/lit/ - Literature

Fascism is good

One chance at life
>born with the blood type mosquitoes prefer
>born predisposed to addiction
>born introverted retard who can't stand being in a room full of people
>born low iq low spatial awareness have to get up at 5am to drive anywhere because i get overwhelmed if there are too many cars on the road with me
what a fucking genetic failure. i guess i should be glad i won't breed

I'm thinking about fascism lately

>>22293729
>le hypermasculine "I'm in command of myself"
woah... that's profound...

>>22293738
Me too.

The entirety of the political discourse in the West of the 21 Century is not even about politics but based on the leftist idea that a society, millions of people can totally be influenced in their mode of behaviour and controlled completely and the disagreement lies no where else that one group thinks that this power should not be abused because it is evil while the other group argues that this power should be abused because not doing so is evil. Guess what, it is literally impossible to control millions of people in every way, and politics has not even anything to do with what a society *should* look like, wich is not the business of politics. The business of politics is about what a government should look like, how the governmental power should be divided, under what laws the government should operate, how the people behave is an entirely different question. Arguing over wether a government should be fascist, communist, liberalism or conservative then becomes an entirely redundant question. People aren't automatons depraved of agency.

>>22293742
>As today his surroundings do not so force him, the eternal mass-man, true to his character, ceases to appeal to any authority other than himself, and feels himself lord of his own existence. Conversely the select man, the excellent man is urged by interior necessity to appeal to some standard beyond himself, superior to himself, into whose service he freely enters. ... Contrary to what is usually thought, it is the man of excellence, not the common man who lives in essential servitude. Life has no savour for him unless he makes it consist in service to something transcendent. Hence he does not look upon the necessity of serving as an oppression. When, by chance, such necessity is lacking, he grows restless and invents some new standard, more difficult, more exigent, with which to coerce himself. This is life lived as a discipline — the noble life.

>Nobility is defined by the demands it makes on us — by obligations, not by rights. Noblesse oblige. "To live as one likes is plebeian; the noble man aspires to order and law" (Goethe). The privileges of nobility are not in their origin concessions or favours; on the contrary, they are conquests. And their maintenance supposes, in principle, that the privileged individual is capable of reconquering them, at any moment, if it were necessary, and if anyone were to dispute them. ... It is annoying to see the degeneration suffered in today's speech by a word so inspiring as "nobility." For, by coming to mean for many people hereditary "noble blood," it is changed into something similar to common rights, into a static, passive quality which is received and transmitted, something inert. But the strict sense, the etymon of the word nobility, is essentially dynamic. Noble means the "well known," that is, known by everyone, famous, he who has made himself known by excelling the anonymous mass.

>As one advances in life, one realises more and more that the majority of men — and of women — are incapable of any other effort than that strictly imposed on them as a reaction to external compulsion. And for that reason, those few individuals we come across who are capable of spontaneous and joyous effort stand out isolated, monumentalised, so to speak, in our experience. These are the select men, the nobles, the only ones who are active and not merely reactive, for whom life is a perpetual striving, an incessant course of training. Training = askesis. These are the ascetics.

>>22293736

>born predisposed to addiction
No, you just have no will power or self control. It has nothing to do with genetics. That is pseudoscience that addicts invented to justify why they don't know how to control themselves.

>born introverted
You were not. Your brain was turned to mush by video games, movies and TV. Most likely also by GMO food if your parents fed you shit.

>>22293716
Why do I still have this dumb little crush i the girl that took my virginity. It's been what...15 years or so and we never even dated. She was just a friend who thought it was amusing and wanted her plaything for the summer. Yet I still get butterflies when I see her and she always puts a smile on my face.

Yet every other girl between her and my wife I don't think about at all.

>>22293770
In the old days that would be called LOVE, my friend

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If I had lived a different life I would have tried to enter a monastery, I think.
Instead I'm a weird 4chan browsing autismo.

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>>22293703
>I should sign a contract to become a slave or a whore

>>22293763
are traits inheritable

>>22293171
I've mostly been doing Rudolf Steiner's six basic exercises, with slight alterations according to my own interpretation.

>>22293781
ǝɹǝʍ

>>22293805
Have you seen Kuhlewind's From Normal to Healthy? You should do some transcendental meditation, even 15 minutes a day. Use Benson's method if you want no-nonsense, but be strict about sticking with the mantra (or use a breathing variant) and don't allow your mind to wander, at least during dedicated TM time. You need to build the "base" of being able to quiet your consciousness and focus on the mantra/breath/whatever.

An Anthroposophist named Massimo Scaligero has a short guide to meditation but not sure how good it is.

I've been shoplifting for months now.
A lot of junk food and I'll admit it tastes extra sweet knowing its free.
But I never feel satisfied, I'm a materialist and a nihilist and I curse that I was born with infinite desires on a finite planet.
Nothing satisfies, nothing contents, that is my curse.

>>22293716
I am the source of all value. Anything you faggots value that I don’t value—is valueless.

>>22293805
Also you may find Colin Wilson interesting, he took his friend Maslow's thoughts on the "peak experience" way past mere psychologism and tried to figure out what exactly experiences like the ones you have been having are, phenomenologically and metaphysically speaking:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LH9JlvbDS7E

If this resonates with you, check out just the introduction to his book The Occult, where he talks about how consciousness can contract or expand based on one's mood and way of receiving the world. I think he was onto something very important.

>>22293820
personally i've found the techniques in mouni sadhu's book concentration is the only meditation i can get into. probably because it's not "mindfulness" where you just become neurotically self-conscious about everything, but is instead concentration meditation where you focus and concentrate and focus on and on. only meditation book that ever did anything for me and i always get suckered into trying new ones.

>>22293843
I haven't tried that one but I'll check it out. I agree with you completely. That's why I think TM is like the secret gateway to actually learning how to meditate. Even if you go beyond it later, which you should if you are interested in more advanced things, it's a great base. It's like the "newbie gains" period of lifting.

>>22293716
i want to experience acts of extreme violence but without the consequences or pain. can you imagine? the taste of blood as my body flayed and threshed into sights an abattoir would denounce. to wake the next day in bed together, in warm embrace.

>>22293820
>>22293841
I've tried getting into meditation a long time ago, but I found it difficult; struggled with a rowdy mind, a lot of emotional agitation, lack of self-discipline etc. so I dropped that. Eventually I started looking for something that was more 'holistic' and could help me alleviate those problems, and act as a sort of preliminary practice which is how I came into Steiner's six exercises. It seems to be working as I've experienced a lot of progress in those trouble areas but I've completely forgotten about meditation.
(Also, the Colin Wilson stuff looks interesting, I'll have to check it out).

Whatever that women want it, I just dont have IT.

You've disrespected me for the last time /lit/

Mosquitos are an aberration on this plane of existence and I can't believe one just took a chunk of my fucking forehead blood and left me with a blimp the size of Hindenburg. There goes all my motivation for clearing the trees and thus also the motivation for cleaning my car. Time to shitpost

>>22293805
NTA but that's nice, had never heard about that, thanks anon

Are Asian girls from hell? They put a spell on me like nothing else in this world. They don't even have to be gorgeous to make me crazy about them. Can someone nuke all these insectoids and free me from their voodoo?

>>22293716
Think I'm developing insomnia lads. Tbf it's always taken me longer than most people to fall asleep but the past couple of weeks it's really been taking the piss. Say I go to bed at 10, I usually won't be able to actually fall asleep until 2-3 in the morning and then I'll just wake up around 5ish and not be able to go to sleep again. My job involves a lot of moving around and doing shit plus I go gym 5-6 times a week and I don't nap during the day, I really dont understand why this is happening.

>>22293784
obviously that’s basic genetics of course you are going to have heritable traits. I assume It’s more complicated when traits are multi variable or epigenetic but still heritable.

>>22294355
could be anything, go see a doc

I always keep my phone within driving distance.

Lord Jesus Christ why did she have to be a lesbian?

>>22293716
Kill logical empiricists. Behead logical empiricists. Roundhouse kick a logical empiricist into the concrete. Slam dunk a logical empiricist baby into the trashcan. Crucify filthy blacks. Defecate in a logical empiricists food. Launch logical empiricists into the sun. Stir fry logical empiricists in a wok. Toss logical empiricists into active volcanoes. Urinate into a logical empiricists gas tank. Judo throw logical empiricists into a wood chipper. Twist logical empiricists heads off. Report logical empiricists to the IRS. Karate chop logical empiricists in half. Curb stomp pregnant black logical empiricists. Trap logical empiricists in quicksand. Crush logical empiricists in the trash compactor. Liquefy logical empiricists in a vat of acid. Eat logical empiricists. Dissect logical empiricists. Exterminate logical empiricists in the gas chamber. Stomp logical empiricist skulls with steel toed boots. Cremate logical empiricists in the oven. Lobotomize logical empiricists. Mandatory abortions for logical empiricists. Grind logical empiricist fetuses in the garbage disposal. Drown logical empiricists in fried chicken grease. Vaporize logical empiricists with a ray gun. Kick old logical empiricists down the stairs. Feed logical empiricists to alligators. Slice logical empiricists with a katana.

>>22293994
>little did he know

Today was my cousin’s funeral. He died on his forties but had one hell of a life. I felt sad for what happened with him and for everyone that he left behind. I wonder what he would think about me and the way I’ve lived: an agoraphobic and avoidant neet in his late twenties who was depressed for pretty much his whole life and always had difficulty navigating interpersonal relationships.
The whole ceremony happened in a town by the seaside that he loved. It’s a very warm and alive place. It made me curious about how he felt in here and if I ever would feel the same - to look at a place like this and fall in love with it. I’m making efforts to improve things but I’ve pretty much been raised to doubt myself and am afraid that even a decent future may not be enough to stop me from beating myself over the past and all its missed opportunities.
Talking with my uncle and realising how well both of my cousins were raised by him and his wife and how they’ve done the same for their own kids also made me resent the horrible parenting I was subjected to, although I don’t want to and believe that resentment is poison. It just sucks realising that most of the shit I went through had no reason to happen and would’ve been prevented if my parents had done the bare minimum. Instead I have wasted and keep wasting most of my youth tormented by behaviours and thoughts that I was pretty much conditioned to have while desperately trying and failing to leave them behind.
Two men are born: one embraces life from the get go and leaves too soon. The other compulsively avoids it and never feels alive. Shouldn’t the former be the one who gets to stay? I wish he was still here. He would’ve loved seeing everyone he cared about getting together on this place so much.

>>22294672
>left the blacks in
Old habit

the /fit/ version of wwoym is like 95% dudes talking about getting laid, trying to get laid, times when getting laid went wrong, and so on. here it's just weird political and religious extremism and a mix of self-loathing depressed posts.

LMFAO yearslong buddy literally told me I wasn't his real friend. Go fuck yourself then. Probably just a phase but I'm already struggling and I have to hear that kind of shit. Didn't even catch himself when I told him he's just sad, he's just saying mean things for now he should sleep and he'll get better. I don't give a shit if you're having it bad and need someone if you're just gonna ruin my night with that kind of pussy shit for no reason. FUCK you.

>>22294684
dont be so hard on yourself, its not your fault

>>22294786
Thanks. I know, but I’ve been hearing variations of “it’s your fault” since I was a kid and it’s hard to deprogram yourself.

>>22294803
>resentment is poison
is the worst part. like gaslighting yourself, self-harm shit. that last bit of your 1st post is too real

>>22294810
This whole way of thinking feels like gaslighting yourself. Something that really hurts is looking back at things as an adult and realising there were moments in which relatives and teachers noticed there was something wrong with your home life and just went “that’s fucked but not my problem”. Also all those fucking memories of my parents abhorrent behaviour and the absolutely bestial arguments they used to justify or deny it are there forever, despite me trying to nurture good feelings and care for them now that they’re getting old and frail.

>>22294847
>despite me trying to nurture good feelings and care for them now that they’re getting old and frail.
yuup, it feels like were both trying to come from a place of love but it doesnt work, but i guess it does because it has to. these things weigh heavy on your heart

>mfw i see a woman

>>22293716
I fucking hate you, Borhes. And your stupid fucking Tlon.

>>22294910
My patience for fanciful retardation is not infinite.

>>22294886
(except mom)

I keep thinking about Higgs. He proposed a theory and lived to see it proved 50 years later. There are Higgs in the literary field, like Houellebecq or these authors who get discovered and reach recognition during their lifetime. And then there are the others. It's difficult to accept that whatever I dedicate my life to, I might not ever see the results. What does it take to be a Higgs, a Houellebecq? Isn't it crushing to work your whole life on something and knowing no one cares, no one will ever learn from it or use it? Higgs was born in a century of major discoveries and is still kicking at 94. The man literally lived through every major scientific and technological discovery needed to prove his theory. He saw things through. There is nothing he can regret on that side of things. What a life.

>>22294856
Sometimes it just feels like “you got dealt a bad hand. Better luck next life” and it makes me wanna scream. I mean, is that it? That can’t be it. There must be a life worth living beyond all this shit. Feeling like a horse who got his leg broken right before the big race and now has to limp pathetically along the course is absolutely revolting and I don’t wanna look at things that way. I think this revolt is good. We’re still trying even though there are setbacks and things feel in vain sometimes.
>yuup, it feels like were both trying to come from a place of love but it doesnt work, but i guess it does because it has to.
I’m glad I don’t hate them. Hating them is something that they would do in my place. Besides, it feels right, you know? Not letting shit your family did to you fill your heart with poison. I’m not saying you should tolerate abuse or pretend nothing happened, but one of the few things I’m sure about is that hating them will do no good to me. Barring that the most I think about familial relationships is that I would prefer to never have kids rather than subject them to what I’ve gonna through and that if I ever have one I’ll be very careful about the way my parents interact with them.

>>22294333
Is this a uniquely white man phenomenon? I'm a asian dude and while some asian girls of them do be kinda cute, many of them just look mediocre.

>>22293736
The sober reality is yes, you have been dealt a bad hand. However, many have been dealt worse and managed to be fine.

range ban test

The only escape from this hell is through efforts and pain. You have to keep going, no matter what. Never stagnate. Be like changing weather, be the fucking dent in your shitty life. Whenever things get too easy, ramp it up a bit. Find people with the same mindset and get things done together. Don't waste your time with losers unless you like them a lot, and even then I wouldn't recommend it because a second spent with an idiot is a second less spent with your loved ones.

I’ve always felt somewhat spiritual, and I’ve always been a believer of the supernatural but everything that humans say doesn’t resonate with me, and it causes me confusion and dissatisfaction. I tried Catholicism, prayed the rosary, archangel chaplets and God doesn’t speak to me. Tried Norse paganism, Tyr, Odin, Vidar, Thor - they don’t speak to me. Mother nature type spirits seem more present. I don’t know. I think everyone that claims they have the answer is a liar. I feel lost.

>>22295413
>I tried Catholicism, prayed the rosary, archangel chaplets and God doesn’t speak to me
Me too but I just came to conclussion that Im just not worth enough for God to communicate with me.

>>22293919
What is IT?

Someone with the last name Voorhees was killed by a famous serial killer.

>>22295221
>Is this a uniquely white man phenomenon?
No, blacks can have it too I think

This time I have completely and utterly fucked myself. Bought a house with a woman that I don't love. Guess that's how it ends, right?

i read the first three pages of proust II last night and this morning already forgot it all. ok so he says swann's personality changed to fit better with odette since the last book. there's a doctor who i guess we're to take isn't that cultured. and there's a low tier aristocrat. i forgot what the deal is with those dudes. every sentence is like three quarters of a page. you get to the end and you're like wait how did this start? i read two easy books in a row, now i have to get back into grinding harder shit.

Test

>>22295474
information technology

>>22295733
wait, what? how do you even end up in this situation? if you don't like her, how are you married in the first place?

I'm starting to believe materialist monism/physicalism/non-dualism is the truth and everything else is a cope.

>>22295813
welcome back to reality
anything but physicalism is wishful thinking

>>22294910
I change my mind. I tranny heart Tlön.
If I could, I would speak Tlönic

You guys like to fondle your dick while reading a book?

>>22295932
I do

>>22295475
It's a competitive market

there are just too many coincidences...

At this point i will have to start living as to make myself valuable as a future submissive

>>22296099
Disgusting degenerate

>>22296123
That's probs the type of thing he's looking for m80

>>22295776
I don't know dude, I don't know. I'm a mess of a person. I have difficulties making decisions for myself. I have basically no sense of self worth. Also there's probably fear of being alone, also the least effort choice of not going through the stress of ending the relationship. There are positive aspects to it too, though.

>>22293716
I want to fuck my wife’s lesbian best friend so bad. I tried arranging a threesome in the past and it almost happened but didnt. My wife sees her as masculine so finds it strange but as a man I just see her as a woman and she’s gorgeous and cool as fuck. I love my wife so would only do anything with her involvement but her friend basically is down its just my wife who says no more out of conventionalism than anything. I dont think she is really morally against it or anything so I have a nagging feeling its still possible. The only reason it feels degenerate is because we do have young kids. But i dont care I just want to fuck her and watch her and my wife fuck around. Kind of bothers me that it hasnt happened yet.

We do it to ourselves.
>>22294982
>I would prefer to never have kids rather than subject them to what I’ve gonna through
It feels like too much, pulling something out of nothing

>>22293884
Yeah I know exactly what you mean. I remember Pannobhasa, the Buddhist youtuber and westerner who quit his monastery in Burma, saying there's actually a term for this over there, something about how westerners have restless minds and have an especially hard time learning to be still inwardly. But the process you are going through now is training the same muscle, it's all just yoga honestly, which some think comes from the Indo-European word for "yoking," i.e. reining in and harnessing your inner life under the direction of a charioteer, like in Plato's Allegory of the Chariot in the Phaedrus.

If you liked Steiner I highly recommend Tomberg's Meditations on the Tarot which is almost a guided Christian yoga or Christian meditation. Esoteric Christian of course.

>>22296123
actual submissives, which most horny and disgusting men who call themselves as such are not, and their desires come from a place of purity

It's a shame that DFW killed himself

>>22296204
why did he do it? he was a smart fellow

>>22296206
Treatment-resistant depression, and possibly irreconcilable differences between himself and his environment. Suicide is like divorcing the world and I understand the urge

>>22296145
I've seen this pattern before. Lesbians are as horny as gay men and if they have a straight best friend you can be goddamn sure they want to fuck them. She's probably fucking your wife already or has done so before and you just don't know. Enjoy being a literal cuck as you dream of a 3some that will never happen.

Most women I know don't project themselves in the future and make impulsive decisions. Are they retarded or do they know something I don't?

It is like I am walking along a beautiful landscape filled with holes which I can fall down at any moment without notice. I can escape the holes by climbing a spiral staircase, but this puts me in danger of losing my footing and falling back down which would be more painful than the already agonising prospect of staying in the hole. I can see the light up above and it is beautiful. I can remember what was above me, yet I believe it may be gone when I come back up. I might come back up and see a horrible post-apocalyptic landscape of bombed out building and swarms of hideous creatures without human company. There’s a dread. I’m afraid I haven’t separated this into paragraphs, but that is just the point - all of these thoughts come at once and hit you like a ton of lead. There are other times in my life, which are ever the more painful to fall from because of how pleasant they are, when walking down the most disgusting, dangerous street in the world would be a source of enjoyment. Shifting through these constant changes is almost perverse for the sufferer. It makes no sense.

>>22296221
Nah they havent trust me.

>>22296204
Anon be cry :(

We're no better than animals. I just watched a Dolphin kill and fuck a fish.

>>22296254
These are the recruits training to become "wigglers," low-level IRS drones who crank out rote tax return reviews at Tingle tables (no etymology given) in the regional IRS office, calculating return-on-investment for potential audits and resigning themselves to a lifetime of tedium in an office where time is ticked off in fiscal quarters. They are only slightly aware of one another and exist as cameos outside of their own chapters. Meanwhile, a nebulous and menacing bureaucratic intrigue is afoot with the arrival of "fact psychic" Claude Sylvanshine, who is in Peoria to do advance work and intelligence gathering for his boss, Merle Lehrl, "an administrator of administrators" and dark puppet-master figure.

>>22296234
They do but it's about different things. They all fear aging and being alone, it's a biological instinct. But they don't generally care about ambition or making a name for themselves. They don't care about being remembered by posterity. It is like they instinctively know something we don't, know it's all bullshit and we're all deluding ourselves about life having any meaning, so they simply can't imagine caring about being famous or being remembered. No woman really has organic ambition the way even a 14 year old boy can. Every man wants to conquer the world at least a little bit. Women instinctively just want to have a nice time and be comfortable. They just want to buy a big chrome letter B for their self from Bed Bath & Beyond because their name is Brenda, and get too many pillows for the couch.Tthey'd do this until the end of time if they could. The one fear they have that breaks this up is they know they have to do it with a good man who worships them and gives them kids. But they don't even really think distinctly about how having kids and growing old has distinct phases. They just think, I'll keep decorating with giant letters and too many pillows until the end of time while Impressive Steven worships me.

They do dimly sense that they want Steven to be impressive and they can just barely realize that this requires Steven to have ambition and to live in a world where distinct phases and accomplishments beyond decorating with pillows do exist. But they never look at it directly. They see Steven's Impressiveness as an attribute possessed by Steven and they don't really care directly about how he acquired it. They just want Impressive Steven, the completed package.

>>22296221
Its like a source of vanity for me that she said she would let me basically fuck her even though she’s a lesbian its really out of a sort of deference she’s always had for me. We basically have some type of plutonic love where the only reason we arent degenerates is because we both love my wife

>>22296261
If this indeed, as I suspect, an excerpt from The Pale King, I will be adding it to my to read list. Somehow reading something from a writer makes me feel that they are still alive, like they are right in front of me.

>>22296261
DFW is so funny.

>>22296272
It is. "Only literature can grant you access to a spirit from beyond the grave—a more direct, more complete, deeper access than you’d have in conversation with a friend." - Houelly
>>22296274
He cracks me up honestly

the barbie movie gave me an existential crisis

>>22296217
>Treatment-resistant depression
Is this actually a thing?
>irreconcilable differences between himself and his environment
seems like wanting to be honest but even sarcasm/irony is not able to help.

>>22296293
How so?

>>22295474

>>22296312
Another Houelly quote:
"Irony won’t save you from anything; humour doesn’t do anything at all. You can look at life ironically for years, maybe decades; there are people who seem to go through most of their lives seeing the funny side, but in the end, life always breaks your heart. Doesn’t matter how brave you are, or how reserved, or how much you’ve developed a sense of humour, you still end up with your heart broken. That’s when you stop laughing."

>>22296433
Damn I gatta read this guy.

>>22296504
Ohhhh its a nickname for that french dude. Ive dabbled in him a little and never found much interest. Great quote though

>>22296506
Like all good writers, his best writing is in aphorisms

I met someone on a dating app who I get along with amazingly well. Better than I ever hoped for and imagined was possible. Our goals, values, interests... it's all in perfect alignment. The quality of our conversations is great, and we share a similar sense of humor. Physically speaking, we also "looksmatch" very well and find each other very attractive. We're in contact every day all day from the moment we're awake to the moment we sleep. Only a month into this relationship and I decided to propose, I couldn't help it. She unhesitatingly said yes and has since told me that her life has never felt as meaningful as it does now and that she is happier than she's ever been.

She feels like the one, but I'm afraid. I can't help but worry that something will go wrong. I've never met someone like her, so I've never felt this good about someone before, but I'm still so scared. A lifetime of hearing and reading about relationship nightmares has made me extremely cautious, skeptical, and cynical.

Tell me something to calm me down, /lit/. I've been coming here for over 10 years and I need you now.

>>22296317

>>22296707
True love is real, Anon. Congratulations and best of luck.

>>22296707
Stop thinking in terms of "the one" and start thinking in terms of joy that there are people out there who you could share and build a life with. If you make a new best friend do you panic that you might lose him? No, you know that there are theoretically other people out there you could have built a lifelong friendship with. The difference being that with friends, the more the merrier, and if you made a new best friend you would just introduce him to your existing best friend, whereas with a lover you (generally) only get one at a time. But people do love multiple times in a lifetime and not in an ugly way where they regard their first partner as less special or demote them or anything.

You obviously shouldn't go too deep into thoughts about how she's disposable or replaceable. It's more a shift in perspective, from fear of loss to having gratitude for what you've gained. The world is a big place, and yet people like you and her found each other. You should enjoy the craziness of that, and feel like two monkeys who became best friends in an otherwise giant jungle in which friendly monkeys rarely even meet up. Just enjoy the monkey friendship without thinking of abstractions like what if one of us falls off a cliff. Feel gratitude for her, without feeling the need to cling onto her, smothering all the carefree joy of your time together, which is after all the whole point of meeting one another.

The best things in life are always fragile and rare, and thus always have a double aspect of "how crazy is it that the more I love this thing, the more I couldn't bear losing it?" You can always fall down a dark pit of thinking about that empty abstraction endlessly. And sometimes loss does happen. But you should know at a deeper, unconscious level that what's happening here is not the negation of badness (something good happening in a world that could snatch it all away from you again in an instant), but a proof that goodness exists and spontaneously comes forth (the world gave you her). It's impossible to answer the abstraction "what if I lost her" with an equally abstract "you'd move on, and other things just as good would happen to you." That's why it's a black pit you can stare into forever. The only smart move is to look away from the pit and go back to being a carefree child just enjoying life's bounty.

>>22296707
>Only a month into this relationship and I decided to propose, I couldn't help it.
dude go read stoner right now

Is it hopeless if you suck at STEM? I keep being told my skills in the humanities are useless and I have no future. I've started to loose interest in everything. I can't even read a book anymore. All good paying jobs are STEM focused, even if you don't need to know any math to do them.

>>22296821
>my skills in the humanities
>I've started to loose interest in everything
heh

>>22293716
I want to apply for a PhD but I don't know if I can get good letters of recommendation and it's kinda stressing me out

I do feel like I'll never love anyone the way I loved her. It's a struggle to want to think of other people like the way I thought of her. Much of what I've written in the form of poetry was written with intentions of pleasing her. I feel so hopelessly in the deep end, and I've tried wading out, but it's warm and familiar to continue drowning at the bottom.

How do I do active reading? It seems like words just zoom past my brain and I literally cannot remember what I read 5 minutes ago. I've heard visualizing what I read can help making it stick for some time but how the fuck do I visualize shit? Help.

I'm having one of those "you can't believe how much I hate my life" night walks. Man, I have to finish my short story just to get my spirits up. I already decided to write a non fiction book I always wanted after that.

>>22296846
I get you, anon. It's been two years for me with the feelings. It becomes unnoticeable at some point, time just wipes your emotions and memory. Don't know about loving anyone else, but a lot of people live without love and it's not the most important thing. Although I can theoretize that at some point you can find another person to be fascinated by.

The more I learn about Mormon history the angrier I get. Five generations of my family gave their blood, sweat, tears, time, energy, and money, for... this? This chicanery?
And every time I think I've uncovered the last ridiculous lie or dirty secret about Mormonism I find there's something else that has been waiting for me to learn about it in order to increase my disgust ever further.

>>22293716
I will never get why so many chicks get off to pain. I got in a tussle with an ex (it was bad) and what does the bitch do? she goes into women's restroom and plays with herself! some women need serious help.

>>22295247
>Find people with the same mindset and get things done together
where do I go to find these magical fay creatures?

>>22297128
Wherever you yourself go / would go

>>22297140
I go where low level socialpaths and glowniggers reside

>>22297140
and I've met people on here and they've been the worst friends I've ever made in life

>>22297104
>I got in a tussle with an ex (it was bad)
Elaborate?

>>22297143
>>22297146
Change yourself or get used to it.

>>22297161
I'm doing that slowly these days

I live in Minnesota. At 3:00 PM, I started writing these sentences. The purpose is for the future historians who want to view history from a bottom approach rather than the Great Man. So, you should take notes on this rather than read what presidents or CEOs have written.

>>22297192
imagine if somebody killed a faggot puppet like you

>>22297202
Nothing would happen.

>>22297155
not about to. I don't want to seem like the bad guy in this situation and would prefer not to reveal certain things

>>22295247
>Don't waste your time with losers unless you like them a lot, and even then I wouldn't recommend it because a second spent with an idiot is a second less spent with your loved ones.
he said unironically on 4chan

I should make a copypasta that embarrasses the zionist empire everytime one of their ratty glowniggers opens their mouth on the internet

>>22297222
Don't do that.

i've had this weird soar throat feeling in the back of my nose for days at least. i have fever dreams every night. sometimes when i wake up one nostril is like half clogged. otherwise i feel fine throughout the day. what the fuck is this? some new super weak covid strain or something? fucking annoying. either that or i'm dying. ever since i read stoner whenever i get a stomach ache or feel tired i assume it's over.

>>22297231
I should, those retards are obsessed with plausible deniable harassment as if it's the pinnacle of whit

>>22297233
Pollution

the new greta van fleet album is so enjoyable they can't help it if they look like tiny gay elves instead of whatever a manly 70s band is supposed to look like but the great part about music is you don't have to look at the musicians when you listen to it

>>22297146
Worst friend I ever had was my longest held friend. And everyone who knew how to use imageboards was fun to spend time with. I think I knew a guy from 4chan (not really a regular) I would trust with my life. You really need to judge on individual basis.

>>22296707
If she’s normal: cool, I’m happy for you anon.
If she’s bpd: boy oh boy.

Got an idea for a novel. A guy raised in a very religious environment finds out the girl he loves, and everyone thought he would marry and whom was also raised in the same way, isn't a virgin, causing him to have a breakdown and loss of faith. This spirals into him running away from home, forming a punk band with two other members, falling into an alcohol and drug addiction while releasing two of the best punk albums of all time, and then finally killing himself, completing the absolute defilement of his soul. A story about the fragility of beauty. It's also almost entirely inspired by the song 'Die, Die, Die My darling' by Misfits.

What you guys thinks?

>>22293736
you get what you're given, and that must sometimes be enough
>>22293763
>pseudoscience
you're a pseud and you know nothing about science

>>22296707
Don’t be a pussy. Even if its doomed to end horribly and you knew it, you would still be a pussy if you bitched out. Get what you can out of life while it’s there. The alternative is to masturbate your way into the grave.

>>22296707
>Only a month into this relationship and I decided to propose, I couldn't help it.
retard alert
>>22297406
she should be a closeted lesbian

Starting to appreciate that the sober, boring life really is the better one. I'm a slow learner. Weird how I don't regret being a wastoid fuckup, thoughbeit. I mean yeah, unnecessary sadness & wasted time &c. I never want to do it again & don't recommend it but am glad to have made it through.

>>22297216
4channers are both retarded and based but they always teach me new obscure stuff only true autists can be passionate about.
>>22297146
Worst friend I ever had was a jealous fat motherfucker. For some reason my worst friends are always fat motherfuckers. It's like they store their motherfuckerness in their saggy fat tits.

>>22293716
The political events that have gone wild in the recent years are only the tip of an iceberg, while the real and future state of things soon will come up. The present ''global mood'' is the same irrespective of geographical location. Men over 30 in their majority have no future, no life goals, no plans to have family, children, they don't believe in anything or desire anything, they just procrastinate and go with the flow of time, there's no transparency in things for them, no orients, life looks like a liquid mass in a jug of a blender, where everything was thrown at once and turned into pulp, nights and days, people, nature, beliefs, aims, past, present, future. Everyone is feeling tired of life, and often dreams to never wake up from sleep, back into the absurdity of degrading world. And the reason is not in the bad mood, the reason is the unbearable reality itself, in its every aspect, everything is tiring, whether it's joy or difficulties. There is absolutely nothing to stick up to. Even in the times of great depression or wars people still made families, raised children, believed in better future. Now there's nothing but absolute pointlessness of everything. And no external things like wealth, women or money can fix this. Recently there was a dumb vid of a 13-14yo girl, she streamed herself on her way to the roof where she jumped from a minute later, she was saying how happy she is that
''everything will end now, so tired of life, so tired of people, of all this mess, of everything''. 13yo, healthy human felt this way and couldn't stand it all any more. There are no feelings attached to this kind of mindset. It's totally rational. Back in the days people used to romanticize everything, especially such themes as life and death, sorrow or sadness, there was a certain type of bitter sweetness in it, but today there are no emotions or feelings towards anything. We are dry as deserts inside. Do we really want anything? Maybe a mansion, a fancy car, millions on account? Would any of these things change anything? Of course not

>>22297146
I've had like 2 friends in my life and I've been terrible to them.
One was a cunt on his own way though.
God I miss Damian.
Now that I'm reminiscing about middle school (yes, really) there was this girl who probably did like me. Autism and all. A close friend of hers gave a ride once when I was sixteen. I mentioned her and the guy laughed a little. I wonder what that was about.

I'm seeing more and more black men/white women couples, saw 3 on my way back home from work, all of them were young. What the fuck is going on, my day is ruined?

>>22297485
How old are you and how long sober? Im 29 next month and have been drunk 98 nights out of 100 this last decade. I function well and have made a good life for myself but man I can’t say it’s easy.

>>22297553
I think its a coordinated push, honestly.

>>22297540
I went through tor today, imagine a thick erected d ,that's about to burst with coom, in a tender mouth of your m8, as he lustfully slides his tongue around it, and you feel warm vibration of his moaning on the tip of it

>>22297583
Wtf is this shit and why does everyone whom I tell about my friends think I'm gay?
Not everyone but it has happened twice now.

>>22297505
What about people who at least imagined something bigger, even if they can't quite bring to words what exactly they mean when they think of it, quietly, sometimes hoping that at least someone would reciprocate their feelings at least in a distant way, slowly turning to a degree of desperation so large that they project their feelings onto people they are entirely different seeming, entirely unrelated to them but that they sympathize with solely because they are different to their crowd of friends and relatives, a crowd they feel no disdain for but that didn't live up to the expectations they had so happily charged during the most turbulent times of puberty, they woke up, they crashed, they fell not from the heaven but from the hill they thought they were living on to find themselves in a swamp, but only half way, with the chemise still clean, while the other ones were wallowing nose-deep inside of it. They decided to move but there was only more swamp to find. They did not want to accept the state they had themselves found in. The shining glare however, started getting dimmer and dimmer.

What’s keeping you guys going?

>>22297657
Don't want to blow up my family

>>22297657
Languidity

>>22297604
Its called projection dude. Whenever someone questions my heterosexuality I pretty much know its safe to assume they’re a closeted faggot

Every European is a writer, potentially or in fact.

Saw that hoe on a dating app again. The one I had a gazillion hours conversation with and then ghosted me. She was using a different name and age, although her profile had new pics and was verified so it must’ve been her. Can’t believe I kept searching for her and that a not so small part of me hoped that we matched again. How can I stop being this much of a bitch towards women? I know she isn’t worth it but the meme feelings don’t subside and I’ve had similar issues with a lot of them in the past. The only bright side is that I’m always going after someone new so I don’t develop oneitis, but I would give a second chance to most women I’ve been/tried to be with even though they don’t deserve it and have nothing to offer me besides headaches and mediocre sex.
>>22297657
Stubbornness and a faint unwillingness to believe that life can’t be more than this.

>>22297657
>>22297505
nothing, and it's been like that from the moment the nature stopped drugging us with dopamine and serotonin. Just listened to Sapolsky's lecture, well, it's been know for ages anyway that everything we feel or do is driven by chemicals, hormones, you might be feeling dead, but if you'll swallow a droplet of certain substance, you'll instantly feel like you've felt as a teenager, waking up in the sunny morning, hurrying up to school to meet your friends, to jump, play, have fun, not caring about anything, feeling like this summer will lust forever, and the whole world is yours.

Confucius was right about music.

>>22298095
What did he say about it?

>>22293716
Every time I walk in my front door or turn on the light there are dozens of salamanders scurrying around. I can usually see a couple on my walls any time I look. Is there a way to get rid of them?

>>22298095
litcels seething over music-chads as usual

>>22298107
Ive heard wd40 works for bugs, might work for them too. Spray the outline of your doors and windows.

>>22298107
Do you live in a cave? Your house must be very wet for them to survive in the open. If you ran a dehumidifier they might leave on their own

is there a sound more perfect
than the sound of distant wheels at night
rubber and steel
traversing the unknownland

ride now forth
thou bringst the shivers of places far
ride now
ye harbinger of dream
ride and make it seem
as if there was not a man around
as if there was no man but I

>>22298122
You misunderstand. Confucius loved music.

>>22298141
Ah my bad. In his time professional musicians were often cripples and looked at as barely better than beggars

i think reading entire 4chan threads thoroughly while I'm playing maplestory is helping me with my 4chan addiction. it's addicting for me because you're teetering on refreshing the pages to see if any new thread is up that interests you, and when you enter the thread it's some more teetering of one foot in but not the other, so you don't fully commit to the thread and focus in it, reading some comments but not all and leaving. after reading enough threads thoroughly then I start to get the feeling on the catalog myself, of intuitively predicting what the other anons will say in that thread, what the discourse will be like, the tonality and ranges of debate from very angry to very gay in earnesty, and most importantly what information I will get out of it, which would seem when you read a thread thoroughly before that is similar in nature to the one you're about to read, you've already understood much of the discourse and make a more informed presumption of if its worth going over again

>>22298127
Thanks I’ll try it
>>22298132
South Florida. One time there was a two foot iguana in my bedroom. It took my like 30 mins to catch it because I was scared I’d get bitten

>>22297505
>We are dry as deserts inside.
speak for yourself

>>22298146
Only Mohists believed that shit

>>22298211
I couldn’t imagine living in the swamp

>>22298174
ios 17 is going to have a new screen reader mode in safari i'm looking forward to listening to 4chan threads like an audiobook when i'm out and about

>>22298243
It’s not that bad because there is a brief downpour every day that helps the humidity. The salamanders and iguana are partially my fault. My girl kept locking me out whenever we’d get in a fight so I took the door off the hinges

My waking existence has been a living hell, constant agony, bottomless depression, ever since yesterday after my headphones broke. I have to wait 2 days for a new pair to ship.

what translation of the homeric hymns should i get?

>>22298263
that will be neat to use

“Excuse me?”

“Yes?”

“Is that a wig?”

“Is my hair a wig?” She repeated with red to her cheeks like a rump after caning.

The man then pulled at her hair. “Give it to me!”

“Sir, contain yourself!”

How excited he could be pulling on the first wig of the night glued to the soft white trap on the cobblestone path! Her fingers struck his face. An audience herding by her voice. He took the ladyboy in his arms where his teeth nibbled, bit, and suckled like a suckling pig.

>>22293756
What's your take on how an ideal government would look like?

I wrote a song, please don't just read it, try to sing it. It's 5am now, ok? we need to sleep, so please be loving

"On a lonely desert road,
Rides a rusty chevy truck,
And I sit in it for days,
Driving to a distant place.
I have just three fingers on
My disgusting hairy hand,
I have lost the rest two ones
When I tried to fix the thrust.
I am fat and rarely wash,
In my cabin there's a mess,
But I really love to honk
To the random folks on road.
I'm not traveling alone
I have very handsome wife
She was born from my previous wife
And she's only eight years old.
She sleeps on the second floor
She gets dressed only on stops,
No, she doesn't have her clothes,
Greasy shirt of mine is hers.
Once we drove through Kanzas state
Got pulled oved by some cops,
They said: "Holly fucking shit!
Who's that sexy little thing?"
When it rains we usually stop,
And get totally undressed,
Turn the radio and dance
To the latest news report.
So we live and so we roll,
Happy family on wheels,
Eating beer and roadkills
Grilling them on diesel fuel.
Sometimes I pray to the lord
Ask him to send us some kids,
We'd be happiest folks on earth,
Having plates with 666

Been super active lately and it feels really good. Wish I was doing more of this as a teenager, but I'm making up for lost time. I have a good few more years of this fun living before I settle down

>>22293716
---- Solaria ----
0706
Lax Etude

At some point one gardens
Not so much for a look of tesselated order

Blanketed, banked and tiered as you will in striking fabric
But for weird, incongruous obliques

In form and color, hanging neither together nor separately,
Mistily suave from a distance, curious

From closeup, so arbitrary it resembles fashion
Or human taste except

For the fact that daffodils and palms
Cannot be juxtaposed enmasse

No matter your means in
Legacy and wishing.

>>22293716
Had coffee for the first time in awhile yesterday. Very strong reaction, was up all night reading and felt very short on breath like every inhalation wasn't enough air and my chest hurt.
But for a night I felt alive again like everything became interesting and motivating. Like I was piecing everything together.
The strength of my inner monologue always becomes deafening on coffee. Coffee also makes me become obsessed with whatever I'm doing I'll keep doing until I drop.
Sense of space changes too things outside myself seem bigger some how, more oppressive, and I notice the tiniest of sounds.
Emotionally coffee makes me turbulent, I feel simaltaneously exhilarated and depressed. A grotesque feeling like I've become god and an insect at the same time

>>22293837
Try food pantries. Usually multiple in a city if you go to multiple you could easily snatch a week's worth of groceries.

>>22298211
Do you leave your front door open at all times?

Depression is insane. I’m so thin but I feel like I weigh a ton. I don’t know how to spend each minute. Nothing works.

>>22296868
Constantly ask yourself questions. What did I just read? What does this mean for the characters? What is the author trying to get me to think about by writing what he's writing?

>>22293782
A slave OR a whore not a slave to a whore....
I have a little self-respect.
Currently trying to join the military, that's pretty close to being a slave.
However they bumped me up to officer side to my annoyance cause of my b.a
A weirdo like me isn't fit to command people.
Put a piece of paper in front of me to sign my life away, that's what I want so I no longer have to go to any more effort.
Corporations should bring back landed serfdom.

>>22298539
born too late to be a serf, born too early to be an Amazon mercenary

Do you guys generally consider yourselves optimists or pessimists? No matter how long I've lived I cannot fundamentally come to a conclusion other than the latter when regarding human life in a general sense. I myself have a fairly so-so life but I also recognize a vast, vast majority of humans do not have the resources or opportunities I've been given and using said positive aspects of my life as justification for most people seems wrong.

>>22293837
I like to steal hats and sunglasses from gas stations.

>>22294355
I've had problems with sleep on and off. At my worst point there were a couple weeks where 2 days straight I didn't sleep.
I find intentionally trying to put yourself into the mental space of a child helps me sleep.
Sounds ridiculous but i try to think back to how I felt as a child, everything is safe, I am safe. And just repeating these kind of soothing lullabies to myself can sometimes help..
At the same time i try to internally feel as though i were spaced out. Like anything i imagine is on the table.
I don't know it's hard to describe in words.

If I get odds the next book I'm reading is fiction. If even, non-fiction. If dubs, both.

The thing that irritates me most about my friends and family is that they’re never serious. Everything is a joke all the time.

>>22298641
Nice.

>>22296246
https://youtu.be/XvMxJkTaE4I

>>22297083
You seen that show on Netflix about Mormonism. Watched some of it awhile ago, if i recall the mormlm church may have tried to have this guy killed because he had some historical document disproving Mormon orthodoxy.
Mormons are wild.
What I don't understand is why there are so many of them in alphabet agencies despite the history of persecution against Mormons by the federal government.

Where to start with Faulkner? I wanna read something that has good prose

>>22298696
>What I don't understand is why there are so many of them in alphabet agencies
They're white, love America, respond well to authority, and are almost universally dumb as dirt

>>22293716
Before the sun rises, bathing my nakedness with grays of light, I would have completed my task to grape you.

>>22298746
They also own a suit, went to boy scouts, and don't drink or do drugs.

>>22293716
i feel like physically attractive dudes (tall, handsome) expect me to like them as much as girls do and this is not the case. if you don't have the attributes that other guys looks for (dominance, intelligence) then you're useless. it's sort of how hot girls will get mad at the mid but interesting girls because she gets more attention despite being mid. yes im sure you get more girls than me guy but u r among wolves when you're around the boys.

>>22298648
jewish? very common with jews

>>22298761
You're interested in dominant men are you?

>>22298581
It depends on the timescales involved. In 1974 I was 11 years old, and had a weird and frightening epiphany about the big disposable batteries in my big Ol' Ampex desktop tape recorder, how they would end up in a landfill and be thereafter dead for any practical purpose, forever, irrevocable by any means, no matter how ingenious. Industrial processes are a little more efficient and improved or sustainable since then, but not by much, and also considerably overbalanced by population increases. I'll probably be OK till my natural end, about 70, but as for my nieces and nephews, I don't know what to say to them about what their prospects are, never mind how to play the odds of survival, or for a life worth more than that.

>>22298769
you turned into to fag shit because your own mind couldn't help it. 'if the only tool you have is a dildo, you tend to see everyone's ass' <- this is u

how do i cope if i tell someone i think life is tedious and im tired of it and they btfo me by saying but i enjoy life or who cares?

it is so fun to chat with and date 16 year old girls (legal)
they are full of life

>>22293837
If you drink of this water, you will never thirst again

>>22298696
Usually what happens after persecution is eventual acceptance, Schopenhauer had a bit of a point

>>22298869
Because they haven't fully realized the hoeflation rate.

>>22296134
Learn to love her

>>22298574
>born too late to be a serf, born too early to be an Amazon mercenary
Being a corporate mercenary would be dope. Popping heads and committing genocides to increase the profit margin of Amazon shareholders by .01% or to neutralize a small competitor e-commerce site.
A man can dream. None of this patriotic nationalist stuff, I just want to fly down from an Amazon chopper giving out discounted prime memberships to the sand nigger children as we gun down all the ones with visible E-bay tattoos or insignia.

>>22298696
Because most of them have squeaky clean backgrounds, speak foreign languages, and are capable of compartmentalizing their lives and accepting doublethink.

>>22298851
I'm a low stimulus seeker, and find life all to exciting even in serene circumstances. This is not to say I enjoy it more or less, only that I find it harder to relax than most do. A friend of mine once complained to me about what it's like to be both bored and tense, and I hardly knew what he meant by any of that, other than that his REM dreams weren't particularly rich or prolonged. The anodyne of deliberately prolonged sleep seems to me underrated, whether in conditions of liberty or tyranny, wealth or poverty.

>>22298923
*This is also to say that the sleeve of care, which is that of perception, needs at about 9 out of 24 to ravel, almost not matter what else. This is the reason that sleep deprivation is the central technique of cult monsters and such.

>scratching ear
>feel fuzz
>what the hell, is something in my ear?
>feel more
>no it's attached to my ear
>what the hell
>both ears have it
>it's like half an inch long ear hair
When the fuck did this happen?

>>22298917
There was a book I had that speaks of similar stuff in the competitive drug smuggling business

Any determinists here? How do you incorporate self improvement in your belief?

>>22298793
God good how old are you?

>>22299000
Nope, barking up the wrong tree. I’ve noticed the instant some concept becomes de rigeur I tend to fly in the opposite direction and use any insane logic to justify it as well

>>22298581
Neither really I just base things on observations and go from there. It could be a good thing or bad thing depending on how you look at it.

>>22298793
If you are legit, make some rambling posts about what you thought the world was going to be and how it turned out instead and what it's like mediating those two things and whether you had any big shifts in consciousness as a result or whether you just kind of slide into being like everybody else

I am weirdly obsessed with the "vibes" of past times and how they're just lost, like somehow I assume people alive in the 70s have some magic access to something that can't be captured in movies or books no matter how hard you try. I have it for the 90s and I notice younger people pining after the vibe of the 90s now.

What was life like before everybody was constantly networked and online?

>>22298487
I don’t. Ever since got robbed two weeks ago.

I dreamed about 13 year old Simone Weil last night. She was so cute and shy. I chased through through the gardens of an Italian villa and tried to embrace her but she got away

>>22299012
Being someone that was a teenager in the 90s I never got how people thought that era was not “woke”. Surely it was better than now but that’s short selling it a bit. You had bands like Sonic Youth and Bikini Kill using anti-male rhetoric like mainstream media does today. The truth of the matter is that generation X didn’t stop believing their own nonsense, they just got promotions, from colleges to businesses to government.

>>22298992
What's the book? Sounds interesting

>>22298769
I think he is the dominant one. Men who swim in pussy are pussies and any dominance display is unrecognized by them which makes building up trust impossible. You can't spend most of your time around women and don't turn out like them.

>>22297657

>>22299178
Spite seemed like a viable incentive to live to me for a while but if you think on it a little you quickly realize there's no one to channel that spite onto. Everything is determined.

>>22293716
If you could fight one anon who would you fight?

>>22299195
that one anon that called me a retard
it hurt my feelings

>>22299195
One big fucking fit guy from another board. One of us gets beaten up depending on how much of a wimp he is (he kinda is). We both deserve it anyways.

So I'd like to talk about dating strategies for a moment. I think this process can be summarized into three steps:

- Pre-Date Introductory Questions
- First Date Deeper Questions
- Dates as Relationship-Strength Checks

Seems complicated, but wanted to organize a bit. Really, the first part is to get to know someone organically through "introductory interview" questions, which are just basic fundamental questions about someone: Who are they, where they are from, what do they do for work, what do they like to do in their free time, etc. just getting to know them as a person. The more data, the better.

The crux of this though, would be finding common ground in terms of food, and I'll explain this significance. I don't think it makes sense or is possible for there to be a couple with wildly different food preferences, and both women and men are always fond of talking about food. From this, one can then eventually bring up what kind of food they like, where they might like to eat it, the best restaurants of that in town, etc.

Here is where I'm going with this: Because if one sees the target mate enough times in person (after determining they are compatible how they style and carry themselves, appearance, and other impression signals, more on this later), the leading participant can ask the target mate out for dinner at a nice restauant offering their favorite food. The first date.

From there, and on that first date, would come a night of deeper personal questions about each other's pasts, beliefs, where they want to go in life, and how they're going to get there. Potentially together.

I must now pause from here, because those other next steps in greater detail will be separate entries, but this much must be said of men and women in terms of mating goals:

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>>22299267
- In equal and paramount weighing must be communication/values, otherwise, long-term compatibility simply cannot be established.

- Women seem drawn to men with confidence/esteem as the primary determinant, followed by resources/status and then appearance/style in that order.

- Conversely, men seem drawn to women with appearance/style first and foremost, then confidence/esteem, and lastly resources/status.

It makes sense that women would want a man who is sure of himself, knowing who he is, what he has to offer, and how he goes about this. I imagine it must make them feel safe, secure, and well supported. An ideal environment for introducing children into the mix, and not have the man himself be the child to take care of, which is why I suppose weak/childish men is off-putting to many women.

Likewise, it strikes me as quite sensible that a man would find appearance first and foremost a priority in a woman, as she must be fundamentally attractive to him visually: Indicators of health for bearing children on an instinctive level I would venture, because it makes little sense why else a provider role would want someone else on a taker role in this way if not for children/support. Status though, maybe, but to what extent.

Nonetheless, she must carry her emotions well enough not to annoy or frustrate her male partner too much, and the man not abuse his status of being physically stronger and harm her, or more realistically, not appearing as a creep unable to communicate. And again, not to be a burden to her: He must make her life easier, not harder.

Simplistic obversations and conclusions of human mating patterns I know, but worth enough to codify I suppose. Surely there may be some entertainment value if anything.

2/2

>>22299269
Kid, if you want to get to know her, you cook dinner together and see how cooperation actually works between you two.
You're also underestimating how much of the initiation of any relationship is based in sex drive, which has a very low bar on healthy features in most humans, lowered further by lifestyle.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fBv1B-5FfQw

>>22299167
what do you mean by this? im autistic

>go to /adv/
>actually get good advice after some troll responses

>go to reddit relationship advice
>YOU NEED THERAPY, YOU'RE A DEEPLY TROUBLED AND PROBLEMATIC INDIVIDUAL TO ITS VERY CORE, SO YOU HAVE TO START THERAPY ASAP, YOU HAVE TO GO TO THERAPY TRUST ME, AND DID I MENTION THAT YOU NEED THERAPY?, AND BEFORE I FORGET, YOU REALLY NEED THERAPY, PS: DON'T FORGET TO GO TO A THERAPIST!!!!1!!

>>22299305
There are trust building processes between men. It usually implies verbal and physical dominance displays and tests on perception of malevolence. They even show this stuff in anime.

>>22299319
Therapy fags are the stoners of the 2020s. They manage to find ways to incorporate it into every conversation and try to get everyone else reliant on it too.

Bitch If your therapy was as helpful to you as you claimed you wouldn't still be a neurotic mess. Therapy makes them such hollow utilitarianism shells of humans

>girls ex (who she isn't over and her friend knows) and best friend fuck in the other room while she sleeps.
>therapist convinces her to move on and forgive them a day later

>my friend kills themselves and therapist reliant friend spews some "it's important to not blame yourself" garbage
Oh right, let me never consider mistakes I may have made because that might be mildly uncomfortable and make me less efficient in life for a bit. Let me never experience anything other than superficial growth so I too can become reliant on therapists to help conceptualize my day to day occurrences

I don't know what it is, but I'm 36 yet all of a sudden I look and feel younger than I have in years.

Maybe it's the combination of Niacinamide and Vitamin C that I've been dosing on for the last three weeks. I've been taking a Vitamin C supplement for months now, and I recently learned that B3 (in Niacinamide form) helps you burn fat. It's definitely been doing that, but it feels like it's also weirdly rejuvinated me in other ways.

May also be my skincare routine. I've got a good thing down these days, use a ton of Aesop products.

>>22299353
It's the wrong kind of b3 to be burning fat. The vitamin c is probably doing more for your skin. Getting both from whole foods would do even more for you, because you'd get the b3 for fat burning and the fats necessary for hormone precursors, along with folate etc, from an avocado.

>>22299382
Would you recommend I switch to Niacin instead?

I've been taking Niacinamide because apparently there's this new weight loss drug from Johnson & Johnson coming out where it's the main ingredient. Somebody dug into the clinical trials and found out that it's primarily a few hundred milligrams daily of Vitamin B3 in Niacinamide form.

>>22299422
Niacinamide doesn't have two things: cholesterol interaction or a flushing response. Basically, you give it where someone needs niacin, but you also don't want them to feel like an Asian after two drinks in the face for the length of time they need to take it. Most people don't want to take niacin because of flushing, but if you're eating a well balanced diet (or eating basically anything involving flour in most countries) you are getting enough niacin from your diet. And getting it from your diet won't make you look like you recently popped some Viagra.
J&J are just trying to make money.

>>22293716
Once again, I got rejected by the place where I applied for its job. I don't know what kinds of jobs I would like to do or what kinds of companies want to hire me. I just want a job so that I don't need to feel insecure about myself. I have to get an interview again, and it makes me feel stressed.

>>22299346
Kek thera-fags really are like that, you can tell when they're regurgitating some superficial bit of "wisdom" they learned in therapy.
Therapy is for adults who want to feel like a coddled child again. Recreating that sense of a loving parent-figure compassionately listening and telling them how to properly think. Religion for atheists stripped of all the discomforting, moralistic, and symbolic aspects.

i think having the lines on all your posts stretched across the screen makes me read slower. how do i mod my 4chan to make the text blocks more column like

>>22299481
Force long posts to wrap

>>22299481
I write custom css to limit the width of the posts exactly for the reason you mentioned

>>22299484
that you ah man i wish they had a slider so i can make it smaller than 75%
>>22299485
thats a good idea

>>22299481
I use phone. Much better experience

>>22299489
You could resize your browser window too

>Fallings Kiss

Echoing scream in stone,
Iron river in flesh;
History's word was lettered.

Child sown in ruin hands,
Soil in heat for fallings kiss;
King's heir in silent crown.

Navis born with new bone add flesh,
White brush paint from restoring hands;
The old is young.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RLnd8DdQzFc
mopey song for all the mopey dudes of wwoym

>>22298382
bumpp

>>22299305
I’m autistic as hell myself and I totally know what he means from casual observation in my daily life

Spend a month without 4chan and for some reason my memory (both long and short term) became significantly worse.

I'm not wearing pants.

I think I might be INFP

I'm dreaming of something great. For a long time now the capabilities of a certain character - an antagonist if you will - has been underestimated. It's true power is hidden from the world, only nuances become visible once in a while - in the streets, grocery stores, fast food restaurants, the front porches.

Time has come and the true power shall be unleashed. Replicating, forming an army of their own. Asking for the supervisor, no, the manager. Disliking peoples attitudes. Calling the police (now). Always starting with the phrase: "I can't have sweetener in my coffee - it causes AIDS!".

26th of August, 20:00 UTC, Habbo Hotel (habbo.com). See you there.

Is there a reason why i continuously find myself puzzled at my past mistakes. It’s absurd to go back to the denial stage almost on a daily basis.

I'm tired, I'm sad, I'm lost
I feel hopeless, weak, time is, at the same time, too fast, I don't have time to process things and to breathe, and too slow, nothing that actually change anything happens, everything seems stuck in this endless cycle and nothing really advances
it is all my fault, my mistakes led me to this, I made this and only I can break this
I'm tired of everything, I'm just fucking tired

>>22299641
Why not live for the others who love you if you don't see anything to live for in a personal capacity?

>>22299640
Because you're stuck in life.

Second smoke of the day. I’m not ashamed. It clogs my thoughts. My head isn’t clear, but for a few minutes it’s so congested with toxins it cannot afford to resume the habitual, frenetic processes of rumination, punitive self-persecution, and constant immersion in a rut with no exits. No safety nets. No suspension lever.
I try to meditate. My thoughts return with boundless viciousness. I try to occupy my hands with something novel. In seconds. I accommodate to the menial task, and my brain sees it fit to launch back into its tireless tirades. I try to escape. I try to think of the future. Disgust. Fear. The future seems dark. In exasperation, I resort to cultivating the most inaccessible delusions. My hope is that these conjectures could help me self regulate. Could arouse any sentiment other than sour distaste. With mulish resistance, my imagination rebuffs me. I’ve exercised regions in my brain that are solely capable of weaving webs of tragedy. I derive some perverse pleasure in picturing myself receiving the news of a cancer diagnosis. I hang on that image. Pathetic. Pathetic and trite.

But it’s unproductive. It’s not rational. It’s not conductive. I control these limbs. I am not a slave to my compulsions. I did not earn my cynicism. It’s a childish foot stomp in the face of momentary misfortune.

What do I have to give? What can I offer? I’m standing in the outskirts of society. I’m at the margins now, wallowing in stasis. People flash in memory. I prop myself up against them. Sizeable difference. My estimation of myself plummets another notch. How many more stumbles will I have. I have strayed very far past the line of convention. I have squandered, so thoughtlessly, the framework of life so benevolently provided by my family. I’d forsaken with it the much needed security. Predictability. I’ve left room for doubt and indecision. My limited experience is helpless before this.

>>22299691
>I derive some perverse pleasure in picturing myself receiving the news of a cancer diagnosis
Relatable and imaginable. I would love hearing that news about myself one of these days.

>>22299623
Entp here and its pretty obvious if you meet in irl

>>22299736
Are you intelligent, nihilistic and with wicked sense of humor?

>>22296707
Don't worry.
If you're determined to make it work even if it gets difficult at times, then that's all you can do. If it doesn't work out even if you do your best, then it's not up to you and you can do nothing about it anyway, so worrying is pointless. Just enjoy each moment for what it is and make the best out of it. You're living in this moment right now, not the future.
It sounds like you're really happy, so don't bog your self down with worry.
You have a choice to use your imagination to picture worrisome things or good things, so imagine the good things and it will amplify those emotions in the present moment you're living and likely influence it and make it even better.

>guy complains about his life
>"Why don't you just kill yourself?"

Can anyone recommend me works with good prose? I like McCarthy but he filters me hard. Is faulkner like that as well? I'm liking Dubliners by joyce.

>>22299868
You may like Proust, Nabokov, Banville, and Henry James.

>>22299797
>If you're determined to make it work even if it gets difficult at times
This guy proposed after a month, long term thinking doesn't seem to be his forte

>>22299873
>Proust
Is he good in translation? I know Nabokov from the memes but I haven't read Lolita or his other stuff. Might just pick up a short story collection of his. I've not heard of Banville, might have to check him out. I know Henry James but his work can be quite difficult to get through. I've tried reading him once or twice and failed both times.

>>22296707
>Only a month into this relationship and I decided to propose.

>>22298382
one-take man
https://voca.ro/13NtbJSCeLek

>>22299880
I liked Proust (Lydia David tr) but there's this problem. She hasn't translated all the volumes and I haven't finished them because as you can see it's a gigantic work. I've heard that from the second book on, they drag while the finishing one is consistent and a worthy resolution. Maybe put Proust on a hold while you're done with the other great Prose stylists.

>>22299503
Franz Liszt's
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FY4rp--Jgq4

the Kpop posters over at /mu/ are absolutely rabid. I cant understand them. there are always like 5 full threads and it never stops. what the fuck are they doing?

>>22299967
I gave up on /mu/ after last year when they had like 10 different kpoop threads. Hiro should really make a kpop board

>>22299972

>>22299967
/mu/ is the lowest energy lowest testosterone board on 4chan

>>22299988
witnessed

>>22299988
heil hitler

How do I stop feeling that I have wasted my life If I have no real accomplishments?

>>22300069
Why do you feel like that in the first place? Sometimes one just doesn't have the possibility to achieve something great now and has to wait for a more opportune moment.

The fact that all women can draw is proof they're inferior. Inside their head it's just a la la la la look at the cute mousey theater. They always draw it all cute too. Sickening.

>>22300093
What the fuck are you even talking about

>>22300075
name 3 writers

>>22300093
>wordcel struggling with aphantasia
All the great artists are men.

I will not post a picture of myself on the internet

>>22300130
Do it. I'll jerk off to you.

>>22300144
ok, I basically look like this

>>22300148
YWNBAW

I'm at the dentists. They are about to clean my mouth. They will be putting their fingers in my mouth.

>>22300110
Rousseau
Polybius
Muhammad (I don't remember the name, he's from Afghanistan)

>>22299892
>https://voca.ro/13NtbJSCeLek
fuck, I died laughing, thanks man, that was awesome. Weird stuff, agree, but it's just a stream of consciousness, still some lines like, ''a wife, that was born from a previous wife'' and ''dancing naked in the rain to the sound of radio news report'', are pretty surreal, like, it's really hard to come up with them without giving up to rational thinking

>>22300163
Their fingers are little Jews searching for their pot of goyish gold

Bite down to stop the Jewish gold gobblers!

>>22298355
Lmao nice

What is a bugman?

I keep seeing the term bandied around describing people or cultures as bugmen or bugmen ideologies but I don't understand what is meant by it?

>>22300285
>Rootless, lifeless, metropolitan drones who have a permanent thousand-yard stare due to an existence void of any meaning other than waiting for the next iPhone.
>The new world order's model citizen.
From Urban Dictionary.

>>22300285
I tell you: one must still have chaos in oneself, to give birth to a dancing star. I tell you: you have still chaos in yourselves.

Alas! There comes the time when man will no longer give birth to any star. Alas! There comes the time of the most despicable man, who can no longer despise himself.

Lo! I show you the Last Man.

"What is love? What is creation? What is longing? What is a star?" -- so asks the Last Man, and blinks.

The earth has become small, and on it hops the Last Man, who makes everything small. His species is ineradicable as the flea; the Last Man lives longest.

"We have discovered happiness" -- say the Last Men, and they blink.

They have left the regions where it is hard to live; for they need warmth. One still loves one's neighbor and rubs against him; for one needs warmth.

Turning ill and being distrustful, they consider sinful: they walk warily. He is a fool who still stumbles over stones or men!

A little poison now and then: that makes for pleasant dreams. And much poison at the end for a pleasant death.

One still works, for work is a pastime. But one is careful lest the pastime should hurt one.

One no longer becomes poor or rich; both are too burdensome. Who still wants to rule? Who still wants to obey? Both are too burdensome.

No shepherd, and one herd! Everyone wants the same; everyone is the same: he who feels differently goes voluntarily into the madhouse.

"Formerly all the world was insane," -- say the subtlest of them, and they blink.

They are clever and know all that has happened: so there is no end to their derision. People still quarrel, but are soon reconciled -- otherwise it upsets their stomachs.

They have their little pleasures for the day, and their little pleasures for the night, but they have a regard for health.

"We have discovered happiness," -- say the Last Men, and they blink.

>>22300285
See >>22293757

it's tiresome how white hatred is visible in broad daylight, yet people still deny its existence.

>>22300318
lel, that's not white hatred, it's fear of black people.

>>22300318

>>22300344
what going on in this pic?

>>22300318
See >>22300332
>that's not white hatred
White hatred is when the AIbot points out all the best English language authors are Irish and then tells you a joke in high German about the varied worth of Saxons and Turks which your Anglo brain doesn't know enough to be offended by.

>>22300163
My appointment went well. The hygienist who cleaned my teeth was a polite and unadorned young lady with a light touch. I always compliment the hygienists for their light touch, even if they've been raping my mouth bloody with that metal pick. This particular young lady didn't have pierced ears or polished fingernails. I enjoy being operated on. The best dentist appointment I've ever had was when I was getting a crown replaced. I was high on nitrous and watching a Dave Attell special on the ceiling TV while two pretty hygienists were yanking on my mouth - bliss.

Are psilocybin mushrooms worth trying? Or any psychedelics for that matter?

>>22300412
>polished fingernails
That's illegal here if you're medical/dental.

>>22300413
No.

>>22293716
Shame.
Pretty, thin, family oriented, loyal, great housewife material, it’s exactly what I’ve been looking for.
Why do I keep looking for a reason to hurt her?
Disappointment is lurking, stalking her from the shadows cast by the seemingly empty closet.
Blow-up props of demons and skeletons, the truth is so much worse.
One drink turns to three, five more follow and I don’t remember calling it.
Memories creep back to consciousness as I resurrect from a night of regret.
Unrequited messages, calls in droves, lipstick on my collar, and a sore cheek, I can only remember to feel shame.
“Never again,” I pray to the dusty corner of my floor.
Prayer that will go unheard, temptation that drives me running through the door.
Just one and done.
One slip up and I’m done.

Jag kan fortfarande inte förstå att hon är borta. Jag vet inte hur lång tid det har gått. Mer än 10 år.

>>22293716
I'm only happy and at peace when I'm alone. When others are near I feel like I can never be myself. Like I can't hear my own thoughts. Only in solitude do I feel like my ideas aren't drowned out by everyone else, and it's the only time I can really feel creative or motivated to do anything besides the mundane. I enjoy being alone as much as a spider does.

No, I won't go to goslotslight.net wtf why would I?

I've been trying to be like others for so long that I've completely disconnected from myself. Terrible place to be.

New bread?

>>22300285
Hivemind mentality basically. Like bugs that don't think for themselves but just react purely based on instinct.

hate is by far my most important emotion and has been the source of all my motivation to make my life as good as it is. it has kept my home clean, kept me competitive in my career, and made me a leader in my field because of how motivated i am to not be like my peers.

i hate that we have a society that is devoted to being anti-hate. hate is just another form of love expressing itself against the choices it wouldn't pick. love by nature is discriminatory, if you love everything, you love nothing. therefore, a strong feeling of hatred within you is a strong capacity to love something sincerely.

i hate many groups of people. i hate laziness. i hate how pedophilic anime looks. i hate clutter. i hate unclean spaces in my home. i hate insects. i hate excess furniture that i need to get rid of. i hate bad electronics i don't want to throw away because of some stupid idea that they could be donated or sold, fuck that, they're getting thrown unless the government forces me not to.

when i hate, i am happiest. i hate so many things and so many groups. when i don't hate, i feel empty because any attempt to love anything without hatred feels insincere. hate is the purest expression of love, and i love to hate.

write what you what.

hate is by far my most important emotion and has been the source of all my motivation to make my life as good as it is. it has kept my home clean, kept me competitive in my career, and made me a leader in my field because of how motivated i am to not be like my peers.

i hate that we have a society that is devoted to being anti-hate. hate is just another form of love expressing itself against the choices it wouldn't pick. love by nature is discriminatory, if you love everything, you love nothing. therefore, a strong feeling of hatred within you is a strong capacity to love something sincerely.

i hate many groups of people. i hate laziness. i hate how pedophilic anime looks. i hate clutter. i hate unclean spaces in my home. i hate insects. i hate excess furniture that i need to get rid of. i hate bad electronics i don't want to throw away because of some stupid idea that they could be donated or sold, fuck that, they're getting thrown unless the government forces me not to.

when i hate, i am happiest. i hate so many things and so many groups. when i don't hate, i feel empty because any attempt to love anything without hatred feels insincere. hate is the purest expression of love, and i love to hate.

>>22300585
>when i hate, i am happiest

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>>22300625
>>22300625

>>22300502
Det gør mig ondt min ven. Det er svært at miste en man elsker.

Jeg mistede min kat som jeg har gået op og ned af i de sidste 13 år, for et par uger siden. Jeg havde som den eneste et nært forhold til den.
Når jeg kigger ud ad vinduet ser jeg efter om den står og vil ind. Men den er her ikke mere.
Jeg vil gerne snakke med den igen og give den noget godt at spise, men det kan jeg ikke, for den blev syg og kunne ikke spise. Den døde i mine arme mens den spandt.

Once the zoomers find this board it's only a matter of time before we're all using "it's /lit/" as a descriptor.

Every single time I sit down to look at my monitor it’s grey and lifeless. It doesn’t matter how many beautiful people, things, or desires showcase themselves; it lacks life and intrinsic beauty. I sit in the same chair, day after day – it creaks the same every time you readjust, of course it would; it’s lived in. Mom and dad glance at my demeanor and examine my words; a history of “unwell” mental health does wonders for the interactions you have on a daily basis with the perfectly close people in your life.
Be conscious of how you interact with others – HAHAHA wouldn’t it be wonderful to not be so self-conscious; piece together your movements, your hair, your gait, your speech, your clothing, your smile, your eyes, your nails, your posture, your perception, your body language, your stances, and let’s not forget your everything. You could attribute it to narcissism, you could attribute it to vanity, or you could attribute it to the most contrived idea of self-importance. It’s none of them, it’s an understood standard that’s at the predisposition of society.
You are who you present, nothing further.
Walk into the grocery store, avoid looking at someone of the opposite sex because they might perceive it in just the wrong way. Look in the mirror, is the smile just real enough to be okay to look at? How’s your posture, are your shoulders pulled back with your head held high; it’s a sign of confidence, right? Let’s not forget the real fun ones, are my feet angled toward this person signifying my interest in them? Don’t touch your face; that indicates anxiousness. Did you yawn a second time, maybe the bags under your eyes really do stand out to everyone?
Tell me, please, how do you selectively forget the things you’re taught? The veritably awful ones sit stagnant brewing a disgusting, abominable liquid that wants to envelop my entire body and tear off my skin.
I don’t know who I am, or what I am.