/lit/ - Literature

I feel like once you can spot women psy ops they are everywhere. I can't even imagine bring a women and having to constantly guess if you're crazy or not because of the possibilities of psychological operations being done on you by other women.

Matthew really looked here.

I think they send me a fake lover to break my heart so I stop plotting against them.

Sucks to be them, I'm heartless.

>>22343233
This bitch at work yesterday was like “still reading that book? Slow read?”
You stupid fucking bitch it’s 700 pages and I’ve had it for too weeks. Worry about your fucking YA you dumb cunt.

>>22343233

Sometimes you're better off dead
The long sighs
Of the violins
Of autumn
Hurt my heart
There's a gun in your hand, and it's pointing at your head
With a languor
Of sameness.
You think you're mad, too unstable
All stifling
And pale, when
Kicking in chairs and knocking down tables
The hour sounds,
I remember
Days of once
And I weep
In a restaurant in a West End town
And I let myself go
Call the police, there's a madman around
With the evil wind
Which carries me
Running down underground to a dive bar
Here, beyond,
Like the leaf
Which has died
In a West End town

>>22343486
Lmao what are you reading amigo?

Why am I blamed when I say I'm a virgin if there was only bad women to pick

>>22343486
owned lmao

It remains paramount that in any discussion of governmental systems, this first and central question must be addressed: What is the purpose of government?

Although this seems like an utterly basic, if not remedial thing to establish, peoppe can already have such wildly different ideas about what exactly is government for before talking about how the government should function. Consider, that some people woud say government is nothing more than an entity to provide law and order upon the land, with taxes the payment needed to accomplish this job. Therefore, the logical conclusion of that line of thinking would be a government thay essentially leaves people alone for the most part, almost in a transactional, strictly-business kind of way. Government here, is a guard, a policeman, a soldier to keep others out and keep the peace.

Then there is another school of thought, that government should in some manner provide a service, a good, whether moral or material, a state religion, or state redistribution. Here, a government is priest or proletariat revolutionsry, have a direct role in the lives of citizen, not just in providing law and order in the land, but in the very heart, mind, and soul of a nation. In this way, government has become father, mother, or even dear comrade.

Of course, these were extreme examples. Realistically most people would be right to have a mix of the two, a government that protects as well as serve, providing this and that, while keeping the people safe and healthy. Here we find the modern democracy: Goverment is politician, a voice of the people, perhaps some more than others. Indeed, it can be a scary thing to think about, that a country once more laid back, hands-off, leave-me-alone in spirit grows evermore in reliance with governance as a genie of sorts, robbing Bob to care to Sally in the name of a kind of justice that governance is supposed to provide. Or worse, in larger scale taking the public coffer into the hands of shrewd business and failing corporations. What can be done, when the question of what is the government's purpose has become so muddied? Government for me, but not for thee, the seeds of tyranny grow mightily...

Spaghetti

>>22343517
The Magus. Im almost finished only like 40 pages left. It is getting pretty tedious ngl.

>>22343571
They knew two modes of private property: the odel and the feud.
The odel belong without restriction to it's master. The odel did not pay taxes. It constituted a real sovereignity.
As long as he was chief of the family and proprietary of an odel, his reports were reduced to little things. Together with other warriors he elected a magistrat to preserve national peace, that the Scandinavians called Drottinn and other nations who sprang from then Graff. Chosen among the oldest and noblest races, among those that could claim divine origin, this exact pendant to the Hindou viçampati exercized on his subjects the most restricted authority, if not the most precarious. Under this simple empire, every Arian, sovereign in his Odel, wasn't more bound to his national neighbours than are the different states constituting a federation.
This governmental form, useful in times of peace, was absolutely incompatible with the state of war. As soon as the Arian entered in campaign, he recognized that very particular reports had to intervene between the chief and the soldiers.
A well-known warrior appeared at the general assembly, and proposed himself to command the planned expedition. Sometimes, especially in cases of aggression, he even revealed the first idea. In other circumstances, he merely submitted a plan of his own that he applied to the situation. This candidate for command was careful to base his claims on his earlier exploits, and to make use of his tried and tested ability; but, above all else, the means of seduction which he could employ most happily, and which assured him of preference over his competitors, was the offer and guarantee, for all those who come to fight under his command, that they will be assured individual advantages worthy of their courage and covetousness. There was thus a debate and an overbidding between the candidates and the warriors. It was only by conviction or seduction that they could be led to engage with the entrepreneur of exploits, glory and spoils.
It is understood that much eloquence and a somewhat esteemable past were absolutely necessary for those who wanted to command. They were not asked, as the robbers or graffs, for the greatness of birth; but what they absolutely needed was military talent, and even more boundless liberality towards the soldier, for there would have been only dangers to follow their flag with no hope of victory or reward.

>>22343251
I don't speak to other women

>>22343664
Other than whom?

>>22343679
his mom obviously

I need eye surgery. Im terrified of something going wrong and ending up blind foerver (in which case I hope i can at leadt kill myself quickly somehow). I want to consume as much important media as possible while i can in three days. What would you consider the most important media one must experience in their lifetime?

i'm reading proust 2 and i'm annoyed he's started writing about being a writer. it always feels like a cheap way to appeal to the failed or minor writers who sit on awards committees. also, coming from stoner, proust prose just feels purple at times.

>>22343233
>Catladriel

>>22343679
I speak to myself because I am insane

Is finding contentment through literary works just a delusion, like philosophical suicide? "This is exactly the book I need right now. Reading it inspires me to persevere in life." I can say there is such a work which helps me cope with my struggles rather than feeling only displeasure with existence. If the work didn't exist, I likely wouldn't find it in myself to keep going. But I feel like this is also a delusion and I'm still lacking a true meaning to life which I'm supposed to find within myself.

Career, money, friends are all social constructs. They don't exist. People put a patch on them to make them a bit important. Boasting about them is a sign of shallowness. You're a nobody, but you have to jerk your ego somehow, so you make fun of people who are lower in status than you, who have fewer friends than you, who earn less than you. You can't see that you're on the same or even lower level than them. You live too deeply in the material world and therefore you will never go beyond it. To me, you're an unironic NPC. kill yourself

>>22343691
You'll be fine.

You ever do something which seemed really small and unimportant at the time but turned out to have pretty disastrous long-term implications? You ever really regret how you spent some time because of things you know now but didn’t know at the time?

I like to present myself as a romantic. Nothing strokes my vanity like talking in a manner similar to what you would see in a classic novel. I will sometimes spend almost a hour(but never more than) composing a post, using only the most eloquent words at my possession. I love to write poetry about big ideas, yet rarely do I actually consider these ideas in my daily life. I always portray myself as certain and steadfast in my beliefs when in reality I am clinically uncertain. I simply love the idea of being a tragic hero surrounded by the uncultured masses, who refuse to understand me. Truthfully, I just like to feel important without actually putting any effort into improving my standing in life

I had the craziest dream where I was am assistant to a coroner/mortician and we were handling a decapitated body. The problem was that the head was still alive. Barely alive, hanging on, and clearly suffering, so we put the head in the freezer to keep it alive longer. The whole dream was us documenting it so we could present it in court. I remember leaving work to walk around town for a while. I remember stopping into a bar but it was a christian evangelical bar. There was some guy there who was new jn town and was getting to know everyone. I had two fuzzy dogs which were duplicates of the dog I actually have. I think I felt my fuzzy blanket and dreamed they were dogs laying on me. Then I was back in a house I hadnt lived in for a while. I was trying to hide that I smoke cigarettes from my dsd when I meet this super cute girl with a tight tummy. She loves goin on mini road trips and living a wandering life, which is basically my dream. She already had a bf tho

I feel so dumb when reading/watching Lacan.

I dreamed of my ex girlfriend again. I know the only way I can stop myself from thinking about her is by flirting with women but it all seems so pointless. I don't care about the fights, or the despicable things I've said to her friends when my heart was bruised. I just want to hold her in my arms once more.

I believe there is only EVOLUTION, and he sayeth against his nibbaz: "We must fight against the creeping process of death by catalysing the will of species to prosper and overpower the environment." And so, I find myself in a jihad. This jihad is against individuals seeking to stop nature from morphing into xeno-nature. But nature is just an agglomerate of different species surviving enough only to maxify reproduction. I embrace the New Wild. Invasive species revitalize the biosphere with speciation and niche filling. Hybridization and adaptive radiations morph into neonatives. Nature is always chronically creative.

Smart people are IYI. Studies show quick, unconscious decisions are either better or the same effectiveness as deliberate thinking decisions. Smart people literally think too much and make worse decisions, and that's why most policies fail and why utopias fail. Nature is smarter than humans.

>>22344634
>Nature is smarter than humans.
My nibba

i normally like to wack it on a saturday afternoon but idk i think i'm just gonna lay in bed and listen to an audiobook

Cats are more aesthetically pleasing and photogenic than dogs.

>>22344634
>studies show
what studies are these?

>>22344634
I conducted a study that shows you suck dick 73.4% of the time (it was my dick).

>>22344685
I was thinking about UTT (Unconscious Thought Theory), but there's criticisms of the theory. Check for yourself.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Unconscious_thought_theory
According to this paper it's wrong.
https://escholarship.org/content/qt86j9058v/qt86j9058v_noSplash_bc7151e7a6a4d8c27bd0d2049724f448.pdf

>>22344729
>In the total population, a positive correlation was found between the scores on the short version of Raven’s Advanced Progressive Matrices and the proportion of participants making the best decision according to a dichotomous WADD model (.17). A negative correlation with the difference scores (-.10) also provided evidence that a higher intelligence level leads to better decisions.
oh well so much for that dude's cope better luck next time

>>22344712
Your disrespectful remark is truly uncalled for, and to my astonishment, I took the initiative of reporting your behavior to my grandparents through a text message. However, their wise counsel advised me to disregard your hurtful words, demonstrating the importance of kindness and understanding in our interactions with others.

>>22344773
Obviously there needs to be more studies. They could find the UTT was right all along.

>>22344777
I conducted a study that shows your family has been sucking cock for generations. Your own grandfather slobers my knob when I'm feeling down.

How did the greeks walk around in togas without getting sunburnt? Did they have toga tan lines?

>>22344809
They weren't white.

>>22344814
Your mom's not white

>>22344839
She’s greek, yea

>>22344843
Yeah a greek nigger.

There can be no sugarcoating it, I will no longer accept no substitute! A significant amount of negative attitude and behavior on this website can be attributed exclusively to the lack of finding a mate as a male. It seems reductive, but it simply is true -- what animal wouldn't be frustrated at finding a mate? That's the far and sheer bulk of it here, everything else is pure unadultered extra virgin cope oil. Billions must cry.

>>22343233
Is 4chan still down?

>>22345219
we're back

>>22345221
what happened?

>>22345221
The powers shut down the site to collect IP’s to enforce hate speech laws I’m hearing

>>22344809
Look, buddy, I was trying to be normal until you ask that question. Sigh, now the question lives rent-free inside my head.

Test!

>>22345225
Wait what fr?

>>22344127
I'm pretty sure my career provides me money right now to pay for the internet to read your weird rant and my friends are drifting away because I spent time reading your weird rant instead of talking to them.
I'm pretty sure they exist.

>bad gateway
finally got a good gateway

>>22344090
I don't think there's anything wrong with being inspired/empowered by a book. Even if it's only temporary it will help you last until you find a more permanent solution to your problems.
You're living a more examined life than 99% of people just for asking yourself this question so I think there's no harm in enjoying some respite.

>>22344238
No, I had huge blaring warning signs in front of all my biggest fuck-ups.

does guenonfag still exist? there's been a significant decrease in guenon posts followed by a significant Kantposting activity lately

>>22345346
A few (or even one) zealous anons can dictate a lot on this board. There have been so many fads that were borderline spam that suddenly disappear which shows it’s a small number of anons posting too much about their preferred topic

>>22345362
>a small number of anons posting too much about their preferred topic
so literally autism?

I stupidly sent out part of my novel for critique. What the person had to say wasn't as bad as some I've gotten in the past, but it nevertheless reduced me to a blubbering mess. After 5 years of editing and redrafting one novel, I'm still getting critiques about the most basic stuff possible (Show don't tell, too many adverbs, too much exposition, lack of clarity, poor construction). I don't have the mental fortitude necessary to wipe the slate clean yet again and start from scratch. It was stupid of me to try and become a writer when I have a laughably fragile ego, but that was my mistake. For the sake of my mental health, I must give up.

>>22345363
Yes. Anons with too much time and an agenda to push

>>22343233
Feeling a bit under the weather this weekend

>>22345369
Autists don’t have an agenda to push, paranoid normfag.

>>22343739
Same here, h8 talkin to other people.

the mirror is seeing outside the outside made of the inside that's levels of reconstruction and innovation so that when the trees grow up they're growing into you and when the floor hits you it's falling back to the sky and you turn over again and again in the air while the stars are black and white and inside the mind is a deep blue forever the turning will fall or fly to the backwards up or down and the rulers look in to see the many against the many but the one looks all around to see the many against the many against him and says I am falling I am going up and the many are rushing around me above and below and the many attack me but I myself am many and I become what the rulers see and the rulers themselves and the creator of the ruler who sits not above but within and he is many also and he is falling or flying out or into the many that swirl around each other forever in the dance that's called by some the decay and by others the completion and by others the infinite building that builds out into where there is nothing and back into itself for when I fall upwards the sky is falling into me and when I fly downwards the floor is falling up out of my body and the weight of a million miles could fall on my shoulders and it would be just one out of many the many that come around and watch me while I am alone in my manyness and only the many are my lonely company as the rulers of the pool melt into the pool and the creator can no longer be distinguished from his creation only the many looks at itself in the mirror of many which I might go through to see the other side of myself that is the one out of many finding himself all around surrounded by the many and he is the one in the many who is a swarm and legion himself and everyone is dancing around a center that they don't know where it is.

>>22343691
watch Gray's Anatomy (1996)

Ever since I watched Eyes Wide Shut I've had a thing for masks, more specifically, venetian masks. Today I revealed my mask fetish to my gf and she refused to use one during sex because is le creepy, fuck that bitch

Met a girl at a party the other night who kept taking my photo and saying I looked like a celebrity. But I don't even remember her name now and hardly remember what she looked like. I'm so retarded.

Not gay but I feel like I couldn’t write a scene where a character gets his ass penetrated by a cock unless it happened to me first.

4chan was down all day :(

>>22343233
Online friends are weird, more transient and ephemeral. You never really know how close is proper or if it's weird to be close to someone you only ever see in a game that includes Osama Bin Laden models.
Though i don't even know if there's anyone on the server i play on that I'd call a friend, but there are some there ive known for over a year now. And it brings a great comfort when i hear their voices again, but also like i don't want to disconnect because I don't know when or if I'll hear some of those voices again.
I've never really been able to connect irl or online it's the same. Even on this server I've been a part of for a year, usually i only use the text chat and rarely say anything. It brings me pain to always remain unknown. Like I can tell the other person feels some bond to me and then i just don't reciprocate back even though I want to because I am afraid. Then too some people become attracted to that unknown aspect, which then i feel i have to maintain that image. If i were to reveal how mundane and pathetic of a person i really am, the illusion would be shattered and i fear the other person would lose all interest.

Who says more about the other - artist or painting?

Turns out my friend is gay. I know him for over 20 years. I don't know what to feel about this. Kind of weird considering how often we just hung out together alone.

>>22345585
>>22345809
Homosexuality itself is fine and may be natural, but anal sex just seems gross to me. Putting your dick into a poophole, yeah no thanks I'm going to pass.

>>22345822
I feel you. I would have gay sex except it's not worth the combination of pain (need to wax to get maximum twink effect so lots of extra pain if you go that route), disgust, potential incontinence, stds, murderers, etc. - in order for it to be worth the effort to actually be gay, I think you have to be really, *really* gay.

>>22345379
Good shit.

>>22345822
Curious about giving a blowjob, but yeah sodomy is as gross as it is gay.

There are people, who use commas like this.
And they are always fucking subhumans. Where are these niggers from? What kind of 3D world shithole?

4chan operates via the Nigerian Prince email scam method.

In the original method, the email is intentionally filled with grammatical and typographical errors (as well as an outlandish narrative) to weed out all but the biggest suckers.

4chan weeds out only the most stupid and hateful people on the internet by intentionally cultivating as hateful and insane an environment as possible to filter out "normies." Only the most abusive people survive on 4chan.

The worst trolls on the internet called 4chan home, and trolled each other into believing increasingly hateful and extreme beliefs until they forgot they were trolling completely: they have become completely deranged hell clowns. And this base of self-radical hell clowns is what truly rules the asshole of the internet.

The Republican party is based on the same principle. It was no surprise that the biggest assholes on the internet and the biggest assholes in America would team up and damn their souls to a death spiral of mutually reinforcing hate and delusion.

Welcome to the memetic apocalypse motherfuckers.

>>22345917
>There are paragraphs on how ****** might insert “media viruses” into American public life, which could become self-sustaining and self-replicating. These would alter mass consciousness, especially in certain groups, it says.

****** is talking about "media viruses" eh?

Isn't there a book titled "Media Virus" by Douglas Rushkoff?

https://pastebin.com/4s91qRn6

While too conceptual to be of any transformative value to the public at large, this idea goes to the heart of today’s viral efforts, and is certainly understood by those who consider themselves soldiers in the meme wars. Biological viruses are only successful when they are able to turn their host cells into manufacturing plants for more viruses. The virus interpolates its genetic material into the DNA code of the cell, so that the cell will begin reproducing the virus. Eventually the cell divides or explodes, releasing many copies of the infected code. This is how a whole organism can become infected with a single virus; the code has iterated millions of times. The strategy of these Internet viral manifestos is to use the iterative potential of the computer nets to spread memes about viruses housed within units that are themselves viruses. The virus 23 strain even makes reference to chaos math and the predictions of some fractal influenced observers that the world itself will reach a critical mathematical moment of “singularity” near the turn of the millennium. The virus writer exploits a chaotic device—the computer-generated media virus—to spread the conceptual and spiritual implications of chaos mathematics.

>>22345920
https://vimeo.com/129609470
"Meme Wars I: Memetic Entities" published June 2, 2015. Before Kek, before meme magic.

>>22345924
Everything that you hoped for, that you dreamed about being a part of is a fabrication. Your memes, your writing, your culture, is the shell of other men's ambitions
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AdE7yos6COw

My painting was a failure and a success at the same time.

>entering the 3rd day phenibut rebound malaise
Why does every good thing have to have a fucking catch.

Consider if God is a video game developer of sorts, and he is the lead developer as well as admin. He creates the server, populates it with various objects and rules and things. Oh and then creates within it a kind of sub-entity that has a sense of autonomy, a kind of consciousness, that somewhat mirrors his own despite he being outside yet inside the server. For you see, if he then manually creates a character, interacts with people for a while, and then leaves after giving them the answers to winning his own game (after creating the villian too, of course), while keeping his hands on the console to conduct game-breaking miracles as he deems fit -- would this God be simultaneously be the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit?

Ah, bother it. From his perspective we are all NPCS anyway...

I’m really disappointed with life, or at least my own life. It’s all so boring. Nothing ever really happens.

>>22346032
>Nothing ever really happens.

Out of all the things about life that out of our control, this is the one thing you do have control over. Start making things happen.

>>22345436
Get a new gf. Mine would do anything I say in bed

i finally found a song that's only available on apple music but not on youtube. it's always the other way around. hugo mesi - y.k.i.g.t.b is not on youtube but it is on apple music. another signal of youtube's decline.

>>22346255
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7i-c5Fkw4as
nevermind there it is, but it is a sign of the shittiness of youtube's search that it doesn't come up when you search by name. not a good look for a company owned by google. then again i'm sure youtube doesn't give a shit about indie creators and would rather feed you another corporate e-celeb.

I’m at a really weird and aimless point in my life…

>>22346032
>It’s all so boring.
be careful what you wish for young naive anon

>>22346011
>phenibut
not worth it

>>22345809
as long as the dicks don't touch you're good.

>>22346255
>>22346261
Or YouTube copyright is better than apple, so there's more need for evasion

>>22346264
If only I would never have to stress about money I would drown out depressive thoughts by exercising and consoooming media

>>22346281
Maybe that’s what I should do. Maybe I should just go all in on getting rich. I already have the sort of freedom that having F U money would buy I just don’t have the money to do things like buy big houses and cars and trips. Maybe I should add money to the lifestyle and see if that’s scratches the itch.

I got really bad grades back in undergraduate and I’ve always felt like I’ll have to go and get a doctorate or at least a master’s one day to overwrite this major life error. My career ambitions don’t even necessitate any degree at all. Why is my thinking so flawed? I know this is illogical, but why do I think it anyway? It’s like my OCD saying I have to figure out a way correct and complete my education even though what I really wish is that I never had any education at all.

I found the gf i wanted...but one problem:she lives abroad and i only see her every other month.

Probably only a week until this round wears off, I should go out and pretend I'm not sick because this is probably the least sick I'll be for August

My beautiful wife and I.

anybody else terminally on /lit/? I'm addicted to pressing the refresh button in the catalog.

>>22346300
if you got bad grades in undergrad how are you going to get into a good grad school? doing some corny mail order masters for losers or pay to win phd mill is only going to double down on your embarrassment.

>>22346331
i'm just terminally procrastinating from doing anything of value. if /lit/ weren't there, there are plenty of other sites i can waste my life on.

Reminder that you will never ever be a real woman, you twisted delusional faggot.

>>22346337
Schools want your money and they’re particularly likely to look away from those bad grades with high test scores and work experience, especially for a Master’s degree. I think people overestimate how difficult admissions are.

>>22346347
most schools have a mandatory minimum gpa so if that dude legitimately had shitty grades his options are gonna be hella limited.

>>22346337
>>22346347
There’s also law schools, business schools, etc. which only really care about your test score.

>>22346351
It depends on the school. Many research universities have a minimum gpa of 2.0 which is what you need basically everywhere to even have a bachelor’s degree. The individual programs might have expectations, but they’re usually fluid. They’ll admit people with things going for them other than grades. The options really aren’t as limited as you think. Is a PhD from an R1 possible? Probably not. Is a master’s or law degree possible? Yes.

>>22346354
a lot of places are cancelling test scores for equity reasons

>>22346359
woah what masters only requires a 2.0 gpa? lol i was thinking about doing an mba at my alma mater but they were like 2.8 minimum and i was like ok never mind

ever since i read stoner i'm convinced i'm dying

>>22346364
The way it works is that most universities have a graduate school, which has a minimum GPA (usually a 2.0 or 2.5) and then the programs have their own criteria. So say a university requires 2.5 to go to graduate school, that’s a hard line 9/10 times. They’ll make exceptions but only rarely. But then the program you want at that same school will have a 3.0 minimum. That will be a hard limit maybe 7/10 times. They’ll admit people with a great GRE, great work experience, just really compelling stories or interest, whatever. I mean, schools want to fill seats. A lot of them let you redact your GPA anyway now. They don’t report it so they don’t care what you got. It really just depends on the specific school, program, and applicant, but they have an incentive to admit people.

>>22346364
If you got a high GMAT score and got some decent work experience they’d probably admit you anyway.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kZLFXHUtYvc
anyone know what makes that high pitched sorta flute/whistle type sound that plays the melody in this? is that from a synthesizer? is it a sample? that's why i love electronic music. there are so many sounds, you don't know what the hell it came from. i'd ask on /mu/ but they're only into k-pop and mainstream indie rock over there.

>>22346373
sounds like a lot of effort and i'm not really the effort type hence the low undergrad gpa. i have autism but little effort.

>>22346385
If you manage to get a decent job after graduating then you just kind of keep doing what you’re doing and maybe take the test. That’s it really.

Anyone studied art history here(ma or ba)? Tell me about it.

St. Thomas says that something that is eternal or infinite is inconceivable and therefore not true. But, is it not equally inconceivable to think of a limited universe, for example? Infinite space is definitely something I can not begin to properly imagine, but limited space becomes inconceivable the moment I try to postulate the boundaries of space. Where are they and what is on the other side? Nothing? But "nothing" is inconceivable.
Why can't god be inconceivable, or conceivable only to us as he presents himself, like in types of pantheism?

>>22346555
>Studying art
Probably the biggest rip-off in the education system. Even if ur education is free why would you waste ur time learning something so useless?

>>22346344
You will never be a real human you demonic internet troll. Your afterlife, your immortality will be to remembered as among the most evil idiots of all time, evil idiots who were given every chance to educate themselves, but instead tossed themselves into a death spiral of delusional hate.

>>22346612
Because I love it.

>>22346655
People here don't know love. Not for themselves, not for others, not for learning, not for creativity. They are functional nihilists who only know lack and speak lack.

>>22346655
>>22346660
The great irony you will discover while studying ''art history'' is that none of the greatest artist ever whent to art school.

>>22346612
>10/02/12
Repost the same bullshit for 11 years because it supports your hate. It's the /pol/tard way!

>>22346668
>ever
Meant to so say ''never''.
>>22346672
>WAHHHH! HE SAID SOMETHING MEAN AND TRUTHFUL ABOUT SOMETHING!
>HECKING POLTARD!
You have to go back nigger.

>>22346668
Art and teaching art isn't some mystical craft.
You 100% have no clue what you are talking about, and absolutely no experience.

>>22346679
Are you saying that u dont have to suck cock in order to get into art school anymore? Times truly have changed.

>>22346673
I've been all over the internet since '97, zoomer.
When you want to find accurate information on a topic from someone who knows what they are talking about, such as on a technical topic, you add "reddit" to the end of your query, not "4chan."
Reddit has lots of problems, but compared to this incel hellhole it's filled with super-geniuses.

>>22346688
Ur implying that i actually take you or ur faggy opinions seriously to being with. Like i said you have to go back nigger.

>>22346688
>compared to this autist paradise it's filled with supernormies
ftfy

>>22346648
My man, people who cannot even define what a woman is but use the word anyway out of blind dogma or instinct are not "educated"
Do you guys always talk like stereotypes?

>>22346692
Of course you disregard the opinion of anyone who has experience with something and knows what they are talking about, that's why you are here.

I was raised with an incredibly healthy family with outstanding values, and have lived those values. Your parents must be degenerates to have a son like you, they should be ashamed.

This place is filled with the resentful loser sons of loser fathers.

>>22346688
>such as on a technical topic

Exclusively on a technical topic you mean. Not including trades or crafts, where you‘re better off finding someone‘s dad/mom on Youtube. Basically if you want to catch a computer nerd doing service for their GBP.

Anything to do with the arts and you‘re a fucking loon if you go near that consensus-enforcing circlejerk.

>>22346719
You can find information from professionals of all kinds on reddit, including scientists and historians. And then cross-check their information with other sources.
You wouldn't know this because you don't care about such things.
No professionals or scientists come here, only incel NEETS and the violently uneducated.

>>22346710
You a healthy individual? Dont make me laugh u subhuman mongrel. You come to this shit town because its the only place u can lay out ur narcissism safely and i wouldnt call an actual cocksucking faggot to be a great value. Clearly ur limpwristed father didnt beat you enough. Heres my advice tie a knot, hang urself and then finally fuck off back to r*ddit nigger.

>>22346668
Retard. They either were in a guild and learned from a master as an apprentice, went to an art academy, or studied in an atelier under the guidance of a more experienced artist.

>>22346728
I'm here to study the nature of evil, also a global memetic engineering conspiracy:
>>22345917
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>>22345927
You think everyone else is just as much of a loser as you are.

>>22346726
You can find curtailed selections from scientists and historians anywhere, such as in a science or history textbook. The possibility of select instances where persons of genuine rigor have done an AMA doesn‘t really have a bearing on the general quality of site usage, or even proffer anything that wasn‘t better gleamed from an published source.

>>22346381
>Anon pls track the sample through the decades
Don't know what flute you're hearing but that samples Lil Yo ft Mr Yak "Wicked Heart" (looking for a victim pushing keys)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZgJV1FnO3Ik
Which samples Geto Boys "Be Down"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IOCum7N6ztE
Which samples War "Slippin' into Darkness"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pBNZevgJH1g
Which is pretty awkwardly mainstream indie rock

>>22346740
>BUT LE SCIENCE GUY REPLIED TO MY HECKING COMMENT AND GAVE ME MY HECKING KARMA!
Sometimes i feel like r*dditors are even bigger subhumans than people on here, the only difference is that r*dditors hide it better with their faggy censorship.

>>22346740
I've been a super user of the internet since 1997.
I have not only been a computer nerd but I have done many other things offline.
I have been an obsessive learner all my life. My father had a Master's in cultural anthropology and a library of 12 bookshelves he read. He was agnostic and our family religion is learning and the pursuit of truth. I was given the most awesome set of values I possibly could have, which in turn were nourished by my communities, teachers, and influences through my whole life.
I am an obsessive learner not because I want to be "smart" but because learning about wonderful and beautiful things allows you to appreciate and participate them so much more deeply.
I have made many friendships with professional people who were likewise addicted to learning and aspired towards the highest intellectual and moral values they could aspire towards.
The losers here who keep themselves losers by choosing cowardice and arrogance over courage and humility have NO CLUE what true values are, what it's like to be blessed by them, and what it's like to try to live as faithfully to them as one can. The sick manchildren here are functional nihilists: they have an absolute poverty of meaningful, loving, creative experiences in their life, so they don't know what they lack. They only know what they hate: those who have what they do not.

>>22346777
when I was 19 I went on a 1000 mile solo bicycle tour up the coast of California. This was before smartphones, I used paper maps. I did this because I love cycling and nature, and this was the ultimate experience of both for me.
Back then I was a lifestyle cyclist, I never stopped loving cycling from childhood. I was fit as fuck, and had conditioned myself to not only be able to survive cycling in 108 degree heat, but to enjoy it. Only the most hardcore motherfuckers were out on the Sacramento river path when it was that hot, those who were truly addicted to exercise and knew how to roll with it.
But zoomer mcincel is the chad. Sure.

>>22346797
>California
Well that settles the suspision of u being a cocksucking faggot. I guess it was true all along.

Everythingisgoingotbeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokayeverythingisgoingtobeokay

>>22346816
I live in Olympia, Washington now.
I moved here because the temperate rainforests here are the most beautiful environments to me, and also it isn't overrun by conservatives.
Right behind my backyard is a wetland nature reserve with a loop trail.

Here's some video clips of this nature reserve I took mixed with video clips showing my mineral collection: https://vimeo.com/563950668

The purpose of the video is to contrast two modes of natural appreciation: inwards looking at a discrete object-in-itself, and outwards looking at the surrounding environment.

My religion is the appreciation and study of natural and human beauty. This religion has led to me falling completely in love with The Cosmos, life, and humanity.

Carl Sagan was my spiritual teacher; I had an absolute obsession for amateur astronomy when I was a teenager, built my own 10" Dobsonian telescope, poured through books and magazines, even took summer classes on astronomy when I was 16 and got student of the year award because I loved the shit so much.

Love for life only deepens through time, building on itself. I never understood why some feel compelled to hate life.

>>22346777
>>22346797
Hope this is copypasta bro. Kinda pathetic if you couldn‘t actually say anything about the topic at hand so you talked yourself up in circles at inordinate length and fell back on an unrelated decades-old bike trip (which does look cool.)

I feel like buying merch clothing from my favorite female singers
is this gay? I don't even care if it is, wearing merch by female singers is peak fashion in my opinion

>>22346872
If you wear a Taylor Swift tshirt as a man you're most likely a homo, yes

>>22346861
These are just data points in a lifetime of adventure and excellence.

Between 2007-2010 I built a content creation business in Second Life that made $7500 a month at my peak. True story: https://npirl.blogspot.com/2008/11/next-big-thing-in-virtual-worlds-that.html

I did this because I have loved creative experience as much as learning and love experimenting with art and imagination. I was naturally drawn to Second Life because it was such an incredible creative experiment: a virtual world filled with creative tools to explore and experiment with. And so I did, and had a blast, and got so good that in a short period of time it grew into a business in a very competitive environment filled with very creative people.

We haven't even gotten to what I have been doing the last 13 years. Second Life was just a university of creativity for me, I graduated and went on to participate with even more amazing things.

>>22346876
I don't even care, I've bought Katy Perry merch before and I was proud of it, I listen to her music a lot and I like Taylor Swift a lot too, I'm not gay I'm just appreciative of their music and their artistry. Besides, I don't see that many people wearing famous singer merch yet, but I think that in the future it will become more popular. You can either call me gay or someone who is aware of fashion, you can only choose one of those.

>>22346886
Pretty sure simp and Stan are still available options

>>22346886
I love Taylor Swift and Katy Perry and would happily motorboat their tiddies

>>22346897
I give them money because of this and it makes sense to me.

>>22346878
In 2000 I read Richard Dawkins' book "The Selfish Gene" where I learned the word "meme." This was before the word meme was a meme. It was also before New Atheism when Dawkins only wrote about evolutionary biology. I read this book following a passion for biology and evolutionary biology. His concept of meme inspired me because it suggested that the same creative processes behind biological life may be behind cultural and mental life. I read more books on memetics and related topics at the time, and what little there was written about it on the internet at the time.

>>22346878
>>22345924
>>22345927
>>22346011

I am the real deal.

>internet history srs bsns
cool story bros

>>22346719
>Youtube.
the memes write themselves

>>22346931
https://ytmnd.com/users/anono/comments
>Aminom

>>22346660
This is true. Whenever people talk about “love” I have no idea what they’re talking about.

I'm just days away from declaring personal independence from family, state, and hirers. Should I write a text about it?

>be me
>be alcoholic
>be autistic schizo paranoid genius
>invited to cousins wedding
>have huge family
>they are all very nice
>have the best wedding reception possible
>get drunk as hell
>embarrass yourself
>flirt with your female cousin
>get in a fight with cousins friends
>remember none of the worst parts
>be next morning
>at a hotel
>anon did you sleep well?
>haha you were really drunk last night
>hear more and more horror stories from last night
>invited to another close family only reception
>all family is gathered there
>have to shamefully greet all of them one by one
>mfw
>mostembarassedmomentinmylife.jpg
>everyone being nice to me but I know exactly what they're thinking

How the fuck do I even cope with this, there's nothing I can do to fix this embarrassment

>>22347142
It's fine bro, they love you and you give them lots of gossip if they like that sort of thing

Been working the 9 PM to 5 AM on a riverboat. Passing all these small towns at night and seeing the other night owls has inspired me to write my first poem, and I’m going to post it on this board because no way am I posting it on /n/. They’d laugh at me for certain, and you guys might only half laugh at me.

Day ends and so our day begins.
Cast aside your beds, tired wanderers!
Alone and forgotten, but conjoined by solitude.
Awaken, night shift! Awaken, back watch!
These are the hours where we can hide.
This dark is our sunrise, these outcasts our kin.
See the addict. Her skeleton staggering.
See the fisherman. He kills with patience.
See the drivers. Their destinations a mystery.
See the spiders. The moon reveals their kingdoms.
See the gas station. Beacons of consciousness.
See the man watching. Question his motives.
This is the age of overwhelming quiet,
disturb not our forced insomnia.
Forgive the dreamers, for they know not how you suffer.
Pity the dreamers, for they know nothing of the stars.
Arise, outcasts! This is your half of the world.
You are not alone in the dark.

>>22346368
i just wacked it, took a nap, and woke up with energy for the first time in like a week. we are so fucking BACK!

Áaaahhhhhhhhg why is my landlord asking me for weed I don't need this life

>>22343233
Feels like there is more /pol/posting than usual the last few days

>>22347460
Let's just stay in our comfy sffg, fren

I had a 2 dinners with a niece and het husband a few weeks ago.
I live abroad and she and him decided to meet up, all good.
Now he has sent me a picture of him and her having a drink in what looks like a hotel lobby or whatever.
Am I autistic? Cause I have no idea what to respond. Do I even respond? I really don't care to. I like them but I'm stumped.
I would never send something like that myself. Is it normal to do so? Am I being weird for no reason? What could I possibly respond to it that doesn't sound forced?

Is the real reason you shouldn't kill your father and fuck your mother the fact that your future spawn, will have you for both a brother and father and lack a grandfather? I mean you really fuckin' up that kids prospects, negro. uncool man, uncool

>>22347614
maybe i should say, "have a brother for a father"*

>>22347585
say wow you guys look great hope you have a fun time

>>22347585
You say
>looks fun, have a drink for me
Or some stupid shit like

>>22347627
>>22347630
How do you people come up with this stuff.
I sent something like Nice, enjoy! (in my own language)
Sat here for 20 minutes trying to come up with something. Texting is a disaster with me, if texting autism is a thing I have it.
Calling or irl is fine, texting makes me ovethink so hard it's almost a handicap.

I would read more non-fiction books if I could actually take their authors seriously
For 1 serious non-fiction writer there's a 100 non-serious writers

I'm scared of the future

I think at one point my insecurity might have come across as cute or endearing but not so much now I hit 29
I'm good most of the time but sometimes I catch myself saying something or acting in a way that's just not okay for a grown man. Don't know what it is, I can go from arrogant and self assured to beta bitch despite being taller, more handsome and more fit than the people around me. It's one thing if I was actually a fat ugly tard
I blame my youth for it, can really pinpoint who and when I developed this.

>>22347585
It's all not you, but social media too. I have a niece I remember a lot about from infancy to when she was 25, entirely from visits to the family home of my sister, and those of her relatives by marriage, mostly on holidays. With one exception. A picture or her on beach in North Carolina, with a wave breaking onto her, feeling and looking silly. Most of my family is pretty good at banter, the record of which, like play, as opposed to work, is unofficial and private, and completely useless even as a mine of fiction.

I'm tired of all this shit. Sometimes it seems like everyone wants a piece of my life all the while disregarding the amount of shit I go through on a daily basis. Why do they assume everyone must have it so easy? I work 8 hours a day plus extra college work on the side but I need to be here for my family and be here for friends and at the same time take care of my own shit at home. I'm literally living in another city and people still find ways to shit on me for not being their personal slave. Why don't you all go fuck yourselves for once and leave me alone?

DON'T GET CAUGHT

>get horny
>browse escort websites for hours
>finally find someone who looks tolerable, has good reviews, and relatively affordable
>message her and arrange an incall
>decide to shower like an hour before heading out
>jerk off in shower out of pure horniness + desire to last longer when I see her longer
>post nut clarity hits
>never end up seeing her, block her number out of disgust for myself
>rinse and repeat with new whore the next weekend

anyone else retarded like me?

>>22347741
Maybe that's just because you're tall, physically potent, and not only don't look the part, but are better suited by temperament to a life more physically challenging than the one you're apparently born to. Of course there's more to it than that: Most people are kind of awed by memory that just happens without effort, as they are by beautiful voices. They may have contempt or the man, maybe even his mind, but not ever his imagination.

>>22346368
Why?
>>22343233 (dubs)
Yesterday, when 4chan fell, I thought to myself that there was no one else to go. That a big part of my life was simply over. That there was no other way but through here. I said to myself, wrote in my journal even:
>Honestly... it's over.
And yeah. Most of my entertainment comes from here. My book recommendations, my movie recommendations, my vydia recommendations. I have no reddit account. No facebook account. Instagram to follow meme pages. And that's it. Nothing else. Probably a bad idea to put all your eggs in one basket. Where'd you go if 4chan was TRULY over. As in, hiro says it's going to close on monday, monday comes and it really closes. Sunday comes and it's still closed. One week pass... one month pass... one year... what'd you do? Where would you get what you currently get from here?

>>22348023
Take a break or if it’s too hard, get a 3 day vacation. You honestly see that this site does more harm than good, and there is nothing worthwhile going in here anyway.

>>22343233
---- Solaria ----
0750
Archive of The Shape All Light

I last lost my temper years ago, and on the phone
Am more than the soul of courtesy, happy to disregard the distance

Of circumstance, and put you at ease, make you laugh
Afterward, when there are better things to do

Than blind ambition demands.

Here's how to train yourself to maximize your self-discipline and willpower via conscious intention and reason.

>>22348055
I’m convinced the solaria anon is communicating spy info

>>22348064
Where is fine art and music in all of this? I'll stick with Shakespeare, Montaigne, Dante, and such, thank you.

>>22348071
It's a tool to solve a specific problem: train self-discipline and conscious agency.
You're basically asking "where is the art and music in weight training?" It isn't supposed to do that or be a substitute for it.

Who am I? Who am I really? Who is it that does the things I hate, myself or some other person? Who have I burdened or hurt without knowing it? Who else will be burdened or hurt through my actions before my time is over? Who could love me if they knew the truth about me?
How many chances do I have left before it's too late? How long do I have left to try to win the war with myself? How did I sink this low? How much further will I lower myself before it ends? How can I change? How do I allow myself to pursue opportunities, to dream of things and have goals, to take pleasant walks in the afternoon when what I have done is so foul? How did it come to this?
What did I expect? What do I really want? What can I do now that it's over? What is the purpose for which I was instantiated, for which I was born at this specific time in this specific place? What meaning or value is there in a corrupt person like me? What do I have to live for? What am I waiting for? What do I think I can do now if I've done so much wrong before?
Why? Why did I do this? Why didn't I stop myself? Why didn't I think? Why did I let myself stoop so low? Why couldn't I simply have been struck dead on the spot? Why do I keep living? Why didn't I kill myself a long time ago? Why can't everyone just give up on me already? Why do I keep hurting the people I love the most? Why was I born? Why?

>>22348069
Solaria anon is 60 year-old retired NEET who lives in a comfy retirement site in rural northern Illinois, and is in that piece referring to Shelley's The Triumph Of Life. True, my dad had a certain taste for corporate gossip, but that's about as far as spying goes in my family. (Not counting a lab setup to reverse-engineer the products of competitors)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_aigtAQXM3c

Columbine is an enigma to me and I have a morbid fascination with it

I was3 when it happened but the world before it seems so familiar

I wish I could have seen America before the fear mongering Orwellian surveillance state and how high school was back then. When I graduated in 2015 it would be unheard of of going outside to smoke or go get something to eat from McDonalds. We would vape in the bathrooms and someone who goes to my high school told me they have vape detectors now. Another school near me doesn't allow plastic bottles anymore that aren't see through and only water is allowed.

I never got to be free in my life.

>>22348081
>"where is the art and music in weight training?" It isn't supposed to do that or be a substitute for it.

It doesn't work that way. Conscious agency happens as any phenomenon of nature does, and all the rest is commentary. Self-discipline is entirely self-defeating.

>>22343233
Do older men patronizingly call you bud? They do to me and everytime it hurts.

>>22348273
It's like the ultimate emasculation

>>22343233
Whenever I call my parents I end up sperging out about what I'm reading and going on long rants.
It's embarrassing but they seem to prod me to these discussions cause there's nothing in my life and nothing else I can talk about with them. Yet it always feels weird and afterwards I just feel kind of embarrassed I wasn't able to control myself and even ashamed by my enthusiasm.
How do I stop doing this?

Dad got diagnosed with prostate cancer few weeks ago. Ever since then he’s been in and out of the ER. I reckon he’s only got a few year at most. Not entirely sure how to react to it. He was a stubborn and abusive person growing up. Really no good redeeming qualities at all. Then again, he is my father…

>>22348320
It's good to be enthusiastic about something, as long as you're not coming across as a snob about it.

>>22348273
No one of any age has ever addressed me like that. I never even called my dad "sir", though the son of rich prick I knew addressed him all the time that way.

Apologizing is gay

>>22348402
Not apologizing is a gay bottom thing

>>22348367
Probably cause you just don't look like a "bud".
You have to have a certain uncertain and awkward mannerisms coupled with a youthful appearance.

>>22348410
Think i might try to gain weight. Seems like the only way I'd ever be taken seriously. Otherwise I'll be an eternal "bud"

>>22348261
Conscious agency is merely the practice of intentional methodological reasoning about one's actions and behavior.
The process trains this methodology at the most purified and fundamental level.
It's literally evolutionary cognitive behavioral therapy.

Of course this process is merely about maximizing your effectiveness to translate your will into action. Love and goodness is much more difficult; that cannot be commanded or programmed, only inspired by love and beauty.

This is my best attempt to describe the incredible love I've experienced from so many people, places, things, and events: https://old.reddit.com/r/NarrativeDynamics/comments/13bzqha/aho_mitakuye_oyasin_all_my_relations/

---- Solaria ----
0752
Grey Eminence

I am frail, and like a lot of quiet and privacy.
I thrive on social intrigue, enormous institutions.

The room in which I spend most of my time is too elegantly arranged

For anything kitsch as portraiture.

>>22348410
Youthful appearance I'll give you that. >>22348425
I've been about 125 pounds and 5'7" for about 4 decades. There are are other factors of course.

>>22348406
>>22348402
It actually makes me angry when people apologize to me. Don’t know but it makes me think “what are you, a retard?”

>>22348320
I’m like this both with parents and friends. I wish I made more friends in college atleast those people pretended to read

>>22348536
This is all too word-salad to me. I was raised in exurbia, and one of my dad's first gifts to me was a book about the planets, when I was 7, in 1969. By 1982 I was looking at the rings of Saturn through backyard telescopes.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YiP9fRszH38&list=RDMM&index=3

>>22343233
---- Solaria ----
0753
Hummingbird

Today one one of them flew over my head with a slightly alarming sub-bass sound
And no sooner did I see it than I recognized that particular one

All the way across the Gulf Of Mexico,
This tiny little thing, perching in the huge honeysuckle

Or sipping my verbenas, as if we'd never been.

>>22343233
>want to read The Borrowers
>can't because normalfags took down z-lib
>no site replaced it besides some torrent crap
What the fuck is wrong with them?

Jazz sucks. Fucking background music.

>>22348638
let me guess you are an atheist moral relativist faggot? sometimes apologizing for something harmless can be a little annoying but if you're getting angered that's because you are poisoned.

>>22347741
What exactly is acting "not okay" for a grown man? In fact a lot of grown men act in ways that are intrinsically childish and immature, but yet they are normalized. If you are constantly flip flopping in your view of yourself, it might be a sign that you are too self-aware.

Who's jackin' it to the ex gf?

One day I'll write a symphony dedicated to dysgenics. It MUST be conducted by a woman and each movement will be uglier and more retarded than the last.

>>22348830
Amen
Also background music for fuckin

Oh my dear Anon, my Anon, if only you understood what has government done to our money. If I still may, for while I can only describe it in brief now, it will always remain forever too late, and out of our hands, for the damage done, the cat out of the bag, and not just any bag, but out of Pandora's Box.

What they have done is this. Suppose people traded coconuts around as currency, you know, a kind of medium of exchange and a store of value. People would quickly discover that coconuts are rather burdensome things, and are quite too heavy to carry too many in your pockets, if you can even carry just one. So what people would do, is have one coconut ticket be equivalent to one coconut redeemable at a coconut bank, as regulated by the central coconut reserve, responsible for the regulatory oversight of all coconut economic activity.

Nice and easy enough in our little coconut economy. And ordinarily too, if someone were to try to redeem a coconut ticket without the actual coconut to represent it in their coconut bank account, then wouldn't you consider that to be coconut fraud? Hold that thought. Because what if, the central coconut reserve determined that if they were to simply print more coconut tickets to loan out than total-coconuts-in-circulation, they can produce more economic activity. Oh, I didn't mention the coconut lending earlier, did I? Yes, well, coconut banks are in the business of lending, and well, if they had more coconuts to lend, they would also have more coconut profits.

Anyway, back to the central coconut reserve, which finds great success in circulating more coconut tickets than total coconuts. Nobody notices a thing, and economic activity begins to grow exponentially, much to everyone's delight. Except the actual coconut users at the bottom of the coconut tree of course, who now finds, as a result of more coconuts-in-circulation than coconut tickets, that they would have to render slightly more coconut tickets over time to purchase goods and services. No matter, they can afford it for now.

Onwards to a brave new coconut world. The central coconut reserve thinks to itself, hmm, why bother at all with coconut tickets redeemable for coconuts? In fact, it would cause an utterly disastrous string of coconut bank failures if everyone simultaneously redeems all the coconuts at once, because the coconut banks simply do not have the coconuts on hand anymore -- the banks have begun a practice called fractional reserve coconut banking, a system that permits them to loan out much more coconuts than they actually have, precisely assuming that at any given time nobody would redeem all the coconuts at once. So as a preventative measure, the central coconut reserve outlaws redeemable coconuts altogether, and coconut tickets in general are entirely on the faith and credit of the central coconut reserve.

In this way, they would continue printing coconut tickets to their heart contents, robbing islanders blind via coconut inflation.

>>22343233
All women are fucking whores and their disgusting, stinky meat flaps are only good as maggot fodder and to breed insects.

Aesthetics > morality

>>22347253
>Pity the dreamers, for they know nothing of the stars.
Nice line.

>>22348830
That's one thing I never liked about Adorno.

>>22348638
You must have a vibrant personality. Kind of like Anthony Bourdain. The combined traits of a French person and a jew. You should know where I'm going with this.

>>22348163
I was 16. You are a child to me

>>22343233
---- Solaria ----
0754
John Adams

To command such astonishing beauty
In any circumstance, must be among the first wonders of the world.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QA19NDIfXaQ

>>22346777
>>22346797
>My father had a Master's in cultural anthropology and a library of 12 bookshelves he read. He was agnostic and our family religion is learning and the pursuit of truth. I was given the most awesome set of values I possibly could have, which in turn were nourished by my communities, teachers, and influences through my whole life.
based starting point. I'm not sure if i'm suppose to pick up on some strange internet man narcissism with these posts but I like the idea of a human character like this. keep on keepin' on cool dude

>>22343233
I actually like being a pseud.

Are mods awake?

Even though I think America was doomed from the start, I can't help but be fascinated by the american experiment. There's a certain charm to it, even if americans and their culture, past or present, are not something I can honestly say I am fond of.

>Greer's simple thesis is that boys have always been the world's favourite pin-ups, but that we have repressed this knowledge and blinded ourselves to their charms, not least because of a confusion between art and pornography - and between delight and desire. Examines pictures of boys.

>>22349343
Sometimes I wish I wasn't though.
But meh.
What's the point? Millions of people already got both a headstart and a biological advantage over me.

>>22349370
this but unironically

>>22349378
I am not being ironic.
I just don't see the point in trying if I can't be the best at it.
Everything I do, say, or think is derivative.
Better people read faster, have a higher level, and know better sources.
And this is only as far as reading is concerned.

>>22343233

---- Solaria ----
0755
Saturn

Whether in luxury cars or around bourgeois graves
I feel pretty much the same.

i fly in exquisite machinery, across lands
Almost asleep, almost without a care.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pOfdYnqTHnw&list=RDMM&index=27

I've got a short story being published in the next week or two. It's from a website that has published a lot of my poetry and some of my fiction.

They're not big, but I know the editors seriously believe in me as an artist. That's nice to have. Not every writer or poet has that.

I just wish I could get a big break. I know I have the talent to entrance the whole world, like Tolstoy or Hemingway. I just need to be noticed by the whole world. I need that opportunity that every famous writer gets, and when it comes I need to seize it.

To make the all encompassing assessment that I am actually a midwit contorting past my innate (underdeveloped) faculty for reasoning and analysis, and longing for a height that was already decided to be beyond my reach, is very simplistic.

I had a firmer grasp on my cognition in the past. Now it's as if I'm barely coaxing it out of slumber. With mulish resistance, the thing strays past convention, the unyielding conditioning of scientific methodology, and just wanders down avenues that aren't even that pleasant. It's one thing to drop your work just so you could daydream about sunbathing in Cancun. It's another when you can barely carry a thread of thought to its fruition because your head is just FUCKING ADAMANT on marinating in melancholia.

I read stories about people who would overwork themselves to escape the misery of mundanity. My brain won't give me such luxury. It just dwells, and dwells, and dwells. For the love of fucks. I've been trying to Pavlov myself into coping by solving problems instead. Like I used to in the past. Depressiveness is just.. addictive.

>>22343233
Plastic surgery is a very ghoulish profession.

What the fuck happened in this thread? I don't think we will ever be visited by a greater pseud again.

I'm lonely. And bored. Better that than the sheer sensory overload I'd caved under last week. 10 hour long days of browsing. I'm such a puny borderliner. Why can't I settle at equilibrium with anything I do. It's either over-restriction or over-indulgence with me. Never moderation. Do one or two things. Why fall headlong into the powder sack? I'm coated head to heel in confectionery sugar. Had it been Cocaine.. A legitimate substance. What's the point of drinking if you're not an alcoholic?

Me. I. Fuck. Sick of talking about this "person". Sick of thinking about this "person". Shut up already.

A screenshot of a video game I took has become a regularly used reaction image on 4channel.org.
This is the great achievement I've made in life.

>>22349438
Mine is taking a screenshot of a thread about making lolita for animals and seeing it reposted occassionally.

>>22343233
---- Solaria ----
0756
She does what she does, like the stars do.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XEctrR_e_gw

>>22349438
We were kings and such.

All ponies must piss down my throat. I’m so fucking filthy. Mmmmm. I love pony piss.

I have to do it, I have to take my chances
Time wasted doesn't come back

>>22349048
Mostly self depreciating remarks. I'm probably too self-aware but I notice the difference of how I act in different settings. One being confident, relaxed and easy to speak and the other being a beta who is too worried to even say anything (that isn't so safe as to make me look boring)

>>22349475

I am a grown ass man and I relate to Holden Caulfield too much. I don't like that.

>>22349610
Everyone does this to some extent. Alot of people do it and don't even notice

I like women but watch exclusively gay foot fetish/tickling fetish porn every other day. I'm grossed out by the idea of being fucked in the ass or fucking other males in the ass, sucking cock, or being in a relationship with a male. However I think I'd like getting tied down and tickled/jerked off by one purely as a fetish thing. I don't understand it. Please affirm my heterosexuality.

>>22349741
>Please affirm my heterosexuality
Nah dawg you gay

>>22349750
NOOOOOOOO

>>22349751
Or at the very least you're bi. You want to be tied up and jerked off by a man. Nothing wrong with that really, just don't be fucking weird about it

I screwed up such a good thing. The photos from those times taunt me now. We all look so happy and I screwed it the fuck up.

>>22343233
I have had writer's block for 10 years because of my poverty and wage slave demands. I am trapped in highschool mentally and academically.

>>22349741
Just stop being a perv and work on your mind

>>22349741
Women will make it worse.

>>22349655
I'm sure but with me it is noticeable. Often I get asked why I'm so quiet. That used to cut deep with me, I was deep in denial and despised when someone made that comment. I still hate it but have learned to accept it more I guess.
Odd thing is when I'm with someone or a group of people who are less sociable than me, I turn into the most charismatic guy around. Same goes for when I know I'm leaving a job or school. Suddenly I feel a weight drop off me and I become very sociable with colleagues. There's some mental block but I cannot for the life of me shake it in normal circumstances.

I'm a child of the industrial aftermath. In the ruins I see tree-of-heaven. This is entropy at work. The roots break down what was formerly very human. They are part of the visions of a new wild. There's much destruction. But there's also regrowth. I've seen Mama Gaia resist. But nature does not exist. All there is are a bunch of species proviting from industrial society and a bunch of species that do not. Let them evolve. Weeds are my extended kin. My faith is in the botanical rebellion. Invasive species are my hope. The future is triffidish. Keep it 14-14.

>>22349438
A screenshot of a screenshot of a video game that Anon took may become a regularly used reaction image on 4channel.org.
This is the great achievement I've made in life

Why is there a 4channel when the entire site is 18+?

>>22349741
You are literally just pornsick. Sickness from porn. Sick from so much porn you injest. Congrats on your new illness.

>>22350083
People browse at work and school

>>22349610
Hmm, I see. Yea saying witty self-depreciating remarks out loud to others can sometimes be overkill and cringe, ever since self-hate has become meta in the social zeitgeist it’s almost always been just a form at garnering sympathy. But we all do it (myself included). Also I relate to changing my confidence levels when around certain crowds and what not. I think that’s also a natural social phenomenon, almost like code-switching if you’ve heard of it. It happens alot in female spaces too. You seem pretty self-aware but not to the extent that you’re ignorant and crass. I would suggest trying to care less about how others perceive you, I’ve been trying to work on this myself too.

Fanfiction is literature, and if you're willing to dig through heaps of teen garbage, can find works more creative and complex than all modern books because fanfic writers have the passion and the entire creative freedom in the world.

When everything in contemporary society is catered to the perceived "marginalized" how long can that group be considered "marginalized"?

>>22350108
I've gone the route of caring less how people perceive me. The problem is that I just end up saying even less. Cause that's what I prefer (sort of but not actually*) and now I have a label of being the quiet guy when I hate being seen like that.

*When I look back at days where I could say little and days where I socialized a lot (with colleagues) the days where I socialized I had a much better time.
However I revert back to not wanting so speak often. Mostly it's because I don't like starting conversations. I'm okay responding, it's the breaking the ice that makes me not want to bother.

>>22343251
I saw a women who I vaguely agreed to message about something trivial and decided not to two weeks later at the same bar. she ignored me the whole night and talked to different guys in my face while blatantly ignoring my attempts (before I realized what she was doing) to talk to her. I was talking to her friends who I've known for longer so it was obvious she was doing this on purpose. anyway I realized how dumb this strategy was. Yeah she wants to appear desirable and valuable in my eyes but it really has the opposite effect and the whole reason I didn't even want to message her was exactly this behavior. Every girl who is a 'socialite' or more accurately an alcoholic like this.

In spite of my love for him, I cannot get past my frustration for him having given birth to a child. Not to go full Ligotti but I consider the realities of life as a human and cannot even fathom wanting to put in the serious amount of personal investment to make absolutely certain that my child lives to see all the horrors life has to offer in abundance.

Not to say I have considered ending our friendship, but I must admit my respect for him has diminished somewhat.

>>22344127
based Jerry Jackson watcher

>>22350372
Maybe the problem is that you aren't around people who are stimulating enough for you to want to engage in conversation. Sometimes I take the "observer" role too in a social interaction and end up just dissociating because I feel disconnected from the people I'm hanging out with. It sounds like you might suffer from the same thing. Why do you dislike being labeled as the "quiet guy". How do you feel that it misrepresents you?
Regardless, you aren't a betabitch for staying quiet, its just a matter of circumstance. People personalities are fluid which is why stuff like the Meyers-Briggs is retarded imo. If you feel you are a "chad" (whatever that means), feel confident in your looks, your stature, yourself all in all, that is most important.

My brother is getting married and I have no date to bring…

“..boys and men who are meant to be free, and who
should fear slavery more than death.”
Thats what Plato write in his dialog The republic.

“Slavery is freedom”
And that what George Orwell write in his 1984.

Was Erik Blair influenced by Platon? His books give me the impression he was obsessed with totalitarianism, tyrannical democracy and authoritarianism, meaning, he probably read Plato.

>have a spare monitor lying around
>set up dual monitor for laughs
WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME THIS IS THE ONLY WAY TO COMPUTE

HOLY SHIT IT'S LIKE I WAS AN BLIND ONE EYED ENSLAVED INSECT AND NOW I AM A FREE HUGE MAN WITH 360 DEGREE VISION

>>22350511
Could be, I can talk for days about certain topics but that sounds like it could be cope.
>Why do you dislike being labeled as the "quiet guy". How do you feel that it misrepresents you?
Because in my view someone who says little might as well have no personality.
What do you say about someone who says little? My nightmare would be dying young and then my parents hearing that the people I work with, the people I went to school with (18 and up, was not quiet younger than that) that all they know me for is that I didn't say much.
Other people would have either been the clown, the hardass, the slacker etc. I'd rather be one of those than the silent type.
Maybe I'm giving myself a hard time but that's what makes me dislike the label 'quiet'.
Maybe I'm thinking about it more since I moved and have no friends here. But it's always been a thing in my life.

Life is so boring for me right now. No mission, no friends, no girlfriend, no money, but all the time and freedom in the world.

>>22350728
Nigga has all the time of the world and he's bored i'm dead :skull_emoji: :skull_emoji: :skull_emoji:

>>22350727
Ah, I understand. We are on a literature board after all, so I get how not communicating your thoughts and being a silent person could be perceived as being nobody. You naturally want to leave an imprint on people by conversating.
>Maybe I'm thinking about it more since I moved and have no friends here.
Probably this. I think you're just lonely anon D:
The more you warm up to your new city and meet people, the more opportunities you will have to define yourself. Don't take my advice too seriously tho because I have 0 IRL friends.

A few of my friends told me that they came to the consensus that a girl with my personality would be the perfect gf. I have no idea how I'm supposed to interpret that

People say that suffering teaches, but I have no idea what I learned from never having a proper family, I have never even seen my mom and dad be in the same room. That it was bad, scary and humiliating? I could have told you all of that without having experienced it for myself. Randomly seeing a father play with his son or a mom and a dad both hunched over their child with a smile on their faces, It all just sends a jolt of pain throughout my whole body. I can't explain the feeling outside of an ominous notion that something is missing. I wish It would have never happened to me or to anyone, which is why I plan on not having children out of fear they might suffer the same fate. This adversity has not made me stronger or tought me anything although people seem to believe It should have. I wish things were otherwise, but It's all too late now...

I'm laying on beer and skittles.

Damn. She brought up the one question I dreaded from our first meeting. It was only a matter of time before she asked me something serious.
“Have you ever been happy?”
How do I explain it properly to her without scaring her and making it seem as though I truly am insane beyond comprehension? I don’t believe that happiness is anything more than instant gratification intensified into a release of brain chemicals? “One must imagine Sisyphus happy” is all I can think. What a crock.
“Happy?” I laugh, “define happy.”
“Do you think life is good?”
“Always,” I said sharply. I meant it, and still mean it. Even through the endless downpour of shit that I constantly drown in. After being betrayed, abused, and even nearly killed by those I’ve allowed to get near, life is good. Life goes against the natural disorder of the universe.
“Relax, honey.”
I spent the first half of my twenties relaxing. Drugs, alcohol, promiscuity. It almost got me killed. Twice.
Relaxing is for the cattle. I need to pressure and push myself or I’ll get nothing done.

I want to die. I want to die. I am so sick of going online. I am so sick. I feel as unhinged as a heroin fiend. Literally twitching for the phone at every moment. I want this to stop. Please God. Please. I cant stand to look at myself anymore.

>>22343233
I can't open up to anyone, even myself, and it's hurting my writing in a big bad way. It's not a secret to myself about why I don't like opening up, and I fear retribution constantly.

Last night I actually hallucinated. Second time I’ve noticed it. Following the highway lanes in the middle of the night to the airport, the shadows began to shift. A silhouette in the trees, a face from the lights. The street lamps would form mountains and the ground would move ever so slightly. I closed my eyes, I’ve practiced this a lot. Some brief moments of forced REM sleep caused by my eyes relaxing and moving. No panic, no fear of crashing. I never leave the lane and can watch for cars in this state.
I’ve begun to wonder if my worry of a fractured mind has lead to fracturing my existence.

>>22350807
They want to double penetrate you homo style

I feel like creative writing could be a great outlet for me but I have no idea where to begin. I have been told by a few professors in college that I am a good essay writer but the last time I did creative writing was the 6th grade. Does anyone have advice or access to a roadmap/guide on how to get the ball rolling in terms of building fundamental skills and confidence?

>>22345917
>red team bad!

>>22350908
Do you have siblings?

>>22351154
My advice would pick up a large anthology of your medium of choice. I think poetry and short stories are a good place to start only because they’re as long of a commitment as longer creative writing. I would just srtsrt reading through them. Every morning, read a few short stories or a few poems. And every night sit down and don’t let yourself get up until you’ve finished a short story a poem. Accept that they’ll be bad and it will be frustrating probably for a long time, but if you’re consistent you’ll get better. Since poetry can be a bit more difficult to understand, I would recommend Mary Oliver’s Handbook if poetry is what you want to write. As for short stories, you can find all the basics of short story structure and the like with a simple good search. That’s basically what I would recommend.

>>22351236
I half sister on my mother's side 16 years younger.

>>22350728
>the time and freedom in the world.
it is time

>>22351290
Are you close with her at all? Personally, my parents completely unraveling my family life made me want to get closer with my siblings and we’re all very close now.

Often when I see people with mental illness, especially those who wear it on their sleeves, I want to expose them for their lies. I see a weak-willed worm failing to conform to even the most basic laws that a cretin like me can surpass.
A retard bashing his own brains in can only be helped so much.
A pyscho kills a baby.
What is our solution? Throw him into the pit of barbarians to be ripped limb from limb once his "paperwork" has been absorbed.

I've been awkwardly avoiding the barista in the lobby of my office because I felt like we were becoming too friendly and it was stressing me out. And then for a while I thought she was pissed off at me because she had picked up that I was avoiding her and getting my coffee elsewhere. Decided to 'patch things up' today by getting my coffee from her and got so nervous I started sweating during the whole interaction. But she wasnt pissed at all, she just acted happy to see me. She's not even attractive in the slightest, her friendliness is obviously just her doing her job and I think she might even be a bit retarded. Why am I like this bros.

I feel guilty because my girlfriend thinks I only masturbate to thoughts of her. It doesn't seem possible, even though she's hot

>>22351421
that happened to me my fellow schizoid autist, had to stop getting bagels from the cafeteria cuz they knew my order and were getting chatty, that shit sends my autism off the charts. i get that working in a food court is boring, but just browse your phone, don't talk to me thanks

>>22351421
Why are you avoiding her

>>22351450
I initially tried to strike up some rapport earlier in the year because I felt like I needed to push myself out of my comfort zone and start making small talk with strangers more and get more comfortable shooting the shit, but lately I can't be bothered talking to her. Don't know why.

>>22351421
I had a nice rapport going with a cute barista in my office building lobby, she even gave me extra free punches on my discount card. I thought maybe she liked me and that I might ask her out. I thought my well fitted business casual attire made me something of a catch. One day she had her arm in a cast and when I asked what happened she said her boyfriend crashed his motorcycle while she was riding in back. Lol

During the last few months drastical changes happened. Got quite close to my goals but I think I haven't been quite tender with the subject, created too much turmoil between me and my familiaries even though it wasn't necessary. I created a conflict where there wasn't one. I simply am like that. I am the conflict, where there isn't conflict I create one.

>>22351658
Women can just be nice. The problem with people like you is you’re not flirting aggressively enough with women to tell if they’re flirting or not with you. You need to tease her. She could still flirt and have a bf sure but just because a woman cares and likes you as a person doesn’t mean she like likes you.

4chan is gay and full of faggots

You get the body-mind that your lifestyle demands of you.

>have a fetish for straight, long, silky hair
>every woman in my area crops her hair to shoulder length or shorter or has one of those awful pixie cuts
pain

How do I get a /lit bf

RESIST THE COOOOOOOM

>>22351089
Is there a non homo style for double penetration

>>22343233
I haven't been this sick in a really long time. Going out of my bed is like fire it feels so cold, but then i start to sweat under my covers. Just touched where my body had been lying on my bed and it was like a furnace. My legs feel like I've just done extreme squats.
And all day I've been im a state of half asleep fever dreaming. I had a weird dream i was responsible for a series of pipes that provide heating to my room but am responsible for any charge incurred from overheating. I was running around randomily getting caught in vast networks of pipes.

I don't know how to make cool male characters and just make waifus. I'm a guy. Please Help.

>>22351427
Lol that's on her. Over the age of twenty she should know by now that men view women fundamentally differently due to just how innately different male sexuality is.

>>22351882
where you from beautiful?

>>22352047
Burgerland

>>22352116
Want to move to Aruba?

>>22352123
That sounds really nice, do you ask that to all the girls you meet?

>>22352163
I ask the ones I meet if they would like to stay here.
Sadly they only come for vacation, they leave after a few weeks, sometimes a few months

>>22352116
Are you around Pasadena

>>22352182
Well if you're only trying to rizz up tourists then they will always leave eventually. Are these women actually interested in you or just interested in what you can give them?

>>22352221
rizzing up is just flirting and you have to with women.
I fully would like to build a family but this place mostly has girls who want to let loose and go crazy for a few weeks.
The women I've dated here did not seem to interested in my interests but they did like me, all of them do.
You didn't answer my question though, want to move to Aruba? I promise I'm good looking and /lit/
>>22352220
back off she's mine

>>22352220
Nope, east coast fag for now
>>22352240
Any sensical person would want to move to Aruba so yes of course if you happened to be the love of my life. I would assume most women living in an island destination aren’t looking to settle down. How old are you? What are your interests?

>>22352256
I'm 29. I'm /lit/ but music is my favourite art. Hobbies are hiking, history, swimming (obviously on aruba)
Now i need some info on you.

>>22350392
If I had read this about one month ago I wouldn't have believed it. I actually had a talk with such women at work about the exact statement you're making and their thought process is downright retarded.
Basically they think men 'don't care' about such things. As in flirting with a man in front of the man you just had intense eye contact and a talk with in the same night don't even register as a bad move towards the first guy in their head. I was the only man in the room when the discussion came and it's so fucking retarded I had to sit down and make TWO people repeat what was being said to make sure. They literally can't understand why men would find such women repulsive and a waste of time.

It's the same thing about bodycount now that I think about it, but this isn't the subject. As you said at the end of the day you gotta avoid alcoholic niggers. Sometimes it's baffling how alien women can be.

>>22352273
Fair enough. I'm 24, admittedly I enjoy film more than literature but I come on this board for psychoanalysis stuff. I don't have any hobbies since I am currently in a depressive episode but I also enjoy swimming, used to be a swimmer in high school actually. Have you always been living in Aruba?

>>22352311
Born on Aruba, left when I was 8, came back for good 6 months ago.
This depressive episode, just a phase or part of your personality?
Also how soon can you come over here?

>>22352322
No I hope its not a part of my personality. This year has been my hardest year of my life so depression is just a culmination I think. I neet with my parents, not sure I can just drop everything to go to Aruba anytime in the next few weeks. It sounds lovely to grow up on an island desu

>>22352348
I've been neet before but not while living with my parents. I remember enjoying the time, I look back at it fondly. Lately I've been making real promotions at work which feels odd to me.
I'm a romantic but modern dating is killing that part of me. At this point flying out some anon and seeing if it clicks sounds less absurd than swiping for some regular girl.
I'd like to do something crazy like that for once. Make life interesting.

>>22352367
How many women have you dated? Have you not been able to find a south american qt3.14 at all where you live?
Neeting is cool for the first few months but I'm starting to panic. I'm not doing it by choice, got laid off and the job market is trash currently.

>>22352427
I've had one serious relationship, one fling and many dates that ended after the first/second date.
Personally I'm not too into the south american girls, or at least I haven't found one that I'm attracted towards. Language barrier is also a thing if they're from Colombia or wherever, don't speak Spanish.

What job did you do? Job market seems alright to me right now.

damn brave stopped being able to block youtube ads. the video doesn't play, but you still have to wait while the audio plays to a black screen. while ok fine, then i shan't be using youtube. i can't watch twitch either because of the absolutely satanic ads. luckily i have apple music. fuck off with this ad shit.

>>22352477
ublock Origin, zoomie

>>22352477
NO THIS CANT BE HAPPENING

>>22352453
I did office/administrative stuff and my company basically went bankrupt. Honestly thinking of just going back to school. I have a useless lib arts degree so maybe that's why it's been difficult. What do you do?
>I haven't found one that I'm attracted towards
SA women are up there. If being transracial was a thing I'd be Colombian or Bajan. What kind of women are you more into then?

>>22352507
As of late a project manager. 8 months ago I was still a welder.
But I have to go to bed now, have to wake up early. In case the thread dies and you want to keep contact.
Dirkendurker@outlook.com

Do you think it’s weird for adults older than thirty to spend a lot of time at their parents’ houses?

>>22352522
not really my uncles used to hang out at my grandmothers house all the time

>>22352522
>>22352522
for pretty much the entire history of manking almost nobody even moved out of their parents houses in the first place.

There in the center of the dark room was Zel standing as he was, still, looking at nothing, portraying no fear or concern or love or joy or sadness. His eyes never moved but no matter whereto did Sem they seemed to be pointed somewhere besides at her.
As much as Sem was in her body, in her fingers and feet, and at the tip of the nose that itself shifted contracted and relaxed according to herself, and in the air in her lungs and in the house of her eyes, she was in Zel or at Zel with her body; for as Zel appeared to retreat, so did she move towards him to mitigate his smallness, and as he lurched at her, so did she bend and hug the walls to accommodate his largeness. But she could never touch him.
Indeed she stood before him and mirrored his uprightness and placidity and gazeless gaze. But her sweat and heartbeat told her she was not him and this collapse was panic itself, for she leapt away and turned away and fell away and closed her eyes but if she did not see him she felt him. And though groveling and fearful, father war shall reshape her countenance and turn her back again so that she might dance at him and challenge him, but he is unperturbed and she sits silently stilly and sunken at his feet and looks at his feet. In this silence she sees him but can learn nothing about him, thus she turns herself back onto herself to feel and see each detail of herself. And yet though she fancies herself like him, she is made of particles which cannot be found in him, for no particles can be found in him. Though he stands there he is not a body but a looming form. If time could find an answer she would not stand up again before him to make herself like him again and to be burned by her own heart again. For she cannot escape him.

>>22352565
>manking
Is this some kind of euphemism

>>22352507
Dont go meet a strange man in South America. He is going to disembowel you.

>be single
>waste all of my time
>spend each day doing fuck all

>get into a relationship
>every day becomes a big deal
>constant up and down
>no time to even waste anymore

>>22352704
>heaven

>hell

>>22353189