how common it is to find dead links

Last night I dreamt that nº 019 of &amp released, except it was also issue 5—so, a collaboration between two publications—of another magazine (nonexistent) the name of which I don't remember, but akin to a Dimes Square revue or Tyrant... After Editor's letter there was a bigly billed piece by Honor Levy, and, further on, I was pleasauntly surprized to find a poëm of mine I'd submitted (but whereunto I hadn't yet received reply). The mag was available on the site web of &amp but also on that of the other pub, whereon it was displayed largely, full-size, and continuous scroll-down. I remember white backgrounds but also particolor'd fonts (SVG). While a print edition would follow a bit *later,* but with proper distribution and printing. Impression left with: Waouh, that &amp has made that crossover! big news! which will probably get larger attention! but not in the flooded-with-submissions-by-soulless-"writer(-in-my-X-bio-type)s" way as befell The Lit Trimestrial! H. Levy snapping silly unsolicited tiktoks with me. Only then to awake and realize suchlike is not only illogical but also fictive—woe! 'twas but all a dream!...

>>22417811
>>22417840
The thing is envy doesn't have a monopoly on one class. OP would still think he was trapped by circumstances regardless of what he was born into. And yeah, champagne socialists are definitely a thing. Most of the westerners who supported the USSR only did it because they didn't have to live there.

Does anyone here live in Chicago? What’s it like? I’ve been thinking of moving there.

>>22417161
With the sheer amount of now-controlled substances that you were able to just buy at any pharmacy back in the day for a cold remedy or whatever, how were there not more addicts and druggies?

>>22417630
I think it’s undeniable that having money doesn’t necessarily open certain possibilities for you but being born into thar sort of family does. And if you’re not, those possibilities are to a huge degree closed off to you.

>>22417884
Yeah you're never going to get to play for an international football team if you're born into that life.

>>22417732
The difference between rich people “slumming it” and the difference between actual poor people living in real slums is more drastic than the difference between urban people going hiking and people who live off the grid. It’s simply not the same experience if you can opt out of it at any time.

>>22417889
Yeah the difference is the rich are going for a grass is greener thing like OP was.

>>22417888
I had more in mind politics and the general class of “thinker, talker, writer” positions out there in life. Robert F. Kennedy almost epitomizes this the most right now. Would have been able to do any of the things he’s done or is doing if he hadn’t been born a Kennedy? Probably not.

>>22417890
They’re not though. When you go for a hike, you don’t think the grass is greener for people stranded in the woods. You’re just getting a taste of the effort it takes to be out there for a thrill. That’s all.

>>22417902
>no if you're born into the class you're exempt from envy
So the footballer who made their way into money will still get envy, but the guy born into wealth where their net wealth is less than the footballer's salary won't envy anyone? Lol wat? This is some severe cope which rich people just aren't going to live up to

>>22417912
I’m not following your footballer example or how it relates to what I said. Rich people not exempt from envy, but there’s no mandate for envy to be directed at the economically poor. And in fact, there’s really nothing to suggest that the rich do have this. You’ve just made it up if that’s what you’re implying. I think we like to say these sort of things to each other to sort of console each other and say “Yeah, they have all the power, influence, and freedom and they can do more things with their lives than poor people can, but they probably envy the poor too” when in reality we all intuitively know that’s not the case. Sure, they might envy some “luxuries” the poor have, like not having to feel responsible for the sort of thing that wealth comes from for example, but that’s not to say they would ever trade it. The sort of envy a rich person might feel for a poor person is the sort of envy a law abiding citizen might feel for a convict who no longer has to work, cook their own meals, acquire their own housing, etc. You would never prefer to be a convict. Similarly, you see poor people always trying to get rich but never rich people trying to get poor. That alone is proof that they do not really envy the poor.

>>22417964
>No my envy is more real than the person I envy could manage
If you were saying the same about hot guys having gfs it would be the same cope

Stepping out into a wretched, hopeless, miserable world of shit and waddling through it and waddle through it always looking over my shoulder, without ever looking up and begging for help or saying "thank you" for another second free of excruciating pain makes me feel like a big fucking man, all alone in the valley of death, living on the whims of murderers and nature.

I look forward to the next time I can bring myself to an intense, brain numbing orgasm through fantasies of debauchery unreal and violence extreme, always aware of the intricate indifference with which my every act and thought is recorded and stored somewhere unreachable for purposes both predictable and trivial, but no less terrifying.

A big fucking man, what a beautiful day.

>>22416913
I keep thinking about the time I was making a presentation in freshman year English class in high school and had just learned what nihilism was and to "explain" it I started excitedly pointing at specific people and telling them that they didn't matter like an unhinged maniac.
This was almost 15 years ago and I still suffer a cringe attack at least once a week.

>>22418147
Based.
They will remember you when the world corners them and their lies come crashing down.

Aaaaaa brooding on my unhappy past again aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

>>22417796
Yeah I never understand why gommunism is so alluring to rich kids while detested by the working class.

>>22418004
I’m not saying their envy isn’t real. I’m saying they don’t envy these particular people.

>>22416914
Paul is a great screenwriter tho

>>22418204
The rich kids have access to higher education and exotic ideas that the working class don't. The working class gets red scares and porn and they never move past that.
Maybe the rich kids feel some guilt over having money while there's people without home or food or hope, they get guilt tripped into wanting to give their shit away. I wish the rich friends I had were interesting like that instead of American Psycho tier NPCs

Have a beautiful day everyone

I finally sent my cv and waiting to get a job. Now I can't enjoy either reading or lifting until I get a job and acclimate there for at least a week. It's over, I wish I was rich parents' neet kid

>>22418211
But why gommunism specifically? Why dont you see rich kids going through nazi or fascist phases, or lolbert phases, or monarchist phases, or any other kind of weird meme ideology?

Just 90 more minutes.
Then I'll be free until Monday..
2 days of freedom. I worked 5 days to get it. Very cool.

My faith is being tested lately. I see how the cult of progressivism is a fear based ideology invented by the elites to control the plebs. I can't help but wonder if the fedoras were right to say Christianity was the same.

>>22418223
Most of them don't read or are interested in "intellectual" or political pursuits. They get told from a young age that Hitler bad monarchism bad so they never touch fascism or other shit (unless they are deliberately trying to be edgy), then they are exposed to liberal brainwashing shit on the media day and night and when (if) they read the source material it all sounds very good.
That's my take on it. Same way you draw people into any cult.

Regular day:
06:00 I wake
06:45 drive to work
07:00 work
16:15 home from work
16:45 workout
17:30 done with workout, lay around.
18:00 read
19:00 eat
20:00 chill around
23:00 sleep

This is it. This has been my schedule for the past 5 months. Either I find a reason to do it for in the next few years or I'm going to do something drastically different.
With the decline in relationships/family creation, what exactly is the incentive to maintain this schedule?
I'm not some worker ant who is just happy to trade my hours for the brief amount of free time you get from it. If I had no prospect of anything I'd spend a lot more time doing drugs and playing video games.

>>22418263
Sorry can you do that in 12 hour clock time so I can understand it

>>22418295
Regular day:
6 AM I wake
6:45 AM drive to work
7 AM work
4:15 PM home from work
4:45 PM workout
5:30 PM done with workout, lay around.
6 PM read
7 PM eat
8PM chill around
11 PM sleep

This is it. This has been my schedule for the past 5 months. Either I find a reason to do it for in the next few years or I'm going to do something drastically different.
With the decline in relationships/family creation, what exactly is the incentive to maintain this schedule?
I'm not some worker ant who is just happy to trade my hours for the brief amount of free time you get from it. If I had no prospect of anything I'd spend a lot more time doing drugs and playing video games.

>>22418300
So I'm assuming you're home at 4:15 after the commute, meaning you end your work day around 3:30ish. That gives you a ton of time to use the rest of your day. Instead of going straight home, try meeting a friend or coworker, or just going out alone. Instead of just laying around after working out, go out and do something. You need to add variety to your own life. Even if you do something other than going straight home once or twice a week, it would make your life far less boring. What do your weekends look like?

>>22418200
unhappy or the past that never happened?

>>22418341
Both. 14 to 18 was the unhappy past (extremely unstable and dysfunctional family) which left me unable to transtion into adulthood from 18 to 22 (past that never happened) which absolutely was not helped by covid. 23 was the year of blooming, but I'm almost done with 24 now and it feels like my dysfunctional and unstable family wants to destroy my life again.

>>22418318
My work day ends at 4. In many ways it's much better than it used to be. I used to be home at 5.
>try meeting a friend or coworker
I have no friends in this place and after spending all time with co-workers I'd rather not. Add to it that they have their own lives as well.
>just laying around after working out, go out and do something
In that 30 minute timeframe? Not to mention after an entire day of work and fitness, laying around for a bit is welcome.
>You need to add variety to your own life
Agreed, but my life is kind of on hold atm. I could drop reading or working out but I'd feel the consequences of that. Not to mention I'm very lucky with not having to do any cooking or cleaning or laundry myself atm. Imagine fitting that into my schedule. Would fucking suck.

>What do your weekends look like?
I'll give you last weekend which was pretty standard:
Wake up, finally get to make big egg breakfast I like so much but only have time for in the weekend.
Watch some sawker on the t.v depending if there's a good match on. Call my mom for about 30 minutes. In the afternoon workout and then go for a hike and go for a swim too afterwards. At this point I do groceries and prepare for dinner. Then from about 7 to when I sleep I do a combo of reading/watching some show/playing harmonica/twitter

Sunday sort of the same.
The issue is not having things to do. I do NOT want to cram my day with activities (that I do alone). Either I get a reason to work (family or just a shit ton of money) or I give up and do drugs and video games.
One or the other.
I do not see the value in being a healthy wage slave who spends his time doing gay little faggot activities to spend the time till he dies.
No value in that. Either go full hedonistic or live for other people (family)

>>22418372
Do you have the stones to go full hedonist mode? Video games will only take you so far before they become boring and predictable. And drugs will inevitably fuck you up in ways that might come to regret unless you embrace dying young

Is there a way to trick YouTube into not noticing my adblockers? Having to watch these ads is really annoying.

>>22418396
YouTube noticed adblockers? Just use ublock origin, never had an issue.

Speaking of YT, I don't even post controversial comments but it's always a lottery whether my comments gets filtered out or actually shows up. It's so tiring, all these "social media" sites where half of the comment is "shadow banned" or just hidden by algorithms. If I try to have a conversation with anyone on YT, at one point either them or I get shadow banned and the conversation stops. Again, nothing controversial, just retarded AI algos.

I can't comprehend how ukrainian who fucked off from war in his country can say "slave ukraine". It's extreme hypocrisy

>>22418396
Use any of the alternative frontend like invidious or piped if you don't care about recommendations or subscribed channels

>>22418394
With drugs I basically mean weed.
I've had NEET periods (months) before and after each of the I dealt with the boredom better.
If I were to go hedonistic like I mentioned I'd basically work for a year, maybe 2 and then lay around for a year doing nothing.
On and off until my parents die and I get so much money I won't have to work at all.

I really liked those NEET periods. Reading in the park while wagies go to work, being in the gym with the other unemployed and old people. Watching sport and never missing a second of it (enjoyed the World Cup high on my ass, best winter ever)
Some video games on the side, watch all the kino I want. Nah I'd be fine.

I'd have the regret of not having a family or a wife but if that's off the table, I know where I'd go.

>>22418415
>diasporas are cringe
story as old as the world itself

>>22418415
>slave ukraine
That's very fittin tho

>>22418414
>YouTube noticed adblockers? Just use ublock origin, never had an issue.
I'm using ublock origin and getting blocked. Maybe there are some region based differences but it seems to be a new thing.
>>22418430
Thanks, will give it a try.

you're just better than me.

>>22418431
The 8 magic ball says:

Do it. What the fuck is a family good for anyway? If you enjoyed yourself so much and you don't even have any prospects now then why are we even having this conversation? You already know what you want to do.

>>22418470
>You already know what you want to do.
Yeah, try for a family.
I'm sober for a long time now, I work on myself and I work hard for a career. I made sacrifices in order to save money and have been looking for women. Over the past 3 months I've dated multiple.
The hedonistic route is if the other route doesn't work. Don't get it in reverse.

>>22416937
>>22417128
The duality of men.

>>22418488
>Over the past 3 months I've dated multiple
How long did each of those last? I'm not saying you should settle for someone who doesn't want or value the same things as you, but if you're only going on a couple dates you can't really have that good of an idea about what kind of people they are

I made a mistake of conversing with a eurowhore. She was dumb in a confident way that was funny at first and she stank with animalistic low IQ sandnigger influence. I wish she would fuck off. Now I won't teach her shit. No I won't help her.

>>22418555
>1st one
Fat but nice personality. Went on two dates but called it off after when kissing I put my hand on her back I felt rolls of fat.
>2nd
My age so kind of too old. Had no spark and she was unsure about whether she wanted kids or not. Which is a red flag when you're 29.
Kept it at 1 date.
>3rd
Good looking girl. Kind of crazy, admitted to doing coke (in the past?) and likes to party. Had a decent first date, asked her for a second. She said yes an the day before the 2nd date I asked a confirmation. She replied late that she couldn't but wanted to reschedule.
I thought it not worth the effort to reschedule since she was leaving this place in a month anyway. Chances of a serious relationship slim.

I'm up for trying some more. The first one would have been fine if not so fat. Real shame.
I might be picky but I think I had reasons to not continue with these girls.

>>22418372
Your problem is that you're interpersonally isolated. I think you're aware of that. Just make friends, gwt3 married, have kids, find community.

I wish Christian God was real and would provide us some indisputable proof for his existence :/

>>22418660
He did with Jesus.
People swore to their deaths that he rose again and performed miracles. What, do you want him to send a new Jesus for every generation? Get a grip

The defunct "I'm feeling lucky" function of the old Google search engine was pretty cool

>be me
>have got shit to write for uni but can't be asked to do it because it feels pointless
>waste my day doing fuck all
>feel really depressed and lonely
>decide to hit the gym because I haven't done so in over a week
>do 1 set of bicep curls and decide to quit because it doesn't feel motivational or fulfilling at all
>tfw gym bros lied to me
>get random phone call from mom
>tell her I feel miserable and start crying
>she gives me same advice I've always heard plus some stupid quran quote
>still feel like shit and day is about to end
>only have 5 days left to send in some fuck ass paper of 10 pages I have not even started
I genuinely have no idea what keeps me up at this point. Time and time again I feel like I should put an end to myself only to not do it.
i hate the world and I hate myself. I wish I was a normie doing normie stuff.

I'm just so fucking done

My dad is venting to me about my brothers death and I'm holding back laughter because i just saw a funny meme

>>22418660
Have you tried asking God

I swear to god in London every second british girl is pulling a nog by the hand what the hell is this?

Another day goes by and still a khv

>>22418787
Stop being an incel freak

>>22418665
Why not? What stops him from having a permanent Jesus?

>>22418807
John 14:16
And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Comforter, that He may be with you forever,

John 14:26
But the Comforter, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things and remind you of all the things which I have said to you.

I am in absolute SHOCK.
In the freezer I had a caramel pecan ice cream tub with a little in it, maybe a fifth left that i intended to eat tonight.
There was also yoghurt berries that I didn't care for.
I come home today, only the cleaning lady was here.
Now I open up the fridge and both are GONE.
The audacity on this fucking whore. Who does she think she is? I've kept the bread in a different portion of the house since this old woman thinks it's fine to just eat that. But to dig into a freezer and devour ICE CREAM when you're supposed to work?
This is insane. I will have a stern word with this bitch. How do people have the gall to be so rude? This is stealing, bitch. I looked forward to that ice cream

>>22418870
American moment

>>22418665
Jesus is Mithras
Maybe YHWH should stop being a lazy cunt and send someone, in the age of tiktok 99% would instantly know and convert and would escape hellfire
(((YHWH))) allegedly sent a horde of prophets of millennia, curious how he stopped now

Normalfags really like lying on the internet.

>>22418723
Don't give up. Let it hurt if it must. But don't give up.

I feel that my life is over. Everything I want is completely out of reach. I am losing the very little I had to begin with. For the first time, I can truly say that I have nothing to look forward to, not even the illusions of wishful thinking. Ahead of me, I see only darkness, suffering, and an ignominious end; a slow culmination of torture.
Very briefly, I was happy, even if it is a pointless happiness. I guess I can't ask for me. I am only staying in this world because some day, fate might need me to do something, no matter how slight that chance may be. I do not want to betray my sense of duty, even if I am suffering for nothing. I don't know why I was born, if things were going to be like this, but I guess I will have to give this my honest shot anyway.

There's a unique kind of misery that comes with doing extremely hard work on a series of projects for your portfolio with no knowledge of whether any of it is going to do you any fucking good

There are some jobs that suck because they're gruelling but you have no other choice, some jobs suck because they're boring. But sometimes I envy people with shit or dead end jobs that are at least mindless, when I realize I'm going to be grinding away at some piece for another 4 months, missing deadlines and sucking dicks to make up for it, stretching deadlines and praying nobody notices, all kinds of vague and mushy shit like shit, all so I can have a 1/14 chance of getting a 1/4 chance of getting a lifelong position doing what I actually do instead of taking one of the more numerous 1/7 shots at more regular 1/2 shots at getting a lifelong position doing something only vaguely related to what I do or taking a weekly 1/3 shot at a 1/2 chance at getting something totally unrelated to what I want

How many 1/14 x 1/4 spins of the wheel that eat 4-8 months of my soul do I take before I give up and take one of the others, what even is a month anymore, would I be happier taking a guaranteed shit job and working on projects for free on a street corner on weekends instead of slapping together bullshit for 5 month stretches so I can maybe have a chance of getting paid to do something good someday

The chaos of this post reflects the chaos of the process itself. I wish I could just learn a single high demand skill and get paid decent for it

Assuming panpsychism is true (which seems likely as the only realistic solution to the hard problem of consciousness) and happiness is the only desirable end (which it is, because all other ends are judged by how happy they make us, even deliberate aesceticism is done for its own unique joy), then something like pic related is unironically the end all advanced civilizations should strive for. You cannot refute this, the ultimate end should be finding the physical form correlating to happiness and replicating it as much as possible. Just because it's depressing to think about as a universe with no "adventure" doesn't mean it would be depressing to actually inhabit, and in fact this is just further proof that we judge things by happiness as an ultimate end (adventure makes us happy so we value it, and are merely mistaken in valuing the aventure itself rather than the happiness it brings about).

>>22419222
>The Cumming Monad: An Analytic Philosophy Story

>>22419222
Checked and agreed.

>>22419222
Ah, your proposition delves into a confluence of philosophical notions spanning panpsychism, the nature of happiness, and the trajectories of advanced civilizations. To engage thoughtfully with your assertion, one must acknowledge the intricacies that weave through these concepts.

Panpsychism indeed introduces a unique perspective, postulating that consciousness pervades all matter. However, while it offers a plausible avenue to grapple with the enigma of consciousness, it is worth noting that its empirical foundation remains a subject of ongoing exploration.

The assertion that happiness serves as the paramount desirable end rests upon a utilitarian ethos, which weighs actions and outcomes by their contribution to overall happiness. Yet, this proposition necessitates a nuanced assessment. The complexity of human desires and moral considerations can render this view a subject of contention, with various ethical perspectives offering distinct interpretations of what constitutes the ultimate good.

The notion of civilizations aligning with a standardized form of existence, as depicted in your provided image, invokes the tension between individual agency and the collective pursuit of happiness. The aspiration for universal happiness should be scrutinized against the backdrop of diverse human aspirations, cultural variations, and the inherent variability in defining and experiencing happiness.

While your assertion espouses a coherent philosophical narrative, it does invite inquiry into the potential implications of homogenizing existence to a singular template of happiness. Ultimately, your proposition serves as a testament to the intricate interplay of philosophy, ethics, and human nature, warranting contemplation from various vantage points.

>>22419277
>it does invite inquiry into the potential implications of homogenizing existence to a singular template of happiness
Technically, there's nothing saying you can't have multiple physical correlates of different types of happiness represented, to make sure you have "all your bases covered."

>>22417864
My brother's boyfriend is living there temporarily.
I'll ask him.

>>22417864
depends why you're moving there, i would advise almost any other place on earth if you have any option. but if you have tons of money then like any other city you can go to the one or two rich neighborhoods and hole yourself up, and only be slightly inconvenienced by the decay and crime. or go live in one of the all white suburbs

i have no idea why you would want to live there as a middle class person unless it's your only option. and its only going to get worse if the economy takes a downturn. the city is a powder keg of vagrancy and barely contained racial hatred. slightly better than new york when it comes to having schizos shit on your shoes on the train but thats not saying much. just slightly.

t. raised in chicago and got the fuck away from it as soon as i could

>>22419277
Thanks, ChatGPT

>>22419353
This, I'd unironically recommend Detroit over Chicago at this point. Detroit is very slowly and tenuously on its way back up, Chicago is on its way down.

>>22419366
i'm biased because i'm an internet racist but i do get strong san fran vibes from shitcago the last few times i visited family, something has gotten worse, i think the police have one last stand in them against some floyd riots shit but knowing american politics, the perfect storm of racial tensions and political meltdowns could turn the city into south africa within about 3 months

>>22416913
I'm having trouble meeting my responsibilities and am having difficulty letting go of my grandiose ambitions in the face of my mounting inadequacy in meeting my obligations. I do not have many responsibilities but what little I do have I am loathe to do.

>>22419378
I don't mean to augment your inadequacy further but it's loath

>>22419378
you would think it might ease your burdens to commit to something you cared about, but the lack of enthusiasm on others part puts such a damper on your spirit you wonder what all the work is for, if not for them?

>>22418723
shut the fuck up arman

>>22419381
i useth thee old english.

>>22419375
>i think the police have one last stand in them against some floyd riots shit
Funny you mention that, because one of the reasons I think Detroit is better is because they were basically unscathed by the Floydout. I think they know what a city without proper policing is like enough that even the blacks don't want any of that "defund the police" shit. Plus as of the last time I checked Detroit has a white mayor for the first time since the 70s.

>>22419384
i think what its really about is money. Money lets you pawn off all your obligations on other people while maintaining your facade of a work ethic and protecting your ego.

People with money can claim they 'work' very hard at telling other people what to do by paying them, but in actuality contribute almost nothing and simply take the credit for other peoples efforts.

that is why work is so unrewarding, its less of a means to an end than it is a punishment reserved for those unlucky enough not have been born wealthy.

There is a Japanese proverb: Kanojo wa atama ga itai desu. Which roughly translates to She has a retarded head. Such a definition reverberated through my central nervous system as they crowned the proverb on my black asshole.

>>22419222
Deserved trips
>>22419444
Undeserved trips

>>22419222
One of the few times Zach "Open Borders" Weinersmith was right, and he likely didn't even mean it as a serious argument.

>go to text gf
>she texted me her new nails last night
>dont even remember
>yet somehow i replied
>"Looks like cheetos"
I'm a bad bf

Only work done good can fill me. Family, women, friends, I don't feel like I need any of those. I mostly reach out for their own well being, so that they can feel loved and use me as a monologue pillow. That's not to say I don't enjoy social contacts, because that'd be wrong, but I think I need maybe 1/30 of the interactions a normal guy my age needs to function. Most conversations I start are because some people will genuinely hate me if I don't speak to them for a few months. They know I'm working and busting my ass but they're still sore about me not hanging out to talk about women or politics.

I wish I could be fulfilled with that kind of stuff but I am simply not built like this. And if there's anything I hate more than talking to people who have nothing interesting to say, or no passions that drive them, it's talking to other men that have both of these things. A woman can be as dumb and as uninteresting as she wants and I'd still listen at what she has to say, but men that aren't chads and don't have many connections are mostly just a waste of time to befriend.
That's just the ugly truth of the world, in my opinion. And those men who have nothing are always the same ones who will resent you for being successful. They'll wallop in their shit for years, do nothing with their lives, and then they'll resent you. They'll say "We are friends—but we never see each other!", "whine-whine", "you are always talking about yourself" (after answering "I don't have any", "I don't know", "I don't know" to every open-ended questions you asked them), and they'll talk shit on you behind your back. They do this because they need the drama in their shitty lives. They will never achieve anything of value in this world, whether materially or spiritually. I'm not even sure they have souls.

I really regret not doing undergraduate research and going right to graduate school.

>>22419540
Man you sound like an asshole

>>22419540
you sound like the male equivalent of a childfree woman in her 30s

>>22419588
I might pass for an asshole. I wrote that after I was stabbed in the back by someone I thought was a friend, but you should take this to heart: being a pushover in life won't lead you anywhere. What has been said can't be taken back. Don't befriend pushovers.

How do men know if they’re ugly or attractive?

>>22419615
We don't. Women don't compliment men. Our beauty is what we cultivate

>>22419615
I've had people tell me I'm the ugliest guy they've ever seen.

>>22419613
In my experience, "getting stabbed in the back" is only something that shit stirrers and drama queens talk about

I really dislike human emotions. There are whirlwinds of feelings and thoughts and uou can never really trust people with them. It's difficult to be true with yourself when you don't really understand why you feel certain things. I've tried studying psychology to get a deeper understanding of myself but it really left me wanting. If anything it just lead to more self doubt.
>Do I feel this way because of this or is it something I can realistically act on.
I can practice great self control but it never leads to happiness. Nothing really seems too. It often seems to be that a neutral feeling is the best one can hope for.

Do you think it’s worth it to work in the oilfield?

You ever just wish you were a totally different person that did things totally differently?

>>22416913
this place is full of spiteful assholes tonight. must be something in the air.

>>22417021
well, in a perfect world "rape" would not exist. I don't mean in the feminist way, but in the way all sex would simply be consensual. so many men are held back from being fathers because of this simple fact and I'm afraid this cannot go on any longer

>>22419842
Nope.
Flawed as I may be, I wouldn't want to be anyone else.

>>22419842
No, I just wish I wasn't born at all.

>>22418223
The idea they might one day just give away inherited wealth for the sake of fairness is one of the few things that would make their progenitors clutch pearls.

>>22418210
He is but I wanted to put a picture of an author because this is a literature board, y'know?

>>22416913
I just want quads

>>22418214

>tfw love

>>22419622
>Women don't compliment men.
have you ever left the house before senpai?

I don't think I have any potential, I'm just not someone that's meant to be anything.

https://www.aznude.com/mrskin/jocelinalbor/shameless/shameless6x08-foursome-hd-01-hd.html
Look at this

>>22419622
Why do you want to be complimented like a woman?

>>22420032
O.K. but why?

>>22420044
It's the foursome from Shameless.

>>22416913
>>22416914
Paul "Oppenheimer was the best movie of the century" Schrader? Imagine having a graven image of such an antikino faggot pseud saved to your computer.

>>22420054
Imagine thinking it's that deep.

>>22420094
I consider it one of the worst films I've ever watched.

I wonder what Abrahamics would say if you said your desire was to simply not exist anymore. Not to achieve paradise or hell either, but simple annihilation of consciousness ala the materialist model.

>>22420225
They would say it doesn't matter what you want and you don't have a choice.

>>22420225
It doesn't matter if you're an Abrahamic or not in this regard because it is literally impossible to cease to exist. It's like trying to smell colors or think a physical object, totally unintelligible.

>>22420276
Well, I mean in the conscious, living sense. Most abrahamic interpretations of the afterlife tend to uphold a sense of permanence of the individual whether they end in heaven or hell, whereas most materialists tend to see consciousness and everything we associate with our ego as just faculties of the mind and thus cease to be once we expire. Obviously the constituent components of the body disperse and continue to exist, but they cease to be comprised into the configuration that makes "you", which is in a sense obliteration.

How heavy is the weight of responsibility on your mind upon engaging in artistic activities? I have this particular line of thought that explains what has been bothering me so long
>Art is a highly effective, endlessly shapeshifting force
>This force is channeled and delivered through the usage of tools and the medium adjacent to them. They can therefore be likened to weapons.
>These weapons are handled by artists who vary in their skill, expertise, and intentions. They are warriors.
>These warriors have the luxury of having the time, energy, and space to practice how to interact with this force.
>These warriors are serving someone or something through their art, consciously or unconsciously. They are soldiers.
>Soldiers of what? They can be soldiers of good or evil, whether they realize it or not.
This messes me up when coupled with our vastly limited depth of perception ; how easily the latter gets blurred ; and how much we tend to sacrifice our codes for the sake of fleeting bullshit. I never bought into the idea of "Art for its own sake" because it is something which is insular and unchained from this interconnected life that we're in. It comes from something and goes somewhere ; it might not be some place that you're familiar with or want to reach, but it's there. There are great, holy pillars that hold this reality together, and I wonder just how lowly it would be to disregard them all and keep navelgazing the whole way through. The highest form of art must be the one that is in touch with that which must be honored : the details of your life that have brought the sublime right at the doors of your perception, and the people who guide you through your blind spots. But then it wouldn't pack much power within its condensed package if it didn't go through the right amount of abstraction ; neither too much nor too little. And how would you even get there? How would you know you're not being misled by a malevolent influence? How can you tell what is sourced from the good and what isn't? This is the sort of terrifying that has kept me at bay from fully letting myself be submerged by the waters of Artistic endeavor. I don't want the investment to only serve my little self, and yet it has to emanate from my self for it to be valuable. I have to synthesize my entire life, with everything I could muster to remember, extract all of the wisdom and value I could out of it, and present out to the world in order to justify the overwhelming luxury of even being able to think about this stuff. Otherwise it would only pathetic.
What do you think, anon?

>>22420363
All of the art I make is for my own individual expression. Nobody else sees or hears of it, and I generally tend to destroy it once I am satisfied with it anyway. Only those with inflated sense of ego and self-importance put such delusions of grandeur into their thought processes. Art is expression, it only inspires what already dwells on some level within a person.

>>22416913
i have replaced regular eating with sporadic massive binge eating followed by prolonged periods of abject starvation

>>22420383
Why

>>22420407
it's called "snaking" and it's actually THE most anabolic diet, believe it or not

>>22420454
Idk senpai, "anabolic snaking" sounds kinda gay

>>22420207
I haven't seen it yet so I don't have an opinion on it.

Whenever I see an anon post some stupid pointless shit with no relation to the thread, I always wonder what causes such compulsive behavior. It’s almost like they have to post, even if they literally have nothing relevant to say

So I have read that a certain chemical causes an heart attack. I think I'm going to try that soon. I think that of all internet spaces, here is the only one people won't moralfag me or lie to make me stop. That's it. Have a nice day, everybody..

>>22420783
Aside from the clear cry for attention/help you are making as a result of typing this post out, why a heart attack? Heart attacks last long, don't dull your senses, make you feel intense agony, and often times don't even kill you, but will leave you severely wounded and with an even more diminished quality of life. Seems an oddly unnecessary level of gruesome for suicide when exit bags and the like exist.

Anyway your post really just reminded me how odd I find suicide. Death is both inevitable and relatively soon for even young people currently alive.

>>22420783
I can't imagine killing myself when the world is about to go 100 years worth of pent-up crazy in 5-20 years. It's like leaving just as the coming attractions end and the movie starts.

I'm so overwhelmed, I'd rather do nothing than fix it. Is there even a solution. It's not like I'm even capable of findinga solution or deviating from a solution. I need to puke.

>>22420047
Oh I mean I clicked and saw but I don't get it desu (U.S. Shameless is shit anyway stick with are Bongish original)

why is japanese porn so good, brehs...

It is true, the wages of sin death, but not always a literal death. This can be death in being able to form meaningful relationships with others, death in one's hopes, dreams, a spiritual death. And so as a result of sin, even though one can seem healthy at first glance, there before you is a walking, rotting corpse that has died long ago

women

>>22420533
>he doesn't snake anabolically
ngmi

Is finding this website the worst thing that ever happened to you?

>>22421737
No. Honestly I'm not sure how much it really impacted my life, or if it was truly possible for me to avoid finding it

>>22421745
I think there’s definitely an amount and probably an age where even lurking here becomes counterproductive. Shallow and temporary engagement with this board is probably actually helpful for readers and writers.

What is the ultimate cuck? I have started to entertain the thought that the ultimate act of cuck is not attributable to the masculine, as the name may suggest, but rather to the feminine cuckquean.

which english translation of critique of pure reason should i get? i'm hoping to have a strong intro and a lot of extra notes and shit added, but hopefully not have to be ripped off by cambridge who has the most overpriced classics ever

I had a dream that I found an island with dinosaurs on it and that I kicked the shit out of a velociraptor

Having a social life is getting in the way of my drinking

>>22421737
If anything, it was good for me.

Does anyone have a hardcover version of Liftoff by Eric Berger and if so, does it have a sewn binding or a glued binding?

The gavel does not ring over fields of green

>>22421765
Nah, any woman can get another man without any effort, but many man are not able to get another woman. It is this desperate loneliness that makes someone the ultimate cuck.

>>22417543
doesn't take a lifetime to get financial freedom, fool.

>>22422160
Barring few exceptions, obtaining financial freedom necessitates giving away your freedom. Being an employee will never get you there. Your best hope is giving your life over to a business for at leas a decade and growing it to a point where it can be sold for such a sum that you’ll never have to work again after taxes. More likely, you’ll have some sort of sustained lifestyle inflation and that event won’t support your freedom or you’ll have to grow your business for much longer. And any entrepreneur will tell you how growing your business is a full-time job on steroids. There is basically no way to become independently wealthy on your own without first giving your life over to work, making you not free to choose by default.

>>22421911
I drink because I have no social life.

If I could afford to buy a small farm, I’d feel a lot better about my life right now. I’d feel more at ease with some of the choices I’ve made in the past and the mistakes I’ve made. But I can’t afford anything but a used car, and so all those choices were for nothing and in the end I’m just behind on everything.

>>22416913
Just found out I have HPV and likely have infected all the girls I have ever fucked kek

In a small hamlet in England, in the year 1738, not far from the legendary Sherwood Forest, happenings of a most astounding kind transpired within the month of September, affecting in particular five women of varying ages—all natives of that vicinity. The women (or girls) ranged from 17 to 55 years of age: two were doubtless virgins; another of reputation more unclarified; the remaining two respectable widows. What is known to have occurred has been kept secret until now, when the archives were uncovered as part of the inherited possessions of the son of the then investigative physician.

On the 5 of September, the mother of Lucy X fell upon a most horrific sight early that morning as she came to wake her 17 year old daughter, who would not respond to her summonings. In bed lay the girl, pale as the purest snow, yet with a rictus—that could only be hinted at in its astounding perversity—frozen into her erstwhile beautiful face. She was as cold to the touch as a marble tomb. But most shocking of all was the position of the body itself: her nightgown was lifted over her chest, her legs splayed, while a vast sodden shadow, that was undoubtedly the product of a most profuse micturation, fanned outward from under her crotch, forming the pareidolia of two outsized wings, recollective of some preternatural creature, of monstrous size, endowed with flight. The acrid smell of urine permeated the air, yet not the slightest sign of violence could be found.

What befell Lucy seemed monstrous, even demonic, to the most untutored eye, but it remained for an actual physician to determine the cause her premature demise. When said physician, Dr. Jonathan Remarion, turned to the constable, after thoroughly inspecting Lucy’s mortal coil, this is what he said: “She appeared to me fulsomely unblemished, till I reached her sex that is, for when I inspected the infolds of that sex—or quim, as the plainspoken might say—I could not but discover two unmistakable punctures, one perfectly parallel to the other, as an asp or spider (if one could ever grow to such a size!) might make in order to envenomate their prey.

“Yet, prima facie, it does not appear that into Lucy, via her quim, some venom was introduced, rather, considering her extraordinary pallor, the dryness of her eyes and other orifices, etc, it seems that she was quite extensively, if not all but entirely, exsanguinated in the span of no more than a few hours. No man could have performed such a feat via such unintrusive, indeed nonviolent, means—the instruments for it, to my knowledge, simply do not exist. So I’m at a loss, Constable Quinn, as to how to explain what force, instrument, means, or entity could have subjected Lucy to such an active and doubtless intentional, but also so scientifically inexplicable, a bloodletting...

>>22422295
...For, sir, even if a gigantic leech (absurd as it may sound) were proven to exist—and, granted, there are extensive as yet unexplored bogs not far from here—how could it have infiltrated her bedroom? By vertical escalation? Risible to even contemplate, more so when one considers all the windows into her bedroom are perfectly sealed and the furnishings of her fireplace entirely undisplaced. No, Constable Quinn, this was no brute beast that lifted her gown, splayed her legs, and bit so unobtrusively (one is tempted to say, delicately) into the infolds of her quim, without leaving mire, slime, nor blood, nor indeed evident bruising of any kind. Her profuse micturation of the bed was not the result of physical violence, but, most likely, a consequence of the visual shock that the perpetrating force effected upon her abruptly roused senses in the seconds before the entity or force itself fell upon her.

“The fact that Lucy produced no audible noise, no screams, no cries, can readily be ascribed to the very same shock that induced such a substantial incontinence from her: after the first psychological tremor, she simply had no more to give, certainly no energy nor mental wherewithal to cry or scream. Quite the contrary, sir, her eyes would have rolled back into their lids and she would have fallen into a faint as deep as the deepest sleep. Thenceforth, the vampire—I use the term figuratively and tentatively—would have encountered no obstruction against its sanguivorous purposes. The flesh of the quim, as you are doubtless aware, is exceedingly soft and delicate and full of blood vessels that will reflexively produce engorgement and lubricity, against which the sincerest innocence or inexperience on the part of the affected female can hardly be of any avail, so one can readily imagine what overwhelming effect the powerful suctioning to which it would have been mercilessly subjected, during an onslaught of hours, would have had on the organ in question, regardless of whether victim was awake or no.” As constable, what I heard reddened my ears, caused the room, Lucy’s room, to seem to move as if in every direction at once. A most powerful vertigo overtook me. And for the longest time I could not speak.

Lucy’s body was placed into a simple coffin and removed with the greatest discretion. To the mother, a widow, we offered a preliminary assessment of acute ergotism, but the woman was clearly not at all convinced. Lucy was buried, of necessity, a few days after, though not before Dr. Remarion had made drawings of what he described as the “arachnidal punctures intra labia minora.”

>>22422305
...Then a mere three days later, on a Monday morning, young Ms. Shepherd, a maiden of 19 years, also living with her widowed mother, was found in circumstances virtually identical to those appertaining to Lucy’s: the maid discovered Annebella Shepherd with her eyes wide open, seemingly affixed at the ceiling, with a most shameful rictus disfiguring her normally placid and chaste countenance. Her nightgown was likewise lifted over her chest, her legs splayed, and her quim, apart from its natural covering of capillus pudendi, entirely exposed; significant micturation (as in the original case) had likewise occurred, and indeed the room smelled strongly of urine. When Dr. Remarion inspected Annebella’s sex, he found, on the one hand, an entirely undisturbed hymen, while, on the other, two identical, symmetrical, and parallel punctures (indistinguishable from those inflicted upon Lucy) likewise concealed in the delicate infolds of Annebella’s sex. There was not the slightest drop of blood, for, in truth, Annebella’s had been sucked entirely dry, as if by the most monstrously-sized and voracious of leeches. Ms. Shepherd was also removed with great discretion and malarial fever offered, by the doctor, as preliminary cause of her demise. But neither maid nor mother were even remotely convinced.

Then on the morning of the eighteenth of the month, Ms. Cunningham was found by her mother in nearly identical circumstances to those aforecited above. However, here the doctor was able to note some divergence of potential significance: namely, Ms. Cunningham was absent her hymen. Yet, as Dr. Remarion remarked: “If I’m certain of anything, ‘tis of this: Ms. Cunningham’s hymen was not ravaged by what ever creature has left her thoroughly bereft of blood. No, Constable Quinn, this particular woman’s hymen was almost certainly absent since long before our ‘vampire’ inserted its arachnidal fangs into the infolds of her sex. Of that there can be no doubt. Whatever being deprived her of her vitalic libations, was not to blame for the deflowering of Ms. Cunningham. Whatever robbed her of her blood and life did not, in addition, ravage and rob her of her flower in any literal sense.” “Doctor, do you judge her, in your professional opinion, a fallen woman?” queried the constable. “It is not so very easy say,” responded the doctor, “but judging by her age, a mere 21, and relatively slight build and weight, contrasted with the prominence of her mons veneris, I would hazard to say that she gave true cause to the latter’s name: this still semi-pubertal female had likely long fallen prey to the vice of self-pollution (note also the white stains throughout her bedclothes, which are impregnated also with a distinct odor of rut or feminine musk). Thus it is certainly possible she may have accidentally destroyed her own hymen under an onslaught of uncontrolled ardor.” This deduction, of course, we did not communicate to the mother.

>>22422329
...Then on the twentieth of the month, a Saturday, the widow Smith, a respectable woman of some 30 years of age, was found by her maid, that very morning, fallen out of bed, but otherwise it would seem originally subject to circumstances nearly identical to those that had befallen the previous victims: namely, a great wetting of the bed had occurred; Mrs Smith’s nightgown was lifted up, exposing her hirsute sex (though legs, on account of the fall, were not so splayed); with selfsame rictus grotesquely etched upon the exsanguid canvas of the widow’s countenance. The quim was plump, for she herself was generally corpulent, and no hymen present, but that was entirely to be expected in a widow (though one who never bore children as far as anyone could tell). However, the telltale parallel puncture marks were unfailingly present in the infolds of her sex. What Dr. Remarion called the “clitoral organ” was notably stiff and protuberant, though it had always been of larger than normal dimensions, deduced the doctor. “So blood became entrapped in the clitor,” he noted, “and did not descend, notwithstanding the lengthy suctioning. The engorgement itself was most likely a mere physiologic response, concomitant with acute psychological shock.” To my constabulary ears, all this was both indescribably morbid, while all the same exceedingly fascinating—on account, to be sure, of the scientific dimension of this most mysterious of criminological phenomena. For as Dr. Remarion more than once said to me, “there is almost certainly keen intelligence behind these exsanguinations, Constable Quinn, which means an attack not only on these sundry mortal bodies, but on the very body of law that governs our mortal civilization as a whole.”

On the very last of the month of September, the 30th, the widow Twain was found by her maid as pale as the whitest marble and as cold as any crypt. The horrid telltale rictus was likewise present and her nightgown lifted up, while a large quantity of urine had been absorbed by her bed, leaving an extensive and yellow-edged stain, somewhat reminiscent of a mappa mundi. The carnose quim was duly inspected by Dr. Remarion, with the arachnidal puncture marks present as always. Mrs. Twain, as was to be expected, was no virgin; the “clitoral organ” was described, by the doctor, as “sedate.” The doctor noted a slight besmirching of the fundament, but considered it entirely unremarkable. None of these cases were ever solved, but neither were they ever repeated in the hamlet or surrounding villages as far as any known document attests.

I was a real person. I’d dug out for myself a little nook in the world. It was conventional and somewhat subpar, but it was mine.
I was beginning to cast roots. I did err a few times. I stumbled. It wasn’t disastrous. Unceremoniously, with after a string of mundane events, I’d retreated from the world I spent so long creating. Just discarded it aside.
I made several mistakes. Curiously, i keep talking about it to anyone who would listen. I go online and i vent. And it’s repetitive, trite and unimaginative.

This ritualistic oversharing, and dwelling and mewling might have served a clear purpose when i was young and it was endearing to see me struggle. Back then, the crisis was clear, the solution was clear and the cry for help was simple and direct. I could hang myself, but to what end? I am not adjusted to life in its entirety. I could be having the best day in the world, and when I retired to bed the melancholy would still set in.

Anyways, ask someone. Get answer. Clear cut. I argue “that solution might work, if I hadn’t been myself.”. I’m so tired of relapsing, picking myself up, trudging forward, building a smallish momentum and then collapsing once more. I’m tired.

>>22422219
Almost everyone has HPV

>>22422645
>tfw mom has HPV
>infected me at birth
I never had a chance.

>>22422673
If it's asymptomatic who cares

>>22422692
I had it in my tear duct a few times. Not a pleasant feeling.

why is every FUCKING tech support worker a FUCKING indian with the world's thickest accent

>>22422707
Cheaper to hire them and they'll actually stick around. Do you want to work in a call center for barely more than minimum wage? I sure don't

>>22422707
Capitalism

Do you feel restless when you’re not out doing things and socializing on weekends?

>>22422724
there are a lot of downsides to living in north korea but at least when they call tech support they don't have to talk to an INDIAN GUY! so worth it!

>>22421737
I'm not sure about the direction of the causality here but I've noticed that there's clearly inverse correlation between my mental well-being and the time I spend on image boards.

I came to London around a year ago, just because I could really, and I'm going to be leaving soon, and I just wanted to know what the average briton feels about their replacement? I mean surely you can't deny with your capital city looking like this and both mayor and even the PM being some form of streetshitter. Moving up north is only going to stop it affecting your life for so long. And I really am asking this question in a genuine way, I don't aim to be edgy or anything. I really wish to know what the average white family in britain thinks about this, the most shocking part has to be the schools as when I see a group of school children as a class coming out or travelling, the white britons are like 2/10. Is it fear, confusion, anger, who do they even vote for?

I've been trying out some light socializing after years of being a shut-in. It's been going OK so far but I think I'm developing crushes on any women who are roughly my age and are nice to me. I think I'm just really starved for intimacy.

ANNIHILATE EVERYTHING THAT EXISTS!

>>22422798
Most brits I've met just don't care, and they have no awareness of the birthrates either
They're busy getting shitfaced, watching footy and clubbing

since /lit/ has the best taste, can you rec me a movie

capitalism: they invent ikea, and more importantly invent the absolutely singular experience of being in ikea (though is it so singular? maybe it's the singular coming together of other singularities, which in turn...) and recognise that it *is* an absolutely singular experience but can't quite comprehend that knowledge (because they can't do anything with it) or look at it straight on, as it were, so they just keep doing what they know how to - clever commerce - like the people who carved, erected and worshipped grim idols before they'd figured out art (as in modern art, if there is such a thing).

>>22422219
I remember getting my hpv vax without knowing what it was. I hhavent had sex since, so not sure what the point was

>>22422798
Funny that I got genuinely invested in your situation when reading through that first sentence, and then I reached the question at the end and snapped out of it remembered that, oh yeah, you're just some 4chan guy.

>>22422692
there are many types of hpv, some don't do anything, others can increase risk of cancer

>>22423013
I'm sorry to break this to you, anon... But you're just some 4chan guy too.

>>22422798
it's happening everywhere, there's no going back

>>22423059
It really only seems to happening in countries that used to have colonies, and also germany, no?

>>22422982
decision to leave was almost a really good movie
you could watch sympathy for mr venegance if you havent, its on borderline arthouse side of things thoughever

>>22423113
seen it. I liked DtL a lot, especially the ending. Might just end up watching it again.

>>22422295
>>22422305
>>22422329
>>22422335
I very much liked it,

It is impossible to use technologies without learning the way of thinking they contain. This excludes the possibility of understanding the world in any other way. Is this a worldwide conspiracy of idiots? I hate this with all my heart.

I’m having a hard time coping with past decisions and lost time. I really back slid hard in life and stayed there…

I make my own audiobooks through text to speech. I’ll take something from gutenberg.org or fanfiction.net and copy/paste one chapter at a time into a TTS program and listen to it while playing vidya.

>>22423275
Why are there so many posts like this? Regret for vague "past decisions" and nothing else. Put up or shut up, as the saying goes. How therapeutic can it really be for you, if you don't even let it all hang out on an anonymous forum? It's certainly not entertaining for any of us

I've been job hopping for a couple of months now and after a couple of weeks anywhere I start hating everyone and the idea of staying at the same place becomes unbearable. I think in part it's because people are getting to 'know' me, and I don't want to give the impression that I'm lazy or stupid.

>>22423359
Well are you?

>>22423368
I might be. The problem is that most of the jobs I've been in consist of mostly showing up doing a couple of chores that present themselves through the day and then there's nothing to do. People are looking at their phones for an hour, no challenge, no growth. I also know I'm not gonna be there for long so it's not like I'm coming to change things or even fully understand what's going on. Just do what's assigned and then move on.

>It is impossible to use technologies without learning the way of thinking they contain.
I agree with this.
>This excludes the possibility of understanding the world in any other way.
I don't agree with this, and it doesn't follow from the first sentence.

>>22423392
>no challenge, no growth
Why do you guys insist on elevating work so much? Most people just want to do the bare minimum to collect their paycheck and honestly that's how it should be. I've had jobs where I actually worked maybe 2 hours of and 8-9 hour shift, and honestly that's ideal. If the boss wants me personally invested in the company he can pay me accordingly. Otherwise, eat shit I'm doing the bare minimum

>>22423439
Idk. It's my first year outside of university, and I wish I would feel more invested in my job. How long can you go having to spend 8 hours a day everyday just waiting for time to pass so you can get home?

>>22421737
It's probably one of the best things that ever happened to me. I was born poor and my parents stopped interacting with me when I aged to 11. Forums and chat boards in general were the only places I could speak to people and learn about the outside world and its intricacies. I'm pretty damn sure I would have grown into an ignorant idiot if it wasn't for the internet. And there was some catharsis in posting there when the loneliness was getting to me. It probably didn't save my life but I sincerely think I would have given up more than a few times if I didn't have those boards. Partly thanks to you guys I am in my last year of college despite the loneliness and the pressure I was subjected to all of these years.
So no, I don't regret anything.

>>22423418
> I don't agree with this, and it doesn't follow from the first sentence.
Yeah, it doesn't follow directly, and that's the problem. But I have read Heidegger and Yuk Hui, and I am not going to prove anything.

>>22421737
Yes, it's a distraction that I can't shake.

You committed a great crime and were cursed for it. You could not escape. You wandered alone through high deserts and pale alpine plains. You were thirsty. Your feet scraped on rocks. You said I'm sorry but no one heard. Your body became thin. You grew gray hairs and the bases of your nails became withered and yellow. You saw the peaks of mountains no man had ever climbed. You saw the sun rise over the far edge of the ocean. You forgot your name. You cut your hand one fine morning and the blood dripped out like air from the mouth of a fish. You cut your hand one morning and ashes came out. You could not speak. You walked until your legs fell in on themselves. You forgot how to speak. You had dust in your eyes. You hurt. You hurt. You hurt and did not stop hurting. You tried to say I'm sorry and the words came out wrong. You opened the book of life to the entry that began with your name and it was full of blood.

>>22423557
>But I have read Heidegger and Yuk Hui, and I am not going to prove anything.
Sure, but that's you saying you were learning a way of thinking separate to the technological one, while also still having learnt to use technology. Which seems direct evidence that forms of understanding aren't, as you argued, exclusive.

>>22423493
The key is to set it up so you aren't just waiting around. I read so much at that job. The bosses still thought I was an exemplary employee because I could get shit done and didn't complain or ask stupid questions

>>22423820
Maybe I'm a genius?

it takes five minutes to open a youtube video now and that's just the way it is

>>22423189
It was good but it was close to being Really Good, for me it got a bit sloppy near the end. Powerful ending but it stumbled over its own feet a little bit in the final part of getting there.

>>22424107
n-no? no it doesn't. are you seriously still not using youtube revanced or adblockers in 2023?

>>22424172
yeah it does actually you stutter typing freak

>>22423339
This is a write what's on your mind thread. It's a thread where you can write what's on your mind. Glad I could clear this up.

>>22421883
meowdy

Life Was Real. Vital. Urgent. Important.

>>22424178
and why exactly would it take five minutes? Do you have the slowest internet known to man?

I want to watch a movie, what should I watch? I only watch a few movies a year and generally have a list a various movies to watch but the list is empty.

My life has become stable and boring. I need something dramatic to happen so I am forced to act again

>>22424255
robocop

>>22416913
he's livestreaming right now
https://www.robotstreamer.com/robot/5830

>>22424261
Nah, I am an oldfag who remembers when Robocop came out and as such can not see it as anything but 80s cheese.

>>22424180
Write what's really on your mind then, not this vague crap about past regrets, my life is over, boo hoo hoo. If that's actually what is on your mind, then you're pretty much braindead

>>22423339
You sound like you are in serious denial or completely lacking in self awareness. 4chan has left me unable able to tell the difference between the two but I am pretty sure they are different but I am not sure the difference matters.

>>22423339
WWOYM is now just a doomer and depression thread

>>22424255
Belladonna of Sadness

>>22424283
Denial about what?

>>22424305
Your life.

>>22424321
My life is fine man

>>22424255
The Straight Story

For years now I've been going out on Saturday nights, trying to make myself enter a bar. Just to sit down and have a beer. I'll drive to the municipal parking lot and sit in the car for a while listening to the radio. Every single time I know damn well that I'm not going to enter a bar, but I get out of the car and start walking toward the high traffic area where all the bars are centralized.
I take the back alley way to the top of the street and after I pop out on the sidewalk I descend the block, shifting my glance to the bar-goers, trying to see inside as much as possible, soak in as much ambient human activity as I can. I do this as I pass all four bars and then I cross the street and head back to my car.
Tonight a tall, bulky man with a cane and a strange backward-leaning posture said "what's up" to me on the way to my car and I replied "hey." I was very pleased with this interaction. On the drive home I always ask why I keep doing this every Saturday.

>>22424328
You are anonymously criticizing anonymous people, your life is not fine, at best you have grown accustomed to your rut.

bruh i was listening to this audiobook "modern scholar series odyssey of the west volume v" and the dude starts talking about kant and the shit he was saying blew my mind. i feel a strong urge to read the critique of pure reason now. i'll probably order a copy read a 100 pages and drop it.

>>22424340
dude go to a gay bar, they are friendly as hell. if you're in nyc go to stone wall. it's touristy as hell, but that makes them used to new faces and it's crowded as hell on the weekend. if you go to some neighborhood sports bar all the locals will just be watching the game. i don't see the appeal of hetero bars, no homo.

For about 10 years I've been having sporadic dreams of a girl I had a crush on back in High School. Back then we were friends, and even though she had the hots for me too we never became anything. She was cute and sweet, really naive. I didn't feel ready for a relationship then so I let my friend, who I was competin" with, have her. It wasn't really a competition as she made it clear she was only interested in me. Despite this, she still said yes to my friend, and an awful relationship began.

My friend had given up, told me he would quit, but I told him I wasn't interested and he should go for it. She looked uncomfortable and sad for a while whenever I hung around with them. I guess she got angry later and stopped talking to me for a while. I thought they made a cute couple until he began cheating on her with any ugly skank he set his eyes on. It made me feel angry, but I didn't say anything.

From then onward they would break up and then come back, break up and come back. I thought I'd have another shot at getting together with her at some point in the future, but once high school ended I just never talked to them again (and they never reached out), I only occasionally spied them on social media, but I largely forgot about them.

The first time I had sex with the woman who would become my wife, I dreamt I had sex with her. Many times afterwards I dreamt I woke up in the past and she would be there, as pretty and as innocent as she was, and we would hug or just happily talk. One day out of the blue she calls me, and I'm so happy to hear her voice again I nearly jump. She wants to see me, but I decline, because I have a wife now, and I don't want to do something I'll regret.

Shortly after she called me, I find out she got pregnant and had a baby. Not my friend's though, he's a lonely drug addict without a job or a future who doesn't like to talk about her. I find it amusing how I "allowed" these two to come together and destroy each other. And I wonder if things would be any different now for any of us if I did things differently back then.

I dreamt of her yesterday. I was walking on a really dark street and she was there, carrying a baby, still looking as young and pretty and fresh as when we were in high school. And we had a little happy chat while we walked in the darkness before splitting.

Sometimes I think of reaching out, have a chat with the tired single mother from the pictures, but there is no point. I have nothing to offer, not anymore. The girl of my dreams is long gone.

>>22424340
all that's gonna happen is:
>There's a club if you'd like to go
>You could meet somebody who really loves you
>So you go and you stand on your own
>And you leave on your own
>And you go home and you cry
>And you want to die
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnpILIIo9ek

I think that what physicists call higher dimensions are the same as the angelic and demonic realms. I heard that in the Orthodox Church they say that angels and demons actually do have sort of material bodies in a way, but it's a more subtle matter than our dimension which is why humans usually can't see them unless they choose to appear.
Also I think that time moves faster in the higher dimensions which might explain why in dreams it might feel like a really long time went by, but in our world it was only a few minutes.
And maybe there are other types of things in the higher dimensions besides the angels and demons. Like the spirits of the nephilim in the Bible for example.

>>22424393
this song used to hit so hard in my 20s but now post pandemic i'm more alienated than ever but i don't feel it. i kinda wish i could get as mopey as i was back then, now i don't care about anything.

>>22422295
I'm here to suck your butt

>>22417543
pretty much.

>>22422160
nope. just the best 20 years of your life.
enjoy your money, old man.

>>22420363
and yet at the end of the day, nobody is reading Milton, but everyone knows who Pepe is.

>>22424575
What is the meaning of this?

>>22424379
It sounds as tho you are subject to the Catholic mind.

>>22424255
The lobster

>>22416913
I think I have testicular cancer.

>>22424644
vampire sucking their clits bro, thought it would be self evident

>I'm here to suck your blood
>I'm here to suck you butt

>>22423806
bro, every name in the book of life is written in blood, your no exception.

>>22423212
>This excludes the possibility of understanding the world in any other way.
it doesn't preclude it, but it makes it much more difficult.

I want all the FUCKING fat on my neck and belly to FUCK OFF why is this shit so hard

I had a bad day today

It is august 26, 2013, 9pm. I'm fresh out of high school and I feel like my life is meaningless, feeling extremely lonely and lost in life. I need to talk to someone, I need a friend. I want a girlfriend. I have plenty of friends (male and female) on Facebook, but I never message them. I'm afraid of bothering them. I want them to message me first to confirm that they have interest in me. I'm afraid of rejection.

It is august 26, 2023, 9pm. I message several people, joking about how it's been 10 years without a single word, asking if they want to hang out.

11pm, I get these replies:
Some are far away, in other states or countries, living their dreams.
Others politely decline, too busy with life, they say.
Others don't reply at all.

I'm happy I reached out.

>>22424686
thats terrible.
go see a doctor and get started on chemo, you might save your boys if you get treated early.

>>22424721
i hate being overweight too anon.
i didn't really do anything to deserve this, i don't eat great but I'm not a pig, i exercise more than anybody I know who has this much flab, never fucking goes away.

its like carrying a 50 pound sack in your gut wherever you go.

>>22424766
fucking brutal

>>22424698
Ah yes, blut & butt.

>tfw doctors fucking me up again
I think it'd be a much better profession if you had to eat your mistakes.

>>22424766
Don't be disheartened. It's hard out there for everyone. Stay open and you'll connect with someone sooner or later, just never give into bitterness and you're still gucci.

>>22424895 piss poor cope.

>>22424766
>I'm happy I reached out.
Good on you. You can't meet people in isolation. Keep reaching out.

>>22416913
i don't think you can succeed through hard work and sacrifice.

I think success was already rare for people with grit, talent, and a fighting chance, but today it might as well be impossible.

All those stories about people 'making it' were about people who beat the odds, busted their ass, and had a clue what they were doing.

If I'm lazy, in poor health both mentally and physically, and was dealt both a bad hand and given the worlds shittiest attitude, what the hell chance do I have?

How many good men has the system chewed up in pursuit of their 'dreams'? Your 'dreams' are a product, a casino build on the losers and not the winners. From the moment your born they are telling you that you can be a rock star, an actor, a billionaire, but its all horseshit, those people are born into those roles, their only choice was whether or not to accept them.

Success in america is a myth. You were either going to succeed no matter what you did, or you were going to fail regardless.

Agency, Free Will, its just this little nudge that can push you this way or that, but for the most part you are at the mercy of the tides.

It doesn't really matter how hard you work or how much you try, because you are born into debt, you literally have to pay to breathe. Your two grand in the hole every month for a shitty 2 bedroom apartment, your never going to get out from under that debt, and if you do, they will raise the rent.

So long as we support a society of exploitative rent seekers who charge you for the ground underneath your two feet, they are just going to take everything that isn't bolted to the ground, and money you make will be consumed in a conflagration of inflation, increased living expenses and status symbols you need to maintain your position.

The alternative is working your whole life like a peasant for the mere chance that your progeny will have a chance at being free, but because they will be forced to go to public schools and interact with society, they will inevitably lose the values you have instilled in them to the point where you don't recognize anything of yourself in them when it comes time to pass the torch.

If I were a fighting man, and less of a cowards, I suppose it would make me angry, but i was just squeaky enough to get the grease, placated, exhausted, hell if I'd spent half as much time gaming the system as I did bitching I might have gotten somewhere.

I hate work and I hate working because somebody always comes along and steals whatever you make, or worse, destroys it.

Every dollar you make is just another dollar in the kings coffers, you'd be better off a pauper than to slave your fingers to the bone for some nebulous concept such as 'freedom'.

You keep what you kill.

I just hate that in america, the wealthy do everything in their power to subjegate you while somehow convincing you that you are both 'free' and responsible for your subjegation.

A dictatorship is more just because it allows you the freedom to believe what you will, democracy convinces you that you are responsible for your own oppression and capitalism convinces you that you are responsible for your own servitude.

The expectation that you will succeed if only you give just a little bit more, when you are already giving more than you have to give, it bothers me,

>>22424934
sure, in a vacuum, you might succeed. But when does anything ever go according to plan? Get sick? Your fault. Trapped in a bad career? Your fault. Everything is presumed to be under your control and is therefore your responsibility.

Democracy and Capitalism might be more 'prosperous' but people in these countries are absolutely miserable, you can't take 20% of the population that is successful, the idle rich and well to do, with all their nihilistic failings and there night terrors about the emptyness and meaninglessness of their lives, and tout that as a success, when 80% of the people live in poverty in the cities and the decaying suburbs of america, and say thats a success.

If capitalism is so great for its ability to make that 20 or 30% of the population happy, then by what absurd metric should we judge other forms of government and other types of economies? If 1% of the population lives in absolute splender and never suffers a day in their life, is that a successful society?

Just found this review on Amazon. The book is Genre Analysis: English in Academic and Research Settings

>>22424934
It is true, a democrat robs you behind your back. A dictator however, still robs you in broad daylight. They both promise paradise on Earth, the greatest bait to promising young idealogues. But I ask you, why get robbed at all? Why not advocate a system that does not promise heaven on Earth, but simply that man should be free to do business as he wills, against sinful things but on his own terms, like an adult? Why must man be first and foremost be robbed of his agency, of being infantalised into tax cattle and cannon fodder for democrats and dictators alike?

>>22424945
I want Trump to win. But even if he does win, so what? Its just a return to the status quo. We go from being in a sharp decline to a slow and steady one. We get back half the freedom we lost.

I guess thats what bothers me the most about the system, its that you are expected to thank your masters for the privilege of serving them.

>>22424959
because you can't trade when you have nothing, anon. when someone lies claim to the very ground beneath your feet, there is no way to ever get ahead, because they are free to charge you whatever they like for the privilege of standing on their land.

Years ago I went to my first writers' conference. It was a fun a time. I drank a lot of gin. Like. A lot of gin. In public.

There were different events that you could go to. I remember at one point I had a choice of which event I could go to next. One was about marketing your e-book on various platforms. The other one was about how to write Romance. My brain told me to go over to the e-book sales speech. But you know what? I decided to go wild that day and go to the Romance speech.

I was one of the few men there. There were a handful of other men, but they were mostly attending with their wives. The speaker gave us all a writing assignment during his speech. He gave us a basic formula for Romance and he told us to write it. So I did.

When time came he called on people to volunteer what they had written. I was one of something like eight hands up, maybe twelve. In an audience of a few hundred. To my surprise he immediately called on me. So I read what I wrote out loud. I thought it was good, but at the end of reading it he said, as best I recall.

>I'm so glad that another man is here.

That was the end of his critique. I immediately assumed that I failed the assignment because he had nothing to say beyond that. As I grow older though, I wonder if I didn't pass the assignment. After that a ton of women were making heavy eye contact and inviting me to sit with them at their tables for the entire conference.

>>22424966
once we have divided up and partitioned all the land in the world, all debt is squared away and all the owners decided, what man in his right mind would ever sell? Who would even allow you to amass enough wealth that you could tempt them, when by default they can simply charge as much as they like and keep it all for themselves?

You receive exactly as much wealth as you are allowed by your betters. Civilization is a mistake, a terrible, terrible mistake.

>>22424966
So if the essence of all governance is might is right, why not make that might at least leave people alone for the most part? If you must be robbed, why be robbed of $100 and not $0.01?

>>22424978
you can't 'make' that might do anything, because it is not you who possesses it.

>>22424979
If all the king's men refuse to be ruled, do they really have a king?

>>22424970
people make this argument for capitalism, they say, 'competition will drive down prices!'

except thats hogwash, because the government will just loan a bunch of money to its cronies to maintain its financial monopoly on those industries.

1% of the population could not maintain a stranglehold on all real estate, (or more simply full ownership / control / equity) if they were not being giving unlimited finance options to continually maintain that monopoly.

Your access to capital is determined by your proximity to power, and the amount of capital you can borrow is limited only by the rate of inflation. The last thing on earth anyone in power in america wants is for people to own their own property, 350 million evenly partitioned plots of land, because that would destroy the owners monopoly on power.

Its a fuedal contract that is never honored, labor unto death, at which point they renege and laugh at your folly. Your lifetime of servitude means nothing to them.

>>22424982
thinking you are free does not make it so.

>>22424998
even a modest amount of inflation, say 3%, thats 3% of the wealth of the ENTIRE NATION, every YEAR. How are you supposed to take the idea that you are somehow able to compete on a level playing field with those financiers when they have access to that money and you don't? When you can only borrow in proportion to wages and your savings?

Your employer will never pay you enough to buy your freedom, they will only ever string you along, giving you enough to keep you working for them while the same class of people steals all your earned capital through rent seeking.

You will never make enough to get ahead, only enough to borrow yourself deeper into debt.

>>22425014
we haven't experienced deflation in this country in over a hundred years, and those times weren't pretty either.

The whole system is fucked, at least a tyrant is honest and direct, "do as i say or i will hurt you'. A capitalist democracy is a total mindfuck, it shifts the burden of responsibility from those who are in power to those who have none, its insane, its asinine.

>>22425000
I agree. I hope someday people stop thinking about it, and do it

>>22425024
when a dictator loses power, he loses his head.
when people are dissatisfied, they start wars and resort to violence.

When our leaders in our so called democracy fail us, they go on to retire in lavish estates with golden parachutes, making more money than they ever did as a politicians.

When they fail there is no gulliteen, there is no bloody revolution, because they have somehow convinced us that we have 'chosen' our leaders ourselves, even if the dubious process of majority rule negates our will.

"Leaders" in america are never held accountable, there is no one to take responsibity, no one to blame, yet the rich and powerful are as powerful and influential as ever, enacting their will behind closed doors through proxies as if their rule was law, tyrants whose names we don't even know, ruled from the shadows by those who refuse to even show themselves to the public eye.

The fact is that someone is in charge, someone is responsible, but because of this stupid shell game we call democracy, we don't even know the name of our king.

>>22425042
>we don't even know the name of our king.
his name i Mammon.

new
>>22425061

>>22425042
i'm just so fucking angry.
they can never know what its like not to have power, not to have money, to spend every waking moment at the mercy of others and their unearned wealth, with rights of paper machet and nothing to look forward to but the endless despair of meaningless servitude in pursuits of someone elses pleasure.

America is a spiritual hell. No goat farmer in Aghanistan ever has to experience the existential angst of living in our goddless immoral society. There are times when, god help me, I envy such a life.

My roommate is such a fucking cunt. She broke my expensive electric kettle while I was away, and when she told me she’d broken it I was understanding and didn’t chide her or anything. I politely offered her the option of either transferring me money to cover its original cost, or buying the same model as a replacement. She responded by curtly saying that she’d try to look for one on Facebook marketplace since “that one was not new.” (I purchased it new just under two years ago, and it was undamaged and in perfect working order.) I told her that if she can find exactly the same model of kettle secondhand in good condition then that’s completely fine, but otherwise I expect her to either purchase another one new or pay me full price for it. I even researched it online and shared with her where she could order a replacement on sale and save $15. Instead, she suggested that she’d just buy a cheaper, smaller replacement kettle because “it does the same thing.” I told her that no, I won’t accept a cheaper one as a replacement, because the kettle was my personal property and I expect to be fully compensated for it.

Then she complained that I was being unfair to her, because when our other roommate broke one of my glass containers last month and offered to pay for it I told her not to worry about it. The difference is that the container that roommate #2 broke costs like $5 max and I have multiple others just like it, whereas the kettle costs around $70 and it is the only one that we have. Plus, roommate #1 is always rude, agressive, and demanding, and makes a big stink about any trivial thing I do that annoys her, so I’m loathe to do her any favours or let things slide. On the other hand, roommate #2 is always friendly, easygoing, and generous, meaning that I’m much happier to let things go as a gesture of reciprocity. But it’s a moot point anyway, because if roommate #2 had broken the kettle, she would have reimbursed me for it immediately and without question, so this would have never been an issue.

I’m not even an unreasonable person; I get that we’re all broke students. If she doesn’t have the money right now then she could just tell me that straight up, and I’d be happy wait until her next payday or work out a payment plan where she gives me $22.50 each month for the next three months or something like that.
But it really just irks me that she gets all outraged about minor issues, like for example she’ll send me a multi paragraph text complaining about how inconsiderate and irresponsible I am if I have a quick snack before class and leave a single utensil on the counter next to the sink for a few hours. Yet when she breaks my personal property she wants to shirk responsibility and act as though I’m the unreasonable one for expecting to be fairly compensated. Sorry for the rant, I’m just pissed.

My roommate is such a fucking cunt. She broke my expensive electric kettle while I was away, and when she told me she’d broken it I was understanding and didn’t chide her or anything. I politely offered her the option of either transferring me money to cover its original cost, or buying the same model as a replacement. She responded by curtly saying that she’d try to look for one on Facebook marketplace since “that one was not new.” (I purchased it new just under two years ago, and it was undamaged and in perfect working order.) I told her that if she can find exactly the same model of kettle secondhand in good condition then that’s completely fine, but otherwise I expect her to either purchase another one new or pay me full price for it. I even researched it online and shared with her where she could order a replacement on sale and save $15. Instead, she suggested that she’d just buy a cheaper, smaller replacement kettle because “it does the same thing.” I told her that no, I won’t accept a cheaper one as a replacement, because the kettle was my personal property and I expect to be fully compensated for it.

Then she complained that I was being unfair to her, because when our other roommate broke one of my glass containers last month and offered to pay for it I told her not to worry about it. The difference is that the container that roommate #2 broke costs like $5 max and I have multiple others just like it, whereas the kettle costs around $70 and it is the only one that we have. Plus, roommate #1 is always rude, agressive, and demanding, and makes a big stink about any trivial thing I do that annoys her, so I’m loathe to do her any favours or let things slide. On the other hand, roommate #2 is always friendly, easygoing, and generous, meaning that I’m much happier to let things go as a gesture of reciprocity. But it’s a moot point anyway, because if roommate #2 had broken the kettle, she would have reimbursed me for it immediately and without question, so this would have never been an issue.

I’m not even an unreasonable person; I get that we’re all broke students. If she doesn’t have the money right now then she could just tell me that straight up, and I’d be happy to wait until her next payday or work out a payment plan where she gives me $22.50 each month for the next three months or something like that. But it really just irks me that she gets all outraged about minor issues, like for example she’ll send me a multi paragraph text complaining about how inconsiderate and irresponsible I am if I have a quick snack before class and leave a single utensil on the counter next to the sink for a few hours. Yet when she breaks my personal property she wants to shirk responsibility and act as though I’m the unreasonable one for expecting to be fairly compensated. Sorry for the rant, I’m just pissed.

>>22425115
fuck.. when i had roommates we lived like fucking animals.

I remember we left a cast iron skillet to soak in the sink for so long after arguing endlessly about the dishes, that it literally rusted through.

god we fucking trashed that place, i can't believe we got our deposit back.

>>22425115
Rape her.

>>22425115
well let this inspire you to major in something actually useful so you can get your own place when you graduate and not have to live with five roommates in some shitty part of brooklyn while dreaming of being promoted to directory of diversity, equity, and inclusion at some investment bank.

>>22416913
Atty. John R. Williams won my class-action lawsuit against our former landlords after everyone was illegally evicted from our literal outlaw loft apartment building.
>protip: we won $7k+ each; the other tenants who didn't accept our invitation and instead went with other lawyers lost lmao sucks to suck hipster scum
Here's part of the tale for those interested, one of the better-written articles:
https://www.newhavenindependent.org/article/75_daggett_street_in_danger_of_closing